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Welcome to the Show -BD PPT Part 10
Again, I have ADHD and BD and can agree that yes, My ADHD symptoms sucked extra hard when added to the early BD onset.
The below entry shows (1) binge-eating and (2) OCD intrusive-esque thoughts.
[Journal entry]
October 1st, 2022
Sabbath, 3:24 PM
Last night I went to bed at about 6:00 AM. Today I woke at 2:30-ish.
The first thing I noticed when I got out of bed was (1) I was very tired, (2) my neck hurt just a bit, so I slept on it wrong—not badly enough though—because it doesn’t hurt at all now, praise the lord; (3) hungry.
There was a hunger about me.
I remembered how last night like a desperate man I scavenged through our kitchen. I think it’s the mania making me hungry, because I just felt this overwhelming need to eat something.
The caramel was gone, as was the jam, so I had taken an apple we got on wednesday that we bought from a farmer lol, and now it was all I had. So I ate about half of it.
These honey crisp apples taste really good. I kind of chided myself for indulging in one though, because my stomach was burning pain—like scabs inside my gut, or internal bleeding—and I had trouble with even the idea of consuming any kind of solid food. My dad brought home instant mashed potatoes because of this. So, what in the world was I doing at 4:00 in the morning??? Eating an apple when I know solid food isn't going to go down well? (Doesn’t matter cause I ate it anyway, lmao.)
But I was still hungry—so I ate old taco bell beef-corn tortilla hard shell—tacos that sat on the stove. (That can’t be a healthy dietary choice LOL.) After I finished one of them, I went back to my room, I don’t know to do what, probably waste time on youtube or with editing screenshots from Donbrothers episode 19, and man my stomach took to that taco like gasoline to fire.
Almost immediately I regretted making that choice.
But then an hour later I went back to the leftover taco bell, and had some of the dorito taco (not all of it), just maybe ⅓ or half. [Then I fvcked around and went to bed maybe a few hours later.]
Today is sabbath—so y’know—I’m supposed to be resting. And I AM.
Comma, space, however—
Well. There are just things that I want to do. I’ve gathered my sketchbook, [insert a bunch of writing journals and reference books] and also my pencil case.
(LMAO.)
Ngl though, the fact that it’s 4:00 PM had the burning—lightning-ous—feeling, back inside my stomach. I had it before I even started this journal entry, and I still have it now. Like my mind—or more aptly, my fvcking stupid-a$$ intrusive thoughts (Kyle <3) — just kept repeating:
“ah, the day is over, you didn’t do anything, the day is over, you didn’t do anything, the day is basically already finished and what are you doing? Sitting here on the couch knowing that you will never be able to do any of the things that you want to do, because the day is over and you’ve already done nothing. You’ve done it again. The only thing it seems you **are** able to do— nothing. Isn’t that funny? Now you’ll have to try again on Sunday, and inevitably fail again. The day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over the day is over
the day is over—”
ENOUGH!
And whenever I look at the clock, or think about the time, or even just see the shadows in the curtains, my thoughts do it all over again—and again—and again.
Then I can feel the breath in my throat, and all the energy inside my stomach just is everywhere. Anxiety.
(Not a great feeling lmao.)
So yeah—I’ll try and come back here before I go to bed ( I mean, don’t count on it LOL), and so ….yeah. I got nothing else to really say rn other than, uh, see you later? (Lordt.)
[entry end]
The above entry I think does a good job at showing binge-eating. It’s super easy for people with BD to end up with an eating disorder.
I fvcking fainted in college because I slept during the cafeteria hours so I was surviving on like…vending machine m&ms. Not to mention when I get in those depressive periods I can go full days without eating because I either can’t get out of bed or the idea of eating makes me nauseous.
And then there will be days where I’ll wake up in the middle of the night, and almost like sleep-walk in a daze to the kitchen and eat whatever I can get my hands on no matter how sh*tty and unappetizing it is.
Anyways—all this to say that BD comes with extra baggage of mental illness 😵💫🤤🥴🤕👻👾👾👾👾👽🙀😮💨🫠.
Still cannot stop laughing at the youtube comment LOL.
"Wow! Bipolar people are human too!" Like yeah, who would've thought
🤪
Just goes to show how powerful and prevalent stigma is for mental illness -- but esp. for BD.
Hopefully this info helps get rid of that stigma >:/
....༼ง’̀-‘́༽ง
༼ง’̀-‘́༽ง mfer
If someone tells you they’re Bipolar, that can be a very real and very big thing. That means they trust you. So writing it off as, “that doesn’t matter to me” comes off as insensitive because it matters to US, bro. It fvcking matters to us.
