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nizar-dreams · 4 months

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If Only You Believe in Miracles So Would I Summary

"The Department of Magical Education has twisted Albus Dumbledore's arm and have required the Headmaster to get a second teacher for each core subjects at Hogwarts. Severus Snape almost weeps with relief at the news. But the school year is not without other far interesting events. With young Harry Potter starting his first year at Hogwarts, new (surprisingly competent) teachers, a suspicious Albus, and a rare and powerful artifact hidden inside the school, Severus wonders if he ends up trading less homework for even more stresses in his life."

Okay listen, this story was birthed for many reasons. My continued obsession with Severus Snape, my anger at Albus fucking Dumbledore, and the incompetency of (Wizarding) Government. But the biggest one, which bamboozles me the most, is the lack of teachers for Hogwarts.

Think. About. It.

If you have gone to a school of around 400 students, you and I are aware that at this many students, you still have at least two to three teachers per core subject. Why? Because it is a foolish notion to believe that 1 (one) teacher can even handle teaching all 400 students in one week without seriously sacrificing student education and how much you actually teach them and what they have to self study. Which, as someone who's already graduated high school nearly two years ago, self study was not my strongest suits at all unless I liked the class and teacher.

As someone who observed my own teachers and how they handled various class sizes (choir was the easiest to see as Jazz was the smallest, but we'd easily have 25+ students for regular choir and that was... ridiculous for my teacher to handle somedays.) I can confidently say, that teaching two Hogwart Houses that are easily 20-30 students per house, which means a classroom of 40-60 students, is absolutely bat shit insane.

And then you have to be a Head of House as well? Or if you're McGonagall, you're also Deputy Headmistress and having to cover for Albus bloody Dumbledore because the Headmaster has a second job as a politician and the current Minister Of Magic is an idiot? I would be sobbing and burnt out by the end of the first month. I would need a Time-Turner just to have some sleep and me time.

Or if you're Snape, you're trying to save a child from getting himself killed, while playing spy, while playing evil teacher who favours his snakes, while also having to deal with children trying to blow themselves or their classmates up in his classroom. Because potions is a dangerous art, and children, especially the first and second years, are idiots. And especially whoever decided that Gryffindors and Slytherins get to spend potions in the same classroom. Together.

Whoever makes that schedule is an idiot, or horribly optimisitc.

But as you can see that is such a ridiculous amount of pressure to put on a single teacher that teaches the core subjects at Hogwarts for virtually all 7 years. So. This story was created. The Department of Magical Education finally got the memo and were like "wow are kids are kinda... fucking stupid compared to Ilvermorny, Beauxbaton, and Durmstrang... that's mad embarassing" and told Albus that he had to get more teachers and that was not negotiable. Except for history. They don't exactly care about history it seems. (I also lowkey forgot about it, but I think it makes sense that they already have a 'nonpayed' teacher so why bother with an actual one? Don't worry some parent will make a fuss about it or something, and a good portion of the teachers are good with history anyway so its all finnneee)

Well. Here we are. I have thus 'hired' 6 additional teachers besides Quirrel. 6 competent adults who take their jobs pretty seriously. I actually love all of them, they have their quirks, and I tried diversifying the staff as much as I could without it being forced.

For instance, our new transfiguration teacher is an older gentleman, 61 years old, who studied at Beauxbaton, and from Denmark. Our Herbology teacher is a young Scottish woman, barely 28 with a boyish charm, and is subtley bisexual. Our charms teacher is 35, and they use neutral pronouns and have an otherworldly appearance with big eyes and bronzed skin. My main character, our additional potions teacher, is 41, Salvadoran-American, and gay. Our astronomy teacher is a striking Irish woman who learned at Ireland's school, Erehnoll. And lastly our other DADA teacher is a woman born in El Salvador, 37, and has lived a very interesting life since.

We're branching out, alright. Like yeah I could branch further, but already some of the canon characters who could be considered as simply 'British White' will probs not be just that. And this is just the first year with new teachers. Maybe another year if results are good, I could introduce more. (It's so many characters to jugle but I think I am doing admirably. But I think for now, the current cast is already better then years prior. If I do add more teachers, it'll be for history for sure.)

