#I'm just a hopeless romantic too how will I ever survive this
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Watching umibe no étranger and I don't think I am ready for this I played a game with the devil and I lost there is no salvation for this poor unfortunate soul in pain and in need of a shoulder to scream into
#Oh woe be me!#I'm too soft for this mine poor little heart can not handle all this madness#I'm just a hopeless romantic too how will I ever survive this#it's one of my favourite manga as well#Ahh this was a risky gamble and I went into it too confident#Venus and Lady Luck laugh in delight as they have my heart served to them on a golden platter#not even the devil can help me it seems all hope is lost for sure#let us abandon ship for that we may meet again on the shore of out next life#though rest be assured I will not learn from this mistake#oh no no friends this will happen again sooner or later I'm fairly certain
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[pick a card] love messages
A short pick-a-card where I channel messages from your current lover/future lover/soulmate or just anyone with who you are or will be romantically involved.
Choose any group group from 1-4 or whichever bear you feel drawn to the most. As always take what resonates and let the rest fly! Hope you enjoy this reading :)
[Group 1] blue bear
Hey sunshine,
I know you are manifesting me and guess what even I am manifesting you! Life has just been about surviving for you lately and trust me I can feel that you have gone through a lot. I am proud of you for being a survivor but please don't feel hopeless, the skies get sunny and clear after the storm. I promise to be the light at the end of your tunnel. You don't have to do this alone, I am always there supporting you (even if I may not be there physically). Please don't dwell on what happened, I know I can't erase that but I promise you wouldn't have to deal with such a thing ever again. I will protect you!
Yours truly
[Some of you who chose this pile have been dwelling a lot about the past. Your future lover/person is saying that you need to heal yourself and let go of the past so that there is space for them to be a part of your life. Keep manifesting the qualities you want your future person to have and try to embody those qualities yourself as well. I am also sensing that some of you have detached yourself from your emotions due to some trauma you may have experienced (i am sorry you had to go through that) but, it's now time to heal it. Also, be open to change don't resist it! Trust the universe, it has some beautiful things planned for you.]
a song from them:
[Group 2] pink bear
hey lover,
How are you? Have you been getting those messages I keep sending you? Yes, it's me trying to connect with you. I am currently working on myself, I might have come across as too arrogant but I swear it's just a facade to protect myself. I have learned a lot of lessons that life has taught me and I am practicing to become the best version of myself for you. I want to build a home with you. A cute family where there's so much love flowing amongst us. I really just want to hold you so tight and give you all my love. I want to be able to give you everything you desire and even more.
Always and forever yours
[Omg, so much lovey-dovey energy in this reading it's so cute! For some of your future lover's higher self is trying to connect with you they are referring to signs or symbols you may see repetitively. Some of you may have met this person recently or you do not know them that well. They have this provider energy, and they really want to fill your cup with love!! Connect to your subconscious to connect with their energy. They are sending you loads and loads of love!]
a song from them:
[Group 3] purple bear
Hey soulmate,
Yeah, I just can't believe that you are real. Damn, I never thought an angel like you could even exist. you are truly my wish come true and I'm so grateful to have you in my life. We really are meant to be. I feel like if I wasn't there at that place that day I might not have ever met you and ngl this does scare me a bit. But I also know your soul has been intertwined with mine for eons and eons. I'm sorry that I have been so impulsive lately but I swear I want to experience life to the fullest with you so I just cannot stay still with you around! My heart gets all fuzzy when I am with you. I can't wait to see the world with you!!!
your fav boy/girl/person,
[Your future lover/spouse is giving me a golden retriever type of energy they are just buzzing with excitement when you are with them. Very wholesome energy! You both meet in a divinely orchestrated manner, it is a fated union of two souls. You might meet them soon or have seen them in your dreams or heard of them through other people. They are mesmerized by your presence.]
a song from them:
[Group 4] yellow bear
Hi y/n,
Life has been shitty to me. This turmoil that I am going through has made me feel like I am incapable of love. I don't know why but I don't have the courage to open my heart again. I have spent sleepless nights thinking about why did I go through that, I did my best but I guess I didn't deserve that. I know you are out there and I know you would never do such a thing but it's hard to keep hope when I see it being taken away from me day by day. But I am thankful for you, I really am. You have taught me that I can heal my heart and trust you to keep it safe. I love you!
Love,
[Your future spouse has been going through a tower moment. They are stressed and anxious about their future. Some of them have been betrayed by a person they trusted dearly while for others they are dealing with their own shadow. All in all a bit of heavy energy for this pile. You are the universe's gift to them and they feel blessed for you.]
a song from them:
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@tastetherainbow290 long (ish) one today
chapter 17
author says they’re excited for this chapter… should i be scared
yeah. i’m scared.
SYBILL!!!!!! AND LILY!!!!!!!! AHHHH
dumbledore mention
omg i love sybill and lily
im obsessed with lily actually
are they like district 13 or like what is this. is dumbledore president coin
poppy!!!! ok i am liking this chapter a lot
remus sacrificed himself for lily ❤️🩹
oh. lily thinks remus is dead. and remus thinks lily is dead?! remu and lily reunion when
i gasped
sirius pov ok
frank mention!!
evan 💔
james and reg ☹️ ugh i just feel so bad for everyone
dorcas!!!!
molly!!!
rip fab and gid 💔
oh no molly doesn’t know
dorcas what are you doing you have to tell her
ok she’s telling her but did molly have to strangle her 😭
order mention!!
sirius pov
pandora my love <3
james talking to sirius omg i’m going to cry
regulus jump scare
“I’m just saying, maybe you'd appreciate it if I put them down yours instead” JAMES
wolfstar eeeeee
me trying to contain my happiness bc i’m in a silent classroom
oh no now it’s getting sad
oh yeah. i forgot remus has to stay here.
AHHHH FINALLY they’re kissing
WHY IS THE FIRE ALARM GOING OFF RIGHT NOW READ THE ROOM NOW IS NOT THE TIME FOR A FIRE DRILL
“if you like you could do it again” smooth, sirius.
and they’re doing it again
“is it too soon to be sure i love you” i have goosebumps rn
ok this was a good chapter
chapter 18
remus pov!!
mary mention!!!! i hope we see her in this i love mary so much
SIRIUS LICKED JAMES 😭😭 yeah he would.
eeeee they’re kissing again
remus being sirius’ first lover 😯
and they’re kissing again
PANDORA NO 😭
ugh i love her so much
james pov again!!! this means the game which means sadness but JEGULUS
“Oh, look at that convenient cave over there,” yeah james that’ll work
unrelated but my neck hurts really bad rn
james only surviving for regulus ugh. i love them.
james being a hopeless romantic
“if you tell me what the mitochondria is, I'm not sure I'll be able to restrain myself” BAHA JAMES
regulus writing about james in his journals he is so me
he burned them?! he really is just like me.
james being regulus’ first crush ahhhhh
“you made me feel” AHHHHHHH
not regulus almost killing peter and then just LEAVING
reg pov!!
regulus being…. silly
hmmm maybe these thoughts you’re having about james mean something? did you ever consider that?
not regulus thinking james ABANDONED him sweetie no james would NEVER
chapter 19
JAMES!!!
did i just predict that
regulus you do trust james don’t lie
ugh
"I'll kill them if they try it. I'll kill them all before they ever got a chance to lay a hand on you." REGGIEEEEE AHHHHH
vanity!!!
yeah. how are the rest of them gonna die. like. aghhhh i cant think about this now
“at least no one is calling him lover boy” nooo don’t think about evan
ant juice 😭 poor vanity
oh no the fires. this is just like what happened to rue.
oh no. they’re all going to die. ahhhhhh
peter is doing it 💔
LITTLE LOVE BLANKET IM CRYING
vanity is so cute im not ready to lose her
confession time (5) ive had to pee so bad for the last like 2 hours but i’ve just been reading this and i don’t want to get up
vanity and hodge unexpected duo
vanity is so me rn
her asking james about kissing 😭
james “love isn’t even that great” potter, everyone.
i love that the harry potter lingo is used in this. like hallow, auror, horcrux. it just is so silly
vanity PLEASE do not die. i am literally begging you do not die right now.
vanity naming the hornet 😭
IRENE AND PETER 😭 jump scare but honestly good for her
oh poor james
him blatantly lying about him and reg i just know sirius knows
i live for jealous regulus
irene is an ICON i am not ready to lose her
i feel like vanity is going to try to smuggle vespa and then someone is going to die because of it
regulus calling james the sun. even as a joke im giggling rn
ahhh kiss kiss kiss
nooo they’re leaving
should i read another chapter??
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Jlaire Week Ask Game
Yeah, I went ahead and answered all of them. :P
Light and Darkness - What got you into Jlaire in the first place and what makes it one of if not your favorite ship?
