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chronicowboy · 1 year

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When Buck shows up on the Diaz doorstep with a vacant frown, Eddie is struck nauseous by the wave of hope that crests in him and the swoop of deep concern in his stomach. He leads Buck into the kitchen without a word, sets him down in a chair and fetches them both a beer from the fridge. He pops the caps off, sets one down in front of Buck, and retreats to lean back against the counter just in case this isn't the conversation he thinks it is.

They drink in a stifling quiet. Eddie watches every tiny micro expression that twitches across Buck's face, catches every tic of his fingers and jump of his leg. He watches and waits and most of all he sees.

"I misunderstood," Buck murmurs eventually, and Eddie has to physically bite down on the hope that rears its head at the words. He thinks back to a pink and yellow heart, an assignment failed correctly in Eddie's opinion.

"How so?" Eddie pushes gently when Buck wavers. Buck's eyes meet his then, for a single moment, heavy with something beyond the fizzle of a three-week-old relationship.

"I never actually asked her out." Buck takes another swig of beer, shakes his head. "She asked me for coffee that first time, but we really only talked about me."

"And the lightning?" Eddie asks. Buck nods.

"And then, we kept meeting up." Eddie holds a gulp of beer in his mouth to distract himself from the sharp stab of pain behind his sternum. "But we kept getting interrupted every time I tried to find out more about her. Every time I tried to talk about more than my death."

"Maybe the universe was screaming at you?" Eddie suggests just to hear Buck's huff of disbelieving laughter.

"Yeah, well, it was wasting its time." Buck leans back in his chair, takes a deep breath. "Natalia said enough for the universe."

Eddie swallows another mouthful of beer, washes his heart back down his throat and into his ribcage for safekeeping. He'd known, of course. He'd known this was going to happen. Eddie sees Buck, so of course he sees Buck's relationships too. He saw Buck still pining after Abby even when it was clear how it had already ended. He saw Ali's hesitance in the hospital waiting room and just knew this was too much for her to handle. He saw Taylor from the very beginning. And he saw Natalia too, even though he didn't really. But he knew a death doula asking death's best friend for coffee couldn't end well.

"I actually managed to ask her out on a date at lunch today." Buck sighs, deep and turbulent. "She was very nice about rejecting me. Seems, she thought I knew this was more of a professional interest than a personal one." He scoffs, drops his head into his hands. "Thing is, I know that now. Not just because she told me, but because I realised I was only really using her to come to terms with... everything?" He brings his head out of his hands, sets his chin on his palm, gazes up at Eddie with something breathtakingly honest in his eyes. "I just... I thought she could make my death mean something. I needed it to mean something."

"Buck," Eddie sighs, sits himself down in the chair opposite, "you know that's not how it works. There's no rhyme and reason to death. As much as we might want there to be. You can look for a reason all you'd like, but that's how people drive themselves insane." Eddie folds his arms over his chest.

"But I survived, Eddie," Buck says it like he's pleading, "surely that has to mean something."

"And it does," he concedes. "It means you're still here. With the people who love you." And maybe that's too honest for the quiet of the kitchen at half ten, but Eddie finds he doesn't care when Buck looks at him like this. He sits upright, braces himself on the tabletop. "You think any of my near deaths meant anything?" Buck flinches a little at that, looking down at his bottle chastened.

"I don't know." He shrugs. "But the helicopter brought you home, right? In the end?"

"Well," Eddie swallows every drop of bravery he can muster, "maybe the lightning brought you home too. In the end."

"Eddie," Buck breathes, "what?"

"You came here, Buck." Eddie smiles weakly, lets his eyes speak for him. "You came home."

Buck opens his mouth, closes it, opens it again, clenches his jaw shut. He glances around the kitchen, drinking in every inch of it, the square spoon in the drying rack that Eddie knows Buck brought from his apartment, the collection of kitschy, overpriced zoo mugs in the cupboard Eddie had left open at the knock on the door, the Hildy coffeemaker that had been one expensive prank.

"I came home," Buck repeats softly. His eyes find their way back to Eddie's. "And I fell asleep on the couch."

"Yeah," Eddie breathes a soft chuckle, "you did."

"Oh."

"The couch will be waiting for you, Buck." Eddie stands, drops his empty bottle into the recycling. "Whenever you're ready, the couch, the home, the kid, all of it, it'll be waiting for you."

"When I'm ready?" Buck croaks.

"When you're ready." Eddie smiles. "We've got time, so take it."

#sami rambles #im writing this instead of an essay due tomorrow but idc bc i love this #911 show #911 fox #911 spec #911 spec fic #911 speculation #911 fic #911 fanfic #buddie fic #buddie fanfic #buddie #buck x eddie fic #buck x eddie #evan buckley #eddie diaz #spoiler alert: they don't have time #also square spoon supremacy

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tawaifeddiediaz · 1 year

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wait not to say too much before the episode actually airs but buck is literally a part of EVERY family eddie has - eddie’s let him into all of it.

there’s the obvious eddie and christopher, but buck is also made a part of it well before the legal guardianship. eddie lets buck in about the ways he failed shannon and the ways their relationship had failed both of them.

there’s the way buck is over eddie’s Instagram, despite him not using it much, in one of the most pivotal moments in his parenting storyline on tv where there’s something chris might not be able to do the same way as everyone else, and he and buck manage to find a way to make it happen for him anyway

there’s the way eddie mentions his camaraderie with his squad in the army, and the only one that’s let in to the reality of that family, the reality of what happens to soldiers…is buck

there’s this thing of buck having met tia pepa, and assumingly also abuela, given the party at eddie’s house in 4x14. outside of the probationary ceremony and maybe 3x10, no one else has really been made that.

speaking of 3x10, christopher opening buck’s christmas present by the pinball machine, and eddie calling abuela over to join the moment with them???? i don’t celebrate christmas but that looks very family to me.

anyway, there’s the 118, obviously. I’ve always sort of taken it as…eddie’s never found a family like that before, and up until he tells chim about the 118 being the family they chose, he feels like he’s grappling with his place in it a little. but he does end up believing that the 118 is a home for all of them; a family they chose, and one that buck is obviously part of.

and now, for eddie to bring buck with him to a poker night that assumingly, he attends regularly and is given an exclusive invitation to, means that he’s sharing even that family with him. that’s like…

for buck, who’s only ever really had maddie before the 118, to have eddie irrevocably make buck a part of every single family he has, every single friend group he’s a part of…

tl;dr: eddie really said “you’re the family i choose” and there are endless anecdotes I could give to prove it

#zee rambles #eddie diaz #evan buckley #911 meta #buddie #buck x eddie #911 spoilers #honestly I’m all over the place with this rn #but I have so many thoughts #about Eddie and family and how he makes buck a part of that the whole time

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lemotmo · 17 days

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Queer-coded Eddie Diaz theory

Okay, walk with me here. I have this theory.

I’ve been thinking about what Lou said in his interview. He said that the Tommy storyline was initially meant for Eddie. (Which still sets me reeling whenever I think about it.) But they changed their mind because something fell through and they decided to give the storyline to Buck. Which I’m happy about to be honest. Eddie is a whole different case of ‘being in the closet’. That man will need a lot more time to come to terms with his sexuality than Buck.

But, let’s imagine they would have stuck with the Eddie/Tommy storyline:

Obviously Marisol would have quietly disappeared in between seasons and Eddie would have been single again.

They hired Lou, a big bulky white man, to play his love interest. I know that we often say that Eddie is the Latin Lou, but he could also be a slightly bigger Buck (if you squint).

They would have bonded over the many shared interests and their army past. From there on their romance would have started and bloomed.

Buck would have probably still been with Nathalia or perhaps he would have also been single. Not sure about that. It would have depended on the actress being available or not.

In his interview, Tim Minear has stated that Buck has always been queer-coded, from season 1 on.

So, if we follow that line of thinking, wouldn’t Eddie have been queer-coded as well? Because, after all, he would have been the one in a romantic relationship with Tommy.