I was watching a podcast where the speaker (who had Bipolar) was talking about their experience where they met this guy that seriously did not believe Bipolar was a real actual thing and thought those people needed to “get over themselves.” Which infuriates me to the SEVENTH degree. It’s also wild asf, but again.
Y’all don’t know SHXT when it comes to Bipolar
For those still asking this question:
tldr; y'all don't know SHXT about Bipolar. x2
"Y'all" including mental health professionals and doctors 🤪
naw fr though.
Normally I would be like "yeah, whatever" but using that as an adj can get tricky ESPECIALLY if you start using it to describe a person because then you might spread unintentional bias and misinformation onto others.
"Oh --Vegas is bipolar?" No. He is NOT bipolar.
Don't. fvcking. Use. That. ADJECTIVE!!!
So, Werewolves = Bipolar in a nutshell
(Let me explain lmao.)
Werewolves have 2 sides to themselves — the human side, which is mainly present and in control, and the beast — which comes out every moon cycle or so, raises all sorts of hell, and then disappears. Always leaving the human counterpoint to deal with the aftermath.
Humans that turn into werewolves prepare for full moons — often going into isolation so as to not hurt their loved ones, or irreparably damage their life, and the lives of those around them.
With a good support system, a werewolf can live a normal life (mostly), where their other-self isn’t always wrecking havoc. For people with Bipolar, it’s the same. We are not always werewolves. We are often human. Our illness is cyclical — it will always have a new cycle, and it cannot be cured. When we have an “episode” — though no two bipolar people are the same; how we act, think, feel, and what we do can change. We are not separate from “the beast,” however. Both sides are very much the same person. Though they can be drastically — drastically — different.
In his interview with Rolling Stone, Ian stated (about one of the songs on his album):
“— On “Miss Understood,” it’s a character’s diary entry where she fell in love with Ian but she kinda fell in love with MITO, too. It comes from personal experience; I want to date when I’m Ian, but there was one moment where she liked the darkness in me, which was weird because it’s like, “You don’t really know what this brings.” But she stuck around, and it was hard to be me in front of her. There was a sense of inferiority, for sure, because I know how different I am between my states, but also I was very cautious not to give my all in that [down] state because I’m not wanting to hurt someone mentally. So I’d just seclude myself. A lot of the songs in this album hit on this note.”
For the moon, Bipolar episodes are (as previously stated, perhaps multiple times) cyclical. They run in cycles — over and over and over again. The days come and go, but then there will always be that transition into a full moon, just as how the entire moon will also eventually completely disappear from sight during a New Moon. (Plus the connection / belief popular culture has with the superstition that a Full Moon brings madness with it / lunacy.)
So we’ve finally come to the end of this PPT series…genuinely hoped this was enlightening to anyone it happened to come across.
If you have any other questions feel free to comment or dm me. 🥳
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Journal Entries: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5
PPT Essay Extras: (1), (2), (3), (4), (5)
PPT Essay: [1], [2], [3], [4], [5], [6], [7] , [8], [9]
Visual Clips (Depressive Episodes): (1), (2)
#yeah so this is the end of the ppt#how did you guys like it?#learn anything? LOL#asking for friend#my thougts#bipolaire#bipolar disorder#manic depression#actually bipolar#mental health#neurodiversity#neurodivergencies#dpr ian#dpr we gang gang#christian yu#fvcking moodswings ⚡️✌️#a scoup of life 🔫🦆
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why does my body wake itself up when it hasn’t gotten enough sleep???? why does it do that like do you not want to sleep anymore??????? its been five hours why are you dragging me up??????????????????????? and not letting me go back to sleep??????????????????
#new development for something that’s been bothering me consistently over the years and god fucking damn it#had to give a training presentation while almost asleep i swear#the impression i make on the youth is spotless#opened it up like “yeah yeah… good job and whatever… um could do better so that’s why this ppt… sorry im very sleepy…”#had perked up by the end up of it but ughhh
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Today I have not made the best use of my time but I HAVE at least made MORE THAN ZERO use of my time and honestly good for me
#I made a presentation for a class just because I needed to get my thoughts on paper (ppt)#and I didn’t think it would count as an assignment I just needed to share#but y professor was like ‘yeah that more than counts also no one else do it like that it was technically wrong in every way’#also I started to make a 10 slide quiz for teaching passive voice and ended up with a very good much bigger presentation so that’s fun
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37/60 dop - [19/January]
(the notes i took yesterday and good omens)
📑 Yesterday was surprisingly productive, i ended up studying half of the topics of my next test (or 1/4 of it, depending on whether I'll want to retake the first test - but our professors haven't grade it yet🫠 - for context, we will be able to retake the test next tuesday. so yeah, i would appreciate to know my grade beforehand lol)
🧬 Btw, all I'm studying now is for Computational Methods for Physiological Processes (this is the best translation i could find, sorry if it sounds weird), hence why I haven't specified, bc the name of the subject is a bit of a mouthful lol.
