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ahamkara-apologist · 6 months

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it's also wild because like. Mara Sov is outright manipulative. she outright says she has plans to kill you if you go astray. she has plans to kill everyone, actually. she gets information she has no business having just to do that even iirc. meanwhile Osiris is a stressed out gay old man who is trying to save everyone except himself.

Okay I WILL defend Mara here and say that while she is a manipulative bitch, yes, that's actually a good thing to have handy. The Young Wolf is fucking dangerous and so are many in the cast of Destiny, so having contingency plans to kill people as needed is kinda necessary (just look at Eris in the dark future). But Mara is out here playing games of 4D chess with the Witness and the likes of Savathun- she needs to play god like that because it's basically her job. The major issue with her is the fact that she doesn't know how to NOT play puppetmaster, and takes it into her personal life- what she did to Uldren was a prime example of that, and while I have many thoughts on why that is, the fact of the matter is that Mara is a person who does what she needs to do with the coldness and cruelty of a deity because that is the niche she's carved out for herself and what she needs to be to ensure the survival of humanity.

Osiris, on the other hand, is NOT playing 4D chess with the Witness- he's a soldier, a defender, a blade. And not only that, he acts the way he does because he's driven by anxiety, paranoia (well-placed paranoia too!), and the fact that for the longest time, he's been alone. He was outright exiled from the Last City! He was alone in the Infinite Forest with nobody other than Sagira and his own mind! That's a lot of centuries to be by yourself, and don't forget that those centuries were preluded by social isolation from his peers and betrayal beforehand. Osiris operated the way he did because his OCD had him constantly running on the assumption that the worst-case scenario was going to happen, and he had the experience from his time as Vanguard and his subsequent exile to show that not only did nobody believe him, they also didn't take it seriously (or took it too seriously) and wouldn't help him with it. Like, no fucking wonder he's always running around acting like he's the only person who's taking things seriously and throwing his all into solving the problem. His mind is hardwired to assume the worst and he has proof that people will not help him with it (though LF has him confronting that)

Like, I myself have OCD, and those repetitive thought spirals are no joke. Imagine that you're confronted with a problem, and your brain automatically jumps to the worst-case scenario for that problem. If you've gotten cognitive therapy for that, you know this isn't the case, but knowing doesn't change the fact that your mind is CONVINCED that the worst case scenario WILL happen, and it will get lodged to the forefront of your mind with all of its gory details while you try your best to ensure that it won't occur. Doesn't matter if you have to shift to doing something else- that fear, that worry, that will always be right in front of you. Meds and cognitive therapy have worked for me on that, but Osiris doesn't have those, and on top of it- he's got prophetic visions! I can't IMAGINE how awful that would be to deal with!!

That's also why his character development after Sagira's death is so big imo- as tragic as it was, Sagira dying for him forced him to really slow down and realize that rushing into things without thinking about his own safety harmed others, not just himself, and his subsequent reminder of his own mortality forced him to be reliant on others instead of refusing to let them help him. Part of why he was so impatient and brusque in Lightfall was because he had to rely on the Young Wolf and Nimbus to deal with an issue that he considered his own, and while it didn't go exactly as planned, I think that's also why he's softened up significantly since then. That, and him being unable to rush headlong into things and to just sit and enjoy his time with Saint (which he never allowed himself to do before because if he had the Light, what was his excuse for not fighting the Darkness) helped him tremendously. It forced him to face his flaws, learn that he could rely on others, and to slow down in life, and he's been doing much better as a result of it.

Osiris has only ever harmed others by completely disregarding the harm that he did to himself, and recent events in the story have forced him to reflect on that and change it. And maybe by being a bit of a blunt, extremely-honest ass that nettles sometimes. That's pretty much the extent of his flaws imo

#destiny 2 #osiris #osiris destiny #he really is just so very good at heart #he simply is not nice and that is the problem #anon #reply

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cheese-water · 8 months

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I can’t believe the Qsmp is at this point now where I don’t want Slimecicle to login. Selfish, I know, but I have my reasons why I don’t want him to appear. For him to see the ruin the server has fallen into while he has been gone. For him to realize why there’s so much destruction. Why the people he once called his friends, family even, are unrecognizable. Why there’s a cloud of grief looming over every inch of the island, not just his house anymore. But worst of all, I don’t want him to find the solution to all his problems.

The Pills.

An easy way to regain your happiness after life has fucked you over again and again and again? A painless procedure to get rid of the apathy lodged in your fucking chest, slowly consuming you whole? A one-way ticket to forget all that shit that was bothering you in the first place? A chance to see Flippa again? It’s a dream come true! This is what Slime wants—not to heal, not to move on, not to deal with therapy and the feelings and paperwork that comes with it. He wants to be happy again. And the Federation’s treatment is quite literally his perfect medicine!

Almost too perfect...

What if the Federation had originally created the medicine Slime and it consequently worked on the other islanders? But wait, no, that doesn’t make sense. If the pills were made specifically for Slime, then why wasn’t he prescribed them? I mean, there would be no reason not to; the Feds were never particularly fond of Gegg given the rampant threats of arson. So why are we seeing them now? Or, a better question: why did the Federation create them in the first place? How were they able to have the pills on hand in case of mass hysteria and the destruction of the island?

It’s almost as if the Federation had the perfect control for their experiment. Someone who initially grieved not with tears or deals or a shoulder to lean on, all of which would come later, but with a wrath so volatile it could tear the server in half. Someone who’s parental rage could only be quelled through resurrection, a feat never to be taken lightly. Someone who would be their worst-case scenario if their ire were ever directed towards them.

It seems as if the Federation was prepared for the worst-case scenario. The antidote to an islander’s worst qualities; best taken when vulnerable. And it’s all thanks to Slimecicle! Without him, who knows what the Federation would have done with our favorite melodramatic president? Everyone is a cog in the machine, whether they know it or not! :)

If Slimecicle realizes this, I’m not sure whether he’ll survive the weight of the guilt on top of what he already forces himself to carry. Therefore, what you don’t know can’t hurt you.

