#i want to write a second part SO bad
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phantom and the stars
my gift for @fries-n-knives for the phantom truce !! you mentioned liking grayghost so i wrote a little pre-reveal fic of them being pals :] initially i had a hurt/comfort planned but i could not get this idea out of my head
ive never written valerie before this fic i hope i did her justice
AO3 Link: Here!!
Word Count: 824
Summary: Valerie encounters a Danny Phantom on a rooftop one night who seems more into the stars than she realized.
It was unusual to see Phantom quiet and alone. Oftentimes, he was trailed behind by Sam and Tucker or even that dang dog of his, wreaking havoc in his path. He was eerily quiet when she approached the spot he laid on the rooftop.
"Danny Phantom," the Red Huntress sneered, "what schemes are you involved in this time?" She kept one hand ready on her ectoblaster in case said ghost tried something.
At first he didn't even move to respond, laying motionless like a corpse on the ground. The closer she got to Phantom, the closer she got to a realization.
He was sleeping.
"You're kidding me. You are actually kidding me." Amity Park’s most well known ghost, taking a nap in the middle of nowhere in the middle of the night. She stared down at the white haired ghost who seemed far too comfortable here. Honestly, she thought to herself, how easy would it be for her to just ambush him? Usually she'd see him nearer to Fenton Works or the school, but he's a bit further away from all that this time.
She lowered her guard ever so slightly, hand no longer gripping the blaster. She didn't realize he needed sleep. Or that he even could sleep.
Valerie sat down on the roof, letting herself relax a bit. It was better here than going back home to work on homework at the very least. And she could keep an eye on that Phantom Menace, making sure he doesn’t get up to something bad.
She glanced down at her phone, briefly scrolling through social media, ending up just staring at her background of her and Danny on one of their dates. Time to time, she'd glance down at Phantom, watching the very slow rise and fall of his chest. Did he need to breathe? Or was it just part of his human mimicry? Either way it was drastically slower than hers.
The longer she stared at him, the more he reminded Valerie of her Danny. Both had subtle freckles, although Phantom's were glowing green and vaguely star shaped. Their hairstyles were practically identical even with the color difference. The amount of Fenton tech the ghost owned was also a little strange. There was also the subtle green scar running up his neck, almost like Danny's lichtenberg scar. She always did want to ask Danny about that, but it never seemed like the right time to mention it.
Her thoughts were pulled to a halt when Phantom's seemed to twitch in his sleep before sitting up and stretching. He rubbed his eyes, glancing around before settling on Valerie who had subconsciously reached for her blaster again.
"What are you doing here?" Phantom asked warily, subtly pushing himself back away from Valerie. His voice had its usual ghostly echo, reminding her that this is in fact not Danny Fenton.
"I could ask you the same," she glared.
Phantom sighed, stretching again, keeping an eye on Valerie while she did the same. "I fell asleep, I guess. I wanted to stargaze." The ghost stared up at the sky, a sad look on his face. "It's kinda sad."
"What is?" Valerie felt her skin crawl, slowly letting her hand relax to her side again. It was unusual having a conversation with Phantom. He's more conversational than she initially thought. Guess there’s more than just subpar oneliners.
"The light pollution. I have to go so far away from Amity to see even the brightest of constellations. And even then you don't get the full view," his voice grew quieter and the natural ghostly echo seemed to lessen ever so slightly. "Have you ever truly seen the stars?"
Valerie was taken aback by the question. Was he like this normally? When they weren’t fighting?
Was he really as bad as she thought? This gave some new insight on the ghost.
She shook her head. "I guess I haven't."
Phantom sighed softly. "I figured. They're beautiful. Maybe we could see them together." Valerie watched as a pale green blush spread across his face. "No- wait, that's silly," he laughed rubbing the back of his neck and looking away, "we're enemies."
"You blush green?" How has she never noticed that before?
"Ectoplasm instead of blood will do that."
"I see." It feels like she's seeing Phantom in a new light. A strangely more human side of him. "I'd like to see them at some point if a ghost like you says they're beautiful."
"Next week?"
Her eyes widened. "Huh?"
"Next week we see the stars?"
She could feel her face heat up behind the cover of the helmet. "Yeah. Yeah okay."
Phantom pushed himself up, stretching his arms high above his head. "Great chat then! Can't wait!" He gave her a cheeky wink before quickly vanishing from her sight.
