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#this is purely for myself to speak my poor mind
wrylu · 2 months
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idk why i'm so moody these days but i find my despair funny
aka my average day as of now
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sparklingself · 10 months
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𝐍𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐑 𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐇𝐈𝐁𝐈𝐓 𝐒𝐄𝐋𝐅
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I never barred myself. (Neville)
Your imagination is truly a gift. Everything is possible in your mind. Your mind is the vessel that holds everything, every seed to every physical action, every experience, memory - it is your whole world. Consciousness is everything. Nothing outside of your consciousness cannot exist to you.
Intrusive thoughts
You have many thoughts throughout the day. You may have thoughts you may call intrusive. These are unwelcome thoughts to you. Maybe you're trying to persist with diligence and then you get these unwelcome thoughts. You might try to force them down, to aggressively shut the door to them. But then you see that this manner of trying to be rid of them with all your might isn't the most effective. The trick is to guide them to the right direction, instead of forcing them.
Your mind is your home. You should feel safe. There are no intruders, there are no others, there is only self.
So, whenever you get an unwanted thought that doesn't align with the physical reality you want to achieve through your mind, all you need to do is remind yourself. Say, I want to affirm the reality of being rich. I've been persisting for a few days, but then I look into my wallet and see emptiness. I instantly get the thought and feeling of "who am I tricking, I have no money, I'm poor". Now, you have three options: a) cling to that feeling, b) bottle that feeling, but let it accumulate back when you don't have the energy to force it down anymore or c) remind yourself that the 3D is only a mirror, only an illusion, and isn't objective reality. The true reality is what is within. Once you remember that you can go back to feeling affluent. You're not being delusional, everything is a feeling anyway. You can acknowledge physically having an empty wallet, but you know that what matters is how you feel as opposed to what you see.
What you're doing is letting yourself have that thought, but just not holding on to it by actively reminding yourself of your imagination being the almighty, as opposed to the physical which is just a mirror. This avoids that feeling coming up again, or at least makes it a more rare occasion.
2. Bottling desires
I also want to talk about desiring. I'm sure you've found yourself in the situation of desiring things you "shouldn't" desire. For example, maybe you've lusted over people you shouldn't lust over, or food you shouldn't eat, or whatever. You've had a desire and then you get the feeling of it being forbidden.
Desires should never be bottled. That's what's called sin in the Bible. Not letting yourself have your desires. However, I think there are instances where your desires should be evaluated. For example, an SP that is unavailable. It's not that you can't erase them them being unavailable, it's just that you should ask yourself why you want that person. Maybe they reflect a subconscious need unmet in yourself and it's not the person you want, but something else.
Another different example would be sexual paraphilias that harm you or other people. I hold the belief that if you desire to hurt someone you're not actually happy. And hurting someone wouldn't make you happier. That's where you also have to evaluate what you actually want.
The Bible speaks of "godly" desires and "ungodly" desires. I would interpret godly as something you truly, really want. A desire you know is pure and coming from the deepest crevices of your heart. And ungodly would be a desire that is not actually align with you. You are mistaken with what you actually want. The ungodly desire reflects the godly desire and you must find it within.
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seraphiism · 3 months
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𓆩 ღ 𓆪 𝐛𝐞𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐜𝐡𝐞𝐝
( i'm a fool, but i'll love you dear. )
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chara : zayne fandom : love & deepspace quote cr : bill trader a/n : ive known this man for a few hours but Let Me Tell You ...... let me tell you .....
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"so it appears you've failed to learn your lesson."
you'd probably be more annoyed-- scratch that, much more annoyed at zayne's words had you not been freezing and fighting for your life in this unexpected cold front. it's just like last time-- the cancelled concert date, the cruel rain that betrayed news of seemingly decent weather. you know the weather isn't foolproof-- the words, his words, specifically, will haunt you until the end of time, and they continue to do so in this moment. what is there to trust if you cannot trust the weather report? where is the hope in humanity if you cannot rely on such a thing? you're not being dramatic. you are simply suffering in the cold. that's all.
much to his amusement, zayne watches as you absentmindedly grumble to yourself, shoving your hands in your pockets in futile attempt to stay warm. you throw him a half-hearted glare, though his lack of reaction indicates that it fails to make any impact.
"in my defense," you start, not having one at all, "i, at the very least, tried to come prepared." you take a hand out of your pocket, gesturing dramatically to your beanie and coat. an attempt to stay warm, perhaps-- a sad one, really, especially when the temperatures are so excruciatingly low. then again, how were you supposed to know?
"a poor attempt." zayne responds, and you swear you see his lips curve just the smallest bit. "but one i'll acknowledge. maybe you'll take this as another lesson to realize--"
"-- that the weather is foolproof, yeah, yeah."
his smile grows a bit more as he takes a step, closes the distance between you as he removes his scarf. you pick up all too easily on his intentions, but before you can protest, he's leaning down, face only inches from yours as he gently wraps the scarf around you. it's a few moments of careful consideration as he adjusts it, hoping to conserve some of your body heat. once he's done, he pauses, gaze meeting yours.
he doesn't pull back-- just studies you carefully, expression thoughtful, gentle. you feel your face heat up, murmuring a small word of thanks as your fingers nervously mess with the fabric, pulling it just a little closer to you in means of distraction. he really doesn't mind the lack of space -- in fact, he finds it too amusing with the way you react, always so shy.
it's only when you shiver again that he realizes you truly are ill prepared for this weather. he lets out a soft chuckle, hands grabbing yours, resting them gently against his face. your eyes widen the slightest bit, but you don't move away, your touch gentle in the way they seek warmth from the contact.
"--what are you doing?"
"my gloves are too large for you." he answers nonchalantly, though his hands still rest over yours, thumb ghosting over your skin in quiet reverence. "so maybe my body temperature will suffice for now."
you swallow hard, realize that you are, in fact, getting a little warmer, but only because you're flustered by his affection. he doesn't need to know that, though. but before you can thank him, he speaks once more, and you notice the pure mirth that lingers in his eyes.
"actually," he says, smiling ever so faintly, "it seems like your own embarrassment will be the one to warm you."
you've decided that you're suddenly not thankful anymore.
"...please be quiet, zayne."
he hums in amusement, presses a kiss to your forehead.
"only if you promise that you'll learn your lesson this time."
"what am i gonna do? ask the weather myself if the forecast is accurate?"
another chuckle, then another kiss to your nose, then your lips.
"of course. how else would anyone do it?"
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lovelybeesthings · 6 months
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Quick like a bunny Ch 2
Coriolanus Snow x reader
Warnings: none I think
Word count: 1.8k
Ch 1 & 3
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Mansion
Why did he have to say such hurtful things all I’m trying to do is to care for him is that not enough? What does Lucy Grey have that I don’t she's a poor tribute form that distracts 12 from what he's doing he can end up killed or hanged! *I cry into my pillows as I try to find a way to release my feelings and emotions as tears find a way to escape from my sniffs and efforts push them away* “Yvanna dear come down for dinner!” *I hear my mother call as I get up in my pink pastel long puffy Lacey dress with my hair in curls*
Training
The next day I attended the Academy sitting threw my classes and lessons with focus but I couldn't help but look at Coriolanus his beauty his curls his looks- I stopped myself from looking and continued to focus on ways to take advantage of the games. As the lesson soon ended I came across my tribute as we practiced one-on-one trying to think of how I could better his odds even though he has the brown I would like to give him the brain.
I shortly walked away to get some Items to see how Reaper works with them and I soon came across a tribute his features were beyond what I'd seen from the Capitol his eyes sea green, his hair bronzed color his skin the color of gold if possible whatever he came from they had been keeping him well.. I felt a rush of warmth from my cheeks this tribute quickly noticed my luring eyes. “Fenwick Odair District 4” his smile was a bright pure one he knew he was handsome and showed it* “Did I scare you little bunny?” he said as I quickly regained my thoughts and answered “No, I was just impressed I believe you have a good chance of winning I think the odds are surely more in your favor” he looked at me hand on his chin smirking “That so little bunny?” “Better watch out then this bunny is quick” I smile as I flirt a bit with him and quickly return to Reaper to continue our training.
Unnoticeable to me Coriolanus was watching our interactions on his way to Dr. Volumnia's lab he felt his heart clench with bitter thoughts surfaced in his head what did he do to that tribute from District 4- no what did he think he was here to learn more knowledge to find a better way for Lucy to better her odds for his odds.
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After hours
I spent my time brushing my silky (c/h) as it didn't have any tangles or any worries in my long healthy hair as I think about my encounter with Fenwick his love is his charms make me blush still, I hope he wins the game is know I should try to win but Id like to spend more time with him.
I heard a sudden knock on my door and I got up from my vanity in my pink lacey nightgown opened the door got my candle lamp to see who had visited my room in such late hours Maye a maid “y/n” Coriolanus speaks I'm shocked to see him here this light at night “what happen why are you home are you alright is Tigris okay?” I say confused and worried soon his cold hands reach my face and hold my chin I look completely lost to his sudden affection.