#qsmp #slimecicle #charlie slimecicle #qsmp federation #AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #no matter how long he doesn’t stream #I’ll always have slime on the brain #In both sense of the word slime my brain is becoming goo #on a completely unrelated note I miss slimecicle #I don’t think I can handle the heartbreak but qsmp stream when? LMAO #og cubito babyyy I will never let you fade away #not while i’m still around overthinking literally everything and writing it down for some reason #yadda yadda I love unindented parallels and foreshadowing #it’s what I live off of #:D

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duckandrobin · 6 days

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Touch Starved

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Chapter 1: First Touch (Yeontan Being a Matchmaker)

Your therapist thought that exposure therapy was your best treatment option, and though you were unsure, you had still found yourself sitting on a bench at the dog park, hoping that the thirty minutes you spent would be undisturbed. You thought you might get lucky, as the park was mostly empty. You could see a man playing fetch with his small fluffy dog, another man with a Doberman that seemed less interested in toys and more interested in tackling him, and it was otherwise empty. It was hard deciding to take your therapist’s advice and go in the first place, but the anxiety of being in a dog park without having an obvious reason (a dog) to be there made you feel even worse.

You only had five more minutes before you could call today a success and head home, when the little fluffy dog’s ball landed just past you. As it came sprinting in your direction, you weren’t worried because you weren’t in its direct path, but, unfortunately, that speeding ball of fur noticed you as it got closer and decided you were much more interesting.

You yelped as it changed course slightly and jumped directly onto you and started licking where it could reach to get your attention. You became frozen as your worst-case scenario came true. As you gently pushed it off and away and tried to stand up quickly to get away, its owner had caught up and was reaching towards it with a flurry of apologies. You collided with him and fell back onto the bench, and he landed awkwardly on top of you. This day couldn’t possibly get worse.

“I am so sorry! He doesn’t mean any harm! Tannie just gets excited!” He explained as he pushed himself back up to stand and scooped up what must be ‘Tannie’ into one of his arms, as the dog continued to wiggle excitedly.

“It’s fine. I knew something like this could happen. I should have prepared better for it.” You were so embarrassed and internally panicking over what happened and how you needed to get home that you just wanted to move on as quickly as possible. You went to get up and he went to grab hold of your hand with his free one.

“Let me help you----”

Warm. It was so warm. It felt he’d built up as much static electricity as possible in his hurry over and zapped you with its full force. You yanked your hand back and took the opportunity to get up and squeeze past him while he remained frozen with his hand still outstretched.

You turned slightly back towards him, who was still frozen and staring blankly at the bench. “It’s okay, really. Don’t worry about it. I’ll be fine. Have a good day.”

The goodbye finally prompted him to restart. “Wait-wait!” He looked confused for a moment before he seemed to steady himself. “Shouldn’t we exchange numbers, or I can walk you wherever you’re going? We should probably talk! Yeah, yeah. We should definitely talk.”

“Why? Your dog didn’t actually hurt me, not physically, so I’ll just go home then.” You started walking towards the gates of the park and heard his hurried footsteps give chase a few moments later. He gently touched your shoulder which was exposed in your tank top. The warmth came back, and you turned back towards him, he looked frustrated, maybe even angry.

“You don’t feel that?”

“The warmth?”

“Yeah! Yes! The warmth! We need to talk.” He paused, unsure. “You know what it means, don’t you?”

You were fidgeting a bit as he looked expectantly at you. “It’s hot today, so contact would be warmer unless you had colds.” He started shaking his head and started reaching towards your hand which now had a bright purple patch of splotchy skin, and his fingers had the same. It finally hit you. “Oh my god. We--- Oh my god.”

“You get it! I was worried that it was going to be some kind of one-sided bond for a minute there. God! That would suck. We should talk or something though.” He finished reaching towards you and his fingers had just brushed yours when you flinched and backed away. He had been staring at your hand and looked back towards your face at the action, you had gone pale, so pale you almost looked like you’d be sick. He was about to reach towards you when your eyes rolled, and you crumpled.

It was lucky that Jungkook had finally noticed the commotion and came to check on Taehyung, as he was able to drop Bam’s leash to catch your head just before it hit the ground.

If Taehyung weren’t so worried, he would’ve laughed at Jungkook’s bewildered face, but instead he crouched next to the two of you and checked your pulse. God, it would really suck if he had managed to scare his soulmate into having a heart attack and dying. It’d be the worst luck possible, as not only would he lose the one person that would best complement him, but he would also be doomed to die of touch starvation. The first contact between soulmates activated a “switch” in their brain, he would have a few weeks before his body had gone through digestive transmutation fully and made him dependent on her touch, but if she was dead then he’d just starve and join in her the afterlife. There was no going back once you’d touched one another. It was almost fortunate that less than 10% of the world’s population ever found the soulmate, otherwise many more people would succumb to touch starvation, either because they brushed their soulmate in a crowd and lost them or because one had died.

“Taehyung. What happened? Is she okay? Who is she?” Jungkook was calmer than he was, but to Taehyung who was becoming overwhelmed quickly, it felt as if he was shouting. “Hey, are you okay? What’s going on? Should we call someone?”

“She’s—” He cleared his throat; it was so scratchy that he almost the urge to itch at it. “She’s my soulmate. We-we had our first contact at the bench, Tannie jumped up and scared her. I went to help her up and… she’s my soulmate and she just passed out when I was trying to talk to her.”

“What?” Jungkook looked around a moment, before gently scooting you away from him and into Taehyung’s arms instead. “I’ll make some calls and bring my car to the gate. You stay here and keep an eye on her. When I get back, then if she’s awake try to get her to come with us and if she’s not then I’ll help you carry her. She’s breathing, so we probably don’t need an ambulance. You got it?”

“Yeah, yeah. I got it. You go.” His heart felt like it was going to beat out of his chest, god, he was so excited to meet her and now he was terrified. How had things gone so wrong? Was she scared of him, was it still fright from Tannie jumping on her, or was she afraid of being his soulmate? He really hoped it was about Tannie, sweet as his puppy was, he’d rather she was just so terrified of dogs that she passed out, rather than her being that afraid of him or their new bond.

#fanfic #fanfiction #bts #reader #bts fic #bts fanfic #bts v #taehyung x y/n #taehyung x reader #taehyung x you #fic

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sweetpapercroissant · 8 months

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Saying Sam never stood up for himself or stopped doing it after s4 or that soulless Sam was the only one who did (I’ve heard this one way too many times) is such a discreditation of his character. If you really think that, you either watched the show blindfolded or you’re willfully ignoring a very important aspect of his personality.

One of the most admirable things about him is that even though he made a biblical (hehe) mistake, he doesn’t let that define him for the rest of his life (and that is so so important). He doesn’t doubt himself and his judgment constantly the way most people wish he would because we’re so used to the self pitying and flagellating archetype of main (especially male) character. I mean if he isn’t constantly bashing himself how will we feel sorry for him right?

