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autism (official)
#came out of that appointment with three new diagnoses approximately none of which are surprising#girl (gn) you are autistic traumatized and anxious#also avoided getting sent to iop or php which is a huge relief#she's found some other therapist who's queer and autistic informed who she thinks would be useful who she's gonna refer me to#AND I got my autism for free instead of for $300 because she knows I'm broke 😌
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how to put in my artfight bio: i am bastardizing catholic imagery, i am an apostate, do not proselytize to me, and also oh fuck i accidentally followed you before i saw you bio and then you followed me back and now i want to unfollow you because i know you're uber fucking christian (though you claim to be the 'cool kind') but that would be suspicious and i want to draw art for you because your ocs are cute and disabled but also holy fucking dogwhistles batman.
#like. i have characters that are my religious trauma and are very catholic (and traumatized) and i want to draw a friend's saint/goddess oc#but also ohhhh fuck there's this one person following me now and I'm so socially awkward and anxious i think i need to just bite the bullet#and block this person because i don't care how leftist or queer you are you have the fish and the flag
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I should really see a therapist (unfortunately im broke with no insurance so I'll just vent in the tags)
#I'm in a studio apartment I can barely afford#and have been applying to other jobs so that this 2nd job can help boost my income#but my dad sent me a link to a job fair and a cheap apartment 2 hours upstate and I know he's trying to help#but it made me break down in tears#mainly because I lived upstate for 2 years and I was miserable up there so even going up to around poughkepsie makes me anxious#he definitely knows how traumatic my time upstate was (panic attacks on a weekly basis#esp with the rise of anti-queer hate crimes)#but what really broke me was the idea of being more than an hour away from my entire support network (my friends) who dont have cars#like I know it's not unusual for ppl to move away or lose touch#but specifically these two have been my threads of sanity lately and have been by my side at my lowest lows and I'm scared of losing them#like sure zoom exists but idk#I was already on edge because of all the job hunting and financial stress#vent
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Outsider POV on Somewhere Else Jonathan Sims must be just. so much.
Like imagine. You're part of a support group, and a new guy decides to join. You ask him his name and he says, "Jonathan," and then after a long pause, "Blackwood. Jonathan Blackwood. But call me Jon."
He doesn't like tape recorders. You only know this because the person who hosts the support group is into retro things, and tries to keep a couple around. She turned one on once when someone asked about it, and you noticed Jon clutching his nails into his hands so tight he's nearly breaking the skin. You lean over and whisper, "Do you want me to ask her to stop?" He says, "It's fine," and you nod, but you still try and change the subject whenever people bring up tape recorders from that point on.
He full-body flinches one day when someone says Hello, Jon. Nearly slams into a wall and everything. He tries to play it off, but after that people say Hi Jon, or Nice to see you, or things like that. Anything but Hello.
He says he used to work at a 'non-profit for studying the supernatural'. Someone asks where it was and he says London. You tell your wife about it, and two days later she emails you an article. Magnus Institute Burns Down In 1999. It was in Manchester. You tell her not to bring it up again.
The guy is snarky and blunt and downright rude at times, but when a woman comes in and tells them about being trapped in a empty warehouse for a week, he comforts her in a way none of the rest of them know how. "I believe you," he says, repeats it like a mantra, like a prayer. "I believe you." He says 'I'm sorry' less like he's sorry this happened to her, and more like he's taking the blame onto himself.
He talks about Martin, sometimes. His reason, he calls him. Normally you'd point out that while it's of course good to love your partner, you should have other reasons to live, but you stay quiet. This guy needs all the happiness he can get.
You leave a little late that day, and when you do you hear him on the phone talking to someone. "She'd been touched by the Lonely, Martin!" he says. "Which is bad, of course, but--" he seems to choke up, "Martin, I didn't feel any compulsion for a Statement. A-at all. I think it's really gone."
You just walk by.
You don't know what's going on with Jon, but it really isn't any of your business. You're an anxious queer lesbian and he's a traumatized ace guy, and you aren't going to make his life any harder than you have to.
Just. Jonathan Sims in a support group.
#the magnus archives#jonathan sims#fanfiction#fanfic#story#story snippet#story ideas#somewhere else#tma#might make another post about martin if the inspiration strikes me#also i've never actually been in a support group so#sorry
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i just love how the queer shippings in stranger things are
one of the weakest team member but at all times ready to fight god and the world & deeply traumatized boy who just wants a break but never gets one
bisexual ex-jock mom friend & anxious adhd metal dnd nerd
chaotic autistic lesbian without any filter & organized smarty pants with guns
#may is thinking and talking shit#show stuff#stranger things#stranger things byler#byler#mike x will#stranger things steddie#steddie#steve x eddie#stranger things ronance#ronance#robin x nancy
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I feel like the four leads of Deltarune--Kris, Susie, Ralsei, and Noelle-are just. Somehow two different levels of queer-coded.
(Edit: Just to be clear: not saying any of this to disparage or insult shippers of Kralsei, Suselle, or Kriselle, I've just seen a lot of cool analysis about tropes, romance, and lack of choice in Deltarune and wanted to chime in with some of my own thoughts. If you ship any of those ships in Deltarune--fantastic! May you find a lot of content precisely to your taste.)
Like. On the one hand, if you're looking at tropes, they are very neatly set up into two romantic partnerships. Noelle is very blatantly interested in Susie, and Ralsei's feelings for Kris are often portrayed similarly. On a surface level, both pairings appear very clear. Noelle is a girl in love with another girl, while Ralsei is a very effeminate boy in love with a teen who doesn't appear to use pronouns. And a big deal isn't made of either pairing, there's nothing really in the way of Suselle or Kralsei on a societal level we've encountered so far. At least in terms of gender and sexuality. But if you look a little closer, it's kind of...'these are a very straight idea of queer ships', y'know?
