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fxllingout · 1 year

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cait! cait! do you read op fanfics? cause i need some recommendations i don’t really have any preferences romantic, platonic, ship, non-ship, all fine by me i guess the only thing would be no heavy angst i can’t handle that - op anon

i do read op fics! ive read a bit of everything so im gonna rec a bit of everything that i really love to reread

Older Brother's Duties (and also i recommend reading the second fic in the series as well but the first is my favourite of the two). au where luffy is the older sibling and ace just joined the whitebeard pirates and luffy comes to check up on him. i find it very cute (gen fic)

Who We Were Meant to Be, au where luffy joined the marines for reasons and now ace is about to be executed and im not gonna say more because even though me telling you the plot wouldn't really spoil anything cause it's obvious i think you should just experience it all for the first time with no huge primer on it (gen fic)

Watashitachi wa Roger kaizoku desu (we still stand proud), au where the remaining roger pirates come to save their captain's son from execution, also heavy on the shanks and buggy friendship and their not so good past with their former crew members (like in terms of the au not canon stuff) (gen fic)

Shanties for the Weary Voyager okay so this is a series not a singular fic but i have to rec the whole series cause god damn. shanks/makino fics, the first few in the series all follow the main story and then after that are au's of the og fanfic or are one shots connected to the og fanfic. overall summary is it's just shanks and makino falling in love when he first is in foosha and then her waiting for him to come back after he has to leave and then them living happily ever after. first fic in the series is all fade to black but a lot of the ones after are explicit, like straight smut just to warn you so yeah big nsfw warning on this one

You, Drowning Between My Arms usosan fic, interesting concept where sanji keeps reliving the day after he turned down usopp's confession and is trying to fix it EXCEPT it's told from usopp's pov which i really enjoyed it. its like. kinda angsty obviously cause usopp got turned down and sanji is suffering cause he's trying to fix it but it's not heavy heart breaking angst

the demon perched upon the sun zosan pokemon au, another interesting concept, as the fic is told through an oc character. their goal is to beat the pokemon world champion but the world champion, zoro, has disappeared from society so they have to become the world champion and then find zoro where ever the fuck he is to reach their ultimate goal. sanji tags along on oc's quest. you meet the other strawhats every so often. so really its just zosan from outsider pov but done really really well imo. again, kinda angsty, but not heavy i promise

the thing that remains lawlu fic, its just law falling in love with luffy over the course of them meeting until wano. really, thats it. well written. nsfw stuff, though i believe its only right near the end and its not plot relevant so you can skip if you want (iirc i havent reread it in a bit). the rest of the series it's in i also enjoy, though the sanji/katakuri ones are just straight smut so. yeah lmao

Wine and Dine and... Guns? zolusan (is that their correct ship name????) mafia/gang au, the strawhats (excluding sanji) are a gang, and due to certain actions sanji has to join them. nothing much else to say

A Split Thread zolu fic, luffy and zoro get sent back in time after their journey and have a chance to make everything right. zoro goes off on his own to kill blackbeard while luffy gathers the crew. i also quite enjoy the sequel that is zoro's pov

and yeah thats all of them i hope you enjoy !!!!!!!

#i promise when i say angst i mean like temporary heart break like its not heavy angst i promise #but yeah i really do hope you enjoy at least one of these #they are most of the ones i have bookmarked so unless you want straight 4some smut or shittily written fics that i somehow enjoy #this is all i can recommend for now #cait.ask #op anon #save

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baiwu-jinji · 2 years

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Once upon a time, I remember I sent you an ask about how Mo Ran wasn't someone you could really call promiscuous and then... I forgot! First of all, it was because I wasn't looking for a convo about it because you were just starting the book so the truth is, I just saw what you replied... I also saw another person sending you something which makes me think they misunderstood what, at least I considered, was the topic: just Mo Ran being promiscuous, and not as a way to judge his morals in general.

Now you know about the long hatred flower and how he started going to the brothels after it but I remember that my point at that time was to just leave clear that even without this plot twist, Mo Ran actually isn't part of the bad boy trope who sleeps around because he can't or is afraid of connect with people emotionally. You know how common that is? But my bad to sent that anyways when you were just at the beginning orz

Anyways, I also commented on how his sexuality IS something interesting to analyze because it's a very important trait of him as a character, both the fact he has these dark desires and the fact he tries to suppress them out of guilt because of what he did to cwn. Then there's the fact that only CWN awakes that in him and how I like the way Meatbun plays with the concept of the Madonna-whore complex regarding how he sees Shi Mei vs CWN... but I like how she uses it a tool to give us hints that it is CWN the one he actually wants in every sense (it's interesting when the trope is usually the other way around, and it's always the true love ™ the one the protagonist has the most "pure" feelings while it's just a whim, the one he is just sexually attracted).

I laughed with some of the screenshots you showed from some people in the Chinese fandom. I genuinely dont feel mad at those who dislike Mo Ran or CWN at the beginning... about people who hate 2ha... well, those I prefer to not read them but of course I respect people's dislikes. I find interesting how I feel as if the Chinese fandom is pretty monoshipper? They seem to be pretty protective of their ship, infidelity seems to be a very big deal for them (not as if it isn't irl, but you know how the westerners multiship a lot) and I confess I love how Meatbun and MXTX are very vocal about not separating their main couples, haha.

Sorry this is all over the place and random and late and and... whatever this ask is. I really enjoy your takes on things.

Hi once upon a time anon :),

For anyone interested, anon was talking about this ask and this one I got when I started reading 2ha. First to respond to your last paragraph, yes I think there’s an implicit rule in the Chinese danmei fandom which is 不拆官配, “don’t separate the canon ship,” if you do, people would think you’re disrespecting the canon and the author.

I love the point you made about Mo Ran’s feelings for CWN as a subversion of the trope of putting the true love on a pedestal (and I love the points you made in that whole paragraph). And yeah now I see that Mo Ran isn’t exactly part of the bad boy trope, but for him sleeping around is a way to self-sabotage and close himself off from any possibility of forming emotional connection. In his present life, Mo Ran reflected on his Taxian-Jun days and reached the following conclusion in chapter 188:

如今想来，那些欢爱，与“欢”无关，与“爱”也无关，反倒像是他在混乱泥潭里陷入，堕入，让自己显得更脏，更深，自暴自弃，恨不能把自己的骨头缝都染黑。

黑到极处，就不会再渴望光亮，奢望救赎，就不会再斗胆想拥住那人世间最后一团火。

Translation:

“Now that he thinks of it, those pleasurable lovemaking had nothing to do with either ‘pleasure’ or ‘love,’ rather it was as if he was sinking and plunging into a muddled mire to make himself appear filthier, more fallen, more hopeless, to dye himself black inside and out.

When the blackness reaches its extreme, he would no longer have any yearning for light, any hope for redemption, and he would no longer dream of embracing the last fire in the world.”

Deep down Taxian-Jun still yearned for CWN’s affection, but he knew he couldn’t have it and courting CWN’s affection isn’t supposed to be what he’s doing, so his promiscuity is a way to resist the desire to be emotionally and physically close to CWN.

#2ha

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yourfinalbow · 3 years

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"if Destiel wasn't on the cards, why is it Canon" u mean that unrequited love confession from Cas? Lmao. Jensen is literally homophobic yall trying to push him into Destiel ain't for the sake of representation its for the sake of you own little MLM fetish ship. Two straight actors ain't good gay rep. Even if Destiel was requited by Dean. Again, stop being a loser.

Hi! I'm actually glad you came to my ask box, it gives me an excuse to try and clear up some of these misconceptions.

So first of all, we don't technically know if it's unrequited. There is a lot of tinhatting involved in Destiel shipping, but there is also some solid evidence behind it. I personally believe that Dean returns Castiel’s confession, but didn’t have time to react to it. (I wouldn’t know what to do if my best friend of twelve years told me they made a deal with the Empty, was about to die, loved me, his love for me is the reason he’s about to die, and then continued to tell me that everything I believed about myself is wrong.) Some people also believe that Dean may have thought that if he didn’t say anything, the Empty wouldn’t come. Others believe that he did say something, but it was cut. (Which actually isn’t as far fetched as it sounds, considering scripts are sent to dubbing companies ahead of time and he reciprocated in almost every Latin American dub, as well as in French and Italian. And before you claim that there was a “rogue translator”, I must say that the script and dub has to go through very many heads before it is aired, so practically the entire company would have to be in on it. There are also a lot of strange jump cuts in the scene.) People have their personal headcanons, and you have yours! That’s perfectly fine, though anonymously telling me, and another awesome human being, that I’m a loser for having my headcanon is actually incredibly coward-like, presumptuous, and disrespectful.

So while Dean didn’t tell Cas he loved him in the English version, (Though I don’t know why that’s the only one that matters, considering only 13% of the world speaks it.) That doesn’t mean it’s not canon however, just unconfirmed on one side. (So your previous statement, “Destiel was never on the cards. Lol.”, is both grammatically incorrect and false.)

Your next statement, however, is the one that rubs me the wrong way. Jensen Ackles is not homophobic. I’ll link a few posts below that completely disprove this, but just because you don’t ship a queer ship, doesn’t make you homophobic. There’s also his infamous gay Aunt, and in my experience of homophobic-people-interacting-with-their-gay-family-members, (which is sadly a good enough amount to have a proper viewpoint), they don’t usual act as comfortable and open as Jensen and Aunt Darla, (and her wife!) are with eachother.

-Twitter thread of him being comfortable with queer peeps.

-CW’s “Dare to Defy” Campaign. (This movement is still very important, but the words don't hold as much weight to me personally after seeing what they did in the finale.)

-Tumblr post with Jensen being supportive of queer peeps. (He's even raised money for people in the LGBTQIA+ community anon. A homophobic person does not do that.)

