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icaruspendragon · 8 months

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someone asks me my favorite show and i have to tell them it’s supernatural, much to my chagrin.

we get to talking and they find out that i have a near encyclopedic knowledge of it. i can recite the names of the episodes in the first six seasons from memory. i didn’t even try to learn that for the worlds lamest party trick. i’ve just seen them enough that it’s floating around in my noggin. i have the dialogue for entire scenes memorized. entire episodes, even. yet again, accidentally learned from repeated watchings. i know about the actors. i’ve met the actors. i know about the cast and crew. i know timelines and theories and why this went that way. i have characters and quotes (both from the show and fanfic) tattooed on my body. one of the things i’m best know for to an audience of 370k+ online is my passion surrounding this show and its characters. this hypothetical person says “you must be a real big fan.”

and i am. i love this stupid little show that’s objectively not very good with its silly little characters that i love so much it often keeps me up at night.

and you wanna know what always surprises the hypothetical person in these hypothetical conversations that are an amalgamation of real conversations i’ve had with real people the most? it’s not how much i know about the show or what it represented to me in my adolescence or even my love for the characters.

it’s the fact that i haven’t seen the last five seasons.

that i haven’t finished the show.

i started watching in 2013 and stopped in 2015. i didn’t pick it back up again in earnest until early 2022. i’ve been rewatching since then and despite watching it literally every single day, i’ve only made it to the end of season eight in my rewatch.

there’s always some form of indignation on the other party’s behalf. and they always ask me “why? if you love it so much, why not watch all of it?”

and the answer is simple.

because i don’t want to.

i know what happens. i was online nov 5th 2020. i know how it ends. and i don’t want it to end. i don’t like the ending. so i’m not gonna make myself watch something i know is just going to make me upset.

and does that mean i’m less of a fan?

spoiler alert: the answer is “no.”

despite what other people and fans alike like to say, it doesn’t make me less of a fan. just like watching the show in its entirety doesn’t make them more of a fan.

fandom allows for flexibility of enjoyment. and that’s what i’m in fandom to do.

enjoy.

to enjoy the same thing with people who enjoy the same thing as me. to share my joy with these people.

so no. you’re not less of a fan or more of a fan for consuming media a certain way.

if you enjoy something, you’re a fan.

and if you’re a fan, there’s a place in fandom for you.

#fandom #fanfic #can you believe people have literally said that ‘i’m not a real fan’ of hit cw monstrosity supernatural?#bc they have said that #but this ain’t a competition #and i’m not trying to win #so i’m gonna enjoy my media how i wanna enjoy it #and if i wanna enjoy it by living in a bubble of delusion?#that’s what i’m gonna do !! :)#it’s my escapism and i can do what i want!!

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bellwethers · 2 months

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Boo hoo did someone use spirit magic to blow up your factory?

#ahh I’m trying out a sketchier/chibi style #I kinda hate refining my drawings too much but then also don’t like them when they’re too messy so I can’t win #anyways I love them both #enablers #fanart #atla #atla fanart #avatar #avatar the last airbender #the last airbender #atla katara #katara #atla aang #aang #avatar aang

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i-hear-a-sound · 10 months

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the fact that the fucking news had a count down to when the submarine’s oxygen was going to run out is to me some straight up dystopian shit. no not because the submarine was full of dumbass rich people and a 19 year old but more so the fact that people actively decided to make a spectacle out of what was undeniably going to end up in a fatal incident (what happened today) meanwhile I have seen next to nothing in regards to the recent boat capsizing in Greece that killed over 600 immigrants.

#titanic #oceangate #obviously I’m not trying to go awww poor widdle rich people because you play stupid games and you win stupid prizes #is this too soon? idk this whole thing and esp what’s happened in greece just put pits in my stomach.

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lemonlimestar · 2 months

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i don’t recommend drawing cowls that aren’t on faces. 0/10 will not try again

#tim drake #red robin #kon and bart are here too but i’m not tagging them #bart (as in bug art)#trying to translate my inking style into digital !#it was fun! i hate drawing tim’s hair always #give him locs i said. it’ll be fun i said.#whatever… i got to draw kon saying hello sailor and giggle about it so #i’m winning in the long run #dc #dc comics #batman

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stealingyourbones · 2 months

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I’m so tired with people continuing to tag me in posts with tags in the posts implying I’m attempting to gatekeep dpxdc.

