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I take pictures after I eat and of problem areas, when I want to eat I’ll look at those pictures, when I think of giving up I look at my older pictures when I was thinner.
If I did it before I am capable, and I’m going to be thinner than I ever have been.
I need to look sick.
#unhealthy weight loss#goals#🦋 tendencies#🦋goals#🦋#not really ana tho#just use the tags#and#diet ideas#and share similar#body dysphoria#I just don’t feel as guilty#when I eat#4n0r3x14#an0#an0rex14
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“peeta is bisexual” you guys are losing the vision. peeta isn’t even straight. katniss INVENTED sexuality for him. whatever katniss identifies as, he’s like “yeah, i’ll take that one” no questions asked
#katnissexual#i’m joking btw#and i agree with yall#he says you’ve ruined all other women for me#yeah twink we know#the hunger games#katniss everdeen#thg#nightlocked-in#everlark#peeta mellark#hunger games headcanon#hunger games incorrect quotes#thg incorrect quotes#bisexual peeta#peeta what’s your sexuality?#idk#what do u mean u don’t know#i’ve never thought about it#well i mean… do you like guys? do u like girls?#he thinks for a second…. girl#just one#katniss he says#i’m convinced in modern au’s when he’s dating someone else he just pictures katniss when fucking and then feels horribly guilty for it later#peeta why don’t you look at me during sex?#huh? oh glimmer uh… i just get distracted by how uh… good it feels. yeah that haha#katniss was his first love in every thing and not only was she his first love she was his ONLY love#so he’s never even considered being attracted to girls besides her#so when he tries to date he finds girls that are objectively attractive but on a scale of 1 to katniss they are still 1’s to him#and that never stops being a problem
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Intrusive thoughts
#nothing like thinking about how it’d be to murder your homie. we all do that aaaall the time right#a passion of mine is writing dialogue in a way that you could interchange who says it and it’d still make sense when it comes to Vashwood#they both get insane intrusive thoughts and that’s a matter of fact#they are turbo traumatized so it’s even worse at times. this is what I would say one of the tamest instances if that means anything#Vash would feel so guilty abt them too. bc they don’t feel like his thoughts. it’s almost as if it was someone else’s#they have pointed their guns at each other but never shoot. the thoughts have lost another day <3#Vashwood is: having thoughts and rarely do anything abt them (positive and negative)#everybody who has intrusive thoughts say hell yeah. HELL YEAH!!!#gentle reminder that intrusive thoughts are just that and don’t define you as a person. they are. I’m fact. intrusive#intrusive thoughts#cw intrusive thoughts#tw intrusive thoughts#for those who may need to filter those out#trigun#vash the stampede#nicholas d wolfwood#trigun stampede#vashwood#trigun fanart#vash#wolfwood#nicholas trigun#lenssi draws#lenssi writes#because I wrote the lines first and THEN I did the drawings#still fixated on Vash’s eyes btw if you didn’t notice
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“Oh, I’m sorry, baby. Want me to kiss it where it hurts?” Kirishima purrs up at you, his place between your thighs seemingly the closest thing he can get to ascension. His eyes are wide, his pupils blown out, any red swallowed up by the lust pooling in his eyes. he looks like the picture of adoration and worship, all faux worry and pure hunger as he bounces between your gaze and the pretty picture that twitches in front of his face. his eyes cross to watch the slick ooze from your hole, sighing.
“It’s the least you could do for me,” you pout to him, running your nails through his soft locks, tugging a little meanly at the root. “After using me like a toy on your cock for so long.” Your words are sighed wistfully, your eyes betraying just how much you want his mouth on you as he wants to taste you. Kiri moans at that, quiet and in the back of his throat, but you hear it none the less.
“I’m sorry, baby,” he repents, but it’s all for naught when his tongue laves over your sensitivity and doesn’t let up until you’re crying from the overstimulation once more. he’s so sorry—that you can only cum so many times before you tap out. he’s so sorry—that your thighs are more sore from tightening up around his head than his working jaw. he’s so sorry—that you’re so addicting, that he can lay between your legs until his last breath leaves him.
#I am so tired#I feel like I say that every time I write in the tags LOL SORRY#but today was so nice and it drained me in the good way lol#anyway I realized today that I don’t write enough for him by himself#and I felt guilty 😔#he’s just a big guy that doesn’t realize his own strength or stamina#and accidentally uses you like a little toy whenever he’s pent up#and he always tries to make it better with a kiss no matter where it’s at :(((#I love calling him big guy tho it’s my fav nickname#okay gn I sleeb now#—new treat in the streets! 🍫#kirishima treats! 🍬
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What kind of comments do you get that discourages you from drawing Wybie shirtless?