I’m pretty sure I shipped them from the very first episode. First, we’ve been introduced to Jim, who is like the sweetest character ever. So when we saw him literally drooling over Claire, we know she has to be special.
It doesn’t take much time for them to interact and I remember loving that scene because I didn’t know there was so much Spanish in the show (at least in the first season). Both that interaction and the one just before the audition show they’re actually interested in each other and I’ve loved their dynamic from the beginning.
I think they somehow remind me of my own characters, Zem and Aury, since he’s the anxious one and she has to help him (even though Aury is way more short-tempered than Claire).
Romeo and Juliet- What's your favorite Jlaire moment form Trollhunters?
There are many good ones to choose. I love when she discovers his secret, the dance in the hill and when he reaches out to help her when she makes that mega-portal. They really care about each other and I think the best part is how we’re able to see their relationship flourish during the seasons.
Beauty and the Beast- What's your favorite Jlaire moment from Wizards?
The picnic, for sure. I think we should have seen more Jlaire interactions when he was a half Troll. I loved all the scenes where Claire gets to protect Jim, showing how much she has improved as a sorceress, but there’s something about them being able to relax and have an actual date.
Tragic Love - What's your Jlaire heartbreaking moment in the series?
Even though Jim knowing he’s not going to survive if they go back to the present is a close one, I have to say when Claire finds his soul wandering over the Killahead Bridge in the Shadow Realm. I’m a hopeless romantic and what breaks my heart is that “being close but still too far from each other” if you know what I mean.
My Romeo - What's your favorite Jlaire quote from Trollhunters?
From Hero of a 1000 faces: “This is the worst day of my life.” “That’t the real Jim.” It’s so funny, but also shows how much she’s gotten to know him.
100 Life times - What's your favorite Jlaire Quote from Wizards?
That’s a tough one. I liked the “I'd date you for a hundred lifetimes, Jim Lake.”… until the movie came out. So I guess: “But I've fought across time and space to bring you back.” Because of the same reason that scene is so heartbreaking to me.
Toby dating Advices - What's your advice for Jim that would help with him Claire
Actually, I think things worked out quite well. I would have advised him to be braver but he actually ended up being it, so...
Mary Dating Advice- what's your advice for Claire that would help her with Jim.
Actually, I think things worked out quite well.
time and Space - What's your Aus for Jim and Claire relationship or what's your favorite Au for them?
I have a soft spot for Beauty and the Beast kind of stories, so most of my Aus revolve around that. I seriously thing Troll Jim was underused and I’d have liked to see more of them as a couple, like travelling to New Jersey. That’s why I had to write about that and why Lights and Shadows of Camelot is the culmination of it. BTW, I’ve written a lot about Jlaire in my fanfics, if you’re interested 😊
Shadowhunter - What's your favorite headcanons for Jlaire?
They send messages all the time, checking out the other is okay. Jim makes Claire her favorite cookies and she takes him on dates using portals to visit new places.
If you have any more questions or want me to elaborate about anything, don't be afraid to ask!
Sadly, I won't be able to do any prompts, but I'm gonna share some Jlaire art I have around and you can check out my fanfics for more Jlaire content!:
-New Jersey: A brief story of what happened in the journey to New Jersey that had place during the season 2 of 3Below.
-Awakening: A novelized version of the 11th episode of the third season, "Jimhunters". Includes original new scenes.
-The Arrival: Final chapter of "New Jersey", connecting the story with "Wizards".
-Light through yonder window: After being attacked by Nomura, Jim is brought to the hospital. Claire decides she has to go and stay by his side. Tells what happened between the episodes 'Claire and Present Danger' and 'Battle of Two Bridges' and a couple of things more.
-Waiting: Jim has entered the Darklands. Claire and Toby will have to act quickly and not fall into despair.
-Butterflies and Christmas Jlaire, from Arcadian Nights.
-Lights and Shadows of Camelot: Claire has just discovered her magic powers and goes to Camelot so Morgana can teach her. One night, she'll meet the Trollhunter.
#tales of arcadia#trollhunters#jlaire week#jlaire#ask game#jim lake jr#claire nuñez#my writing#fanfics#ao3
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🎧 🎧 🎧 one for mark, one for romeo, one for sam!
space cadet by the technicolors is a very important mark song to me. everything about it is so surviving the worst, the determination to stay alive, and the clawing to go home despite everything.
this place is gonna drag me down ... and i know i don't belong / i knew it all along because i'm just a space cadet with nowhere to lay my head / and after all i can't know anything at all because i'm just a space cadet with no one to make my bed
being stranded on mars (or whatever planet in alt verses) really does take its toll on him. he doesn't belong there and the planet at every single chance it gets will remind him of that in the most brutal ways, from his habitat blowing up, to storms, to everything! and while he's brilliant, and skilled, he can't know everything he can only face it with the most stubborn attitude and determination to stay alive.
like the movies by laufey is all the way, hands down a romeo song. i like to quote a lot a line from sleepless in seattle when talking about romeo: "you don't want to be in love, you want to be in love in a movie" and this song is quite literally about that exact thing.
maybe one day, i'll fall in a bookstore into the arms of a guy ... maybe i'm just old fashioned / read too many fairytales / it's no wonder i've had no luck, no one's ever good enough / i want a love like i've seen in the movies / that's why I'll never fall in love
romeo grew up on so many stories. there's obviously the jokes that come with his name being romeo, and his parents being big shakespeare fans and he doesn't really shy away from the absolute lover boy image people put on him. he really is a hopeless romantic, thinking in fantasies and having high expectations of what love can and should be. it's why most of his relationships don't work out.
call my dad by ajr is a sam song that i think needs little to no explaining but i will do so anyways! it's about his homesickness and how much he does want to make his parents proud and how they are a big part of his life and his decisions.
and now after it all, i just really wanna call my dad, my dad / i feel so broke up, i wanna go home
sam struggles a lot with homesickness and especially when things take a pretty ugly turn for him he relies on his parents for comfort and guidance. he's very close with them, has a profound amount of love and respect for them. and at the end of it, he's still young, he's far from home. it is hard and making new places where he can get that comfort is a challenge.
want to know about a song on my muse's playlist? send in a 🎧 & i'll randomly pick a song along with which lyrics i think symbolize them the most!
#HOW ARE YOU? (I LOVE YOU) * ASKS#M. WATNEY * headcanons#R. DIXON * headcanons#S. OBISANYA * headcanons#thanks for sending <3
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...did that sound weird? porbably. whatever. so
What do you consider a deal breaker?
Do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings?
Have you ever read “Romeo & Juliet” and how do u feel about it?
i didn't even rb that post shfkskjg but okay
1. inability to apologize or like things in that sphere. like . not understanding it's a group effort lol
2. ohhh ok at the end of the day I'm a hopeless romantic. but I don't want a "serious" relationship I'm too silly :3 has to be fun either way
3. I have read it, I've never really had a complex about family loyalty or what they think of me so I have a hard time relating? I mean objectively it's a good piece of literature but they could've both survived if they hadn't been so blinded by that. it's not really like a good star crossed lovers story imo if they could have just. run away??
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Memories - Part 3
Here's the third part. If anyone would like to be added to the tag list, it's open. This one has a lot of dialogues, as they discuss stuff. Anyways, hope it's likable.
While searching for some books and arranging some, they kept the conversation going, almost like they had known each other for years. Strange. Y/N noticed they had many common interests, even had some debates over some characters, both defending the ones they love. Again it seemed as if she had been having those debates for forever. Again, strange. By now, she was a little sure that she knew him, but just doesn't remember. Maybe getting to know him more may help?
Currently, they are discussing their previous topic, Atonement by Ian McEwan. Agreeing on most of the things in the book until,
"Briony was a child."
"She was old enough to understand what she did. Even Robbie said, "How old do you have to be to know the difference between right and wrong?"
"It was anger."
"It was a thought out thing as revealed in the end, meaning, Briony herself thought that", Y/N thought she had won the argument.
"So she tried to atone it, hence the name," Ben prompted.
"Doesn't change much. She didn't see Robbie that day, should not have ventured in Cee's business and if she felt like anything was going wrong, could've talked about it to Cecillia. At least the ending would have been happy then."
"Lovers survive and flourish, they got eternity in the afterlife."
"Doesn't change the fact that she did wrong, she tried yes, but when she knew it was Marshall, she didn't do anything."
"It was too late."
"Apparently not late enough," Y/N sighed and decided to drop the topic. Ben agreed, since he knew this debate was going nowhere, having had it before.
They found a nice place and sat down talking, a little hushed, since it was after all...a library. Y/N asking him questions, Ben answering them eagerly, hoping with each that she would remember him. That wasn't working in his favor and with each stop, his hope declined more and more. But he was not ready to give up. He will never be. Not when it comes to her.
