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princescribbler · 9 months

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Some USEFUL REMINDERS for CG/L Dynamics (Especially Online or LD)

Presented in no particular order or significance, a few useful reminders!

Your Caregiver is more than just that... they're a complicated, whole person with interests outside of CG/L, ABDL, and kink.

Nobody, and I mean nobody, likes to be introduced or harassed online with "Hi wanna be my mommy/ daddy/ little" as an opening line. Like... that's a huge amount of effort, time, and responsibility to take on just cuz somebody you don't know asks... it isn't gonna happen.. if you want that, work for it and build a relationship!

Reminders are great! Send them to your partner, yourself, your friends, whether it's for daily tasks like checking in with a CG or boring work stuff... be the person people appreciate because you check in, give reminders, and generally enable everyone to succeed easier.

There will be extremely tough days where you'll feel bad and want to give up your kinks, your fetishes, etc... and that won't fix a single thing. See, whether you're kinky or not; Jobs suck, renting sucks, everything sucks sometimes! Stop blaming your kink for your problems and accept that you might need to find more complicated answers than just hating or blaming kink.

You and only you are responsible for your fetish activities... you choose how you engage in them, even if it's at someone else's supposed "orders." Don't see yourself as somehow not an active participant!

Consent is key, and informed, enthusiastic consent is key. Whether it's hand holding, keyholding, sex, cuddles, or just sexy messages and texts, consent is key. If you don't get it, don't get kinky with them. And major important note: coerced or manipulated consent is NOT consent.

Pixar and Disney remain excellent at any age, and you don't need to be a little to enjoy! Seriously.

Littles can be toxic! Yes, there's tons of fake caregivers, fake switches, fake and manipulative buttfaces out there, absolutely. But littles can be toxic, too, and if you're seeing those toxic behaviors within yourself, you need to change. Now... it isn't acceptable or fair to damage others with your toxicity just because you're afraid to change and grow!

Consent is needed from all involved, including spectators. Don't bring your kinky stuff in public without the consent of ALL impacted parties. Don't make the whole community look bad, either!

Depression, anxiety, and mental health in general can be a risk when adopting a kinky lifestyle. Don't ignore them or just try to work around them... it won't work. You need to deal with them, and social relationships can help but sometimes you need professionals, not just friends.

When in doubt, assume you should be doing the responsible thing..I know, especially for bratty subs, that it is hard to choose to do the responsible thing... but seriously, being a little isn't an excuse to EXCLUSIVELY do irresponsible or naughty things!

Things like diapees, pacifiers, bottles, most little or ABDL or CG/L gear can be passed off by just saying "Oh, it's for a friend" because everyone assumes there's a friend with a kid. When you accidentally feel exposed... just try to remember most people don't care, or notice, and if they do they probably assume it's a misunderstanding. Stop freaking out!

Your caregiver isn't your therapist. They're not here to fix your emotional trauma from childhood.. they might help you, but they're not meant to fix your whole life just because you let someone be in charge of you.

You are still an adult, even in littlespace... so you need to act like it when it comes to serious stuff. Money, sex, responsibilities, these deserve an ADULT view and should involve your ADULT mindset in participating, unless you and your caregiver have a very specific and well negotiated/ understood agreement about power exchange and decision making... and even then, you should still be an active part of the planning.

Everybody fucks up, and it's USUALLY stupid to hold a mistake against someone who means you well. Give your partner the benefit of the doubt, by default... it can be either you alone against your problems, or you WITH a partner...idk, seems like being on a team is just easier and a better way!

Communication isn't everyone's thing. If you're with someone who never learned healthy methods, you can teach and help. You aren't obligated to, I'm not saying you're responsible if your Partner isn't knowledgeable about this stuff... I'm just saying, if you know a healthier and better way, show your partner, don't expect them to just improve because you think you model good behavior.

Diaper and ABDL play isn't ubiquitous... in this community, some people love it (myself included) and others hate it, and that's fine. As long as nobody is shaming or hurting anybody, let them be, whether your kinks match or not.

Very, very few people want unsolicited pics, whether of penises, breasts, butts, chastity, diapers, etc. If you want to send a pic, check that the pic is welcomed.

Just a short, hopefully informative list than jumped into my head today and I figured I'd share!

Sending you all lots of good vibes, good times, and good luck!

As always, stay happy, stay healthy, and stay kinky!

-Scribbler

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ihatekoalassuck · 5 months

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Ive been thinking about the digital circus cast but with tma entities all day, so here they are:

Pomni- Spiral Victim, she is trapped in this strange place that looks like an old video game and is full of sanity destroying horrors, and she cant remember who she is and why shes here, of course its Spiral. Also i maybe a bit biased but I always associated clowns and circuses with the Spiral instead of the Stranger.

Jax- Hear me out, Lonely Victim. Ofc he spends a lot of time around the other characters but he's not actually treating them like people, more like play things. He never really opens up or acts genuinely to anyone, he just bullies them, and I think separating yourself from the only people around can be very isolating. : )

Ragatha- Buried Victim, this one was pretty hard to figure out because it isn't that obvious, at first I was thinking flesh but I think the Buried fits much better because she seems to be under a lot of pressure carrying the emotional weight of everyone. Shes always trying to help everyone and probably fears messing up even a little bit (Maybe like not fake laughing convincingly enough), because if she does everything will fall apart. I'm thinking Luisa (the strong girl from Encanto) except Ragathas not physically strong and giving into the pressure would have much worse consequences.

Gangle- Stranger Victim, I mean shes literally a comedy mask. Shes constantly going through major mood swings with the comedy mask and all. Thing is we don't really know how much her personality shifts between her masks, but changing suddenly at any time to something you might not even recognize as yourself feels very Stranger to me. There's this thing in my head thats the Stranger but your the Stranger that Johny never used, but I feel like if he did it would be similar to Gangle.

Zooble- Flesh Victim. What do you want from me, they literally, physically switches out their body parts and sometimes falls apart. It's like that one episode where the workout people attach extra arms and mouths and stuff but pg. Also same dude.

Kinger- Spiral Victim, hes insane in cannon. What do you want from me.

Bubble- Slaughter Avatar. Behind his goofy smile and beady eyes is only a barley contained murderous instinct. Do not trust him.

Caine- I don't know. He isn't actively trying to cause fear and he doesn't seem to be scared himself. I lean heavily towards the Web because he controls everything in the circus but he isn't manipulating anyone and they have a choice in whether or not they play (Kinda). Maybe Beholding because he watches everyone? The stranger is also a choice because he acts almost like a human, like an AI pretending to be a person, and that is exactly what he is. We'll probably just have to wait and see.

#tma podcast #tma #the magnus archives #DIG #the amazing digital circus #tadc #tma entities #tma spoilers #tadc pomni #tadc jax #tadc gangle #tadc zooble #tadc kinger #tadc bubble #tadc caine #magnus archives

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smilesatdawnmain · 2 months

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in your different AU‘s, will some characters have drastically different personalities?

I’m not sure if it’s necessarily “drastic” but there are definitely differences in their personalities.

I’ll write if there are any~

Taken

MK is very- untrusting, is the best way to put it. He trusts those he loves, but doesn’t trust a stranger at face value. He 100% believes everyone is lying until proven otherwise. He doesn’t trust anyone to keep their word- and infact is more on guard when someone “swears to do something/promises things”

While he is a very kind soul, he doesn’t often cry. Not to say his can’t be moved by emotions, but things don’t affect him at that deep of a level anymore. Even good things.

His abilities only really match to Wukong’s except his ability to dream of the future. This ability came from Macaque.

He’s far more similar to Nezha in how he dresses and fights. As well as his sense of honor. Things like cheating and breaking vows/promises is very upsetting to him.

Hesitant to cause any real injury to anyone.

The Day the World Eclipsed

MK : extremely trusting and loving- probably naively so. Grew up being able to trust everything around him, thus is far more susceptible to manipulation.

He has no reason to distrust anyone or feel concern they might be lying.

His fighting style takes off more of both Macaque and Wukong, as his powers take after both as well.

More playful fighting, not willing to cause any actual harm.

He’s the perfect little mix of both his parents. Bubbly and sweet, yet easily able to switch to a more conniving little trickster at the drop of a hat.

The Tragedy of Six (this is the Au with the biggest difference)

MK: while his playful nature and attitude towards his friends are the same as all the other MK’s, it is with enemies that MK might show the greatest change.

Far more quick to violent tendencies. Can cause harm, and isn’t against doing so if needed.

Very curious of the world, but grew up being told it is corrupt and beneath him, so sometimes that mindset shows in how he interacts with others.

He is very protective of his family- almost boarder-lining on possessive.

His fighting style does have a lot of Nezha’s influence, but it is Erlang that he learned the most from.

Red Son: while Red Son is the same in all my Au’s, this is where his personality differs. He’s far more cautious in this Au.

Feeling both responsible as the oldest, he also has a large sense of fear since he has had the Samahdi fire since birth.

He is calmer. Not to say his anger management issues are gone, but he works twice as hard to keep them under control.

He struggles with abandonment issues. Always assuming everyone is going to leave him- and for good reason. It’s just a matter of time, in his mind

Mei: in this Au, her general bubbly spirit and happy go lucky attitude is the same.

She is prone to more illegal shenanigans, impatient as she tends to be, yet she meditations far more frequently.

And influence from Nezha, you’d be surprise how often you find her meditating without someone prompting her to do so.

She’s claimed the other children and Nezha as her family, and she is not keen to share. And similar to Emerald, she often quietly wonders of her own heritage.

Worried that she isn’t enough as a “Dragon” since she doesn’t fully understand what it means to be one.

She really really doesn’t get along with Xiaoxiao~ (the siblings that are always fighting)

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And that is all I can really think that is drastically different for the characters of each au. Most everyone’s personalities are the same except for the differences here :3

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deludedfantasy · 8 months

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Trimax Vol 13 Ch 5-9

Part 2 of my thoughts on volume 13! In which I manage to get very emotional about Vash, Livio, Wolfwood, and even Legato.

Ch 5

When Livio is truly in danger, when he’s really scared, that’s when Razlo comes out. He never actually left! Razlo is always going to be a part of Livio. The question is whether Livio will be able to communicate with him, rather than let him have complete control to do whatever he wants.

Currently, it looks like Razlo is 100% in control because I can’t imagine Livio fighting like this. Purposefully putting himself in the way of Elendira’s gun so it jams, but also hurting himself more in the process? That’s a reckless thing to do, even with LR’s regeneration abilities and from what we’ve seen of Livio’s fighting skills, he’s very cautious. He’s not afraid to take a hit, but he certainly wouldn’t throw himself in front of one, even if it would get him the advantage. Sometimes, he fights like he doesn’t have those regeneration abilities.