I’m just asking folks to read some wikis or maybe watch a DC tv show to get more ideas because the content in DC is so expansive. I’ve been trying to push this since July of 2022.

I’m writing it like this so people just understand. I just want to show folks the cool thing I enjoy and That theres so much more content to play with when you either do (or don’t idk at this point bro) choose to look more into the greater fandoms of the Crossover.

You can write whatever you want, I would just think it would be cool to see the looking into cool DC stuff by the community.

I’m not gatekeeping or trying to prevent people from writing fanfic. I read all forms of dpxdc fics at every level of fanon to canon to AUs to Ghost AUs.

I’m just trying to push a cool thing I like to show other people the cool thing I like?

#the amount of vague posting towards me has been fucking bananas lately and folks have tagged me in posts that are just not the point I’m-#trying to make. id just like to see cool funky Dc stuff and it’d be rad to see more Dc centered stuff like Animal Man or Hitman #dpxdc #bones rants #i have received only 8 death threats this time around in my DMs this time so I call that a win #people can have differing opinions and stuff like fuckin you do you bro #I’m simply expressing my opinion. i won’t reply More to this post to prevent it going into an argument chain but yeah.#sometimes it’s just agree to dissagree but we both like creating fanfic

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wybienova · 11 months

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um who’s this weirdo. get him out of here

#wybs art #umm what tags do i put . i’ve never drawn something for this before #spiderverse #atsv #across the spiderverse #spiderverse fanart #the spot #atsv spot #ok now for me talking #easily one of my favorites . he was very funny and also surprisingly scary . excellent character #love it when a normal guy gets fucked up #also can’t get over his stupid fucking disguise. who is he fooling. he’s not even wearing pants #i’ve been trying to channel my brainrot into drawing some of the guys but it’s surprisingly hard #these ones were ok tho :3 #also means i don’t have to draw a face 👍 win #anyways ummmm go watch atsv it’s really good. i’m gonna watch it again soon

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yeehawkpierce · 9 months

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(Feel free to share your reasoning in the comments/tags!)

#glee #sue sylvester #house md #gregory house #mash #bj hunnicutt #drake and josh #megan parker #I’m so sorry for this but I’m trying to win an argument #rb for sample size

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cats-obsessions · 6 months

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There’s been a lot of discussion around Gortash in particular showing no devotion for Bane beyond that which furthers his own interests, and Bane doing very little to help him. While that’s a very Banite thing to do, offering your Bhaalspawn babe true equality is not. There’s so many beautiful theories out there, but I offer my own: the goal of the Absolute was never to glorify Bane or Bhaal.

We know Durge and Gortash have a long history, spanning back before Gortash was even the chosen of Bane. They started out as essentially, two people robbing shit together- ancestral torture racks and all. In letters, we find both of them had proposed plans that involve each other. I like to think they got very attached before deciding to rule the world. But what would come of serving their gods? Durge would kill the world, Gortash would have to rule alone. In the end, failure or victory, their lives and souls would go separate ways, and one of them would have to fail, earning eternal torture.

But Enver doesn’t offer Durge servitude to Bhaal or mass murder or even Banes plan when they show up tadpoled to Wyrms Rock. He offers godhood- through the absolute, sure, but such an act would certainly deserve ascension. They could become actual gods. Maybe to him, that was the plan all along. Achieving true godhood together would be the only way to ensure their souls would be safe and together. Forever.

I like to think somewhere along the way he saw how doomed they were, how few options Durge has for personal autonomy, and he put his mind to finding a way. Maybe the implications of their plan weren’t fully discussed, or maybe promises of godhood were only whispered in private. Maybe Durge won’t admit the reality, but maybe part of them hopes for it.