And then what? Would Buck have found his inner bisexual by being jealous of Eddie and Tommy? Like something we saw play out in 7x04. Everyone would assume, in the beginning, that Buck was just jealous of having to share Eddie’s attention with Tommy. But then, after a few episodes, it would have been revealed that he was actually in love with Eddie? Because, remember, according to Tim Minear, Buck has always been queer-coded. So it would only be logical to continue the storyline like that. Especially because everyone seems to lean into it this season. Oliver, Ryan, Tim and even Lou have been talking about Buddie.

Then what? Would Eddie have found out about Buck? Would he have realised that he loved Buck back, breaking up with Tommy, only to be with Buck? Or would Tommy have set him free from the relationship?

See the logic here? If Buck has always been queer-coded, why did they plan to have Eddie come out? It doesn’t make any sense, UNLESS Eddie has always been queer-coded as well (whether gay, demisexual or something else).

Now, if we go back to the current story that is playing out on our screens right now. If we take the above Eddie/Tommy scenario and change it to Buck/Tommy, then it would only be logical for the second character that has also been queer-coded since season 2 (Eddie) to end up with the other queer-coded character, now established bisexual (Buck).

Whichever way you look at it, all roads eventually lead to Buddie.

Mind you, this is only my train of thought and my opinion. Also no hate on Tommy or Buck/Tommy. This is just something that has been slow cooking in my brain ever since those articles from Tim and Lou came out. Couple that with Ryan’s interview, where he clearly states that Eddie has lived a very different life from Buck. He talks about how Eddie always looks for a mom-figure for Christopher in a relationship, and that he has always lived a ‘straight’- laced life. But that he is slowly discovering parts about himself he didn’t know were there in the first place. And now with the whole ‘catholic guilt’ storyline suddenly popping up out of nowhere, it just would make so much sense for Eddie to be some flavour of queer.

It would set up such an interesting storyline for his character as well. He would potentially struggle with his feelings, a lot more than Buck ever did. He might even have problems with accepting that side of himself. But ultimately it would all come down to Buck and his feelings for him. And Eddie has always been brave, so he would eventually own up to it and tell Buck.

All of this makes so much sense to me and I can't shake it.

Tell me, am I losing my mind here? Has 911 and Buddie finally broken me beyond repair? Have I boarded the train to delulu-land? Talk to me.

#buddie #911 spoilers #eddie diaz #evan buckley #tommy kinard #buddie meta #911 abc #tim minear #ryan guzman #oliver stark #lou ferrigno jr

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wikiangela · 6 months

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seven sentence sunday

tagged by @daffi-990 💖

making more progress on alive shannon yaaay! this fic is gonna be such a mix of angst and fluff, and I hope i'll get the angst part right bc I'm not good at it, and so far a lot of after-accident stuff is turning out too cute lol (gonna fix it soon with the bombing lol) here's a lil buddie moment finally haha (they're not in love here yet but obvi there's always been something - and it's so hard to write them not in love and pining bc in my fics they're always in love already haha)

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“So, it’s weird, isn’t it?” he asks, then takes a huge gulp of his beer.

“What is?” Buck asks carefully, grabbing the second bottle and opening it.

“This whole thing.” Eddie shrugs. “Shan being here. Was it weird?” he nods towards the living room, indicating Buck hanging out with her before Eddie came home. Buck thinks for a moment, not really sure how to answer.

“I mean, I guess a little bit? Not as much as I expected, we just watched TV.” It’s Buck’s turn to shrug. “It was fine. It is fine. A little awkward, but we literally just met, so hopefully that changes. Since, you know, she’s here to stay, and I’m- I’m, uh- I guess I’m here often enough, so I don’t want it to be awkward and stuff-” he stumbles over his words, suddenly not sure why it’s even important for him and her to get along. It would be so easy for them to just not see each other. It’s not like Eddie and Shannon are gonna hang out all the time now, after she’s better and gets back to her own life. All that’s gonna connect them after the divorce is Chris. So, really, Buck has no reason to want to get along with her beyond her staying here for now. They don’t have to be friends, and if it’s weird for a couple weeks, so what?

“Buck.” Eddie interrupts his rambling, his eyes softening. “I know what you mean. I- I kinda hoped you guys would get along, is that stupid?” he chuckles. And, well, it’s settled now, Buck has to make friends with her, doesn’t he? “Since you’re, you know, Christopher’s best friend.” he adds with amusement, and Buck beams. But then Eddie sighs and shakes his head. “And he’s so happy to have her around.”

“I noticed.” Buck smiles.

“Yeah. He loves being able to just go into another room and hug her, talk to her, have her help him with his homework, play games with him. Just have a relationship with her again. He’s actually-” he laughs. “He’s teaching her to play his favorite video games, and she sucks at it. So bad. He’s determined, though.” Eddie gets that look on his face he always gets when talking about Chris, so much love and fondness and adoration. It might be one of Buck’s favorite expressions of his. Not that he has any favorites, of course, that’d be weird. He’s not analyzing his best friend’s face and looks and smiles, and he’s definitely not making sure to remember every single one, mentally filing them carefully in the rapidly growing drawer with Eddie’s name on it in his mind.

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#seven sentence sunday #the alive shannon fic #shannon diaz #buddie wip #buddie fic #wikiangela writes #my writing #fic snippet #my wips #not sure how i feel about the ending of this bc they're not supposed to be in love yet but idk lmao #(also eddie is turning out way too open in the convo that follows this and idk how i feel about that either lol)#still stuck on one scene and it's driving me crazy that it's not done and im just moving on with the fic lol gotta get to it soon haha #also so excited to jump into this whole dynamic!! eddie trying to navigate it all and buck not knowing where he fits in aahhh

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lover-of-mine · 22 days

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your post about how eddie fell first is literally what made me follow you last year 😄

i know you said you’re enjoying the time before the show might… well, squash the theory… but you never know! it could be the reveal/pining/slowburn of the century!

what are your theories for if they don’t go that route? eddie didn’t know all along?

I love that you followed me through that post because I feel like that one really sets the mood for the madness you're about to experience following me kspakspakpakapaka

No but can you imagine, revealing that Eddie has been in love all along and aware of it for whoever long they decide (I know I say even all the way down to the lawsuit could work and that the shooting was his oh moment, but my guess if they ever went that route it would be post breakdown, like, he figures it out and accepts between dumb luck and starting over, so confirm he was pining during all of season 6) and then make Eddie canonically explicitly pine as Buck dates a guy who's literally him in a different font? What kind of fanfic bullshit would that be? I would die, like legit. Buck being bi almost made me call my psychiatrist to adjust my meds, Eddie being in love with Buck all along confirmed would put me in a psych hold kspalapalapopkspsk

That being said, if they are going there with buddie, which I'm 90% sure they are, since Buck is fully unaware of the Eddie of it all and Eddie is about to have problems with Marisol, you can have Eddie watch Buck with Tommy and be like "I want that", especially when it seems like they'll focus a lot on being soft and fun and something that just makes Buck happy, and then be like "oh shit do I want Buck?" Because they never really saw each other in a happy relationship, so that can absolutely spark something for Eddie and Eddie wouldn't need something as on the nose as being grabbed and kissed by Buck to realize he loves him, yk? So he can be longing for what they have, even more if he does break up with Marisol before he finds out Buck and Tommy are dating, and then have him be like oh fuck. Because even though I strongly believe Buck needs to make a move, the show needs to explicitly state Eddie's interest in Buck before that happens or else you risk people saying it came out of nowhere or it's just repeating the bucktommy start. Like, I wouldn't be surprised if there was something like Buck and Tommy dancing at the wedding, and Eddie watching them, and you just see the progression happen on his face (that Ryan would BODY because the way that man can make you feel exactly what Eddie is feeling without saying a single word amazes me) and then we enter a pining era that eventually would evolve into a mutual pining era and eventually getting them together. But my guess right now is not that Eddie is gonna be jealous, it is that he's gonna be longing, and that will lead to him finally being like oh! for real.

