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#things to bring up in therapy
naranjapetrificada · 5 months
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idk why these have been speaking to me so much lately. part of the reason I've accidentally been stumbling over so much racist shit in the fandom is because I've been trying to scratch that itch wherever I can. it's been educational, to say the least. there's something that's really compelling for me for reasons it now occurs to me I should probably bring up in therapy lol.
something about the power dynamics (especially the captive one, where Stede can take back that power), the being thrown together by circumstance (what are the odds?), something about the sudden intimacy of either marrying a stranger or being held on a ship (where the odds aren't in your favor but you can end up surprised at how well things shake out), something about the intentional kindness characters in those situations can choose and what can grow out of those choices.
I also just feel like on some level those tropes fit Ed and Stede particularly well given their canon characterization. The class issues, the skin-deep differences that end up drawing them together instead of dividing them, the consuming curiosity that those situations can spark. we see all of that explored on the show proper, but these tropes feel like a new space to play with all that, have fun with worldbuilding, and do it all under the scrutiny of people with even more than the usual expectations of them both.
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astratheodora · 10 months
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why am I crying on this fine evening you ask?
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vulturevanity · 6 months
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Sometimes it feels like I'm speaking in a dialect that's just a smidge off from everyone else's language. I use the same vocabulary as them and they recognize all the words but I can rarely get across what I really mean. I can put an approximation of the idea into a coherent sentence, but something almost always gets lost in translation. Feels isolating.
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Note to self
Girlie pop, stop the "last supper syndrome" right now.
Stop eating your whole pantry today to get rid of all trigger foods because tomorrow you will start a new diet, you will be magically cured and the world will be right again.
It doesn't work that way. It never has...
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pastelcheckereddreams · 3 months
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Realising my counsellor and I have different experiences when it comes to neurodivergence. She likes to metaphor her neurodivergence (adult adhd) as driving a car, fast, with the need to understand satnav and breaks. I (on the path to being diagnosed adult audhd) am realizing that it's more... trying to pilot a commercial aircraft without much training.
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Ha, hah, oh man. Just made a realization.
I don't like people getting excited for my future or talking up my accomplishments. In fact, I don't even like my accomplishments being celebrated. I don't even like to celebrate my birthday...
Wanna know why?
Because I don't believe in myself.
Fuck, man.
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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 4 months
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Thank you all for voting in the poll to decide who was going to be the leader of the band! It turned out to be such a close race!
#poorly drawn mdzs#better drawn mdzs#mdzs#madam lan#A-qing#Band AU#(Reminder that Madam Lan's design inspiration goes to Qourmet!)#Madam Lan may have been the winner per vote count but there were so many strong advocates for A-Qing!#I played around with a few versions of what the 'poll winner' art was going to be and ultimately decided I wanted them both.#As any good theater love knows though - The battle for leadership was a ruse. They *all* get a chance to be featured.#Cooperation was the real end goal! However I do think these two have the best frontman energy of the group.#Or at least 'crowd favourite' energy. I also really loved hearing what people thought their vocal styles would be like!#This was probably one of my favourite polls to do and I love drawing these characters a lot B*)#I'd love to spend a bit more time in this AU so count on me bringing it back.#One thing I keep feeling like I need to redeem myself on is Madam Lan's Translucent skirt. I have *not* done the concept justice yet.#It is such a crack-platonic ship but I want to think Madam Lan and A-Qing would enjoy each other's company.#Possibly also with JYL as well. They can be like mutually beneficial therapy dogs to each other.#Madam Lan never got to see her kids grow up into teenagers after all. She only had sons. Never daughters.#Even if she saw her kids once a month we do know she treated them with so much love and kindness.#She would bite the shit out of YZY for yelling at JYL. What a sight to see. A-Qing would also start biting (for fun).
