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the-modern-typewriter · 6 months

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Hello, love your work so much!! Could you do one where the antagonist has betrayed the protagonist (their lover) and their friends but instead of handing protag off to whoever like the friends, they’ve been allowed to keep them to do whatever because they’re very very off the rails obsessed with them and very possessive of them too? Sorry if it’s specific and thank you!! Have a lovely day :)

"You can't be angry with me forever, love," the antagonist said, from the doorway. "Would you rather have been taken away with them?"

The protagonist said nothing. They seethed with everything they wanted to scream, with the accusations ready to be hurled like missiles to end the world. Too much.

"I told you I'd protect you," the antagonist continued. "That I'd always protect you."

"This is protection?" It spat out before the protagonist could stop it. They gave the chain around their ankle a rough shake.

"From yourself."

The protagonist barked a bitter laugh. They clamped their jaw shut again.

"From the world," the antagonist continued. They moved further into the room. "There are many people out there who would hurt you, take you away from me."

"Seems like a blessing to be taken away from you!"

"You don't mean that."

"Oh, I do. Come closer and I'll show you just how sincere I am."

The antagonist stopped just out of arm's reach.

It reminded the protagonist of the handover. Their friends bundled bound and thrashing into the backs of vans, still reeling from the anti-magic pulse and the betrayal of it all, until the protagonist was the only one left.

The governor had turned towards them, had started to move forward with all of his goons, before he'd seen the look on the antagonist's face and the way their body wrapped around the protagonist. Gravital orbit. A warped black hole of a love.

"Try," the antagonist had said, almost pleasantly. Almost.

The governor had not tried.

The governor had flinched.

"I understand that you feel betrayed now, you loved your friends," the antagonist pressed. "You're good like that. But you'll come to see that separation from them was for the best."

The protagonist squeezed their eyes shut and wished they could block the poisonous words so easily.

How could they have been so wrong about their lover?

"They were a bad influence," the antagonist said.

"You mean they weren't you."

The antagonist paused.

When the protagonist looked at them again, the antagonist's head had tilted, curiously. They didn't seem offended.

Bile burned in the protagonist's throat at the truth of it. "They're not a bad influence, they never were, you just don't want me to have anyone who isn't you. I was getting too into the resistance. Too into something that wasn't you. You, you, you!"

A mask had fallen away from the antagonist's face. They'd always been attentive, but the betrayal had stripped the lies of normality away. There was only obsession left in their eyes. Raw and burning. A supernova of love, taking out everything in its path.

The protagonist swallowed and faltered. For the first time, fear crept past the fury, cold and slithering.

"And now," the antagonist closed the gap between them, "I'm all you have." They captured the protagonist's face in their hands, anticipating the protagonist's attempt to lunge in one devastating move. They leaned down, looming, to press a claiming kiss to the protagonist's mouth. "I win."

It was like being winded. Like being stabbed. Like being run through entirely. The protagonist made a soft, pained sound.

The antagonist smiled, thumb caressing their cheek. "Love hurts."

"I don't love you. I will never love you after what you did."

"You will."

"If you truly loved me, you wouldn't do this. If you truly loved me-"

"-I said you can't be angry," the antagonist said, after a beat, "but honestly I don't really mind. It just felt like something I should say." Their whole posture relaxed, alarmingly away from whatever front of concern and regret they had been putting up. "Your anger is mine too. So is your hate. So is everything you are. It's interesting seeing this side of you."

The protagonist stared up at them.

"That is true love," the antagonist said. "I love everything about you. I will take it all for my own. To have, to hold and cherish, until death do us part."

"You're crazy," the protagonist whispered.

"Crazy in love."

The antagonist leaned down and kissed them again soundly.

They really wished they'd been handed over with their friends.

#hero x villain #antagonist x protagonist #writing #toxic relationships #story #ficlet #antagonist #protagonist #villainous characters #villain #obsessive love

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stellarcoachman · 6 months

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Novembmas Day 5: Stars / Outdoors

Another similar one to yesterday's. I promise the next one is a bit happier.

Emmet didn’t want to do this. He argued that he would rather spend the time catching up on work. Or sleeping. But Elesa insisted that he come with them. ‘For his health.’

So he’s sitting on a grassy hill outside Mistralton, sandwiched between Skyla and Burgh and looking at the stars. He has to admit, it’s a good night for it. The moon is full and bright and the weather is still reasonably warm.

Skyla keeps pointing out constellations, and although he doesn’t always see exactly what she’s talking about, her explanations of how they’ve been used for navigation for centuries are verrry interesting. To his surprise, Burgh also knows a lot about them, although his interest lies in a much different direction. As it turns out, there have been a lot of different artistic interpretations of the constellations over the years.

He learns the names of a lot of them and the stories behind them, which he finds interesting. Many are named after famous people and Pokemon from myth, some of which Emmet has heard of and some of which he hasn’t. The story of Scorpius, the Venipede partner of one of the twin heroes, is famous in Unova. Less familiar are the stories about Capricornus, the Gogoat, or even Pisces, the matched pair of Basculin. Skyla points out the constellations called Ursa Minor and Ursa Major, which apparently depict a Teddiursa and an Ursaring, the same Pokemon before and after evolution. The story of Vulpecula is much more vague, many of the details lost to time. All that’s really known is that the Pokemon in question was a Zoroark, and that the story, oddly, originates from Sinnoh.

