Tyler Bertuzzi | Leafs Media Availability 04.24.24

this WIP is going fine, why do you ask? I’m just at the stage where I feel like I’m going ever so slightly insane

I didn't have my glasses on and I thought there was a huge picture of Pangur in the kfc but it was just these tiles on the wall :(

classic mistake

Plot twist that you saw coming 9 seasons ago: He's Gay, Actually

Poor Tiffin didn't even see it comin' until it was too late.

Tiffin Cookie belongs to @sugar-seals

Robin: Got called gay in Family Video the other day.

Steve: What happened?

Robin: Got called gay in Family Video.

Steve: Yeah, but why?

Robin: I was being gay.

Steve: In Family Video?

Robin: Yeah, it was in Family Video.

I just realized why lestat marked Tom, like the big stupid idiot I am

(I know everyone else probably already figured this out, but this is MY blog and I get to post whatever deranged thought crosses my pea brained mind.)

When I watched that scene in episode 5 where they're at the bar talking to Tom, I was confused as to why exactly. Why does Lestat mark Tom? If he's marked to kill, why does he wait almost 2 decades later? Well I realized, as all realizations come, in the shower.

Lestat has been planning on killing Tom the whole time.

(Warning before you click read more, this post is a lot longer than I first intended holy fuck)

Well not the whole time. Just right when Louis realized that Anderson and Fenwick had screwed him over. Maybe even longer if he knew it was a trick ("ridiculous of you to mix human and vampire business it always ends poorly"). Notice how he's upset with louis when he kills the guy who's microaggressive with him, cus lestat wasn't there (even if he was there I have my doubts Lestat would understand microaggressions, but he would have definitely killed him for touching Louis.) But tells Louis he's proud of him for killing Alderman. I think this has to be because he witnessed the disrespect first hand. He didn't give a fuck about the money, what he DID care about was that those two disrespected not only him, but Louis.

Even with Lestats little understanding of race relations of the time in America, he did understand hierarchys. He's from 1700s France for God's sake. It's no coincidence wanted to be king of mardi gras. Lestat came to New Orleans and saw himself as the king, even if no one knew it. And he wanted Louis to be his queen. Honestly I could make an entire other post about how Lestat almost literally saw himself as if he was a King and Louis his beloved Queen, which is why he thought it was okay for him to sleep with other women (mistresses and playthings of the king should mean nothing compared to the queen in lestats eyes) but that's getting off topic. I only bring that up because I'm trying to paint a picture of how I think Lestat sees disrespect done to Louis. To him that goes beyond disrespect or rudeness, it's irreverence.

You begin to notice if you watch scenes with them together. Because while I wouldn't say lestat is good at controlling his anger, he's definitely great at concealing it until it erupts (props to Sam Reid have to be given here) lestat is always on the verge of fury when talking to Tom. It starts as a distaste then as he begins to fall more in love with Louis and become more protective of him, his anger builds. Claudia was wrong about one thing, it was no petty slight that was the reason Lestat killed Tom first, it was a loooonng time coming.

I could list every detail I think supports this but I'm sure you get the gist by now. My main point is really the layer of complexity this adds to not only the story, the characters, but also lestat and louis' relationship. Consider it for a second, Lestat saw all his violence as justified, everything he did one can see it through the lense of him punishing the disrespectful (take a shot every time I say disrespect in this post jesus christ). "I bring death to those deserving" indeed. Lestat has a god complex out the wazoo, and every attack, torture, and death he caused was righteous to him and thus enjoyable. Louis on the other hand didn't see himself so highly. He may seem confident but if you look through the cracks it's apparent Louis's self worth in near nonexistent and he's horribly insecure. I think lestat thought when Louis was made a vampire he would see himself as Lestat saw himself, and as Lestat saw Louis. But again, another post for another time.

Despite Louis' insecurities (or perhaps because of them) louis revels in the violence lestat commits for his sake. That's probably why louis is so quick to forgive lestat about the priests. For a brief moment Lestat truly said the truth to Louis and Louis could forgive him because of it. As lestat says, he doesn't kill the priests to intimidate Louis, nor does he do it just because he enjoys it. He does it because he sees them as humiliating Louis, charlatans that don't deserve Louis' sorrow. Louis didn't want the priest's to die, but he could understand why lestat killed them, simply because for once in his goddamn life lestat told the truth, and louis loved that truth. That truth being that lestat killed and mutilated and committed such horrors not just because he liked it, but because he did it out of a fucked up sense of protection. Him killing the priests was essentially a knight killing a dragon to earn the princess' hand in marriage.

