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annie-thyme · 13 days
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and once again I am suddenly overwhelmed with an intense feeling of not really fitting into a gender
#honestly I don't even know what this is about I just saw some stories on insta and it's like oh look#she is so proud to be a woman whoa ppl...actually do that huh#and I just realised I never really felt that way like. not fully!! maybe a bit of that yeah but not to this full extent of this#womanhood thing#and I mean yeah I probably felt more of it in my teens and like 20s but it only just occurred to me that it's never been to this full extent#of being womanly and motherly and nurturing etc etc#and now I do not feel like that art all I mean I mostly am a creachur. a divine being. if you will. a freak#and I love it tomorrow I'm gonna go try on some skirts which I haven't done in ages and I'm definitely gonna be doing it in a queer way#not in a girl way#anyway#I know this is really weird going on tag rants here where nobody except a few of my mutuals (hey guys love you lots thought u should know)#is gonna see let alone read this but I really don't have anyone irl to talk to abt gender stuff and I mean I tried?#but just idk. ppl don't get it? like everyone in my life already knows I'm queer and they sorta hand wave it away like that is too#complicated and not that important - and it isn't!! but it also is!#I think they might have been more understanding and sympathetic if I were trans but I'm not and being nonbinary is somehow too difficult for#them to grasp idk#and when I say I don't want to be a different gender and feel increasingly outside and to the left of my assigned gender the more I think#about it they just. do not get it. and it is kinda discouraging and leaves me feeling like not talking about it with them ever#I don't know why I'm writing all this tbh#gender#queer things
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miks-delusional-blog · 4 months
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Just hold my hand - Mizu x fem! reader
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Tags: fluff, very minor angst (not really angst?) Idk how to tag sorry I’m a noob, Mizu just being a bit anxious, that’s as angsty as it gets
Notes: In 2nd person (you), 858 words, Mizu x Fem! reader
Context: you and Mizu are friends(?) with romantic tension (I'm projecting).
Little A/N: lmao ran out of fanfics to read so I wrote one!
Guys I haven't written fanfic (and posted it) since I was 14 YEARS OLD. I'm 20. The passage of time is so scary.
I'm open to criticism but please be gentle.
Enjoy <3 Love Yamz x
It was a cold day. Just a few days after the new year. The golden sun slowly travelled over the horizon, the moon and stars chasing after. You and Mizu were walking through a bustling crowded street, lined with street vendors. 
The two of you walked together, slightly trailing behind her. Occasionally you’d remark,
“Those steamed buns smell so good, we should come back here later!”
“Woah…”
“Ooh, that’s so cool, don’t you think?”
“Isn’t that bracelet cute?”
And Mizu would hum in reply, nodding and agreeing with you nonchalantly. 
As the two of you continued through the street, it seemed to get busier and louder. Your voice was getting quieter as everyone else got louder, their conversations drumming against Mizu’s ears. As Mizu walked, a necklace caught her eye. One she expected you’ll comment on.
But she’s met with silence.
Mizu, a little confused, turns back to look at you, but you’re not there. She looks around, walking back the way she came. She scanned the stalls but she couldn't see you. It didn’t help that the street had gotten busier.
‘Where are you?’ she thinks.
Before she realised, she became frantic. Barging through the crowd, she called out for you, her head whipping around just for a glimpse of you.
‘Where are you?’
Did something happen?
Maybe you got lost. Or maybe you had gotten distracted.
Had you been taken without her realising? There’s no way. She would have noticed. Right?
Had you abandoned her? No, there’s no way…
Desperate, Mizu began asking people if they had seen you. They’d brush her off, or roll their eyes, but she didn’t care. 
‘Where the hell are you?’
Mizu pulled herself to the side of the street. She felt her heartbeat thumping in her ears. She needed to calm down. Collect herself. You couldn’t have gone far. Why had she gotten so worked up about you? You’re not a child.
She let out a sigh to calm her breathing. She scanned the crowd again. 
‘How could I let the thought of her get me so rattled? Fucking ridiculous.’ She thought, gritting her teeth.
‘Where the fuck is she? That brat. Always fucking wandering off…’ finally her eyes settled on your figure.
You hadn’t spotted her yet. Mizu watched as you looked around at the busy crowd with nervous eyes. 
In a way it comforted her. Your nervous form, looking around for her. It quelled her previous anxieties of you possibly being kidnapped or of your abandonment. Mizu smirked a little at your image.
“Mizu!” You called out with a wavering voice, still not seeing her. 
‘This feels a little sadistic now.’ Mizu chuckled to herself. She walked over to you, pushing through the crowd.
Mizu called out to you when she was a lot closer. 
“Mizu? Mizu!” your face lights up when you spot her, relief washing over you. You ran up to her, hugging her before pulling away slightly, remembering how that wasn’t her thing. “Oh right sorry-”
To your surprise, she pulls you back into her embrace. She lowers her head close to your ear, “Where the hell did you go?” Her words are sharp but her voice is unexpectedly soft.
“Sorry, I got distracted. I saw something at a stall and I called out to you, and I thought you heard me so I went over. But, we got separated.” You said, feeling a little embarrassed. 
Mizu lets out a sigh, her eyebrows knit slightly. “Why didn’t you just tap me or something?”
You look at her puzzled, “But, you don't like being touched.”
“I don’t mind if it’s you.” She barks, a little frustrated. You flinch a little at her tone. Realising her harshness she let out another breath trying to calm down. She stepped back, separating from you. You felt the absence of her warmth.
“Look,” she began crossing her arms, “I’d rather you touch me for two seconds than having to spend an hour looking for you. You’re lucky that you just wandered off this time. Next time we get separated like that, I’m not gonna come looking for you. I don’t care if you get kidnapped or swallowed by the earth.” 
You felt yourself heat up in embarrassment. Averting eye contact, “sorry…” 
“I need to get you a bell so I don’t lose you. In the meantime…” Mizu held out her hand towards you.
You paused, looking down at it a little confused.
She rolls her eyes, “Just take my hand.”
You abided immediately.
The two of you began walking down the bustling street, hand in hand. Her hands were cold and rough but being so close to her made you feel warm and safe.
After a moment of reflecting on your conversation, “Mizu?”
“Yeah?” she glanced over at you.
“Did you think I got kidnapped?” You enquired. 
She briefly paused, “It was a possibility that crossed my mind.”
You smiled, beaming “Oh…you really do care about me.”
“Shut up. Don't be a brat.” 
You laughed, bumping her shoulder softly. She rolled her eyes, looking away from you. But still she smirks, shifting her grip in your warm and soft hand.
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daichiduskdrop · 10 months
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Chapter 21
Pairing: BTS Ot7 X fem! reader
Genre: A/B/O AU, Fluff, Angst, Strangers to lovers,
Warnings: none!
Words: 3390
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„And what about Barbie? The movie came out not too long ago; have you seen it yet?” Yuki asked, his voice airy and happy.
The short boy held tight on to Moonsik's hand, pulling the older beta after himself. He could already smell the comfort the Omega Store brought him.
„No, not yet, have you?” You asked, looking up at him. He shook his head. „No, I haven't. We were supposed to go with the pack, but we had been quite busy, so it didn't work out yet."
You could hear just the slightest disappointment in his voice, but it didn't take too long for him to brighten up.
„We will go soon; don't worry, baby.” Moonsik spoke calmly, ruffling up the already messy hair Yuki had.
And so, you all entered the store, where many high-quality beddings of all different sizes and patterns were neatly stocked on the tall shelves.
The omega led the way right away, pulling his mate along and mumbling something about the new silk line of sheets. While their pack certainly wasn't poor; the beta realised well that they still had to keep up with a budget set earlier, but there was no harm in looking around.
He would make sure to keep their own omega in check, though, making sure he wouldn't go overboard with things. Of course he would let him get new things for his nest; who was he to say no?
„Princess, where would you like to go first?” You looked back at the alpha, his smile soft. He couldn't help but coo to himself at you; you looked precious.
You really were, though, for them anyway.
Taking a few short steps towards you, Jimin's soft hands went around your cheeks, gently giggling at how squishy and soft they were. You were adorable.
„How about we look at the blankets first?” Pulling you from his younger packmate, Hobi took your hand in his, your other palm still in the packalpha's.
Leading you towards the large quilt, duvet, and blanket section, there were much too many to choose from. Ranging from all different sizes and prints, there were cheaper ones and also more pricey ones from the more luxurious line, which the alphas were quite interested in.
Looking over at the tall, folded fabrics first, you couldn't help but  brush your fingers over a brown and white wool throw. It had a few threads cut neatly at the end, reminding you of pretty scarves.
„Come here, look at this one bunbun! It's so soft; here, baby, touch it!” The youngest alpha gasped out, picking up the carefully folded item before he skipped over to the three of you.