Valerie stood there in shock for a moment, her face feeling like it was on fire.
What had she gotten herself into?
#phandom truce 2023#danny phantom#valerie gray#gray ghost#dp#i could not stop procrastinating on editing this#i want to write a second part SO bad#but it literally took 5 days for me to start editing#i really hope you like this though :))!!
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hii could i req an soft dom arlecchino x sub/fem reader?? something w a really needy whiny reader n maybe like a mommy kink or thigh riding IDK tysm for ur time !
{☆} characters arlecchino
{☆} notes drabble, fem reader, sub reader
{☆} warnings 18+ content
"Slowly, doll. We're not in a rush." Arlecchino reprimands lightly, squeezing your hips with just enough force to keep you unmoving on her thigh– she was still being gentle, but the subtle warning in her tone spoke to how easily she could push you against the desk and turn you into such a mess that you couldn't even remember your own name..just that you were hers.
But the barest hint of stimulation from her slacks pressed against your throbbing cunt had you twitching, barely able to form words. All you could think about was the scorching, twisting need building in your stomach, desperation for relief slowly climbing until you'd think she was doing this on purpose to drive you mad.
"Please– 'm a good girl, right? I've been good.." You choked out, only to be met with the rough, husky laugh echoing in your ear that made you feel dizzy with a rush of need, her nails gliding along the skin of your hips as she pressed you down even more firmly– you couldn't see her face but it was easy to imagine the crooked smile twisting her lips at the way you inhaled sharply and tried to buck against her thigh.
"Shh. I know, doll. I've got you, just relax." She murmured in that sickly sweet tone that always had your knees buckling, the raspiness of her voice sending shivers down your spine. It was almost impossible to relax with her so close, the notes of metal lingering on her skin despite how well she presents herself– but you trusted her, despite how you know you shouldn't.
"There we go. Good girl." Arlecchino's grip on your hips loosened just enough for you to move if you so wished, and oh did it take every ounce of restraint to not do just that..she hadn't said you were allowed to, and you weren't about to spoil her good mood by being a brat. Not tonight, anyway. "Do you want to cum, doll?"
The fervent nod you offer in place of words draws a laugh from her lips, one that is almost mocking, making your face flush in embarrassment– but the sudden tap against your hip makes your mind go blank to the point you forget it all together, focused only on the feeling of her thigh rubbing against your cunt as you bucked against her thigh, the fabric slick and wet against your inner thighs. You'd have half the heart to be embarrassed about that, too, if not for the sudden brush of her thumb against your aching, neglected clit. Just that small touch has you speeding up your movements, practically drooling as you whimpered like a dog in heat.
"That's more like it, doll. Such a pretty girl." Arlecchino hummed, her other hand trailing up your stomach, between the valley of your breasts and ghosting across your throat before settling on grabbing your jaw in a firm, yet almost tender touch as she tilted your head to the side just enough for her to pull you into a burning kiss. It left you lightheaded, grinding down against her thigh as she claimed your mouth as her own, her thumb still ghosting over your clit sporadically.
She'd spent so long teasing you, constantly touching you but never where you needed her, that you already felt like you were going to snap like a wire. She must've been in a really good mood, then, when she pulled away from the kiss with an almost predatory lick of her lips, yet she settled on pressing kisses to your skin rather then the usual sharp bite of her teeth as they sunk into the curve of your shoulder.
"Are you close? Go on. I want to see your face when you cum– you look the prettiest when you finally break apart, doll." Arlecchino mused idly– as if she wasn't talking to you while you continued to rub your aching cunt against her thigh, chasing your own release through shaky, strained breaths. Her thumb swiped over your lips, brushing strands of hair stuck to your skin from your face– at the same time as she swiped her thumb more firmly against your clit, creating a vicious contrast that had you both melting at the barest hint of almost softness from her and the touch of her hand between your legs, dragging you into an orgasm that leaves you trembling and, had she not shoved her fingers into your mouth, screaming, tears pooling in the corners of your eyes.
"All done, little doll. Take it easy." She murmured, voice so quiet you almost didn't hear it, thumb swiping across your cheek to wipe away the stray tear, her hands pulling away to settle on your sides. "You did well– good girl. Let me take it from here."
