#yes there are people who have no perspective. for the reference tho having perspective actually made me really unwilling to get help
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you were raised in comparison.
it wasn't always obvious (well. except for the times that it was), but you internalized it young. you had to eat what you didn't like, other people are going hungry, and you should be grateful. you had to suck it up and walk on the twisted ankle, it wasn't broken, you were just being a baby. you were never actually suffering, people obviously had it worse than you did.
you had a roof over your head - imagine! with the way you behaved, with how you talked back to your parents? you're lucky they didn't kick you out on your ass. they had friends who had to deal with that. hell, you have friends who had to deal with that. and how dare you imply your father isn't there for you - just because he doesn't ever actually talk to you and just because he's completely emotionally checked out of your life doesn't mean you're not fucking lucky. think about your cousins, who don't even get to speak to their dad. so what if yours has a mean streak; is aggressive and rude. at least you have a father to be rude to you.
you really think you're hurting? you were raised in a home! you had access to clean water! you never so much as came close to experiencing a real problem. sure, okay. you have this "mental illness" thing, but teenagers are always depressed, right. it's a phase, you'll move on with your life.
what do you mean you feel burnt out at work. what do you mean you mean you never "formed healthy coping mechanisms?" we raised you better than that. you were supposed to just shoulder through things. to hold yourself to high expectations. "burning out" is for people with real jobs and real stress. burnout is for people who have sick kids and people who have high-paying jobs and people who are actually experiencing something difficult. recently you almost cried because you couldn't find your fucking car keys. you just have lost your sense of gratitude, and honestly, we're kind of hurt. we tell you we love you, isn't that enough? if you want us to stick around, you need to be better about proving it. you need to shut up about how your mental health is ruined.
it could be worse! what if you were actually experiencing executive dysfunction. if you were really actually sick, would you even be able to look at things on the internet about it? you just spend too much time on webMD. you just like to freak yourself out and feel like you belong to something. you just like playing the victim. this is always how you have been - you've always been so fucking dramatic. you have no idea how good you have it - you're too fucking sensitive.
you were like, maybe too good of a kid. unwilling to make a real fuss. and the whole time - the little points, the little validations - they went unnoticed. it isn't that you were looking for love, specifically - more like you'd just wanted any one person to actually listen. that was all you'd really need. you just needed to be witnessed. it wasn't that you couldn't withstand the burden, but you did want to know that anyone was watching. these days, you are so accustomed to the idea of comparison - you don't even think you belong in your own communities. someone always fits better than you do. you're always the outlier. they made these places safe, and then you go in, and you are just not... quite the same way that would actually-fit.
you watch the little white ocean of your numbness lap at your ankles. the tide has been coming in for a while, you need to do something about it. what you want to do is take a nap. what you want to do is develop some kind of time machine - it's not like you want your life to stop, not completely, but it would really nice if you could just get everything to freeze, just for a little while, just until you're finished resting. but at least you're not the worst you've been. at least you have anything. you're so fucking lucky. do you have any concept of the amount of global suffering?
a little ant dies at the side of your kitchen sink. you look at its strange chitinous body and think - if you could just somehow convince yourself it is enough, it will finally be enough and you can be happy. no changes will have to be made. you just need to remember what you could lose. what is still precious to you.
you can't stop staring at the ant. you could be an ant instead of a person, that is how lucky you are. it's just - you didn't know the name of the ant, did you. it's just - ants spend their whole life working, and never complain. never pull the car over to weep.
it's just - when it died, it curled up into a tight little ball.
something kind of uncomfortable: you do that when you sleep.
#writeblr#warm up#my dad was actively doing bad shit to us and we STILL were told we were lucky . and to a point i do think im lucky#i just think also there's somethin to be said about like. how about we stop using comparison to dismiss ppls individual struggles#yes there are people who have no perspective. for the reference tho having perspective actually made me really unwilling to get help#for what was a serious and debilitating mental health issue. bc i thought i didnt DESERVE IT#and i would rather have 600 ppl who aren't THAT bad get help and get heard and get seen#than make any 1 kid. do the math that i did: look at the world that is dying and the people who are hurting and say#''oh. okay. others have it worse. they are probably better people than i am. i am being unreasonable. i cannot ask for help#i am not good. i am taking too much space. i am not worth saving.''#bc our WHOLE lives we are taught a scarcity mindset - that you can 'steal' from someone. so that instead of changing a system that doesn't#actually offer fair support to everyone#we put the impetus on the individual to just... demand less.#and here's something - there are probably ppl who think i DIDNT deserve to get help#bc i DID have it better than other people#and something about that is ... so sickening. bc i think all of us in some way at some point WILL need help.#we were supposed to make communities. we were supposed to offer our hands. we were supposed to raise the barn#instead we said: it could be worse. now handle it yourself
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very selfishly would love more of ur thoughts on oscar accommodating and mirroring lando.... as an insane landoheadTM ive been watching lando slowly match oscar's energy in the past year and its been driving me insane and ur SO right that oscars done the same thing!! kind of crazy kind of losing my mind would love to get more thoughts out of u
!!!!!!!!! hi kira i would LOVE 2 talk about this. also this answer may or may not be 2k words long
god there are so many Angles and Frameworks and Contexts through which it is possible to examine 814's dynamic that i constantly feel unhinged about it. and probably sound unhinged as well…… pls note that all of this is pure insanity from my insaneperson brain ⚠️ ;__; ok where to begin.
to me the thing about 814 mirroring each other is that in reality it's actually a metaphor for many different things ❗️ on one hand you can interpret it Literally as in a strictly physical sense—the idea of mirroring someone as running parallel and positioning yourself firmly opposite each other, as constructing intricate rituals in order to NOT touch the skin of other men, being so specifically magnetically repulsed that any contact is accidental and fleeting and causes you to spring away as quickly as you'd met. but then there is also the other sense of mirroring that is….. more amorphous and conceptual, e.g. how oscar has in many ways indirectly orbited lando his entire career and how although they've only been teammates for a year now lando has technically been a primary reference point of his throughout a majority of his teens. AND what i think is so interesting about that too is that if you look back at oscar's Evolution As A Person, you could argue that he's been purely Himself As He Is Now for a very long time... yes there've been minute fluctuations in maturity and just general cringeness and muscle growth and cheek fat etc. etc. but at least outwardly in how he communicates with other people and displays his mentality / innate habits / mannerisms he's basically been his fully realized adult self since he was like 17??? which obviously cannot be said of lando norris who has grown massively in appearance and perspective and assuredness and so on from the ages of 17 to 21 to 24. yet this constantly evolving & changing your_choice_of_lorde_album Growing Pains lando has always been a sort of distant static fixed point in the future of oscar's mind… hmmm. that's just part of it tho
basically 814 as they are now are sooo fascinating to me because again They Do Not (Consciously) Touch but they've still very gradually managed to build off the foundations of oscar's subconscious teenage mirroring by turning it into something… well perhaps not quite fully intentional (and isn't that almost better in the end!!!) but certainly more self-aware and generally conscious. basically: the Negative Space of landoscar's demonstrated "affection" is where their reciprocity lies! if that makes sense.
and i guess what i'm trying to get at is that… on surface level, it's easy to say that 1) Oscar has always only ever been himself (generally true) and that 2) As the guy who came into f1 at 19 and was continuously expected to meet his more extroverted teammates' energies lando is the one who's habituated to experiencing marked change (also fairly true), but this still obfuscates equally important facets of their personalities: i.e. that oscar may be the more ~intellectually~ inclined of the two (which also who Cares. completely totally off-topic LOL but personal pet peeve of mine is people acting like there is a discernible difference between a-level maths and whatever private tutoring lando did after dropping out when their job title is lichrally F1 Driver…?! both are negligible fractions of fractions of whatever postgrad coursework the team's Actual engineers have done!!! but anyway), my personal argument is that really oscar is so consistently himself BY having zero concept of himself. whereas lando….. actually does possess a very strong inner character and intense, at times destabilizing self-awareness but also boasts a higher eq that enables a very high capability for social camouflage.