But the bit I'm studying for the second test is basically just Biophysics, so maybe I'll just call it that....
So today's to do:
✅ watch ep 2 s2 of good omens🪽
✅ revise the topics i studied yesterday📝
✅ study the complementary notes for those topics and the respective chapters in the Biophysics textbook (i would tell y'all which textbook it is, but it's a Portuguese one written by the previous professor of the subject)📚
⬜ study 2 Biophysics ppts [Double Electric Layer and Donnan Membrane]
✅ email my landlord?? landlady? idk if the word can be used in the feminine lol
aand that's it. I gotta go watch good omens now :))
Hope y'all have a wonderfull day <33
#studyblr#study blog#studyspo#stemblr#stem student#study blr#study goals#aj's daily goals#60 dop#60 days of productivity challenge#60 days of productivity#adhd studyblr#adhd student#student life#college student
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dream & their godly parents
warnings: blades swords swearing gay shit mentions of kissing and food I think
note: love pjo and nct sooo yeah
마크<3
defo big 3
i think Poseidon is the best match
in chilling in the dream
how he was ok with the cold ass water
ma boi yes.
when he finds out ab being able to control water
(also surprised he can talk w horses)
“whoa dude- what just happened”
“u have powers” “wtf”
also … his spider-sense
very agile in combat
outside the arena……
clumsy somehow??
different story for another day
don't let him near bows and arrows
my guy how did u manage to break 4 bows in the span of 3 minutes
he is clearly as confused as you are
“dude I'm as lost as u”
our Canadian boy<3
런쥔<3
did I make this whole post just to vent ab child-of-athena!renjun
ummm… ofcourse
every sane person would do that right ????
right????
n e gays
very smart
book and street
gives the best advice
very calm…. is……. yeah no one believed that
shouts a lot but outside of libraries
if u disrespect libraries u are done w him
gets lost in thought a lot
lots of spacing out
probably planning his next murder but u didn't hear it from me
very skilled w bow and arrow
with swords….. not so much
very charming in an unexpected way
loves owls bc they remind him of his mom
has read harry potter
avid hater
(has secretly watched the half blood prince 13 times and has a ppt of 40 slides ab why its the best movie)
ace <3
does not care ab sex
제노<3
big 3
100%
he is the one with the most Zeus vibes
or ares maybe
but I don't see him being conflictive
but he is sharp? if that makes sense
(it does not ik)
but yeah
very scary looking
has a reputation for being good at close combat
biggest softie ever
can sometimes control electricity
gets called sparkly fingers by jaem
bc when he's nervous he fidgets w the electricity
gets along w jaemin bc jaemin was very anti-social
and he was a social butterfly with no real friends
they are inseparable now
rumor says they make out sometimes but u didn't hear it from me
bi wife energy but he's the bi wife
동혁<3
an Afrodite kid if I ever saw one
when he arrived to camp
he was the moment
the initial thought was that he was gonna be mean
bc that's how movie logic works
pretty= mean
don't blame me blame Hollywood
but he is an actual ray of sunshine
gets confused a lot w apollo kids
bc ma boi has pipes
gets along w everyone
but is not afraid to stand up for his friends
very extroverted and witty
has a good sense of humor and is street smart
met mark just as they were both discovering their powers
when he is close to a person he can see who they have feelings for
safe to say he saw Jeno and jaem
stuck w mark bc he could relate to him
ended up being soulmates
hyuck is a ray of sunshine
재민<3
hades…
yes
he is powerful and he knows that
likes that he can inspire fear
On the inside he loves romcoms and cries every time he watches the notebook
big softy
tsundere!!
was not close to a lot of people
no one except his brother and sister (irene and yoongi)
they adore each other so much
it's like they have their own language
but he had like o friends so when jeno approached him
he was surprised to say the least
likes being accompanied in silence
haTES small talk
would very much rather talk ab ones purpose on earth
or death too (pun kinda intended
talks ab deep shit w renjun
who he met through jeno
jeno says his coffee order comes from the depths of hell
(funny u say that )
jaem switches their drinks to see the disgusted expression on jeno’s face
(a simps behavior)
천러<3
apollo kid??