He pushes his way inside my room and preps me down on my bed I'm blushing and not sure what he's planning to do “What are you doing Coriolanus?” I say as his piercing blue eyes look at mine like a wolf looking at a poor rabbit to slaughter in minutes, his response was his lips on mine I'm surprised I mean this man was my fiance but he never really showed me an ounce of affection like that and since our last words, I wasn't sure he wanted to be in my life.
I respond with his kisses as he’s on top of me vulnerable to his lips how could I shut him down his mop of white blinding curly hair he just does it for me though in the back of my mind I think of Fenwick and gently push snow off “what are you doing..?” he looks at me a bit surprised and confused “What do you mean y/n I'm showing my affection and love for you” he looks at my eyes then lips then back up to my lips “No this doesn't feel right you don't….Are you okay this doesn't seem like something you think about clearly” I know I want his attention and his kisses but it feels like he's thinking of someone else..not someone Lucy..
“You don't want this you think you do but you love her..” I say “Right now you don't know what you want to be what makes you happy” *I say as I hold a smile and angle face holding tears back pushing the one I want to be happy “Lucy will cherish you as much as I will” he nods and slips out of my room my house like he was never even there the only reaches left were the stolen kisses of mine.
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How do we think about this chapter? Is it good for your guys' standards I'll try to make the third one a time skip to after what goes down in the book and snows return back to the Capitol.
please like 😘
SHOUTOUT TO @edb954 for some of the inspiration and @watercolorskyy
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eijirousbestie · 11 months
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“I’m done talkin”
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inspired by the song below (i recommend listening while reading
pure angst sry not sry
unresolved anger issues
no happy ending
“Are you sure you don’t wanna talk about it at least?”
“There’s nothin’ to talk about.”
“With what happened out there just now? There is definitely something to talk about.”
A long silence fills the air. It’s hard and steely, unwilling to waiver or break. It felt like all the progress you two had made was ripped away in less than a second.
“I don’t wanna push but I need us to be on the same page here yeah? It’s harder to figure this out when it’s just—never mind.”
“‘When it’s just’ what?” When it’s just me trying is what you wanted to say but decided better against it. His eyes settle on you, the gaze pointed, almost accusatory. You don’t want to antagonize him and potentially make the situation worse because of your poor word choice. But it’s hard. Hard to walk on eggshells around someone just to stay in good graces.
“It’s nothing. I misspoke.”
“Here we go with that shit.”
What does he mean?
“What do you mean?” A beat passes and he’s speaking again, although reluctantly.
“Would you drop the psychiatrist bullshit? Actin’ like you know every fuckin’ thing when you don’t know shit about me.”
Where is this coming from? You try not to get emotional. It’ll only get in the way of finding a fix to… whatever this is.
“Katsuki, if you felt that I was overstepping I’m sorry. But I’m just trying to better understand what’s got you lashing out like this.”
“Don’t talk down to me like I’m a fuckin’ kid. Just say what you wanna say straight up. We both know you don’t talk like that.” His jaw is clenched hard, the muscles on the sides of his face flexing and constricting every few moments.
He’s entirely pissed off right now. But it’s almost an unadulterated rage you hadn’t seen on him since he was fifteen. All these years he’d done better, been better. He’d calmed down and grown to let out his frustrations on a punching bag instead of an actual person. You’d been there by his side along the way, but he’d mainly made the change himself. He pushed himself to be better, to be less angry at the world and all that resided it.
But today is different. And you’re not sure why.
“Can you at least tell me what’s got you pissed?” You’re not really sure what to say. It’s like walking on a mine field. One wrong step and it’s all over.
A short, exasperated chuckle leaves the lips of the man in front of you. Seated on the edge of his bed, forearms propped up on his thighs with his head hanging low, messy tufts of blonde shaking slightly as his body trembles with his laughter. It’s mocking.
“You.” His eyes flicked up to yours, the ghost of a sarcastic smile still gracing his face, like he couldn’t believe you’d asked him such a dumb question with such an obvious answer.
Your heart sinks. “Me?”
“Did I stutter?” His tone switches. No longer mocking, but now all too serious. Like he’s physically biting his tongue to not tear down your entire character.
“Why am I—why do you have an issue with me?”
His eyes narrow, embers flickering behind his lashes. His hands ball up together in front of him in a tight grasp. Like he’s trying to keep himself together.
“Cuz—you piss me off. You agitate me.”
“Katsuki I—”
“Don’t talk over me.” Silence.
“You do that thing where you try to ‘get down on my level’ like I’m somethin’ that needs to be studied. You talk like you know everything I don’t already know about myself. Shit’s infuriating. You always gotta make me talk after I get upset about anythin’. Every. Fucking. Time.”
His jaw is set and he shakes his head in disbelief.
“And I’m sick of that shit. What if I don’t wanna talk about how I feel after every situation huh? It comes easy to you. You’re good at that shit. Expressin’ your emotions. M’not. I just—close up.”
It hurts your heart to hear how he’s been struggling this entire time. On the outside it’d seemed like he was opening up and getting in touch with his emotions. But maybe, that’s only what he wanted you to see. Or maybe, you were looking through rose tinted glasses throughout the last four years. Your eyes fall to the floor under your feet, trying to find the right words to say. But nothing. How can words do justice to how much guilt you feel for overlooking what he was really harboring all by himself? It hurts.
“Katsuki… I didn’t know…” It’s as if no explanation was good enough.
“Save the dramatics for somebody that gives a shit. I’m over it.”
“No, there’s no way you could be—”
“I said I’m over it. I’m deading the shit. I’m not dealin’ with it no more. I’m done talkin’.”
The feeling that sits heavy in your stomach is uncomfortable. It’s unnerving. Never once has an issue with one another not been resolved, but he doesn’t even want to try. You can’t help but to respect his choice and give him his space.
But something tells you that you might not be able to come back from this. You nod and let out an okay in response, your voice barely above a whisper. You walk to his door, placing your hand on the doorknob and freeze.
“I know it’s a fucked place to be in right now but I’m always gonna be here for you. I’m not walking out on you Kats.” More silence fills the room. Nothing comes from him. Not even a grunt or a nod. You twist the knob and leave his room with a heavy heart and a heavy mind.
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kuromhiel · 4 months
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New Target 🎯 UNLOCKED
╰┈➤ Jax x Female!Reader
WARNING(s): Not Proofread
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Headphones on.
They're on all right. But, this was odd.
"Sir...Why am I feeling a bit dizzy..? Is this part of the online interview with the client?"
Silence, just silence.
"S-Sir..?"
I couldn't move my head, my body, literally. Why was everything in the room blurry and getting doubled? The room was spinning, and the only thing I could focus on was the bright screen of the monitor placed in front of me.
The monitor looked old, dirty in fact. There was rust on the side and it was only visible due to the fact that it was white.
I closed my eyes for a few seconds, thinking it was right to do so. Just so the dizziness would disappear.
But— Why was everything so... colorful all of a sudden?
I could hear voices behind me, but all I could think of was my colorful surroundings.
I felt lighter than usual.
"Caine, is this one of your NPCs? Or is this a new sucker?"
I hear someone spoke up, I turned around to notice all different kinds of...What are they..? Characters?
I stared in shock, unable to speak.
"Cause if it's a new character.. We're gonna have to redo this whole theme song!"
It says, somehow frustrated. "I'm not doing that again." Another one spoke.
"What the $%#!?"
Everyone turned their heads to me. Seriously, this is how it feels when all eyes are on you?!
I stood in pure silence, feeling a bit embarrassed. I shouldn't have spoken too soon.
"There's two of 'em?" The rabbit spoke again.
"There's two of me?" I ask, feeling weirded out. "He meant the two of you." A red head spoke, pointing at me and another character that dressed up as a jester.
I nod once before observing each one of them, this one is gonna be some weird day.
...
"No. I don't think I want a tour." I wave my hands in front of the teeth man.
"Come on, it'll be fun! You wouldn't be able to have an adventure if you're not aware of your surroundings—" He proceeds to convince.
"No thanks. I'd like to explore more...By myself?" I laugh awkwardly. If I were a "new human" in this place, I would not like to have a tour at all.
"Oh well." He shrugs, flying to the poor female jester and disappearing into thin air.
"Hi there new one, you feelin' okay?" The red head approached me, putting her soft doll hand on my shoulder.
"I feel funny. Are you sure this is real?" I look at her with desperation. I'm not insane but I'm desperate to find out the truth. What if the jester girl was right? What if this is a dream?
"Sorry, but it is. Oh, and don't try to pull out your body parts like that weirdo a while ago. Or you could, I see those headsets on ya." The purple rabbit spoke with a sly smirk.
I put my hands on my head, trying to find the headset but it wasn't on. "Haha! Just kiddin'! You really believed me?" He grins. I sigh in frustration, the red head arguing with the rabbit.
"Quit trying to play with her, Jax! Leave her alone, instead of welcoming her, you're making her want to leave more!" The doll argues meanwhile the purple rabbit just rolls his eyes.
"It's all right. I don't mind." I smile awkwardly. The red head faces me, offering her hand to shake.
"I'm Ragatha." She introduces herself. I smile, taking her hand. Before I could reply, the teeth man and jester girl came back.