#genshin impact smut#genshin smut#genshin x reader#genshin impact x reader#minors dni#writing tag#arlecchino x reader#arlecchino smut#i considered the mommy part for half a second but i see arle as the biggest butch and i didnt want 2 swap it on the fly looks around#the projection is just a little too hard my bad. i am obnoxiously annoying abt butch arle...#n e way ough soft arle...........not done enough......arle being rough is a given bc shes Like That but like#soft.......#i am weak for a woman who can do both and switch on a dime#arle imo leans like. 80-90% towards rough but shes got a soft spot if shes in a good mood yknow..#i wrote this at 1 am on like uhhh 2 hrs of sleep if it isnt good uhhhhh blame it on that lol#im just feeling it out rn anyway tryna get into writing proper smut again its been a hot minute oop#passes out and dies ough......................#also did NOT spellcheck i just wrote it all in one sitting and called it a day i am gonna pass out now so if u see a typo....#no u didnt#im not done yet wait a minute okay now just. soft arle got me okay. its rlly rare but shes good at playing nice okay#the appeal of arle is fucked up little creature but sometimes u want 2 be pampered i get it#OKAY im actually shutting up now passes out in the middle of the road
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umm hello barbiegloria nation 🫣
#glorbie#barbiegloria#my fics#my writing#it's a multichap and i am notoriously bad at updating them but i already have like. 90% of the second part done#it's also not really proofread bc i couldn't look at it anymore bc i would've thrown it away. BUT I DIDN'T WANT TO DO THAT SO.#ok going to bed now my eyes hurt goodnighttttt
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Mingjue's gaze softens.
"Didi. You are confused. You are misinterpreting brotherly love for romantic interest."
Huaisang clenches his firsts and stares down at the floorboards. His expression morphs into one of pain. He draws in a deep breath.
"Da-ge, please sleep with me." Mingjue's body jerks back at his little brother's words. "If I sleep with you, then I'll know for sure what I'm feeling."
#bro doing anything but organizing her code#my brother says i write like i wasnt allowed to go to school#recently my brother had to do a project for school where he had to pick up a new hobby#he didnt do the assignment and at the last day he was like brother im so fucked help me#so i let him use one of my fanfics for the before and told him to use his own fanfic as an after and present that#his professor told him his improvement was incredible#thats all i have to say#theres something so cringe about when i write#ill write it and be like yeah. and then i read over it and die#unironically i actually run away from my fics. i have never once read them again after finishing#like when i draw. i look at it. im like yeah that part is good that part is bad. pretty mid but its ok.#writing? i turn red and hide from the monster i have created#i think my writing could be lethal. like if i read all my fics one after the other id die from cringe poisoning#i regularly look at my old drawings and cry how much ive regressed. but i can look at them.#one time my friend wanted to torture me so he called me to read my fics out loud. i endorse this as an execution method#shit gets me sweating. i have to get normal about this#some words#wip#the second wip actually#the first one is the saber spirit takes over nmj and he fucks nhs on the training grounds infront of everyone.#second one is nmj is like brother you have to stop being a freak this is getting out of hand and nhs is like nuh-uh. but also how'd you kno#on a side note remember my former student that confessed? yeah well#he proposed marriage
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if i do not make like. a comic? a ficlet? even a drabble of a piece about voli making that 7:30 vow with harry i will probably perish.
i think about this all the time.
VOLITION - "You'll wake up in the morning. I understand it's hard, to get out of bed. To do anything. But the sun will rise and you will too, again and again. And I will do *everything* I can to keep you alive, as long as you wake up in the morning for me. Promise that you'll try. Promise me."
#volition to harry is what harry is to revachol. ''I NEED YOU. YOU CAN KEEP ME ON THIS EARTH. BE VIGILANT. I LOVE YOU''#just a small part of something so large and chaotic and sprawling. so bad and so good. and trying to do the right thing amidst it all#because you need; because you /want/ so desperately for this larger being to live (not for your sake but because you love the being)#i'd probably call it The Sunrise Momentum or something. this could be something simple. oh voli wants you to set an alarm big whoop.#but i know there's something deeper there. the fact that voli brings it up so specifically as you wake up on the second day.#''waking up is the worst part'' buddy i have woken up on bad depression days to know /exactly/ why this promise was made#as long as you get up. as long as you are there in the morning i can keep you alive. i just gotta be able to write it in a way i like.#chemi chats#task: sunrise momentum
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Oh so when Luke and gods stans erase Percy's canon punkness,disinterest in romance and dislike of older people which are all rooted in trauma to make 'cute' and 'relatable' jokes about Percy crushing on them that's 'bi rep' and 'as good as canon' but when i say Percy is a femme trans woman because she canonically thinks women are better than men,finds hypermasculinity to be gross and unappealing on guys and a burden she has to force on herself to fit in and her personality reminds me of tons of irl transfems i know that's 'something you've never thought of' and 'me not knowing how genders work'🤨?