You also have to take into consideration how comfortable he is with his male friends. I’m not saying he himself is apart of the LGBTQIA+ community, but there are countless videos and pictures of him being comfortable with both Jared and Misha, and that’s something homophobic people tend to stay away from. Once again, this doesn’t mean he himself is queer, and obviously people can love each other platonically! But people who are super religious and stead fast against gay people, usually go out of their way to not be seen as gay. And it’s clear it doesn’t bother J2M at all.

Jensen has also, in recent years, made jokes about Destiel. My favorite one is probably the, “Dean has no taste, clearly.” You can find that here because it genuinely makes my day. And if he was truely homophobic, I doubt he would be comfortable with things like this, as well as Jared constantly poking fun at him about both Misha and Destiel. (He would have at least pulled Jared aside privately and asked him nicely not to do that anymore. There are ways of doing this without seeming homophobic, and in reverse, just because he doesn’t want someone to make jokes like that doesn’t make him homophobic.) Third, I personally want Destiel to be canon because A, having two famous and main characters on a long-running Sci-Fi show, that was originally intended to be incredibly heterosexual, come out as queer would be good representation. People need to see that it’s okay to not be straight. Queer people have been oppressed for thousands of years, so being able to see themselves in their favorite show and characters is so powerful. Especially if these characters live long, happy lives together. And I argue that the actors don’t have to be gay themselves to play a gay character. People cross the borders on gender, sex, age, and nationality all the time. Why should sexual orientation be any different? And the B, because it's my otp. Simple as that.

And I don’t speak for the entire Destiel community, just as you don’t speak for the entire community of people who don’t ship them, but I personally don’t fetishize m|m. I actually get no enjoyment out of reading smut, and actively avoid it. I ship them because they have great chemistry, an interesting and often romantic storyline, and they obviously care about each other very much. Their gender has no impact on that. I ship w|w couples, (I actually wish there were more of them, because having my own representation is important to me), as well as heterosexual and nonbinary ones too.

So you can call me a loser anon, and honestly, I’ll embrace it. But I’m not the one coming into people’s ask boxes and hating on them, just because they want to ship two awesome people. I don’t judge you for what you ship, so I ask you return the favor. (But feel free to come talk to me again about anything else.) And since you seem to be having a bad day and taking it out on others, here's a gif for you!

And if anyone wants to respectfully add anything to this post, go ahead!

#Oops #Sorry for taking up the dashboard.#Supernatural #Spn #Destiel #Jensen Ackles #Lampswered #*Spongebob Imagination Rainbow

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modgirlyreposts-revamped · 3 years

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Okay. Your Funtime Freddy X Millie's grandpa infatuation is quite fascinating actually. Weird asf, but fascinating. Can you give more info regarding this ship? Like headcanons! Here, I'll give you some questions. How did they get together? How did Funtime Freddy develop a crush on him? What does her grandpa see in Freddy that's attractive? How does Millie feel about this? And here's a sad one: what would Freddy do if grandpa passed away? He's at that age after all. I think my biggest fascination with it is how incredibly different they are. Her grandpa is sweet, has dealt with dead loved ones, considerate, and kinda frail. Freddy is sadistic, has killed, crazy, etc. Speaking of which, this makes me think Freddy is going to be dominant and probably even a bit... Like a yandere (at least I kinda hope he'd be possessive lol)?

hhjfhjkdlkjhdhgjks ok you asked for it anon, prepare for a long post-

I think I came up with the ship around the same time I started writing the Baby!Millie AU, and at first it started off as a joke, until just like you said I started thinking more about it and how it would work, since the two are such opposites.

In my AU the animatronics do not know much about the outside world, or how humans really work which plays into how Funtime Freddy and Millie’s grandpa met.

In the Baby!Millie AU Millie who is around a year old or so is sent to live with her grandfather, simply because her parents don’t think they’re able to give her a good life. Funtime Freddy is in the workshop at this time, and constantly tries to break out. Millie’s grandpa is not aware that he is sentient at this time.

After a few days of Millie moving into the house, Funtime Freddy escapes the workshop and manages to break into the house. He does not do this quietly, which obviously wakes up a sleeping Millie who almost immediately starts crying. Funtime Freddy goes into her room to see what that noise is coming from, and turns out he is more afraid of her, than she is of him.

Funtime Freddy has no idea how humans work outside of human anatomy, and has also never seen a human baby in person so he just stays in Millie’s room observing her, all the while wondering what he was looking at. Millie’s grandpa is a heavy sleeper, but Millie’s crying wakes him up and sensing that something is up he rushes into Millie’s room, and the first thing he sees is an 8′ tall robot bear watching his newly adopted granddaughter, asking things like “it looks like a human... but are they supposed to be that small???”

Around this time Millie’s grandpa is like “who tf are you, and what are you doing in my house????” which scares Funtime Freddy off. Needless to say he is confused af after this, and at first thinks it was just a dream.

Until Millie starts acknowledging the existence of Funtime Freddy.

This is when Millie’s grandpa decides to confront Funtime Freddy in the workshop. At first Funtime Freddy pretends to be deactivated until Millie’s grandpa debates whether or not he should bring Millie in to see how he reacts, which gets Funtime Freddy’s attention who’s like “oh, is that what the little one’s name is?”

After that Millie’s grandpa is well aware that Funtime Freddy is sentient, and Funtime Freddy stays in the house when Millie’s grandpa realizes that he’s not as much of a threat as he thought, since he’s still a little scared of Millie, a literal baby. From that point on Funtime Freddy stays with Millie’s grandpa and helps him take care of Millie, the two of them learning more about each other as time goes on.

Now, some headcanons!

-Funtime Freddy develops a crush on Millie’s grandpa first, because he is the first human he met that actually genuinely cares for him

-Meanwhile Millie’s grandpa starts developing feelings for Funtime Freddy, since for lack of a better term Funtime Freddy is just what he needed to make his life more interesting, with his crazy off-the-walls personality, and determination to live every day to the fullest

-Funtime Freddy wants to learn everything about the outside world that he can, since he spent most of his life in an underground facility and then a scrapyard

-When the two started developing feelings for each other, they had very different reactions to their own individual feelings

-Funtime Freddy was like “is this what humans call,,,,,,, love???????? :0:0:0:0:0″ and was excited af since he was never able to come to terms with his emotions back in the underground facility, thanks to Afton’s influence

-Meanwhile Millie’s grandpa was just like “what the fuck?????? that’s a fucking robot, why??????”

-Funtime Freddy was the one who confessed, while Millie��s grandpa was just awkwardly waiting around for him to say something

-Millie’s grandpa still and always will miss his wife, but Funtime Freddy helps him realize that not being able to move past that event won’t make things better

-Millie being a baby and all, just sees Funtime Freddy with her grandpa and thinks “two dads???????” and immediately accepts Funtime Freddy as a surrogate father

-Funtime Freddy though is just like “babe, your kid just started calling me ‘dad’, what do I do??????”

-If Millie’s grandpa did end up dying anytime soon, I can imagine Funtime Freddy would grow to be extremely protective over Millie, as she is the only thing he has left to remind him of her grandfather, and promises to take care of her

-Funtime Freddy is extremely possessive over Millie and her grandfather, with Millie’s grandpa constantly having to reassure him that he’s fine and no one tried anything with them

-Despite his age, Millie’s grandpa is extremely capable of protecting himself, and knows how to fight

-Millie’s grandpa has unusually long hair for his age, and Funtime Freddy enjoys trying to put it into small braids, or simply stroking it when the two cuddle

-Funtime Freddy is somewhat of a yandere in this AU, but usually is just clinging to Millie’s grandpa and reminding everyone else that knows them that he belongs to him

-Millie’s grandpa is still quite close with his friends, who had a hard time wrapping their heads around the fact that he was dating a murderous robot bear he found in a scrapyard, but ultimately decided not to question it when he proved Funtime Freddy’s sentience

-When Funtime Freddy is mad, all Millie’s grandpa has to do is give him a kiss on the cheek or hand, or literally just about anywhere which will make him be all like “ggjlk,,,,,,,,,hhgskllkds,,,,ahshsfjf,,,,,,,,,,”

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musette22 · 3 years

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hey, it's the anon that sent in the thing abt rpf being iffy. i understand your points, and i don't have a huge problem with it if it stays in fandom spaces. i think my issue just comes from my own stance that celebrities deserve to not have their private lives speculated or written abt, even if it is just a fantasy. but i don't think you're necessarily being immoral or wrong, and i know that the speculating and writing abt celebrities is so widespread now that it probably won't stop. i sometimes just feel bad for the people that might feel violated by it. and, for the record, i also rlly don't like the "self-shipping" with celebrities either, as it seems pretty invasive. also, someone replied to my ask that you answered saying that i probably just don't like that you ship two men rather than a man and a woman, and that is absolutely not true, i'm a lesbian lmao. anyways, i just thought it was worth it to clear a couple things up. i hope you have a good day!! <3

Hi, thanks for sending another messages and clarifying a few things, I appreciate it! I also appreciate your stance about the private lives of celebrities and I do understand where you're coming from. Just for the record; you explained your issue well in your first ask and there was nothing that made me think you had a problem with same sex shipping!

The way I see it, most celebrities more or less willingly renounce some of their privacy just by becoming a celebrity - I'd even say that's inherent in the concept of celebrity/fame. Off the top of my head, I can't think of anyone, at least not in the entertainment industry, who is famed merely for their art or profession, and has never talked about their personal life or thoughts publicly (whether in interviews, at fan meetings, in their songs, etc.). If you're famous, people will know certain things about you, unless you try really hard to keep your private life completely private, but even then idk if that could ever be achieved. Of course, no one is entitled to know anything about celebrities - it all depends on what and how much they want to share with the public. And if they want to share some things and keep other things private, that's their prerogative and we should respect their boundaries in that regard. I would never demand (or even ask) information about a celebrity's family, relationship status or sexual preferences, for instance, if they didn't volunteer that information themselves.