Noelle and Susie are both girls, but one is very effeminately coded, anxious, uses magic, and is more traditionally cute, while they other is crass, crude, intimidating, and physically strong. Ralsei and Kris are gender-noncomforming, but Ralsei is a sweet pacifistic healer who bakes cakes while Kris uses a sword, and keeps being mistaken for a boy by much of Youtube and Reddit. The active one and the passive one, the fighter and the mage, the one with cute hobbies and the one who eats moss, the one in pants and the one in a dress.
And here, I start thinking of some posts I've seen analyzing how, in Deltarune, romance is used to explore how Kris doesn't really get choices. Kris has been cast as the leader and knight, and Ralsei has been cast as the healer and Princess, even if he is a boy. The leader often ends up with the healer. The knight often gets the princess as a happy ending. But Kris doesn't seem to like this! Their reactions to Ralsei are constantly lukewarm at best, and that's not getting into how Ralsei seems to be in love with his idea of Kris, while being very. Asriel-coded, who the game describes often as Kris' brother, in sharp contrast to how ambiguous Chara and Frisk's relationships with the Dreemurrs were.
If we and Kris reject Ralsei as a love interest, we can a different romantic partner in Noelle...but this choice has a bodycount, traumatizes Noelle, doesn't seem to leave Kris any happier, and it's still a kind of straight-coded ship. Now it's the knight being paired up with the apocalypse maiden, for the doomed codepedent toxic tragedy lovers out there. But it kinda makes sense too, right? If Kralsei is the expected RPG romance, then Kriselle would be the expected romance if there were no Dark World and Ralsei weren't an option. They're childhood friends and neighbors in a small town, their families used to be very close, Rudy is still very fond of Kris. They're even extremely angel/devil coded.
But the most interesting part is. It's implied that there IS someone that Kris is very interested in, either platonically or romantically. It's Susie. Kris never seems frightened by Susie when they're bullied by her, and rejects Noelle's offers to switch seats. They seek comfort from Susie rather than Ralsei after the Spamton fight, they call her their friend when Toriel calls, they share moss with her, they refuse to think about her during Snowgrave when Ralsei prompts them, they make it clear that out of all the people they COULD go to the Carnival with, Susie is the one they'd ACTUALLY want to choose.
And this is the part that drives me crazy. Because while Kris is so tightly controlled by genre and narrative, and those things would usually push them towards Ralsei or Noelle, and Ralsei keeps encouraging Kris to stick to the narrative. Susie is the one who refuses to be bound to the narrative. Susie is the character of Deltarune who is most unapologetically herself--and isn't that a very queer thing, refusing to be anyone but yourself despite everything? She says no thanks to the prophecy, until she comes around to it on her own terms! She makes herself and Ralsei learn to take their own actions, and drags Ralsei off to have fun with him instead of letting Kris choose who to with! She doesn't stay in her box of the damage-dealing fighter, she insists on learning Healing magic, even if she's not particularly skilled at it at first! Even Ralsei is forced to admit that it's wonderful that Susie is Susie, and not anyone else!
I think Kris likes Susie a lot. And part of it may be admiration. That while Kris is controlled by the player and the narrative and the prophecy and humanity and divorce and a dozen things outside their control, Susie refuses to ever be bound by anything. And Kris and Susie together happen to be the two more masculinely-coded party members, the two melee fighters, the two troublemakers. It honestly makes me wonder a little if Susie and Kris might be able to make their own ending beyond the bounds of gender expectations and romance expectations together? It would be cool. And I think it would make Kris very happy to break free like that.
#deltarune#deltarune meta#deltarune analysis#deltarune theory#kris dreemurr#susie#noelle holiday#ralsei#kralsei#kriselle#krusie
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sometimes I get anxious and scared and admittedly am traumatized from being online ever since I was a tween because I've seen how EVIL people can get from all sides of the spectrum, especially other queer people. but ever since I got older, and discovered more things about myself, I realized that it's better to move on with my life and continue to create and inspire others. I'm gonna fuck up along the way because nobody is perfect but I rather learn and continue on.
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saw ur recent post and thought
lets all stereotype the tmnt simps like they’re animals at a zoo together chaotic
[insert funny picture of us staring at the funny ppl in the cage with their desired turtles (i lowkey couldnt find a meme that would suite this 😠😠😠)]
raph simps ; either fiesty gremlins who’ll bite ur toes off if you go near them and spray them with water or sweet little souls who’ll tuck you in bed and give you forehead kisses. both simp types aren’t rare and are commonly found together as a pair, explaining their view on the himbo buff boy raph and how they can either “fix him” or “make him worse”.
leo simps ; traumatized beings, it doesnt matter if you’re a cocky and mean in a loving way or a i’ll do anything you say because you’re so great kind of leo simp, you’re traumatized in some sense, whether it be through fiction or real life. you guys lowkey ENJOYED giving ur oc’s or self inserts loads of angst when it came to the future and movie. man, you guys have so much love for this one turtle his ego is literally thru the roof.
donnie simps ; a true simp. let me guess— you like nerdy men who are also queer as hell, who is also straight as hell at the same time, who is also the type of man you’d expect him to do nice things for you to only throw you under the bus. listen up you simps, i understand that the few of you “down down bad” simps are into that and might sans fangirl your way into this— but let me explain and introduce you into the “ilovehimsomuchiwoulddieforhimandhisbigforehead” simps. you’d be an awesome duo trust.
mikey simps ; now i KNOW you guys got something beneath those precious and fluffy oc and self insert moments. there has gotta be SOME SORT OF EVIL ANGST AND TWISTY MOMENT YOU GOT GOING ON— much more worse than the leo trauma, FARTHER WORSE— teehee you guys got such a cute puppylove selfship going on teehee 😊😊WELL WHABAM!! the moment mikey gets his mystic powers n angsty moment in the movie out comes the freaking angst beast and comfort waves following behind it >:))))
— 🖼️🗝️ (guess whooo 🙃🙃🙃)
Not me looking at the way you signed and going "Who's Keyframe?" I AM HAVING A DIFFICULT TIME FIGURING THIS ONE OUT.
