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longlivethewhump · 2 years

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Fate/Zero - Ep. 15

(Kariya is tortured healed by Kirei.)

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Poor Kariya, he suffered a fate worse than death, and he suffered until the end. This character shocked me.

Fate/Zero was one of the first anime I've ever watched and damn, it's dark (it's even worse in the manga, it has a lot of gruesome scenes).

#anime whump #fate zero #kirei kotomine #kariya matou #whump community #whumpblr #whump #anime #magical healing #painful treatment #this is not healing it's just torture #wound healing #infected #burned #pain

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malinaa · 6 months

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if i think about the hunger games in peeta's perspective i WILL start sobbing

#imagine you're a boy who's going to die. you're in love with the girl you've been watching from afar. you know your fate.#you just want to help her‚ but then there's the announcement and she's here in front of you‚ kissing you‚ risking her life for you and you #think‚ i could live and i could love. you think she loves you when she hands you the berries‚ when she puts them in her mouth.#then you both survive and you go back home and nothing is real anymore. you have nothing. no family. no friends. no love. just an empty #house. a drunk for a neighbor. the love of your life walking into somebody else's arms. you think‚ i survived the games. i could survive #this. and you also think‚ i should've bit down on those berries‚ should've felt the juice burst before i died.#and then the third quarter quell announcement rings in your ears and you think‚ she will live and i will die as i should have in the first #place. the girl you love kisses you on the beach and somewhere you heart stirs and your mind revolts and you savor every touch she has ever #given to you‚ in front of the cameras and off. because you are a tribute and you are always being watched and snow's presence looms and #you think‚ i know she cares. but you get taken. you get drugged. you get tortured‚ your mind altered. the girl is a mutt‚ a murderer. she's #everything you despise‚ your mind stirs. your heart revolts. you gain more awareness but cannot distinguish reality from fiction and you #have never known katniss' love. the war ends. you heal. you come home. you plant primrose for her. years down the line‚ you grow in love #more than you thought possible. but some days‚ you cannot tell fiction from reality so you ask the love of your life‚ you love me.#real or not real? and she says‚ real‚ and kisses you.#and you sigh and kiss her back and revel in this. a home. a life. a love.#lit #the hunger games #everlark #otp: real or not real?#katniss everdeen #peeta mellark #text #tais toi lys #thgpost

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rogueolight · 20 days

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more erzajane scribbles cuz there’s not enough art of them out there…. i’ll do that shit myself…

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foursaints · 5 months

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everyone needs to stop thinking about rosekiller as a tragic pairing and start considering their narrative as the inverse right now. the marauders era has so many beautiful, romantic tragedies: “what would we have done different if we knew what was coming?” but rosekiller is not one of them. every single one of their choices they made on purpose, for each other, knowing the full scope of what it meant. they wouldn’t have done a single thing different if they had to do it a hundred times over. the troubles with them are the circumstances they were given in life— blood purity, abuse, isolation. but they didn’t fall from happiness into a bitter ending (like the marauders), they came from a bitter beginning and made a life that was intentional.

barty came pre-broken. under imperius & his father he was not a whole person yet, he didn’t fully exist. what would you do if you loved someone who, by definition, was un-saveable? i think you would follow him wherever he went. and if the only thing that could get him out and allow him to Become Himself is a movement that’s awful and violent and bloody— of course you would do it anyway if you loved him enough!! i’m focusing on barty because we know more about him in canon. but just!! barty went from an emotionless, hollow half-existence to knowing the full spectrum of human emotion— love at one end, and grief (the last act of love) at the other. he lived to avenge himself by killing his abuser. he lived to avenge his lover by abusing his killer.

why would either of them have done a single thing different? it’s the opposite of a tragic ending— in the bitterest circumstances they made the single best thing they possibly could and that was loving each other. and they did it on purpose. i think about them a lot. anyway

#t #rosekiller #ANYWAY!#barty meta tag #they’re so using you mars argo nobody talk to me #don’t come at me with that ‘they’re toxic’ shit they are perfect and did nothing wrong #the several murders and tortures were just a part of their healing journey <3 okay.#rose & thorn

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ramblngz-of-a-lunatic · 3 months

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I'll never feel safe again

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babygirlgiles · 2 years

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We as a society do not talk enough about Tara enduring Glory‘s torture to protect Dawn! Like Glory crushed Tara’s hand to the point that it bled and she still wouldn’t give up any information that would harm Dawn, despite being terrified that she was going to lose her life and her mind, and like! She did that for Dawn! Because she loves Dawn! Because she would die before she let harm come to her friend Dawn, to her surrogate little sister in their chosen family and! I’m gonna cry!