But I can't imagine celebrity culture without a certain amount of fascination with and/or lusting after said celebrities, whether by their fans or the general public. I don't think it's possible to separate the two completely. So I don't think it's wrong or weird to privately think/speculate about their private lives, as long as you observe certain hard boundaries, which I've explained in reply to your previous ask.

If I'm not mistaken, the self-shipping you mention sounds like reader insert fic? If so, I wasn't even necessarily talking about that tbh, I just meant like, when you're on a train and you start daydreaming about meeting your favourite celebrity and what they'd say to you and how they'd fall in love with you and how they might kiss you etc. etc. That's something I think a lot of people (not everyone, but a lot, especially people who are 'fans', with more than a casual interest in a celebrity) have done at some point in their lives. And I don't really see how that's different from putting it down on paper, as long as you make sure the celebs never get to see it, just as they'll never see the thoughts in your head.

Basically, what happens in both cases is we put words in their mouths and make them do things in our imagination - in a way, they're almost just as much characters as fictional characters are, because at the end of the day, we don't truly know these people, and we certainly can't control them. I don't know if you saw what someone else in the notes of the other ask said as well, about Sir Ian McKellan? @misspluckyplum said that "Ian McKellen was asked on his website what he thought about 'real person slash'. He remarked, and I'm paraphrasing here, that those who were writing RPS didn't know the real him, therefore weren't depicting the real him, so how could he begrudge creative expression that had nothing to do with him anyways?"

That's how I personally see it as well. I met Sebastian once, and it was acutely clear to me that he was a stranger. Sure, I know a lot about him, but that's not the same as knowing him personally. The things I know about him are what I use to write my stories, but what I inevitably end up with is a character of my own making with lots of personal projection, sprinkled with some real life facts and mannerisms of actual people bearing the same name as my characters. I do see how that could entail a risk of objectification/sexualization, but I personally fantasize just as much if not more about these guys shyly confessing their feelings, holding hands, and raising babies together as I do about them having sex. For me, it's really much more about creative expression, and an outlet for personal romantic feelings, thoughts and desires, than it is about me wanting to completely know or - god forbid - control Chris or Sebastian or have a say in their lives.

I know you also mentioned that you would be weirded out if you knew people were shipping you with a friend of yours, and I understand what you mean. Some people will think it's extremely strange and invasive and it would be especially strange and invasive if you're a non-famous person. But like I said, by far the majority of celebrities will be aware that they've signed off some of their privacy in becoming famous. A few of them clearly hate that (which I think should be respected as much as possible) and some may be more protective over their personal lives than others, but generally speaking, I think if you habitually agree to do photoshoots, interviews and public performances or events, you're used to, and to certain extent even okay with, people being fascinated by you and wanting you/wanting you do do things.

Moreover, I've also heard about quite a few celebs who have endorsed or encouraged RPF shipping because they think it's fun or flattering, so in the end I think it depends on the person whether they'd consider RPF shipping invasive or not. I personally would not mind at all if I were famous and people would write stories about me and my best friend falling in love if that brought them comfort or happiness for some reason, as long as I didn't have to read the stories and people would not harass either of us about it. But again, that's a personal stance, and of course we can't know who is or isn't okay with it, unless they tell us. If they do know and they hate it, and they tell their fans to stop, I would of course respect their wishes in a heartbeat. But until then, I think it's okay to operate on the assumption that "what they don't know can't hurt them", especially if it's coming from a place of love and respect.

Sorry this got so long, it's just something I have a lot of thoughts and feeling about! I hope you have a lovely day as well! <3

#evanstan #rpf #minnie answers #long post #shipping things

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firelxdykatara · 4 years

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I was the anon who sent the ask about cs, and you actually addressed some of the major arguments i've seen - being with hook turned emma from a strong, independent woman into just a love interest, hook pursued emma with no reciprocated feelings, and that he never really redeemed himself. I've also seen arguments that cs is abusive, which i've seen to some extent in anti-kataang posts. i try not to dive too deep into the anti tag for my own sanity but these are some of the main things i've seen

OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

ok, sorry, i was just caught up in the euphoria of reminiscing about my captain swan feelings that for a moment there i lived in a world where the Anti CS Brigade didn’t exist. but no, yeah, i know exactly what you’re talking about and honestly i think i just......blocked 90% of it from my mind because so many of those arguments were so vitriolic and widespread but also baseless, like...

gods, ok, here we go. anon you have activated my dormant ouat wordvomit processors and idk if i’ll be able to shut up any time soon but i have A Lot Of Thoughts Here, and also a lot of really bad memories cause ye gods, the ouat shipping wars of the days of yore were vicious.

ANYWAY, like, the vast majority of these arguments came from the ‘swan queen nation’, which is where you can trace a lot of super toxic wlw ship stans back to--just for a little context, but clexa and supercorp both had their roots in swan queen, among other ships, but those are the Big Three i always go back to because what they have in common is ‘the main character of the series is explicitly abused/treated horribly by another woman and for some reason the shippers go nuts over this pairing and will insist the show is queerbaiting them if this specific pairing is not made canon’. and swan queen stans, in particular, had it out for captain swan, because they were incredibly insistent about regina and emma being in love, and naturally the existence of emma’s romantic arc with killian threatened that.

as a result, they quite literally made shit up.

it’s funny (not ‘funny ha ha’ but like funny depressing), because a lot of what they accused CS of is actually shit that happened explicitly on screen with regina and emma. they claimed that emma was no longer strong or independent because she fell in love with killian, while ignoring the fact that she’d become a literal doormat for regina’s many abuses (there are so many things regina did to emma even after her alleged redemption which, if she weren’t being so coddled by the narrative, emma would never have let her get away with--like blaming her for saving the life of a woman regina had murdered in the past, or like telling emma to her face that she wanted to tear killian’s throat out because he managed to come back from the underworld while the man regina loved stayed dead) because, for some reason, they interpreted emma being happy and no longer closed off to the people she loved, choosing to let down the walls she’d built up over a lifetime of trauma as her being ‘reduced to a love interest’ which just did not happen.

like, factually, straight up, emma was every bit as badass while dating killian as she was back in season 1. the only difference is, in season 1 emma didn’t trust anyone, she was closed off, she had a million walls built high around her by trauma, and she wasn’t willing to let anyone in because she believed that if she did then she’d only be traumatized again when they inevitably left. by season 4, when she started officially dating killian, many of those walls had come down, she was happier and healthier, she was falling in love and she was letting herself be in love, she had her parents, her son, the whole town full of people she loved. she was fucking happy, but she wasn’t happy with the right love interest, so swan queen shippers insisted they wanted ‘season 1 emma back’. because they would rather emma be miserable so they could interpret her antagonism with regina as closeted gay pining, than have her dare to be happy with a man and a family that didn’t include regina.

as to the other claims, while hook did make his feelings for emma clear once he realized he felt them, the ball was in her court almost completely. he made comments, told her how he felt, said things like ‘when i win your heart, and i will win it, it will be because you want me’ where the clear emphasis was on emma’s feelings--he believed she had some feeling for him, but he wanted anything between them to be because it was what she wanted. emma initiated every explicitly romantic interaction. killian made a flirty comment, which he was wont to do, and which she could easily have brushed off--instead, she grabbed him by the coat and yanked him into a kiss which lasted far longer than it needed to if all she wanted to do was make a point. (sorry, that scene is just burned into the brain of every CS shipper, i know it literally by heart lmfao) he made it clear that if she wanted him he would be there, but i she didn’t he wasn’t going to push her. he followed her through an entire damn portal into the past because he wanted to help her, because he’d go anywhere for her--to the end of the world, or time--but emma was the one who invited him to dinner with her family. emma was the one who noticed he hadn’t come in yet, and went to see him. emma was the one who kissed him, initiating their relationship.

like @storynightlight said in the replies to the last ask you sent, a majority of the important milestones in killian and emma’s relationship were initiated by emma. she was the one constantly progressing their relationship, it went entirely at her pace in large part because one damaged soul recognizes another, and killian had been through enough trauma in his long (long, long) life to understand that emma needed to work things through on her own terms. he wanted to be part of her life, but it had to be when she was willing to let him in. and he was perfectly content to wait for her to be ready.

as far as the ‘abuse’ claims go, that was honestly just straight up fabrication on the part of swan queen shippers mostly, which is intensely ironic considering the state of emma and regina’s ‘friendship’ for literally the entire damn series. most of them referenced things that happened while emma and killian were enemies (they called their sword fight ‘abuse’, which like.... i’m sorry but two people on opposite sides of a violent conflict having a fight is not abuse, and incidentally that’s an argument that zutara gets hit with too, to this day, clearly words don’t actually mean things anymore), and ignored the fact that killian’s behavior changed as his redemption arc progressed. he didn’t become a good upstanding citizen overnight, but he did feel remorse for his prior bad actions and the harm he caused, he went to great lengths to make up for that harm when and where he could, and he tried to be as good a man as he possibly could in later seasons, even when circumstances (like, oh, gold having possession of his heart and using it to control him, which anti CSers also blamed him for, go figure) made that nearly impossible.

meanwhile, as late as season 6, regina was still blaming emma for everything that went wrong in her life. regina happily browbeat emma about everything she ‘stole’ from her for basically the entire series. regina, in the context of their friendship after her alleged redemption, was constantly verbally and emotionally abusive to emma--and yet that behavior was completely overlooked, or deemed ‘pining’ or some other obvious evidence of romantic feelings, by swan queen shippers who would prefer to claim emma was being abused by her caring and loyal boyfriend who constantly believed in her even when she had trouble believing in herself. (incidentally, it truly is incredibly rich of regina stans (and rumple stans, a lot of them say this too) to claim that killian never redeemed himself, when regina is the one with a vault full of hearts she never returned to their proper owners, and regina is the one who murdered someone emma cared about and never confessed to it, let alone apologized for it; graham died in emma’s arms while regina crushed his heart, and it was never once brought up again. regina got away with it scott free, and it is just one on a list of crimes she literally never expressed even the slightest bit of remorse for, let alone tried to atone for. yet killian is the one who ‘never redeemed himself’ mmhmmm ok sure jan.)