Except he’s not the kind of person who feels sorry for himself let alone wants anyone else to. Hell he was clashing with Dean and Bobby for not trusting him (unfairly at times, it’s not like they didn’t have their reasons and he had violated their trust, no matter who think was “wrong” in that scenario) in s5 itself. He stands up for what he believes is right whether that’s a moral or a strategic decision, and he has never and will never let anyone walk all over him. More importantly? He stands up for himself and then he stands his ground, always. Period.

Almost every episode he and Dean have some kind of disagreement, small or big, and he always, always puts his opinions out there and they have a discussion (although that is a mild way of describing some of their earlier er, disagreements) and while the outcome may differ every time, he’s not one to back down if he thinks he’s right. And these discussions aren’t the “healthy conversations” with therapy talk and both of them constantly saying “I hear you and your feelings are valid” (and why would you want them to??) that is the uh, “demand” these days (lot of air quotes there) but they do listen to each other and give the other the benefit of the doubt, or even just their reluctant agreement up to a point. But if he isn’t convinced by Dean’s argument he’ll do what he thinks is best even if that means going behind his back.

And they get better at it, these conversations and being honest with each other but ultimately, Sam is not one to be forced to do anything he doesn’t want to. If their disagreement is too big or (in later seasons) they simply trust each other enough, they also go their separate ways (briefly, of course) to pursue their own leads (3.15 Time Is On My Side and 12.04 American Nightmare off the top of my head) (also noteworthy that in both cases, Dean is the one who realises and agrees that he was wrong and comes back to Sam).

What I’m trying to say here is that, Sam accepting and learning from his mistakes and learning to listen to and trust Dean’s judgment in addition to his own is not the same as Sam losing all his resolve and self efficacy and around 75% of his personality and becoming a meek, obedient doll. He’s Sam fucking Winchester.

#thing is neither sam or dean is the ‘i feels so bad pity me’ character #but i see this so much with sam #supernatural #sam winchester #sam and dean #characterisation #sam meta #.txt

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hozaloza · 4 months

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Cool little predict/scenario (spoilers ig)

What if the group escapes with the help of the Crane group (except Ashlyn ig... she'll be going through some shit with Maverick kind of staying by her side, evil or empathy idk), and each kid is with the Crane Group member who matches them the best: Ashlyn- Maverick

Aiden- Mr. Thomas

Ben- Blondie (that is, if he does get his name drop, btw I'm gonna consider a character having a name mean they are important to the story)

Taylor- Jasmine

Tyler- Ryan

Logan- Alex

And they're all just kinda on the run from the bigger organization. I like to think each kid has different feelings based on who they got with.

Ashlyn is stuck in this strange comatose phase, following phantoms around to figure out how to get out of this sleep. She senses Maverick nearby but can't do much about him. Although, she senses strange calmness every time he's around (He's speaking comforting words to her, hoping she could hear them, and let it be known he's there for her... omg uncle figure y'all?? FOUND FAMILY AU BABY-). Maverick is just sort of sitting by Ashlyn, observing her to see when she'll wake up, wondering why he came to this point in life (redemption arc baby).

Aiden doesn't trust Mr. Thomas at first, refusing to believe he and him are similar. But after some exposure, he finally understands the similarities, and feels seen by the teacher. They do... a lot of stupid shit while on the run (All those poor billboards man). Thomas also has to keep Aiden close to him in case the phantom tries taking control. Although he does treat Aiden to skateboarding and cool events (which they half the time end up having to leave early because Crane members)

Ben is hesitant to talk to Blondie, not wanting to speak to him. But he notices how Blondie doesn't really look like he wants to talk either, but forces himself to so he could communicate important information either way, and starts to slowly communicate with Blondie (with paper). They bond over the fact that they both don't like communicating with their voice, and Blondie thought giving Ben some speech therapy could help him out. He works with him often, while they relax in calming picnic spots or fields.

Taylor literally will refuse to talk to Jasmine the first 3 days, both out of fear and frustration (She probably has PTSD bc of this woman). Jasmine won't force her to talk, simply asking questions that require head nods or shakes. After 4 days, Jasmine gives Taylor a nice little trip to the Mall Of Georgia, seeing if there was a possibility to contact her brother (who was with Ryan) so they could talk after so long. She let her roam a little bit, with a good amount of cash to treat herself. Taylor does some shopping, not really having fun since she was alone, but she overall got a good change of clothes, meaning she didn't have to wear Jasmine's stuff anymore. While exiting from the food court, she stood there for a second, observing a group of friends having a fun time, not having to go through the hell she was in. She pulled the hood over her head, just wishing things could go back to at least the simpler times. However, she was unaware of the fact that a Higher-Up crane was attempting to sneak up on her. But luckily, Jasmine had been driving up the car to the entrance and planning on waiting for Taylor, when she saw this. Without thought, she drove full speed and hit the Crane Member. Taylor was caught off-guard, and realized what had been happening. "Get in!" Jasmine yelled in a panic. Taylor quickly threw her bags inside, closing the door, and Jasmine sped off. [Side note- Some kids who knew Taylor recognized her, and it spread around the school like crazy]

Tyler is straight up being sassy with this man. Insulting his bald ass head (Insults is his coping mechanism fr), and not really cooperating half the time (Phantom is starting to affect him, so). Although, when he is calm, he generally learns about Ryan, and they discuss about their similarities (Like them being both Hispanic, although Ryan is also mixed Vietnamese). He takes Tyler around the state, giving him a little break from the madness, also making sure he has a safe place to be at night for when it hits 12:00am. (He took him fishing once, safe to say he's never doing it again.)

Logan already got along with Alex, so he's just discussing about plans to get back with the group. However, Alex encourages him to take breaks every once in a while, by taking him stargazing on multiple occasions. He also does calming activities with Logan, like touring museums or having nice little snacks by ponds. They also grow close to each other, treating one another like family (FOUND FAMILY AU BABYYY)

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Yes, Taylor's was kinda long. I thought of this concept bc of her, let the child have it. Anyways, hope you like this little ramble I had that actually involved all the kids 💪💪 Bye bye (Prob more coming soon, lmao I'm gonna go insane this hiatus. Red hope you're doing good though, take a break if you need it)

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t4tsurge · 4 months

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With the various scenarios we’ve had of Sonic being understanding and respectful of Whisper’s boundaries and him saving her wisps, I would LOVE to see a scene in which Sonic is not doing okay (preferably after a rematch with Surge goes wrong and she breaks him emotionally because as much as I want her to get therapy I want her to make Sonic need therapy much more) and Whisper offers to stay with him in case he needs anything.

And at some point, he just… lets it all out. He sobs directly onto Whisper’s shoulder, staining her cloak with his tears, but she doesn’t mind. She knows what it’s like to have your whole world fall apart and she’s willing to be there for him in his darkest hour, just as he was there in hers.