#the second kind of reaction i've gotten is so infuriating because i'm literally a man and a woman and i experience neither in a binary way#and the first kind isn't so bad but it's also like#oh yeah of course you don't think percy wants to be a girl despite how obviously she does you're too busy making her be obsessed with men#man i don't give any fucks that rick tried to write her as a cis guy her story is an extremely transfem one#and her intending her as straight too never stopped y'all🤷🏽♀️#percy jackson#persephone jackson#transfem percy jackson#bi percy jackson#anti luke castellan#antilukercy#anti percy x gods#black percy#latino percy#pastel punk percy jackson#team mom percy jackson#autistic percy jackson#pjo#the anomalies#part krytonian percy#hydro#per-el#symbiote!percy#momcy#stepprincess of the underworld#demi percy jackson#biphobia#transmisogyny#💌#summerposting
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Fourth Wing was fucking awful 😭
#I'm so glad I finished it#that was rough af#idk how it has such a high rating#but oh well#the ending of the book makes me want to read the second one#but if the writing is going to be as bad as the first book then I'll pass#like I'm so irritated that I wasted so much time#the dragons were the best part#all the character were flat and uninteresting#ugh#what a shame#anti fourth wing
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do you know when we’ll be getting foolproof’s update, kit? Just wanted to ask bc I have a super stressful day today and I’ve been excited about reading the new chapter as a reward for getting through the stressful stuff for days 🥰🥰🥰
ahhh this is fair this is fair
ive actually reached the point in the chapter where it could very much be split into 2 halves seeing as i'm at 6.5k with about roughly 4 very crucial scenes to go, which would double that word count and then some....
but those are words that aren't there yet (for a time and tide update, i once just split a 12k chapter into 2 parts and posted them at the same time), so i could post what i have --- the current completed scene would be a stopping point that makes sense and it'd be roughly 6k --- or i could wait to post until i have what would be the full chapter and then split it into 2 parts and post them at the same time (that might be up to another week?) --- or i could post 1 very long chapter that does what i want it to do but could be overwhelming to read
literally went on a thirty minute walk today to try and think this through because trust me i do want to give y'all what's coming asap but i also have a vision, which at this point contradicts my stance against 14k chapters (they're gifts from god but also i get lost in them!)
#asks#stacy's mom au#i could see myself splitting it tonight and posting but honestly its been 6.5k words and anakin and obi-wan haven't even talked#but this would be where i'd split it if i had the 14k#its just youd have to then wait another week ish for the second half#but i would also feel disheartened if people waited to read if they saw the part 1#feeling strangely vulnerable and unsure about my writing in ths chili's tonight#but if you send me an ask to say you want it#i'll start editing now#and i wont update another project until i give you part 2 of this chapter#it just may not be what you think#in other news i bought tickets to italy for next month and booked hostels and learned a LOT about naples#and applied for 2 jobs and covered for my coworker so she could on leave#started dating this guy and had a picnic on my living room floor because of a sudden thunderstorm#i dont say any of that to make you feel bad for asking i dont want you to feel bad for asking#i have been trying to promise ths updatee for a solid week#but i promise the delay isn't because im working on other things or secret projects or anything#when im writing its proofs for work memos for work writing warm ups for tumblr#or this chapter#i just want so much to happen
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too lazy and having trouble with words to work on my fic but i do enjoy imagining it. fuck yeah make that beast bleed
#i think i might try to rewrite the second chapter (or what i wrote from it so far)#it feels too emotional for an early part of the fic in a way that can even be ooc which makes me self conscious#and in turn makes me want to not write it bc it's bad. so. idk. I'll try maybe. just gotta figure out what to replace it with 🤔😔#edit: ok some of this is really cute. i might just tweak the scenario to be less heavy bc the actual start of Thing is p good
