Are you the soldier, poet, or king?

The Soldier

"There will come a soldier / Who carries a mighty sword / He will tear your city down". Righteousness. Strength. Violence. You see a door and break through it. You wonder, sometimes, if anger is the only thing you can feel. Remember : love is passion too. You made your own rules and will follow them to death. You try and forget that there is only one rule, and that it is "FIGHT". You are tired of fighting. You try to forget that, too, and keep going. You dream of quiet. Your love is where you heal. God knows you deserve to. (Really. You deserve to.)

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Ok, so, I've never watched any of the qsmp streams, but I read your rambling about it and read your one shots abt it, and uh do you have any advice on how to get into watching the streams? Like where do I start? How to catch up on missed lore? Stuff like that

well there are a lot of different POVs you can choose to catch up on and which one(s) you choose will definitely affect your understanding of what's going on. if you want to just catch up on the primary major story beats overall (federation lore, main egg lore) this channel on youtube has made 3 videos so far summarizing the lore as it goes on. I haven't watched these videos myself so I can't say how accurate they are or if they leave anything important out, but I've heard positive things!

now if you wanna catch up on more individual lore/character dynamics and all that then you're facing a bit more of a challenge. I believe quackity has most of his qsmp vods uploaded on his vod channel so you can definitely check those out for his story stuff. if you wanna understand my fics better wilbur has the smallest number of qsmp vods out of the cc's at least somewhat tied into the storyline so it shouldn't be too hard to catch up on his stuff. his vod from day 1 of the qsmp has one of the funniest moments from any wilbur stream ever (yes I am referring to that moment he was talking to max) but I don't think you need to watch a ton from any of the day 1 POV's after the first hour or so.

while phil is the pov I watch the most for qsmp, he's definitely less involved in the plot. but unlike what I keep seeing some people on twt and tumblr say, he DOES participate in the rp and does care about the lore. he just doesn't go out of his way to get super involved in it and likes making 4th wall breaking jokes. but yeah if you're looking for more lore based stuff, phil might not be a great pov to watch as your primary.

now bad is the english speaking cc most involved in the heavy federation lore stuff, so his vods are definitely good to check out if you're looking for an english speaking cc to watch. jaiden's also definitely tied into it and has her own very interesting plotline going on atm involving the federation, but she doesn't stream as often so there are a few more gaps with her compared to bad who's been daily streaming for months now.

now for the cc's who don't primarily speak english, it's definitely a bit more of a challenge to watch those POVs if you don't speak the cc's language, but when many cc's are in a group they'll usually switch to english since that's the most common language on the server. also there's the translator that most of them have up on their screen, but it's not super accurate and a lot of the time cc's forget to switch it between languages so I don't rely on it much. for lore stuff, cellbit is a great choice because he's been heavily involved in investigating the federation and solving puzzles and all that since he first got on the server. from the french side, baghera jumped into lore stuff pretty quickly too so I highly recommend her pov as well

again I don't know how detailed/what the summary videos do and don't include but if you see clips from certain streams on that summary video that look interesting, I definitely recommend going to the vod itself and watching at least a bit of it. the group dynamic between all the players on the island is so delightful to watch. so many great friendships have formed bc of this server and it's so much fun to watch them grow in real time.

more than anything though when you're trying to catch up, go through the tumblr tag! follow people who liveblog a lot! follow the updates accounts on twitter! I actually don't catch many streams, but I'm usually pretty up to date on the big plot stuff happening on the server at all times just from what I see on my dash. read posts and check out the tags to absorb info via dash osmosis. that's how I caught up on dsmp when I first got into it back in january 2021 lol

hope this helps :)

I don't think Layover did great tbh. Terrible on YouTube (including all his MVs, Tiny Desk, and music show performances), underperformed in the biggest music markets, did poorly on k-charts (that debut was abysmal compared to the other members), predicted for less first week albums in the US than D-Day despite an extra version (but waiting on chart). Here’s a chart I’ve seen floating around Twitter that gives a good idea. Probably need to verify some of it, but I think it’s mostly accurate...

https://pbs.twimg.com/media/F6LDbz4bYAADB7M?format=jpg&name=medium

His fanbases started working really hard on his first week Spotify streams when they realized he wasn’t doing great anywhere else, so he ended up with higher first week streams than FACE and LC, but barely, and most of his streams came from SEA (which isn’t a big deal or anything, but a lot of it was definitely from mass streaming farms). He also had a massive day 8 drop and allegedly way lower than day 8 for FACE. And let’s note that Layover has one extra song instead of an interlude too. He’s also higher on some official album charts, but that’s only because FACE wasn’t eligible because it’s an EP. He had much bigger overall album sales, but we were expecting that with vbar. I think they bought like 840k? So over 1/3 of his sales.

Unless I’m missing some achievements or got something wrong (I haven’t kept up with everything), I think it was a pretty meh debut considering all the promo he did and the fact that he’s “the most popular member”. They only have those first week streams, pretty sure. LMA has had good longevity though, so I guess we'll see. And BTW, they’re saying his hot100 performance was hurt because of DC2 sales being gone, which, sure, but he had 50k Slow Dancing CDs to compensate, way more than LC, and they couldn't even completely sell them out. I think his stans were using VPN to buy on iTunes in the US too because a few days in he went from 1 to 44 on iTunes chart with no explanation and never recovered. Curious what his final sales end up being. I'm not saying he did bad, but I don't think it's really anything to brag about either... I haven't seen a ton of objective people talking about it though so idk for sure.

The spreadsheet is killing me hahahs #dedication. I would like to know the missing numbers and positions, tho! Still, thank you.

I knew about kcharts, youtube, albums, and first week on spotify for the album. I saw some number that I assume included his prereleases, and it really is nothing major considering the first tracks released, and the fact that it had one more song than face. Just five minutes ago I saw that on their 8th day, like crazy (combined) had the same number of streams as Taehyung's entire album??

Sidenote: if there's one thing I was forced to learn this year, is how much difference combined versions of a song can make.

I don't think he had that much of international promo, or at least I didn't see it. I know he's been to A LOTTT of korean shows, and also his promo for pre-releases was already longer than Jimin's, but I think he just comes across as a really uninteresting person so I don't know if people would actually tune in to his music, no matter how many times they see him on TV. He definitely got more than Jimin, that's 1000% for sure, even if we consider the MVs alone; he got the same thing Jimin was denied.

I knew he'd get more albums sales, because past experience. And I knew they'd try hard to stream to break some "records", even if it won't hold up for too long. I also knew he doesn't really have many fans in the US, (I still think Jimin's the most popular member there). I've also been saying since the day I opened this blog that his "popularity" is overrated and he's never really been in the same league as Jimin when it comes to music. I blew off so many people here who would come up to me and try to convince me he was competition to Jimin or better than him in some way.

I guess the only thing I'm surprised with is youtube. I got his tiny desk video on my homepage today (saved it to watch later) and it has less than 300k views.......... It's kinda crazy. I wonder if part of the reason he got his visual album was because his youtube numbers were usually better than everyone else's combined and they believed he'd do good.

Oh, and the songs credits. It's unbelievable to me that he did NOTHING on it. People who work on songs get credits even for writing two words, so I just can't wrap my mind around the fact that he didn't do anything at all.

I'm also curious if they would've restocked the digital CD had it been sold out, but my gut tells me they wouldn't have, or it would've been just one more, and a smaller batch.