yeah
doesn't really fit in w his siblings
bc he has a darker aura
people mistake him for an ares kid
but he loves his siblings and his siblings love him
as an apollo kid he can sing v well
beautiful voice
but kinda shy to sing live
not scared to approach others
but prefers staying in his circle
really likes daggers
and is vv good w them
he trained mark for a bit
and then gave up bc he realized the canadian is helpless w any dagger or bow or anything except swords for a reason
arrived at camp w jisung
been stuck by the hip ever since
I see chenle where is jisung 🤨🤨 oh there he is hi ji
constantly giving each other gifts
fun fact his dagger was a jisung gift when they were finding their preferred weapon
lowkey like each other
they spend time near the auditorium
(word on the street says they make out sometimes but u didn't hear it from me)
i love chenle
지성<3
CHILD OF ARESSSSS
tell me u don't agree🤨
impossible
cute but agile
he is vv shy tho
when he battles completely transforms
extremely talented w swords
when he first picked up one
he felt complete??
idk that's what he told chenle
his sword is made of celestial bronze
takes care of it more than his life
his sword was a gift from his dad
but his dad sent it by chenle
chenle jokes that he is the best gift-giver ever
training and fighting is very therapeutic for him
98% of the time is in the arena when he is not with chenle
trains with the straw dummies when he has a lot on his mind
“training w straw dummies is very mundane so it helps me think”
he is on the younger side out of all the campers
but has more experience than most of them
#nct#nct dream#nct fluff#nct headcannons#nct imagines#nct reactions#nct escenario#mark imagines#mark headcanonns#mark reactions#renjun imagines#renjun headcanonns#renjun reactions#jeno imagines#jeno headcanonns#jeno reactions#haechan imagines#haechan headcanonns#haechan reactions#jaemin imagines#jaemin headcanonns#jaemin reactions#chenle imagines#chenle headcanonns#chenle reactions#jisung imagines#jisung headcanonns#jisung reactions
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BL Tag Game
Yo @ommited-miscellaneously thanks my for the tagging me. I love needing out over these.
All time favorite bl character and why.
Pat Napat - living, breathing green flag. Respects boundaries, draws one when needed, admits to mistakes and changes. He is the first character that made me realise what the term comfort character means.
Kinn Theerpanyakul - the to protect and comfort instinct he brings in is soo strong. Grown to be a shadow of his father, we already see how different he is - passionate (we saw that in first episode when he murdered traitors and gift wrapped them with a bow) , loyal, honest, dependable and emotionally constipated babie of mine :")
What's your one character from a bl you wanted to punt in to the stratosphere?
(I am probably gonna get a lot of hate but let's go) Phupa - it bugs me that till end he did not apologise. And no he took a bullet isn't a justification to me because he would have done that for any civilian, hell team member. But he didn't apologise to tian and instead said non apology crap like "I forgive you", "torfun forgives you" and I was screaming at screen like WHERE IS YOUR APOLOGY MISTER??
Best music moment from a bl.
Please this answer is gonna be soo basic but Pat and Pran rooftop episode 5. Enough said.
AND to my star - the title track being played when he is running home to Seo Jun.
A popular heterosexual text you would like to see adapted in to a bl.
My mind is a blank. That's how long it has been since I've read a book. I thought of 2 Bollywood movies though - Don and Devdas.
Don - Ohm Pawat as Don and Bright as Roma
Devdas - Mile as Devdas, Win as Paro and the dude who played Mork in Fish Under the sky as Chandramukhi because he dances well - and if gulf can dance - gulf because he has got such expressive eyes! (desis I need yalls input on casting and hence tagging yall) @boysbeloving @surajmukhis @7nessasaryevils @sereinartemishan @m0hinii (I am tagging yall for the game as well)
A scene from a bl that always makes you laugh.
(this is low key mean) but the beach kiss as sotus s because they started a ppt??! Like my guys - you guys could have just faded the screen with a wide shot - WE WOULD KNOW THEY WERE KISSING - but instead they started a ppt
Biggest disappointment
None. I watch "No plot just vibes" bls to shut my brain so I know what I am going for.
If you ask me though, tonhon's characters writing - he could be written soo well and layered but instead we got... yeah, well.
What two random bl characters would make hilarious exes.
Sarawat from 2gether and Tharn from TharnType. The soft introvert and loud extrovert.
Who would be the funniest person to watch a BL in its entirety and which one would you make them watch.
I think my grandmother because she would be too busy processing it.
Best wardrobe moment/or character wardrobe from a bl.
The list is long people. Hold up.
Tang yi - history 3 trapped - THE SUITS. Especially the striped one.