……????????? this is like a 10-paragraph intro. What am i getting at.
so basically. Yes. mutual accommodation……. i think my main point is that despite lando's strong baseline character and idiosyncrasies and particularities and fussiness and general weirdness, He Can, when necessitated, (as long as it doesn't completely contradict his moral impulse etc. etc.) soften that edge and adapt to another person's expectations—Even if just to maintain bearable social rapport & conversation. whereas on the other hand oscar can sometimes actually be a lot more malleable because he doesn't really hold strong conviction in much outside the few non-negotiables in his life ??? (read: racing...) like yes he's still competitive in challenges and is pedantic as shit but also he kind of just Doesn't care……. so basically he's the perfect fit for lando. because he DOESN'T expect anything from lando and lando DOESN'T need to camouflage himself for oscar and because oscar interprets things straight-forwardly and at face value and reads lando's intentions in good faith and honestly probably like 30% of lando's overthinking is a result of people constantly assuming the worst of him so i think on some level it's like 👉 👈 when you're both a little weird and also weird in these little different ways but in the end those minute shifts are what make you compatible and fit you back together again ?!?!?!? as i said it's the negative space of it all.
so really landoscar are not totally "opposites attract" but they're also not identical "mctwins" or whatever because Nuance and Secret Third Thing and what's truly critical about their mirroring is basically that 1) they don't EXPECT the other person to do it 2) they don't INTENTIONALLY do it and 3) it only happens because they're intensely aware of the other person's personality and mannerisms and appearances... bref IT'S ABOUT THE CATALOGUING!! like lando saw oscar in 2023 for the first time and immediately went oh you've gotten taller? oh you have big arms now? and they can't help pointing out each other's hair and ALSO >portrait painting (gets ko'd) "do you like purple?" "...uhhhh i can do now" like WHO SAYS THAT? ANDDDDD this was after oscar had picked purple to begin with but lando was like Nooo you can't do that :/ so oscar changed even though he'd argued that he'd "already committed to it" literal moments prior. Many such cases (i'm not finding a chair anyone?). they make me feel insane.
right let me just finish up with a few more moments (if you're still reading i'm sorry) but Vocabgifset is kind of a rough overview of how, at the very beginning, i think oscar did come in with a very undefined approach to How To Be A Teammate ? and was ready to treat lando as he'd treated rob and logan and fred and whomever and maybe even reflecting the atmosphere as reserve at alpine a little bit idk—essentially more visibly abrasive and pedantic and generally annoying. Also (ahem) perhaps how he'd seen lando act around carlos and daniel before... Guy who has carlando tweets in his twitter likes. 😔
but of course lando REALLYYY doesn't like being unnecessarily corrected over ultimately inconsequential things and again his demeanor is far from bombastic when it hasn't been demanded of him, so i think oscar quickly recognized that in his character and learned to just play along with what lando liked and wanted—not because he was preoccupied with lando getting annoyed at him or thought that lando was sensitive or whatever and not because he himself is a pushover because of course there is a healthy & endearing amount of push/pull to their dynamic but just because he sincerely respects lando and with that respect understood that he didn't need to "force" their dynamic when it would prosper by just being himself and more importantly letting lando be himself……….. Or something.
which imo is basically the basis of their current communication style: a lot of wordless meaningful looks & expressions (because they're both entirely honest people in different ways) (SEE: VIRGIN RADIO UK) (the thing Is that lando has no verbal filter but oscar is the one with 0 control of his expressions and deeply revealing permablush), oscar always folding to whatever lando says in an interview, jumping into frame and following along lando's message in the british f4 anniversary video, listening to lando's music through the walls of their driver rooms, and of course any instance of their Soft Talking Voices such as → "yeahhh you're up there" "aww (genuinely a little pleased and flustered)" and CAT 5 behind the scenes smoothie convo and oscar patiently waiting for lando to finish speaking and not wanting to enforce his presence but always being there and ready to help him….. like the worst part 2 me of the "well-represented" video is that andrea turns to lando first and tries to help him but lando is Still processing and Not listening so THEN he looks at oscar to be like um i don't know the word and that's when andrea looks back at oscar expectantly 🥲😭😩!!!!!!!! what if i dyed. honestly. the category is truly just oscar being susceptible to Lando Norris…………… i could go on.
also >RANDOM MOMENT TOTALLY NOT IMPORTANT but the yes/no challenge is so devastating on every conceivable level and yet One thing that i do not think is discussed enough! is the way oscar physically leans into lando's space on the table every time it's his turn to answer the questions and Specifically how in round 1 the media people were trying to get his attention to tell him to put the mic pack into his pocket but he was soooooooooo focused and fixated on lando's face right up until lando turned to speak to the camera that he didn't notice for like 3 minutes. GAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH. argh. the problem with oscar is that he's SINCERE. truly. "are you ready oscar piastri?" [zero hesitation whatsoever] "i am ready lando norris 🥰"
of course it's not like oscar doesn't introspect whatsoever because obviously he is very capable of self-assessing when something is important by an objective measure of success (aka recognizing deficits over a lap), but relative to lando's specific brand of overthinking & online lurking habits then oscar very much does.... basically underthink??? yes he overcomplicates simple ideas by being too literal but really as a person & conscious being he's great at living in the Present and filtering out excess noise. er... i won't delve too much into the ojp Learned Behaviors of it all and why he's so charming to older people specifically but basically Wwyd if an F1 driver microdosed autisticswag? joking. mostly. but i def agree re: your tags that oscar is never actually consciously trying to be a WELL AKSHUALLY guy because it's just fundamental expressive compulsion alkdsfhaldfh.
also specifically one of my favorite tiny little 814 things OAT is when lando says something unexpected or ridiculous and oscar parrots it back all high-pitched and breathily and disbelievingly like? Girl. this is super jank but perhaps you understand....... 😔
in the end it's getting asked >what have you picked up from lando and oscar saying Well everyone hmmms but not in the Special Multifaceted Uniquely Expressive way that Lando does ! whom I not only know well enough to intimately recognize this mannerism from but have also elected to mention multiple times in this interview. and at the end of the day...? maybe that's romanze
is this anything… idk. also i offer you the jankiest gif ever because i had to remove zbrown to fit them together (Which perhaps is also a metaphor for reaching each other Across The Distance NO PHYSICALITY REQUIRED!! ok i can't just keep saying see: [another random ass example] so i'll stop now but also see: eyebrow raise knowing smile at the end of the sim city video.) anyway why's this such another crasyinsane little moment of how they communicate with each other?! is it just me ?????????
alskfhsfd ok i'm so sorry. thank u for letting me ramble incessantly 🧡
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Hey! I’m super enjoying your pro-Joey Friends phase. It was my favorite show for a long time.
You had a GREAT post about how that relationship really grew and matured both Joey and Rachel’s characters, and I want to add that the fizzling of that relationship also DESTROYED Joey’s character.
Joey finally falling in love - real love - with Rachel made him see the hollow/shallow reality of his womanizing ways. His parents’ dysfunctional marriage really affected him early on in the series, and I head canon that he felt safe with Rachel. They developed that trust from living together. She was a person he’d never tire of the way that his father tired of his mother and sought out someone else.
When things didn’t work out with Rachel, the writers infantalized him. For laughs. Monica and Chandler joked that they’d have to have a room for him at their new house so they could take care of him forever because he couldn’t take care of himself. A grown man. Who had a good job and lived on his own since his 20’s.
If anyone should’ve been stuck in neutral forever, it was Ross. He was self-destructive from the start (Carol destroyed him and he never got over it and kept hurting other people because of it) and it would’ve been so satisfying to see him just stay in NY and raise his son and be a confirmed old bachelor. He had the temperament for being alone.
Oh! And one more thing: Joey was the first one to step up and offer to be committed to Rachel to help her raise Emma, and even tho Rachel turned him down, he ended up doing it anyway because Ross drove her away.
Anyway, I haven’t thought about all of this in a long time! But it’s been a lot of fun to read your takes and analysis. ☺️
Hi!!
Okay oh my gosh YES to all of this. OH the essays I could write.
I actually went through this exact same phase many years ago, and hadn't watched Friends in a while, so now just speeding through the entire series in a couple months, it's really giving me a different perspective than I had the first time. I'm also quite a bit older (you know how people change so much from late teen years to early twenties? It's crazy) and I have a different frame of reference for all the issues these characters deal with, since a lot of them have become my own issues now. There's so much nuance I didn't pick up on the first time around.
You are so right about Joey's character deteriorating after season 9. It's like the writers didn't know what to do with him except continuing his infamous saga of being an immature, stupid womanizer. He has no character development in season 10. Nothing pushing him ahead, nothing to look forward to like the other 5. Monica and Chandler having their babies and moving, of course, Rachel getting the Paris job offer, Phoebe and Mike getting married. What's in all this for Joey? Jokes about him being possessive of food and regressing back to how he was five or six seasons ago.