Can you do a head canon of Spencer comforting his gf when she’s sad/stressed/having a panic attack etc?❤️

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S. Reid Headcanons

(comforting edition)

DISCLAIMER: i headcanoned most of these on my own but i will credit any ideas i'm borrowing from anyone else because a lot of other people's hcs are very accurate to the way i see Spence

KING OF BOUNDARIES!!

If he sees you're upset in any way, he's never gonna hug you or get too close without your permission

CEO of asking "Is it OK if I hug you?"

Should you accept his offer of a hug, he's never gonna let go

Always makes you let go first so as to make sure you've received the correct amount of attention that you needed

A perfect mixture of holding your hand and rubbing your back when you have a panic attack

Also I feel like he's the type to be whispering sweet things in your ear

"It's gonna be OK, I've got you"

ALSO KING OF DISTRACTIONS!!!

If he evens senses you're thinking about crying, he's on it with the distractions

I feel like when it gets really bad, he becomes such a gift giver

Telling jokes to cheer you up, asking about your favorite things, giving you random statistics and facts since that's what he knows best

"Hey, did you know that male penguins propose to female penguins by gifting them a pebble?"

I've talked about this before but he loves words of affirmation

So, this obviously bounces onto you

And he puts little sticky note mantras on your desk at work or on your mirror if you live together

"You've got this!" - pretty boy <3

"Focus on the current step, not the whole staircase!" - your lover boy :)

"I bought you a bottle of bubble bath. It's your favorite scent." 🥺

I feel like he really likes to give you shoulder massages when you're stressed

I know he isn't really a religious or spiritual person but I feel like when it gets really bad, he prays for you and asks the team to pray for you too

If you're one of those people that skips meals when you get sad, he always makes sure you eat a little something.

"My love, I brought food from that restaurant up the street that you like. It would make me happy if you tried to eat something for me."

He's definitely a "pros outweigh the cons" kind of guy

So while he's on his lunch break, he writes you a whole list of reasons why he loves you

He wants to wait to give it to you after work but he gets too excited so he gives it to you as soon as he finishes the list

Overall, he's just a sweetheart with the perfect balance of giving you attention and giving you your personal space

you cry over said list in front of all your coworkers

He always makes sure you get enough sunlight by taking a walk with you in the morning before work

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(1/2) Hi, Lauren! Would you recommend me to watch Two Worlds? I'm debating with myself for a few weeks now, watching all these gif sets on tumblr. The things is... I find most of the BLs quite cringy which is a big no for me. Usually I like the BLs you're watching (I've really loved KinnPorsche, Not me, Kisseki, A Tale of 1000 Stars, ...), but there have also been shows you really loved but I wasn't able to finish - main example being Love in the Air (i just wasn't able to get past episode 3).

(2/2) Next shows I've tried but didn't finish are for example: Naughty Babe, Cutie Pie, Pit Babe. Could you advise me on which scale do you think the Two Worlds are? It looks intriguing but I'm afraid of a possible cringe lurking in the background. Looking at the BLs I've loved and the ones I didn't finished, would you be able to guess how I would feel about this one?

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Helloooo sweet anon! Thank you for your messages!

Firstly, I must say, the bl's you listed that you enjoyed are superior. Well done on your immaculate taste. And the list you provided that you couldn't finish is also hilarious and accurate and I'm agreeing wholeheartedly on your opinions.

In terms of Two Worlds...I'm gonna be honest with you, I only started watching it for Max Kornthas. The man has a hold on me that I can't explain. So I may be slightly biased, however, that doesn't stop me from telling you that the show has surprised me in so many ways. I'm thoroughly enjoying it as a whole and hope more people watch it once it's finished. (Learning that it wasn't a domundi/mandee production also helped massively.)

Where it stands on a kp/notme level vs cutiepie/naughtybabe/pitbabe level, let me try and break it down for you:

Production level isn't quite kinnporsche WOW, but it's also not naughty babe cgi tiger TRAGEDY. It tips more on the kp side of production value. The locations are gorgeous, and the cinematography is pretty as hell. There are some dodgy camera tricks being used, but nothing to worry too much about.

The acting: As a whole I would say it's definitely better than your average thai bl. It's absolutely not Gun Attaphan level good. But I will say that Max is kinda killing it- and I'm not saying that from a particularly bias lens. His acting has improved an incredible amount since cutie pie/naughty babe. Nat, bless him, still has a little ways to go to really impress me, but he's also improved so fucking much I have to commend him. The guy playing the 2nd love interest is definitely the weakest actor of the bunch, but overall the acting is pretty good. No major complaints from me.

The narrative: I think this story in particular is incredibly interesting, it's unique, it's angsty, it's romantic, it's brutal, it's exciting, and a little bittersweet. The pacing can be a bit all over the place at times, but if you just go with it, you'll catch up quickly enough. The one major flaw for me in thai bls in general is that sometimes the story seems way more complicated then they actually are. This story really isn't that complicated if you don't think too hard about the details. Are there plotholes? Ofc there are. But it's nothing too glaringly obvious that I want to rant about it.

Another plus is that there is no quick-how-can-we-promote-this-thing-that-has-no-relevance-to-the-show product placement, which is something I only noticed two episodes ago but am highly grateful for.

The thai bl cringefactor: There are moments where I thought I would be cringing up a storm, but so far it's been pretty tame in terms of typical bl cringe moments. There's no guitars or singing (praying it stays that way), but we have had a few 'oops i tripped and fell into you and now we're staring into each other's eyes' moments, but honestly? They didn't bother me in the slightest. Maxnat pull off the elongated looks very well.

Spice level: We've only had one NC scene so far, it was definitely more on the romance side of the fence than the spicy one, but it lasted 7 minutes long...do with that information what you will. We've got more to come from both Maxnat and our side couple (who I'm also enjoying greatly, btw) Maxnat know how to fucking de-li-ver and from the looks of the trailer, our side couple also get a pretty steamy moment too.

The only potential downside to the show is the hefty trigger warning list. If you want to know them you can message or dm me and I'll make a separate list for you.

This response probably didn't need to be as long as it did, but I wanted to give you the facts. Do I think you should watch it? Yes. Do I think you'll like it? I think so. But is it to the standard of bl you seem to really enjoy? No. Do with this information what you will! And please feel free to tell me if you do start watching it and enjoying it because I'd love to hear your thoughts!

ps. (the CACKLE I let out reading that you couldn't get past episode 3 of LITA was wild because you're so valid. I skipped episodes 1-7 because I also couldn't handle the cringe, but if you did want to try it again- episodes 8-13 are much better- still a little cringe, I won't lie to you- but it's definitely the stronger of the two stories.)

Faygo: Grape (Review)

note: Myles didn't get around to buying this flavour last week, so he'll be editing this tomorrow to include his opinions!

(our ratings & experiences)

Flavour Accuracy

Myles: 20/20 Roni: 19/20 Average Rating: 19.5/20

It's pretty much the perfect combination of that sickly sweet artificial grape flavour and the flavour of actual grape juice. Even if I were evaluating the accuracy of the 'grape'-ness of either definition, I think it'd score high on both. Only reason I'm not giving it a perfect score is because it tastes just barely a bit too sweet.

Now THIS is what Faygo should taste like. Unlike all the other Faygo flavors reviewed so far (which all taste like an elephant's piss overloaded with sugar), this drink precisely simulates the taste of grapes while still tasting the way a soda should. It's almost as if the grapes that were used to make the natural and artificial flavoring of this drink came from Dionysus himself.