Fantasy scenario though, is the reveal that Eddie has in fact been aware of it at least throughout all of season 6, settled into the fact that Buck was "straight" and he had to move on, now has to pine as he watches Buck with a guy he has so much in common with, and not do anything about it again not because he thinks Buck can't feel the same way, but because Buck just doesn't want him and is happy, so he won't mess that up and take the secret to the grave. Especially if you consider the way you can totally frame the cemetery scene to make it seem like Eddie thinks Buck "broke up" with him (cemetery scene my beloved 🫶), you have him double down that feeling, "I'm still not what he wants, that doesn't change just because he's attracted to guys" and you have him try to figure out what to do with it since moving on didn't work he and he would want to be as supportive as possible because Buck is still Buck and he is his person and he wants Buck to be happy, all while trying to figure out how to be happy with himself, and while Buck and Eddie work on their friendship (talk boys, please, I'm begging). Then Buck and Tommy break up, Buck and Eddie almost die together in the finale and we have a buddie cliffhanger to close the season (drown Buck 2024 I will always believe you) and buddie get together at some point during the beginning of season 8.

Also, can you imagine the CHAOS if the show gave us bi Buck and buddie canon on Eddie's side within a week of each other after only 5 episodes in the network? We would LEGIT break the internet. And I would owe everything to abc lol

#but yeah #current theory is longing #911 #911 speculation #911 spoilers #buddie #buddie thoughts #i really need a tag for asks #anon 😌

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ofallthingsnasty · 2 months

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From the yandere alphabet, could you possibly do F, H, J, or N for Blue? Him and Bill are my favs :)

Yandere alphabet

Of course 💕 Blue is from this fic and my not-so-little beefy merman, you can find more yandere Blue here and here. For everything Blue, browse my OC: Blue tag.

tw. yandere, noncon, oviposition, f!reader, minors dni

Fight: How would they feel if their darling fought back?

Hurt, betrayal, disbelief, anger, annoyance - Blue feels a lot of things at once. But the only emotion that he will show is anger. Of course, he knows that what he is doing isn't sane, isn't consensual - he isn't delusional - but he thinks he is acting for both his and your own good when he takes you for himself. Blue is a lot older than you (which is only natural, considering that merfolk live longer than humans do and mature slower) and he sometimes gets a little cocky, a little condescending. To him, you're still so young and immature - especially when you tell him (fully aware that his last fertile seasons are approaching) that you want to put off having kids for another few years. He takes you out a sense of entitlement and hurt that you're suddenly 'breaking your promise', coupled with the 'I-know-best' attitude I mentioned above - so how does a boyfriend-turned-captor react when the love of his life is fighting back? It's definitely going to be a pile of negative emotions. When you dare to buck under his grip, to wiggle away from him or even try to hurt him - he'll go through a million thoughts in one second. But his pride is too grand to show you that it makes him sad, deep, deep down - the only thing that you will reap is acid, in hopes that it might deter you from acting out again. He can fix your relationship later, he thinks. Because you're more likely to see that he was right all along with a fat-cheeked baby on your arm. Hell: What would be their darling’s worst experience with them? I'd say that depends on you - as in, what would be worse for you? He isn't violet, but he is going to force himself on you so you can carry his eggs. He isn't going to isolate you forever, but he will definitely keep you from anyone and anything until your babies are a little older. So, what is worse? To get violated by your partner of more than a decade or to be all on your own because he thinks it's what is best for you? Which can you stomach better? That one singular traumatic event or the grueling years of isolation and solitude? Both are harrowing in their own right, though the latter might not be defined as a 'single experience'.

Jealousy: Do they get jealous? Do they lash out or find a way to cope?

Oh, Blue gets jealous pretty easily, even as his 'canon' self. Your worlds are so different - he can't follow you to land, only has you when you're at sea with him - and, as many men with big, great egos do, he has that little nagging voice in his head that tells him that you might just fall for another human because it's easier, more familiar. I didn't mention in 'at home', but you wear his bite on your neck for that very reason. He's trying to tell any potential suitor to back off. He's a biter in general, obsessed with leaving marks all over, to make it clear that you're taken. So when he gets jealous? It might just be the straw that breaks the camel's back. You tell him you need more time before having kids and he can smell some other man on you? That doesn't bode well for you. Trust me.

Naughty: How would they punish their darling?

Never physically, that's for sure. He will give you the cold shoulder, will ignore you, will get loud and desperate - but he won't ever hit you. Really, in his eyes he isn't even punishing you. He thinks that you're still in a relationship, even when he forced his eggs into you, thinks that he simply had to force you to see what's important. He thinks you're just arguing like couples do, that he's simply voicing his anger and frustrations. (The fact that there is now a considerable power balance between you is ignored by him.) So why would he hit you? He isn't like that, he loves you, don't you see?

#yandere teratophilia #merman x reader #monster x reader #terato #OC: Blue #tw.yandere #tw.noncon #tw.oviposition

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chevelleneech · 2 days

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I would also like to state, physically cheating isn’t the only form of infidelity.

Buck and Eddie may almost kiss or actually kiss (which I don’t really want, but can see the potential unfolding story if they do) but that doesn’t automatically mean they will start an affair or have done it with intent.

Neither Buck nor Eddie seem aware they have feelings for the other (if that is where canon is going) so them getting drunk off their asses and giving in to feelings they’re both unaware they have, is a compelling story based on how their friendship has gone all these years.

That said, an almost kiss or no kiss but one or both of them still realizing down the line they are in love with the other, while still being in a relationship with Marisol or Tommy, is emotional cheating. Yet people still want that.

Buck cannot in good faith stay with Tommy after he realizes he’s in love with Eddie, because he’s too involved in Eddie’s life. He helps him care for his kid. He breaks down whenever he’s in danger. They fought like a couple on the verge of divorce when Buck sued the LAFD.

Eddie can’t in good faith stay with Marisol after realizing he’s in love with Buck, because Buck helps him raise his kid. Buck is in his will to obtain guardianship of his kid, over all other family and friends. Including those who are currently or have already raised children. As well, in the middle of him dying, Eddie was more concerned with whether Buck was injured or not.

The two of them have too much history built up in just five/six years, for any other love interest to compete if it becomes canon that they are in love. So while I obviously don’t want Buddie cheating to be their origin, I am curious how all those opposed will justify either one or both of them being in love with each other, while still being with someone else?

Because again, this isn’t typical “I met someone else and we connected.” It will be, “I realized I’m in love with the person I consider my best friend, and I didn’t distance myself to try and get over him.”

Unless of course they do that, but even then… the storyline would have to address it. Unless they go the unrequited feelings route for one of them, how can they justify Eddie or Buck forcing themselves to stay with Marisol or Tommy, despite being in love with someone they have a deep history with? Despite being so in love with someone else, they have to upend their life to make it work? They can’t.

The only way it works, is if Buck and/or Eddie have their realization, then become single. Because there is no way to view their emotional unavailability to a partner you want them to not cheat on, as not cheating emotionally.

Now, I for one am here for emotional infidelity. I think it’s way more complex than a physical affair, but again, I can see how a kiss or almost kiss can also be interesting story wise for Buddie. Because it can lead to emotional infidelity, without Buck nor Eddie realizing that’s what is happening until it happens. But you know… folks don’t like any sort of storytelling that paints lovable characters in a bad light anymore. Everything has to be spelled out or done the respectful way, which I understand to an extent, but no one is this hung up about it regarding Hen. And she made an active choice to cheat, even if she regretted it.

That is also a storyline I don’t like, but again, it was compelling enough to not ruin her character. Why can’t the same be said for anything Buck and Eddie might do? Because them figuring out they like each other in a way they both would never want to happen means they’ll fight it harder and likely beg to be forgiven, despite not being able to shake this newly discovered want.

And that is not feeding into stereotypes about bisexual or questioning men. That is writing bisexual and questioning men, who happen to be best friends, realizing they're in love and having it fuck up their lives due to how long they’ve known each other, yet been oblivious to how deeply involved they’ve been over the years.

#911 abc #buddie

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matan4il · 11 months

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Would I have viewed the finale differently if I didn't know it could have been the last? It still would have sucked and I would have been bummed. Outside of the Buddie of it I don't know why they couldn't let one of them stay single. Especially the pandering way they did it.