Also, I love psychoanalyzing people💖
In my opinion, from what I have seen at least, most Raph simps I've interacted with are like really sweet and anxious people that REALLY NEED A HUG just like my boy Raph.
The Leo simps, as I said earlier, enjoy bullying him so much- and with that I mean, they're most times the kind of people that tease or bully their crush, but they care so much about him and love adding so much depth to his character.
The Donnie simps I know can't drop the color purple for ONE DANG SECOND, the color is everywhere all the time all at once, they seem very curious and are some of the ones that I see the most active in the fandom.
And Mikey simps are freaking wild, one minute they're the sweetest and the next they're jumping around the walls and scaring you, I love those.
*Sips on coffee, staring at the cages*
Ah yes, what a wonderful and interesting set of specimens.
#Lmao#I really wanted to draw it as you depicted it but I can't at the moment#sob#chaos shut up#ask#rottmnt x reader
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I think we all overestimate (including myself) how much the party would notice Steve and Eddie being into each other. Or how the things they do aren’t strictly platonic. Like they are all traumatized and codependent. They would probably think “this looks weird to other people but not to us. Everyone else just doesn’t get it.” All of them have either anxious attachment styles or avoidant ones. And both in the very extreme. So Steve and Eddie going from drastically hot and cold makes sense to all of them.
These two boys are absolutely floundering trying to figure out each other, and the party is just like “yes, yes this is normal. Just traumatized bros being bros”. Especially the boys. The girls (max and el) probably are a bit more suspicious about it but considering their upbringings and the horrible journey of puberty they are still navigating, they assume it’s just not something they are used to/understand. Also let’s not forget it’s the 80s, where yes gay people exist (so many people pretend like they don’t, like why???), it was an extremely tense time to be queer (ie, satanic panic and the aids crisis), so people weren’t as open about it especially in Indiana, so these kids probably don’t just assume what their surrogate father figures are doing is anything but friendly.
The only person that would actually notice is Robin. Not the party, not the adults, not Murray (although this one is hilarious). But Robin.
For two obvious reasons. One, platonic soulmates duh. Steve probably rants about how Eddie hasn’t talked to him three days and he doesn’t understand why, and he misses him and she probably thinks “oh my god he’s so dumb.” The second reason being she’s gay™️. And just like most queer kids, she looks way too deeply into the slightest homoerotic thing. Every thing Eddie and Steve do, she has a full essay as to why that means they are in love.
And despite her clocking it, when Steve finally admits her feelings about Eddie to her she thinks “holy shit I can’t believe I was right.”
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I love the everyone knows they are into each other but themselves trope, but oblivious party trope is also hilarious to me
#steddie#platonic stobin#Robin would probably have a secret tumblr dedicated to them in the modern era#Steddie probably accidentally reveal their relationship to the party by kissing in front of them#and they are all like ???#is this another bro thing#wills beaming in the corner#has to explain its not a bro thing#robin buckley#stranger things#writing prompt#headcannon#steddie headcanon#pre relationship#Steve Harrington#Eddie Munson#the party stranger things
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Here’s some positivity for indigenous systems who are affected by or involved with the MMEIP/MMIGW2S+ movements!
Indigenous systems have always been and will always be important, beloved, and integral members of the plural community! May 5 was an Action day for Murdered, Missing, and Exploited Indigenous Peoples (MMEIP) and Murdered and Missing Indigenous Girls, Women, and 2 Spirit (MMIGW2S+) folks. Those systems who are involved in these movements deserve our unwavering support and should be embraced, accepted, centered, and uplifted in our spaces! So here’s to all the indigenous systems who are affected by these movements!
🌕 Shoutout to traumagenic indigenous systems whose were traumatized by being exploited in some way!
🌿 Shoutout to indigenous systems who are active members of MMIGW2S+ or MMEIP movements, whether locally or online!
✨ Shoutout to indigenous systems who are trafficking survivors, RAMCOA/OEA survivors, or survivors of complex trauma!
🌷 Shoutout to indigenous systems who are mourning the loss of a missing or murdered friend, family member, or loved one!
🍃 Shoutout to indigenous systems who live in fear due to the prevalence of indigenous people being murdered, abducted, abused, or exploited!
☀️ Shoutout to indigenous systems who raise awareness about the MMIGW2S+ and MMEIP movements in their own spaces!
🌺 Shoutout to indigenous systems who struggle with not being believed or taken seriously by others when they voice concerns over their loved ones being murdered, exploited, or going missing!
☘️ Shoutout to indigenous systems who have lost faith in or have been traumatized by the criminal justice system!
☁️ Shoutout to indigenous systems who share resources, build support networks, and have strong solidarity with other indigenous folks to help each other cope with the harsh realities of being multiply marginalized!
🌼 Shoutout to indigenous systems who wish the plural community was more receptive and invested in raising awareness about the MMIGW2S+ and MMEIP movements!
🌱 Shoutout to indigenous systems who are mourning, grieving, broken-hearted, angry, anxious, frustrated, or numb about the propensity for indigenous women, children, and 2 spirit folks to be murdered, exploited, or go missing!