For now, this is why I made this story. That it was absurd to leave the 6 out of 7 of the core subjects to a singular teacher. I would be in tears, really. I do go more in details on the ridiculousness of this all in the story, but here I am giving you a sneak preview at a lot of my thoughts on the subject that get dramatic and also distorted through character POVs. I think it'll be fun to read it from one of the characters, it makes me smile. They seem the type to be sarcastic and dramatic in their thoughts while exasperated to the 10th power.

I can't wait for Janurary 1st. I'm so excited for you all to see the chaos.

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cutter-kirby · 8 months

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come on simon

#he’s like. inches away from the Revelation #the universe bashing simon over the head with ‘DON’T BECOME THE ICE KING’ warnings #simon: gee whowzers fionna it sure is a massive coincidence that all these alternate crown bearers are suffering #adventure time #fionna and cake #simon petrikov #farmworld finn #ice finn #ice king #also quick question did fw finn fucking die #I’m choosing to believe he’s fine #fionna and cake spoilers #1k #geez louise!#that's what happens when you put an okay meme in a trending tag i guess #2k #3k

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anna-scribbles · 1 year

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“He was— He was my ‘buttercup’,” she sobbed out, and his hand gripped her far shoulder, “And I— I never even— I never got to tell him how much he m-meant to me— not even th-the stupid sun thing—”

“Oh… Marinette…” he whispered, his nose brushing against her hair, “The sun thing wasn’t stupid.”

this scene from chapter 6 of drowning (in plain sight) by @buggachat has PLAGUED me since i read it i am deeply unwell

#my art #ml #ml fic rec #miraculous ladybug #ladynoir #ladybug #chat noir #is it monday yet. is it monday yet.#ugh this fic makes me SICK #it hurts so much i’m sooo unwell #buggachat just. creates scenarios which wrench all my guts in such a specific way #thank you for your service queen. i’m doing so bad #would really really really like for things to get better soon #or keep making them suffer. i will absolutely be reading either way #also i colored this in sort of a different way than usual and it was fun #okay goodnight.

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prisonpodcast · 5 months

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C!Dream if he was happy 👍

#played around with his designs bit gave him animal ears and horns bc why not #don’t mind the extra woobification okay I’m having a moment #he is not suffering from the woes of life here #dreamwastaken #dream fanart #c!dream #dreblr #my art

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swedenis-h · 4 months

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Phoenix Tatooine day trip Goes Wrong™️ (X)

This is a little idea where Luke needs something (don’t ask me what) that he can only get on tatooine, so dinluke adventure ensues. The plan is to get there and leave ASAP, but then nostalgia hits and he needs to hit every shop and place he used to as a kid. But you know, “college kids comes back to hometown” syndrome hits and he realizes he’s changed too much. Think of how the holiday season doesn’t feel the same anymore now that you’re an adult, same feeling. AND YES ITS ALSO DUNLUKE BECAUSE I WANT THEM TO KISS AND TALK ABOUT THEIR FEELINGS AND ALSO KISS.

Heres some extras 🫡

#and also don’t ask me how I feel being back home for winter break!!#it’s irrelevant!#also tangent about Luke’s outfit:#I wanted it to look a little Jedi but also fit into Tatooine #in the fic in my mind he ditches the cape over time the more he embraces Tatooine again but you know #he’s been Changed By The Journey so he still looks like a Jedi #ANOTHER tangent: his HAIR #I have my usual color for his hair and I change it based on where in the timeline I’m drawing him #more blond around ANH more brown around and past RotJ #drawing him with ANH color pallet and his hair doesn’t match it as nicely… pain suffering I hate him why does he hurt me so bad #HE DOESNT FIT TATOOINE ANYMORE DO YOU UNDERSTAND #okay sorry bye #certified yapper over here YEESH‼️#art #fanart #digital art #fan art #my art #star wars #star wars fanart #dinluke #sw #sw au #star wars au #luke sykwalker #din djarin

