Here's a sad thought.
You know how titan shifters take the memories of the previous one? So, when Armin ate Bertholdt and took the colossal from him that means he more than likely saw the memory of what happened with Marco, and didn't say anything.
Not to Jean.
No one.
YEAH! THIS IS ON MY MIND CONSTANTLY 😓
24/7 RENT FREE
I say this to everyone I know who watches AoT and I believe it wholeheartedly.
Thank you 🥲 I think about this fact so often and I have so many headcanons about it!!!
Here they all are beneath the cut, I hope you like: 🥹
I reckon Armin would have had flashes of it, felt so sick, picked up Bertholdt’s lingering guilt, and then been utterly torn between telling Jean and keeping it to himself.
I think Armin and Jean are close, particularly so after their planned kidnapping in season 3. I think Armin has always reminded Jean of Marco, and I think a small part of Jean knows that Armin means a lil more to him because it’s the last shred of Marco that he feels he still has.
Marco and Armin were close. They were both smart, inquisitive, caring individuals that wound up being the ones keeping their chaotic friends in line. He might be short, blond, and lack the freckles Jean loved, but Armin is as close to Marco that Jean has - and Armin knows that too.
After Marco’s death, Armin notices how heavily it’s impacted Jean, and he reaches out. Extends an open line, lets Jean know that he’s there for him if he ever wants to talk - really talk.
After their planned capture in season 3, after Armin kills to save Jean’s life, after Armin’s sacrifice in Shiganshina, he’s torn.
On one hand, Jean was closest to Marco, was the one who took his death the hardest, the one who sees him and mourns him more than anyone else. Jean is the one who keeps Marco’s memory alive, he’s the one that fights the hardest to keep Marco from becoming ‘just another comrade we’ve lost.’
Jean has said “he died all alone, without anyone knowing or seeing.” Armin knows the circumstances of Marco’s death kill Jean, rock him to the core.
Armin knows Jean is the one who deserves to know the truth more than anyone.
But Armin also knows the other side to Jean.
Armin knows Jean feels the weight of every death. He knows Jean wakes at night, hands clamped over his ears. He knows Jean’s sketchbook is full of sketches of Marco, and he knows they’re becoming less and less accurate as time goes on.
He knows Jean would fall into a hole, so to speak, if he found out the truth. He knows Jean would need answers, he knows the fury of it all would compromise Jean in the field.
When they reach the ocean, he almost says something. They aren’t in immediate danger, it’s been over a year, they have their answers. Logically, it would be the best time to say something.
But he sees Jean with Conny and Sasha, sees their smiles, the carefree way they laugh as salt water twists their features. And Armin realises… he can’t do this. He doesn’t have the heart to sit Jean down and explain that his best friend of three years was held down and fed to a titan by three of their fellow cadets-turned-traitors.
Murdered. He can’t tell Jean that Marco was murdered. He just - he can’t do that. It’s hard enough seeing it himself when he closed his eyes, he can’t tell Jean and subject him to that truth.
He doesn’t need to fuel Jean’s nightmares by giving him more context. He isn’t going to be the gasoline to Jean’s trauma-fire.
He can tell the truth when they’re stable again. When Paradis isn’t under threat, when there’s peace and hope. When Jean has the time to heal without fear and uncertainty dancing over their heads.
Then they go to Marley. Then Eren leaves. War is declared. They’re fighting for their lives. Again.
Then Reiner and Annie are honest.
And Armin is reminded why he didn’t tell Jean when fists start flying and Jean ends up in the woods with his hands over his ears.
But he thinks maybe things will be okay, when Jean saves Reiner’s ass as they hang from Eren’s ribcage.
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2 characters that give off the same kinda vibe, from my tmnt nerd perspective watching b99’s terry reminded me of rise raph
they both look scary but r actually like the sweetest ppl ever, (trying to) keep things together, both have a food they rlly enjoy (raph: pizza Terry: Yogurt), like working out
I don’t know how this came to my mind but they’re a little similar and i just wanted to get that out of the soup in my brain
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soup series: making a soup that phil lester would probably hate every [most] week(s)
ARE YOU A SOUP LOVER? DO YOU STRUGGLE TO THINK OF SOUPS TO MAKE DESPITE YOUR LOVE FOR THIS DELECTABLE LIQUID? LOOK NO FURTHER
I already meal-prep every week and I fucking love soup (and I make it all the damn time too), so why not post my recipes
Some will be random recipes from the internet, some will be classics that most people have had, and some will be creations from my head that I have no idea if they will be good or not
Starting mid-January, I'm going to try and post a soup recipe whenever I make soup (I don't know how long this series will be and maybe it'll only be one post lmfao). Feel free to drop suggestions or requests into my inbox and I'll add it to my list .. this also helps me meal-prep when I'm lacking in the creativity department
Enjoy my soup recipes I hope that people enjoy and make them too.. if you make a recipe plz tag me or something I want to see (again.. I love soup). I'll be tagging these with #nikki's soup series if you'd ever like to go scrolling through what I post
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"you've contradicted yourself 15 times in one conversation, what point are you trying to make?"
all of them, I hold 3 different opinions at any given moment and they're all using the same line of thought and colliding with each other like bumper cars. it is a battle to the death and the stupidest take wins.
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