🌹 Shoutout to indigenous systems who need support, who need access to specialized services and healthcare, but who aren’t able to receive that care for any reason!
💐 Shoutout to indigenous systems, especially women, children, and 2 spirit folks, who are fighting to preserve their cultural heritage, traditions, and way of life in the face of colonization, genocide, and cultural appropriation!
🌟 Shoutout to indigenous systems who celebrate the lives and legacies of the women, children, queer, trans, fem, and 2 spirit folks in their own tribes, families, and communities!
Indigenous systems, we cannot claim to know or understand your experience or what it is like to live with the knowledge of how common it is for your people to be murdered, exploited, or go missing. Still, know that our heart goes out to you, we want to be your ally and advocate for you, we want to uplift your voices however we can. You belong in our spaces, and you are a crucial part of the plural community just the way you are.
We hope that every indigenous system who reads this can have a wonderful day today. We hope your future is filled with peace, rest, happiness, comfort, justice, and fulfillment! If there is anything at all we can do to be a better ally to you, please let us know. Do your best to take care of yourself and your system! We’re rooting for you, we care about you, and we’re wishing you the very best in all that you do!
‼️ Non-indigenous systems are welcome and encouraged to reblog, but DO NOT derail or try to center your voice over actual indigenous systems and those who are actually affected by MMEIP and MMIW2S+ movements! ‼️
#plurality#pluralgang#multiplicity#actuallyplural#system positivity#plural positivity#plural pride#system pride#indigenous systems#two spirit systems#mmeip#mmiwg2s#murder#ramcoa#exploitation#colonization#genocide#long post
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Heya! Saw your headcanons post.
This is very unoriginal ik but what is Peppino's relationship with the rest of the pizza tower cast like in your headcanon? Like friendship wise? Has he befriended the bosses to an extent or is he still sus of them all XD
I hope you don't mind if I cover more than just the bosses!
Gustavo: I can't decide whether Gustavo has known Peppino for a long time, or if he only just met him during the events of Pizza Tower. Either way, assisting Peppino with Brick's help has been a bonding experience. Gustavo and Peppino are BFFs post-Tower. I see them having a queer-platonic relationship if they don't decide to outright date each other. I can see Gustavo having a hard time understanding Peppino and his emotions until Peppino opens up to him. Gustavo has never been traumatized the way Peppino has... but he has a good heart and wants to help him to the best of his ability. Peppino is grateful to have someone as loyal and kind as Gustavo to keep him anchored, even if he occasionally gets frustrated with his ignorance.
Brick: Peppino hated rats before he met Brick. Post-Tower, however, he's come to appreciate them. Brick is not only very handy in the kitchen (don't tell the health inspector), he's been known to cuddle Peppino when he's anxious to try and comfort him. Brick is a rat, but he's treated more like a house cat who also happens to be able to cook. Peppino likes him well enough.
Mr. Stick: Nothing has changed about Peppino's relationship with Mr. Stick. Stick continues to try and scam more money out of Peppino, or even outright STEAL it. Peppino doesn't fall for any of it or let Mr. Stick get away with it unless he genuinely needs something Stick has. Scott Stick is a greedy asshole who preys on desperate people like Peppino to make a profit. I like him a lot, don't get me wrong, but he's an asshole.
Pepperman: Everyone's favorite artistic pepper made a killing with his art after the Tower fell, and even got to star in a movie with The Noise later when the Tower was rebuilt. Despite his already large ego growing larger as a result, Pepperman knows he owes at least SOME of his newfound popularity to Peppino. Had Peppino never fought him, or destroyed the Tower in the first place, Pepperman would have remained an undiscovered talent, only making art of himself for himself. So whenever Pepperman is around the chef, he's a little nicer to him than he is to everyone else. In fact, he's even asked Peppino to model for him sometime so that he can make art of him. Peppino thinks Pepperman is way too full of himself, but other than that, he's not really a bad guy. Plus his art is actually pretty good quality. However, he's way too anxious to model for him... Peppino doesn't think very highly of himself, insecure about his physical appearance, so he'd feel way too exposed to model for an art project. That doesn't mean he can't change his mind, though...
The Vigilante: While they certainly had their differences at first, The Vigilante realizes now that Pizzaface/Pizzahead had lied to him about Peppino's intentions. Vigi knows now that Peppino is a good person who was just trying to save his already-struggling business. As someone who knows the meaning of hard work and responsibility, tending to his grandpa's farm, Vigi understands why Peppino had acted so desperately and violently, even if it resulted in the Tower's collapse and an initial loss of the farm. It's safe to say Vigi likes Peppino these days, even respects him. Peppino gets along well with Vigi as a result. They're not quite friends... yet... but they're cool with each other.
The Noise: Peppino and The Noise have been rivals for as long as Peppino has been running his pizzeria, and their rivalry has only continued post-Tower. Said rivalry got way more heated after The Noise made a movie based on the events of the Tower, re-writing the story so that The Noise was the hero, and with Fake Peppino being passed off as the actual Peppino. Peppino was pissed and tried to beat The Noise up for this, but The Noise convinced him not to by promising to release a second version of the film where he and Peppino are working together as partners. Peppino agreed to this compromise... only to be insulted yet again when The Noise hired Peppino's nasty brother, Maurice, to play Peppino's role. (Originally, Gustavo had been asked to play himself, but when Gustavo found out Maurice was playing Peppino, he said, "Absolutely not!" The Noise was forced to hire some random guy to play Gustavo.) Needless to say, Peppino and The Noise are NOT getting along very well right now. A shame, since they actually did seem to be getting friendlier BEFORE The Noise decided to make a movie, but the little gremlin fucked that all up completely just for the sake of more money and fame.