I’M SO SORRY ANON, you probably had no idea the can of Worms you were opening with these asks, but CLEARLY i still have a lot of damn feelings about this fucking show lmfao. THANK YOU THOUGH!!! i haven’t talked about captain swan or even really reminisced much in a while, and i miss them a lot, so it was nice to dive back into my Feelings and remember so much of what i loved about them! i may do a rewatch soon >.> it’s ok if i just skip 4b except the finale and then turn it off immediately after emma and killian’s reunion at the end and pretend the entire show ended there, right????

i hope you’re having a good night! thanks again for the asks <33

#ouat #captain swan #emma swan #killian jones #anti swan queen #there's a tag i haven't used in a while #asked #Anonymous

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bucket404 · 3 years

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Serious question: is it a requirement to be toxic for to like CoAi? Because it strikes me that all their fandom (including you), follow that profile. It's as if they weren't able to like a ship without throwing shit at the competition. I guess they are psychological traits of that fandom.

Okay, let me break this down for you. I’m not going to match your tone and get sarcastic, and I’m no longer really annoyed, but I am going to continue to be blunt.

Tiny bit of ✨tragic backstory✨: In my time on tumblr, I’ve gotten asks about how gay ships are shit, about hating Ran, hating Kazuha, hating women in general, and how I’m a terrible, toxic, or stupid person, all for having opinions that didn’t match canon. (Or what was at the time presumed canon. I’ve been here since way before the confession.)

I don’t think any of those things are true, or fair to say. I actually love the girls best, and enjoy filling in their characters with headcanons like a lot of people do with Hakuba. I really like fleshing them out beyond the handful of emotions they’re allowed to express as Love Interests (cheerful, blushing, sad, violence).

Anyway.

Up till recently I’ve deleted these asks, ignored it, gone on with my life, but I don’t really feel like doing that anymore. So, as an experiment, I’m just going to say what I think. I’ll try not to be too mean about it, but I’m not going to hold anyone’s hand, either. I don’t want to turn into the people who’ve been driving me nuts.

Specifically, people who are die-hard, canon-only fans. That’s because they’re the ones who send things like that in, to me and to other people I know and like. Besides, obviously, talking like everyone who ships anything else is below them.

Not one person who was into non-canon ships has ever been cruel to me when our opinions didn’t match. They actually tend to be up to discussing it, which I enjoyed a lot.

As it says in my blog description, I don’t particularly ship anything. I just have a few gripes with shinran. I’d honestly love to talk about it with someone who does ship shinran, because I did use to enjoy that ship back at the beginning, but I literally lost friends the second I started doing anything but long for the confession.

I want to hash it all out and examine all the bits and pieces and see what I used to like and what might be worth revisiting. But no one who ships shinran seems interested in doing anything beyond cooing at what canon’s already doing or talking about when they have children. I’m over that part of things. I was into it for a couple of years. Now I want something new, and shinran has nothing to offer. The confession didn’t even interest me when it finally came. I wished that it would, but it didn’t.

Another interesting thing I noticed in what you said: That’s not a separate fandom. It’s just a separate ship. I know it’s just a word, but it’s an interesting insight into how you think. We’re not the Lutherans and the Catholics, you know.

Anyway. I’m willing to bet you were the anon in detectivegeekshin’s ask box, because I don’t know why else you would bother with me. What I said, it’s not what you wanted to hear, is it? Admittedly, I was pretty annoyed, and I didn’t bother to hide it at all.

In earnest,

Challenge your ideas. You want to be reassured that you’re right, as does literally everyone ever. No shade, seriously. Canon will always reassure you, because that’s how this shit works, but that doesn’t mean that everyone else has to agree with you. And it doesn’t mean that I’m not allowed to openly disagree with you, either. So come at me.

If you have a real defense beyond trying to insult me, and a whole group of people I’m not a part of? Maybe your time would be better spent writing up a list of exactly why shinran does work.

One last thing, for the coai shippers who have been sweet to me. I’m pretty sure most coai shippers are former shinran shippers that got tired of that ship. If you’re not into gay ships and/or if you’re into Haibara as an interesting, complex character, coai is a natural choice to get into. Between the fact that they’re tired of the show shoving shinran in their faces and those particularly canon-crazy people sending them things like this message you just sent me, I’m not surprised you’ve got a bad impression of them. But maybe if you approached some of them and talked about something besides Shinichi and his potential love interests, you’d find out they’re generally pretty cool people.

#dcmk

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tonyglowheart · 4 years

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This entire thing is a rant, feel free to ignore it, but I saw your post about how destiel fans can’t win in this context, and yeah. So have some rambles.

I’ve been thinking about the fact we (current spn/destiel fans) can’t win all night... I’ve seen so many people talking about how homophobic it is - and while I would very much like to argue, as every point I’ve seen made by a non-spn fan has been wrong so far, if I did everyone inside the fandom would agree and everyone outside would either call me straight or pity me for believing it’s okay.

(Cas wasn’t even sent to hell lmao. He was sent to angel death (the empty), a place he has escaped in the past. Other points, like that meta about spn has been predicting exactly this for months, that Dean ended up sobbing on the floor because he was so upset, like that death means next to nothing on spn, like that there is two episodes left, etc etc. you feel me right? I just don’t want to post wank to other spn blogs atm, we’re getting enough frustration as it is, no need to add to it.

It’s also worth pointing out that the bar is very, very low. Spn is a prominent TV show - not a Netflix show, or indie, or whatever - and it just said “main character in gay love saved the world”. [insert gif of ghostfacers dude saying that gay love can pierce through the veil of death and save the day here]

I just saw someone saying that spn having Naomi try to brainwash Cas out of loving dean makes spn homophobic (it is a conversion therapy parallel). My first response to that is that Naomi was the villain lmao? I guess we can’t write villains doing anything homophobic because having villains do homophobic things makes, uh - checks notes - villains look homophobic, and clearly we can’t have that.

There certainly are legitimate things to criticise spn about, but this isn’t it lol.

Also now some people are unironically trying to cancel Jensen because “his acting was homophobic, and so he’s clearly homophobic”, nevermind that he’s an actor and his character struggles with understanding his emotions (which I think he played excellently, myself. That scene had a very Dean delayed emotional response), nevermind the support he’s given to us queers in the past. Like. Idek man.

We would have been laughed at if we got no destiel, too.

It would have been worse, had the writers pulled a dumbledore. At this point I also trust the writers not to pull a GoT - they have explicitly criticised that ending in spn’s canon.

Spn’s writers did that by making the main villain of this season, Chuck / God, say GoT had a good ending. To reiterate a previous point I had: villains do bad things because they’re bad. And the bad things they do make them bad. For the people out there not still following, if someone does something in a story and it makes them a villain, that is explicitly telling you the story (and probably the writers) thinks that thing is bad. In this case, Chuck likes to write things for him, and we the audience have been shown and told that is bad.

Apparently thinking a gay confession is good in 2020 makes me straight. Seems unlikely, but whatever. Sorry for the length, I guess I went overboard, I’ve been holding it in lol. Anyway, DESTIEL IS CANON 💚💙 hope you have a good night

Helloo supernatural anon I hope you are living your best life right now. Yeah I’m like..... skeptical and leery myself but having lived through some absolute garbage discourse that is general purity wank, as well as the C/QL greater fandom here and on Twitter I find myself... much more wanting to question the “general wisdom” of things esp in terms of negativity, bc a lot of the time I find.... it’s wrong? Like so wrong. Or at least presents such an incomplete picture of the whole situation and also presents it in such a removed context that words that have meaning and are operationalized in a certain way for a reason, no longer have meaningful usage.

Anyway I don’t... know too much about the specifics of Spn but someone I follow is into it and talks a lot about the Gnostic stuff and that all was very fascinating to me, and I also have been grappling a lot with cultural Christianity bc of cmedia and the way ppl just *clenches fist* unthinkingly or uncritically slap some Christian norms on it and call it a day 😩 help I’m Tired. My thing here being... I actually got tired of the uncritical “superhell”s at some pt bc I am, in fact, incredibly exhausted with cultural Christianity, and because it does seem like, even possibly(?) without the Gnostic stuff it’s different from a “hell” or other Protestant-derived afterlife concept, and also yeah that it wasn’t seeded out of nowhere, it was set up to happen, which then... lends credence to the idea that whatever the current era of Spn is doing, the current showrunners are doing it with purpose.

And idk I just... refuse to believe the concept that ALL of the fans of Spn - esp the ones who have been following it still, or got back into it and are following it currently, are acting under delusion or are fooling themselves into liking it or thinking it’s good or whatever. I personally find that kinda infantilizing and patronizing and playing into issues of dismissing things women and/or other marginalized identities like.

Plus I find the concept that (from what I think I’ve been seeing Spn fans say) that the current era of the show is quite actively grappling with itself, its past, its legacy. to be very interesting and compelling; it hearkens back to like an old lore kind of feeling, of a thing that has grown into a nigh undefeatable monster and realizing that, also realizing that the only way to defeat itself is through grappling with its own nature and transforming and transmuting itself into something else. I personally find that more plausible and compelling than “Supernatural has been actively and continuously queerbaiting for 15 homophobic homophobic years., so right now we’re all very sorry for you because this maybe is no longer queerbaiting but it’s still homophobic and it can never be anything different ever.” I’ve been sort of tangentially aware of Spn thru the years and didn’t we agree, around the time of that in-universe play about Spn and with the lil Destiel shoutout, that Spn has come a ways as far as coming to terms with its fandom and working to treat its fans better? Why the sudden regression into “oh no, Supernatural is and forever will be homophobic and a hate crime”? 🤔

The rest under a cut bc the ask is already long and then my rambling will get longer-

But yeah I mean..... I get that the legacy of Supernatural has been certifiably Rough, but I think people also forget how different of a time 2005 was? Hell, how different of a time 2015 was, even, prior to, say, Obergefell v. Hodges. Now I’m not saying that to blanket-excuse Supernatural, but like, you look at mainstream shows from the era and... there’s a lot of shit lmao. The fact that Supernatural has existed this long seems to me like.... maybe we CAN look at how it’s developed through the years vs just insisting it is what it was 15, 10, hell, 5 years ago. Especially since, to my knowledge, there’s been showrunner changes? Which seems to me like it would... affect things? I mean honestly, I remember back when I got into Spn for a hot second because of Castiel, I remember watching panel, Q&A, etc vids thru the years, and like... I thought we agreed that... it was the fans who were going a bit far pushing the shipping question like literally ALL the time to the actors, who are not in control of the show and.... like at the time.... that could have had personal implications for them? And yes homophobia bad, and people can still be allies despite that, but again like.... I do feel like - from what I’ve seen - that these guys were NOT ready to deal with a lot of that but they’ve (okay Jensen I’m talking about Jensen here) genuinely grown and learned? Also how many years ago was the essay autograph thing that people keep trotting out, like what year was it in and what year of spn was it, and what were the prevailing opinions on LGBT issues and bisexuality then.