As someone who chooses not to be in a relationship, I wish they would have normalized it. I was a bit of an oopsie to older parents and the very youngest to many siblings. As a result, I have taken care of them and a lot of nieces and nephews. But I love it!! It allowed me to go to school longer and get my dream job. I get to vacation when I want. Everyone knows I will be the one to take the kids on their first trip abroad. I love my life. It's a blend of selflessness and selfishness, and there have been people like me forever. I have always seen shades of that in Eddie and Buck. I don't see the need to force either to be in a relationship or even make them seem lonely. Either way, I still wouldn't have liked it because it was done poorly, I especially didn't understand the "why Marisol." It was lazy writing and unfulfilled at best.

Also, one other small thing. I do identify with them a bit also because it's like the butterfly effect. Maybe they would be completely different people if Eddie hadn't knocked up Shannon and Bucks' parents' cared. Maybe I would be different if I was first born instead of last? And that's OK to think, but also ok to still love the life you have now..

Hi Nonnie! Thank you for the ask and sorry it's taken me a bit to reply, I wish real life wasn't as intense... but I hope you're doing good! *hug*

I agree with you so much, not wanting to be in a r/s at any cost should be normalized. I'm SO happy for you, to hear that you have a good life and that you're enjoying it to the fullest!

I believe that having a family (a romantic partner, kids) has a different meaning to each person. I'm the granddaughter of Holocaust survivors, so what family is to me was very much shaped by what they taught me. To my grandparents, the family that they built was the ultimate victory over the hatred that tried to exterminate all of us Jews. Passing along their identity, their heritage, their values, as well as the memory of those relatives who had been murdered in the Holocaust, it was all a part of this triumph. That's on top of the significance of continuity through family in Judaism in general.

So I come from a very specific background, and even I recognize that what family means to me isn't a universal thing. Which is why it's very annoying to see that TV and movies often treat the subject as if there is only one way to be happy, and that is to find a romantic partner. Many times, it's tied to having kids as well, but almost always it's about settling with a life partner. And I think it's a harmful message, this idea of "one size fits all." More than that, I believe in certain cases it's so pervasive that some people try to stick it out in bad r/s, even abusive ones, due to the idea that it's better than to be alone. When it clearly is not!

That's why Eddie breaking up with Ana simply over the fact that he wasn't happy was so important, realizing that if his happiness was elsewhere, it's okay to walk away, that was so important. Like I said in this ask reply, they can still turn the storyline with Marisol (and for that matter, Natalia) into something poignant about Eddie (and Buck's) journey. What upsets me is the thought they might have actually wanted to leave it there, in that place where Buddie seem to be dating women just for the sake of dating once more.

Hope you have a great day! As always, my ask tag. xoxox

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"I feel safe with you" if it sparks joy 😊

“How did you know I was the one?”

Eddie raised an eyebrow, looking at his partner. “Are you really asking me that?” he asked, pressing a thumb into the end of Buck’s nose, making the younger man grin. They were lying in bed, the only light in the room coming from one of the streetlights outside, bathing their room in an orangey glow.

“Yes,” Buck wasn’t letting up. “You never told me.”

“I did!”

“No, you told me that you loved me,” Buck hummed, brushing his nose against Eddie’s. He was so soft, and affectionate, and despite how many months they had been together now, it still made an army of butterflies erupt in the pit of Eddie’s stomach when Buck touched him. He hoped he would never get used to it.

“Doesn’t that mean you’re the one?” Eddie countered. “That’s what its about, right? I love you – and you’re the one.”

“You can love lots of people in your life,” Buck shrugged. “It doesn’t mean they’re the one. What – what sets me apart from everyone else?”

Where to begin?

Eddie was – Eddie wasn’t the best at words. He was aware of this. He’d always been aware of it, frankly, because he’d been told it plenty of times – teasingly, from Shannon, who thought it was endearing in the beginning that he would stumble over his words and fumble and never manage to put words to his feelings. Harshly, toward the end, when Shannon would beg him to explain how he was feeling and he just – couldn’t.

He wasn’t the best with words, but Buck made him want to try.

The love he felt for Buck was like nothing he had ever felt in his life. That was the best way he could describe it. He had fallen in love with Buck, slowly, slowly, oh-so slowly, so slowly that Eddie hadn’t even realised it was happening until he looked at Buck one day and – oh – he saw the rest of his life and the rest of every other life he might life and saw Evan Buckley at the very centre of every single one of them.

Loving Buck was the most life-affirming experience of Eddie’s life. He understood why humans had spent their entire existence making art about those they loved, because – and he was by no means an artist – he sometimes wanted to do the same, because it felt as though the only medium he could explain his feelings through was through an explosion of colour: bright, and brilliant, a reflection of the way Buck’s love set every nerve in his body alight and reassured him that he was alive.

Loving Buck was the best fun Eddie had ever had. Buck was – he was silly, and funny, and he kissed Eddie awake every morning, and he told silly jokes and he made Eddie laugh until his stomach hurt. They went on dates, and went to the movies, and it was some of the best fun Eddie had ever had – and it was fun for him, not fun by association, not fun by osmosis as he watched his son laugh. No, this was fun for Eddie himself.

Loving Buck was – it was a beautiful thing. Eddie had been on quite the journey when it came to his sexuality, and the shame had been a hard thing to unlearn, but he had done and it and so now, he got to luxuriate in the beauty of his relationship with Buck. The way Buck made him feel, the way Buck’s hands felt on his body, the way Eddie’s mind went blissfully blank when Buck kissed him, the way Eddie’s heart settled in his chest when Buck held his hand – all of that was a beautiful thing.

Loving Buck was –

Safe.

Eddie had been scared, for so much of his life. Scared, when Shannon came to him with a positive pregnancy test that would change their lives. Scared, when he’d walked into that recruitment office and signed his life over to the US Army to try and support his family. Scared, when the helicopter went down. Scared, when the well collapsed. Scared, when the bullet ripped through his shoulder. Scared to go outside, sometimes. Scared, scared, scared.

But loving Buck, it had never felt like a risk, or something to be afraid of. When Buck had turned to him and quietly admitted that he loved Eddie, and he’d really rather like to stay forever, it hadn’t made Eddie nervous – it had made Eddie feel perfectly safe, and happy. He knew his heart was going to be safe with Buck, because it had been all along.

“I feel safe with you,” Eddie admitted softly. “That’s how I knew you were the one, Buck – I feel safe with you.”

Buck’s face did something complicated. “Do you?”

Eddie nodded. “Yeah, I just – I can’t explain it,” he admitted. “I just know that I’m safe with you. I think I’ve always known that – right from the moment you offered to drive me to Christopher’s school after the earthquake, so I could pick him up. Some part of me just knew that me, and Chris, we’d always be safe with you. That’s how I knew you were the one.”

Buck leaned in so quickly and unexpectedly that Eddie couldn’t help the noise of surprise he made when Buck kissed him. “I want to take care of you,” he said. “You know that, right? I want to be that person you can be safe with – because you’ve given me everything I ever dreamed of Eddie. A family, a home, someone who loves me for me. I can – I can be your port in a storm.”

Eddie smiled into the curve of Buck’s mouth. “I know,” he reassured. “That’s why I’m marrying you tomorrow, baby.”

Buck’s grin could have powered the Greater Los Angeles area. “Only twelve more hours until I get to call you mine forever, Diaz.”

Eddie hummed. “I was always yours anyway.”

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aramblingjay · 1 year

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A soft place to land Buddie, hurt/comfort, pre-relationship (3K)

After the tsunami, Buck isn’t coping well. Luckily, he has Eddie.

ao3

Every muscle in his body aches. He’s so tired he could probably sleep for weeks, if the thought of closing his eyes didn’t bring its own set of horrors.

Nightmares are nothing unusual in their job, but this is different. This is a waking, breathing, living hell until he sees Christopher for himself, yellow-striped shirt and brown hair and big smile, still unflappable and eternally resilient and entirely in one piece. Watching Eddie hug Chris settles something in his chest that’s felt out of place all day, and he takes a deep breath for the first time since he was standing on the pier seeing the water swell in the distance.