Noisette: Peppino used to find Noisette extremely irritating due to her being... well, oblivious. However, they've actually gotten to hang out more since the Tower first fell. She's still irritating, but Peppino tolerates it a lot more now. He's even starting to understand why The Noise is dating her. Truthfully, even if Noisette is oblivious, she isn't malicious or ill-intentioned. She's actually one of the nicest, most loving people Peppino knows... at least when she's not pissed off at The Noise for doing or saying something stupid. Then she's absolutely terrifying... not that he blames her. He doesn't understand what Noisette sees in The Noise, and has even asked her once before. Her answer surprised him: "He makes me laugh!" Peppino asked if that was all. "Do I need any other reason to love someone? It's really all I need to be happy." The Noise is very aware he doesn't deserve Noisette... but he loves her, even if he has trouble admitting it.
Fake Peppino: Well... Fake Peppino has been adjusting relatively well to the outside world after the Tower fell. He made a hideaway not far from Peppino Pizza, a sort of replica of Peppino Pizza 2, constructed from trash and scraps he'd found. Every day, he'd open his trash pizzeria for business, and go about his day as if he was the real Peppino. Making pizza from whatever he could find. Even taking out the trash into the same alleyway the real Peppino took his trash into. It was... awkward for both of them. Then The Noise made his movie where HE got to be the Real Peppino, and... he suddenly had acceptance from literally everyone around him. He had fans! People were asking for his autograph. The actual Real Peppino wasn't thrilled... he wasn't angry, just... kind of helpless, since he figured Fake Peppino deserves to be happy after everything he's been through, so he can't actually get mad without looking like an asshole. He did, however, complain to The Noise. The Noise's second version of his movie clarified that Fake Peppino and Peppino Spaghetti were actually two different people... except now everyone thinks FUCKING MAURICE is Peppino. Fake Peppino can now stand on his own through his newfound popularity as a movie star, with his own identity, rather than borrowing Peppino's. Peppino is begrudgingly happy for his fake, but GOD DAMMIT HE HATES THE NOISE AND MAURICE SO GODDAMN MUCH, HOLY SHIT.
Pizzahead: There is no easy way to say this. Pizzahead has a problem, and it's Peppino-shaped. Pizzahead, once Totino the Pizza Boy, is completely obsessed with Peppino. He stalks him regularly, often in disguise. He's hellbent on replicating Peppino's pizza-making methods and capitalizing on his image so he can be rich and successful like when he was younger. Originally, this stemmed from jealousy. But the more Pizzahead spied on Peppino and went to extreme lengths to replicate his cooking process, the more that obsession blossomed into a full-on crush. Not that Pizzahead will ever admit it. If you ask him about it, he'll deflect and deny it completely. Peppino, meanwhile, HATES Pizzahead after what he tried to do his pizzeria. Pile-driving him into the tower was the most satisfying thing he'd ever done in his entire life. He's vaguely aware he's being watched, but has no idea it's Pizzahead. Peppino is so paranoid, he keeps a revolver in his house behind a glass case. Though chances are, if he does see Pizzahead again, he's simply going to beat the crap out of him the moment he shows his face. (And Pizzahead will LOVE fighting back... fighting Peppino is super FUN for him!!)
#pizza tower#peppino spaghetti#headcanons#mine#pizza tower gustavo#pizza tower brick#mr stick#pepperman#the vigilante#the noise#noisette#fake peppino#pizzahead
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「 ଳ The Aquarium ଳ 」
system of 30 || quoigenic || pd affected
bodily 22 || white || uses he/it collectively
our system functions less as distinct people and more like variations of the same core(for the most part). we each have our own identities and names, but we aren't drastically different. our switches are usually pretty subtle and we blur a lot. because of that we usually can't tell who is who.
we're not going to bother with a dni list, we'll avoid or block those who make us uncomfortable. we do ask that any nsfw/kink accounts to not interact with us. we are pro-endo.
pfp by this lovely artist
our members (yes all 30 of us)
○ Corci ○ he/him ○ 22 ○ host/buffer ○
our default state, and the one that's closest to how we present irl. just a chill dude with a poor grasp on emotions and approximately zero motivation to do anything.
○ Angel ○ any pronouns ○ 22 ○ host ○
the social headmate that's very queer and very narcissistic. tends to front at work, and cares way too much about what people think. very bubbly and optimistic.
○ Circus ○ ze/click/any neos ○ 22 ○ host ○
chaotic clown boy, holds a lot of our adhd symptoms. doesn't care about much outside of our hyperfixations and like three people. tends to front around friends or when triggered out by our interests being mentioned.
○ Chloe ○ she/they ○ 17 ○ ex-host/anxiety holder/peacemaker ○
the responsible one, also our first host. gets anxious easily and can't stand conflict. big sister energy.
○ Sian ○ he/him ○ mid 20s ○ soother ○
pretty boy. one of our most frequent fronters. in charge of calming us down, also helps handle new or stressful situations. big music lover.
○ Inky ○ it/they/xe ○ 18 ○ ex-host ○
eccentric genderless teen. does its best enjoys life to the fullest but is super depressed. loves funky earrings and wearing way too much eyeliner.
○ Gray ○ they/he ○ 19 ○ romanticizer ○
hopeless romantic, sees the world through rose tinted glasses. loves music and tiktok and being outside. acts as if he's the main character in a coming of age novel.
○ ??? ○ ??? ○ ??? ○ ??? ○
resident witch, has been here for a couple years now. we mixed them up with inky as they're very similar, and are currently trying to figure out who they are still. they don't have a name yet, but for now we call them inky 2.
