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biggest-gaudiest-patronuses · 8 months

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going through my old journals as part of therapy homework and i'm reading a section written in the emotional wreckage of a full-on breakdown when i get hit with this line:

There is never a satisfying answer to ‘Why didn’t they love me?’

like wow babe. good fucking point

#like you were on the ground biting the carpet and dry sobbing while you wrote that and still. good fucking point #not a shitpost #cptsd #and it's true. there's never a satisfying answer #the truth is i know why i wasn't loved #i analyzed my parent's traumas and abuse to death. i understand why i alienated and was alienated from my siblings #i know why my mom was too overwhelmed to be capable of nurturing #i know why my dad vanished into addiction and avoidance #the details of our cycles of trauma and cptsd and family history i have a phd in all of it #i understood perfectly. i spent years studying and now i knew the answer #and guess what? IT WAS NOT SATISFYING!!!#because they still didn't love me! and i still couldn't change that!#it was still a completely unsatisfying state of affairs!#so like. when the people who are supposed to love you...don't.#when the people who are supposed to take care of you...fail to #you can look for answers and reasons and explanations #but that's not actually going to FIX your situation.#and it's probably not within your ability TO fix the situation. (and definitely not your job)#because you don't need answers--you need a new situation #*inserts Just Walk Out. You Can Leave!!! (Running Skeleton) Meme*#and yes. walking out isn't always possible.#but for you i hope it will be one day soon. and i hope you build the courage to take that leap.#stepping away from the people who failed to love you...it feels like being untethered but also like being lighter than air #new and scary. immensely relieving. the future opens up. empty but empty like a canvas. blindingly bright until your eyes adjust #like climbing out of a pit you called home and for the first time realizing how bright the light of day can truly be #when you aren't just getting glimpses from the bottom of a hole

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mwagneto · 5 months

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turn left is literally the most insane episode ever written. yeah the main character would kill himself if he didn't meet his best friend and the UK government is like 2 bad days away from putting all non-english people into labour camps. also all your favourite characters died trying to do what little they could. wouldn't that be crazy? anyway time for the daleks again

#i always spend like 90% of the runtime sobbing like someone I know just died it's crazy #episode of all time the ffhfjffjff. the. good god #the scene where rocco salutes wilf has literally never left me it's been bouncing around my head since i #first watched it when i was literally like 10 #godddddjdjdndnddf. yknow. yknow. you get it. you understand #donnaaaa😐😐😐 please for the love of god pleeease #dw lb #doctor who #turn left #10th doctor

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kagoutiss · 2 months

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pelican town, ‘72

#stardew valley #stardew valley spoilers #sdv #sdv spoilers #grandpa #mister qi #mr. qi #idk how dates work in stardew universe im just bullshittin #i love qi’s huge fucking eyebrows you dont notice them at first but theyre there #(gives our collective grandpa a ponytail) i think he had one. whatever #’why isnt mister qi blue’ my hc is he is blue from long-term iridium supplementation #and was originally just a regular person #but also it’s nice to see ur fav be like a normal human color #if u read tag essays tho consider this:#qi discovers secret to immortality (consuming iridium in a specific manner)#wants to share discovery with his farmer (player’s grandpa) and in that way. they will have all the time in the world to build #a perfect farming/business empire whose legacy will last forever and ever and theyll be 2gether forever #but it turns out. like a lot of normal people would. his farmer does not want to live forever #and obv he doesn’t #in an attempt to try not to ever lose the thing that means more to him than anything else in the world. qi inadvertantly ensures he will #because his farmer is dead. and he’s going to live forever #but. it’s kind of ok. because he has infinite money and was able to figure out how to talk to his dead bf #and now YOU help them fulfill their joint goal of making the farm’s legacy last forever #smile. heart #sobbing

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dizzybizz · 4 months

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"this is regrettably the best kiss of your life, you understand?"