I stare as the jester girl vomits. The rest of the characters staring as well. A bubble popped up and started licking the vomit..
Weird.
"Wait.. Wait! Was that an exit door I saw out there? Is that a way to leave?" The jester girl spoke up.
"What exit?" Jax spoke up, taking the other character's hand and using it as a back scratcher.
"If there was a way to leave, I'm pretty sure we all would've left by now." The hand gets out of Jax's grasp, starting to strangle him in the process.
"Yeah..What are you talking about?" The other character furrows her brows.
The teeth man starts talking about how the jester girl was just experiencing "Digital Hallucinations." While denying the fact, he still believes she is experiencing them.
He switches the topic by asking her name. She starts panicking not knowing her name..Not REMEMBERING her name.
Hold on, if she doesn't remember her name..It means..I don't remember mine as well.
"My name.." I mumble, earning a hum from beside me. "You forgot your name, too, didn't you?" Ragatha smiled softly. "I did." I admitted. No way, how coulf I forget my own name!
The teeth man suddenly makes a giant machine appear, helping out the jester girl pick out a new name. "What do you think of XDDCC?"
"I don't—" She gets caught off. "Right! Terrible! Let's try that again!" He let's the machine spin again.
"What do you think of Pomni?"
She agrees to the name awkwardly. Poor Pomni, she still looks so troubled. "Hey Caine, what about this one over here." Jax says with his arms crossed.
"Right! What about you? What do you want?" So..His name was Caine.
"Uhh, you can pi—"
"Okay! Let's pick again!"
I narrow my eyebrows, he cuts people off so easily!
"Oooh, candy! What do you think?" He floats closer to me. By closer, literally in front of my face.
"S-sure?" I forcefully smile. "Great!" He flies over to Pomni who was trying to walk away.
"Candy suits you!" Ragatha smiles. "Nah, she doesn't even look sweet." Jax clears his throat. "Gosh, and your name is Jax! You look like your name would be Sadism." I argue back.
"Ohoho, I can throw you away like candy wrapper. Don't fuel up the fire." Jax smirks as he raises his brow. "But I think I'm starting to want to ruin your days here. Or years." He shrugs.
"I'll make yours even worst."
"Oh look Zooble, new target unlocked. I got some competition." Jax nudges Zooble's side. "Great, so your $%!# wouldn't be around ours any longer." She replies, not wanting to be a part of the conversation.
"I'll be on your tail, Candy. If you don't mind." Jax crosses his arm, standing tall. "Oh, and I'll be on yours, you rabbit." I narrow my eyebrows. "That wasn't really an insult. I could throw you away like Candy wrapper." He argues.
"Oho, but you can get a taste of this sweet Candy first." I argue back. His face shifts to surprise before another demeanor. "Whatever you say, remember, Caine said to keep it child friendly."
"Whatever rabbit."
"All right, sour candy."
"Now good luck and have fun my little superstars!" Caine says, before disappearing into thin air.
Pomni stares at all of us in silence before speaking up.
"What did any of that mean?"
I look over at Ragatha, then Jax.
"I didn't listen."
The rabbit roles his eyes. "You're doing bad on your first day."
"And you're annoying me pretty much on my first day."
"Good to know."
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rayne-astrophile · 4 months
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William James Moriarty x Fem! Dazai! Reader
I've never found any yuumori x bsd reader so i guess i have to make one myself 😀
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• you are dazai's adopted sister, a year older than him
• unlike your brother, you are quieter and more bearable than him. You like to read a lot, and your mind speaks more than your lips. You are more of a silent genius than an idiot genius. However, while talking, people can catch how similar you and dazai's playful tone are whenever you tease people.
• you are not manipulative like dazai, but you can be if you want. When you're on a mission, you like to take it seriously as you'd love to finish them immediately to continue reading.
• you also find things amusing like dazai does, you grew up together after all. Your attitude can be a copy of him whenever you want, and sometimes you have Ranpo's attitude.
• the first time you meet william is in Noahtic arc
• you are walking with your brother when you stop and observe the spiral staircase. You notice the blonde man who is staring at the stairs too, but you have no reason to talk, so you don't
• then, you hear the girls mention the blonde near you, asking another man to guess his occupation
• you observe them silently, and you have to admit, the two men catch your interest
• the blonde one especially, he awfully reminds you of your suicidal brother. Not his attitude, but his vibe and observations when he deducts things about the detective; you find out
• that's when your brother returns from who-knows-how-far-he-had-gone-until-he-realises-you-are-missing
"How fun~" dazai cooes as he stands behind Sherlock. "How about you try to guess my occupation too?"
To say that Sherlock is shocked is an understatement. The way he flinches and immediately turns around makes you chuckle.
"Since when----" the detective cuts himself off as he looks at your brother up and down. After a while, he scrunches his eyebrows.
Dazai sings, "Can't figure it out, Mr. Detective?" He turns to the blonde as you watch in amusement. "What about you, Professor?"
Sherlock frowns even more and asks, "How did you know my occupation?" Dazai smiles at him. "It's obvious. Only detectives play guessing games and get everything right."
"How about this man then? He's not a detective, but he got his guess right." One of the girls mutters as she looks at the blonde noble.
Dazai smiles and walks closer to him. "He's a special case. He simply finds this game amusing and wants to try himself. He is quite an observant, I may say. Solving and making problems must be your hobbies, hm?" He whispers the last sentence after he leans in towards the noble.
You can see how the poor blonde tenses. Seems like dazai figures something out, huh?
Dazai's sentence has two meanings. One, solving and making mathematics problems are one of the small things william likes.
Two, solving and making problems for society.
Dazai leans back and grins, "Anyways!" He walks towards you, and that's when the scarlet eyes lock with yours. "Since you can't figure something out about me, how about trying to deduct my sister instead?" He grabs your shoulders and pushes you towards the small group.
Sherlock observes you up and down as he hums. "You also stopped to stare at the spiral staircase.. but out of pure curiosity." He narrows his eyes. "I... can't find anything."
Sherlock admits his defeat. Dazai sighs in disappointment as he shakes his head. "Too bad, Ranpo-san is still the best detective."
"Ranpo... as if, Ranpo Edogawa?" The blonde asks you, as you are closer to him. "Ah, I see you read the newspaper, huh?" You smile at him.
"You're talking about him like you're quite close.. are both of you perhaps his colleagues?"
"Ding ding!" Dazai sings, "You got that right, Professor!" He claps his hands amusedly.
"No way! Both of you are detectives too?!" Sherlock exclaims in bewilderment. You simply laugh, "He told you that only detectives play guessing games and get it right, didn't he?" You add. "And geniuses."
Dazai chuckles before he speaks. "That was entertaining, gentlemen. Now, if you excuse us, we'd like to take our leave." He bows politely.
"Wait," Sherlock stops him from dragging you away. "What are your names?"
Both of you smile,
"Dazai. Dazai Osamu."
"Dazai Y/n. We'll see you again," you end with a small bow before dazai drags you away.
"...he's more than just a professor, isn't he?" You ask as your brother nods. "Yep."
• the next time you meet is on the train, where a murder occurs.
• you were accompanying ranpo when chaos happens.
• both of you nonchalantly walk into the crime scene when sherlock and william are investigating.
"Lestrade," ranpo calls out calmly, making the male flinch. He gestures to him to move away, which he unconsciously did.
Firstly, how'd he know his name? Secondly, why is he here, in the crime scene?
"Excuse me," you say politely. "And please excuse Ranpo-san's behaviour," you smile sheepishly.
"Ranpo? The greatest detective from Japan?!" He exclaims in shock, earning both sherlock and william's attention.
They turn to look at the door, just the moment ranpo enters, with you following behind him. His eyes keep closed as he hums and walks closer to the victim, William retreats himself to give the shorter but older male a way.
He stops beside you, and asks. "Is he going to solve the case?" You don't turn to look at him, your eyes are glued on ranpo. "If it's him, he will either solve it himself or wait for you and Mr. Detective to solve it just for fun." You mutter softly.
"I already got the culprit." Ranpo says nonchalantly as sherlock looks at him, flabbergasted. He turns to you, his eyes slowly open, revealing his beautiful emerald orbs that remind william of albert's. "Y/n, gather all the crew members."
You smile and nod your head as sherlock protests. "Wait! This is supposed to be mine and liam's case to solve!" Ranpo closes his eyes back and looks at the other detective. "Both of you will take more time than needed. It's better to solve it now, or the culprit will manage to get rid of the evidence." Sherlock clicks his tongue at that.
After gathering the crew members, ranpo observes every one of them before pointing at a member who is wearing glasses.
"You." He calls out. "Show me your hand." The glasses man steps forward and takes off his bloody gloves, revealing a wound on each hand.
Lestrade lets out a frustrated sigh as he runs a hand through his hair. He thought ranpo was calling out to the culprit.
"In 60 seconds, explain to me with detail how you got those wounds." Ranpo ordered, catching everyone off guard.
Why are they wasting time here? Shouldn't he tell them who the culprit is already?
"I-I hurt myself while working with my gloves still on.. I still haven't got them treated..."
Ranpo hums, and sherlock is ready to choke that crew member until the shorter male speaks again.
