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its-your-mind · 2 years

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“oh clearly jon feels no emotions and is in complete control of himself at all times. this man is a logic machine.”

did we??? listen to the same podcast?????? this man feels first, thinks later. there is a strong emotion? get ready for jonathan jarchivist sims to act on it with little-to-no second thoughts. rational thinking who. we throw ourselves full force at the first thought that comes into our head. like, we are talking about the man who:

busted into the office of a guy he hadn’t talked to more than twice since he woke up from a six month coma, sincerely offering to gouge out his eyes and run away with him, and was Absolutely Gobsmacked when he was refused

was prefectly ready to let a face-stealing monster live… right up until it reminded him that it had killed his friend without him realizing (that “…what did you say” is one of the lines that gives me GOOSEBUMPS every time)

dove headfirst into a pile of evil sentient worms to grab a tape recorder bc he was so determined to not die as aNOTHER GODDAMN MYSTERY

let his survivor’s guilt from when he was eight drive the major decisions he made for the rest of his life

threw himself into a fear dimension of evil loneliness to save the man he loved (who had refused to speak to him for months) at the probable expense of himself who knows

had so much MALICE in his voice when he killed peter lukas like damn girl you do not get that emotional when you’re just killing someone bc they’re evil or whatever. there was Hatred there. go off queen.

literally was willing to sacrifice an entire WORLD so that no one would ever f e e l what he had to feel when jonah voicesnatched him

LITERALLY speedran a love story in like six weeks in scotland. this man was SO READY to be in love it’s ridiculous. so was martin. I love them sm

heard his predecessor was dead

came to the conclusion that he was next

what should we do with this?

oh I know

stalk every one of my coworkers bc clearly one of them is out to get me

committed himself to living in the archives forever bc he didn’t want to put georgie or “god forbid the admiral” in danger (has his priorities STRAIGHT he does)

oh annabelle caine has martin? and an artifact that completely knocks me on my ass and takes away all my powers? off to hilltop road we go come on basira we have spider ass to kick

threw himself into a coffin to save a woman who LITERALLY was ABOUT TO KILL HIM bc he just wanted to HELP and everyone around him was HURTING SO MUCH

was insulted when a statement giver called the institute stupid and immediately discarded all professionalism and clapped back by calling her wildly successful youtube series dumb

also immediately discarded all professionalism when disgusted by a teeth apple “we do NOT want it.” like damn bro this traumatized doctor brought this bone apple teeth proof in for you and you are too grossed out to grin and bear it

was slightly annoyed by the fact that martin was not the Ideal Assistant. Offhandedly mentioned on an official recording that he wanted an evil flesh witch to slowly kill his literal employee by a series of freak accidents that resulted in the loss of one body part at a time. this man has no chill whatsoever.

took so much satisfaction in killing jonah magnus. like jonah told him not to be dramatic and jon PROMPTLY started monologuing while stabbing douchard directly in the chest.

“I don’t want to die”

“Neither did they.” FUCK YES QUEEN GO OFF GET HIS SMARMY VICTORIAN ASS

sounded so SMUG when he told the eye he was gonna go apologize to his boyfriend. like yeah stupid all-powerful fear god I have a BOYfriend and I LOVE him suck on THAT

remember when he decided to doom his whole world bc he wanted to stop anyone else from feeling like he did? yeah that plan went out the window fuckin imMEDIATely as soon as his beloved martin walked into the room. oh, he’s in the world I’m going to be dooming? well fuck didn’t consider that part. welp guess he’s just gonna have to stab me. and then we will hold each other and declare our love and kiss and hope to still be alive and together somehow as the world collapses around us. our love didn’t save us but it was here and that mattered. okay list cancelled I’m gonna go curl up in a ball for a little bit. ty for your time.

#jonathan sims #the archivist #tma #tma spoilers #the magnus archives #jonmartin #listen martin got a list of unhinged actions #now jon gets his own list of no thoughts head empty only vibes #balanced #as all things should be

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sokumotanaka · 9 months

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So I didn't hyjack this poor person's post over [here.]

I thought making my own post would be the most logical conclusion. So it takes alot in my opinion to bury your head in the ground and pretend like you smart when you're so overly stupid.

Here's a discussion I had with a person where alot of alarming and stupid things were said on his part. @/crimsonxe

Well go through small sections, that's a lie, you know I'm long winded.

Here's a section where he states that writing about killing, maiming, and calling minorities bad isn't nearly as bad. I mentioned Miles calling Tifa a prostitute as well and I don't think he's getting it.

Manner of dress:

The problem isn't getting over it or not, the issue with calling remake Tifa a prosisitue is that she dresses more modest than the rwby cast, he has children with short skirts, no pants under and boob windows in frozen tundra. If he thinks THIS is provocative,

then him okaying THESE

designs on children is something he's mentally aware of! also weiss spends most of her time in that outfit in a frozen wasteland and then COMPLAINS about being cold!

Get over it? More like Have enough common sense not to post stuff like that. A wise man once said "just because you think of a tweet doesn't mean you have to hit send." (Also he says it's not fanservicey, need I remind everyone they sell a ruby body pillow, Yang always had her tits out and then as time goes on they start losing more and more clothing. Not fanservice my ass!)

Grown man argument for sexualizing teen girls.

"They don't go overboard." Here's a picture of a woman wearing chainmail on her bare skin in the desert, there's a difference between puritanical and horny silly designs after them saying shit like "we won't do the stupid stuff anime does" and then having the whole cast of female characters with their tits and ass out.

Also not to stun your pee brain, but writing racism as "If we want respect and equality then we have to forgive our bigot overlords and defend them with not even a thank you." Is stupid, that be like me telling you that if you want minorities forgiveness, go fight cops, or me going to england and saying that. Blake tells unrelated faunus to fight armed dudes and the writers are stupid. And the overall issue is HBomberguy was right! In his review he stated that he was afraid that a certain group of people would look at how the faunus act and go "yeah that's how They are" uncharitable takes exist.

And he was right a bunch of RWBY stans who were racist before vanishing literally came around going "boy did miles and kerry get you guys pegged, you're all exactly like this!" During the 98% most peaceful protesting age, well unless your a cop who wants to shoot out someone's eyes.

The LGBT pair (s)?

Yeah like the cardboard cutout guys miles pouted about when he didn't get credit for putting out there after people in the LGBT community asked when were the LGBT characters gonna appear.

The first Gay rep in the show was two unrelated characters we'd never see again after saying "characters" just don't promise things then lie forehead!

Or the second Rep LGBT character Illia! A woman who took her crush and was gonna- *Looks at paper* Send her to her abuser while also blaming her for dating someone and not knowing her romantic feelings.

"I guess you were too busy looking at Adam to notice me."

Yeah great first cardboard then a woman willing to kill off her her crushes family and blames her crush for not knowing she had a crush on her!

Oh how about bumblbee? With Yang literally saying she viewed Blake as an object and wanted her around for her solely? You know fuck what Blake wants! Blaming Blake for running in fear when WF ruin a nation and Adam states he'll kill everyone she loves and he knows exactly where her parents are? Perish the thought, that sounds like something a scared child would exactly do! But Yang goes "No despite us not officially dating yet I'm owed her time and presence.

Yang's shitty, and it takes how long for them to get together? They don't even wait until adam cold before Yang claims her, after abusing her mentally when Blake tells her Adam likes to make you feel small and she brushes her off and is like "stop talking to me." Then they kiss what? THIS year? 2023? In volume 3 sun's winking at her and she's blushing and smiling and calling him a dork and they're hanging out, and I'm sitting here going "Do some of that for yang? All they did was share a dance, have her flirt with her or wink, something." And what she compliments her hair once? Granted I stopped after 7/8 so I bet the best LGBT rep happ- This just in, I'm getting word from my friends in the LGBT community who watched rwby saying that it's dogshit.

Having tons of LBGT characters doesn't matter if you write them like trash I guess, btw the first kiss happened in volume 9 in 2023 and rwby started in 015 and again sun flirts, winks etc and they show alot of chemistry with each other.

Yang gets mad, demands blake be there when EVERYONE else is going back home too! Trauma dumps on her after using a laser pointer on her when Blake admits that she's tired of dealing with racism.

Like instead of talking to her, Yang treats her like an animal an laughs it off then trauma dumps about her mom on her while blake is already highly stressed. Doesn't even solve the problem btw. All the LGBT characters thus far (besides Jaune's sister and her girlfriend, they can stay, sadly they're trapped in a shitty show) are horribly written for no reason.

A second writer should look at these before they hit the screen.

Racism

He talks about a south park reference which I ignored cause it's so random?

racist dog whistling.

"Mika burton spun things a certain way." Nah there's tweets w of people admitting they fucked up and the achievement hunters go online , they bring her on a podcast and pretend to cry so people can feel bad for them. And good for her she doesn't forgive them. So spinning around? How about a source? Source can't be that you made it the fuck up cause that's not a source it's a sentence wasting everyone's time.

Also "Mile's isn't white." Aw man what am I gonna tell mile's white parent? Sorry some dude on the internet said your son can't be half white, sorry me I can't be half black, or Hawaiian, Sorry Miles because you look more black your Hispanic traits don't matter for the sake of the argument. What kinda of Juvenile , stupid statement IS this? He can't be white because you say so? But he calls himself white in many tweets and literally in the statement of writing racism in RWBY.

Also nice try, moving the goalpost means you can't lose. "I'm not defending him, now watch as I waste time defending him instead of finding a source against Mika's claims cause I'm bullshitting." I mean Mika doesn't even have a reason to lie, RT employees all admitted they heard and did nothing, Torian a black animator and editor also stated he had race issues with RT and Pat boivan from Castle super beast and pat stares at made a black joke that Miles and select few members laughed at in terms of them having no black or brown people working there. And they ignore woolie when it comes to sponsored stuff, he literally says this on multiple episodes of his show, and THAT's Worrying!

Point is if Miles himself is racist, weather he's white, Hispanic, black etc he still displayed racist behavior multiple times too many. He had a chance to say something to his employees, he didn't bother, he got nervous and waked off. He had the chance when he put BLM after the lashings he got and do something with that, change the company for the better etc, but he didn't he put it there as a band-aid and took it off when he thought people weren't looking.

I keep beating this dead horse because people like you don't seem to do research at all! Because in the face of it it's easier to lie, play dumb (pffft 'play') and make excuses for them instead of holding them accountable.

I didn't want to see RT burn down for a while, but they keep pulling a blizzard, and all these, tweets, articles, statements that miles or the others say or do that's stupid, harmful, racist, shitty keep popping up! At this point it be better as a lesson not to be shitty humans for RT to quietly burn, no special treatment, I'm holding them to the same standard I do for David cage, for activation Blizzard and many other triple A companies. If you don't wanna go down in flames, maybe don't do reprehensible things that keep burning bridges for you. Simple, don't be stupid forhead!

The real mornic stuff was listening to you try and fail at mental gymnastics and not provide a single source for anything you claimed I should "be in awe" of or switching the goal post. RT.s failing and they stacked the deck against themselves, THAT's why people hate them, statements like they saying that when yang drives down the crossroads to Mistral and people guessing she's going to Ruby only for them to like and say "if you heard the bike go one way." These critics, video's, and articles don't exist for no reason.

youtube

Pathetic, utterly pathetic, you boasted a big game , puffed out your chest and then walked straight into a cold clock and got your ass handed to you for several rounds. For someone who boasted about "getting in the ring" No flatter yourself, you weren't even competiton.