Setting your hands free, you gingerly ran your palm over the clean white duvet; the fabric was truly soft and nice to touch. Squeezing it softly, you could tell it was filled with feathers, therefore it would be expensive.
You hummed gently, nodding to Jungkook. It certainly was soft; that was true. Beaming at you, the alpha happily placed it back before he selected a much bigger size in a plastic, scent-free packaging.
Your eyes widened a little bit, not realising that Jungkook would just like that decide to take something to buy, solemnly based on your small smile and nod.
„What-? N-no, you ca-can't just-” You whispered out, shocked to your core. You noticed the price tag; it was over a million ₩ for god's sake! That was way too much on a simple duvet, plus you already had one too!
The man turned to you after placing the package into a cart pushed by Yoongi. „What do you mean, honeybun? Don't you want to have your own little nest?” He walked back over to you, bending to look closer at your face.
His eyes seemed so big and sweet, pulling at your heart strings. You suddenly felt shy, looking away.
„...I don't ne-nest, oppa." You whined out, having the packmate's closest by turning to look at you, hearing your soft distress. Pulling you to himself quickly, Jungkook lightly rubbed your back, scenting you a bit.
„I know sweet bunny, I know. But I think you should maybe try a little; you're such a good girl for alphas aren't you? When was the last time you did?” He asked, being mindful not to be too loud.
There weren't that many people in the store, but still, they wanted to avoid any commotion if possible. You looked away again, Hobi's fingers gently running through your hair to calm you down further.
„I don't know...” You whispered out, truly not sure. It was quite a long time, for sure. You had definitely brought some nesting materials for your grandfather's funeral, but since they carried a lot of your family's scents, you must have stopped using them soon after.
You heard Hoseok sigh out a bit. They weren't angry or disappointed at you; they would never, but still, it wasn't too healthy, worrying them to their very core.
While nesting was a quite usual act for omega's to do, it also always placed them in a very vulnerable position. A nest was only to be touched and entered after the omega's approval, and until then it was a forbidden fruit.
Not everyone understood that well, and a lot of them could end up scarred and too worried to build a nest for the rest of their lives.
It was a very important thing to do so, not just a silly tradition to use for heats and ruts. It ran in the people's blood, provided a safe spot for the pack's future pups if possible, and was therefore the most guarded spot of all pack houses.
Not only did it hold their littlest babies, it would much more likely hold their precious omega, which needed to be protected and guarded at all times.
And if not built from time to time on natural instincts, it could only mean that the person would end up more stressed and worried over time, leading to possible health issues.
Now that the pack has started the courting process with you, they have realised that it would be a rather good idea to get a separate room with the solemn purpose of a nest, hopefully made by you.
And so, as they were preparing to start the den, the other guest room they had would soon be transformed into one. They would still need to buy quite a few things, and so this stop at the store was a helpful start.
They might not get everything right away, but it would be a good thing to look around for now. And to especially take note of the things you like and what isn't up your alley.
„It's okay, peaches. You can always try again, hm? Alphas will always keep you safe, baby; don't worry.” Jin smiled softly at you, also pulling you to his chest for a beat or two.
„...Thank you, oppa." You mumbled out, your cheek squished up against his body. He chuckled softly at you, gently petting your hair before he pulled away.
„How about we take a look at the bed posts?” You nodded gratefully, gladly letting the alpha pull you after himself, a few of them trailing after you.
The large open section was filled with beds of all different sizes and shapes. Showcasing the mattress options and the many duvets, pillows, and covers, it held many different types.
And so you all looked around for a few minutes, walking through the wooden posts and the metal ones too. You always wanted to have a very cosy room to nest in, but considering how cramped your apartment was, it never looked that way; the room was only messy.
You weren't too sure about what the packmates would be interested in having their den look like; there were many styles, and each pack had a much different one.
While some enjoyed the bright and light room and the colourful sheets with many patterns, others preferred having a more casual look with posters or mirrors hung up.
You didn't really get to see any proper dens in your life, but you always enjoyed the more sleepy-looking ones—dark, comfortable sheets that just made you sleepy looking at them.
„We haven't measured the room yet, but which one do you like the best?" The packalpha asked, bended over to be face-to-face with you. His warm palms were at the arms of your pink coat, gently running over the fabric comfortingly.
It was quite a big store with many scents, and while the facemasks helped with being overwhelmed, the alphas were still on a constant watch over you entering a sudden drop.
You looked back over the many options. You weren't too sure exactly what you liked the most. There were simpler solid wood ones with a bed base only, and then a few of the much more complicated-looking ones, with the four posters, those were definitely meant to feed into the more natural instincts of many omegas.
You also really liked the look of the platform bed frames; the mattress is simply placed over the step of wood. It looked sleek and timeless.
You shrugged your shoulders, having the alpha softly pull you to himself once again. He could tell you were overwhelmed by the many options, sighing gently.
„It's okay, sweetheart. Do you prefer the wooden or metal ones, pup? We can go from there. Alpha will help you baby.” He smiled softly at you, encouraging you to make a much simpler decision.
„...I think I like the w-wood better." You said, your chin resting over the alpha's collarbone. He smiled widely, his dimples showing. You couldn't see them, though, with the mask covering it all up.
„Good job, sweetie. And what shape do you like the best?” He continued encouraging you. There were quite a few styles of beds you could choose from, with the circular ones being more traditional.
You never truly liked those; you always felt like something was a bit too cramped, and it looked awkward in the room too, if not placed with the utmost detail.
„M-maybe the normal rectangular? I'm not sure." You said. You did not want to offend anyone. He might love the other styles, for all you know.
„It's okay, pup. Thank you for telling me, baby, Alpha is very proud of his good girl.” Namjoon said calmly, knuckles running over the skin of your cheek.
Soon after the packalpha led you around the rest of the store, a few pillows, duvets, bedsheets, and other small things like new towels and sleeping mists filled up the large cart.
You held onto Namjoon's hand tightly the whole time you visited the store, only occasionally letting go to touch a few of the comforting fabrics.
„Kitty, come look here. What do you think?” Yoongi called out gently at the very end of the long row while you and a few of the alphas lingered at the front, looking over the blankets on display.
You walked over quickly, curious to see what had the alpha call out for your attention. While Yoongi held the cart most of the shopping spree, he didn't make much move to have you touch everything he found nice, letting you look around yourself first. 
Instead, he just plucked the things he thought you might like right in the cart, hoping you would like them just as much as he did. He might have been one of the most quiet ones the entire time there, but for sure was one of the alphas that chose the most things for you. 
With you coming closer, his arm outstretched lightly, your hand taken in his own right away. He smiled a little to himself, hiding it cleverly behind his own facemask. 
Infront of him was a tidy row of a few plushies. They weren't the regular stuffed animal type, cleverly designed especially for more clingy and touch starved omegas that might have some hard times from time to time. 
Placed in a plastic sealed box with a one always unboxed for the customers to touch and take a closer look at, there were many colours and types of animals, like soft pink rabbits, bears with fun outfits on, elephants and puppies, foxes or even dragons of all sizes and colours. 
You had only a few toys growing up, and soft animals you could sleep with were always your favourite. You didn't have any now, unfortunately, but these weren't just a simple toy to cuddle with, no, these held a much better purpose.
As it was quite unusual for omegas to work, it was normal for them to stay back at the packhouse most of the time. Typically, another packmate would stay to keep them company, mostly to calm the rest of the pack not present down from the constant worry.
But sometimes, it wasn't possible to stay with them and everyone was required for their own arrands. 
While the pack would most likely try and come back home as soon as possible, not comfortable with leaving the omegas fully by themselves, it would be quite usually nerve wracking and usually scary for the weakest second genders. 
A well scented pillow or a blanket could help, but not all materials held in the smell for long enough, not working greatly. 
And so a few companies started making smaller pillows and stuffed animals, that carried a special patch of fabric that would be practically drenched in the packmembers scent and wouldn't let go of it for a long time. 
The items would be sold quite frequently, more and more packs using them to help from creating any stressful situations for their little ones, making more stores sell such, a giant trend settling.
You never had a thing like this, there was really no use for it with you, but you heard about them a few years ago. You liked the idea of having one though. 
„Hm baby? What about the cat, it's pretty cute...” the alpha mumbled, the black fluffy cat with pretty eyes, one yellow and one green and light pink ears looked adorable for sure. It had a white tip on its tail, and was pretty big too. 
„Hyung, that's not a cat that's like... A panther or something, that's too scary. Look honey, they have such a cute rabbit, don't you want one? You are my baby bunny, and it also kinda looks like Kooky too, how about that one?” 