Nsfw comments. People are allowed to find the characters I draw attractive, but I’m not going to encourage that demographic, not since 2018 when I was primarily an nsfw artist who thought it was fun.
Shirtless YB is not something I want to draw at all, nor is it required to show off his tattoos — tattoos are the last thing people would be focusing and commenting on, and that’s the last thing I want to deal with.
Please stop requesting it.
#Every other aged up Coraline artist has drawn him half naked and chiselled. Go support them pleek. I’m never going to draw that.#I know people have a crush on him and it’s okay. Idc. Don’t feel guilty - this isn’t about you :) I’m just learning to set boundaries.#kittchats
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I’m finally biting the bullet and contacting a therapist today after being ambivalent ab it for so long… this hellsite has its many disadvantages but one thing I can say is it has truly helped me be less scared of pursuing therapy. Silver lining etc etc
#And to be clear I have nothing against therapy. I’ve seen it do wonders for other people#I think the reason it’s a point of defeat (just a little) for me to be like ok. I need a therapist. Is bc I’m admitting to myself that I#need one to begin w. And I get it’s not healthy but I always liked to think I could handle anything by myself#That was even the whole point of this blog. It was supposed to serve as a conduit for these feelings#And I’m not saying I don’t have a support system. I do. I have many wonderful friends#But I struggle to be vulnerable at all tbh and whenever I am I’m guilty ab it bc#I understand so many people have busy lives & I feel like an emotional burden on them by venting#Despite them telling me that it’s totally fine. Obvi a therapist is literally paid to listen so no guilt there#And I think that’s what I need#I’m not like on the brink of a psychotic break or anything but it’s just little things. I think it’d be nice to sit in someone’s office for#One hour a week and just go. That did bother me actually. I am tired actually. I do feel that way actually.#Rather than just burying my feelings w school and a busy schedule#I don’t think therapy will make me any less of a workaholic anytime soon but it’ll at least allow me to slow down one hour a week#And also not bottle shit up so fuckin much#But ya all of this is to say I’m drafting the email to her RIGHT now .#Starting the day off strong by oversharing on tumblr dot com
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he has such pretty eyes 🥺
#love and deepspace spoilers#love and deep space spoilers#l&ds spoilers#i managed to get this memory earlier and oh wow#he’s so sweet and soft that I actually feel a little guilty that I don’t have as strong a pull to him as the other two 😭#but seeing how kind he was in this was so lovely#and I’m happy the MC gets such a sweet bf in him#and that all the xavier lovers get such a cute moment together#if my heart wasn’t already taken by Dr Elsa then this would’ve stolen it completely#he just seems like the kind of guy who would instantly get anyone’s parents to approve of him#just an all around Good Guy#except in the kitchen lmaoo#love and deepspace#love and deep space#xavier love and deepspace#xavier
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Why do writers always put this “I’m a hypocrite and I do more bad than good” mentality into Jason and his stories, when it’s been years since he stopped doing the very thing they’re perpetually blaming him for (killing people who deliberately and routinely make other peoples lives worse) and became functionally no different than any other non lethal vigilante
“Jason never had a valid point, he only killed people because he was bitter and didn’t have a clear target to take it out on”
Not for you
What did I say about peoples’ skewed perceptions of redemption being the most annoying thing in this fandom.
I sincerely hope you don’t lol
#gee I sure hope they don’t go on making a huge deal over Jason feeling guilty for eating a few people as a hungry puppy#kelseethe#did I love seeing my fluffywuffy babyboy and did I fall for this cash grab absolutely#did I have to sit through this bs to see the ouppy? ofc#just another day of being a Jason fan really
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missa, after his self resentment and lamenting about how he doesn’t feel worthy or like he should be accepted, after telling himself and the capybaras that he doesn’t have a home, not really - after all is said and done, he returns to phil & missa, leaving his mini mi in the house on the wall. as if he’d consider anywhere other than the house he shared with phil safe enough. seeking out safety and home brought him right back where he started.
something about how despite his internal conflicts and issues about what he thinks he deserves, he’ll still come back. and for all he worries that he is not enough to be loved in return, his name is still on the warp stone.