#tara maclay #dawn summers #buffy the vampire slayer #btvs #listen I love to talk about spike enduring glory’s torture to protect Dawn as much as the next guy #and yes that was much longer and more total in its brutality #but also spike is a century’s old vampire with vampire healing who can’t be killed except by a few specific things #tara is literally just some girl (I mean she’s the most specialest girl in the whole wide world but she’s still just a mortal human girl)#and she just loves so fully and so completely and has so much love in her heart to give and !!! and she loves Dawn so much’n #she really just. ahhhh!!!!#tara my best friend tara 🥺

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jahiera · 9 months

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can I be so honest. whatever people feel about evil astarion being sexy, that's how I feel about dark justiciar shadowheart's "stop being so gentle" scene. the lip bite the blood the all of that. like okay.... well if SHE wants to lock me up in her evil shar sex dungeon-- sorry who said that

#I like evil astarion to study like a bug I just can't take him seriously ...#not in a 'oh he needs to heal :pleading:' way I'm compelled by him being evil. it's just.#take off the cazador voice you're scaring the hoes #anyways THIS ISNT ABOUT HIM. this is about evil shadowheart being. listen. listen.#haha oh my god [twirls hair] you're well-versed in torture and emotional manipulation... do you want to test it out sometime.#'try not to dream about tying me up' babygirl that is NOT what I was thinking.#bg3 spoilers #pers ⚔️

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peupeugunn · 1 year

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i could not have been the only one that was. extremely disturbed and horrified when i was a kid and was reading the part in point blanc when alex finds out he was drugged and every inch of his body was photographed and studied. and in the show, alex went through the gemini files, saw those pictures and came to the realisation that THAT'S what that terrible fucked up nightmare he had on his first(?) night was. and reading that? seeing that? it was like, wow, this was meant to be a YA series?

#seriously i want a fic that's just about the point blanc kids healing and coming to terms with what they went through #cause three of them are now orphaned (four if you count alex)#six of them were tortured by stellenbitch and the clones who knows how many times #and becoming a found family #its just #everything was so fucked up #where's my slow burn found family fic?#do i have to write it myself #cause i might #alex rider #point blanc #alex rider tv

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new-york-no-shoes · 1 month

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I hoped against hope that Taylor would give me an all too well for my adult self on this record and she really said “bestie I’ll do you one better” and slipped me The Manuscript. I’ve honestly never wanted to unhear something more in my life. Turns out I was not prepared.

#to be clear I love it more than anything #I just wasn’t ready to sob like this for hours #I haven’t got through it once without losing it #but I know it’s gonna be SO healing #I just did my makeup and it’s completely fucked now lol #taylor swift #the manuscript #the tortured poets department #ttpd #the tortured poets department: the anthology

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markcampbells · 4 months

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WIP Wednesday! ✨

I never do this, but @organsoutsidelovinglydescribed posted a call for folks to participate if they want to and uh, ya girl is new to writing body horror and having a Moment 😂

In this fic, Vash has been shot in the abdomen and is facing the hours ahead his body needs to heal itself (it will get worse before it gets better...), so Wolfwood proposes an... unconventional solution for pain relief.

I have multiple Trigun fics posted on Ao3 you can check out if you like this excerpt! Looking... forward? to Trigun Body Horror Week; see ya all there! ✨

#trigunbodyhorrorweek #vashwood #vash the stampede #nicholas d. wolfwood #my writing #my fanfiction #me last week: i'm not a monster torturing vashwood all the time!#my brain: hey girl #me: goddammit #anybody else out there who was a wolverine girly as a child having to face your ✨✨ thoughts about healing factors or is it just me

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beetlevsboy · 22 days

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I want to preface this post by saying that I love the cat king as a character, especially one that has such a major impact on Edwin and his relationship with his queerness and learning to be okay with it; HOWEVER, I also believe that everyone that genuinely believes he should be a love interest for Edwin should read this. (Also if you just like the cat king as a character and want to understand his character better and why his and Edwin’s relationship is not something that would be healthy or “real” for either)