Oh, I didn’t notice that earlier! Those smaller semi-automatic cross-shaped guns are exclusively Livio’s weapons. Razlo, since he’s the Tri-p of Death, only fought with Punishers. But there’s something symbolic in him fighting with Livio’s guns now. They’re much lighter, easier to move. But for Livio they don’t carry the same burden of guilt that the Punishers do.

Elendira’s true power appears to be some kind of psychic projection/manipulation that takes advantage of a person’s natural instincts/bloodlust. If I’m understanding this correctly.

Oh well, that’s horrifying. I remember when I first read this, I was so distraught because I thought Livio was dead! But then you realize, he’s not! Elendira’s projecting a vision on him.

I also can’t tell if the way Elendira’s body, specifically her hands, are elongating is part of the vision or if she’s actually morphing a little. Either way, that’s so messed up.

You know what that reminds me of? When Wolfwood had that horrifying vision of being torn apart after he brought Vash to the Ark way back in volume 7. Who did he happen to be standing in front of when it happened? Elendira. But he assumes it isn't her, probably because he doesn’t know much about her. He thinks it was probably Chapel because he’s the one who has a vendetta against him, but we never see Chapel doing anything like that again or exhibiting any sort of power like that.

Why would Elendira do it then? As we know, Elendira likes to mess with people. She ultimately doesn’t care about Wolfwood’s betrayal of the Eye, but she thinks it’s fun to torment people. Just look at how she treats Legato all the time. Now, she actively hates him, but still, I feel like she wouldn’t pass up an opportunity to mess with Wolfwood who she also seemed a little antagonistic with, if not in a slightly, let’s say, nicer way than she is with Legato.

Ch 6

Elendira is much more powerful than either Livio or Razlo. Her psychic abilities are keeping him down and she’s constantly beating on him to keep him from regenerating too quickly. Much like Wolfwood was when he fought Razlo. Which is an interesting parallel to draw right now.

Is that…Wolfwood’s last vial? I wonder why it’s making an appearance now. Is it related to Elendira’s comment about how Razlo has never been so thoroughly defeated? Because the vial reminds us that he was, by Wolfwood. Who gave everything up in order to do that and save Livio. Is that what gives him the sudden will to fight against Elendira’s control?

Oh, and that’s when Livio switches back! He regains control because he remembers who he’s fighting for and why he’s doing it.

The switch was involuntary. It was a fall back to old ways, to let Razlo do the hard stuff. And again he apologizes to him for it, for putting him into a tough situation, especially when he promised he’d be able to handle the tough things on his own. But at the same time, I don’t want Livio to think he can’t ever ask for help, even if it’s from his other personality. Because I do think they can help each other, if they figure out how to work together.

No, Livio!!! He’s never felt this kind of pain before because he’s always had Razlo there to protect him and take the brunt of it. But he’s not weak. Everything he’s done up until now shows that. It took a lot of strength to get where he is and I wish he could see that.

But Razlo!!! He’s protecting Livio again, but in a different way. He’s not letting him mope (in very Razlo fashion). He tells him to get up and keep going. He helps him, and this time, they fight together, each one using their strengths to aid the other. They’re starting to work as one.

All I have to say for this part of the fight is YEAHHHH, GO LR!!!!

When they fight together, they’re unstoppable! Razlo’s reflexes with Livio’s skill make for one hell of a fighter.

Ch 7

So far, Livio has apologized to Razlo twice for what he put him through in order to survive, but now…he’s also thanking him! By saying I owe you, he’s acknowledging how much Razlo has helped him and gotten him through some really tough times.

Training montage! Livio is trying to “keep up” with Razlo and his prowess, not realizing that since they exist in the same body together, they can share that knowledge. Up until this fight, he’s treated Razlo like a separate being rather than part of him.

GOOOOO RAZLO. HYPE UP LIVIO!!!

He’s so right. They’re a duo, a team! If Razlo’s the strongest, so is Livio

Hey, uhhh did Elendira rip Livio in half? And cut off his arm? That’s…concerning. And there are entrails everywhere, yikes.

I’m assuming that tank-thing is the nuclear weapon that Elendira has been after? Her back-up plan for the destruction of the world in case Knives fails.

Truly, Livio is the only person who can stand against Elendira because he just keeps on regenerating from injuries that would have killed other people ten times over.

But also, it’s because Livio is fighting for something and he’s not doing it alone. He’s doing it with Razlo, rather than by himself. And, in a way, Wolfwood. Wolfwood’s final gift to Livio was that vial, and Livio will use it to survive this and kill Elendira. An interesting parallel to Wolfwood using the vials to give himself the strength to finish the fight and get what he wanted, but die in the process.

“To me, to Razlo, and to him.” The way these words are arranged on the page pack a punch. You’re not expecting the “to him” and even without saying his name, we know who Livio is talking about. Wolfwood’s presence is so strong even though he’s gone. He really does haunt the narrative.

Ch 8

So question: can Livio regrow limbs like a starfish? Because his arm and leg are smoking in the way it does when he heals. But does it heal as a stump or does it regenerate? I guess that question will be answered when we (hopefully) see him again.

I just realized Livio impaled Elendira on the nail that was stuck through him. That’s just…wow. I need to go back and reread that fight because I can’t remember how or where he got it.

Oh…this is the first time in three volumes anyone has said Wolfwood’s name, and it was Livio. And he called him Nicholas!! We’ve rarely, if ever, seen him referred to by his first name so this makes me feel like I’m chewing on glass.

Livio just wants Nicholas to be proud of him, to see that he’s living up to his sacrifice and doing good. I’m gonna cry.

How does Legato know Elendira is dead? Is this a return of Legato’s brief psychic abilities that were never mentioned again?

I know Vash is burning himself out doing this, but it says a lot that his powers have been manifesting as defense mechanisms recently, and incredibly powerful ones. He’s not a weapon, he’s a shield and a protector.

Can we talk about how Legato’s insane Iron Maiden gun is named Guernica? There’s a lot to unpack there. I’m thinking of Picasso’s painting about the gruesome bombing of Guernica, and honestly? That’s fitting.

Oh, it’s a young Legato? AT JULY? I completely forgot about this flashback.

I see now, it’s not the psychic powers that Legato is using to locate people. It’s his wires. That’s how he finds Knives and probably how he knew Elendira was dead.

Legato was ready to kill Vash in July. He probably would have succeeded if it wasn’t for Conrad and his more pressing concerns about keeping Knives alive. This is another instance of new information making some of Legato’s previous actions make more sense.

His devotion to Knives, but also his early game with Vash, sending assassins after him in revenge for what he did to Knives in July—it’s more than the fact that Vash did it. Legato saw it. He saw the gruesome, bloody remains of Knives’s body and the utter destruction surrounding him. We know how devoted he is and we see how drastically he reacts in the moment. He can’t let Vash get away with so nearly destroying the being he has devoted his life to, no matter what Knives’s wishes might be.

Knives is so terrible. It’s not like this is news, but the audacity. Someone is distraught and crying over you and he tells Legato that he’s being annoying? What an asshole. He spits in the face of all of Legato’s loyalty. Sometimes it really makes you feel bad for Legato even if he’s also terrible in his own ways.

I’m having a hard time parsing these pages, but it looks like Legato dives headfirst into Vash’s defensive forcefield and uses Guernica as a shield. Vash destroys it, but it gives Legato cover so he can get behind him and point a gun at the back of Vash’s head. Okay, let’s go with that. It makes sense.

What did Legato get hit with now? It kinda looks like Vash’s wings?

Ch 9

Legato, honey, you’re so unhinged, it’s unbelievable sometimes. He’s so excited that he’s bleeding out and getting close to death.

Of course, all in the service of Knives. To prove his loyalty because Knives has never readily accepted it before, and that’s really all Legato wants at the end of the day—to see his loyalty rewarded. But since Knives never gave it to him, he just kept escalating and escalating his attempts until we got here. It’s sad that this is what finally brings him joy.

Whether Legato dies or Vash dies, Legato wins. It’s a zero sum game. If Vash dies, Legato proves just how devoted he is to Knives (and then dies because Knives can’t allow humans to live). If Legato dies, he succeeds in breaking Vash’s spirit and his ideals, successfully bringing down Knives’s worst enemy and destroying everything he stands for.

Oh no, it’s Wolfwood’s ghost. He calls us back to one of their earliest arguments over Vash’s no-killing philosophy. One day, Vash will have to make a choice. He’ll be put in a position where to get what he wants, someone will have to die—him or his opponent. What will survive, Vash himself or his philosophy?

It’s telling that in the moments before Wolfwood sealed his fate, he also flashed back to this conversation. Unlike Vash, for most of his life, Wolfwood didn’t have a choice and suddenly, he very clearly had one: save Livio or save himself. He chose Livio, he chose his ideals and sacrificed himself. Someone else mentioned how in dying Wolfwood proved himself wrong: your ideals do survive past your death, they do mean something. Because his death had a ripple effect on the people he loved and it altered the way they acted going forward. His ideals did live on. I don’t know where this is going but I’ve accidentally made myself emotional. Basically, Wolfwood managed to prove himself right and wrong at the same time, and completely alter Vash’s rigid point of view by dying.

Now, Vash is faced with the same choice: kill Legato or save himself so he can defeat Knives. Which road will he choose? What will he decide is more important?

Once again, I do not understand what Legato is doing. He’s got more wires, but who is he attaching them to? Himself? Vash? No idea.

I actually got scared Legato got a shot in, but Vash’s powers protected him again. Looks like Legato wasn’t expecting that either.

Vash is a bridge! He always has been. His whole life, he’s been working to connect humans and Plants, to keep their differences from destroying each other and find a path towards understanding. All in an effort to prove Knives wrong. Humans and Plants could coexist in peace. And he did it with such determination, that he ended up in the memory of every single Plant. That’s wild! It might just be what saves humanity.

Yay, Meryl and Milly get to be part of the effort to communicate with the Plants and help Vash! Vash is so important to them and they’re willing to put themselves in danger to help him, as they’ve proven many times. Because they believe in him and everything he stands for and in that vision of a future where Plants and humans can communicate and coexist in harmony.

“Wow, you two are tough! It’s amazing just how tenacious the people of this planet are!” Vance’s comment about Meryl and Milly is so important. In the story, they’ve represented the regular people of No Man’s Land. They are all the best parts of humanity and they show a hope for a future that isn’t full of blood and gunsmoke.