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Girl like. The reason he said "this is how it should be" and faced death with a smile....is cuz he wanted to die. For 2 years he sat there thinking he was worthless and deserved to die. If he hadn’t be shot, his death would’ve been suicide, he was fully planning to die in a gutter somewhere undetected. When saying "this is how it should be" hes literally saying "don’t cry because I’m dying, my death is a good thing actually because I fucking suck and you are better off without me". I don’t think that’s badass even slightly, it’s actually really sad and really shitty. Shinjiro is so convinced that he deserves to die and hates the idea of anyone giving a shit about him because he literally can’t wrap his mind around the idea that he will be missed when he’s gone, that his death is a bad thing actually. And his last words were meant to be comforting because he fully did not intend for anyone to be there when he died, he intended to die alone, so he says them as a reminder that he’s not worth crying over
Personally, if it were me, if I was holding my dying best friend in my arms who was deeply depressed and suicidal and he said "this is how it should be" uh. I wouldn’t admire him for it??? Like am I losing my mind when I say the way this game handles Shinji is bad or is anyone else seeing this too 😰
#its like okay listen i understand the basic math of any persona game they say things and everything they say is actually#very bad when you think about it for more than 3 seconds#like what theyre intending to do with the death of this character is be like oh no your sad friend dies tragically thats so saddddd#but that doesnt mean you cant live a wonderful life full of meaning you cant let grief consume you life is beautiful awagga#and i guess shinji is a specific character whos used cuz i guess its more tragic that he never realized he was worthy of life and shit#and i guess its also like ‘dont be like this guy who let grief consume him and then died you gotta Be Different’#which i dont. love. that last part cuz if you think about shinji and what led him down this road#its like. of course hes depressed! he accidentally killed a woman with a child when he was 16!#he himself is an orphan and he just made some other kid an orphan as well and it happened cuz his persona went out of control#which very much can translate to ‘this must mean im dangerous and can hurt everyone if im not kept under control’#so of course he isolated himself and believed he was evil and became suicidal like who wouldnt feel that way#like am i supposed to be mad he left sees and took drugs cuz uh while i dont think isolation or Evil Drug is good for his mental health#i dont think him continuing to fight in sees is something he can just easily do again given how he killed someone like he shouldnt have to#be a part of this thing anymore like how would he even safely get castor to not do that??? he cant kill more people on accident!#so yeah like using shinji as an example of bad coping mechanisms is already just. a big fucking oof to me like it just feels like the game#is saying he shouldve gotten over it and simply not be suicidal and stayed on the team. idk if thats the intent but uh it wouldnt faze me#cuz persona games are notoriously awful at writing characters who are traumatized and abused#but what makes everything even worse is how the game kinda like. acts like shinjis death is a stepping stone#like we’re supposed to use it as a wake up call and understand the stakes but keep going on anyways#and akihiko and Ken get. ‘great character development’ according to the game telling you they have now developed#but damn all akihiko is is just repressed he cries for 3 seconds and then is like I SHOULD MAN UP and then neglects a depressed child#shinjis dying words are words to live by now even though they piss me the fuck off like girl am i crazy HES FUCKING#HES TELLING ME NOT TO CRY OVER HIM BECAUSE HE SHOULD BE DEAD ACTUALLY AND THIS IS A GOOD THING ACTUALLY#like if the game wants us to still find meaning in life despite losing someone it just really hurts that shinji has to die for that to work#apparently. cuz the character i see myself in is shinji. not some perfect prettyboy who does everything perfectly and has 4 gfs#his death seems like a punishment for bad behavior. the bad behavior being of course depression and drug use. and im simply supposed to be#better than that if i want to live. and we dont get to form a connection with him cuz thats gayyyyy#and his death is like a NOBLE HEROIC SACRIFICE idk its just such bullshit to me i hate it so bad#how is killing a suicidal guy and then treating it as admirable that he said ‘this is how it should be’ supposed to make me feel#makes me feel sick personally and it ruins the entire game’s theme to me because its fucking shallow and the story is bad and im tired
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i will work on answering more of my more labor intensive asks...later. i'm sorry i can only post so many a day; they take a lot out of me, but i love them and y'all more than anything, so thank you for asking.