I’ve been seeing some murmurings of identity politicsing surrounding ppl who enjoy Supernatural, and I’m sorry that that’s happening to you, it really fucking sucks and it’s also the dumbest way to “make” or “win” an argument because it shouldn’t ever be a final determiner, just factors to consider when considering what life experiences might have informed someone else’s PoV and views as well as maybe how you can better communicate with them. Instead of it being a “weapon” or “tool” to either dismiss someone or de facto validate an argument.

Also yeah I get it that you don’t want to send discourse to spn blogs bc I imagine you guys ARE actively grappling with all the bs rn and it’s a lot. Even just from like, the stuff I see around, I’m like tired of it. I’m genuinely having more fun with ppl who are having a good time with Supernatural than the ppl who are hating on it, even in this sort of backhanded “oh we’re not clowning YOU we’re clowning the writers and showrunners who think you should be satisfied with this,” when... yeah? the people who HAVE been watching the show and therefore... know what’s up.. DO seem to be? And all this based on *fake gasp* context. And that’s where the backhandedness becomes kind of poisonous to me, because it implies that it IS bad, and that you SHOULDN’T be satisfied, but poor little you are but don’t worry, we’re not making fun of YOU for liking garbage, you’re just the hapless victim who is consuming the garbage bc... idk, whatever reasons ppl are coming up with ig.

idk man it’s 2020. Fandom isn’t activism, performative or otherwise, it’s okay to let people enjoy things even if you think they’re “objectively” bad, and like... I don’t know if people can call something bad when they’re not even working with the whole context and instead are dealing with rumor and reputation.

#supernatural cw #I tag this for ppl who I know want nothing to do with spn rn and are blacklisting and so it doesn't end up in main tag #Anonymous #asks answered #long post

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lizthirose · 4 years

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Ok but supernatural is like super homophobic. (And so is the actor confessing lol). Liek. He literally gets sent to hell right after confessing. The show literally just said “if you are gay you will go to hell”

Hi there Nonni!

Well. This is an interesting point; one, however, I can’t agree with. See, here’s the thing. I get why people think Supernatural is “super homophobic”. I know many think so, that much becomes clear if you spend enough time on Tumblr, which is by the way one of the reasons I have been absent for so long from here.

Because here is the other thing: I don’t see it that way. I recognize there are certain issues, but having grown up the way I have, I have a different view on things. I don’t negate what many feel Supernatural is and does, and that it is sometimes, oftentimes, problematic for them. It’s just not how I see it.

Around seven years ago I received an anon regarding the Johnlock ship. Here I discussed whether popular media and the audience are ready to see such a canon ship between its two main (male) characters. A lot has happened since then; nevertheless it is still not an easy thing to realize on screen. We may be openminded here on Tumblr, and many others out there have since followed. But our society, and I’m talking about earth’s whole population, is still far from accepting homosexuality, or LGBTQ+ in general, as “normal”. If you want to blame anyone for that - don’t blame the people, or the writers. Blame the teachings especially of church(es) that have always and still condemn anything other than the heteronormative. Back in 2014 I said you don’t change the world overnight, and not even in a decade or two. But when I think back, I believe we have already come a long way, and we’ll soldier on, all of us who know that love is love, and who want everyone live their life the way they feel is best for them.

But back to Supernatural.

No matter what they do on the show, the cast and crew are well aware that there are probably millions of Destiel shippers in the whole world. We are what, 90-95% of the fandom? Okay, maybe a little less, but we certainly are the majority, that I am sure of.

I think we can also agree that the cast and crew, and mostly the writers, are also aware that this show is ending.

So there is this one thing that has been going around in my head since a few hours earlier (though being in Europe, it was the middle of the night and I decided to first get some sleep instead of writing something about it):

What if they stopped caring?

Up until now, when there were still episodes and seasons to come, they had to tread carefully. Supernatural may have a strong and massive fanbase around the world, but ratings are still decided in the US. And viewership there does not only consist of fans/shippers. Up until now they had to consider all viewers, what they could gain and what they could lose because of their writing decisions. It’s a fine line between enthralling someone and putting them off.

If they make Destiel truly canon by the end of the last episode, if they let Dean say it back, if they do even more (I’m not gonna say it out loud, I’m afraid I could jinx it ^^), there may be a small percentage of SPN fans who won’t be happy. Maybe. But most of us, of them, will rejoice, and a part of those who don’t ship Destiel will probably be indifferent to it, or be happy for the rest of us. Furthermore, the general audience and their opinion won’t matter anymore.

There are no more episodes. There is no drop in viewership to be feared. It’s a done deal. Show over. So why not do it? For TWELVE YEARS they have dropped hint after hint after hint. Some call it baiting. I call it regular ship tease you see on so many shows. Chuck knows I had to endure it so often, and some didn’t manage to give closure to shippers (of popular ships that had been teased for years as well, but couldn’t become canon for different reasons during the run of the show). And here I am talking about heterosexual ships.

So long story short, and to answer your question - a part of me really believes that they will give us closure. Let’s look at it this way: Cas has to sacrifice himself to make Dean realize that he loves him too. And not only realize, but also admit it. He has heard it now. Maybe he suspected it before, but hearing it makes it real. It’s out there.

Look at how Dean wasn’t even able to accept Sam’s call, despite their dire situation, despite Dean maybe had to know that something was up, that Sam needed help. But Dean couldn’t. One can argue it was because he didn’t know how to tell Sam Cas is gone, but let’s be real: We’ve seen Dean devastated before when he thought Cas was dead, seen him keep Cas’ coat in the Impala and so on. This time, he was incapable of doing anything. Their world is literally on the verge of ending, and all he could do was sit there.

While Cas’ speech and confession had me sobbing, seeing Dean sitting there as if paralyzed completely broke me. He hasn’t just lost his best friend; he has lost the one he loves. I believe a dam has been broken. I don’t know what they will make of it, but seriously -- Cas said the three magic words, something I never expected to hear, so all bets are off now.

In all honesty though -- for me it will already be enough if they bring Cas back and reunite him with Dean. Everything else is a cherry on top.

I have another thing for you, another perspective:

You say the writers made him openly gay and then sent him to hell as a result and punishment.

I say: they could have chosen anything as his true happiness. They could have come up with whatever. We all have known for a long time that Cas finding/recognizing his true happiness will send him back to the Empty; he was always on borrowed time, because it was clear that they would make use of that plot device.

So whatever they had chosen, it was only about Cas’ happiness. Could have been anything. But it isn’t. No, they decided to make Dean his happiness. The things he has learned thanks to Dean; the love he feels.

The Empty didn’t know what it would be. There was never a condition on what his happiness had to be about.

But the writers decided that there is only ONE thing that can be Cas’ real, true happiness. They gave us this. They could have found something else and we would be none the wiser, except that maybe we complained that it wasn’t Dean.

The writers have made a decision. They decided to finally make it canon.

#Supernatural #spn meta #destiel #shipping #spn spoilers #SPN 15x18

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phantom-bleu · 4 years

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hello,,, :> i'm the anon who requested both walnut and roguefort dbHSHDD is there any cookies u wanted to talk about that haven't been sent in yet ? :0,,,

Anon youre my favourite follower bc of that, whoever u are💖 THIS one is kinda funny cuz i was Just thinking a couple hours ago about how i would literally talk someones ear off abt blueberry pie if they asked cuz i have SO many thoughts. so lets fucking GOOOOOOOOOO

Sexuality Headcanon: LES BIAAAAAAN

A ship I have with said character: Thinking abt bluemoon makes me emit dangerous nuclear radiation . The whole thing about blueberry taking solace in moonlight and like her entire costume expressing her love 4 her is just. SO SWEET HELLO!!!!! i like 2 think moonlight was a regular visitor for the archives bc of “””Research Reasons”””” as she might tell other ppl but really they act Exactly like a couple and they havent explicitly confessed anything 2 each other but they honestly may as well cuz like you dont tell a coworker and acquaintance about how wonderfully her eyes reflect the moonlight its just not done. Tho sadly their different obligations mean its kind of hard 2 make anything work between them but they are truly trying. But. Then the entire population of the city of wizards just goes Poof and moonlight gives everything she has 2 defend it and starts sleeping a LOT to do so. like for years at a time. so blueberry very rarely sees her but she knows shes okay bc the moon is still there and just as bright as it always was and i think her fixation on it is bc thats her only view of the outside And its her only confirmation that moonlights still out there despite not seeing her. That being said i think the whole thing in the first city of wizards event and the full/crescent moon thing would be Alarming lol but i think if blueberry met either of those sides of her then she would still love them very much :) bc theyre still moonlight, theyre just fun quirks that moonlight has and theyre both still very beautiful. And one of my last thoughts is that i think that time blueberry read one of the cursed tomes on a moonless night was a time when she started 2 doubt herself and wondered if maybe moonlight just didnt love her anymore and that was why she never came 2 the archives anymore. Tho the whole curse that followed after was kind of like the world telling her not 2 have those doubts so she still very much trusts in moonlight lol

