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yyunari · 7 months

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omg HAHAH yess epic winter is banger!! im thinking 🤓🤓 that ngl i dont really like that faybelle didn't really "learn"(?) much out of it? like the whole signing a deal without reading. like we can tell she's implied to BE better cus she's in the bff pics in crystal's room at the end but it feels so rushed? in a sense 🤠🤠🤠 like i get she's gonna be a villain eventually but like man come on do my girl some justice 😔😔👎 like when i saw the outfits when i was a wee lil kid i was like THIS IS THE MOST GORGEOUS THING I HAVE EVER SEEN!!! esp faybelle's and her crystal wings i need to kiss whoever thought of that that was GENIUS 🤯🤯🤩🤩

ok yes but it feel like jackie frost and northwind's takeover of the snow kingdom was ALSO rushed like the ppl were fs like "OH HECK WE HAVE NO MORE TIME EVERYONE GOGOGO LET GOOD WIN ASAP" like they were annoying but like not omg i NEED to punch them annoying ykwim AKKDLWG maybe it's just me LOL but yes way too wonderland is super banger too!!

esp that scene where raven returned the pages to each chara HELLOOOO that was so tear jerking i may or may not have shed a tear esp after apple's character development!! in the whole do you wonder song where they all got pretty wonderlanderful outfits idk maybe it's bc im just pessimistic but if i was darling and i didnt have a whole transformation with them and ended up in a tree and woke up only when they left idk how 15yo me would have took it LMAOO 😭😭😭 defo not well tbh i would have CRIED but darling is so cool i love her aaaaa (can she save me too i mean WHAT)

oh lord i lost the plot BUT yeah i fr thought eah was super super popular too but i guess not?? maybe bc we were young so we didn't know. also i can get why people find apple annoying but most of them don't talk about/see her development like ok it's not the best and she can grow more but her change and how much she grew is amazing esp for a 15-17y.o. like i just KNOW the same people who hate her are the same people who complain about characters who have no flaws like ???? how do u hate development but also hate no development can u pick a struggle 😭😭🤠🤠

but yes i did wanted to ask on ur opinion on the characters (like apple) too. maybe i should make a 20(?) questions thing for eah bc my brain is WORKING 😃👍 i agree that eah had so much potential esp for all the characters' development!! and also!! omg which dolls do u have :O

also girl (is this gendered term ok with u btw, bc i can stick with slayer if not!) did u leave ur computer on bc i slept at 5:30am (for me) and it's almost 3pm now and u are still online HELP 😭⁉️ and yes i DID sleep ok (lol <3 hrs gang wya) THIS GOT SO LONG LMFAO I THINK ITS GONNA BE SPLIT NAURRR (update it's not somehow :O) istg i NEED eah to come back apparently the last activity/media/wtv of it was back in 2018 can mattel use all the barbie profits to fund a reboot PLSSS 😔😔

but i would like to say thank u for returning the energy and answering everything om 😭😭🩵🩵 ive always struggled w that growing up woop so it feels weird but amazing owo (i didnt answer about niki Lol looking forward to the fic and the references!!also common niki L (affectionate) hehe 🥰🥰

yesss i completely get what ur saying i feel like towards the end of the series they definitely rushed some things but it still slapped🙏🙏🙏 THE OUTFITS WERE ALWAYS AMAZINGGG like for literally everything they somehow managed to make every character wear a drop dead gorgeous outfit like even to this day i want to steal all of their wardrobes🤓 faybelle was too queen for everyone to handle but no one’s ready for that 🫡

omfg and rosabella and daring😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 that shit was crazy to me when i was younger LMFAOOO esp since i was so apple and daring

SPEAKINF OF APPLE im so glad u brought her up because I COMPLETELY AGREE😭😭😭 i literally love apple so much and it pisses me off that people only pay attention to the side of her that’s pushy and stuff and don’t ever talk about her development like?? the thing about apple that most people don’t realize is that she never tried to hurt her friends and that she always only cared about raven, like she pushed raven to follow her destiny because she was worried that raven was going to poof and she didn’t want to see her friend disappear ☝️ and during true hearts day when ashlynn and hunter revealed they were dating apple was confused about it at first but she was willing to push aside all her previous biases against royals and rebels dating to try to understand ashlynn because she CARES about her 😔😔😔 it’s so sad to me that people only pay attention to the annoying side of apple and not the side of her that cares about her friends and is genuinely looking out for them ughhhh i love her sm her character development is so good

that 20 questions thing sounds so fun LOL u should definitely do it🙏 in terms of characters, my top three is ashlynn, cupid, and apple i love them sm☝️☝️☝️ my main character opinion is that apple isn’t the villain that most people make her out to be but this is random but i wish the creators made hunter huntsman hotter LMAOOOO cus i’ve never really found him attarcttive, i like his character and he’s good for ashlynn butttt at the same time ashlynn is really pretty and he’s kind of mid in terms of looks… but he’s nice😋

the dolls i had were all they in their regular outfits, i think it was apple, raven, maddie, and possibly blondie? i cant really remember if i had any more or not but those were the dolls i can think of, i also had other eah branded things because i was literally sooo obsessed like i had a diary that was rebel on one side and royal on the other, and it played the theme song but i lost it😭😭😭😭

yess girl ok with me since i do identify myself as female🙏🙏 i think tumblr just always says i’m active since it’s on my phone LOL idk discord does the same thing for some reason😵‍💫 and i’m glad u slept well!! istg eah needs to come back or i’ll cry😢 if they come back they should do a live action and i will literally audition to be ashlynn🙏🙏 idc that she’s supposed to be white i’ll be the first asian ashlynn 😜😜

and omg im glad i always try to answer everything when i’m having a conversation with people because i know what it feels like for things to be ignored and i hated that feeling so🙏 but yes look forward to the fic bc i literally finished it today WOO WOO it’s all coming together😍😍😍☝️

#in conclusion apple will always and forever be that girl #❁ཻུ۪۪ ☽༓･ ──── ( messages ! )#❀࿔₊° ──── ( anons ! )

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zesstra-dnd · 6 months

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Alfira should show up to all camps thst way when someone has played thriugh on tav before durge its actually a surprise because she survives before.

Im not one for been super comforting but if they felt the need to add sex scenes then they can add in an option for Tav to hug thier companions when they need it instead of just standing there

More dialogue choices for a tav who doesnt want to romance that aren't mean

I barely know the companions, theyre not heartbroken because i rejected them pack it in, and let me. Just do shir as friends why is so much shit marked as a flirt

So much shit is easy to miss that help storywise but thats somewhat normal

The ending sucked ass, eating the worms had not fucking consequence exept just the smallest shit which also wasnt really too bad. Because it was like 1 harder wisdom check.

I didnt touch one single worm and yet the ending is still like one of you neeeds to be a mindflayer hehe, how about no if iv managed to control myself that long then i should get a chance to try (sure the dice roll will probably suck but eh.

They really just shit on Karlach huh and dont come at me with uh not all endings are good, she had a good ending, rhe last act had soo much more too everything would of felt less rushed and Karlach would of had her heart fixed after everything we went through to get rhe shit for it

Let my slutty tav enjoy the incubus after effects instead of zooming in on a super duper sad faces, fuck off shed love that shit, though the nosey fuck would want to see

The animals are great, love them, id adopt them all

Soo many times the dialogue choices had me Sat there like 😬none of these are what I'd pick

Still , at least i can see what the whole fucking sentance unlike certain games who put a vague choice

Larian please learn how elves and shit age

Im all for older charecters just make the age match

Would love a curse of strahd expansion

Let Escher be beautiful let astarion get a little jealous but also be happy to try help him

Let us become werewolves, that would add a lot more risk for full moons etc maybe add the werewolf companion yall scrapped

New companions and allies ofc, iv no idea how we'd get to barovia, maybe some of the group meet up every now and then, hell if not astarion let us meet one of his siblings, Sebastian was interesting .

#baldur's gate 3

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unicyclehippo · 4 years

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Beaujester. 89?

89. “You’re holding back.”

there’s no way—and no point—to lie to dairon, but damn if beau isn’t gonna try.

‘no i’m not.’ nailed it.

dairon cocks their head to the side, eyes narrowing in a manner that is horribly familiar, what with beau having had the stuffing beaten out of her a dozen dozen times over after getting that exact look from her mentor.

‘care to revise that statement?’

‘no.’

‘hmm.’

dairon moves in a blur of speed, and it’s all beau can do to keep up; dodging and weaving, slapping attacks to the side and using dairon’s height against her, ducking down and into her space to come up and—dairon’s hands settle on either side of beau’s neck, light, sweet, fingers barely grazing over the thundering pulse.

‘too slow,’ she tells beau, who has only a moment to get out a choked,

‘oh fuck,’

before dairon’s hands slip up a fraction to place her thumbs just so beneath beau’s jaw, and where the fleshy triangle of muscle bridges neck and collar. beau’s body seizes and, in the moment before dairon’s stun wears off, she wanders behind beau and simply taps at those points they both know will force the truth out of her.

the stun washes out of her and beau sags, spins to face dairon, fists raised. spots blink across her vision momentarily and her thoughts slide sideways. her attack goes wide—inexcusably so—and dairon looks furious. she plants a hand on beau’s chest and shoves, sending her falling to the floor.

‘stay. there,’ dairon commands. ‘you and i are going to have a little chat.’

super, just what i wanted, beau tries to say, and finds the words choked before they can get out, those points of ki flaring and juddering painfully when she tries to lie. ‘you know this shit messes with my sarcasm?’ beau does manage to say.

‘good. at least some earthly force manages to do so. i had begun to despair.’

dairon settles beside her, snags beau by the collar and slams her down—not painfully, just forcefully—when she tries to make a break for it.

‘come now, beauregard, is an honest discussion so dreadful to you?’

‘yes.’

dairon blinks, a sign of true shock from them. ‘mm.’ they nod, fold their arms over their chest.

beau waits. feels the concentrated ki grip her system, destabilise the focus, the steadiness of her own. ‘what are you doing?’

‘waiting.’

‘what for?’

‘for it to wear off,’ dairon says, as though that should be obvious. ‘if it is....so distressing to you, i will not ask you questions now.’

‘...really?’

‘i am your teacher, beauregard, not your master, not your imprisoner. i can be harsh. i try not to be cruel.’

something tightly knotted inside beau’s chest eases a little. ‘okay.’ eventually, the effect ends and beau cracks the stiffness out of her neck and jaw. ‘let’s get this over with.’

‘impatient.’

‘surprising?’

dairon’s lips quirk upwards. ‘no.’ they take a moment to consider beau, with the same intensity they use in a fight but instead of that lightning intuition for where beau’s body will be, where she’ll move, dairon is looking at her.

‘see something you like?’

dairon ignores that. as always. ‘i will say this as gently as possible,’ they say, voice deadpan. ‘you fought like shit today.’

‘ow?’ beau jokes, but dairon doesn’t smile or relent.

‘you telegraphed your movement far ahead of moving, you were distracted, you pulled your punches. i am disappointed.’

‘oh.’

it’s a strange sinking feeling, like falling out of the sky. beau hardly feels the hard-packed sand beneath her as she falls, pulse rushing in her ears, her entire body going hot. she wonders distantly if this is some new kind of technique of the cobalt soul—advanced soul destroying, or something—as she tries to remember how to breathe, how to settle herself. her eyelids flutter.

nicodranas, the wide open ocean. blue as far as the eye can see.

‘i do not say this to be cruel, beauregard,’

‘i dunno, you managed it pretty well.’

‘i say it because i am concerned. you are better than this—you nearly beat me in that fight in the city of beasts,’

‘i did best you,’ beau is quick to deny. ‘i just pulled my punches so you didnt lose your disguise.’

dairon blinks. stares blankly at beau for a moment. ‘anyway,’ they say, tone crisp and staggeringly full of disbelief, ‘there is something troubling you. what is it?’

it’s potent, the want to talk to dairon. beau is sure a little of it has to do with minor internal bleeding and also the crushing, awful sense of disappointing her mentor. but that could be purposeful, dairon has shown clearly so many times they’re good at reading people, at manipulating them, and beau hasn’t exactly proved hard to manipulate in the past if one knows the buttons to push. and dairon has slammed the shit out of a half dozen of them in the last minute so...

an old, half-forgotten tendril of spite holds beau’s tongue still. dairon doesn’t seem to notice or mind, just sits and waits for beau to answer.

the minutes stretch on.

‘would tea help?’

‘who are you, caduceus? no.’

dairon shrugs. ‘very well. are you silent because you do not wish to tell me, or because you cannot find the words?’

‘i dunno.’ dairon lifts a brow. ‘both, i guess.’

oddly enough, admitting that makes dairon smile. ‘you are never easy, are you?’

‘i mean, depends on the context,’ beau tells her, waggles her brows until dairon puts their face in the palm of their hand. elegantly, gracefully, but inarguably face in palm. ‘but ah, no.’ she thinks about her mother and father telling her as much, those few people she had tried to befriend. her own team mates reminding her of her harsher, less tolerated qualities. ‘no,’ she admits, quietly. ‘i’m not.’

a warm touch on beau’s wrapped hands makes her start, but it is just dairon laying their hand on hers. they seem to find it as awkward as beau does because they pull back a moment later.

‘what is bothering you, beauregard?’

‘everything?’

‘tell me one thing,’ dairon instructs. ‘we shall work from there.’

‘what for? this isn’t - this isn’t necessary,’ she tells dairon, scratching at her neck, her undercut. ‘i’ll just do better next time.’

‘unless there is a change, you will not. that is not an insult, that is a fact. one improves from mistakes by assessing, learning, and changing accordingly. so. we assess.’ dairon nods, as if saying, go ahead.

beau feels that tightness in her throat again, the overwhelming pressure that seems to trip something in her, tells her the moment she says anything she can’t get that shit back. it’ll be out there, it’ll be real to more than just herself.

‘beauregard,’ dairon says quietly, dark eyes seemingly reading deep into beau’s stiff shoulders, the way her fingers catch together and twist hard, almost punishingly. ‘trust me. to be able to hear what you tell me and not use it against you.’

is that what she’s scared of? fuck. maybe it is.

‘i’m scared.’ beau has to force the words out. can’t quite look at dairon as she does. ‘all the time.’

‘of what?’

‘not being fast enough. strong enough.’

‘no,’ dairon shakes her head. ‘that isn’t it.’

‘oh, so you know what’s in my head now?’

‘i know fear. what happens if you aren’t strong or fast enough, beauregard?’

images flash through beau’s mind. caleb, with a legion of men behind him, their heads aflame. fjord, pressing an orb into his chest, his eyes turning the same colour, his body contorting and cracking and lengthening, scales hardening across green skin. nott, drowning. cad, wasting away. jester, taken. jester, hurt. jester, dying. jester,

‘i need to protect them,’ she says. ‘all of them. and i—‘ her eyes are burning, all of a sudden. it takes a moment to realise she is crying and her breath catches in horror, hands flinging up to hide the evidence, wipe the tears away. ‘i can’t,’ she tells dairon.