#that “you understand?” kills me everytime...#i love how high condis voice got during this bit its so fkn funny DHASHGFSFGHASFhg #hi yes have the inevitable ep21 crit kiss piece except i watched ep53 today and am so 😀 im so 😀 damn i m so 😀#i love eps where they just go through so many different gimmick rooms its so fun its so fun when its not so painful 😀#happy valentines too ig #just roll with it #jrwi riptide #gillion tidestrider #jrwi chip #jay ferin #jrwi fish and chips #my art #i had a bit of a meltdown over gill through uhm... 1-3am today and i just hm #sorry to everyone in the mayors QAC uhm im not really sorry but like sorry if you could hear every msg ping uhm yeah #it was like hours of me sobbing to myself in the interests channel and it was really good for my mental health ngl like its really therapeu #-tic to just scream abt a blorbo all night #and i ended up dreaming abt infodumping to one of my brothers friends of all ppl n i got so intense abt how much i love marshall john n my #brother came into the room and dragged his friend out 😭😭😭 i just wanted to ramble abt the himbo pls.....#my walls of tags are so consistent... only consistent thing abt this fkn blog smh.

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tatakaeeren · 7 months

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Levi's Last Salute

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egophiliac · 1 year

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his magic is so PINK and FLUFFY and PRETTY! I love it!

I'm ready to process the Diasomnias now, buckle up

#art #unique magic posters #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland spoilers #twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers #twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers #meanwhile at the super awesome kalim dream base #anyway I KNEW IT! I KNEW HE WAS A DREAMWALKER!#VALIDATION #love me a unique magic that is only really useful in one extremely specific and exceedingly unlikely situation #sure was lucky that silver was on the island huh!#okay everybody i am about to be even more embarrassing than usual over anime characters. hold on.#but i am ALL OVER silver right now. just really really enjoying him!#i love that his reaction to all of this is anger. i love that his reaction to malleus is basically 'how DARE you'#my boy is full of righteous fury and he is going to make it everyone else's problem #his deeply-ingrained respect for mal and lilia is such a big part of his character that it's just.#always such a nice character moment when that breaks!#like when he yelled at lilia during endless halloween night! granted it was lower stakes then but. still.#it'sgoodstorytelling.jpg #meanwhile sebek is over in a corner sobbing and going 'what is HAPPENING' which is its own brand of deliciousness #god. this game really does just slam its fists down onto all of my personal 'I LIKE THIS' buttons.#and now they give me silver's beautiful pink fluffy cloud dream palace. find me a chef to kiss because MWAH #i can't believe they cut it off RIGHT before we were about to learn his backstory. i mean i absolutely can. but you know what i mean.#i have to know the meaning of the shitty acorn bracelet. twst. twst please.

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grey-viridian · 24 days

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Future father-son hugs!

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bevirspnsblmnt · 8 months

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HUG RELAY!!!

#bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 astarion #bg3 shadowheart #bg3 wyll #bg3 karlach #bg3 gale #bg3 lae'zel #bg3 halsin #bg3 jaheira #bg3 minsc #I got so much serotonin drawing this you have no idea #I just love all of them so much sobs #I'm gonna do NPCs next bc I need to hug my teifs peeps and kids #also peepaw bones #disegna e bevi #khael tav #otp: warding bond #oh worm?

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aquapede · 3 months

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and in a thousand different lifetimes, your voice whispers:

"I love you, I love you, I love you."

#slay the princess #stp fanart #stp princess #the long quiet #the shifting mound #scribbles #the idea of seeing the fabric of existence and seeing that in all of it you are never alone and that you are always loved?#that you were made to bring about suffering but that you are cared for anyway?#well i would start sobbing

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livelovecaliforniadreams · 10 months

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#Name A Better Childhood Friends To Lovers Glow Up I'll Wait

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superfruitland · 6 months

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and here we are. end of the flashback, end of the collab! again, thank you to my amazing friends for participating, everyone did an amazing job 🤍

please go show them some love~

page 5 - @sad-leon

page 6 - @intotheelliwoods

pages 7, 8, ...uhh i lost count <3 - @vangh17a

and please, check out the previous part for the first half of the collab and the rest of my super cool and amazing friends that drew for this collab!!

#rottmnt #rise of the tmnt #rottmnt leonardo #rottmnt donatello #live life au #*sobs* i love all these pages so much #i owe you all a drawing fr 🤍🤍#every single one of my friends are so talented!!!!!!!!!!#hey special thanks to vane for THIS FUCKING BEHEMOTH /pos #I THINK I OWE YOU MY LIFE #HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO GO BACK TO DRAWING MY COMIC FROM THAT #you come into MY COLLAB #one up MY COMIC #REFUSE to elaborate #and LEAVE?????#rude /aff #tw death #tw blood

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notsad · 9 days

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Driftcells animatic :)

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dienamights · 6 months

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If you think anything will sour my mood after seeing me and my MAN, you’re deadass WRONG!!!!

