Cutiee 🥹💜

THAT FEELING WHEN YOU FINALLY GOT THE CHANCE AGAIN TO TALK WITH THE PERSON WHOM YOU WANNA SPEND THE REST OF YOUR LIFE WITH IS A FREAKIN’ BLESSING‼️🌸🥹✨♥️ I’VE NEVER BEEN THIS LIGHT AND HAPPY FOR SO LONG WTF

Dear Diary,

Kaninang hapon, napaisip ako “What really is my biggest regret?”. Ngayon alam ko na. My biggest regret is when i pushed away everyone that i love when i was lonely. Noon, sobra akong naging doubtful sa sarili ko to the point na sa dami kong iniindang baggages, naisip ko before na i-isolate nalang yung sarili ko sa iba and to completely cut myself out from the people. Given that i care for them so much, i thought that it was the best thing to do since ayaw ko silang madamay sa mga problema ko, na ayaw kong maging “distraction” while they’re working hard for their own goals or priorities din in life. I thought that what I’m doing was right, pero in the end, narealize ko na nasaktan ko lang sila. Na dapat pala, hindi ako natakot maging vulnerable in-front of them, na i should have shared my feelings or thoughts with them instead of pushing them away. During that time, natakot ako dahil pano kung nakakagulo lang ako or pano kung makasagabal pa ako sakanila dahil alam ko na they have their silent battles in life rin pero nagkamali ako. I just ended up missing them. Sobrang laking pagsisisi yun sa part ko, and kung bibigyan ako ng chansa na ulitin ang panahon, hinding-hindi ko na yun gagawin. Pero actually, may gusto lang akong tukuyin na isang tao dito. Yes, i pushed “HIM” away rin before.

Gusto ko lang sabihin na, sorry sa lahat ng mga ginawa ko. Sorry dahil instead of talking things with you, na-push away kita because i thought it was for your own good, na hindi kita madamay sa mga baggage or problems na meron ako. Pero gusto ko lang malaman mo na everything that i did ay para sa ikakabuti mo at kung ano ang sa tingin kong ikabubuti mo. Kasi mahal na mahal kita, at sorry na nagkamali ako. Gusto ko lang linawin na never akong nagkaroon ng sama ng loob sayo. Never akong nagduda sa pagmamahal mo noon sakin. Never ko rin ginustong mapalayo sayo. Lagi mong tatandaan, na sobrang saya ko sa bawat achievements na nakakamtan mo sa studies, sa bawat progress mo sa sarili mo, at sa bawat hardwork na binibigay mo para maabot ang mga pangarap mo, ngayon palang sobrang proud na ako sayo grabe. Ang galing galing mo, kaya never doubt yourself kasi kahit noon, alam ko naman kung gaano ka kahusay sa bawat bagay na passionate ka. Isa ka sa pinaka ambitious, driven, at genuine na taong nakilala ko. Kaya nga kita minahal, kasi everytime na kapiling kita, napaka-gaan at “natural” ng closeness na meron tayo. Pag kausap kita, kaya kong sabihin lahat dahil alam kong safe ako. Kaya kong ibaba ang maskara ko, at kahit anumang bagay ang pag-usapan natin, nagkakaintindihan parin tayo. Nakaka-amaze lang kasi, kahit napakarami nating differences in terms of our interests or hobbies pero when it comes to big, IMPORTANT things pati values, ay parati tayong nagkakasundo.

Ang nararamdaman ko sayo, ay malayong malayo sa nararamdaman ng isang taong inlove na kinikilig, hindi ganon. Para sa akin, ikaw ang “best friend” ko na gusto kong makasama sa bawat araw ng buhay ko, na kung papalarin ay maging partner in life ko. Ikaw yung matatawag kong “tahanan,” ikaw yung tao na pag kasama ko, alam kong safe ako. Ikaw yung tao na sobrang nagpapagaan ng loob ko, na kaya kong maging natural at alam kong matatanggap mo pa rin ako sa kung ano ako. Pag kasama kita, parang kaya ko ng gawin lahat! Masaya ako sa bawat kasiyahan mo at malungkot sa tuwing nalulungkot ka. Gusto kitang matitigan ng matagal sa mata at mayakap dahil napaka tagal na ng huling araw na nayakap kita. Gusto kong sumandal at tumabi sayo, na kahit wala na tayong pag-usapan, gusto ko lang maging mapayapa sa piling mo. Gusto kong marinig yung mga ginagawa mo sa bawat araw, na kahit anong kwento pa yan, handa kitang sabayan sa trip mo. Gusto kong tumawa at umiyak kasama ka, at kapag ikaw naman ang naiiyak, huwag kang mag-alala, dahil hindi kita pipigilan. Nandito lang ako para samahan at yakapin ka hanggang sa guminhawa ang pakiramdam mo. Naiinis nga lang ako sa sarili ko dahil hindi ko masabi lahat ng ito sayo harap-harapan, at dito ko lang sa virtual diary naibubuhos lahat. Gusto kong sabihin how sorry i am sayo at kung gano na kita namimiss pero hiyang-hiya ako. Ang dami nang dumaan na chansa para masabi ko lahat ng ito sayo, nakausap pa kita nung nakaraang gabi sa call pero nalipasan nanaman ako ng araw. Gusto kong magsimula tayo ulet, at masabi sayo lahat-lahat ng gusto kong sabihin. Gusto kong maibalik kung ano yung meron tayong dalawa noon, at pag nangyari iyon, hinding-hindi na kita papakawalan. Ikaw yung taong gusto kong makasama habambuhay, at sa bawat yapak mo, nandito ako lagi para suportahan ka. Alam kong kayang-kaya mong maabot lahat ng mga pangarap mo sa buhay, at huwag kang susuko dahil sa galing, talino, at kabutihan na taglay mo, alam kong malayo ang mararating mo at maraming tao ang magmamahal sayo. Sabay nating aabutin ang mga pangarap natin sa buhay at nangangarap akong malagpasan ang mga darating na pagsubok kasama ka.