○ Chaos ○ he/it ○ 22 ○ protector/persecutor ○
edgy dick but we all love him. pretty aggressive and standoffish, doesn't like or trust 90% of people. constantly craving cigarettes even though the body doesn't smoke.
○ Mirror ○ she/gore ○ 20 ○ protector/trauma holder ○
the yandere anime girl stereotype if it was traumatized and also not a girl. a bit blunt but has a big heart. very romantic.
○ Rocky ○ he/him ○ 14 ○ anger holder ○
sulky teenage boy with poor social skills. would fight god just for the hell of it.
○ Delilah ○ she/her ○ 16 ○ trauma holder ○
soft girl that cries over everything. can't handle any stress or conflict and will apologize a hundred times if she thinks you're mad at her. clingy af.
○ Breeze ○ no pronouns ○ ageless ○ positive emotion holder ○
happy-go-lucky dryad. a bit of a hippie. lives mostly in our headspace.
○ Buttercream ○ she/her ○ ageless ○ trauma holder/persecutor ○
musicative of a source we won't disclose. she's not really allowed on here for our own comfort. she's very girly and loves anything frilly and pink.
○ Zee ○ xe/it ○ 15 ○ role unknown ○
nonbinary zombie popstar. very hyperactive, can't sit still when xe fronts. likes to change our layouts.
○ Jay ○ he/him ○ mid 20s ○ moodbooster ○
an absolute gremlin. dear god he is feral. goes batshit over anything sweet. will not shut up when he co-cons.
○ Jett ○ he/him ○ mid 20s ○ no role ○
jay's boyfriend. pretty much the opposite of his partner, he's quiet and keeps to himself. seems to only speak around jay or his other sourcemates.
○ Ren ○ he/him ○ mid 20s ○ soother ○
our resident soft boy. loves flowers, oversized hoodies, and iced coffee. absolutely hates to front. flower lover.
○ Ro ○ he/any ○ 20 ○ no role ○
sassy homosexual. his ideal night is lounging around drinking wine and complaining to himself.
○ Dio ○ he/him ○ 16-18 ○ no role ○
angry and dramatic teenager. yells a lot and that's pretty much it.
○ Ty ○ he/it/thing ○ 24 ○ emotion processor ○
feels everything at 100% and isn't afraid to be open about it. its motto is fuck gender roles and fuck society.
○ Wyatt ○ he/him ○ 20s ○ fragment ○
quiet, keeps to himself mostly. co-cons with jay.
○ Lenny ○ he/him ○ 20s ○ fragment ○
chatty and loud. co-cons with jay.
○ Sunny ○ he/him ○ 20s ○ fragment ○
if summer was a person. handles dysphoria. energetic and boyish, likes to be loud.
○ Marky ○ he/him ○ 20s ○ fragment ○
fronts very rarely. positive dude, good in social situations. frat boy vibes.
○ Johnny ○ he/they ○ 20s ○ fragment/protector ○
chill, laidback guy. the big brother of the system.
○ Dove ○ he/him ○ 20s ○ fragment ○
a type of soother, also holds religious guilt. rarely ever is near front.
○ Leo ○ he/ne/silly ○ agehazy ○ moodbooster ○
cheerful boy. his job is to remind us to focus on the positive in life. is currently dormant.
if you'd like to get to know us more our sp is @/thebubblyaquaruim
Pfp created by this lovely artist
#sysblr#dissociative system#osdd#plural#plurality#plural system#plural community#songtive#musicative#pinned intro#intro post#introject#factive#osdd 1a#osdd system#actually osdd#system
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Athena "Karma" Hansies (COD x Marvel OC)
For anyone wondering, this is the oc that Karma was based on. This (other than the name) is all canon for Black Widow! reader/ Karma. This is not proof read.
Note that this is also my visualisation for the many drawings I'll do of her.
Warnings : mentions of abuse, scars, blood, death, child death, child exploitation, SA, child experimentation, suicide, SH,
Identity
Name: Hanah "Karma" Leiner, (previously Athena Hansies)
Age: 19 (MW I) 24(MW II)
Height: 170 cm
Aliases: Theseus, Athena, Karma, Child (by Ghost, Soap and Price), sweetheart (by Graves), (by Valeria)
Gender: Non specific/ fluid (AFAB)
Pronouns: She/They/Him
Date of birth : january 1st (given by the Red Room)
Nationality: Russian
Ethnicity: Unknown
Place of Birth: Moscow, Russia
Languages: Russian, English, French, Spanish, Arabic, Italian, Portuguese, German, Dutch,
Sexuality: queer
Occupation: Reaper (previously), Task Force 141
Description
Eye Color: Ice blue
Hair Color: Light brown, blood red
Haircut: Short wolf cut
Hair Type: loose waves
Eye shape: Almond
Eyebrows: Soft arch
Special Features: Scars along the left eyebrow corner and right lip corner, general little cuts along her limbs.
Piercings: Tongue piercing, Two ear rings and one ear chain (left ear), one ear ring and three metal beads (right ear)
Character moodboard:
Likes
Color(s): Black, red, green
Flower: Red rose
Animal: Snake
Aesthetic: grunge
Song: She used to be mine by Chloe Adams
Dislikes
Food: Anything slimy
People: Graves, The Red Room, governments
Personality
Humourous, sarcastic, mocking, sassy, : basically a gen z, don't mind her, she's trying to cope
empathetic/people reader : she'll know how you feel, whether you like it or not. She's been trained for it.
loyal, loving, overprotective : basically a lost puppy, she takes loyalty to the people she loves very seriously.
strategic, logical : she's a widow, she can't not be it. Also, her mind is just running every possible situation in her head to choose the best one, it's her training.
street smart : she had to fend for herself during a year and a half, how can she not?
cold : the poor girl is trying to protect herself, just give her time.
impulsive, reckless : she's had rules for too long, she feels the need to not care and break them. She most likely won't think of the consequences that it'll involve for her unless it hurts someone else
blood lusted, people pleaser : She's traumatized. Yes, that'll be my only explanation.
stubborn and argumentative : no, she is not wrong.
touch starved, emotionally deprived : again, she's traumatized.