#he’s got issues out the ass of his self worth and it’s like. yeah shit man you haven’t been reliable but you’re not unloveable#he wants to be better and he tries and he cares the issue is he holds the rest of his family on such a pedestal#this shame and guilt bubbles up and is only made worse when he isn’t rejected or hated like he’s expecting. he’s taken back with open arms#so he follows phil for guidance as to what’s acceptable. without phil there how can he know if it’s ok for him to stay in their home?#as if he didn’t also build their home yknow#but even when all is said and done he returns. even if it makes him feel guilty even if he thinks he doesn’t deserve it#because as much as he doesn’t want to be a bother he wants to be better most of all. wants to be present#I just don’t think he ever expects to be wanted to keep around. like he wants to prove himself and he’s expecting his loved ones to reject#any sort of redemption. meanwhile they don’t see the need for a redemption in the first place#shaking missa you wet cat of a man you dense self sabatoging silly silly man#stop your hero worship. own up and show up. and let your family love you because my god you are so loved#sorry tags got away from me it’s like 5 am and I’m like ahfhhrhfhshfhhs#mcyt#qsmp#q!missa#missasinfonia#z speaks
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sometimes this kink makes me feel so guilty and i wish i didn’t have it
#snz blog#snz kink#snzblr#like i dont wanna talk about myself being sick cause im scared im gonna get judged#i try to be so careful about getting other people sick and i test every time i get sick but i just feel guilty#i don’t even know the point of this i just feel guilty and bad that i have this kink sometimes#i don’t know what this post even is probsvh my sleep deprived brain being dumb#i’m just worried people are judging me and coming to conclusions that i’m careless with other peoples health snd i swear im not#that’s it lol my brain is working overtime
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i finally decided to start using my pen to draw instead of my index finger and holy shit it made a huge difference wtf. i should’ve switched a long time ago
here’s a little doodle of my OC aster to celebrate the change :]
#normally i don’t post my OCs butttttt i like this so. have it#wonder if any of you remember him from that one drawing i posted months ago#uhhh okay let’s figure out the art tags for this one#god i hate using a lot of tags i feel so guilty 😭😭😭#original art doesn’t get as much attention </3#oc art#aliens#alien oc#original character#illustration#artists on tumblr#digital art#idk i’m just putting whatever here#art#original art#ok i think i’m done#my oc#> rust's art <
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Do any other self shippers feel guilty when they start focusing on a new f/o?
#okay so I feel kinda bad rn because scratch been my main for awhile now and still is#like my self ship with him is a comfort ship for me#but bill kinda took over and I feel a bit guilty because one) I’m not focusing a lot on scratch like I use too#two) I feel like people who probably followed me for my ship with him are going to get disappointed because I keep focusing on bill#like I make jokes about scratch always pulling me back everytime I get a new crush but I wasn’t expecting to fall so hard for bill#don’t get me wrong scratch is still my 1st main and I’m still going to draw my ship with him and work on that comic#but rn I’m just really focused on bill#like I know I have a habit of jumping f/o(s) at times but this feels different#and I been feeling kinda sad about it#so I don’t know if others in the community have felt this or worry about disappointing other who followed them for something else#and I know it’s my blog and I can do whatever I want but I still stress about it#💬 chy chatter 💬
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Man, I still remember participating in one of the many jjba zines that I took part in and how my piece was placed as the first page (for the second time) and how one of my mutuals/artists that I’ve always admired, hit me with the “oh… you’re on the front page again… 😅…” like man, that kind of killed me lmfao. I never got over it like man, what was that about.
#it’s not like i put the books together myself or anything all my ass did was submit my work#like this was from a really popular and well known artist as well like#their art has always been so gorgeous to me too I was like ‘I’m literally a nobody is this person really being shady or…’#rambling#I guess it’s nice being in a zine with ppl I don’t know or care to get to know at least now 😭… just submitting my art and running#referring to the jjk zine 😭 I need t start working on it uhh#zines make me feel so anxious man#it really did make me feel bad and almost guilty? I was like this is kind of awkward…#another zine I was in which was run by a mutual… well… I never even got my zine in the mail#and I even sent them $20 for some merch that they were making since I wanted to support and never got that either…#they deleted their blog but I see that they remade and draw a lot of DM and have a lot of popular posts here so it’s kind of awkward seeing#their art shared on the dash sometimes skeks#we’re still mutuals on Twitter but I don’t rly want to ask about my zine again or the $20 bucks#it’s okay like I owe other ppl stuff too I’m a late bird man but still loskekk#they were the mod for the zine too#I might hit them up again I guess I still love their art and they were always fun to talk to#there was another zine that I participated in where we had to purchase our own copy bro#i remember being so annoyed by that but went ahead and bought it anyway#I was invited to this zine so it made me even more annoyed#I#Guess it didn’t make its money back#or something like that but I remember being broke at the time and was pissed that I had to pay for my own book#I didn’t buy any of the merch because why when it was supposed to be free#if you’re participating in a zine the book and merch should be free