The kid is safe. Eddie is safe. They’re going to be okay.

He collapses into the arms of the crew he trusts with his life, lets them shepherd him through drinking water and getting checked out by a nurse (“you’re all clear, I’m prescribing you a long shower and an even longer nap” was her assessment), unable to make any more decisions after a day full of knowing the wrong choice could be the difference between life and death.

Between Chris’s life and death, which he didn’t know was more important to him than anything else in possibly the whole world until today, when it seemed hope was lost.

You may wanna check over there at the black tent. He never, ever wants to go through a moment like that again in his life. Even the echo of the words, still running in the back of his mind like a bad soundtrack he can’t turn off, curdles his stomach something sour.

Chris is light itself. The light of Eddie’s life, for certain. The thought that that light could have been snuffed out, because of his carelessness, is one that will haunt him forever.

But it’s okay. Chris is okay. He can apologize to Eddie over and over and over and over and over again, and hope that one day they might be okay too, because Chris is alive and well, and Eddie has the biggest heart of anyone he knows.

If there’s anyone who might forgive him, even when he doesn’t deserve it, it would be Eddie.

“Where are my glasses, dad?”

Chris’s voice cuts through the fog of his thoughts, and Buck glances over at the makeshift bed next to him. Chris has already been medically evaluated and cleared, but Eddie’s bandaging up a cut on the kid’s arm that must have come from something that happened when they were separated.

Buck tries not to think about how much worse it could have been. He tries, really.

“Buck has them, mijo.” Eddie glances over at him. His eyes are, impossibly, warm. There’s none of the disgust or disappointment he’s still expecting to see—just an exhaustion Buck understands, and a frenzied relief he understands even more. “I think he was keeping them safe for you.”

He was clutching onto them for dear life, more like, wondering if this would be the only thing he’d be able to give Eddie of his kid, but keeping them safe sounds much nicer. If only he could have done the same for Chris himself.

“Here, buddy, I’ll put them back on you,” Buck offers, rising. The world spins around him for a second, but he steadies himself and manages a smile. It’s easy to put on a brave face for Chris, when Chris is the bravest of them all.

He kneels in front of Chris, ignoring the way it pulls at every single one of his aching muscles, and lifts the glasses from around his neck. “There you go.” He slides then onto the bridge of Chris’s nose and swallows away the lump in his throat when Chris gives him that wide, trademark smile.

“Thanks for keeping them safe, Buck,” Chris says sweetly.

If his eyes are glassy, he can only hope Eddie hasn’t noticed. “Of course, buddy.”

He’s not Chris’s dad. Right now, he’s not Chris’s best friend or even Chris’s dad’s best friend. He’s the guy who took Chris to the pier the day of a tsunami, lost him in the water, and was all but ready to tell his dad he was dead before some kind of modern miracle brought him back to them.

Eddie probably doesn’t want him anywhere near his kid anymore, and Buck can’t even fault him for it.

But he’s going to miss Christopher something fierce.

Buck watches Eddie curl his fingers under Chris’s chin, gentle, so gentle, and turn the kid’s head left and right, inspecting for any other injuries. There don’t seem to be any more, thankfully, as Eddie pulls away with a satisfied nod.

(If he could’ve done his job right, Buck thinks with shame hot in his belly, there would’ve been none at all)

“Alright, I think Chris is all patched up and good to go,” Eddie says, ruffling Chris’s hair before turning to him. “How about you, Buck, you ready?”

To leave the pier behind? Absolutely. To go home to an empty loft and stare at the ceiling all night as images of bodies floating facedown in the water flash before his eyes until dawn? Hell no.

But he nods anyway. “Yeah, let’s get out of here.”

God, he’s so tired.

His car and his keys are probably in the same place his phone is, out in the ocean along with the belongings of half of coastal LA, so he follows Eddie to some pickup point where a bus arrives to take them back into the heart of the city. He can’t find the energy to pay attention to where they are or where they’re going, just dutifully trails behind Eddie and Christopher like a third wheel, safe in the knowledge Eddie won’t lead him somewhere astray.

Right from day one, he’s been sure of that.

They get on the bus (Buck in an empty row and Chris next to Eddie, so close he’s practically in Eddie’s lap, which Buck doesn’t begrudge because if he could he’d be doing the same). Buck doesn’t remember falling asleep, but all of a sudden he’s being woken up by a warm hand on his shoulder (Eddie’s hand, as if he could ever fail to recognize that very familiar shape and pressure) and the scenery outside has changed from field hospital tents to the familiar streets of downtown LA.

“Here?” he asks, groggy.

Eddie huffs. It’s not an irritated huff, just patient and a little amused, and Buck wonders again how he got so lucky to have the kindest man in the whole world for a best friend. “Yeah, Buck. Come on.”

They get off the bus and start walking. Eddie’s carrying Chris in his arms, so Buck holds Chris’s crutches—he can keep these safe, just like the glasses, he’s good at that at least—and follows along. He’s so focused on putting one foot in front of the other without keeling over that it takes an embarrassingly long time to realize they’re headed firmly in the direction of Eddie’s apartment.

The turn to his loft was two streets ago.

Buck says nothing. He can stay with them until they reach Eddie’s apartment, and then take the path to his own afterward. It’s fine. It’s fine.

Something about the thought of losing sight of them right now makes his chest constrict, and he doesn’t bother to examine it any more closely than that. He has the whole rest of the night to comb through every single one of his thoughts in excruciating detail to the tune of his ceiling fan in his ear.

They arrive at Eddie’s apartment, and he knows this is where they should part ways. I’ll see you tomorrow. I’m so sorry. I’m glad you’re okay. These are the words he should find, and say. Now. Before making the climb to Eddie’s floor, before toeing off his shoes at Eddie’s door, before collapsing bodily on Eddie’s furniture.

But Eddie says nothing and neither does he, and he’s sprawled on Eddie’s couch downing his second glass of water before his mind feels clear enough to form any words at all.

“I should go,” he starts with, because that feels safe. And true.

Eddie snorts. “If you mean to bed, then yes. You should. You look exhausted.”

“What?”

Eddie looks at him with those big brown eyes—warm, still warm, where is the anger?—and says, like it’s a fact, “You’re staying, Buck.”

He could get all the way to 7.0, but there is no version of Buck that can say no to Eddie when he looks at him like that. “I guess I’m staying,” he repeats, a little incredulous, because he’s tired and he nearly got Eddie’s kid killed today and anything Eddie is willing to give him is more than he deserves.

“Now go shower. I’m gonna put Chris to bed.”

“Can I—” he stops. He’s lost the right to ask for things from Eddie. He never had the right in the first place, not really, not with Chris.

“In the morning, okay?” Eddie reads his half-formed question perfectly because that’s the kind of thing Eddie does. Knows him, gets him, somehow. “I promise in the morning,” Eddie adds, as though he knows Buck’s about to spiral. “If Chris sees you now he won’t want to let you go, and I don’t think either of you are up for that right now.”

He wants to protest, but once again Eddie’s right. He loves Chris, would do anything for him, not least stay up another hour or two playing crab to his barnacle, but really all he wants is to shower and lay horizontally on a surface softer than the deck of a fire truck.

“Okay. Thanks, Eddie.” For knowing what he needs better than he does. For letting him be around Chris after everything. For looking at him like that, warm and gentle and kind, like he didn’t go and nearly ruin the best part of Eddie’s life today.

“Shower. Go.” But Eddie’s voice is soft, the corners of his mouth curled the way they always are when he’s making a joke, and Buck smiles all the way to the bathroom when minutes ago even breathing felt hard.

Eddie has that effect on people. On him.

Turns out making it to the bathroom is easy. Getting in the shower is hard.

He turns on the spray, and the rush of water is like a thunderclap in his ear. That’s how the swell sounded, the second time. That’s how he lost Chris. That’s how—

He turns off the spray.

Buck takes a very long, very deep breath, and methodically strips out of his clothes. He’ll burn them, as soon as he finds a lighter and a space large enough. He never wants to see this shirt again.