"That's not the right answer," he mutters. "I asked how you got that wound. I didn't ask why your gloves are bloody,"
"?!"
"You expected us to ask about your gloves, so you prepared for that. Because of that reason, whatever question that I ask, you will immediately explain why your gloves are bloody. I gave you 60 seconds to explain and it stresses your mind, which leads to you not being prepared, and resulting in you giving a different excuse from the question. I psychologically tricked your mind," he says proudly as the crew member grits his teeth.
"I---!"
"If you still want to deny it, then explain the blood splattered on your glasses." Ranpo finishes and the culprit gasps, immediately glancing at his glasses. "I'm pretty sure it's not your blood."
The crew member trembles, "I-I didn't plan to kill him... i-it was an accident....!" Lestrade approaches him, "Tell that in the police station."
Unexpectedly, the culprit runs and attempts to escape as he pushes the others away.
"Y/n!" Ranpo mutters as you nod your head. "Got it!" You sprint to the culprit as your right hand makes a certain move, and a golden thread wraps around the man, tying him as you grab his arm and push him down.
Your ability, Thread of Life, where you can form a coloured thread that is unbreakable. Golden thread is for the physical body, and red ones are when you need to touch people's inner soul. There are so many others, but we don't have time to explain all that.
As lestrade catches the culprit and puts handcuffs on him, you fiddle your fingers and the golden thread disappears.
Ability is quite a basic knowledge, but it is still surprising to see with his own eyes. You caught his attention back on Noahtic, and now william is more interested in you.
"Ne, y/n, what's the record?" Ranpo asks, leaning towards you as you look at your wrist watch. "15 minutes," you mutter as he groans. "Could've done better." You chuckle and pat his head, "You did a great job, ranpo-san. I'll give you some candies later."
That manages to lighten up his mood.
Until a certain blonde approaches you, along with his brother. "If you don't mind, may we join you, miss dazai?" William asks, hand on his chest as you look at him.
You smile at the blonde and his brother. "Sure, i don't see why not." You nod your head as they take a seat. "And please, call me y/n. Dazai is my brother," william nods his head.
Ranpo observes him up and down before standing up. "I'm bored, so i'm gonna piss that detective off." He says, referring to sherlock as he walks away, leaving you alone with the two blondes.
William smiles as he locks his eyes with you. "Nice to see you again, miss y/n. I see that your brother is not here," he says politely as you shake your head. "Unfortunately, he's on a different mission. Do you want to see him?"
William shakes his head, "Oh no, not really." He rests his head on his palm as his arm rests on the table. "To be honest, i'd like to know more about you. If you don't mind, of course."
You already caught his interest before, and he's not ashamed to admit it. If it means to get to know you, he doesn't mind being shameless.
You smile, "Of course, I don't mind. Only if you return the favour," you take out your handkerchief before handing it to him. "Before that, you should stitch your finger first." Oh, how amusing you are in his eyes.
Of course, he catches your interest too. His intelligence, his politeness... especially his scarlet eyes, that remind you of the blood on your palms back in your mafia era.
• let's just say that you become friends.
• louis seems fine with you getting close to his brother.
• however, you still need to remember the reason why you come to london. The whole agency will be coming, too. Soon, or later.
• why? The queen herself asked for their assistance to handle this lord of crime.
• but you can't possibly admit that, can you?
• especially when they are right in front of you.
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ixiot-ghostrebel · 1 year
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Hello I like the concept of reader in impostor sagau au, but what if the impostor who wants to kill the reader has power to dominate the will of the pepoles but he manily did to archons like venti and nahida becoese impostor knows that those two wodul help the reader. And those are prisoners in thier own body and trys to take back control of thier body even for few secends just to help reader escape, and that true impostor on the public acts on the public like good god but on the private. Where there is no acolaytes only thier dominated puppets they will shows true colors of cruler person that wodul like to punish all of acolaytes for leting reader run away but they can punish only those characters who are under thier control.
(Sorry for my bad english that not my first language)
This. Pure Gold.
Anon, true words cannot express how much I want to hug you right now. I legit could not have come up with this idea myself LOL. Honestly, ik my writing is terrible, but I might make a angst oneshot out of this idea! Tysm for the idea, Anon!
But I really do love this idea! The Imposter being smart this time, bois. Poor Venti and Nahida, they're being held against their will—quite literally. But still, this is a super cool concept! Imposter being able to take control over people's wills, mainly the archons, along with every other character that seems to hold a deep loyalty to them.
So! Allow me to introduce...Imposter Headcanons!
When Imposter takes control, it is done by mind entirely. → Now, you might be asking "isn't that obvious?" Let me explain why I point this out. Think of this as a light switch. When Imposter wants to, they can simply slip into their own consciousness once this "switch" is turned on, and they can decide who's minds they can possess/take control/spectate.
Often times, characters would not be able to notice the Imposter's presence within their mind, but people who are keen or have been dealing with spirits in some way (Examples: Shenhe, Chongyun, Yae Miko, Cyno, etc.) would be able to feel that presence. This causes the feeling of the "Creator's presence" being placed everywhere, causing everyone to believe that the Reader is, in fact, the "imposter," when it should be the other way around.
To the Imposter, choosing who to have a constant control over is basically like choosing which characters you want to have on the party, except with one catch: it goes up to at least several hundreds of people. Imposter can literally have like- a fourth of the world possessed if they wanted to at this rate—
Imposter's actions don't always influence their puppet's actions, as there is a certain command these puppets would follow. For example, the Imposter could be feeling hungry and want something to eat, thus they cannot spectate their puppet's actions. They leave this final command in their heads: "Search for the traitor. Don't stop until you bring them to me. ALIVE." and then leave to have their lunch or something.
The Imposter's Actions May Sometimes influence the character's they possess and their actions. → The best way to explain this is an example: Let's say the Imposter feels sleepy, and they decide to go to sleep after giving the final command to their current puppets to continuing searching for the traitor (for context, this "traitor" is someone who didn't believe in their "creator" aka imposter). They would do it, it's just...sometimes, the puppets may also feel fatigue. This causes their actions to be more sluggish, some of the puppets are less keen than they usually are.
Just think of Al-Haitham except his mind is being clouded by 2 weeks worth of no sleep to the point he has to have taken one cup too many of coffee to function.
The Imposter can speak through their puppets. → This is very helpful. From physical appearance, it just seems like they're the same, but their voice? Oh no, that's a entirely new story yet to be discovered.
The Imposter's voice is overlaid on the character's voice. Think of it like playing two songs at once at the same time. Except, Imposter's voice would come out stronger than the character's voice.
For example, imagine Reader bumping into Nahida, right? They're basically having a Goose Chase, since Reader is trying to get away from Nahida, thinking (correctly) that she'll kill them. And then she taunts, "Come out, imposter. You can't hide forever!" Nahida's voice is entirely overpowered by the Imposter's voice.
This is also beneficial for the Imposter's hunting army. Why? Because, if several hundreds of people begin storming a place, and people are panicking, the Imposter can have all of their puppets speak at once, saying something like "Don't fret, my people. It is I, your Creator." Which immediately calms down the citizens, before the Imposter commands to their army "Search for the Imposter!"
Yes, that means the commands the Imposter gives could be both a verbal order or a mental one.
Imposter Cannot search in people's memories. → While in control, the Imposter cannot look through their puppet's memories. This is probably the easiest loophole the Imposter gets, seeing that they seem to have a close eye on the Archons, having their presence on them sub-consciously at this point. They can simply order Nahida to read someone's mind, or just straight up take over her body to do it if she refuses.
The Imposter doesn't have to worry about their puppet's consciousness, because they're usually in a daze or in a sleepy state whenever the Imposter is in control. It gives them easy access to do whatever they want to their physical bodies.
However, once Nahida and/or Venti decide to break through it once to let the Reader escape? Oh no, Imposter will, first of all, punish those two severely, and, second of all, be worried if that were to happen ever again.
Imposter will legit throw them in a cage, probably both mentally and physically. They're taking absolute precautions to make sure it doesn't happen ever to those who seem more interested in escaping their grasp.
You can basically say goodbye to Nahida and Venti—Imposter will not let go of their control over them. They'll be in their heads day in and day out. No excuses, and no escapes.
Legit Imposter is a straight up tyrant. And tbh, Idk if Reader will be making out alive on this sagau au concept, lads.
And that's all I got! Sorry if it's confusing lol—feel free to ask any questions. I'll try to answer them if I can. See you around!
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Ghost Rebel Side Notes: Thanks so much for sending this into my inbox, anon! Feel free to drop by again when my mailbox is open! And I wasn't kidding—I might actually make a small oneshot or two based off of this idea. It won't be beta read though sobbing. But I'll try writing again lol-
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snippychicke · 7 months
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Kinktober Week Two-- Kuro
Prompt: Sex Toys
Warnings: ok, this one does get some warning for some hints of sadomasochism, possibly exhibitionism, and you know. Being sexually explicit.
You were regretting everything. Your knees were weak as you leaned against the wall, trying to control your breathing and not let any kind of noises escape
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You were regretting everything. Your knees were weak as you leaned against the wall, trying to control your breathing and not let any kind of noises escape.