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naranjapetrificada · 19 days
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At the end of our session today my therapist told me he finally started season 2 ☺️
He said he'd watched "a couple episodes" so far and I knew he was being literal because if he'd seen episode 3 we'd have to talk about it*
*in ways that's are relevant to me, don't worry, he's a professional
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shepscapades · 4 months
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Hey! i’m really into the dbch story and i was wondering if doc and xisuma ever tell bdubs the specifics of why etho lost his memories, cause if they do that is prime self blaming angst for bdubs
I’m inclined to believe they don’t. Actually (and maybe I should do a small comic for this so more people see it) I imagine, once a month or a few pass and they finally return etho to bdubs as reset, I imagine they are VERY serious about warning bdubs not to try to force Etho to re-deviate— they don’t go into specifics, but they probably tell bdubs that whatever happened had to do with something that was emotionally overwhelming, and that forcing him to redeviate/not letting it happen naturally could trigger the same error. They have no idea what could happen so bdubs needs to be very careful and let Etho find himself again on his own.
Whether or not bdubs gets impatient or can only go so long before he doubts it would be that bad if he tried pushing Etho in the right direction is another story.
But yeah. I don’t think Xisuma or Doc really… tell anyone that this happened. Etho’s error seemed like a very specific one-off scenario, so it’s not something the other hermits should be trying to avoid or be careful about happening to their own android friends, and the only thing telling people would do is make them worried about the situation. All they need to know is that etho was broken and that they need to be careful with him. I don’t agree with their decision to keep what happened to themselves but I understand it I think. Xisuma “i don’t want to worry the hermits” Void and Docm “eh this isn’t the first time I’ve replaced this arm, people won’t question it” 77
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zimszim · 4 months
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fucking adore how tianlang-jun was built up to be really intimidating and scary and sort of has this fucked up psychological component to his physical appearance as well as his general mannerisms, but then you find out that hes Just Like That and not like. a genuine evil guy. he was heartbroken and because of that he was like #FuckHumans!!! but could never fully kill his love of humans and humanity. what the fuck. this novel is killing it with characters i swear
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Why can't I seem to change my disordered eating behaviours even if I've changed other very harmful behaviours and ways to cope?
TW ED behaviours and other harmful behaviours general discussion
I have proved to myself that I CAN change my behaviours:
I have stopped drinking ridiculously dangerous amount of alcohol to soothe my intense pain and emotions, escape reality and harm myself.
I have stopped all the kind of SH behaviours that visibly show on my skin.
I have stopped slamming doors and yelling when I'm angry and overwhelmed.
I have challenged my OCD fears may times, specially my fear of contamination, that's the most prevalent at the moment.
I have stopped crossing people's personal spaces when they inform me about it.
I have become responsible taking my meds.
I have pushed myself to leave the apartment at least once a day during deep waves of depression, at least to take the trash out.
I have stopped repeatedly calling and texting people I care about when I'm worried and anxious that something bad has happened to them (including at night), as I was told it was seen as controlling and simply annoying.
Yet I'm still bouncing between the two extremes of my eating disorders.
It seems like I CAN'T not use food as a way of control, self soothing when I get triggered and self punishment at the same time...
Maybe because my eating disorders have been with me sadly since I was a child. They are the longest lasting of my unhealthy coping mechanisms. They feel like they are part of me at this point...
I have suffered different kinds of trauma and that always seemed an easy way to cope. It's so engrained in me now...
But I'm making this list of behaviours I have changed as a person with BPD, OCD, chronic depression and anxiety disorder as a reminder to myself that I can beat my eating disorders too. I'm way too tired of them affecting my life and my health (both mentally and physically).
This is something I will discuss with my therapist. All of the wins mentioned above are greatly thanks to my work in therapy. But there's so much going on in my life (and mostly negatively, sadly) that I hardly touch on this topic. Maybe also because I'm clinging to it as my last and longest way to cope, even if it harms me...