I know it'd never happen in canon, but I'd love to see Sonic finally break down. Between getting captured in Forces, the metal virus, the entire Overpowered arc with Surge and Kit, and then cyber corruption in Frontiers, Sonic has been going through it and refuses and refuses to take a moment to breathe. And while I feel like Whisper might not be on the best terms with Sonic for a bit after putting Surge and Kit on the Diamond Cutters, I think it'd be very fitting for her to offer Sonic a shoulder to cry on after he was so understanding of her baggage.

#sonic the hedgehog #whisper the wolf #asked and answered

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kirbylord · 1 year

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i like the patient because it was a character study about a serial killer who wanted to get better but never committed enough to actually do anything to stop his violent tendencies. it was also a character study about a jewish therapist who, in all his introspection and determination to help others, never looked into himself at his flaws, never realizing maybe he was apart of the conflict happening within his family.

and focusing on the basic premise of the show, the patient is about a man who wants to help others, and is forced to help someone who deep down, doesn’t want to get better. and as time goes on, as alan is separated from the outside world, stuck in a small room with only a few things to pass the time and his anxiety and thoughts, somehow starts to relate to a serial killer—someone who, societally and morally, isn’t supposed to be related to.

i loved that each character felt like they had depth, they had lives outside of the story, and things they cared about even if it wasn’t directly related to the plot. while i of course don’t support sam, i am fascinated by stories that delve into the types of people that are often flattened down to monsters or stereotypes. also, i enjoy seeing relationships build in the worst of scenarios, when otherwise there would be no relationship there.

alan comes to not only care about sam, but likes him. and sam seemed to genuinely like alan as well. but the entire situation was forced upon alan from the beginning and really, all it was was a survival mechanism. he wanted to live. he wanted to go home. something that, no matter how much sam could be helped, he could never grasp. sam always put his own feelings first, and his mother was complicit in his crimes.

unfortunately i didn’t like the ending, because neither alan or sam had an ending that fit where the story was taking them. for alan, i think he deserved to leave. he survived so long and made a connection with sam, i wish sam had either let him go or alan escaped. and for sam, i don’t understand the ending for his character (is he planning to be chained up in the basement for the rest of his life? that’s never going to continue forever. he has a job and without alan there to help him, his mother would probably just convince him he should be free anyway). i guess the best ending would be alan going to the police and sam getting locked up.

however, i was almost hoping that sam would let alan go willingly (because they built a relationship over that time and have some level of trust in each other) and alan would either go to the police or he would keep quiet in a misplaced effort to “give sam a chance”, which is mostly just a function of his stockholm syndrome and desire to help people. maybe sam wouldn’t kill anymore (or maybe i’m just too optimistic). maybe they would continue therapy. maybe sam would go to an institution or something. maybe he would turn himself in to proved he’s changed.

i can see why sam didn’t do any of that (his selfishness and fear) and maybe it would be more in character for him to lock himself up, since it shows he’s changed in some capacity, but still isn’t an entirely good or different person (because that is basically impossible to expect from someone who barely tried to get better). however, in any case, i do wish alan had survived. i think he deserved it.

#the patient #the patient fx #i’m not sure my idea of the ending would be satisfactory either #but i still wish we got something better than just alan dying and sam being unpunished and basically free #i have conflicting thoughts about the ending #i still need to think about it

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silentmoths · 2 years

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I saw your Sneznaya punching bag character and you mentioned her being in multiple yandere stories so I got curious; Which of those stories do you consider the most damning to the OC and which one was the, well idk if I can call it best scenario😂😂😂 hahaha but, least painful or damning one to her?

Also, I saw your drawing of her with horns! My mind is thinking of many ideas but it’s mainly wondering if a yandere Zhongli would force her to become an adeptus? 🗿💀😭

And finally, how’ve you been? :3 I hope you’re doing well recently ♥️💕

*cracks knuckles* OH BOY BUCKLE UP BECAUSE MIL DOESN'T HAVE A VERY GOOD TIME.

General OC ramblings below, dark, honestly if her scenario's get any worse I might have to start tagging her as dead dove like, yeesh.

So, alot of the scenario's she's been put in? all follow a very similar path and then branch out, she's always a fresh face in Liyue, new administrator at the bank who catches Zhongli's eye and awakens a very jealous, posessive dragon.

Always ends up getting yoinked and for a good long while, believes Zhongli really IS looking out for her best interests, he's kind, affectionate, a little firm when he has to be (to keep her safe, of course!)

alot of these scenario's also include @ainescribe's KNY crossover OC Mochi, who also happens to catch Zhongli's eye because 'ooo that outlander is cute but also very naive let's see where this goes'

Can guarentee the 100% best case scenario is them both escaping, and actually returning to...well, essentially Japan. Mil wasn't expecting to go with them but honestly she flourishes there; no scary dragon gods chasing em down, no judgemental parents, just some goddamn PEACE.

Now, worst case scenario's... hm.. well the scenario of Mil aiding mochi's escape from Zhongli, and staying behind as distraction comes to mind, because there's an off chance that Mochi either does not survive, or ends up mortally wounded, and Zhongli is an ass and tells Mil they're dead, which breaks her completely and she just...loses hope and ends up stuck as Li's little treasure forever.

Now depending on how bad that break is? If it leads to her becoming suicidal, Zhongli takes action and forcibly turns her into an adeptus so A: she cant fucking kill herself (honestly darling why would you ever do something so foolish-)

B: can stay with him forever.

however, for context behind that one lil picture of her with the horns?

Actually came from one of the better scenario's.

Mil ended up falling into the abyss sometime after childe, gaining similar powers but also a touch of memory loss, she doesn't remember falling into the abyss until a knock to the head jumpstarts things. She does some...pretty horrible shit and comes to regret it later.

Shy as she is and with the anxiety that everyone knows she was the cause of a whole lot of bad shit finally gets to her and she chugs an adeptal medicine made specifically for Zhongli to help purge him of abyssal energy she had forced into him as a form of revenge.

she nearly fucking dies of course, and has a very bad time, in order to stabalize her, Zhongli,who had seen the error of his ways and wanted to do right by mil, throws some of his own adepal magic into her to help stabalize her body as it comes off of it's reliance on the abyss.

poor kid. she really do be needing some therapy.

