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dodgeirs · 16 hours

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⊹ ᳝ ࣪ aaron helping to take off your makeup.

cw. bf!aaron, confirmed whiney!reader, established relationship, fluff, whipped aaron

wc. 622

a/n. just a little small, small snack while the poll finishes up 🫶 resonating a little hard with this one bc i was so sleepy taking off my makeup today. need me a hotchy rn 😞

"you've gotta stay still f'me, honey." aaron urged.

"'m tired. let me sleep, please." you whined. resting your head onto aaron's abdomen, and wrapping your arms around his waist. finding comfort in his soft stomach.

"i know, but just let me finish this up. then you can sleep all you'd like." he proposed sweetly. you groaned at his words, and his actions as he holds your face in his hands so you'd look up at him. you instead concentrated on how his thumbs were rubbing you cheeks and the fact that he looked like an angel from the bright bathroom lights and his tall stature. maybe you really were that drunk.

"i don't even care." that was a lie and he knew it.

"you don't? the last time you went out and slept in your makeup you complained, and then went on to blame me for not performing boyfriend duties by taking your makeup off." he explains. giving your forehead one more swipe of the cotton pad drowned in micellar water before throwing it in the trash.

you reluctantly removed your arms from his waist so he could get a facial rag wet, he was going to wash your face for you too.

you feel bad now. and despite the pout displayed on your face he was right, as much as you'd hate to admit, those words were very much yours. looking down at your hands, now in your lap you pick at your fingernails. aaron is being nice by helping you out, and you're being whiney.

"what's going on in that head, hm?"

picking you head head up to look at him, to really take him in. he's in his pj pants and a grey shirt. he was no where near sleeping, but he had stayed up for you to return home, being dropped off by a friend. compared to when aaron had to come pick you up the last time you went out with friends and got drunk, that was fairly early in your relationship and you were thankful he wasn't still in his office or on a case.

"'m sorry." you're sure your pout looks more so looks like a frown now.

“what for?”

“i’m being inconsiderate.”

aaron instantly hangs the damp rag onto the rag bar, moving to stand in front of you.

“and why do you think that?” he questions. eye brows doing his signature hotchner furrow.

“because you’re so nice. and i did say i wanted you to do those things, yet i’m whining about it now.”

“oh, honey.” aaron begins. crouching down so he'd be on your level as he spoke to you, his knees cracking in the process. causing you to bite down on the smile that formed from the noise.

“y’know i don't mind doing any of this, right? and that i enjoy being able to take care of you. in any state that you're in, even when you get whiney.”

his words help reassure you. “yes. but, don't you ever get annoyed when i whine?”

“honey, i could never get annoyed by you. you're also drunk so it makes sense that you're more whinier than normal.”

“hey!” you gasped. hitting at his shoulder, pretending to be offending at aaron’s jab and the fact that he's finding it amusing.”

“okay, okay. not funny, noted.”

there's a moment of calm where the two of you look at each other smiling.

“y’know, i love you?” you question.

“you only tell me it a hundred times a day.” aaron responds with a wide smile. getting up from his spot and in the process giving you a quick peck on the lips.

“i love you more. let's wash your face so i can get you to bed.”

#ᥫ᭡ dodgeirs writes.#criminal minds #aaron hotchner #aaron hotch x reader #aaron hotchner fluff

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atopvisenyashill · 2 days

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seeing how some greens act like rhaenyra being groomed by her uncle, and subsequently being unable to let go of him, is HER personal failure turned me into a rhaenyra extremist when i simply enjoyed her character beforehand.

im really glad you're speaking about it because even though it's fiction, it still perpetuates a very dangerous rhetoric

wait this gives me an excuse to ramble, pls excuse me if i phrase things maybe a little crassly here, it’s a delicate topic i’m speaking indelicately about but also, i think i should be allowed bc [redacted] BUT-

obviously i don’t like, love, some of the changes to the show but i think the first half does a great job of setting it up to where you can see both alicent and rhaenyra are surrounded exclusively by much older men who want to fuck them, and have just no way of knowing who is being genuine with them. because no one is really! so you have episode 4, where alicent is sleeping in a room with pornographic art on the wall and being called to her husband’s bed and she can’t say no, and he’s not going to do anything to make the whole thing even marginally easier for her. and then you have rhaenyra, pulled from her bed by her uncle to a brothel, and she’s completely exposed, and she’s experiencing new things, and he’s purposefully trying to make this feel good but also overwhelming for her, then abandons her drunk & confused & half naked. this is The Same Thing - they’re both being used and manipulated by a much older man, but because that manipulation looks different, they react different. but it’s still manipulation.