The youngest alpha hopped over, taking the pink bunny in his arms, showing you. It looked quite fluffy, and had long floppy ears that were just as long as it torso. With the special fabric to be placed into its paw, it would surely be more than nice. 
„I think the puppy is much cuter princess, don't listen to silly Kookie. Do you want this one my most precious?" Jimin asked, holding the larger dog in his hands.
It was grey and white, each limb and part of its body a different colour, with a big oval nose and large black eyes. The large ears only added to the cuteness; they were quite bigger than its own legs.
You smiled softly, patting the animal. It was very sweet, warming you up on the inside.
„But babycheeks, look at the tiger; it's so soft! And it's a snow tiger too; that means it's extra speci-”" Taehyung said, letting you run your fingers over the white stripey animal. It was very comfortable to touch, for sure.
„You guys, stop. Let her choose whatever she likes the most; which one is the best pup?” Namjoon asked, pulling you gently closer to himself.
To be truthful, he was eyeing the wolf plush on the higher shelf himself.
You looked over the many options, reaching for the one that caught your eye from the very beginning. You couldn't bring yourself to decide which one you liked better exactly; you were not sure of your decision.
Reaching for the lamb, you pulled out the plastic box, holding it close to yourself. Still looking over at the different-coloured one, Seokjin was quick to notice, taking it out for you too.
„You want both cubs? That's okay, they are adorable.” He was quick to calm you down, taking the box from your arms and placing it carefully at the very top of the cart.
And so, with those in, the alphas made sure to quickly praise your choice before you were all on your way to check out—the black lamb and the white lamb paid for first.
Taking them for you, you and Hobi stood near the check-out, looking over the two comfort companions the pack had decided to get for you.
”...the scent spot is then placed in the sown pocket; it's closed off with velcro so it won't fall out. There will instruction manual in the box too; don't worry.” The man said as he scanned the many items the alphas have chosen for you today.
„Okay, thank you very much.” The eldest alpha replied, thankful that the clerk could answer the few questions he had regarding the scent animal.
„No problem; you can always stop by and we will help with any issues.” The man answered, not really paying attention to what Jin was saying.
Thanking him softly, he paid, the few other alphas carrying the bigger bags. With Moonsik and Yuki already waiting for your group by the entrance, the beta carried a much smaller bag himself.
„It was so sweet to meet you!” Yuki said happily, glad to make a new friend—an omega at that.
You nodded yourself, smiling widely. You haven't made such a nice friend in a long time, and you were beaming with excitement.
„We have to go back home now, but we will go out together again, right?” You nodded happily, typing in the omega's number, and a few of the packmembers saved Moonsik's and Yuki's numbers too.
„Yes, I would love to!” You happily answered, linking your pinkie with his for a sealed promise. You wanted to hang out with the omega much more often; you two had already made a few plans for movies and shows you would like to watch together.
And so, soon, the pair waved you goodbye, walking off towards the main exit of the mall. „We still need to buy a few things, baby peaches; let's go see some other shops.” Jin said, smiling gently at you and linking your finger with his.
It didn't take too long before most of the men dispersed into a few different directions, making sure to say proper goodbyes to you and letting you know exactly where they would be.
With Jin, and Hobi having to go grocery shopping, Jungkook wanting to check out the game store, and a few other things too, Jimin and Taehyung went on towards the few clothing boutiques, sneakily checking your shoe size this morning, happy to buy you more clothes.
And so, Yoongi and Namjoon took a hand each, Namjoon carrying a bag from the bedding store himself. They both decided to take you around a few stores they liked the best.
The first stop was the book store. While it wasn't the biggest, the packalpha had already started planning a trip to the biggest in Seoul with you soon, it had a nice selection and therefore had the alpha hooked on checking it out.
It was well lit, with a few smaller sections upfront showcasing the new bestsellers and a larger proper row of many filled-up bookshelves in the back of the store.
„What type of books do you like the best?" He asked you, leaning towards you to hear you better. You liked to read; you always did, but with school hours, you didn't always have as much time for it as you hoped you would.
„Maybe the m-more psychological ones? With a deeper thought...” You whispered, looking up at the man. He smiled softly at you, his chin going over the top of your head in a calming motion.
„What a good choice, sweetheart. Alpha will go look for a few you might like; how 'bout that?” He asked, his thumb running over your knuckles.
You nodded shyly, smiling. Namjoon stood back up tall, patting your back gently before he went on through the book sections he had in mind. There were already a few good picks he remembered liking.
„Let's see what they have, hm, little kitty?”
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footballerimaginess · 3 months
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Baby Bellingham | Part 2
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Here is part 1 if you haven't read it, i will be doing a series. Let me know if you wish to be tagged x Word Count: 568 "What do we do now?" Jude asked as you were still standing looking at one another in complete shock. "Just take each day as we come I suppose, try and tell the doctors and see what happens from there. We obviously are still very early on and I am shit scared" you sighed as you fell into his arms as he held you.
"Yeah I reckon so, do you need to speak to them then. I don't really get it all" Jude nervously laughed as you moved away from his arms. "Yeah I think so, god I need to sit down. Shall we get out of the bathroom because why the fuck are we still standing in here?" you smirked as Jude turned around and seemed to realise. "Yeah I dunno why we are standing here either" he opened the door and walked out of the bathroom as you tidied up the pregnancy test and put it in the bathroom drawer for safe keeping. "Shall I make you a cup of tea?" Jude asked you as you sat down on the sofa. "Please, that would be nice and biscuits please" you shouted as he stood in the kitchen making the tea. - The next few weeks had passed, you'd managed to get a doctors appointment and had your first midwife appointment. You were working at home in your first trimester as you had told your work that you needed to stay at home, Jude thought it was best that way too. "Jude I am so bored of staying here now" you sighed as you had barely left the house in the last few weeks since finding out you were pregnant. "I know, but what if you get a bug or something? You have already had sickness, I don't want you to get poorly babe" you could tell Jude was only trying to be protective and was being extremely caring, but it was starting to wear thin. "But I will be fine, I just want some air and just want to see something. I feel myself going crazy from being inside for so long" you heavily sighed. "I know you are baby, but I just want to keep you safe"he reassured you as he squeezed your thigh. "You are keeping me safe, but I do eventually need to leave the house at one point. I am only 6 weeks, I am feeling better this week than I have done. I just want a walk" you asked him politely hoping he would let you. "Okay okay, come on" he smiled as he grabbed his phone, putting it in his pocket as you put your shoes on an grabbed a water bottle before you headed out. "Are you excited to tell people?" Jude asked as he grabbed your hand as you took in the first bit of fresh air that you had had in weeks. "Yes I am, shame we have to wait so long for it though. But I am glad it is just us right now" you smile as you grabbed his hand again as you walked to the park. "I feel a little sicky, is it okay if we go back now?" you asked him after you looked at your phone realising that you had been out for 20 minutes which was better than you expected. "Of course amor" he whispered as you turned back around, heading back home. Part 3 will be out soon x
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kpop-stories-21 · 1 year
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Group: ATEEZ
Pairing: Yeosang x Fem!Reader
Word Count: 1.9k
Rating: 18-21+
Genres, Tropes, & AUs: Non-Idol AU, Futuristic AU, Dystopian AU, Coworkers to Lovers, Smut
Content & Trigger Warnings: Undercover Rebel!Yeosang, Delivery Driver!Reader, rebellion, uprising, undercover agents, unprotected sex(wrap that shit up, kids), semi-public sex, rough sex, punishment, orgasm denial, manhandling, edging, marking
Summary: You always figured there was more to Yeosang than meets the eye, but this is not quite what you were expecting
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A/N: I had Taylor Swift's "Safe and Sound" on repeat as I wrote this, so listen to that while reading for maximum ✨vibes✨
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The back door to Blue Bird Delivery banged open, breaking the silence and causing Yeosang to look up as you rushed in, helmet askew and little hairs already escaping from the braid draped down your back.
"Sorry I'm late!" You said, smiling at Yeosang but directing your words to the boss. "My neighbor's kid thought it would be fun to hack my watch and turn off every alarm that looked even remotely important."
A couple of your coworkers snickered, but your boss nodded understandingly. "Kids can be a real pain sometimes, I know that all too well." Turning to address everyone, he continued.
"Now it's still early evening so there haven't been many orders yet, but everyone should remain ready to leave. Yeosang's friends have put in orders, but he has requested to handle them personally."
"Wouldn't it be faster and easier to split them with someone else?"
"I'd much rather deliver them myself." Yeosang said, bristling a little.
The woman who'd spoken recoiled at his tone and he was quick to backtrack.
"I apologize, I didn't mean to be rude. It's just that my friends are a bit distrustful of strangers."
The woman seemed to accept this and went back to whatever she was doing. The boss returned to his office and everyone went about their own business as Yeosang prepared to leave.
