I fucking hate Google Docs. I will copy shit and it retains the fucking formatting of where I copied from, so I undo and try to right click -> paste without formatting and then Docs gives me that stupid fucking "erm actually you have to use ctrl+v!" GIRL I DON'T WANT THE FORMATTING AND I DONT WANNA SPEND THE TIME UNFORMATTING IT. Why the fuck do you even have the option to copy/paste/etc. when I right click if I'm not allowed to do it!

I’m just gonna be real frank, but the rwby fandom as a whole is some of the most toxic individuals i’ve ever met online. the last 8 years i’ve been here, has not at all been good for my mental health and i’m so glad i went back to my old fandom (where i will stay once rwby kicks the bucket for good). because while they’re annoying, they’re nowhere near as bad as this group.

I’ve been emotionally and psychologically abused to the point of near breakdown by people i once considered as friends and made to be a villain for acting of my own accord and not going with the, pardon the pun, ‘hive mind’.

(had to throw in a subtle jab at the bees.)

I’ve also been made to feel like a monster for having differing opinions, I’ve been constantly defamed, slandered, lied to, manipulated, taken advantage of, punished unjustly, made to feel worthless, crucified for every mistake i’ve ever made in my entire life and been denied forgiveness and understanding.

basically, treated worse than a dog.

and that’s really all just in one friend group and between few specific people who are guilty of those things.

I did find some decent people in amongst the trash pile of others, but it’s few and far between. and too few and too far between.

I really cannot stress enough that i can’t wait for this show to die and this toxic cycle to end. i hope the above aforementioned people one day realize how truly problematic they are, but they probably never will.

I'm not a weirdo... (Comic/Vent)

(Also yes, this represents how I just feel about myself right now)

GONNA IMPLODE

sorry i cant hang out i forgot how to mimic human like behaviour

Ya know when people told me "when you're finally safe enough that you can leave survival mode and start to let go of and process your c-ptsd/trauma things are probably going to get really, really bad before they slowly start to get better" I thought that was reasonable. I did not understand that by "things are going to get bad" they meant "you're going to find yourself in the worst mental state of your entire life, but dw, that means it's working" and tbh I simply wish someone had been more clear.

Edit: If everyone could please take a minute and think about what it must feel like to be struggling and then have multiple strangers say to your face that they find the prospect of going through what you're going through so horrifying that they'd rather kill themselves and then stop leaving comments like that I would greatly appreciate it.

"Are you ok?" I'm actually tired bro. From the bottom of my heart I'm tired

yall have got to be more normal about Southern people and I'm not kidding. enough of the Sweet Home Alabama incest jokes, enough of the idea that all Southerners are bigots and rednecks, and enough of the idea that the South has bad food. shut up about "trailer trash" and our accents and our hobbies!

do yall know how fucking nauseating it is to hear people only bring up my state to make jokes about people in poverty and incestuous relationships? how much shame I feel that I wasn't born up north like the Good Queers and Good Leftists with all the Civilised Folk with actual houses instead of small cramped trailers that have paper thin walls that I know won't protect me in a bad enough storm?

do yall know how frustrating it is to be trans in a place that wants to kill you and whenever you bring it up to people they say "well just move out" instead of sympathizing with you or offering help?

do yall understand how alienating it is to see huge masterposts of queer and mental health resources but none of them are in your state because theyre all up north? and nobody seems to want to fix this glaring issue because "they're all hicks anyways"

Southern people deserve better. we deserve to be taken seriously and given a voice in the queer community and the mental health space and leftist talks in general.

no offense but you guys need to learn the difference between someone implying their experience is universal and a post simply just not being about you

We've had strap ons since at least 400 BC, and people still have the nerve to go on gay hook up apps and ask "how can an FTM be a top?"

I hate when I'm texted abt something related to work cuz like now I'm sitting here with the anxiety pit in my chest abt having to go in tonight when I know they're not gonna like. Kill me on sight. I need like therapy or medication or something I am so tired of having to feel like this and not really be able to control it even if I acknowledge everything's actually fine.

more bugs more drinking

Feeling like garbage right now.

sorry i overreacted i had no idea everything would be fine

don't give up