Infantilizing is absolutely the perfect word. Of all the friends, I would say Joey had the biggest development in the shortest amount of time, with Rachel right there with him. He was immediately ready to step up when she told him she was pregnant, without giving it any kind of second thought. In fact, he begged her to stay and live with him when she was so sure he would hate the idea. He was there with her at every turn, when she was scared about the braxton hicks, when she had so much anxiety about being a single mom, and especially when she missed going on dates and he made the perfect pseudo-boyfriend.
He absolutely felt safe with her, probably more than anyone he'd ever known. They're so similar in so many ways and he'd been living with her for years. Rachel couldn't even live with Ross for a year, or probably less (the timeline isn't super clear, let's be honest lol). She and Joey finally fell into this relationship built on an incredible foundation of trust and friendship (just like two other friends we all know and love), but they broke up because......???? of Ross? Or something? They were so perfect for each other, the writers had to bumble their way through a breakup in the weirdest way possible.
And then how do they treat Joey in season 10? Like he's the dumbest person who's ever existed. I get that he's not the sharpest crayon in the box, but they play up the stupid factor by about a thousand, and it's infuriating. I've always said he's the emotionally intelligent one of the group, but not even that is really shown in season 10. He flunks at the Pyramid game, he doesn't realize he's not speaking French, digs are made at his character, like you said with Monica and Chandler having a "Joey room" in their house. Sweet idea, horrible insinuation.
I mean, the man is in his mid-thirties. He's been through more life than Ross, for sure. I specifically remember watching that episode recently with Joey's parents and thinking how mature he was, how protective of his mom. And how angry he was at his dad, and insistent that he make things right with Ma. He's had to fight tooth and nail for a place in the world of showbusiness. He's had to watch all his friends find love and settle down and get everything they've ever wanted, while he's been in love exactly once in his entire life. He's grown and matured and when his best friend was pregnant, he realized that he actually wants to settle down and have a family. I mean, what level of growth and maturity does it take to realize that?
In earlier seasons, his demeanor was totally different. I don't even recognize season 10 Joey. They had to kill his very essence to explain their breakup.
And yeah, like you said. I think they wrote Ross into a storyline that -- if we're being realistic -- can only end with him being a bachelor and working at the university. He's never been able to live with anyone. He was a terrible roommate for Joey and Chandler, and he and Rachel couldn't last. Not only is he self-destructive, but he's destructive to everyone around him.
What kind of world do we live in where Joey "my god, she is... beautiful" Tribbiani doesn't get a happy ending, and Ross "we were on a break" Geller does??
Anyway, there's the essay for the day. My mind kind of ran away with me and I probably have more to say and maybe I'll organize my thoughts someday, but I'm watching season 10 as we speak and I'm just so. so sad. about how it all turned out. But I'll just live in AO3 Land and pretend Rachel and Joey raise their little family and grow old together and Ross stagnates and continues his precious tenure.
#asks#omg i am so sorry for the multi-paragraph ramble#thank you for the ask!!! I'm so glad I'm not the crazy one around here lmao#friends tv#anti ross geller#joey tribbiani#rachel green
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EY, PST, COME HERE
I know I mentioned I wanna make 4-5 characters for my teenage series, if you wanna make a character and have them be one of the characters, plz make one and tag me in it? If you want ofc :]
No rush if you do it, you got plenty of time (till october 23rd, so I can get out another halloween special with the teenage characters before Halloween actually comes, I lied, it's till october 11th 2023 now, my apologies) :]
Also no pressure if no one wants to do it, I just know that this community has a weird obsession with character creation :]
I cant give any thing but my absolute gratitude and a lot of squealing tho, I do apologize
If anyone decides to do it, read on pleaseeeee
OH, YOUR INTRESTED??? UH, WELL THEN.
I am planning on having 4-5 character NOT including reader/who I fondly refer to as "teenager".
Idealy these characters are 15-19.
If you wanna make someone younger, I will also except pre-teens, ages 10-14, yes I know 14 and 13 are teenagers, trust me, I'm a minor, I was a 14 year old most recently (jk, kinda). But is easier to see people fit more into these age groups in school and social interactions.
I'll only be having 2-3 pre-teens.
Again, to reiterate:
No one has to do this, you literally get NOTHING out of it but seeing your character
I personally thought it would be fun to put out as an option bc, despite me loving character creation, everyone comes from different walks of life and having different people from different perspectives make character gives a lot more variety and... savesmeabitoftime
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this has nothing to do with my art but bare with me
[ This is a ramble about my mental health and how much better it has recently gotten. ]
so, I think I've finally made it through my depression? Like. The past two months were the the happiest of my life, I've never felt better. And it made me realise a lot of things.
What makes me think that I've put my depression behind me is the fact that I'm no longer seeing the world filtered though that cloud of... sad. The cloud of sad that while you're depressed you don't even know doesn't exist for others. At least that's what's the case for me. I thought everyone is able to feel this shit and others just feel a little less shit.
While talking to my friend about this I came up with an analogy; it feels like you've been wearing a backpack all your life thats filled to the brim with the heaviest of rocks and you go about life believing that others just have less rocks in their backpacks and your challenge is to find a way to carry it better or get rid of some rocks. Only for you to find out that the others don't even carry a backpack at all.
I'm only 18 and I've been struggling with depression for the past few years. I can't pinpoint since when exactly, but I just know that it's incredibly hard to remember a time without it. Which makes sense, I barely remember anything about my childhood, especially not my feelings, and my teenage years were consumed by the big sad. So I have absolutely no frame of reference what life without that numbness feels like.
Meaning, everything I experience right now is so new. I did not know life could feel like this. It makes sense now that people say all those clichés to people who struggle with depression. They can't imagine what it's like. It's not the same scale you're on.
I finally get to hope. I wake up and am excited for the day, I experience bad things and get to just shrug them off, knowing that it'll get better. Things will happen in my future and I'm not happy about them but I get to go "huh yeah that will suck. It'll be fine tho. Let's see how I get through that" , and my brain thinks that automatically.
I was so weirded out when I caught myself thinking that way. It's entirely unfamiliar to me.
I get to be so. damn. happy. I'm so new to all of this. I've never felt this way before.
I get to experience negative emotions entirely different as well. They don't hit nearly the same way they did before. It's not that they don't cut deep, it's not that I don't feel them because I certainly do. But they feel different. Easier to touch, easier to handle, not as devastating, as crushing. I'm looking at everything from a very different perspective.
Looking at everything like this it makes so much sense that people, like, live. Of course you get up every day because yes, it's so worth it. I see that now too. I'm so sorry that I didn't before.
My final year of school has just started and I've been so scared of everything that comes with it the past few years. But I feel ready to take on the challenge, and it's a feeling I cannot even describe. I cannot yet grasp that I'm even feeling that. But I'm so grateful that I get to experience it. All of this.
Everything still feels a little like I've been thrown into cold water every now and then because of the novelty, because for the first time I actually get to be human, get to live. And that right when life is supposed to start with all the other new firsts. I do mourn the fact that I didn't get to live all my life like this a little but I also find a surprising amount of compassion within myself for past little me.
I still haven't found the words to describe all this properly but that won't stop me from trying, so prepare for maybe a couple more posts like this one (though hopefully not that long).
I really, really hope that the big sad does actually leave me alone for now. It's not entirely gone, it's still flaring up every now and then, but not nearly as severely as before, and I'm more than fine if it stays this way.
This post got so much longer than I expected it to, I am so sorry. But there were some anons a long time ago (I think is actually been two years already) that told me they wish for a time where I'm not hurting anymore. And if they're still here and following me, I just want them to know that that time's here now. I've stopped hurting. I'm finally healing, properly.
If you did actually read the whole post, thank you, I love you <3
#this also made me realise how severe my depression was#like im impressed that i made it through thar#*that#also I can count the bad days I've had the past two months on less than one hand#its insane#personal post#long post#? this counts as long post#depression mention#mental health#I still dont feel like ive said everything
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isn't Makoto kinda stupid tho?
That's the thing, when you actually think about it, he really isn't.
From a story side of things, Makoto's initially presented as an average kid surrounded by all this talent (and the whole "Ultimate Hope" thing doesn't really do much to change that).
As the viewers/players we're aware that this world they're in is fictional, but the characters themselves aren't. Logically when you're in a high-stakes life or death scenario of course you need to ask the hard questions, you need to be cautious about who you trust. But, when it comes down to actually experiencing such a scenario, it can be difficult to remember or even follow that logic.
The Danganronpa cast are kids (well, most of them). They're trapped in an unfamiliar location that - as far as they're aware - they've never personally been, they don't know anyone else in the room, and they're told they have to kill each other. You really think any of them are going to be thinking about logic in a situation like that.