Kinn Theerpanyakul - the helicopter blue shirt, the ombre suits, the black with white stripes when they were at hum bar and he was judging porsche for eating cocokraches. That shirt has me soo feral. I've written smuts in my head based on that shirt.
Fiat - don't say no- the red suit in finale.
I am tagging @morathicain @smittenskitten @snimeat @petevegas @liyazaki @ahdriking and anyone else who wants to do it
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haha hearing your thoughts on gmmtv’s way of promoting their pairs was interesting (and i agree with what you say. I’m quite critical of how it’s done and how fandom engages with it even though i do genuinely enjoy a lot of the parts of it). anyway, it’s pretty popular, so i think you probably know it, but my favorite bl is utsukushii kare. i am genuinely crazy over that show. i made a 100+ slide ppt about it for fun and I’ve rewatched s1 countless times. it just works for me perfectly. i dunno a romance that has reflected my own experiences more accurately. i love how interesting the dynamic of the main couple is, the themes are very very intriguing to me (actually, sort of fits with the topic here, because a big problem is that hira participates in the idolatry of his own goddamn boyfriend) and well the show just really clicked for me. the movie made me cry. so did the novels. so yeah i will die on the utsukare hill. WILL NOT go on a 20 paragraph rant abt it here cuz this IS a gmmtv bl tournament anon but yeah. if anyone reading this hasn’t watched it i recommend it wholeheartedly.
That is a TOP NOTCH choice, your taste is impeccable, Anon!
While it's not my favourite Japanese BL, when I watched it the first time it impressed and surprised me so much. I wasn’t sure I was going to like it based on the plot description and some of the comments out there but in the end, I think it gets an unfairly bad rep. It kept me glued to the screen and I'm really glad it got a second season and a movie 'cause they added so much depth to the story.
And you're right, it does bring up a very intelligent conversation about idolatry which, in all honesty, I think went over a lot of people's heads.
I'll take a page out of your book and end it here 'cause this is, in fact, a GMMTV tournament!
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‘Sits in interviewers chair’
ok, I would love to know your answers on these questions 4, 5, 23, 25, and 27 please
‘Passes mic to you’
*gets pretty and prepares a ppt slideshow* let's do this
4. How many WIPs do you have right now?
between my fics and the requests, probably like over 30 :')
5. What’s a fic idea you’ve had that you will never write?
i had a whole series in mind for one of my OCs that @uniltaron drew for me, and i love him so much, but i just don't know if people would be interested in him/want to read it/if i have the time.
23. How do you choose where to end a chapter (if you have multi-chapter works)?
funnily enough, i care A LOT about the ends of my chapters, so much so that i plan the chapter with the ending in mind first. like sometimes I will add more stuff just to have enough words to finish the chapter where i wanted to. i LOVE a good cliffhanger, so i base my chapters around it mostly.
25. Have you ever upset yourself with your own writing?
oh yeah all the time. my bf was actually worried about me when i was writing cruel summer, bc i was bawling my eyes out like every day, bc i was living in that mindset continuously and playing it in my head so i can write the dialogue for it. same with seven in illicit affairs and epiphany in the archer.
27. Is there a fic you were nervous to post/share? Why?
yeahh, illicit affairs. bc i hadn't been on tumblr for years and i had never written anything before. it was the first time i shared anything of my own, that i created, with the world and i was really scared about it hahaha
ty bb, i hope you have the best weekend <3 ly x
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Baazigar: The End !!
Before starting up with this blog, let me give you guys a quick recap of the previous blog.
So the last blog was about how brutally lost in a declamation competition. If you haven't read it already, then please go through it once for some context of this blog.
Okay so, if you're born in India and have grown up watching Bollywood movies, then there's a 95%chance that you wish to be a popular Bollywood actor atleast once and I guess it's pretty evident from my blogs that I am a huge admirer of Bollywood and Hindi cinema. I do have that wish to become an actor and working in a movie with my favourite actor as my co-star and want my favourite singer to sing the movie's title track, but these are all mere wishes that aren't gonna happen irl .
Since I was in 5th grade or something , every year there was this ‘‘roleplay’’ activity and I was so fond of writing about my own stories and characters that I always ended up directing the play with the role of the story's narrator. Yeah, I never got to act in my own play (except this one time when I wrote a story on robots and no one in my group wanted to be a robot).
Anyways back to the story, last academic session there was an English skit competition for both 9th and 10th graders, but apparently, 10th graders weren't auditioned because of their 'upcoming exams' . But no one really cared about 10th graders working at the backend, so when I got to know about the play, I wanted to be a part of it somehow, so about a week before the competition, my 'wish' got fulfilled and I was assigned the task of preparing the ppt for our skit. I prepared a short ppt based on all the briefs I had (which was almost nothing ).