ALSO IM DOING VERY WELL, work is picking up, insomnia is at an all time high but eh, shit b like that

#Moth is not silent #silentmothasks #silentmothwrites #moths characters #sorry mil you really do deserve better

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clarks-letterman · 4 months

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Wally anon: Oh noooo @ your phone dying. 💔

Oh, there's gonna be SO many, I did not. anticipate how much I would respond to it, so thank you very much for convincing me to watch. 🙌 Yup, the movies never make a good case of it compared to past movie geek characters (especially Kirby, who I still find to be THE ultimate movie geek of all). The fact she's making such blatant accusations of people would get her instanty. killed if the writing knew what it was doing (cause it's already prevented her from being in the finale twice dkfdk). I weirdly enjoyed her more in 6 cause I think Jasmin was able to enhance the humor more + the relationship between her & Anika was >>>> Absolutely agreed on Chad, though. His & Tara's relationship is incredibly. forced cause they go from having z e r o interactions in 5 to suddenly being all over each other each other in 6 cause the writers wanted to rehash Gale/Dewey without putting in the work. 🙄 I don't even want. Chad to die, but they reallyyyyy keep pushing the boundaries of the franchise's own.rules. with wounds just because "Dewey kept surviving" (even though, no, 5, Dewey was not. stabbed as many times as you make him say. he was, you are inserting a false narrative to excuse your bad writing) while making even worse. mistakes to excuse Chad's perpetual survival. 💀

(Completely makes sense cause his ego dkfhd) Yessss you get it. You really. have to get forceful with him & that just turns him on harder & makes him moan louder cause he needs. it, he needs. you to make him cum. 🥴

lolllll just you wait, cause you're about to get the biggest individual request dump I've sent so far. 🫣

Tell me about it. 💔 True, though. Like the direct opposite of ~aversion therapy~ where they have to watch gay sex until they don't hate gays anymore kdhdjs. Yupppp & they'd be fighting the entire time over which end of you they were carrying. Ridiculous fr.

That's what you think @ not much of an AU. But I've got a request inbound. 👀

And Milo would've been SO. good at being a killer. You can just feel. he has a more villainous character just itching to come out with more roles & I can't wait for the day we get to see it. 😭 Ooh @ first. I can't really recall who exactly mine was cause there were a l o t of ~gay awakening~ moments for me that didn't fully. dawn on me until later lollll. Fingers crossed @ IAWK. There's a REALLY hot guy in it that I haven't stopped thinking about since I saw it, so I wonder if you'll end up feeling the same. 🫣 The writers are too cowardly to see what's staring us all right in the face, but WE all see the vision. 🙌 (It's kind of funny how I ship Steve & Tommy more than Eddie even though Tommy b a r e l y existed on the show & then when you throw Billy into the mix, that just creates even hotter scenarios/pairings/possible polyamory among the 3, like dhdkdkd they reallyyyy dropped the ball doing nothing with all this juicy material 🫠) I used to like the OG more than I do now but the last time I watched it (when Spiral came out), I was like, "Oh...I don't think so, sorry" fjdkdb. But II > III > VI > X > OG > Spiral (the portion of the franchise that I find tolerable) > 3D > V > IV > Jigsaw (all varying degrees of terrible to me)

That makes sense. I know they had been working on it for sometime cause people kept asking for a UD follow-up for years, it's just unfortunate that it doesn't quite. live up cause the a m o u n t of work that went into UD is still readily apparent all these years later. 👍 Yupppp, exactly. Very much the same principle as when straight/white/etc. are similarly presented as the default. 👎

(Happy belated bday 🥳) I see, I see. Hoping for the best with you expanding your skills. Always fun to give something new like that a chance. 😌 Absolutely agreed. He is VERY accommodating (in both regular interactions & while fucking), but is completely comfortable with his body, as he should be! 🤫 (Oh? What do you have in mind @ another AU 👀)

Happy to be of service. 🫡 You'll have to let me know what you end up watching. Of course @ the festivities. Hope you have fun. 🥰 And thank you. ❤️❤️❤️ lolllll, if only 🫣

yeah i remembered mostly everything but it was like 5am while writing it so i didn’t even see the percentage my phone was at😭

Yess of course🤭 happy to help fuel the fire for Milo’s characters😮‍💨 And exactly!! Kirby is the movie geek of Scream. no contest. I genuinely like that she fits the role but is also her own character in other ways. She pursues a (fake) love interest, we see her house and her personality as a movie geek is tested (and she is proven to be wrong towards the end.) Which is muchhh different than randy who felt like this invincible God at times, helping Sidney with his over the top knowledge of the movies (even more so when he literally goes with her to college and all). Plus, he’s so intense about them that it’s almost comedic. Yeah, her and Anika’s relationship was definitely good in 6, I just wish they didn’t use Anika as one of the only “major” deaths of that movie😭 I totally agree with Chad, he survived these major bleed outs and gets stabbed so much, yet Dewey was stabbed less and to a lesser severity and died?? Insane.

Yes ugh he’s never cum hands free without you there to turn him into a total mess (literally once he cums and keeps going)

Love how it started at number 25 on today’s date.. it’s perfect🫣

Yeah I joke about it because straights obviously pushed conversion therapy on us at one point so it’s funny to joke about doing to them. Make them watch infamous videos such as “right in front of my salad??” and the pumpkin carving one (it’s straight but cropped so they only see the guy sksjsj) Huh… it seems like the only way for them to not fight is to let them both have you…🤭

Can’t wait to read it😼

Exactly! I kind of saw it in Wally because it’s supposed to be a mystery and there are times where he feels almost apathetic to Maddy’s issues, especially when she’s so concerned with the human world that she forgets about him and the rest of the ghosts. I like that they didn’t make him the “villain” (since they’re multiple) but there were layers there that could be expanded in his other roles. I can’t wait to see him finally act as one🫣 maybe in a thanksgiving sequel… one day.. I’ll watch It’s a Wonderful Knife first then!! Exactly, Tommy > Eddie just saying. I found him to be more interesting and having better, hotter dynamics with Steve and Billy over Eddie. Honestly, Saw I has the worst rewatch ability out of any Saw movie because it’s not a fun gorefest like Saw II and beyond, and the twist isn’t really all that crazy after you know what it is. It ends up feeling boring but I can appreciate it🫡 Jigsaw being last is so real. It had potential going into it but the twists suck and the first guy “dying” in that room with the buckets on their heads and the saws made me realize I was going to have some sort of problem with it.

