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ateezaligned · 3 years

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How OnlyOneOf portrayed queer relationships and dynamics in libidO, w a hint of good ol’ yearning

(disclaimer: this strictly about the mv and in no way I’m implying these dynamics are translated to real life and their friendships if u suggest that ill kick you, don’t ship real ppl romantically pls)

The storyline of Instinct pt. 1 tell us this album is focused on self-discovery and how young people repress their “urges”, but the way all three subplots play with this concept is super fascinating!

The KB/Yoojung situation (which is my favorite subplot!!): From my point of view, Yoojung and KB show a relationship that is just blossoming. The song starts with tying up Yoojung’s hands, he is being contained, and his lyrics are literally “I’m attracted for no reason”, now I looked up other translations besides the original and it also has to do with being ‘pulled’, like Yoojung is being pulled into this relationship for ‘no reason’, he thinks he needs one to fall in love with another man. Rationalizing your feelings is a way to separate yourself from them. Therefore, Yoojung plays the more hesitant part, he overthinks, his super ego policing strongly what he feels.

On the other hand, KB is seen initiating most of the physical contact between them, and he does it in a way that makes it easy for Yoojung to pull back if he doesn’t want it. KB is also always at least an arm away, inside a comfortable space for Yoojung to reach for him if he wants to. In their first scene of close contact, Yoojung is the one laying his head on KB’s shoulder, and he keeps control of their closeness throughout the whole video, despite KB breaking it with the soft touches we see, such as fixing Yoojung’s hair or putting his hand on his shoulder in the beach scene. And all this gentle-ness contrasts so well, bc we also see KB’s character initiating contact with others! He pulls Junji for a hug when both of them are shirtless and he does it so nonchalantly! It’s obvious he is okay with /more/, but he respects Yoojung’s boundaries and never pushes.

The scooter scene is great, bc we can see Yoojung hugging and pressing their thighs and putting his hands in the air, he feels more carefree, he was able to get past his own inhibitions and it’s so great to see.

So Yoojung and KB's is like a first relationship: you are stepping on eggshells, you don’t know what you’re doing or looking for. A lot of queer people start dating into adulthood, and even with previous ‘straight’ dating experience, everything is so incredibly new! And it’s great but also anxiety inducing and frustrating.

Then, there’s Rie and Junji. A thing I found incredibly interesting is that in every scene of them (except two) they’re already in contact. In the car they’re holding hands, and when they’re hugging and eating lollipops, and back to back in the basketball court, we don’t know who started it, but it doesn’t matter because Junji and Rie are equals and stand on the same ground of mutual love, respect and experience, they’re having fun and smiling at one another, even when they’re playing basketball face to face, their eyes are on each other and its playful and great. Rie has one of the best lyrics in the song that is “I trust youand I accept it”. Junji and Rie don’t need to fight their instincts, really, because they know everything is reciprocated and their libido (not as in sexual drive but as in life energy) is matched in the other, they have trust over everything else, and this can also be shown in the only scene where Rie lays his head on Junji’s back, he’s supporting himself on his partner and Junji accepts it because relationships aren’t only fun but also healing and giving someone a place to rest. And Junji does his part and bandages Rie’s wounds, which @henlex pointed out as a Achilles and Patroclus reference, being these basically the top tier of gay love and companionship, when Patroclus died (represented by Rie), Achilles dies avenging him, asking for their ashes to be mixed so they could be forever one. So yeah, let’s yearn for something like this gays.

Finally, the trio. They’re the first ones to have their solo scenes, and you can see Love in the bathtub, he is naked and exposed, playing with some rosemary leaves (yeah I went to someone and asked them if they recognised the plant leave me alone). Rosemary used to be given to Aphrodite bc it was used as an aphrodisiac. It also represents fidelity. Yeah. So Love is playing with fidelity, basically. Many thoughts were thought.

Then, Nine and Mill are a continuous contrast throughout the mv. While Nine is inside and laying on the floor, cozy and reading, Mill stands outside in the garden looking at the window. I’ve said it before but I think it’s really important the way Mill’s character portrays one of the harsher parts of queerness that is that “other-ness”. You’re just an observant, and you want in and to be yourself with your friends and participate in those rituals, but something inside you doesn’t allow you to. In here, though, is not just ‘I want to identify with my straight friends’ but ‘I want to be free like these other gays, why can’t I do it?’.

Nine and Love’s relationship doesn’t really show a lot of romantic moments, in fact, I can’t really think about something between them that was, intimate and sensual? yes, but not romantic. Which is completely okay. Sex is not something bad, and gay sex is constantly demonized. Casual sex is okay and sex with friends and whatever, as long as everyone involved is a consenting adult, sex is okay. So to me, Love and Nine are friends, the arm around the neck seemed casual and natural, they’re comfortable with each other, and they’re also comfortable with mill, as shown in the creek scene. They didn’t mind the audience (yeah this sounds kinky ik), both nine and love are pushing the boundaries, unlike kb. But pushing isn’t always wrong, per se.

Nine starts with the lyrics “leave it, libido, we’re like roots (…) mixing together with no rules”, while Love sings “don’t suppress it just accept it”. Both nine and love are clear with their intentions and instincts, their subconscious is not their enemy in any way, since both of them accept the relationship they have.

Meanwhile, Mill battles with his libido, but it’s not like Yoojung who has a partner that actually loves him, if Mill takes the chance and jumps, he doesn’t know where he is going to land. In the whole video, not even once Mill touches someone else, even if he desperately wants to (Yongsoo did a great acting work I’m still so amazed!!). The yearning and pining over Love, who pulls him in and gazes at him, is such a good concept, because even if Love is giving him all the signals that there is (he is with another boy openly, allows close contact and shows himself in front of mill), Mill will still doubt himself and what he is doing. Hesitation and all, he takes a leap of faith in that one scene where he approaches Nine and Love, and keeps eye contact.

Now here is where the controversial crotch grabbing scene comes, and both Love and Nine sing. They say they’re walking over shallow water, so it’s not risky, they’re not gonna drown, and there’s no one around and they just “keep walking”. They do their thing with no care of what others may think. But also, Nine asks “what you need?” And “why can’t you see the light over there?” now, maybe after the whole no compromises he did catch feelings for Love, but Love, playing with fidelity as previously stated, answers “I’m gonna go where I feel like going”.

And then we have Mill’s rap. He talks about how this ‘experience’ can’t be compared to anything else but it’s an experiment. Now I know a thing or two about downplaying queer experiences, it isn’t unusual for gay ppl to look at things our younger selves did and think ‘how did I even passed as straight?’. Mill, even after saying it was just this experiment, says “you’re already putting a period, that doesn’t end things”. So, my guess, since after that we don’t see them directly interacting unlike the other couples, is that it all fell apart. Love, having the upper hand in the whole dynamic, didn’t have actual romantic feelings for any of the other boys, and he left them hanging.

While a bit heartbreaking, I think it’s important to point out that queer relationships are just like straight ones, and sometimes they end up in ruins, and it’s okay and its part of growing and discovering oneself!

So yeah, that’s my interpretation. This is like 1500 words. A whole essay. Hyperfixation is a bitch. I need a girlfriend.

#onlyoneof #long post #isi rants #as always excuse my bad english #oh to have a gf so i didnt have to torture my followers w my babbling #if someone wants to give me their opinion and talk to me i will love them forever!!

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soooldout · 4 years

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201027 Sungyeol is Back Vlive with Sunggyu

He started the show with a military style greeting, and then continued with 'hello everyone, I'm Infinite's Sungyeol!'

He said that it was awkward for him to host the show alone, so he invited a special guest…Infinite's Sunggyu!

SG: *greets*

SY: whoaaa an idol an idol

He said that it was awkward when he was in the military, when he and his military fellows watched TV together and saw Sunggyu wishing the Infinite members who were in the military strength “I saw someone who I usually saw on a daily basis on TV! I didn't know what to feel. You knew how we feel and yet you said something like that jokingly”

SG: I really meant to give you strength though, not to tease you!

SG: How do you feel now

Sungyeol said he got discharged from military and society in general was awkward for him …he's still trying to get used to being a part of society (and not 'isolated' when he's in the military) He was doing whatever he was told and now after so long he can do whatever he wants

SG: Do you want me to order you around then? (afkljdsg;h)

Sungyeol said that he regretted that he didn’t follow Sunggyu when he enlisted. He thought that it would’ve been much better to go through the hardship with Sunggyu by his side

Sunggyu said he had recommended to all members to go enlist together but either Woohyun/Sungyeol said "Hyung, just go first~ we'll go later"

They argued a bit about the above and Sungyeol said, you want us to fight in front of the fans?

More bickering: They almost missed the vlive today coz Sungyeol was late to go to the hair salon, yeol is saying he ordered food and went to change and when he came back to the food he only found half of it…Sunggyu ate it and didn’t wait for him jaslkf;gs

Q: What is something you wanted to tell fans as soon as you get discharged?

SY: The fact that I cried..I found a side of me that I didn’t even know existed

Sungyeol said that he earned 7 minutes of phonecall after going through training for a month, and he called Sunggyu, his mom, CEO but no one picked up because it was an unknown number. He cried as he missed everyone so much. "I didn’t know that I was that much of a crybaby until then”

Sunggyu cried once, Woohyun cried a lot after enlisting too :(

Sunggyu’s finishing up the last performances of Kinky Boots and prepping for online concert.

They asked when is Halloween is then Sungyeol said Daeyeol asked him if it's ok for him to cosplay as Sungyeol for Halloween. Gyuyeol then said then Sungyeol can cosplay as Daeyeol for halloween, and sungyeol/'daeyeol' can 'join' golden child lmao

Q: 10 years ago after military you said you wanted to try trot, do you still have that thought now?

Sungyeol said he had that thought but the ceo turned it down. Sunggyu added that the ceo had his best interest in mind as trot may not be the best for his image. Sungyeol said he was ahead of his time because trot is the trend nowadays. Sunggyu agreed.

SY: if there's a chance I still wanna try (…….let him do what he wants please you haven’t learned your lesson yet ljy its been 10 yrs….)

Q: when did you miss your family the most?

SY: the moment I went in I missed everyone. not just my family.

SG: when did you miss/think of Sunggyu the most?

SY: The first day I was in the military!

He said pretty much every time Sunggyu did something, he thought 'did Sunggyu-hyung do this? did Sunggyu-hyung do that?'

Q: when in the military, when did you feel 'ah I’m part of Infinite'?

SY: basically said as soon as I entered. During the basic military training ceremony they even played Infinite songs, and everyone who saw me would do the naekkohaja gesture

Q: It would be good if you could do a solo fanmeet/album, when will that be?

SY: I would like that too, but I just finished military service (Sunggyu shot him saying that he could have started planning for this when he's still enlisted lmao and that he can do an online concert now)

Before enlisting Sungyeol said he'll try to be active on social media more frequently/longer, but he said he doesn’t know how to do it for a long time? Someone suggested in the comments to learn from Woohyun (yes please)

Sungyeol and Sungjong (or Woohyun? Not sure there are different translations for this part) lived in the same building. Sungyeol said Sungjong is so talkative these days, and he’s bored. He talked about how Sungjong suddenly came over to his place with coffee for him, ever since that day he's been going over to Sungyeol's place for meals almost everyday

Now that Sungyeol is discharged he was visiting his family and settling his own stuff. One day Sungjong asked him what he's doing, and that day Sungyeol happened to plan to visit his grandparents and sungjong went “OH REALLY? I WANNA GO TOO!”

Sungyeol thought, ok there's a familiar visitor his family would be glad to see him too. Turns out Sungjong was busily chatting nonstop during the entire 3 hour journey down (this is the cutest thing ever please)

Sungyeol is thankful that Sunggyu talked him out of enlisting in the navy

Q: did you count down to your discharge date?

SY: for these kind of things, time goes faster when you don’t keep thinking about it!

He also said that there were times even he doesn’t remember how many days he has left but when he searched his name you could see the "d-XXX" too

SG: Dongwoo’s discharge is on the 15th the same day as my online concert

SY: then we can do this together

SG: why me

SY: are you not Infinite?

SG: I am Infinite. I am Infinite’s leader!

SY: Then why don’t you want to do it

SG: Why are you making the decision alone!

gyuyeol just did a brief explanation/disclaimer that they may sound like they're quarrelling but it's basically just excited conversations because they haven’t hung out like this for a while 😊

SG: What does MBTI stand for?

SY: Mental Brain Tie/Tee Eye (lmaoo)

Sungyeol said he will do the test sometime.

*Sungyeol talking, Sunggyu reaches over to get food*

SY: excuse me I'm talking and you're eating??????

SG: Everyone we almost couldn’t make it for the live because Sungyeol was late! he left the shop at 6:30 and our live's at 7! He was eating too!

SY: I WAS NOT LATE that was my first meal! –

SY: and it’s been so long since I got to meet the fans so I wanted to do my hair nicely. And I didn’t even finish my food

Question about mint chocolate

Sungyeol doesn’t eat sweet stuff - chocolate/mint chocolate, cream etc. (for health reasons apparently)

Sungyeol talked about how well Sunggyu did in Kinky Boots

Q: to Sungyeol, musical <Return> is?

SY: a place where I can meet Sunggyu and it was an adventure for me and I met fans through it too

sg promoting <The Day> (his online concert) then said Sungyeol said he's gonna be present too so let's see whether he'll keep his promise

SY: of course. What shall we do when I’m there?