‘no, you can’t.’ dairon sets their hand on beau’s again. this time, she doesn’t move away. ‘you got attached,’ they add, tone without reproach.

beau snorts, a gross wet snort. ‘yeah. fuck.’

‘you got very attached.’ beau shrugs a shoulder, doesn’t deny it. ‘your jester is strong, beauregard. your group is strong. you must find a way to trust in that, to not let your fears over take you. it is much easier said than done,’ dairon confesses. ‘but you, you are capable. beyond capable. i have faith,’ she says simply. ‘and another half day to train you. up on your feet.’

#cr tag #tagging my stories #prompt fill

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redefiningthirtysomething · 5 years

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My weight loss journey has been difficult for me. I am finally getting back on track after 11 months post partum. I'm all about body positivity but I was really more concerned about my health and the way I was feeling. I mean, yes I wanted to fot into my jeans and wear cute tops, but I wasn't in a rush at all.

After I had Olivia though, I went really hard at my workouts and I was also working full time, breastfeeding and not sleeping. I was limiting my meals, portion control, but I wasn't losing weight. Eventually I noticed my milk supply dropped significantly. I was so bummed and decided to stop. I stopped and started to eat a lot, like A LOT, I think mainly because I was really sleepy, tired, drained and decided I just didnt care at that point. After a few months of that I really started to gain weight.

We moved to Arizona the first week of July and I became a stay at home mom. So, I decided to use my time wisely and get back into shape. Olivia is my last baby so Its time to get back to myself. I have been trying to focus on self care, and I NEED to make time for myself. We moms need to take time out to care for ourselves, mental breaks are so helpful for me and help me be a better mom. Even if that means a warm bath alone for 20 minutes... it's a few minutes of heaven.

I changed my eating, but I'm not limiting food. I eat every 3 hours. I make better food choices. I drink a lot of water. Fruits. Vegetables. Protein. I cut out junk food and soda, I love cookies but I decided to limit them and treat myself when I really really want one. I started to work out 6x week. It has now been almost going on 2 months and I have seen a big difference in my body and especially in the way that I feel!! I feel more energized and happier. I only do a 30 minute workout but I hit it hard, and once a week i hit the basketball court and do drills. That is the worst, lol it's a brutal workout but let me tell you ITS WORTH IT.

I'll post some before and after pictures. It's amazing how our bodies change when you treat it right. Now, I'm still learning and I have many slips. It's hard to eat right everyday and especially with a family, they want certain foods, or they want to go out ... being disciplined isn't one of my strong points. But, everyday I try again.

This weekend wasn't the best on my eating, but I managed to get my basketball drills in this morning as a family and ate a healthy breakfast. Lunch was healthy-ish.. but dinner was amazingly delicious. Chicken thighs, asparagus and tomatoes. Not bad.

Tomorrow I have cardio HIIT ... my favorite. It's a tough workout though, Olivia doesn't make it easy. She hates me doing anything else other than holding her. BUT, I just have to push forward. I have a stash of toys ready to give to her if she loses her shit.

Posting pics soon. I cannot wait to see results next month. Progress!

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authorofdanger · 4 years

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Miroh 2

Genre: Angst

Skz zombie apocalypse AU

It's very sad and violent in some parts, sorry.

"Balance! Balance is key Shuyang," Jeongin sighed while coming behind the boy and helping him plant his feet. Shuyang looked at him in slight confusion before one of the other young boys translated in chinese. Jeongin was given the difficult task of teaching these boys no older than fifteen and no younger than twelve how to shoot a bow and arrow. Smiling to myself I was beyond proud of Jeongin for not only strengthening his shooting skills but for being able to teach as well.

"Hyung have you not noticed how clumsy he is? I'm surprised we didnt put him in farming with Yeji," Hanyu chuckled as he shot and nearly hit the bullseye. "Stop being mean," Zihao groaned in english. Pulling myself to my feet I took over Jeongin's place behind Shuyang and placed my hands over his. "Slow your breathing," I said in his home language, "it's okay to miss. You are learning so breathe. Now balance and focus on your breathing."

"You know chinese," Jeongin gasped. "And english," I said while looking over at Zihao, "dad moved us around alot since he was a company translator. Does it really shock you? I lived in Taiyuan for five years, Texas for six, and Busan for eight years now. Korean is relatively my newest language."

"Hey I'm from Taiyuan," Xinlong said excitedly. Giving him a wide smile I turned my attention back to Shuyang and whispered for him to release the arrow, watching as his arrow finally landed on the rim of the target. "There you go," I encouraged, "now keep practicing."

As time went on, and corrections decreased, I had decided to leave the boys for a moment to survey the base. It wasn't as broken down as the infected towns but it surely needed repairs. The houses were run down and in a few years probably dilapidated but for now it was livable and somewhat warm. The shops we kept around were always busy with people making food, clothes, weapons, and more. Children were running around the property with no parents to corral them inside, only a few of us teenagers and early adults taking over the parental life.

"Y/N I thought you were with Jeongin," Seungmin asked while running up to me from the pig barn. He was wiping the dirt from his hands with a rag in his pocket and tried to clear his face but with little result. "I thought you were supposed to control the pigs. Looks like it was the other way around." Giving me an off smile he lowered his face and groaned, "younger sow has been testing Jisung and I's patience. It's too hyper to be cooped up in the barn but too lazy to burn energy when in the field and it's hard to catch it when I need it. Somehow it managed to learn to open it's own pen so I had to get Changbin to help me rebuild the door to move the latch."

His small smile made my heart swell, I rarely saw him smile during our time together so it's refreshing to see happiness in the same boys I worried about months ago. "I'm obviously not a builder," he added after holding out his cut up hands, "gonna have to borrow some of Hyunjin's bandages." "Need help?"

****

"I missed the way you patched us up. Its alot more comfortable than Hyung's tight and rigid tactic." Finishing up the last wrap I gave his hand a soft squeeze before putting the medical supplies back to its spots. "Had to learn somehow with Namjoon always managing to injure himself. I still cant figure out how he would do it but he always had new injuries each week! Mom was always finding small jobs to do so she was gone alot while dad was always at the companies he was doing work for. He tried to patch himself up but would always hurt himself more," I laughed, "I wonder if he found someone to replace my handiwork."

The room was silent for a moment but my smile never faltered. "I'm sure he's fine," I added, "I'm sure he is running around with Jungkook or Seokjin. They had a big group of friends apparently. I didnt get to see them often since he was scared I would fall for Jungkook but I think he was overreacting. Big brother stuff you know?" "I understand completely. My older sister was the same way with her friends. But she was more worried because I was a bit of a wild child in her eyes. She thought I would corrupt her friends." The room filled with laughter as we thought back to our pasts. Thinking about it now I never would have believed someone like Seungmin would be my friend. In high school I was always shy and a bit of a book nerd but wasn't afraid to stand up for myself. I guess that's how I meshed well with Jeongin when I moved to Korea, attending high school with him. Apparently Hyunjin went there too but I never really got to know him and didnt even know of his existence!

As we sat here I realized just how lucky I am to have met my boys. They helped me learn to grow a backbone and how important it was to not judge a book by his cover. "Well I better get back to the pins. I heard that Chan is going to take some of the men and younger males for hunting practice. You going," Seungmin sighed as he got up. "No I'm going to stay here and let my shoulder rest some more." "Right. But hey, thanks for patching me up."

**** Three years ago****

A loud crash erupted from the living room followed by an "Oh shit!" Glancing over at Jin who came and helped me make dinner tonight I wiped my hands on the apron he gave to me and followed the sound to see my brother trying to pick up the pieces of the now broken vase.

"Why does mom demand we keep glass items in this house," he growled before he cut open his hand yet again. "No Joon get the broom," I laughed. I quickly pulled him up to his feet and examined his hand to see a few thin lines here and there but nothing a few bandages couldnt cover. "You're a god of destruction," I giggled to myself before letting go of him and moving to get the broom,"dont move Joon! You'll break something else with your luck!"

"How is it that he is the older brother but you are the one who takes care of him," Seokjin laughed. "I swear the birth year on my birth and adoption certificates are wrong. I have to be older than him." "What will he do without you in a few years?" "I'll be fine!"

****

I always wondered where he went. Did he make it out of our town alive? Did he find the boys? I might never get answers.

A few hours later and I was huddled in my room by the fireplace, waiting for the boys to get back. Chan and Jeongin were out teaching the younger boys to hunt which was freaky in it's own sense but it was also scary that it was starting to get dark. "Y/N," Shuyang called while rushing in. "I thought you were hunting! What's wrong," I asked. Going over to him and rubbing his heaving back I could barely hear him huffed out "need translator. Felix cant understand. A man is here!"

****

"救命啊," I heard a young man scream as I raced up the staircase. "I dont speak chinese! Do you speak anything else? What group are you from," Felix yelled. "Hyung yelling isnt going to help. It's like when we did that when you were learning korean," Seungmin sighed. "Shut up! I dont see you helping! And where the hell is Shuyang?" Shoving the door open I walked in front of Shuyang and took a look at the situation. Seungmin was sitting in the back corner with his hands in his face, Felix was standing firm but with panic laced on his, and the boy who must have been the man screaming in chinese moments ago was pacing the room.

"My name is Y/N. I speak chinese well. Are you okay," I asked while slowly approaching the frantic man. " His eyes grew wide and he let out a "oh my god! I can speak a little korean but the words arent coming to me right now! My base has been invaded and we need help! I'm from Amber's section!" "Amber? Amber Liu," Felix asked after finally catching on. "They're invaded."

****

We filled the trucks with as many members as we could as we raced to the compound. In my truck we had Felix, Changbin, Minho, Jisung, Lucas, and I. The ride was quiet aside from the engine roaring as Minho raced us through the winding roads. "Please let there be survivors," Lucas whispered to himself, "let my friends be okay." Placing my hand ontop of his I tried to comfort him in any way I could but with little results. "How did this happen," Felix asked which I ended up having to translate. In the best korean he could manage in the moment he said "people were coming back from hunting and one was bitten while he was out. He didnt tell anyone and turned. It spread from there. Oh God Winwin!" Tears rolled down his face and he pulled his sleeves to his eyes to try to stop them.

"Its okay to cry," I hushed, "we are going to help the best we can I promise." Jisung eyed me as I comforted the stranger, knowing my heart was breaking for him. Placing his hand on his back, I could tell Jisung was trying to help too. We both knew what it was like to lose someone to this situation. When we first found eachother he had his older brother with him who got bit saving Jisung. I on the other hand had to shoot my mother when she turned and soon after my father. It's a pain that many in this world are forced to go through but it never gets easier. We all hope for a day this will end but at this point we know the odds are out of our favor.

"We're here," Minho interrupted before we all rushed out of the trucks and others pulled in. With a team of an estimated thirty we raced into the compound and began to shoot every Walker in sight. I stuck close to Lucas and Felix as we tried to find and gather survivors but only managed to find a small group hiding in a closed off room in the leadership tower. "Ten! Amber," Lucas cried as he rushed into the room. Doing a headcount I was able to see five survivors and then Lucas, my heart dropping at the alarming number. "We couldnt stop them," Amber shook, "I just had to find survivors and barricade ourselves until help arrived."

"We're here," Felix comforted, "now come on. We need to get you guys to a vehicle while we search for more." "I'll keep looking. I have great aim and can protect myself," I suggested. Nodding his head, Felix ushered everyone out while I raced around the entire compound. The bodies laying on the floor added to my fear and I prayed for atleast one more survivor. "Please! Anyone!" On the ground was a young male with a Walker ontop of him, snapping at his face. Pulling my arrow back I was able to nail him right in the back of his head and ran to help the young man.

He had to be close to Jeongin's age but definitely a giant in comparison. His eyes were soft but full of fear but I had to push my own aside to try to soothe him in this moment. "Are you infected," I asked. Shaking his head I immediately pulled him to his feet and handed him a gun from my bag and continued through the compound. After nearly an hour though and no other survivors in sight I knew it was time to leave.

"But Chenle! I cant leave him!" "Someone else might have found him. We have to go," I ordered before pulling him by his arm to the trucks that were already packed and preparing to leave. "Is that all of our team," Felix yelled through the crowd. "We are all clear sir," another called out. Helping the boy into the bed of the truck I crawled in to sit by him and the new members of our base, listening to the cries of pain as they went through their list of friends who were either infected or killed.

"Johnny," one asked. "Got bit. I watched someone shoot him soon after. Same for Mark." "Chenle?" "Infected." My heart went out to this group. These were their friends, their family, and they had to watch some of them die today. "I'm sorry I didnt get help soon enough," Lucas apologized. Amber placed her hand on his face and made him look at her, "you saved us Lucas. You cant save everyone but you saved someone! You did great." "Its not your fault," another girl added, "this wasn't something we could have stopped. Its life now."

Life sucks.

#stray kids #skz chan #skz changbin #skz minho #skz hyunjin #skz seungmin #skz jeongin #skz jisung #skz felix #skz fanfic #skz zombie apocalypse #stray kids angst #stray kids au #skz angst #skz au

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zephyr-94 · 5 years

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barista!jaemin

inspired by the one and only, puff live!

a/n: this is my first ever fic omg pls spare me with my low writing skills cause ive literally never done this fjskdjdhjdks okay i just love na jaemin periodt. (after writing: ITS VERY JUMPY AND LENGTHY I DIDNT PLAN TO MAKE IT LIKE THIS DJSKJSJSS)

so like your aunt owns a cafe which is in the middle of the city

and you live a lil outside just cause you know, school n shit

you visit her so often cause its a small cafe and it calms you down whenyou need a short break from everything

its weird thats its in the middle of the city but its still calming right?

well okay so like you know those small streets down the neighbourhoods?

the ones you dont really go unless you are rlly feeling adventurous n shit, your aunt’s cafe is in one of those streets

okay longass context down

and at school, you are in a photography club,,, or technically you just learn photography from your teacher after school but its not a whole club extravaganza

just cause your school kinda demands an extra curricular after the first year

but it feels really suffocating to be forced to do smth as a group/with people you arent as familiar with,,,,

so you “signed up” for the smallest club: [photography theory]

it was about time you start doing your hobby-ish thing at school and the tutor was cool with you being practically the only student in the club lmao so everything was going well but

youve never rlly done anything big yourself and your school friends havent pushed you to do smth either

so you were kind of looking to at least take part in one out-of-class project initiated by students maybe

and theres this big school newspaper club/writers’ club,,,, and you find out that they are like !! photographers & stories wanted !!