(He might have to burn Christopher’s, too, if Eddie will let him. He spent so long searching for any sign of those yellow and white stripes that the imprint is burned in his mind, and the thought of seeing Chris in those colors again is enough to make him want to heave up his guts)

Logically, he’s aware a shower is very different from the open ocean. He’s not going to drown in Eddie’s bathtub. Chris is warm and dry and safely tucked away in bed. Eddie is just down the hall.

But his brain is too tired for logic. He steps into the bathtub, takes another deep breath, turns the water on again—

And then immediately lurches back so fast he nearly slips, pressing himself flat against the tiles so the water hits just the tips of his toes before swirling down the tub drain. The cold ceramic feels a little too much like the deck of a half-submerged firetruck for his liking, but moving means stepping closer to the cascading water, and that isn’t happening.

More deep breaths, in and out and in and out until the room isn’t spinning all around him.

It’s just a shower, but he can’t do it. The thought of feeling another single droplet of water on his skin is actually, physically sickening.

“Buck, you okay in there?” Eddie’s voice comes in through the door. It’s muffled by the wood, but Buck hears the tentative worry loud and clear.

How long has he been standing here? Feels like seconds, but Eddie wouldn’t be checking up on him if it was seconds.

“I’m—uh—” I’m fine. He can’t force the lie past his lips. They don’t lie to each other, as an unspoken rule, and it feels even more important to adhere to that today, when he’s worried he might have broken just about everything else.

“Can I come in there?” The same worry. It would feel smothering coming from anyone else, but this is Eddie.

“Okay.” Buck’s agreeing before he can think about it. They’ve seen each other naked before, hazards of working 24-hour shifts in joined-at-the-hip proximity, though never like this. Never outside the fire station, never for more than a few fleeting seconds.

The door opens. To his credit, Eddie’s eyes meet his and stray no lower.

(Not that he was worried either way. There’s no one he trusts like Eddie)

What’s going on? Eddie’s face asks without his voice having to chime in at all.

“The water—I can’t—”

He feels like a child, but Eddie’s expression softens immediately. “Oh, Buck.”

“It’s fine, I’m fine.” It’s not a lie, not really. He is fine, he just cannot take a shower.

But he really needs to wash this day off somehow.

“Would it help if I—” Eddie doesn’t finish his sentence, and Buck doesn’t wait for him to before he’s nodding. Eddie helps. Anything with Eddie always helps, and he can’t imagine it’ll be different this time. “Okay. Okay, hang on.”

And then Eddie is pulling off his uniform until he’s in nothing but boxers (another day, another context, and Buck might have actual thoughts to think about the miles of Eddie’s skin on display, but mostly he’s just trying to keep himself upright) and stepping into the bathtub behind him. Between him and the bad, bad water.

His eyes linger on the St. Christopher chain around Eddie’s neck.

He’s never asked for the story behind that, although he’s certain the kid sleeping two doors down is hugely involved.

The thought makes him want to cry.

“Alright, turn around,” Eddie says softly, interrupting the dark tunnel his mind is barreling toward, and Buck obeys without thinking.

Eddie washes him. Scrubs his skin with soap, gentler than he’d ever be with himself. Catches handfuls of water from the showerhead and splashes them across his torso and legs to rinse away the suds, never forcing him to step back into the spray. It’s easy to stay present with Eddie’s fingers warm against his skin, so different from the cold and wet that defined every second of the tsunami.

“Hair, too?” Eddie asks eventually, when everywhere else is clean.

Buck considers it. His hair is a damp, dirty mess, and he’ll likely regret it tomorrow if he doesn’t wash away all the grime, but the thought of dunking his head under any kind of running water right now feels like too much.

“How about we just rinse it?” Eddie offers when he doesn’t say anything.

Eddie knows what he needs better than he does, sometimes, so he nods.

“Trust you,” he replies simply, and doesn’t think he’s imagining the way Eddie’s next exhale actually shakes.

“Alright, here it comes.”

He braces himself, but it’s just Eddie’s handfuls of water again, painstakingly filled under the spray and then dumped on his head, small enough quantities each time that it never feels like anything close to the tsunami waves.

Or maybe that’s just because the water is falling from Eddie’s hands.

Eddie does that over and over and over and over and over and over again, rinsing his hair one handful at a time with the patience of an actual living saint, running his fingers through the curls between each scoop to help more of the dirt fall away, until he feels something close to clean from head to toe.

“It’ll need shampoo and a good scrub later, but that’s good enough for now, I think,” Eddie declares.

“Good enough.” Buck feels better than he has all day. He has no idea how long they’ve been in here now, but the water running beneath his toes started out hot and is even colder than lukewarm at this point, so he knows it’s been a while. “More than good enough. Eddie, I—how do I—”

“Don’t finish that sentence, and we’ll call it even. You’d do the same for me, Buck. Hell, you already have—you saved my kid.”

Saved? That isn’t quite how he’d describe it.

“Eddie, about that—” This isn’t the right moment, but there’s never going to be a good moment to tell Eddie, so. Better do it now, before Eddie offers him even more help that he’s too much of a desperate, lonely coward to refuse.

“We’ll talk in the morning, Buck, okay? Just—I left some clothes on the counter. Put those on, give me a second to shower, and then let’s sleep. Alright? It’s been a long day. Anything else can wait until tomorrow.”

Eddie’s giving him an out, and he takes it with both hands. (Like he said—desperate, lonely coward)

“I can take the couch,” he offers, half-hearted. The thought of an actual bed sounds better than heaven right now, but this is still Eddie’s house. He’s not really a guest, but he’s not quite a bedmate either.

“Don’t be ridiculous. You think I’d make you sleep on the couch after the day you’ve had?”

Letting him sleep here at all is something of a gift given the day he’s had, which involved putting Chris directly in the path of a natural disaster and then losing him to the clutches of said disaster within the span of a few hours, but Buck doesn’t say any of that. Doesn’t think he can string together that many words even if he wanted to.

“Plenty of room in the bed, Buck. I don’t bite or kick, c’mon.”

“I’ve been told I snore,” he says stupidly, because he can’t think of anything else.

“I’m so tired I would probably sleep through a second tsunami right now,” Eddie retorts, and Buck chuckles despite himself. Always with the slightly bad, slightly too-soon jokes, that’s Eddie.

“Point taken.” And really, he might as well stop looking this gift horse in the mouth and just ride it as far as it’ll go instead. “Thanks, really.”

He towels off and slips into Eddie’s clothes as Eddie takes what must be the fastest, most unsatisfying shower known to mankind beside him. It’s not that he’s watching (not that he even can with the curtain pulled tight), just that showers under two minutes can’t be anything but perfunctory. By the time he settles on the side of the bed that isn’t Eddie’s, refusing to think too hard about why he knows which one that is, Eddie’s already pulling on sleep clothes himself.

The clothes Eddie laid out for him are soft against his skin in all the right ways. Eddie’s sweatpants are a little short on him (another day, when he doesn’t feel like he’s gone seven rounds with a heavyweight fighter and lost every single one, he’ll find the words to joke about that), but the oversized ARMY sweatshirt fits him just right, and he’s never felt comfier in clothes that weren’t his own.

Even in clothes that were his own, really, and that’s another thing he doesn’t think too hard about.

It’s easy, when any and all thinking kind of hurts.

“Comfortable, Buck?”

“Mm-hmm.”

He closes his eyes. The bed is so soft, and sleep is so close, that he’s half-drifting before the lights are even out.

Eddie must flip the switch a minute or so later, because the yellow-brown haze behind his eyelids fades to pure black. Buck hears the padding of feet across the floor and feels the dip of the bed as Eddie gets in, but doesn’t bother to open his eyes again. The nightmares are sure to wake him up soon enough—might as well get as close to sleep as he can before then.

“Whatever happened today was not your fault, Buck. I need you to know that,” Eddie says quietly after a few minutes, and Buck’s eyes fly open.

“I thought we were talking tomorrow.” He doesn’t mean to sound accusing, but this is not a conversation he wants to have in Eddie’s bed wearing Eddie’s clothes, with Eddie himself less than a foot away.

