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soldier-poet-king · 1 year

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Apparently tumblr hates my concert photos and keeps eating my posts with my tag essays so HERE U GET MY CONCERTPOSTING TAGS SEPARATE and I'll try the photos again after BC if I type this one more time on my phone to lose it I'll scream

#franposting #ANYWAY. 3rd times the charm. lets see how much of my stream of consciousness i can remember #made eye contact with JD and shared a smile and that is the closest i will ever come to expressing my gratitude #for his work has saved my life and my soul over and over and over again #a boon and a comfort. and knowing that someone else has gone before? had felt it? understood it? and learned to live again #i want to live again.#absolutely broke my voice on this year #smthn about a room full of ppl screaming there will be feasting and dancing in jerusalem next year #??? nothing will ever replicate that. nothing will fill my soul the same way ever again #they played a good mix of new stuff and old classic concert bangers #ans ALSO stuff not usually in concert rotation (it froze me)#AND some stuff that i rlly just love. like hebrews 1140 my beloved.and some new force galesburg #ugh. just. so good. i was worried about being a weirdo loner #but the atmosphere was generally chill. more than half the ppl looked like gays at brunch chronically on tumblr ppl #so at least i wasnt worried about being The Most Awkward or getting murdered #also the opener was a nb southerner ans i dont do country usually #but there were. some bops #and they were hilarious in conversation #and just! smthn about loving your culture even if it doesnt love you #and you can reclaim it and enjoy it and the bigots dont get a monopoly on it #it meant a lot even tho im not from Tennessee obvs.#also the religious dynamic. the judas references. the line about glimpsing god thru the curtain. the fervour hunger metaphor #ugh. soooo good. thank u adeem the artist #anyway. i will find a setlist tmrw #i am too fuckin tired rn. got home at nearly 1am. thank GOD i took tmrw off work #tmg

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perfectlyripeclementine · 1 year

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calling my lover "mine" but not in the way that my toothbrush or notebook are mine, mine in the way my neighborhood is mine, and also everybody else's, "mine" like mine to tend to, mine to care for, mine to love. "mine" not like possession but devotion.

#nonbinary love #nblnb yearning #nb4nb #nblnb #wholesomeposting #yearning hours #ive been thinking about how some languages dont have a possessive tense #so you dont say “i have a thing” but rather “a thing is by me”#and like im not usually one for psycho linguistics and like critical thoughts etc etc etc #but i really like the framework of responsibility/commitment rather than ownership #i think about this mostly in terms of ecology #and relation to land #but i also love it as it applies to language shared between lovers #like i LOVE calling them mine or for them to call me theirs #but i'm also nonmonog and that was kinda weird to square for a while #and it clicked one time when i was talking about my neighborhood and i was like well #when i say my neighborhood or my city it's understood i'm not taking it away from anybody else #its understood i just mean the city where i live #so why cant we apply the same to lovers?#mine in the way i want to show up for you again and again #ok #done now

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chloesimaginationthings · 4 months

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At least Matpat lives on in the FNAF universe

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mxcrayon · 4 months

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losing my actual mind rn

i had this interaction in the dropout discord (i am the first and third person). short. simple. i only got the first year bc of a discount + a gift card i had, so i was planning on using this person's suggestion.

then, i got this.

oh my god!! how nice!! how sweet!!! how thoughtful!! i gave them my email and they sent over a subscription, i thanked them profusely. i was very grateful, very touched.

hours and hours later i was still thinking about it and i recalled how, in the email id gotten about it, it said "tao yang sent you a subscription" and id seen that and thought "oh haha like the tao yang" and then moved on

but now, thinking back, i was like.... theres no way, so i googled tao yang.