But god was it hard.
The small vibrator nestled against your clit buzzed, slowly then growing faster before slowing once more. As if wherever he was, Klahadore was lazily playing with the control in his pocket.
You would kill him for this. Nevermind you had fully agreed to it and had been excited at the thought. This was pure torture. Fuck. You were so wet it was making it better/worse.
"Are you okay?" Kaya's soft voice called out, breaking you from your thoughts. You opened your eyes briefly, your gaze landing on the young lady of the manor, looking rather worried as she leaned on Klahadore's arm.
Speaking of the fucking devil. You bit back a whimper as the vibration suddenly ramped up all the way, knees buckling for a short moment before you caught yourself.
"F-fine, my lady," you gasped out as the sensation suddenly died away, allowing you to catch your breath.
"Nonsense. You look absolutely feverish and you can barely stand! Why are you trying to work when you're so ill?"
Because apparently you were dating a sadomasochist. (Or maybe that was you?)
"You're quite right, miss Kaya. If you wouldn't mind," Klahadore spoke in that silk voice of his, sounding just as worried as the young woman. As if he didn't know exactly why you were in such a state. "I think it would be best if perhaps I helped her to her room."
Your stomach twisted at the thought, your mind instantly thinking of sweet relief. Yet at the same time, the look in Klahadore's dark eyes promised just as much pain as pleasure. (The fact it was lowkey exciting you was not something you were going to address.)
"Absolutely," Kaya agreed before you could even think to protest however weakly. "I can take care of myself for a few minutes."
The damn thing ramped up once more suddenly, and you couldn't stop the scream as you knees buckled. Klahadore was quick enough to catch you before you hit the floor, his arm wrapping around your waist as he helped you stand.
"Oh. I'm worried it may take more than a few minutes."
-*-
The second the vibrator was pulled from between your wet folds, you breathed a sigh of relief.
"Look at how wet you are," Klahadore purred, slipping his hands from his gloves before sliding two fingers into you. You bit back a moan, head arching back as he curled his fingers into that sensitive spot. "You looked so pitiful earlier; a poor little kitten barely able to stand. It's a good thing our lady is so naive, hmm?"
"Fuck, please, Klahadore!" You whined as his fingers moved slowly--an agonizing snail pace that was driving you crazy. This why you both love and hated this man--he loved to torture you in the best of way, pushing and finding your breaking point and the fucking edging it.
A cat playing with a mouse.
"Only because Kaya is no doubt waiting impatiently." He pulled his finger from you, taking his time to lick the slick from his digits as if it was a delectable treat while his other hand worked on the fastening of his pants. "Now, no coming until I say so, understood? Or I'll have to punish you again."
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neon-junkie · 1 year
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In the Heat of the Moment - Chpt.1
Summary: "Less than ten percent of domesticated species go into heats," accord to Tech and his research, and (un)fortunately, you're one of that ten percent. What else are you meant to do? Trapped during a heat cycle with five men - five willing men who are happy to help relieve you, but not all have the confidence to say so.
Relationship: The Bad Batch x fem!Reader (she/her)
Tags: Heats, Mating, Sex pollen, Friends with benefits, Friends to lovers, Slow burn, Sex, Jealousy, Pining, Scents, Knotting, Creampies, slightly A/B/O, Tags to be added.
Word count: 1.5k
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[Chapter 2]
Notes: I've had this series in my drafts for a while. I keep adding to it here and there, and I figured I should start to post *something*. Not going to lie, I purely had myself in mind when writing this. I've been tired of trying to write for an audience, and instead, I'm just writing what I want to read. I also miss writing smut-centered fics, so let's scratch all of those itches at once!!
For context: Your heat is vaguely based off the heat cycles that you see in animals. Once a year, your species goes through a heat cycle, where you have a high physical urge to mate. These can last 1-2 months, depending on if/when you mate. I took a lot of inspiration from the sex pollen trope, kinda "fuck or die" but without the death. Just a lot of pain/discomfort. It's a craving, your body NEEDS to fuck or else you're going to get nasty about it. Very nasty. The lads won't be happy with your attitude, but how can they turn down such a pretty and desperate thing?
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Chapter 1 - And here we are...
"I should not be doing this."
"I should certainly not be doing this."
"I understand that I am assisting you, but this? This is going to get me reported, shamed, decommissioned and-"
"Tech, please!" you whine. "Stop thinking out loud. I'm only going to report you if you hold back from what you're doing!"
Tech slams his hips forward, coming to a halt. "I apologise," he mutters, and tightens his grasp on your hips before returning to a brutal pace.
How did it come to this? On your knees, your elbows propped up on the Marauder's pilot chair - Tech's chair, in fact. Speaking of the devil, he's also on his knees behind you, with his cock slamming into your slick cunt.
Tech is 'assisting' you through your heat. Yes, because you're no standard species. The galaxy has a vast variety of beings out there, but "less than ten percent of domesticated species go into heats," accord to Tech and his research.
He had noticed that something was off with you recently - a slight temper, recklessness, lack of sleep - not to mention that you smell. Like, you really stink, so much so that even Wrecker has pointed out that, "you're getting as bad as me!"
And Hunter, poor Hunter, has kept his distance from you. Neither of you have commented on it, almost like a silent, mutual agreement. The poor man has heightened senses, and you can't tell if your scent is driving him the good or bad kind of crazy.
At least your scent is tolerable, a sweet, yet sweaty lingering flavour. Tech had begun silently researching after noticing that your 'new behaviour' had stuck around for a few days, with no intention of disappearing, which brought him to a series of detailed articles about ruts and mating.
Well, the articles weren't about your species specifically, seeing as there was little to be found on that topic, but it gave Tech more than enough to understand what your body is currently going through.
You're horny, to put it blankly. You're pent-up, frustrated, and desperate to be filled.
The Batch had left for a supply run, leaving you and Tech behind to guard (and repair) the ship, which gave him the perfect opportunity to speak to you alone. He began explaining how he has done some research, and "somewhat understands the difficult time you are going through. Perhaps I can assist you in some way?"
Tech said that line with the intention of giving you medical assistance, supplements or whatever, but the pathetic whine that you let out caused his cock to harden, even more so when you shifted your thighs together and innocently asked, "are you suggesting that you can satisfy my natural urges, Tech?"
Back to the present. Tech's eyes drift to the side when he notices a light flashing on his datapad, resting on the co-pilot's seat. "The others are on their way back," he informs you through gritted teeth.
"But we've barely started!" you whine, knowing that your urges will be lingering for the next month. Minimum.
"And we'll find other opportunities to satisfy you, General," Tech comments. He notices the way that your cunt twitches around his length at that word alone - General - because you are his superior, after all.
This is all so complicated, a desirably defective Clone Trooper mating with his Jedi General for the simple purpose of assisting her during her natural urges. Insane, and incredible.
There's a silent and mutual agreement to keep this matter private, seeing as it would... complicate everything. But Tech had already let some information slip when Crosshair caught him researching ruts. "Do I dare ask?" Crosshair had pried, but it doesn't take a genius to put two and two together.
Another hard slam of Tech's hips causes you to let out a heavy moan, and with it, your upper body practically collapses on the pilot's chair. You're fucked out, debauched, yet still craving more. "Where shall I finish?" Tech sputters behind you.
"Inside," is all you can whimper.
Tech's hips come to a halt, "I may be willing to assist you during your heat, but I am not willing to impregnate you," he comments with a raised finger.
Peering over your shoulder, you explain, "I can't interbreed."
"Oh," Tech blankly sighs, and his finger softens before returning to your hip. "In that case, I'll happily finish inside," he cheerfully smiles.
And with that, he's slamming into you again, his brows furrowing from the pure intensity of it all. It doesn't take much for you to climax, just a few messy rubs on your clit, and you're cumming on Tech's cock with a series of pathetic moans escaping your lips.
Tech practically explodes, his mind fogging up at the sensation of your cunt gripping the life out of him. You're milking that poor man, and all he can do is fold over and rest his forehead on your back, panting heavily as he waits for you to relax and release your death grip on his cock.
"I..." Tech begins, and licks his lips as he straightens his back. "I assume the males of your species have the ability to knot?" Tech observes.
"What gave it away?" you sarcastically reply, and attempt to relax your muscles, allowing Tech to escape.
Tech lets out a pained, "ah!" as he slips his cock out, then tucks his poor little trooper away. "I'll certainly need to get used to that sensation," Tech casually states.
"Did it... hurt?" you ask, and begin cleaning yourself up, tucking your Jedi robes back into place.
"Not at all, but I am particularly sore," Tech replies as he offers you a hand, pulling you up to your feet. You watch as he clasps his codpiece back into place, followed by correcting a few pieces of armour that have drifted astray during his wild turn of events. You needed urgent care, and Tech didn't see much point in removing his armour when he's simply providing assistance.
There's a moment of silence, an awkward pause, and Tech breaks it by nervously rubbing the back of his neck as he states, "feel free to ask for assistance when you next need it."
"Oh..." you stutter. "Yeah, thank you, Tech."