Suddenly, Y/N remembered what he said about his job, "Hey, you told me you're an actor, right?"
Ben hummed.
"So, anything I might have seen?" She was eager to find out where she knew him from.
Ben went in deep thought on that, keeping his finger on his chin and all. "I can't say, you didn't tell me a movie genre or anything."
"There is nothing specific actually."
"Not even romance?" Because I remember you secretly being a hopeless romantic, especially after all the books and fanfics you read, he didn't say.
"Sometimes. I keep out of sappy stuff mostly."
"It's not all sappy, some are nice."
"Some are, yes."
"Okay, have you ever seen Chronicles of Narnia? Or maybe the Punisher?"
"I started it. Not seen much, on the second episode, haven't seen it all yet. Last couple of days were busy, with Tom. He always insisted on going out when I was about to start."
"I'm from that one." That was wildly suspicious. But Tom seemed wary of him before. Did he know?
"Oh. oh. So you're the bad guy?" she raised her eyebrow.
"I'm not telling you anything," he retorted.
"Fine," she huffed and pouted. That was cute.
Y/N's eyes lit up in recognition, "Wait, you're Prince Cat...or something? Sorry, my memory is a little fuzzy."
Ben let out a full blown belly laugh, "If you mean, Prince Caspian, then yes and no worries."
"Yes, Caspian," she was almost at the edge of her seat. Wait, so that was it? "I guess that's why you seemed familiar," she let out a sigh, sadness blooming in her eyes and sunk back in her chair.
He was confused over her reaction, though sad himself. "It's alright, I'm actually glad you didn't."
"No no, I was sad because I recognized you," seeing his furrowed eyebrows, she contemplated her options which were, telling a person she had known not even a whole day, her whatever life story she remembers or, change the topic.
He was easy to talk to though, hadn't given her a single reason to distrust him, was patient, plus, bonus point, Tom seemed to despise him. Oh, riling Tom up even more would be great. Maybe he knew him and it was seeing them together, talking and laughing that riled him up, so maybe she and Ben knew each other and Tom didn't want her—or them, knowing it. But why? Tom had no reason to. But again, she can't say.
Y/N finally decided to tell him. What's the worst that could happen? Maybe he may know her, otherwise she remembers some self defence. Just hoped she did not have to use it.
"Okay, so this may sound weird...heck it is weird-"
"I've witnessed enough weird stuff, doesn't even seem weird anymore." He felt like she was going to tell him something secret and important and hence felt like he should encourage her, not in a pressing way, just giving a natural push.
"Well...yeah that can be said. Alright where was I? Oh right, weird," chuckling to herself. "You see, when I um...first..well when we first talked, I felt like I recognised you, you know? That fucking strong feeling that sometimes happens when you're trying to recognise a song you haven't heard in long, but you know it...just don't remember it...I'm sure you must have had that."
Seeing him let out a little nod, she sighed and continued, "So I uh..I got that feeling, but it's weird because I have never met you and when we talked, the feeling became stronger. And— And then the movies you mentioned and when I recognised you from there, I realized that it was that feeling of recognition and not what I hoped it to be." She was surprised herself about how much she was telling him, making the feeling become more firm.
"And— And now I'm telling you all this and I'm not the most open person, like I'd rather avoid but with you it came natural, making me feel that it wasn't just a simple recognition. And then Tom came and the look was making me think that we do know each other but he doesn't want me finding out. I was just hoping..." she trailed off, not meeting his gorgeous dark brown eyes.
Ben was surprised, he did not know that she was having such a debate within herself and he usually knew what she was feeling. This is more serious than he thought. Should he tell her? He left that debate for later and prompted her to finish, "What—", he cleared his throat feeling a little choked up, "What were you hoping for?" Please let it be what he thinks it is! Please!
"That I may know you from somewhere else. Actually I— I lost my memories. I can only remember stuff from an year ago, maximum and I'm trying, I'm trying so fucking hard to remeber my life or how I lost them, but my mind just isn't cooperating," she choked back a sob.
Ben took her hands in his and started rubbing circles on the back of her hand with his thumb in a soothing way but knew not to interrupt. He waited patiently until she was ready to say again. He knew that if she began opening up, she would finish and that was what he desperately needed her to do. Open up to him. Trust him again. That's why he didn't say anything to her before, just kept an eye on her, not in a creepy way of course. His fear of her driving her away always got the best of him. He was glad he fought the fear this time. Didn't know how much longer he could keep it all in.
He was brought out of his thoughts when she gripped his hands tightly and began speaking again, "I've been trying to find my family too...or friends, just someone I know to get clear on what happened to me and who I am. That's why when you felt familiar I was overjoyed...but then," she did not say any further.
Ben understood, there was no reason to complete the sentence anyway. He smiled a little, it was an unconscious smile. He was just about to tell her the truth but a question lingered in his mind.
#ben barnes#marauders#sirius black#sebastian stan#ben barnes x you#shadow and bone#bin bons#ben barnes x reader#benjamin thomas barnes#benjamin barnes#ben barnes x y/n#benjamin#fanfiction#fanfic
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Hi! Do you think that Lestat really meant to have Antoinette as their third when he said that she would be much more agreeable to their life together? How did he think Louis could ever have accepted something like this? Thank you
Hi, thanks for your question! Tbh I don't know if I'm the best person to come to for analysis of this show lol, my opinion fluctuates quite a lot as I re-watch episodes or re-evaluate things.
Thinking about it again now, my short answer is : no, he didn't mean it.
My long answer :
In his ideal world, yeah Lestat would be able to do whatever with whomever, even something long-term like with Antoinette, and Louis would conveniently not be hurt because he would always know he was the most loved and it'd be enough for him. Hedonism is how Lestat copes with life, which is why he ran to Antoinette every time the mood was sour at home even for just a few months (he told her "You're like me, you like to laugh"). So I'm sure in his perfect world, yeah, he gets his beautiful sad soulmate and a funny girlfriend to balance things out. Not in the same house though, and I don't even think he would have made her a vampire if he didn't need to use her against Claudia. He looked down on her too much to tie himself to her forever like that. Unless we imagine him trying to impose Antoinette to Louis with a "You insisted to have Claudia, now it's my turn to add someone" kind of logic lol. Even more fitting when you think he sometimes behaved like Claudia was a romantic rival.
But actually I think none of that matters because there was NO tomorrow for them that night. Options were :
1) He lost to Claudia and died that night.
2) He won and killed Claudia. But Louis would never forgive him, and either leave him or, more likely, kill himself (like he considered doing the night Lestat stopped Claudia from leaving so she could "keep Louis happy").
3) Although I don't think he ever imagined losing and surviving, it would've always ended with Louis leaving with Claudia.
That is to say, that night was always going to end with Lestat losing Louis. So I honestly think he was just saying shit lol. He was upset and felt hopeless so he wanted to antagonize Louis. Not the craziest reaction when someone's trying to kill you to be fair 😅
Like I rewatched the episode and even the whole calling Antoinette "My love" and telling Louis "I wasn't talking to you" when he answers were probably him retaliating for Louis saying "I saved one for you, my love" while presenting him with the poisoned twin.
It was meaningless ranting from a desperate man.
#thank you for asking#he had it coming but his paranoia and sadness this episode were poignant#iwtv#interview with the vampire#lestat de lioncourt#iwtv spoilers#amc iwtv spoilers#my posts#my iwtv
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23 and 44 for fanfic writer ask game <3
23. Is writing the beginning, middle, or end of the story easiest? Hardest?
Ah... hm... Endings are the hardest. Did I include enough? Did I tie something off correctly? Am I leaving this how I want? It's a little easier when it's the end of a series, and I know I'm going to do another book or 2, but legit endings are hard.
To quote from my favorite movie of all time "There are no happy endings, because nothing ever truly ends."
Beginnings are easiest imo. Getting started is easy for me. Middle's can be a little hit or miss. Usually though they're just unruly - I'll have plans, but then the story goes and does it's own thing. It's like herding cats - really creative, mostly cohesive cats, but cats nonetheless.
44. What is your favorite genre to write?
Ahm... romance? No, I can't say that, I like romance, I don't usually dig it as a the driving force of a story. I think I do enjoy romance as an add-on though, and that's really my favorite thing.
Action with some romance? Yes please!
Fantasy plus romance - Mwauh! now kiss!
Horror plus romance - I'm a candy-ass, but I'll survive if they survive!
Slice of Life? YES BUT I NEED ROMANCE - it doesn't have to be the only thing happening, give me conflict and shenanigans and other stuff, sure - but SMOOCHES. MUST. BE. INCLUDED.