SG: ...let's have a meal?!?! (ok…lmao)

someone mentioned 'tell me 1st promise'

SY: do you remember?

SG: no. you're the one who said it

SY: ah was it the choochoo (train) one?

SG: you can do it (since you're the one who proposed it)

There was some chaos at this point with Sungyeol talking over him and Sunggyu said ‘ok Noisy’ kjlsgf;hgdkk

The following story was mentioned in the 10th anniversary live with Kim bros as well lmao he really won’t let this go:

There was a time when they went to a beach in Thailand and Sunggyu didn’t wanna go into the water because his condition was not good and he didn’t like water etc and Namu and Yeol went up and asked if he wanna go in but he said no. Namu left him alone but then Yeol went something like "LOL YEAH RIGHT" and threw Sunggyu into the water. And he lost his ring so he got really mad.

SG: I told you not to do it!

SY: You always say ‘no’…I thought you were lying and I was young and just wanted to do it

SG: Next time just listen to me

Q: What do you think about doing an exercising broadcast

SG: Yes, can you show your six pack…

SY: No, not to that extent

Q: what was the reason you became obsessed with working out?

SY: there wasn’t really a reason, simply because I did it regularly. e.g. regularly working out for a period of time then stopping, ~6 months later I was regularly working out again so I thought I might as well just make it a regular thing

SG: but what made you start?

*more bickering*

SY: it’s because you told me I have small shoulders

SY: Wow all we have done for an hour is fight

They talked about younger idols covering their songs and how amazed they were. They said thank you to everyone 💛

Q: Any fun incident from the military?

SG: The military is not fun as you guys think

SY: When I enlisted, the leader told the other soldiers not to pay attention to Sungyeol (As he is an idol and to not bother him) but that made him feel kind of lonely (aww)

Q: choose between going back to the military again or trainee days again?

SY: Wow. this is like asking to choose dad or mom

He chose trainee because he did his military really well so if he were to do it again he doesn’t know if he can do it as well as the first time. but he has lots of 'I could’ve done it better' moments during his trainee days so he'd rather do trainee period again and this time do it better

He said that when they were trainees, they were laying down on a rooftop watching the sky and saw fireworks. Apparently, there was Dream Concert happening nearby. He wondered if they would be able to perform at Dream Concert too someday (TT)

Q: Was there anything different about what you heard about the military and when you're actually there?

SY: the fact that I have to take care of myself more

Q: the thing you wanted to do the most in the military

SY said having a different exercise routine (bc you do the same thing everyday in military? idk)

sg: to Sungyeol, what is exercising?

SY: Something I have to do everyday

He said gyu turned him into a sinner on broadcast by saying that Sungyeol forced him to exercise (lmaooo)

Sungyeol's 'to-do' list:

- MBTI

- tell me 'choo-choo' win promise (YES FINALLY ITS BEEN 2.5 YRS)

- go on a trip

- do a dance from his musical audition

Sungyeol said when Sunggyu's enlistment had less than 100 days left, Sungyeol put some distance from Sunggyu because he was afraid if he was too close with gyu till he finished his military then he'd feel lonely when gyu discharged.

Then Sunggyu said "oh you're weaker than I expected"

SY to SG: I wasn’t like you who had the thought of ‘when else will I be able to eat this much?’ In the military, I always kept in mind to manage myself, how to look even better when I get discharged

SG: but.. you ate chicken with mee?? (haha cuute)

SG: *reads out a question about Yeol performing as Freddie Mercury*

SY: *drinking water* *chokes* Someone took a video of that???

SG: Sungyeol prepared so hard for that performance when he doesn’t prepare that hard for our concerts..

Sungyeol wanted to do the men's health magazine photoshoot too he's sad he wasn't given that opportunity. (you can do it now…do everything now while Sunggyu has power)

Comment about how good he looks in his military uniform, and Sungyeol said, yes I know

Q: When do you miss the members most

SY: I saw Sunggyu and Woohyun quite a bit…the thing I miss most is the end of year fanmeeting and doing the New Year countdown together

They showed the cake that said ‘Let’s protect Inspirits now instead of the country’ and Sunggyu said to cheer for Sungyeol a lot

💛💛💛

Translations from yeolsprout, Lusneverland, naggyu, hoslastjuliet, jibeomiejjang on Twitter

#I love seven boys #so much #very long post but very worth it <3 #sunggyu #sungyeol #infinite #translations #sungyeol is back #gyuyeol

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i-dont-want-your-hysteria · 4 years

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The Leppard Albums: A Summary

(inspired by Every Beatles Album)

Happy Saturday night everyone

The Def Leppard EP

Joe is 19 and just wants to ride a motorcycle okay

Groupie fantasy

Zeppelin lyrics meet Rush with an underappreciated bass line

On Though the Night

IT'S!!! ROCK!!! N ROLL!!! BABEY!!!

Joe is 20 and just really doesn't wanna work in a factory anymore okay

pls D; girl D; stop D; hiding D; your D; pain!!

another... groupie fantasy... I think? ...???

Leppard in Space

Joe is 20 and just wants to write something edgy okay leave him alone

STEVE 👏👏👏 FUCKING 👏👏👏 CLARK!!!! 👏👏🔥👏🔥👏👌👌

the original groupie fantasy but it's been re-recorded

girl?? make up?? your mind???

let's be mysteriously edgy ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

Zeppelin lyrics meets Rush but it's been re-recorded (but don't worry they still kept the underappreciated bass line)

High N Dry

everyone in this band is a slutty bottom and this is the song that proves it

we have Mutt Lange now and this is the song that proves it

drONK TIEM

betcha didn't think we could write a ballad, did ya ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

STÊVË!!!!! 👏👏👏👏 FÜCKÎÑ!!!!!! 👏👏👏👏👏 C L Ã R K!!!!!!!!!!!!! 🔥🔥🔥🔥👏👌👌🤙👏👌🔥👌🎉🎉

underappreciated and that's all there is to it

noooo don't go you're too mysterious and sexy hahhaha

oh god Dx oh god no Dx we don't sound like this anymore we swear Dx

betcha thought we stopped writing Beowulf-esque pop songs didn't ya ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

🚫🚫⛔👎🚫🙅‍♂️👎🚫⛔🙅‍♂️⛔ *Joe tearing his throat up for 2 solid minutes*

Pyromania

IT'S ROCK!!!!!! N ROLL!!!! BABEY!!!!!!!1!!!!1!!1!! AGAIN!!!!! 😆😆😆

the Classic Rock Fandom™ in a nutshell 😓

INTRODUCING PHIL 👌👌👌 FUCKING👏👏 COLLEN 🔥🔥🔥

betcha thought we abandoned the idea of doing a ballad didn't ya ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

Joe's back at it again with the edgy songs and is getting a lot better at it too

( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) ∆ ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

Gunter 🙃 Glieben 🙃 Glauchen 🙃 Globen

the most underappreciated song on this whole entire fucking list sorry I don't make the rules

Alright, WHO in this band wants to be in a porno >:C

Joe's back at it yet again with the edgy songs but it's even BETTER this time

Hysteria

Girls Girls Girls ALL WOMEN ARE QUEENS ANAKIN

🎸we!!! fucking!!! love!!!! glam rock!!!!!! and african drum rhythms!!!!!!!!!🥁

we're not furries we swear we're just kinky D: also fuck you DJs here's some false endings

we haven't made a ballad that HURTS yet so here we go (with an underappreciated bass line)

the song that invented "( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)" (AKA when you cram for a test the minute before and end up getting 100%)

( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)😏( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)😏( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

S T E V E 😭👏👏 F U C K I N 😭😭😭 C L A R K 👏👏👏😭👏😭

nooo don't shoot me you're too kinky hahaha

a song about rioting and being #punk, but the only crime the man singing it has ever committed was getting a speeding ticket when he was 19/20

oh. oh shit. oh god. holy shi- I can't believe... ...we just accidentally made the most perfect song to ever exist :o like seriously- people are achieving nirvana as we speak I'm not joking I think we went too far with the perfection this time guys

THIS SONG IS ABOUT S E X AND WE AIN'T BEING SHY ABOUT IT EITHER LET'S FUCKIN GO BABE-

Don't 👏 give 👏 me 👏 love 👏

Adrenalize

gkKLglldlflhlADKSLALLFLSS 😆😆😆

I fucking love my wife uWu

fkKMglgllsLLslgflephpGLDLPT 😆(͠≖ ͜ʖ͠≖)😆

We're just gonna get extremely romantic and passionate for 4 minutes and 3 seconds if that's alright with you (͠≖ ͜ʖ͠≖)

this album was the most painful thing any of us have ever had to do, so here's the most serious song we've ever done to date. Steve ✊ Fucking ✊ Clark ✊ -n-

now that our mental breakdown is over, we're gonna get extremely passionate and romantic again but for a lil longer this time aiight 🤙

one of us has a protection/ownership kink but we're not gonna tell you who

you know what this album needs? a little bit more pain

we're layin down the line (and by that we mean we want sex)

we're layin down the line pt.2 (we still want sex btw)

Retro Active

Beowulf songs are back babey 🤙

I'll say that again if I have to^

we!!! still!!! fucking!!! love!!!! glam rock!!!!! we even covered something to prove it!!!!!!

Joe has now officially mastered ballads

I fucking love my wife part 2: she's a badass top

While Joe was off mastering ballads, Phil studied the blade

We covered something else bc again!!! we fucking!!! love!!! glam!!!

We rewrote Joe's motorcycle song bc we now realize it was cringe af (and it was an excuse for Joe to talk to Ian Hunter so that made him happy)

Joe has now officially mastered edgy/serious songs

it's a total bop but oh god. No. Please. No. Oh God. No. Don't. Please. No. Pls. No. Oh god. Don't.

This should've been on Adrenalize and you can Fight Me On That

Phil studies the blade (electric version)

Joe masters ballads (electric version)

Vault (there's only one new song on here so that's all I'm doing)

babe nooooo D';

Slang

Epic edgelords part 1

Epic edgelords part 2: Phil wrote it this time

everyone in this band is a slutty bottom and this is the song that proves it Volume 2: Electric Bugaloo

soft breakdown :'c

hOT DOGGITY DAMN JOE'S VOICE HOLY HELL TAKE ME N- *clears throat* I mean introducing Vivian Campbell :3 aND THERE'S A BASS SOLO MMMM 🤤🤤👌 THIS SONG IS JUST SEXY FUCKIN LIFT ME UP AND-

Phil's marriage isn't going too well

in fact, no one's marriages are going too well

severely underrated bop

We're still not over Steve's death and we never will be :c

Joe makes edgy ballads his bitch yet again 👏👏

severely underrated banger 🔥🔥🔥

Euphoria

wE STILL MAKE FAST BOPS IN CASE YOU FORGOT 🤘🤘🤘🤘🤘🤘🤘

Holy shit I didn't know Joe could hit a note that high

The 90s sucked for us but we'rE STILL HERE BICH 🖕

Can we pls give Sav more songwriting space on albums thx 😭💗

everyone in this band is a slutty bottom and this is the song that proves it Volume 3: Even Sluttier This Time 😏

totally different from everything we've ever done and WE 👏 MADE IT 👏 OUR 👏 EDGY 👏 BITCH

uwu but it's sad so it's actually umu

partying like it's 1999- oh wait, it actually is 1999

*hugs Viv and scREEEEEEEEAAAMMS*

Phil studied the blade and attacks you with it

*gets escorted into the back of a police car* IM GUILTY!! I'M GUILTY!!! I'M NOT INNOCENT!!! 😫😫😫

whatever edginess we couldn't fit into Paper Sun we put into this song instead

we're entering the new millennium as Kings and there's nothing you can do about it 👑🖕

X (Ten)

Stand on a balcony at sunset when you listen to this one

(insert Vizzini saying "INCONCEIVABLE" here)

the big UwU

I got ghosted and it’s actually a lot more dark and depressing than I thought also I wish I was never awake

soft and edgy and sad acoustic dads

F-U-C-K SPELLS F- I mean L-O-V-E spells love uWu

babe nOOOooO I'm sorry I suck so much DD;

this sounds like out if Work It Out and Day After Day had a kid

we're gonna have a Funky Good Time whether you like it or not 😎

E D G E L O R D S 2 0 0 2

we can't decide if we want this album to be edgy or uwu so we're gonna make it both

the same passion as Tonight but less sexy and more (you guessed it) uwu

E D G E L O R D S 2 0 0 2 P A R T 2

Betcha thought our emo phase was over didn't ya ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

Yeah!

bops have been and will ALWAYS be something we have mastered- even if the song we're playing isn't ours

SAV'S TIME TO SHINE

betcha thought we couldn't cover a Blondie song, did ya ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

Phil's just getting nostalgic about London it's fine 👍

don't worry joe's still sCREAMIN

in which we make this song a million times better than the original

WE LOVE ROXY MUSIC SO MUCH WE CANTEXPLAINWEJUSTLOVEHEMRMFLGPHPH

we're letting Joe have his moment ok just let him have this 👨‍🎤

yeah we like Free- so whAT??

okay NOW we're letting Joe have his real moment- he's been waiting for this moment ever since he was like 12 okay just. let him. have this just. this one time. pls.

in which we confuse literally everyone by making them think this is a song that we wrote

we just need ONE more bop, okay? Just ONE more we swear then we'll stop being fanboys (for now...)

we'll be right back, it's Bow Down To Thin Lizzy Hour

*Phil tearing up his throat for 4 and a half solid minutes*

Songs From The Sparkle Lounge

this one's actually kinda dark and heavy? :o

honky tonk time 🤠🤙

FINALLY ONE OF SAV'S SONGS IS THE MOST POPULAR SONG OFF AN ALBUM 🙏🙏🙏🙏😩

FINALLY WE HAVE MORE SAV MATERIAL I LOVE IT SM ;∆; !!!!