#rwde #rwby criticism #rwby #fandom wank #long post #Youtube

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sky-daddy-hates-me · 30 days

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When i was 13. I came home from ComicCon with a replica katana from a tv show. Unrelated to the katana, at the time, i was convinced that there was a ghost in the house. After telling my mom about a bathroom light flickering off, i remember her being like, "hmmph," and then a few weeks(?) Go by, and Mom and dad sat me down and explained what demons could do, how they could possess me and kill all of them, and not know i did it.

They had me sell the katana (my sister out of the house bought it) until i got it back when i was 18.

So the logic is; Demon sticks to random katana at a gaming convention,WAITS for someone to take it home (couldn't it just, idk, choose or possess anyone, rather than the inanimate object) comes home w me. Does things that are easily passed off as "we live in an old house, that used to be a grocery store"

Upon getting it back at 18, bringing it home.

Guess what happened then.

Nothing. Cause it didnt have a fucking demon to begin with LMAO

Now i would love to tell my mom how my Satanic Bible, my tarot cards, etc have all been in the house this whole 3 years now and not one of us has been slaughtered by a possessed family member.

Anyway, i wanted to share that w someone who understands. It took me forever to get over that, "this is bad. Demons are literally going to crawl out of this." feeling u have ingrained in you.

(Cant forget to sit around and think so hard about Jehovahs face too. For good measure. God, I'm thinking SO hard.)

Lmao, I've had tarot cards in my house for years as well, without my parents knowing for the most part, they did find one deck when i was 15 but some strategic crying and telling them i begged for jehovah's forgiveness was enough to convince that i was just holding them for a friend who came and picked them up a few days later (then gave them back to me at school). I used to draw pentagrams and satanic crosses on my meeting notes. When I was 13 I actively tried to summon demons in all 15 mirrors in the house. The amount of shows and films I've watched that my parents were certain would invite demons into the house is insane.

I'm also pretty sure there's ghost activity (vases falling off coffee table they were in the middle of, a porcelain doll somehow falling out of my bedroom window when i left it as far away from the window as possible, flickering lights, scratching noises at night) in the house and while I would love to see my parents reaction to that fact, I am not in a position to leave home yet and i would certainly be thrown out.

Apparently a friend of my family had a jacket that belonged to their 'worldly' son, and whenever they tried to get rid of the jacket it would come back. Eventually they tried burning it, but nothing happened to it, it came out of the fire looking almost the exact same. To my parents that's enough proof that demons do posses things. Turns out, leather is extremely hard to set on fire and is a fire retardant material, and their son kept sneaking the jacket back into the house.

For people who claim to not believe in superstitions, Jehovahs witnesses really do love to choose demons over facts every single time.

#jw #ex jw #ex jehovah's witness #jehovah witness #jehovah's witnesses #ex christian #ex cult

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pttucker · 5 months

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Among all those comments, a particular one caught her attention. – Dear author-nim. It was a great read. May I ask about your release schedule? Such an unparalleled naivete that made him use his real name as the username. Han Sooyoung stared at that name for a long, long time. She looked closer, and discovered another comment attached to it. – Are you… going to release another chapter tomorrow? She repeatedly clenched and unfurled her fists many times. Sweat was soaking her small hands. Is it really okay for me to write this? Even then, isn't it fine this way? Han Sooyoung hesitated for a long time, before typing her reply. While thinking about a certain someone, still alive beyond this screen. While thinking about a certain boy who'd breathe, eat, shout some nonsense about 'I'm Yoo Joonghyuk', and do whatever it takes to endure his own apocalypse. And so, the story of a regressor that reached 3149 chapters started in this manner. – Yes. A new chapter will be published tomorrow.

I WAS RIGHT!!!!!!!!

Well, I was right after I spent like half the novel convinced the author was actually Dokja. At least I wasn't alone in thinking that, considering Sooyoung thought so too. 😂

Though I do love that it's not at all how I thought it was. I figured she was the author and just forgot because she lost half her memories to her avatar and just assumed that Dokja wrote it because that was the most logical option that her Predictive Plagiarism could come up with.

Was not expecting all this wibbly wobbly, timey wimey stuff, though I guess I should have by the time I reached the end of the novel and all sorts of things in the beginning were being affected by the ending. Time travel. Dimension travel. Just full of paradoxes.

I loooooove though that the novel is "trash" because she has to speed write it as fast as possible based on vague memories while using Predictive Plagiarism (...plagiarizing herself...) because she only has a limited time with her own body and also because she needs to keep Dokja engaged, needs to pump out chapters as fast as humanly possible to give him his reason to live until the next day.

And I love that the reason it only has one view is because she doesn't bother to read it, not even to typo check. She already knows it has a reader. A paradox it may be, I love that the novel truly was written for Dokja and not just after the first hundred or so chapters when all the other readers fell off. Nope, it was written for him and him alone from the very beginning. Sooyoung already knows that she doesn't have to make it good, she just has to make it, and that in turn will save him, even if it dooms millions of others.

Oh man, Sooyoung seeing him in the hospital after he tried to jump out of a window and wondering where the heck tls123 is, why haven't they started posting yet, they need to hurry up and save this unbelievably precious idiot. 😭💖

Sooyoung of all people having to wrestle with the knowledge that if she saves one person, she will kill billions (perhaps trillions) of other people across multiple worldlines.

Well, actually, perhaps it's fitting that it is Sooyoung of all people because I don't know how many others in Dokja's party who would doom this entire universe of parallel worlds to save a single person, even if that single person is Dokja himself.

Like, it parallels pretty well with what's going on with Sooyoung's other half...she's the weird one in the group who wants to go save the Dokja they left on the train while even Dokja's incarnation is worried that they're going to cause a lot of harm in the process and open up another worldline of tragedy, which they all know Dokja would not want.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that Han Sooyoung is perhaps one of the few people selfish enough to save Kim Dokja at the cost of the entire universe and it's so interesting to think back on the fact that she literally tried to get Joonghyuk to kill him way back in the earliest chapters and now she's using Joonghyuk to save him.

(Oh man...when Joonghyuk finds out who his creator is...)

#granted it's almost difficult to think of hsy as yjh's creator because of all the weird circular time travel stuff #like...yjh lived as a real person because dokja read about him...dokja read about him because hsy wrote it...#hsy wrote it based on things dokja told her and things the living breathing yjh said and did or MIGHT have based on his real personality #...the personality that she gave him...which dokja read and brought to life...which made hsy write it later...around and around we go #like she's his creator but also it's almost like yjh created himself along with the help of dokja???#lol orv you hurt my brain sometimes but I love you #(also hankim shippers rise up! get you a woman who will destroy the universe for you!)#orv spoilers #orv epilogue spoilers #orv #orv novel chapter 532 #omniscient reader's viewpoint #orv liveblog #hsy #kdj

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flwrkisses · 2 years

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txt having to say goodbye to their partner before tour.

hello lovelies! with txt is on tour soon i thought this was fitting to post! i'm excited for july since i'm seeing the boys in texas!! yay yay! — anyway this was requested back in march... im so sorry for being inactive. i'm slowly finding inspiration and motivation to write again! if you're going to see the boys live please remember to mask up to protect the boys and everyone around you!

REQUEST: "Heyy, I hope you're having a great day! :) I would like to request: txt when they have to say Goodbye to their s/o as they leave for tour. Thanks in advance!"

GENRE: fluff, established relationship! idol! x reader.

✧*:･ﾟyeonjun

he becomes the poutiest boy at the thought of leaving you. he hasn't left you in so long and in fact, he's gotten so used to sleeping next to you that he was unsure as to how it would work when he was on tour. so, when that dreadful morning finally came, he couldn't help but hold you extra tight and give you a few more lingering kisses before getting up out of bed. he'd remind you he loved you over and over and over again until you grow tired of hearing his whiney voice. you'd have to be strong for him, at least until he closed the door because if you cried he'd probably break and stay there with you. when time called, he'd give you a long hug and whisper sweet nothings into your ear, promising to call you as soon as he lands.

✧*:･ﾟsoobin

i'm convinced soobin wouldn't make a big deal about it in the moment. he got used to seeing you everyday and having you around to cuddle when ever, so he didn't think to realize that he probably wouldn't have you at his side anymore... that is until he walked out of your apartment. he walked to the elevator with his suit cases ready to load them up into the company car when he realizes this feeling of missing something. at first he thought he was over reacting over something he might have forgotten to pack but it soon set in that what he was missing was you. he simply turned around and ran back to your shared apartment only to give you a long hug. he'd try not to make eye contact because the thought of leaving you has finally set in and it made him get teary eyed.

✧*:･ﾟbeomgyu

to be very honest he'd tease you the days leading up to his departure. he'd say things like, "when i leave you'll cry because i'm so amazing." which you wouldn't lie, what he said was partly true. although, when the day did come and he was standing at the door way... one of you found it hard to let go. that someone was him. as much as he teased you about crying and not wanting him to leave, at the end of the day it was him who found it hard to let you go and hold back tears. he kept mumbling into your neck about how much he'd miss you, and how you should come with him even though you both knew it wasn't a possibility. luckly, his manager was able to pry the male off you and get him in the van on time for his flight. as he drove off, he rolled down the window and yelled that he loved you and will be back soon.

✧*:･ﾟtaehyun

we all know taehyun is much more rash and logical about things. he'd be preparing both you and himself for the day he had to go. for weeks he had been making sure you'd be able to do things with out him, like open jars, kill bugs, reach shelves. he wanted to make sure you'd be okay without him, even if he knew deep down you both would be missing each other more than anything. because he worked so hard on softening the blow of losing him for a month when the day came you were surprisingly okay. just excited for him to come back as soon as he could. not gonna lie, taehyun lowkey wanted the water works, but your reaction was good too. he left a kiss on your lips and promised he'd come home safely before going on his way and waving at you before getting in the car.

✧*:･ﾟhueningkai

he is definitely is the type to tell you not to think about it until the day comes. he doesn't want his last couple days with you to be sad so, huening suggests taking one day at a time! when the day does come, kai knows he needs to be strong which isnt hard because he doesnt like showing when he's having a hard time anyway. he'd hug you tightly and probably hold on longer than he should showing you that he is going to miss you. he'd peck your lips and kiss your temple before giving you a smile. even if behind the smile he wanted to die inside being without you he didn't want to worry you. after a string of 'i love you's' he'd hurry down to the car waiting for him.

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abbatoirablaze · 6 months

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Surrogate Luna, Chapter 8

Word Count: 2.5k

Warnings: manipulation, coercion, threats of murder, mentions of murder, violence, discrimination based on designation, angst, a/b/o dynamics.

“Alpha…”

Steve looked away from his mate and towards Sam. He looked a mess, and had scratches up and down his arms. Steve’s eyes widened as he sensed the concern coming off of his beta in droves, “Sam…what is it?”

“Sharon…she-she’s lost it. She-“

“What happened to Sharon?” Steve asked, “Lost it? Did she lose her pup?”

Cinna felt nervousness creeping into her hindbrain over her alpha’s concern for the woman that he was formally promising himself to. She reached out to him, “Steve…”

“Her pup was fine,” Sam said quickly as he shook his head, “she drank the same thing that Cinna did, and both of them were rushed to medical in time…but she-she killed Brock.”