You were a bit suspicious of Yeosang suddenly. This was unusual behavior for him, usually he'd accept help gladly. Why would all of his friends make orders at the same time? What was Yeosang trying to hide?
You decided to see if you could follow him and find out what they were up to. Making your way to the back as if going for the restroom, you slipped out the back door. Peering around the corner, you watched Yeosang get on one of the company's hoverbikes and take off.
You went to the front and hopped on your personal hoverbike. Taking a company bike would be a bad idea, since they were tracked and you weren't making a delivery.
It didn't take long for you to catch sight of Yeosang, and you sped up, getting close enough to keep track of him but not so close that he realised you were following him.
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His first stop was at a large warehouse on the outskirts of the city. A blue-haired man answered his knock and invited him in. You parked your bike in some bushes and snuck around the building until you were able to find a window. Peeking in, you saw Yeosang and the blue-haired man standing in front of a table absolutely loaded with all kinds of gear and weapons, most of them illegal.
They spoke in low voices, but you were able to pick out bits and pieces. Something about a train, an explosion and money. Were they part of some kind of rebellion? You weren't sure, which meant you needed to keep following him.
The next stop was to a small, Western-themed bar. Yeosang made his way up to the roof and you knew better than to follow him, so you pulled out the tiny camera drone your father had given you and sent it off.
There was a tall man seated by the edge in full cowboy regalia, a sniper gun set up beside him. There was a woman with him, but she had her back to you so you couldn't make out her face. Yeosang handed the man a takeout box, which was promptly opened to reveal extra ammo for the gun. Words were exchanged that you couldn't hear and then Yeosang was leaving. You called the drone back and returned to your bike.
The third stop brought you to a large van in a secluded little clearing. Two men stepped out, one looked like an underground fighter, the other could be his handler. You didn't see what they got, from your vantage point all you saw was Yeosang's back.
Not that I'm complaining, exactly. He's got a great ass. You thought to yourself, giggling quietly. Yeosang returned to his bike and you sobered, ready to continue following.
Next was a repair shop called Outlaw Customs. The place looked closed, but a tall male with black hair answered the door. Craning your neck you could see a shorter man just behind him, and further in the shop were the vague figures of two women. This time you could see what was being delivered, but you didn't recognize it at all.
The last stop was at a small house in a tucked away little area. A man dressed in leather took the container from Yeosang without opening it and went back inside.
After this he went back to the delivery company and you waited a beat before parking your bike and re-entering through the same back door. You were still for a moment, debating what to do, then decided it would be best to confront him about it.
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Glancing around at all the eyes and ears present in the room, you approached Yeosang and quietly asked, "Can I talk to you out back for a minute?"
Expression equal parts curious and confused, Yeosang nodded and followed you out the back door into the alleyway that ran behind the building. Once you were out of earshot of the door you turned to face him.
"I didn't know you led a rebellion in your spare time."
"Oh I don't lead it, I'm just a member of-" he paused, realising you'd just caught him out.
You eye him seriously. "Please tell me you aren't always this easy to crack."
Yeosang shook his head. "No, it's just… you know how I feel about you. I can't help but want to always tell you the truth."
You nodded, figuring he'd say something like that. A revelation pops into your head just then and you look Yeosang in the eyes.
"This is why you never made a move, isn't it? You were afraid I'd get hurt if the government retaliated."
Yeosang looked down and sighed softly but said nothing. You stepped closer, placing your hands on your shoulders and causing him to look up.
"Hey listen, I'm stronger than you think. The last rebellion that failed, my dad was part of it. That's how I lost him. I have just as much cause to hate those in power as you and your friends."
"There was another rebellion?" Yeosang inquired.
You nodded. "Yes. But it was covered up, so no one was ever aware of it save for those who lost loved ones." Taking a deep breath, you continued. "I want to help you and your friends, Yeo. Dad always made sure I could protect myself should anything ever happen to him, and I've been keeping up what he taught me ever since."
Yeosang looked at you sternly as he spoke. "Alright, I'll speak to the others about it. But you have to promise me you'll be careful. I can't lose you."
His voice cracked at the end, and you saw his eyes start to glisten. Wrapping him in a tight hug you whispered, "I promise I will always come back to you, no matter what. I can't lose you either."
Leaning back a little, Yeosang looked deep into your eyes. "I love you so much, my sweet Bluejay."
Your heart soared at the words you'd been waiting to hear for so long. Coupled with the nickname he'd given you some time ago, you were sure how you were still on your feet.
Yeosang's eyes fell to your lips as you replied, "I love you too, Kang Yeosang."
At this he surged forward, wrapping you in a breathtaking kiss as your back hit the wall. When you reluctantly parted for air, his hands came up to cup your face as your foreheads pressed together.
"I'm sorry it took me so long to say it." He murmured.
You smiled softly and kissed the tip of his nose. "Don't be, I understand why you didn't. To be honest, I probably would have done the same if our places were reversed."
Yeosang smiled back, then a glint came into his eyes. "Now, about you sneaking around and spying on me without my permission. I think that calls for a punishment, don't you?"
Heat pooled between your thighs as his hands slid down your body to rest at your hips. “S-Should we go back to my place, or yours?”
Yeosang just chuckled. “I think this is as good a place as any.”
You gaped at him, protests forming on your tongue, but his lips met yours again and all complaints fled your mind as his tongue slipped in to tangle with yours. Your hands came up to rest against his chest, fingers gripping the fabric of his shirt to ground yourself.
He broke the kiss to nip at the shell of your ear, sending a shiver of delight down your spine. "Tell me the minute you become uncomfortable and I won't hesitate to stop."
"P-Promise." You stuttered as Yeosang began mouthing over your collarbones.
His hands made quick work of the button on your jeans, sliding them and your panties down to your knees in one smooth motion. His thumb found your clit immediately, rubbing it in fast circles as your body heated up rapidly.
"Fuck, Yeo, gonna make me c-"
"Hold it." He cut off your words briskly, voice deepened with lust. The command alone nearly had you cumming, but you were determined to be good for him. "This is supposed to be a punishment, remember?"
He removed his hand from your pussy and gripped your thighs, veins appearing on his arms as he did so. Bracing your back against the brick wall of the alley, you hiked your legs up to wrap around his waist. His clothed cock pressed against you and you moaned, nails digging into his shoulders as you struggled to hold back your orgasm.
"Gonna fuck you till you forget everything but my name, make sure everyone inside knows who you belong to."
"Oh God, please! Make me yours Yeosang!"
"You asked so nicely, how can I not give you what you want?"
After yanking his pants and boxers down with one hand, Yeosang dragged two fingers through your sopping heat and used your own arousal to coat his dick. Once ready, he thrust all the way to the hilt without warning, punching a gasping moan out of you.
He set a rough pace, bringing you to the edge twice more but each time backing off. You had been reduced to an incoherent mess, half-phrases and sounds of pleasure all your mind had the forethought to produce.
Teeth nipped your skin at the juncture between neck and shoulder, leaving behind a sizeable hickey as he came up to kiss you deeply.
"You've taken your punishment so well, I think you deserve to be rewarded." He began pounding into you for the last time, lips brushing your ear as he spoke. "You can cum now, little Bluejay."
The effect was instantaneous, your high crashing over you like a tsunami. Your body seized up, twitching and shaking from the intensity as a loud cry left you. You tightened around him, bringing him to his own edge as he buried himself deep inside you, stuffing you full of his cum.
When you had both calmed a bit, Yeosang helped you slip your clothes back on, then dressed himself.
"That was fun."
You laughed, kissing his cheek as you took his hand in yours. "Yes, it was."
There were bright smiles on both your faces as you stepped back into the building. Things would be different from now on, but it would be okay because you would face them with Yeosang beside you.
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teachmenari · 1 year
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20 Teach me! - again sometimes
Tighnari x GN reader
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You stifle a yawn. Seems like the evening and your full stomach are getting to you.
Tighnari notices from the corner of his eye and turns to you. "Are you tired? Do you want to go home?"
"Ah- Sorry, I can usually stay up this late. If you want to stay, I don't mind-" you try to protest. 
"I asked. I don't mind," he cuts your rambling off. Yanfei looks up from her endless stream of tofu.
"Y/n, if you stay here you're going to pass out on the table and drool all over it. Take the nice man's offer."
You try to argue more but Kazuha sends you a look saying 'I'm not sharing the ride home alone with Xiao for your stubborn ass' and you let out a defeated sigh.
"Alright, fine. I know my limits. I'll see you guys later."
You grab your coat as your friends say goodbye and head out soon after, followed by Nari.
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The quiet rumbling of the car makes for a pleasant background noise as Tighnari drives through the empty streets, your head resting against the window. For time to time, you sneak a glance at the man next to you. When the streetlights illuminate his face, you can see the light smile on his lips.