#also it could be part of why Durge gets a lobotomy #fall in love AND dare try to defy Bhaal?#anyways with all the evil choice possibilities I’m mad winning with Gortash isn’t one #obvs he always planned on cutting out Kethric #I imagine as gods their tenets would be something like vengeance devotion and ambition #or socialal order by any means necessary #idk just imagine how gaudy Gortashs outfits could be #they’re evil aligned obvs with durge chaotic and gortash lawful #enver gortash #durge spoilers #durge #durgetash #bg3 #cats thoughts

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pepsimaxolotl · 4 months

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#Ik this is pretty heavy on the young side of things #but that’s cause it’s the stereo type and idk??(#seeing any diagnosis over 25 is a win tbh #I’m really tired I’m setting this up cause I’m thinking about it while trying to sleep #and I hope this is ok

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shima-draws · 11 days

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My dad is so fucking awkward when it comes to giving emotional support it’s so funny,,

My mom must have told him I’m having a rough day bc he texted me like 10 minutes after like. Hey are you okay. Come home this weekend if you want to play dominos or something. Like a game of dominos is the magic cure to my spiraling mental health. LMAOOOO

#It’s sweet tho like I do appreciate it genuinely #He is right tho a game of dominos may just fix me. If I WIN that is #(Dominos is very fun and I only ever really get to play it with them lol)#Might just go to my parents for that. AND to see my doggies #Shima speaks #Anyway I love my mom so much and it’s frustrating bc she knows me SO well #She doesn’t try to coddle me. She knows exactly what’s going on and she told me right to my face and I was like #😬😬😬 Okay yeah you don’t gotta call me out like that tho…MAN.#SHE’S RIGHT AND I’M SO MAD. WHY does she have to be right.#SIGHS it’s Friday it’s Friday I can do this. I can make it through

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r-aindr0p · 1 month

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It’s easter today ! The day where you get treats after a period of self restraint and moderation (for those participating at least, I don’t’ I’m just in for the chocolate bunnies and eggs tbh) Either way, happy easter to those who celebrate and a nice weekend/day to the others !

Everyone gets the bunny ✨

#twisted wonderland #rollo flamme #twst rollo #very ooc rollo but the brainrot wins #fucked up religious guy wouldn’t stop restraining himself out of guilt #hes on restraint mode all year long #a bit nervous to post this on main since I’m still self critical on that kind of art fhghfhg #yknow you see others draw stuff like that and it’s cool and when you try and draw it you feel a bit shy suddenly

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l-just-want-to-see · 4 months

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no let’s talk about cScott’s strategy in the life series being the social game. Let’s talk about how he’ll just kinda play nice with everyone and get to very high placements as a result. Do you wonder if his past allies feel used by him? If they feel like they’re just part of the strategy of his own game? Did you realize how rarely Scott has recurring alliances? Do you think they wonder about if they were just someone Scott could get to a higher result to feel good about? Or someone that could get him the win? Or are you normal

all I’m saying is usually we go on lengthy talks about Scott being nice and sweet and wholesome but this guy (character) is good at the murder game! Really worryingly good! Let’s delve into that some more!

#this is all c! btw to clarify. AND BEFORE YOU SAY CLEO READ THE TAGS #but I think that Pearl and martyn and Jimmy are on the same page of like. Man I did love you. And all you do is win. Was it ever real?#Different flavors ofc #But it’s similar in the sense that Martyn betrayed him and Scott just didn’t really care. Moved on to the next game kept playing.#Pearl and Scott were such a duo in last life and that didn’t matter!#Scott and Cleo have a recurring alliance and guess what. The roomies were taken out first ANYWAYS!#Do you guys remember how Jimmy and Scott were married? It’s all dead and gone now though right?#And I’m not saying Scott IS just using his alliances or that he didn’t really care all that much. Just that there’s some gray area in there #up for interpretation #Before you come at me with the Gem thing I raise you the “Scott is playing his own game”#He’s already won and he’s trying to get his allies to win. But his allies are never recurrent. So is it out of pride? Or genuine love?#I bet they wonder #And I think we should too #scott smajor #smajor1995 #last life #double life #secret life #slsmp #traffic smp #life series #third life #limited life #coral kids #zombiecleo #pearlescentmoon #jimmy solidarity #solidaritygaming #flower husbands