Steve’s eyes widened, “What?”

“Alpha…you have to come…she-she’s going crazy,” Sam begged, “I-I don’t want to tear you from your family, but-“

“Pack comes first,” Cinna said simply. She squeezed Steve’s arm soothingly and nodded her head, “go…take care of whatever is going on…but come back to me.”

“Always!” he promised with a simple nod. He leaned in and scented his mate, before kissing her temple and his son’s forehead, then he and his beta left the hospital room.

“Sharon…you need to be logical…”

“WHERE IS IT?” she hissed, shooting Steve a glare through the reinforced window of her hospital room, “WHERE IS THAT WORTHLESS PUP?”

Steve frowned as he thought about the pup that had been brought to him nearly two days ago by one of Sharon’s pack.

He was clearly born prematurely, but he was definitely also an omega.

The final nail in the coffin for Sharon, at least in her view, of solidifying a legacy.

She had managed to do so in creating a pup with Brock, but the pup was an omega male. Something that she, herself, was beyond disgusted by.

And in a rage, even though she’d had a belly full of stitches, she tore Brock to shreds over it. She killed him over impregnating her with an ‘inferior pup.’

When members of her pack had informed her that Steve and Cinna had a strong, healthy alpha boy, she went off the deep end.

“Your pup is safe, Sharon.”

“Kill it!” she commanded, growling at the man she had once been in a formal relationship with, “I don’t want an omega male with my name. Carters are not omegas. They are alphas or they don’t exist.”

Steve frowned even more.

He’d been all too privy with how the Carter pack family had dealt with omega males. She was supposed to have had an older brother, but when he was born an omega male, they slaughtered the infant and threw him over the cliff.

An omega male Carter was unacceptable.

“Sharon-“

“KILL IT!” she screamed, nearly feral from having to continue on with the conversation, “I know that someone in my pack betrayed me and they brought it to you. YOU NEED TO KILL IT, STEVE!”

“I’m not a savage,” Steve growled at the woman, “I’m not going to go and slaughter some innocent pup based on his designation.”

“WHAT IF YOU HAD AN OMEGA, HUH?” she screamed, her fists pounding on the glass, “WHAT IF YOUR BASTARD OF A PUP WAS BORN AN OMEGA!”

“I WOULD LOVE MY SON REGARDLESS OF DESGINATION!” Steve growled as he closed in on the area she’d been standing in front of, “to kill a pup…over his designation. He had no control in that, Sharon. And you know it!”

“Brock is dead because of it,” she spat, “that ratty little vermin put a faulty pup in me!”

“Being an omega is not a defect!”

“OMEGAS ARE WEAK, STEVE!”

“Omegas fulfill us alphas in ways that another designation cannot!” Steve said firmly, thinking of Cinna and how she was in their shared quarters, caring for the two infants, “right now, she’s got my son, and yours safely tucked away. She’s taking care of them both as though she birthed them both. Despite how you’ve treated her, she’s got no ill-will for your child. Omegas are what drives our packs even more than us, Sharon!”

“She-she’s taking care of it?” The look in her eyes was one so angry that Steve regretted admitting to her that he and Cinna had taken her pup under their wings.

“Mark my words, Steve Rogers…that stupid omega of yours will bring your pack to its knees,” she spat, “and you not killing my bastard will ensure that…you love your little precious omegas so much…you can protect them while I burn it all to the ground.”

“Is that a threat, Sharon?” he growled, angry over the intentional, subtle promise.

She smiled and shook her head, “not at all…alpha…it’s a promise!”

“You’re sick…Sharon…and you need help.”

Things had been uneventful since the birth of both Stevie and the delicate pup, which Cinna had named Peter, after one of her friends in the Stark pack for his sweet nature, that was a far cry from either one of his parents.

While Cinna and Steve hadn’t set an exact time for the mating ceremony, they had both agreed that they weren’t going to do it until Cinna was fully healed from her surgery, and had been cleared medically for the consummation of their union.

Something that Steve was beginning to get antsy about.

In the short month that they had both been parents, Steve found himself on edge, watching over his omega so intently that on more than one occasion Sarah, Maria, Wanda, and even Sam had to pull them away from one another.

Steve had admired the way that his omega mothered the pups. She was always attentive to both of them, and didn’t care that Sharon had been the actual mother of one of them. She fed them from her own breast, and bathed them with her own hands. There were almost no moments when she didn’t have one of the pups with her, and in the short times where she didn’t, they were always close by.

It drove an instinctual need in Steve to recreate everything that had happened over the nearly year long time frame that he’d known her.

He wanted more pups.

He wanted to add to the pack with his own legacy.

He wanted to keep her filled, satiating her with his knot again and again until they were both quivering messes.

And then he wanted to watch her mother them. He wanted to see her raise the sweet pups, teaching them right from wrong as she fell into the natural role of being a mother and luna to the pack.

There was no deeper sense of love than what Steve felt for Cinna.

And she felt every bit the same about him.

She respected that he had the pack to run, but lived for the little moments when it was just them. When he was watching her feeding the pups. When he was cradling Stevie in his arms, and telling him that he was going to show him everything he needed to know about running a pack one day. When he promised that he would give his son the moon and the stars, and he told the little pup who had no knowledge of the world, just how much he was in love with his omega.

It made her heart swell.

That was the kind of love she’d always hoped for.

The kind of love that after joining the surrogate luna program, she had never expected to find.

But that love, all the same, is what she came to experience.

So when Steve had told her that he had a meeting in their quarters, she offered to take Peter for a stroll in the gardens. She had wanted to take Stevie too, but Steve insisted on keeping his young pup with him.

“I just wanted to have some father son time,” Steve smiled as he held his pup in his arms. The lively carbon copy of his father gurgled happily, reaching out to touch his father’s face, “going to have a meeting with Sam, and talk about pack business…”

“He won’t understand what you’re saying, alpha,” she purred as she leaned in to press a kiss to her pup’s chubby cheek, “he’s only a month and a half old.”

“This will be his pack one day, Luna,” Steve smiled softly as he nuzzled her cheek. Cinna chittered excitedly and a low, sensual growl raised up from Steve’s chest. Steve growled a little bit more when he caught the sweet notes of her scent, and how he could smell the faintest traces of her slick, “omega…”

“The doctor hasn’t cleared me yet, Steve,” she warned gently, playfully pushing herself away from her alpha. She reached into the bassinet and picked Peter up, “and anyways, you alphas have your pack business…Peter and I will go take a walk outside and enjoy the perfect weather.”

“Let me call for one of the girls-“

“We’ll be fine, Steve,” she said with a giggle as she dismissed him, “let us omegas take care of ourselves for once…yeah?” He growled once more and it caused her to giggle as she looked over her shoulder. Steve frowned, “be careful, Luna…”

“Steve…you worry far too much.”

The shriek that tore Cinna from her thoughts sent a spark of anxiety through her chest. She barely had time to get out of the way as a blur raced past her and landed hard on the ground.

“YOU BITCH!”

Cinna ran, instantly starting towards the sparring grounds which were close by. She knew that Wanda, Maria, and Sarah were all there, as she’d just gotten done visiting with them.

Sharon was quick to get up, hot on her trail. She shrieked once more, making Cinna’s hindbrain go into overdrive.

She had known that Sharon hated the fact that Peter was allowed to live. But even more so she knew that Sharon had hated the fact that she and Steve were raising the pup as though he was their own as well.

And while a lot of Sharon’s pack were grateful that the pup wasn’t slaughtered, Sharon still had those that were loyal to her, and would often shoot glares in her direction if she was out with the pup, even if Steve was with them.

“I’LL KILL YOU BOTH!”

“WANDA!” Cinna screamed, already able to see the sparring grounds, “MARIA! SARAH!”

The three women turned, seeing Cinna running, cradling Peter in her arms, with a nearly feral Sharon looking like she was going to shred both omegas, regardless of their status. Maria was quick to rush them first, changing between forms to reach the two she-wolves that were still in human form before Sharon could reach Cinna and the pup.

Sarah rushed in as well, dropping her weapons and transforming, while Wanda began working her magic to conjure a barrier for Cinna and the pup to get behind.

“STOP!” she commanded, knowing the alpha command would work on the omega.

Cinna tried to fight every instinct, but was forced to her knees, howling in pain. She nearly dropped Peter as her body forced her to go along with the alpha command, allowing Sharon to close in.

But Maria and Sarah were already there. Maria took her head on, while Sarah created a secondary barrier between herself and Sharon and Maria. Wanda appeared and shielded them with her own little bubble of magic, before dropping to her own knees and checking on Cinna.

“Sarah linked Sam…Steve and him should be here-“

Steve’s golden wolf jumped into action, quickly pinning Sharon before she could shift. He growled at her, nearly frothing at the mouth because of his own anger.

“THIS IS BETWEEN ME AND HER!” Sharon spat, “THAT IS MY PUP AND HE DESERVES TO DIE FOR HIS DESIGNATION. IT’S WRITTEN IN MY PACK’S CHARTERS, STEVE. LET ME GO!”

The golden wolf growled once more, disagreeing with her, before he shifted back into his human form. He turned his attention to the woman that he loved.

“Wanda…are she and Peter alright?”

“I think so alpha!” she said quickly, “I-I can’t stop the alpha command though until I know she’s alright. Do you have Sharon contained?”

“Luna…free yourself from Sharon’s command!” Steve ordered, not wanting to wait. Cinna looked up at her mate and he gave her a sad look, “what happened?”

“She-she tried to kill Peter…she-“

“IT’S MY RIGHT!” she screamed, glaring at the omega, “I WANT THEM BOTH DEAD!”

“You’re done, Sharon,” Steve said firmly with a shake of his head, “I’m putting you in the dungeon until I can figure out what to do with you…”

“You can’t do that to me. We run the pack together, Steve.”

“Then leave,” he said firmly, “if you do not want to be jailed until we can figure this out, you will be exiled…you can take anyone that wants to go with you…but anyone that wants to stay and remain under my pack will be granted asylum.”

“You can’t do this to me, Steve…”

“I am doing it, Sharon,” he growled with finality, “you’re putting my pack in danger, and it’s time that I take action, before you destroy it.”

“Are you sure that this is what you want, Luna?”

Cinna shook her head as the tears started to roll down her cheeks, “I-I know that he isn’t ours…but he feels like he’s my pup too, Steve…I just feel like a failure…I feel like I’m giving up on him.”

“Hey…you’re not giving up on him,” Pepper said firmly as she reached out to her younger sister. Cinna looked to her older sister, and Pepper gave her a sad smile, “you’re doing what a good mother would do and you’re looking out for your pup…”

“We’ll take good care of him,” Tony promised gently as he came to his wife and mate’s side, “we’ll make sure that Peter is loved.”

“I know,” she admitted as she wiped away a few more of the tears with her free hand. She looked down to where the pup was sleeping against her chest, “I-I just didn’t think it would be this hard letting him go.”

“You can see him any time that you want,” Pepper said quickly, “and he won’t be alone…you know that. He’ll have Morgan to help show him around the pack. She’ll be like a big sister to him.”

“Morgan is a great pup…”

“This is for the best, Luna,” Steve said gently as he wrapped an arm around Cinna’s waist, “Alpha Stark is being very gracious in allowing us to place the pup within his pack.”

“He’ll be alright, Steve.”

“I trust you, Tony.”