Health Concern

Myles: 10/20 Roni: 3/20 Average Rating: 6.5/20

It tastes pretty fine in terms of 'is this killing me', but after checking the back of the bottle... Wow. Faygo had to count this bottle as 2 servings instead of one because the sugar content is 164% of the recommended daily sugar value. 164% isn't even real. How did we accidentally go from the lowest sugar content in the first week to an absurdly high one??? And we started on cotton candy?! The only reason this isn't at 1 again is because my body felt completely fine after drinking the whole bottle.

I probably should be concerned since this is an American drink with the sugar content and all the artificial elements to match, but I guess it's the flavor of the beverage that dispells most of my concerns since it actually tastes good. Then again, that sugar content of 82 grams does seem pretty concerning...

Color Appeal

Myles: 12/20 Roni: 13/20 Average Rating: 12.5/20

Looks pitch black at first glance, but it's actually a dark grey-purple colour that you can really only see if you shake the bottle. I like purple, but I feel pretty average about this drink's colour. It matches the flavour well and it's certainly not unappealing, but I feel like they could've done better with it. Maybe a slightly more vibrant purple would bring up my score for this.

If I'm being honest, the colors of the label are more appealing to me than the color of the actual drink. But it's this near pitch-black color with purple tones here and there that reminds me of Ribena so it's all good with me.

Overall Enjoyment

Myles: 20/20 Roni: 18/20 Average Rating: 19/20

It's pretty good! If I hadn't checked the back, I feel like my enjoyment would be a 19 or 20 out of 20. They hit all the marks with this flavour and the drink had an interesting enough flavour profile that I didn't get sick of the taste. This is a good time to mention that neither Myles nor I are affected by sugar (i.e., we don't get 'sugar highs' or 'sugar crashes'), so that factor isn't involved in any of our rankings.

Unless there is another flavor out there that can make me change my mind, this is the best Faygo flavor out there in my eyes. If it's there on the drink shelf at EzyMart, I'm taking it. It makes me wish that the other flavors were this accurate to their name.

Re-drinkability

Myles: 20/20 Roni: 17/20 Average Rating: 18.5/20

The only reason my score is knocked down is because of the sugar content written on the back of this thing. I actually really like the drink as-is, and I'd get it pretty often if it wasn't so detrimental to my health! Same feeling as Pineapple, but better. Another side note is that this flavour is sold out everywhere in our main city except for one store location. Could be a sign that Grape Faygo is actually good!

Would I drink this again? Absolutely. This isn't even the first time I've had this particular flavor before. I chose this flavor for this review knowing it would be a relief from the tongue-incinerating experiences that were cotton candy and pineapple. I can only hope the other flavors that we are yet to review in the future are as enjoyable as this.

Summary

Myles’ Rating: 82/100 Roni’s Rating: 70/100 Average Rating: 76/100

Grade: B

Laser hair removal experience as a non-binary trans man on T

I started laser hair removal in February of 2021.

At the time I was 5.5yrs on t. Could easily grow a full thick beard, but never did. My hair grows fast so 5 o'clock shadow was very real.

First laser session:

I bought a package of 6 sessions for $500. That is the base price without any groupon deals or sale.

The session lasted about 7-10 minutes. The laser technician was super nice. Gave me silicone boobs to squeeze bc of the pain.

I don't have the best pain tolerance. It was very painful for me. I had to stop every 2 zaps. The max I went was 3.

People often say it feels like a rubber band snap, yea that's pretty accurate. It's like that if it was several rubber bands pulled back as far as they'd go. It's a very sharp pain, but it's a short lasting one.

Post first session

My face was super red, but that's to be expected. The scare came in the evening though (i did the session at 10am).

My face was still red, but a slightly darker red, and started getting A LOT of whitehead acne everywhere. It looked honestly horrifying. I called the laser place and they said that it's not uncommon to have such side effects and that it'll go away in a week.

During that time I couldn't really shave bc of the irritation. So it was definitely a shitty time.

It DID go away though. Every day it got significantly better until after about 5 days things went back to normal. It was like it never happened.

Hair started falling out after 10 days, took about 3 days for all the hair to fall out. Let me tell you, it's the most satisfying thing omg. Made the side effects worth it.

Most of it fell out while I was shaving. Or sometimes I'd just touch my face and it would get rubbed out.

Sessions 2-6

So the following sessions were all vaguely similar:

- 5-7 minutes of pain

- look like shit for 5 days

- momentary satisfaction in having

the smoothest face ever

- next wave of hair starts growing a few days after the hair stops falling out.

Every round of laser got easier as there was less hair to zap. There was some variation, session 4 was rougher than session 3, idk why. Overall though the sessions got faster and less painful. The nasty side effects lessened by a lot too.

I would say about 20% of hair was removed every session, but that's a very loose statement. It varied quite a bit. Anyway, after the 6th session about 70% was gone. What remained was small patches here and there. Mostly on my chin/mustache area and the sides.

Session no.7

The most recent session. About a year after session 6. I couldn't buy another package due to money.

The pain wasn't that bad. It was way less than what I thought it would be.

The redness faded away almost immediately. I did get some acne, but it's barely visible. I look like usual. The only thing is that my face is a bit itchy, but nothing I can't ignore.

It's only the day after right now so idk how much hair will come out this time.

Laser as a trans person

I can't speak about other places, but the place I went to was pretty trans friendly. At first they thought I was cis, or at least I assume so. Later on though bc of my medical history they realized I'm trans and were chill about it.

At some point I had a convo about society and gender with the person doing my laser as I was getting zapped.

Final thoughts

While it's expensive and can cause shitty, though temporary, side effects, laser does it's job. It takes a long time, but the effects do come. I would consider it worth it even though I haven't finished. I have significantly less hair and honestly my skin is better.

I think that if you're someone who is on the fence of maybe going on t, but worried about facial hair this *could* be a solution. Or if you're on T and it's bothering you, it's an option. It's expensive and not easy, but it's something. I'm not saying it's THE option/solution, but something to consider.

I will say that laser is NOT permanent. It reduces hair, but it has limits. Electrolysis is permanent, but more painful and slower. Laser removes the vast majority of hair given enough sessions. However you do have to go back once a year or two for maintenance. So proceed with caution I guess.

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for this

1: Ive been interested in MOGAI pretty much ever since Ive heard about them. idk what got me into my first coining spree though. I do know I made my first flag (it had such a weird name I dont even remember) because I didnt know I was alterhuman and saw an angelkin exclusive term and wanted a version where it wasnt exclusive to angelkin but overall the same otherwise. if you scroll really far down you might find it lol. also the first place I shared it with (also the first mogai place I was active in) was the xenogendersandmore subreddit so,,, everyone makes mistakes tho ^^'

2: it definitely got way more complicated, idk if it counts but its not exactly from being in the community, what complicated my gender was when I stopped being public about it and then it got schmorphed and now every time I try to define it on my own terms it kicks me in the face like a wild horse. if youre curious my pre liom identity was gay asexual demiboy. now the only term I can use that would be accurate is just queer ^^'

3: @cupidsprotag @hypnosiacon @mogai-sunflowers and @gender-mailman mostly tee bee eych. and Id say right now what inspires me most is horror and dark topics, death, vulture culture etc. but I honestly cycle through most non-academia and non-cottagecore themes (nothing against them theyre just too dull for my liking)

4: animals!!! I love zoology its literally my number 1 special interest. I just dont think itd be obvious as I dont really make any animal related terms. (unfortunately most animals come in boring colors like brown and brown)

5: marvlaetus (link) my dead baby boy, Im gonna just,,, remake it sometime when Im home. give it a better, more solid definition along with more term names.