This entire page makes me wanna cry. It’s just Vash in a nutshell, all his goodness and contradictions and goals wrapped up in one, and it’s so, so beautiful. It just makes you appreciate him all the more and reminds you of how good a person he is (even if Meryl is a little scolding with him).

“I believe in how he chose to live his life.” Meryl’s use of past tense here is…interesting, to say the least.

Oh, Legato is using his wires to keep himself in one piece to survive longer. That makes some of the earlier pages make more sense.

Vash has disappeared behind his glasses again, which never bodes well. I think he’s finally made his choice.

His face when he destroys the coin case says it all honestly. He’s done playing games and he’s done holding back.

I can’t get over how cinematic and evocative these last few pages are. The world literally falling down around them as the Earth fleet ship crashes, the way it separates them for a moment, the way they rush each other and are juxtaposed on the last page. And then, the cliffhanger! With all the debris obscuring Vash and Legato, making us wonder what happened to them. It hits hard and I really badly want to start the next volume already! But then that means it’s the end and that makes me a little sad.

#trigunbookclub #trigun

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mydisenchantedeulogy · 17 days

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Love Me Bitterly [Chapter Five] Labyrinth [Adam]

Warning(s): Foreshadowing, OC, short chapter, Adam being Adam, mixed emotions, religious themes.

Tag list: @lala-1516

Previous Chapter

No Minors Allowed!!

“I'm so jealous,” Rilea whined. She fell back in her seat and despite Marcella's plea to be quiet, she continued to wiggle restlessly until the blonde turned to her and raised a curious brow.

“And why might that be?” She asked. She was not curious, but she knew Rilea would not be quiet until she asked.

Rilea got up and moved to sit beside her near the viewing portal. Her green eyes stared at the glistening cosmos in front of her before she turned to Marcella.

“Because Adam is so into you and he's hot.”

He's OK, in Marcella's opinion. His personality is terrible, but he can be nice if he feels motivated.

“I honestly think he's into me just because he's bored.”

Rilea frowned. “Did he say that? Assumptions and truth are frequent bedfellows.”

Marcella snorted.

“So is love and desire.”

The redhead turned up her eyes. She understood the point Marcella was trying to make, but honestly, she didn't think her assumption of Adam was the case. Yes, he was a jerk, but based on what Nera told her, he talked frequently about the Commander's daughter. Her recent performance in Seraphim Square really struck a chord with him.

Even so, it was not her business to push them together. If Marcella gave him an option, something to think about, then it was between them. She and Nera were already giving Adam information; he was just too ignorant when it came to relationships to know what to do with it.

Rilea took an uneasy breath.

“What do you want out of this?”

Marcella hummed. She reached forward and touched the portal, watching as it switched to Earth, a peaceful meadow somewhere in Iceland.

“I'm not sure and for some reason, I'm fine with that.”

On one hand, a relationship with Adam seemed impossible. He was too loud; too full of himself. A one-night stand, on the other, meant that there were no strings attached. Adam did have sex appeal; his mouth made it hard to like him, however.

“It's up to Adam at this point.”

Rilea said nothing more about it. She sat in silence with Marcella until the door opened and Leena sauntered in. She was an anthropomorphic lioness with a brunette mane styled in dreads and dark fur. Sometimes she swapped duties with Rilea but today she was meant to be in the field.

“Is watch over today, sister?”

Leena turned up her slitted brown eyes.

“No. I left Earth early. The observee is grating my nerves.”

Marcella knew the feeling. She gave the lioness a sympathetic look.

“I'm sorry, sister. Perhaps it will get better.”

Leena hummed.

“Perhaps. But I doubt it. I reported him to the Commander once already for misuse of his authority, but she insisted that I ignore it. You would understand, Marcella, he was yours before your demotion.”

That creep. Marcella tightened her jaw and turned to the portal, switching it to a view of the man. He was Caucasian with salt and pepper hair, a charming manipulator, in her opinion. At the moment, he was writing in a ledger of some kind, listing names and ages.

“That is…ominous,” Rilea stated.

No kidding. What was he doing?

“Self-proclaimed Saint Hunter,” Leena mentioned with a frown. “He is currently amassing followers who share his views.”

“And Imelda is ignoring this?” Rilea asked in disbelief.

Leena nodded. She had no idea why and based on the look Marcella was giving him, neither did she.

“The best we can do is keep an eye on him.”

If things continued to escalate then Marcella would have no choice but to take the matter to a Seraphim. Wickedness no matter how small had a connection to the Root of All Evil, and it was the “Powers” job to find and eliminate it.

This was not good.

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‘Saint’ Hunter stayed on Marcella's mind long after she left headquarters. He put her on edge and the more she tried to ignore him, thinking that things would fix themselves, the more worried she got. She was starting to question whether the Seraphim would intervene or not.

Her mind was a labyrinth. Marcella did not even hear her name being called until whoever had addressed her chased her down, nearly frightening her when they leaped in front of her.

“Sorry, mate. Yor an easy one to spook,” Willow stated with a laugh. She was the lead singer of Frisson, a songbird with white plumage and ombre feathers that faded to mint green.

Marcella sighed in relief.

“I'm sorry. I was distracted. How are you?”

Willow snorted.

“Good ‘nough. Yor gonna freak when I tell ya this, but we got a gig.”

A gig. Marcella widened her eyes.

“Where? When?”

She honestly needed a distraction to clear her head, at least for a brief moment.

“At Seraphim Square in two days,” Willow chirped. “The Celebration of Lights festival, ya know. The band ‘as to keep it cleaner than usual, but that's no problem.”

“That's amazing,” Marcella stated.

She was excited, but her mind was so exhausted, a notion that reflected on her face.

“Yor up for this, right mate?” Willow asked, raising a worried brow. “I ‘eard the “Arches” might show. Ya know what that means.”

Azrael. The blonde felt her face heat up. Was he really going to be there? She had never performed in front of the “Archangels” or the “Seraphim” before. All this was so exciting.

“You don't have to worry about me. I'll have my head in the game by then.”

“Rock on,” Willow retorted, bouncing on her feet. “I'll see ya at Lita's house tomorrow for rehearsal.”

Marcella agreed with a nod, then saw her off as she flew away. She felt a bit better, but work still put a damper on her mood. Opting to turn in early, after a long shower, she hurried home unaware of the attention that she had drawn.

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Two months and fourteen days was what stood between the Exorcists and Extermination Day. Two months and fourteen days, Lute reminded herself, and Adam was not feeling it.

The stoic woman watched him shove a donut into his mouth from across the table, having been dragged to some café on the square with him. At first, he was attentive, then like the flip of a coin, his attention went elsewhere. It was not unusual for Adam to lose interest in what she had to say, but when his attention diverted to a certain blonde-haired Heaven-born, she grew curious.

“She must live around here,” Lute stated.

It was just a test, but Adam fell for it hook, line, and sinker.

“Does she?”

“I'd imagine, sir. The “Powers” set up their headquarters near here.”

Adam tossed her a glare.

“No shit. Like I hadn't fucking noticed.”

She knew he had. Adam went there to talk to their Commander. Her point was that it made sense for Marcella to live nearby. He could be dense.

“That bird is a bandmate of hers,” Lute pointed out.

Adam didn't seem to care. He puffed his cheeks and blew bubbles in his cup via the straw. Lute turned up her eyes.

“They might play at the festival. You can see her there.”

Adam groaned. His mask flashed to show a look of annoyance.

“If you don't want me to get to know you as a person, then we need to draw a line here and now.”

What did he want?

“She wants to get to know me,” he blurted out.

“And?” Lute asked.

Adam shot her a glare. What the hell did she mean?

“And what?”

“It's not my place to tell you what to do, sir, but if you want her to get to know you better you might want to put aside your insecurities,” Lute stated. She tapped her face to emphasize her point.

Insecurities. What a joke.

I'm Adam. The first-fucking-man. I don't have–

His mask glitched, interrupting him. Adam frowned. His mask. He hid his face for a reason. Hesitantly his hand went to his stomach, feeling the pudginess beneath his fingers. So what; he wasn't muscular, but he also wasn't overweight. It had been so long since he let a woman get to know him.

What would Marcella even think?

Insecurities. Yeah, he had a few, he reckoned. But he understood what Lute meant. For once he understood.

Frowning, he took a drink from his soda.

“Who the fuck asked you?”

His lieutenant grinned.

“No one, sir.”

#hazbin hotel fanfiction #adam x oc #hazbin hotel fandom #adam hazbin hotel #oc

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hopes-peak-postal-company · 4 months

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Hey mod akane, could you please do a danganronpa character matchup?

By the way, I love your work and match ups :))

I’m a biromantic female, she/her, and a infj, Capricorn, chaotic neutral and enneagram type 8. I am a ambivert leaning towards extrovert, and tend to be more social. I am a social chameleon and can get along with most people.

I’m about 5’4 currently, and I have dark pink hair/brown hair that’s down slightly past my shoulders.

I am have a bit of a temper but usually is calm, and I do get annoyed easily, and tend to get annoyed at small things. I am not rude when i am though because I’ve learnt to hide it. I do have resting bitch face if that matters. Some of my personality traits are- bold, caring, ambitious, etc.

I am a very ambitious person and plan out everything, and anything that could happen, and plan what my future life and others future life will be.

I like psychology, anime, singing and true crime. My favorite types of video games are psychology horror games, along with action games. This is kind of random, but I also really like poetry and English in general. My favorite type of books are graphic novels or novels. I also enjoy shopping, and self-care/doing makeup. When I hyper fixate on something I learn as much as I can about it and tend to ramble. My favorite artist are: marina, Conan gray, Ricky Montgomery and Mitski.

I am very empathic and is extremely good at reading people. I am very blunt usually, but if someone is having a hard time with something I’ll give it to them gently, but also tell them what the need to hear. I can be very confrontational if I have to.

This may sound wrong but am able to switch personality’s around certain people easily. (Grandparents, parents, etc). I am also good at lying and manipulation. (I don’t manipulate people tho, I have on accident when I was younger however.) I tend to repress emotions of my own so I don’t seem vulnerable because last time I did that I got hurt, but I am very good at comforting friends/family.

Thank you for your time :))

I hope you are happy with who I matched you up with.

Your Danganronpa Match Up Is….

