Chapter 91 Recap

So to recap, I sent somebody an ask about chapter 91 and I'm gonna elaborate a bit more on what happened in this chapter for anyone who isn't deep in the series anymore/isn't sure what's going on.

From the very beginning of the series, we've known that if you uncover the truth of all the yorishiro, something will happen. As confirmed by the most recent chapter, if you destroy all yorishiro then god will grant you a wish.

While Hanako had a bunch of perfect excuses at the time, he wanted to get rid of the yorishiro from the very beginning - and him already having been a rule-breaker and outcast when he was alive, it always felt strange for him to be so set on keeping up the peace because somebody told him so. It's convenient and using his power gave him the chance to destroy the yorishiro up to this point. We know by all of his past actions that he lies, he bends things, and he has other ulterior motives. These motives are usually protecting the people he cares for and especially Yashiro.

But Yashiro isn't what made him a supernatural. In order to become a supernatural after you die, you need to have regret. And the stronger your regret and emotion, the stronger of a supernatural you will be. Your yorishiro symbolises what that regret is and is always associated with it.

Hanako's greatest regret is having killed Tsukasa and everything concerning Tsukasa's death. Tsukasa is the only one with a solid connection to Hanako and he bears the seal all yorishiro do - and at the point we found out that Sumire was No.6's yorishiro, we knew that people can be a yorishiro too. Not just objects, as seen with the other numbers.

To Tsukasa's surprise, Hanako knows this. Hanako knew from the very beginning that if he destroyed all yorishiro, he would be granted a wish. And upon his death, what was the thing he'd probably wish for the most? It has to do with his greatest regret.

But things changed and Hanako wishes for Yashiro to live. He admitted as much, he said it in his conversation with Yashiro. And as soon as he admitted that openly, Tsukasa appears and urges him to kill him.

They both know what Hanako needs to do and that's why Tsukasa holds his hands with the knife and says "Let's do it." Because fulfilling Hanako's wish and destroying the yorishiro, at this point it's something only the two of them can do.

That means Hanako has to repeat what started all of this and kill his brother again. Not only that, he needs to make a decision - because there is more than one wish he has, but only one will be granted.

And that ignores all the other implications, no matter how you interpret Tsukasa's behaviour and the reveal about Natsuhiko. Even if he makes a choice now, there is no guarantee as to how things will turn out.

So that means we need to wait another month! Thanks for reading.

because sometimes there are invisible tests and invisible rules and you're just supposed to ... know the rule. someone you thought of as a friend asks you for book recommendations, so you give her a list of like 30 books, each with a brief blurb and why you like it. later, you find out she screenshotted the list and send it out to a group chat with the note: what an absolute freak can you believe this. you saw the responses: emojis where people are rolling over laughing. too much and obsessive and actually kind of creepy in the comments. you thought you'd been doing the right thing. she'd asked, right? an invisible rule: this is what happens when you get too excited.

you aren't supposed to laugh at your own jokes, so you don't, but then you're too serious. you're not supposed to be too loud, but then people say you're too quiet. you aren't supposed to get passionate about things, but then you're shy, boring. you aren't supposed to talk too much, but then people are mad when you're not good at replying.

you fold yourself into a prettier paper crane. since you never know what is "selfish" and what is "charity," you give yourself over, fully. you'd rather be empty and over-generous - you'd rather eat your own boundaries than have even one person believe that you're mean. since you don't know what the thing is that will make them hate you, you simply scrub yourself clean of any form of roughness. if you are perfect and smiling and funny, they can love you. if you are always there for them and never admit what's happening and never mention your past and never make them uncomfortable - you can make up for it. you can earn it.

don't fuck up. they're all testing you, always. they're tolerating you. whatever secret club happened, over a summer somewhere - during some activity you didn't get to attend - everyone else just... figured it out. like they got some kind of award or examination that allowed them to know how-to-be-normal. how to fit. and for the rest of your life, you've been playing catch-up. you've been trying to prove that - haha! you get it! that the joke they're telling, the people they are, the manual they got- yeah, you've totally read it.

if you can just divide yourself in two - the lovable one, and the one that is you - you can do this. you can walk the line. they can laugh and accept you. if you are always-balanced, never burdensome, a delight to have in class, champagne and glittering and never gawky or florescent or god-forbid cringe: you can get away with it.