6: answered on my prev post

7: ppprrobably musisonar by hypnosiacon. (Ill edit the link in later)

8: palettegender and alteraffectis probably. seeing them get used and get subterms gives me an ego boost :3c

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- 𝗉𝖺𝖼𝗄𝖺𝗀𝖾 : 𝖺𝗅𝗅𝗎𝗋𝗂𝗇𝗀

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feedback :

So the entire first paragraph resonates with PACs and personal readings I received! They definitely sound familiar the more I read about them like I feel like I’m getting to know this person so well. Characteristics like work-oriented, childish, charismatic, and seeing goodness in everyone are all recurring messages. For love language, it’s funny that writing lovely letters came up cause I actually wrote a comfort letter to my future spouse after a personal reading told me they might be struggling with burnout. I get ‘the lovers’ card pretty often too when it comes to this person haha and I myself am a very sexual person, so that checks out. Their love language resonates with past readings I got for sure. The part about meeting them for the first time has many recurring messages like meeting at an acquaintance's event, somewhere close to water, and they’ll be checking me out from afar haha. It also resonates how you mentioned I’ll meet them soon when I move because I’m planning on moving out of state or the country in 2-3 years lol. Messages like me and them coming from different backgrounds and strong passion also resonate.

Their current energy seems quite chaotic and honestly, I’m also at a point in my life where things are just messy, so I hope things will move into calmer waters when we meet. For couple dynamics, all I can say is you have described me pretty well as a person. I do have pretty high standards and would rather choose a partner with high compatibility. I struggle with needing to have control over every aspect of my life, but I’m aware of it. Long distance relationship kind of resonates, I keep getting the message that there will be a period of separation between me and this person. How they will treat me sounds so perfect I couldn’t help but giggle lol. Mutual respect, supportive, loving, and possessive(non-toxic)? It’s exactly what I want. I am often told by friends that I give off motherly vibes lol so that resonates. And yeah their sexual inclinations sound compatible with mine so that’ll be a good time haha. I really appreciate hearing how they will treat me and how will they feel about me; because my sexual interests make me feel like I’m more suitable for non-romantic relationships but I actually only want romantic relationships. It’s nice to hear that it’s possible to have both. The next part, the plot twist, is the most accurate, down to details, message in this entire reading it’s kinda scary lol. I received this exact message from another reading before so I’m glad to hear that things will end well for me and my person. It’s normal to have ups and downs I suppose, and hearing that it will make our relationship stronger makes it worthwhile. The first celebration with them sounds like a confession scene. For past readings, I keep hearing that I’ll have a sexual relationship with this person first before committing to a romantic one so I’m wondering if this will be it. This part is so romantic omg it got me daydreaming. Not going to lie, their profession and appearance do not sound like my type so this will be interesting haha. Idk about pregnancy yet so please let me ignore this section for now. Their hobbies and interests sound fun but again not really my type at all. One of the main reasons why I’m so interested in future spouse readings is because I keep getting recurring messages and this person does not sound like someone I’d date lol. This is all fun for me. Their family and friends’ thoughts of me sound mostly positive, which is good. I don’t care too much about other people’s opinions of me but I do want to get along with my spouse’s people. And marriage is not a huge thing on my mind so I’ll probably just go with the flow when the time comes. Overall, I’m very happy and satisfied with this reading. It is so long and detailed. I love it. I can feel the dedication you put into this. I’m so glad I ordered from you since your PACs usually resonated for me. It was a pleasure doing business with you and I hope we have more chances to work together in the future!

thank you so much @alinepichi for leaving such an awesome and detailed feedback about your reading. i am happy that somehow most of them are resonates with you, glad that you'd purchase a reading with me🤍

୨୧ 𝗉𝖺𝖼𝗄𝖺𝗀𝖾 : #6

- 𝗉𝖺𝗂𝖽 𝗋𝖾𝖺𝖽𝗂𝗇𝗀𝗌 𝖿𝖾𝖾𝖽𝖻𝖺𝖼𝗄 #15

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Wow, that was so sweet & straightforward <3 They were also accurate. I really appreciate you doing this, it really soothe me. I recommend anyone coming across your blog to purchase a package as well 💛

thank you so much @888-hz purchasing and encouring others to do book a reading with me, it was a pleasure to do a transaction with you🤍

𝗉𝖺𝖼𝗄𝖺𝗀𝖾 : #4

- 𝗉𝖺𝗂𝖽 𝗋𝖾𝖺𝖽𝗂𝗇𝗀𝗌 𝖿𝖾𝖾𝖽𝖻𝖺𝖼𝗄 #18

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😢😢😢 this is so spot on, tbh some of these things are things i havent even realized i do im putting two and two together rn 😭🙏 and tbh i think the smile part is true bcus i cant remember ever smiling unless around friends or family but even then. didnt notice that but thank you! and the pressure part is so true 😭 will definitely purchase more in the future, your readings >>> . thank you so much!

thank you so much @kissesforpluto for this lovely feedback, i hope you will get through this part of yours. i am routing for you, don't be afraid to show the best of you!🤍

୨୧ a tons of thank you so much for purchasing and supporting my blog. May you achieve all of your dream love and dreams for life <333

Fresh(?) Impressions (6)

Other parts: |Trickstar| |UNDEAD| |2wink| |Ra*bits| |Akatsuki| |fine| |Ryuseitai| |Knights| |Valkyrie| |Switch| |MaM/Double Face/Crazy:B| |Eden| |Alkaloid|

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Hello Enstarries~☆ fine, the most flavourful group so far, is here and B O Y do I have a lot to say about them. After quite a while, I'm getting used to seeing Anzu not actually talking and the vibe of the game. Also, I'm positively surprised by how much you can modify the lives. For some reason, often times, my fingers won't register (even though I debuted as a rhythm game player with them) but my hands are too small for my thumbs to reach everything comfortably. So, to be able to adjust the position of the half-circle is very convenient! The displayed text during a live seems to have gotten smaller, though. Not that it bothers me much. Btw kinda late, but the overall impression score isn't mathematically made of the other ones. We don't do math here except for gems.

DISCLAIMER!: Everything said here is for entertainment purposes only and not meant to attack anyone. This is not an accurate description of any characters but my subjective rambling for fun, so please don't take it too seriously. (Just to be safe, I'm kinda scared of elite idol fans) Also, you will hear me mention other games a bunch of times bc I'm that bad and uncreative at explaining and I'm still grieving A3!EN's shutdown. Eng is my 2nd (or 3rd?) language fyi.

Without further ado...Let's Ensemble!☆

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fine is.....honestly, idek where to begin. 1. It seems to be this absolute high ranking unit, that the main rookie unit (Trickstar) is supposed to overthrow. 2. Besides being an elite unit, it is also filled with elite kids. 3. There seems to be a hierarchy where it goes Eiichi > Tori > Yuzuru and Wataru is somehow just vibing them. & 4. The unit used to consist of Eiichi, 2 members from Eden and one from Switch but smth happened and they broke up (their song still goes hard though). 5. They seem kind of pretentious and 3/4 might be rude at first. And I'm not going off of their status rn.