The two alphas shared a moment of silence as Cinna looked to her older sister, “he-he likes it when you sing him to sleep…he-he likes that one song that mom used to sing to us when we were little.”

Pepper gave her own teary smile at the mention of their mother, “you kept up with traditions with him?”

Cinna nodded tearily as she sniffled, “Yeah…Peter likes hearing the one about where the wolf fell in love with the moon…”

“That was always my favorite too…”

“Yeah…”

“We’ll take good care of him, Cinna…”

“Yeah,” she repeated, sniffling once more, “I-I know…”

“You’re a good mother, Cinna,” Pepper smiled at her sister, “and you’re a good luna to your pack…with a good alpha to raise a family with.”

“Thank you, sister.”

“Treat her well, Rogers…”

“Always!” Steve promised.

Chapter 9

Tag List: @lohnes16, @prokey16, @tenaciousperfectionunknown, @teambarnes72, @mrsevans90

#surrogate luna #a/b/o fic #a/b/o fanfic #a/b/o #marvel #marvel au #the avengers #steve rogers #captain america #alpha steve rogers #tony stark #pepper potts #sharon carter #sam wilson #wanda maximov #wanda mcu #maria hill #sarah wilson

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toaster-trash · 10 months

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Do you ever notice how it’s only ever “mental health awareness” until said mental health starts making other people uncomfortable? People preach about suicide awareness until they have to actually face what would make somebody want to kill themselves.

Society has this thing where it’ll go on and on “reaching out” or for example “talking to a school counsellor” but the only image people have in their heads is some teenager from a troubled home, divorced parents probably, suffering from some mild depression, a bit of anxiety, and then they’ll comfort them and oh won’t they be the absolute hero, being such a good support to a poor suffering soul.

And of course, that hypothetical scenario I just gave is perfectly serious in its own right – of course no matter the severity of the mental health condition, no matter what the individual has gone through, of course they’re still deserving of help and comfort and love, and of course “mild depression and a bit of anxiety/divorced parents” is absurdly shitty to have to deal with and nobody should have to go through that alone, and yes, of course they should be comforted (although wholly without the aforementioned saviour complex.)

But society preaches about supporting those pushed outside the norm by their psychological health, but even then it fully has its own idea of what is inside the norm of outside the norm. Anything that falls outside that is pushed away and not spoken about, or, frankly, even viewed as depraved in some form or another. The moment somebody’s psychological condition starts to make people uncomfortable, all their self-righteous rhetoric about supporting those who need support flies outside the window, and society starts to panic. ‘“It’s ok not to be ok”, unless you start to make me feel uncomfortable.”

For example, yes, support the mentally ill until the mentally ill start to have intrusive or violent impulsive thoughts. Support the mentally ill until they find it difficult to communicate and function in society. Support the mentally ill until they can’t take care of themselves, don’t clean themselves. Support the mentally ill until they’re paranoid, until their thoughts aren’t based in logic. Support the mentally ill until they start to have hallucinations. Support the mentally ill until their psychological trauma disturbs you.

Support the mentally ill until they make you uncomfortable. If people start to be tormented by their own thoughts and the “vents” you expected of simply the four words, “I think I’m depressed” start turning into ranting that disturbs you, then they’re “weird” and that person is ostracised and left to rot in those thoughts. If someone self-harms, then they’re immediately labelled as “emo” or “doing it for the trend”, which is completely disgusting, but also interesting that most of the time this happens because society can’t comprehend the idea of wanting to harm yourself. Society can’t comprehend mental illness generally, so it’s shunned or seen as pathetic or laziness.

Of course, not everyone is equipped to deal with mental illness, and that’s perfectly fine. Some people may genuinely feel out of their depth and unable to help, and that’s ok. However it’s that ostracization, that dismissal out of discomfort or fear towards people that makes it all the worse and makes the people who preach about mental health awareness hypocrites.

It’s ok not to be ok until you fall outside the norm. Then you’re no longer human. You’re a disease.

Society can’t handle what it doesn’t fully comprehend, and instead fears it. It’s the same way with queer folk/specific different cultures, depending on your own/anything that society doesn’t understand, it fears. And the same is the way with mental illness. And when society fears something, it either becomes unspeakable, or it’s mocked.

#what do i tag this #mental health #rant #mental health awareness

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thejakeformerlyknownasprince · 2 years

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The fact that Marco is the one to suspect the Sharing is a front for Controllers only to change his mind after attending a beach party feels significant to me but I can't put my finger on how.

My stab at the significance: Marco's tactical brilliance and his willingness to throw that brilliance out the window for love of his friends both come out in the very first book.

Marco is the first person on the team who actually grasps the implications of Elfangor telling them "yeerks can pretend to be anyone". Marco's cynicism is well-honed, and it saves the team's life dozens of times during those first months of the war. He grasps that Jake's insistence Tom is a nice person who would never choose to help alien invaders — which is probably even true — has nothing to do with Tom's potential to be a controller. He connects Tom's and Chapman's and the cop's too-casual questions about "kids with fireworks at the construction site" to one another, and to the fact that the yeerks know they might've missed witnesses to Elfangor's death. From there, he sees the significance of Tom and that cop telling everyone they know to join the Sharing, while Chapman is the Sharing's area leader. That kid is smart, and he's at 2 + 2 = 4 before the rest of the team even grasps there's addition to be done.

However, Marco's also not nearly as coldly cynical as Marco would like us to believe he is. Think about him stopping Jake in the second before Jake goes charging off to get between Tom and Steve long enough to say "You're not alone, man" (#31). Or him telling the seal pups "Sorry," when he realizes the Animorphs ate their parent's body (#25). Or his very presence in the war, which he knows is stupid but "since all of you guys think you have to save the world, and since you're all my friends, more or less, I figure someone has to keep you from being total idiots" (#3). Or the fact that he goes behind Jake's back to help Tobias get Loren out, because letting Loren die is the logical thing to do but Marco isn't going to stand around and watch Tobias lose his mom too (#49).

Anyway, Marco knows The Sharing is no good. And Marco knows that Tom's a controller. That's pretty clear by the midpoint of #1.

But. Marco's also the first person to put together that they're not likely to get Tom back if there are this many controllers with this many resources to draw from. And he's the first to understand that Jake will not be quitting this war until he gets Tom back. And Marco knows better than anyone that death can come for your loved ones at any time, and that young people are just as mortal as old ones.

So Marco, Marco who calls himself "Mr. Ruthless" while he apologizes to baby seals, Marco who understands how bad the war will go but chooses to fight in it anyway for his friends, Marco who kills his mom to save his team, Marco who'd let humanity burn to save his own family... Marco decides that maybe The Sharing isn't a front for controllers. That maybe Tom's just pubescent, and that's why he's acting weird. That Jake doesn't actually have a stake in this war, not really, when you think about it. That the controllers aren't actually a threat, and the Animorphs should just stay home and wait for the andalites to arrive. And it's just bad luck he makes this call too late to save Jake from getting involved.

#animorphs #animorphs meta #the invasion #marco animorphs #the one and only

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dmwrites · 2 years

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Gem and Pearl were spending the evening hanging out and chatting on top of one of Pearl’s mushrooms. Gem was carving little flowers into her bow, and Pearl was braiding tiny bits of her hair.

“I keep dreaming about you.” Pearl said abruptly.

“Oh Pearl, wow, that’s forward of you. I’m blushing!” Gem giggled, wiggling her eyebrows at Pearl.

“Oh shut up, not like that you nugget!” Pearl shoved Gem slightly, face red. “Let me clarify- not just you, but all of… you guys. The empires. And hermitcraft. I think. It’s hard to explain.” Pearl’s face was set, but eyes nervously searching Gem’s face as if it held an answer.

“Well, can you explain it a little bit? What do your dreams entail?” Gem put down her bow.

Pearl sighed, thinking before speaking. “It’s like- I know that there are many, many worlds, and that you are in both empires and hermitcraft. I mean, I was too. When I sleep, I know, logically, I’m laying in my bed in hermitcraft. But my dreams are so confusing, because I can see the empires world, from above, like I’m permanently flying or something. I can come down and stand next to you or Jimmy or Scott or Sausage. I can see you work. And it feels like I’m being electrocuted or something. No one can see me, and I can come and go, but it’s really odd. You just accidentally killed three bees the other day, I saw it.”

“I did do that!” Gem gasped. It was hard, sometimes, to pin down certain memories of a world when you’re in another, but that sounded familiar. “Pearl that’s so… woah! You’re, like, magical!”

“Magical? No, I don’t think so. I’m just me. But I don’t get what’s going on in my head. It’s so much. I wish there was a way for you to see it so I could have another perspective.” Pearl sighed, putting her head in her hands. “I almost don’t want to go to sleep. It’s so exhausting, these dreams.”

“I’d love to try and help you, Pearl.” Gem patted Pearl on the shoulder. “I feel like there has to be a way to get into your dreams. We just gotta find the right person with the right stuff.

It took a month to find someone, and that was between hermitcraft and empires. The right person turned out to be Cub, who listened to Gem’s query, nodded, said he had no idea how that would work or how to help, and then showed up in her castle window at one in the morning that same night holding out a glowing potion bottle to her.

“Keep that shit hidden, and don’t even try to find out where I got it. If anyone asks you about it, play dumb. But all you have to do is drink the potion with Pearl, and go to sleep. I wasn’t here.” And he’d left without another word.

“So, you ready?” Gem was in her pajamas, sitting on Pearl’s bed with her arms hugging her legs.

“Are you sure this isn’t just some kind of Cubfan trick or something? Seems sus, Gem.” Pearl was holding the potion bottle up to her lamp. It was a silvery color, and really looked like something no person should ever drink.

“I mean, it’s the only thing we got.” Gem pointed out.

Pearl sighed deeply, uncorking the bottle. “True. Well, Gem, if we both die, thanks for being a good friend. I can’t think of another person who would be so willing to enter my dreams.” She took a swig, and coughed, handing the rest of it to Gem.

“That good, huh?” Gem asked, eying the potion. Pearl just waved her hand at Gem, encouraging her. Gem drank the rest of the bottle. It was awful, like metal and rotted food. She wondered if it really was poisoned and if Cub was really just a massive asshole.

She felt a wave of tiredness pass through her suddenly- she looked over at Pearl to see she was already passed out. They had planned for Gem to go on the couch to sleep, but she didn’t have the energy now. She curled up on the edge of Pearl’s bed instead, and let her eyes fall shut.

And then, she was somewhere else.

To describe it would be impossible- it was light, in colors that didn’t even make sense to try to categorize. Gem was floating, but it didn’t feel like flying or laying in bed.

And in front of her was Pearl.

Pearl looked like dappled sunlight. Like the sun shifting through the branches of a swaying tree, Pearl’s form kept softly evolving. She was dressed in a gold dress and battle armor, and then she was wearing a black hoodie and shorts. There was a halo behind her, and then startling white wings.

Pearl’s eyes were closed, but her hand was held out in front of her, long fingers extending towards Gem. And Gem reached out too, and touched her fingertips against Pearl’s. And then, she could see exactly what Pearl had been talking about.

There were two worlds here in this weightless nothing, one to either side of the two girls. One was the empires lands, as if they were standing above it all, watching from the sky. The other was Pearl, asleep in her hermitcraft bedroom. Gem could see her own sleeping form too. It was creepy to see herself.