Has a big problem with authority : Trauma? Also, she's just ✨chaos✨
can't take herself or anything to do with her seriously : she's coping, I swear
mimicking mechanism : she's been taught to fit in, so she copies what the people do
Amazing intuition : This girl ha a sixth sense I tell you. She'll know when something's off.
Yes, she has PTSD. (I'll do my best, I promise)
Skills
Fighting, shooting, sneaking, killing, flexibility and fitting everywhere because she's an Elite spy ( an : the more I'm writing this the less serious I get)
Weapons: Anything, but she does prefer precision rifles and blades
Trivia
Price gave her her callsign when he picked her up, realizing that she was driven by spite and chaos and that her morality was to give back what she receives. He promised to help her burn the Room to the ground.
She has slowly learnt to switch on and off from her reaper side thanks to Price and Gaz.
She swears, like a lot. If she's swearing in russian run for your life.
She has a snake tattoo all along her left arm.
She scratches her arms when anxious to keep herself aware.
She's buried deep in the abuse she has gotten from the Room and the people she's been loaned to. She often gets nightmares and anxiety attacks from her past trauma. But thanks to that she developed a dissociation technique.
She's worked in many dark places when she was too young.
She was loaned as a sex slave for a few months in an illegal club when she was young.
She was loaned to Valeria's organisation where V took care of her after a while there.
She lost her young sister to the program. She had to kill her herself because she didn't know how to follow orders.
She was the test subject for many modifications the Room brought to its widows
She was taught ballet and still dances to try and cope, bringing more artistic liberty to the traditional ballet she was taught.
She still fights to survive. Both against the room and herself, but Ghost now helps her once he first found her attempting to end herself.
Price is her dad, whether she wants it or not :)
#valeria garza x fem!reader#valeria x f! reader#platonic task force 141#oc#crossover#wip#Karma Hansies#this isnt finished but oh well#how do tags work#task force 141 x oc
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Jay headcanons! Why? Because I fucking hate him (sobs in kin)
Here we goooo~
(Shout out to @giddlygoat, he loves Jay hcs)
Jay doesn't really have a normal sleeping schedule. My projection of ADHD onto him makes it so that he wakes up and just goes and goes and goes until he crashes, and when he crashes there is nothing that will wake him up again until he does so naturally- at least, not without functional repercussions.
Jay has very hypersensitive hearing that is specifically attune to electronics due to a funky combination of his ADHD and his powers, and it's something he's experienced since he was a child. Unfortunately, other sounds are louder for him as well- So as useful as this ability could be, it's incredibly difficult for him to differentiate sounds if there's too much noise, and he ends up tuning most of it out.
Jay gets mildly staticy when he starts to panic, stressed, or otherwise fueled by anxious energy. The rest of the Ninja aren't super affected by his shocks anymore, and for Lloyd they tickle, but for a normal person it'd be a pretty painful and shocking zap, like touching a door handle in the middle of winter.
Jay is hypermobile- he's double-jointed in a lot of places and just generally flexible in ways he shouldn't be. It's useful for his preferred fighting style (calculated combos of light, fast strikes, speed and evasion prioritized over strength and endurance) but he often overextends things without realizing and wears a lot of braces under his gi and casual clothing to stop himself from doing any permanent damage just by moving around.
Small dogs people are memably stereotyped as aggressive because they have less overall body mass to contain all their anger, and Jay is no exception to this rule. He's literally a human tazer.
Oh, and he totally kept the promise he made to Cole in Skybound and bit him when he became corporeal again in DotD, even if he wouldn't remember it. It was totally worth getting flung on reflex into the wall behind them and you'd have a hard time convincing Jay otherwise.
Jay is SUPER gender queer and doesn't have the mental capacity to process it between saving the world all the god damn time. All he knows is that he/him pronouns are great and all, but being called Nya's girlfriend and having she/they occasionally used feels way better than it should for a supposed cis person.
It doesn't really matter either way though, because he's definitely into drag and glamrock and glittery sparkly things. (He totally would have done the makeup section of their show if Dareth let him)
Jay is just generally clingy, not just toward Nya but the other Ninja too, and it's largely because touch and physical proximity is his go-to reassurance anchor. It doesn't matter if he's scared or upset or hurt, his first instinct is to grab someone's hand or lean into their shoulder or reaffirm their presence to himself in some other way. Touch is his preferred method to comfort others too, often reaching out on impulse whenever someone is upset.
Jay eventually does end up losing his eye, and there's no conveniently placed time travel to undo it. It was a pretty gruesome and traumatizing experience... for everyone except Jay. He doesn't remember a lick of it. Blood loss and pain makes the memories too fuzzy to recall.
Anyway, he ends up going a pretty long time before realizing exactly why his jokes about it aren't really landing and managing to stress Kai out by mentioning he wasn't surprised, since he'd been wondering if he'd properly lose it ever since looking in the magical FSM tomb mirrors- If you'll recall, Cole had no reflection (you thought I couldn't squeeze Lava in here? FOOL! MWAHAHAHHAHA- HACK-)
Jay was genuinely scared of thunderstorms as a kid because of how loud they were, and technically still are for him. It's not as bad now that he understands what the noise is from, but it was a noise that haunted his nightmares growing up.