yes, the type of abuse is different when it’s like, your ugly ancient grandpa grooming you vs a handsome 30 year old stranger you met online that you tell all your high school friends is your boyfriend, but ultimately, both the grandpa and the 30 year old boyfriend are abusers but more importantly, the granddaughter and the high schooler are both victims!!! i think a lot of people when analyzing this whole thing, will pin daemon as a groomer but then completely forget that this also makes rhaenyra a victim. some people will even hee hee haw haw over it because “oh your feminist icon would rather marry her groomer uncle than her gay cousin in the book” DO YOU HEAR YOURSELF. could it possibly be that rhaenyra prefers daemon to laenor because daemon has manipulated her into thinking she is only free with him? she is only safe with him?? could it possibly be that he has been giving her gifts and taking physical liberties with her for her whole life, and being the Good Cop, Sweet Confidant to her parents Bad Cop her whole life, that she feels taken in by him because he is all she knows???? in the same vein that alicent just swallows all the poison and bullshit from otto because that’s her father, and his protection is all she knows????

honestly part of like ~the discourse~ that’s most frustrating is that most greens just refuse to see rhaenyra’s pov or see that she’s also a grooming victim grasping for power to protect her own children, again just like alicent, but on the flip side, most of the analysis from the blacks side is like “if you think nyra is a victim of grooming you are just as bad as the people calling her a whore for having children out of wedlock” and like, how do you even engage with that. with either of those opinions. you can’t wksjd so if youre, ya know, like a normal fucking person who can see how both girls are being manipulated, but you have like a fondness for nyra specifically, it’s just constant bad takes. there’s nowhere to go to escape the bad takes.

i thought we had already hashed out this idea that being aware or unaware of your victimhood doesn’t suddenly mean you’re not being oppressed during the main show with arya and sansa but no, we’ve actually just taken this exact same annoying fandom discourse about which teenage girl is dealing with being abused in the most acceptable way and made it a thousand times worse.

#and like the ~analysis~ side will be like ‘nyra is a dumb bitch for trusting daemon’ but if you said that about ali and larys you’d get shot #and i’m not even exaggerating the way people talk about her it’s always this ‘she should have known better’ HOW #if u get that ali couldn’t have ever known better when it comes to her own kids. why does this not apply to nyra.#perhaps………….it is bc you cannot concieve of her as anything but the aggressor.#asks #anons

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b4kuch1n · 22 days

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tdov was like a week ago already but I just wanna say when I came over to vacation slash help my sworn brother move flat he told me, "ever since you said you wanted to get top surgery I've been thinking about it. it's straight up number two on my bucket list"

#bakuspeech #number one is a house bc obviously. if u can own a house wouldnt u #he was very drunk at that time of the evening. I was not bc I have the constitution of a hot air balloon and any stimulant will blow me up #(relatively new development. france fucked me up big time turns out)#we held hand on his bed for like the whole evening. it was honestly very funny in hindsight but we were extremely earnest in the moment #and Im like. working on this thing as well. I dont got meds or therapy lmao Im bootstrappin here #but yeah early last year his bf offered to get me meds and I... turned it down... I think I was worried abt like. idk. something #but one year past looking back Im fully like that was a stupid move you shouldve gotten meds. youve once again fucked urself baku #but yeah with that kinda realization Ive also come to realized I've somewhat? accepted. that I'm just gonna be. like this #this in light of a number of likely chronic stuff too (hence my balloon-like constitution lmao) and #that's kinda bled into the rest of me without me really noticing #but him bringing that up fully unprompted... kinda jolted me out of it #its just. really incredibly sweet. that someone doesn't want me to settle for what I make do with #and like. preps for that work. just kinda held my hand and told me it's possible to do this actually #I didn't really express how I felt very well in that moment I think my brain is very bad and I process emotions with like a day of delay #but. well. Im thinking abt it Right Now. so yknow thats the kind of impact that had on me lol #not super sure why I wrote all this down here really. I think I just want a good n nice reminder that object permanence is real #and I exist in my friends' life even when Im going insane in a hole by myself #and with the power of friendship we can alter the universe's plan for ourselves and also kill god #that's that. anyways I eat lunch now and then pass out probably. last night was... eventful lmao #but!! very good things on the horizon hopefully. well manifestly we hold hammers and we use them #have a good day lads. let's go out and slay monsters under a highway

