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If you or someone you know is struggling with an eating disorder, you are not alone.  

If you are in the United States, please try:

National Eating Disorders Association (support, resources, treatment options)

If you are outside the United States, visit IASP to find help lines related to eating disorders for your country. 

For self-help courses on body image and general peer support, please try Koko. 

If you need some inspiration and comfort on your dashboard, follow Post It Forward on Tumblr.

“Omg consistent weight loss hitting your lowest how did you do it” I literally just stopped flipping my shit every time I binge.

I be like “damn, that was too much food.” And then I start the next day normally cuz it’s gonna be fine.

I already hate 2024 wtf is this shit

Tw please read if in ed

watching things shrink and the number drop is so addicting. Just feeling every part of myself constantly. I don't even realize im doing it half the time. Running my fingers over my ribs, collar bones, hip bones.. wrapping my fingers around my wrist. I am killing myself just to be small. I know what I'm doing but the voice gets in your head and tells you well at least you'll be pretty at your funeral. huh? How dumb. But I cant stop. I'm too scared. I cant do it on my own but asking for help is horrifying. Do I even want to get better? Idk. Do I want to cry over one bite of food... no, but I want to be pretty.. so keep torturing myself just to reach my unachievable goal? Its so complicated. I want to get better but the ed is stronger. Every time I relapse back into it it is way worse and harder to escape than the time before.. what if one day i cant get out. It takes the control away from me and convinces me It's the only way, it's only there to help me.. right? It says, Maybe if you look sick somone will actually care about you, or maybe if you weren't so fat then maybe you'd have some friends. It's like having a whole other person in your head dictating every move. I cant take it. Its awful, but I cant let it go.. I've had it since I was 12. It's a comfort. How do I say goodbye to a friend of so many years?

I've had an eating disorder for so long it feels like home. I don't know who I am without it.

Isn’t it funny how no one takes your ED seriously, until you lay lifeless on the bathroom floor? I used to be obese and I told people I was struggling. I gave them all the signs, but once I got into it too deep and pounds kept dropping off you complimented me instead of getting me the help I asked for. You didn’t care because I was heavily overweight at the time. So no. I don’t feel bad for the people in my life. If they lose, it’s their fault. They would rather have me skinny, than living and that’s exactly what they are getting.

are you the kind of ano3x!c that divides your calories into cute low cal meals throughout the day or the kind that ⭐️ves themselves all day until dinner when you eat all of the calories at once

i’m the second one

tw (shitty) body chex + daily count

ignore the dirty mirror (i swear my legs are better than that but these are baggy jeans 😭)

I 👏 WILL 👏 LOOK 👏 SICK 👏 and idc what it takes

also this; still will be forced to eat dinner but i should be able to stay in the negatives, thank god. been under by at least 500 every day since i started tracking correctly + using the app (r.i.p. my notes app) but its only been 4 days. should be losing up to 2 lbs per week tho!!!

Caring about people on edblr is so weird I wake up in the morning like damn gotta check on xx-slutty-drug-bones-xx I hope she’s doing ok

🌸 My Start Point 🌸

I've been restricting for over a month but kept b/p, going to take it more seriously now and keep to my rules as well as pvrge after eating and fast whenever I can.

Height: 160cm / 5' 3"

SW: 52kg / 115lbs

CW: 46.7kg / 103lbs

Goals:

GW1: 45kg / 99lbs

GW2: 42kg / 93lbs

GW3: 40kg / 88lbs

GW4: 37kg / 82lbs

UGW: 35kg / 77lbs

I'm hoping to make new friends/moots who share similar issues with me and help me keep on track with my goals. If you wanna be moots, just send me a msg 🩷

~ Bun

9lbs in 2 weeks!

I could carve my cries for help onto my thighs and you will congratulate me when you see them shrink.

God fucking damn it I want to eat a fucking bowl of cereal so bad but I’m fucking fasting