"So? What did you think?" You ask after a few minutes. "Of my friends."
He chuckles. "I'm more worried about what they thought of me, to be honest." 
"Oh, they like you. They kept tweeting about every interaction the whole time." You give him a big smile and he laughs.
"Was that what Lumine thought no one noticed her doing?" 
"Mhm. You didn’t realise when they took her phone the first time?"
He lets out a sigh of relief. "I thought I was getting ripped to shreds in the group chat."
You huff dramatically. "How mean do you think we are?" You say, gently nudging him with your elbow. He snickers. "Anyways, you still haven't answered my question. Thoughts on my friends?"
"They're very welcoming and nice," he says. "I think they'd like my friends. I know Collei and Ayaka are already hanging out, too."
"Right! I keep forgetting about that. My memory is failing me." 
"That might explain your old grades," he whispers loud enough for you to hear.
"Hey!"
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The car stops in front of your apartment building and Tighnari gets out to open your door. 
"Gentleman," you tease him. He winks at you and bends down in an exaggerated bow. You stifle a laugh. 
"Thank you for inviting me," he says with a smile. "I had a really good time."
"I'm glad you did. I love my friends but I know they can be a bit much sometimes."
"Like I said, they're really nice. I wouldn't mind hanging out with you and them again."
"Oh, awesome! I'll keep you updated, then!"
A moment of silence passes, the cool evening air against your warm cheeks. You don't know if the red tint is because of the cold or blushing. 
 He then takes your hand gently. 
"Do you mind if I hug you before we part ways?"
You shake your head, and he wraps his arms around you. You bury your face under the crook of his neck, noticing his subtle scent. You can't place it, but it smells fresh, like plants.
"Have a good night, flower."
Your eyes widen at the nickname and your cheeks feel suddenly warmer. 
Tighnari ends the hug and waves before getting back in his car and driving away. You can only wave back, because you're 80% sure you would just end up stumbling over your words to hell and back.
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Teach me!
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▪︎Synopsis ➤ You’ve been attending the Akademiya for some time now, but for some reason this year is harder than the others. You’re failing almost everything regarding math and science. Your biology teacher, Ms. Rukkhadevata, offers the help of Tighnari, her TA... Let’s just hope he’s nice.
a/n: finally the end of the evening....... but the start of something else??? 👀
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Intro!
I acknowledge the Traditional Owners and Custodians of this country. In particular, I acknowledge the Indigenous Elders of the Wurundjeri people, part of the Kulin nation, where I live and learn and pay my respects to their Indigenous Elders past, present and emerging. Sovereignty has never been ceded. It always was and always will be, Aboriginal land. [credits to @ellie-probably for the template]
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I realised I haven't done one of these so: Name: Bean/Theo Pronouns: Probs He/Him, ask tho Gender: Boyflux Transmasc
Demi-verbal and silly :3 General: I am biromantic and asexual/demisexual, I have chronic pain. I am Irish-Australian and I fence. I have a dog and two cats! I am fine for people to send asks or dm me! I do swear a lot but I don't post nsfw. I do sometimes reblog text hornyposts. nothing too severe. I AM a minor so please be mindful. I love fencing. I have severe light sensitivity and I faint sometimes. I love it when people send me asks! You can also dm me. I will give out my discord on request. I am polyamorous
Disabilities/chronic illnesses: AuDHD, POTS, Deppression, Anxiety, Social Anxiety, possibily BPD [undiagnosed as of now], Chronic pain, Demi-verbal Special intrests: dead end paranormal park, the osemanverse, hazbin hotel, stardew valley, dead boy detectives and internet history
Fandoms: Dead Boy detectives, Helluva Boss, Hazbin Hotel, The Osemanverse, dead end paranormal park, Nimona, stardew valley
@galaxtea9 and I have a furby fam. Here are the current members! Shitcakes : 2012 furby we skinned. Frogman the 3rd : long furby oddbody. Trivia: I love @strange-aeons and i'm making a Rosie cosplay!
Trigger warnings for things i might post: self harm, mental illness, suicide, family stuff [my mum's abusive]
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jmkho · 9 months
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Heyyyy
So I've been MIA or not as active over the past few months and just wanted to explain why in some way.
First it was a health scare with my chest - heart health, then it just spiraled into a mess of health anxiety where I was CONVINCED something was wrong with me. From my heart, to my liver, to my organs, to having a disease, to this and that. This also happened WHILE drawing so I haven't wanted to draw because of this
I've been the hospital/doctor/emergency room over 20 times these past 3 months. And even saw a psychiatrist for the first time. Ive had countless tesrts. xrays, ct you name it, baby, I've done it.
I didn't realise how bad health anxiety could make a person and how it can actually ruin them to the point of wanting to give up and let go.
My health isn't the best. But I'm not as bad as I thought, and my body isn't perfect, but goddamn I'm proud of her.
As well as my rants let people know, I currently live in Seoul and have done for the past 7/8 years. This has also had an impact on me. I've reached a point that I want to return home to the UK and I will. My mental health has taken a dip that I never wanted to happen again and sadly it has.
Seoul will always be a home for me but just not for the future. ALSO MY JOB I DONT WONNA GET INTO IT BUT HOLY FUCK NO.
But anyway I wanted to say thank you to everyone who still interacts with me, tags me, sends me messages asking how I'm doing. I really appreciate it. It means a lot and I can't thank you enough and hopefully will start shitposting annoying everyone again lol
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thewolvesof1998 · 8 months
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20 questions for fic writers!
Tagged by the talented @jesuisici33 @hoodie-buck @wikiangela @spotsandsocks
1. How many works do you have on AO3?
9
2. What’s your total AO3 word count?
38,361
3. What fandoms do you write for?
9-1-1/Buddie
4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?
I want you to be selfish with me (4.6k M)
Tapping Morse Code into your heart (2.8k E)
You bring me comfort (4.2k T)
You with the dark curls, you with the watercolour eyes (1.6k M)
I Can See You (3k T)
5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?
Yeah, I love getting comments, it literally makes my day so I always take the time to respond. Though I sometimes struggle with what to say so I might respond slowly but that's because I overthink everything 😂
6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?
Oh, it's either I ain't proud of all the punches that I've thrown (826 T) in which Eddie's in Jail and he almost calls Buck (Coda for episode s03e05 Rage) OR Under the Guise of Violence (3k E) Eddie can't touch Buck unless it's to hurt him, after a sparring match Buck confronts him and it leads them back to Eddie's bedroom- I had a lot of people comment about the angsty ending 😂
7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?
I'm kinda a sucker for happy endings, this might be cheating as it's not finished yet but when it is Alright, Cowboy, Go Get 'Em (17k E) is probably going to have the happiest ending.
8. Do you get hate on fics?
I've had someone comment some criticism which I didn't think much of at the time because what they pointed out was something I was unhappy with myself and it did actually help me fix it but I realise now after talking to my friend who got me in to fic writing that that wasn't cool since I hadn't actually asked for any feedback.
9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?
Oh yeah, mostly just smut with a few kinks thrown in, playing around with light sub/dom stuff. I definitely want to write some more hardcore stuff in the future.
10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?
I haven't, I'm not opposed, since I only write Buddie atm it probably would be a Lonestar cross over, maybe Tarlos? But I have so many WIPs that it will be very far in the future.
11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?
Not that I know of.
12. Have you ever had a fic translated?
Nope, that would be pretty dope!
13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?
No, I would love to try one day.
14. What’s your all time favorite ship?
Buddie's pretty much up there, but I do love Steddie and Anidala
15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?
God, none of them I hope but the one that's the furthest from being done is probably either my MMA Rivals AU or Mafia Husbands AU.
16. What are your writing strengths?
Ahhhh maybe dialogue and plot.
17. What are your writing weaknesses?
Uh, finishing? It's probably the biggest one atm, I just keep losing the mojo and struggling to stay focused until the end.
18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?
I love to but I have to make sure I'm using it right and appropriately.
19. First fandom you wrote for?
Technically Sharkboy and Lava Girl when I was 8. 1D was the first I ever posted tho.
20. Favorite fic you’ve written?
Probably one I haven't finished or posted yet called You make bad days infinitely better I'm really trying to make the writing pretty, you know? And I love it and I will finish it at some point.
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sirtadcooper · 2 months
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@eohwyyn very kindly sent me maths homework some questions from the list of soft asks - but when I went to answer them, Tumblr ate the ask! So it's lucky that I was asked to answer multiples of four, now isn't it?
4. what flower would you like to be given?
I love flowers a lot, how colourful they are. I, however, know absolutely nothing about them. Just give me a pretty flower and I'll be happy. I'm not fussy.
8. tag someone (or multiple people) who make you feel good.