Of course one or two of them do, but these are the kids who were specifically taught to think logically beyond the regular scope of what would be expected of their peers at this stage. Makoto was not one of them.
Look, Makoto is presented as an optimist, so of course he's not going to walk around mentally regarding the people around him as a threat. But that doesn't mean he's oblivious to it, he's well aware that the people around him are talented and that some of them have ultimates well-suited to killing (or, at least, one's that would give them an advantage should they decide to try something). And he is cautious when he needs to be, even if it doesn't always work out that well for him.
In regards to the trials, this is always the part where I refer to the production side of things since (while I don't like doing it) it is a necessary factor to consider. From a gameplay perspective, as the player character Makoto's understanding of the situation has a direct impact on the difficulty level. The game wouldn't be any fun if you walked into the trial already knowing everything.
But, let's also not forget that Makoto is a kid with an average upbringing. He's a kid, who has to go to a trial for the murder of one of his friends, knowing that they'll also potentially be sending someone else (or worse, most of them) to their deaths because of the twisted rules they have to follow. And you really expect him to be immediately okay with asking the difficult questions? Unrealistic.
Besides, Makoto is still perfectly capable of taking the lead in the trials. Does he need guiding sometimes? Yes, but it's not like he's having his hand held throughout the entire thing. He makes his own observations, draws his own conclusions, and a lot of the time he gets it right.
Makoto isn't stupid, he's just a normal person doing his best in an environment he was never really taught to handle.
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I need to talk more about the scene hug scene of 5x11
Because they're both pissed about being basically back to square one
But Oz wants recognition, appreciation, he seeks it like we saw in season 3. “We saved this city from certain damnation, but will we see any credit for our loyalty, our selfless bravery? Of course not!”
Ed says "I don't want their thanks or their respect" but Oswald does. Ed wants attention and to have fun basically and doesn't give a fuck about anything else, 3x15, “The point wasn’t to kill a bunch of cops, it was you playing my game.” (it is also true Ed doesn't rlly kill people unless necessary or ppl that hurt him as he says to Jim in a previous episode)
Oswald is slightly different
3x16, Convo between Oz and Gabe "We all followed you out of fear" "Actually, I can live with that, fear and respect, management 101" "no one ever respected you" and he hates that
Oswald is emotional and in a way he cares about people. In his own way, that's for sure: he cares about what people think of him and how they see him, at least partially.
From the same convo "We all saw what you really are. A tiny freak who used to hold an umbrella" and that was hard enough to hear that he went in rage mode
Ed says here "You know what I felt, standing shoulder to shoulder with those people out there? Nothing."
Which is different from Oswald's confrontation with Jim at the pier in 5x12 "You and I stood shoulder to shoulder on those barricades, ready to die for this city. Six months later, you locked me up like an animal!"
And we also see the giant ego of Ed, going "They will bow, to the Riddler, and they won’t get up until I permit them to.” and before, how much he hates how he used to be, looking in the mirror, saying "Shy, awkward, pathetic Ed."
All of this seems an intricate obsessive way to prove himself he's worthy, to prove himself he's not weak. “All my life i felt like there’s someone inside me, stronger and smarter, that people would fear. No one else saw that.” 3x15, Ed and Lucius conversation. And don't get me even started on Lucius saying "Except Oswald" and Ed confirming cus this isn't about that.
Now you might be "Ed also cares about how people see him tho" and reference the various times his actions were described as mad, him as a psycho of some sort. But I feel like that's more about seeing him crazy and not a genius or whatever than actually caring about how ppl see him, it has more to do with his ego and so I think it's different from Oswald's perspective.
Now back to this scene. I also like how Oz says basically nothing for the whole speech Ed does, before starting and renting that people should have let him run things, because then the city would have been fine, he had this and that
And Ed half interrupts him, pointing a finger at him saying "Gordon took them. Why? because he still sees you as Fish Mooney’s umbrella boy, and he always will.” and Oz has this half realization, weakly saying "Yes". Because again, they both hate being seen as weak and prove the world wrong but Ed wants to prove that to himself more than the world.
Oz probably also has the insecurities of being weak, this and that, but I wonder if that's because how he sees himself or if these insecurities originated from the outside, from the way others sees him. Because with the way he was raised by his mother, I feel like he had this half of confidence and half of non confidence but being like "oh I'm a nobody? Oh I'm weak? Oh I'll fucking show you how weak I am, how useless I am, how much of a nobody i am" and I take this from also the line in season 1 "This nobody still out foxed you at every turn"
Like Idk I just feel like they have so much parallelism but at the same time so many differences
Back again to the scene. It's Ed who says "I only came back to help him save this city so I could take it for myself.”
Like ya with Oswald taking the city is basically always implied but the second man has a deeper connection with the city. And without even talking about Ed always having to be with someone. Because what he did with Lee is basically what he did in the mayor era, it's like he has this need of almost codependency and when he's not having that with someone what he does? Making people follow his games! Making them pawns in his game! Make a quiz show! Attention, attention and fun and games and riddles and nothing else if not searching for someone to be the new person he can attach himself to. And that leads me to believe that's the reason he stayed for Oz, without even talking ab romantic implications.
But I'm getting off the rails
So, Oswald is the one to propose to work together "We would be so strong together." Like when in a previous episode he went to Ed to escape from Gotham together “We’ve been through all of this before. I’ve tried to kill you. You’ve tried to kill me. But here we are in this room. Together. It means fate has different plans for us.”
And they think ab it for a second, Ed still looking in the mirror, he adjusts his jacket and does the smaller smirk I've ever seen and like, is it bc he's feeling confident? Is he think about working with Oswald?
And Oz takes the knife from his leg brake and hides it before talking about the pact.
And Ed already position his knife behind his back and when Oswald proposes a hug, the blade is out.
And at the start Ed's blade is up and he turns it down so that it's easier during the hug to stab Oz in the back
While Oswald's stays up.
And like from the start of the hug Oswald's eyes are tearish (or at least they're very lucid)
And it's like 0.2 seconds where they're both waiting, and Ed is in position to stabs him and his hand is barely shaking but he cannot do it and after this wait
Oz is so happy and hugs him tighter and I'm gonna cry pls and he has this small sighs out of relief and also he's not pointing the blade at Ed' back, so he's hugging him with both arms
And Ed hugs him tighter too mind you with just one arm and smiles and omg I cannot do this
And the embrace ends, Oswald's knife ends in his pocket and he says "Life beings anew"
And Ed smiles again even more and put his knife in the pocket AND THE WAY THEY LOOK IN EACH OTHER'S EYES, SMILING
so ya that's what I have to say for this scene
#long text#holy shit this is a papyrus i made#gotham#oswald cobblepot#edward nygma#nygmobblepot#ed nygma#riddlebird
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OMG MOTHER YOU ARE FEEDING US THIS WEEK
FIRST OF ALL
NEW FALSE LOVERS CHAPTER??? HELLO I WAS KICKING MY FEET AND HIGGLING THE ENTIRE TIME
fl is so really for those thoughts about Liam icl. If I slept with a man that fine I’d never stop thinking about it 😭 The way Jack was treating her like a daughter in law 🤭🤭
DONT GET ME STARTED ON LIAM RESPECTFULLY CHECKING OUT FL. IK THIS IS FROM FLS PERSPECTIVE MOSTLY BUT IF WE GOT LIAMS PERSPECTIVE, ISTG HE WOULD JUST BE THINKING ABT HER NON STOP
liam choking on the tea in the bonus 💀 I love how you didn’t use the usuals gender stereotypes of a virgin woman with a man who’s fucked half the female population. I think it makes a lot of sense for Liam and fls dynamic too (+ I livvvveee for subby liam 😩)
ANYWAYS
The band au 🤭 I’m so excited for more chapters omg
the way I called it Are you mine? Had me SCREAMING
i love AM and the references were just too good. Most fics never get pop culture references good but I think you did amazing. I’m gonna binge pistols today solely because of the sex pistols reference and also so I can theorise on what will happen.
the band is so cool too 😭 (name) is actually the embodiment of arabella and Brooklyn baby. She isn’t a rockstar’s gf she is a ROCKSTAR GF and she is hilarious. If she was a real artist I’d absolutely adore her and go to every concert fr
The bit about her parents was so sad but really well written at the same time 😕 like you can tell they care about her and want her to have a good career but they still obviously were in the wrong, especially her father not owning up to his mistake. It reminded me of Lane’s mother in Gilmore girls finding all of Lane’s stuff and kicking her out (please don’t do that to y/n my heart wouldn’t be able to take it)
omg that bit about her meeting liam 😭 it was too too funny. Bro was probably star struck but I love how they’re similar even though you’d expect them to be complete opposites
I’ve been rambling too much now but I’m really proud of you for how well you seem to be managing both writing and college too.