#dead boy detectives #edwin payne #the cat king #i do not ship them but I don’t want to hate on those who do (mostly) I just want to kind of inform people of the creators meaning for their #Relationship because I keep seeing people saying they hope they get together in s2 and it’s really confusing to me #Their relationship stems from the cat kings own narcissism and predatory behavior and Edwin’s need for someone to push him into under #Standing that his queerness doesn’t have to be torture and can be something giddy #even if he doesn’t return those feelings #The cat king does like Edwin but he doesn’t know anything about him. He likes the game and then he likes the kindness he’s shown despite #Knowing the cruelty he’s presented to Edwin #Queerness and preformance always go hand in hand #He’s a older secretly insecure character #Edwin is the younger #genuinely kind character that shows him that projecting his hurt will never get him what he wants #It’s about the isolation of queerness and the walls put up and the coping mechanism used to protect yourself even at the risk of hurting #Those just like you. That kiss from edwin was to say “I’m sorry your loneliness had caused you to be cruel. It’s the easiest way to feel.#And while I cannot and will not give you what you want or need #you deserve to feel happy and not like you have to gain the attention of uninterested people #I can’t even explain all my thoughts about their dynamic it’s just so much it’s just about the predadation from older queers because of #The trauma they’ve endured and the cycle of hurt and the way we can break the cycle with kindness while also protecting our youths by #Healing those traumas #Something the cat king learns and accepts #Off topic but I don’t like people defending their age gap because #Yes; Edwin is 86 #but he died with a teenage boy brain and then spent 70 of those years in hell where he certainly was not getting his brain developed while #The cat king has possibly hundreds of years of sentience and experience. The power imbalance is not if y’all. And that part of their dynami #Is actually very clear I think but some people didn’t catch it?? Or didn’t care??? Idk man

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8rujaa · 30 days

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i feel so happy i have the urge to get on my hands and knees and worship something

#i’m emotional because i feel like recently i’ve been actually like genuinely happy #i thought i was going to feel broken forever. i thought i was going to feel like half a person forever #i’ve made so much progress #looking back i don’t know how i got through certain things i really don’t #i was being traumatized while also being severely tortured daily by my body pain #i hadn’t talked to my family or friends in months #i lost my mobility and i lost my independence and i lost everything i worked hard for #i felt like a dog and my nightmares still make sure to remind me how terrible it was #and the healing journey afterwards was somehow even worst because i was reliving it constantly. i feel like i fought so hard for my peace #i know i thought about offing myself multiple times #i don’t know what kept me alive…#i think i stayed for all the wrong reasons/people…. but either way i’m glad i stayed #i’m struggling with letting myself be happy because life has a way of taking everything from you just as you were getting comfortable #and i know bad things can and will happen wether i worry or not so the only thing i can do it try to savor and enjoy these beautiful moment #as best as i can and maybe these moments are what will keep me alive in the future #this year i don’t ‘want’ anything per say…. i just don’t want to lose anything…. like god i don’t ask for anything else…. just don’t take #anything from me that i love please 😭😭😭😭😭#brain vomit

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lycheeteeni · 21 days

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🐸 Oasis of Eve 🪷

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In the oasis of Eve, lush and green,

Where fireflies dance in midnight's scene,

A fairy bathes in waters clear,

Embraced by lilies, delicate and sincere.

Hyacinths bloom with cleansing might,

Fish guard with grass, a steadfast sight,

Frogs and dragonflies, guardians they soar,

Keeping pests at bay, forevermore.

Lily pads, in twilight's hue,

Serene and still, a tranquil view,

Resting gently on waters' breast,

In nature's embrace, they find their rest.

Beneath the gentle waterfall's caress,

She washes away the day's distress.

Birds serenade with melodies divine,

As she dries herself in muslin fine.

A robe of silk, a whispering breeze,

Enfolds her form with graceful ease.

Anointing her skin with nature's song,

Gardenia attar, sweet and strong.

Through bamboo walls, a secret gate,

Into a realm where time can wait.

Vines, roses, and bushes abound,

In this sanctuary where magic is found.

In the moon's soft embrace, she roams,

A pilgrim in this sacred home.

In Eden's heart, she finds her peace ,

Oasis of Eve, where souls release.

JI

04-30-24

🦋

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weshney · 1 year

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oh no...

GODDAMNIT DYSLEXIA.

I was passing by a poll that had a Wes fic and a dissection fic as two separate answers.

(I'm sure you can see where I'm going with this...)