Phil's songs are severely underrated tho pls give them more attention

it's time for one (1) badass religious song and if you don't like it then you can Fuck Off kindly 🙃

This whole album is "Songs That Were Written By Phil and Viv and Sav" heaven

I think sometimes people forget that we, even as a band, are fans of the Classic Rock Fandom™ too, and we feel the same pain as the other fans :'^)🤙

Joe's three minutes of fame on this album

Joe's three minutes of fame on this album part 2

Viv's songs are severely underrated tho pls give them more attention

Mirror Ball (bonus tracks)

we grabbed fate by the balls and screamed fUCK YOU 🖕🖕

We are still Kings™ in case anyone was wondering 👑🖕

✨PHIL BELIEVES!!!! IN!!!!! LOVE!!!!!!!! AND!!!!!!!!!! BELIEVING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!✨

Def Leppard (Self Titled 2015)

Is this song about playing a live show? Probably. Is it also about having a fight? Is it also about angry sex? The world may never know.

Okay this one just absolutely SLAPS, periodt.

bootleg Another One Bites The Dust

*SOBBING* THEY'RE ALL SINGING LEAD I'M-

being badass, That's The Power Of Love

don't worry, we still know how to be Poetically Edgy

iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii'm *bump bump* hooked on a feeeeling

I've Got a Spiritual Romantic Boner

Can't Keep Away From The Flame edginess gets crossed with some Zeppelin charm and badassery

someone in this band is fucking piSSED 😠😠😠😠

we're gonna @ someone tonight fellas

sAV OH MY GOD BABYYYYY 😰😰😭😭😭😭 DO YOU NEED A HUG

what if we tried to cross newer Metallica with Nickelback 🤔

what if we turned this into We All Need Christmas three years from now... 🤔

Bonus: Personal Jesus/We All Need Christmas

Viv really wanted to cover ABBA but everyone said no so he settled for cowboy goth™ instead

What better man to write a warm and fuzzy Christmas song than the warm and fuzziest man alive (Sav)

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kvngjoong · 4 years

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jisung + nsfw a-z

next is felix!! i forgot about my dissertation so need to work on that, but i’ll try to post it tomorrow, and if not next monday!

A: Aftercare

because han jisung is not only a sub, but a brat, he needs taking care of. he will demand all of your attention on him, so good luck if you wanted to do something else, because jisung is expecting you to take care of him, run him a bath, sit with him, play with his hair (and braid it, hmm?), then help him get to sleep. if you don’t, he will definitely complain about it

B: Body part

although there is a joke he literally loves your chest, he loves your hands more. he likes the way you stroke his skin so softly, he likes how you run your fingers through his hair when he’s in sub space, he especially loves the way that you so perfectly jack him off. for him, he loves his lips the most. he knows the effect he has on you because of them

C: Cum

he cums a lot. like a surprising amount. he enjoys making a show of it and having it all over your sheets, or your hands, so that he can lick it off. also likes having his cum on ur tiddies cause he thinks it looks pretty

D: Dirty Secret

jisung mentioned more than enough times that he wants to video you guys doing something sometime, and he does with your permission this one time. he first off doesn’t admit that he enjoys being a bit of a slut on camera, but it’s pretty easy to see it the next time you watch it and he’s practically got his tongue out and begging for more. second, he doesn't admit how many times he actually got off to that video, and each time you bring it up he’ll get all shy because.. did he just pop a boner?

E: Experience

he knows a damn lot about what he’s doing, but he doesn’t actually have any real experience. probably because he was too busy fantasizing about what could be happening or just he was generally busy. but yeah, he knows what he’s doing and he knows what he wants

F: Favourite Position

literally anything which gives him a chance to touch your tiddies. no joke, he loves it when you ride him, no matter what part of him you’re actually riding. face, cock, thigh… he’s into it (if you’re not wearing a shirt or you’re wearing one of his and it’s kinda see through.. you understand)

G: Goofy

jisung is a brat. do you know what that means? he will make jokes, he will tease you by acting like you’re not affecting him. he generally has a more relaxed approach to nsfw stuff, but he uses it to his advantage too. he’ll get what he wants from you by keeping his happy charm as though he’s completely oblivious to the fact that you're trying to turn him on, or something like that

H: Hair

he’s still pretty young and probably didn’t get the memo to shave anything. but when he gets closer to you he wants to take pride in his appearance and will probably start shaving. not that he has much of it to begin with, he probs doesn’t have much hair altogether anyway

I: Intimacy

he acts like he doesn’t care all that much, but jisung is a sensitive baby and everything means so much to him. especially when he’s laying in your arms afterwards and he looks up to you like you’re his entire world. it’s kinda obvious as well when your sex is a little less kinky and you just wanna show him how much he cares, he will respond the exact same way. but he’s definitely more intimate outside of nsfw stuff

J: Jack Off

He can go all the time, any time. So he jacks off a lot. It may be something that’s hard to control when you first get together because he will be pretty demanding that you help him out each time, but eventually he resorts to just recording it each time so you get to see him jacking off on his own instead

K: Kink

oh hey did someone say the worst power bottom of them all? yeah. he’s a brat, but he knows what he’s doing. he knows what to say to get you riled up, he knows how to move and how to push your buttons. but he likes annoying you because when you get a bit rougher that just takes him to another level. so he’s a masochist too. there’s a whole list of them. he’s a sub. praise kink, teasing, shower sex, practically anywhere sex, he literally is a book of kinks - some of which you might not even know

L: Location

uh.. anywhere. literally. he doesn’t have many boundaries. it doesnt matter that he’s an introvert, all his inhibitions are lost when he’s needy. unless it’s somewhere super public. that isn’t to say he isn’t one to join the mile high club, cause he thinks that would be pretty hot. jisung thinks a lot of things are pretty hot, actually

M: Motivation

he doesn’t need anything other than you. he’ll be talking to you one time and remember when you stuck a butt plug in him and outright say to you what he’s thinking about. he’ll be working on a song and remember when you bit his collar bone a bit harder than usual, then he’ll run out to call you for a little phone conversation whilst he’s in the disabled bathroom (privacy ofc). so his own creeping thoughts

N: NO

he’s not very much into you calling him degrading names. as much as he likes you spanking him, edging him, etc, he gets a bit upset at the sound of you calling him a slut or whore (you get it). he doesn't seem himself that way, because even is he’s practically begging for you to make him cum over and over, he doesn’t do that for anyone else. he does it for you and only you

O: Oral

he gives and he receives. he loves both, no matter what mood he’s in. he loves how you feel when you suck him off and he also loves to show you how much he’s into you and also impress you with his skills. he’ll do it all just to hear you say how good he is. praise kink, anyone?

P: Pace

definitely on the quicker side no matter what he does. no need to ask him to go faster at all

Q: Quickie

a must have with someone like jisung. he’s frequent to a pout and pulling you into a side room because he really wants to show you just how hard he is for you. he doesn’t prefer them, but he definitely likes them

R: Risk

he thrives on the idea of getting caught. jisung is loud, and he most definitely could moan a bit loud so everyone else knows what he’s doing. it doesn’t embarrass him that much, depending on who might actually catch him doing something, but if someone caught him he would definitely get all cocky because hell yeah, you’re dating him

S: Stamina

usually sticks to a maximum of like 2 rounds, but they’re long. he can endure a lot, especially the longer you’ve been together

T: Toy

loves them all, lives for them, will actively look for them to be used on him. doesn’t really use them on you, but is one to sit back and watch you get off with one as he gets himself off, too. mutual masturbation is a good thing for him, providing that you use that toy on him afterwards, too

U: Unfair

as a brat, he is of course unfair. even with you as the dom, no matter what you do, he still has control somewhere because he’s the worst damn tease around. he’ll listen to your rules, he’ll nod as you tell him he can’t cum until you say, and he’ll do it anyway to get punished, but also because he knows it sends you one step closer to hell anyway. so he’s a tease and it’s completely intentional, especially when he says stuff around other people and smiles widely at you because he just kinda hinted at that one time you let him fuck your mouth… okay jisung

V: Volume

jisung is loud. not kind of loud, not a little bit loud, he is the very definition of loud. cover his mouth loud. have to gag him loud (which he likes). you’re gonna find it hard to keep anything a secret from others because jisung literally does not have a filter and if he likes something you’re doing, he’s gonna tell you and everyone within twenty metres. he talks, he whines, he moans, he whimpers… he is loud

W: Wild Card

it’s not often you were his shirts, and jisung has been begging you to just wear one bc he thinks it will be cute. eventually you give into him and you decide to wear one when you get out of the shower one evening, and jisung was really not expecting you to just have his shirt and a thong on, and he practically fell to his knees at the sight. needless to say you were back in the shower twenty minutes later with jisung following close behind

X: X-Ray

he’s a tiny boy, so probably on the smaller side. it would be a bit weird if he was unexpectedly big, but hey, he has other stuff to work with

Y: Yearning

oh, jisung yearns for you a lot. the amount of pictures he sends when he’s meant to be working, the times he’s pulled you into the bathroom and begged you to do something to help him out, it’s easy to see that jisung has an insatiable need that only you can fulfill. have fun!

Z: ZZZ

he has a lot of energy, so he can’t really just sleep afterwards. he’ll not wanna do stuff with you, like go out and explore or something like that, but he’s happy to watch a movie. he loves just being with you, especially when he loses his bratty tones, so honestly after sex he’s so cuddly and cute that you’ll probably stay up for a bit and both fall asleep by accident

#han smut #jisung smut #han reactions #han Jisung scenario #han jisung smut #han jisung scenarios #jisung scenarios #Han Jisung scenarios #stray kids smut #stray kids reaction #stray kids scenario #stray kids imagine #stray kids

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hhuta · 3 years

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(3D lbqfm anon) y'know after reading ur post on it i realized i a) subconsciously noticed the de-gaying and that's probably why i didn't like it and b) somehow didn't notice ANY changes despite the fact that I watched the two versions less than a week apart,,, i thought it was just the new cravat (tho i still don't like it. the old one was better) | also,,,, is it too much trouble to ask why u don't like the 3D assassymphonie? guessing smtg to do w the women | also ur opinion on 3D vaec?

where do i start with miss l'assasymphonie.. btw u can watch the video of the two versions side by side here. and my rant got wayyy too long so ill talk about VAEC in another post ldkjasl

tw: self harm/suicide mention just to be safe

im going to start with minor differences that make me prefer the 2010 version but not hate the 2011 one

first of all his dramatic soft gay sappy ass touching his heart when talking about mozarts music i like that a lot :(

then when he sings "killing out of spite everything i create" he metaphorically stabs himself in 2010 but not in 2011

and i love the first version because its a nice and subtle parallel between how mozarts music makes him feel like (lbqfm) vs how his own music affects him (l'assasymphonie) as i pointed out here before. this is on different levels !! the fact that in lbqfm its his inner gay demon stabbing him, representing mozart(s music) and in l'assasymphonie he stabs himself..... bc he is killing what he creates and what he creates is part of himself... so this isnt about him wanting to kill mozart its about him being self destructive... this is crazy this is just one gesture and i can go on and on about it and honestly my rant will only get more insane.

later he grabs the knife at different moments and in different ways and i think the 2010 version is more dramatic and impactful. the editing helps too, it really made me jump, its all done at the right time. but honestly both are valid to me; i feel like in 2010 hes more angry and impulsive, like its the very first time he thinks about doing something like this, whereas in 2011 he feels sad and defeated, like hes going back to a place he fought very hard to get out of and because of this one guy hes back there, but in the end he recognises its his own fault

another minor difference that i think is worth mentioning, and honestly i like both versions, is what he does at the "senseless (or crazy) symphony" part. in 2010 he almost covers his ears cuz obviously it goes along with the lyrics in a literal sense. meanwhile in 2011 its more of a symbolic interpretation? idk how to word it but 2010 feels like hes just talking about his music and the thoughts inside his head making no sense, but in 2011 when he looks at his writs, his veins, its like he is talking about himself as a whole; a being without any meaning, who is losing his mind, and i like that too

and this difference goes on when he talks about the "disconcerting concert"; 2010 feels like hes literally listening to it around him, his performance in 2010 is overall more dramatic lkjslkd, meanwhile theres none of that in 2011, hes too melancholic to be jumping around

here when hes talking about his talent (or rather lack of) u can see how hes more angry in 2010 and sad in 2011 (honestly this corroborates my theory that at the beginning florent played salieri as a legit evil villain but as it went on he added more depth)

anyways so far both versions are good to me now........ the fucking dancers............... i move away from the mic to breathe in.jpg

theres just. so fucking much going on in 2011. there are a shit ton of people moving around, the flashing lights, the constant zoom in and out, the curtains moving the background, im gonna have a stroke????? l'assasymphonie is such a heavy song, emotionally, and florents performance is amazing on its on theres no fucking need to add 100 more elements!??!? it totally takes away ur focus from salieri ....