-🦢 anon (aka ur biggest fan)
OMG HI AGAIN
Liams perspective may be coming soon 👀
It’s so hard to write his perspective tho icl. Like what is bro thinking.
Also yes u have no idea how much I hate opening up an mtp fic and then all of a sudden it’s just casual misogyny and gender roles EVERYWHERE like Ik it was normal at the time but surely liam of all people wouldn’t be contributing to it??
The mtp band au is everything to me rn. It’s my baby. I think of it all the time. I just loooove how creative I can be with it
PLEASE WATCH PISTOLS. ITS LITERALLY SO GOOD. THE CINEMATOGRAPHY, THE PLOT, THE SOUNDTRACK, THE CHARACTERS ITS ALL JUST *chefs kiss*
I was actually so tempted to call the fic ‘arabella’ but it felt wrong and restricting because it’s a whole ass name of that makes sense?? I didn’t want people to click on it and think it was gonna be about an oc or something I might add a few arabella references tho 🤭
I was low-key inspired by Lane’s backstory. Like the bit about her trying to find herself except she won’t end up with a Zack because I hated that mf
Also thank you sm 🫶🏼 it really means a lot. It’s pretty tough doing updates but I still want to interact with people on tumblr if that makes sense but I also have to prioritise college too 😕
And dw I don’t mind rambles. Please feel free to send almost anything to my inbox, I really don’t mind <3
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i do this thing where i write notes about my knowledge of a new media before starting it, my experience during it, and then my perspective after (if i finish)
separately, ive also been losing my mind about Outer Wilds for well over a week now. ive decided i want to share it
(if you notice that it's been years since ive posted on here no you didn't)
also if you haven't played the game, i recommended you do not read this and instead go download Outer Wilds
spoilers below
NOTES: Outer Wilds / before playing
- has that one song with annoying whistling that i always skip when it shows up on Spotify
- that one person i follow on Tumblr absolutely loves it it's like their favourite game
- seems like it might be emotional or something?
- uhhhh space aliens? i think??
NOTES: Outer Wilds / start playing
- omg the controls SUCk
- oh IM the alien
- lag lag lag and very not keyboard friendly (yes im playing with a keyboard no i don't have a controller)
- ...
- okay keybind + graphics adjustments, and ive made it ever so slightly better
- i do not want to talk to you
- I DO NoT know what i am supposed to be doing what what what
- maybe i shouldve talked to people
- uhhhhh did I do that?
- the world explodes and dies. why. bc of me?
- UHHh
- oh hey the game references the fact i died lol
- okay Doing this again i guess and won't repeat the thing that killed me i think
- don't fucking TouCH that thing it explodes worlds
- okay okay im getting good info i think def don't want to die this time unless i can save
- do i save at that one statue? let's try
- WAIT FUCK FUCK The World's exploding again WHY
- BUHHHH
- "you're lucky im in a timeloop because otherwise I'd be super dead" – LMAO OKAY I MAY BE WON OVER
- okay so the explosions are independent of me. im going back to that thing and fucking around w/ it
- ...
- 15 Hours Into Game
- brittle hollow and i are besties now
- the lore is intricate ain't it. at times i feel like i understand everything. at others im completely lost. if there's a strategy here i don't know it. im just compelled to explore
- the Southern Observatory kinda went off tho with that visual and music combo
- the Fucking Moon
- i got stuck in anglerfish overlook w/ rising sand and just had to wait to die by being scrunched on the ceiling. absolutely worst way to go was awful and i hated it
- 22 min......
- reading explanations that completely recontexutalizes things i'd took for granted or previously ignored is a trip and a half
- my worldview gets shattered every other loop, millions dead but don't worry death means nothing
- like "the sun station",.. oh. "22 min interval"... OH
- i don't know what else to do here
- giants deep whomst ive ignored
- THERES ANOTHER PERSON WHO STUCK IN THIS TIMELOOP WITH ME?
- !!!
- gabbro my beloved
- hhhngg these puzzles.. am i missing something. should i know it now. will i learn it later. the stupid watery core and electricity...
- ...
- 25 Hours Into Game
- i know this galaxy
- i know it intimately
- but there are some places that are just so stupidly challenging to get to. i get there once. i never want to have to do it again. (giants deep core– once. sun station– once. coleus' lakebed quantum cave– twice. centre of the interloper– twice. the vessel– once. high energy lab– twice.)
- ...
- quantum moon whoag
- uh hm what
- YOURE ALIVE
- solanum i love u
- "think of you as a friend" PLS CAN I HUG
- ...
- 30+ HOURS INTO GAME
- i figured out the ash twin core
- i chickened out of taking the thing to do other things instead. achievement hunting.
- it's simply much too scary. no fallback. what happens if no core, no loop
- oh
- .. oh
- fucking hell i didn't realize how much id become dependent on the safety net of a timeloop. of like, functional immortality
- the fear of the unknown. of something new. of actual death
- ...
- well then
- FINISHING MAIN GAME
- i took the core. i left the ash twin project.
- music immediately begins kicking up into something new and emotional and anticipatory
- I DIDN'T KNOW THERE WAS MORE TO DO
- i panic and warp back to ask twin project. return the core to the machine
- what a wuss. but i feel better
- think think think think
- where Have I Seen that before. the core
- okay i have an idea of what to do but. fear
- I PRACTICE. Practice! i do 3+ runs to test getting past those Fucking FISH
- AND THEN DO IT FOR REAL
- screaming and crying
- BUT I SUCCEED
- whhhjhb whoaggh
- eye...
- HhhHhh quantummmm
- what
- what
- what
- a guy
- what
- ... euuuu cry mine friendsss
- ayy the fucking hell im emotional
- goddamn. What A Game. that music. holy shit
- ...
NOTES: Outer Wilds / post playing
- even as i did the ending there was still a small part of me that thought... i can save them
- ... (there will be a way to save them)
- there wasn't of course. and it hurt. but... not in a completely bad way
- it's like. the small flickering hope i felt at the end of all things, it still meant something. it still got me TO the end
- i know it was just a game but. it makes me think
- ...
- BONUS Saga of me accomplishing achievements: the fact that i later was able to break reality and also talk to myself in game was fun and cool and sexy
- i WILL be playing DLC but i need to recover
#outer wilds#outer wilds spoilers#long post#live reaction (kind of partially)#back from the dead bc i needed to empty my brain#i actually have played echoes of the eye too bu this point#maybe will share those notes too if ppl like
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well now I’m super curious about your ranking!! everyone’s opinions are so different but Dylan being both of our faves is pure taste 😌🤌🏼 also i love reading your tags hehe 💖
OHHHH MY you read my tags!! 🥺 <333 ALRIGHT ALRIGHT I’m so excited to talk to you about this :D I genuinely enjoyed reading through your reviews of the characters and it was so so fun hearing about your perspective and opinions, much much love.
Let’s go :D
11. Chris Hackett
• I’ll be forever mad at the fact that all of this would be avoided if he just talked to the counselors. Which ultimately brings me to the Controversial Hill Of An Opinion that I will DIE on: The fact that all of this happened is Chris’ fault, not Jacob’s. Considering that Jacob ruined the van with a more of an innocent intention to stay just another night, while Chris refused to give them an explanation that made sense and recklessly took off, thinking bunch of teens alone in a camp would actually take his advice and stay in. LOL
10. Abigail
• I can find at least 3 vague similarities between us, but I don’t like how the creators overdid the “socially awkward quirky” personality of hers in the game. The way she struggles to choose someone to dare in the game for 3 minutes, never takes compliments, and is sliiightly a coward ticks all my instant dislike checkboxes. However, I seem to LOVE the way she’s portrayed in fics! So much sweeter, bold and fun.
9. Kaitlyn
Kaitlyn’s a badass and i still like her a lot, but i’m afraid to admit that the love i have for her stemmed from her and Dylan’s friendship sequences where she’s being genuine. I just don’t get along with people who speak and act with massive sarcastic undertones at all times, therefore i feel like she often outdoes the facade she constantly plays of “The Boss Of The Group” which makes her less authentic for me. I often can’t take her seriously even though she’s supposed to be a fan favorite. Other than that, love her bravery, courage and protectiveness.