Now that the things I can't really connect in a nice text are out of the way, let's go a bit slower. Their uniform is some fancy formal wear in light colory ivory and blue. Everyone is actually wearing the same thing without any kind of individual distinction except Tori that little snowflake. Since the vibe is smth along the lines of "We are the absolute good and perfect" and smth smth heavenly, I guess it makes sense to omit individuality, as it would disrupt the peace or harmony. It's pretty, elegant and pleasing to look at. Every uniform is tailored to the characters but somehow I find that these go specially well with their hair color. Orchestra leaning music is also fitting for the overall theme and it's pretty OK I guess. I do like a a few but it's no strong feeling for the majority (as I don't really listen to them often). My favs are The Tempest Night and Genuine Revelation.

6/10 - definitely not average or even near it but I have quite mixed feelings about them, mainly the members not the music

Eiichi Tenshouin

Wtf

Komaeda (Danganronpa 2) but make him the opposite of a hobo and in idol version. Ok, so he basically caused a whole war within the idol industry or idol course bc he loves idols so much and holds them in high regards, that he wishes to weed out the "bad" ones or smth like that? (I'm guessing in the latter half) Princely characters that aren't baby are never to be trusted too so easily smh I'm sure he has a soft side to him and all that, he reformed after all?, but he just UNINGED, MASTERMIND, 🙂 Nice voice though. And he does look pretty, kinda. The models are kind of paler than the cards so his hair color looks like mayonnaise but he looks nice otherwise. Besides that, I can pick out that he's very very very goal driven and thorough. Less of an authorative air than Keito but scarier. A gay the fandom collectively does not respect.

4/10 - first one to be lower than the default 5 bc....look at this

Wataru Hibiki

AMAZING L'Oréal model right here. I love his hair, so long, so pretty. Does he take care of it by himself? Either can only do this hairstyle or can do a ton wide variety. No in-between. Literally an amalgmation of Nagi (Idolish7), Tenma & Homare (A3!). He's loud, unapologetic dramatic, determined, confident and born for the stage 🌹 Would throw roses and and confetti before he goes into a room. Though, you would hear him before actually seeing him. Has the Yoosung (Mystic Messenger) voice clip. You know the one 😭 Also, completely fine going for a married woman, if it weren't the mother of one of his collegue. Isn't there a theory that he is actually an imposter of the real Wataru and might be brothers with Hajime bc same hair and eye color? Wouldn't be the first look-like-siblings-but-aren't pair.

7.5/10 - I don't actually like him that much and he'd even be kind of annoying to be around but he's just really AMAZING

Tori Himemiya

Brat. Himedere. Annoying. Literally a child. Who let this sassy lost child around? Seeing himself so grown up and mature but still thinking it's possible for everyone to like him, the naivety. He knows his charm and uses it to his advantage but toddlers can do that too. Also entitled. Idk man he's very childish and childlike (two different things). Thrives on attention. I guess I can see his goodwill, he did get sad that he can't inspire new idols, even though he is so loved and popular. And he probably has other nice sides to him. But I just can't stand overly💖 cutesy🤗 characters🌷. Especially the smug ones. He's what I thought Ra*bits would be (thank god they're not). I don't think he's stupid or an airhead, though. Average academically and in general, just....child. Not a bebi but a baby.

3/10 - yes, he's lower than the one who caused a war, I like his solo song for some reason

Yuzuru Fushimi

You, who bears the family name of my other Nr.1 in A3!, 🤎Omi Fushimi🤎, are highly likely not worth it. No hate against him, he just seems pretty unassuming (not like Omi started like that as well for me...). I take it he's one hell of a butler. He wakes up for work, he eats work, he breathes work, he dreams of work. Another hobbyless person. Maybe working is his hobby? Considering how much serving someone encompasses. Not sure if he's actually from an influental family as well. Does Toru appreciate him? Is it like a childhood friend servitude or really more business like? I can't tell if he's a generally polite person or if he's only like that to people he thinks deserve it. His hair color is pretty, I suppose.

5/10 - if he was a seasoning, he'd be salt

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Conclusion

I don't know man. I've heard a lot but as I mentioned in my first post, it's all mostly out of context, so my impression is likely quite skewed. I had so much to say in the beginning I had to seperate it in two paragraphs for easier reading, which is a first. The most group ever.

This is the beginning of the not so normal groups. But what even is normal anyways, right? Good thing the biggest group is only 5 members. I wouldn't want to go over tumblr's 10 pic limit. WAIT, THE LOGO PIC!!! Oh, well....

Anyways, that's the end for now. If you wanna share what you thought of it or so, keep in mind to be respectful and that it's just for fun! Until next post y'all~☆

VOICE / SPEECH HEADCANONS

NO. OF SPOKEN LANGUAGES :  for her historical verse, 3 in total, but she is only fluent her native dialect of old basque -- frankish and latin are extremely difficult for her, but she can survive. a noted miracle that happens to nahia on occasion is the gift of tongues, in which she will be able to speak fluently in any language needed at the time. after the occasion, however, she will forget this fluency. for her modern verse, 4 in total, again with varying degrees of proficiency. she is fluent in castilian spanish and basque, or euskara as it’s called natively. after this, she is proficient in english and french, since these are the two most common languages she needs to speak with tourists.

TONE OF VOICE :   high  / average  /  deep.   nothing too fancy here! it’s naturally very quiet and very steady, so it’s pretty calming to listen to. she also speaks rather slowly for being spanish ( known for being fast talkers lmao ), so it gives it a further kind of richness. the only way i can really describe it is like -- you know how when you listen to a song without bass, it sounds like... incomplete? nahia’s voice is that steady tone in the background tying things together without people really realizing. the only noticeable detail is that if you weren’t able to see nahia’s face, you would have no idea how old she is.

ACCENT :   yes /  no   — nahia has an extremely heavy spanish accent when speaking both english and french (or latin and frankish in historical verses). it’s not unintelligible, but she does make mistakes in pronunciation pretty often because natural spanish diphthongs are WAY simpler than the nightmare ones of english and french.

DEMEANOR :  confident /  shy /  approachable /  hostile  /  other.   — i italicized ‘confident’ because to say that she’s insecure is...not entirely accurate. while she is shy, it’s not because she doesn’t want to be around other people: she assumes people are busy. and she is very capable of being okay just by herself. and she is extremely approachable! when people ask her questions, she is happy to talk and keep up a conversation for as long as needed. tbh it’s npc ‘speaks when spoken to’ behavior.

POSTURE :   slumped  /  straight /  stiff  / relaxed.   — her posture is slightly slumped when no one is looking at her most of the time and she’s not...really paying attention to what’s happening with her body. she’s off in her head thinking about grass or fish or something. however, when someone speaks to her she will visibly straighten up! not out of stress or anything (usually) --  but it’s like a flower opening up when the sun shines on it!

HABITS :   head  tilting  / swaying /  fidgeting  / stuttering  / gesturing /  arm  crossing /  strokes  chin  /  er , um , or  other  interjections ( ‘eh’ is the ‘um’ of the spanish-speaking world )  / plays  with  hair or  clothing /  hands  at  hips  / inconsistent  eye  contact /  maintains  eye  contact  / frequent  pausing  / stands  close  /  stands  at  distance

COMPLEXITY.