I'm a hopeless damned romantic. Give me fights, blood, explosions, espionage, mafia, magic, intrigue, revenge, humor, life -- Zombie Apocalypse? Perfect Time for Love - if I'm not going to throw myself into what brings me joy at the end of the world as we know it, when would I?
I love it too - the chase, the fall, the inevitable, the struggle, the uncertainty - sometimes I like the toxicity too. Bad people fall in love, and I want to know all the shapes it takes.
Let me pull the strings of all the variables of human existence and write all the shapes that love, lust, fear, hope, and sex can take.
That's my favorite genre ^_^ ♥
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I saw this thing that tuuli did about listing 9 of my favorite characters and having others guess my type or "theme" and thought I'd give it a try. Purposefully picking outside my harem for this one. 😏
1 - Gakushuu Asano - Assassination Classroom
@tuulikannel, you've officially gotten to me. Then, of course, Magic Shuu plays a large part in this as well.
2 - Danny Fenton - Danny Phantom
I just love him. (I used to have a crush on him too when I was younger. 😉 Trust me, the person I'm talking to knows I'm talking to them.)
He's just such a squish. 💙
3 - Castiel - Supernatural
Okay, to anyone who's seen Supernatural, who doesn't like Cas to some extent?
4 - Gigi - Kiki's Delivery Service
Part of this is actually behind the story of the English voice actor. He unfortunately passed away before the end of production and that's why Gigi doesn't talk when Kiki gets her magic back. 😢 But seriously, as far as cats go, he's amazing.
5 - Haruka Tennou - Sailor Moon
Of course she's on here.
My girl Uranus was always my favorite. I wanted a motorcycle like hers, I wanted to run away like her, and she was always just so cool. And a flirt! Funny thing, she's an Aquarius and so are a couple others in my man harem. Looks like I just got a thing for Aquarius'.
6 - Calcifer - Howl's Moving Castle
I love how quirky he is. And he's funny. And I'd love to have a loyal fire like this in my fireplace. ^^ And he's so sweet when he wants to be.
7 - Dimitri - Anastasia
His dynamic is just great, and while acting like a heartless thief, he's such a hopeless romantic. 🥰 Despite his past, I can't help but root for him to get his princess. And he'd do just about anything for her, sacrifice anything, and become a lost soul stealing barely surviving if it means she's happy. 💙
8 - Kyoya Ootori - Ouran High School Host Club
He's such an ass, but if you manage to get close enough, you realize just how big his heart can be. If only he didn't try so hard to look like just another ass...
9 - James Pleiades Hawkins - Treasure Planet
A little rough around the edges, but absolutely brilliant. Wild and defiant. Easily the single best interpretation of Treasure Island I have ever seen, and a very huge chunk of that is because of this guy.
Bonus!
10 - Kovu - Lion King II
I have absolutely no idea why he popped up while I was looking for a gif for Calcifer, but I absolutely had to add him once I saw him because, well, I love him. Hardly anyone's seen, or even heard of Lion King II, but I highly recommend it. It's a very "Romeo and Juliet" type of story, but focuses more on peace than war. It's got some of the best songs, including "Zira's Lullaby" which is so disturbingly dark and beautiful, but anyway, the character.
Kovu didn't ask for what he got, but he grew in spite of it. He didn't do it alone either. I just feel he's the perfect example of how horrible circumstances can get, and how weak an individual can be. It's important to show weakness and to know when you need to ask for help, and he got that. It's just... it's good and you need to watch it, okay? Okay.
These are all my favorite character from their respective fandoms with the exception of Assassination Classroom (Shuu ranks third) and Supernatural (Castiel ranks second). I tried to pick the obscure ones on purpose and I'm still curious on if there's a theme among them. What are your thoughts?
#gakushuu asano#danny phantom#castiel#gigi#haruka tennou#calcifer#dimitri#kyoya ootori#james pleiades hawkins#kovu#favorite characters
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From 1 to 24 pls ( if it’s too much tell me the limit, I’m just curious about all of them)
(From here) I'll do my best!
thunderstorms or rainbows? Thunderstorms.
books or movies? Movies purely because my attention span for reading sucks now, lol.
hoodies or denim jackets? Hoodies.
city or countryside? City. Don't think I could survive in the country LOL.
achieve world peace or end world hunger? Wouldn't achieving world peace mean world hunger is resolved? Or at least, no resource crises would ever happen because everyone gets along. If I have to pick though, world hunger. World peace won't mean shit if we still have capitalism.
pop or rock? I can go either way.
many acquaintances or a few close friends? Few close friends.
cats or dogs? Neither, I struggle to interact with both lol.
antiheroes or sympathetic villains? Obviously both have their perks but personally I'm drawn to sympathetic villains. Nobody is just evil for the sake of it.
catchy beat or deep lyrics? As someone who often listens to music without lyrics at all... catchiness for sure. :P
bright colours or pastels? Out of context both probably would be a sore for my Autistic eyes. I guess bright colours has a broader meaning though?
greek or roman mythology? I know more about Greek, also didn't the Romans copy a tonne of Greek stuff anyway lol. Anyway, comrade Prometheus.
coffee or tea? Tea by default because I can't survive the taste of coffee at all.
sweet or savoury? Both have their place, depends on mood.
reading or writing? I want to say writing but I don't nearly do enough so I probably read more.
summer or winter? Winter purely because I find hot weather more frustrating to deal with.
autumn or spring? Hmm I can go either way here TBH.
strawberry or mango? Mango.
friendship or romance? Both have their place. I probably am more a friendship guy, though maybe I'm in denial because I do kind of have a hopeless romantic side that threatens to crush on every second person I meet, lol.
headphones or earbuds? Earbuds are PAIN to my ears. IDK if it's just Autistic sensitivity but I don't know how anyone can handle sticking them in your ears. So yeah, team headphones.
rom-coms or horror? Definitely horror at least for the aesthetic, I've also found more horror experiences I've enjoyed than romcom. Maybe I just haven't seen the genre's full potential but it does feel kinda formulaic... which to be fair a lot of horror is. Both are kinda treated as trashy cheap genres lol.
morning person or night owl? I wish I could be up in the morning more but I'm more a night person.
dark or brightly coloured clothes? Dark.
easter or halloween? Halloween. I don't really celebrate holidays but Halloween is honestly the most fun I can have with something.
metal or rap? I'm not too familiar with either genre, at least not properly. Most rap I see is people trying to imitate it cuz they think it's cool or whatever, and metal I mainly just see remixes that often aren't done that well. I'd probably say I've had a better experience with metal but I'm really not informed enough to give a take here, there's likely good stuff for both I don't know.
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Tav felt the tears drop down her cheeks, "I... I don't know... I... Of course we can stay like this, with no name to what we consider each other.. but... I'm broken, Astarion. Gods, I remained quiet about what I've been through, and instead listened to what everyone else went through, because all I ever wanted was to forget and live on, but... Everything was taken from me! I have been left with nothing! If only you'd known me before I was ruined! Tainted, corrupted, broken..! If only you had me then. I would've given you all the love you deserve. If only you had known me when I was still stupid, still dreaming of stupid things. Hopeless romantic, a dream of joy and all that nonsense little girls read from fairy tales. But that's what love is, isn't it? A fairytale. Imagination lonesome adults teach children in hopes they wouldn't be as miserable as them when they grow up. Sometimes... Sometimes I think it's too late for me. Each time, each new person. Every time I asked for help, there was always a transaction, someone taking advantage of my vulnerable state. I was just a girl, then, I was new to the adult life and they tore me to shreds. It's amusing... My parents taught me to be firm and speak up, defend myself. I was loud before. Firm. I knew what I wanted, but I never took into account that... Some people don't care. Not about what I want or consented to. They wouldn't care even if I screamed. Begged."
She quickly wiped away her own tear, looking down, "little by little, I learned to just be quiet. To stay quiet because my words don't matter. Be a good little cute doll and let everyone else play with me. That's how I survived before. Defenseless, cute doll, a vulnerable little thing that would do anything anyone wanted as long as she doesn't starve in the streets of the cold winter or steaming summer. To be warm and protected from the rain. That's what being adorable does, right? Give myself away to live. A piece of me, like a bread passed around at a dinner table. Sure, I end up miserable , but at least there's food on the table?" Tav bitterly laughed through her tears, trying to smile for Astarion,
"...I don't want to think about it or remember what I had to do back then, but now that we're here... I guess... That's why I got that close to you. I really didn't even have to say anything, I never do. I let you do it all because that's all I knew. But at least with you, a part of me wanted what you did. I perfectly knew how to say no. I just stopped saying it because I didn't think it mattered anymore. Until I met you, that is. I understood you. And now I'm terrified. I don't know, I'm so scared of hurting you. It feels like I'm incapable of love, it's terrifying to me. What if I can't love you? I know maybe there's something in me but I'm so scared.. I want to give you what you deserve, but I don't know how, Astarion... They ruined me. They were vultures, they always found a way to find me when I needed help and use it to their advantage. I'm like a corpse at this rate. They ripped my heart to shreds. I barely have a crumb to offer you. Why put up with me? I can't be who you thought I am. Who you want me to be."