“We are. We will. But I know you, and I’m sure you’re already working out how to make an actual natural disaster entirely your fault, so. Stop blaming yourself.”

“You don’t even know what happened. I—” Turns out he’s actually not as opposed to having this conversation as he initially thought, because he can’t stop the words that have been running around in a loop between his ears from tumbling out. “I lost him, Eddie.”

“I know you,” Eddie counters, steadily, without a moment’s hesitation. “I know you would’ve done everything you could to keep Chris safe. If you got separated, then it’s because there’s nothing you or anyone could’ve done to prevent that.”

“Eddie—”

“My kid thinks you’re a hero. All he could tell me when I was putting him to bed is that you saved so many people, saved him. That’s how he sees it. And that’s how I’m gonna see it.”

Is he crying? He certainly feels like crying, throat scratchy, eyes burning.

“So stop thinking and go to sleep, alright?” Calm and measured, the way Eddie always is, as though he hasn’t just flipped Buck’s world on its axis. “I promise we’ll talk more tomorrow.”

Buck doesn’t know what to say. I know you. It sounds like a lot like three other words, ones he hasn’t thought about anyone besides Maddie in a very long time. But maybe. Maybe, with Eddie.

“Okay?” Eddie asks.

His voice is utterly gone, so Buck just nods. There’s absolutely no way Eddie can see it in the darkness, but he huffs like he somehow has anyway, and Buck feels so, so, so seen. Eddie sees him. Eddie has always seen him, even in total darkness, even when Buck could barely see himself.

“Good night, Buck.”

He finds his voice. “Night, Eddie.”

And finally, he sleeps.

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what-do-1000-swords-look-like · 2 years

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9-1-1: 6x01

Rewatching the episode again.

I think it's interesting that:

in the blimp emergency, Eddie is the one that has to figure out how to do the whole balancing act, being the last to leave

that Lucy was injured (Arielle might be really injured, I'm not sure tbh) and taken out of the rotation temporarily

during Lucy's convo with the 118, we see Eddie on one side of Bobby asking Lucy a question, then Hen asking Lucy a question (taking Eddie's place) with Chim appearing on Bobby's other side, both Hen and Chim speaking at the same time then Chim on Hen's original side speaking to Bobby, then Buck appearing on the side Chim had originally been on and asking Lucy a question (with Eddie in the frame, further back) - framing

the moment Buck asks Bobby about Interim Captain, both Chim and Eddie take notice, then go over to lighten the mood

at Buck's apartment, during thee scene, Buck asks Eddie if it bothers him that neither one of them were asked to be Interim Captain (he never thinks of Chim or Hen)

the beer they are drinking has the word "genuine" on it with the label facing Eddie; we Buck drinking from his bottle with the label once again visible

the linking of the "couch" to the Interim Captain convo and then the linking of the couch to the girlfriends; like Buck says "So what does that have to do with being fire captain?" "It's weird"

Buck saying it only took him 3 tries to get the lasagna with 6 different types of cheese right; Maddie thinking the 3rd time would be the charm for her to finish the movie with Chim

Coffee, coffee, coffee - here we have Bobby, Chim, and Eddie drinking it while talking about Chim hooking up with Maddie the night before after they've been broken up - we've seen Bobby and Athena drinking coffee together, Chim and Maddie...yet I don't think we've seen Buddie drinking it together yet, always separate butttt coffee was emphasized for Eddie in 4x06 with Ana (as being a bad thing for that relationship) & in the same episode we saw Buck also burning his tongue on the last drips from the coffee pot

Fire Marshall Buck makes a reappearance (once again syncing up but contrasting slightly with 4x06 as well as 5x02)

is it a coincidence that Hen is named Interim Captain where Buck really wanted it and Bobby tells him he'll make a great Interim Captain one day as well, and in the same season we get Henren Begins?

Bobby explaining to Buck that he needs more life experience before being ready to be a good leader and that leading to Buck mentioning his lack of a couch, once again linking it all together

"I guess I've been having trouble picking one out. I think I'm afraid of making a mistake again." Bobby's response is to mention what he's learned in AA, about being able to be alone and at peace and ease; "And then you'll be ready"

Christopher trying to beat Eddie again at the game they played at Buck's -> trying again theme (just like with Madney in this episode as well as for Bathena trying to take their honeymoon as well as the golf ball emergency)

Right after the Diaz scene, we get Buck in his apartment deciding to put his single-seat recliner thing in the place of where the couch would have gone (and notice the lights on galore in this scene; also with the Diazes) and sits down in it, giving it a shot

So I think Buck has some work to do on himself before he'll be ready to give another "couch" another chance. Season 5 was all about confronting his trauma and doing work on himself for Eddie. Now in season 6, we see Buck on one of the last legs of his journey relationship-wise, needing to be content with himself before taking the next step.

And I can't imagine who that next step will be with...

#buddie #buck x eddie #evan x eddie #buddieposts #911 fox #911posts #911 6x01 #episodethoughts

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I could absolutely be tin hatting here but it kind of feels like Oliver is trying to keep people focused on the endgame. I mean he's like yeah Buck Tommy is cool and fun but THIS is my soulmate. Especially when he's been careful not to give Buddie fans false hope in the past.

Well, if this is tin hatting, count me in. I have the exact same feeling and I've had the exact same thought.

He actually stopped posting anything about Buddie for such a long time because he didn't want to give false hope. Now he's just 'Buddie this, Buddie that' all over the place, while freely liking fanart and official ABC IG posts and pictures that feature Buck and Eddie.

It might also be to prepare the general audience for this storyline. Most of them watch each episode once and move on. They don't dissect every single interaction Buck and Eddie have. This way, they introduce the idea of Buddie slowly and gradually warm them up to the possibility of them getting together sometime in the future.

Next to that, if Buck and Eddie's story is going into the direction I suspect it's going, they'll also start adding little clues in the storyline. Things that tip off the audience that, while on the surface everything seems fine (Buck dating Tommy and Eddie's relationship with Marisol), something very much Buddie-oriented is brewing underneath.

Because of all the press and media attention this story won't feel like it just appeared out of thin air. People will understand that there is a long history there and the show is finally ready to explore what this means for Buck and Eddie. It will just be a natural progression of their relationship. Something Oliver has actually talked about in his many interviews.

It's all coming together so beautifully and organically. Can't wait to see what's next.

#buddie #eddie diaz #evan buckley #911 abc #In all honesty; I don't think this is tin hatting anymore #this is real #and it's happening #happy days 🤩

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SaL anon here friend and I'm glad I got my rage ask out yesterday because there is soooooo much good OG stuff to talk about!! Never thought these are things i'd get to say but Buck getting lightninged and Eddie screaming his name as he climbs up the fucking ladder to save him feels like fucking Christmas (bonus if he does it over Bobby's orders)!! We are gonna live on Monday, i can feel it. I scheduled my check-up that day so I have an excuse to be useless, no idea what I'll come up with for

Tuesday yet. And apparently I'll need a plan for the next week too since we're then getting coma!Buck imagining he was never a firefighter!! So here's some hopes/speculation on how this plays out. I definitely feel like we're going to get an appropriately traumatized Eddie in the first of these episodes (especially if he has to tell Chris), but maybe not as much in the 2nd (though if they don't take this chance to finally work in a Eddie and Maddie talk I'll riot) since it's KR, who the aftermath of Eddie's shooting was a perfect time for BT to get together (meaning I'm keeping my Buddie expectations tempered). But that doesn't mean there aren't other things I hope for. First, we can FINALLY get Maddie out of dispatch and interacting with the firefam. Even better if the Buckley parents are there and everyone just glares at them. As for the coma dream itself, i'd love it if this became a chance to refocus on Buck and Bobby's relationship. Hear me out, Buck might change his dream career but he can't change his childhood or how his parents act. So i'd love to see moments of Buck's dad being proud or giving advice in his dream it it comes out wrong, or goes against the things Bobby would say and Buck pauses and feels it's off somehow. Hell i'd love for the dream to have weird funhouse mirrors of everyone (like Maddie has a not-Chim husband who everyone says is funny but Buck just doesn't get why) but i'd really love to take the comparison between Bobby and Buck's dad specifically. And if this isn't what finally gives us some realization for Buck about happiness, and what that really means to HIM, I'll declare the writers and KR incompetent because the setup is RIGHT THERE. I won't speculate about how this could tie into that other thing, we are taking the next two episodes as a win!! Plus we have some new SaL songs coming and I can't wait to see if we can use them so good luck to us surviving!