Yesss and it feels like less work went into developing the characters in TQ (even though Jacob is my favorite for being the most flawed of the bunch), there isn’t the same level of quality that UD has. Presentation-wise, it’s better and I found less technical glitches during my multiple playthroughs of the quarry, but yeah… still feels really flat. Yes ugh i hate that “reader” is synonymous with White/straight/female (usually those three specifically) and anything else needs specification. It’s weird that POC in general (or the race) needs to be specified regarding the reader but White doesn’t… i just wish reader could mean that anyone from any background could read it fr

Lmao three months until my next one! He’s super comfortable, he’s taking skinny dipping over bathing suits and would play football in just the gear he needs (no tight pants limiting movement yk) For the other AU I meant that he’s like the only ghost there and/or he’s like your personal ghost so he doesn’t have to bother putting clothes on

Thanks! Hope it’s great for you too!!🖤🖤 I’m seeing the requests come in already and they’re sooo good😮‍💨 Yeah maybe with one bow, some whip cream, and looking like the best christmas dinner desert you could ask for skksjdhd

#wally clark #wally clark x you

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Hiii it’s the sub!kiri anon again 💞 I meant to drop in earlier but immediately after your response I had like. a Cinematically terrible week so I’m stopping in now instead!

I loooove all your thoughts on the kink variety, especially everything you said w kaminari todoroki and shinsou! I’m curious about kaminari especially—like, what solo stuff looks like in this particular setting where kink isn’t always inherently sexual? and also how safe it is to do that kind of stuff alone, especially for a sub, since that headspace is super vulnerable! like if a sub drops in a forest and no one’s around to hear, how does he rebound from that? 👀

and for todoshin I’m just… frothing??? like yes good to make todoroki match shinsou but also UM?? the DRAMA of todoroki of all people being into pain, when you look back at his particular upbringing? It makes so much sense that he would get the wires for love and pain crossed with all the shit his parents put him through. there are so many layers of coping to unravel with him i could practically write an essay, so matching him up with shinsou is just soooo perfect imo haha. But yes!!! Service/pillow Princess todoroki is VERY IMPORTANT!! He can have both!!! The duality of man!!!!!!! He just feels so fluid to me like he can do it all and he SHOULD!

you mentioned shinsous damage with gags an muzzles… is that just because of his quirk, or is there trauma to unravel? 👀 i must admit I always love the trope of shinsou being muzzled as a kid, but with the context of this au i feel like it adds even more flavor ✨ that is, there’s kind of something inherently sub-like about being muzzled, and with shinsou being a dom, i gotta wonder what that could do to a kids head? like a dom being forced into a submissive role without consent during the formative years of his youth… much to think about 🧐

I’m also curious about how a dom/switch (or sub/switch, but I’m particularly talking about todoshin rn sooo ;p) works with the biological components! In your bkdk story there’s the switch therapy arc (which I LOOOOVE btw tysm for that💞💞💞 caretaker fatigue is so real and it felt so validating to get to see Bakugou getting taken care of for a lil bit ❤️‍🩹) which made it sound like switching if you don’t already lean switch would be difficult or unadvisable? So if a switch is paired with a dom, does that switch also need to satisfy their own dom leanings to be healthy? Or are they able to do alright with hanging out in the Sub Zone? And if they do need to go Dom Mode sometimes, how does the usual dom in the relationship handle that?

Sorry for all the questions! Todoroki n shinsou just got me thinking! 💞 also, kind of a non sequitur, but I wanted to say that some of my favorite scenes have been the subcircle scenes in each of your fics—especially the one w deku and todoroki that went so downhill 😏 what can i say I love the dramaaaaa

but yeah, sorry for the long message again! It felt too presumptuous to message you so I hope you don’t mind 💞This au has really been getting me through some difficult times lately, so thanks so much for all your hard work! I can’t wait for the next installment! Much love💞💞💞 —V

omg hi again! i’m sorry about your week :(( i hope it’s going a bit better now 💞💞

okay okay on kaminari and solo play—i came up with that fairly on the fly lol BUT i imagine this world has like, a thriving ASMR community where someone pretend-talks you through a scene or something lol, so that’s the main option. but also depending on the person they could just hang out and put themselves in a light headspace if they really tried. like the first thing coming to mind is pet play again 💀 even with no dom around you can still dress up yknow?

but you are correct it is not exactly what one would call Safe lol. definitely not uncommon, but ill-advised, because of the risk of drop or the sub hurting themself. the best-case scenario is something like what kaminari has, where other people are nearby to notice if something has gone wrong.

ugh and YES todoshin, i love them both so much so ofc i have to give them all the angst >:3 imagine it coming out that todo’s into pain and someone just decides to like, shame him about it. “obviously you don’t actually like it you were just conditioned by your father and you need therapy and your dom is abusive if they take advantage of that” yada yada yada. like no! well maybe! he does need therapy but shh anyway.

and oh i love giving shinsou quirk-related trauma so ofc muzzles <3 but i did NOT think about the inherent sub-ness of it omg….the urge to write about like a 13yo shinsou getting adopted by erasermic in this verse grows STRONGER. i need to talk about his issues. also uhhh the parallels of todoroki being forced into a dominant role and shinsou into a submissive one??? hello

yes okay and dom/switch relationships. there’s two ways this could go! i actually wrote a tiny exchange in CTL chapter 3 about how todoshin deal w this but i just had to go reread what it says bc i do not know my own lore. anyway. obvs this could be solved by polyamory but in the context of a monogamous relationship

scenario one: the switch is allowed to have other partner(s) as needed. todoroki alludes to this in CTL and says that recently he and shinsou & aoyama and tokoyami made a sort of…i guess friends with benefits? arrangement, since they have the same kind of issue. they’re not all dating each other, they just sometimes do a scene together if necessary. easier and more personal than always finding a different partner.

scenario two: i was going to use spinneraki as an example for this which is when i realized that i never wrote spinner’s orientation down anywhere. i have no idea what i want it to be. problem for later. regardless, shigaraki is a really sub-leaning switch, so he pretty much exclusively subs and works out his Dom Energy via running the league. so if someone leans hard one way or the other they might be fine doing that.

switches do generally need both headspaces for balance, though, BUT it would take a good bit longer to get to actual withdrawal if they were only indulging one side, if that makes sense?

ugh and YES i love the sub circle scenes they’re very fun. i have an idea in my wip list about todoroki angsting over joining one at ua bc he’s so used to just being a dom, but now that we have trans!kiri i can also give him the same angst…hehehe. i too love the drama.

and omg do not apologize for sending asks, i always love getting them and i love your energy💖 absolutely feel free to message me as well, but no pressure if you want to stay on anon.