"I'm sorry about everything you went through..." Astarion eased, taking another step closer. "That-... It must have been horrible. But I am glad I know you now. 'The love I deserve', 'a fairy tale'? I don't want that. In all of our adventures and trials we've been on, I want... this."
"It doesn't have to be transactional. It might be how I can make sense of this whole thing, but through everything, you've been there with me. I want to get to know any side of me you're willing to show but I feel like you... You see me. You know who I am beneath everything. You don't need to be scared of hurting me, it-... It can't be worse than everything. But if you can give me whatever you're willing to share, then I would do the rest..."
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Have you ever been so into someone and you just miss them everyday and it makes you sad, like so sad until you get use to they're absence .. like you just woke up from the best dream of your life...
Fuck I can't get him out of my head, I day dream about us a lot. I've distracted myself as much as I can.
Sigh... sometimes I ask for his attention even though he's working, our texts haven't been long, it's getting shorter and I'm trying so hard to not fail at this. He is attentive when he's not working.
Idk I'm glad that I'll see him again in a few weeks, I crave his physical touch, his cuddles, the way he plays with my hair and my chain or heart lock on my collar.
I need affection, I need to feel safe, I need another human to just hold me tight... I'm so hopeless, my empty romantic heart, is so lonely over here.
I've gone out alot in the past month, distracted myself by just focusing on my workouts and just wanting really.... I haven't had decent sleep either , I don't know what sleep actually is, like I should be asleep right now. Ugh!
It's going to hurt seeing him leave again... thinking about when we'll spend time together, back to phone calls at night for 30 min. And texting... sigh.
Things that I have to adapt to doing, it's so much work, a lot of work. I'm happy to do it I'm putting my all into this, but I've just held back a lot.
I'm scared, i knew for a fact he doesn't feel as strongly for me as I do for him, we are always in each other's ear even when we aren't talking to each other and other ppl. While on the phone... it's just different type of effort we do for each other.
I've assured him often that he has nothing to worry about because I choose him as my person or partner, being in a very private exclusive relationship is great. I don't do all the typical couple things, I just don't want to be looked like a fool on social media in case things go south.
Something I'm Not Going for!
But yeah the moment that I'm use to his absence the easier it gets... but now I have to start all over again, adapting to him leaving me once again not seeing him for weeks prbly months.
I really hate this shit.
It makes me so mad that I'm gettng sad because my happiness is so far away. I don't even have a glow in my eyes anymore, they look so sad. I try so hard to always seem bubbly and happy!
My soul is dead. I'm just numb in this bliss, just make the best of our time together, I wish he'd tell me how he truly feels, but talking about it drains his energy. 😞😓
He isn't romantic at all... I throw hints but he's told me he wasn't ever like this, or he use to be a different way but could never get that feeling again, because he doesn't care, and he's not happy.
So this is what I'm left with.. really good man with certain flaws and things he needs to work on within himself... he's so good to me, treats me well, I'm just getting sick of missing him... it's killing me a lot.
He doesn't text back he misses me when I tell him "miss you" anymore... I'm doing too much alrdy, overthinking stuff ,
Sigh so hard to be into a person you want more then anything just to be close to them.
But all you have is device's to help you deal...
What a life I've chosen.
I hope he finds happiness with me someday like he's given me everyday ... isn't the such a sad love story...
1. You have a romantic lover girl
2. You have an empty soulless man.
How will this survive. Well answer is not giving up on each other... this is everything I deserve. I'll be the very best to him like no one else.
Because I want him to see that these real feelings do exist and he can have it all too. Sigh...
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“edge of tonight” part four ~ the dress
pairing: namjoon x reader (lots of platonic ot7 x reader)
rating: T 16+
genre: mafia au, angst
this part: Jin finds you at the dress shop.
tw: mafia!au, swearing
word count: ~3.9k
track #5: Clairvoyant ~ The Story So Far: "The good vibes in our lives won't feel so consistent."
the edge of tonight masterlist
Jin tried to keep his hand from shaking, his coffee sloshing around inside the cup. Today was the day. He had to do it today. He'd been delaying it long enough, and if he waited any longer it'd be too late. Something in the back of his mind noted the irony of this situation. Jin was second in command of one of the biggest mafias in Seoul, the right-hand man to the underground's number one target. He had looked down gun barrels and sewn up stab wounds and survived Hoseok's driving.
So why couldn't he ask her out?
The coffee shop had become his favorite place to get his caffeine fix, not necessarily for the coffee itself but because of her. She was just so bright and joyful even when dealing with stuck-up customers who lived to torture baristas. Her smile lit up the room and her eyes – oh god, her eyes. Jin wouldn't mind spending the rest of his life just looking into them. In a way, Jin finally understood Namjoon: all those times his boss had gone on about your eyes and how he couldn't look away if he wanted to.
Jin spent his lunch at the shop, waiting for her break so they could eat together. It was a little weekly ritual they'd started up a handful of weeks ago, but Jin wanted more. These little lunch dates were nice, don't get him wrong, but he didn't want to be reduced to a quick fifteen-minute visit every few days.
Jungkook was the hopeless romantic in their group, who believed in fate and soulmates. Jin was realistically romantic. He wanted to properly ask her out, take her to a fancy restaurant where she'd have a chance to dress up, or maybe he'd take her back to his place and cook for them himself. He wanted to get to know her more intimately than her breaks at work allowed them to.
He desperately hoped she liked him as much as he liked her.
"God, I'm so sorry to make you wait," she said as she sat down across from him, her ever-present smile glowing.
"No, it's not a problem," Jin responded quickly, his own smile shy. "I don't mind waiting, really."
They talked about little nothings; Jin asked how her studies were going, and she asked how his job was. All she knew was he was a financial consultant – which wasn't a lie. He did handle the financial side of things for the gang. It gave him a chance to vent about the various reasons for their exuberant spending: Jimin's alcohol consumption, Taehyung's shopping habits, Jungkook's near-constant medical expenses. Names were never said, of course, but it was nice to finally get some of the stress from his clients off his chest.
Eventually she sighed, glancing at the clock on the wall. "My break's about over. I'm sorry we can never talk for longer." This was it. This was the moment, if he didn't do it now he'd regret it for the rest of his life. An image of him in Namjoon's place – sad, lonely, barely holding himself together – flashed through his mind. There was no way in hell Jin would let himself end up like that.
"Actually, before you go," he spoke around the lump in his throat. "I was wondering, um…" He got distracted by the way she was looking at him, eyes wide and searching his own. "If, uh…"
"Yes?" she prompted him. Her smile was slowly growing, as if she knew what was coming. It gave Jin just enough courage to continue.
"There's this charity ball coming up soon, at the end of the year, and I was wondering, well, I was hoping, if you'd be my date?"
She let out a small laugh, and he felt his nerves skyrocket. "Aren't those things for rich people to brag about all the good they've done all year?" She wasn't entirely serious in her questions, Jin could hear the slight insecurity in her voice and wanted nothing more than to sweep it away.
"Well, yeah," he chuckled, "but I got an invite and I would dread going alone. That's why I wanted to ask you." The way she blushed at his words was quite possibly the cutest thing he'd ever seen. "I'd take you out to a nice dinner beforehand, and then spend the rest of the evening sweeping you off your feet as we danced into the night."
She hummed pleasantly. "That does sound rather nice... still, though, I don't know if I have anything fancy enough for that." She bit her lip as she thought, running through her wardrobe in her mind.
"I can find something for you?" Jin offered. "I have a friend who owns a dress shop, I can go pick a few things out for you to try on later." Taehyung was the fashion expert, he owned a number of suit and dress shops throughout Seoul. The boys went through suits like an addict went through needles, and they were in constant need of new not-bloodstained clothes. But he'd give Jin a nice discount, and would be the most helpful in finding something she would look stunning in.
"Hmmm, how long until the dance?"
"About six weeks. It's on December 27, a Friday." Jin tried to keep his cool. He was waiting for this to blow up in his face, but was still hoping you'd say yes.
"School would be out by then, so I wouldn't have to worry about finals," she mused aloud. Jin held onto each word. "It's far enough out that I can get work off without a problem."
"You wouldn't have to worry about a single thing," Jin continued. "I'll take care of dinner, the ride, the dress, everything. And I'd be right by your side the entire night."
She shook her head. "No, I couldn't ask you to cover everything like that."
"I insist," Jin smiled. "Let me spoil you for a night–" like he so badly wanted to "–and then you can decide if you want to see my face again after that."