-uncle nina
#i want to write more of the big lore asks bc i'm obsessed w/ them but...idk i am only human my friends#i'm hella exhausted bc of work#and some of those asks have so many parts i literally have to hunker down and write them like they're research papers#i will get them done and out to yall as soon as i can i am just beeeeat lol i'm drinking my coffee out of a jar#that used to have salsa in it...my coffee tastes like SALSA#but yeah i just want them to be well written and cute the ones i've written recently felt rushed and bad to me#i hope they don't feel like that for you but i'm gonna rest my brain for a second haha maybe try again tonight#im so tired that i don't even think this makes sense fml#tldr uncle nina do big ask later unky neen brain no worky need coffee need zz luv u#also my fav lil first grader was not here today so i did not get my hug life is so horrible i hope i DIE
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realizing that gracie abrams is jj abrams’ daughter is sure hell of a realization to make when you’re naming a mckirk fic after a gracie abrams lyric, huh
#caroline talks#listening to the blue by gracie abrams .. .. gracie abrams . . . did u write about mckirk#you tell me on the phone you really want to meet my family . . . .#you talk about your dad he used to get so angry#he'd scare you and your brother . . . .#i know i'd let you in on all my bad decisions#you'd make them feel less terrible#the second that you'd listen . . . .#you came out of the blue like that . . . . i never could have seen you coming i think you're everything i wanted . . .#and when i tell you it's bones reflecting on jim . . . . when i tell you jim doesn't talk about his step-dad (or maybe uncle)#but when he does he mentions how his big brother left that time#thinking about jim getting really excited to meet bones' family#thinking about how bones is this ball of hyper-competency but also anxiety#thinking about the quiet wonder in gracie abrams' 'the blue' . . .#how i'm chewing up my own existence thinking about this#thinking about 'what are you doing to me now?' and thinking about bones#there's a very vivid image in my head of them right now#mostly bones asking 'what are you doing to me now?' (part exasperation part hope part fear)#the way i will always wish we got more mckirk screen time but godddd#god. god god#something something bones being hyper-competent but also very anxious at all hours#something about life feeling like a weird fog and then jim crashing right next to him you came out of the blue like that!!!#(also maybe i cry a little bit bc you know how like in the star trek movies the enterprise leaves this trail of blue when they warp)#(BECAUSE . . . YEAH. . . .)#also maybe. i do. i do associate blue and yellow with bones and jim </333
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The Atlas Paradox is boring and I don't like Olivie Blake's writing style
#She talks too much. Narrates too much is what I mean#It's nothing personal I just find her writing... dull#and it's taking way too long to find Libby in a way that feels contrived rather than a natural part of the story#Delay for the sake of delay rather than delay for any real reason#Which maybe it isn't. But that's what it feels like to me#and the idea of magic as a point of philosophy/science is so fucking brilliant and inspired I have to give her that#but nothing really... happens in this book except the characters (and by extension the author) talking around key points#I know second books are — inherently — “filler” books meant to push the story along and set the scene for the rest of the events but golly#I only have less than 100 pages so I don't want to DNF (and would be annoyed if I did)#but I'm literally just counting down the pages like ok...... is it.... over yet....#Again this isn't personal#If someone said this about my book I would throw up blood so I feel bad but 😭😭😭😭😭#I had high hopes 😩😩😭😭😭#jack.txt#jack reads the atlas paradox
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Made some coffee because I need the boost
Going to go shave off my beard next because I like the occasional clear cut before growing it back and also no one ever sees me so it won’t matter how baby faced I am for the next week.
Going to stupidly retry buspirone later tonight. If you’ve followed my “lore” (and I’m sorry if you have), the last time I tried it over a few days, it only gave me extra anxiety and made me feel hot and incredibly uncomfortable. Maybe that was a fluke. Maybe it was interacting with the antidepressants I had just upped my dose of. Regardless, we’ll give it another shot and if it goes bad again, I’ll just take a couple benadryls, conk out, and not worry about them again.
Okay, I love you.