#asked and answered #d/s au #worldbuilding #i think?#anon v #todoroki shouto #shinsou hitoshi #todoshin #possible ideas #oh btw i have the start of two trans!kiri oneshots going #i’ll probably save them to post during the free falling hiatus in june/july #unless i get impatient! who knows #tbh i will probably get impatient with at least one of them i have Zero impulse control

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February 07, 2023

Tuesday, 9:30pm

Echoes from the past, unwanted thoughts, uncontrollable emotions, it just wouldn’t stop.

2017 was the last therapy session I had – because I thought I needed already. There were lots of changes since then, somehow I was able to cope with different environment around my town. I was complacent enough to know that I was making it to the peak of utopian feeling – that everything is just okay.

Maybe it’s not enough to think that I’m okay. Maybe in the same process of listening to another psychiatrist, I hope I can take away some words that could help me survive. I am always adept at juggling personalities towards people I meet or work with, can easily go along with the vibe especially when outdoor activities, but surprisingly, over the past months of isolating myself, I find the comfort of being alone. This has been hard for me -- to the extent of having conscious dilemma between trying so hard and just letting it all go.

When I’m at my best version of myself, there’s this complete notion that I can surpass things beyond my expectations. I think it’s what I’m used to. I lead, perform, and affiliate myself in different kinds of events in which I think I can contribute. You name it. But for some reason – I’m losing it again. And this has been my fear. This is the worst case scenario to be in. I’ve worked so hard with my past struggles to get into where I am right now. But why does it need to happen again?

29th of January, 2023, Sunday afternoon, I forced myself to get out of my room. Familiar faces from the church, typical lunch routine, chitchats and coffee talks – everything was completely fine. I even went out with my parents and their friends, and visited this very calming farm. The house was literally in the middle of rice fields, had to walk at least 10 minutes from the highway in which you can hear the sound of streamed river. The weather was cold and so it was also nice to stay a little bit longer for dinner. And then I met this young boy, 10 years old I think, surprised me with our conversation. He shared his interests with buildings and architecture, how he prefers to have more girl friends over boys. But what hit me was when he said he enjoys being more alone but not lonely. He just knew he’s way smarter than his classmates, but he wishes to be more accepted and could fit in.

Maybe we were once like him, enjoying things on our own and yet there will always be people out there who will never be in line with you. And that is okay. The reality of this world is not how it seems to be but hope is all we try to acquire and manifest. And this is also why I am choosing myself. Not that it may sound or look selfish, but I just have to. I’m choosing myself because at the end of the day, she’s that person I can genuinely express myself with.

Tomorrow at 5pm, I will be meeting my new therapist. This entire feeling of being unknown on what could happen, or to even acknowledge the root of pain fears me. All I ever wanted is peace of mind --- clarity. I just want it to go away. I genuinely want to let go at my own pace. I don’t want anyone to rush or dictate my process in healing. This is where I will have to start all over again.

I just hope and pray my parents won’t get tired of me. It’s not even what I want in my head and body. I couldn’t even control it. It overwhelms me.

When this is all over, I am coming back to what is sacred and valuable to me. I will live my life how it’s supposed to be whether there may be ups or downs. Everything single thing will pass.

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i would also like it on the record that I'm not just trying to get my dad fired for vengeance or shit like that, I'd really like to just move on with my life and forget he exists. I mean all my therapy from 15-18 was all about him and how I will never have a relationship with him. so by the time I was 18 I was already emotionally checked out and just over everything to do with him. I cut him off, wasn't angry/sad at all. I didn't wish karma would get him or anything like that because I literally just didn't care about him enough to actively hate him, he didn't even cross my mind most days. but recently he's making it very difficult for me to forget he exists, so I'm just getting him fired so he can't afford his favorite hobby, which is giving my mom/sibling insane amounts of anxiety by throwing money away to drag them back to family court repeatedly. for no fucking reason.

well, at least no logical reason. my mom's bf has an attorney he's been best friends with since they were kids and said the friend would represent my mom for free if push came to shove because she won't be able to afford one, but after hearing the details he literally just started laughing and said my mom definitely won't need him because my dad has literally no case. my dad is also trying to sue my mom for contempt of court for dEnYiNg HiM vIsItAtIon, because his moronic brain is fixated on this fantasy that since he's the Good Christian Man so my mom will be found guilty of contempt and go to prison so he'll get custody of my sibling by default and obviously I'll be forced to move in with him too or I'll be homeless since I don't have a job and he doesn't seem to comprehend the fact that I actually do have friends who would help me if that happened. (and also I would literally live on the streets before living with him 🙃) and anyways his own attorney is encouraging him to drop the contempt thing because

a) he has no case for being denied visitation because he only asks to have my sibling once in a blue moon less than 12 hours in advance, which the court won't see as reasonable

b) my mom has lowkey threatened that if he does go through with it she'll sue him for contempt of court, and both my mom's bf's lawyer friend and my dad's attorney both said that my mom would have a much stronger contempt case than his 💀 the custody agreement made when I was 15 and he tried this shit the first time had something stating both parents must listen to what therapists say regarding visitation, and he has tried to actively go against their recommendations so many fucking times. not just my sibling, but with me before I was 18 too. sleeping anywhere aside from home so my therapist said no overnights indefinitely. he could still have me almost his whole visitation time, he just had to drop me off at night to sleep and pick me back up in the morning. he was totally fine with this for like a month, but despite my therapist not saying anything about changing it he just kinda decided that it no longer applied and started demanding I sleep there. and more recently a lot of the times he's claiming he was denied visitation in the contempt case were times when he was tryna drag my sibling over to Ohio to hang with his shit family, despite their therapist saying it was an extremely bad idea.

but back on track to me wanting to get him fired; even though all the legal stuff is an easy win for us, it still takes a lot of time and is incredibly stressful so we really don't even care about beating him or anything. my mom really doesn't want to sue him for contempt of court because that's another time consuming stressful thing, she just feels like she's going to have to. literally our ideal scenario is that he just realizes he's throwing away money and drops everything and fucks off, then I would move on with my life and not get him fired because I would just be beyond caring. but he’s an absolute fucking moron, so he's not ever going to willingly drop all the shit (I think he might drop the contempt on his own, but once again he's enough of a moron that he very well may not)

so unfortunately I do have to invest more of my time/energy/emotions in him because getting him fired is really the only realistic scenario in which he just drops everything and leaves us alone. until that happens, he'll keep buzzing around us like a fly. not an actual threat/danger, but still extremely annoying.

#his level of incompetence genuinely impresses me sometimes tbh

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Couples Therapy (b.b.)