Oh there are so many people I could tag - those two mutuals I call on Discord every week spring to mind, but no, I am going to shout-out @mordred because she's still here, I'm still here - we've been mutuals for what? Ten years? Amazing! Look at us! I'm always happy to see you pop up on my dash. @matbaynton, because whatever you make, whether it's icons or fancy gifs, it's always full of colour and fun. Always lovely to see you too.
12. how are you?
Answered here, but since this is the sort of question that can have a new answer every time, here we go again: I'm grand, thank you. I had my first Chinese takeaway of the year today - I realised earlier this week that it had been a while, and then I checked my phone and I hadn't had chicken fried rice since 29th December! I don't know how that happened. So I sat down with my Chinese and the final part of Spearhead From Space and had a lovely time. Now I'm stuffed!
16. compliment the person who sent you this number.
Oh, that's very easy to do! You come across as such a lovely person every time we interact. I love how engaged you are - if there's an ask game, you take the time to send something in. Things like that are much appreciated. And you love Doctor Who so that's another plus point. <3
20. what do you want most in the world right now?
Hmm. Probably a good night's sleep to be honest - I am a bit tired.
24. what’s something you do to de-stress?
There are two main ways. I go and sit in a field with my pet sheep, or I watch something, ideally while lying in bed. Both excellent ways to de-stress.
28. hugs or hand-holding?
Hugs, I think. I haven't had much experience of hand-holding, but hugs are lovely.
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snowddeong · 1 year
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Secretary! Yeji au and lowkey dom! Ryujin (though I'm not sure if it's well established enough to need a tag ig lmk)
Words: 1.5k+
"Is this okay?" Ryujin asks, her expression soft and voice tender. It takes Yeji a second to recover from the whiplash of how different this side of her boss is from the Ryujin that uncaringly interrupted her work with a quick "My office. Now." and a borderline ravenous look to match the hunger in her tone.
Yeji tests the makeshift restraint and nods, satisfied when it resists her attempts to break free. She hates the thought the second she thinks it, but the purple tie clasping her hands together is a lot like Ryujin in a way — expensive, intimidating and in control while simultaneously unattainably beautiful and so, so silky and gentle across her skin.
Ryujin smirks. "You can talk, baby. But only if you promise not to be loud."
Yeji nods again, not trusting herself to speak but then Ryujin squeezes her bare thigh pointedly and she realises this is a test. "Y-yes." She manages to stammer out as Ryujin's hand travels under her skirt and her fingers find wetness at the gusset of Yeji's boxers.
"Yes?" Ryujin prods once more, her other hand carefully undoing the buttons of Yeji's dress shirt.
"Yes, Miss Sh— fuck!" 
Yeji tries to say what she knows Ryujin wants her to, she really does, but all she can do after Ryujin's fingers press at her folds is bite her lip and pray her desire to be good will be enough to at least keep her quiet. 
It's not, unsurprisingly. Ryujin's touch will always drive her crazy in ways she'll never be able to understand. When Ryujin's teeth nibble at the flesh of her breasts she lets out a sharp moan she can only catch a little too late. Ryujin stops, pulling away and frowning up at her.
"I have a meeting with the Board in 20, Hwang," Ryujin says in that serious, low tone that never fails to make Yeji's head spin. "If you can't keep it down I'll have to postpone our session to next week. Is that what you want?"
Yeji might just cry. She can handle the teasing and edging — it's not uncommon for Ryujin to leave her overstimulated and trembling, chest heaving for air, one touch away from her climax — but the thought of not being able to touch Ryujin for another week is utter torture. She knows better than anyone that Ryujin's promised reward is conditional on how good Yeji is for her, knows that Ryujin takes her punishments seriously and won't interact with her outside of a professional capacity until she's sure Yeji's learned her lesson.
"No, Miss Shin," Yeji miraculously doesn't let the desperation coursing through her seep into her voice. "I—"
Ryujin's fingers interrupt her, slipping under the fabric, touching her wetness directly. "You?"
"Want you. I want you," Yeji's confession comes out high pitched and needy. She panics. She's being too loud again. Ryujin's already warned her. She's fucked up her cha—
"Relax," Ryujin smiles at her — warm, a little amused and comforting in a way that pulls at Yeji's heartstrings when it probably shouldn't. "It's been a while, I get it," Ryujin inches a finger inside of her, so agonisingly slow that Yeji stops breathing. "I'm sorry I haven't been able to keep you in line lately. You probably missed me a lot, right?"
"Yes," Yeji gasps out as Ryujin teases her inside, finger exploring everywhere except that spot where she needs her.
She had missed her. So, so much. The beginning of the year for Ryujin means business trips to meet investors abroad and important briefings to the board of directors. She barely has time to sleep, much less meet Yeji for anything more than a quick run down of her weekly tasks.
"I missed you too," Ryujin coos, pulling out and bringing her wet finger to Yeji's lips. Yeji wastes no time, licking at the offered digit despite wincing at her own taste. "I'll make it up to you later if you behave. Think you can do that for me?"
Yeji's glad the finger in her mouth muffles her whine of assent.
"Okay," Ryujin rolls her chair back, creating some distance and leaning into the seat. "How do you want me then?"
Yeji looks her over, takes in the marvel in front of her — somehow breathtaking even in a simple black turtleneck, grey slacks and pricey loafers — as she considers her options.
Her first thought is her strap-on. Yeji loves seeing Ryujin stretched open by silicon, loves hearing her whisper how fantastic it feels as Yeji pounds into her. But with how urgently Ryujin called her over there'd been no time to prepare the harness.
Thankfully it doesn't take long for Yeji to make up her mind about an alternative, slipping off Ryujin's desk and settling onto her knees. 
Ryujin seems to read what she wants immediately and puts her hand on her zipper. "You sure?"
Yeji's never had the chance to eat Ryujin out before and as much as she'd fantasised about it she never imagined it like this. She wants to be able to go slow, to really taste all there is to Ryujin, to learn what has her writhing in ecstasy and lavishing Yeji with praise but there's not much else she can do with her hands bound. 
So, she nods and is more than relieved when Ryujin gives her a smug smile in return.
Ryujin takes her time with her slacks, pulling down her zipper at a leisurely pace belying the sentiment of time consciousness she seemed so concerned about earlier. It’s so purposefully frustrating and such a classic Ryujin move that Yeji is thankful for her binding as it's the only thing keeping her impatience at bay. 
Her internal clock ticks away, counting the seconds to Ryujin's meeting, imploring her to beg her boss to hurry so she can sate her own desperation. Still, Yeji waits quietly — because she can never let up an opportunity to make Ryujin come, however quick it'll have to be — shuffling closer as fast as she can with the limited movement her tight skirt and too high heels afford her.
After what feels like forever, Ryujin finally pushes her slacks and underwear to her ankles. 
“You’re so cute when you’re being good.” 
The praise shoots straight to Yeji’s core and she has to smother her whimpers against the flesh of Ryujin’s inner thigh.
There's no time to focus on how soft Ryujin's skin is under her teeth, how delectable her want smells when it's all there is enveloping Yeji's senses, or even how pretty she looks up close, glistening and wet, waiting for Yeji's mouth to get to work.
But even then, Yeji can't help but take a moment to appreciate just how amazing Ryujin tastes, to enjoy the full body shudder of Ryujin's body as Yeji's tongue meets her folds.
It's messy, maybe bordering on too much. Yeji laps at Ryujin's arousal haphazardly, swirling at her entrance before applying pressure to her clit. There's really no technique to her ministrations, only a desire to lick everywhere her tongue can reach but her enthusiasm probably makes up for it because Ryujin breathes out a long, laboured sigh, tangling her fingers in Yeji's hair and pulling her closer. 
"Good girl," Ryujin whispers. "Enjoying yourself?"
Yeji groans around Ryujin's clit. Yes, she is, more than anything, and she's rewarded with a tightened grip on her hair.
"Fuck, so good. Make me come, baby."
Yeji tries her best to look up at her boss as she mashes her tongue against her clit because if Ryujin looks beautiful coaxing Yeji's pleasure out of her, she looks downright ethereal demanding her own. 
And fuck ethereal doesn't even begin to describe the face Ryujin makes when Yeji curls her tongue inside her as far as it can go. No words can articulate how much seeing Ryujin bite her free fist to silence any of her own reactions affects Yeji.
Yeji fidgets with her hands, trying desperately to press them against herself and grant some release. It barely does anything since her position means she can't apply any real pressure but she's spured on enough by Ryujin's reactions to feel a spike of something building in her gut.
Ryujin comes with a loud gasp and Yeji shivers weakly with pleasure. 