and you ?? at first but apparently its a project where like students get to submit their fav pic & write a mini article about “your place of comfort”

cause the topic of the month is mental health/dealing with stress and the newspaper club wants a students’ view on it, instead of just “meditation” as a topic

then you just have that cafe in your mind like,,, how you would love to shoot the street light shining into the cafe from afar and how calm that place makes you feel,,,

basically you just love your auntie’s cafe lmao

so then you go on about maybe joining it,,, but then you be indecisive cause youve never actually taken a photo professionally you just have a prolonging passion for it,,,

and your teacher is like “y/n idk why you are contemplating no ones gonna judge you just try smth new, go take the chance if you are feeling like it”

we love a supportive johnny, oh yes your english teacher is your photography “club” tutor,,, self proclaimed club

actually there have been many opportunities in the past with taking photos for projects like this one but you just stayed away cause it didnt “motivate” you to take photos for it

so johnny’s words kinda pushed your back n you felt like this was the right thing :))

so then you visit your auntie on the weekends asking maybe if you can take pics & ask her a couple questions about this place

and shes like ofc!! wanna see how you capture this place :))

so then you do this whole process and you submit the article & photos,,,,,

which ends up getting a whole page???

and you are like wh a t

newspaper club: oh you submitted many such pretty pictures & your comment felt very genuine

and you :)) but damn a whole page,,,, you is a lil anxious djskdjdh now the entire schools now going to know you

johnny the hype man teacher: see i told you it was going to turn out nice

and then kaboom, your article lowkey blows up lmao

your auntie is calling you up like “y/n!! so many customers came today!! and a lot of them are wearing the same uniform as you, they must be the students from your school!!”

and shes so happy so you are happy af

but then you remember like,,,, shes never had a part timer,,,,,

and she continues to manage the place by herself after it gets popular among the students,,,,

?? auntie,,, you never take a break ??

shes like maybe ill think about hiring someone?? and you are like, that would be good for you :)) i will be less worried about your health!!

whoop guess who got hired

and after youve had that^ conv, you had constant classes n group projects n shit so you literally had no time,,,

two weeks later, kinda highkey stressed

you decide to go make a quick visit to auntie before going to the library to study

and you peek,,, to see not your auntie,,,,

but a boy??

just standing behind the counter,,, no auntie to be seen but a beautiful boy???

before the opening hours,,,, he?? must be the part timer,,,

and once he notices you by the door,

he just smiles at you,,, so brightly,,,,

wow youve never seen such a pretty face,,,

you actually like forget to open the door you are just staring from outside the cafe,,,,

and he just waves,,, and you snap back to reality like oh shit did i just stare at someone for a solid minute

welp that was embarrassing djkdjdfj

he opens the door for you and goes “hey you must be y/n :))”

“the only person who comes before 9am, thats you isnt it?”

and you just ?¿ confusion??¿

“auntie told me about it :)) hi, nice to meet you, im jaemin!!”

you are still confused but you just shake hands next to the counter,,,

and as you take a seat

jaemin just makes a smol run to the other side and hes like

“you came just in time, i want you to try my latte!!”

jaemin serves a cup of latte with a leaf art

this boy just served a latte first thing after shaking hands i-

you take a sip from the cup

and you are like,,, so auntie hired an experienced boy,,,,

“its really good,,,” it has the same comforting taste you always love

and jaemin just has the biggest smile :)))) you know his smile where the ends just curl in, yes that one

him beaming like that just makes you giggly inside,,,,

you ask him “so uh um im guessing you are the part timer??”

“yes!! i didnt introduce myself properly did i! i started working here two weeks ago :))

ive been coming here for quite a while now so im happy i got the chance!!”

and you ?¿ “ive never seen you here??” you are the most frequent customer youve gotta have seen him before fjsksj

hes like “oh um i always came at 9pm on a friday, after everyone leaves and the whole neighbourhood gets quiet”

you just :o

and come to think of it, you’ve never visited here on a friday night,, cause you know, friday evening is your im not doing anything tonight kinda me time lmao

inside you are kinda happy that someone who knows this place got hired like its a special place to you so

tbh you were kinda anxious even though you trust your aunt,,,,,

and jaemin hurriedly goes “oh and also auntie is taking a break today, shes out to the market so im gonna take over until she returns in the afternoon”

djskdj auntie why didnt she tell you lmao

“im sorry if you needed anything specific from her,,, you should stay for a while until she comes back maybe?”

and you are like,,, “oh that would be great,,, but unfortunately i have to go to the library,,,,”

jaemin: ): he pout

“im so glad you came today tho!! i wanted to see you :) auntie has told so many thing about you”

“wait,, what has she told you,, omg”

apparently shes told jaemin

a) reason why this cafe recently became a popular hideout cafe for students because you wrote a school article bout it

b) that you do photography

c) and that this cafe is your break time so you never study here and auntie loves listening to you talk about school n what not

and then you are like !!

“wait so then you dont go to our school ,,,um are you also a student?”

and you panic a little cause i mean you just met him but you literally know nothing and you mightve assumed things fjsksj

and jaemin tells you “ah yes i go to a hospitality school downtown” “ohh”

and from there he just starts talking about his school and what he studies

he asks you about school but jaemin is extra excited about his hospitality course hes all !! :))!!

and you are so hooked on jaemin talking about his school you forget an hour passes by,,,,

[time to open the cafe]

then the customers start coming in

and you are like “oh sorry ive just bothered you during the preparation time,,,,, it was nice meeting you!! gotta go now :))”

and you rush out cause all you planned to do was give your auntie a little visit

also you dont want to bother jaemin cause its hes gonna handle the place alone for a couple hours

you wave a smol see you soon and

jaemin just does a little chuckle,, and hes like waving so widely fjsksj does he know other people can see him

and thats how your first day with jaemin went

later that day you return home thinking like,,, did you just get so excited to converse with someone who you juSt met,,,

na jaemin’s power

and jaemin on the other hand, is thinking about how beautiful you looked today

just that short while but it made him so happy

hes thinking about you all week uwu

so next week you visit again, expecting to see your auntie

and maybe also that gleaming boy

peeking through before the opening hours

the moment jaemin realises you hes like “y/n!!” what a shining boy

and aunties like “oh y/n right you met him last week when i was out right”

that morning you just talk to auntie about what shes been missing on after you went on a busy week

mind that jaemin is literally just listening to you & auntie talk

and he enjoys it cause you talk so comfortably in front of her :))

you decide to stay the whole day to give yourself a break

which meant you moved to your usual spot by the window

and auntie serving you (free) vanilla latte

you take out your camera and just start adjusting the lenses, trying to find the right frame

customers come and go so you dont get to talk to jaemin a lot that day

but its not like you came here for him,,,, right?¿??¿??

while you were thinking all that

jaemin was asking about you all day like

“so y/n’s favourite is vanilla?”

“does y/n prefer a latte over cappuccino?”

“i want to serve y/n something,,,, what would be the best??”

auntie: how many times did he mention y/n today omg

and as auntie answers

jaemin is thinking like

i wanna see y/n smile

and the entire day your auntie is like !!he :)))))

lmao same auntie same

so when the peak hours finish she goes

“i can take care of everything now, go talk to y/n”

and jaemin just smiles brighter than ever

so when he comes around, you startle

but it puts a smile on your face

because hes brought your favourite cake and just a smiling jaemin in front of you uwu

you both get to know more about each other like

how theres this two boys named chenle & jisung in the preparatory course whom he adores to death

or like

theres this jeno boy whose jokes suck jeno i love you

with a bonus of

you talking about how johnny’s english class is nothing but a comedian’s lesson

so that day went great

and now that you are comfortable

you visit the cafe to talk with jaemin more

even when you have a chill no stress week

it just makes you feel lighter by coming to the cafe now

and your auntie is hella happy that you two are getting along so well

it continues for weeks

just you and jaemin talking from time to time when the peak hours are over or before the cafe opens

you became best pals basically

he encouraged you to join more school projects cause hes sure your photography is worth the chance

you giving him daily support when he feels like he isnt doing the best for his course

sometimes when your aunt had to leave for a couple hours near closing time

you two just stayed there talking for a couple hours giving comfort to each other

late night lattes and cakes

also one time you got so excited from the bestest grades you got you might have hugged him without thinking oops

and one day, jaemin’s friend renjun is there when you come after school

and hes like “hi uh dont mind me im just here a bit because jaemin has to go somewhere after this and i dont want him to be late”

so you just,,, chill as jaemin kinda rushes

and when he goes to the storage room, you just see renjun getting along with the auntie lmao

auntie: “so i got offered this contract with the new type of beans? and idk if i should take it because that would mean i have to go out of the city,,,,”

renjun: “for how long?”

auntie: “two weeks maybe”

renjun: “oh thats fine, dont worry about it. jaemin can take over that. next two weeks right? his mandatory work experience ends this week”

so thats how renjun signed jaemin up to work alone for auntie without his consent

and aunties like “y/n!! it would be so much for just jaemin, you should help him :) your break starts next week right?”

so you also got signed up to this thing

fast forward to first day of break

aka the first time you “work” there

you are nervous and jaemin can feel it

“dont worry y/n, ill do all the talking and coffee, you just have to serve & clean!!”

so you try to calm down a bit

not to mention that you are also nervous cause its only jaemin and you in the room

but then he sees you fumbling with tying the apron and

jaemin says “here, give it, ill do it for you” while smiling a little

and from the back he wraps the apron around your waist,,,

and hes so close to you,,, your heart is fluttering

okay heart stop beating so fast pls thank you

and little do you know,,, jaemin is flushing a bit behind your back,,,

you are both the cutest mess

and you break the silence with a smol

“thanks :))”

trying to contain yourself from screaming

adapting to the serving side & keeping youself busy

you dont realise jaemin is literally admiring you the entire time as you get used to the job,,,,

here and then you forget how close you might be standing next to jaemin,,,

you kinda also realise how rEALLY attractive he looks serving everyone with a huge smile 24/7

and the way some customers are obviously attracted to him,,,,

but what you dont know is he is literally taking this chance to highkey flirt with you lmao

waves (sometimes winks) across the room

causally hovers over you when you cant find/reach smth

beaming the biggest smile every minute he gets to himself

and at first you panicked like ?!????

cause was this jaemin boy holding back for a whole month

is this his nature yes

but it makes you so happy to see him smiling all the time beside you

so jaemin yes its working

you gotta admit tho his flirty-ish behaviour grew on you this entire week djskjssj

a week of giggly smiles uwu

but the week after was unexpectedly the busiest of the busiest

you two forgot national holidays collided with the weekends and for some, it was a week off,,,,,,

so the week rushes by so quickly compared to the last one

it kind saved you tho cause your heart cant take more of that flirty behaviour

and finally,

the peak days are over,,,

and you realise its been a while since the cafe was just you,,,, and well jaemin but just no customers

the silence with faint sounds of cups cluttering,,,, you missed it

so then you go sit on the high chair

just admiring jaemin organise the shelves

he starts to prepare a new cup of coffee then realises you smiling at him “were you in awe at how effortless i look right now??”

you chuckle at his remark,,,

(needless to say that your are chuckling to hide how your heart is melting at his smirky smile)

so you twirl a bit shyly,, and avert the gaze to the familiar wood of the counter

asking him “do you remember the day we first saw each other, me sitting here and you serving the latte?”

“ofc, its the day i met an angel”

oh so confidently na jaemin really just said that

you quickly look up at him like !!!?!???!

and thats how he earned a first kiss (or rather a peck) from you

leaning over the counter and pecking you, a whole blushy mess

then comes a clink by the door

you juMp,,,,,,,

oof the customer may or may not have seen you two

you both rush around flushed like a tomato lmao

spending the rest of the day like nothing happened oops

and after the day ends, you two close the cafe

as you starting walking you are caught off guard when

jaemin just takes your hand,,,

“look y/n!! the stars are so pretty!!”

and starts swinging your arm like a tall child,,,

your heart is skippingnsjsjsjs

then at the corner, jaemin turns around and goes

“this is actually the place i first saw you”

and you ??¿?¿¿

“i saw you taking the photo of this night light shining into the cafe”

still hand in hand, jaemin steps a little closer

and takes his free hand to cup your face, kissing you,,,,

you smile into him as he kisses so softly, thinking

maybe the day i took that photo was a friday night

and melting into the kiss, you really think you are dreaming,,,,,

under the lights you once wished capturing a sparkling moment with the cafe in the back

its now you and jaemin in the frame,,,,

the boy who had you forgetting to breathe a month ago

whos now serving your favourite latte with a bonus of pecks on the cheek,,,,, (maybe on the lips if theres no one watching)

anyways

jaemin brings light to your life and you have never been this happy until you met him uwu

and it goes both ways, jaemin cant live without you now,,,, you are the best thing thats ever happened to him

(thank the heavens & your auntie)

oh and also johnny for pushing you to submit that article lmao plus huang renjun for that involuntary sign up

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fromthedeskofelizabeththird · 5 years

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So Here are the Spoilers -Volume III

AKA I have not been this mad at Cheritz for ages. Let’s deep dive.

Warning: this post contains spoilers and mentions of abuse and p*dophilia.

Also Rika.

So much Rika...

I am mad, yo

Not even mad, I am furious.

As I usually do when I give my thoughts like this, here is what I wanted from V after end and Rika DLC

V moving on with his life and having a happy ending with MC

The RFA healing and also moving on

A focus on MC and V!! And their love???? You know?? The point of him having a route in the first place.

An exploration of Rika’s past and Mint Eye, to fill in all the blanks we have so far

Rika facing justice and seeking redemption.

I’ll be honest.

If you want fluffy V and MC content, go ahead and play the existing ends. The after end is not really about V at all. It’s along the same lines as Secret Ends 02, where your LI isn’t really present and instead dealing with their own emotional turmoil and issues.

And, you know. To an extent I would have been okay with this in V content. V is the leader of the RFA and it would be weird if the fall out from Rika wasn’t even addressed. My beef about this is that we don’t get a secret end 01 where MC and V are together, repairing problems together. We don’t see V at all for 98% of the story. We get more Rika content than V...which is a whole other issue I’ll get to in a bit. Hell...I’m pretty sure we get more VANDERWOOD than V. (Don’t get me wrong...I like Vanderwood, but wtf??)

It’s honestly the same complaint I have for both Jumin’s after end and Valentine’s DLC, where he’s not even present for most of it and it feels like a waste of time and hourglasses. (And at 80 hourglasses per chapter, plus another 100 to unlock both endings, it doesn’t come cheap.)

V and MC’s ‘happy ending’ is an afterthought. V’s entire presence in the after end is an ‘oh by the way, remember V? The character whose after end you’re in I guess???’

Ugh.

Anyway.

It was good to see the RFA healing and moving on. I was so heartbroken by Jumin’s inability to cope with what was going on, even as he took extra care to make sure the rest of the RFA were fine. I loved Yoosung’s anger and conflict over this person he’d admired and respected for so long. I loved Seven’s complete breakdown over the potential loss of his brother.

I loved that they got reunited!

What I didn’t like?

The forcedness.

The after end gives you two choices: Judge or Forgive. I hoped that they would be complimentary to one another, like in Seven’s Valentine DLC, where both were good ends, just different in tone.

Well, boy was I wrong!

From the beginning of the After End, you are pushed towards Forgiveness, with the MC being portrayed as completely unreasonable and borderline hysterical if they show even an ounce of resentment and anger towards Rika. If you go on to unlock the Judgement ending, Cheritz not only spits in your face but every single one of her victims.

There is a short VN sequence called Rika Circus, where you are mocked for essentially enjoying torture porn and wanting Rika to come to a cruel end and suffer a horrible fate. It’s the judgement ending, but you the player are judged instead.