A BROTP I have with said character: Omg i think her and cinnamon is really sweet i think she would actually Love cinnamons magic tricks. partly bc theres not a whole lot to do in the archives and shes working constantly so any form of entertainment amazes her at this point. But she def can appreciate the skill that goes into doing tricks of the eye like cinnamon does even if she knows its not real magic, she prob thinks their tricks are quaint and thinks cinnamon is very talented. And very kind and fun too! Because they Are 😌 devsisters stop making cookies hate cinnamon challenge

A NOTP I have with said character: theres 1 thats at the tip of my tongue i just cant quite remember it so im just gonna say blueberry/all men entirely. You look at that woman and tell me shes attracted 2 men

A random headcanon: Hmmmm so i imagine her as being old as fuck actually but essentially being frozen in time while in the archives, i think Weird wizard ethics would dictate that once u commit to an important job e.g. watching over the archives your ass will be doing that forever💖 Which wouldnt be an issue if the wizards were still around, i think initially blueberry had a lot of ppl come and go which made her work interesting but then the wizards disappeared. and blueberry is essentially doing her job 4 nobody but she cant leave the archives and has little view of the outside so her perception of time is.... odd. So it took her a very very long time to guess that the wizards might have disappeared lol but even if she had known that it wouldnt make a difference 2 her cuz she wouldnt b able to stop if she wanted to, she still has an oath 2 protect the archives and i think if she left she would break that oath and just. immediately age a few hundred years and die on the spot so its almost a curse in and of itself tbh . Basically i just imagine the wizards werent much better than the witches and did this lady mad dirty. I honestly could go off even more abt the wizards and the archives but like its not directly related 2 blueberry so i wont

General Opinion over said character: i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i

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mrchalamet-mrstyles · 4 years

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I meant the first blind. TBH, I have no knowledge of a second one, For that matter, Charmies were fed the intitial pap pic info by an anon claiming to have a Backgrid account. Even that anon could have been anyone, including you or your followers, right? I have no vested interest either way, but can't seem to find the proof you claimed. It seems the trolling flows both ways thru anons. Trying to make sense of it.

Balance of probability, anon. Since Charmies seem to believe it’s only me and my three besties over here doing all the hating, and we are all in constant contact, pretty sure we would confess to each other if we had sent the info to BG. Also, look at the history of a majority of the blinds and how they played out. Awfully convenient that anti-Timmy blinds were always passed off as being sent in by Liz, right? That she and Enty are pals but then why would Enty (yes, I understand that is different than BG, but general principle still stands) still publish not-so-nice blinds about the Hammers? Who did those blinds help to serve? Charmies (anti-ts) in establishing a shitty line of narrative that helped to boost their ship and keep the sheep faithful. It was a completely fabricated story by that anon, sent to a Charmie which then showed up on a blind gossip site nearly verbatim. Honestly. Why is there even any question about it at all?

#charmie #troll #blind items #they had a sweet little gig going there #Anonymous

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yeaaabudddy · 5 years

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Sadly, Not Like That

Ship: Peter Parker x Reader (Y/N)

Type: Angst

Requested: Yes, by anon.

Words: 2 906

Notes/Warnings: SOME FAR FROM HOME SPOILERS. Sadness, mentions of PTSD(?). Hopefully, you guys enjoy this, let me know what you think!

It was surreal what you were seeing in front of you. People who blipped had returned today, they were coming back to the spot where they disappeared. You knew so many people who had disappeared in the ‘blip’ as they called it. Your mind immediately rushing as you list all the people you missed in your head.

You had lived on, gotten older and became as old as some people who had blipped which was weird to think about.

Your mind went to Peter Parker after a bit.

He was someone you liked before the blip, you wanted so bad for him to look at you more than just a little kid even though you were a kid. You guys knew each other a bit before the whole thing because you lived in the same apartment building and your mom asked his aunt to show you the way to the high school.

You both ended up going at the same time to school so you guys would walk and talk to each other even though you were quite younger than him. He was always so nice to you and you really fell for his nerdy charm. He talked about Star Wars a lot with you because you actually did respond to him with more than just an eye roll and it refreshing for him to talk to someone other than Ned because you were willing to learn and become a new fan.

A few months before the blip, Peter hadn’t been making it on time to school anymore and therefore you didn’t see or talk to him for a while. Some rare days he would make it on time and you guys would talk but he seemed so jittery that it was hard to actually speak to him.

He was always really late or really early so you missed him. You once tried to wait for him but you started hitting the mark for almost getting late and had to leave.

Now, here you are at school, trying to learn when people started coming back. The kids that were in this class who were gone were actually on a field trip so they didn’t come back in the classroom. You heard some commotion from outside and your teacher had paused to check on what was going on.

The door was opened and you all saw what was happening. Some people were on the ground, some were bumping into each other. There was a real crowd and you saw so many more people than you’ve ever seen in one hallway in the past 5 years.

The students in your class had made their way to the door to look closer and you joined. Then you start recognizing some people who were in the hall walking around, confused.

You recognized Ned and MJ in the hallway, talking to each other and you had to pinch yourself to make sure that you aren’t dreaming and are actually seeing them. You know them because they hung out with Peter and sometimes during lunch you would admire him, therefore, noticing his friends as well.

You saw some older friends of yours but they were the same age as when they left. You felt happiness course through you as you realized that it wouldn’t feel so empty anymore at school and in Queens.

Seeing the effects of half the world gone was really depressing as the noise was reduced and the people were gone. The once cheerful school was depressing even though they tried to do something to help the students from feeling the loss of their friends but they realized that everyone needed to mourn, even them.

School was dismissed as they had to reorganize according to the situation and it was all confusing for everyone. They also knew that everyone had people they needed to meet. You hurry out of the classroom and you are tempted to ask Ned and MJ where Peter is but you know that it would be weird as they don’t really know you and you weren’t super close to Peter.

Instead, you go to find some of your old friends that you missed so much. You were slightly scared of what would become of your situations since you’ve made new friends, bonding over your losses and five years of moving on time.

Midtown High had let students take time off to spend time with their loved ones. 5 years of death, they needed time to catch-up. You were lucky that your parents hadn’t blipped and so you spent the time with cousins and old friends. It was weird to talk to them as in their mind no time had passed but here you were, not remembering the conversations you all had a few days before the blip.

Now you are at lunch, feeling like the first day of school all over again as you see who’s in your new classes since they had updated them and sent them out by mail.

Peter was in your first-period class and seeing him again had resurfaced some of your old feelings for him. He looked the same, obviously and he was still the nerdy kid you remembered except this time he is your age.

You tried to talk to him a few times, giving him a warm welcome back and he looked at you weird for a second before you re-introduced yourself to him. His face filled with shock as he realized how grown-up you had gotten. You were really pretty now and a completely different person but he still remembers you as a little kid that he used to walk to school and sometimes back.

You continued to try and talk to him because when you were younger you thought he was so cool and so handsome, you really did look up to him because he wasn’t afraid to be nerdy which made you think that you didn’t have to hide your interests no matter how weird or dorky.

In the 5 years he was gone you went through crushes and for a short period of time, a boyfriend, but seeing Peter again with you being a new and grown person really got you thinking more about him.

You did become friends again with Peter through the next few months, you were hoping that maybe you guys could become more but you were still glad that you were close to him.

Your friendship with Peter was more than what you expected as you both would talk to each other about your interests, you’ve hung out a bit after school as well. It was still weird to him as you were just a kid when he left and now you were a totally different person.

You started to notice a bit through the few months how he would look at MJ though. He started to look at her a little longer and tried to make more conversation with her while stuttering cutely and you realized that he had a crush on her.

Your heart hurt as you realized that he still didn’t look at you like a girl but just as a kid. You’ve tried your best to flirt with him but even then he didn’t respond the way you wanted him to. You got the hint and it hurt.

You really did like him a lot because he helped you embrace yourself even if he didn’t know it. He impacted your life without meaning to and now he’s back to leave a bigger crater.

You thought maybe the field trip to Europe might change something but you see Peter changing his seat with Ned to try and sit next to MJ. He constantly looked at her and looked angry at Brad which made you realize that you really didn’t have a chance with him. You were always going to be just a kid to him but you really didn’t want to not try at all.

“Hey, Peter!” You sit next to him on the bus. Ned was sitting with Betty and MJ was with Brad so Peter was sitting alone. You joined in hopes of actually talking to him but after his short greeting, he didn’t even look at you.

“Do you have a plan for this trip? I made a list of places I wanted to visit, I really hope I get to see them all.” You cheerfully told him as you remember your list.

“Yeah, that’s nice.” He absentmindedly responded as he peeked behind his seat to look back at MJ and Brad. You frown at his short response but don’t let it get to you.

“Do you have a plan with MJ?” You swallow your feelings and ask because you know it's the only way he’ll talk to you.

“What?” His head snapped to your direction and he looked at you. You realized you had leaned in a bit to make sure he heard and your body was close to his. He looked uncomfortable so you moved back to make sure there was a comfortable amount of space in between you two even though you didn’t mind the lack of it.

“A plan to confess to MJ?” You were hoping that he didn’t, you were praying he said no and that he was just being a concerned friend or he just didn’t like Brad but you knew it wasn’t the case because Brad was a sweet guy and you knew because you’ve talked to him a lot in the past 5 years.

“What do you mean confess?" Peter nervously laughed, his hand rubbing the back of his neck as he looked away from you and instead started daydreaming. You knew he was thinking of her and you couldn’t help but stare at him for a bit and just think… what if?

“So do you?” You break him out of his daydream and yours to bring you both to reality. You were both here with each other right now and there were only a few minutes until you reach your hotel.

“Um, well- kind of.” Peter finally managed to get out and your heart dropped at the confirmation, You had the suspicion for a while but hearing it come from him hit you differently.