I remember there was a day off before the competition. (Let the competition be on Monday and the story continues from Saturday), I went to help the props team and then went on with the skit members to see the timings and everything associated with running the new ppt (the ppt I made didn't look that appealing to the teacher but fun fact that she ended up using my original ppt for the competition).
There I saw one of my juniors talking to the teacher so I went there and I got to know that one of the main leads of our play had quit the show at the very last moment!! So she(my junior) was there to give the audition. She spoke some lines from our play, which was an adaptation of the very famous play by Shakespeare, “The Tragedy of Julius Caesar ”, but the teacher didn't quite like her audition and asked her to do it one more time, so I tried to help her by demonstrating her how to say those lines and dunno why my teacher suddenly went like , “Haan, aap accha bool rhe ho, Anushka why don't you only do it!?” and I was like blank for a second and then she went on again but I tried to refuse coz of the stage phobia after the declamation and the other reason was that my parents won't allow me for any others activity now coz “ BoArD eXaMsS” then other play members, my senior and another teacher went on convincing me and I couldn't refuse them all so I agreed but I didn't know that I have to stay back in school till 4pm for practice!!!!
When my teacher told me this, the only thing in my head was “Gayii aaj toh..." Coz who will convince my dad now!! I went to this teacher who is pretty close to me and we don't share that formal teacher -student relationship and told her my story she knew my parents too and when I asked her to inform my parents coz I didn't have the guts to do so..even she was like “Yeh mere baski nahi bhaiya(my dad) tughe bhi daatenge aur mughe bhi!”(haan, mere papa ke gusse se school wale bhi darte hai!!) But someone had to inform so she ringed my parents and was lucky enough, as my mom picked the phone instead of my dad.
I prepared for the competition somehow and initially I was given only 3-4 lines, coz that's how much you can trust a newbie at the last moment, but then during the stay back there was a student whose role was given to me and he was given the role of the main lead, who left the play as he knew more about the storyline and all. He almost cried on stage and asked the teacher to exchange the roles again coz he wasn't sure about that new role and was more comfortable doing his previous role, so she looked at me and was like, “Anushka batao ab , aap krloge iska role? ” at that moment I felt like everyone's staring itno my soul and if I refuse at this point then they'll kill me and the title would become “The Tragedy of Anushka Garg ” so I agreed again .
I was doing the role of Mark Antony now and if you know the play, then you might know that there's this huge monologue kinda dialogue that Mark Antony speaks after the death of his idol, Julius Caesar.
Once again, I was in a situation where I was not prepared at the last moment. The thought of the Declamation incident haunted me and I repeatedly practiced my monologue. Even on the day of the competition, I would ask all the members of my team to hear my monologue separately and look at my expressions and everything. I even arranged for some fake tears , fake blood to make the scene more realistic.
The competition day was very chaotic. We were the first ones to go on the stage and as soon as we started, we got to know that no one did the technical check at the auditorium, so all the audio attached to the ppt as background sound, which was the main attraction of our didn't play and even the ppt got stuck multiple times , my roman headband got tangled up with the mic wire and I was literally pushed onto stage and couldn't even untangle or get the fake blood ready I started up my dialogue and then the play ended . All of us, as soon as we got off the stage, knew the results. The results were announced and out of the four teams, we came last (as expected) and we had even hoped for the first or second position tbh the only rank we hoped for was the third rank, i.e. we wished to come second last!
But that day, I didn't feel that bad after losing because we already knew that we weren't the best and I was happy that no one got stuck with their dialogues, and we completed the play although it was not as we expected due to the technical issues, but each one of us gave their best performance and no one could even really control the technical aspects.
That day taught me that one must win from one's own self and must not really bother about what others think about us, as they don't know what they have been going through.
Summing up my competition experiences through a poster :-
Hope you enjoyed reading this blog. This was 'Just Another Story'.
This is me,
Signing Off!!! <<33
#experience#justanotherstory#lifelessons#lifestories#stories#shakespeare#winner#winnie harlow#bollywood
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A BAD WEEK
But April Foolllllll!!!
It’s a BEST ever week within this semester!
Firstly, congratulations to me for receiving offer letter from my internship company! ヾ(≧▽≦*)o Yeah, it’s the one I went for interview last week! I am so excited when I received the message from the company asking me “Do you want to work in our company?” And I’m like “Sure, sure!” (´▽`ʃ♡ƪ)
Next, congratulations to me for completing my research proposal! ♪(´▽｀) After three months of hard work, it was completed! It’s not a tough journey, but of course having some challenges when doing it. Changing the research title, changing the research design, finding past research papers, creating LR matric alone when everyone is not doing it and other more. Thank you for all the guidance and supports from my lecturers and PhD friends!