Just getting these screens made me feel physically sick:

I don’t know where to begin with this bs. Maybe with the preface that I am an abuse survivor and pushing the idea that victims have to forgive their abusers in any way shape or form and aren’t allowed to hold even a small amount of anger towards them is completely shameful? This ending literally borders on the same gaslighting logic that if a victim stands up to their abuser they are the shitty one and hyper aggressive. I wish I could explain how bad this ending was for my PTSD.

Actually no. I will explain.

The most important lesson I got from my therapist was how okay it was to be angry, because it was an acknowledgement that I was a victim and my abuser was in the wrong. That I didn’t have to forgive her if I didn’t want to. That it was important for me to feel valid in my emotions.

Maybe what bothered me was the cognitive dissonance (and gaslighting) that an MC wanting Rika to face justice must 100% want her to die or live out the rest of her days being mistreated and even sexually assaulted? Like??? How about no?? Are there no jails in Mysme’s universe? No community service? We know from the Judgement end that she got a life sentence, so it’s not like the MC sentenced her to death.

Maybe it’s because the player is given very valid choices e.g. being suspicious of the cult leader who stabbed their boyfriend and tortured numerous people, but are framed along the same lines as the MC being like KILL HER *knife emoji*.

Maybe it’s because this ending is the first time the player gets close to knowing Rika’s past and then is made to feel guilty about not knowing it?

I just

/inhale

right.

/deep breaths

okay

/breathe

my hands haven’t stopped shaking for hours haHA fuck my life

I can’t help but feel like this after end undid absolutely all of the highlights of V’s route. V only mentions his love being an obsession in the judgement endings.

Actually, all of the RFA’s reactions in the judgement ending are the same as their reactions to finding out the truth about Rika in V’s route. Jumin wants her to have a life sentence despite his conflict about it. Yoosung is upset and mad. Zen wants nothing to do with her.

And this is the ‘bad’ ending.

The forgiveness ending is pretty Rika centric and incorporates V’s good end. The RFA is back to normal, V comes back fine. It’s strongly implied that he and Rika both spent time in Alaska together before coming to propose to MC. Rika, as far as we know, never faced punishment for her crimes, which is framed as a good thing.

Perhaps the most abhorrent part of the forgiveness ending is that it’s the only one where Rika comes forward and confesses the truth about the twins...which... I’m not sure why C&R’s fate, the Chois being safe etc et al comes down to MC’s feelings about Rika. It’s a disservice to Rika more than anything, because it seems like she only comes clean because MC was nice to her and not because...you know.. it was the right thing to do.

And this brings me onto the treatment of Rika in the route and DLC and holy shit, it’s a ride.

No, Rika is not redeemed.

Yes, she is woobified to hell and back and then twice more.

We learn that Rika was adopted by Yoosung’s relatives, who were cruel and devoted to the Catholic church. Later she was verbally abused and assaulted by a priest. She later decided to take power in the fact that people would be afraid of her and thought she was Satan etc.

I’ll be blunt.

Rika’s DLC is just an expensive retcon. It’s seven chapters at 60HG each just to be told that Rika had a sad past and all of her terrible actions came from being treated badly. She does not even get to be held accountable for Mint Eye, because Cheritz gave her a sister who actually was the one to tell her not to trust V or the RFA and poisoned her mind.

Rika does not, nor ever, get a proper redemption because even in her own DLC it’s never admitted that she was in the wrong...which is some bullshit logic because...well..it’s really jarring to have it constantly reinforced that Rika did nothing wrong and should not be judged because of her sad past at the hands of her foster mother with cult-like beliefs... because if we take from it the fact that Rika became essentially the same, by extension shouldn’t we then forgive her abusers because we don’t know their story either? Should we shrug off any notion that the priest should be imprisoned because judging people is bad and we just want him to be tortured and forgiveness is the way to go?

I’m just

I don’t know what I expected but

they still managed to disappoint me

To summarise, the after end is bullshit, V isn’t even there for most of it, Rika gets no redemption arc and is treated like an uwu flower crown victim and it’s all very manipulative and rushed lmao. It’s a waste of hourglasses and time and literally undoes everything good that came before it

#mystic messenger #mysme #not tagging the rat lmao #spoilers #I JUST WANTED V KISSES ON VALENTINES DAY CHERITZ #WHY

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the-skooma-den · 5 years

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Holy shit, I’m finally done with the latona siblings

So here he is! the tall slutty middle sibling

Full profile is under the readmore

and here is a link to the profiles of the other 2 Latona siblings

Name:Jo’Thera Latona.

Age:24 at the beginning of the main plot. 27 or so by the time of Elswweyr

Race: khajiit. Cathay specifically

Class: Necromancer

Personality: A genuinely pleasant young man with a dangerous temper.

His lack of care of those opinion of him makes him almost eerie to be around. To be in front of someone who has absolutely no need or your approval can make one feel lost, and this is a man who revels in that. He likes to confuse. Once again though, let it be emphasized his friendliness and kindness is genuine, freaking people out is just a bonus for him.

He takes a more relaxed approach to life than either of his sisters.The situations they find themselves in may be life or death, but hey it's rarely their lives in danger and having a bunch of corpses around is generally a pretty good thing for him.

Backstory:

The younger adoptive brother of the Vestige Ava (most know her as syke).

He was born in a big town in the southern part of Elsweyr for the most part a completely normal kid. Only thing abnormal at first was his very early and clear talent for magic (which as you can imagine, makes a toddler even more of a pain in the ass to deal with).

Then around the age of 5 or 6 he started to develop some unusual fur markings, not just any fur markings. These were markings associated with the Dark moon.

A khajiit who choose to take those markings as tattoos is considered a blasphemer but to develop those markings naturally? No that had to be a bad omen. Especially combined with the ridiculously early talent for magic. (In reality the stripes mean nothing and were just an unfortunate coincidence, as was the magic)

So his own family cast him out, left him in the street. He was able to survive on his own for a long time, but when he disappeared one night without a trace? No one looked for him.

At 11 years old he was kidnapped by a necromancer and was being held with the intention to eventually sacrifice him in some dark ritual or another.

He was there for a few weeks before a very young Ava snuck into the cave. She had only recently been made and Official member of the brotherhood at 15 years old (rather then just some kid who hung around cause her parents were members) and this was her first real far away from home mission. Not just some small time thief that had wronged a petty noblemen or permanently settling a debate between 2 local merchants but a real, and very dangerous mission. She was of course excited.

In the Lair of the Necromancer (AKA some shitty cave in the southern part of elsweyr dressed up with skulls and shrines) she was surprised to find some kid locked up in a cage, or rather she was surprised to find a living kid. He was skinny, didnt look to healthy, but definitely alive. She quickly dispatched with the necromancer and when Thera told her he had no family and nowhere to go, she decided to take him with her back to the gold coast.

Ava’s foster mother,her biological bosmer aunt Lara, was surprised to say the least. Normally her younger daughter was the one to bring home strays. She listened to the boys story once, got as far as “My parents kicked me out when I was 5” before deciding that she now had a son.

Thera spent the rest of his childhood on the Gold Coast with his 2 new sisters, Almost immediately becoming as thick as thieves with Nia, Laras biological daughter, a bosmer only 1 year younger than him. His New older sister Ava had also been adopted by Lara, though they were actually biologically related. Ava was Lara’s niece and when her parents died it seemed only natural for Lara to take her in as her own. Ava was an Imperial, though she took heavily after her bosmer father and Khajiit grandfather.

He looked up to both Lara and Ava immensely and emulated them as much as he could, especially Ava. Though aware of many of her flaws from the beginning he looked up to Ava as his savior, his older sister and one hell of an assassin.

If there was one thing Thera picked up from his new family it was their sense of irony and drama and quickly decided to pick up learning necromancy himself. He was encouraged to follow this interest by Lara, they were a family of dark brotherhood assassins after all, It’s not like a necromancer would stain the family name or anything. Besides Lara was quite the mage herself (as was most of the Latona family) and encouraged magical interests of any kind. He’s always proud to say that he even managed to teach his sisters a thing or 2 about magic.

He spent his years on the Gold Coast completely refusing and rejecting Khajiit culture. They abandoned him, he would abandon it. He spoke in first person only, suppressed his accent as best he could and would never be heard spoking Ta’agra. He even went out of his way to learn a bit of Bosmeri so he could speak with his sisters in their native tongue. He wore nothing even resembling anything to a Khajiiti style.

He only took the prefix Jo’ to his name because he liked the Irony of having earned the title through his use of profane magic. Also his friends and family could call him Jojo and that's just fun.

He joined the training Nia went through everyday to join the brotherhood (as did Ava before she officially joined) and was allowed to join a few years later at 15 years old. He took to large swords (and very large staffs) and flashy magic, after all not everyone wants quite quick assassination sometimes you want everyone and their moms to know this person is dead.

About a Year later, Nia ran away.

Of course the whole family was devastated, Lara more than anyone else, but Jo’Thera was hurt in a special way. He knew something the other two would never quite figure out, why she did it. Nia never wanted to join the brotherhood and although she would never tell anyone but Jo’thera. She didn't think the other 2 would have understood that she DIDN’T want this, Jo’thera was aware that they absolutely would have.

He had the objective standpoint that the others did not.

He was heart broken, but kept it to himself, not wanting to add fuel to that fire. He didn’t get mad until Nia started running her mouth and trashing the rest of the Latona family. He was spared the worst of it but he was still furious.

After Nia left he and Ava had grown closer. They were friends before but now they were damn close to inseparable. Ava had by this point lost pretty much her entire family...twice and while her mother had pulled away after Nia’s departure he refused to leave her alone.

He was one of the only ones who really had the pulse on Ava’s slow but steady mental breakdown.

He was also the only one who didn't just assume she killed herself after she disappeared and never stopped looking for her.

The moment he heard rumors about an odd Imperial woman running around Alinor he rushes his ass over their to look for her. He is completely correct and she is alive...though it took awhile to track her down. He didn't catch up to her until she was about to leave Valenwood for Reapers March, after she had found Nia.

Jo’thera had stated before that he was more loyal to his family then the brotherhood, so when Ava said she wasn’t sure of she wanted to go back he was fucking read. Ripping up credit cards hes fucking ready. Well, after she confirmed she had no intention to let their mom think she was dead forever. She just wanted to “stay dead” for a little while. She just needed a break, and he could respect that, even if he doesn’t entirely approve of the how. She may not have been to the point of killing herself, but any idiot could see she was on her way to a complete mental break. She needed this in a way.

His reunion with Nia broke his heart all over again. He was pissed and he let her know and didn’t hold back. Though they both followed their older sister after they all reunited the two of them didnt have a real conversation until Ava had left to try and regain her soul in cold harbor.

He may not forgive Nia completely, but they could at least have real conversations again. It's a start.

#skooma rambles #jo'thera #hes big hes chill and he raises the dead #and is also a himbo #he doesnt come in until later in avas story and the main plot in general so this one is a bit shorter #hes far less stubborn and prideful then his sisters so i think hes a good balance for them #unless it comes to anything in elsweyr where ava ends up the more chill one becausehe is just as bitter as his sisters #just about different things #also this is him dressing more casual #i didnt feel like the usual armor he would wear in battle showed his personality as much #his secret shame is that hes actually blond

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Lost In Japan (Jimin x You)

A/N: this idea just popped in my head while I am taking a bath, and I rushed through my skincare routine just so I can jot this down 😂 anyway, I am going to combined this request with another. This being part one and the other part two. but it can also be read as a oneshot. I had wanted to do a story based on this song ever since I heard it (Lost In Japan by Shawn Mendes) bcs it just reminds me of the feeling you get at night on your holidays when you are just strolling around after a long day of exploring the city and met someone exciting ❤ and I dont know from what country you are anon, and I am not from Japan either, its just based on this song so you can imagine elsewhere ❤ Sorry if this is not what you have in mind

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"Ahhh finally!" Jimin dropped his carry on on the floor and lie down in the middle of the bed, spreading out as wide as he can after taking off his stuffy jacket and mask. Airport arrivals are fun. Fun seeing their fans coming out all the way just to catch a glimpse of them and to welcomed them to their country. But as much as it is fun, it is also damn tiring. Especially when they are mobbed by crazy fans. Jimin is thankful he and his brothers managed to get out from the commotion as fast as they could and arrived safely at the hotel. And he is more thankful that they have individual rooms now.

Dont get him wrong. Sharing a room with Taehyung or Jungkook or even one of his hyungs are fun. Theres someone he can talk to and do fun vlive clips with, but sometimes he needs some space without anyone breathing down his neck too. Times like this, where he juat want to rest his tired body.

Japan.

A country they are so familiar with already.

Two days of concert here and three days of free days for him and his brothers to roam about before they fly back to Korea for their other schedules.

Jimin cant wait to shop, sightsee and of course eat. He had learn long ago to treat every tour like a vacation in order to make the whole journey less tiring, more fun and less stressed. Just like what the others told him, it doesnt matter as long as they have fun performing, their fans will surely have fun with them too.

But Jimin can feel that something more exciting is going to happen this time.

He can just feel it.

/////

"Y/N, YOU WILL NOT BELIEVE THIS!"

Y/N calmly look up from the table shes wiping. Shes so used to her bestfriend yapping around like crazy. She used to get excited at first, but now, she learns that its better fir her to actually hear the news first. Mika can get super excited about a rock for all she knows.

"What is it that I wont believe Mika?" Y/N laughs. Thank god the cafe she works in has less customer today.

"BTS is coming! For a two days concert!" Mika shrieked.

"Okay... and?" She give her friend a short glimpse and turn back to her task.

"And?! What do you mean and?!" Mika went around and shakes her shoulders.

"Mika, they come here fir a concert every year! Sometimes even twice a year. Its not really a huge news," Y/N rolls her eyes.

"Oh right, I forgot," she giggles.

"You forgot they have a tour here every year? Every year that you become crazy everytime its announced?" Y/N eyed her friend, tapping her foot.

"No. I forgot about the news that you will not believe. The great news is...." she paused for dramatic effect before jumping and yelling, almost breaking Y/N's eardrum. "I got us two VIP tickets and a special fansign invite for both days! Both! Aaaahhhhhh!"

"Oh, thats great Mika! No wonder you are excited!" Y/N's smile grew. Mika has been trying to get tickets every year but she never made it. Online or physically lining up, she never gets the chance to get one. Y/N wonders how hard she work to get the tickets this time.

"Well, arent you?" Mika looks at her weirdly. "I know you are an ARMY too. And arent you excited? You can actually meet them, and converse with them! What if they fall in love with one of us?!" Mika exclaimed, already excited at the thought.

"Well, I am an ARMY," Y/N laughs at her friends cuteness. "But I only like them as a talented idol Mika. I dont even know what to talk to them about. And falling in love?" She giggles. "That only happens in fan fictions my friend. They will most probably already forget about you once the next fan came in view," she shakes her head and continue to clean the table, making Mika pouts.