Summary: Dr. Raynor decides to bring you in to Bucky’s therapy session to resolve some of the deep rooted issues the two of you had

AN: i love bucky with my whole heart but sad/angry bucky is such good fic fuel and i lowkey was inspired by a tiktok i saw but i can’t remember the creator

You and Bucky had a complicated history. And that was putting it rather lightly. Steve had recruited you and Natasha to track down the Winter Solider before realizing it was Bucky.

And not only was HYDRA wanting to wipe out Steve, they needed you gone too. You were the only obvious threat to not only HYDRA, but to their asset as well. Your powers were something from a different universe to them and if they couldn’t have you as a weapon, you needed to be stopped.

Bucky had tried to kill you on multiple occasions while he was still under HYDRA’s mind control. It wasn’t until you and Steve found him in Bucharest did you get to see just how broken the man really was.

You helped him get to Wakanda rather than being thrown in an American prison. T’Challa asked you to stay, to give Bucky a sense of familiarity while in Wakanda. You were there when he came out of cryo and you helped him navigate a seemingly normal life.

After everything that had happened to the two of you, you wanted to break down the walls he had built up over so long and he actually let you. An actual relationship had developed between the two of you when everything was simple. He told you how grateful he was for you, how he didn’t know if he could fully recover if you weren’t there to help him.

But it all went to hell very quickly. It seemed he wanted nothing to do with you after a few months of sharing an apartment together, trying to start over. You tried and made an effort to see if he wanted or needed help, but you received nothing but low grumbles and head shakes.

It was hard to accept the fact that the man you were in love with, wanted to basically cut you out of his life. It hurt you more than you thought it would, so you stopped trying.

Bucky expected to get another text from you one morning after you got to work, and that text never came. Later in the evening, just before 9:00, you would usually make him a cup of tea to calm his nerves. That cup of tea was also absent from Bucky’s evening routine.

You even stopped leaving food on the counter when you knew he was very prone to skipping breakfast in the morning.

Dr. Raynor, Bucky’s therapist, noticed a change in his behavior. He was more irritable than before and the sound of your name made him tense up.

“James, what’s going on with Y/N?” She asked. “What do you mean?” He asked before clenching his jaw. “I mean, how come every time we talk about her you get upset?” She questioned. “I don’t know what you’re talking about.” Bucky said.

“Alright, we’re going to try something.” Dr. Raynor said, standing up from her chair. She opened the door to her office and gestured to someone in the waiting room.

When she came back, you followed behind her, which caused Bucky to sit up straight. “Y-Y/N? What are you doing here?” He asked. “Dr. Raynor asked me to come.” You answered, avoiding looking at him directly.

You sat down at the very end of the couch, but even then it felt like you were too close.

“What seems to be going on with the two of you?” Dr. Raynor questioned. “Nothing, we’re fine.” Bucky answered. You scoffed and rolled your eyes, crossing your arms over your chest. “Y/N?” She asked.

You were quiet for a moment, feeling Bucky’s eyes practically burning a hole in the side of your head. But he wasn’t communicating with you anymore. When you tried to talk to him, he brushed you off. Now, he was forced to listen to you.

“We are far from fine.” You said. “Elaborate, please, Y/N.” Dr. Raynor said. “Ever since we came back from the blip we haven’t been the same. He doesn’t talk to me, we barely have a meal together and if we do it’s in complete silence.” You explained. “Y/N, that’s not true.” Bucky replied.

“James, let her talk.” Dr. Raynor told him. “I understand what he’s going through. Spending years of your life as another person is obviously going to change you but we don’t speak. We live together, in the same apartment, and yet this is the most we’ve talked in weeks.” You said.

“You never start the conversation, that’s why.” Bucky commented. You turned to look at him, giving him the most incredulous look. “I have, James. You push me away. I can’t keep doing this, how the hell do you expect me to keep loving you if you won’t love me back?” You snapped, eyes welling up with tears.

The room fell into a tension filled silence before you stood up. “I think I should go. Thank you, Dr. Raynor.” You said, head down trying to keep your composure.

You walked out of the room and kept in your feelings until you get to your car. Letting out all of the frustration, anger and sadness as you hit your steering wheel a few times. That was no doubt going to cause your hand to bruise but in that moment you didn’t care.

Bucky returned home shortly after Dr. Raynor had ended the session for the day and you had not arrived. All of your belongings were still there, which was a good sign. You hadn’t left him just yet and maybe there was time for him to fix things.

It was around 9:00 that evening and you still hadn’t returned home. Bucky’s mind went to the worst case scenario as to where you would be. Did you get hurt? Did you actually leave without getting your stuff? Were you with someone else?

He continued pacing the floor when he heard the front door unlock. Bucky watched you walk in the door and stopped in the middle of the living room.

“Where have you been? It’s been hours, I thought something bad happened to you.” He scolded you. “Oh so now you care?” You commented. “Can we talk? About what happened today?” He asked.

You placed your keys on the counter as you sighed and ran your hand through your hair. It was then Bucky saw the red and slightly blue marks on your hand. “What happened?” He asked urgently.

“I hit my steering wheel because I’m so frustrated with you and whatever we are.” You snapped. Bucky sighed lightly and you expected him to brush you off again. “No, Bucky, you are going to listen to me and you are going to talk to me. This relationship is as one sided as it gets and I’m sick of it. I’m tired of having to make you love me, it shouldn’t be like that. We should be each other’s constants, not wanting to get away from each other. If you don’t want to be with me anymore, just say it.” You ranted.

“I do want to be with you, Y/N. You’re the only thing that makes sense to me anymore. I don’t have an excuse for pushing you away. I’m struggling trying to get back to normal and make amends. I’m so sorry, doll. I never meant to hurt you.” Bucky said.

You looked at him in a stunned silence, deciding what would be best for the two of you. You wanted to be with Bucky, you loved him but you couldn’t be in a relationship where there was no communication.

“Then you need to talk to me, Buck. We can’t keep going on like this. It’s not okay.” You said. “I will. Whenever there is something bothering me, I will tell you. I will listen to you, I won’t brush you off because I don’t feel like having the conversation. I promise I can fix this.” He said.

You looked at him for a moment, trying to find any sign of an empty promise but you couldn’t see any sign of one.

“Okay, if we can do that, we will be okay.” You said. “Good because I can’t do this without you.” Bucky. said quietly. You gave him a warm smile before he walked closer to you and pulled you tightly into him. “I’m sorry, doll.” He whispered. “It’s okay.” You whispered back.

Bucky pressed a light kiss on the top of your head as he just held on to you.

#imagine #marvel imagine #marvel #bucky barnes x reader #bucky barnes imagine #Bucky Barnes #Steve Rogers #sebastian stan imagine #sebastian stan x reader #sebastian stan

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