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kim-woonhak · 10 months

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My top songs (of the first half) of 2023 ✦ Boys Planet edition ✦

tagged by @lunetual @jikyu @leewonseo @lee-minhoe ty 💕

I've listened to over 300 new releases from over 100 different kpop artists this year so picking my top songs felt like an mnet-level survival show 😭 the irony that i never watched Boys Planet AND one of the songs is literally a Peak Time song is not lost on me ! 🙃 but i wanted to pick a trendy format so here we are 😈 anyways i included albums instead of songs that didn't make the cut since there's too many honorable mention songs that i have had on repeat this year 😭 but most of them are in these 22 albums (oo-li is on here twice and istj isn't out yet !)

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#tag game #song recs #flashing tw #*ambiv.gif #ok i didnt have to go so hard but it's the holidays so i had a free day hehe #im actually very proud of my coloring for some of these gifs especially the BSS one .. had to borrow some mvs for the b-sides without vids #anyways yall shouldve seen the spreadsheet i had to use to get to 12.... also the biggest tragedy was number 13 was skz topline :((((((#one thing about me is that even tho i love my noise music i also LOVE my ballads :') and clearly i love my boy groups 👹#i tried to limit to 1 per album & artist except i can't do that to woodz so he got an exception asdfsdfjj OO-LI IS TOO GOOD IT'S UNMATCHED #i have so many other faves..... nct dream best friend .. nine (onlyoneof) beyOnd .. kep1er lvly .. holland number boy .. newjeans omg ..#epex sunshower .. enhypen bills .. dkb more than 100 reasons .. cravity groovy .. boynextdoor one and only .. blitzers macarena ..#billlie eunoia .. bae173 gt .. atbo next to me .. agust d haegeum .. (g)i-dle queencard .. cupid fifty fifty .. golden child weekends ..#ive kitsch .. jinyoung cotton candy .. kim jaehwan lucky! .. lee chaeyeon knock .. mark golden hour .. lun8 wild heart .. nct djj perfume .#sf9 puzzle .. stayc teddy bear .. purple kiss sweet juice .. &team firework .. tripleS rising .. viviz pull up .. xg left & right ..#.......just to name a few slkjdflajfdjlf DO U SEE HOW HARD THIS WAS :'( i DIED !!!#OK BUT IF I DID MISS UR FAVE PLS SEND ME IT I WILL LISTEN

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majorproblems77 · 11 days

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:(

I really need a hug

Hold those you love close tonight. For me?

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makkie-is-screaming · 6 months

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#Okay so tw cuz im gonna rant about suicide #so back in July I planned on killing myself today #I told myself I needed to try n get better n if I couldn’t that was it #and I’ve tried I really have #and I’m obviously still struggling but not to the extent I was #like I’m depressed n my ed is getting worse #but I’m finally hanging out with D n she’s just so much fun to be around #im calling my bestie more and she sounds genuinely happy to hear from me #im doing a bit better with my parents to n im seeing my cousin more who I’ve missed so much #I have plans for break for the first time in years #im finally getting piercings #it’s crazy cuz even just 2 weeks ago I didn’t think Id be ok today #but I am like today isn’t gonna be another attempt I’m gonna make it #and that’s wild to me bc I was so bad over the summer I was constantly debating it that’s why I set the date #And I don’t think I’m fixed and there’s a big chance I’ll attempt at some point in the future knowing me #but right now I feel like I have a reason to try and I haven’t felt like that in a long time #okay I’m done now just wanted to say that #screaming #tw suicide #tw suicide mention #kinda

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youssefguedira · 2 months

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help it's 10 30 pm and i am craving. specifically jello

#neon has thoughts #food tw #if the us wasn't actively terrifying to me rn id miss it #i DO miss it i love it there. unfortunately i can't be comfortable there for a lot of reasons. but i was talking to my flatmate abt jello #and for some reason. its like dominoes. i found a vaguely shady looking american food website even #next time i'm in [REDACTED] im going to the american candy store

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craycraybluejay · 10 months

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*loudly caterwauling*

If I don't get to tuck him in good night for ONE MORE NIGHT I'm going to FUCKING KILL MYSELF