Like the fool that you are, you push up onto tiptoes to plant a light kiss on Tech's lips, before making your way through the Marauder, ready to splash your face with cold water in the refresher.
Everything happened so fast. You were painfully aroused, and ate Tech up like a three-course meal. Your hormonal urge has been filled, but from experience, you know that this is only a temporary fix. Hopefully, before you know it, your yearly rut will be over, and you'll be back for to your standard, witty self.
As for now, you'll need to tolerate it, and redeem your Tech voucher whenever the time is right.
After coming to your senses in the confinement of the refresher, you shimmy out to find that the others have returned, shopping bags in hand. "You look tired," Echo comments as soon as he locks eyes with you, and you're unsure if that's a statement or an insult.
"That's what happens when you spend the afternoon doing repairs," you sarcastically reply, and Echo rewards you with an eye roll.
Wrecker is quick to drag your attention away as he begins going through the fascinating new foods that he's brought, all thanks to your Republic credits. You're starved, hungrier than usual during your troubled times, and before you can pick out a treat and tuck in, somebody else pulls your attention away.
"Here-" Hunter interrupts. He chucks a small prescription bottle at you, the tablets rattling as they come into contact with your hand, and you rotate the bottle to read its label. "For your... new problem," Hunter explains before heading down the ship, obviously trying to keep his distance, even more so seeing as he can't simply hand the tablets over to you.
Wrecker can be heard sniffing the air, and proudly comments, "you don't stink any more!"
How innocent he is, unaware that you've been given assistance to your 'medical problem.' "Yeah," you say with a soft laugh. "Scrubbed extra hard in the refresher this morning."
"I still think your problem is stress related..." Wrecker begins, and waffles on about his thoughts and opinions on the matter. All the while, your eyes gloss over the label, the cure to your problems sitting in the palm of your hand. Yet, your mind is asking the same silly question over and over.
Why don't you want to take these pills?
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dreadfutures · 5 days
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impressions from the hades ii technical playtest
absolutely chock full of spoilers but also theories
Amazing gameplay, feels just as good as Hades 1 with improvements and creative changes. So many different builds/play styles will be possible. in the dev stream they talked about melee close quarters vs sorcery ranged, but I find myself doing HEAVY spellcasting while also stacking in heavy melee boons on the knives, and mixing and matching.
The boons have a few familiar perks but so many of them are new and creative, even for gods we know from the first game. All of them feel really good.
The SOUND EFFECTS are amazing. The sounds of your weapons change based on the boon equipped to each attack. the sounds of the arena change depending on the god at the end (if any). Nothing and I mean nothing makes the dopamine go off more than the sound of Hephaestus' boon blasts when I do my fan of knives and they all explode. PING PING PING.
I find myself doing "resource runs" and "story runs." they do overlap. It's tough to only have one harvesting item equipped at a time and I spent so much time looking for silver and looking that my eye has started slipping over the lone spirits who gives you psyche, even when Selene leads me to them lol. I do like that they have her guiding light, but it is subtle. I also like the way you can pin certain items when you're in a run so you can remember what you needed for a recipe.
Unfortunately I did so many harvest runs that I actually got all the recipes before I had a chance to USE forget me not on a run so.... woops on that fated list lol.
We are maybe going to romance Moros or Nemesis (probably both are options?) but maybe not both at the same time? since they're siblings technically (technically) (I wouldn't mind though). I love all these children of nyx and want to protect them and smooch them all.
EXCEPT. Mel is a Silver Sister, with Artemis and Selene. Does that mean she's gotta be a virginal girl squad? lol
I love sister Artemis. I love that she throws snacks!!!!! which is even more endearing bc it's fried and a chocolate bar and soda. I wonder if sometimes I hear a note of disapproval from her and I wonder where her plot will go later. Selene it's said may not be able to reach us in Tartarus, but Artemis might.
Speaking of found family.
I fucking adore Odysseus. I love Od. So. Much. Like I loved Achilles but Od is such a good girl dad for Mel, and his pep talks are the best and so sensitive ;_; what a guy I love him.
I think? that Hecate's familiars must be placeholders, since they're just little statues that vibrate when you give them treats. I can't wait to see where they go in the full game.
It's an interesting take on Hestia, that she hates everybody. It makes me wonder if we'll see Hera or not, since I kind of expect that behavior from Hera.
Hephaestus and Demeter and Aphrodite remain my favorite boon givers.
As far as I can tell there is no fishing rod in the playtest but there will be in the full game and I'm excited.
Arachne's self esteem hurts me 😫 I love you little bug!!!! I wonder if we'll find her shop in Olympus or in Tartarus -- and I worry about her. At least Athena is too busy to bother her! I hope! I love Mel's different outfits.
The amount of pets that Mel gets to have is delightful. I love her frog so much.
Hecate is fascinating. She is SUCH a mother, she is SO compassionate to Mel and trying to build her up! She is wry and dry but never cruel or negative. I love her sm. Poor Mel has some low self esteem and understandable doubts and is putting so much pressure on herself. And I really wonder about Hecate's relationship with Persephone and the house of Hades and with nyx. Nemesis says something that makes me wonder if Hecate is innocent. Either way I don't think she'll really be a villain. My heart would break if so. Mel would break.
Mel is so sweet and pure. ;_; and she says "death to chronos" so coldly. When she says "Hence I go" I just hear her as a little baby playing hide and seek with Hecate and it gives me so many feelings.
I want to know about Mel's arm!
I can't wait to see the other regions just from the Crossroads, since there's currently two doors we can't enter.
Also what are we going to DO with the fish?
Very exciting stuff.
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rocketturtle4 · 9 months
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Don't mind me I'm just collecting evidence for Ray's complete lack of self-esteem self-anything
(I'm shadowbanned which means that fact that I'm tagging everyone is USELESS (although I may have someone to help me out) but maybe it won't be useless later. Also I also cannot reply to comments, and you will not see in your notes if I reblog your post...fun times) @waitmyturtles should thee wish)
Finally pushed over by this post (@burnsuncomet @dewtu @plantsarepeopletoo) because @thegalwhorants that's right, it is VERY SAD
Because is this scene funny and ironic? Yes!
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Do I think people (me, I'm people) are going to swing around in 1-11 weeks time pull out screenshot one and comment not on the irony of this shirt but it's poignancy? ALSO YES. (Screenshots stolen out of this post @chickenstrangers)
So I'm starting my evidence collection now...
Poor Boy Gifs (a selection) (in no particular order)
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His t-shirt and reactions @khaotunq
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Drunk boy this gifset by @gunsatthaphan
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More Drunk Boy this gifset @heretherebedork
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This gifset @gunsatthaphan
Also this scene again because it's so awful it deserves to be included twice:
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this gifset by @userneos
speaks for itself:
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this set by @sunsetandthemoon (whose ENTIRE set here is just good evidence, but I promised myself I'd only steal one gif per post)
Ray's face when he sees Top and Mew dancing
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gifset here by @plantsarepeopletoo (multiple parts of this gifset have flashing lights)
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this gifset by @nick-nellson
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Look how happy he is surrounded by his friends!!!
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Oh and I'm sad again...
I gave in and grabbed 2 from this one @raypakorn
Since I already broke my rule I'm grabbing another one from @sunsetandthemoon:
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This is clearly just the (shit)icing on the (shit)cake of his (shit)life.
Finally thanks to @plantsarepeopletoo
His pure excitement at the idea of doing this project with his friends help...
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verses everyone else...
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Other Posts:
You're a burden screenshots (by @heretherebedork)
Information about Ray's subtitle/label "the one who [abandoned/discarded/threw away/cast out] himself" @lurkingteapot
Interesting thoughts on Sand and Ray by @bird-inacage - Ray's Fear of Inadequacy
Someone else who is sad with excellent screenshots @poetry-protest-pornography
I feel like this line might come back to haunt us lol @sparklyeyedhimbo
Trajectory of relationships and sex by @thatgirl4815
also by @thatgirl4815: Ray and apologising
Body language notes @captain-xandis
More random thoughts worth noting (Sand & Ray) @clara-maybe-ontheroad
Tweets
this post by @thatgirl4815
(directly referencing the scene where Ray wakes up and doesn't seem to mind the fact that he thinks he got roofied and kidnapped for sex)
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originally posted here by @elliebirdwrites
Thoughts
(I'm not really taking it THIS seriously, just apreciating all my feels...also I don't think I've ?EVER actually watched a show from week 1...I normally have 2-3 episodes to obsess over by the time I start. This one ep business is not taking up enough time)
How much of Ray's identity revolves around making his friends (Mew) happy?
How much is he going to break when the ?rich? hotel owner moves into the only space he feels like he has value in?
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(and how much is his breaking going to break our best boy Sand?)
Let's see how much Ray(and Sand) can singlehandedly make me cry for the next 11 weeks...It is afterall, a FirstKhao specialty.
(now do I make a similar collection about Sand...or wait till next week hmmmmm....)
I'm going along with the masses and loving the poor boy and his rich (poor) boy.
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mimisempai · 6 months
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What your words mean to me
Summary
Wandering through the bookshop's shelves, Aziraphale would never have expected to come across a book belonging to Crowley, let alone a poem written in his demon's own hand...