A hand cupped Gem’s cheek suddenly, and she turned her head back to look at Pearl. Her eyes were open now, full of a deep, powerful light.

“Gem?”

It was Pearl’s voice, but Pearl hadn’t opened her mouth. It just came from this blankness around them.

Gem didn’t trust herself to speak, so she nodded.

“Is it true? Is this real?”

Pearl’s voice was everywhere, but still Pearl. It echoed around the space in a way that would have been more confusing if there weren’t so much else to focus on.

Gem nodded again. She had to assume this was real, because to think otherwise would break her brain. Just bring here with this Pearl was already so intense.

“Which one is… home?” Pearl sounded scared.

Gem stretched her hand forward just a little more, so their fingers intertwined. “I think they both are, Pearl. Always.”

Gem didn’t open her mouth, just through the words directly at Pearl. And Pearl’s glowing eyes looked right into Gem’s, and there was an explosion of pain.

——

“I mean, you’re asking questions about magic and dreams and gods- not only is that type of thing practically impossible to quantify, it’s also only ever going to be in hypotheticals.” Doc looked tiredly at Gem, which was fair, since Gem had burst into his bedroom at sunrise and woken him up.

“Well, then speak in hypotheticals then.” Gem said, leaning against the doorframe, making out the creeper hybrid’s shape in the darkness.

“Fine.” Doc put his hands to his eyes. “Hypothetically, if someone, a mortal, were to go into a god’s dreamspace, the mortal would probably be dead within seconds. Magic is not a secure thing, hypothetically. And dreams are even less so- gods, if there were such things, would not be bothering to reign in their raw power during sleep. Any mortal or demigod would be crushed. Unless, for some reason, the god was counteracting with a very strong magical barrier. But that would take, I’m assuming, the mortal equivalent of billions of blocks of energy. But we know almost nothing about the reality behind myths of gods, Gem.”

“Okay.” Gem nodded slowly. “Okay, cool. Got it. Thanks Doc.”

Doc lowered his hands, and in the murky darkness of his bedroom, Gem could see his robotic eye glow red, looking right at her.

“You know, Gem, people don’t come running into my bedroom at daybreak to discuss hypotheticals.”

Gem just laughed- it didn’t sound very convincing- and backed down the hall and out to the courtyard, where she took off in a flurry of rockets.

Now up in the sky, she could let out the choked hiss of pain, and look down at her hand. Burned into her fingers and palm was a crescent moon; if she held her fingers just as they had been when holding Pearl’s hand, the image became clearer.

Doc’s voice came back to her in bits and pieces. No mortal should survive such a thing. Not unless someone very powerful exerted a lot of magic to protect the mortal. But if that magic were to, even briefly, fail…

Gem closed her hand into a fist, winced at the pain. Pearl was still sleeping- she’d checked before rushing to Doc. The time she’d spent in Pearl’s dreamspace was already fading from concrete memory, and she wondered if Pearl would even remember it had happened. She wondered if Pearl would ever really know what power she really had. Gem’s hand throbbed.

#this is so incomprehensible I’m so sorry idk what it means either #August 29 2022 #fic #hc9 #pearlescentmoon #geminitay #long post

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DAY 121: reko’s homestuck quadrants

i know i’m a cringelord okay. i’m just sharing my thoughts on what i think would be placed where… though i’ve found it has been quite hard.

NOTE: NO MEN/MINORS WILL APPEAR IN HER QUADRANTS, UNLESS SHE IS AN AUSPISTICE. this is because all troll romance quadrants are ROMANCE-BASED: unless you are the AUSPISTICE in an AUSPICIOUS RELATIONSHIP. i’ll delve into basic definitions in my explanations for who i choose where… maybe

<3 (MATESPRITSHIP) : NAO

obviously nao is going to be her matespritship. i’m a naoreko truther. matespritship is basically human equivalent to the average romantic, dating relationship. they’re literally in love you can’t convince me otherwise….

<3< (KISMESISSTUDE) : URSHEEN / SUE MILEY???

this one is because im also a reksheen truther. i definitely think a valid kismessistude would be with ursheen rather than sue miley, as miley is mainly a joke kismesisstude because i couldn’t think of who she would engage in one with. but ursheen makes way more sense. kismesisstude is basically “toxic yuri” in reko’s stance: if you’re in a kismesisstude as a troll, you’re just in a romantic relationship with someone you “hate.” maybe hate isn’t the right word. more so, someone you aren’t compatible with. it’s black romance it’ll always be fucked up.

anyway i said ursheen mainly because 1) reksheen is life and 2) i think they would only establish the relationship during samurai yaiba, since after alice’s murder case she cuts off all contact with ursheen. therefore, with her attitude at the time towards her band members + ursheen’s attitude towards her, they would be kismesises. not a lot of lovey dovey stuff considering reko (during samurai yaiba) definitely was not down for that, and i doubt ursheen would care as long as she could kiss reko (little freak)

okay and sue miley… that’s just because of what she did in the manga LMFAOOO. girl they obviously hate each other and that scene was CRAZYYYY THAT WAS CRAZY…. that’s the epitome of kismesistude.

o8< (AUSPISTICISM) : REKO (AUSPISTICE) / SARA / RANMARU

okay this one i’m unsure of… auspisticism is a relationship in which a third party gets “involved” to pacify the rapidly switching matespritship/kismesistude between two individuals. so… basically… it’s like… ransara unstable & complicated relationship (considering the stressors occurring, they easily switch between loving/hating each other… or maybe it’s more of a one-sided thing) that reko manages and pacifies so that it doesn’t boil over into a permanent black romance shitstorm (aka really sour and bad/toxic kismesistude). in even simpler terms, she’s stepping in to mediate/prevent a possible bad relationship (no offense to ransara fans. just think logic route)

i only really say this because reko is someone sara is able to rely on throughout the entire game and, when reko is alive and around ranmaru, she is often seen pacifying/calming/reassuring him when he’s flipping the fuck out. which obviously helps his and sara’s relationship, since that’s supposed to be her partner in this minigame, therefore making him more cooperative.

obviously in logic route her auspistice role would fail, considering that ranmaru kills her and they would end up falling into that “kismesistude” (though sara would probably not be in a kismesistude with him at that point… it is still a romantic relationship after all) (one sided kismesistude i suppose) (ranmaru WISHES he could have a kismesistude) (loser)

this one is a reach though… because quadrants like this are hard to fill. she doesn’t talk to a lot of people, let alone pacify them. she’s usually the one being pacified!!! but never really in a romantic aspect, so… that throws her in an auspicious relationship without being a auspistice out of the window

<> (MOIRALLEGIENCE) : ??? IDFK… NAO AGAIN? URSHEEN IN A REUNION AU?

she genuinely doesn’t talk to enough people in game who could be her moirail. moirallegience is like platonic soulmates— but not in a “twinflames” sort of way. it’s still a romantic relationship, just also in a platonic way. really complicated way to phrase that. it’s another pacifying relationship, like auspisticism, but there is no auspistice here, and their relationship is not entirely platonic. like best friends who kiss each other sometimes is the only way i could describe this.

anyway, we don’t know enough about her personal life outside of the game to define a clear moirail, and she doesn’t talk to enough women of age in game to have a moirail (of which there are already barely any). so all i can say is this could be ursheen or nao again… even though they already have quadrants that work way better… sigh….

nao because obviously they’re basically soulmates. she pacifies reko and reko pacifies her and their personalities compliment each other, which is the whole point of moirallegience. but also they’re actually literally in love and this relationship is meant to be viewed more as platonic than romantic despite its romantic aspects, so… nao is still her matesprit to me

ursheen would only be a moirail in some crazy au where they meet up again and make up and they bond over the loss of alice or something. which will never happen in canon so this relationship is basically not possible. but in that universe… this could be feasible.

#YTTD #REKO YABUSAME #HOMESTUCK #did this make any sense at all

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ianitegal56 · 10 months

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It's done. Kuuga is finished.

Okay so about this show: FUCKKKK

Anyway my actual thoughts with my random accompanying screenshots (and be warned of length)

Kuuga was fantastic. Genuinely think that was one of the most engaging Tokus I've seen. The pacing? Phenomenal. At the start it's a bit bare but that's alright. It grows on you as the episodes go by. The way the Grongi are structured works really well with the format because it allows for there to be a logical progression in both power and story. Speaking of, the way the story actually brings up the fights with the realization of the killings being different games. They make reference to early fights because they matter. Even if the format is two-part episodic, it works.

I love love love Godai. He's the sort of person who you want to be your friend. His optimism all the time is so infectious. That makes the few moments where he almost breaks that much more powerful. To see his fist clench and then to let it go away to talk about hope. Gahh. He handled his own exit so well because he said his goodbyes, did the fight, and then just left. Riders and their fucking love of walking off into the sunset to fight their own demons??? I want to kiss it.

Him and Kotaro just walked off to deal with their demons. Love them for it.

Now the supporting cast;

Each is fantastic in their own right. If I was to go out on a limb I feel like each is supposed to represent a different and unique human emotion or experience. I can't explain why. Don't ask. Godai's sister as a teacher acts both as someone who has faith in Godai while also showing the child element of the show. (Riders are supposed to be the protectors of kids right?) I absolutely adored the early bits of tension between the two siblings about Godai's transformations. Even in the later episodes when the kids are fighting and they're forced to solve the problem without Godai that was supposed to show how people can move on without him to protect those smiles.

Did I hear tension with Godai? Sawatari is best girl. I'm not fighting over this and will refuse to say anything else. But anyway the chemistry between her and Godai as close friends oozed from their scenes. Their fights over Godai's overall transformation and his habit of climbing through the window was so... real. He literally stays to help her finish her thesis??? How can you ask for more from a friend??? And even in the end she leaves the window open ready for his return someday. Also I'm a simp for archeologists. This is non-negotiable.

Now Tsubaki is a goat. I am a sucker for the "I'm so over helping you for a friend but I'm going to slowly become besties with you" doctors. His stupid flirting attempts and way of joking bounced off Godai was just perfect, even when the latter was knocked out. Plus he was a man on a mission, who failed at getting the girl in the end because my age ass still loves you.

Enokida. The disaster mom of the year. Honestly even if her parts weren't the main focus she was really good. The show did a really good job of showing the real mental effects of a situation like the show presents and doesn't talk down to people about it. Even in the end with her very subtle (I hope not) relationship with Jean that sort of just blossomed was handled really well. The little confirmation with the Disneyland thing??? My heart man.

I also heart the other few reoccurring cops. Gotta love them for putting up with the bullshit. And trying.

So the other more minor characters, I genuinely really enjoyed and loved how the show kept bringing them up. No one was really 'forgotten' by the plot for a one episode thing. People came back. Godai's teacher is a great example, same with Miku. They acted as great vessels for the smaller episodes scale wise and helped with the fluff. Even Minori's other teacher friend that was pregnant. God she's a character I would genuinely write an essay on. The episodes where she worries aloud for her kid and still has hope was so good. Fantastic writing. And even she came back in the end with her baby!!!

breathes in,

So about Ichijo. I think as a deuteragonist he is perfection. The way he tries to be a stone cold cop who focuses on his job and overworks himself like Enokida who both poke fun at each other because of it. Being a cop lets him have those moments alone in the car having those brief times of doubt. The way him and Godai bounce off each other in this very relatable way was so well done. The show doesn't need to sell you on the trust they have, it just lets itself speak. With the way he goes after B1 and their encounters are so unique. Her saying she would be with him??? Gahh. And she even called him a warrior, a man without powers except for his quick thinking and guns. Plus he also rides a motorcycle?? Something is absolutely magical about that man. And I'm not just talking about the fact he was the one who touched face with everyone afterwards. He cares so much. He even smiles more 😭. The final battle was also so unique with their interactions beforehand. He is tasked with taking Godai down in case things go south and the trust just oozes out of the scene. The worry on his face and even the simple fact Godai never properly said goodbye to him. It's implied I guess but their last exchange was about watching over the other. Afterwards too with his apology to Godai about getting him involved just makes my heart ache. Such a strong character.