#personal #vent #vent post #personal vent #sui mention #tw suicidality #you dont understand #i need to give him a little kiss and call him my teeny tiny baby and tell him even when he's old i will still fight a bitch on his behalf #its a need #i didnt realize how much i leaned on my role as a protector parent therapist friend sibling doctor teacher until i had been without it for #over a week #a week was all it took and hey suddenly im suicidal about every little thing huh i wonder why that is #i feel so empty #my heart feels so hollow #never in a million years #did i think that a burden forced onto me would without my knowledge become the main reason i dont just die #never did i think that i could miss someone this much at all ever in my life #im gonna scream

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caffeinatedopossum · 2 years

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About your last post, being persistently exposed to trauma, residually as a child, is absolutely a fucked up thing whether or not anything directly happened to you. Whether or not others take it seriously that is absolutely valid trauma and I'm sorry and hope you feel better soon.

Thank you :(( I'm glad I'm not the only one who thinks it was damaging

#tw csa mention in these tags #i think i didnt realize it was traumatic because when stuff started to come out #it was allegations about my dad from one of my sisters #saying that he sa'd our sister and my dad immediately went to jail #but my mom was devastated and couldnt function. idk exactly what happened because its blurry (i was only 7 so yeah)#idk somehow our mom got him out of jail tho and i was told (VERY emphatically) that he wasnt actually guilty #my sisters were forced to testify #saying that they had lied essentially and it wasnt true #and thats what i was told too. i was told that it was a lie and it hadnt happened and i believed that #because i was 7. most children my age didnt even know what sex WAS let alone abuse #i also didnt really care because i didnt understand. i was just scared and i missed how my family used to be #but obviously it never went back to the way it was #my parents moved us really far away. out of state. and after that i was never allowed to stay home alone with my dad again #which was upsetting for me because i hated going most places (i would get sensory overload and i had bad anxiety already)#and i also didnt understand why my mom was so convinced someone would spread allegations again if they had no reason to #basically it was years and years of me slowly realizing what really happened #and it never fully sunk in... i think in a way im still that terrified 7 year old deep down. in denial because acceptance isnt acceptable #skfkgj sorry for the trauma dump it just helps to talk about specifics sometimes

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archivvve-xp · 1 year

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NO FUCKING WAY I’M SO CRAZY FOR YOUUU </3 BY REBZYYX ON THE JOHN DOE OFFICIAL PLAYLIST

#BEEN LISTENING TO THIS SONG FOR MONTHS CUZ IT’S SO ME N WHEN I SAW ITTTITITIITT #I don’t even use spotify but the instant i heard he has an official playlist on spotify I sprinted-#i mean i had a spotify acc from 2022 i think and i made a playlist there for a ship i liked atm #(i shipped them cuz it was for kin reasons. um cringe- JK JK)#anyways the ship was luc//drew from id//tity v #IM GONNA SCREAM THE LYRICS IN TAGS CUZ I LOVE THIS SONGNNGNGNGG #YOU’RE SO UPSET WITH ME BUT I’M SO OBSESSED WITH YOU I’M FUCKING CRAAAAZYYY I DON’T WANNA DAMAGE YOU BUT DON’T FUCKING TEST ME MY MENTAL’S #UNSTEAAADYYY GONNA KMS YEAH JUST LIKE REBZYYYYY…wait…i’m rebzy…where am i?….wtf is going on?…idk where i am… but…i’m so in love w u <3 #oh shit gotta tag that #tw sui implied #desperatelover.txt #edit: i actually made the playlist around December 2021. i miss that year it was fun and i had cool friends. sigh #i hate self sabotaging kids don’t self sabotage even if dumb bpd brain tells u to #f/o: john doe

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femstyles · 2 years

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#tw depression #going to ramble a little sorry in advance #im very emotional tonight thinking about myself 8 years ago #that girl was going through it and hardly anyone noticed #she missed out on a 'true' college experience #shut herself in her dorm #cried all the time #and was so so so lonely and depressed #im having crazy flashbacks to it tonight for some reason and it hurts to think of past me #im so glad i stuck through all that because i have so much now that gives me reason and i love myself finally #but it breaks my heart to remember that time #i didnt deserve that.#no one deserves that feeling #its shit 100%#this site and those boys are are huge reason im here #i was a nobody on this place and yet it was so important to me #im thankful tonight as much as i am sad #kylee rambles

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desyrel · 1 year

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how do you trick your fail body into eating so you can get nutrience even though u do not feel hungry at all

