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daincrediblegg · 2 months

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Nothing wrong with me

#behold: the sowed seeds of my upped vitamin d dose #just would like to say that part of this is sponsored by a couple of very kind inboxers who reached out and said that they DID want to know #more about lady terror and which really helped reinvigor my motivations #and I WILL be answering those asks soon enough #(harder to do until I have my laptop back. like I’m sorry y’all I literally wish I knew what I was on in 2019 when I was writing all my #joker headcanon fics on my phone but I cannot replicate that and I dare not even try #)… but regardless it will happen #but also yeah so this is a 6 page chapter summary for the fic and I’ve just started on chapter 2 and this will help a lot when #I get my computer back I think I’ve cleared my head a lot about this fic while not having it #but anyway #yeah uh…#egg’s wip’s #moral of the story is telling people you wanna hear about their oc’s that they’ve been working on for a whole year works #also went down a classical music rabbit hole about it today if that’s of interest to anyone but… me #bc one of my students did a presentation on poe’s impact on music theory and danse macabre which incited me to get familliar with composers #and pieces that would have actively been known in the 1840’s and have wanted to do since that bit about schubert on crozier’s hand organ #got dropped in the scripts #I think they’re going to feud on classical music tastes #average beethoven and chopin stan vs schubert enjoyer FIGHT #(except the serenade. that song was actually written about lady terror I’ve decided)#also thinking about lady terror and poe bc he’s said himself music is the highest art. they are concert buddies for sure #I bet that mf liked beethoven. poe is a big bass guy if I’ve ever seen one #it’s the drama you see

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lazyasyoucansee · 8 months

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Drawdrawdrawdraw- but homework.

#sobs in pathetic #guys guys. you didnt hear it from me. but. uuugh. if i do well this semester it think... i think i will be able to get a tablet #thats right. without working cause im a lazy leech who slacks off almost everyday of its life #also cause i accidentally heard my parents talk and i really want the tablet so better do the homework #dont get me wrong i was planning to try even harder this semester but tablet adds something to the motivation #you know?#also maybe a tablet would get better wifi conection than the toaster im using rignow since i left my laptop to my sister #im a materialistic person? maybe #leaving this on the tags cause i can

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emotionallydevastatedandverygay · 1 month

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all the time spent, all the embarrassment, all the fear of being rejected is 100% worth it if it means that you're gonna start trying out new things, meet new people, that you're going to try to be yourself and believe that you can be something great.

#i don't know if that makes sense #i was blasting music in my ears and talking to myself in the mirror #trying to find the motivation to sign up for a project and actually do something with my life #i'm very sleep deprived #depression and anxiety work hard but love and courage work harder #thank you for coming to my ted talk #have a nice day :)

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chemicalbrew · 5 months

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achievement get (for the billionth time): take one look at an assignment and get severely overwhelmed AND discouraged for the rest of the day and do nothing

#it's so much and it's dishonest work!! literally dishonest because all i can think of is how bullshit a lot of it sounds. instead of #you know?#actually learning anything?#but this thorough lack of motivation is just gonna get me in trouble isnt it. how do i swallow my emotions and figure things out #its getting harder every year and the feeling that the few people i have close by do not ever truly understand - like at all - is horrifyin #yes sorry this is all i could think of for the past six hours. im having a great day (no im not. i also hate myself for feeling this way)#zero.txt #im sure it hurts the few people who care and who thought i'd actually go on to do things to see me constantly wallowing for reasons #that they refuse to comprehend or have compassion for.#just stop being sad! just get to work piece by piece! have some resilience #meanwhile all ive done is cry. maybe a part of me just likes feeling like this i DONT KNOW #and ofc so often im like. the only reason im still around is im quiet and they havent invented thought police #yet.#how can i have hope when the moment i decide to pluck a silver of it out of my core i read something that in a better world would not even-#-be a nightmare #like. you say things like that with your mouth and expect us to mindlessly repeat if we want anything in life...#fuck my stupid baka life <3 #ugh im just going in yet another circle now when i know trying to put my feelings in words is not helpful. what IS helpful #negative #again sorry. at least you dont have to open this wall of tags #delete later #maybe

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camptw1nk · 3 months

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I have been. Struggling w tumblr lately and i am trying to work out Why bc this hobby means 2 much for me to let it fizzle out