“Oh, what are you going to do?” You wanted to cry but you held it in and acted as you usually do.

Peter blushed as he thought of his plan and how he hopes MJ would react. His cheeks turn slightly pink and he smiles, looking down at his hands that were fiddling with each other.

“I’m planning to get her a special necklace of the flower she really likes, the black dahlia. She really liked this story of it and I researched a shop that had a specially made one. I wanted to give it to her in Paris, on the Eiffel tower because that would be really romantic, right?” He looks at you for confirmation and his nervousness started to show up again.

“Yeah! That’s really romantic, don’t worry about it.” He lets out a breath of air and relaxes in his seat after getting another person’s confirmation. You were much more helpful than Ned was and that’s when he realized and turned back to you with his eyes wide and full of questions.

“Wait. You’re a girl, right. You can provide me with some information to help me…” He trailed off as he looked at you. Your heart jumped as he looks at you with his big, innocent eyes and curious face. Then you realized that he called you a girl. It might not mean much to other people but you knew that Peter had just seen you as a kid, referring to you as such some times and the fact he was weirdly comfortable with you even though he has a hard time talking to girls also set it off for you.

“I mean, yeah I’m a girl… I guess I could give you some advice?” You panicked as you realized you're going to help him get with another girl even though you like him.

“Do you think she likes Brad?” Your eyes widen at his straight-forward question. You lean over to glance at MJ and Brad and you notice her body posture and the space between them that was put by her.

She didn’t look at him longer than necessary and was just laughing at some jokes he said which was a natural reaction. Brad was obvious with showing how he felt and MJ was always harder to read but you could see that from what you saw right now that it didn't look like she liked him.

You turn back to look at Peter's hopeful eyes and you knew you couldn’t lie to him, you never would.

“No, I don’t think she does.” Peter automatically smiled and you both lurched forward as the bus stopped. Everyone gathering their things to head out.

“Thanks!” He said quickly before getting out of his seat and leaving all in a few seconds.

“No problem…” You spoke to yourself, sadly. You never thought you were gonna help someone you like get together with someone they like who wasn’t you.

The next few days in the trip had been eventful, to say the least. Not with Peter but in general. You were attacked in Venice by a water monster and you hadn’t seen Peter at all in the last few days as he disappeared or tried to get MJ's attention. You guys had since then made a redirect to Prague and you still weren’t able to capture his attention.

You know you should give up as he likes MJ but you thought maybe you could change his mind, he just needs to think of you as a different person and not as the younger you that he remembers. Who wants to date someone they only think of as a kid?

You try and have fun on your trip but you also know in the back of your mind that Peter had his whole plan set up and by the end of this trip they will probably be together.

By the time you get to London you have nothing on your mind but to get to safety as each city you go to, gets attacked by some weird monsters. Thankfully, Mysterio and Nightmonkey had shown up to save the day but it only helped so much. There was still so much destruction around the cities and you hurried to get to safety.

You were shaken up by the whole event, yeah the whole war happened with the Avengers but you thought these threats were done with, at least you hoped they were. The returning of destruction made you think of that moment and remembering how easy it was for people to leave and maybe this time it was you.

The flight back home was mostly you still trying to calm down and chill out from the events of what happened. You couldn't believe what you went through in this one trip, you never wanted to leave home again. To make matters worse you saw from the corner of your eyes Peter and MJ holding hands a couple times during the flight but you just tried to ignore it.

When you landed, you made your way out with Ned as he and Betty apparently had broken up and he was a totally new guy according to him. You listened as he explained it to you. You met up with Peter and talked to Ned about getting together with MJ, further confirming it for you and breaking your heart in the process.

Ned then left to catch his ride and it left you and Peter alone.

“Congrats on your plan working out, even if it wasn’t the way you wanted.” You spoke up in the awkward silence between you two. You knew it was mostly awkward on your end and that’s only because you didn’t know how to act around him. You can’t be mad at him because he’s done nothing wrong but you so badly want to be.

“Yeah, I’m really happy it worked out.” He smiled shyly and you didn’t want to ruin his mood but you knew there was no way else for you to move on if you didn’t ask him. You were already in a bad mood so might as well get it over with.

“Did I ever have a chance?” You cast your eyes down, afraid to look at his reaction. You know that he probably caught on to your crush because you were super obvious and you knew he was just acting like he didn’t know.

You thought it might help if he knew, maybe he'd try and see you in a different light but that didn’t work at all.

“I’m sorry.” You nodded as you looked up to him, your eyes slightly tearing up but you held it in.

“It’s okay. You can’t help who you like, right?” You gave him a sad smile and he returned it. You couldn’t stand to look at him any longer as he stared at you in pity. He felt bad that he didn’t return your feelings and you know it’s not his fault.

“Yeah.”

“Well, I should head home. My mom’s worried sick. I’ll see you later, Peter.” You give him a gentle wave then turn around and leave without waiting for his response. This trip wasn’t what you thought it would be at all first going into it. It left you traumatized and heartbroken but hopefully, it’ll make you into a stronger person... maybe after some crying and talking though.

#peter parker x reader #peter parker imagine #peter parker angst #peter parker #spiderman angst #spiderman imagine #spider-man x reader #spider-man imagines #spiderman x reader

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cherubsoda · 5 years

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!!!!! 38 for Medic and/or 41 for Dante! [DC] (I'm not even putting this on anon why am I leaving my signature lmao)

ok so i went ham for no reason @dizzycoyote i apologize,,, this was supposed to be a doodle yikes,, also i wrote a fat fic for it so ,, its like my first time writing a real fic? sucks fr bro

hruggnn tagging @tibbygetsrekt, @sundewsunset and @heartstringsymphoniesbc i am,,, gay

under the cut

https://docs.google.com/document/d/1HakfW2av-gRiemn39g8cVh8wKG8cFOXVH6u-mo9OF28/edit?usp=sharing

Medic 38: reunited/ “haven’t seen you in a while”

I shake my head, finding myself spacing out again. A few more transfers and I’ll be there… I have time to think. Old thoughts started resurfacing, things I haven’t thought of in months. How was he? I would give anything to hear from him again - to see him again. I don’t think we would need to speak; being next to each other again would be enough. ‘I wondered if he’s ever thought about me…’ I shifted to get comfortable.

‘I’ll just rest my eyes’,

I can remember what it was like before you left,

———

“- a job where they’ll let me practice what I please!”

My eyes shifted up from my plate to look at you — you’re practically ready to spring up on your feet, excitement evident on your face and in your voice, I smiled,

“That sounds perfect for you! When do you start?”

I saw the curl of your lips twitch and the corner of your eyes crinkle,

“Ah, in a couple of months — the beginning of spring — I begin a ‘test trial’ at this…establishment. Bah, there is just so much to prepare…” you trailed off and turned your gaze upon a suddenly interesting looking glass. I tilted my head a bit and raised my hand to catch your gaze again,

“I’ll help you pack or plan- whatever you need, I’ll do it with you!”

I smiled when I stumbled over my words, hoping that it did enough to distract you from seeing the sadness on my face or hear the hurt that I felt. I seemed to forget my woes for a moment when you smiled up at me again,

“Thank you, my friend”

———

We began packing a couple days later — I came over early and we packed away the trinkets you couldn’t bear to part with and we laughed while boxing the ones to give away. I wonder if you still have them. Minutes turned to hours and morning turned to midday. I looked at the clock hanging on your wall: 4:37. We agreed that we’ve done enough for today and went to a diner a few blocks away. The meal was quiet, a few comments here and there, but you were quiet. I couldn’t help but wonder what you were feeling. ’Probably just tired from all the packing … or maybe he’s actually upset that I called that ceramic piece was ugly … maybe he’s just as sad that he has to leave-‘. I downed the rest of my water.

You drove me home, walked me to the door and said good night. You didn’t leave until I waved out my window.

———

I plopped down on one of the armchairs you were taking,

“I think it’s time for a break,”

A month passed and the majority of your things were packed and ready to be shipped off.

“I think we’re both stressed from all, this” I gestured to the boxes stacked around us. It’s been on my mind for a while, “Let’s visit some of your favorite places before you leave” I suggested “make some new memories to take with you.” You straighten your back and let out a sigh,

“I suppose you’re right about a break,” you massaged the bridge of your nose,“but what place did you have in mind?” you looked at my slumped over form,

“Anywhere.”

“Anywhere?”

I sat up straight and watched you reminisce.

———

We went to the museums you promised you’d visit one day, walked through the gardens in the heart of Stuttgart, you got me drunk at your favorite bar, watched plays you never thought you’d see, and we sat in parks you had played at when you were younger. I listened as you rambled on about what changed and what stayed the same — I stood aside when you ran into an old classmate — when they introduced their wife and daughter to you, I smiled and looked away.

———

Your departure inched closer and closer. I think you could sense my desperation, my fear — but you never said anything if you did. You promised to call or write to me when you had the time. You reassured me that you’d visit during holidays and would keep me in your thoughts all the time. You walked me to my door and waited for me to wave. But you didn’t say goodnight.

Just a couple more weeks until you leave.

You spent a week with your family.

Just about a week left until you leave.

You came home exhausted.

Just a few more days until you leave.

“Did you get to see and do everything on your list?”

We sat on a park bench, the cool winter air sent a shiver down my spine. I turned to look at you, a bittersweet smile adorned your lips paired with a wistful look clouded your eyes — I wondered what you were feeling, maybe for too long; your mouth moved but I couldn’t hear you, as you grabbed my hands and led me back to your car. We drove, and we parked, then you finally turned to me and spoke,

“We’re here,” voice low and soft, I peered out my window and saw my porch, my door, my house…

You opened the car door and led me up the steps, my gloved fingers fumbled with my keys, I finally managed to find the right key and push the door open. We’re greeted by Archimedes’ enthusiastic chirps.