VOCABULARY :                   ⬛  ⬛  ⬜ ⬜ ⬜

EMOTION :                      ⬛  ⬛  ⬛  ⬛  ⬛

SENTENCE STRUCTURE :       ⬛  ⬛  ⬛  ⬜  ⬜

NOTES :  these things will vary greatly by what language she speaking -- but overall, her vocabulary isn’t great considering a) her developmental delays as a child and b) her subsequent dropping out of school to work. her sentence structure can actually get pretty complex in spanish and basque since she’s prone to philosophical tangents, but definitely not in english and french. the thing that comes across no matter what language she’s speaking is the emotion behind her words. it’s not in volume though. she’s still very quiet and very calm, but that steadiness to her voice really does convey a sense of emotion that is extremely deep. you can really tell she thinks deeply about every word she is saying and holds a vast ocean of feeling even though she herself is very quiet.

PROFANITY.

FREQUENCY :       ⬛  ⬜  ⬜  ⬜  ⬜    

CREATIVITY :     ⬛  ⬜  ⬜  ⬜  ⬜    

NOTES : nahia is a good girl and does not cuss, however, the culture around cussing in spain is a little looser (at least in my experience). so there will be times where nahia does technically “cuss”, but it doesn’t hold nearly the same weight. but even then, she chooses the milder ones, and only something that she mutters to herself under her breath when she’s in extreme amounts of pain.

BOLD ALL THAT APPLY.

arse. ass. asshole. bastard. bitch. bloody. bugger. bollocks. chicken shit. crap. cunt. dick. frick. fuck. horseshit. motherfucker. piss. prick. screw. shit. shitass. son  of  a  bitch. twat. wanker. pussy.

madre mía. joder. mierda. gilipollas. cabrón. cojones. me cago en ____. la madre que me/te parió. hijo de puta. culo. coño. coñazo. tonto. tonto del culo. puta madre. que te den. que te den por culo. a tomar por culo. estúpido. que te folle un pez. pollas en vinagre.

GIVEN PROPER RELIGIOUS CONTEXT.

christ  on  a  bike.  christ  on  a  cracker.  damn.  goddamn. godsdamn.  hell.  holy  shit. jesus. jesus  christ. jesus  h  christ. jesus  h.  roosevelt  christ.  lord  have  mercy.  jesus ,  mary  and  joseph. sweet  jesus. jesus  fucking  christ.

me cago en dios. me cago en la hostia. me cago pegar una hostia. me cago en todos los santos. me cago en la virgen de pilar. señor. dios. hostia.

THIS OR THAT?

straightforward   or   cryptic?  |  finding  the  right  word or   using  the  first  word  that  comes  to  mind? |  masculinity , neutrality ,   or   femininity?  |  formalities  or   abrasiveness?  |  praise   or   equivocation?  | frankness  or   lies?  |  excessive  or   minimal hand  gestures?  | name – calling   or  magnanimity?  | friendly   or   blunt  nicknames?

𝐈𝐌𝐏𝐎𝐑𝐓𝐀𝐍𝐓 𝐐𝐔𝐄𝐒𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐒.

DO PEOPLE HAVE A HARD TIME UNDERSTANDING OR HEARING YOUR CHARACTER? —  almost  always  /  frequently  / sometimes / rarely  / never.

DOES YOUR CHARACTER’S POINT COME ACROSS EASILY WHEN THEY SPEAK? —   almost always / frequently / sometimes  /  rarely  /  never.

WOULD YOUR CHARACTER INITIATE CONVERSATIONS? —  almost  always / frequently  /  sometimes  / rarely /  never.      

WOULD YOUR CHARACTER BE THE ONE TO END CONVERSATIONS? —  almost  always  / frequently /  sometimes  / rarely  /  never.

WOULD YOUR CHARACTER USE 'WHOM’ IN A SENTENCE? —  yes /  no /  yes, but it’s always wrong

YOUR CHARACTER WANTS TO MAKE A COUNTERPOINT. WHAT WORD DO THEY USE? —    but / though  /  although /  however  / perhaps /  mayhaps  /  maybe

HOW DOES YOUR CHARACTER END CONVERSATIONS? —   walk  away  /  ask  if  that’s  everything  /  say  that’s  everything  /  give  a  proper  goodbye  /  tell  their  company  they’re  done  here  /  remain  quiet  /  they  don’t.

HOW DOES YOUR CHARACTER ADDRESS OTHERS? —  titles /  first  names  /  surnames  /  full  names  / nicknames.

IN WHAT WAYS DOES YOUR CHARACTER’S SPEECH STAND OUT TO OTHERS? —   accent /  vocabulary  /  tone /  level   /  politeness   /  brusqueness  /  it  doesn’t.

Hiii sweetheart! I just had to tell you, your work is such a joy to read, i look forward to your posts literally everyday ❤️ (i mean no pressure, you do you and take care of yourself). I love how you write, and how you've paired some of your astro readings with stories. I'm so glad i came across your page.

If it's not too much trouble, can you do me a compatibility reading with Chan? I was born on the 9th of June, 2001, at 12:10 pm in Pune, Maharashtra, India.

Again, no pressure. You're working really hard on each post, ask, and the series. I hope you're looking after yourself.

Tysm for being so patient with the readings!!! Here you are honey <3

Ascendant in Virgo (1st house):

With your ascendant in Virgo, it is likely that you initially come across as intelligent and practical, but CAN be hard to approach at first. One thing I do want to say though is that I look at Virgo as being on the “service” axis. It is likely that when first meeting people, they can see you as being helpful in a concrete and practical way. To reiterate though, I think the only drawback is that you could come across as knowing a lot of information, which can make some people feel intimidated, even if they do not express or show it. This isn’t to say that people won’t be drawn to you. People who are naturally curious and value intellect (like you obviously do from the rest of your chart), will most definitely want to get to know you better.

Chan’s Ascendant is in Gemini, which is a really cool match up because Gemini is the ruler of intellect/learning! Gemini approaches this in a more airy sort of way, easily talking to people about a lottt of things. It’s likely that he would be super interested in what you had to say about topics you are passionate about.

I think if you met, you would initially be able to strike up a stimulating conversation. Which could most definitely lead to more if you find common ground. If you got together, I think you would be perceived as a couple that could actually be somewhat intimidating to others- almost like the perfect couple that were better than others lol. Chan could swindle others with his natural curiousity and charm, and then you would be able to hold their attention. A pretty cool match. HOWEVER, with your Sun and Mercury placements, I think you could channel a lotttt of Chan’s energy as well!

Sun in Gemini in 10th house (MC):

This is a pretty cool placement! 10th house is about your career and how you will advance in life. Since your Sun (personality) is in Gemini, people that know you would still describe you as smart and able to easily relate to others. You probably have interests in lots of different fields. This trait about you would take you far in life if you let it! Especially considering your Mercury (communication) also in Gemini in the 10th house! This shows me that overall, you would be great at having a profession that teaches others about a wide range of topics OR learns about a wide range of topics. This could manifest as being a teacher, a public speaker (obviously if more extroverted lol), writer/journalist, or even a scientist or analyst. Just something that involves your cerebral nature. You also most likely value people who are interesting and you also couldn’t be long-term with someone who doesn’t provide mental stimulation.

Chan’s Sun in Libra is a pretty good match. He naturally molds to your personality, and I actually think you could expand his knowledge and areas of interest. This could especially be helpful to him with song writing, as it could give him new ideas to write about or new perspectives to look at. Matching his Ascendant too, I think people in your life who may not necessarily know Chan as well as you, like family members or friends, would think he is the perfect match for you.