Next, congratulations to my friends who become the peer counsellors! \^o^/ As the secretary of the Peer Support Hub, I also participated their oath taking ceremony. Hope they have many good experiences during their journey of peer counsellors and helping the students in our university (❁´◡`❁)
And finally, congratulations to my housemate who completed her presentation and returned to her home country! ヾ(•ω•`)o We miss her so much after she left இ௰இ but still glad for her to finally complete her proposal, have her supervisor and return to her home country to continue working at the same time of conducting her PhD research. It’s wonderful to have you as our housemates! And thank you for all the supports, happiness and more (○｀ 3′○)
An interesting thing is that my groupmates @ivykhoozx and @joeey99 claimed that I have a serious OCD because I keep adjusting the format of report in this final stage. And this has agreed by my lecturer who described me as “too hardworking”, which the hidden meaning is doing many extra things. இ௰இ This is because I tried so hard for making the graphs on SPSS, and for this I watched many articles and YouTube videos. But at the end the lecturer just said it’s not necessary to have graphs in our report and PPT (;´༎ຶД༎ຶ`)
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oh nooooo not the 7hr class again I'm so sorry!!
ummm my brain is struggling to function atm bc I spent all day making a review ppt for my students bc they have a review sesh tomorrow and a test on monday but I do think I have some angsty Aemond thoughts if you want them??
i think you touched on this in your headcanon about how he deals with pain, but I'm just so sad for him :( like, I can just see him as a kid/teen after his eye healed experiencing excruciating nerve pain, and I just know that being the perfectionist he is, he would be so frustrated at himself for it, even though it's literally not his fault. I just imagine that having to be curled up in his dark room, doing whatever he can to try and ignore the pain, the whole time he would have such a toxic inner monologue like "why are you so weak? why can't you just get through this?" (oops am I projecting here? *nervous laughter* we won't worry about that rn lmao) idk I just feel like after everything he's done and how hard he trains and how much he tries to be a good son and a good prince, these moments of crippling pain and vulnerability just bring him right back to being that little kid with no dragon. I also can't decide if I think aegon would tease him for it? like maybe he tried once but either the look on aemond's face or the feeling of aemond's fist to his nose quickly ended that
um yeah okay I'm sorry this is so sad - I'm just having aemond feelings :(
on a good note, my antique snake knife arrived, so now I can live up to my sign-off!
best of luck with your class!! 💙
🐍 🔪
Ohhh then we can vibe over our brains struggling because of teaching then!
Also, 💯💯💯💯💯💯💯
I definitely feel like that would be his inner monologue when he’s feeling in pain. Mostly because, again, this kind of pain was inflicted on him and most of all, his own father never even cared to defend him after his eye was taken out. That scene with Viserys paying no mind to Aemond after he’s got his eye taken out is soooo painful to watch because, imagine what he must’ve been feeling? Everyone around him was fighting but he was hardly comforted at all. So those bouts of pain he goes through are a reminder of that. And for sure he’d get frustrated over it — how he cannot handle it better, even if he knows with his nerve pain there’s nothing else to do but be gentle with himself and allow himself to rest.
Also I’m also not sure about Aegon!! It could be either way but in my mind I’m leaning more towards him not bringing it up because he saw how much it pained his brother. He might jest and tease him on a number of things, but I’d like to think he wouldn’t bring that up to tease him. But I’d love to know the opinion of an Aegon bestie that might have a better take! And EEEK so exciting you have your knife so now your sign fits way better, that’s so cool!
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Apparently the professor notes the amount of ppt submitted not the proposals-
LIKE WHY </3 SHOULDN'T YOU LOOK AT THE PROPOSALS FIRST
But maybe because the ppts are shorter.. concise? Yeah that
I had half a mind to use genshin as my paper topic (thesis? thesis is for a magister degree in my country-) but the inazuma arc is kinda ass I end up using the conan manga instead as my topic
Not so fun fact my sumeru oc is an akademiya dropout xd
Ohhh you're fucked -
Paper topic huh? Is it more a research paper, concept paper, or something?
My idea for a sumeru oc is a thesis panelist, might not be in good terms haha
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Day 21/100 Days of Productivity
15/06/22
Hello peeps!