Salamat rin pala dahil sa kabila ng lahat, nandyan ka pa rin lagi para suportahan ako. Nandyan ka parin para makinig tuwing may gusto akong ichika or sabihin. Nandyan ka parin para kausapin ako kahit paminsan-minsan lang dahil pareho rin tayong busy sa 3rd year college. Pero alam mo ba, paminsan minsan naiisip ko pa rin yung time na umamin ka sakin noon sa school. Noong grade 10 tayo. Tas nung pinahiram mo sakin yung panyo mo, hiyang hiya ako at gusto ko munang labhan bago ko ibalik sayo kasi natuluan ng mga luha ko hahaha. Never ka naman nawala sa isip ko. Lahat ng iniisip ko para sayo, ay ang kasiyahan mo. Sa tuwing namomroblema ka, parang gusto kong akuhin nalang lahat dahil ayaw kong nakikitang nahihirapan ka, nasasaktan ako. Namimiss na kita. Gusto kong magsimula tayo ulet, at gusto na kitang makita, makasama tumawa, kumain, at mahawakan ng mahigpit yung mga kamay mo. Ikaw ang aking tahanan, at sana sa darating na panahon, masabi ko sayo to lahat-lahat. Ikaw ang iniiyak ko sa bawat gabi at ikaw yung taong willing akong ibigay ang bawat bahagi ng sarili ko because it is always been you. Never nawala ang care and affection ko para sayo. I’ll always choose you and i’ll always be your greatest fan. Mahal na mahal kita at alam kong hindi dito nagtatapos ang storya nating dalawa. I want to spend this lifetime with you and i want to spend my last breath holding your hand. Alam kong darating ang araw na magkakaroon muli ng chansa tayong dalawa at hindi ako mawawalan ng pag-asa. Miss na miss na kita at mag-iingat ka palagi. I wish you all the best, “A.” You deserve all the love in this world, my precious one.🥹✨

Love,

C [November 9, 2022] 💗

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Feel the sun on your face and the grass at your fingertips :]

I LOVE THIS OMG❤️

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JOIN me in our FUN, DAYCARE ADVENTURE by watching this playthrough‼️👶 Just be careful to NOT WAKE the BIG BABY up!👀

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My feet full of mud, walked across this beautiful hanging bridge. Knowing that it would keep me still and hold me dear until I reached the end. Little did I know that those knots would break yet my hands still tried to hold on as I’m on the verge of falling. A crow came and looked into my eyes. My lips smiled and my tears dropped. Then I asked, “would you still help me though you see how heavy I am?”. I felt light when I walked across this bridge, yet I realized I’m not when I began holding on to something I know wouldn’t last. I guess I was wrong from the beginning. The crow did not answer and continues to gaze at me, with his sad, regretful eyes. The crow then left and flew away as far as he can. As I’m about to ask “why,” my hand trembled and my grip dwindled. I fell hard with my eyes closed until my back was stung by thorns of these fresh, black roses. I vanished into thin air and was left to wander alone. No one sees me anymore, though I see them all and those footprints of mine left in that bridge that was supposed to hold me tight, that I once believed would bring me to the other side. ✨🖤

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DIET YARN?? 😱🥗🥕🥛

So ayun share ko lang HAHA nag start na ako mag diet. Siguro for 2 weeks na? Kasi i noticed na ang laki ng weight gain ko because of stress eating. From 54 kg to 60 kg. Within sa 2 weeks diet ko, i noticed naman na medj medj nabawasan na yung pagkabilog ng peys ko pero di pako nakakapag pasukat ulit ng weight. Hopefully ok ang maging progress ko and ma-maintain ko sya to reach my goal weight, 49kg✨ Wish me luck!!!! ~