my biggest problem is with the dancers as u guessed it cuz honestly idk why they are there, i dont understand the need. i get that they are his inner demons, but not the sexy ones, so they are there to represent his inner turmoil and add a chaos element to the performance and a parallel to lbqfm with the whole hands on salieri part, but its way to obvious that it becomes repetitive! inner demons dancing around a character happens way too much on mor; bim bam boum in a way, j'accuse mon pere, la mascarade, comedie-tragedie, si je defaille, lbqfm and now again?!!?!?!?! bitihc dlajsdlkas

and the worst fucking part to me is when salieri goes to kill the female dancer

.....why whY... WHY.. why make the song literal like this!!! this is not what its about??!?! i know she isnt supposed to be A Person, this isnt him being A Murderer, she is him in a way but ?? we already saw him almost killing himself??!!? why repeat that, this is just so unnecessary and it doesnt sit right with me why make him stab a woman!! it makes my blood boil. it takes away all the drama from the other scene, of him with the knife on his wrist, because it is essentially the same!

now lets discuss why i prefer the lost half naked blindfolded men. is it because its gay? yes. is it because of the kinky element? yes. u see how that creates a parallel to lbqfm but in a subtle way? yes thank you.

to elaborate i feel like the 2010 dancers represent his psyche at the moment soooo much better. its not just simply his inner demons haunting him again, making it repetitive.

his is how i interpret it and how it relates to salieri:

the blindfold: god it can mean so much... above all i think its his envy and anger blinding him, making him feel lost and afraid. but it can also represent how salieri is a stern man, he only sees things one way and is blinded to other possibilities, other ways of living. because he is so narrow minded, so used to just following the status quo, he doesnt understand mozart and how his carefree way of life is working for him. he doesnt understand his conflicted feelings towards mozart. he doesnt understand how mozarts music can be so unconventional and yet beautiful, etc etc. his world was shattered and he feels lost because of this one little guy

but honestly i think the intention was to give a shoutout to amadeus lmao which is still cool. they do mention in MOR that mozart can play blindfolded so u can view as a parallel to that too

the lack of clothes: around mozart salieri feels naked but not in a sexy and fun way, in vulnerable and seen for the first time way. imagine how strongly he considered changing his name and moving countries after the whole eh bien, maestro? trop de notes? ordeal..... he was caught off guard in that situation so he let the truth out way too much, but he knows he cant fake it around mozart any other time either

their behaviour: they look afraid, lost, in pain and are constantly falling, getting up, then falling again and being pushed up against the wall by something invisible (to me its mozarts music/influence) and honestly i dont have to say anything else ! its all there !!! it represents salieris emotions perfectly !!!!!

in summary, to me the 2010 dancers dont have a lot to do with the lyrics of the song and i think thats good. they are there to add a new element to it, to let us see inside salieris head, while salieri himself is performing what the lyrics are about. so on the other hand i think the 2011 dancers are repetitive and unnecessary, not adding anything new to the performance

#final thoughts: maybe the 2010 choreo was too ahead of its time for certain people so they changed it.....#anyways that was so fucking long i hope at least half of it makes sense #l'assasymphonie #asks #mor thoughts #3d anon

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atsumusc0ck · 3 years

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congrats on 200!! can i pls get a cursed pic & some groovy headcanons for me and the bane of my existence, suna?

my fav colour is a muted blue-green (?? if that ?? makes sense ?? if it doesnt lmao its blue)

i am a struggling sci student w a passion for social justice and social issues. i got a quiz result that said i was “piratecore” and thats the most accurate thing ive ever received in my life. i do a classic biweekly spiel to my friends about destroying the patriarchy, eating the rich, abolishing the police, rejecting the binary, etc.

i’m bisexual, shorter than you think (think of the shortest adult you’ve met, i’m shorter), gym rat pre-covid days. my goal was to become absolutely stacked. just huge. i thirst over bokuto’s thighs but on god do i want thighs like that. i have a complex in the gym where i am Gym Bros with everyone but ive also been told i walk around like i’m about to punch someone lmao

i listen to lots of kpop and religiously drink coffee from my nespresso bc it brings me too much joy. i think suna irl would like, step on me and not in a fun way lmao i’m like pretty introverted but i can potentially Turn On The Charisma. once u get to know me a lil i like to think i’m chill. like, i’m a nerd. but chill idk

my vibe is like. soft safe autumn comfort? lots of oversized sweaters and warm tones and hugs? i’ve been told i have a calming presence? i am Very Caring, ride or die, express affection easily. i like giving my friends little things and making sure they feel validated and loved. my love languages are physical affection and quality time. facetime me for 12 hours in silence type beat. i physically cannot perceive myself anymore so uhh hope this is good!

take ur time with this, get to it whenever, take care of urself first <3 thanks for doing this event i think its real rad and i’m so sorry i just physically typed “real rad”

— artemis (@/ushiwakajimas)

@ushiwakajimas to make sure you see it

How you met: simple, point blank, he meant to throw something at Osamu to say it was Atsumu to egg them on. He hit you instead.

Song: Dorks - Aesop Rock

Sfw:

- will feast on the rich with you, says he’ll get Osamu to cook ‘em

- you both comment on hot folx you see out n about like

- “2 o’clock orange dress she’s stunning” but he’s always point out how no one is as pretty as you but damn that chick has a fine ass

- you both share quality time as a love language

- loves picking you up from the gym and sometimes even working out with you

- but lets face it you may be small but you could destroy Suna fit ICON

- is drawn to the fact you aren’t overly out gowing

- highschool was filled with enough over the top people

- he enjoys the simplicity with you

- pda isnt like overly in peoples face

- but loves giving you forehead kisses

- however at parties he is ALL OVER YOU

- holding you, kissing you, sucking on your neck as you try to talk to someone

- he may not understand everything you study

- but he will pull all nighters with you to study

- going over flash cards and pop quizes together

- he’s always there for you

- whenever you send him a selfie or facetime him he’s gassing you up

- “hot damn you look fucking good”

- for you he just goes mushy and only you

- he loves taking naps with you

- anywhere anytime

- movie date? He’s asleep head against your shoulder

- so vulnerable and cute

Nsfw:

- i headcanon suna to be a kinky fucking bastard

- loves fucking you whenever there is a chance you mught get caught

- a bit jealous so leaves you covered in marks

- will GUARANTEE you will not be able to walk on your own for awhile

- oral fixation

- ball gags, chocking, fingers in your mouth, oral recieving and giving, spitting into your mouth and making you swallow

- degredation but praise mixed together

- it’s a vibe

- lives being ridden and just watching you and your body glisten with sweat

- and the sweet moans that escape your lips

- every now and then he bottoms

- it is a blessing you get to ruin him like he does to you all the time

- he has a box of fun things he keeps by the bed so sex is always exciting and fun

- study breaks? Study break quickies

- will eat you out as you try to fucking do your homework

- not one part of his home is sacred you’ve smashed on every surface

- squeezes your thighs until his hand marks are fucking imprinted forever

- you’ll have to buy a lotta turtle necks with this mans

- after care is cozy

- puts your favorite sweater in the dryer for a few minutes so its soft and warm

- makes you tea or coffee depending on the time of day

- snuggles

#z.200

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fictionandtheatre · 4 years

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Either Spock or Data, you choose!

both!!!

Spock

(Also some Disco spoilers below fyi)

Favourite thing about them: Everything The sass - the humour - the jokes. He’s just so funny and witty and sarcastic, i love that.

Least favourite thing about them: Not so much a problem with Spock himself, but I wish there were more instances in canon where he established his boundaries firmly and didn’t have to walk them back. I feel like a lot of instances where he is made uncomfortable or upset, it’s treated like well that’s something u got to work on Spock, not that his feelings and discomfort is justified. I.e. in All our Yesterdays, no closure on him telling off McCoy’s xenophobia, its just kinda forgotten about/excused bc of time nonsense; in ST:Discovery Spock has lingering resentment about how Michael called him a half-breed etc. (albeit to try to protect him) but then he just....doesnt??? like two scenes after he knocks over the chess set feeling angry about her treatment of him he’s just like, ok we’re friends now and I’ll listen to your problems.....what??? That seemed so out of place and awkward. Like, I do want him and Michael to be reconciled and friendly, but in a realistic way, in a way that acknowledges both their feelings. Anyways.

Favourite line: “I am what I am Leila. And if there are self-made purgatories, then we all have to live in them. Mine can be no worse than anyone else.” (This Side of Paradise)

BrOTP: Nyota Uhura + Spock are the best friendship of all time.

OTP: SpockxKirk all day every day every way

NOTP: stop shipping Spock with Michael Burnham u nasties

Random headcanon: Spock continues to draw/paint into his adulthood to help relieve stress, or maybe as part of his meditation. It helps him balance and reflect, and allows him to explore his emotions in a more private setting.

unpopular opinion: I know everyone is horny for him, but even if he’s not ace, I still think Spock is not overly concerned about sex. He’s not kinky or secretly some kind of sex fiend or whatever happens in fanfic lol. He just wants to care for those he loves, and be shown tenderness in return. That’s all!!!

song I associate with them: honestly every song i listen to i force to fit with my trek daydreams/fic ideas haha. That said, Can’t Fight This Feeling by REO Speedwagon is an insanely perfect Spirk TMP song.

Data

Favourite thing about them: I love how genuine he is, and how earnestly he engages with everything around him. As soon as something interesting happens he drops everything to talk about it, and I love that about him. Best guy, favourite, so wonderful, wow

Least favourite thing: I really have nothing but good things to say about Data, but I wish that instead of always resigning himself to the fact that he’s not human/won’t feel things like a human that he would take the positive route and try to find a work-around. Like, maybe he doesn’t have human emotions, but he definitely does have a unique perspective, creativity, ability to make dynamic choices, reactions, etc. that make him a sentient being. Embrace who you are, Data, not who you’re expected to be!!

Favourite line: “It is the struggle [to be human] itself that is most important...the effort yields its own rewards.” (The Offspring)

BroTp: I think Data and Worf are underrated as best friends. They have a unique solidarity of not really fitting in with the other members of the crew. And they have a fun dynamic, with Worf being surly and stand-offish and Data being open and naive.

OTP: Geordi and Data are so adorable together, and they’re in love and they own twenty cats and its beautiful. I’m also here for an OT3 with Hugh!

NOTP: Don’t make him straight, don’t ship him with mean people, and not with Picard, lol.

Random headcanon: Data has a huge collection of the 24th century equivalent of tourist trap key chains with the names on the license plates. One from every planet that sells them. Everyone tells him they don’t have any value. He has seven hundred thousand of them, colour coordinated in a storage container. He wears them on a bracelet off duty. He just thinks they’re neat.

unpopular opinion: I love that part in Fistful of Datas where Brent Spiner is in drag. I know its not really data but omg its just so amazing

song I associate them with: Haven’t really thought of this, but I could see Data listening to Philip Glass operas. Einstein on the Beach, maybe? They are pretty dense and repetitive, but once you get into them they’re pretty neat.

Send me a character name here

#anons #answered #ask games #star trek #data #spock #this was really fun #thank you for sending me things!#i went deep with these answers lol #i have one more in my inbox but please keep sending me these bc i love doing them

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silverlightqueen · 5 years

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Ruin My Life - Part 6

RML masterlist

fratboy!Jimin - no smut in this chapter (because there’s plenty in the previous five sksks), a w h o l e lot of angst (!!!), a bit of fluff

Summary - I don’t wanna spoil anything but um make sure you read the end of the last chapter bc it carries straight on into this part, like there’s no time jump at all

Word Count - 5.1k

Warnings - um none really, a lil bit of bitchiness, pregnancy and abortion talk, good friends Joon and Mija, snakes galore, vomiting, and a pickle (that’s not a euphemism for anything, a literal real life pickle)

a/n: I know this is kinda short but a LOT happens, sorry if there are mistakes because this is not proofread at all sksks. lmk what y’all think and hmu if you wanna be on the taglist

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‘Okay, that’s like super sexy, but what if I get a UTI?’ I say, unwillingly breaking us out of daddy-princess mode. His smirk disappears, replaced by his thoughtful face, hands stilling at my waist. ‘What if you like try to piss but hold in the pa-’ ‘I’m gonna stop you there. Even if I do manage to piss while keeping the pants in me, I could get like an infection or something. I’m really sorry to ruin what would have been super sexy, but I don’t wanna put my health at risk,’ I say, and he nods in agreement, somewhat forlorn. ‘Fine, go have a shower, you spoilsport,’ he says, and I swat at him, listening to his giggles as he dodges me. ‘I was about to ask you to join, but forget it,’ I say, heading towards my en suite. ‘No, I’m sorry, princess!’ he cries, chasing after me, ‘I take it back!’

