Cringe video I made for TikTok :p

Lingering Thoughts

Aka i got bored attempted to draw SOAP and failed multiple times

I also forgot to add gloves for ghost in the last panel :)

Feminist theory this feminist theory that I should've studied programming or whatever and then I would've been able to work from wherever and not worry about money and everything would've been fine

oh so you don't care about me anymore? watch this *has a bpd/splitting episode that pushes you further away from me and makes you hate me even more*

I was almost ok yesterday i had no more pain I was just chilling and today this bitch is like. You cannot even look at a liquid or any food without wanting to throw up. But if you don't drink constantly you die. Teehee

TURNED IN MY DISSERTATION

I LIKE WOMEN NOW

Brb sobbing crying killing myself

-Where I found it-

When i was six, I remember my dad had just gotten back from work and he pulled out a bike from his car and i couldn't stop yelling about how much i couldn't wait to get on it and started jumping around and happy stimming until my "mom" told me to shut up. And that i was being loud and "difficult" I still think about that day.

When i turned ten, i found my love for animated shows and i loved to tell my friends about it because i loved them and i wanted them to feel the same happiness i did when i watched those shows. But i guess they didn't understand that, so i stopped trying. Guess where the i'm not like others phase comes in.

Eleven years old. I made new friends who loved me for me, and I realized at this year that i was gay and that i wasn't even a girl. It was honestly one of the most fucked up years in all of my life. Realizing that my mom was an emotionally abusive parent and dealing with repressed trauma.

Later that year i found out that i would be moving to a new school and i had no choice. I told my friends and we went through a rough patch and stopped talking as much. And i wanna say that "oh in the end we stayed in contact!" But we didn't. We didn't even last another year before the conversations turned to akward small talk and suddenly we felt like just strangers. All that for nothing.

2022. Was argueably one of the weirdest years of my life. I realized i was autistic and then all of my life just clicked. And it all made sense, finally. But i still couldnt be happy. I don't have any friends and i don't think i'll bother next year.

stupid ugly gaps after my stupid ugly cables...

no bc tell me why i called my friends bf a twink (as a joke) bc he’s like skinnier and smaller than her and it’s funny af AND HE LITERALLY PUNCHED ME FOR IT???? and (some of) my friends were still mad at me?? like look at this whiny man child that doesn’t know how to express his feelings so instead he just fucking slams me?? and im in the wrong for it????????? like i get that not everyone can take the same kinds of jokes but like.. was it really so deep? is this really the equivalent of me like insulting your entire blood line? and ik full well if it were any other girl like no one would’ve been ok with it. but all of a sudden it happens to be me, who’s lived with lots of older boys and can take it well so it must be fine? LIKE NO THAT SHIT STILL HURTS❗️❗️ wtf is wrong with him like… I don’t wanna pull out the don’t hit girls but?? you kind of don’t just punch people for stupid shit like that! omfg im so pissed off now WHY WERE THEY STILL UPSET WITH ME. like I would’ve ignored it if they said that it was even bc of the punch BUT HOW IN THE HELL IS IT MY FAULT THAT HE PUNCHED ME KNSTEAD OF JUST ASKING ME TO NOT MAKE THOSE KINDS OF JOKES W HIM? and then he acted like it was my fault the mood was sour? bc i was pissed? that ppl were mad at me still? when I got punched? and I didn’t even complain abt it???????? wtf.

god I keep sleeping through classes, the only change is that I’m eating significantly less but come fucking on!!! i need to lose the weight

Feeling both miserable and violent that I'm the only one in my friend group and family without a license and now I don't even have a permit because my dad wouldn't take me to the dmv for my test even though he know his fuckass jeep is the only car I'm legally allowed to test in

...and the motherfucker did it on purpose.

thinking about covid and wanna kms!!! hahaha this is fine

doing introductions for new classes is high key so embarrassing they asked what we're passionate about and so I said the kraken and the mariners because its the fucking truth

everyone else said their kids and the environment and all the shit and everyone's staring at me like I'm a fucking weirdo

When you decide to open Facebook just out of boredom for the first time in months and your memories remind you of your biggest mistake and greatest regret in your whole life...