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movedtodykedvonte · 8 months

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Simon got bit multiple times in vamp world…

#I’m not okay like why does he suffer in every universe #cause multiple bites while alive????#he had to be in agony and utterly terrified as he realized what was happening #do you think he acted as a decoy so Betty could escape?#maybe he was reaching for the crown and that’s how vamp #king got it #simon petrikov #fionna and cake spoilers #fionna and cake #adventure time

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aggressivedaikons · 10 days

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Optimus Prime (TFP) Matrix HC: Even though the Matrix of Leadership does allow him to be much wiser and have a lore more insight, due to the combined wisdom of the original thirteen Primes being contained within, it also is somewhat of a burden for him mentally.

Due to the fact it does possess so much knowledge and wisdom, it surely has so know just as much about the terrible and gut-wrenching things as anything else. So I think that Optimus would sometimes have dissociative flashbacks to events he never was present for, or have overwhelming intrusive thoughts about violence. Not in the “what if I hurt somthing” (the traditional type) but more of a “here’s an extremely graphic and nauseating thought you won’t be able to escape”.

He sometimes has episodes where he just goes completely silent, and nobody but Ratchet knows. It’s something he keeps secret so the others don’t worry about him, but sometimes he has to go on recon or other things during these episodes, and he goes nonverbal. The rest of Team Prime just wave it off as him being angsty and moody, but Ratchet tries his best to give Optimus space and to lighten his load.

He usually gets hazy visions of different awful scenes, sometimes real, sometimes a memory from the era of the primes, sometimes a graphic hypothetical. But he can’t really fight it, and any time he tries not to think of it, his mind just leads him back to these uncomfortable and unwanted thoughts.

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daffi-990 · 30 days

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Seven(ish) Sentence Sunday ✍️

Tagged by @wikiangela 😘

Haven’t had the brain capacity to get much writing done since Friday, but I did manage to tippity type a little something something for LA Lonely 🏙️ . So have some of Buck’s inner self deprecating thoughts.

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As the weekend rolls into Monday, Buck tries not to think about Eddie but somehow the guy has burrowed under his skin, an itch that Buck can’t scratch. He finds himself doing a double take at every fit, 6 foot brunette man that he encounters while on a call, both disappointed and relieved that they aren’t who he’s hoping for.

Not that he’s hoping to run into Eddie again. The guy didn’t leave his number or take Buck’s, and Buck’s been playing this game for so long he knows what that means. Because Buck is only good for one night, maybe a weekend if he’s lucky. No one wants to take a chance on him.

He’s used to it, so he doesn’t understand why he can’t get Eddie out of his head. The sex was good - incredible actually - and Eddie was hot. And kind. And his smile could light up an entire room. And Buck really needed to get a grip.

Eddie had his fun and then he left. Just like everyone else.

No pressure tagging: @diazsdimples @spotsandsocks @hippolotamus @lover-of-mine @wikiangela @wildlife4life @athenagranted @watchyourbuck @devirnis @dangerpronebuddie @goforkinard @bigfootsmom @bidisasterbuckdiaz @exhuastedpigeon @elvensorceress @evankinard @eddiebabygirldiaz @rainbow-nerdss @thewolvesof1998 @try-set-me-on-fire @theotherbuckley @tizniz @alliaskisthepossibilityoflove @shortsighted-owl @sibylsleaves @donationwayne @fortheloveofbuddie @giddyupbuck @honestlydarkprincess @homerforsure @hoodie-buck @jesuisici33 @king-buckley @ladydorian05 @loserdiaz @captain-hen @bekkachaos @neverevan @nmcggg @missmagooglie @mellaithwen @monsterrae1 @spagheddiediaz @sunshinediaz and as always, anyone who wants to join in and share something -> consider this your official tag.