Well, they ended up on the same line in my head, even though they were most definitely not that way on the poll.

BUT MY GOD. THE ANGST POTENTIAL.

In the Alternate Universe that contains Wes, everyone in Amity thinks WES is Phantom.

I'll say that again:

Everyone in Amity thinks Wes is Phantom.

Including Phantom's human enemies.

Like the GIW. And Danny's parents.

#danny phantom #dp writing prompt #phandom #but can you imagine #how guilty and destroyed danny would feel if he found out wes got cut open in his stead?#would wes even survive?#our ginger boy doesn't have enhanced durability or healing #he's just a kid #gore #dissection #tw vivisection #vivisection #tw torture #tw dissection

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hyrules-warrior · 1 year

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When the truth comes out about Joel’s lie and what he did at the hospital everyone always focuses their stories on what Ellie goes through.

But what about Joel?

Ellie yells at him, says she hates him and then doesn’t speak or go near him again.

Joel gives her space despite how much it hurts and is hopeful maybe at some point soon she might want to look at him at least.

But she doesn’t.

Hours, days, weeks and suddenly Joel doesn’t know how long it’s since he had more then a tiny glimpse of Ellie in the distance.

Time stops for Joel again.

It had stopped after Sarah for 20 years before starting again all because of a journey across the US with a girl he came to love so much. Too much maybe.

It should scare him, how fast he goes back to old habits when she is gone from his life, how easy it is to fade away, lock everything down again, retreat behind a hard wall of survival where nothing matters anymore. But that part of him that would be concerned is locked far far away now so the thought doesn’t even cross his mind.

There are no pills or easy liquor to help him sleep like in Boston so he spends his sleepless nights at first aimlessly walking Jackson, unable to sit alone in an empty dark home. Then he starts volunteering for the night patrols since he is awake anyway.

He keeps busy, insanely so. If he is busy he doesn’t think about Ellie. If he is busy he isn’t in a house to quiet and empty with only him in it. So he builds things in town, fixes things for anyone that asks and goes on as many patrol shifts, hunting trips and wall watches as he can get, sneaking more (much to Tommy’s ire when he finds out later) by being the guy who always says yes to anyone needing to get off a shift for any reason.

He gets a bit reckless. First to jump into danger to help someone. First to distract and bait infected. First to jump into a fight. He won’t put his patrol partners or anyone else at risk but that main drive to live is gone again and he is so tired..... so if anything happens to him out there? It’s not a big deal anymore. It’s not like anyone but Tommy might care now and he is well set with a wife and kid of his own anyway. He’d be fine.

Tommy sees the change and it scares him to no end. Joel is like he was right after losing Sarah all over again but older, more world weary. The anger is gone this time, replaced with a quiet resignation that terrifies him. Like a man waiting on death row. Ellie is angry and rightfully so. Tommy really can’t interfere in this, it’s not his place, and the new baby takes up so much of his time these days, but he watches as his brother fades more and more and he isn’t sure how long it will be before Joel might decide not to flinch.

#Joel is a sad double traumatized old man #that would be killed by ellie's rejection #she is what healed his wounds so without her he falls right back #and it's even worse this time #the last of us #tlou #poor joel #I love to torture him so #just not with golf clubs

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lesbianpegbar · 7 months

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i thought this was gonna be a kinda poorly written but fun gay romance. why did i just read a 200 page war epic about the inevitable and horrific downfall of a kingdom and a man who thought himself untouchable

#they were like hey theres a drought. theres a refugee crisis. theres a xenophobia crisis. hundreds of thousands are displaced #a father tried to find a doctor for his sick baby and got cut off the city wall he was trying to scale and crushed his baby on his back #and got his neck snapped and died. theres guerilla warfare. thousands died in battle. its now all out war #theres some peace now. nevermind a deadly plague broke out. the plague is a curse where the souls of the dead of the people you're killing #are invading the bodies of your citizens and completely taking over their skin in contorted tortured living faces.#you amputate a mans leg. theres an earthquake. everyone has grown to hate you. theres nothing you can do.#you are literally holding up your home and its history and if it crumbles its your fault.#the man whose leg you cut off screams at you and begs for his leg back. the sick escaped quarantine. theyre begging you to heal them all #everyone is sick or dead. the enemy just broke through the walls. the city is burning down. you broke your leg. you are immortal #anyway #i feel normal #tgcf #mine

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