The reason Godai has both of his bikes in the last fight is because his bestie drove the other with him in the snow

Quick note; the Grongi are cool. Mad that the official subtitles actually have translations for their language but the other version doesn't. They had the lighting drip and the human form drip. Felt like a couple of them to beat anyone in a rizz off. Their actual monster forms were good but I will say I kinda wish I could've been able to tell their original animal/plant inspiration. Black made it obvious where RX was just difficult sometimes. The two leaders had so much presence. I mean she used fucking rose petals and had a white rose on her forehead with a red feather boa. Even the officer who stayed in the sides taking note of the numbers was so good. You cannot beat that.

The opening and endings were really good and the flipping of the verses were good. The visuals were on point too. The OST was alright overall with not many memorable tracks besides those.

So overall a fantastic show. I genuinely enjoyed it and would easily recommend it if you've gotten this far. I can't say more than just watching the show and I didn't even touch on the novel or manga.

9/10 or 10/10 depending on my mood. And I'll keep smiling for you Godai.

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granitenotgranted · 1 year

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I'm gonna need ur reaction and thoughts about the RaM finale once you've watched it

I only watched it yesterday so im not gonna have any hot and spicy new takes for yall but ya girl DID have some thoughts lets go (obviously spoiler warning)

thank you SO SO much for asking!! I’m honored that you want my takes<33

Listen I hate to say it but I KNEW IT WAS TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE!! GOD!!! 😭😭😭

I just need to come out here and say this but first of all I dont think Rick replacing himself was really a bad thing,,,, like at all LMAO especially knowing that it was Rick who made him I mean it was more than just a replacement he was made to be the grandpa he wants for morty but he just knows he can’t be right now.

I can fully understand how it would absolutely feel like a betrayal to Morty but looking at it as a viewer I mean Rick was fully spiraling, to me his intentions were completely pure. Also I thik im just grateful they gave us a time stamp for when the swap was made so we didnt have to wonder forever how much of Rick this season was Rick. He still did piss master, he still kept Jerry blissfully ignorant just out of good will, he STILL WILLINGLY WENT TO THERAPY. All these wouldve been out the window if theyd overlooked that detail.

Him recognizing that he was starting to go off the deep end again and not only removing himself but having his familys best interest in mind ( “Im no good to anyone until I resolve this” ) while doing so AND literally while mad at Morty is still INSANE character growth from where we started but this way is REALISTIC character growth. It was WEIRD how black and white the difference between literally yhe last two episodes and even just the rest of the season (which has famously been Rick in his peak good grandpa career) was. At some points it felt like I was reading fanfiction.

(Why do his knees look like that oh my god) Rick is fully capable of recognizing where he can be better, he always has been, he is not stupid *however* he is CLUTCHING onto the idea of being more logical than sentimental by the fucking neck rn. Men will literally build an anatomically flawless ai to be the perfectly calculated percentage nicer to their grandson and to be the man they wish they were before just going back to therapy.

Someone else mentioned this but ill also point out how much I appreciated just seeing Rick working? Like just in his space completely focused building shit with his brain and hands that hit the fucking spot. 9/10 times we only get the finished product and idk if its just me but I love when we SEE Rick living up to the Rick Sanchez tm reputation.

And Morty... my sweet summer child. It is not at all a shiny new take to say oh he’s so done with ricks shit we all know that but I really really want to point out something that I’m not really sure what point I’m trying to make with but have we noticed almost a switch morty flips when on adventures? He cried because Christmas was ruined like not even a full 6 hours before he was fully ready to kill a man while looking him in the eyes. Maybe the two were cause and effect idk bht I think that’s definitely something present in other episodes too this sorta “just get it done” attitude.

Also how much he sounded like rick this ep? That whole “don’t be too flattered he’s been actively trying to die” sounded EXACTLY like a Rick line I literally had to play it again. And the complete apathy for robo rick wanting to die until he ACTUALLY lunged himself into the void was also just textbook rick bullshit. Like grandfather like goddamn grandson.

The ending to me was a little disappointing tbh I think I was hoping for a more,,, structured? Cliffhanger? Like we dk what’s gonna happen in this storyline instead of the introduction to a new storyline yk? MAYBEEE I’m just salty we have to wait another year for more you can’t prove anything.

Rick being borderline manic ab RP at the end was my favorite it’s nice to see him just rant ab anything really and like not make some bullshit elaborate Halloween house to take his anger out but just legit vent ab what this guys been doing to him for the past fucking 40 years. I didn’t even notice the ep was over when the credits rolled in my mind we were only like 10 minutes in and I lost my MIND when mr poopy butthole pulled up again good to see he’s thriving (kinda)

On a final note when he called him Rick prime please let me know if I’m off but is that not an internet term for him? Like the fandom came up with it? Rick and morty writers are tumblerinas confirmed question mark?

And lastly: Neurotypical. Cooties.

#I don’t want to edit this post anymore than I have accept this or nothing #god I have so much to say ab robo rick too but this was getting too long #thank you for the ask!! <33 #rick and morty #rick sanchez #morty smith #summer smith #jerry smith #rnm #talk to me guys!! what do we think!!

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bigdumbbambieyes · 2 years

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(This prompt turned into a blurb I got a little carried away I’m sorry 😅 enjoy this little ficlet I suppose and feel free to take the plot points and write your own)

Reader and Billy had been best friends practically their entire lives. Ever since he’d protected her from a second grade bully. He was only a first grader, and she was in kindergarten. When his mother left and Neil turned more of his aggression toward Billy, she started leaving her window open. He’d always sneak out and somehow make it to her house under his own power, even if he was half conscious. She would patch him up and read to him or sing to him while his sobs quieted and his breath evened out.

By the time they were in middle school she had to patch Billy up from getting in fights as well as the beatings he got from Neil. She’d been harboring a secret crush since she was eight, but she knew Billy wouldn’t feel the same, so she stayed silent.

High school came around for Billy when she was going into eighth grade. It didn’t take long for him to become the star of the basketball and wresting team, and she never missed a game or match. Billy’s parents never came to even one. Still he hung out with her, even when his teammates and friends made fun of him for hanging out with a middle school baby. Freshman year was pretty great for him, school wise anyway- he was still being abused. They started dating, and hung out as often as possible.

Soon Neil met Susan, which should have in theory made him lay off of Billy some. But it just seemed to make it worse. By the end of the school year he told her his family was moving. She started high school alone with no one to protect her. They stayed in touch with letters and calls for a while, until one day they just stopped coming.

Her tenth grade year she was able to move to Hawkins when her father took a job in Indianapolis. Right before Billy’s letters stopped coming he told her he’d gotten a job as a lifeguard, so she decided to surprise him at the pool but she saw a bunch of girls cuter than her flirting with him. She started to think that’s why the letters and phone calls stopped, even though if she would have thought about it logically she’d realize it was Neil’s fault. Even if he had met someone new, he would still have called and written her, he would have told her himself. They would have still been best friends. Just as she was about to turn and leave Billy looked up and saw her. The look on his face told her everything she needed to know. She ran toward him, ignoring the rules of the pool, and leapt into his arms, crashing her lips onto his.

It didn’t take long for her to realize that Hawkins Indiana wasn’t a normal town. Weird things happened all the time. But still, she was with Billy, so life was good. They fell right back into the routine of leaving her window open, tending to Billy’s injuries. She walked the hallways of Hawkins High hand in hand with the love of her life. She lost her virginity and welcomed a daughter. A gorgeous baby girl with insane amounts of curly golden hair.

Summer of ‘85 Billy started withdrawing from everyone including Max, her daughter and herself. In late June or early July, her friends who had lived in Hawkins their entire lives came up with a plan to see if her boyfriend was possessed. They told her that years ago Will was kidnapped by the same entity they suspected was now targeting Billy. They used her as bait to get him into the sauna. As she watched El fight him she was scared she’d kill him. When the young girl threw him through the wall of the sauna, and he didn’t get up, her heart stopped, until Billy got up and ran away. Even though it hadn’t worked, she was secretly glad that he’d escaped.

Her friends decided to make their final stand at the new Starcourt Mall, and she could hardly bring herself to come with, but knew that there was a very large possibility Billy wouldn’t survive. She watched him attack El, knowing if by some chance he survived, he’d be ashamed. Not only for what happened today, but all the deaths he was indirectly responsible for. When he attacked her, and she could feel the life draining from her little by little, she didn’t fight back. If he didn’t make it out of this alive she’d feel like she was dead anyway. Only thinking about their daughter, the life they’d planned together, made her want to live. So she tried to reach Billy knowing he was in there somewhere. When their memories didn’t work, she said the one thing that she thought would reach the boy she loved.

“Seven feet- the wave… the wave was seven feet”

i was so excited to see such a long message in my ask box this morning, honey!! and oh, i am such a sucker for reunion fics 🥹 there’s nothing better than returning to familiarity after a long time apart ♥️

i have to admit that i’m not the best person to write reader x character fics 😥 BUT i did make an attempt because i must try!! please let me know how i did! other than that, i will leave this lovely ficlet untouched because it’s perfect in its current state 🤍

also umm babe, this is an entire multi-chapter fic you’ve detailed!? 😲 it’s such a rich idea!

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The air is hot and humid by the time you get to Hawkins Community Pool, parking your parent’s car as your hands grip the steering wheel tightly because you’re nervous. It’s been a while since you’ve seen Billy, or even heard from him, and you can’t help but wonder if this is maybe overstepping something. Showing up to his work unannounced? Even back in California you never did that. You always respected each other’s time and privacy, even if that time was usually spent with each other.

But. Your curiosity is winning over your common sense quickly, and while you still have the nerve, you kill the engine with a turn of the key and push the creaky car door open. It’s even hotter out in the open, sweat gathering a little on your top lip as you make your way towards the entrance of the pool, brows furrowed as you cover your eyes from the sun.

Getting in is easy. You pay whatever small fee it is and go inside, surveying the pool and it’s patrons, eyeing the kids screaming and splashing in the pool while their mothers pay no mind to them - no, they’re too busy paying attention to the lifeguard coming down from his seat.

It’s Billy.

Your stomach flips and drops, makes you lick your lips nervously as you watch girls immediately swarm him. He’s golden and blond, like he had been back in California, and he’s still stupidly gorgeous when he smiles. The moustache is interesting, you can’t help but to note - until a girl places her hand on his arm and he doesn’t shrug her off.

You stop dead in your tracks then, staring at Billy as a thought crosses your mind.

Maybe that’s why he hasn’t written.

Because he’d written every week, like clockwork. Every Friday afternoon you’d come home from school and read what he had to say, because there was no way Neil would ever approve of a long distance phone call. He’d update you on life in Hawkins, ‘Bumfuck, Nowhere’ as he called it, and he’d detail how he missed you and how he couldn’t wait to move back after graduation. But, you forget all of that in this moment.