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b4kuch1n · 21 days
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tdov was like a week ago already but I just wanna say when I came over to vacation slash help my sworn brother move flat he told me, "ever since you said you wanted to get top surgery I've been thinking about it. it's straight up number two on my bucket list"
#bakuspeech#number one is a house bc obviously. if u can own a house wouldnt u#he was very drunk at that time of the evening. I was not bc I have the constitution of a hot air balloon and any stimulant will blow me up#(relatively new development. france fucked me up big time turns out)#we held hand on his bed for like the whole evening. it was honestly very funny in hindsight but we were extremely earnest in the moment#and Im like. working on this thing as well. I dont got meds or therapy lmao Im bootstrappin here#but yeah early last year his bf offered to get me meds and I... turned it down... I think I was worried abt like. idk. something#but one year past looking back Im fully like that was a stupid move you shouldve gotten meds. youve once again fucked urself baku#but yeah with that kinda realization Ive also come to realized I've somewhat? accepted. that I'm just gonna be. like this#this in light of a number of likely chronic stuff too (hence my balloon-like constitution lmao) and#that's kinda bled into the rest of me without me really noticing#but him bringing that up fully unprompted... kinda jolted me out of it#its just. really incredibly sweet. that someone doesn't want me to settle for what I make do with#and like. preps for that work. just kinda held my hand and told me it's possible to do this actually#I didn't really express how I felt very well in that moment I think my brain is very bad and I process emotions with like a day of delay#but. well. Im thinking abt it Right Now. so yknow thats the kind of impact that had on me lol#not super sure why I wrote all this down here really. I think I just want a good n nice reminder that object permanence is real#and I exist in my friends' life even when Im going insane in a hole by myself#and with the power of friendship we can alter the universe's plan for ourselves and also kill god#that's that. anyways I eat lunch now and then pass out probably. last night was... eventful lmao#but!! very good things on the horizon hopefully. well manifestly we hold hammers and we use them#have a good day lads. let's go out and slay monsters under a highway
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silenthillbunni · 4 months
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funny that therapists whose job it is to listen to u are the WORST listeners in society lmaooooooo. they dont hear a single word u say. they genuinely dont care abt what u say at all, they're just gnna take what theyve read in some textbook and apply it on to u. whatever u say you're not a person speaking words, your just a box filled with their judgements and pre constructed notions abt whatever diagnosis theyve assigned to u. therapists and psychiatrists are the most useless and incompetent ppl in society lmao. such a fkn joke it's insane how theyre even allowed to get paid for the shit quality job they perform ._.
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lesbiradshaw · 7 months
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just started thinking about bradley as a teenager struggling with his emotions both pre and post his mother’s death/fall out with maverick but not wanting to reach out for help because a history of mental health problems can get you disqualified from enlisting in the service. happy saturday guys.
#that boy should have been in therapy from ages 2 on up like.#i def hc that carole took him to someone when he was younger but bradley probably stopped going once he was older and was given the choice#but like. idk. picturing carole trying to bring up him going back after she gets sick because she KNOWS he needs to talk to someone#and maverick cant be there all the time. but bradley says no because hes a teenager and hes started thinking about how to make himself +#appealing to the navy and that opens a whole other can of worms where carole sees that but doesnt want to deny him#because she can see hes already having a hard time with things as they are.#mav trying to convince him to go and bradley pointing out it’s hypocritical because maverick doesnt like talking about his feelings either#i just think people ignore his trauma So Much. they only pay attention to the maverick and goose bits#but they fail to consider how even before the maverick stuff happened bradley had a lot to deal with from a very young age#he spent most of his life on his own! he lost the people he loved most OVER and OVER…#the amount of trauma that must have come flooding back when phoenix (&bob but phoenix is clearly bradleys closest friend) had to eject#i think thats why people painting him as angry & agressive because of the scene where he yells at mav never sits right w me#that moment is so incredibly raw for both of them. bradley lashing out when hes just been triggered is not that surprising????#anyways.#carolcore#bradley rooster bradshaw
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moe-broey · 7 months
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Thoughts on Grima in FEH? I personally am a big enjoyer of this horrible little guy getting picked up by the scruff and dragged kicking and screaming into therapy by the summoner.
OOF... UNFORTUNATELY... I have zero complex thoughts about Grima 😅 I do think it's interesting, from the many Grima and Robin interactions in FEH, that there's almost this self-fulfilling prophecy to it, like Grima believes no matter what they Have to be this way. That all roads lead to this, and there's no changing it. And in believing that, they make it their reality.
HOWEVER. I do get really stuck on just. How they talk. Top Ten Least Effective Insults: Worm.
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They are like middle school bullies to me...... at least in FEH specifically where they will just harass Robin to no end LMFAOOO (and anyone else they have a bone to pick with)
I do think they can have a little therapy. As a treat :) (they could use it.)
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