#i have muse. i love these characters and i want to write them.#i talk ab them and scenarios all the time. what is the issue #i mean the issue is the actually writing part motivation is low #but i also think its just like. idk i feel like the rpc as a whole has changed and become. less of a community?#like finding new people to write with is so difficult bc no one talks to anyone new anymore #and starting to talk to new people feels so much harder than it used to and getting engagement is impossible #like i have a group of 5-10 people who r constantly showing up constantly trying and i love that i love you #but thats. thats such a small fraction of my mutuals. like whats the. why arent my mutuals willing to interact w me #like is this a me thing. is this happening to everyone or is it specifically something i need to work on #its so much worse on my other blogs its a vicious cycle of not writing bc theres no one to write w but no one new coming bc u dont write #its just. wheres the community gone #like i have over 300 followers. why do only 5 people want to talk to me

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ennuidays · 6 months

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i actually cant do this

#im literally the dumbest person i know #everyone else works so much harder and they get so much done #even the way they talk is motivated even if they say its not #everyone is so smart and im slow and cant get anything done correctly or on time #i wish i got straight a's i wish i had something to prove myself #all i have to go on is numbers that dont even matter because nobody takes them #im just some lazy piece of shit who happens to be good at test taking #i dont know anything #im failing my clasdes again #i can barely keep myself above a 3.0 #how much time will it take to get me fixed ???? everyone says its a slow process and you have to find what works for you #but i dont know what works for me and neither does anybody else #every therapist i talk to is at a loss w wht to do with me #am i trying ??? am i worse off than i thought????#i tell myself i can function like anyone else but i cant even prove that #im undeserving of what i have #i get stressed when anythinf good happens to me whrn other people would kill for this opportunity #God strike me down ive wasted my years here i cant keep this up #i ddont deserve the painful death i want #Haha okay im over it

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writerfae · 1 year

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I’m a firm believer that duty kills passion, at least for me personally. So I could never be a professional writer or photographer or something, even though I love to do those things.

#it’s like with school. it’s not learning that I’m opposed to #I love to learn more things especially stuff that interests me like history #but once the duty of proofing my knowledge (see: exams / presentations) I suddenly really don’t like it anymore #recently I got the chance to do a book presentation of a book I like in school which usually would’ve been lots of fun #but since I have to present it and had like a limited amount of time to work on it I didn’t enjoy it like I hoped I would #as for writing I love to do it my way and with no pressure at all but as a professional it’s way harder #I wanted to become a journalist once upon a time but having to write articles with a deadline would kill all my inspiration so I didn’t try #and the thing with photography is I love it #and if you believe my dad and some others I have a great eye for motives and perspectives #but for the life of me I can’t bring myself to learn the techniques of photography just thinking about picking up a guide bores me #writer speaks #writeblr #long ass tag ramble

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mettywiththenotes · 1 year

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I've gotten to the stage where I've been thinking drawing would be so much easier than writing

Which... is kinda dumb of me to think. Because I know art isn't easier, and I know I don't have the motivation nor the patience to keep practicing, but at least it would mean the images in my head are put down onto paper without having to think of sentences that go together and worry if they sound good or make sense

#my motivation is such a fragile fucking thing istg #i just wanna do something about it #I just wanna be able to do it without having this mental block whatever-the-hell-it-is in my head #mettygetspersonal #vent #or maybe I'm just lazy idk #just getting the sense that I'm trying to avoid writing and thinking of doing art but then realising that art would be harder #since it's a New Thing and I'm not good at New Things #unless what I make is Good straight away #I have to stress that its not dumb for anyone else to think drawing would be easier #its dumb for Me to think it would be easier #there's a difference there #angsty shit #you know how it be in the tags

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stimmingandstruggling · 1 year

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high school health classes are really like how much fatphobia ableism and just straight up ignorance can we fit in 80 minutes

#couldn’t fit it in my schedule until senior year #but maybe that’s a good thing because now at least i know to disregard this bullshit about a healthy weight and how diets are super good #and how you just need to try harder to be motivated when you have chronic depression #ugh #high school #fatphobia #ableism #chronic illness #chronic mental illness

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kakusu-shipping · 2 years

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for the problematic trope: teacher/student Or stalker/obsession?

Oh man I love both of those. Uhm. I'll do Teacher/Student because I think I have more to work for it. Maybe.