Also sorry if I forgot anyone .. there’s been a few url changes and it’s gotten a bit confusing 🫤

#daffi writes #wip: la lonely #I wanna finish the last chapter of rivals soooo bad but the smutty beans have taken a break to recharge #doesn’t help that I’ve also been feeling pretty shitty overall these past few days #(I’m okay - just period hormones and a stupid cold)#anyway .. I’m enjoying this little fic #it’s almost at 5K and I still have so much I wanna cram in haha #can’t seem to just write this happened then this .. no I gotta dive into the details and stretch things out #*long suffering sigh*#😅#buddie wip #buddie #also if anyone is concerned: no Eddie did not just have his fun and leave #he is very much enamoured by Buck #allllll will be revealed in the end

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sincerely-sofie · 8 months

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There’s something unique about the pain of someone you love following in a trail you blazed through suffering, turning themself into a mirror of just how self-destructive you once were. There’s a wretched irony in how they teach you firsthand the pain your friends and family felt as you burned yourself up.

Now you know what it’s like to watch a lamb immolate itself. You can only watch as it dismisses your concerns with lies of how well it is— how completely, utterly, and perfectly fine everything is. You can only watch. You can only remember that you were a lamb just years before, and you taught this one exactly how to martyr itself by your example.

Anyhoo, hey elder siblings, how’s your day going?

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betterthanbatman1 · 7 months

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MY BOYYYY

#HE MAKES ME SO HAPPY #This boy was struggling to breathe and jumped through A BURNING FUCKING BUILDING to save a child #Keep in mind that he was already scared to be alone and idk what he must’ve been seeing #but with his history with burning buildings- this really just made my heart ache #He’s such a good man I can’t #So proud of him ahhh #“It’s okay to be scared. I’m scared too’’#JBCBEMXKDBDBDXNXNSBHE #He will literally risk his life for the vulnerable and I just can’t say how much I love him for that #He was SUFFERING and still saved this little girl #jason todd #red hood #batfamily #batfam #dc #Catwoman 58 #I think #I’m ignoring the Batman and Jason relationship right now

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pixlokita · 5 months

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(Spoilers for the ending!!!)

What I think happened was that yes, we are playing as Cassie's dad, and that means that the V.A.N.N.I. mask is not Vanny's, but his... I also want to theorize how since this entire game play we've been in the perspective of Cassie's dad, I wonder if the staff bot is possessed by him.

That explains why the staff bot has it. It also explains why the V.A.N.N.I. mask says it belongs to a class V technician, even though we know for a fact that Vanessa is not a technician but a security guard.

It's like a bittersweet reunion but it's also very messed up because imagine getting jumped by a bunch of staff bots, waking up in a staff bot, seeing a little girl in front of you, realizing that the little girl in front of you is your beloved daughter who you haven't seen in ages (Cassie talks about him in past tense meaning he died and she seems very calm about it too meaning that it was a while ago), realizing that you have your mask still with you knowing the dangers it brought to you, and then giving it to your daughter because the programming in the staff bot says to do it...

Even if you don't want to... So in a way, Cassie's dad is kind of responsible for his daughter's alleged death...

I'm fine 🥲

Oh boy that would be so sad tbh and FNAF is no stranger to dad feels and tragedy =w= I’m not sure who it is, if Cassie’s dad is the Bonnie Bully like some people had been theorizing or someone entirely new >> I was joking about the protagonist’s name being Jeremy but maybe that’s Cassie’s dad 💀 that is so sad….

#pix answers #fnaf #ruin hinted at a bonnie mask and the fazwrench so there’s that #but I think HW2 didn’t use it as much as they showed it in the trailer which is why I’m not sure that’s her dad or not #the third fnaf dad protagonist that suffers =w=#okay maybe second idk how William felt about his kids in canon but like #if it’s like the movie probably not too much #help wanted 2 spoilers

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nizar-dreams · 4 months

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IM FINALLY GOING TO POST MY BLOODY STORY ON NEW YEARS

Not that anyone on here probably cares, but as I sit at my desk at home and finally let my sick nasily mind do something, I FINALLy finally went back to writing my HP fic that I've been trying to write for nearly two years now. Finally tackle a section in a chapter that just wasn't writing itself how I wanted.