you stare at your therapist, whom you can make jokes with, and who laughs at your jokes, because you are so fucking good at people-pleasing. you smile at her, and she asks you how you're doing, and you automatically say i'm good, thanks, how are you? while the answer swims somewhere in your little lizard brain:

how long have you been doing this now? mastering the art of your body and mind like you're piloting a puppet. has it worked? what do you mean that all you feel is... just exhausted. pick yourself up, the tightrope has no net. after all, you're cheating, somehow, but nobody seems to know you actually flunked the test. it's working!

aren't you happy yet?

crown swap

I don’t really care about Disney Princess movies because y’know, I’m almost 25, but it does make me sad that they just don’t seem to do villains anymore. Like, at all. The last good disney Princess villain was from like 2009. It makes me sad because as a young queer goth kid I loved the villains, i literally only watched the movies to see the villains. Disney villains used to slap and then they just. Stoped. Who are the weird little emo kids supposed to look up to now? The dude from Frozen who was just sort of an asshole? The lava monster from Moana who turned out to be the good guy?

Why did fun villains go out of style anyway? I would argue that some of the older bad guys are more iconic than the protagonists. Does anyone remember the plot of Sleeping Beauty or do you just remember Maleficent slaying absolute cunt? Because that’s all I remember. I had a plush Maleficent dragon. Where are the dragons now

hey, don't cry

tumblr is the new pdf! ok?

This might be a hot take, but I actually like that Percy figured out Luke was the traitor at the last minute. There were A LOT of clues that would’ve been hard to ignore, and he ignored them for as long as he could. And it’s clear that even after accusing Luke, he’s still surprised and heartbroken at Luke’s confirmation of his suspicions. He was holding out hope, guys!!

Also, the Betrayal Scene flows better as an exchange of dialogue and a swordfight than it did, in the books, as a monologue and a scorpion sting. This also leaves a bigger impact on the viewers and characters because it’s more emotional.

Lan Wangji Goes To Lotus Pier AU: Part 2: Indocktrination

(Part 1, Part 3)

Friday was my last day at Valve.

Leaving a job full of people and projects you love is always hard, but I have a pretty good reason for it this time around:

Next Monday is my first day at Cyan.

Feels appropriate to announce this on Riven's anniversary, the game that is entirely to blame for who I am as a concept artist and Art Director. WHO WOULD I EVEN BE if I hadn't had my 11yo mind blown by the little wahrk gallows counting toy in the Rivenese schoolhouse??? It's a mystery.

I can’t talk about what's on the horizon just yet—short of helping to get Riven out the door—but I’m thrilled to finally be a part of this studio, officially, after thirty years of wistful pining. If my ancient Riven fanart is anything to go by, it's been a long time comin.'😎

Thorin damzel in distress Oakenshield

meanwhile Bilbo

i have entirely too many people enabling me to stop at this point

The idea that uni protesters are "elitist ivy-league rich kids larping as revolutionaries" on Twitter and Reddit and even here is so fucking funny to me if you actually know anything about the student bodies at these unis. Take it from someone who's going to one of the biggest private unis in the US, 80% of the peers I know are either from the suburbs or an apartment somewhere in America, children of immigrants, or here on a student visa. I've heard about one-percenter students, but I've never met one in person. Like, don't get me wrong, the institution as a whole is still very privileged and white. I've talked with friends and classmates about feeling weird or dissonant being here and coming from such a different background. But in my art program, I see BIPOC, disabled, queer, lower-income students and faculty trying to deconstruct and tear that down and make space every day. So to take a cursory glance at a crowd of student protesters in coalitions that are led by BIPOC & 1st/2nd-gen immigrant students and HQ'd in ethnic housings and student organizations and say, "ah. children of the elite." Get real.

this is dean directly speaking to us with the fanfiction writing power and living outside of the narrative he's trapped in, asking us to do what chuck and the cw don't allow him to have

HE LOOKS LIKE HE WORKS WITH HIS HANDS AND SMELLS LIKE MARLBORO REDS IT MAKES ME SO UHH AND I CANT GET ENOUGH OF IT

dance with me one last time