“I think they’ll miss you the most,” I giggled, walking over and opening the cage. The white dove happily hopped onto my finger and made its way up on my shoulder,

You let out a soft chuckled as he flew to your shoulder instead, “Do you really think so?” you asked while petting his side.

“They were always very fond of you…” arms crossed, head slightly tilted. I smiled “Take him with you.”

Your eyes quickly found mine across the room, staring at me; a confused, worried look flashed across your face.

“What are you talking about?” it seemed like Archimedes was looking at me the same way you did,

“Please, take him. He always liked you better,” I teased, pacing a bit “besides, it’s the least I can give you as a — a going away gift.” I tried to smile, my voice cracked and I wish you didn’t hear it.

You sent me a bittersweet smile from where you stood,

“My friend, will you miss me?” you asked as if you were waiting your whole life to get it out. I let out a sob. Of course I will.

———

That night, you drove. Parked. Led me up the steps. You walked inside with me. You didn’t wait for me to stand by my window and wave, so, I cried. I cried and you held onto me and spoke in hushed tones and made promises I wish you had kept. You stayed the night because this time you’d be saying goodbye instead of goodnight.

———

My mind was blank but racing at the same time. Archimedes’ made no noise in his cage — I promised I’d see him off, so I called a taxi and drove to the train station. The ride was brief but gave me time to think: I wanted to apologize for that night; how awful I must’ve made him feel. I paid the fare and waited for you to arrive.

You pulled up in a similar taxi and I helped you with your luggage. I gently put the dove on a bench and we stood there watching trains that weren’t yours rush by.

Everything that I wanted to say couldn’t wait any longer but there will never be a perfect moment to tell. I will never be brave enough. I’m grateful it’s winter; to excuse my shaking shoulders and hands; grateful that the trains blew my hair every which way to cover my warming face; grateful that the cold, nipping air stopped oncoming tears.

“Why didn’t you tell me,”

I glanced up at you, you were watching as people trickled out of the train,

“I don’t know what you’re talking about-”

“That you were going to miss me — that you were this upset,” you cut me off.

I gaped but closed my mouth. How selfish of me to try admit that I’d miss my one friend here.

“I’m sorry,” I shook and mumbled out in the cold air “I’m sorry for getting so worked up that night. I just — I’ll miss you I didn’t want to say it because…” I don’t think you could hear me or cared. I bit my lip.

How selfish would I be if I said I loved him so much I felt like I was being torn apart?

“Do not miss me.”

My eyes snapped up, this time you were looking at me, a smile in your eyes,

“You make it sound like I’m dying!” you laughed, a real laugh. “I will always be a phone call away, my friend, remember that,” and your smile widened as you put a gloved hand on my shoulder. I let out a choked sob and you held me.

I wish I had said I loved you, that you had leaned in so I could meet you half way. But how could I confess when I knew this was your dream? That I was the reason you got held back-, I cut my thoughts off when your train arrived; I shifted my weight. I passed Archimedes over to you with care — I suppose it was a foolish dream of mine to be with you. This time I waited until you were inside. You stood by the window and you smiled and waved. I finally said goodbye.

———

I wake up with a sudden jolt. I look around and ran a hand down my face

‘I dozed off… I must’ve been exhausted.’

After a couple more stops, a ‘ding’ signified I’m at my stop and brought me out of my sleepy daze. I quickly gathered my belongings and trudged out the train station. I checked my watch for the time; 9:17am, ‘hopefully I make it in time’. I take a taxi to another nearby town, some place that seems more desolate, more… rustic I suppose. ‘They should be here any second now.’ I look around at the stores nearby, when something bumped into my shoulder. I jumped, throwing my hands up and taking a few steps back; white feathers clouded half of my vision. I gingerly put a pair of fingers under its feet and turned to face it, hoping it doesn’t attack again. The bird - dove - begins crooning, pecking at my hair,

“Archimedes?” ”Archimedes!” a distant yell overlapped my voice, other voices followed but were drowned out by the approaching man’s voice,

“There you are Archimedes! You shouldn’t fly off like that!” he scolds, “Ah haa, so sorry about-” his sheepish smile drops as he makes eye contact with me,

“Ludwig…?” I let out a surprised laugh, “Wha-“

“Schatz, what are you doing here?!” He takes a step back and quickly looks at me, he shifts around a bit, unsure what to say, “Why - How —“

I couldn’t help but stare. How long has it been since I’ve seen him? His hair is greying much more than before, his cheeks sunken in a bit more, the worry creases on his brow deepened, but he - he’s stayed the same. What about me? I must look like a mess - freshly woken up after a who knows how long train ride, my hair unbrushed and —

“Lay, you’re crying,” his accented voice gently pulled me away from my thoughts; I haven’t heard my name used so tenderly in years. I didn’t realized that he had slightly bent down to look at me. My tears ran freely. I let him wipe them away and took in a deep breath. I let my forehead rest against his cheek, while he held my hand in his, rubbing the back of it with his thumb. He gently nuzzled his cheek against my hair and placed a kiss on the crown of my head; letting out a soft laugh that shook his chest when slid my hand over his shoulder to the back of his neck. He finally leaned in and I met him half way. I closed my eyes and I can remember what it was like before you left.

#self shipping #tf2 #self ship #self insert #medic #cowboybenoit #anyways...that was gay #dizzycoyote #s: the way to a man's heart #my writing #sadly...#shits and doodles #thank you for the ask!! sorry it took so long its... 440 in hawaii i wanted to finish this fic before bed but so yeah #shifty eyes please dont shame me in my own home ajsjdj #ugh this is literally my first fic #is this the au where i give medic archimedes instead? yes #the sad au is that we'll never see each other again and hes just like 'ah yes my fondness of doves stems from an old friend of mine'#yikes!!#what am i during in germany you ask? well... *runs out of this ask*

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Hunter’s Prompt List

With the end of the school year coming, I’ve decided to start something new. Hopefully it doesn’t flop, but if it does, we’ll just forget that it happened.

Rules

All requests must be sent to my inbox, not as messages

You can request on or off anon

Requests can be for any ship in the MCU or Supernatural, as long as it doesn’t support pedophilia or incest

Requests can also be reader inserts.

You can also chose a prompt, give me a description of yourself and what you want to be called in the fic(your name or a nickname/fake name), and I’ll pair you with a character from either Marvel or Supernatural(you can specify which one). Also say whether you want to be paired with a male or female character. If you have no preference, I’ll choose.

For the quotes, you can also specify a specific situation, i.e Steve meets the reader in the library, and it turns out they like the same type of books

You can send as many of these as you wants, and prompts can be reused with different ships/inserts

You can also pair a quote with a situation

Quotes

“No matter what has happened. No matter what you’ve done. No matter what you will do. I will always love you. I swear it.”

“I wanted to tell you that wherever I am, whatever happens, I’ll always think of you, and the time we spent together, as my happiest time. I’d do it all over again, if I had the choice. No regrets.”

“I love you the way a drowning man loves air. And it would destroy me to have you just a little.”

“I never loved you any more than I do, right this second. And I’ll never love you any less than I do, right this second.”

“Sometimes I can’t see myself when I’m with you. I can only just see you.”

“I knew the second I met you that there was something about you I needed. Turns out it wasn’t something about you at all. It was just you.”

“I want everyone to meet you. You’re my favorite person of all time.”

“I don’t care how hard being together is, nothing is worse than being apart.”

“I want to be the friend you fall hopelessly in love with. The one you take into your arms and into your bed and into the private world you keep trapped in your head. I want to be that kind of friend. The one who will memorize the things you say as well as the shape of your lips when you say them. I want to know every curve, every freckle, every shiver of your body. I want to know where to touch you, I want to know how to touch you. I want to know convince you to design a smile just for me. Yes, I do want to be your friend. I want to be your best friend in the entire world.”

“You’ve slipped under my skin, invaded my blood and seized my heart.”

“No matter where I went, I always knew my way back to you. You are my compass star.”

“Last night I looked up at the stars and named a reason why I love you for each one. I was doing great—until I ran out of stars.”

“Whatever our souls are made of, yours and mine are the same.”

“I wrote your name in the sand but it washed away…I wrote your name in the clouds but it blew away….I wrote your name in my heart and there it will always stay.”

“There is no pretending. I love you, and I will love you until I die, and if there is life after that, I'll love you then.”

“And I'm suppose to sit by while you date boys and fall in love with someone else, get married...?" His voice tightened. "And meanwhile, I'll die a little bit more every day, watching.”

“I wonder how you say goodbye to someone forever?”

“I'm trying to let him know what I'm about to do. I'm hoping he can save me, even though I realize he can't.”

“It’s better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all.”

“You call it madness, but I call it love.”

Situations

You're at a party when you spot a ex. Quick, you urgently have to pretend to be dating the nearest person, who happens to be very attractive.

Couples’ therapy — what a nice way to spend your anniversary.

(Person 1) working up the courage to ask their long-time crush to dance with them at the school dance.

A florist who writes notes on behalf of a client, only to find that the recipient has fallen in love with them instead.

(Person 1) is a cop. (Person 2) is the owner of a jewelry store. A sudden rash of break-ins brings person 1 to person 2’s store over and over and over again, until it becomes obvious that person 2 might be tripping the alarm on purpose—just to see person 1. That’s illegal—but person 1’s kind of falling for person 2, too.

Two dirt-poor art students survive by sharing a nasty little apartment above a bodega. They struggle through four years, barely making ends meet, comforting one another through tragedies and triumph, but never openly admit how they feel about each other…until they graduate, and one of them gets a job in another city. Is it too late to confess their love?

(Person 1)’s a cop—one of the good ones—and when an undercover bust went bad ten years ago, (Person 1)’s wife and small child were killed. (Person 1) swore they’d never love again. Then (Person 1)’s old partner retires, only to be replaced by a wide-eyed, spunky rookie, whose seemingly impossible innocence and joie de vivre remind (Person 1) life is worth living again. This could only end in disaster… right? Dare (Person 1) make the first move?

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