I let myself be distracted with other things, such as Baldur's Gate 3 (Astarion has taken up almost 99% of my mental capacity since I've played. It's bad guys listen--) and other random things and letting work keep me busy. But since I'm sick, and not at work, while also having time off for the holidays, I've had a lot more time then I have in months to actually write something down.

Also reading some HP fics to inspire my imagination again for this fic.

As exciting as that is, I'll have to post like, once a month. Because one chapter is easily 6k+ words. I'll post in a few minutes the summary of the story, the blurb, and why this idea suddenly sparked brilliance in my brain. Enough that im currently sitting on 114 pages of story, and 123 pages of notes, references, and information for this story that almost 90% won't actually be included but I need it for character work and world building and the "incase".

(I feel like JRR Tolkien, like it isn't that deep, but damn it, I did so much of my own world building for this fic and took a lot of canon and kicked it in the face and built stronger foundations, added stronger buildings, and even added some fun details that don't have much purpose but it's fun to think about.)

Anyway, I'll leave that here, but for something that got so out of hand, I am simply so excited to finally start sharing this fucking story lmao. I hope you will all come to enjoy it when I finally post this on Jan. 1st! Until then~!

#ao3 writer #fanfic got out of hand #harry potter fanfic #writers #how big of a story is too big?#obsessed with my story #i’m suffering it’s okay #it’s fine #work in progress #literally don’t know how i got here #harry potter world building #sanityisforlosers #fanfic #writing fanfic

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stuckinapril · 4 months

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Need to stop saying yes to people while I’m running on empty. I rly don’t know why I do this, but between preparing for my neuro hospital internship / studying full time for one of the hardest national exams in the states / volunteering at 3 places / like 8282727 other things I genuinely do not have the energy to be around people and present. Especially bc people are used to a more bubbly version of me and I am just!! Tired!!! And cannot be that right now!! But I also do love my friends and don’t want to self isolate. Life is so hard when you’re a busy girl who gets her energy thru being around people but literally does not have the time

#i was ranting to my mom ab this and she was like. ur social life might suffer for the next few months. ur studying for the mcat. it’s okay.#and she’s right and I honestly just have to accept it #I’m also having fun w all the things i signed myself up for #maybe it rly is a matter of accepting that my goals just have to come first right now and it’s okay if I’m not going out every weekend #or not saying yes to every social event #academia is my no 1 priority rn and that is OKAY. i cannot be everywhere at once I cannot be perfect #a devestasting realization but I rly need to focus on what’s important rn #p

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revasserium · 1 year

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tragic heroes

he sees it in the way you look at him, at the way you see passed all his bravado, all his helpless insecurities, hidden behind a firm exterior, or an easy smile, or a wink and a kiss to the cameras.

the first time you ask if he’s tired, he almost breaks down.

“exhausted,” he says, finally admitting it to himself, letting the height of his body curl in on itself till he’s sure he could fit comfortably in your arms and stay there.

“shh…” you tell him, “it’s okay…”

“everyone gets tired sometimes, even superheros like you,” you say, reaching for him, pulling him into you, into your chest, holding him like a breath, carrying him in your arms as though that’s where he’s always belonged.

“i’m not a superhero,” he says, his voice small and tight and terribly different from the way it usually is.

“of course you are,” you say, pulling back to look at him, to cup his cheeks between your hands like water in a stand storm, like something beautiful, something precious and perfect — something made so by it’s mere existence.

and when he tries to shake his head, to open his mouth and tell you how wrong you are, you shut him up with a kiss. you kiss him so hard and so deep that for a moment, he can’t remember a time when he wasn’t kissing you. you kiss him hard enough to bruise, hard enough to forget.

when you finally pull away, he looks down to find you smiling and he leans down to kiss you back like acceptance, like pain and knowing and remembering.

“you’ll always be my hero.”