"Sometimes I hate how practical you are. Cant you just let me dream a little?" She crosses her arm across her chest. "But still, you are coming with me right? Riggght?"

"Well, if you are willing to take me, then of course Mika," Y/N grins. "Of course I'll go with you. Who knows, maybe one of them will really fall in love with me," she giggles at the ridiculous statement.

Or she thought so.

/////

"Lets go people. We can do this!" Namjoon calls out behind the curtains, a few minutes before they are meeting their lucky fans who won the fansign event. After some peptalk and group hugs they went out and start the event.

The crowd is packed and loud, as usual. Girls screaming out their names and waving, trying to get their attention. Each of them did they usual routine, smiling, asking basic questions, answering the questions given to them, making aegyo, handshakes, posing for photos, wearing cute headbands and all sorts of fan service. Jimin is enjoying his time meeting his fan. He loves the attention they gives him and he appreciate all the support they gave to him all these years.

"Next!" The security calls out so the line will move as the fans switched to the next members. Jimin reaches out for the album and booklet in front of him, still looking down at thr album, flipping to the post-it where he should place his signature. But the post-it came empty, its just there as a mark to where he should place his signature. Iy seems the fan has no questions for him, which is a first. Their fans always have multiple questions for them to answer

"No question?" He looks up and immediately stopped blinking. In front of him stood the most beautiful angel he has ever since. Well, shes an angel to him, at least as everyone else seems to be perfectly normal.

"N-no question to ask?" He stuttered and mentally slapping himself. Shit, what is wrong with me. You are Park Jimin, composed yourself!

"Oh," she laughs, the most beautiful sound Jimin has ever heard. "No. Just an autograph will do,"

"Uh.. o-okay," with shaky hands Jimin put down his signature. God, what is wrong with me. I have met so many girls before and I am never like this. Calm down Park Jimin, composed yourself before she thinks you are weird. Come on, say something!

Jimin look around at the laughing fans by around him, talking to to the other members, talking to Taehyung and Jungkook, who is on his right and left side and he realized how quiet and awkward he is with this fan.

"O-oh right. I am Jimin. Whats your name?" Introducing yourself at your own fansign? Are you stupid Park Jimin?

She giggles.

And Jimin's heart skipped a beat. How unusual.

"I know you are Jimin. How can I come here and not know you," she leans forward to a whispering gesture, making Jimin's heart thumped faster at her close proximity. "ARMYs will kill me if I dont," she giggles more and leans back to her normal position in front of him. "And my name is Y/N,"

Jimin smile. How bold. How interesting. And what a name. Beautiful. Just like her.

"And Y/N.. how come you have no questions to ask? Arent ARMYs always curious?" He taps her post it to show the blank paper and Y/N shakes her head.

"No. Not really," she smiles. "Nothing that I want to know,"

"Just nothing for me or for everyone?" Jimin feels the need to ask. He felt like he needs to know if Y/N is just not interested in him or she really doesnt have a question for everyone.

"Well, its not just you. I dont have a question for everyone," Y/N's smile got bigger. Jimin raised an eyebrow curiously.

"Oh? And why is that?"

"Well, because everything you are allowed to tell me, it will be published in the news, or articles or something anyway. And if I asked you a real question, you wont be allowed to answer truthfully anyway. Isnt that right?" she laughs. "So no. No questions,"

Jimin was stunt. Never has anyone ever throw that cold hard truth to his face. Its true. Whatever they are showing and potraying in public, the character that they show, all of it is something that they want their fans to see. There are still parts of them that their fans doesnt know. A part of them, rhat is the real them that they didnt show the world. Mouth agape, Jimin looks at Y/N's face, not knowing what else to say.

His gut js right. Jimin is right, fron the moment he looks up to her face, he knew theres definitely something special about her.

"Well, whats your real question?" Jimin finally find his voice and the bravery he needed.

"When you are allowed to answer it, then I'll ask about it," she giggles, just in time for the security to shout next, and Y/N waves a hand and move aside before Jimin could say anything else. Y/N move to Taehyung, leaving Jimin speechless, and fascinated.

Y/N... hmmm.. his feelings is right then. Japan is going to be interesting this time around.

/////

Jimin knew he is going to see Y/N again at the concert. Everyone who attends the fanmeet has a VIP ticket, which is a particularly small section that is made special for them right in front of the stage. He is sure if he look hard enough, he will see her. Shes too beautiful, and too special to him now for Jimin not to notice.

And sure enough, the moment their went on stage, Jimin saw her face, smiling brightly with her Army bomb in hand, giggling with her friend. A surge or energy runs through him. Jimin suddenly feels like he needs to do the very best tonight, no, extra best tonight. He needs to show her that he is Jimin, and he is up here, looking at her and apprently, only at her.

Jimin never kept her eyes off her, which is a little hard to do considering he needs to sing and dance and converse with his fans, well, other fans too. And its a stranger feeling for him, when a pang of jealousy hits him hard when he saw Y/N waving and taking photos of Taehyung, jumping and singing along to the other members' part.

What the hell is wrong with me? Shes a fan! She didnt pay for the tickets only to see you alone Jimin.

Without realizing, Jimin suddenly feek the need to futher make his existabce known. Known to Y/N. And keeping his eyes only on her, he starts to show off his dancing skills, making extra sexy moves and flirty gestures, which of course, make the packed stadium roared with cheers but reveiving weird looks from the other members.

It doesnt matter.

The crowd. The music. The members.

What matters is that if this will make Y/N looks at him, it was all worth it.

At least he hope she understand the sign hes trying to tell her.

/////

"Woah, what is wrong with Chim today?" Mika stares at the satge, mouth dropped opened. "I mean, I know he is sexy and all, but thats like being possesed with a sexy spirit or something," she points to Jimin who was grinding on the stage floor. "I dont remember the cheography being like that,"

Y/N shrugs.

"Maybe its a concert only special performance," Y/N justified.

"How are you so calm? He is even looking at you while doing all that. Oh my god, he really is!" Mika jumped, waving her Army bomb with excitement.

"Not at me Mika. My direction. Our direction. He cant even see the crowd with all those blinding lights. And look around you, theres thousand of people here," she laughs. "You think he wouls pick me out from the crowd?"

"Hey, you never know. You personally met him at the fansign. Maybe he remembers you," Mika giggles at how practical her friend. Girl, dream a little!

"Hello," Y/N rolls her eyes. "Everybody here went to the fansign Mika. This is the VIP section!"

"Oh my god. I forgot! Maybe you are right. But hey, its not wrong to imagine!" Mika laughs, Y/N joining her.

"Stop imagining useless things and just enjoy the rest of the concert!" Y/N yells through the noise, laughing. "Besides, its Park Jimin, being sexy and flirty on stage is his thing. I dont think thats anything extra anyway,"

"Okay, okay, you are right. Lets just enjoy this!" Mika grab her shoulders and starts bouncing, waving her Army bomb around. Y/N joins in, singinf along and recording videons of her and Mika, totally not realizing how hard Jimin is trying to wink her way.

/////

"I did everything I can, and she still dont even acknowledge me!" Jimin huffed.

"Are you serious? Shes a fan and you still cant get her to even look at you? Wow Chim, you really have no jams," Namjoon laughs.

"Hyung, its not funny! What do I do?" Jimin grumbled.

"Okay, okay. Lets think. The whole two days. She didnt look at you? At all?" Namjoon inquired, trying to help the younger man.

"Well, she does look at me..," Jimin ponders.

"Okay. Then whats the problem? You did talk to her at the fansign yesterday right? And today? Did you guys hit it off? Did you two share any interest? Maybe you are just not her type. What did you two talked about? Tell me everything from A to Z," Namjoon pulls a chair and sits in front of him, giving Jimin his full attention.

"T-talk?"

"Yeah. Talk. Like what we are doing right now. Hi I'm Jimin, I like you, can I have your number so I can take you out sometime, that kind of thing," Namjoon eyed him carefully.

"W-well... I didnt really talk to her hyung.." Jimin trailed off.

"What do you mean? You get her name. What else did you ask her? You met her twice at a fan sign Chim," Namjoon eyed him curiously.

"Well, at the first meef, I asked her for her name, so I can sign her album. And she explained to me why she dont asks any questiona, and then I blanked out and before I know it, it was already Taehyung's turn," Jimin pouted. "The time is too short for each person!"

"Well, you never complain before!" Namjoon roll her eyes. "Them what about today?"

"T-today?" Jimin stutter nervously as the memory of today's fansign entered his mind.

He was in no mood at all today After the concert on the first day, Jimin was frustrated. Y/N didnt notice him. After the concert she went back like everyone else. She went out so fast he didnt even get the chance to ask security or his managers to call her out. Jimin knew that he wont evenr see her again. Having that in his mind ruin his whole mood.

He went by fan by fan, signing their album and giving small smiles when required. When asked, he only says hes a bit tired and his fans will express their worry and tell him to get some rest. Never would have thought that he would hear the voice again as a a flatten box of their offical light stick and the photocarda were slide in front of him.

"You already sign all my albums and posters yesterday, so this is all I have left for you to sign," Jimin look up to the smiling face of Y/N and he thought hes dreaming.

"Y/N?"

"Yeah," she smile. "Wow, you remembered me!"

"O-of course I do!" Jimin tries to calm himself. "I didnt think you would come again, and both fansigns? Wow,"

"Well," she giggles. "I guess I am your biggest fan. All of you were great last night,"

"Yeah? But you went off so fast!" Jimin pouts and cursed himself for saying that when Y/N gives him a weird look. Now he sounds like a stalker.

"So fast? How did you know?" Y/N asked him curiously. Did Jimin really saw her in the crowd?

"Uh well.. call it intituition," he laughs awkwardly and Y/N just nodded.

"Well..." Y/N looks around, feeling awkward as she waits for the fan in front of Taehyung to move and lets a breath if relief when she does. "Okay, I'll go now,"

"Wait!" Jimin panics. This might be his last chance to have any sort if way to contact her. "Do-you-think-you-can-give-me-"

"And oh, good luck for tonight," Y/N suddenly say at the same time as his word jumble and patted his hand. The moment her hand touched his, eventhough its just a pat and for a second, Jimin blanked out, all his senses gone, heart pumping so rapidly it almost burst out. Bedore he can calm himself down and find words again, the security already shouted next and Y/N quicy waved and move on to Taehyung.

"Both times? Seriously? You blanked out both times??" Namjoon is shrieking out now. "God, you are hopeless!"

"Y-yeah..." Jimin look at his hyung, scared. "Its not my fault she touched my hand hyung!" Jimin try to defend himself.

"Touch Chim. Not even hold. And you have done this with countless fans! Girl fans!" Namjoon is at the brink of giving up.

"But hyunggg," Jimin wailed. "Thise firls are not Y/N! She's so pretty and smart, and not startruck and everything she said to Tae and Kookie are funny and smart then I'm the one who kinda got starstruck..."

"Oh my god, you are a bigger idiot than I thought," Namjoon hissed and slap Jimin's forehead, making him rubbed it "Okay, fine. But if you barely even talked to her, why are you saying she didnt acknowledge you? I mean... even if she does, which I think she should with your stupidity, she didnt even have a chance to say it, right?"

"But hyungggg, even if I didnt directly say it, its obvious I am flirting with her. And only her!" Jimin answered as if his effort is the most obvious thing in the world.

"Flirt? How?" Namjoon asked, curious on what Jimin meant by flirting if they never even have a proper conversation.

"Didnt you see my extra sexy moves on stage? My winks, my flying kisses, my hip thrusts, how many times I run my hand through my hair, and seductively too if I might add, during these two concert?" Jimin smile proudly.

"Wait, are you saying your little cabaret show this past two nights is you flirting with her?" Namjoon rubs his chin.

"Duhh, of course hyung. What else? I am not a man slut like Kookie who do it for fun hyung,"

"Idiot!" Namjoon slap his head hard this time. "That is what you call flirting? We thought you were possesed by some strip club ghost or something!"

"Ow hyungg, what the hell??" Jimin rubbed his forehead.

"How the fuck is Y/N supposed to know you are flirting with her when you do that in front of a packed stadium you dimwit? A stadium full of screaming girls too! And you always do those shit, yeah, its a little extra this time, but she will just think you are doing your typical flirting with the crowd thing," Namjoon hissed

"W-what?" Jimin panics. "Do you really think she thinks like that? That I am justsome big flirt to my fans?"

"Duhhh," Namjoon roll his eyes.

"But its all for her!" Jimin wailed.

"She didnt know that dumbass. You should have shown your interest during the fanmeet. Both freaking times!" Namjoon sighed and stands up.

"Wait, where are you going hyung? We are not done yet!" Jimin stands up and follow his hyung like a puppy.

"I am not entertaining this dumb shit. Im going,"

"But what am I going to do?!" Jimin wailed for help.

"Nothing. The concert is over Chim. Just pray that you will see her again," Namjoon shrugs before he leaves the room. "You have three days before we fly back home. Make it count,"

/////

Their free day was filled with sight seeing, shopping and eating. Jimin had fun, yes, but he cant help but feeling down whenever he thought about his lost chance of getting to know Y/N more. He has never been this interested in a woman before, nor has he even felt this kind of amazing chemistry towards a girl. Y/N is special, Jimin know she is. And although he doesnt know for sure if she really is the one for him, but he is sure that he atleast wants to get to know her better. And he wants to see where they will go from there.

"Cheer up hyung! Its only a girl. You will forget her soon. I am sure of it," Jungkook smile and roughly hug his shoulder, dragging him into the anime store. "Atleast your amazing favorite maknae is still here with you,"

"Yeah. Annoying maknae," he laughs. "I am in no mood to look at animes abd robots Kook, and also in no mood to hear you and Tae arguing about whos the better hero or whatever," he looks around the street. "I am going to head there, the coffee shop. Meet me there okay?"

Jungkook shrugs and pulls Taehyung to the store instead as Jimin make his way to the coffeeshop. Securing his mask and cap, he enters and nothing surprised him more than seeing the perfect girl smiling at a customer behind the cashier counter.

Y/N.

/////

"Okay.. if thats Y/N.. why are the three of us hiding behind this huge flower pot like some criminal?" Jungkook asks Jimin in confusion. His hyung rans in panics and drags both him and Taehyung to the coffee shop. And with panting breath, he nervously points towards a girl and only one word comes out from his mouth. "Y/N" and they have been hiding behind a huge flower pot in the coffee shop since then.

"Well, because I dont want her to see us. See me. What do I say?" Jimin wioes his sweaty forehead.

"Thats it? Thats the reason you ran all the way, drag me and Tae-hyung here, and hides behind this pot for 40 minutes now?!" Jungkook looks at his hyung, not believing his reason. "Thats it, I'm going in and introducing us and getting you her number!"

"Wait. What?? No!" Jimin drags Jungkook back behind the pot.

"Why? Isbt that what you want hyung? Her number? You have been moping since last night!"

"Y-yeah.. but how can I just ask her. Thats Y/N. Y/N! What if she say no? O-or she laughs at me? Or thinks I'm weird?" Jimin is freaking out and even he hinself doesnt know why he is like this.

