I hope your little heart is okay💕🫂

archbudzar

My eyes saw you, but damn, did my soul feel you?

Dear Survivors, Feeling is Overwhelming.

However well-meaning the layperson or advocate may be, their sincerity can be as overwhelming as it is relieving. The interactions that should have been genuine and kind, were used to manipulate and trap you. The men who should have walked away and called the police, used you for their fantasies of violence. So this person who wants to pay for your coffee, hold open the door, ask for directions, likes your shoes..."What if they want something from me? What if they're lying? What if I believe them? What if this is the first step back down the road I barely escaped?"

The need for BOUNDARIES becomes paramount.

You've borne the brunt of other's trauma and apathy long enough, either living in numbness or overload to survive their emotions. You had to find an equilibrium with pain to defy death on so many levels. The greatest challenge now is evolving out of this hypervigilance: Your feelings do and move without permission or consideration, living apart and independent from any sense of familiarity. They can be selfish things, but a wonderful part of your healing is allowing these feelings to be selfish on behalf of your RECONSTRUCTION.

These feelings...they care about you, about your safety, even as they startle and run wild. There's no room for guilt once you realize this sincerity. All you need are fences strong enough to corral these feral feelings: just enough boundary to coax them back into view without inhibiting the warmth you want to build with the world. Oh, how more EASILY SAID THAN DONE.

YOU are the only face your feelings should recognize in the mirror and the first hand they trust to steady their rages. We can never say enough that it will take time, as healing always does, but aloneness with oneself is the FIRST STEP to trusting yourself. YOU are the most important person in YOUR world right now.

FEEL THAT.

Sometimes you feel low, sudden flow of sadness comes and you actually feel strange because this comes out of a sudden. This happens to all of us. Suddenly negative emotions take place over and we start to feel low. A REMINDER. Don't let your negative emotions control you. It is in your mind for some time only. Emotions are temporary. When this happens, the best thing you can do is feel it. Accept it. You have to accept that if is okay to feel sad sometimes, you don't have to give all your focus to those negative emotions. Because, the more you give attention to your negative emotions, the more it will control you. Sit with it, feel it , and let it go. Don't let it overtake your mind. Letting go of your negative emotion is the best thing you can do for yourself. It will set you free from all the suffering and pain that you experience while experiencing your negative emotions.

Me : a 7th house Saturn in Pisces native.

Posts after 3months saying eat cake for breakfast if you like. Don't let other people tell you what your boundaries are.

Realizes the caption is almost the same as the last one

Unapologetic.

Be unapologetically you.

Cry. Thrash. Smash. Rage.

Scream. Shriek. Freak. Shout.

Laugh. Huff. Whistle. Sing.

Let your heart speak without a filter.

Let your emotions roll off kilter.

Steadying yourself isn't a priority.

When all you need is this moment of clarity.

Wild, you be. Love, be free.

©anyagarika

as a girl in america, i am frightened the end of roe vs. wade. i am devastated, i am angry, i am exhausted. i'm probably not the only one feeling this way, i can imagine. and you are every bit allowed and justified to feel this way.

i guess i just want to say, that far too often, our emotions are portrayed as just another emotional woman, just another crazy person. but we're not crazy to feel this way, at all.

so before you channel your anger into resources, protests, bills, funds and more, please take a moment to yourself. i know that it seems like everything is falling apart, and it might be, but life is too short for your justified feelings to fester inside yourself. let yourself cry, let yourself scream, let yourself feel those emotions that you are allowed to feel without being crazy, horrible, lazy or emotional. you are none of those things.

and perhaps, when the dust has settled and you have let out your feelings, i hope you can feel a little bit better, before we jump back into the fight for our rights.

It's time to let all these feelings go💕

Even when you're gone I feel you close, you'll always be the one I love the most.

Dear Survivors, Just BREATHE.

It is the earliest connection we have with our body and the first relationship between ourselves and the world. After all, the newborn's FIRST instinct is to BREATHE: a need more instantly vital than light, drink, sleep, warmth, or love. Existence solidifies, moving away from theoretical and abstract to something tangible and present within our own consciousness. We become distinct from surrounding creation, yet immediately and intimately dependent on it, both blurring and drawing the line between US and OTHER.

Communication within and as individual ensues in that first breath: Every organ and cell signaling with and to the other in healing, death, and change. Familiarity of this exchange — of the LIFE within us, encircling us, leaving us, and returning to us — this mindfulness of breath, bears witness to the miracle of survival. Your trauma is still real, and you will always need time...But you are ALIVE.

You are still HERE. And this fear, as you live and breathe, has NOT overcome you.

For the first time in my adult life, I am sober. I’m talking about 40 years, not a trivial amount of time. It’s been 90+ days since I drank alcohol of any kind and over 30+ days since I smoked weed. Feeling grief and despair yesterday was a challenge but it was never a serious consideration to weaken my mental state by relapsing.

I’m what they call a “switch-hitter” when it comes to addictions. In my 30s I abstained from alcohol for about four years but re-channeled my unfelt feelings into other destructive, obsessive-compulsive behaviors. I was never truly addicted to alcohol, I was addicted to numbing and avoiding processing trauma from childhood and the resulting layers of trauma caused by my coping mechanisms.

PHEW!

Where are you all at? I just rode it like a champ & did a full speed drop & am hopefully right there by your side to help you all out, as well.

🙌🏽🧿🧘🏽‍♂️🙏🏼🎀💝

We come back strong!💪🏽

it's actually terrifying how quickly the concept of self care (originally a radical concept rooted in the black panther party's efforts to support other black ppl living through racism) became another tool of self-management which is viewed as both a moral obligation + an individual responsibility. businesses + employers + other institutions now easily wield it as a progressive way to say "if you're upset about xyz, make yourself get over it". "we are going to treat you like shit + you need to learn how to cope with that or else you're doing something wrong"

i have seen job listings where "ability to practice self care" was listed as a requirement for employment. as a case worker, we were repeatedly drilled on "self-care" as a response to unconscionably high case loads, traumatizing experiences, dead end job obligations, + poor living conditions due to subpar pay/high stress. my clients would go to appointments regarding their evictions, food insecurity, active domestic violence situations, etc + receive tips on "self care" without any tangible community, legal, or structural support to follow.

everyone absolutely deserves to care for themselves + it is useful to circulate affirmations + advice on how to do this. this should happen within communities, through a sincere concern/love for one another, as a way of helping everyone live the best life possible while we work towards total liberation. it should not be a replacement for caring for one another!!! it should be one of many ways of caring for one another!!!

What a difference six years makes