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When you let your heart speak, it's always poetry.
Day 29 : Poetry
On Ao3
Rating G -  1023 words
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As the last note faded, Aziraphale rose from his chair to turn off the gramophone. 
While waiting for Crowley to return from his session at the planetarium, he wandered among the shelves of the bookshop, looking for something to read, when his eyes were suddenly drawn to a book that didn't look familiar. 
He approached it and took a closer look at what was written on the spine.
The Internal Constitution of the Stars by Arthur S. Eddington. 
Now he understood why this book was unknown to him - it belonged to Crowley. The angel was delighted to see that the demon was finally beginning to take possession of this part of the bookstore as well. 
Curious, he cautiously pulled the volume toward him, but as he lifted it, he was surprised to see a sheet of paper fly off and fall to the floor.
He picked it up and noticed that it was in Crowley's handwriting.
The sheet appeared to have been crumpled and then uncrumpled, and several sentences had been crossed out.
Not feeling entitled to read something that seemed personal, Aziraphale was about to put it back in the book when his eyes were drawn to a word.
Angel.
He hesitated for a few seconds, but even though he was an angel, his curiosity finally got the better of him.
With Crowley's book and the sheet of paper in his hands, Aziraphale sat down at his desk to read what the demon had written.
He placed the paper in front of him, put on his glasses, and began to read.
The angel couldn't help but giggle as he read the title of what appeared to be a poem.
Ode to my Angel
My sweet angel, my inspiration.
How I love the way you came into my life like a revelation
Invading my heart and mind, day and night,
Every encounters, of my life the highlight
 When you walk away from me, I only think of our next encounter
That I would finally be able to show you I can be better
That I can finally read in your eyes pride and admiration
And forget that one day I could have been a deception
 I can't list all the reasons I have for loving you
Your kind eyes and your sweet smile that are always so true
Your sharp mind and your good heart that you let me see
I could go on, but my words are poor to describe what you are to me
Crowley had scribbled a few words at the end of the poem that made Aziraphale laugh out loud. 
Okay, poetry is not for me. Let's keep this piece of shit paper here to remind me never to try to write poetry again. 
My words are just that, too poor. 
Besides, I'm writing this to someone who's had a bookshop for centuries and has read verses by every talented poet who's ever lived.
Reflecting on the poem, Aziraphale thought that maybe Crowley was not a poet, but the meaning of the words was pure poetry. Perhaps his words were poor and his rhymes shaky, but the emotions behind them were the most beautiful lines the angel had ever read. He couldn't help but be moved by the thought of being the one who had inspired Crowley to write that poem, and even more by discovering the depth of the demon's feelings. He knew them, but to read it in black and white was something else.
He read it again, slowly, trying to memorize every word. Concentrating on his reading, he didn't hear the bookshop door open and close, and it was only when Crowley gasped behind him that he noticed his presence and looked up from his desk.
Crowley murmured, "You found it..."
Aziraphale turned to him and sheepishly replied, "I'm sorry, Crowley, I didn't mean to... I was going to put it back in the book, but when I saw the word Angel, I couldn't help myself. "
Crowley smiled softly and walked over to the Angel leaning against the desk before taking the sheet of paper in his hands. He said softly, "Don't apologize, Angel. If I didn't want you to find it, I wouldn't have left it there, you know."
He pressed a light kiss to Aziraphale's lips and added, pointing to the poem, "And after all, it's nothing you don't know. So you can throw it away."
Aziraphale shook his head and briskly took the sheet from Crowley's hands, placed it on the desk, and said, "No way am I throwing this away.
The angel stood and took the demon's hands in his own before saying quietly, "Yes, I knew most of what you wrote, but I'd like to come back to something in particular. Something I don't quite agree with." 
Crowley looked at him quizzically and Aziraphale continued, "When you wrote that you wish you can finally read pride and admiration in my eyes, to forget that you were once a disappointment. I don't know when you wrote that, but I hope you know by now that you have never been a disappointment and that my pride and admiration have long been yours."
Crowley smiled and nodded slowly before replying, "I wrote it shortly after the Metatron episode, when I really didn't know what to do with myself. But I assure you, Angel, you should throw that away."
Aziraphale placed a finger on the demon's lips and shook his head before saying quietly, "As I've already told you. There's no way I'm throwing it away."
Aziraphale brought Crowley's hands to his lips and kissed slowly each palm before continuing, "What you've written, your words, what they mean, is more precious than the most valuable book in this bookshop." 
He wrapped his arms around the demon's neck and drew his face to his own before saying softly, "Your love, what you feel for me, I see it every day in your eyes, in your gestures, I feel it in every kiss, in every caress, and that, my lovely demon..."
Aziraphale paused, kissed Crowley tenderly on the lips, and continued, "This is the most exquisite poetry."
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Still not beta'd
Still not my native language
Still hoping you'll enjoy this story  🥰
Still thanking you for bearing with me 😝
Ineffable Growing Love series : here (After season 2)
Ineffable Husbands masterlist : here (Before season 2)
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weirdmorefics · 3 months
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Unmasked Chpt 4
AO3, Etsy Shop, Youtube,
Chpt 1 Chpt 2 Chpt 3
TW-Gore, Horror
A/N- So sorry for not keeping up with chapters I am really suffering from fanfic writer curse LOL. Been to the hospital twice this week.
Taglist- @bunbunbl0gs
Word Count- 1,478
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Spencer's stares will not cease but he doesn't speak.
"I didn't want to tell you, I knew you would freak. I'm fine you're fine! You will continue to be fine if you get the hell out of Woodsboro!" I rant.
Spencer furrows his eyebrows at me, "You are the one who should be off this case! You are entirely too close to it! I am calling Emily right now."
He tries to pull his phone out of his pocket but I am quick to grasp his hand, "I am doing this with or without the BAU! Would you rather I do it by myself? Trust me, I prefer you out of danger- I mean the whole BAU out of danger. I don't want any more people killed because of me. So please don't make this more difficult for me than it already is!" I say in a mix of begging and anger.
He slides his phone back into his pocket, my hand still grasping his, "I won't let you do this alone."
I am unsure how to feel. I would have died of pure joy if Spencer had said this to me in any other situation but right now, it just makes me more scared. The more I care the more likely Ghostface will kill him.
I clench my fist to suppress any emotion Ghostface is always watching.
"Jill," Sid shouts out concerned.
" Stay away from me," she cries.
The father of the poor girl runs into the house full of worry and is quick to console Jill. I understand why Jill is scared of us she should be I think everyone should be scared of the curse of the Prescott's. Hell, even I am.
The father of the girl leads Jill out of the house and Jill's friend enters the house in a run. I can hear her friend whisper comforts to her but they are probably doing nothing as she sees what her future looks like through the eyes of Sidney.
The cops run back in saying there were no signs of Ghostface outback.
"Call the coroner, the body is upstairs," I relay to the cops and run my hand through my hair practically pulling it out of my skull.
Spencer puts a soothing hand on the small of my back, "We have to talk to the team."
I nod just thankful he isn't trying to push me off the case. We exit the house the cops and Sidney in tow.
The neighbors are shouting wretched things at Sid and me.
"This is all the Prescott's fault."
"You two are just like your mother!"
"They bring death wherever they go!"
"No wonder Y/n's an agent! Must be easy when murder follows you!"
"I thought this was over when they left!"
"You two never should have come back!"
I bite my lip, I want to be angry at their words but it's all true. I feel Spencer's hand move from my back to my waist as he grips my hip protectively.
I look up at him to assure myself he doesn't mean it, it was probably an accident. Instead, I find his eyes glaring daggers into the passerbys shouting harsh words.
"Clear the area," one of the cops shouts.
"You shouldn't have to deal with this," he mumbles.
"It's fine... it's not like what they are saying isn't true," I sigh.
Spencer's head quickly turns to face me and looks at me with serious eyes, "Y/n none of this is your fault."
"Sure," I say unconvincingly making Spencer sigh.
Sidney sees Jill off to the paramedic and I watch them closely ignoring my own surroundings. I just need to protect my family, and my team, I don't have time to worry about myself.
Spencer's hand touches my cheek and I swear I jump five feet in the air.
"Y/N," he keeps saying my first name instead of my last. It gives me butterflies each time the way he says my name with such care. I am totally overthinking it though he is only calling me by my first name because he doesn't know if he should call me Prescott now or continue with the fake one. I don't have time for these trivial thoughts. Spencer is making things so much more difficult. I can't focus around him.
As if he notices my mind drifting he repeats my name once again and my eyes meet his I could get lost in his eyes forever.
"This is not your fault, these people should not blame you. I would yell at them right now if I didn't think you would use it as an opportunity to run off and try to solve the case on your own." He states seriously, he wants to be sure I believe him.
I smirk, "You know me too well, but don't try to pretend you wouldn't do the same in my situation."
"Hiding things from the team is what got me into prison in the first place, we are better as a unit." His eyes darken and I am shocked he would bring up his time in prison to me without me forcing it out of him.
I shake my head desperately, "That wasn't your fault! It was entirely Cat's fault she's insane!"