She laughed again. "And what if I still want to see your face between then and now?" Jin couldn't help but feel like he was on top of the world.
"Then I guess you'll have to put up with me stealing your breaks at work." He laughed with her. Jin couldn't help but wonder, even now, is this how Namjoon felt with you, all those years ago?
"You should probably get back to work," he said after a quiet moment. "I don't want you to get fired on my account." She nodded and the pair stood up. He waited for her to leave, before he started heading out.
"Jin?"
He turned back to her so quickly he made himself dizzy. "Yes?"
Her smile was blinding. Jin thought it would be the last thing he ever saw – and he'd be okay with that. "I'd love to go with you."
It was his turn to smile. All he could do was nod, happiness had taken his voice away. He watched for another minute as she got back to work, filling cups and taking orders.
Damn, Jin felt good right now. He felt so damn good he practically ran to one of Tae's dress shops, one of the more scaled-down ones. Jin was sure she would look good in anything, but he also didn't want to scare her with an overbearing price tag, even if he could afford it.
Jin whipped his phone out, texting Taehyung about his date, and began asking the younger member a plethora of questions. Which styles were in right now? What colors would look best on her? He could imagine Tae laughing on the other end of this conversation.
Tae sent back some pieces of advice, a few ideas, some pictures of some styles – but until he was with her at the shop in person he wouldn't be able to help Jin out very much. This was a decent start though.
Jin was greeted by the receptionist as he walked in. Taehyung’s shop was surprisingly busy for this time of day. He had expected some traffic to come through, since the ball and the holidays were coming up and dresses needed to be ordered and tailored, but he hadn't known this particular one to be so popular.
Going off what Tae had sent him, Jin began slowly going through the rows of dresses, taking his time and looking at each one closely, trying to imagine it on her. Some he was easy to dismiss, others had potential, but he was looking for the one.
And so, it seemed, were you.
All Jin heard was a small "Dammit!" from a voice that hadn't really changed, and the angry rustling of dresses as he looked up and saw you shoving another hanger back onto the rack opposite of him. "Why's this so hard?"
What the fuck were you doing dress shopping??
Maybe Jin hadn't been as close to you as the others, but he did know you'd never willingly go dress shopping. Your father, long ago, had started dressing you up in ways a 15- and 16-year-old should not have been, and you once went on a 20 minute rant about it.
"If I'm ever willingly in a dress or heels again, its because you're attending my funeral!"
Granted, people's opinions changed overtime, but from what Jin remembered, this wasn't one of the things you would change. He wanted to approach you, he wanted to ask, but something stopped him.
They had all agreed to leave you alone, and Yoongi had done a pretty shit job of that a few weeks back. Jimin was furious when they finally got answers. "All he gets is a slap on the wrist when he literally followed her home? You grounded me for two weeks just for talking to her!!" Tae had to remind his friend that he had planned on more than simply talking to her, and his 'grounding' was nothing more than an earlier curfew.
Namjoon had been simultaneously relieved and horrified at Yoongi's description of your living space. There was a part of him that was comforted by the fact you had your own space and a roof over your head, but that was where the comfort ended. It had taken Jin and Yoongi nearly half an hour to talk him down from marching over there and demanding you go with him, or Yoongi, or Jin, or anyone, just to get you somewhere safer.
Yoongi said that he couldn't just let you go without doing something. Jungkook mentioned something similar. Jimin hadn't been thinking, and if Tae hadn't needed to bail his friend out, he would've felt the same as his brothers. Jin felt that pull now as well, to go to you, to say something, to just interact, but he wasn't going to.
You could feel someone staring at you. It was a feeling you'd gotten used to since coming back to Seoul. Somehow, some way, one of them always found you. And they never stopped staring. You looked up right as Jin looked back down, back to the dress in his hands, continuing on as if nothing had happened. Your mouth was set in a thin line. Being here, in this shop, was bad enough. Now you were dealing with another 'chance' encounter.
You let out a frustrated huff, then began going back through the various dresses. You tried to not let your irritation get the best of you, but you had been here for half an hour already and still hadn't found a decent dress yet. Everything you had tried so far was either too expensive or didn’t fit right or just didn’t look good on you. Every so often you glanced back up at Jin, who wasn't paying you any mind, and that only seemed to make your mood worse. You knew how this game worked: one of them found you, on purpose or by luck, and then they engaged you in a conversation you didn't want to have.
So why wasn't Jin talking to you? Yoongi practically forced his way into your apartment, and that Jungkook kid chased you down the sidewalk months ago. They were more than happy to make contact with you, to try and tell you to go with them, go back to him, so what was Jin's deal? Yoongi said he was working with him too. Did Jin just not care?
No, that couldn't possibly be it. Jin cared way too much. As the oldest in their little group back then, he was always making sure everyone was taken care of, you in particular as the youngest. His silence now upset you to no end. You finally decided to break it yourself.
"So, you're not going to talk to me?"
A small smirk turned his lips upwards. You started the conversation, not him. Now he couldn't really be held accountable, could he? "Did you want me to?" he asked, eyes still on the row of gowns before him.
You swallowed, unsure of what you wanted your answer to be, but responded out of habit anyway. "No, not really."
Jin glanced up momentarily, face blank. "Then I won't." He once again carried on his business, and you should have let it die there and carried on with yours. But something inside you just wouldn't let it be.
A few minutes passed before you spoke up again. "Are you tracking me or something?"
"What do you mean?" he asked in return, holding up another dress, head tilted, thinking, before shaking his head and placing it back on the rack.
"Yoongi shops at the same store I do," you started explaining. "Jungkook tried running me down on the street. Now you're here in a dress shop – why are you dress shopping, Jin?" Your curiosity overtook you, and you finally asked the question that had really been on your mind.
His face lit up in a way you had never seen before. "Well, if you must know, I have a date and I wanted to spoil her a bit." Your jaw nearly dropped at the news, but he continued before you could say anything in response. "The real question here is," Jin finally looked you in the eye, "what are you doing dress shopping?"
You knew what he was referring to, of course you did. You hated being here, and he knew that. "I need a dress," you stated quietly, hoping it would be enough. Jin simply cocked an eyebrow, waiting for more. You sighed. "I got a job, and part of that job is going to the stupid ball at the end of the year, and so I need a stupid dress."
"The charity ball?" Jin questioned. "You're willingly going to that?"
"Unfortunately," you mumbled, diverting your attention back to the godforsaken outfits. "Are you?"
Jin smiled again, the tips of his ears turning red. "Yeah, that's what my date is for, actually. I'm just here to pick a few dresses out for her to try on later, so she has time to get it tailored just right."
You groaned and rested your head on the dress rack. "I forgot about tailoring, fuck!" God, this day was just getting better and better.
Jin chuckled, having way too much fun with your discomfort. "Would you like some help?" he offered you, not sure what good it would do, but not wanting to leave you on your own in this either. You didn't respond; you just squeezed your eyes shut. Maybe if you squeezed hard enough this whole ordeal would disappear.
When you opened your eyes again, you were met with Jin's still smiling face, his offer hanging in the air between you. You thought for a moment, before asking, "Are all of you going?"
Jin knew what you were really asking: was Namjoon going to be there? "Yeah," he said casually, "of course we are." Your eyes narrowed at his answer. He knew you wouldn't like it, but he wasn't going to lie to you about it either. "If it helps, I won't tell him anything. I won't even mention to any of them that I saw you today."
"Isn't that breaking some kind of rule?" You were more than positive that Jungkook and Yoongi had spilled everything about your brief encounters with them, and Jin probably shouldn't be making an exception now.
"Oh, several," he nodded, "but what they don't know won't hurt them, or you." He was convincing, to say the least. But not enough for you to trust.
"I'll think about it," you said with finality, turning back to the racks of dresses and going through them once more.
The truth was, you did need help. You had no idea what you were supposed to be looking for, what kind of look you wanted or what would even look good on you. There was always someone else who chose what you were going to wear to these types of things, and you just went along with it.
You had once sworn you'd never be in a dress again, much less attend a ball for any reason, but you needed this job. And completing this job required obtaining a significant amount of information, and information like that was usually best found at such events like a charity ball.
"Oh. My god." You were pulled from your thoughts at the sound of Jin's quiet exclamation. He had moved further down the aisle, and was holding a dark red dress up.
"What, find your dress?" you asked, your voice holding just a twinge of malice in it.
"No, I found yours." Jin whipped his phone out, taking a quick picture and sending it to Tae, asking for what matching shoes and accessories would go with it, and specifically leaving out the detail that this was going to be for you. He told you he wouldn't tell any of them anything, and he meant it, even if you didn't believe him.
You simply rolled your eyes. "Jin–"
"No, Y/N, trust me on this one." His voice left no room for argument. "This is your dress." He walked back up the aisle until he was across from you, then handed you the gown. Reluctantly, you took it from him, holding it out to see for yourself.