8. Laura
Honestly I don’t have strong opinions about her other than how badly she handles situations that would undoubtedly bring her towards ultimate doom. Like how she goes to investigate a forest after potentially running into (and over) a strange scary looking blob of a body and how she insists that someone in that basement needed help without staying for a second to look further or listen closely. Plot armor, i get it, but still! She’s a sweetie otherwise tho.
7. Emma
Very iconic, very relatable (especially referring to her interpretation of “faking it”, i feel like that whole conversation gave her so much more depth.), i just do not feel comfortable at all with how ruthless she gets with people. I understand being annoyed with Jacob, but the lines she throws at him for someone who’s just a softie that’s hung up on her are worryingly mean; I also don’t think she kissed Nick in order to “help him and abi out” but, eh. Love her apart from all that.
6. Jacob
He’s a dumbass. I believe he is quite literally THAT childish and silly, also almost the one that never had vile intentions and spent the entire game trying to save his friends (Abi, Emma) before he got caught with wolfie nick. I know if only he’d known this would have happened, he’d drop the idea and think of other alternatives to bother Emma, bahaha
5. Nick
My man dies when he’s supposed to die in-game. There is no more Nick after he turns into a werewolf, which is a pity, considering that there was quite a bit to unpack. Starting from his australian accent.
Beeeeeeuuuurrnnnnnn…
haha, now we beuuuurnnnnn….
4. Ryan
Don’t like how bland and dry he gets at times. Yes, i’m talking about the man that answers back with “smOoOoOth” to Dylan’s pick-up lines TWICE. LMAO. I’m also forever bitter about the fact that he tells Laura that he doesn’t really like Kaitlyn or Dylan more while being clearly interested, what was that about??
Man, i still love this boy, but does he make me mad from time to time😭 Obviously he holds a special place in my heart, but I wish he’d been more gentle with Dylan. I suppose we’re asking for too much here
3. Travis
Poor man is just trying his best. I might be just a TINY bit biased because of Ted Raimi’s BAFFLING performance, but i think Travis is just iconic, start to finish.
2. Max
One of the funniest characters hands down. I admire how patient and respectful he is to Laura throughout the game, he’s genuinely funny and cares for her a whole lot; doesn’t give up easily and doesn’t guilt trip her once for the mess they got into. Idk i adore him.
1. DYLAN
Love love love LOVE love LOVE HIM. Funny and charismatic, easy to get along with, friendly with a bit of sass and FIERCELY protective of his friends (just observe the amount of times he puts himself in front of Kaitlyn to protect her). Doesn’t bother anyone with whatever he’s dealing with, has interesting hobbies and is absolutely wiser than he seems at first glance. Honestly i can’t find one thing wrong with him; I’ll go as far as to say that he’s one of the best written characters in Videogame history to me. Very good boy.
Thank you so much for the ask :D Hope you enjoyed this enormous analysis haha <3
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hello i wanna hear abt the juno and markus amv
hi hello yes!!!!! juno and markus my fucking beloveds!
so, this amv would be set to she's a lady by forever the sickest kids! a song i liked a lot as a kid b/c it's got just the right kinds of sounds to make brain go brrr <3 and also it's a pretty good blorbo song.
she's a lady is essentially a song about like. being in love with someone who's a Huge Fucking Asshole and being a Huge Fucking Asshole back to them. in general it's about a relationship that's very nasty and mutually toxic, but neither person can bring themself to end it. (so yeah this song also Could vibe with arthur and noah, but the song explicitly refers to a woman so i don't think i will. we'll see tho!)
anyway, this song isn't quite accurate for juno and markus, but it still vibes with them a little bit. for context, juno is one of my void-walker ocs, an immortal being who's been alive since the mid-1800s and is Fucking Sick Of Everything. markus, meanwhile, is a normal human they met and befriended in the 1980s, a suicidal man looking for a new purpose in his life after the death of his wife. essentially i took the "sad white middle-aged man who lost his wife" trope, made him Latino, and gave him a bitchy immortal bestie/maybe lover who helps him find joy in his life again.
i'm honestly not sure what juno and markus's relationship would be--if it's romantic, sexual, both, neither, etc.--but i know they were very important to each other. a while ago, i started writing like... a little thing exploring moments from juno's 150+ years of living, and markus appears a lot in that. it's also a thing i've been writing to explore the lore of void-walkers in general, because juno is the first void-walker markus ever met.
ANYWAY i'm not sure either what happened to markus, but i know he and juno aren't in each other's lives by the time of a modern ghost story (which takes place in Ambiguous 21st Century time).
okay so this got long lmao whoops i just wanted to talk about markus a bit-
the actual amv, if i made it, would probably be from markus's perspective on his relationship with juno. juno isn't a woman, but otherwise this applies! juno's a huge bitch to markus and he's a huge bitch right back to them. their relationship is tumultuous at the best of times, but they actually do a lot of good for each other! markus helps juno remember what it was like to be human and is one of the first and only people they've shown vulnerability towards in over a century, and juno helps markus not only come to terms with his loss but learn to move on and find joy in the life he has.
the amv would less be like "oh this relationship is toxic and they're bad for each other" and more like "they're both kinda mean and shitty but they help each other be better."
i don't have much in the way of specific visuals in mind, but i do want to share like. the bit of script i have:
"i'm in love with the girl i hate" - start with a shot of markus standing and leaning against a wall, scowling, with his arms crossed
"she enjoys pointing out" - cut to juno standing across from him, a similar expression on their face and in a similar pose, but their mouth is open
"every bad thing about me" - with each word in this line, a speech bubble appears next to juno with the word in it, as though juno is talking to markus and listing off his flaws to him.
--
and then also uhh the last thing is like. towards the end of the song, before the final chorus, it slows down and takes on kind of a sad, nostalgic quality, and that part of the amv would focus on the good parts of juno and markus's relationship, with them actually helping each other.
i don't have a script in mind for this part, but i do imagine the visuals would include a shot of juno and markus sitting next to each other at the side of a motel pool, dipping their feet in the pool, and leaninig against each other. they both look peaceful--not quite happy, but not angry. just... content in each other's presence.
i also like the idea of the final "she's a lady, and ladies shouldn't be messed with" starting with a shot of juno smiling and laughing, looking genuinely happy and relaxed ("she's a lady"), and ending with a shot of markus watching them with a soft, genuine smile on his face.
#talk to the bunnykitty#bat time all the time#a modern ghost story#ask game#oc ask game#juno london#markus torres#i don't think i have much of a markus tag yet whoops-#anyway i love these two so so much. they mean so much to me#romance cw
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Season 2 finale reaction
Opening the episode with everyone standing a responsible 2 metres apart. Safety first.
Somebody let seven change her shirt please
Hehe yes jl
Again the theme and credits still slap
Tallinn accidentally blurting out a thesis statement for the show
Ooh yes genius hacker raffi
I think I blame Angelina Jolie or maybe Carrie Anne Moss for this but goddamn hypercompetant queer coded hacker women my word my ovaries my dear
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... I apologise for being bi on main again. Let's get back to it.
Dr soong is the Jacob Rees-Mogg of star trek. In a couple of ways tbh
I can't believe a star trek show included a character too smart for the ole outfit change technique
OK but from Renee's perspective this is creepy af
Have you tried, idk, just grabbing a drone and holding it down?
Ew very creepy soong
Yay Rios!!! I liked this victory moment it was wholesome
Tallinn came here to dispense wisdom and die. And she's all out of wisdom
OK that was mean I actually liked this. Orla Brady served this season
Let's be real he's actually the Elon Musk of star trek
KORE
Yes. My wife. Also hacking, because of course. Baby yes she gets something to dooooo!!!!!
Wait what? Um. Khan. Um....
I thought Khan was 1990s in star trek canon? Or was that retconned? Either way it's a clunky as fuck reference not a fan
Um
The fuck
What
Why
.... I don't like this
This episode is bizarrely structured what the hell
Wes here trying to make the dumb nerd time travel people seem cool. They're not. They're dweebs. We all know. Enterprise got this right.
That was random. But I'm glad kore has stuff to do.
KISS
OH MY GOSH MY DARLINGS
KISS KISS KISS
... honestly I don't think I ever truly understood qcard until this moment. I get it
Know thyself.... OK so tangent
"Know thyself" is the usual translation of the words (γνώθι σεαυτον) inscribed in the stone at the oracle of delphi. I mostly know it from the phaedrus but it's kind of everywhere in Greek philosophy. It's interpreted in range of different ways and is all over the place in "intellectual" pop culture. I love this. It's pretentious. It's high camp. Feed it to me with a ladle.