Kokichi Ouma:

* Due to you being able to get along with most people your one of the only people Kokichi gets along really well with, eventually causing the two of you to get together

* He loves how you have pink hair, since it’s like the two of you match, due to you both having colourful hair

* If you ever want to dye your hair again he’d happily pick out a new colour for you he has loads of ideas

* He wishes he was a bit taller than you, but it doesn’t bother him too much

* He still leans on you a lot and rests his arms on your head, even if he has to stand on something to be able to reach to do it

* He does like winding you up sometimes though, since he finds it fun trying to figure out how long it will take you to lose your temper

* But when you do start to get angry he just boops your nose saying he was only joking and you should have seen your face

* Kokichi can be annoying sometimes, and he can tell if you are hiding your true feelings about your annoyance, so he tries to get you to let them out by being extra annoying

* Since it isn’t healthy to keep it bottled up all of the time

* He loves your caring side though, especially when it’s directed at him because he doesn’t experience care from people very often

* If you scare someone away with your resting bitch face he starts to laugh and rest his arms on your head saying

* “Aw, your not that scary”

* “Come back, they don’t bite!”

* Even though you like to plan out every aspect of your life it won’t always work, since life doesn’t always follow a plan

* To help you realise that Kokichi sometimes takes you on spontaneous trips to prepare you for the inevitable

* Because he doesn’t want you breaking down later on due to your plan breaking, even if you won’t

* He won’t admit it, but he loves it when you include him in your future plans it really makes him happy that he has someone that legitimately wants him to stay in their lives for a long time

* Other than psychological tricks Kokichi doesn’t really know much about psychology other than the basics and some of the peculiar theories, such as Freud’s theory

* So he is happy to listen to you tell him about it maybe he can use this information in the future

* Will watch anime with you, especially ones with long seasons, since it’s fun to get into debates with you about what you both think will happen next

* The two of you have a karaoke night together, since he likes listening to you sing and if you sound like a dying goat it gives him a good laugh

* It’s also fun to sing the songs together

* When you watch anything true crime Kokichi likes to give you his opinions on who he thinks did it or how they could of done it better, it can be concerning at times, but it is very insightful

* At least you have a buddy to learn about it with

* He will happily play psychology horror games with you it’s fun to figure out the different parts of the game and which character did what, with you doing it with him

* He would like to play some jump-scare horror games with you as well though, since he finds it funny if you jump up after being scared

* He loves action games that he can go against you in, since it’s really intense and thrilling when your both trying to kill each other in them. Giving each other bets when playing against each other as well.

* If you write poetry as well as read it he’d love you to write a poem about him jokes about how you can write one about how amazing he is

* He’s not that into English himself and doesn’t understand how you can read graphic novels or novels all day, but he will give it a go just for you

* He does like some of the books you give him, but they must of been super interesting to keep his attention on them long enough for him to finish reading them

* Definitely goes shopping with you even if it’s just to play a few pranks on entitled customers he still likes to come along to spend more time with you

* Will also do your skin care with you after you plastered a face mask on his face and he felt how smooth his skin was after he’s been joining you for your routine ever since

* Won’t put on makeup though unless you want to try it out on him, but your going to have to let him do your makeup in return

* So don’t pull a prank on him when you do his because his revenge will be worse

* Listens to your rambling about your hyper fixations he just listens and adds input when necessary or if he thinks he has something you’d like to know

* Gives you a head pat if your going too fast to get you to calm down and slow up a bit

* Will definitely give your favourite artists a listen and if he likes one of their songs enough he adds them to his own playlist. Will also recommend you songs and artists similar to them he has heard of

* He likes how your very empathetic and that you use your ability to of reading people well for good

* He wishes he can relate to you in that sense

* What makes your relationship special is that you both can’t lie to each other, since you can read him easily most of his lies don’t work on you, whereas you can’t hide your emotions from him because he can easily read through that. Making you both able to understand each other on another level

* The two of you are both blunt people, but unlike you he’s not very good at filtering his mouth to make his words more gentle unless it’s to get what he wants

* So it’s good your by his side because it helps to balance it out

* When the two of you are together it’s like you both have built in lie detectors for each other, since no one can get away with lying to you two and you both can’t lie to each other either

* This makes the relationship really real to Kokichi, since he can’t deceive you and has to learn to accept that you are viewing the real version of himself

* You also can’t hide your real personality from him either, but he will help you change it for other people and lie to them, unless he thinks it’s going to be really unhealthy for you, then he will intervene in his own way to help you

* The both of you are very wary at expressing your true emotions, but when he finally lets down his walls he’s glad your really good at comforting him and he wants to do the same for you

* He can read when your suppressing your real emotions and tries his best to get you to express them and open up about your past experiences when you finally do he will comfort you, even if he is a bit awkward and bad at it at first

* Overall, the two of you complete each other perfectly leading to a relationship full of understanding as well as fun times together that the two of you can look back on in the future to come for the two of you.

#danganronpa matchup

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arkssystems · 2 years

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Flashbacks

Flashbacks are annoying. I can’t sleep because of them sometimes, stupid scenes just playing out in my head. On repeat.

Here’s the thing: I’ve done a lot of therapy. I recommend therapy to people. But with trauma, sometimes talking about it doesn’t help some people. That’s why stuff like EMDR exists, because the act of talking about it can be retraumatizing.

I actually prefer to talk about it anonymously, I write about my specific trauma in my journals, for example. But it’s not THAT therapeutic. You know I spent 3 years hopping between residential treatment facilities until eventually my insurance company told me I was untreatable or manipulative. That’s not the case. Everyone gave up on me, then I attempted suicide because I gave up on myself.

I won’t say, “it’s better now”. But I have moved forward, not moved on mind you. Moved forward. But the flashbacks dictate themselves. The trauma doesn’t listen to soothing self talk or anything else I say to it. It’s just there, and when it decides, hey you need some flashbacks today...I get them.

I get triggered by weird stuff. I’m also not that honest about it. I underplay everything until my breaking point and then, yay I look psychotic. It’s not like I intend to do this, its just that my emotions are really wily and they don’t come up in appropriate moments. I’m that person laughing when being confronted about really serious stuff like when my eating disorder was terrible and people in my life were like, “you look like you’re gonna die”, there I was laughing and that truly pissed them off. Which I understand, they were being serious and I was laughing. That’s my inappropriate reactions, though.

Or when I was recounting trauma to therapists, I would just state it in a monotone as if I had no emotions about it, because I didn’t. Couldn’t cry, couldn’t feel sad. But then I’m sitting there in sonic the hedgehog 2 crying in the front row of an empty theater, why? That’s called displacement. That’s how my emotions work. They are stupid.

So I underplay my trauma, I underplay my pain, ect. And then I break, in some situations, and I’m not sane anymore. Then I’m in an asylum, and then suddenly I’m sane again and giving advice to all the other patients. And they’re like, “hey, you know we’re treating you for DID right?” and I’m like hey, I’ve never been correctly diagnosed once in my life. Who are you to correctly diagnose me? Then I leave the asylum and fly to England. I don’t go to a therapist, I don’t get treatment. Kids, I’m not the correct example for you. You should try therapy and trust your therapist. But I’m the exception of course. Don’t listen to me. I have flashbacks and shit. I’m crazy, corrupted, evil, disgusting. Psychotic. Whatever. I have too many problems, then you look at me and I’m giving you reasonable sane advice about your problems and its not that I’m hiding the fact that I switch between alters or forget giant chunks of autobiographical history.

I am not normal. Okay. Fine. I never wanted to be normal. But I’m lost in space at this point. Real and unreal all merge together into a sort of fugue. I can delineate past delusions from past real experiences. But I can’t therapize this past of mine. Talking about it doesn’t help. I’ve tried so hard to relieve the pain and pressure of it. But no. The past rears its ugly head in the worst of ways. It hurts unbearably, and it doesn’t go away. I sometimes say to my headmate, I don’t want to talk about that. I say that constantly. And they sort of look at me smugly, or shake their head at me, or roll their eyes, or say, “you always say that...”. But what else can I say about it? We have tried talking...we have tried keeping silence...we have tried writing. Some days are good, some days are unbearable. I don’t know what else to say.

#complex ptsd #traumagenic system #actually did #did #actually dissociative #did osdd #mental illness #flashback

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Want to be Saved?

I do want to be saved, by the characters if nothing else. I relish the idea of being saved by characters, in my mind, and the character also of God, acting through the divine channels of prayer and also divination. Because that is another thing- I feel like God acts in response to my divination. It was not always so. To start with, and for a long, long time, my divination practice was hit-or-miss, and fraught with confusion and anxiety, messages that conflicted with each other, messages that seemed downright manipulative, misleading, and playing to my emotions and weaknesses and confusion.

I forgot to mention this little detail, probably because I know that most people who do divination do not by any means see it as I do, and I am not intending to criticize or tell anyone what to do. I am not intending to stand out, to make myself weird and unsavory again, because I believe something that offends the beliefs of others.

But I still feel like I need to mention this because my conscience would tell on me otherwise. I have to connect with God in certain ways before I feel like I get good, reliable and trustworthy divination messages. Otherwise, the songs and music I get in musical divination that I do are a wild rollercoaster of emotional confusion, or else they are bland, empty and hold little real clear answer for me. When I pray, the songs that come on are different. But it's not just prayer, it's hard to explain, it's the ongoing mantra-prayers I do on a regular basis. And it's the fact that I pray with my character.

Yes, it sounds strange, doesn't it? But it works wonders putting me in the right frame of mind, emotions, and creative thinking. Because this character just makes me feel all is right with the world. In fact, this character is kind of a shape-shifter, who is more than one character, but i a category of person for me, a relationship I have to them. They're mainly represented by one character, but I go through long phases of someone taking their place for a time, or many characters all frequently switching sometimes. If this sounds weird, it is but it's also beautiful and the only way I know to find this kind of openness, trust and well-being with another (imaginary or real) being, a connection that doesn't fade or become anxious, insecure, avoidant, fearful.

Anyway, I wanted to share all of this strange detail of my process because it's been so helpful and essential to me, as I've discovered it over the years. I keep having the wish to save someone, and the idea that by sharing things in my life that have helped me I might save someone. it's not like I really think I'll single-handedly save them, or even really save them at all. Maybe nothing so dramatic. But I see so much pain and confusion all over the world, and in my own life, even among the most amazing of people, who seem to be so awesome I might think, no, they'd never have problems like I did.

They'd never have problems that I've solved, problems that I could help with, I think. They surely are worlds ahead of me. And yet, time and again I see glimpses into others' world, stories, things I read, biographical tales and things online, and real life people who I meet. And those glimpses show me another story, in which what I have to offer might just save others, like really save them, the way it saved me. Or at least help, a little to a lot, but some.