The worst part is that Lestat doesn't even realize it. Not fully anyway. Let's be honest with ourselves, lestat doesn't understand Louis. Obviously there's the race, background, culture differences that lestat doesn't understand nor seems inclined to try, but there are better posts about that made by smarter people than moi. I'm mostly talking about lestat doesn't understand louis' mind itself (louis' mind in a vacuum I suppose you could say) he understands Louis' desire for violence sure, but he doesn't understand the core of that want. Honestly I'm on the fence of if he ever understood that Louis loved it when lestat was protective in the first place. I guess it can be dumbed down to Louis wants Lestat to kill to protect Louis and to protect the family (and anyone who deeply disrepects them), lestat perhaps understood a little at one point, but since he sees everyone as a threat and everything is a slight to him, he has no trouble and qualms with delighting in the torture of people Louis views as innocent. Louis' heart is a bit dark, but ultimately human, so he's disgusted by lestats violence towards the undeserving. Lestat can no longer read Louis' mind and even if he could, Louis doesn't quite understand the difference himself (that's why he tries to hunt for criminals briefly) so the cracks of miscommunication starts to form, and neither of them even realize there is miscommunication.

Therein lies the importance of Tom Anderson for season 1. Not much of a character, more of a plot device in human skin. Claudia can see that Lestat hates him, but doesn't understand why, nor does she care to get to the depths of that. (*Mr house voice* understandable) I think it's notable that Louis rarely brought him up, he didn't understand the depths of lestats love. Nor did he know about Lestats 3 decade long grudge, all because Tom disrespected Louis.

Now I'm not excusing Lestat's actions, I just think it's interesting how this one throwaway character reveals a whole level of complexity to the relationship between him and Louis, and better sheds light on not only Lestats personal philosophy but louis' as well. Even Claudia to a degree.

Anyway, uh. End of essay. Bye.

i'm writing (big surprise) and i just can't drop the whole rewriting of END thing. WHAT DO YOU MEAN SHE REWROTE HIS LIFE IN ORDER TO SAVE HIM, IN HORRIBLE AGONY FROM HAVING DEMON'S FIRE SPLITTING HER UP ATOM BY ATOM AS SHE USES SOME OF THE MOST POWERFUL MAGICS KNOWN TO EARTH (love) AND SHE SACRIFICES HER LIFE DOING IT (yeah yeah gray's demon slaying ice and whatever is great)

BUT WHAT HAPPENED TO THAT??? THERE HAD TO BE MORE, IT WAS JUST ENDLESS NALU MATERIAL AND MASHIMA JUST "HAPPENED" TO BE A LITTLE LAZY

WHERE'S THE SCARRING AND WHERE'S NATSU FEELING FAINT SHIVERS THAT GIVE HIM A SENSE OF LUCY THAT HE NEVER CAN GET RID OF (not that he wants to ofc) AND WHERE'S THE SCENE OF HER TELLING HIM ABOUT IT, ACCIDENTALLY ADMITTING THAT SHE COULD HAVE DIED, BUT SHE DID IT ANYWAYS AND NATSU JUST VOWS TO SPEND HIS ENTIRE LIFE REPAYING HER BECAUSE HE KNOWS THAT SHE SAVED HIM OUT OF PURE LOVE AND HE CAN'T DENY IT AND THEY CRY IN EACH OTHER'S ARMS JUST BECAUSE THEYRE SO HAPPY THEY BOTH SURVIVED THE WAR

My brain is mean to me: What do you mean I’m running out of drawing ideas?? I have like 5+ wips! D:>

Part 5 and final part of the batfam crack meeting!

Red hood: what are you going to do with it after?

Phantom: I want to give a bottle to Walker and test if he tries to arrest me for it or if he thinks it’s normal since he is from the early 1900s.

Red hood:

Phantom:

Red hood: film it and don’t make a mess of my kitchen.

Phantom: yes sir *salutes*

Batfam: wtf is happening…

This sets the tone for the rest of the patrol. Red hood and Phantom are just ~Vibing~ while the bats have zero idea how to handle Phantom’s unique brand of chaos.

Find part one of the batfam crack meeting here and the origin if you are completely lost here.

I wasn't in love with him!!! I know everyone thought i was!! But i wasn't!! *guy who drank his bathwater and masturbated on his grave voice*

where.. did Nancy get this elephant?

like she didnt have it before Cynthia went into the hall of mirrors

that kid does tho, and i think we, as a community, need to accept the fact at some point during all in Nancy just stole that kids toy, for absolutely no reason

Very insane how a certain section of brba fans will look at Hank "racist cop" Schrader, Walter "drug lord/abuser" White, and Jesse "sold meth to people in recovery" Pinkman and idk nod approvingly and then turn towards their significant others and go "oh I know who the REAL villains of brba are." T-the real villains?? THE REAL VILLAINS OF THE "EVERYONE IS MORALLY GREY" SHOW??? THE REAL VILLAINS IN THE "PEOPLE KILL PEOPLE OVER DRUGS AND MONEY" SHOW???

since when does taylor swift know aristotle

that one's actually from the perspective of jughead. sometimes she inhabits the mind body and soul of jughead.

we need a total drama character whos always holding a skateboard all the time and everyone thinks its cause theyre a cool skater dude or something but one episode its revealed its glue to their hand

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