ATSUMU, bokuto, hoshiumi, HINATA, midoriya, oikawa, MIRIO

#haikyuu #haikyuu x reader #boku no academia #atsumu miya #hinata shouyou #oikawa tooru #mirio toogata #midoriya izuku #bokuto koutarou #hoshiumi kourai #we could be heroes #angst mcgee #haiCUTIES #okay so i will admit i was in…. somewhat of a HeadSpace today but… i love me a tragic hero —#and maybe not even tragic in the traditional way that people might see them (altho mirio is LITERALLY the def of tragic hero)#but just like the tragedies heros have to suffer through to BECOME who they are know #i’m just… thinking about that a lot. like…. a LOT a lot.#just how much trauma and fear and isolation and whatever else they had to fight and conquer to become the ‘heroes’ they are

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spicyicymeloncat · 1 year

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Idk if this is a hot take but why is it always “Kai slaved away and worked his ass off to raise his sister” and never the other way round or them working hard together?

Like, I know he’s older but in the show, does he really… act older? Like if you think about Kai and Nya’s dynamic yknow? Because from my understanding:

When Kai and Nya are introduced we see Kai fail at making a sword and Nya being the one to chide him for it. Kai makes an overconfident statement about wanting to be a better blacksmith than his father. This suggests that one, Kai is rather rash as well as inexperienced (something that lines up with the rest of his character arc in the pots and also generally), with Nya being the more mature figure in contrast

Also just a note but in the shorts: “I can handle it!” “No you can’t, stupid”

Kai frequently being very good at neglecting people or things: leaving Lloyd at an arcade whilst being focused on finding samurai x, not even knowing samurai x was Nya or that she only did it because she felt left out by him, completely abandoning both Nya and Lloyd in s3 (and Ik he was going through it at the time, but in line with the fandom’s characterisation of him)

Kai in season 5: “After I lost my dad, I lost my way. But I was lucky to have my sister watch over me”

Generally, their dynamic isn’t one where Kai really provides for Nya at all. In fact, judging by the fact that Nya can make entire mechs and Kai struggled to make a sword, Nya was probably busting her ass to provide for Kai. And judging by the s5 quote, that’s probably true. I’m not saying Nya raised Kai, it just rubs me the wrong way when she’s treated like a decorative flourish to a narrative that paints Kai as a burnt out child who was forced to grow up too soon especially since that is such a mischaracterisation of him in the first place.

#all I’m saying is that it’s weird we undersell all of the sister’s capabilities just so we can present the brother as tormented and burdened #ignoring the fact that he spent all his days in the gap between the pilots and s1 playing video games #like I’m sorry kai is a pathetic baby girl in the show and I LOVE HIM THE WAY HE IS #okay yeah I snapped a little #I’m just tired of everyone mischaracterising him yknow #like I’m sorry bestie he’s not that capable he’s a loser man and I am ready to love loser men #i just think that it’s an incredibly stereotypical dynamic to have one male character who everyone completely #over exaggerates their struggles to the point of making it seem that everyone else in the story either doesn’t suffer or is an asshole for #not noticing the suffering of this one hot guy #this happens in many fandoms and I think this is what’s happening here #hhhhh #I’m sorry if Kai is ur favourite and this opinion upsets you I don’t mean to be bitch #I’m just really not into this interpretation of him #again this isn’t a dog at his character I just thing people don’t get him a lot of the time #and you know what Nya is also super undersold as a character #like where’s the fucking Nya Lloyd sibling content?#she mentored Lloyd too? she taught him how to ride dragons she stayed with him on the bounty she and Lloyd only had eachother in s9 #what about them??#Kai gets too woobified and Nya doesn’t get woobified enough that’s my opinion #alright I’m done sorry #Ninjago #rant #ig this is a #ninjago analysis #i won’t tag characters cuz I don’t want to make anyone upset #and again I’m sorry if I do

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static-scribblez · 2 months

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“Babe, it’s Sunday. It’s my turn to be pregnant this week.”

#no i’m not giving you any context for this one #charlie stfu #shitpost #life in the world to come #litwtc #chris dunne #okay this is another one of those posts where I don’t think I should tag will wood in it #ykw fuck it - suffer will wood fans who are oblivious to litwtc #will wood

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