"Why me?" 🥺
I like this convo between q and jl a lot
Very gay 10/10
Get yourself a woman who will not doubt your ability to kill a god. Seven is wife material.
Teresa and child exist in this scene as props. But okay we all knew this was coming. I don't love it, I don't even like it but I'll talk about it some other time.
Forr the record, I hope that off screen Cris and Teresa had some amazing times together, and that whatever project santiago cabrera went off to work on is a success. I've been appreciating that man since Heroes so yes ❤ miss you already
Hahaha omg
Omg the hug
Yes
Heyyyyyy agnes
"Do not resist."
Ahhhh
Woop elnor!!!
Poor thing he doesn't even know what happened or that they'd be returning!!!
My baby kochanie my love my baby
I cannot believe that Agnes through shere power of nerddom reformed the fucking borg. I love her
Irrelevant but the polski shelf at Tesco's had Ukrainian chałwa. I tried it and tbh it's not as good. Solidarity anyway!
OK so dessert break over
This is sweet. Rios is a legend. Still sad he was written out tho
Sometimes a found family is you, your beautiful cyborg wife and your assassin nun son.
N'awww that was cute
It didn't do the thing I was dreading (ending on a massive cliffhanger). I think I'll definitely watch s3. Was pleasantly surprised by this despite some complaints. I have a more thought out retrospective planned but for now? Mostly positive, some complaints.
Also did I mention elnor????
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About EA Policy Drama
I've just seen a creator compare rape to ea policy related stuff I'm sorry but wtf is wrong with people these days I've seen these pop right all over Tumblr that's not okay no offence but EA has all the rights not you creators if EA says something must not be behind a paywall of any sort then don't but literally I've just been ingnore this drama goin on but now it's all over no matter how I ingorn it but that reference is out of line even tho it's true they don't have the right too but comparing it to content literally just wtf but earlier access from what I know it's fine for what about 2-3wks but putting it behind a paywall permanently probably not okay I honestly thought creating was because you enjoy it and it makes you happy therefore make others happy I know it certainly makes me happy when I do recolors of my own of colours and little patterns of my own and seeing people happy to use it makes me happy I'm only small when it comes to that and I don't put anything behind a paywall I only use patron to follow and support my favourite creators when I can which isn't always because of my lack of money but even with lack of money I don't have tiers or behind paywalls one because I don't know how to use it for such purpose as another platform for my stuff and because I want everything to be free and accessible for those who do enjoy my recolors I do for Sims and two I still can make small living through gardening for the elderly I value the gardening more then the money and yes it's nice being paid for my hard work but to be greedy hell no this isn't okay and this is going out of line quickly especially with the creators who are guilt tripping people making people feel guilty because they don't like the rules EA has put in place no offence but alot of you's never really said your situation until ea put those rules so it looks shady and wrong to me for those who do tho even before the rules koodios to know and seems like you's aren't in it just for the money but actually enjoy it and like seeing how happy it makes people but those who suddenly doin sob stories to guilt people it's not okay and it's a form of manipulation and shows you don't quite value the community unless it benifits you sorry not sorry for my honesty if your a good creator and people enjoy your content then you having nothing to worry about they will still support you and it be without the guilt tripping manipulation now for the anons first off I understand it annoys you that people abuse the privileges they were given but there is no need to be nasty pasty about it and add slurs and insults in it and attacks them it won't do any good but for those who are polite about it but the people who they were polite too being nasty you didn't deserve that and it just shows their true colours this all I will say from my perspective and brutal honesty about it want anymore on my thoughts feel free to send me an ask I'll happily answers it but be polite about it don't come attacking me cause you don't like my thoughts and if you feeling I'm attacking you that's on you that you feel that way because I've probably called yous out unknowingly and everyone one way or another was affected by COVID not just you's but this is my take on it
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Bocchi reference to undertale trailer??
So undertale. All of you must've know about this rpg pixel game that have been released since 2015 with a fandom that might be very radioactive, full of skeleton that's dating another skeleton, and skeleton or any other monster that do what they call "breeding".
This game is entirely different than any other typical rpg game I've ever played, and perhaps yours too. The thing that might be one of the element that could make this game so famous is because of its gameplay system, where you can actually solve a problem in peace and did not have to kill them.
This game also get it's popularity from big youtuber like jacksepticeye, Markiplier, and other big youtuber aswell (even tho at some point toby fox a.k.a the developer of undertale request the youtubers not to make any video about the game and even a bunch of spoiler in it because he want the player to play the game without any knowledge at all).
What make this game is even more impressive that it got more popularity than it should be, and there's only two person that actually make this game, and it's ofcourse, toby fox himself (the coder, planner, composer, etc.) aswell with temmie chang (the artist). They've been making this game for around 2 years or more (I don't know the exact date) and gotta be honest, they really do deserve the popularity they got today (but of course everyone know about that information by now).
Now the sad thing about it is the fandom itself that actually the one who's ruining the game by a bunch of nsfw arts, toxic behavior, and alot of other stuff that change the game perspective for some people because of alternate universe where it's all about fighting the player who does genocide. When in reality it's just one goofy-ahh game with humor, and jokes inspired by earthbound (toby favorite game that inspired him alot).
Now perhaps I've been talking way tooo much about undertale stuff by now (since i might be one of the fan of this game ehem ehem) and I do am sorry for that (not really), but now you all must be asking what kind of reference is exactly that came from undertale? And well it's not really coming from the game itself, but the trailer of the game.
Even though the actual official trailer have been deleted by toby, the deletion were late for bocchi to make an actual reference straight from it... kind of. It's just kind of surprising when I found out that it's actually a straight reference from undertale. And without further ado the reference aree *insert drumroll*
YES! a one second moment from a random shitpost secene! Might be not some "big surprising reference or reveal" but hey, it's still a reference from a indie game.. so that's rare. Especially from a big company making some popular anime for the season, or for full year (maybe), or perhaps a full month atleast. I don't know.
And if it's not a reference from the trailer then I don't know where it came from. Perhaps a original idea that coincidentally the same? Who knows.
Well I don't think I have anything to say except for thank you for reading until this point and conglatz for acknowledging a new random facts about bocchi I guess ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
c i a o ✨✨✨
(I'm so sorry for not posting for forever)
((and making a blog this short))
#bocchi the rock!#gotou hitori#bocchiposting#blog#undertale#toriel#3d#trailer#shitpost#random#masterpiece#indie games#toby fox#anime#bocchi anime#bocchi chan#tutoriel#goat#goat mom#hit#toriel undertale#nice goat mom#toxic fandom#toxic#knowledge#youtuber#temmie#temmie chang#game developers#gamedev
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Kaeya Alberich & Why his Failure is Inevitable
A theory on Kaeya’s reaction to- that event in his backstory.
take everything with a grain of salt , because it’s heavily based on assumptions, most of which are centered around his reaction to- backstory stuff, so gonna put that under the cut-. i actually originally said this in a reblog to someone asking the exact question awhile ago
im kinda in a content drought though so i might as well bring it back, hopefully some people find it interesting in this context though. Lol a lot of it is just seeing how angsty i can make it too so- ehe
actual content under the cut: (spoilers for kaeya’s backstory, diluc’s backstory, Khaenri’ah lore, and a bit of Childe’s backstory)
so the exact verbiage used in kaeya’s story for his reaction to Master Crepus’s death is:
“Even someone like Master Crepus would submit to such a dangerous and evil power…”
Sinister thoughts flashed through Kaeya’s mind, and he simply smirked—
“This world is truly… fascinating.”
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Now I’m actually pretty sure this quote ties in, not to the destruction of khaenri’ah, but to the cataclysm before it. Specifically, it deals with the Khaenri’ahn alchemist Gold who started it.
Canonically, Gold was an incredibly ambitious alchemist specializing in khemia 500 years ago. Their most well know achievement is corruption of the dragon Durin, but concealed much deeper in Teyvat’s history, a number of Gold’s legacies include incorporating the powers of the abyss into their alchemy(and eventually being corrupted by those very same powers, tho it might be a translation error), followed by the destruction of Khaenri’ah’s Eclipse Dynasty(including the royal family and the royal guards tasked with protecting the people of Khaenri’ah), and this was followed shortly by ‘using their talents to create an army of “shadowy monsters."’
these monsters, blood filled with the corruption of the abyss, would only continue pouring out of Khaenri’ah in waves until the fateful day that it was destroyed. The era of suffering these monsters caused would come to be known as the cataclysm.