And of course, I want to save someone, if I can, to be a good person and offer help when it's in my power and there is a need. But I also want to be saved. I want the characters to save me, and I want God to save me. Indeed, I feel as if the mysterious grace of God saves me now in my life. Speaking of being saved and the Christian lingo that usually refers to. But I'm not Christian, per se. It's just one of several belief systems I cut pieces out of to make my own crazy quilt religion.

I want to be saved and I want to save. Because isn't the chance to save a life, or at least help someone a lot, one of the most motivating, meaningful, inspiring things that can ever possess one's life and imagination and drive all kinds of causes and goals? It is for me, but especially when I am called to try to help or save those who I feel especially drawn towards or moved to help. I have come to feel that I really am potentially able to help those who I feel most touched by, who I admire and relate to and feel magnetically drawn towards.

There are a few such types of people, and animals, too, who I can say I feel that way towards. And part of what I want to share in this blog is how I want my own life to be saved by these characters, and how the characters have already transformed my life. But also I want to share things that have saved and transformed my life in other ways, just because, what if it really transforms someone's life? What if by gathering these ideas and sharing them here, I build a force and a focus that one day I can share, even if it takes another form before I really am able to share it (not that I really think I'm going to reach and help anyone here).

I am aware of the risk of wanting to save or be saved. After all it sounds a little like codependency, doesn't it? Don't people warn about that, not trying to save people, not trying to change them, or thinking you can change them? Isn't this the kind of thing that could lead to clinging and enabling and learned helplessness? Or trying to save what doesn't really need saving? Maybe creating problems and a sense of victimhood where it doesn't really exist by becoming emotionally worked up and losing track of objective reality? These are all things that can happen, but I don't have that in mind at all, rather something much more detached, gradual, analytical and objective and rational.

Something much more independent, not even dependent, much less codependent. So, some character in my mind helps me to save myself, but I am the one who really takes the actions to finally be saved. Or I share things that might help others, but it's just ideas. I don't really want to be caught in putting out fires and responding to calls for help, because I guess I feel my own stability and flow isn't up to responding to peoples' problems in a reliable, heavily involved way. All I have is ideas, but that is what I used to gradually save myself. That, and God, and being a mother, and a lifestyle that I built around all kinds of ideas, too, but that is all.

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the-mortifying-ordeal-of · 1 year

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I feel mostly fine when I'm not around him, but I miss him and was looking forward to see him tonight but but was also very anxious about how it would go because he never brought it up beforehand, and we'd been casuallyish texting.

Long story short, I asked him to walk me to my car so we could have privacy and I asked hug or no hug. He said hugs are a shortcut and that he doesn't feel safe around me.

He essentially walked away, I waited in my car a few minutes in case he wanted to say a proper goodbye after a cool-off, he went into the house, I drove off, sobbed the whole way home.

Full disclosure, because sometimes I think I forget how deep I get: thought about wrecking my car multiple times, felt very hopeless and overwhelmed and found myself chant-crying how much I want to die. It's hard that the person who knows me the best, doesn't trust me. I feel evil, bad, doomed, narcissistic, manipulative, wrong. I shouldn't hear that he feels unsafe and immediately make it about my feelings. But I've spent years and years trying to be better so he'd feel better and he doesn't so I must not be.

My best friend sent me a video today just about how happy she is and I immediately wanted to cancel my plans with her. I can't access compersion, I want people to want to talk to me about how fucking miserable this separation is, and I want someone to either tell me I'm bad, he's bad, or that there is a clear solution that needs to be followed in a certain order and with achievable results in a set timeframe. The ambiguity is killing me.

I found myself wanting to call a hotline, just to hear someone say they get it. That wanting to die, in the face of unrelenting failure, is not an unreasonable emotional reaction. I'm obviously not actively suicidal, I'm not going to hurt myself, but hopelessness and overwhelm are pretty fuckin easy to access right now. I feel like a burden, like no one in my circle gets me, and the one person who does get me, doesn't trust or want me. Fuck am I supposed to do with that.

This wasn't supposed to be a long post, just a reminder to my future self that I am still occasionally suicidal in 2022 and I should probably stop charming my therapist and tell her what I'm like. I feel like I'm passing or code switching and no one gets how fucked up I am. Except him, and maybe Wilson. Wilson likes me and I respect her. Maybe I'm not total trash. But this phase of my life does suck and I am adding seven arrows. Definitely going to my AlAnon meeting tomorrow night. I am not well.

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mrpenguinpants · 3 years

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Spider’s Thread [Reverse AU]

Possessive Red Xiao x Reader

Word Count: 2.5k

Commissioned for: @profoundwitchsalad

Art Credit: @ruoyeahs

Warning: Unhealthy relationships.

Prompt:

“You’ve ruined my life because I have a warped idea of what love is and I can’t live without you. But now you’re trying to leave me and I won’t allow that. You left me alive. You have a duty to live for me and by me. I’m not letting you go.”

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Xiao Semi Series

[ Friendship ] [ Falling in Love ] [ Cuddles ] [ Protective ] [ Affection ] [ Jealously ] [ Opposites Attract ] [ String Of Fate (Soulmate) ] [ Fainting ]

Link to original posts: [Red! Xiao.] [Reverse AU]

[Masterlist]

Alatus was once told a story by his Master. A sinner who falls into hell is rewarded for his only good deed, choosing not to kill a spider. As his reward, a thread is lowered down for him to climb out of Hell. In the end, the sinner remains in Hell because he kicks aside others and the thread breaks. Alatus doesn't remember why his Master told him this story but he still empathizes with the sinner. He would have done the same or asked for this 'saviour' to extend their hand down instead. That way he could pull them down.

"Xiao? Are you okay?"

He slowly opens his jade eyes to see you hunch over, peering down above him, eyebrows furrowed together in concern as you reach down and softly tap his temple. He allows you to take a moment to do whatever you want with his face before he reaches up to grasp at your wrist gently, holding back on his want to rub circles into your skin. His reminiscing can wait for now.

"What is it?" he asks curtly, sitting up and resting his elbow on his raised knee. You pout at his curt tone but shrug it off as you take a seat next to him and lean your shoulder against his. You dig into your bag and pull out slips of commission papers and hand it over to him to read through what needed to be done today. A few Hilichurl camps needed to be taken care of, sabotaging a slime balloon, all tasks that seem mundane to someone who fought in a war. As he's preoccupied, you take a moment to look at Xiao's face. He's just the slightest bit unnerved whenever you do this because you always seem to know what's bothering someone.

"Were you dreaming of her again?" you ask quietly. The silence is a good enough answer but you nod understandingly. You never knew his Master personally but you did fight a long strenuous battle against her. From one look you could tell she was a manipulative and cruel woman. While it may not be very kind to say, you were glad that with her passing, Xiao would be free from her physically. But mentally...there were still some things to work out. But Xiao was a very reclusive person, especially with his emotions, so pushing him any further would only make him irritated and closed off.

"Venti and Zhongli are joining our party for a bit if that’s alright. They'll help out a lot with our commissions and travelling. I like Liyue a lot but climbing mountains stresses my shoulders out," you laugh as you change the subject to something less depressing. Standing up as you dust your clothes off before turning to Xiao and holding your hand out for him to take. He stares at it hard for a few moments before huffing and reaching over to clasp your hands together.

It has been so frustratingly peaceful since the war ended. He's not used to it and he can still feel the lick of cutting winds and the heavy pressure of rocks against his body when he sees the bard and funeral parlor consultant just on the horizon. If it were up to him, he wouldn't play nice with these two Archons but they're important to you so he bites his tongue until he tastes blood. He knows the Archons do the same. As soon as the two of them spot you both, Venti is already rushing and tackling you to the ground in his excitement.

"Traveler! I haven't seen you in ages. You need to come and visit Mondstadt more," Venti cried into your shoulder as you awkwardly patted him on his back. Always with the dramatics but you cared about Venti all the same. Xiao scoffed before flicking his jade eyes to meet gold as Zhongli stared down at him cautiously. Since the war ended, everyone seemed to have this warped idea that Alatus had some vendetta against the Gods and Celestia but he was fighting because he was told to.

"Xiao. It's good to see you again," Zhongli said to him. Xiao just nodded in acknowledgement. Even with this new mortal form, Morax never bothered to change his eyes. His gaze alone held the weight of the mountains he had thrown. If Xiao hadn’t been under one of them before, he might have crumbled under the pressure.

"Alright alright, Venti. I promise I'll drop by sometime this month but we still have commissions to do!" you laugh as you haul the bard onto his feet and swat his cape down from the speckles of dirt. He grins cheekily at you, linking pinkies with you to seal your promise, before suddenly lighting up as if he just remembered something.

"Actually! Before we start anything, I need to speak to Mr. Zhongli and Xiao. Super important archon things, you know?" Venti nodded to himself as the two mentioned people stared at him with varying levels of confusion. But Venti just waved their worries off and linked his arms with both men as he dragged them off to a more secluded corner with a surprising amount of strength, “We’ll be right back!”

"Do what you need to do but don't take too long," you called after the trio as you trailed off to the side, messing with your bag of commission papers and gear. Xiao hated that. He knows that these two Archons are your...friends.. but shouldn't you be a bit more cautious? Just because they have mortal forms doesn’t make them human, it doesn’t make him human either.

"Hey, there's no need to look so scary. There really is something important I wanted to talk to the two of you about," Venti speaks up as soon as you're out of earshot. It still gives Xiao whiplash whenever he drops the persona and switches back to Barbatos. "Since Morax is the only Archon I trust with this information and, while I don't trust you one bit, you're the one that's with her all the time you should also know. She's ascending to Celestia."

Barbatos gauges both of their reactions. Morax seems visibly surprised, his eyes slightly widened a fraction, while Xiao has no idea what that means. His Master didn’t exactly give him a history lesson on Celestia or Archons, just pointed to who was his enemy and dealt punishments when he failed.

"And what the hell does that mean?" Xiao asks as he crosses his arms. Venti appears for a second as the bard pouts before continuing.

"It's like I said. A mortal who performs great, heroic feats can ascend to Celestia and achieve godhood. Where they will watch over their people from above. I've only seen this once before so it took me a while to recognize the signs. But 1000 years ago, I helped a woman named Vennessa with her ascension and with the traveler's recent actions with winning the war. Well, you don't need me to explain the rest," Barbatos finishes. Zhongli simply hums as he cups his chin and absorbs what's just been heard. He doesn’t seem troubled by the news at all.

"Have you told her about this?" Zhongli questions as he looks towards the direction that you left. Venti shakes his head. “That would mean that she would vanish from this world."