‘Good evening, sir and madam. Can I get the beautiful young couple anything to drink?’ the very enthusiastic waiter says, appearing out of nowhere, startling us both. I go to correct him, to say that, no, we’re not a couple, but Jimin speaks before I can. ‘A bottle of wine, babe? Or do you want something else?’ he asks me. ‘Wine’s good,’ I reply with a smile, watching as Jimin orders a very expensive bottle. He looks so beautiful, dirty blond locks swept back and exposing a strip of his forehead, in a pair of smart black trousers, white shirt and black bomber jacket resting on the back of his chair. He asked me to match with him so I’m dressed in a little black lace bodycon dress with lacy sleeves and a frilly hem, black Valentino flats (gifted from Mija) on my feet and a black clutch sat on the table, hair straight down my back and makeup glowy and tan. ‘I’ll bring that to you in just a moment. Are you having starters tonight, or just mains?’ he asks us, Jimin looking to me. ‘I think we’ll just have mains,’ I say, thinking back to the bag of Doritos we shared just before we left. Jimin grins, nodding in agreement, and the waiter smiles. ‘Okay, you decide what you’d like, then, and I’ll take your orders when I come back with your wine,’ he says, leaving with the drinks’ menu.

The restaurant is absolutely beautiful, dark and atmospheric, the low hum of chatter coupled with an obscure jazz song floating out from hidden speakers. A fountain bubbling with frothy water, glowing pink with lights, glides down the far wall, made of black marble, as are all of the surfaces here, and chandeliers hang above our heads, casting mellow light over us. Behind Jimin is a faux blossom tree, a beautiful backdrop for a (completely irritatingly) beautiful man. ‘Do you like the restaurant?’ he asks me with a soft smile, and I nod. ‘It’s so beautiful, I love it. Thank you,’ I say, and he rests a hand over mine across the table, finger running over the ring he gave me. ‘It’s nothing. I think it was about time I took you out, right? Wrecked your shit that many times,’ he jokes, and I raise an eyebrow, supressing a laugh. ‘Don’t flatter yourself,’ I say, and then he raises an eyebrow. ‘Are you really trying to claim otherwise?’ he asks, and I decide to back down before we start to argue, telling him to change the subject but before he can… ‘Jimin! Is that you?’

Her shrill voice sounds from behind me, and I roll my eyes as I see Jimin’s focus move upwards over my head. ‘Oh, hi, Jeongyeon,’ he says tentatively, obviously thinking about the fact that she and I are not exactly… friends, you could say. She appears at the side of our table, a gaggle of girls from her sorority, LSG, surrounding her, chatting away between themselves. ‘Oh, y/n. What a surprise. I didn’t know the two of you were friends,’ she says, eyeing me warily, fake smile pasted onto her face. I watch as her eyes slide down to land on Jimin’s hand resting on mine. ‘Unless… are you two, like, dating?’ she exclaims, catching the attention of her sisters. ‘No, we’re just friends,’ I reply, neither of us moving our hands. ‘That ring says otherwise,’ she says drily, almost jealously, and the girls gasp. ‘Oh, my God, are you two engaged?’ Sana, the only girl in their sorority that I actually like, exclaims, and we both laugh. ‘No, we aren’t,’ I say, Jimin nodding in agreement. ‘So, who’s it from then?’ Jeongyeon asks, and I roll my eyes, wondering why she’s still here. ‘Me. But it’s not an engagement ring,’ Jimin says shortly, obviously sensing my annoyance. ‘Well, make sure you get that out there, otherwise people will think you’ve wifed her because she’s pregnant!’ Jeongyeon laughs, neither of us letting our shock at her guess show as we laugh gently.

‘Well, this has been nice,’ she begins. ‘Has it?’ I mutter, but she carries on, having not heard me. ‘But, we’d better head to our table. We’re going out to the Ace of Hearts after, so you guys are welcome to join if you’d like,’ she offers. ‘We’re good, luv, enjoy,’ I say, Jimin coughing over my words. ‘Sorry, what was that?’ she asks falsely, and I go to repeat my words. ‘She said we’ll see if we have time, and she’s right. I might be too busy wrecking her,’ he says, not thinking before the words leave his mouth. Jeongyeon chokes, looking at us wide-eyed, the other girls now distracted chatting between themselves again, and I laugh. ‘He’s kidding, obviously,’ I say, and Jimin nods, laughing too. ‘Oh, right. Of course,’ she says, tittering obnoxiously. ‘Well, we’ll leave you to it, but it’s been nice to see you both. Enjoy your night,’ she says, dragging her girls away after neither Jimin nor I reply to her. ‘Bye, Sana,’ I say as she passes the table. ‘Bye, babe. Treat her well,’ Sana says, turning to face Jimin, attempting to be threatening but, with her dinky figure and adorable voice, is about as scary as a puppy Pomeranian i.e. not scary at all. Unless you’re scared of dogs. Maybe a little kitten. Okay, I lowkey have a cat phobia, and ‘little kitten’ kinda sounds kinky. Um, a human baby. Actually, they’re scary as hell. All crying and scrunched up with they alien-looking headass, gross. Jimin’s eye smile. Actually, nothing’s that cute. Anyway, I’m getting distracted.

‘I will, Sana, don’t worry. Make sure you treat Joon right,’ he grins, and she blushes deeply. ‘Namjoon? There’s nothing between us two,’ she stutters, Jimin nodding indulgently. ‘Sana!’ Jeongyeon shouts from somewhere in the restaurant, and Sana rushes off, embarrassed. ‘Her and Joon, huh?’ I ask, and he nods, smirking. ‘They’ve been talking the past couple days nonstop, since our party, and they’re both really into each other by the looks of it. They’re cute. I hope it lasts,’ Jimin says, and I feel warm at the way he speaks about his brother’s happiness. ‘Same, and I’m sure they will. They’re both super nice people, and I can so see them together,’ I say, Jimin nodding in agreement. ‘Anyway,’ he grins, changing the subject, ‘as much as I really need you to keep your mouth shut and your bitchy thoughts to yourself in the future, I think I’m starting to see why you and Jeongyeon don’t get along.’ ‘Correction: why I don’t like her anymore. She still thinks we’re friends, apparently,’ I say, and he nods, hand still on mine. ‘Why exactly don’t you like her? Besides her being her, that is,’ he asks, and I laugh. ‘She’s the head of LSG, right? Well, Mija convinced me to rush LSG with her, even though we were a year late, but she spoke to Sana and she’d said that Jeongyeon was accepting older students. So we rushed LSG and Jeongyeon was so excited to see us there, because she’d wanted us to be part of the sorority for ages, so naturally she accepted us, but then told us that the only room available was the basement, and that rent was £750 a month. Each,’ I say, Jimin’s mouth dropping open in shock. ‘I know. So then we were both like ‘fuck that’ and we decided we didn’t want to join the sorority and she basically threw a bitch fit and told us to fuck off,’ I explain, Jimin holding back a laugh at the end. I don’t tell him about the bit where she found out Jimin and I were fucking and told me to back off because he was hers.

‘I don’t blame you guys. I wouldn’t paid that much for a luxury penthouse suite, let alone a shitty basement,’ he agrees with me, the waiter appearing with our wine and two glasses. We both watch as he pours us out a glass each, leaving the bottle on the side for us to help ourselves to. Jimin goes to speak and then his phone vibrates, catching both of our attention. He checks it and frowns, before groaning. ‘What’s happened?’ I ask him, and he sighs. ‘Impromptu party at ours. Apparently, JK invited a couple girls from BTP over, they thought it was a party and brought the whole sorority along with their boyfriends, and their boyfriends brought their friends so now there’s a party,’ Jimin says, and I supress a laugh at how things blew out of control. ‘They’ve asked me to go back,’ Jimin says, and I tilt my head in confusion. ‘Why?’ ‘We have this rule that we don’t have any parties in the house without us seven there, to keep control if anything happens,’ he explains, sounding extremely fed up. ‘Let’s go then,’ I say, and he raises an eyebrow. ‘I don’t want to go, though,’ he whines, and my heart melts. ‘I know, I don’t want to either, but if they need you, we should go. We’ll reschedule,’ I say, and he sticks out his lower lip. ‘They don’t need me, though. Let’s just stay for mains, and then we’ll go,’ he suggests, and I sigh, nodding. ‘We’ll have to eat quick, though,’ I say, ‘if the house gets trashed, it’s on you.’

‘The house is literally trashed,’ Namjoon says when his eyes land on us, the unfinished bottle of champagne in Jimin’s hand, his other hand in mine. ‘Seriously?’ I ask, shooting Jimin a look. ‘Yes. The upstairs is all fine, but the downstairs is a mess. Someone spilled red wine over the living room wall, and there’s piss in the sink. Oh, and I’m pretty sure that’s shit smeared across the floor,’ he says, completely deadpan, motioning to a brown stain on the kitchen tiles. ‘Oh, god, that is fucking disgusting,’ I groan over the noise of a group of boys doing a keg stand on the kitchen table. ‘It’s literally chocolate,’ Jimin says with a roll of his eyes, picking up the purple wrapper sat next to the stain. ‘That is besides the point. The house is that trashed that there is literally a stain that looks like shit on the floor,’ Namjoon says. He’s sat at the island with an entire bottle of Hennessy in his hands, looking as though he’s trying to drink away his sorrows. ‘Where are the other boys?’ I ask. ‘Jin’s hidden in his room because someone spilled rum on his new Gucci shirt and he’s sulking. Yoongi’s in the garden smoking weed or sniffing coke, I don’t know anymore. Hobi’s in his room with a BTP girl. Tae’s dancing in the living room. And JK’s doing the keg stand,’ he says, the chaos actually making me supress my laughter. ‘Right, okay. Everyone out!’ Jimin shouts, unplugging the sound system. Everyone begins groaning as Jimin starts shouting, ‘Party’s over. Get out or we’re calling the police! Out! Everyone out!’ ‘Your boyfriend is so sexy,’ a girl called Chae on my course says to me, suddenly appearing out of nowhere. ‘What?’ I ask, taken by surprise. ‘Jimin. The way he’s kicking everyone out, all dominant and shit. He’s sexy,’ she says, and I splutter with shock. ‘He’s not my boyfriend,’ I say, and she raises an eyebrow. ‘Okay, lil miss just-came-in-from-a-date-holding-hands-matching-outfits-ring-on-my-wedding-finger-but-he’s-not-my-boyfriend-even-though-we’re-definitely-fucking,’ she teases me, and I shake my head, holding back a laugh. ‘I’ll see you in tomorrow’s lecture. If you’re walking weird, I’m gonna know why,’ she calls over her shoulder, the house emptied out considerably now.

Cups and bottles and empty food containers and actual bits of food litter the entire bottom floor of the house, some questionable stains painting the walls, and I begin to clean up. I grab a mop and scrub the stains off the kitchen floor before starting with a cloth on the living room walls. I then get a black bag and collect up all the rubbish (wearing gloves, of course) whilst Jimin attempts to still kick people out, Tae helping him, Jin, Yoongi and Hobi all missing, Namjoon nursing his Hennessy like a lone cowboy moping at the bar of a saloon, and Jungkook lying across the dining room table, either unconscious or dead. I’ve nearly got the entire bottom floor back to its normal state (I would say clean, but this house cannot ever be called clean; even if it were flooded with Dettol and bleach, it’d still have alcohol and semen stains everywhere) when I find something slimy lying on the floor in the corner of the kitchen. ‘What the…’ I whisper to myself, slowly inching towards it, before I realise what it is. A pickle. Just a pickle lying on the floor. Now, before I explain what happens next, I just want you to know; I’m not that fussy of an eater. I’ll pass on snails and octopus, thanks, but I’ll never say no to a pickle. But the sight of it lying there has my stomach muscles clenching and my hand glued to my mouth in disgust. Normally, I’d say something stupid like ‘mood’ or ‘me’ (because a lone pickle on the floor really does encapsulate how I feel sometimes) but then I smell it. The sharp and pungent acidity of sour vinegar hits me, and I can’t hold myself back anymore.

All of the expensive dinner that Jimin paid for forces its way back up my throat and lands on top of the pickle, making me wretch and heave even more. And I’m the kind of person that throws up at the sight of someone puking, and so the more I throw up, the more it makes me want to throw up. It’s a vicious cycle of vomit. Tears stream down my face, my stomach and throat aching as my body produces an endless amount of sick, making me feel absolutely disgusted with myself. Finally, after what feels like an age – and the pickle is drowned in my vomit – I feel a comforting hand on my back, rubbing circles, and another hand holding back my hair. Once I’m finally done, I turn to see Namjoon, looking like he’s trying his hardest not to throw up himself. I don’t blame him. ‘Sorry,’ I breathe out before limping over to the sink, entire body aching, and splash my face with water before rinsing out my mouth, desperate to get the taste from my mouth. Once I’m done cleaning myself up, I turn to see Namjoon putting down what looks like kitchen towels on top of my vomit. ‘What good is that gonna do?’ I ask, and he laughs. ‘They’re special vomit sheets. They soak it all up, so you don’t have to mop it up and shit. I’ve got hundreds, because… well, we’re a frat, ain’t we?’ he says, and I laugh, impressed. I love a good contraption. ‘God, I’m so sorry, Joon. I’ll clean them up after,’ I say, and he waves me off. ‘It’s fine, it’s fine. You just stay here and have some water, I’ll go get Jimin,’ he says, and I give him a smile of thanks. He disappears for a few minutes and, when he returns, I’ve finished a pint of water, feeling much better for it. ‘I can’t find him so d’you wanna just come up to my room? It’s been a while since we had a sleepover, and you promised me a binge sesh. On My Block season two is calling my name,’ he offers with a grin, and I can’t help but grin back. ‘Oh, Joon, you know me,’ I say, ‘how can I possibly say no?’