Jay called Lloyd 'bug' when he was little, and Nya calls him 'lightning bug' affectionately now. You can't tell me otherwise.
I mean, you can, but you're just objectively wrong
#ninjago#ninjago headcanons#ninjago hc#jay walker#jay ninjago#jay walker hc#he's a silly little guy#a sparky little fellow#a zappy little weirdo#we love him though#we torture him as much as we do BECAUSE we love him#favorite bean syndrome is rough#but if he didn't want to be the bean he shouldn't have been bean shaped#lance's ninjago hcs
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Kinda popular opinion:
!! new cod fans suck !!
Im not saying it any other way. They suck. They all like the same characters (Ghost, König, Soap extc.) and they call them babygirls or whatever like bro. 💀
I keep seeing people say "ohh König is a anxious baby hes so cute and shyyy" hes a tall ass, huge, austrian murder machine. He was literally to huge to become a sniper so they use him as a battering ram to break open doors, and you call him bbg? Shut up. Hes not a 'bbg' or 'shy baby' cuz he has anxiety. Have you seen that man?
HOW IS THIS A SHY ANXIOUS BABY GIRL OR SOMETHING???? WHAT.. 💀
Also they make every man in cod fucking gay? Like man im not a homophobe. Im lit a trans queer gay man. But why does every damn man have to be gay? Tbh this happens in multiple fandoms tho.
I also am itching to talk about Ghost. So.. People make him seem like a emo gay twink or something. He is a dark traumatized strong soldier and not some 'bbg'. Everyone ships him with Soap? Witch i mean i guess i get why but i would hardly say they are even best friends. Ghost isint really the type of guy to trust everyone and have heeps of friends.
Theres so much more i could say but its 2:35 AM and im eepy and i wanna just relax to dsbm and rot. All i wanna say is; these tik tok cod 'fans' need to calm down and shut the fuck up. Good night. ᰔᩚ
( I apologize if there is any spelling mistakes. Its late and English is not my first language )
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an impulse i don't get—
or rather, so as not to be disingenuous, an impulse i get perfectly well but strongly dislike when i'm faced with it, which means i need to reexamine it in myself when i generate it—
is the impulse to sit in judgment about What Counts As Queer. like. yeah, okay, i do get it really, we're all disempowered by hegemonic culture and setting ourselves up as petty kings shores up our egos! but if there's anything i've loved about discovering queerness in and for myself, it's been the realization that there were worldviews beyond my own—and that there still are, almost certainly! that the world is a firework show of exploding possibility, and that i and my current understanding of myself and everyone else are just one bright spark in a whole connected series of them, and that more will come after me, bringing new colors and configurations to my field of vision, if i just keep my eyes open…
and so i just always feel. god. how close-minded, to shut your eyes to someone else's vision of queerness, to say not just 'that isn't a version of queerness that i recognize or feel represented by,' but to say categorically, 'that isn't queer'! if someone's saying in all sincerity, 'this feels alien to the framework i grew up with, and exciting or comforting or both to me'—i want to hear them out, and make space in my own understanding for a multiplicity of queernesses. i'm not always perfect at it! but i want to.
because what's the alternative? join with the biphobes and transphobes who would've said my gq4gq relationship with my transfem ex was really just straight, or at least enough of a union of opposites for government work? join with the aphobes and arophobes who are constantly insinuating that if you're not actively sucking or fucking, you're a square—never mind those of us who are isolated, or traumatized, or anxious, or any of the thousand other reasons why our queerness might not be siting itself in sex or romance, right now or ever! join with the people who sneer at poly and flinch from kink, as if reexamining those relational conventions were somehow cleanly separable from reexamining all the other ones—as if we should want it to be?
anyway, this is about a lot of things, really, and at least one of them i pretty actively don't want to talk about in specific; but i just think, god, i wish we could all learn a little more generosity, and a little more humility. we know the world, and the human heart, encompass more than is dreamt of in kyriarchal philosophy; why then are we so resistant to the idea that they might also encompass more than is dreamt of in our own? movement after movement of queers have come, and built, and been built upon in turn; our personal convictions are not, i feel certain, the final course to be laid down on the great work of enlightenment and liberation—and how depressing it would be, if they were!
#there's an invisible Works Referenced here that includes a post i keep not reblogging bc it's too aggro#but it's about like. there's no single masculinity or femininity#similarly i think. there's no single queerness‚ because there's no single straightness; it's a complex construction—constriction—#and so our resistance to it must necessarily be equally complex‚ to meet it where it crops up and set it aflame#and so like. just because something isn't your queerness‚ or mine‚ doesn't mean it can't be someone else's!#there's something else i was thinking of‚ too‚ but i forgot it already‚ lol#this isn't the like. clearly-structured post i wanted to write‚ i got mad and florid instead#and i expect i've left out some of what i meant#but like. sometimes you—i—have to just run with that‚ or else express nothing at all…#anyway i just think like. yeah‚ models of maybe-queerness we see in the world might wound us‚ or anyway look as though they might!#it's a possibility!#but what's not a possibility‚ but a certainty‚ is that the rhetoric i've seen used to *dismiss* various representations#as Not Queer Enough#has for SURE wounded me! and almost certainly wounded others who've just curled up silently and said nothing about it!#anyway. idk. 'NOT HET BUT HETERODOX‚' proclaims my protest sign#is this coherent without specifying all its context? maybe not. but the fundamental stance isn't contextual for me—#it's something i think is important to uphold‚ and where i fail at it (which i do!)‚ to give myself a good hard squint#and work out how to realign my reactions with the principles i actually want guiding them#anyway. good morning‚ lmao. have a diatribe
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