“I know she loves this world. Whether she wishes to ascend or not isn’t my choice but I want her to continue her travels with that beloved smile on her face. But if she does choose to ascend, she will need our help," Venti stares at the two of them in a mix of pride, sadness, and determination. "Can I count on you two for your help?"

It's a complete white noise in Xiao's ears as his surroundings fade out. He thinks he can see Zhongli nod to Venti wishes, the ever calm smile on his face to match the cheery grin on Venti’s. What, now you want to become a God? Leave this world behind? That’s not funny. You made him give up everything. While in your eyes, your blinded hero syndrome, you think you've liberated him from a soulless conquest but he still has nothing. You still took everything away from him and your only compensation was to have him by your side until he left himself. But now you want to leave without a warning? That’s not fair. You don’t get to take back what you owe. He won't allow you to leave him behind.

“Did something happen? Did Venti say something unnecessary again?” you ask out of the blue. Zhongli and Venti had returned to their respective regions once your commissions were all finished. Since the three of them disappeared to talk Archon business, Xiao had seemed even more tense and aloof than usual. As if he was out of it? You knew that everyone was still suspicious of Xiao and they were angsty to leave you alone with him, but you knew Xiao would never do anything to hurt you. When he doesn't answer, you slowly reach over and you subtly nudge his head up onto your lap and look at him curiously. Before reaching down and cupping his cheek. He leans into your touch before turning his face into your palm and leaving a soft kiss. It makes you giggle at the ticklish feeling as you look at him so softly. It annoys him.

"You were never connected to the war and yet you fought against us anyways. Even when I killed so many people, why did you choose to spare me?" he asked as you blinked at him before giving it some serious thought. He went on a rampage and almost destroyed the world. It was fun. He doesn't have any regrets at all because he hated humanity. His own Master was human after all. But then you appeared and stopped him. A random outsider that wanted to play the hero. He thought it was cute. Perhaps he had underestimated the lengths someone would go to to save the world they loved but when he fell defeated at your feet. He said that this wouldn't change a single thing. He would still scorn humanity and what they did to him. He was so sure he would die there but you chose to extend your hand down to him instead despite what your companions felt. Even when the war ended and he had nowhere else to go, you offered him to travel with you. Nothing changed about his mentality, every person that chose to talk to him was quickly scared away with piercing eyes. Every conversation started would end in silence. Every touch would be met by the tip of his spear. But you would link your hands together with his and smile brightly, and he would always end up forgetting his trauma for a moment. You’ve... become precious to him.

"I love this world and everyone in it. You are a part of that world even if you tried to destroy it. It...didn't seem fair to leave you behind when you've suffered just as much," you finish but it only seemed to spark a wave of deep anger inside of Xiao. He quickly lurched up, almost knocking your forehead with his, before grabbing the scruff of your shirt collar and yanking you forward.

"Cut it out with that "love of everything" crap. It's revolting. So you're saying the people I killed weren't worth avenging? Do you think I'm so weak that I need protection? It's one thing to try and please everyone but at least have some awareness would you?" he snarled as he pushed you to the ground. He knew he was being harsh on you and you had every right to walk out and abandon him but you didn't. Of course, you wouldn't. You needed him as much as he needed you. You just reached over and tenderly reached your hand and placed it next to his. Damn it, why is he always the one stuck worrying about you.

"Then you want to protect me, right? Then don't break your promise. You left me alive which means you have a duty to live for me," he takes your hand in his and squeezes hard. Digging his nails into your own until crescents appear and tiny specks of blood appear so you know he's serious. He doesn't care how you interpret his words, just so long as you never leave him.

"Don't die on me, Hero."

It's been a few hours since the conversation so it's pitch black outside but Xiao was never one to sleep. Even if he could, his mind is too loud to fall asleep too. He's startled when you melt against him fully asleep. Honey smooth as you curl up to his warmth and cling to him like moss to a rock. He can feel his cheeks start to flush as his heart begins to pound against his chest. He can't breathe as his world is filtered through each beat that drums against his ears. He's not sure if there's actually something wrong with him or if it's just been a while since someone got so close and his instincts haven't left.

He's just realized it. He's feeling pain. The feeling in his chest is black but he can't claw it away. It's strange in a way that he can't explain it, that he's never felt before, that he's never felt the need to experience. His life had been warped by battle and a constant push to submit to his Master. They are all things he knows but the gentle words that come from your mouth, the bright eyes that hold the world, the horrible ice-hot feeling inside of him is so foreign yet too easy. He doesn't like it.

It makes him feel...clean in a way. Enlightened perhaps? His Master is long gone and it's like you said. He's free now. Free to make his own decisions and live his life how he wants to. He carefully turns over so as to not startle you away as he really looks at you. You look so peaceful in his arms, eyelids shut without worry, face slack without nightmares, breathing so softly against him. If you weren't so close to him that he couldn't feel the rise of your chest, he wonders if he would think you were dead. He stares at the lock of hair swaying back and forth with each breath like a starved man. The strange feeling doesn't stop. He hates it. It's everything that goes against him and what he knows and everything he should want. He's supposed to be the villain in your story, he should kill you right now-

"Xiao..." he hears you mumble beside him as you lean further into his arm. Damn it. How low is he going to go?

“What are you thinking about now? You just need to think about me. Don’t think about anything else...but me” Xiao sighs before he wraps his arms around you and pulls you into him until you're snug against his chest. Close to him, where he can touch you, where you belong. Not with Morax or Barbatos. Not with humans but beside him. He closes his eyes and nuzzles his head into your hair and he stares off into the distance. The feeling never leaves him for the remainder of the night.

"Ah! There you are. I was running around crazy looking for you," he turns his hair to see your flushed form pulling yourself up onto the mountain cliff, "When I woke up I couldn’t find you anywhere! You gave me a scare there."

He hates you. He hates you.

Words of his previous master ring in his ears, almost as if her very soul is wrapping around him as she whispers in his ear how weak he is. Ones with power that refuse to take what they want because they rather live in the comfort of nothing. Be greedier, take what belongs to you.

"Xiao?" you say as his piercing eyes stare directly through you. His Master always told him that she loved him. Even if he hated her he still clung to that false love. Of being wanted. Isn't love for a single person vile? Would feeling such emotions for one person instead of "everyone" bring you down to reality? It's not fair that you've crawled your way into his heart while you walk along in bliss. Now that he thinks about it. It was so simple. He just needs to monopolize your thoughts and love. This time it won't be as friends.

"I love you."

He'll pull you down to where he is. You extended your hand down to hell so it's your fault. He'll drag you down kicking and screaming if he has to. You left him alive. You have to live for him and by him. He's not letting go.

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astaroth1357 · 3 years

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Hi there, congrats for the 1500 subs. How about the bros reaction to an MC who's an empath?

Brothers with an MC Who is an Empath

This should not have been as hard as it was but maaan, my brain just wasn’t working. Finally got it done though!

Intro:

An Empath is essentially someone who is highly sensitive to outside stimuli like sounds, personalities, energies, emotions, or just hectic/chaotic environments. They tend to absorb the emotions of others into themselves because of this. Though their sensitivity can grant deeper understanding for others, it comes at the price of the Empath’s own emotional and physical health if not given enough time to decompress which can lead to feeling drained, irritable, depressed, or overwhelmed.

Lucifer

Oh boy, if there was ever any demon not in tune to his own emotions…

He started out legitimately not knowing what an "empath" was and frankly he didn't care to know. His main concern was just keeping the MC alive.

Though that didn't seem to be too hard because they apparently get tired quickly… or at least they had to take extended periods away from most of his brothers.

He wasn't sure why, he first assumed it was because they found his brothers annoying but that didn't seem to be the case either...

He'd see them grinning with Mammon after a jackpot, relaxing with Satan in silence, and even crying with Levi over things so niche and pointless he couldn’t imagine that they actually cared...

It wasn’t too long until they set their sights on him.

They always seemed to know when he was stressed or when he needed to talk to someone. He'd even be embarrassed to admit there were days when he’d just hover somewhat close to them, face more or less slathered with "I really need to talk right now" but too proud to make the first move.

After some time, he decided to look up what an empath was again and it all clicked into place. They probably knew when he was tired because they could just sense it off of him.

And who knows how exhausting that must be for them...

After that little revelation he actually started paying more attention to his own health to keep it from spilling over to them, but he would still go to them to talk from time to time. He honestly never expected a human to become his closest confidant.

Mammon

Mammon has BIG energy. He’s one of those personalities that just brightens a room he walks in but damn… if he’s not a little exhausting to be around sometimes…

Truthfully, he was kind of into their whole “I know how you feel so you don’t have to say it” vibe though it was really confusing to start with...

On the one hand, they never made fun of him for his sensitive side. Not once. And they seemed pick up on the days where he wasn't feeling his best as well, which only made him happy and want spend more time with them.

But on the other hand, he'd be lying if he said that their need to recharge away from him didn't catch him off guard a lot... Hell, for the first few weeks of getting to know the MC he thought they didn't like him at all!

It took the MC sitting him down and explaining to him that they're more sensitive to things like lights, sounds, and emotions for him to kind of get the picture. It wasn’t that they didn’t like him, they just needed to be somewhere calm.

Cue a lot of “Okay human, I’ll be calm. Promise! Ya won’t even now I’m here!” in a well meaning, but pretty loud voice and not getting much better from there, bless his heart...

Even after he eventually gets the picture and stops hanging off of their leg, it does bum him out to be separated for however long it takes for them to get better (at worst, it can be days).

But he really gets excited like a puppy whenever they finally come back again! Big grins and lots of hugs (good luck peeling him off now).

Levi

Levi is... best taken in short bursts.

Though his personality isn’t big like Mammon’s, he does have a lot of lingering negativity around him. Not exactly his fault, being Envy and all, but not great for someone who’s sensitive to emotions.

In truth, Levi genuinely loves being around the MC because they “get” him even if they don’t get what’s happening.

While his brothers may roll their eyes or struggle to understand how he can put so much emotional investment into an anime or a character, the MC would always seem to feel and respect that his emotions were genuine and let him experience them without question.

… But at the same time, that sensitivity meant that they got carried in with him through his every emotion, good, bad, or somewhat erratic depending on the situation…

Add to that his higher than usual need for validation, investment, and feedback due to his insecurity and unfortunately he’s easily the most emotionally draining person in the House...

It took some time to explain to Levi what an empath was and that their desired space wasn’t because there was something wrong with him or anything, they just needed breaks. Thankfully, being an introvert himself meant that Levi understood this a lot quicker than Mammon.