‘Joon,’ I hiss, tugging at the cover that he’s taken all of, not a single fibre of the shitty material on me. I still can’t believe I actually sleep in his bed, knowing the string of girls he probably has in here. It’s like he can hear me mentally cussing him out because he doesn’t budge an inch, keeping an ironlike grip on the covers. ‘Namjoon,’ I hiss again, nudging him this time, and he lets out a loud snore. ‘For fuck’s sake,’ I mutter, turning over to check the clock. 5.57. I might as well get up and head back to mine and Mija’s to get ready for my 8am lecture this morning. I sigh, climbing out of the bed, and look for a clean pair of socks, not having it in me to walk barefoot in their frat house. I find a pair of Nike socks smelling like fresh washing powder and slip them on, heading out to the bathroom. To get to the bathroom, you have to go past Jimin’s room, and I decide to take a detour, wanting to see if he’s in there. And then, just as a place my hand on the handle, I hear a voice. And it’s not Jimin’s.

My heart nearly stops, and I freeze completely, wanting to hear the person speak more. I hear Jimin’s morning voice, a low groan signalling that he’s just woken up, and I press my ear to the door, trying not to think about the germs. I hear the other person speak then and it’s for sure; it’s female. I feel tears spring to my eyes and try so hard not to let them fall down my face, trying to work out who it is. The person gets closer to the door then, the floorboards creaking, and I dart into the bathroom as quietly as possible, listening out to see who it is. I peek through the door, cracked open slightly, and watch with bated breath and a pounding heart as his bedroom door opens. The person steps out and I have to clap a hand over my mouth to stop any kind of reaction. She hears the noise, turning to look in this direction, and I duck away from the crack in the door, trying to stay silent. I hear her mutter something before heading downstairs. I relax then, shutting the door and locking it, before I slide down to the floor, holding back my tears, the image of Jeongyeon leaving Jimin’s room wearing nothing but one of his t-shirts imprinted into my brain. I know now why Namjoon offered to have a binge sesh; he must have seen Jimin with Jeongyeon and not have had the heart to tell me. I don’t blame him though, and I don’t blame Jeongyeon either. I told her several times last night that Jimin and I aren’t together so it’s not like he wasn’t fair game. It’s him I’m angry at and I have to physically restrain myself from storming into his room and throttling him, knowing I need to cool down before facing him. I creep out of the bathroom, back into Namjoon’s room, where he snores loudly, still deep in sleep, and wait until I hear Jeongyeon come back upstairs. Then I leave Joon a note to say thank you for the binge-watch sesh before creeping out of the sleeping frat house, heading home.

‘He just called me again,’ Mija says from the doorway of my bedroom, hand on hip, looking down at me sprawled out across my bed, watching To All The Boys I’ve Loved Before, an empty tub of Ben and Jerry’s cookie dough lying beside me. ‘Tell him to fuck off,’ I say savagely, pausing the screen on Noah Centineo’s beautiful face. ‘I didn’t answer. Shall I block him? He’s gonna start spamming me soon,’ Mija says, coming to sit next to me. ‘No, you can’t block him. Just send him a text saying I’m ill or something, and don’t answer his calls,’ I say, and Mija sighs. ‘y/n, you can’t avoid him forever. You need to confront him at some point,’ she says, and now it’s my turn to sigh. ‘How can I confront him? We weren’t together, Mija. I can’t get mad at him, because he hadn’t committed to me,’ I say, and she shakes her head. ‘No, y/n, I’m sorry, I’m not having it. He cannot literally treat you as though you’re his girlfriend, take you on dates and give you his ring and call you his, but then fuck other people because he hasn’t committed to you. I’m not having it, y/n, and you aren’t either,’ Mija says, and y/n shakes her head. ‘It’s okay, Mija, I’ve cut him off once before, and I can do it again. I was an idiot to make the same mistake twice anyway,’ I say, despite the way my heart aches at the thought of him.

I’ve had a few days to process what happened and those days consisted of lots of tears, several empty tissue boxes and ice cream tubs, missed lectures and sleepless nights, and 1067 unopened texts and 432 missed calls from Jimin, as well as some from the other boys too. I’ve just left my phone beneath my bed, knowing I’m too lazy to crawl under and get it. He’s also stopped by the apartment a few times, using his spare key, and I’ve had to hide in several very creative hiding places; in one of the kitchen cupboards, under Mija’s bed and on top of the fridge to name a few. I just can’t bring myself to look him in the face after seeing Jeongyeon leave his room. And I know I can’t even get angry, because he’s always been so open with his allergy to commitment and we both knew that we weren’t together. He had every right, I guess.

‘No, y/n, don’t be passive. You can’t let him get away with it,’ she pleads, and I shake my head. And then a wave of nausea hits me, and I retch, clutching at my mouth. I jump out of bed, stumbling to the bathroom, and I drop to my knees, vomiting into the toilet. Mija holds back my hair whilst I vomit up everything in my stomach, my body not stopping until I feel empty. I don’t even feel angry or upset, ignoring the way my stomach clenches, throat aches and eyes stream, and get up, washing my face. ‘y/n, babe, I’m worried. This is, like, the third time this week. You need to get to a doctor’s, babe,’ she says, and I shake my head. ‘I’m fine, honestly. It’s probably just a sick bug or something. I’ll survive,’ I say, and Mija bites at her nails, looking like she wants to say something. ‘What? What d’you wanna say?’ I ask tiredly, and Mija sighs. ‘Babe, don’t you think you might be… you know?’ Mija says, and I prompt her, not having a clue what she’s talking about. ‘Don’t you think you might be pregnant?’ she asks, and her words hit me like a ton of bricks. How did I not even think about being pregnant? But… ‘I can’t be. I took a pregnancy test, and it was negative, and I got my period,’ I say, feeling faint. ‘You might not have been pregnant yet, babe. And it might have just been some sporadic bleeding,’ Mija suggests, as my head spins feeling dizzy. ‘Get me out a pregnancy test,’ I ask, and Mija obliges, handing me one from the cupboard beneath the sink. I wee on it, not feeling at all embarrassed considering we’ve both walked in on each other in the shower. Several times. Intentionally (not like that, to ask if the other wanted food or something along those lines – not gonna lie, though, her body is banging. Even though we both cussed out the ASP boys for suggesting it, I probably wouldn’t say no if I was a bit tipsy).

Once I’m done, I clean the stick and she takes it from me, staring at it unwaveringly as I sit on the toilet seat, head in my hands out of stress. ‘Mija, staring at it won’t make the result come up quicker,’ I snap, taking out my stress on her, but she doesn’t care, knowing there’s no real venom behind it. She goes to reply but then gasps, staring at the stick. ‘What? What does it say? Actually, don’t tell me. I don’t wanna know. I’ll just live the rest of my life without knowing. If I put on a lot of weight in the next nine months, I’ll find out that way instead. Just don’t tell m-’ ‘It’s positive,’ she says, putting an end to my rambling, and I fall silent, mouth hanging open. ‘It’s positive, y/n. You’re pregnant,’ she says, handing me the stick. I stare at the writing on the stick, reading one week, and I burst into tears, not sure whether they’re happy or sad. Mija puts her arms around me, comforting me until I’m done, and she steps back from me, holding on to my shoulders. ‘Mija,’ I say solemnly, and she nods just as solemnly. ‘I’m sorry to break it to you,’ I say, ‘but you’re the dad.’

‘Miss y/l/n,’ the receptionist says, and Mija and I rise from our seats. ‘Room 9, please,’ she says, pointing towards the door without a look at us, and we head through into the linoleum corridor of the hospital, beneath the fluorescent lights. ‘Nervous?’ Mija asks, and I shake my head, genuinely not feeling nervous. ‘Good. You don’t need to be,’ Mija says, holding my hand, and I nod as we reach the door. Mija knocks and the doctor calls out for us to come in, Mija swinging open the door. Before we even step in, I spot who’s sat in there, and my heart nearly stops. ‘Chungae?’ Mija demands, and the girl looks up at us in surprise. ‘Mija, y/n. Hi,’ she says, smiling a smile that doesn’t put me at all at ease. Chungae’s a girl in LSG, Jeongyeon’s sorority, and she studies midwifery. Probably why she’s sat beside the doctor in a nurse’s outfit, wearing a visitor badge. She must be doing a bit of work experience. ‘Chungae, you didn’t tell me you knew our patient today,’ the doctor says, sounding slightly exasperated, and I feel sorry for the poor woman, unable to imagine how hard it must be working alongside one of the most annoying girls I’ve met. ‘You didn’t tell me any names,’ Chungae says indignantly, and the doctor sighs. ‘Well, you can’t be in here if you know the patient. You’ll have to go and join Dr Jung in Room 7,’ the doctor says, Chungae rising from her seat in a huff and brushing past us without a goodbye.

I look at Mija in horror once the door’s shut behind us, terrified. ‘What if she tells Jeongyeon I’m getting an abortion? She’ll tell Jimin and everyone else,’ I say, and Mija shakes her head. ‘She won’t, and even if she does, we’ll say that it was me getting the abortion. Everyone knows I’m a slag,’ Mija says, coaxing a laugh out of the doctor. ‘Don’t worry, y/n, Chungae has signed a privacy waver and so she cannot speak about the patients here. If she breaks it, she will have a criminal record and so will not get hired by any hospitals. I will remind her of this when you have left,’ the doctor says, putting my mind at ease. At least if Chungae blabs, she’ll get a lovely serving of karma. ‘Take a seat, y/n. My name is Dr Choi and I’ll be carrying out your abortion today. The process is very short and pain free due to the anaesthetic we’ll administer to you, and we’ll just keep you behind for a few hours after in order to do some tests. Am I correct in believing that Dr Jung placed a dilating tablet into your vagina around three hours ago?’ she asks, and I nod, Mija holding my hand comfortingly. ‘You are unable to have a medical abortion due to an allergy to one of the chemicals contained in mifepristone, and so we will be completing a suction aspiration abortion today. You’ve opted to have general anaesthetic rather than local anaesthetic, meaning you’ll be put asleep during the process. Is that correct?’ she asks, and I nod again, feeling the nerves kick in slightly.

‘I’ll just explain the procedure to you now, just so we’re one hundred percent sure on what’s going to happen and whether you’re definite about following through with the procedure as it is never to late to change your mind if you wish to do so. First, we will take you down to a private surgery room where you can change into your hospital robe behind a screen. You’ve selected for Kim Mija to be your companion during the process and so she will be present throughout,’ Dr Choi says, Mija wincing at the mention of her popular last name. ‘We will administer the general anaesthetic through a mask as soon as you tell us that you are ready. It will kick in after a minute or so and you will lightheaded before falling unconscious. We will then start the procedure which will begin with inserting a tube through the cervix and into the womb. We will then remove the pregnancy through suction. The procedure takes between 5 and 10 minutes and as soon as it is done, we will administer you with local anaesthetic to act as a painkiller in the cervix and then stop supplying the general anaesthesia, meaning you will wake up within the next hour. We’ll then carry out a few tests, just to check that everything is okay, and then you are free to go home. You must stay at home for 48 hours with someone with you at all times as the general anaesthesia may cause memory loss, loss of concentration or disorientation. Avoid driving, drinking and signing any legal documents for 48 hours after the procedure. Do you have any other questions?’ Dr Choi asks, my mind swimming with information. Mija squeezes my hand comfortingly, and I smile. ‘No, Doctor,’ I say, ‘I’m ready.’

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I'm Back by RedKitsune, a Sequel to Lilith

Oh, poor Tom. Poor poor Tom. 'Lilith' is a super super fun RPF (real person fiction) where someone accidentally summons Lilith, a succubus, with poor Tom as the victim or sacrifice. *sigh* Poor poor Tom. 'Lilith' has the warning tags for dubious consent, bc who in the right mind would actually believe that something like this would be happening in REAL LIFE! Of course Tom is going to resist the demon's seduction. But don't worry, because *Spoiler* the explicit smut that this story and its sequel are rated for is thoroughly enjoyed by both parties. Poor Tom is just so confused, because this couldn't have been REAL, could it have?

And THEN .... 'I'm Back'

Oh oh oh!!! @redfoxwritesstuff posted the long awaited sequel to Lilith this week. RedKitsune has been torturing me with anticipation all month!!!! I'm soooo happy!!! And it it sooooooooooooooo FUN!!!!!!

'I'm Back' is the sequel to 'Lilith' , and I'm betting that you have already figured out who is back. SQUEAL!!!! SOMEHOW...... someone summons Lilith again, and poor Tom falls victim again. OMG!!!! and author RedKitsune, wait.... I mean Lilith the succubus *wink* really takes poor Tom through the wringer this time!!!! Oh, poor poor poooooor Tom. Oh the torture is absolutely delicious!!! D.E.L.I.C.I.O.U.S! This is very good fun.

And remember y'all, this is just fiction!! Neither the author nor the very very excited and enthusiastic readers mean any harm at all toward the Actor Tom Hiddleston. This is a Real Person Fiction. THAT MEANS FICTION. About Real!Tom which is a fictional character loosely based on the actual person, with alternate universe type things changed, in addition to the fact that the actual Tom has never and will never be visited by a REAL LIVE SUCCUBUS. Nor has anything like any of the events of these stories actually happened to him. And you know they haven't. Lol

Even if you wonder "What if something like this DID happen?" THAT question is what spurs your /our imagination. THAT question is what RPF is all about. And THAT question is what spurred on the conversation that inspired this fiction in that kinky clever dirty little mind of the lovely and talented Kit RedKitsune on AO3, aka our own @redfoxwritesstuff on Tumblr. If you aren't already following Kit, do it! Check out her other stories.