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myfairkatiecat · 1 month

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not my friends being 400x less supportive about me being Christian than I am about them being atheist

#losing my mind right now #we were literally all just talking about a trip the senior class goes on #I said I didn’t want to go #cause I kinda hate the camp #and this girl responds to my message about hating camp #and goes HAHA I HATE CHURCHES #haha get it cause that’s how I feel about churches #and I’m like??? you knew what you were doing when you randomly changed the topic to that directly off of one of my messages #this is a pretty minor example too #it’s just the one that’s sending me over the edge right now #I’m so fed up with it #I’m over here treading on eggshells and trying to not mention religion too much so I can show my respect for your beliefs #and all you want to do is constantly change the topic to how much you hate my religion #but if I say I can’t be friends with someone because of that #then IM the intolerant one!#there’s no way to win.#I wish people were just not like that

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beacon-lamp · 2 months

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extremely fitting to have demise end with ren finally learning to weaponize his incompetence

#mcyt #hermitcraft #hermitblr #rendog #i watched iskall’s video (also 4 iskall videos in like 1.5 days???)#and i was crying laughing the whole time hahaha #and also bdubs trying to outsmart the game with his social prowess only for it to be flipped on him and be his demise #this was fantastic props to iskall beef and ren like they all did so good #‘pufferfish trap’ was a 200iq move by ren in the moment after watching him slowly meander his way to the crafting bench #and [redacted] wins!!!! god i’m so happy

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puppyeared · 10 months

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XIN YA MOMENT

#FINALLY. TOOK ME TWO FUCKEN DAYS TO DRAW THIS DUDE #I made it way too detailed cause I wanted em to look fancy but I’m probably gonna simplify it any time I draw them anyway shfjgsg #i changed my mind way too many times trying tk figure out Colors for them. I’m actually happy with how this came out!!!!#if you squint the sash and jinbu is a reference to sailor HEHE.. I tried to make it stand out without contrasting too much so you can tell #-that it’s not part of Xins aesthetic more like a piece of him they carry around with them <3 they make me ILL #I should also mention they can’t nock arrows for shit. they just use em to stab and cut things apart hence the lack of a bow #it was left by one of the scholars before the island was abandoned so they were like ooh stabby stabby #I just realized I put braces on both their arms and legs but I’m too tired to do anything abt it. I’ll just symmetry win this time #still need to make a quick ref for their pelt pattern and coat. I’ll slap em on artfight when activity dies down shjdgbd #my art #myart #my oc #oc #lmk oc #Monkie kid oc #Lego Monkie kid #lmk #Monkie kid #fan character #Xin Ya #furry #I guess???#reference #reference sheet #artfight #artfight 2023

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brother-emperors · 4 months

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you're SO right, how is it that the best portrayal of many italian renaissance figures comes from a bad videogame from the 2010s

wheezing I’m torn between going truly this is the best portrayal of Leonardo da Vinci we may ever get, and defending AC2 even though I’m a full time Ezio Saga Hater

#I’m a Desmond Era + Origins fan in a ride or die kind of way but the Ezio games suck ass compared to 1 and 3 #however AC2 is miles above the European Era games and Odyssey butchers the use of Ezio’s theme so bad I will never forgive them #also Odyssey is legitimately bad. AC2’s biggest problem is that the story is narratively weak and holds it’s punches #I mostly hate the Ezio saga because the fandom was really fucking racist (still is!) and it could’ve been good!!!#but I have a deep seated fondness for the parts of it that were good. the game after all is still asking you to live even when it’s hard #the opening and the music are unparalleled and legendary. I just wish it kept that up throughout the story instead of #trying for a wider appeal but the story fucks up it’s own themes and bc the simplicity of it’s assassin/templar line up is baffling #there is also an AC2 that exists in my head that takes place in Venice lmao but that’s much more spy thriller #also did anyone here read the novelizations. Ezio and Machiavelli are so fucking married. 10/10 no notes #Ascanio is also mentioned in the brotherhood novelization iirc so. we stay winning!!

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