Ships that fit said trope

Rei/Hayashida from March Comes in Like a Lion are always the first to come to mind and I am the only one on this boat

All Might/Deku from My Hero Academia are the bog standard of this trope I think

But I actually prefer All Might/Bakugo, it's about the caring for the Teacher

Poly Izuku/Bakugo/All Might is very good chefs kiss

Same shit but evil AFO/Tomura

Nageki/Shuu from Hatoful Boyfriend has become recent brainworms thanks to a certain HB poster on my dash

Does Ash/Kukui count? He was a teacher in the SuMo anime so. I'm gonna count it.

General Opinion

I never got why this is considered problematic? I mean all my examples are so kinda Minor/Adult which stands on it's own but why would a grown person dating their teacher who's also a grown person be considered problematic?

I also have like. Way less ships than I thought that fit the dynamic. I guess I don't consume as much media with Teacher characters as I thought I did. Gimmie recs please.

Any ships that aren’t canon it But I’d read w/ the trope

I don't have any ships I'd like to see in the trope but I have characters I'd love to see in it if I had another half to them, this is mostly just characters who I think should have students they're shippably close too.

Nezu My Hero Academia

Winston Overwatch

Doomfist Overwatch

Cyrus Pokemon

Cheren Pokemon (BW2 specifically)

Sheldon Splatoon

Woodman Hilda

Shirokuma Danganronpa

Monokuma Danganronpa

#Ship List #Thankyou for asking #Wow this was a little harder than I thought #please someone else ask for stalker/obession too please I have just as little thought for that but still wanna talk about it #Thankyou #I have a large list of characters I would love to problimatically ship if they had anyone in their lives to do so with #That's my motivation for self shipping sometimes dskjgfjkdgf #I really started with March Comes Like a Lion huh sorry it's top thought recently #someone asked for a Harunobu x reader and I drafted my concepts and then made the mistake of playing Splat 3 all night #And now my brain is mush so it has to WAIT #I'll get to you I promise #For not consider Rei's teacher could very easily take advantage of him he has no friends or support group #But instead chooses to try and help him and make him less of a target for men like him #Love that love that love that #Ask me about my age gap ships I have more brainworms for those trust me

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linabirb · 5 months

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I see the delusions have won once again and honestly? As they should. Also I'm a firm believer that all of this is the universe apologizing to you for the chronic pain. And by all of this I mean amanes inno vote, the project sekai sanrio event.

i've been winning lately and i intend to keep doing so 😌 (pls universe keep being nice to me my finals are coming and my head is so so empty)

#honestly i'm not sure if i will even be sort of. allowed to take those exams #bc here we have this system like. if you don't get enough grades and your attendance rate is low #you won't even be allowed to take the exam #and ahahaha... my grades and attendance rate both suck <3 #i really wish i could try harder but i have like. zero motivation.#[ 💌 𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐚 𝐚𝐧𝐬𝐰𝐞𝐫𝐬 ]#[ 💕 𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐚'𝐬 𝐟𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐝𝐬 ]#[ 🧇 𝐟𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐝: 𝐯𝐚𝐫𝐢𝐚𝐧 ]

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shaunashipman · 9 months

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this is...depressing

#cleo.txt #like that's a 1:5 ratio #it's harder to notice on 200 and 300 note posts #but this is just...#honestly at this point i'm considering it cringe to only like shit and not reblog it #like oh you dont want to reblog everything you like because it's not on aesthetic or clutters your blog?#cringe #embarrassing #couldn't be me #i love to show love for ALL my interests #ignore me #i have a headache and am trying to decide if i should get up and gif or go back to sleep for 2 hours til work #and this is not motivating the giffing side

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abra-ka-dammit · 9 months

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yeah its almost as if younger people were never preferred to begin with bc ever since we became adults all of the "good" jobs wanted 10+ years of experience over a degree

almost like we cant GET good jobs bc the old fucks wont retire

almost like the older workers working as managers and owners actively believe younger workers are worth less pay so we cant make it in this fucking world

#stupid shit #anyways im on linkedin to put in job apps #FUCK THIS PLACE FOR REAL THO #im doing 2 jobs and only AFTER giving me a whole grief and earful over my work per hour did they decide they need someone to do the second #well too late. yall are bigots to begin with i feel no motivation to try harder for you

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notthestarwar · 9 months

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Me about to make a promise I know I probably can't keep but knowing it'll probably never come up:

If tumblr ever fixes its broken tag system I'll actually make an effort to tag stuff properly cause I love the idea of having a categorised blog where I can actually find stuff. Like a tag for each character ect