In truth, being with Levi could be fun and rewarding for both parties. During his high points, his happiness truly does shine like no other, just… don’t overdo it.

Satan

In the beginning, Satan was honestly pretty impressed how quickly the exchange student saw through his fake smiles. They’d know that there was no actual joy behind them and thus avoided him for the most part.

This was before they formed their pact so he was perfectly fine with that. Let them hide, that’s the smart idea.

But after getting to know them and going through the body-switch, he started to see that it was deeper than just some good intuition on their part. Something about them… reflected the people around them...

They appeared to be acutely aware of the emotion in a given person or a given room and reacted like they were soaking in the atmosphere they found themselves in. Taking it into themselves…

It truly confused him.

Satan is the picture of emotional control, it’s been taught to him again and again to always keep a good handle on himself because things go flying when he doesn’t. The idea of being so open to others just didn’t make much sense to him…

Why would anyone want to live so dependent on the emotions of others? It sounded chaotic just to hear about it...

But after he opened up to them about his own inner doubts he started to think it wasn’t such a bad thing. They appeared to be equipped to help him navigate his own emotions, especially the new ones he didn’t have the best grasp on yet.

He later did his own research into human emotions, discovered empaths, and that put it all into perspective. Like Lucifer, he did his best not to overwhelm them after that but there was little worry about that anyway. Satan is, again, emotional control at its finest.

Asmodeus

Oh, Asmo picked up on their human’s little quirk relatively quickly compared to his brothers. Being emotionally observant is just part of what makes him so good at what he does.

Honestly, he enjoyed just watching them from afar… Watching the way their eyes lit up when talking to a cheerful Simeon or how huffy and frustrated they’d get along with Mammon when things weren’t going his way. It was cute to him, like a child playing “Pretend.”

Eventually, though, he started to notice that it went a lot deeper than mere imitation...

One day, Levi came home distraught about the tragic death of some voice actor he fancied and the MC was right along with him, crying as if that loss was theirs...

On another, Satan had spent the whole day silently fuming and the MC was a complete wreck, tense and on-edge for no other reason than the feeling of aggression in the air…

And crowds… crowded rooms seemed to be the death of them. So much noise and constant input, they’d have to leave so quickly…

Asmo saw all these things himself, without having to be told, and he became a refuge for them when things became too much. He has a big personality himself, but he could tone it down for a time and offer them a place away for a while.

If school, parties, or the brothers themselves just became too much, the MC could always go to Asmo’s room to vent like they let everybody else to with them. He’d keep the place quiet and calm and just help them sort things out...

Thank their father for Asmo’s observance.

Beelzebub

Legit the calmest, sweetest, nicest person to be around. Truly the best companion for an empathic MC to have.

Beel’s personality is positive, sweet, and (most importantly) stable. He’s not too bombastic nor too withdrawn, he’s not riddled with hidden stress or self-loathing, and he’s not even manipulative in any way, he’s just… Beel.

Am I saying that Beel is the MC’s emotional support demon? Yes. Yes I am.

Being around Beel is like hooking them up to a walking battery recharging station. Something about him just exudes warmth and comfort… They could be wrapped up in his arms for days and never say a word yet still be perfectly content...

Beel doesn't really mind them coming to him when distressed either because he likes being able to help them when they’re feeling drained. It makes him feel kind of special, they don’t seem to go to anyone else in quite the same way.

Usually, one of his brothers will be in a bad mood and the human will flock to Beel like a protective barrier. They'll hug him or trail along behind him like a lost puppy, which he thinks is very cute.

If they’re feeling really out of it, he’d carry them around on his back while they rest like he does for Belphie sometimes. Any time his brothers try to get too close to them or look like they’re going to bother them, he’ll just carry them away to some place quieter.

Though, the MC did pick up the deep sadness he felt for Lilith and Belphie (while he was gone) from time to time.... Which, considering how kind and comforting he usually is, just makes that dip in mood all the more painful and distressing for them. Poor baby…

Belphegor

Belphie is another calm personality to have around, kind of similar to Beel, but since he's more prone to sadness and irritability he doesn't make the best companion…

If Beel is comfort, then Belphie is repose. Relaxed and peaceful, but also languid and sluggish… When Beel isn't around, then he makes a decent second, but only on good days.

Belphie has a mixed opinion on their uncanny ability to pick up on his feelings… He tries his best to be “mysterious” so having someone who can read him like a book gets under his skin just a little…

But he also really likes how much it helps them get to know him and understand where he’s coming from (being the youngest, he isn’t as used to being heard by anybody other than Beel). So, he’s very conflicted…

It didn’t help at all when it came to light that the MC could legitimately tell that he felt very hostile and angry towards them while he was still in the attic. When he asked why they helped him anyway, they told him so that they could make Beel happy again, regardless of how he felt about them which... ouch...

As if he could feel any worse about that particular incident… They could feel how guilty he was about that… right?

Even if they can’t he makes sure that they know that he’s sorry and he won’t do it again. Probably the lil’shit.

#obey me #obey me shall we date #shall-we-date-obey-me #obey me lucifer #obey me mammon #obey me leviathan #obey me satan #obey me asmodeus #obey me beelzebub #obey me belphegor #obey me headcanons #obey me scenarios

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kikyan · 3 years

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Have you already done a nezha reborn ask for nezha/li yunxiang? If not could you do one whether it be yandere, nsfw, or some headcannons?

Don’t know why it took me so long but here you go! I was actually planning on writing about him first but then my friend got horny so Ao Bing happened before him, sorry Yunxiang </3

Yandere Li Yunxiang Headcanons

These are my interpretations of his persona and none of these are 100% accurate. I don’t condone any of these actions in real life and all of this is purely fictional and should be taken as such.

I’ve seen the movie like twice so I hope it’s enough, but until then I have this much to offer so hope you like them! Anyway, I see him as overprotective, possessive, manipulative, and controlling (depending on the scene).

Okay so I know it’s not a lot but he’s, in my opinion, a very easy yandere? Like I can kinda think from the top of my head for traits. For starters, in the movie, he not only expresses a hard-headed and very stubborn personality, but he is also very emotional leaning towards anger. We can see that he can joke with Kasha and carry a friendship/conversation, but with his father, we can see that he has very different ideas and can stick to them. If he is angered he can very much act on it or avoid it together. Offered money to forget what Ao Bing did? Yeah, no his idea is an eye for an eye and he isn’t switching. Kasha, his father, brother, is very overprotective of his family and friends.

His S/O is no different. He has one before him finding out he is Nezha? He’d be very overprotective of them and quite possessive. You and he would have a very serious and joking relationship. I see it as it would be like his and Kasha? Kinda like that, just obviously a bit more intimate. Does someone jokingly say something about you? Harmful comment or flirtatious comment? His tone might say joke, but his eyes and actions reveal his anger. Funny enough, while he is very stubborn and I see him as wanting to ensure that EVERYONE knows you’re his, he would never push it. He knows what is okay and what isn’t, while it may be difficult to admit he knows.

An easier and less confusing way to describe the vibe I get is this. Try to be the dominant and always right, if they are proven wrong or do something wrong they will never apologize and either make it up some other way. With him though, I see him owning up to his mistakes just never admitting them out loud because it’s something he doesn’t want to express. The obsessive and possessive I also see as a common trait in wanting to be dominant and right. Regardless, it’s something he has. Now let’s get into more detail if his S/O replaced Kasha’s place and lost their leg? Ao Bing is gonna die (sooner) and literally, everyone will feel his wrath. If the clan has ever hurt his darling or affected them in any way, they will suffer as well. His anger issues also play a big role in this, his anger is primarily his driving force in controlling Nezha, and sooner or later he gets the hang of it without it.

Manipulative and here is why. Have you ever jokingly said something and been like “Oh I guess you just don’t like me?” or something similar but then you encounter someone who HAS done it seriously. That’s him. If you ever argue, he WILL pull that stupid card. Gosh, I know people who do that and it’s so fucking annoying. Also sorry Anon, you asked for headcanons but I’m just slandering this poor man. That’s basically it along with gaslighting. He gives me toxic machismo vibes.

Danger level? 6/10. Despite my slandering, he’s like Bakugo and many other characters with similar personalities. It’s hard to admit how one feels and they can’t. Sure, they get angry at times and it’s hard sometimes but while they don’t mean it they can’t control themselves. Sometimes they will apologize or sometimes they will make it up to you. Deep down, he cares for you and doesn’t want to lose you but it’s hard admitting the truth. Pretty sure I butchered his personality and this is not what you wanted so I am so sorry but yeah, that’s all I got.

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the-insomniac-emporium · 3 years

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Dimitrescu Daughter HCs

I thought this would only take a few minutes. I was so, so very wrong. Anyway, some of these are somewhat exclusive to my fic (Serenade), but they’ll make sense even if you haven’t read that.

Daniela:

Others have already talked about how Daniela reads a ton of romance novels, so I’m not really going to go into that very much, just saying that I agree 100%, I mean c’mon, it’s practically canon.

While she mainly sources books from her family’s library, there are a few she’s “acquired” over the years that she keeps locked away in her room. These tend to be a bit, ahem, steamier than her mother would approve of/let her read under normal circumstances.

How did she get these? Well, there has to be someone who delivers goods to Castle Dimitrescu (Duke, perhaps?), seeing as the Maidens need, like, actual food to survive. Sometimes Daniela manages to convince them to order books for her, usually just asking for books by authors she likes, or ones she’s heard maidens whispering about.

No, the delivery person does not read the book’s summaries or reviews, they have a feeling (based on titles and covers alone) that they don’t want to know.

As for her experiences with actual romance… she’s so very, very excited about it, all the time. Wants to kiss every cute Maiden she sees, and sometimes daydreams about a beautiful woman fleeing from lycans who comes to the castle for shelter, clinging to Dani for warmth and protection, and it’s love at first sight, and they kiss and kiss and right as it gets to the good part-! Someone interrupts her daydream (usually Cassandra).

However, her actual experiences are fairly limited. Sure, she has kissed Maidens, but she tends to get over excited. Like in Serenade, she starts to rush the process, and usually ends up draining her “lover” aka victim before anything more intimate happens.

She’s definitely done sexual things, just, well, not with other people. Private things. Usually during or after reading one of her special books. You get the picture.

Because of this, and her aforementioned love of romance novels, Daniela has become somewhat obsessed with the idea of her first time. She wants everything to be perfect. The setting, the timing, who she’s with… Hence her reaction in chapter 3 of Serenade. It’s not that she didn’t want to continue, just that the circumstances didn’t feel right. She’s very particular!

