🎶 Where were you when everything was falling apart? 🎶

I want so desperately to say some words of affection, but my roses inside my chest will grow back as thorns before I be able to say "I love you" again.

even more super terrified of the loki finale tomorrow😄 more gay panicking throughout the day since i'll only be able to watch it in the evening

@thelordofgifs

Oh lord. I started ' the fairest stars '.

I am emotionally wrecked, destroyed, crushed.

I was like ' oh, this could be interesting. '

I'm crying. And I'm not even done yet 😭 I'm only on chapter 9.

Thank you, but you've killed me 😭

-Alex 💔 💔

I don't get why being nice,kind, empathetic and approachable is better than being distant, angry and emotionally limited.

Like I was possessing those positive emotions over like 4-5 years ago and it was the worst shit I've ever done in my life.

Me remembering that I can’t show any visible signs of trauma or anger issues because if I’m not careful, pretty much that’s all people will see whenever they look at me

seeing someone openly and unashamedly cry in a tv show and feeling second hand embarrassment

🎵 Maybe if I hurt myself you could be the bandage. I don’t wanna ask for help, you’d call it baggage 🎵

I pierced my ears alone today for the first time, I did it in my bathroom with ice and a needle. I really wanted my ears pierced, mama gave me new earrings and I forgot how much I like to have pretty shiny stones hanging in the both sides of my face, the close I ever been of owning the stars. I thought that the ice would help me, like some sort of anesthesia, but when I pressed the needle against my own skin, a tear fell from my eyes — sparkling like the earrings I'm wearing now. I tried to picture how pretty I would look later. The pain would be worth it. So I kept pressing until I listened to the sound of my own skin tearing apart, and I saw the tip of the needle on the other side of my ear. When I took it out, ready to put my diamond earrings, I noticed that my fingers were red, and so were the stones... I cleaned everything with alcohol, and it burned a lot (I almost gave up on my new earrings when I noticed that the pierced hole couldn't fit it, but I kept trying anyway, no matter how painful the whole process was). When I looked at the mirror, I felt so beautiful... since we can't see the pain, it was almost like I wasn't feeling anything. For some reason, I felt like I did that to myself before, more than once, actually. But how? It was the first time I had pierced my ears alone.

It hurts, For reasons known and unknown.

How do you get rid of it all in one go and make sure you never feel it again?

It’d be nice if that was an option.

We havent sobbed this much since gris, fuck you cat game

Ahahaha, I feel so emotionally damaged that I'm crying over my $20 headphones I left in the classroom prob cause some idiots at my desk don't know how to put things back. I just want a hug from Volo now... I want to feel the warmth.

The only flaw in fanfictions is that ... they get ABANDONED 😭😭

Nothingness persists, in the pursuit of what?

     IS THIS HOW YOU GUYS REALLY FEEL ABOUT ME ?!!?