"Well, we dont know if we dont try Chim. Let me and Kookie go and ask for you," Taehyung speaks up and stands up, revealing himself. Jimin panics and pulls him back behind the pot.

"What the hell! No! Sit Tae. Let me just think of something okay? I need to impress her somehow. So she would never ever say no," Jimin rubs her chin and the three sits behind the pot for a while longer, all in silence before Jimin suddenly shouted. "Okay, I got it! She will say yes to be my girlfriend after this! I am sure of it!"

/////

"From Park Jimin? The Korean idol Park Jimin?" Y/N eyed the flower delivery man curiously as he smile and nods. "Is this a prank? Tell me, who put you up to this? Its a girl right?"

"Uh no.. its really Park Jimin. He came to the shop. With Kim Taehyung and Jeon Jungkook. I know its them because I am a fan and also," he taps the note on the flower, "Park Jimin put his name there,"

"So right now... you are saying.. that the world famous idol, Jimin, Jungkook and Taehyung, just walk into your store, in broad daylight, and ordered flowers.. for me?" She points to herself.

"Uh.. yeah. Thats about right," the deliveryman nods again and smile. Y/N lets out a loud sarcastic laugh.

"Okay, good one. I am pretty sure this is a prank now," she received the flowers and sniff it. "Atleast I get flowers, prank or not. Thanks,"

The delivery guy shrugs and leaves, but not before looking at Y/N as if shes crazy.

"It must be Mika. Shes the only one who thinks Jimin is looking at me at the concert," Y/N shrugs and continue her work, the flowers forgotten.

Or so she thought.

Throughout the day, many more weird deliveries were made. More flowers, big, expensive ones too, cupcakes, balloons, choclates, chocolates bouquets, and even a puppy, which Y/N immediately asked to be sent back. At this rate she knows it couldnt be Mika. Is it really Jimin?

But why?

How does he knows where she works?

Even if he did finds out, did he really remember her?

And even if he did remember, why is he sending her all this stuff?

Y/N was confused for the whole day, and shes also embarassed when the customers and even her supervisor keeps complimenting how sweet her boyfriend is. Truth is, shes nor even sure if its really Jimin whos sending her all this stuff.

The gifts continue for the next three days, and Y/N just accept and places it all at the store room, even fivinf out the food to her colleagues and loyal customers. After a long hard shift, its finally time to close up. And deciding to leave everything she receives today at the shop, she cleans up and cloaed up the shop. While locking the door suddenly someone tapped her back.

"A delivery for Miss Y/N..."

"Seriously?!" With a frustrated and tired sighed she turns around. "Its almost 12 am at- J-Jimin?"

Y/N couldnt ever imagine thats its really Park Jimin standing in front of her, holding a huge bouquet of flowers. His face is covered with a mask, yes, but theres no doubt that its him.

"Well.. yeah. Are you expecting someone else?" Jimin cocks his head. Even he is nor sure where he gets his sudden confidence.

"Well... no. But I didnt expect it to be you either. Is it safe for you to roam around Japan like this? Are you lost?" Y/N furrowed her brows. How can he be lost? Where is manager?

"No. I am not lost. Unless you count loss of words everytime I see you," he smile.

"Huh?"

"Uh.. no, no, nothing. Uh.. you dont sound excited to be receiving all the gifts I sent you?" Jimin suddenly remembered hows frustrated she sound earlier when she thought he ia the delivery man.

"Well, to be honest. Not really. I mean.. I am not even sure it its really from you. And even though it is, I am still curious as to why? I mean... you dont really know me... and we are not really friends. Right?" Y/N looks at him.

Jimin is speechless. Doesnt girls like that kind of stuff? Especially from someone like him? But as he look at Y/N who is standing in front of him, face full of confusion, he realizes, Y/N is not like normal girls. thats why he felt attracted to her. Look at her right now, standing in front of him bur isnt starstruck at all.

"Uh.. to be honest, I kinda feel a chemistry between us when we first met at the first fansign..." Jimin takes a deep breath. Courage dont leave me now. "And.. I uh.. would like to talk more with you. To get to know you,"

"Okay..m so you decide to stalk me?" Y/n take a step back, a little scared. Jimin raised his hands up defensively.

"No, no! Its not like that. I didnt stalk you to find out where you work. I accidentally found out where you work 3 days ago, so I thought I could send you gifts, as a way to break the ice-"

"Wait, so you had known where I work for three days, and instead of coming in and say hi, like a normal person, you decide to flaunt your money and buy me stuff?" Y/N is trying to understabd what is the man trying to do.

"Well.. uh.. it sounds bad when you put it like that...but-but I thought you knew about my interest in you!" Jimin tries to safe whatever dignity he has left as Y/N eyes him carefully. "I have been flirting with you for the two whole concert days!"

"Flirting? When??" Y/n questioned him. "You barely even talk to me during the fansign Jimin-ssi," Y/N reminds him.

"D-dont you see me malong eye contact with you on stage? All those dance moves? Those extra stuff I did?"

"Huh?" Y/N looks straight at him. "Are you telling me that is you flirting?" Y/N didnt know if she should laugh or be pissed right now. "Thats the way to show me that you want to talk to me?"

"Y-yes,"

"Jimin... If you want to talk to me you can just ask. To be honest, I find you interesting to talk to too," Y/N smile.

"Really?!"

"Yeah... but after this weird gift giving thing... I am not sure..."

"What? No! I am not weird! Uh actually," Jimin panics. Is Y/N really going to just shut him away now? He has to do something. The thing that he planned to do when he came here. "Actually, I'm flying back to Korea tomorrow but before I leave... I just uh... wanted to ask you to be my girlfriend," he quickly pulls out a box with a white gold diamond bracelet inside. "And give you this,"

Y/N was silenced for a moment and Jimin hope that thats a good sign. He knows its rash, but hes leaving to Korea tomorrow and he needs a way to stay in touch with her. To just... make her his.

"Are you seriously kidding me right now?" Was Y/N's answer after the silenced.

"N-no?"

Y/N scoff.

"You never even introduce yourself properly to me. Or get to know me. Or even talk to me for the matter! How do you know you even really like me? If its only a blind atttaction, only because you like how I look, then I dont want any of it! Yes, I am your fan and I kmow mostly everything about you, but I dont want to know you as BTS' Park Jimin, I want to know you as Park Jimin... do you get it? And giving me ridiculous expensive gifts for three days is flirting and a way to talk to me?? And please know that hip thrusting and swiping your hair back on stage doesnt count either. What are you trying to do? Do you think I am that kind of girl Jimin?" Y/N look softly at him.

"I want a guy to ask me out, to ask me if I have plans and take his time to know me. I dont need your money or your fame Jimin. If you really like me, you would know thats the kind of girl I am. I am leaving, I am sorry, I have to declined. Have a safe flight back to Korea," Y/N bows and walks away, leaving Jimin alone.

Jimin was silenced by her unexpected outburst. He really didnt think ahe would say all this, nor did he think about how stupid his plans are. Taehyung and Jungkook has warned him, even suggested to just greet her and ask for her number, but noooo, he has to feel like he needs to impress her with expensive gifts. Now look what happen.Everything she says just make Jimin realized that she is excatly what he wants, who he needs in a woman. In a life partner. He wants to get to know her, all of her, but it seems like hes too late now.

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"Hyung? You okay?" Jungkook sat beside him on the bed. Its been a few days after the tour, and Jimin has been sad and locking himself in his rooms ever since.

"Yeah.. I guess?" Jimin answered lifelessly.

"You dont look okay Chim. You look... lost?" Taehyung sat at the other side of him.

"I am lost Tae. I have never been this lost in my entire life. I think I lost myself in Japan, I acted the way I would never have, and because of it, I lost my love,"

"Well.. if you lost something in Japan... I guess you have to go and get it back. Simple Chim," Taehyung grins and pat his back, hoping his best friend will understand what he meant.

/////

What happened last week is still a blur to Y/N. Did Park Jimin really sent her gifts for three days straight? The Park Jimin? Worldwide idol Park Jimin? And did he really showed up to her coffee shop and tell her he lijes ber, and wanted her to be his girlfriend? And did she rejected him, just like that?

Everything is like a dream to her. She is not even sure if it really happened it shes just imagining it all. But the wilted flowers and uneaten chocolate bars proves that all of it is too real.

She cant lie to herself. Her heart did do a little flip at the sight of Jimin that night. Yes, shes practical, but theres still a part of her that wants a fairy tale ending for herself too. She almost say yes, her heart is beating out from her chest. She cant believe its happening, Park Jimin likes her... but then her practical side takes over. Reminding her that they barely knew each other, what if Jimin ends up not liking her? And what she told Jimin is true, she wants someone who will ask her out, who will take his time to learn about her, just as mich as she will learn about him.

Maybe Jimin is only a drean afterall.

As she walks along the sakura covered park, Y/N sighed. Shes at her happy place. Her beautiful home, but she has never felt so lost.

/////

"Thank god I found you here," the voice behind her pants. Y/N immediately turns around only to see Park Jimin panting, holding his knees. Is she hallucinating in broad daylight now?

"Jimin? Is that really you?" She looks at the figure closely. Jimin looks up after catching his breath

"H-hi. I'm Park Jimin, and I came all the way from Korea just to find you, and someone told me that you are at a sakira park, but theres a lot of sakura park during during spring in Japan and I went to like 30 of them and then I got lost all over Japan, but I dont care, because I can handle being lost in Japan, but I cant handle losing myself again and worse, losing a chance to know you," he smile at her stunt reaction. "Y/N.. I got lost all over Japan, just so I can ask you..," Jimin wiped his sweaty hands on his jeans as Y/N smile at his stuttering form.

"Yes, Park Jimin?" Y/N flashed him a wide smile, easing his mind and making all his doubts dissappear, a surge of confidence suddenly surfacing in him.

"Do you... do you perhaps have any plans tonight? Because I want to take you out. I want to spend the whole night getting to know you, all about you," He took a step forward and bravely hold her waist, grinning widely.

"And why would you want to do that when you just met me three times Park Jimin?" Y/N hide her smile any longer.

"Because I.. well, because honestly Y/N..." he tuxks a stray hair behind her ears and look straight into her eyes, "I cant get you out of my mind,"

#bts #bangtan boys #bangtan scenarios #bangtan #BTS jimin #park jimin #bts park jimin #jimin #jimin scenario #jimin fluff #jimin fanfic #kpop #kpop fanfic #kpop scenario #kpop merch #bts merch

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narahalara · 4 years

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UnfilteredWine Drinking Talk

Hello I just drank some red wine which is code for I am a lightweight and only drinks like a classy bitch and I am in the mood to write about my final journal entry to 2019 so here we go brace yourself future Narah this is gonna be a long one and your eyes keep blinking a lot and youre kinda sleepy but in the mood to write and some modern spotify music is playing right now so this is legit spilled ink cause i do not know what I writing and im not gonna sensor anything okie here we go

Dear 2019

God where do I begin, Thank you. You have done my well honestly. i know 2017 and 2018 was not easy for me. It was a long hard road a self destruction and pain and tears and fighting myself and going through many battles. But I have healed, and I finally realized I deserve happiness.Thank you for teaching me to slow down and enjoy life. TO take risks even if I might totally fuck up and regret it. Thanks for helping me to slowly find my love for learning my love for health my love for exercising for playing music for writing again. Thank you for pushing me to do things I have not done before like pilates kickboxing lifting play the drums fucking around with strangers doing what I love and not care what others think anymore. thank you for helping me cut off the uneeded shit in my life. For making more room for trusting and praising God and less time complaining about that devil. Thank you for helping get the courage to get involved in health field related stuff. I got my first apt this year AND i LEARN TO cook I start to eat chicken now! so no more pesceratarian. I am pollo pesca now. but that names too long. I am happy I laughed more this year and did not cry so much. I had much fewer relapses. I went out more but enjoyed my own company I finished Jane the Virgin Friends The Office And many other netflix shows I started writing again and started writing more about things in my life and less about only one person. I officially got over Alec and don’t think at him at all or whatever anymore and you know I did because I wrote his name I didnt initial it here!! I started admiring someone to make me realize aw shit bruh I think I am not heart broken anymore then freaking out but then finally coming to terms with what I was truly feeling and being able to let it all go. His name was Ian. Haha I wrote his name too which proves I am over him too even if it was a really harmless crush or whatever. I learned to relove my independence again. I managed school, work, gyming and self care. My cystic acne has been defeated I just have to rid my scars and every now and then the hormonal flare. I WENT from being able to only arm curl 5 lbs to 17.5 lbs and went from not being able to squat even a barbell to squatting 45+35+35 just calcualte that LOl I BUlked to 118 and cut to 108 though holidayz made me gain weight but thats okie. I feel stronger physically, mentally, emotionally. I have felt peace I have never felt before and joy I have never experienced before. I learned and still am learning to work through the hard and difficult days where I FEEL tired, stressed, overwhelmed, lonely, sad for no reason or many reasons and trust me there are definintely those days But I know God gives my comfort beyond my understanding. I know 2019 was definetely a year of removing those bandages and learning to walk again and accepting that I was indeed healed and get used to knowing that I did not need crutches anymore. Dear God, thank you. I know you never fail me even though I fail you a lot. I pray everyday i grow closer to you and obey you. to trust you. to praise and glorify you. So Thank you for 2019. 2019, thank you for paving the road to 2020. I know there will always be challenges cause ive been having this tumblr since 2012 and i guaranteed you theres a rant every year where I want to give up and take my own life. But we go this. life is too short. but its also very long. Take every moment. dont rush it. Gratitude. Appreciate. Persevere. Have courage. Have faith. 2020 here we go .