#ed tw #just in case watever #idk whats going on lately but i just do not want food #for NO reason like im not relapsing an ED im just not hungry #just thinking about food makes me feel full and nauseous #even food that is normally comforting to me? i just straight up do not feel hunger for anything #idk it reminds me of when i got out of the psych ward back in 2014. NO hunger i had to be coaxed into it for weeks #make it STAWP! I MISS FOOD!#txt

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viovio · 2 years

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ohhhh ok i get my problem now. i don't cry often at anything because I'm so emotional i can't talk honestly how i really feel around people i trust and what they deserve like my siblings and that's why I don't talk back to my parents when they treat them like shit because they never listen to me and tell me how I'd like if i took care of the house myself. and if i speak this out loud i get the overwhelming urge to cry

#ive never told anyone this but like lol i get that i can be unbearable to be around #when it comes down to it im rude at any inconvenience and i yell at my ate or kuya if they ask me whats wrong because again i hate #telling people that #i do need therapy btw. literally after my grandma wony speak to me i finally told my sister her physical symptoms of a clogged ear #isnt her being an attention seeking brat lije she says and she knows that but fuck #i couldnt just sit there while my oarents tell her that. its important that we know we're not alone #i wanna be able to clean everyday and buy shit on my own like idk responsibly because i want it to be just me ate and kuya #no parents. no grandma i know this now #its also not enough that i know my problems as a person i need to make the effort to change #fucking. but when my mom tells me im selfish. that im rude. it for the fucking wrong reasons #its when i do anything that says i know i dont deserve this. its always that #but yknow to them its always be grateful we dont beat you and emotionally berate you so much #its not a fucking reach for me to say you emotionally abused me and its definitely #not me making shit up YOU ABUSE MY KUYA EVERYDAY YOU FUCKING JACKASSES YOURE KILLING ATE BECAUSE YOU TELL HER HER PROBLEM #IS BEING FAT AND PUT HER ON THIS FUCKED DIET AND NOW YOU WONDER WHY HER HAIRS FALLING OUT AND WHY HER TONGUES DRY #AND WHY HER EARS FEEL CLOGGED and you look at me with my hair similarly falling out because i miss meals a lot #and donf make a damn connection. my moms own childhood full of abuse aside i cant fucking stand this #id say go ahead and kill yourself slowly just dont bring us into it but i cant be that shitty #i dont wanna be fucking responsible for my mom and grandmas problems. my ate doesnt wanna. my brother doesnt wanna #vent tw #abuse tw

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faerociousbeast · 2 years

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highschool is wild i havent talked to anyone at all yet in an effort to just avoid.. everything i guess and instead of being ignored like i wanted, now i have a REPUTATION of being cold or whatever. like why. what for. dont you people have better things to be thinking about where did this come from

#why are you perceiving me.... wtf............#not over the collective genius nickname for me either #like in elementary they always did single me out bc i was the only gifted kid in the school and the teachers wouldnt stop #REMINDING everyone of that for some reason #but in highschool it literally doesnt matter and its not like ive ever. shown my grades off i dont even talk in class #what is the difference between me and everyone else whos on their phone all the time. i literally sit in the back every class #and miss so many classes #and am half asleep always #what do you MEAN genius. my ass. none of you people even know me #i cant be giving off some sort of unapproachable smart guy aura to every single person in the school #..can i #but yeah why that word specifically. i have done NOTHING to make them think this #everything i csn think of applies to 50 other people too #!!!! im confused as fuck like actually!!!!! why does everyone think that?#tw vent #not exactly but its not like i can ASK.

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citrusinicake · 2 years

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tfw youre feeling too financially insecure to sleep

#tw vent #mine.txt #god i need a job #but how tf do you even get a job in the ph #at least not without graduating first #i hate it here fr #i wanna trigger my insomnia so bad #yknow so i cn make contemt and increase my chances of doing commission work #ecen if just slightly #but i dont think i can handle that sort of thing anymore #i missed my opportunity i shoulda done this sooner #im in my 20s and my back hurts and i need to sleep early #life is hell fr #add in the fact that due to Reasons im convinced my parents will kill me sooner or later #i wanna move so bad but i dont even have a bank account agfhjfkgkf i hate it here

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silverislander · 6 days

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my graduation ceremony is at the end of the month and istg if i still don't have a job/any plan by then i'm going to be unreasonably upset