Aw man I worried a wear spot so badly in my 16 year old beater fedora that I went from slight divot to having to cut an almost dime-diameter hole to reach unbroken felt in a ten minute span of trying to pounce it a bid to hide the divot.

I mean it’s my beater specifically because of how discolored the ribbon is and it hasn’t had either a liner or real sweatband in it for almost a decade now, and it already had a small slice in the brim from the last time I did actual archaeological fieldwork (my trowel was sharper than I thought and I used the dull corner to scratch an itch on my face which led to the sharp bit hitting my hat) plus the reason I went ahead and cut the felt is I can stitch it just right on the inside that with minor reshaping will actually probably hide almost entirely but like,

As fucking dorky as it is that is the one I actually wore in rotation with canvas hats on actual archaeology stuff I did and with the cross-country move me and my partner did this summer I’m trying to move away from the “work retail and customer service jobs to survive” and more back into stuff that’s at least tangential to my degree so it’s kind of bittersweet that this happened right now. Just means I’m going to have to fully retire it sooner rather than later I guess, it’s been mostly a yard work hat the past seven years anyway.

[ TAKE ALL OF THE PAIN, PUT IT RIGHT WHERE I NEED 💔 ]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

(+part 2)

tv sally jackson show haters can’t handle that she’s portrayed as a woman and not an angel

must representation be “good”? is it not enough to watch two men destroy each other's lives

SPIDER GWEN !!! Trans Icon 🏳️‍⚧️ 💗

He's a little confused, but he got the spirit!

(He's trying his best, leave him alone!)

shot through the heart and you're to blame! happy valentine's daaay

question: do ppl ACTUALLY say things they don’t mean when they’re angry? or is that just an excuse after letting something true slip? i wouldn’t ever say something i don’t mean in anger, so the concept confuses me.

but something was said to me that is bothering me, though apparently was said in an argument and wasn’t meant. but i don’t rlly believe it wasn’t like, deep down true thoughts/feelings??? anyone have any insight? anyone say things they don’t mean in anger?

EDIT: this was a hastily worded post that i didn’t expect to get notes. this is a genuine question asked in good faith that i got a lot of amazing answers to!

also re: the many ppl saying “OP is lying about not saying things they don’t mean in anger because everyone does it”— i genuinely have never done that. if i say something mean while angry, i meant it. that’s literally why i asked this question and why the concept confuses me, because i wouldn’t do something like that so i wanted perspective from people who do it. idk why y’all can’t believe that lmao not everyone is as prone to anger and outbursts

Okay but like Aziraphale asking Crowley for things isn't just for Aziraphale. In fact it's often something Aziraphale does for Crowley. If Aziraphale asks, even wordlessly, this creates a scenario where Crowley is allowed to do something nice for someone while being allowed to hide it behind the context of an eye roll or an if you insist. It puts a degree of removal between Crowley and the act itself that makes it easier and safer for him to do. Crowley likes to do nice things. Aziraphale knows this. Just like Crowley knows Aziraphale likes to be cared for. They've stumbled this way into this mutually beneficial act where Aziraphale gets to indulge in being indulged and Crowley gets to indulge in doing the indulging - which are both things they do not normally get to indulge in - because they're complimentary even in this.

Asking the being that just quoted poetry at you to save this dying play you're both watching. Creating scenarios for him to rescue you when you know he loves the chance to get to save someone for once. Letting him drive you both around in his fancy new machine he's so delightfully proud of even though you got a license the same year he got the car. Asking him to remove a stain so he can act like you're the dramatic one while taking all the joy in theatrically removing it for you. They're all acts of mutual care and love. Because they're both so hopelessly smitten with another they can't help themselves from indulging the other.

he says i hate everyone except you and that is addictive and that is kind of romantic and beautiful because you're young and you're kind of a sarcastic asshole too and you don't like bad boys, per say, but you don't really like good ones either. and you like that you were the exception, it felt like winning.

except life is not a romance book, and he was kind of being honest. he doesn't learn to be nice to your friends. he only tolerates your family. you have to beg him to come with you to birthday parties, he complains the whole time. you want to go on a date but - people are often there, wherever you're going. he's just so angry. about everything, is the thing. in the romance book, doesn't he eventually soften? can't you teach him, through your own sense of whimsy and comfort?

at first - you know introverts often need smaller friend groups, and honestly, you're fine staying at home too. you like the small, tidy life you occupy. you're not going to punish him for his personality type.

except: he really does hate everyone but you. which means he doesn't get along with his therapist. which means he has no one to talk to except for you. which means you take care of him constantly, since he otherwise has no one. which means you sometimes have to apologize for him. which means he keeps you home from seeing your friends because he hates them. you're the single exception.

about a decade from this experience, you'll type into google: how to know if a relationship is codependent.

he wraps an arm around you. i hate everyone except you. these days, you're learning what he's actually confessing is i have very little practice being kind.

Stop light shenanigans

Extra:

ADAM MUTO SAID THAT ALL FANFICS ARE VALID AUS DONT LET CANON HINDER YOU

Part 2

“Take my hand” pages 16-18

1 -> 3 - day 4 - swap

I know I'm late to to the party, butI love that chuuya wasn't a vampire at all the whole time because it means that that was his honest reaction to dazai's second gay ass speach

Look at him he's like " not this shit again if u don't shut the fuck up I'll kill you fr" lmao