It was rather pretty on the hanger, and was even your size. The skirt was asymmetrical, and it ruffled along the edges. The top layer had a few large triangle pieces cut out and filled in with lace detailing that beautifully contrasted the chiffon. It was cinched around the waist, with two pieces of fabric crossing at the chest that would show off just a hint of your cleavage. The sleeves mimicked the skirt, they would flutter around your shoulders as you moved.
The concept of it was gorgeous, but you doubted it would look as good on you as it did on its hanger. "I don't know, Jin," you started, but he cut you off again.
"Just go try it on," he told you. "I'll grab you some shoes." He was off before you could protest, leaving you alone with the burgundy fabric. Without much choice in the matter, you marched toward the fitting rooms. It didn't take you long to strip down and slide the dress on. The fabric was soft against your skin, and you found yourself not nearly as uncomfortable in it as you thought you would be.
Jin was looking for the exact pair of shoes Taehyung had sent back a picture of, insisting he sold them at that shop and that they couldn't be out of stock yet. It was a pair of strappy platinum heels with a single band that would wrap around your ankle. Hopefully it wouldn't be much of a struggle to get you into the shoes.
He grabbed a few options for simple necklaces that wouldn't scare you off as well, then rushed over to meet you at the fitting rooms. You had just stepped out of the booth, turning every which way in front of the mirror, trying to see yourself from every angle possible. Jin froze for only a moment, caught up in the sight of you, before handing the heels off to you.
You sighed in contempt and opened your mouth to protest, but Jin didn’t give you a chance. "Just put them on.”
He did have to help you with the ankle straps, but once the shoes were on you couldn't deny that he was right. This was your dress, and these were your shoes. You even picked out a necklace from the ones he grabbed. You could imagine your hair curled and pinned back, your lips glossy, the dress flaring out as you twirl across the dance floor. For just a moment, you looked and felt beautiful.
Jin noticed the small smile on your face as he watched you in the mirror, his own expression smug at his victory. The dress was perfect, it didn't even look like it needed to be tailored. Even if you said it was okay for him to tell the others about today, there was no way he would. He'd carry this secret with him until the night of the ball, when he'd point you out to Namjoon and then watch as his leader and friend fell apart at the sight of you.
He waited as you changed back into your normal clothes, hands on his wallet in his pocket. If where you were currently living was any indication, you were probably tight on money, and he was more than willing to pay for this outfit for you. You exited the booth, dress and shoes in your arms, and let him walk you up to the front counter.
"I can pay for myself," you told Jin, pulling a stack of cash out of your back pocket. Jin's eyes went wide at the money, his own card already half-way pulled out. "I knew what I was shopping for."
"If you've got money for this kind of stuff, what are you doing living where you're living?" he asked before he could stop himself. You merely hummed in response, you knew Yoongi had said something and the next time you saw him (because it was inevitable that you would) he'd be given a piece of your mind.
The dress was bagged and the shoes placed in a box. Your change went back into your pocket and you turned to go. Jin wanted to stop you, or maybe walk with you, or offer you a ride, but he knew you'd had enough for one day. "Hey," he called to you before you walked out. You looked over your shoulder, waiting. "I really won't tell them anything." Jin could only hope you understood the sincerity in his voice.
After a moment you nodded. "Thanks." It was a single word, but it carried with it more meaning than you wanted it to. You really were grateful you had run into him here. The whole process went a lot more smoothly than you originally thought it would, and you were surprised with how happy you felt about the outcome. All that was left was to survive the next six weeks and make it to the ball.
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last weekend I caved and read everything you ever uploaded here once more agskshkdd this is who i am as a person. but im love your writing so much!!! i have an especially soft spot for the naga stories, are those the ones that are about half-snake people? i always mess up the names but how do you think bakugou (and or kiri) would be as a yandere one, when he falls for the reader? i can't remember you ever writing a snake-version of him and idk if you'd be up for it but i'm super curious! xoxoxo
Aww!! Thank you so much :)
And yes! Naga’s are the snake people, semi human from the torso up and giant ass snakes from the hips down!
Bakugou:
If there is one word to describe yandere Naga Bakugou its possessive. It takes a lot for him to chose a mate, he is incredibly picky, picking his mate much past the typical age but once he picks?? Possessive protective to the extreme. You are his mate to do with what he pleases, and absolutely no one is going to take you away from him. Hell, he gets pissy the second another creature, intelligent or not even looks at you. You won’t be leaving his nest any time soon after he snatches you up, even trying to peek over the edges of the flattened down bowl in the ground leads to you being dragged right back to the middle and getting angrily chewed out and huffed at as you get tucked right back into the nest.
I think he’d most likely fall for a darling who hikes or walks frequently in his forest for whatever reason. A hunter, camper, or just any kind of nature enthusiast will quickly catch his eye. You’re so small…and your body is so different than his and yet you constantly come back here, carelessly leaving your scent everywhere, as if inviting him to have a taste. He isn’t one to turn down the offer. He doesn’t have any form of patience, somewhere during a mid afternoon doze and lunch he’ll come to the conclusion that he wants you, all while still ripping the meaty remains of his prey off the bone. Right then and there he decides to have you, still picking meat from his teeth with the jagged edge of a bone. The next time he sees you you’ll be snatched up into his arms and dragged back to his nest, kicking and screaming left ignored as he unceremoniously dumps you in his nest and refuses to let you leave.
I picture him most likely picking a human mate tbh, He enjoys being bigger and stronger than his mate, justifying the overbearing desire to hide away and protect what's his, something other Nagas wouldn’t tolerate. Even if you don’t tolerate it it doesn’t really matter, he is bigger and stronger than you, and can easily just pick you right up and carry you back to where he wants you to be. Biting, kicking, punching, anything just bounces off his hard scales. Honestly fighting like that is more likely to turn him on than anything else~ If you have this much energy you clearly can put it towards incubating some of his eggs right? Hopefully that fiery spirit will pass on to his eggs once they hatch~
He’ll also be curious, painfully so, eagerly twisting and pulling you in his hold like a doll, poking and prodding as he inspects you. Its not often he sees a human so close without eating them. He’s cruel in the sense that he likes to poke your squishy spots just to listen to your cute noises and watch you try and wiggle away from him. Its hardly ever malicious, though, the claws in your mouth, feeling up your teeth. Or large hands encompassing your entire calf as he feels up your leg is pure curiosity. He’ll look almost childish, eyes wide with wonder as he watches you twist and bend, so small and fragile yet so resilient.
He’ll hiss and throw up a fit if you call him out on this but he is also incredibly cuddly. Maybe it’s just because of that protective nature of his but he loves wrapping around you, snuggling his face into your stomach, tongue darting out to smell your skin. Or maybe it has something to do with the fact that you are a breathing furnace compared to the cooler blooded beast. He’s so soft in those moments, eagerly nuzzling you and lapping up any attention you’ll give him, even if he huffs and insists its for your protection and warmth if you say anything. Human skin is so thin and you are so needy for warmth! How did you ever survive without him curling around you to keep you warm and chase off the chill of the night air. You’d be wise to keep your mouth shut about the fact that he is actually sapping your heat with his cold skin. Best not take those rare tender moments for granted, yeah?
Kirishima on the other hand leans more on the protective side of things. He’s younger than Bakugou, more on the naïve side of things and much more at the whims of his instincts. I think he’d honestly mate with the first little thing he comes across, unable to hold back and be patient at all. He’s a bit of a romantic at heart, in a terrifying, he’ll eat and swallow whoever you’re with whole when he sees you way. He wants nothing more than a happy loving mate, round and heavy with his eggs waiting for him when he comes back to his nest. He wants to protect and provide and snuggle with his cute little mate!
He’s brutal, eating and killing anything that comes close to you, and then immediately turning around and crooning and loving on you, rubbing up against you like a dog, his face still coated with any remains of what, or rather who, he just ate. (Lucky for you he prefers to swallow his prey whole…watching him gag up and spit out the bones that he cant digest isn’t a pleasant sight though.) Endlessly doting and so…incredibly suffocating. There will always be a hand, or head, or tail, or something pressed, wrapped, or snuggling against you. Half the time you feel like a living teddy bear as he cuddles and nuzzles you non stop, curling up in his nest and holding you close to his chest, face buried in your hair. The only time he tears himself from your side is to go hunting, and even then when he comes back you are scooped up and squished in his arms until he calms down again, extremely distressed from being separated from you.