It's not enough, she needs to keep going, licks up Ryujin's wetness until a pointed tug at her hair tells her to stop. So instead she focuses Ryujin's thighs, sucks and nibbles, hopes that Ryujin's high lasts long enough for her to at least kiss every inch of skin there. 
It doesn't. "Yeji," Ryujin breaths out. "I have to go now."
Yeji must be pouting because Ryujin laughs.
"You can stay here and entertain yourself until I get back," She says, gently helping Yeji remove the tie on her hands. "Okay?"
Yeji wants to protest. Board meetings usually take at least an hour — and that's if they're going well. If they're going to keep going they should keep going. Yeji has work to do after all and if her timing is correct Ryujin still has around five minutes before the meeting actually starts and probably ten before she's expected to be present.
When her pout persists Ryujin bends down to kiss her forhead and soothe her hair. "I promised I'd make it up to you didn't I?"
Of course Ryujin knows exactly what to say to wrap Yeji around her finger. The prospect of waiting for another reward, maybe even getting a chance to find some full release from her pent up arousal is beyond tempting. So much so that Yeji has to be careful not to answer right away, for fear that she'll start begging.
She swallows. "Okay."
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ex-jock-enthusiast · 1 year
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OK, high everyone! Yeah so about all that,
I got a bit...spooked by how much everything grew over the last few months (my main account has like 20 followers and we all reblog the same 8 pictures of cats), which, combined with (still very real) college pressure meant that I chickened out and deleted.
I realise in retrospect that was dumb, so this is (IN THEORY) a take two.
It's great to be back, and hopefully we can be ship shape and Bristol fashion ASAP.
Huge thanks to @menwithbellies too for putting tons of these together, you saved the blog <3
Please tag me in any posts from the old account and if we haven't found them yet I'll reblog them :D
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nutcasewithaknife · 7 months
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Twenty Questions for Fic Writers
@bbcphile and @difeisheng thanks for the tag! :)
1. How many works do you have on AO3?
20
2. What's your total AO3 word count?
309,516. Which is actually insane, I'm not sure how or when I did all that
What fandoms do you write for?
Used to write for The Witcher, Supernatural and BBC Merlin, but not anymore. Currently writing for The Untamed and Mysterious Lotus Casebook (mostly the latter). There's one Love Between Fairy and Devil ficlet in there somewhere. I can't see myself making the space for anything else soon :')
What are your top 5 fics by kudos?
One Ignorant Bard and His Witcher - The Witcher, geraskier (3.1k)
The Sins of the Father - BBC Merlin, canon divergent fix-it (11.5k)
You Can't Escape The Thoughts on a Rainy Day - The Untamed post-canon sangcheng (57.5k)
Foolish - modern au sangcheng (29.1k)
Are You Listening? - post-canon yunmeng shuangjie reconciliation (5.8k). It's part of the series that #3 on this list spawned!
Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?
I used to respond to every single one, but nowadays it's just once in a while when I can. I read every single one multiple times like a lovesick fool tho <3
What is a fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?
I have a terribly hard time writing fics that end angsty, the best I can do most times is bittersweet. That being said...
It will never be the same (1.5k) - Jiang Cheng returning to the Jiang Ancestral Hall after Guanyin Temple and speaking to his dead family. The night after Guanyin Temple, Jiang Cheng finds himself standing in the Jiang Ancestral Hall. Some things, long realised but unspoken, finally get said.
Found (34.5k) - Lan Wangji's angsty boy winter, set mid-canon during the 16 years wwx is dead and brimming with OCs. I really wanted to wallow in what made him the man he is during those years. Naturally I sent him off to a village beyond the Jianghu and gave him a boyfriend. It's incredibly angst filled and the ending is hopeful, but still sad by my standards.
What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?
I'm a hopeless sap! Too many of them are happy endings!! Given my current MLC brainrot, I'll have to say it's the three post-canon liansanjiao fics I've written with them being soft together and at peace <3
I have a special soft spot for Foolish though, because Jiang Cheng deserves a happy ending story ;-;
Do you get hate on fics?
I'm not popular enough for hate hehe
Do you write smut? If so, what kind?
YES!! It took a lot of work but now I do! Sometimes very explicit, sometimes not. It's mostly chaotic and soft and at times emotional. Laughter and banter during sex is cocaine to me and it shows.
Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?
Sadly, no
Have you ever had a fic stolen?
Not as far as I know
Have you ever had a fic translated?
Have gotten a couple of requests to translations into Russian and French, but none of them ever went through as far as I know
What's your all-time favorite ship?
You can't do this to me I refuse to pick ;-;
What's a wip you want to finish, but doubt you ever will?
Oh, there are too many, but the one I'm most invested in rn is a postcanon MLC fic where difang manage to save Li Lianhua's life and very many Feelings are had.
What are your writing strengths?
Dialogue is what I've been told. Specifically, I think I do a good job of finding each character's voice. This is something I've been consciously working on and I think it's been paying off, especially the last year or so!
What are your writing weaknesses?
Plot!! I cry every time I need to plot anything. That's why most of my fics are mostly just Vibes
Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?
Ohhh I'd love to do that though I haven't yet. I think it would mean fewer people would read it, but that has never stopped me from writing a thing >:)
First fandom you wrote for?
The first I posted was a Witcher fic, but the one I started writing first was BBC Merlin. It still has a chokehold on my psyche
Favorite fic you've written?
AAAA once again i refuse to choose ;-;
Tagging @istgidek1234 @redemption-revenge @angryteapott @wuxia-vanlifer @omgpurplefattie (no pressure)
If you're a fic writer, feel free to give it a go even if you're not tagged!!
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agentidiot · 2 months
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20 Questions for Fic Writers
thanks @justhallucinating for the tag 🫡🫡🫡
1. How many works do you have on ao3? 
23 atm but i'm planning at posting more
2. What's your total ao3 word count? 
129,910 ☠️
3. What fandoms do you write for?
right now for peaky blinders but i used to be very deep in the rolling stones and mcu (and i still am just doesn't feel like writing for them)
4. Top five fics by kudos 
If There Is A Will, There Is A Way (mcu)
don't feed me, I will сome back (pb)
like real people do (pb)
Don't Forget to Subscribe (mcu fic that i translated to russian like 8 years ago ☠️)
lavender (pb)
5. Do you respond to comments? 
YES I LIVE ON THEM AND SCREENSHOT THEM AND LOOK AT THEM FOR MOTIVATION
but i used to be bad at responding tho cuz i was too shy ig
6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? 
love is the death of duty but only because it's an open kinda ending. but i'm your man which is the ongoing fic i just finished and posted 1st chaper of broke my heart when i wrote the ending
7. What is the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? 
pretty much all of them, apart from the ones i mentioned have a happy ending
8. Do you get hate on fics?
no which im really happy about
9. Do you write smut? 
yes
10. Craziest crossover? 
i haven't done any crossovers
11. Have you ever had a fic stolen? 
no thank god
12. Have you ever had a fic translated? 
no but i did
13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?
kinda if dumping fic info to @justhallucinating counts
14. All time favorite ship? 
tommy/alfie and mick/keith. but. hear me out. that's might be controversial. but i'm stony shipper since the first time i saw avengers. i'm a stony shipper til the day i die. also wolfstar but mainly because fics are just too good (fuck jkr btw)
15. What's a wip you want to finish but you doubt you ever will? 
i so many but i can only think of two.
the 1st on is about modern tommy and alfie meeting at the margate's beach where alfie sees tommy walking his cat (yes dangerous is a bengal cat in this one) on a leash. also alfie went to margate to rest after chemo and tommy went there cuz his family talked him into taking some rest after he broke his scull.
the 2nd one is tommy and alfie meeting via chess app. and then they meet irl but alfie doesn't realise it cuz he never saw tommy's photos but tommy did. and he decided to not tell alfie that it's him and suffers greatly cuz of it
16. What are your writing strengths? 
god idk i wish someone would tell me that. smut comes very easily, dialogs too
17. What are your writing weaknesses? 
HAVING. TOO. MANY. WIPS.
also i struggle with not established relationships like how the fuck i supposed to get those idiots together
18. Thoughts on dialogue in another language?
i sometimes put russian words in when i write alfie cuz well i know russian, he knows russian, so why not
and i don't mind it if it's in the fic i read until it's not like in the first pages of war and peace which is a crime against humanity. but well i haven't seen fics like that yet
19. First fandom you wrote in? 
harry potter ☠️ (FUCK jkr)
20. Favorite fic you've written? 
it's either places we came from cuz HELLO? BOTTOM ALFIE TO THE MASSES 2024 or don't feed me, I will come back which is the 1st one from baker!alfie au
that was really fun!! thanks again
tagging: @gimmeaglimmer @rysko
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forabeatofadrum · 9 months
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Happy Out of Touch Thursday and remember the 21st of September yada yada. Thank you @artsyunderstudy, @larkral and @wellbelesbian for the tags yesterday. I didn't have time yesterday to post since I am super busy with my new degree and it's Not Going Well, but I do have something to say (partially regarding my degree, but more on that later.)