Moon in Capricorn in the 5th house:

You may have trouble expressing emotions as a Moon in Cap. It’s not necessarily that you don’t want to, but you may not know how to accurately describe them to another, feel like others may not understand you, or don’t want to burden onto other people. It’s possible that you rationalize that everyone else is already going through things, so you don’t want to burden others by mentioning your own struggles.

The 5th house rules the creativity you express, relationships, and children. The way that I interpret this playing into your Moon in Cap is through valuing and feeling like you need to put hard work into creative outlets and into relationships. It’s likely that you can do this through a realistic approach.

Your Moon sign tends to be less expressive, meaning emotional expression can be dulled. This is true for Chan as well, but you come to that conclusion from different perspectives. I think this could be a real point of strain in your relationship and you will both have to work hard to understand the others’ point of view.

Mercury in Gemini in the 10th house (MC):

I touched on this before, but your Mercury (planetary ruler of intellect and communication) is in Gemini (sign ruler of intellect and communication) is in the 10th house (professional career and advancement). Because of this, I really stress the importance of how well you are able to deliver information. You are able to tie in a lot of topics and answer a wide variety of questions as well. You are most likely a greattttt communicator when the conversation is one you are interested in.

Chan’s Mercury is in Libra, which is a good matchup for this sign. I do think you would communicate well with each other on a daily level. Still, just make sure to work on incorporating that emotional aspect as well.

Venus in Taurus in the 8th house:

Venus (love and beauty) is actually ruled by Taurus (also a sign of love, beauty and romantic relationships), AND is in the 8th house which rules sex and taboos! This is a pretty intense placement and means that, as a lover, you are totally in tune with your partner. Sexually, you and Chan should get along well. Scorpio (his Venus) is the ruler of the 8th hosue as well, so it is super intertwined!

Mars in Sagittarius in the 4th house:

Not gonna lie, I think this will be the BIGGEST struggle for you and Chan. I’ve already mentioned having trouble fully expressing emotions with one another and keeping them pent up. You and Chan both have Mars in Sag, meaning that you BOTH bottle up emotions and then explode once it reaches your breaking point. I could see fights getting verrrry ugly between you two. It is also in the 4th house, which is the ruler of the home. I think these fights could really upset your home life and structure. You will have to be careful to channel your rational Virgo/Gemini energy and Chan’s flexible Libra energy to fully reconcile after fights.

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Thanks for asking!

2. Go to your AO3 “Works” page, to the sidebar with all the filters, and click the drop-down arrow for “Additional Tags.” What are your top 3-5 most used tags? Do you think they accurately represent your writing habits?

Pre-Star Wars: The Empire Strikes Back

Hurt/Comfort

POV Leia Organa

Humor

Angst

This made me laugh out loud because, yes, in a nutshell, this is it. This is what I write. I actually just last week was thinking that I've written very few non-Leia-POV things recently, but I dropped a one-shot for The Year of the OTP's August prompt and a vignette for one of the Han and Leia Celebration prompts that are both from Han's POV, so I guess I'm working him back in there.

And I am forever wondering if I write too much hurt/comfort and angst. Balancing that is difficult because I genuinely like emotionally charged media that, while it might have a hopeful ending, can still be kind of a bummer. But I don't want to bum people out all the time. I do try for a range. But I know my tendencies.

And only like half of the stories I've written are pre-ESB...but, admittedly, that includes two multichapters, one of which just hit like 98K words, so I guess it's fair to say that the majority of the words I've written are most definitely in that pre-ESB time period.

3. What are some tropes or details that you think are very characteristic of your fics?

I feel like I sort of covered my most-used tropes above tbh, but overall, I love writing friendship moments and good, bantery dialogue, and I think that almost always ends up in my fics unless they are stylistically intended to be very, very introspective. I like when characters enjoy being around one another. It drives me a little batty when there are media depictions of alleged friendships or romances, but the people are really more there for the vague idea of friendship or romance (like, I mean, Friends is such a mean-spirited show in so many ways...nobody on that show actually seems to like one another. Or, as much as I love Twlight discourse and the movies are bizarre comfort watches for me, Bella and Edward have no reason to be in love with each other. There are loads of other examples; Twilight is the just the most obvious one that comes to mind for me). So, yeah, I want people to actually want to be around each other in my fics and I think I include that pretty consistently.

36. Do you visualize what you read/write?

Oh, yes, for sure. Though there are times when writing when I can visualize exactly the expression or gesture someone is making in my mind and I have no idea how to describe it with words. That's always fun.

Thank you for the questions!

questions for fic writers

I’ve been trying to send an ask but the app kept crashing for some reason so I hope it’s not too late 😔

I have two questions!

What are your Top 5 60s movies?

Should I rewatch Bad Samaritan right now?

Never too late!

Ohh, that's hard. I think most of my favorite vintage films are from the '40s and '50s, actually; most of my favorites from the '60s are Steve McQueen films lol! So they may not be everyone's cup of tea.

1. Nevada Smith (1966) — Putting aside the fact that 36 year old McQueen was WAY physically miscast to play the 16 year old son of a white man and Kiowa woman... I do have a soft spot for this film despite some of its blatant attempt to cash in on a few then-hot stars. The plot centers around Max going on a revenge quest across the US for the murder of his parents and plays out a little like a coming of age film. McQueen, despite not looking the part, miraculously plays a very convincing 16 year old in terms of speech and mannerism, and that alone makes this one of his better films imo. The plot and pacing are pretty solid, too, and overall it's just a nice western so long as you can suspend your disbelief and pretend that, yes, this almost 40 year old IS a troubled child lmao

2. The Great Escape (1962) — Initially watched for McQueen, but stayed for the great ensemble cast and heartbreak. This one is pretty famous but in case you're not familiar, it's a World War II film centered around a group of primarily British soldiers being held in a German POW camp and their plans to escape. It's very loosely inspired by several escape attempts in many POW camps at the time, but especially the mass escape of 76 airmen that occurred at Stalag Luft III, a camp that had previously boasted being escape proof. In terms of vintage war films, this one is iconic. Suspenseful, heartbreaking, and still entertaining on the rewatch, I definitely recommend this one if historical fiction is your thing.

3. Baby the Rain Must Fall (1965)— I swear I'm trying to think of other films starring a different actor, but he's one of my favorites so. :x Anyway! This one, IIRC, was originally a stage play that was then adapted into a film. It's a tragic drama set in Texas about a mother and child who travel to another town to meet the father who has just been paroled from prison. It follows his screw ups and struggle to become a better man, and how it affects his family. Frankly, this one isn't as technically good in many aspects, but it grew on me as a character study and social commentary that I think was unusual for the '60s. It chooses to shine a light on the long-lasting affects of trauma and the ugly side of your quaint, God-fearing small town who did nothing to protect a blatantly abused child out of "politeness" and yet snubbed their noses at the struggles of the deeply troubled man that abuse produced. The acting is pretty good too, and knowing some of McQueen's own childhood, his imo very accurate portrayal of Henry is a gutpunch of emotion.

4. What Ever Happened to Baby Jane? (1962) — Starring Bette Davis and Joan Crawford who fortunately, somehow, managed to get through shooting this film without murdering each other, What Ever Happened to Baby Jane is a fantastic horror-thriller. I honestly think it is probably best going into this one blind if you've never heard anything about it. I did, and I think it was much, much creepier and suspenseful for it.