You want to turn. To leave. To forget that this stupid spontaneous idea ever crossed your mind, because you were rational and this isn’t who you are, no. You should’ve approached him at school during lunch, but you didn’t, because you were too goddamn desperate to see him and feel that familiar warmth that would spread through your chest whenever he looked at you.

But, look at him now. Smiling at those girls, each of them wrapped around his finger, and of course they were. Why wouldn’t they be? You think maybe he’s better off this way. Adored by many, not by you. Maybe this is what he wants now.

Maybe that’s why he stopped writing.

That rational part of you reminds you of Neil, though. Maybe he’d kept the letters from Billy? Thrown them away before Billy could open and read them? You wouldn’t put it past the bastard, no. He had never approved of your friendship and relationship.

But then Billy laughs at one of the girl’s jokes and it’s enough to make you doubt yourself again.

So, you turn to leave, ready to leave this moment behind you, when your eyes lock on those ocean blues. As stormy as a rainy day on the beach, as they always have been, and Billy sees you. That look of recognition crosses his face and his lips part in shock, eyes softening in that familiar way that they used to when you’d crawl through his bedroom window late at night to comfort him.

It’s that single look that has you running to him. The shrill ring of a whistle falls deaf on your ears as you go, seeing him step towards you before you’re leaping into his open arms. He’s even stronger than he used to be so he holds you up easily as your arms wrap around his shoulders in a fierce embrace, pressing your face to his neck as he squeezes you tight.

He murmurs your name into your neck quietly in disbelief, like he’s afraid that you’re a ghost, before pulling away just enough to press your lips together in a kiss - something so full of yearning that it makes your chest ache. His lips are soft and warm, the gentle scratch of his moustache is welcome against your lip, and the scent of his sunscreen and cologne is comforting and familiar - like coming home.

And you smile into the kiss, relieved, because how could you ever doubt this? Doubt him?

Especially when he whispers against your mouth, his voice quiet and thick with emotion, “I missed you so much…”

“I missed you, too,” you whisper in return, feeling like your heart is going to beat right out of your chest as he pulls away to admire your face and how it’s changed, or hasn’t.

“Heather! I’m taking my fifteen!” He calls as he grabs your hand and leads the two of you away from all those glaring, jealous stares - both of you smiling the entire time.

#billy hargrove #billy hargrove x female reader #billy hargrove x y/n #prompt fill #bambiwrites #baby i really tried okay lol i hope i did okay!!

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snorkling-in-sodasea · 7 months

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Moments of Stupidity 4

Well, I'm not putting that quick recap anymore but I do wanna say, thanks to all the people who like what I post. This seemed as good place as any to say that. I mean, I'm someone who just wants to vent or at least let her thoughts out so it's nice that people are choosing to follow me or click on the heart to my posts or even comment. Anyways, up next!

C.H.E.R.U.B. -

Okay, so the TVs. I didn't think it was funny that Moxxie was made to be next to TVs for Blitzo to shoot bullets through. For killing his boredom. So I thought of it as dumber that Blitzo was just shooting multiple televisions. Even if they were cheap, I can imagine littles make lots so all those TVs together made for a damn good price. And Blitzo got them all just to shoot them as a boredom buster. They're supposedly poor or struggling with money so why the fuck do they just waste money like this? Fuck damnit...

Soon after, the thing with the 'hell quakes'. I mean, Viv never clarified if hell quakes were really a thing in her world - because from all the posts I read, she's not very good at worldbuilding and I don't doubt that. I guess I'm more invested in characters and their stories than the world they live in, if that makes sense - but I can still see Blitz being all 'is that a hell quake?' Feels in character, actually. I can still include him if it counts. But it does feel dumber when Millie tells Moxxie not to panic. Not only is Moxxie very clearly not panicking but he was confused if that was even a thing and then says that hell quakes can't happen. Again, it's never made clear to me if hell quakes are just a Wrath ring thing and Moxxie just doesn't know but, as long as I'm not told how it is, then I still don't get why Millie would tell her husband to not panic like he's having a panic attack. And I'm not sure about counting Loona going all 'stop being hysterical' because I feel like, in that scene, she very purposefully acted like she was freaking out just so she can have an excuse to slap the shit out of Moxxie. I guess I can include her here because there's a chance she legit was as stupid as everyone else. I just feel like how I interpreted the scene was more what that scene was

Blitzo bringing up to Loopty that the guy he wants to put a hit on will end up in Hell with him, and forever, too. I forgot this when I was posting about Murder Family but I'm wondering why Blitz is bringing up. It's probably more understand in Murder Family, given the context of that conversation, but here, I don't get it. Blitzo, you know that you're running a business to cater to vengeful sinners who want to get people they can't get to otherwise, right? Given that Hell has an population problem, then pretty much all the targets that your clients hire you to kill will end up in Hell with them. So why bring up that the clients' hated people will be in Hell with them like it's a bad thing that the clients shouldn't want? That'll just make your client base wonder what's the point in frequenting your business if it's like that. And I'm at least including this as a moment of stupidity because I really don't see the logic as to why Blitzo would bother doing this if it's just going to make his business and his services sound pointless to indulge in

Blitzo when he jumped through the window. Granted, it was funny and I loved that he got hurt but it wasn't smart for Blitzo to just jump through the window, especially if he just did it for dramatic effect

The cherubs for not doing something about the imps when trying to convince Lyle that there's good things in the world worth living for. I mean, the first time is one thing. Maybe the second time. But fuck come on, by the third time, are you expecting Blitzo and maybe Moxxie and Millie to not bring up something bad. Even when the imps couldn't, like with opera apparently, Blitzo and his employees were bound to. Sure, maybe the cherubs shouldn't do something as drastic or as violent as fighting them, but they should've made sure that the imps couldn't interfere anymore because they should've picked up on a pattern sooner than the opera house

Blitzo for having just his pistol or revolver or whatever (sorry, not a gun-savvy person). But I do remember reading on TVtropes that, whatever gun that is, it's a pain to reload and doesn't carry a lot of bullets. Really, he should've asked Moxxie for some of those weapons he carried. And yes, it would have been possible. Seriously, the writers had Moxxie have all those weapons he had in his coat or jacket and Moxxie's smaller than Blitzo. That means Moxxie jammed all those weapons in a smaller coat than Blitzo's. Because really, throwing the empty gun at Cletus was more of a desperate move and then Blitzo would have been left with nothing left. It was probably lucky that the episode ended the way it did

Millie and Moxxie for choosing to have sex while fighting cherubs. Who the fuck gets horny and desperately wants sex while fighting for their lives? What, did they think they were gonna die and wanted to go out fucking?

The audience for never getting the fuck out of there, especially when guns got involved. Fuck seriously, they never even tried ducking and using the chairs as cover. Even if it still wouldn't protect them, it would've still been something than just sitting there!

The cherubs for just watching the piano slam down on Lyle. Absolutely none of them even tried flying for Lyle to grab him and move him out of the way. Even if the piano was just gonna follow, it still would have been something

Deerie, her little posse, and likely Heaven itself for never picking up on demons roaming the Earth and killing people. If keeping up the masquerade was supposed to be important, then perhaps one reason would be that Heaven knows it when demons are unauthorized to be on Earth amongst the humans. Like with likely Verosika and Vortex and the cubi crew, they were allowed by Asmodeus to be on Earth but the show, at least at first, said that what I.M.P. was doing is less than legal. (Fucking weird that Hell of all places cares about legal but I guess some extent of rules can stand) But anyways, how the fuck anyone in Heaven could miss it, especially if they managed to catch Lyle accidently being killed? I'm feeling like that there has to take some level of incompetency and as a result, some level of stupidity

Moxxie at the end for not staying away from the walls in general and Millie for giving a fuck for those two times that he's under debris. For Moxxie, I'm thinking for the same reason as the cherubs in not detecting a pattern (but more forgivable given that getting crushed by something smashing the walls only happened twice in the entire episode). As for Millie, it's her beloved husband being crushed and struggling to breathe and she's not even trying to get him out. She's not even mad at the people who are doing that to him or ignoring him, and especially not at Blitzo who just acts annoyed over all the work that he's planning to give to Moxxie (in fact, I think I'll have to throw in the time of the rape threat in Murder Family because Millie was right next to them and saw Blitzo's face as her boss gave the threat. How the fuck did she miss all of that and still smile like everything's hunky-dory?)

Finally, I think the fact that none of the imps thought that Lyle was going down to Hell regardless. Seriously, Loopty's story had the line 'we tested on ourselves instead of the poor, like we usually do'. That really didn't sound like a horrible person to you? You thought that committing suicide was the only condemnable thing that Lyle would ever have done in his life? In fact, what the fuck did the cherubs hope to accomplish saving an old man they knew was shitty? Collin was one thing because he seemed to be naively good but the others had to have known so what were Keenie and Cletus hoping to accomplish from an old man they had to have figured since the start was going down to Hell anyways? Especially since that episode showed off just how strict Heaven is about letting people in there. Even if Lyle did a change from bad to good, the fact that he did bad at all - horrendous, despicable bad - is already enough to send him to Hell

#helluva boss #blitzo #moxxie #millie #helluva boss keenie #helluva boss cletus #helluva boss collin #helluva boss lyle #loopty goopty #ranting

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everythingsinred · 10 months

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Let's Talk About NatsuMikan: Mikan (pt. 35)

What a nice, even number! 35! We're not done yet, though.

Mikan is now faced with loss, more than ever before. Her fiance is dying and she's the only one who has any ability to undo the damage done to him. The only issue is that her power is finite, and she's just run out...

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Chapter One Hundred and Sixty-Four

We rejoin Mikan in a pretty confusing scenario. Hotaru and the other Class B kids are watching from the time window, Luna has just teleported onto the scene, Shiki and Kazumi always have an air of omnipotence, and I don’t know if Tsubasa and the others returned to the scene but he seems shocked too.

Whatever.

Mikan remembers Natsume’s promise to save her and his request that she wait for him. She remembers him kissing her nose. She remembers him alive.

He’s not breathing right now.

He’s wounded, bleeding, surrounded by fire, not breathing.

But his hands are still warm and his fire is still burning, which means he’s still alive. Mikan is relieved, because that all means there’s still a chance she doesn’t have to lose Natsume.

I love the denial and stubbornness. It's not everyday that someone comes back to life after their body shuts down, but don't give up hope!

Because she can’t handle losing Natsume. She obviously doesn’t want to lose any other loved ones, but Natsume has been a risk this whole manga, and nearly every arc since the Reo arc has shown us the lengths Mikan will go to to keep Natsume with her. She rushes back to a terrorist to keep him from killing himself, she uses her alice from all the way across the room so he can’t leave her, she nearly kills herself to keep him from being trapped in a dungeon forever, she despairs over Luna’s bullying and particularly the way Natsume distances himself from her, she pleads with Natsume not to die…

And yet, despite all of that, she still somehow ended up here, with a dying Natsume on the floor before her.

We get another taste of Mikan’s fierce optimism--something that started off natural but has since become her strongest coping mechanism. Natsume won’t die because of this, she says. She can’t believe that he won’t survive. It would crush her.