#there is so much amazing art in this fandom i feel like i could be looking for it my whole life and never stop finding stuff that's just #jaw droppingly amazing #have you seen this??? have to share. beauty #you guys are so talented #you deserve it to be cutated and displayed in a space that's deserving #with a nice theme and easy navigation and #im not saying it has to be me (i don't want it to be me) but also.#i feel like i should probably be trying harder to do everyone's work justice #displaying it somewhere nice #but the motivation is just not there when whenever i try this website breaks it!!!#(that said. while the tag system probs is gonna happen #making this theme a bit more readable is on my to do list tbh. i make this assumption that nobody comes here directly on desktop #cause I'm always on app but. i saw it recently and man. if any of you are doing that. I'm so very sorry #I'm at least gonna make the text a bit bigger and probably get the search button back.

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jeyaar · 11 months

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damn i talked so much in april wtf

#in my archive cleaning up my blog #because i'm a fucking weird guy who cares about that kinda shit for some reason #man i was just saying shit in april what was i on #i was maybe trying to distract myself from turning 30 or w.e #but then i just ended up texting someone i shouldn't have and falling into a cycle #self destruction is funny like that #i think i'm out of that cycle at this point idk #hard to tell without the benefit of hindsight #i lose a lot of time like this #what was i doing from then until now?#working and sleeping i guess #and lamenting the absence of people i care about #i've lost many years of my life this way #i'm not upset about it at the moment its more motivational to get moving and do something i care about #talk to people i care about #that last part is harder as i've become pretty reclusive i guess #not that anyone could tell lol when they see me they think i'm the most functional person ever #but if you come over and see my empty fridge and my unfurnished house and you realize i spend the majority of my time in my head #then you can see the cracks for what they are and you might consider them a chasm #personal #written to move towards positivity

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byoldervine · 19 days

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Types Of Writer’s Block (And How To Fix Them)

1. High inspiration, low motivation. You have so many ideas to write, but you just don’t have the motivation to actually get them down, and even if you can make yourself start writing it you’ll often find yourself getting distracted or disengaged in favour of imagining everything playing out

Try just bullet pointing the ideas you have instead of writing them properly, especially if you won’t remember it afterwards if you don’t. At least you’ll have the ideas ready to use when you have the motivation later on

2. Low inspiration, high motivation. You’re all prepared, you’re so pumped to write, you open your document aaaaand… three hours later, that cursor is still blinking at the top of a blank page

RIP pantsers but this is where plotting wins out; refer back to your plans and figure out where to go from here. You can also use your bullet points from the last point if this is applicable

3. No inspiration, no motivation. You don’t have any ideas, you don’t feel like writing, all in all everything is just sucky when you think about it

Make a deal with yourself; usually when I’m feeling this way I can tell myself “Okay, just write anyway for ten minutes and after that, if you really want to stop, you can stop” and then once my ten minutes is up I’ve often found my flow. Just remember that, if you still don’t want to keep writing after your ten minutes is up, don’t keep writing anyway and break your deal - it’ll be harder to make deals with yourself in future if your brain knows you don’t honour them

4. Can’t bridge the gap. When you’re stuck on this one sentence/paragraph that you just don’t know how to progress through. Until you figure it out, productivity has slowed to a halt

Mark it up, bullet point what you want to happen here, then move on. A lot of people don’t know how to keep writing after skipping a part because they don’t know exactly what happened to lead up to this moment - but you have a general idea just like you do for everything else you’re writing, and that’s enough. Just keep it generic and know you can go back to edit later, at the same time as when you’re filling in the blank. It’ll give editing you a clear purpose, if nothing else

5. Perfectionism and self-doubt. You don’t think your writing is perfect first time, so you struggle to accept that it’s anything better than a total failure. Whether or not you’re aware of the fact that this is an unrealistic standard makes no difference

Perfection is stagnant. If you write the perfect story, which would require you to turn a good story into something objective rather than subjective, then after that you’d never write again, because nothing will ever meet that standard again. That or you would only ever write the same kind of stories over and over, never growing or developing as a writer. If you’re looking back on your writing and saying “This is so bad, I hate it”, that’s generally a good thing; it means you’ve grown and improved. Maybe your current writing isn’t bad, if just matched your skill level at the time, and since then you’re able to maintain a higher standard since you’ve learned more about your craft as time went on

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