5. Psycho (1960) — This one is so famous that I don't think I need to talk about it haha! I just adore Norman Bates. I know he's killed people but I love him, okay.

Runner ups would be The Nanny (1965), another great little horror-thriller starring Bette Davis, and The Magnificent Seven (1960), a western starring a fantastic ensemble cast including Yul Brynner and, unsurprising, Steve McQueen.

Also wanna recommend the soundtracks for Bullitt (1968) and The Thomas Crown Affair (also 1968); the films are a bit boring but oh man! That music!

And yes. Yes, you should watch Bad Samaritan again. Every hour is Bad Samaritan hour.

underworks full tank binder review (photos tba)

i actually dont have this binder on hand currently, so i cant show you guys before and after photos like with my gc2b binder review. however, i can assure you this review is accurate regardless. once i get it back, i will update this post with photos.

i was a size L in this brand according to their sizing chart, and it fits me well. putting it on was fairly easy, although the first time i wore it i was a bit afraid of ripping it. the instructions say to pull this over your hips to get it on, but i have pretty big hips / thighs so it was a bit difficult. was still able to get it on fine, and have been able to get it on since then with little issue.

one thing i regret it getting a full tank vs their tri top binder. it kind of “shapes” your stomach and i dont really like how that feels - im notorious for never being able to wear any shirts that arent oversized on me due to sensory issues, and if i wore this thing on a more regular basis i could definitely see it causing issues for that reason. not the fault of the binder, since its working as intended and as they laid out in the product description, but i wanted to bring it up in case anyone else is similarly sensitive to clothing and was considering this binder.

the fabric is also scratchy. it wasnt too uncomfortable once i put it on, but there is a definite difference when compared to my gc2b binder. the fabric is quite stiff and the stiffness goes all the way down the binder, not just on your chest. one issue i had was accidentally taking this off too quickly and scraping the fabric over my nipples which REALLY hurt but thankfully didnt injure me. if you pay attention while putting this on and taking it off, youll be fine.

the actual binding quality was good, and was similar to my gc2b binder. i feel like it pushed by chest up a bit more than the gc2b binder but i didnt really notice any differences once i put a shirt on. i did notice myself getting out of breath a bit easier in this one, and it seemed more constricting than my gc2b binder even though it looked to bind about the same.

overall, would i recommend this binder? probably yes, mostly because of its price. this binder was $33 and its the cheapest binder ive ever seen from online sellers, and even cheaper than some binding alternatives like compression tops / bras. even though this was less comfortable than my gc2b binder (and if you value comfort id recommend the gc2b binder over this one), it wasnt painful to wear by any means and is a good value. its also not falling apart like my gc2b binder is.

(a side note: ive seen some comments from people who claim this binder is dangerous and more likely to injure its wearer than other brands. while i personally have never been hurt by this binder, i also do NOT wear a binder anywhere close to a daily basis (2-3 times a month id bet) so if youre concerned about this, id seek the opinion of people who wear binders more often)

(another side note: im not trans (butch lesbian), but i tagged the post as such so this review would reach people most likely to buy and wear binders so it’s as helpful as possible for anyone trying to find good binder brands. just wanted to clear things up in case anyone was wondering, don’t want to claim stake within a community im not technically apart of)

Next up on the list is ‘SKZ2021′, which is another compilation album. It look like it contains the OT8 versions of the rest of the songs that didn’t go on the last one, as well as the Mixtape songs with their official names, and the Korean version of their Japanese single, ‘Scars’. 14 songs in total, but I already talked about Hoodie Season,so it won’t be on here. Let’s see how long this one gets.

Okay, once again, I have to break it up into 2 parts. Not only is this already long enough, but I’m going to include the few songs that they didn’t redo in the 2nd part. This one includes - the first 3 Mixtape songs (Placebo, Behind the Light, For You); Scars, N/S, 0325, Awaken, Rock, 3rd Eye.

Personal Favorites (or songs that I could listen to over and over again on my playlist)

Scars - I was debating, but then Changbin does this line (and I’m not sure how 100% accurate the translation is since lyrics videos on youtube aren’t always 100%), but it goes like ‘All these wounds, scars, these are my tattoos’ and my guy?? That line resonated with me on a very deep level. And then his rap is immediately followed by Hyunjin, a personal favorite of mine? Overall, one of their actual best songs. It’s emotional, so normally, I’d want to put it lower, but just can’t. I love it.

Awaken - This is so different from their usual stuff, wow. I don’t think I would want a whole album like this, but I’m glad a song like this exists. It’s such an interesting idea, definitely probably one of their most ‘rock-heavy’ songs. Changbin rapping in a song like this is so good, honestly. Another standout would be Lee Know. Honestly, they all do fantastic.

Rock - This is one of their best songs, what the actual fuck. I’ve never seen it recommended, but goddamn. This is so good. And it’s one of their earlier songs?? Fuck. The very beginning almost threw me off, I was like, eh, maybe not. But then the song officially starts and I was blown away.

0325 - I was already feeling this song from the beginning, but then Hyunjin’s line (again, not 100% how accurate the translation is) ‘From a lump of soil with nothing, a beautiful flower bloomed’, um, that’s beautiful. They honestly all shine in this song, it’s fantastic. It’s another song about them, specifically, and I love it. I love all the talk about being together until the end and how they are no more lonely times. Also, that it’s obviously a song for Stay too, these boys love their songs to the fans.

For You (Mixtape #3) - Another Hyunjin line, ‘Flowers too have the process, not the moment in bloom, that’s more beautiful’. So good. Also, hey, Han’s verse made me cry. And Lee Know’s line ‘To make flowers bloom, they have to go through winter’...HELLO. There are references to this being written when they were pretty young (of course, it’s a mixtape song), so normally, that would put this song lower. But, its such a beautiful song, I couldn’t. OH And Bang Chan’s ‘Blessings wait for you’ lines? Stunning.

Songs that aren’t quite at the top for me, but are still amazing!

3rd Eye - This song is trippy as hell. It’s definitely one of their more experimental songs, but it’s still an enjoyable listen. Not sure if I love it as much as their other more experimental stuff, but it’s still a really great song. I actually think this song could probably move up into my favorites over time, it feels like a song that has to grow on me.

Placebo (Mixtape #1) - I really enjoyed the beat with this one. I also really liked the part with Felix’s rap that goes into Lee Know singing and then into Changbin’s rap. Something about them all having very distinct voices and styles makes it stand out. Also, Jeongin stood out in this one for me. I don’t have a ton to say about it, it’s great.

Songs that probably won’t get a lot of play on my playlist, but are still fantastic because these boys are very talented!

Behind the Light (Mixtape #2) - Beautiful song, stunning, honestly. But I just know that I won’t be listening to this one often. I love the line that mentions how even darkness can exist when there’s light, that was beautiful. I love that this is kind of like a song about them. Someone in the comments of the video I was watching said they could see this song being sung when they disband, which...no one needs that visual, thanks. But they’re right.

N/S - I wanted to like this song a lot more, but I just don’t. I appreciate what they’re doing, I get it. It’s more of a joke song and it’s kind of experimental, so it’s always going to be a divisive song. And there are parts I do like, for instance, Felix and Changbin’s back and forth. That was cool. It’s just not my cup of tea. They still sound amazing, and I hope they keep experimenting with weird stuff like this.