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motherfuckingmaneater · 3 months

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so you like tommary?

No. That is not a term I would use. I have enjoyed the idea of it and can get into it when its well written but i've so far only read one fic i've truly enjoyed and that didn't ship them at all. I am a sucker for time turning AUs in which any character (Harry in this case) is thrown back to another time.

However, in their instance, I don't enjoy when they're shipped/romantic because I just don't think Harry is or has anything special enough to warrant and evoke that kind of emotion or pull from Voldemort who is an otherwise incredibly emotionally closed off person.

Furthermore for the most part Tom/arry fans will very heavily shit on Bellatrix. Most of the time authors are like “ewwww no Voldemort didn’t love Bellatrix he just USED HER he’s not CAPABLE of love she was nothing more to him than his SLAVE” then write Voldemort becoming some kind of idiot obsessive love freak over Harry and have V fall so madly in love with him he changes his evil ways. That puts me off the authors and subsequently their fics, so it's unlikely i'll venture into it again.

I find it kind of repulsive as a ship to be perfectly honest, but I enjoy reading the non romantic or non smut ones and the ones where he heavily manipulates and abu/ses Harry. Unfortunately it's hard to find many of those.

#yes valid she was his slave and she loved being his slave but he definitely cared for her #you can't take that from his character #its not even a redeeming quality she's literally just as bad as him and probably made him even MORE dangerous at times #take for instance them in the atrium in ootp #he risks making himself known by stopping to get her #“over there! i saw him! he grabbed a woman and disapparated!”#didn't give a shit about any of his other DE's though did he #also as a final point i don't enjoy the romantic bellamort stories either for the most part #I think their romance is very macabre and unconventional #i think he tries to be sweet sometimes #but his way of being 'sweet' is by reanimating the corpse of her childhood cat bc she mentioned she missed it one time when she was drunk

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shekeepsmeworms · 10 months

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Had some wine feeling good made a really shitty bowl in ceramics class this morning that I’m really worried has a bunch of air holes in it and had a really crappy therapy session where I didn’t talk too much but was honest about some other stuff which is good overall I guess but now I’m doing drunk crochet and watching the Duggar family documentary and probably going to stop watching soon once they start talking about the awful stuff but yeah day in the life of a woman doing her best I guess

#like both sides of my family are either Irish catholic. converted assimilation catholic. or part Jewish but raised catholic.#but my mom read the Boston glob report so I wasn’t baptized or anything and despite her born again phase I’ve never really been religious #so the thought of growing up in that environment is like I can’t imagine the pressure oh my god #like I’ve had Mormon friends and have some friends who were raised homeschool Christian married young and all and like #i don’t know it’s just wild how different our lives are like I’ve got a problems and def inherited the guilt complex thing for sure but like #I also never got told to submit to anyone or that god was watching #or to be modest or any of the purity stuff beyond normal patriarchy stuff #like I’m not saying my life is better but I didn’t do church after age 5 and only go to funeral masses so I like the comfort of like #doing sign of cross and saying Hail Mary and all bc it provides structure for grief but beyond that I can’t imagine living with all of that #these are very long tags with no real point beyond wow. that’s literally bananas to me. but did I mention I’m a little drunk #and even then my family isn’t like hardcore catholic. my grandma and her siblings skipped church to get donuts bc no farm work on Sunday #and my dad grew up like doing fasted mass and everything but heard the 2000s Harvey milk speech and realized gay ppl are okay #and then rest of extended dads side is like catholic but vote blue and think human rights are good and all #my mom has a student who’s like very traditional catholic like she was trying to teach him math and whatever #and the live coverage of waiting for pope confirmation was on tv the whole time #and he fights with her about evolution and learning about the existence of other religions and everything #so I guess even in my own family like. everyone’s down with basic science and civil liberties which is even weirder for me I guess #like not even among fundamentalists like just regular Catholics I’ve had a pretty liberal upbringing re faith. it’s just wild to me #to see the differences of worldview #and even non religion stuff was pretty liberal overall despite living in pretty red area. idk it’s just wild how different life can be