Aside from 'Lilith' and 'I'm Back', my favorite story of Kit's is still Silent Song. I have fallen in love with her Loki and Hotaru, and they will live in my heart forever more. I first fell in love with RedKitsune when I read Of Mermaids and Fairy Tales, and I've lovingly stalked her ever since, bc after reading that story I swore that Kit must be a real mermaid. Or at least Kit has to be one of those mermaids working in the tanks in Las Vegas, because her details and imagery felt like so real in that story as well as in the two additional stories in her Mermaids Series. She swears she doesn't have real gills, but I'm still not totally convinced she's not at least part mermaid. *wink*

"Summary: She’s back and she’s hungry. This time however, she’s still riding on the sustenance from her last meal. Mothers always tell their children not to play with their food but Lilith never had a mother to teach her that and has every intention of playing with her food while he finishes his day of Convention events. Sequel to Lilith but reading part one isn't required for enjoyment."

@alexakeyloveloki @manager-of-mischief @winterisakiller @devikafernando @nuggsmum @tinchentitri @bambamwolf87 @theluckykittencalvin @theheartofpenelope @thewidowlaufeyson @skoulsinner @messy-insomniac-bookgirl @lettalady @lokispettigerr @the-haven-of-fiction @devilish--doll @emeraldrosequartz @omgviolette12 @wrathkitty @nildespirandum @dianamolloy @wolfsmom1 @saiansha @missdibley @moonfaery @fadingcoast @finney13s @silverink-goldenlies @ladyoftheteaandblood @latent-thoughts @cursedcursingviking @ladyfluff @ms-cellanies @a-sundry-bag @boredbrooder @maiden-of-asgard @caffiend-queen @missinstantgratification @avenger-nerd-mom @icybluepenguin @pedeka

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haespoir · 6 years

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fluff song #8 with doyoung? 💘

[ 1000 FOLLOWERS PROJECT ] “be honest with me, tell me everything. tell me you’ve never felt this way before.” gugudan’s a girl like me w/ kim doyoung.

note: not proof-read!

actually im so glad you chose this

bc !!!! i really like the idea of really,,, shy doyoung being approached and just like,,,

idk

sub doyoung

oh thats kinky

ANYWAYS !!!

let’s take it back now y’all

for some context, you and doyoung have been classmates for years !!!

but we know that doyoung is a literal genius,, so he’s always been placed in like

you know

the smarter people class

meaning you’ve never really actually had a real class with him ? ?

but you’ve seen him in the hallways and just like,,, around school

like doyoung is attractive,,, yes we all know this

he’s so great,,, can you imagine,,, class president doyoung,, who studies well and participates wholeheartedly in school

oh my god i might cry,,,, i love this man

off topic sorry

soooo doyoung’s so shy,,, he really sticks to himself

like if he doesn’t have to put himself out there he wont

he only seems extroverted bc he is the class president,, but he likes his time alone

that being said,, you find it hard to approach him

it’s not bc your shy it’s more of the fact that you’re nervous that you’re gonna scare him off

it takes a while for you to get over the fear of that,,, oh boy but when you do,,, doyoung is so shocked

it’s the first day after winter break that you approach him for the first time

and,,, oh my it’s so awkward for you

you just shout out a quick hey to get his attention the in the hall

and doyoung,,, doesn’t think you’re talking to him

so he literally ignores you and closes his locker and walks to his first class

so you’re looking like a fool in the hall,,, bc he just,, ignored you,,

first attempt: failed

you literally don’t see him for the rest of the day after that and you’re just like ?? where in the WORLD did he disappear off to

however,, the next day,, you’re lucky

it’s around lunchtime and you’re scouting the lunchroom for a place to sit

and then you see the handsome bastard,,, that is kim doyoung,,, sitting at a table with his friends

who seem like they’re going to leave soon anyways

sooo before he can up and leave

you slide into the seat in front of him, a grin on your lips

“hi im y/n”

it’s a pretty simple greeting

but doyoung,, for some reason,,, looks so shocked???

like wide-eyed,,, not sure what to say

it seems like he’s about to speak but you beat him to the chase

“doyoung, right? you know i think you’re super cute”

that line itself,,, just,,, sends doyoung into a panic

who is this person?? why are they calling me cute??? why is my heart RACING???

being,,, doyoung,,, he rushes to gather his stuff and like,,, ditch you

but once again,, you beat him to it

“it was nice talking to you, y/n- don’t forget it,, okay?”

you shoot him ur nicest grin and grab your tray to go sit with you friends who just entered the lunchroom

before you sit,, you glance over at doyoung and catch him looking at you

and you send him the sweetest smile you can muster before going back to chatting with your friends

now

you would think that once you’ve shown,,, just tiniest bit of interest in him,, that he would start to maybe,, greet you in the halls,, but NOPE

true to his only spoke unless spoken to nature lmfsdjkl

so once again, you seek him out

this time,,, it’s during the spring festival hehehhe

sooo the student council has a little booth set up to like,,, recruit new people

and doyoung being the class president for your grade,,, he’s obviously there

now, you’re part of the school’s art club

and thank the lord, your booth is right across from his

heheheh

so you’ve been trying to catch is attention for the longest time

and he just,,,

refuses to even acknowledge you

and if he does, it’s with an intense blush dancing across his cheeks

which you find absolutely ADORABLE !!!

anyways,, you’re stuck with finding out a way to get his attention,

with your brilliant mind,, lol,,, you draw a little doodle of him on a piece of paper, a short question at the bottom

you fold it into a paper airplane,,, and it’s not your best work,, but it does the job bc soon it’s flying across the pathway and right where you wanted it land

by doyoung

he picks up the airplane and unfolds it and,, just instantly he’s :o

“will you share a blanket with me at the picnic later?”

it doesn’t seem like much,, but after the spring festival, your class ( as in grade level ) usually gathers together and has a picnic

and like,,, unless ur a couple,, you sit on the large blanket that the rest of your class shares

but here you are,,, asking to share a blanket with him

and that’s basically a date in doyoung’s mind

it takes a while to get a reply from him,,, bc wow he’s so flustered

but you do get one!!

“yes.”

it’s short and concise,, but you expected nothing less from him

when you look over at him, you can see his ears are a bright red

so you make it worse for him

and send him a cheeky wink and grin before you tell the art club president that you’ve got to gather a blanket for the picnic

with a knowing look, the pres lets you off early and you’re so excited !!!

doyoung is also excited,, but also super nervous,, bc perhaps you’re really cute to him too

anyways as you’re leaving, doyoung can’t help but think

“i’ve never met a person like them.”

#nct #doyoung #nct scenario #nct scenarios #nct imagines #nct imagine #doyoung scenario #doyoung scenarios #doyoung imagine #doyoung imagines #ask #anon #1000fp

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ziggypop · 6 years

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rant-ish?

so lately, this horrible creeping feeling has been sneaking up on me. specifically, i wanted to get the opinions of fellow zig lovers. looking at you, @zig-a-zag-ahhh , @zig-ortega , @zigbadboy , @seangaylestan , @maxnotverywell , @mirebelamor . Anyone else with opinions is welcome to answer!

so for a couple months there i was completely infatuated with zigmund. always had little questions about him when i was bored, wrote lil drabbles and one shots in my head about him, listened to songs that reminded me of him. whenever i really STAN someone/something I'm in it 90000%, go big or go home love. SO IT PAINS ME SM that zig scenes don’t bring me as much joy as they used to? not as much as drake or maxwell of even liam scenes. and i think part of that is because there was been no character development. it’s like PB writers got to this amazing spot with Zig and decided “eh, good enough.” i want to know more about him! more about his personality, his family, you know?

is it just me? is it the sophomore’s lack of plot? i just feel like there’s something lacking there usually, and i even PAY for the diamond scenes. I liked today’s chapter, the fact that we got to go on a date diamond-free, the kinky role play, BUT it seems… monotone. idk if that’s the right word. anyone else feel the same way? like the lines are recycled. can zig be kinky while telling me about his day? does he feel better about the manny thing? whAT DID HE LEARN IN HIS STATS CLASS? THESE ARE IMPORTANT QUESTIONS. i might be looking into it, but i wanted to ask my choices fam. you think the sophomore could use some jazzing up? is it just me? idk man i just feel like i need something BIG to happen bc i hate losing interest in what i love. like i find more joy in reading fanfic about him bc the writers put more effort into lil scenarios than pb does.

#playchoices #the sophomore kinda sucks #im sorry it pains me!!#im so conflicted ok #zig x mc #i still adore zig

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janiedean · 7 years

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oooh i'm not a fan of show!asha/yara either but can i know why you don't like the show's interpretation of her?

k guys GOT NEGATIVITY ABOUNDS

asha isn’t exactly a girly girl who likes to hold hands and sing kumbaya with others but she’s not an asshole and *tough love* doesn’t mean BEING AN ASSHOLE

(the fact that they changed the name because of the osha thing is ridiculous too)

asha greyjoy would not go all the way to the dreadfort to get theon and then leave because she saw two dogs are we serious, and that was when the problems started

asha greyjoy might not be the person with most tact ever but I think bringing a guy who’s been castrated to a brothel and then proceeding to talk about fucking in front of him is not what she’d do

asha greyjoy is actually not lesbian (???) and doesn’t play into the butch woman stereotypes either (???) but I guess badass lesbian pirate queen fits better for what d&d wanted to do

asha greyjoy doesn’t also sound to me like the person who goes to sex slaves to get laid since she has plenty of men who can’t wait to get her laid and with whom she has kinky sex to her satisfaction but lol I doubt d&d ever read that part of the books did they

asha greyjoy wouldn’t make out with ellaria sand just after she completely demeaned her brother in front of her after the guy went out of a shitload of trauma because she actually, wow, HAS FEELINGS

My sister, Theon thought, my sweet sister. Though he had lost all feeling in his arms, he felt the twisting in his gut, the same as when that bloodless Braavosi banker presented him to Asha as a 'gift.' The memory still rankled. The burly, balding knight who'd been with her had wasted no time shouting for help, so they'd had no more than a few moments before Theon was dragged away to face the king. That was long enough. He had hated the look on Asha's face when she realized who he was; the shock in her eyes, the pity in her voice, the way her mouth twisted in disgust. Instead of rushing forward to embrace him, she had taken half a step backwards. "Did the Bastard do this to you?" she had asked."Don't you call him that." Then the words came spilling out of Theon in a rush. He tried to tell her all of it, about Reek and the Dreadfort and Kyra and the keys, how Lord Ramsay never took anything but skin unless you begged for it. He told her how he'd saved the girl, leaping from the castle wall into the snow. "We flew. Let Abel make a song of that, we flew." Then he had to say who Abel was, and talk about the washerwomen who weren't truly washerwomen. By then Theon knew how strange and incoherent all this sounded, yet somehow the words would not stop. He was cold and sick and tired... and weak, so weak, so very weak.She has to understand. She is my sister. He never wanted to do any harm to Bran or Rickon. Reek made him kill those boys, not him Reek but the other one. "I am no kinslayer," he insisted. He told her how he bedded down with Ramsay's bitches, warned her that Winterfell was full of ghosts. "The swords were gone. Four, I think, or five. I don't recall. The stone kings are angry." He was shaking by then, trembling like an autumn leaf. "The heart tree knew my name. The old gods. Theon, I heard them whisper. There was no wind but the leaves were moving. Theon, they said. My name is Theon." It was good to say the name. The more he said it, the less like he was to forget. "You have to know your name," he'd told his sister. "You... you told me you were Esgred, but that was a lie. Your name is Asha.""It is," his sister had said, so softly that he was afraid that she might cry.

yeah, I didn’t see any of that shit happen in the show, like, what the fuck was the reunion in S6? and

The ironborn bowed and retreated. Asha took a knee. "Your Grace. Must my brother be chained like that? It seems a poor reward for bringing you the Stark girl."The king's mouth twitched. "You have a bold tongue, my lady. Not unlike your turncloak brother.""Thank you, Your Grace."

yeaaaaaaaaah TOTALLY WOULD HAVE FRENCHED ELIA INSTEAD. LOL.

tldr: y*ara greyjoy is some kind of fantasy power trip of the typical PIRATE WARRIOR GIRL WHO HAS TO BE A LESBIAN, NEEDS NO MAN AND HATES EVERYTHING FEMININE AND HAS NO FEELINGS (at least past S3) and is a complete fucking asshole who treats her brother like dirt 90% of the time whether she wants to or not (and I could say a lot about that brothel scene because lol that scene managed to not be 100% cringy because of the acting but the rest? god it was so uncomfortable to watch I wanted to vomit) and who apparently can’t be in touch with her feelings because god forbid women who aren’t *feminine* are in touch with their feelings and not assholes, asha greyjoy is an actually well-written character who is not a walking stereotype, who does not treat her brother like dirt or calls people insults which are incidentally demeaning women, and incidentally people being theon, who has absolutely not being insulted and likened to a woman by both his father and ramsay in the books but not by his sister, who, by the way, at some point went like

“Cunt again? It was odd how men like Suggs used that word to demean women when it was the only part of a woman they valued.”

and she’s also not some kind of fantasy power trip made by someone (idk which d but I suppose weiss since benioff is better at things outside GOT) who thinks that in order to write a Strong Woman TM who defies gender roles then you have to write her as victarion greyjoy.

actually, y*ara is basically male victarion except less terrible, and asha is *asha*, not victarion. and the next time I hear that ‘she was the only one who ever cared about theon’ bc apparently they want us all to buy that angle when robb existed and the show forgot I’m gonna punch a wall.

thank you for your time and yeah, that’s what I’ve got.