Me, seeing your ask pop up and getting ready to indulge in some good old fashioned 911 feels:

Like, what is even happening right now?! We are getting fed?! So well?! I don't even know what to do with all the excitement! I am going to be distracted Monday but I know I'm gonna be absolutely USELESS on Tuesday. If I was working at home at least I could pretend I was getting work done and not on my phone all day. No such luck anymore! 😭 At least my data will be back and I won't be yelling "let me iiiiiiiin" to my phone screen as ever screen takes 10 minutes to load.

So I'm also trying (and failing, badly) to manage my expectations re: Buddie because we KNOW KR hates those on-screen interactions and conversations and the 2 that came out of the shooting were not her idea to include. And honestly we have been begging for a Maddie/Eddie conversation since s2! It's tiiiime! If not now, then when?! I'm ready for it!! I'm also ready to see the firefam at Buck's bedside FINALLY which we haven't gotten since Bobby in s1 and even that had really weird "are they gonna put Bobby and Abby together?!" vibes. Still eternally baffled at what TF Carla was doing there to talk to Maddie instead of literally anyone else in the firefam who just rescued Buck. ANYWAY. Moving on.

I am DYYYYYYING for some Buck/Bobby father/son goodness and this whole situation better fucking deliver. That dynamic has always been one of my favorites and I HATE that s5 told us Buck called Bobby to watch Eddie but didn't SHOW us a single instance of Buck and Bobby talking about what was going on with Eddie. Jail. So I'm also hoping for some Bobby stuff around this whole situation and if it can contrast Buck's own parents? Even better. And I know we're all talking about Bobby but whooo boy do I want to see a reaction from Athena too. GOD if we get coma dream mixed with present day and get to see each of the firefam talking to Buck at some point?! Hearing them all call him "Buckaroo"?! I'm going to eat DRYWALL.

I'm resolutely NOT thinking about that other storyline because that does not spark joy, but I'm VERY interested to see what Buck learns about his life and the secret to happiness through all this. As for songs, I'm begging for "In Another Life" to give us the Learning Curve discussion of our dreams because it's RIGHT THERE. And as low as I'm trying to keep expectations, they cannot have Eddie screaming for Buck and putting himself in danger to rescue Buck and NOT give everyone ideas so.....*manifesting 6b 3rd party confession*

Cheers my friend, we are not ready for this!!

#my sweet nonnie friends #sleeping at last anon #911 #911 spoilers #buddie #evan buckley #bobby nash #firefam #this is a buckley parents hate space #just give me ALL of the good firefam scenes!!#i have missed seeing our team be the family they are and the talks they used to have #i am READY for the show to course correct after 6a #i'm managing my expectations for the season as a whole #but i do think we are going to get at least a few REALLY special episodes here at the start #3 more days!!!#*aggressively chews glass*

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okay i just saw love and thunder and i need to get some things out. spoilers alert yk the drill

first of all i’ve said this in the tags a couple reblogs back but MY GOD don’t go see this movie if you want to see an action movie or worst a serious movie. this is not what this is. idk about you, but when i’m considering paying 15 bucks to see a movie i kinda want to know what i need to be looking forward to and L&T gave exactly what it said: an unserious, ridiculous, weird, corny ass lovecom that will allow you to turn your brain off for a little less than two hours and have fun

literally they described the plot as “imagine if you put a bunch of kids in the writers room, asked what they wanted to see in a thor movie, and then said yes to everything” and that’s what we got! why are you having a fit on twitter!!!!!!

ANYWAYS besides that it was really fun!! the room i was in was very open to the corny kiwi humor, everyone was laughing the whole time and even when it got cringey it was more funny than annoying and we all had a great time (im thinking of the “fake bad acting” choice in the directing but again i’m familiar with taika’s work so it didn’t bother me but some might find it upsetting)

AGAINNN its not the height of cinema and its not supposed to be. would i have liked more character development for val? yes absolutely this was my main hope so im a bit disappointed. but also i understand that there are more thor movies coming up and this one was about thor and jane and bringing closure to what we knew had been a serious/long-term relationship that just?? ended off screen suddenly. so i am hoping val is getting that next time and im not too worried about it

though you can’t take this away from waititi: the movie was really fucking pretty (yes ik a few wonky green screens but even actively looking for them i barely noticed besides the War Baby Flashback)

like hello the second face-off with the villain was insane???? christian bale is a crazy talented actor and i loved the video game-ish vibes it had (although ik my friend was kinda put off by it) but it was actually one of my favorite scenes

actually yk what the thematic of love was refreshing as hell… the fact that the antagonist had it against selfish and unresponsive gods rang with me and it was nice to see thor acknowledging that although he had very much been like that, he’s working on himself to be better

choosing to admit you’re defeated and just choose to pass ur last moment with your loved ones rather than fighting a loosing battle? how the movie treats important and heavy themes such as a loved one fighting a deadly illness, wanting the best for them and yet NEVER making choices for them… choosing love over hate always

again some people have HATED the last scene but guys? although i was not expecting it, it actually makes sm sense for thor. all he’s ever wanted was to take care of smn/someone, but the position he was given (crown prince then king) was just too much pressure on him and he just knew too well how utterly unfit he was for the job, and well although he could have grown into it, it was just not in the cards for him with the whole thanos disaster/ensuing depression

with this new development, he gets that AND stops this long cycle of loneliness and self-doubt he’s had going on for literal years. here he can’t doubt that he’s loved and needed, cause he now has a literal child in his custody that very definitely both loves and needs him and he CANNOT doubt that and thats so good for him and his confidence i think. also that single interaction was so fucking cute and natural are you kidding me??????

bonus points for the fact that it also allows him to grieve in a more healthy way because again, he can’t take care of a kid if he can’t take care of himself. no more brusso brothers alcoholism bs we’re in a healthy household now!

we knew it but val’s sexuality was confirmed and so were gay rock dads (squared)!!! and it felt damn good since last time we got that was with phastos which made me tear up a bit in eternals lmao

still laughing thinking about the gd goats

THIS WAS A MOVIE FOR KIDS!!!!! and that was so wholesome. yeah it’s a movie for kids and by kids too since the actors’ kids were all included both in the writing and monsters designing process (and featured in the movie too!) and i think it’s great that little kids out there can watch this movie and go huh i too can be a hero! it’s alright if i’m scared and it’s normal but i can do anything! and thats what heroes comics are about babeyyyy

might be repeating myself here but gd yall threw a fit because marvel was boring and yall wanted smn different and now you’re like “TOO DIFFERENT TOO DIFFERENT!!!” like pls go touch some grass its a fucking marvel movie it couldn’t be LESS deep

if, again, the movie was all about lame jokes, when it got to heavy scenes it did it very well. a few people got choked up during the final showdown and the scene just before it. and i think it takes talent to have people switch from hilarity to sad tears so organically

unfortunately the after credits scenes did not do it for me. although the prospect of bringing in greek mythology is cool ig, after seeing so many cool looking gods in that one scene i was like 1) zeus could have stayed dead actually 2) hercules is not the most exciting option but again? benefit of the doubt…lets see whats gonna happen…… also pretty sure the second post-cred was just waititi being like ‘aw fuck they killed heimdall? >:(( fuck that hey idris mate get ur ass on set’ bc it served nothing lmao but hey! not complaining about seeing heimdall one last time!

anyways yes thats about it for now!!! might add some later if something comes to mind but otherwise i’ll resume this with: if you have two hours and 10 bucks to kill, go switch off ur brain and watch thor love and thunder

#i got a bit upset about the marvel bros throwing a tantrum on twitter again can u tell lmaooo #thor love and thunder #thor lat #long post #thor spoilers

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