Because he’s still alive, Mikan screams out for him to wake up, to open his eyes. She starts to cry as she argues with a (almost) corpse--didn’t he promise to rescue her? That they would see each other again? She’s out, she’s here--he doesn’t have to die anymore. He promised--and he did, over and over, that he wouldn’t do this to her, that he wouldn’t leave her. She doesn’t want to lose any of her friends, but Natsume’s always been the biggest flight risk, so her desire to make him stay put has always been specific and unique to him and her love for him. ESP's warning has come up again because of lots of different people, but nobody's made her think back on it as often as he has. Natsume is, again, different, even if it’s only because she saw this coming and pretended she couldn’t.

His body is getting colder, but she keeps yelling at him, sounding angry now, that he shouldn’t give up and die, that he should choose life with her over killing himself for her, that he’s a LIAR. They were supposed to be together forever! He PROMISED!

I love her anger, how she's yelling at a dead boy, how she needs to believe he'll hear her pleas and listen to her, how her screaming at him is entirely thoughtless because her only thought is NOOOOOO.

And even though she’s still talking, her thoughts become nothing more than NOOOOOOO! because that’s all there is to it, a deep revulsion to the idea of life without Natsume, with every cell in her body rejecting that premise, with every thought incapable of accepting that reality. He can’t die because he promised!

There’s no logic to that argument. It doesn’t matter. Mikan isn’t making sense because this is something she’s been fighting in her own head since she started liking Natsume. Loving him only made it worse and now, after all that romance, the agreements they made, the kissing under the moon, her fantasizing about holding his hand, about going on the train and on dates together, about getting married and being with him forever--It’s all threatened, and it looks like she gambled wrong.

She then inwardly begs God to stop this, to take away the life-shortening alice, because it’s too cruel to Natsume, even if it’s a punishment. Natsume stood above a pile of bodies for her and she embraced him. Whatever dark, horrible things he's ever done, Mikan loved him anyway. Is he being punished for what he's done? Is she being punished for loving him?

“If it is not enough, please let me replace him.”

That’s right, Mikan is so desperate for Natsume to live that she would rather die than watch him die. Does this seem a little strange to you too? It should, because Mikan is simultaneously devastated that Natsume is breaking his promises to be with her forever, while also willing to break that promise too. If she and Natsume were somehow able to switch places, that means Natsume must live while Mikan is dead, which means she’s the liar now. Mikan told Persona he shouldn't throw his life away for anything, but she'd trade hers for Natsume. Ultimately, they are both willing to die for the other. Not just willing--enthusiastic about it.

“Give him back to me,” she prays, and this is Mikan’s version of Natsume’s “You are mine.” Natsume belongs to her and she doesn’t want anybody to take him from her. He is hers. She wants him back.

She swears she’d do anything to get him back, she’d sacrifice anything.

She embraces him and a large wave of alice emanates from their collapsed bodies.

Poetic cinema.... This was fated, the narrative was always heading here, it was always gonna be like this--beginning with the two of them, ending with the two of them. It was set up from the start!

I do like this part, where this panel looks strikingly similar to the first time Mikan used her alice with Natsume in the Northern Woods. They’ve come full-circle. Mikan doesn’t want Natsume using his alice anymore, but now she’s desperate to save him, not anybody else.

The hourglass representing his lifespan, representing her alice lifespan shatters.

Natsume’s heart stopped.

Mikan’s alice is gone.

More people gather her in the corridor and Mikan seems to faint from the effort of stopping his alice, falling against his chest with tears in her eyes.

Natsume’s fire peters out.

Symbolism! Heartbreaking!

Tsubasa has now rejoined them and pleads with someone to teleport Natsume and Mikan to the hospital immediately. Mikan has fainted and Natsume isn’t breathing. But the ESP, so consumed by rage and greed, refuses to allow them to escape, not even to get medical help. Natsume is now useless to him--and is actually an impediment, so he’s better off if the kid croaks. And Mikan will wake up eventually, and then she can finally steal the toxic alice stones from his body.

It seems like a fight is about to break out, but Luna finally switches sides and captures the ESP, shutting him up for good.

Chapter One Hundred and Sixty-Five

Mikan is temporarily interested in Luna’s actions, but her attention keeps getting drawn back to her dead fiance.

Luna’s change is very heartfelt and meaningful, and she confesses her love for Kuonji, an undying affection that she can’t deny even now. But he has gone too far. She’s changed her mind too late, and she knows it, but she can’t let him go on this way anymore. She sucks out his soul.

Now that the ESP has been incapacitated for good and the fire has gone out, everyone now joins the ruckus in the corridor. Mikan is still only focused on Natsume and now everyone else is too. We’re talking about a dead child, after all. Not a usual occurrence in this school, surprisingly enough.

The really interesting thing about this is that Natsume should have killed the ESP. Narratively. Because he didn't, it's hard to care about what happens to the ESP anymore. There's something much bigger happening, and it steals all the attention, not just of the characters but of the reader. The reason why this part of the story frustrates me is because nothing anybody does matters at all. Natsume gives up his life to kill the ESP and he fails. Mikan gives up her alice to save Natsume and she fails. Nothing matters and it all feels frustrating and hollow. So much so, that it's difficult to care about this end. The narrative and what would work best for the story seems secondary to the concept of shock and making the reader cry.

Before Natsume can be teleported to a hospital, Hotaru pulls a mechanical spider from his collar, a robot that would tranquilize Natsume if he pushed himself too hard. She had good intentions, but now she’s concerned that the tranquilizer might have hurt him even more. Even though Subaru and Tono are trying their best, Natsume’s heart is still stopped.

It’s not looking good.

Chapter One Hundred and Sixty-Six

Natsume is in a state of suspended animation and bleeding profusely. “Suspended animation” means that his body has entered a state where bodily functions are no longer occurring but he is not quite dead yet.

Kazumi approaches Mikan with her and Natsume’s alice stones, telling her to insert them into Natsume. The logic is that when Yuka was in school, doing missions for the ESP, she would steal alices from the dying, causing them to die earlier than they otherwise would. Therefore, perhaps if Mikan inserts this alice stone into Natsume, his life would be prolonged a little bit. He tries to tell her something important, but Mikan has already taken off.

I'd give anything. When someone said "Count your blessings now, before they're long gone," I guess I just didn't know how I was all wrong. They knew better. Still, you said forever and ever...

I think Mikan knows what Kazumi wants to tell her and it doesn’t matter. She rushes to Natsume’s side and swears that she would give all of her power for Natsume. She remembers their engagement, and his proposal, their promise to be together represented with the stones. It’s symbolic, then, that the stones now are her only hope at making sure they can be together forever. This is her last chance to bring him back.

She inserts the stones.

Or.

She tries to.

She knows exactly what’s happening, but the timing couldn’t be worse. She doesn’t want it to be true. But Kazumi comes up to her and tells her the hard facts: she has run out of her alice.

Mikan has had that feeling all night, that she was way too powerful, and releasing way too much of her alice at a time. The way she talked about saving Nobara implies she had that feeling even then, at the beginning of the night, that there was a finite amount left and she was reaching the end. She used her alice in huge quantities in the following hours and now, when she needs it the most, it’s gone.

The worst!!!

Alices are incredibly personal. Throughout the story, we’ve seen how much alices mean to their owners. We’ve seen how upset Luna and Narumi were about Yuka stealing just a bit of their alices. Class B’s horror at the possibility of losing their alices during the Z Arc. Yuu’s grief at his temporary loss of alice. Mikan is being told now that she has lost her alice, that it’s gone forever now. Alices are a part of a person, and Mikan doesn’t have that part of her anymore. It feels awful to lose something so important.

It feels worse to lose it now.

This was her only chance to save Natsume, and now she can’t even try it because her alice has decided to run out now.

She starts to cry. WHY WOULDN’T SHE? She lost her alice and because of that, she’ll lose her boyfriend too. All she has are these alice stones now, stones she can’t even put into his body. Stones representing the future they were supposed to have together that was stolen from her.

No more kisses. No more sweet romantic words in the moonlight. No dates. No trains. No wedding. No forever.

She stopped Natsume’s fire and now she is no longer an alice. But Kazumi tells her there’s a chance she can restore a little bit of her alice with her alice stone, just enough to insert Natsume’s stone into his body, to keep him alive for just a bit more. There’s a “but” there, that if Mikan uses that small amount of alice to keep Natsume alive, she’ll lose the chance to be an alice again. She’ll have to leave the school for good. She won’t even be able to see him, if that’s the case--

Instant relief, as temporary as it is.

She doesn’t care. She grabs the stone. She absorbs her own power and she cries, even smiling for a bit. Like I said, alices are important. I do believe Natsume is one of the few people who doesn’t have any positive feelings about his alice. Despite all of Mikan’s insecurities, she loves her alice. Because of her alice she was able to follow Hotaru, able to make so many friends and meet Natsume, able to save the people she cares about time and time again, able to make a difference. She has changed and grown because of her time at Alice Academy, because she had an alice. It’s a huge part of her, even if she didn’t know she had it for very long. She gets it back for even just a moment, and she cries in relief. It’s a lovely feeling, to have it back, even if it is tragically temporary. Her instant smile of relief at absorbing the stone makes me think that she already knew deep down that she had lost her alice already. It was a feeling she had.

Now she has it back! Her very important, meaningful alice, a part of her she never wants to lose!

But there’s something else she wants to keep even more.

“Natsume, I give all my alice to you.”

Mikan gives up her alice, her friends, her connections--all of it, for Natsume to live. She knows she won’t even be able to see him after this. She’ll have to leave the school. She’ll have to go far away and never see him. He might die during that time anyway. It doesn’t matter. She wants him to live. They were going to get married, and she’s still intent on that coming true. She wants him to come back and live, no matter what happens, no matter what the price is.

“I don’t care what I’ll lose for this wish to be granted.”

“Natsume, I love you more than anyone else.”

This is so sweet and intimate, it's strange that they're only twelve. Children shouldn't have to go through this.

Mikan makes the ultimate sacrifice for Natsume here. She gives him all she has in the effort to keep him alive. When Mikan first came to this school, Narumi made a comment about her being Natsume’s “key.” From the beginning, the narrative has set this event up, that Mikan would eventually save Natsume’s life, specifically in regards to his own alice. “Maybe, there’s someone out there in need of your alice,” Narumi said on her first day, on a panel of Natsume. We knew from the beginning that we’d eventually end up here, with Natsume on the brink of death and Mikan being the only one who can save him. This was always meant to happen.

There’s fate, and then there’s the narrative. You can argue about fate being real, but narratives only exist in books. There is a clear narrative from the start, pairing Natsume and Mikan together, putting their destinies on the same track, with their alices being inexplicably connected in a meaningful way, with Natsume being the only person who made her feel like her nullification alice was worth something, with Mikan's alice hinted as the only thing that might bring Natsume relief from his own alice.

I love everything about Mikan’s scenes with Natsume up to this point.

I hate everything after.

Conclusion

Mikan is giving up everything she has for Natsume to live. This is what the manga has been building up to since she first met him, something the narrative has been preparing us for since the beginning. The narrative says Mikan should save Natsume here. I'm tolerant of the story up to this point. I have my issues, but narrative-wise, I can accept what happens. After this specific part, that changes.

I'm posting in a manner that will bring me to 40 total parts. For Zoe's and Crim's sake since they thought 38 and 39 would be terrible. The next few parts might be short as a result but maybe that'll make them easier to read. I'll try posting once a day until this essay is complete. Thanks for understanding.

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