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taking those facts into account, it could be a remark about how even someone as kind hearted as Master Crepus could fall to the temptation and corrupting aspects of power that caused his people’s fall so long ago, even without the naturally corruptive effects of power from the abyss.
that’s sad- but if you get into the theory of it its even sadder the further you go.
Now theory wise its important to make a few connections- I am under the impression that the “fall of the Eclipse Dynasty” that Gold caused through abyssal power was actually the first instance of Khaenri’ah’s curse, and the monsters of the cataclysm- were among the curse’s first victims.
a bit sadder with the fact that his statement can now refer to his feelings of there truly being nothing that could have been done to prevent the very same exact curse that has caused him so much suffering through his life. There was no resisting the corruption of power, only delaying it. It hammers in the fact that the reason he was sent to Mondstadt truly might be the destiny he had many times been told it was. A cruel joke from Celestia perhaps?
but not sad enough. let’s pull out the big one.
The Khaenri’ahn Royalty Kaeya theory. (there’s a lot- im not gonna cover the explanation behind that one here)
Gold, the most powerful alchemist in Khaenri’ah would likely have worked under the Eclipse Dynasty, so assuming the theory of Kaeya(and Dainsleif) being the last member of the Eclipse Dynasty, its reasonable to say he would have known Gold. Now whether Gold was a good person or not is irrelivant because it remains the same either way. Kaeya has twice seen the corrupting abilities that come with power strip him of all those close to him, shouldering him with an additional responsibility to carry out in their memory that he never wanted. Yes this hurts more if he was close with Gold and Crepus managed to make him feel safe enough to get close to people even after that- but I’m here to provide the facts and theories, not the emotions, though theres a lot
but…. its a stretch(like a big stretch)… but for the sake of going all out on a limb, we can take this one step further.
In Childe’s story it references the abyss by saying “this dark realm had sensed the burning ambition in this boy’s heart” and it can be assumed that the powers granted by the abyss, as the natural opposition to Celestia(natural as in abyss magic literally opposes the magic of Celestia by nature) might just opporate in a similar way to the gnosises. Kaeya has no knowledge of gnosises though so for now lets use the word visions.
The powers of the abyss that were given to Gold would likely have been favored over visions from the gods in a godless nation like khaenri’ah afterall. and if he knew Gold, a known genius, he likely wouldnt have noticed anything off until it was too late. A sudden fall from his perspective. Visions, delusions, power from the abyss, what difference truly is there to a child raised to shun the gods. All are granted through ambition, and all will only end in suffering
afterthought:
However the main thing behind the Khaenri’ahn Royalty aspect of this angst fest- Kaeya would have been extremely young during Gold’s corruption and Khaenri’ah’s fall… like i cant help think of that one tik tok audio “that must be so confusing for a little girl” but it really does fit because now i can’t shake the imagery of Kaeya, faced with the imagery of the man who raised him dead as a result of a power he chose to use. And he finally understands what he was too young to understand back then. the world is not fascinating in a way that he is interested in it or wants to know more about it, but more interesting in the way that people’s eyes are involuntarily drawn to images of tragedy. It’s an expression of cruel irony, of truths he was forced to face, of knowledge he doesn’t want to know, but that he needs to know- if he plans on carrying through with his destiny- siding against Mondstadt. but siding with Mondstadt would cause him to turn against Khaenri’ah as Gold had all those years ago, and is that not fulfilling a cycle of fate all the same?
It’s an expression of mourning. He is chained by the legacy of Khaenri’ah and there’s nothing he can do to escape it. Either way the cycle will repeat. This fate gives him a unique power and even he will eventually succumb to it, doomed to be viewed as a corrupted betrayer no matter who he sides with, to doom yet another civilization in return. Such is his preordained role as the last hope of Khaenri’ah. The unescapableness, the way it all becomes so sure and clear and nauseatingly relevant in that very moment are what drive him to say that as he finally realizes that he cannot win.
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of course a lot of this is a stretch and just theories, but the angst potential was there so i decided to run with it lmao
additional afterthought: this isn’t something kaeya would know, but the corruption of Durin by Gold was actually predicted by a priestess in dragonspine before Celestia destroyed it and made it like it is now.
just angsty because it reinforces the idea of a repeating cycle of foretold destiny that no matter hard hard Kaeya tries, he will never be able to escape. Really puts Mona’s “He believes he has made a clean break with his past, but one day fate will catch up with him” line into perspective.
#genshin impact#genshin analysis#kaeya#genshin kaeya#genshin theory#angst#genshin angst#genshin impact kaeya#genshin impact angst#kaeya angst#kaeya alberich#khaenri'ah#khaenriah#idk what else to tag#ill probably remember late#wow im bad at formatting#i dont actually adress the actual topic until a lot later and for a lot less time#than i thought i did#so uh.... oops#it works oh well
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THIS HAS BEEN DONE BEFORE BUT BEAR WITH ME- ELEMENTAL GOD NINJAGO AU
basically, the ninja are gods, literally all of them. lloyd is technically a demi-god because his mother is human, zane's body isn't human in origin and has been rebuilt multiple times (was originally some type of golem, maybe living statue idk, anyways current body is a robot lol.)
all the gods have elemental/full power forms, live for an incredibly long time, and often work around humans- as they often look human enough
Nya-
had 20 wives at one point in the early 1700s, she does not focus on romance as there are more important things to her, but she did do that
she enjoys studying humans and understands technology from a perspective of literally watching it advance from the 1700s forward
she is the one braincell. the one.
her water has healing properties and she has poems about her saving sailors who nearly drowned
Kai-
totally seduced like.. a lot of humans.
scams people on the street by doing the eating fire sticks trick
older than nya, but only by 50 years. not much in god years tbh
he and jay started a duo or boyband and got super popular sometime in the 90s, he refuses to speak of this, but he has a surprisingly good singing voice
he goes to parties under disguise for shits and giggles, he's the guy at parties who gets stories of him chugging an entire bottle of vodka and hardly being affected (you know, because he is a god alcohol does like. nothing)
does not understand tech at all, why have a microwave when you can burn food? extremely supportive of Nya tho
Zane-
has half a braincell
does not understand the limits of a human body, like on any level
he mostly sticks to himself, but he is the most likely to straight up admit he is a god, no one believes him because gods are a "myth"
he is a prophet, he's had like. a lot of his visions come true. when he has a vision shit goes down
around the same age as kai, if not older
he has been an on and off history profesor, college staff joke about him being ancient and never actually signing up. he didn't realize they were joking and temporarily switched over to working in a highschool for twenty or smth years, did not go well
Cole-
the oldest
likes humans, finds them very interesting, mostly what him and Nya talk about
totally eats like a lot of rocks, menace. (he probably cracked a tooth or some shit because he tried to eat a diamond) he also eats money, yes dead serious.
REALLY ENJOYS SCREWING WITH HUMANS
one of his hobbies is shitposting on random forums that are very serious (normally posts completely wrong information just to see what will happen)
absolutely refuses to sing
his elemental form is the most stable out of everyone else's, it is made of rock and magma
Jay-
he has been a celebrity like 4 times (at least) whenever he gets too much attention he fakes his death and comes back in the next several years
due to his celebrity habit there are many conspiracy theories he's secretly immortal, he disproves this by going on talk shows and getting trivia about himself wrong
every time someone pokes them he gives them a static shock, he has to use a lot of hairspray to keep his hair still because of the static
every time he can he teases kai for being in a boyband with him
he's really good at video games like in canon, he's like, the youngest except for Lloyd so he has a more.. normal(?) connection to technology
Lloyd-
he is the youngest
the others treat him as the group child, because of his demi-god status the others have practically known him his whole life, Kai is very protective over him after he starts living in the monastery
he survives off of energy drinks. purely. constantly shaking, like all the time.
absolutely knew nothing of Jay's celebrity statuses for a long time, until he put actual research into them, he continues to do this, Jay doesn't know how much he knows. Lloyd knows way more than he actually lets on, he uses subtle references and watches Jay's reaction
he's half human, so like, not his mom because misako fucking dipped Garmadon had decided he should go to Darkly's to have like, a normal-ish human thing go on. Wu monitors his behaviour in the school, basically making sure that while he's busy lloyd doesn't start doing god shit
he does the serpentine shit like in canon and everyone is like "oh fuck we got a demi god child walking around getting a snake army, we have to stop this"
#ninjago#ninjago au#kai smith#zane julien#nya smith#jay walker#lloyd garmadon#cole brookstone#rambles#classic character is a god now because i say so au#long post
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