Thank you miggi @miggiisdumb you made me so ridiculously incredibly happy ilysm muah

#im obsessed #literally have been having one of the worst weeks of the year and #all i do to feel better is look at it #HOW CAN I NOT!!!????#LOOK AT US #HES SO !!!! >:C #but so !!!! >\\\\\\>#YOUKNOW????#IM SO SICKINGLY IN LOVE #AND WERE SOCUTE #I WANNA EAT HIM UP #eat US UP #grinding my teeth so loudly #wailing sobbing #thank you sm miggi bby ilysm i kiss u delicately

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sporeclan · 5 months

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All grown up <3

#clangen #clan generator #warriors oc #warrior cats #sporeclan #only two of them got to get their names :((((((((#you all have no idea how much i wanted to instantly burst into tears when spottedfrost saw mousegrove doing her best. sobbing. wailing even #also i love you piperkit. she cant stop talking about snails ever to the detriment of her family's sleep schedule and i love her for it #sc moons #sc:mousegrove #sc:piperkit #sc:finchkit #sc:spottedpaw #sc:spottedfrost #sc:cliffpaw #sc:cliffthicket #sc:foxspeckle #sc:oakfox #sc:minklake #sc:fadedtuft #a little fun fact i looked through the files to see what mushroompaws name wouldve been and it was mushroomprance... so cute </3 #im keeping cinnamonpaw's name a secret for now in case he ever returns #edit: i forgot to add the ages and genders................ sigh.............. its what i get for drawing while tired and exhausted

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exy-shmexy · 8 months

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I commissioned the absolutely lovely @anthemisarts to draw King, Sir, Neil and Andrew from my fic Paw and Order and when I tell you I kept having to pick up my jaw from the floor whenever Sira sent me updates, I wish I was kidding because LOOK HOW INCREDIBLE THEY LOOK!!!

Thank you again my dear Sira for bringing these two to life so perfectly, I will never stop looking at them (especially Neil’s eyelashes, he is so pretty and foR WHAT???) thank you for being an angel whom I will cherish every single day I love youuu 🧡 GO WORK WITH HER EVERYONE

You can read my very silly cat café AU here

#you don’t understand the WHEEZE I had to fight when I saw the poster behind Andrew #it is SO FUNNY YOU GENIUS #I love them so much I’m actually sobbing #they are beautiful ;-;#andrew minyard #neil josten #aftg #all for the game #andreil #aftg art #aftg fic

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tenisperfection · 1 month

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7x04 being from Buck's perspective broke my brain because of the way we saw Eddie through Buck's eyes. Then I realized that Suspicion, where Eddie was shot, was from Eddie's perspective, and all of Surviviors was from Buck's perspective and I want to jump into the ocean.

#the implications......#we saw eddie's turmoil when carla brought up the follow your heart line #his agony over charlie's abuse #then the shooting and watching his best friend splattered with his blood #that split second where he realized who buck was to him and has been all along #the way he wanted to reach out and touch buck one last time #(do not think about eddie thinking about chris under any circumstances but if you do imagine eddie feeling relieved that buck will be there #and sorrow that he won't be there with chris and won't get to see him grow up and won't get to see buck #and then we have survivors right #we immediately jump to buck's perspective with him getting eddie into the ambulance and eddie asking if buck was hurt *sobs*#and the whole episode is mostly buck's side #but so is the will scene!!!!#because we obviously went nuts over the implications of it #but consider the tone of the scene--there's devotion yes #but most of the tone is that of disbelief #because buck can't believe eddie did this and eddie didn't tell him and eddie is telling him now #and eddie wants buck to carry on for christopher if eddie is gone #and buck absolutely would #but in his mind he can't fathom a world where he has to exist without eddie #and eddie is the one asking him to #hahahahah fuck you don't find it son you make it all over again #buck made this and buck chose this and buck has to live with it #i can't wait for these men to realize/bring to light all the love between them #911 abc #this unraveling on a saturday afternoon is brought to you by insanity

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