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ryekki · 1 year

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compliments from others always seemed fake and ungenuine, so I really don't believe it. but for once, I felt pretty—because they came from those lips of yours.

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ryekki · 1 year

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I loved you.

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ryekki · 1 year

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why is it so hard to be loved?

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ryekki · 1 year

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love me if you dare and if you succeed, I shall never let you go.

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ryekki · 1 year

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"You can't force the stars to align when they've already died."

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ryekki · 1 year

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"Speak—say something," they say.

In my mind, i say "what? uhm, what do I say? what should I say?"

And that's when I realize I'm struggling just to say a word, but why?

Why does everyone communicate with others so effortlessly? How do they do it casually? Why don't they stutter? How do they not tremble?

Why... I find my self confused and lost in the thought.

Why do I feel obligated to speak my mind out? Why do I feel like I have to speak, that I should speak?

Why can't I just stay silent like I always do? Why do their attention instatly shift onto me?

Why should they know what goes on my mind? Why can't I remain quiet?

Why do I have to be heard?

I am okay with being silent, I am okay just to listen.

I am okay with me not being a center of attention, I am okay to not speak at all

...or was I?

"Oh."

A moment of silence has come for me and I can feel my chest being dragged down by a heavy feeling within me.

Maybe, I wasn't really okay with it. I just got the hang of it and eventually thought it was okay not to be heard.

Being silenced whenever I tried to speak and not being listened to when I speak a lot, these things happened even since I was a child.

Now, someone actually wants to hear something from me but I'm not used to it anymore.

Someone actually wants to hear everything I have to say but whenever I do, I feel like a burden.

It feels too much, I feel like I'm annoying and irritating.

Whenever I speak my mind out to someone, even the ones I trust the most, I instantly regret it.

"I did it again."

Telling someone even just a small part of my mind makes me feel like I showed everything, I feel like I've shown them too much of me.

So maybe it was okay for me to remain silent, but it was not I actually wanted.

I eventually adjusted to my environment and got used to being ignored that I am not used to being heard.

But, was it my fault? No. It was never and never will be mine.

Maybe speaking is exhausting and feels too much for me now but I deserve to be heard.

I deserve to be heard for the things I speak out, for the thoughts I have to say, and for the stories I have to tell.

To be surrounded with people who will not make me feel like it's a burden to say something, I will treasure them.

I am enough, no matter how much or how little the words and sounds that come out of my mouth.

I deserve to be heard. Right, I deserve to be heard.

- ryekki

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ryekki · 1 year

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As we enter a new year, I just want to tell you that I'm proud of you. Look how far you've come from when you thought you couldn't do it anymore, you've made it this far and it makes me proud. This year's been tough for all of us, hasn't it? We smiled a lot, laughed a lot, and cried a lot. We encountered multiple distressing endings and encouraging beginnings. We've been through a lot of ups and downs, and we still made it here today. This year sure wasn't easy for us but it still made us a better somehow. We are not who we were from when this year just began, we are a lot different from before. We changed and change isn't always a bad thing, especially if it's for the better of us. Thanks to all the people I met this year. Those who chose to leave and also those who stayed, I treasure the lessons and experiences you've given me. You all helped me be the person I am today. I hope you take care of yourself more than you did this year. We cannot always please and satisfy everyone's expectations of us so might as well do whatever we want and be whoever we want to be. Surround yourselves with people who support, love, and cherish us for who we are and not just for what we give them. I hope this coming year would be better for you, for all of us. May your pillows and blanket be dry and warm for you every night, and not soaked in your tears. May your chest feel light and not as heavy as it did before. May your heart be filled with love, joy, and solace. May the grudges and anger you hold leave you and just be given a peace of mind. Take this new beginning as an opportunity to take care of yourself even more because it isn't selfishness, it's self-care and we all deserve it. You are loved, you are enough, you are valid, you are appreciated. You are worthy and deserving of great things this world can offer, don't even question it. I am proud of you. Let go of things that put you down and don't benefit you positively. We all deserve to move forward and be free of negative thoughts. I hope this new year's a refreshment for our minds and our souls, let's live our lives long and to our fullest. Happy new year, everyone!

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ryekki · 1 year

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trapped. unable to escape. you are..

everywhere.

we, people with friends and families, get to talk about how to cut someone off our lives.

how easy it is to just stay away, be away, block/unfriend that someone if they aren't healthy for our well-being.

but the difficulty you experience after what's said and done, isn't talked much and well enough.

trapped.

how are you trapped by your own actions?

why is it that instead of freedom, you are held captive?

captivated by those own hands who chose to let go—why?

trapped in those unknown emotions... w-what emotions?

lost, sorrow, emptiness, confusion, longing, anger, self-hatred, guilt ???

ahh ... guilt.

you are guilty for letting go.

you are guilty for letting go—perhaps, your mind says "for giving up" on that person.

"you should've been more understanding,"

"you were too sensitive,"

"they never left you but you did,"

"you shouldn't have done that,"

"you were too cruel."

poor you. trapped in your own emotions by your own actions. captive by your will of freedom.

unable to escape.

forget everything and move on. distract yourself and be happy. just go with the flow.

you could just get over it, right?

WRONG.

you own your mind but why can't you OWN it?

control it. control it. control it.

"silly, you can't."

you did that, live with it.

but it sure will pass like other memories of yours you've kept.

everything passes, let it pass.

the chaos you made—no, the chaos that has been made in your mind, it will pass someday.

you cannot escape from it. face it. it will be over soon.

you are everywhere.

it's been a long time so why are you still not over it?

what else is keeping you from moving on?

"you are everywhere."

from the things I see, the voices I hear, to the pictures I still keep—you are everywhere.

it's funny how you've tried so hard to keep your mind off of it but destiny has some silly tricks to play with you.

"you seem to get your mind off of them... haha! let me slap this on your face."

and that's where it hits you.

once again, you unintentionally remember that person.

that's just how it goes.

you choose to do something for you own, maybe for the both of your benefits, but it will always come back to you.

it will hit you, making you feel like you're still doing something wrong.

like a virus spreading everywhere, making you think like you'll never be able to escape from it.

but was it your fault? was your feelings invalid? are you so wrong for cutting them off your life?

the answer is... no.

it's not so wrong for you to do something if you only wanted peace of mind.

you did it out of self-care for your well-being, and self-care is never a wrong thing to do.

maybe, just maybe, you ended things incorrectly.

you've hurt them. you've said things you don't actually mean. you've made them feel as though they were someone they were not. you've made them feel bad about themselves, and so did they.

but is there really a way to end things correctly? appropriately? nonetheless, you both would still have gotten hurt in the end.

you may be wrong but you can learn from that.

don't mind it too much. you did what you think is best for the both of you.

you tried.

but I won't deny, it's weird isn't it?

how you both know each other but consider yourselves strangers, and how you're both strangers who share some treasurable memories.

- ryekki