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selkiecoded · 6 months

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why is talking to parents about mental health stuff so nerve wracking like im just informing them that im planning to get an adhd assessment so they could help with insurance and im like oh man i should be shot for this

#i mean i know why. a lifetime of being implied to be super mature and can thus handle myself emotionally->i MUST handle myself emotionally #but my dad has adhd why would they care (mother once told him he doesnt have adhd on the basis of his father having adhd)#sorry venting now. the only times my parents and i have ever meaningfully engaged with my mental health is under duress lmao #used to get really bad sensory overload as an adolescent that was chalked up to anxiety and bc of this dismissal i was forced into a lot #of unwanted physical contant for a long period of time that still makes me very leery. and the only time when that was ever properly #addressed when a parents drunk friend was attempting to engage in an unwanted hug to the extent that they ripped my necklace off (lol)#i ended up crying under a desk after that lol and they had to apologize. i dont think this ever changed any other patterns in regards to my #parents approval from this sort of behavior from other (admittedly not-drunk) relatives lol #what else after an anxietything abt bugs in soap my dad was like maybe you should.. see somebody for that and then i didnt bc i was 14 lol #and then they basically had an intervention and forced me to go to a therapist during lockdown bc i could no longer hide my depression lol #but thats about it i think? and even with all that they still do not know a lot about my mental health lol. im fine btw.

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kindaorangey · 1 year

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goddamn i wish otis and maeve had gotten together mid-s2

#thunder rambles #like if they were together just before otis' party then it could be so charming and funny for otis to still be a neurotic disaster drunk #but this time he doesnt slag off maeve and ola in front of everyone #and the whole 'am i my father' plotline can still happen bc otis dumped ola for maeve #and you could even have a scene where otis wants to get with maeve and she tells him no. just a very simple example of how consent #works like even if theyre in a relationship and they both know they want each other. even if otis is literally verbally asking for it #hes still much drunker than maeve so she tells him no #itd just be nice. also i lowkey feel like the party is the point of no return for maeve and otis #i dont think they should be together after that frankly #and isaac can still exist without being lowkey demonised by the story. wouldnt that be nice

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jonny-b-meowborn · 8 months

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Hi today. Things happened. Good lord (positive)

#basically my cousin's cute friend did show up #and. well.#we were left alone for a while bc cousin and her bf went to a night store for more alcohol #and we had a respectful chat about basically. thinking the other is hot. he straight up said hes into me. respectfully #and later when cousin and her bf came back she asked what did she miss and the cute friend was like 'oh just rizzing your cousin' kdbdndnxn #and from that point we spent most of the time cuddling #like proper cuddling like. first i was just leaning on him and he hugged my waist #but it gradually went to #hes sitting behind me and im half laying down between his legs on his torso and hes holding my waist and putting his head on mine #so like. yeah #yeah im normal about everything #he even tried to kiss me at one point but im not a kissing person #he was very respectful about that tho. after he did smooch me next to my lips.#like he apologized immediately and didnt try again but we still cuddled #and later later we like swapped and he was laying on me #like girl. hot damn #tho i do very much prefer being the hugged person lmao it was still cool as fuck #and like hes tall. so tall. i love tall people. felt really comfy and safe in his arms. good lord #im didnt get drunk today but i did get a lil silly after drinking. mostly just sleepy and more open to touch #im not tipsy anymore but honestly i feel drunk on just the feeling of being desired by someone and touch and all that shit #like im ace in a way so cuddling real close and kisses not on my mouth is i think the most im okay with #and i do like that physical attention but i dont really get any ever #its a really good feeling to know that someone finds me attractive. and to just cuddle about that #praying he wont see this lmaoo #theres no reason he would but i do still remember how my friend i had a genuine crush on found and read my posts about her lmao #but yeah i don think i ever shared my tumblr w him. good #anyway it was a great evening and my brain is still short circuiting #bee buzz