Favorite Music Genre: Girl goes wild for an emotional, gut-wrenching love/power ballad. The type to lie in bed and cry while listening to Hozier or Lorde (not that she can hear either of them, considering her limited music options). Doesn’t admit it, though, and mostly listens to indie pop when other people can hear. That and whatever the Maiden plays on piano ;)

Okay it feels weird to joke about her loving music I wrote, anywayyyy

Hobbies: Other than reading there’s not too much I can see her doing, really. She’d be sure to get into anything that her s/o enjoys, though, even if it’s something difficult or time-consuming. Writing is something she’d love, but it’s difficult for her to keep her focus on just one project at a time. Ideally she’d write short stories, romantic ones obvs, and have someone else proofread/edit them. For the most part she’d write within fantasy and historical setting (seeing as she’s got experience in both of those departments).

ADHD, BABY. Bigtime, seriously. Maybe this is just my adhd ass projecting, but I can’t not see her as having it. For her it mainly manifests with hyper-focusing/difficulty staying on task. It’s like a switch with those on either end, flipping back and forth every once in a while. She can spend six hours reading two different books in one sitting, but if someone just breathes too loudly it disrupts her completely. Because of this she’s somewhat prone to abandoning projects. It’s a sore subject for her, and her sisters are aware, normally only bringing it up if they’re really angry with her.

Opinions on the four lords: Thinks Heisenberg is a tool (pun intended), also thinks that he secretly reads super erotic novels. She doesn’t have any proof, though, and would never say anything about it out loud. Just makes fun of him in her head. Doesn’t actually judge him for what she thinks he reads, just judges his personality and the “need he feels to hide his secret”. Loves Donna, and low-key thinks she’s attractive. Daniela mostly bases that off the portrait she’s seen, but, like many fans, also thinks the hands are nice. The puppets don’t bother her, though she also doesn’t really care about them, other than thinking that Donna interacting with them is cute.

Opinions continued: Moreau is… uh… fish boy. Daniela thinks he’s weird, kinda gross, and hardly considers him a “real” lord. Poor boy :( At least she doesn’t actively make fun of him?... Even if that’s only because she kinda forgets about him most of the time. As for Lady Dimitrescu, well, obviously Daniela loves her mom. The whole family is very close, and as the “youngest”, Daniela gets a lot of attention. Sometimes she thinks her mother is too strict, but at the end of the day there’s no love lost.

Bela:

Cleans up after her sisters a lot, but still nowhere near as much as any of the Maidens do. Often agrees to help with messes in exchange for blackmail material. “Oh, Daniela, what a shame you broke mother’s favorite dish… I could help, but you owe me one.” At the end of the day, though, there’s plenty she would slide.

Being the “oldest”, she’s expected to behave the best, and often feels more restricted than her sisters. Being an example is hard! Occasionally she’ll have the impulse to rebel, but this usually only manifests in scenarios like the one mentioned above, aka she’ll simply be more lenient of her siblings for a bit.

Overall far less sadistic than her sisters. Cares more about the quality of pain then the amount of it. Only ever goes overboard if someone full out threatens or hurts her family. Insults towards them still earn her ire, and will get her to punish someone, but it’s not enough to make her resort to torture. Usually.

Gets the most restless out of the three. As cool (and large) as the castle is, it’s all she’s ever really known. If not for her weakness to cold, she’d go out on hikes a lot. Nature interests her, fascinates her, but she’d be a little less fond of most of it in person. Like, oh, waterfalls sound so cool, followed by a hundred complaints about the noise. Thinks deer are the cutest shit ever (second only to humans, maybe).

Unlike Daniela (though that HC is relevant almost exclusively to Serenade), Bela has actually slept with a Maiden before. She doesn’t really care for them enough to consider it a relationship, instead admiring them for their entertainment value. Definitely could fall for a Maiden, simply hasn’t yet. Of the three I feel like she takes the longest to fall in love, and even longer to actually act on her feelings. Sometimes resents her siblings because they unknowingly “claimed” a Maiden that she was starting to be interested in. However, she fully acknowledges that she should have said something if she didn’t want to lose the girl, considering the situation they live in.

Favorite music genre: Classical, full orchestra style, with a soft spot for swing/jazz. Enjoys having music play softly while she reads, and is very particular about the volume. Absolutely would argue with her sisters if they tried to change the music or turn it up.

Hobbies: Reading, duh. Less interested in romance than Daniela by a considerable amount. For the most part she reads non-fiction books, enjoying learning about history and the sciences. Astronomy is at the top of her favorites list, followed by biology, then obscure (and often bloody) pieces of history. Niche=perfect. Also enjoys music, even if she had to rely mostly on self-teaching books. Knows the basics of piano, but doesn’t actively play, much preferring both the violin and harp. Most of the time she’ll only play if she knows her sisters won’t bother her, or if her mother asks her to.

Opinions on the four lords: Admires Heisenberg’s work/his edgenuity, but thinks the actual man is a temperamental child… who smells like wet dog. He’s only been at Castle Dimitrescu a couple times (per Mother Miranda’s request), and both times Bela moved to the other side of the house so she wouldn’t have to acknowledge his existence. While she would never admit it, she’s low-key creeped out by Donna’s dolls, and really only tolerates Angie. However, she would never act on her nerves, out of consideration for Donna’s feelings. She knows that her mother gets along well with the dollmaker, and keeps this at the forefront of her mind.

Opinions continued: “Moreau who? Oh, the fish guy? He’s still alive?... Good for him.” Wants to make Lady Dimitrescu proud, but not as desperately as Cassandra. Unknowingly mimics a lot of her mother’s little habits and ticks, and would be quietly embarrassed if someone pointed it out to her. As mentioned previously, she feels like she has to be an example for the others, and somewhat resents the pressure this puts on her. On the other hand, she does enjoy being “responsible for” (read: in charge of) her sisters. Additionally, she is the most likely to get away with lying to Alcina, though she does not often do so. This isn’t because she’s the most manipulative (that’s Cass), or the best liar (that’s Dani, if she’s trying), but simply because Alcina doesn’t think her oldest daughter would lie. Even if she doubts something Bela says, she’ll usually give her the benefit of the doubt… as long as it doesn’t happen very often.

Cassandra:

Sleeps the most of the three, if only because she’s the most active of them. Not as fast as the others while in swarm mode, but the fastest on foot, partially because she’s more likely to simply walk places. She knows the sound of feet on the floor scares the Maidens, and she drinks their fear with utter pleasure. Additionally she claims that it just feels nice to “stretch her legs”. But she will not hesitate to enter swarm mode when chasing someone. As fun as it is to smell their fear, she can get impatient, wanting to get close and personal to her target.

Tends to hide most of her feelings, sometimes even opting to “convert” them into anger. In other words, think of her emotional state as an ever-filling bottle of water. As things happen, she feels emotions, and the rate at which water pours into the bottle increases. Ideally if the water level started getting too high, she would address whatever is increasing the flow of water. Instead of that, she often uses anger, which is equivalent to shaking the bottle a bit and letting water messily spill out of it. Doesn’t address the actual problem, but let’s her release some pressure/free up some room.

Goes through Maidens faster than her siblings (yes, even Daniela “draining you of blood is romantic” Dimitrescu). Not all of them even die in the basement, sometimes what was supposed to be a “warning” turns into “oh shit the blood won’t stop coming out, this is how I die, in this accursed castle, no friends or family to mourn me, just the painful knowledge that I will not be the last, I will die for no cause, no glory, just the bitter whims of a blood-soaked mistress” or something along those lines.

While more likely to get attached to someone than Bela, Cassandra isn’t one to do much about it. She might flirt, might even try to kiss (or, uh, kiss while also not wearing clothes wink wink), but she won’t (usually) claim someone as her own, or protest if one of her sisters wants to have some fun with them (even if it’s the bloody kind of fun). Technically gets over breakups and “breakups” (i.e. death) easier than either of her sisters. To be fully accurate, Daniela still goes through lovers faster, but she also remembers them and cares for them for longer post-breakup.

Somewhat of a blood kink. Like, more than vampires automatically have. In intimate settings she cares more about the quantity of blood and what she can do with it (loves bloodstains) than what causes the bloodshed.

Favorite music genre: Rock ‘n roll. Leans towards older stuff, as well as heavier songs. Soft spot for symphonic metal, but doesn’t admit it out of the fear that some might consider it a “weaker form” of the genre. Almost exclusively listens to bands that have female vocalists, and gets crushes on them more than she’d ever admit.

Hobbies: Art! Painting, mostly, but dabbles in sculpture from time to time. It’s been too long since I took an art class for me to suggest a style for her paintings, but I imagine her sculptures would be somewhat abstract. Her art would revolve around emotion, the stronger and rawer the better, with viewers often being left uncomfortable. While Alcina buys plenty of art supplies for her, Cassandra is fond of improvising, especially by creating her own “tools” (of questionable efficiency) out of items she has laying around. She is absolutely the one who took her mother’s lipstick. If you don’t know what that means, don’t worry, it’s just mentioned in one of the RE8 notes that Lady Dimitrescu’s valuable lipstick is missing.

Opinions on the four lords: Tolerates Heisenberg more than the rest of her family by a considerable amount. She’s seen glimpses of his work, his steampunk-adjacent style, and actually kind of digs it. While Bela cares more about the science behind his work, Cassandra just digs the aesthetic. Sometimes for her art she also needs things she can’t get from the castle, and are too obscure to get from a merchant, so she trades tools/ideas with Heisenberg in exchange for him making something for her. “Can you make a battery but whenever it’s in use it makes a horrible screaming sound?” “Yes. PS I hate your mother and Miranda.” “I didn’t fucking ask.”

Opinions continued: Doesn’t really care much about Donna, but acknowledges her as a fellow artist, and would be willing to consult her if she talked more (and talked without Angie). Cassandra hasn’t met Moreau, thankfully (he would cry). Knows about him from her sister/mother, and as a result doesn’t care about him. Internally whenever someone mentions him, she pictures, like, a Goldfish Cracker (the snack that smiles back) with legs except also it’s green and moldy.

Opinions cont.: Loves her mother so much. Determined to please her, to make her proud, but often left feeling less loved than her sisters. This strains her relationship with her family, not that she’d ever voice her feelings and talk through the issue. Let’s be real, Alcina would probably feel guilty for not realizing how Cass felt. Nonetheless, Cassandra probably spends the most time with her mother, often offering to assist her with tasks, or trying to get her to appreciate her art.

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