#got negativity #game of thrones spoilers for ts #ch: yara (got)#ch: asha greyjoy #anti-yara greyjoy #sorry guys I really can't fucking stand *yara* at this point #castration cw #Anonymous #ask post

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boof-kun · 7 years

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Do them,,, asks,,,

( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)@bicep-naruto

1. Are looks important in a relationship?

mmm not really bc if i were to like someone itd be for their personality ;)))

2. Are relationships ever worth it?

ye id think so

3. Are you a virgin?

yep

4. Are you in a relationship?

nop

5. Are you in love?

no but im in lov with you ;)))))

6. Are you single this year?

7. Can you commit to one person?

yop

8. Describe your crush

dont have one

9. Describe your perfect mate

v pretty, plays video games, generally likes the same sort of stuff i do, soft and worm like mash potatoe, has a cat named fluffy (cough cough its you)

10. Do you believe in love at first sight?

mmmmm i dont think people can truly be in love at first sight

11. Do you ever want to get married?

yeah and even if i dont find the right person by a certain point in my life maybe ill just marry one of my friends bc itd be like having a roommate who you also happen to be married to

12. Do you forgive betrayal?

it depends on what they do but in most cases no

13. Do you get jealous easily?

surprisingly not at all! i think the last time i felt jealous was is maybe third or fourth grade? after that any jealousy i might have felt just turned to sadness

14. Do you have a crush on anyone?

nop

15. Do you have any piercings?

i only have a single piercing in each ear but im considering getting a couple more ear piercings when im older? i rarely wear earrings though so thats the thing

16. Do you have any tattoos?

no but i have an idea of one i might get when im older

17. Do you like kissing in public?

20. Do you shower every day?

not every day but maybe five times a week (i only shampoo twice a week bc i found that works best for my hair)

21. Do you think someone has feelings for you?

uuu i dont think so?

22. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?

perhaps?

23. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?

yeah

24. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?

ill barely be an adult in five years so no

25. Do you want to be in a relationship this year?

mmm nop

26. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?

ye boi

27. Has someone ever written a song or poem for you?

no but a certain someone has written angst for me ;))

28. Have you ever been cheated on?

never been in a relationship so no

29. Have you ever cheated on someone?

30. Have you ever considered plastic surgery? If so, what would you change about your body?

theres parts of my body i would prefer to be different but ive never actually considered plastic surgery

31. Have you ever cried over a guy/girl?

32. Have you ever experienced unrequited love?

when it comes to fictional characters then yes

33. Have you ever had sex with a man?

im a child of christ

34. Have you ever had sex with a woman?

again, im a child of christ

35. Have you ever kissed someone older than you?

when i was a Child i kissed my parents platonically

36. Have you ever liked one of your best friends?

nop

37. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?

probably (not in a romatic way though)

38. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?

yeah

39. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?

nope

40. Have you ever written a song or poem for someone?

nop ((but maybe i will one day ;)))))))

41. Have you had sex so far this year?

i M a ChIld of ChrisT

42. How long can you just kiss until your hands start to wander?

43. How long was your longest relationship?

never had one

44. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had?

none

45. How many people did you kiss in 2012/2013?

none

46. How many times did you have sex last year?

nOne

47. How old are you?

fourteen…………….. but not for long

48. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?

i dont like anyone

49. If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, what is your favorite thing about him/her?

dont have one but if i did it would be everything

50. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept?

uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu no?

51. Is there a boy/girl who you would do absolutely everything for?

( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

52. Is there anyone you’ve given up on? Why?

i cant think of anyone on the top of my head but maybe?

53. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?

if there is im not aware of it

54. Is there someone you will never forget?

YOU

55. Share a relationship story.

dont have one

56. State 8 facts about your body

uuuu smol, filled with anger, also filled with love (for u), uuuuuuuuuuuuu feel free to add more

57. Things you want to say to an ex

dont have one

58. What are five ways to win your heart?

kill a man for me, throw boulders at my enemies, have some thicc biceps, smel nice, and smash a barrel over my head, killing me instantly

59. What do you look like? (Post a picture!)

( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

60. What is the biggest age difference between you and any of your partners?

i havent had any partners but if i were to have one right now i wouldnt want it to be more than one year (if i were older than the acceptable age gap would widen a bit)

61. What is the first thing you notice in someone?

uuhhhuhu just the way their face does stuff when doing things???? also hair

62. What is the sexiest thing someone could ever do for/to you?

uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu buy me snacks

63. What is your definition of “having sex”?

mmmmmmmmmm pretty much the same thing you put

64. What is your definition of cheating?

my answer is also the same thing you put

65. What is your favourite foreplay routine?

66. What is your favourite roleplay?

uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu not sure

67. What is your idea of the perfect date?

idk just something fun like going to an amusement park or even something like napping together?

68. What is your sexual orientation?

aroace. i feel platonic attraction (like for you) and aesthetic attraction (also for you) though

69. What turns you off?

uuuu people who are dinguses (dingi?)

70. What turns you on?

uuuuuuu good, soft people

71. What was your kinkiest wet dream?

n o

72. What words do you like to hear during sex?

“im going to smash a barrel over your head, killing you instantly” ;) kinky i know

73. What’s something sweet you’d like someone to do for you?

kill me

74. What’s the most superficial characteristic you look for?

hnhnhnnhn i have some small, unimportant ones but i cant think of a big one

75. What’s the sweetest thing anyone’s ever done for you?

literally everything youve done for me

76. What’s the sweetest thing you’ve ever done for someone?

nhhhhhhh

77. What’s your opinion on age differences in relationships?

i dont really care unless the relationship seems like it might not be the healthiest

78. What’s your dirtiest secret?

you know p much all my secrets i think

79. When was the last time you felt jealous? Why?

i dont remember why but it was in third or fourth grade

80. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?

like twenty minutes ago

81. Who are five people you find attractive?

a bunch of fictional characters and you, of course ;))))))))

82. Who is the last person you hugged?

my dad

83. Who was your first kiss with?

havent had one

84. Why did your last relationship fail?

havent had any relationships

85. Would you ever date someone off of the Internet?

maybe if i really like them

#askboof!#faizaasks #mine #personal post

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poppunkdee · 5 years

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3-5, 28-30, 35-40

whoa okay everyone sorry for the long post someone decided to give me a million in one ask.

3. okay so this person idk what to even say about them anymore I hardly know who or what they are like now but I guess ill talk about them when I was irrationally in love with them. They had a way to make me feel at home no matter how far from home I was. That person was super smart (to me) they had a charisma that allowed them to creep into your life and later your heart, and had you liking them even if at first you thought they were just another fake person trying super hard to be “cool” they had a way to get under your skin, to make you laugh until you’re crying and hold your attention in a way that you never really thought they might be able to. Honestly this person made me feel so many things and not all of them were good, in fact looking back now I realized that I excused so much shitty behavior towards me because of a fancy dinner, or a cute poem, or a dozen roses. God i was so in love with them and its sad really how now its just a faded memory of a person who never apologized for the hell they put me through.

4. the thing I regret most so far is not going to the ivy league school I was accepted into bc it meant I would be far from the person mentioned above.

5. Oh fuck. Honestly I have not had any like “amazing” birthdays. My most memorable birthdays are seared into my memory bc I was either in a funeral home, in a hospital watching my cousin fight cancer, or I myself was in the hospital bc a car almost killed me(yay 24th birthday!) really I have most fun when I celebrate my birthday alone at disneyland, which I do every year although not on my actual birthday bc it seems that on my actual birthday I’m always caught up in some kind of hospital, or receiving bad news.

28. honestly idk if i have any like crazy out there fetishes, like dirty talk and rough sex is cool but like idk if i really have like one odd thing. I mean one of my exes and I got hella drunk one night and decided to do all the shit we had wanted to do and lemmi tell you that was a full weekend of endless orgasms and take out food. It was amazing. I had rope burn on my thighs and was sore for a week after and he had like a million hickies from his neck to his dick.

29. okay turn ons so like these depend on the person im seeing, like for one person their voice as they whisper in my ear might end me while for another the way they bite their lip and run their fingers through their hair might have me thinking of how those fingers might feel on me. so really I don’t have like one singular set of turn ons they just vary depending on the person.

30.OHHH TURN OFFS THO. so these will literally dry me up like the Sahara desert and make me grab my shit and leave kyle’s house. If I say "men are trash” and the guy replies with “well not all men.... “ yeah ya cancelled. okay this one is shallow I know but its there and i really cant get past it, bad dental hygiene. the white ppl who try to have dreadlocks but really they haven’t washed their hair. ANY NON BLACK PERSON SAYING THE N WORD. I can go on really bc I’m super picky with the people I sleep with and i have actually mid thrust have told a guy to stop, got dressed, left and blocked him.

35. Things i wish I could stop doing, okay so like as yall know my anxiety gets the best of me sometimes and I wish I could stop the nail biting. Also I need to stop expecting my body to go back to how it was before my car accident, like my spine is forever hurt and i really have to learn to accept that there are somethings i just cant do anymore and its not my fault there are limitations on my body so i should stop expecting to be able to go back to the gym like i used to, or do all the adventurous activities i used to do, also I wish I could go back to driving like i used to without the PTSD fear running through me every time a big rig is next to me on the freeway.

36, okay so as of rn my guilty pleasure is that I read the twilight books bc my roommates got me into it and like holy shit i went through the whole saga in less than a weekend and I now need to rewatch the movies. honestly thank god for this gay twilight renaissance I’m living. But really tumblr is full of my guilty pleasures so like just scroll through my blog bc its all there, half of this shit is not on any of my public social media,.... or wait actually i think it is, i don’t really hide who i am so like it definitely has affected the way people judge me before they really know me but i know the people that are my friends after seeing the shit i post kinda really like me.

37. Damn okay so this is kinda, ugh, okay so im sure my best friend is tired of me running back to this person but like i like ppl who ruin me i guess. So this person and I started dating after i had gone through like a horrible breakup, AND I got the news that my uterus is like a war zone for new cells(make of that what you will). Anyways here I am five months into a depressive episode i cut off all the people that i had thought were friends but who turned out to abandon me when i needed them the most. so here enters this person with their puppy dog love and gives me wonderful dirty kinky sex along with the hugs, cuddles, after care and takes me to these cool experiences in the city I thought I knew. They support my dreams and help me work towards them, honestly it was a great three months, but this person told me they loved me one night while at a night club and i thought hey youre drunk pls don’t do this and honestly it was mostly cowardliness that drove me to end it bc i didn’t feel the same way and i felt like i didnt deserve this new pure love i was receiving. Anyways we hooked up a bit after we broke up and then they started dating someone else and we just kinda saw other people but would come back to each other after our different flings ended, until they got into like a real relationship with some one else and like I was cool like they deserve it, could have used a heads up but like i keep my space like the respectful person that i am, although lately this person has told me they are not into the person they are with and has been hitting me up and like the part of me that thinks im in love with them is really pushing for me to go for it but also they ARE STILL IN A RELATIONSHIP AND ITS NOT OKAY THAT THEY ARE SENDING ME MESSAGES LIKE THIS!! so anyways i think im more in love with the feeling they brought me those few months we were together bc i was just so fucking depressed and they helped pull me out of the hole i was in. So not really in love with the person but with the feeling i guess.

38. songs that remind me of people. oh god, yall can i just make a spotify playlist and link it later bc theres so many. I have a few songs for like everyone that I know that i can make playlists for individual people so like i’ll just link a playlist when get around to it pls remind me later.

39. OHHHH BOYYY. things i wish i had known earlier. i wish i had known men are trash earlier in life so that i would have been somewhat prepared for the men that caused trauma in my life. I also wish i had known how little time i had with certain people. (people i regret not making more time with) Also wish I had known about the accident that had me in a hospital on my birthday bc a year later im still plagued by nightmares, PTSD, and anxiety on the road. I also wish I had known about my cousin’s accident. GOd if there’s one thing i’ve had to learn the hard way this past year is that we never know when it will be the last time we see our loved ones and that we have GOT to tell them we love them bc we NEVER know when it will be the last time.

40.okay last one, the end of something in my life. I wanna talk about a good ending bc i feel like yall got some insight on bad shit so like good endings i’d say is when i left socal for norcal. I come back literally anytime im homesick but like it was a huge step for me to take to leave, I was given a full scholarship to the wilderness and an apartment thats a ten min walk to the beach. It was definitely hard leaving all my friends and family behind but it was also kind of refreshing to be able to go out on my own to make my own path and do something i love. im back in socal for the summer and although im so happy to be back in the warmth of LA im definitely looking forward to my small apartment that constantly smells like a mix of sea breeze and damp forest.

#Personal #asks #ask me shit #this was really open #remind me to do the spotify playlists #or ill forget

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