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justinefrischmanngf · 8 months

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i have so much information about this random man’s sex life now because people in their late 20s LOVE telling me too much about their lives and i love listening to people be insane

#he was bisexual and boy did i get to hear all about his dilemmas of whether he should settle down with a man or a woman #i havent approved his request to follow me on instagram yet bc like listen . i have so much information about him now .#it feels Odd ! it does !!! he doesn’t know that much about me but he does know i haven’t ever been in a relationship which ALSO feels like #too much information……….#anyway idt he was flirting with me fr bc he has a woman who he’s seeing atm who he’s very into he tells me #but he did keep saying how beautiful i was which was very sweet but he kept being like ‘IN THE LEAST FLIRTATIOUS WAY but also i would but #also no but also ANYWAY UR BEAUTIFUL’ and it was fucking weird #anyway weird experiences i love being sober when everyone else is drunk i do genuinely think it’s so much fun #ALSO A GUY FROM MY FUCKING HISTORY CLASS WAS THERE???? horrible #i went to a gig alone and then a friend of a friend spotted me and asked if i wanted to come talk to HER friends #and then introduced me to this guy who is in my fucking classsssssssss #and then idk there were suddenly about 10 other ppl n one of them was the man who i now know too much about xoxo #i do now it seems . have a person to buy acid from if i ever want to do that though #anyway the band was actually kinda good n i’d love to see them again but idrk if i want to see everyone else that i talked to last night #again which makes it difficult bc most of them knew at least one person in the band #I DID get to meet the band and kinda sorta go out with them tho bc of this which was fun #lead singer was absolutely shitfaced and bought an $8.50 pie and i have never seen someone so horrified and happy at the same time #if anyone even thinks they know what band this is about or that they know me irl please unfollow immediately #except ofc the ppl who i have met intentionally irl <3

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awek-s-archived · 1 year

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ummm my mom and her bf basically just officially broke up and im??? i know it’s just bc i can’t handle change or endings / finite situations in any capacity but i feel inexplicably guilty and anxious about it even tho it has nothing to do with me

#i mean all he does really is get drunk and chainsmoke on the daily and it’s awful bc he did some. bad things #like he went to pick my mom up from work drunk. in the fucking dark. and he tried to blame her for it even tho she never told him to pick #her up. another time he got wasted and left the house for 3h even tho he said he’s only gna go to the store for a bit and he wasn’t #answering his phone and she was worried sick #and recently he started to badmouth her at work??? to her coworkers?????? and telling lies about her and ruining her reputation #bc he’s very bad at communicating and can’t take responsibility for anything so he takes it out by bitching at work #and obviously her work friends told her and she’s been 🤨 ever since #also it’s just. sad like he doesn’t take care of his hygiene on purpose bc he’s like ‘I’m not a duck I don’t have to wash all the time’#(he showers once a month basically) and it’s not like bc he can’t for a disability reason he just doesn’t want to #didn’t pay shit til a month or two ago my mom was basically supporting everything #like there’s loads of v valid reasons that my moms had enough but I feel sad bc I don’t want her to be sad even tho she isn’t ???#and like I said endings give me major anxiety in general I kinda wanna cry abt it like some kinda loser lol #anyway sorry..#aweks.txt

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train-inthedistance · 1 year

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#hsgsjskd noo i was kinda drunk and def distracted by everything happening around me so i missed that he’d texted me the first time ever #heart emoji last night and i failed to reciprocate it was such a sweet little msg and i just drunk typed sth back lmaoo #im so sorry lol i think he gets it though. i hope. maybe i’ll explain? or double text now ??#bc like ive had the urge to send him heart emojis but didn’t do it bc i thought it might be too much at this point lol he prob #didn’t even notice. or did he?! i don’t wanna leave him hanging😭#feeling very teenager-y at the moment lmao it’s ok tho I’m fine #the american #me

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lilgynt · 1 year

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i’ve been trying to watch hannibal for like. four days in a row but i’m so sick i just end up sleeping or watching 17 hours of tik toks