#vent #2020 #unfiltered cause my mind is a lil woozy but i can still write pretty decent tbh

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killapunk · 5 years

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the weirdest, NO, evilest, person i have every worked for

no real names are used in this piece. i refer to other weirdos and freaks throughout, sorry its a long read (i didnt intend for this) but its one of those things ya gotta settle into and believe me its a wild ride. this saga covers over three years of drama btw.

tw: mental health mentioned (inc panic attacks), chronic illness mentioned and mild sex references

i am going to single out jess. shes more evil than a weirdo but weirdo nonetheless. pete is a secondary weirdo in this saga.

i work in retail for a long time. a fashion store to be precise. i started out in one store but transferred when i started studying at uni and remained there for the majority of the retail career. during my time there i had three managers, the longest one, who is also a fucking weirdo was pete. now before i worked with pete, before he transferred to our store. i didnt like pete when i started working with him, he annoyed the fuck outta me. but my life circumstances changed and my mental health issues got very bad AND i was diagnosed with cfs so i had to disclose it w him. turns out… he was fucking mental too, very understanding, super chill. we liked the same shit. great boss. 11/10 every time.

he would be my reference for every job ever…

…but. he started gettin involved w jess. now to jess. the main character in this piece.

jess had started at the company around the same time as me and we were always on the same level until the last year or so. jess was a bit older than the average age of staff at the store (17-20) and was 23 when this drama started. she had a college diploma, went onto do something semi-successful but related to her HND. but blew all her money, moved back into her parents and started working at the store part time and then onto full time. she was like…the perfect retail girl? small, cute, slim, bubbly… always looked cool in her uniform. customers loved the fuck out of her.

jess had a bf when i first started and pete had a longstanding gf. jess and her bf ended things abt 4 or 5 months before pete and his gf. but i remember they started gettin cushy around about this time. im not sure if its cos im v sympathetic towards pete (a true kind soul who i hold v dearly in my heart) but even tho youd be thinking ‘boss abuses his power’ …jess was and still is fuckin manipulative and he has longstanding mental health issues and i just think she sorta got the ball rollin’. pete and his gf didn’t seem on good terms, i dunno the full story but it seemed like they should have broken a long time before the did.

i think the fortnight before pete and his gf broke up they were spotted hanging out together near where she lived. it was this hush hush thing that everyone giggled abt cos there was at the time talk they were fuckin. when it got out, after his breakup jess said she was ‘just being a friend’ cos he was ‘going through a tough time’.

jess got promoted to keyholder even though she didnt really (at the time) have the skills or confidence to be a keyholder. and then she started to try and fuckin control the work. back during this time, everyone who worked at the store, minus literally 3 people, had worked for the company for at least a year. the store ran very well, we were always in profit. nothing went wrong. but. she started changing processes because it 'made things easier when she was opening’. like. she made everyone tally the amount of people they served in the fitting room in one box and tally the amount of things people left behind so she could make a sales chart. idk if that’s normal in other stores but like? it was just nuts and impossible to do.we always put deliveries away out the package but not folded in a particular way. she made everyone tag and (where relevant) hang items bc she had to pick everything in the morning.

she became friends w most of the girls, including one of the supervisors. they ruled the workplace. it was a total gossip mill. she gaslit the fuck outta people. one already less-popular girl at work ended up quitting cos she kept blaming her for fuck ups, she kept getting write ups and it was impating her mental health. she spun people against her. less popular girl spoke up and called her a bully and jess acted all defensive and said she wasn’t a bully bc shed been bullied before? jess continued to fuck up the workplace. next she turned on two people in her own clique. one tbh, i think she was jealous of bc jess had always wanted to be a teacher and this gal was training to be one. the other girl was v like jess, just not a bitch… strongwilled, liked control. anyway, drama got to the point where they had to quit. waay too much drama for this textpost. at this point others started to notice n work became hostile. jess moved her girlgang clique to one of the original clique girls, a different supervisor and the other two full time staff members.

pete obv didn’t listen to people coming to him, as store manager being like… hey… there’s this major clique problem and he’d be like ‘nah everyone is just friends, jess is a bit insecure but yno things are good, people quit, its just retail. fuck it.’ jess accused everyone who didn’t get on w her as being a terrible person. those legit words. like. if someone said it was a shame x, y or z left shed rebut, nah they were shit at their job, they were a shit person. honestly. EVERYONE. was a bad person. even the nicest people in the world were the worst person, the worst at the job. she was a good person, she liked the good people. she HAD BEEN BULLIED AND WOULD NEVER BULLY. she threw the anxiety word around a lot.

once we had a staff night out and i got left alone with jess and pete at the end of the night in this terrible lil bar as i waited for someone to pick me up. this is a good point to mention jess was always weirdly jealous cos i was close to pete. fucking ridic considering he was 14 years older than me and you know my fucking boss??? this night, i was sitting right next to pete, we were both drinking, jess wasn’t (cos she likes to be in control, she even said it), he had his arm around me and was whispering something into my ear that was such a non-thing i don’t even remember. she got her phone out, started texting. he excused himself and when he returned he sat beside her. it was fucking nuts. i couldn’t believe my eyes. we had to basically carry pete out of the bar. jess said to me she was gonna drive him home cos it was on the way to hers (spoiler! it was not!). myself and pete did the open the next day. he came in wearing the same clothes. i mean, he could have just passed out and had to rush to work when he woke up. but. this guy went out a lot. he never repeated an outfit. i think jess took advantage of a very drunk him. similarly, on another night out, jess promised to drive someone home. said person got too drunk and thew up. jess refused to take them home and called them embarrassing, she gave the space in her car to pete.

i had a major bad evening shift at work concerning another staff member, kaylee. a gal who just rubbed me up the wrong way, and who didn’t like me. ill never know why but it was just one of those things where anytime i was on shift w her she would nitpick and bitch about me and just… make me feel not v good. she was possibly the laziest and rudest person i had ever worked with but someone got away with it?

i used her as a way to talk to pete about the general problems in the store (jess). and…it was fuckin surreal. i told him abt kaylee. i told him i thought jess was controlling but kinda laid off a bit like ‘i get she thinks shes doing it for good’ etc. i padded it out w a few other rly petty issues abt the store. i was actually really upset, kinda numb from life to properly let out my emotions. and then. he started cry on me. like this full-on grown man having a panic attack in front of me when i was 19, fucked on diazepam i should have never been prescribed. to this day i visualise it. me and pete were v close at this point, and like, he didn’t mention jess too much – asked me about the other girl and other issues when i came to him. we spoke about personal shit, all but jess. i kinda wonder if he didn’t have the panic attack if i would have told him his under the radar relationship w her was not on?

and then. pete sold me out in the name of jess. idk the full ins and outta everything but he had to confront the drama once and for all cos our figures were so low so he decided to blame it all on kaylee. from my understanding of the situ from a lot of ‘he said she said’ bs, pete had this big meeting w kaylee. was like. 1. do ur job right and 2. stop being rude and unapproachable. the thing is, although kaylee is rude shes one of these ppl who most ppl really liked, not in a jess/regina george theyre scared of you way but…like they thought she was a tv character and she was funny and honest. so i think she confronted some obvious allies, and jess told her, according to another staff member, that i complained about her. after hearing this i obvious went to pete and tbh, acted pretty dramatic (cos if you haven’t fucking learned already THIS STORE WAS FULL OF DRAMA QUEENS). as soon as i heard, i started texting him angrily on his day off. i remember folding something in the fitting rooms and he came up to give me a hug and i was like ‘HOW FUCKING DARE YOU TELL OTHER PEOPLE MY BUSINESS’. i confronted jess, in a lighter tone, cos i obv told pete (half) what i felt about her. jess played the fucking innocent role. like, she said something along the lines of ‘we’re both close to pete n he was so worried that when me, you and kaylee did those shifts together that something would go wrong. so he told me to keep an eye on things and that’s all i told kaylee cos she wasn’t sure why she was being targeted when so many people in this store are treating people badly. i didn’t say you reported her or anything, honestly!!!!’ queue more bs.

after this, jess didn’t bother with me but was never explicit about hating me. if there was a convo going on and i tried to join in she scolded at me for being nosey. if i was unwell (i have cfs) shed moan ‘jokingly’ that i always had to be ill. i think she ripped on me once cos i said i was late for a hand-in at uni.

her next real victim, however, was jack, my best friend in store and our supervisor. jack was getting fucked over in his supervisor role bc pete would schedule jess for anything managerial. jess started a rumour that pete didn’t trust jack bc jack fucked it at a meeting w the other stores (semi true but fucking up a meeting isn’t the end of the world). like. anything jack would be, jess would be on him. by this point 50% of the staff that were around at the start of the story HAD LEFT. jess had driven people out and had the new ones all up her arse.

pete quit. it was sudden.

not long later, facebook popped up with a fuckin ‘pete is in a relationship with jess’ status and pete has never spoken to me again. i left shortly after that, although our new manager was lovely i felt like i was working for jess.

jack ended up GETTING DEMOTED, by petes replacement who had no idea what a shitstorm she was getting herself into. the new manager PROMOTED jess and demoted jack bc she was doing all the supervisor jobs whilst jack was only doing midshifts. he didnt get shafted to the lowest pay and was instead given the title ‘trainer and authorised opener/closer’ whilst still doing the same fucking job. he transferred out, cos that shit is fucking degrading and within, like two months he was put back up his rightful position. yay for my forever work bestie. I

feel like this has been going on for too long now. i think this doesn’t do her justice. like…i cant believe someone who is NOW 26 and who got what she wanted after manipulating a mentally ill man caused so much drama and pain and tension in a fucking clothes store.

fucking horrid. im reading this completely exhausted and so i cant say much but i just feel like these people are always the ones who come out on top, and its so fucked up. im really sorry you had to deal with so many unpleasant people, and your friend as well.

i swear mediocrity and asskissing is what gets you anywhere in this world, and manipulative cunts like this jess woman take full advantage of that. it’s pretty scary, honestly. amazing how far drama can go, huh. this is why i have trust issues.

i still hope she gets her ass kicked by life, though. there has to be some sort of karmic justice somewhere

i also feel like i should say that there’s always going to be people who won’t like you for some reason. even if you don’t do anything wrong and even though everyone else thinks they’re great. no idea why this happens, but all i can say is there’s really nothing you can do. so FUCK EM (in the most metaphorical sense as they don’t deserve you giving them the time of day)

#manipulation #story sharing #submission

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nabichoi26 · 2 years

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junior year

ended the first semester of my junior yes and it wasn’t as i thought how it’d end.

junior year having tons of units in a semester and having to comply them with time constraining deadlines sucks. I'm a communication major in journalism and i cant believe how much time consuming it takes to do the dishes and wash my hair every exam days. it surely sucks because not complaining how my school manage our time tables unlike other university but hope that by next sem we’ll be having a different kind of agenda when it comes to submissions and deadlines.

the hassle from prelims was quite confusing for i was not use to this many loads of units unlike my freshman days in medical school (the reason why i shifted), the fact that my sched is unlike the normal sched of my homies makes me feel unsettle bc i am jam pack with requirements everyday. supposed to be we have no close on tues and thurs but due to my freaking conflict sched i had a tuesday afternoon class in our philo. prelims was that moment where as i feel like im a baby, didnt really know where to begin and how to even work before, because during the first rushed week, our school decided to give us a fucking tons of works of analysis and other projects that consume half of my nut brain cell.

so as time shifted and i have’d adjust during prelims, i found the perfect picture of how should i manage my time. during midterms i was very active yet drained in different situations, i was very irritated to my relatives as for our house hold is very annoying at days and some time at night. more or less the grades that i have consumed back on prelims increase while some are decreasing which is an LMAO for me because i was in the peak of trying hard in juggling both editing and writing script and analysis and quizes to reviewing law and other subjects. i remember i got so used into sleeping at past 4am because of the editing shenaniganz for our media class where i have to seek through how my friend editing, accompanying him while some of our groupmates failed to wake up LMAO.

PS: i had to juggle doing acads works and org during that time and they gave me sm work at org which i never compensate because who am i to even try to decline an opportunity, found my art style during this prosses though very achieving !!!

then we had a kind of a long break after Christmas and NY, then comes the outbreak of ronna virus part2, some of my prof got the so called virus which made us kind of stuck with just reading and writing works and no learning ideas about it. then they had to really seek into putting all the complied work that there suppose to put the week of our health break, making us feel dead inside. had a thesis proposal which i didn't bother to start during my break because i was still clueless on what it could be. then had a post midterm exam in our theory class, another analogy test and some other random shit. had to report for our philo and my unknown groupmates that never participated made me anxious that time (hope they suffer jk jk) then had the worst of worst production project for our virtual project for valentines day. had to pre work on that, thinking and composing the flow, writing the script and each segment, finding talents and actually i had a hard time organizing every little damn shit that prod work made me. had like 4 days of editing and sorting out shits and juggling in studying for exams during that day, also was in a very rush moment in finishing my research bc i didn’t have any time to read my RRL and the last minute during the night before submission i was able to re-read and understand the mistake i made on my paper, which that God i had the time. after the presentation of our production finals, defending our thesis, understanding sm shits on law, i got the whole Saturday morning till afternoon free and then proceed into studying for theory oral recitation for monday.

monday, dear oh monday i will never forget you.

i had an exam on law at 10am which was about an hour exam and damn i am honest but i only had a 30minute review on my paper. after that i took my next exam which had a deadline until Wednesday, so i did that by Tuesday but then when i knew about the deadline i proceed into studying for my oral class at 3pm till 6, my number was 23 and i knew i couldn’t make it but i did. i had an early lunch and a coffee beside me, because i was anxious of what my prof would ask about us and stuff like this, i was anxious because a lot of people were actually asking me, juggling the fact i had to talk to my parents telling them i needed Starbucks, but we had a miscommunication that made me feel very sad and angry about them.

after i finished my exam i rush downstairs to get a muffin and water, i had to talk to my parents which by the time they answered the call it wasn’t even what i wanted them to say to me, they just complained about my responsibility, telling me to hand the money to my tito because the pay was overdue, but by that time i knew i was suck between “do they even want to talk to me” to “what kind of parents are they”, because i was expecting they’ll be saying “how's your exam, or what are you doing are you okay?” but no, we get response like that and those responses they gave me made me angry and question them for idk how many times. suddenly feelings come crushing and i ended the call crying, sobbing so hard telling to my self that i did well, that there's still tomorrow but we can do this, i wrote in my journal saying that i had enough of these mistreatments and nonsense of these boomers because the time i was crying i felt like something in me died.

today, i realize that pain was what i have only felt this semester. that i hid the fucking pain for months just for me to focus on the goal but its never making me happy. these semester made me want to give up on life so many times but i dint thinking that after i graduate i would just smash my diploma in their faces and leave because all i ever wanted was too feel free without them. i realize how i can only live alone, that maybe i have them as my parents but would they even care? maybe at some point but not really.

the struggle of giving up was a thread point in me but i never did, only the dream that i had for my self is my seeking point to never give up.

that we only have ourselves <3

#my life #self love #blogpost #college

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primalspice · 2 years

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Ivy 💥 💢 🎂 🙈 📣 📎 🌈 💘

💥what emotions do they have trouble dealing with?

mostly her Regret for coming over to the region in the first place and. dealing with all of the turmoil her brother’s snakeyness has caused her. he hasnt necessarily hurt her directly (yet) but shes kinda offended that she went out of the way to get him to be allowed to come over with her and live with her and he turns around and joins the people who are literally directly against what she’s doing and eventually getting ppl in her field killed LOLL. even if he has nonoffensive justifications for doing such a thing its still kinda fucked up. especially when he starts agreeing with them??? she thought having him come with her would make it a less dangerous situation but now theyre both kinda screwed and she feels responsible but also pissed. she didnt rlly live with/talk to him much in the last 5 years of so preceding her death because thatd be kinda frowned upon but they mightve managed to get some letters out to each other despite the fucking bitterness.

i think kinda learning about the region’s shady past in terms of medicine has also Effected her even tho it dont got a ton to do with her........she says What On Earth Do I Do With This Information :|

💢 what are some habits they have that will take some getting used to?

shes kinda a control freak LOL but its a little bit ok bcz she gets shit done??? and she requires a lot of alone time. shes also an outsider so i guess in respects to the Region shes in now shes got some weird habits. shes not really used to having the ability to kinda lead things on her own but all eyes are on her rn honestly. oh and shes not used to having to live with her stupid brother again.