Remember my myosotis plant? The one who was thriving, but suddenly started dying? Well, a while ago I got rid of the dead parts so that the plant could focus on the new ones and this is her now:
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It's nowhere as grandiose as before (the plants don't even grow that high so I had to make a photo from a bird's perspective), but she's alive and that's all that matters!
NOW. FIC STUFF. MY DEGREE. WHAT DO THEY HAVE IN COMMON? Time After Time, my MCD Snowbaz fic where Simon dies in the White Chapel and where an immortal Baz only sees him every 20 years when the Veil is lifted. I started a new philosophy master and again if we ignore the fact that I am terrible at it (so far), I actually have something that's on my mind and I have a question for people who've read it.
Spoilers for the ENDING of Time After Time under the cut. Do not read it if you haven't read Time After Time.
So first, the weather: @quizasvivamos @blurglesmurfklaine @coffeegleek @esperantoauthor @otherworldsivelivedin @caramelcoffeeaddict @sillyunicorn @bazzybelle @dragoneggos @raenestee @tectonicduck @nightimedreamersworld @urban-sith @thnxforknowingme @captain-aralias @you-remind-me-of-the-babe @justgleekout @cerriddwenluna @tea-brigade @ivelovedhimthroughworse @moodandmist @whogaveyoupermission @bookish-bogwitch @confused-bi-queer @aroace-genderfluid-sheep @ionlydrinkhotwater @1908jmd @special-bc-ur-part-of-it @chen-chen-chen-again-chen​ @cutestkilla ​ ​ @martsonmars​ @facewithoutheart ​ @shrekgogurt @boyinjeans @rockitmans @bitbybitwrites @blackberrysummerblog @whatevertheweather
Okay, I am not sure how many people will read this, but if you're here, hi! And if you're here, you know that Time After Time ends with the end of the universe.
Or maybe you didn't know that and you're just here for the philosophical ride, which is fine.
So, Baz is immortal, but again, without an universe to exist in, he perishes as well. But OH? What is this? The chapter continues with Baz... being somewhere.
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I wrote all of this with only a very basic idea of Descartes' cogito (which is the fancy word for the "I think, therefore I am" quote). In fact, I mostly knew it from a Klaine fic, which isn't surprising, and this was a very, very obscure homage to a fic that has nothing to do with this one. But now that I am actually delving into Descartes' philosophy on substance dualism, I am looking at this passage in a complete new way.
A basic bitch explanation of (substance) dualism is that it's the philosophical belief that there's a separation between body and mind. Descartes questions everything, including the existence of reality, which includes his own existence. He realises that he has, in his opinion, reasons to doubt whether his physical body exists, but the fact that he doubts means that he has a mind, and therefore, he cannot doubt that his mind exists. Get it? Hence, "I think, therefore I am" refers to him being able to rationalise his thoughts about existence, whatever they might be.
The relation between his body and mind is causal. If he has a mind, he can imagine having a body. They are separate entities, hence the whole dualism thing, but they co-exist. But since it's causal, you can say that you need to be able to understand the existence of your body by thinking about it. After all, your body moves according to what you mentally want it to do. Or that is what Descartes says. Full disclosure, dualism no longer holds up due to neuroscience, but whatever. The idea still stands and philosophy is all about ideas!
If you wish, you can reread the passage I just added above. Freaky, right?
Given that Descartes was trying to rationalise existence in general, and I wrote into the fic that Baz thinks of the existence of his body... my question for readers is this: Do you think Baz and Simon still exist?
I have thought a lot about this second ending, and I asked a previous question. I didn't mean to write some philosophical shit, but here we are. Descartes would argue that Baz exists, since he thinks. Because what is existence? After all, Baz is very well aware of the fact that there's nothing.
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If this is non-existence, then what does non-existence even entail? He and Simon can spend the rest of whatever this is wherever they are, but what are they?
But then again, isn't his awareness of nothing proof that there is something? Isn't his perception of non-existence the proof of existence? Or is this the perfect "proof" that dualism is real in the Carry On universe, namely that the mind can continue to exist as a separate entity? But then how does that relate to Baz "feeling" corporeal? He has shoulders, because he wants to have them? Or does he even have shoulders? Maybe he's just under the impression that he has them.
(For the story's sake, let's say that he does have them. Otherwise we can argue that Simon actually doesn't show up at the end, since nothing is real, and that makes me upsetti spaghetti. I mean, Baz says it at the end. He doesn't have time to ponder whether this is real.) (But for philosophy's sake: is Simon even real???? And if nothing is real, then how can Baz no have time???? PHILOSOPHY!)
I am aware I am going all over the place and I am also aware there might not be a clear cut answer. That is how philosophy works. I admit, I don't even know if Simon and Baz exist at that point. I purposefully left it up in the air. The idea of them reuniting is cathartic, but it is indeed just an idea. But all this dualism shit did make me appreciate this chapter more and I think I am free to appreciate my own stuff, so I am asking the question.
So: do you think Simon and Baz exist at the end of the fic? And follow-up question: does it even matter?
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As an extra, this is Simon's POV from the last three chapters of Time After Time. I did come up with that while writing the fic, but I never found space to add it: basically, as Simon said before, time passes weirdly. So for him, no time has passed. He moved on. He disappeared from Baz's flat, where they danced and said goodbye, and the next thing he knows, he's at the spot where the second epilogue takes place. He's a bit confused, because "is this the next step?" and stuff, but then he sees Baz. Baz is there with him, so he reaches out and smiles when Baz turns towards him. The implication here is that whatever is next after the Veil is supposed to be paradise or whatever you want to call it. It's supposed to be the thing you want. And what Simon ultimately wants is to be with Baz. Awwww!
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trueliarose · 8 months
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20 questions for fic writers!
Thanks for the tag @givereadersahug (x)
1. How many works do you have on AO3?
I currently have 5 works, but there's a few drafts ready to be posted and a few works anonymous because of fests. Yay!
2. What’s your total AO3 word count?
136k - wow, that is a lot. I didn't even realise I crossed the 100k mark on my long WIP.
3. What fandoms do you write for?
Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling 
4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?
Finding (a way) Home (Snape&Harry Mentor, 100k, WIP!, rated M)
(secret fest-fic)
Of Kittens and Serpents (Poppy/Minerva, 6k, rated T)
Gaining Sight (Severus&Harry, drabble, rated T)
Silent Tears (Severus&Sirius, 1k, rated T)
5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?
I do, eventhough most of the times I am too emotional to write a long response. I'm so, so humbled whenever someone takes the time to leave me a comment!
6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?
I'm not sure, probably Silent Tears (Severus&Sirius, 1k) but could also be Gaining Sight (Severus&Harry, 300 words)... but there are more in my drafts, so this will probably change soon.
7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?
Of Kittens and Serpents (Poppyscotch, fluff, 6k) definetely!
8. Do you get hate on fics?
So far I don't and I hope it will stay this way. I will never understand why people feel the need to hate on things (especially free stories on the internet... why?)
9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?
I am - I didn' think I would, but then it somehow happened and in the future I'll try to do it more often.
10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?
I don't (so far) but there are so many ideas in my head it might only be a matter of time.
11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?
Luckily no.
12. Have you ever had a fic translated?
No. It would be an honour, and I did even get asked once, but as I don't feel comfortable seeing my work outside of AO3 it didn't work out.
13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?
I haven't and I don't know if I would be any good at it. It could go one of two ways: either it works out very well or I annoy the person I'm working with so much that they quit.
14. What’s your all time favourite ship?
This depends so much on my current state of mind (and which fandom I am reading at the moment). I love to explore characters and ships in different fandoms, I will never be able to answer this.
15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?
As I only have one WIP on which I am working I hope I will finish it. (but to be honest my updates on Finding (a way) Home are slower than I'd like because I participate in too many fests)
16. What are your writing strengths?
Depicting emotions (especially dark ones), maybe also describing them in a way that pulls the readerin (especially ones linked to trauma)
17. What are your writing weaknesses?
SPAG, writing fluff without adding a little dark/sad/angsty moment, keeping my works short if I don't have a set limit
18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?
Why not? I have done it, but as a reader I appreciate if the author provides a translation because google can be a little off sometimes and it is sad if you lose depth/meaning because of that.
19. First fandom you wrote for?
Twilight (so, so many years ago and luckily no longer available anywhere on the internet)
20. Favourite fic you’ve written?
right now: Fae Blessings (Lovegood family fluff, 1.5k)
Tagging (no pressure): @serenaew @sanctuary-angel
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