"I shouldn't have given her the ammunition," he frowns.
"You were doing what you thought was right for your family, you should not feel guilty! It's what makes you, you, and I wouldn't want you to be anyone else." I look determinedly into his eyes.
I swear I see him flush but it's probably just all the police lights.
"Then why don't you want me to help," he smiles at me.
I am taken aback, "what does that have anything?"
"You don't want me to be anyone else? You don't want me to stop doing what's right? Helping you is what's right Y/n," he steps closer with each sentence.
I am so flustered I swear my body is on fire. I feel the urge to fan myself with my hand to help extinguish the flames. Luckily the moment is broken as Prentiss jumps out of the van with the rest of the team.
"So much for getting some rest at the hotel before the case," Luke mumbles out.
Prentiss looks like she is in full-blown mama bear mode, "What the hell happened?"
Dewey follows close behind, "I was just about to ask my officers that as well."
They seem to both already know each other they must have been going over the case together at the precinct. I am glad Dewey isn't as closed off as Sid is.
The local officers that were on the scene started relaying how they tried to cut him off in the backyard but missed him and compared him to a ghost.
I sigh and clench my fist that's the stuff I bet Ghostface would love to hear to be compared to the supernatural.
One of the officers turned to me with suspicion, "How did you manage to get the jump on him Y/n?"
"This isn't my first rodeo, "I growl.
He puts his hands up in defense, "Hey all I am saying is it's weird that you have survived three Ghostface killings and willingly come back here when the murders start again."
I am clenching my fists so tightly that I think all the bones in my hands may break. I can't believe this is what the people I've known my whole life think of me. I am trying to take a deep breath, I am trying to remain calm.
The thing I wasn't expecting was Spencer stepping in front of me and barely remaining calm and not remaining civil at all.
"You can't speak to a federal agent here to save your ass like that," he states his tone so low it sends chills down my spine. My eyes widened did Reid just swear and not only that did he swear on my behalf?
Prentiss turns to Spencer her face full of professionalism but eyes full of fury, "Reid! Van now!"
Dewey looks at his men as well, "You two get outta here as well."
"Yes sir," they look to Dewey with respect which is nice but also felt odd seeing it. He didn't get much of that when Ghostface first arrived but he just started being a cop then, and now he's the boss. I'm proud of him and I won't let Ghostface take him away.
I see the coroner roll out the poor teen girl's body and breathe in deeply. This won't happen again I won't let it. I don't want to be powerless again... but I am worried that my feelings for Spencer make me powerless. My feelings for him are just another weakness Ghostface can use against me but I don't know how to stop them.
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cliozaur · 7 months
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Oh, what a lovely chapter! Hugo mercifully takes us back in time once again and starts the 5 June once again. We have already experienced it through Marius, then Gavroche, and now through Bossuet, Joly, and Grantaire! And we also get a chance to learn more about bini! These two “lived together, ate together, slept together. They had everything in common, even Musichetta, to some extent.” They are adorable! Why do we learn about this so late?
And these three are uninterested in attending the funeral, much like Marius. Speaking about Marius… they gossip about him! Grantaire’s assessment of Marius’ love affair is spot on – it’s almost supernatural! “Marius is a fog, and he must have found a vapor… Ecstasies in which they forget to kiss. Pure on earth, but joined in heaven. They are souls possessed of senses. They lie among the stars.” This perfectly captures what is happening between Marius and Cosette.
Oh, god! Grantaire's descent into intoxication to the point of near-death is genuinely distressing. Though, now I will know that wine is white magic [pouring myself a glass of white magic]. So, wine did not suffice for him, and he wouldn’t have minded some stronger substance like opium or hashish, but he didn’t have them on hand! I don’t recall this from my previous reading. And he had to settle for a mixture of brandy, stout, and absinthe. Wow, that’s some black magic indeed.
And we also meet Gavroche’s fellow gamin and friend, Navet. Following Enjolras’ instructions, Navet calls Bossuet to join the company at the funeral. Poor Joly has the flue and is not ready to go out into the rain. Grantaire feels slighted that Enjolras did not send for him: “If he had come for me, I would have followed him. So much the worse for Enjolras! I won’t go to his funeral.” So they all stay and continue to drink.
Then, a barricade comes to them. When Bossuet shouts to Courfeyrac, Hugo ominously remarks that the Rue de la Chanvrerie was “not more than a gunshot long.” That’s it.
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margowritesthings · 11 months
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The Long Night
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pairing: modern day!Arthur Morgan x Reader word count: 914 words warnings: sick doggo, anxiety, vet waiting room authors note: I wrote this last week when my love @cowboydisaster was in the vets with her doggo Moose, but I've found myself reading it for comfort so I thought y'all might wanna read it too <3 it's just a lil comfort drabble, but I think it's kinda cute
taglist: @cowboydisaster @inkandbloodbound @counteveryfreckle @elifsukirdaghehe @reaveries @delilah-grimes @mrsarthurmorgan7 @twola @photo1030
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You don’t know what time it is, can’t bring yourself to check your phone and see his little smiling face staring back at you from your wallpaper screen. Arthur is running his thumb over your knuckles softly, while you grip onto him as hard as you can. He’s your lifeline, your tether to the Earth right now and you can’t let go lest you fall off. The crook of Arthur’s neck fits your head perfectly, his muscular shoulder the perfect pillow in amongst possibly the least comfortable room you’ve ever had the displeasure of sitting in. His light blue shirt has little pools of a darker shade where your tears have fallen and clung to the cotton. 
You tired eyes scan over the posters on the wall opposite you, seeing adverts for tick treatments and infographics on spaying and neutering. You and Arthur are the only two in the waiting room, as they said you could wait here until Moose was ready to be collected, so the silence is agonising. You focus hard on the sensation of his calloused thumb pad running over your softer skin, trying to keep your mind on Arthur as to not let it wander. It’s hard, not thinking of all the things that could be going wrong right now.
“He’ll be okay. Everything’s gonna be alright.” Arthur whispers, as if he has a map to exactly where your mind is right now. You exhale deeply through your nose, not enjoying how clinical everything smells whenever you try to inhale to calm yourself down. 
“I know. I just miss him. Time goes so much slower when you’re in a waiting room…” you sigh, nuzzling more into Arthur’s side. You want to melt into him, want to shut your eyes and be back in your home with your boys, but you have to wait for one of them to come back from theatre. 
“Lil’ man’s strong, darlin’. You raised him strong, and you did right by him. He’s gonna be fine.” 
You’ll never understand how Arthur always knows just what to say. The worry swirling around in your mind that this is somehow your fault dies a little with each of your husband’s words. You did right by him. He’s gonna be fine. 
“You think we did the right thing? He’s so small, I just don’t-“
“I know we did. You always do right by him. Hell, I ain’t ever seen you drive like that to get him here on time… you’re his momma, darlin’, of course you did right by him.” 
There isn’t anything on this Earth but your lil guy in your arms that could possibly make you feel better, but somehow Arthur manages, just a little bit. You laugh weakly, shaking your head slightly.
“I did nearly run that poor old woman over, didn’t I?”
“I think I saw her get back up, should be alright.” He jokes, glancing down at you to witness the very first smile of the night creeping across your lips. You nudge Arthur in the side gently, just so grateful to have him. You’re about to attempt a witty comeback, but are interrupted (thank god, as you're sure reminding him of the time he ran John over on his own driveway wasn’t going to win this argument for you) by a nurse entering the room. In unison, you and Arthur stand, grasping each other's hand tightly. 
“Moose Morgan?” She asks, despite you two being the only people in the room. You nod, feeling your heart pounding in your chest and your knees shake with pure anxiety. It’s only after a few seconds do you notice the smile adorning her tired face, “Everything went well. He’s awake. A little drowsy, but awake. Do you wanna see him?”
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“Hey, little Moose!” Arthur speaks in a hushed voice, not wanting to disrupt the peace of the room. Moose perks up, peering out of his tiny cone to find the origin of the noise. He loves Arthur, has done since the day you first brought him home to ‘meet the kids’ (your dogs and horses), and it shows by the way his tail wags at the very sound of his dad’s voice, “How you doin’, buddy? We missed ya’.”
Words fail you when you finally lay eyes on him, his fluffy little body all curled up in a blanket. He sits up when he sees you, so very excited to see his momma that he lets out a little yip. Tears pool in the corners of your eyes as you kneel down to him, lifting the blanket up and him with it. It takes a second of manoeuvring around the cone, but you managed to place a soft kiss on Moose’s head. He tries to return the gesture, but his tiny tongue won’t reach past his new outfit. You giggle, holding him close to you.
“It’s okay, baby. I’ve got you- Momma’s got you.” 
Arthur wraps an arm around your shoulder, rubbing up and down your arm softly. He glances out of the window of the clinic, suddenly struck with the best idea when he realises the sun is rising. 
“Hey, how ‘bout we go get you both a treat? Starbucks should be open soon, and I think this calls for one of them pup cup things. Whatchu’ think?”
Moose yips, apparently already feeling much improved. 
“I think Moose has spoken.”
Arthur chuckles, reaching to scratch behind the little dog’s ear,
“Right you are, boss man.”
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