🎂 when is their birthday? do they like celebrating it?

i think her bday is november 3rd????? and she was born in the 1940s i think. with her Twin ofc. shes the older one. i think she’s alright with celebrating it but she had a lot more fun when she was younger and it was a twin thing bcz shes not rlly a partier like her bro LOL i think shes a cake fan tho, she can appreciate a good bday cake.

🙈 whats a side of your oc that they don't want to show other people?

definitely doesnt wanna show the Anxiety and momentary brother-sympathizing. generally she presents very collected and committed to the Cause (and she definitely Is) but shes kinda just got a lot goin on and no one to talk to about it all to. very lonely being an outsider and unable to adapt.

📣 how loud are they? what do they speak like? got a voice claim?

i dont got a voiceclaim but i think she’s pretty softspoken and Canadian. definitely doesnt rush to speak and makes sure she knows (or sounds like she knows) what she’s talking about before she says it. doesnt cuss. makes people fall asleep; she’d be a good teacher if not for that.

📎 a random fact.

shes a cat person and that’s always outweighed the fact that her brother is a huge shitty dog person. its not super common to keep pets here but shes got a cat.

🌈 what advice would they give to their younger self?

her advice would be DONT DO IT DONT TAKE THE SCHOLARSHIP VISA AND IF U DO DONT TAKE UR BROTHER WITH U. DO NOT DO IT. JUST CHILL BACK HOME AT A HOSPITAL JOB IN CANADA. WHAT ARE U GAINING.

💘 what traits do they look for in a relationship? do they believe in love at first sight?

not much into love at first sight or anything. not really even particularly looking for a relationship bcz shes very stressed out by work but i think shes into someone that she can get along w on an Intellectual Level who also respects her space n all. shes v independent. if only there was someone out there like that :|

#ask game #ivy

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Ni/nja Br/ian omo, hm? How about this! He has an extremely weak bladder because during a fight early in training, he made a dumb mistake and got hit hard in the stomach. It messed up something internally, so he has trouble telling when he needs to pee because he either can't feel it or feels it really bad. This leads to embarrassing situations where he'll wet himself with a near empty bladder, or be so full without knowing that it just starts gushing out of him

YES I LIVE FOR THISALSO INCREDIBLY UNEDITED IM SORRYit all started during ninja training when he met danny. he was respected in their clan. he was a silent leader. he was both praised and feared. many new trainees, cocky and full of themselves, saw brian as a easy challenge. many learning thats far from the truth as brian defeated them in combat. resulting in sobs and broken bones as he knocked them down a peg.until another silent trainee came alone. bushy brown hair and beard to match. intense brown eyes staring into brian's own ocean blue eyes. the fight starting as other gathered around. danny on the sidelines as brian's assistant, "cmon, ninja brian!! kick his ass!!"the cheers of the crowd silenced as the new trainee brought down a punishing kick to brian's abdomen. the ninja falling to his knees as he, for the first time since he took his vow of silence, screamed in pain. the sound shaking everyone to their core as senior ninjas and danny ran to his side. the new trainee was kicked out immediately for illegal fighting; the rules established before the fight prohibited kicks to the body for this very reason. internal issues. its a long recovery for the ninja as the fellow senior ninjas decide its best if brian...takes some time off to recover. keeping him in the dark about his condition. about his injury -- in fact, brian felt fine within two days. what was the fuss about?during his time in the medical bay of the ninja academy, danny started to pull brian into his plan. his plan for them to runaway and start a band. start a new life. start all over. "brian, i'm telling you!! we'll be rockstars and bang hot chicks night after night!! concert after concert, and be stupid rich!!" danny went on and on about the rich lifestyle of these rockstars. of their sex life, of their expensive cars and homes, of their /respect/.it was also during his time in the medical bay did he hear what the staff, students, and even the trainees had to say about him. "whoever that trainee was should be the replacement for brian.""wow, brian's really losing that whole scary image he had -- it only took me now to realize how old he is.""i don't believe fellow sensei brian is quite fit for this position, perhaps he'd be better with paperwork?""the fight was ridiculous; sensei brian has lost any and all respect from me." the more pity and harsh comments he heard, the more enticing danny's offer was. until one night he agreed. danny packing their things and helping unhook brian from the machines and such to rush out the gates of the ninja academy in the dead of night. unseen, and unnoticed. its after they drove in the beat up van did brian realize what his problem was. falling asleep as danny drove on, squirming gently as he felt danny pull over minutes later and shake him up. "bri!! get up -- dude!! aw shit, its getting in the seat!!"what?brian groggily opened his eyes and awoke as he felt warmth splashed over his lap. staring back in horror as his black uniform became soaked, glistening in the light from the moon outside. hissing loud as danny jumped out to grab spare towels in the back. he didnt stare in horror because he was wetting himself like an infant. he didnt stare in horror because he had dirtied danny's van. he stared in horror because he didnt feel himself going. grabbing at his wet crotch as danny stepped in and allowed brian to finish."hey...hey, bri," he spoke up, noticing brian's panicked expression, one that screamed 'what just happened?'"it's gonna be okay, yeah? we're...its -- just a minor inconvenience. we're gonna dry this up, get you in some new dry shit, and be on our way to fuckin' hollywood!"brian slowly got out of his seat to join danny. shame written all over his face. "promise, we'll make this work. it's totally a side effect. you'll be okay."***its after they arrived and brian settled them into an apartment (by killing the apartment complex's manager and owner) did brian get help.well...sorta. it happened again as brian and danny rehearsed for their audition. danny's vocal loud and strong as he sang on about having sex with furniture, thrown into the melody of the song. brian playing the keyboard with skilled hands. staring as danny made obscene motions with his hips.stopping when he felt the top of his crotch grow warm. hissing starting again as he slammed the keyboard away and held himself. shaking his head and moving away when danny looked back. brian biting his lip as his eyes closed. still being unable to feel himself releasing, only being bale to feel himself wet. what the fuck was wrong with his bladder?he started to breathe heavily as the streams of piss ran down his legs and puddled below. wet warmth hugging his crotch as he silently cried. shame held high over his head."bri...i think we should get you checked out." was all danny could say in a supportive tone. at least he wouldnt laugh at his weak moments. ***thankfully, the weakened bladder and blow it sustained was semi fixable -- brian could slowly feel when he had to urge to go. but usually only felt it at the last minute. he had lost count on how many times he'd rush past danny after a set and make a bee line for the rest room backstage. getting to the urinal in time to unzip his pants and go, sighing as he goes.the times he cant make it -- when the rest room is locked or too many people are around, he runs to their dressing room and wets in private. piss flooding his black pants as he groans, trickling down his thighs and legs, soaking his pants and socks as it collects in and under his shoes. he just cant help it; shaking and moaning in relief as he wets himself. danny there watching with a sympathetic look. ready to help his best friend get cleaned up. because thats what best friends are for, right? ....oh, the trainee who caused this? he ran off, training himself in the mountains of japan. becoming a skilled killer with fighting skills that would make brian jealous. this trainee decided to go with samurai training than ninja training -- only going by the name 'barry'.

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gruxa · 4 years

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High-school fic

Billy and Joanna

Billy: smart bad boy

Joanna: Beautiful nerd

Joanna found out she was pregnant three weeks after they'd left Millwood in the night, and it was no question who the father was. A boy she was never going to see again. A boy she thought she loved.

She hadn't told her father until she was too far gone for him to do anything about it, not that he didn't try to get her to give it up for adoption. Being the daughter of a lawyer, she knew her rights.

Spring of 1999, Eleanor Diane Hanley came into the world. Joanna was only 16 and she decided the moment Eleanor was born, she would devote her life to her.

And that she did, until 2018, when Joanna was sent back to Millwood.

"Mom I don't see why I can't come along" Ella complained

"Maybe because you're seventeen and still have school? You're not coming, Ella. I'm going to be there a day at max, you'd be trapped in a dingy motel room the whole time."

"But I want to see where you grew up"

"Enough" Joanna stopped the conversation "Pack your over night bag for a few days, you're saying with your grandfather"

Ella groaned "Don't make me stay with him, I can stay here alone, it's not like I party"

"I didn't party at your age, I still managed to get pregnant though." Joanna judged herself "And it wa she best thing that happened to me, but I'm not letting it happen to you"

Ella huffed and went to her room to pack

Joanna froze in the courtroom when Billy spoke, suddenly she found herself looking into eyes she hadn't seen in seventeen years, yet also eyes she'd been looking into for seventeen years. She composed herself before anyone could pick up on her internal dilemma

"We went to school together" She heard Billy say tot he judge, her ears were filled with he noise of rushing blood to hear the rest, so she gathered her notes and plead her case.

Meeting Molly was surreal to Joanna, the second she started speaking to the girl behind the counter there was a familiarity to her, she reminded her of Ella, at first she just thought it was because of her age, they were the same age, she'd later learn. And they were cousins.

Joanna heard a knock at her hotel room door, she'd been in Millwood a week at this point, agreeing to help Billy with the case.

Assuming it was Billy at the door, she shouted a welcome.

Ella walked through the door.

Joanna shot up "What are you doing here?!" She demanded

"Oh I don't know? coming to stay with my mom seeing as she quit her job."

"You can be here, Ella. This town is hurting girls your ag-"

"Joanna I got your-"

Ella span around and came face-to-face with Luna

"Oh, so I can't be here, but this girl can? she looks my age, mom."

"Mom?" Luna gaped

Joanna pushed her hair back "Just get settled Ella," Joanna knew she'd lost already, she wasn't looking forward to the next day though, went he town learnt she had a daughter the age of the years she's been missing.

"Diane, can you meet me at the diner? I need to speak to you about something?"

Diane agrrd and met her at the cafe

"Whose this?" Diane said as she sat down across form. Joanna and Ella.

"So this is what I wanted to tell you" Joanna smiled "Ella, this is Diane" She introduced

"Diane?" She furrowed her brow "That's my middle name"

"Yeah" Joanna pulled at her sleeves "Diane, this is my daughter, Eleanor Diane Hanley, she's 17."

Diane had a moment of pause "17...."

Joanna nodded

Diane looked at the girl "It's so nice to meet you Eleanor"

"Ella, please. It's nice to meet you too, seeing as I was apparently named after you"

Diane nodded, looking into the girls eyes before it hit her "Oh my God"

Joanna stood up fast and pulled Diane off her seat

"Billy" Diane breathed out "She's Billy's, and don't lie, her eyes."

Joanna nodded "He doesn't know, I never thought I'd see you all again"

"It took me three seconds, Joanna. He's going to notice, he deserves to know this."

"I know"

"Who does she think her dad is?"

"I lied to her, I said it was some guy I met after we moved, an act of rebellion after being force dout of my hometown... That I didn't catch his name, she never asked again..."

"I didn't even know you and billy were--doing that, I didn't know you were together. That's the kind of thing you tell your best friend."

"We weren't... not really, it ended before it could really start, he was in a bad place with his dad, and he was mowing lawns to get money for college, my mom hired him. It only happened a few times, but he was the only one I'd ever been with. It was stress relief for the both of us really"

"Billy, I need to speak to you"

"Sure, what's up"

"Do you remember high-school? More. specifically the times you'd mow our lawns?"

Billy shifted uncomfortably "What's this about, Joanna?"

"I never thought I'd see you again, or anyone in this town again"

"Joanna"

"Right" She cleared her throat. "I want you to know I didn't know before I left"

"Didn't know what?"

"I was pregnant"

Billy stumbled back slightly "Was?" he looked at her, but not really at her at the same time "Why are you telling me this? Why do I need to know you had an abortion?"

"I didn't" She said quietly "She's here"

Billy fell back into his seat "She's..."

"Her Names Eleanor, and she doesn't know she's your daughter"

"my daughter..." he scratched his face "You're sure she's mine?"

"Come on Billy, I didnt sleep with anyone else until I was 22, I'm pretty confident you're the father, or was it some other guy who took my virginity on the docks in 1999?"

"Alright I get it"

Joanna heard a crash followed by shouting, she knew before looking up that whatever was happening, Billy was at the heart of it.

She looked up, and sure enough she was right. Billy had Lucas Matheson pushed against a bookshelf with his little brother, Shane, stood behind him shaking.

Joanna sighed and stood up, leaving her books open and bag sitting on a chair, walking slowly over to the commotion, she ignored the boys in the fight and the people looking at her, she tried extra hard to ignore the whispers that came after that, but still heard the racial jokes as she grabbed Shane's arm and pulled him out of the eye of the storm.

"What's happening this time?" She asked him when they were back at her table

SMACK

They both looked towards the boys again, Luke had the upper hand now and was punching Billy

"Luke was calling me a freak" Shane stared anywhere but at Joanna "Billy was studying and he heard, he just lost it."

Joanna pinched her nose "Diane is in the gym, go find her and she'll get the school to call Wendy, I'll deal with Billy"

Shane nodded and ran out of the library, Joanna turned back to the commotion and saw that Dale McMahon had joined in Luke's side, both of them holding Billy against the shelves and hitting him. She marched over to them.

"Okay, you've had your fun. Cut it out before the principle arrives." She interjected, the shouts of encouragement dwindled down to whispers as Luke and Dale turned their focus to Joanna.

"Looks like Crawford got himself one of those mail order brides" Dale looked Joanna up and down

"Bet she's cheap if she's defending this guy" Luke spat

"I don't know if you noticed, but my names the one above the door to the library, but I don't know, maybe you're too illiterate to read it. I'm not defending anyone, you're all assholes and you're disturbing study period. Some of us want to go to college so cut it out"

"You're illiterate" Luke spat at her

"You moron" Dale grabbed Luke and pulled him away

The crowd dispersed quickly and Joanna walked towards Billy

"You're bleeding" She started the fact "Let's get you cleared up."

"I don't need your help" He gruffed "Where's Shane"

"Sent him to find Diane and call Wendy"

Billy pressed the back of his head on the bookshelf "Fuck."

"If you're not gonna let me help you get cleared up at least go to the nurse, your nose looks broken. Don't forget your tryout later"

"Shot that chance in the foot, really think coach is gonna accept the guy who beat the shit out of his brother? I'm destined to be a washed up mechanic"

"Billy. Go to the tryout You're better than anyone on that team and he'll see that. Get the captain position. Get your scholarship. Focus on that and stop throwing punches"

Billy wiped the blood from his nose and finally looked at Joanna "Thanks mom" He rolled his eyes and chuckled.

She crossed her arms and smiled "You found any other takers for your side job?"

"A few, your mom"

"My mom?!" she uncrossed her arms

"And some of the people form the reserve, takin pity on me I suppose." He shrugged "Some girl on the reserve is pregnant, Gerilyn, you remember her? year older than us. Dropped out."

"Vaguely, I barely pay attention to high school drama to be honest, what's this got to do with it?"

"Wendy's pregnant too. Her boyfriend proposed but they're both short on money. I need the jobs more than anything right now and I think they get that on the reserve, they don't let many people like us in"

Joanna pulled a tissue from her pocket and leant up, wiping the blood from Billy's nose "Congratulations" She stepped back

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