#my anxiety has just been nasty lately#I’m working on the logical mental part of that but a good chunk of my anxiety & depression is due to unchangable health problems#so for those worries I can’t reason away I’m relying on medication#and I think I’m ‘brave’ (or foolish) enough to give buspar another shot#i don’t want to take a benzo or anything tonight#I took 2 klonopins last night and that seemed pretty nice but I don’t want to make that a habit#especially since doctors don’t want to prescribe them unless really really necessary#so for tonight I’ve got my second cup of coffee and I’m working on distracting myself#gonna shave off this gross beard and if I could I’d cut off my long hair#my hair is too long!#I know that’s blasphemous to say but dang it’s getting to be a bit much#also my therapist said I need to apply for jobs before our next meeting#I don’t want to (fingers crossed) get a job interview just to roll in with this gross hair#NOT THAT HAIR IS GROSS! I love you hairy people!#but I’m bad at trimming facial hair and I haven’t had a haircut in… half a year? more?#so I’m all split ends and uneven trims#and I sweat easily so I need to chop some of this all off before it gets too hot#why am I writing all of this? it’s not pertinent or important or exciting or#so anyway how are you doing?#I need more mutuals who spend ungodly amounts of time on this app#not to talk to. I suck at talking. I just like seeing people on here. doing their thing. being alive. interacting with them. it’s nice.#okay this is enough rambling#ok i love you take it sleazy#you can ignore this#text
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one specific thing that i'd like to get better at w/r/t crossword theme generation is identifying not just words that contain a specific set of letters but phrases that contain a specific set of letters. for instance. i'm working on a theme right now in which types of shoes are going to be hidden within the long answers. for some, there are longer single words that contain those letters (e.g., toolBOOTh, MOCha, conFLATe), but for others i'm going to have to go over a word boundary, which takes me out of the territory of Things That Can Eventually Be Found If You Read The Dictionary For Long Enough (my usual strategy lol). the problem is i have absolutely no idea how to get better at this. but in good news, today i came up with both "muscle atrophy" and "oracle at delphi" for "cleat" and "warts and all" for "sandal" almost right away. so...i just need to keep doing that? somehow? how are other constructors doing this all the time??
#and how was anybody doing this before the 'contains' search function on thefreedictionary.com existed??#cruciverbs#my posts#i went on my crossword theme generation walk today and came up with nine theme ideas. NINE.#and i would have done more but i had to stop just bc if i came up with any more i wouldn't be able to hold them in working memory#long enough to get home and write them down#i should really take my phone with me on these walks lol#turns out one of the nine is an idea i've come up with before but haven't followed through on yet. maybe i should do that one next#i gotta focus on the shoe one first though and unfortunately i won't be able to use 'warts and all' unless i can come up with a second#answer containing sandal. because 'sandal' will be in a rebus square which means it'll be part of both an Across and a Down answer#but i really want to use warts and all :(#and i kind of think the second answer shouldn't include 'and' because that feels repetitive#so what are my options? '_s andal_' are there any common english expressions containing the word andalusia? i don't think so#'_sa ndal_' illegal word-initial consonant cluster so that's out. '_san dal_' are there any spanish saints with names beginning in dal-?#'_sand al_' or '_sand a l_' sand something. thousand something. ampersand something. hm.#'_sanda l_' sanda at the end of a word is not super promising#i think '_sand al_' is my best bet so now i gotta think of things related to sand that start in al-. or things that start with al- that#there are a thousand of#sand alloy. sand aluminum. sand algae. terrible. painfully bad.#this is what i need to get better at but idek where to start
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grumbling and kicking rocks down the road as i continue sulking about rasputin
#i understand why they killed him bc he's a difficult character to write but consider: skill issue. skill issue. skill i#he got shafted tbh. it feels bad that he's such an old part of the lore and just got stuffed into an engram to decay for a few years#and then when we finally get to talk to him face to face we only get like a month ish before he's just gone forever#i'm not one of the Lore Scholars so maybe there's something i'm missing but as much as i enjoyed seraph i think his death could have been#avoided. they just didn't want to deal with him anymore#yes its hard to scale things around Giant Sat Network that can destroy anything in its path but also: destroy the network but keep him#stuff him in an exo body like we originally planned so he can navigate being a person on a smaller scale#i LOVE weapon first person second as a trope but in a lot of cases it seems like people just decide to use death as an out#like dying for the greater good is the only way u can Prove that ur a person#and in some cases that works very well#but i think they had other options here.#and this is why my guardian has a copy of rasputin on a usb stick and#ok one more thing before i shut up. ive seen people suggesting that he could be revived as a guardian but the thing is that wouldn't be Him#i wanted more of him with all of his history and the atrocities and a guardian version of him wouldn't be the same character#that i have loved for the last 5 years#unfortunate.
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