The day somehow turned out to be super exhausting at the end idk why.. I mean I do know why but can't really talk about it so well here we are.. anyways.. here's what I did:
1. Didn't have any work initially so continued with my report work
2. Had a discussion w the business head regarding my new tasks.. so now ma'am wants me to redesign 2 ppts, the email signature design and make a motion logo (the last one idk how to so.. got to search n learn.. plus they don't have the Photoshop file of the logo so yeah gonna be a headache).. she also asked to post the recruitment posts on fb n insta accs too..
3. Mailed ma'am the login details of insta, fb n LinkedIn acc + links of all templates I designed
4. Posted 2 recruitment posts on fb n insta
5. Started working on the staffing ppt.. turns out again they had received pdf from the person who made it n so had to convert it into ppt n then design ppt in Canva to avoid typing everything out.. and basically spent a big part of the day behind this ppt, still a bit left tho..
6. Mailed the stupid courier company AGAIN
Now I'm really exhausted.. physically, mentally and emotionally all somehow.. plus super sleepy..
The only good part of the day was this beautiful view from my office building
I mean.. wow..
So that's all for today
Cyaaa 🌸
#100 days of productivity#studyblr#studying#indian studyblr#uni student#study inspiration#100happydays#uniblr#positive mental attitude#stay positive#light acadamia aesthetic#academia aesthetic
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valencia karasu hc's (1)
profession-wise in the future, valencia will either be a drummer or a cafe owner
she'll also have 3 kids; 1 girl, 2 boys, all in the age difference by 2, along with 1 kitten and grim, ofc
valencia has a dating simulator character that she's been pining strongly over for 4 years
he's a knight, similar to silver and the sleepy kind (like silver)
she has merch and a shrine for him in her room. very gung ho on marrying him and taking him as her wife
has a 2 part powerpoint presentation on WHY he is so wifey
valencia bursts into tears at the sight of a pretty boy
e.g.: vil schoenheit, epel felmier, silver
valencia and grim WILL match outfits by enlisting vil's help. they're almost always matching
valencia has a small chest, so she cross dresses to make up for it. I mean, might as well, right?
has a very deep voice and can be easily mistaken as a man. sort of sounds like a mix of lilia and sebek? yeah
has coerced deuce into asking jack and sebek why their boobs are so big. ace is there too, coercing deuce. gets pummeled by the both of them in the end
very ticklish!!! is often how the other students get their revenge on her
gives grim little forehead kisses and raspberries on his stomach
her love language is physical touch! will platonically kiss friends because you don't KISS your homies goodnight?! you fuckin disappointment 🔫 LMAO
uses ppt presentations for explanations. v good at editing them (meme wise)
okay i am between making her super short or like 172 cm...
it's way funnier if she's short so...
VALENCIA IS 145 CM SHORTER THAN ORTHO HAAAAA
HOWS THE WEATHER DOWN THERE SHORT ASS LMAOOOO BET YA CAN'T EVEN TOUCH ME
oh that being said she'll climb jack as a challenge
also she calls sebek a halfling to assert DOMINANCE
she likes wearing cold shoulder turtlenecks, but also likes her back exposed! she also likes wearing short skirts (above the knee) and thigh highs, but do not worry, because she's wearing pants underneath 👍
also has a cat patterned jacket that has a very simple stitch pattern of a cat
speaking off, has once accidentally flashed herself in front of the whole class. did not come to school for 1 week. vivica had to drag her out her room LMAO
eats chocolate ice cream as a comfort food
oh!!! also has a lot of crushes on people! men, women, whoever it is, she'll crush on you, so i guess a romantic? hmm not sure though
she has a lot of fleeting crushes, but longer standing crushes do exist! started when she was about... 6, 7? yeah
absolute bloody besties with vivica (her cousin)! they get along like bread and butter
ace, her annoying brother-in-arms. had a momentary crush on him before going 'are you fuckin insane??? HIM??? no.' otherwise very good friends who like pranking deuce hehe >:D
deuce, her better brother-in-arms. very easy to tease. he's also the partial reason she hides her gender because... have you seen ghost marriage deuce trying to woo eliza?
lands on silver as her long time crush. the music club knows about it and the first years know about it
once she has a crush its really easy for it to slip out between friends
oh yeah she's also part of the music club! good at drumming, and I mean good. too bad i dunno anything about drums or i coulda added some trivia here LOL
is trying her best to court silver but ITS NOT WORKING LILIA GIVE MY GIRL A HAND STOP LAUGHING AT HER PLEASE SHE IS ON HER KNEES
#what do you mean there's a character limit on tumblr now?#HUH#twisted wonderland#twst wonderland#twst#valencia karasu#look these thoughts have been in my head for almost a year and a half okay#i had to
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