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the chapter songs in Alan Wake 2,, flawless
#they deserve more love and discussion#saying this while also not knowing what to say other than they’re so fucking good#alan wake 2#i think it’s partially because poets of the fall’s tracks are iconic so of course they’re in the spotlight (as deserved)#but also the CHAPTER SONGS. them being made for a given chatacter(s) with the help of Sam lakes poetry#the changes with ‘this road’ by Poe with every Alan chapter. becoming more distorted and revealing lyrics and the spiral#the scratch song being 1) hilarious and 2) similar to Zane’s poetry in the aw1 arg#the emotion in superhero when saga feels lost at the story making it so Logan was gone#the lines of her feeling like a ghost in this story forming around her.. how she feels guilty and absent for both what the story’s doing#and being away from Logan because of her job. ashdhhhhjhh my heart#AND. follow you into the dark HAS to be alice. which kills me because at for at I thought of Alan#but no. Alice jumped in the dark place after him. it’s so !!!!!!!!!!!#the rabbit hole line. Alice spiraling deeper and deeper into a dream—into wonderland#the Lost at Sea one is also good. intrigues me. the Bowie and Lynch references are blatantly aw2 Zane#but it’s so similar to diver Zane and the ‘originals’ death. being lost in the dark place with illusions of escape#and losing any sense of identity. whether he’s real at all or the monster of this sea or just a lost soul.#the soft and calm vocals / instrumental really makes the whole thing#NEED to stop typing more tags because this is a Lot. however.#‘no one left to love’ is also a phenomenal song and one of my favorites from the album. GORGEOUS vocals and how it all flows together.#such a powerful and beautiful way to end a chapter#anyway that’s all I had to say :)#god. I’ve started to watch a few playthroughs of the game and 90% of people have skipped the chapter songs and every time im#that’s fair but my brain and soul might implode if I don’t see anyone else talking about how good these songs are
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#I’m only very rarely inclined to get this intimate w my thoughts so I might as well say it NOW butttt I will never not see the dead children#In everything I do#Like legit#I’ve read up on Hind so extensively and seen so many photos of her#And I have a very healthy relationship w the popular Palestinian journalists so she’s not my blorbo or anything#But hearing that memo destroyed me bc bisan is only 23 and she seemed so vivacious#Idk like I do normal people things I can’t just pause on my life#But idk how it feels like to sit at a boba place and enjoy my pearl milk tea w my friends#While the horrors over there don’t just lurk the back of my mind. I do normal things and I’m guilty for having the luxury#And as an Iraqi girl I’m living in the literal ideal timeline#Where my mom decided to immigrate to the us and that’s why I’m here living a normal life like everyone else#It’s like in a different world if I were born in a different time it could’ve so easily been me. I’m one of the Lucky Ones idk#It’s not survivor’s guilt bc it’s not like I had to survive anything like I never had the chance to live in Iraq or anything#But like. If some things had fallen just a little differently#And I keep thinking about how I’d feel if it were happening to Iraq and people behaved the way they’re doing to Palestinians#I’d be so mad#And some people on here are dealing w assholes while bursting at the seams w grief#For losing their loved ones#This is why I’m so fucking angry at anyone who’s complicit#This was a major tangent but basically I feel weird about doing normal things now while simultaneously knowing I can’t just sit and wallow#And watch life pass by as if it’ll do anything#Misery is not a home but I’m struggling to be 100% normal#And I think that this tonal dissonance is reflecting on my blog too bc I can’t go back to just#Posting about all the other normal things I used to. Like I want to but sometimes I feel off.#Is this anything. I haven’t slept all night#I can’t just allow myself to lose interest in everything I used to like and be and just fade away but maybe it’s about accepting that this#Will also always be a part of me now. It’s that awareness that shadows everything I do#or maybe I need a therapist it’s a toss up#I’ll probably feel better once I get my day started but this was cathartic to voice I think#p
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ghosting someone after a date is something like wildly unfathomable to me which is why i’m still kinda like…. ouchie ow owie over it a couple months later like what do u MEAN??? how can u do that to someone so casually idk maybe i’m too sensitive but how can u treat people u have met so disposably (not a word)
#like its not even about the person who did it to me its just like huh????????????? my brain does not comprehend how u could do it and not#feel guilty forever. i don’t think i’m made 4 dating like just tell me straight up and i’ll be okay with it now i’m just like ?????????????#and i know theres not something i did to ‘justify’ it like idt its rly justified ever unless the person is a genuine threat but its like ?#??????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????#like ‘nobody owes anyone anything’ but like why do u only do things if u think ur obligated to cause u owe it to them just be a decent pers#woke up at 7:40 am after a weird dream ignore me#my friends keep telling me that i gotta get used to it but like…… 🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅 why cant people just be decent
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