He is obsessed with being a good mate for you, protecting, providing, and spoiling his partner. He’ll be traditional, hunting down larger pray than necessary just to impress you. Happily puffing his chest out when he dumps a bunch of hay and leaves into the nest, telling you that he knows humans cant sleep on hard rock comfortably, and so this will be more comfy! (Not that it does much, with how close he insists on being when cuddling, you practically sleep on him instead. Trapped against his firm chest as arms wrap tightly around you). Now this isn’t common behavior for nagas, but he’ll also bring you pretty little trinkets that he finds, gems or geodes he finds in his cave, pretty jewelry he steals from humans, rocks that he really likes and wants to share with you. Reacting positively to these gifts, maybe even making a small little pile for them in the nest will put him over the moon. He becomes so gushy and loving towards you for it you can get away with nearly anything after that.
Unlike Bakugou’s nest which is out in the open, daring any threat to even try and come close to his mate, Kiri hides you away. His nest will be hidden away in a maze like cave (He carved it out himself by hand! Something he very proudly tells you when the two of you can finally converse without you screaming or him fucking you silly). He never leaves your side, determined to protect and love you, but even in the moments he does, escape is hopeless. Even after crawling up the sides of the deep pit carved out of solid rock (you really don’t want to think how strong his claws are to carve out solid stone and made such deep grooves in the sides) you’ll be left wondering and aimless maze, impossible to not get lost or even get near the exit before Kirishima is back, rushing your side and picking you up into his arms in a panic. Naturally, being the innocent thing he is he assumes you missed him and went searching for him instead of trying to escape, but now you’re trapped in an even tighter hold under an even tighter watch as he tries “to make it up to you”.
With Kirishima you have a small chance, though. If you are loving and gentle enough to him, and you ask him so sweetly if you can get out of the cave just for a little bit! Promise! He may take you to a nearby river to play in the water, or a hotspring to soak together. Once you really have him wrapped around your finger you might be able to convince him to go on daily walks (slithers?) with him, only if you look sad and pout up at him enough, insisting that the cave is too dark and scary and you miss the sun. He’ll feel so bad he just might sunbathe with you outside for awhile too.
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Gwynriel Headcanon - Happy Gwynriel Week - The Gwynriel Marriage
Sorry I haven't posted. I have sooo many ideas but am soo lazy. Also I wrote this at 3 am AGAIN so sorry in advance.
Gwyneth :
It was happening. It was finally happening. They were getting married, and it was in a week from today. Gwyn had chosen Nesta and Emerie as her bridesmaids. She would have chosen her best friend Elain, if she wasn't already on her honeymoon with Lucien..
They really had bad timing and Elain had apologized so many times before leaving. Gwyn had obviously forgiven her best friend but her marriage would be better with her friend walking down the aisle with her husband. But it's fine.
Gwyn was a hopeless romantic. She had known what she had wanted to do in her marriage since she was a kid. But since she met Azriel, all those ideas had been messed up.
She wanted to make to wedding special for Azriel. They had waited 5 years for this and Gwyn had no plan of ruining their marriage. She knew what she wanted to do, but it was extremely daring and risky. Risky cause Azriel might tear up every male in that room because of her.
Gwyn had chosen a pretty perfect white dress. The dress of her dreams. But something didn't feel right, just didn't. And then it her, the greatest idea.
Azriel :
Shit shit shit shit shit. Azriel had been freaking out since the last three days. Their wedding was in 4 days and Azriel still hadn't chosen his suit. And he was also panicking because he hadn't seen Gwyn since three days. It was some silly ritual from Sangravah that the bride and groom weren't allowed to see each other for a week before the wedding.
Suddenly Cassian emerged out of the trial room with a suit on. "You know, if I wore this suit to your wedding, i think Gwyn would loose interest in you" He said while fixing his bowtie and running a hand through his head. "You can wear that shit of a suit, I already have my suit decided and you're not her type" Azriel said through gritted teeth and re tieing the bowtie in a better way, and pulling it a little too hard.
"Sheesh dude calm down. I promise to not steal your mate", What? How did Cassian know? "What" Azriel asked Cassian. No one knew Gwyn was his mate. He hadn't even told Gwyn. He didn't know if the bond had snapped for her or not.
He had dreaded telling her. He didn't want her to think that he was loving her because of the bond. And he'd never told her in the first place because he didn't want her to love him for the bond. He wanted her to love him for him.
And now he was paying for that. "Shit" Cassian muttered to himself. "How did you know?" Azriel asked. "Rhys told me" How did Rhysand know? Did he look into Azriel's mind? No, his brother would never do that. Would he?
"How does Rhys know?" He asked Cassian. "Look don't get mad okay?" Cassian said while walking away. That was probably a good thing to do as Azriel was bubbling with anger now. Cassian continued, "Gwyn told him" And he flew out of the window.
WHAT! GWYN KNEW? HAD HE TOLD IT TO HER THROUGH THE BOND SOMEHOW? OH FUCK NO. Oh but wait. That's why Rhysand had given him "that" Talk yesterday. Azriel was surprised to see Rhys do that. But he wasn't able to stop laughing after that.
"Look az, I'm not telling this to you as your brother, i'm telling this to you as Gwyn's brother"
"So are you still my brother or not?"
"Not for these moments. Now listen, if you ever hurt Gwyn I would hunt you down and beat your ass"
Azriel while stifling a laugh asked, "Now are you back to being my brother?"
"Yes"
"Dude you wouldn't believe what Gwyn's brother just told me-" Rhysand leaped but Azriel was faster. He finally let out his laughter. Rhysand had chased him across the sky the entire night.
Well now that he knew Gwyn knew, Azriel was gonna do something about it.
Day of the Wedding :
Ahh, it was the day of the wedding now. Azriel couldn't wait to see Gwyn. Rhysand would be walking Gwyn down the aisle and Cassian was his best man. Let's just hope his emotions were not written on his face because he was a nervous wreck at the altar. "Dude calm down" Cassian whispered from behind him.
Apparantly it was the opposite of that. Mor was now walking down with Emerie at her side. Mor had told her secret to Azriel first and Azriel had felt like the most foolish person that day. Now he just feels happiness for those two.
Shit. They had already walked down the aisle and it was Gwyn's turn now. Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. When the music changed, Azriel saw Gwyn walk down the aisle and he forgot everything.
He forgot where he was, he forgot what was gonna happen. He only remembered her beautiful face. Her dress was beautiful too. As she was coming closer to the stage, his heartbeat started slowing down. She calmed him and his shadows. She was lovely.
She finally stood in front of Azriel. She had to take his hands. The movement finally brought him out of his tranced and he shook his head and laughed nervously. Her beauty was overwhelming.
Feyre was gonna commence their marriage. She started speaking but all Azriel could see was Gwyn's beautiful face. There weren't many people to see Azriel's blacking out soo many times. Only the inner circle was there. Thank god for that.
"Azriel, do you take Gwyn as your wife?" Feyre asked. Right. That was when he was gonna do something. He then smiled at Gwyn and kissed her forehead, worry filled her eyes but Azriel wanted their wedding to be remembered. He then got away from the alter and formed a group with Cassian and Rhysand. He then started whispering shit.
Gwyn started laughing, a laugh of relieve. And then Azriel walked back to her with the ring already in his hand, "they approve of you love because you are the only girl in this world that has ever made me so happy. You are the reason that I'm alive Gwyn. I'm alive and not just surviving. I don't know how I can thank you for that. You are the love of my life, and will always be. I love you, your freckles which are like constellations, I love your smile, your laugh, I love all of you. I love you Gwyn and I am honored to call you my wife, and mate" And with that he slid the ring onto Gwyn's finger. Gwyn had tears in her eyes. Happy tears.
"Gwyn, do you take Azriel as your husband and mate?"
Gwyn then wiped her eyes and said, "lemme think" And walked of the altar. She then went to where Nesta and Emerie were standing. There was also a curtain which Azriel hadn't noticed. Gwyn went behind that curtain and all the girls stood around it protectively. Azriel had fucked up. He ruined his last chance of happiness. He had ruined his prefect relationship with Gwyn.
Azriel had tears forming in his eyes and even his brothers were confused, until Gwyn walked out of that curtain, with a stunning black gown.
Oh god. Azriel was gonna faint. She was too beautiful. She walked upto Azriel, her head held up high and a playful smile on her lips, "You're not the only one who can plan surprises" And then she took his hands in hers. She was a goddess. She was the conquerer of him. She was the end of him but Azriel would die happily at those hands.
"Azriel, you are the person whom I love. You are my equal and we both equally deserve this happiness. I deserve you and you deserve me. The couldron could not have made a better pair. You have saved me multiple times, and I can never repay you for that. I will always be in your debt. I will be yours and you will be mine. I am in love with you Azriel and I know I will never be able to fall out of love with you. So yes, I do take you as my husband and mate. I love you" And then she slid the ring on his fingers.
Azriel didn't care if little Nyx was watching but he slammed his lips onto hers. As if she was the only source of his breath, and it was his last......
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