All told, he can begrudgingly admit that he has fun. When they finally part ways, much later than he would like to have stayed up typically, he makes sure to thank Elesa for making him come along.

Ingo shivers as he sits in the snow with Warden Calaba and Warden Gaeric. He appreciates them taking the time to teach him the survival skills he’s so badly lacking, but he feels he could do without the freezing temperatures of the Icelands at night. He doesn’t voice this, not wanting to be rude when they’re trying to help him.

Instead, he tries to ignore the cold and focus on the lesson. They’re teaching him about the constellations and how to use them to orient himself should he get lost in the Icelands. Again. It’s an important skill, for obvious reasons, and he really is trying, but he has a hard time seeing the shapes they’re pointing out to him. This is partially because the stars simply look like, well, stars and not various Pokemon, but also because he can’t quite shake the feeling that the stars look just a bit wrong. It’s very distracting.

When he asks, they tell him the stories behind some of the constellations. They tell him about Pisces, the pair of Basculegion, one of which is supposedly the original Noble Basculegion, and Rangifer, the Noble Wyrdeer. Warden Calaba points out Ursa Minor and Ursa Major, which she says depict a Teddiursa and an Ursaluna respectively. The Ursaluna is apparently chasing after Draco, the great Gyarados which twists around the other side of Ursa Minor. Warden Gaeric points out Vulpecula, and tells the story of a Zorua pup, which uses its illusions to trick a Staraptor into becoming its meal.

The story is transparently a warning about how dangerous the Pokemon can be, since even such a young one can take down a Pokemon much larger and stronger through nothing but trickery. Ingo knows that the Zorua and Zoroark are dangerous, he’s experienced this first hand, but even so, the story feels a little unfair to them. They’re only acting in their nature. He doesn’t voice this, knowing that it would only draw attention to his own strangeness and quite possibly earn him another lecture about being cautious of wild Pokemon.

When the lesson finally ends, Ingo is very glad to be able to return to the warmth of his tent, but he does make sure to stop and thank the two Wardens for going out of their way to help him. He really does appreciate the effort, even if he’s not sure he would actually be able to navigate by the stars.

#novembmas #submas #my writing

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http-byler · 1 year

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okay listen. I spent like 40 minutes ranting about this to someone who could care less TODAY so I feel like I gotta put it on here too bc at least you guys will care…

Mike was SO outta pocket with that snide little “she didn’t look fine” comment and I think it speaks to all the relationship problems between him & El. and to preface, I am a Mike defender til I die so this doesn’t come from a place of Mike hate/slander. that comment was just so unnecessary and petty in its delivery.

you can tell that it was just him being upset about El lying to him and not about Angela because even Will gives him a look like “wtf are you doing”. everyone else is trying to make El feel better because they know her and they know she needed that reassurance. and I’m not convinced that Mike doesn’t know the gravity of the situation for El. he JUST saw the horrific bullying she’s had to deal with and Will told him that it’s been going on the entire time. so it’s completely hypocritical of him to praise her for humiliating Troy, and even going as far as to break his arm, for bullying Mike & Dustin. why is it okay for her to use violence to stand up to his bullies, but not her own?

he knows the answer and we all know the answer. he’s just upset that she lied to him! because now he’s like, embarrassed and everything he thought he knew just, wasn’t true. his relationship for the past six months has been solely through letter correspondence, and he’s just found out that all of it was fake (or at least, that’s the extreme I think his dramatic ass would take it too). Friends Don’t Lie. that’s one of, if not, the first things he told El about friendships. and yet, in s3 he’s the one to lie to her! so again, were at a stand still because he’s mad at El for something he allows himself to do.

ultimately, what I took away from that comment and their subsequent fight scene is that they love each other, just not the way that they feel like they should.

El’s basis for relationships is based on fantasy. she learned about romantic relationships from tv shows and movies, never learning what a real relationship should be like! Mike’s basis for relationships is his parents’ marriage and his friends’ parents marriage (as well as entertainment media). we can see just how little he knows about relationships throughout s3 when Lucas has to walk him through every single aspect of it, even the concept of an “olive branch”. and honestly, it’s not bad or wrong of them to not have a good level of understanding about romantic relationships! they’re kids! even Lucas and Max, who are established as the couple who does understand romantic relationships, get it wrong sometimes.

because they don’t have a grasp on what makes a romantic relationship work, they end up jeopardizing their platonic relationship as well! because I believe they do love each other, I just think it’s platonic! they’ve been through so much together, and I think a lot of Mike’s feelings that he believes are romantic are actually just a feeling of relief that she’s still there. he watched her “die” and he had to deal with the grief of her death for a year. having her back, that feeling of joy at her being alive and the fear of losing her again, it’s all such strong emotions! emotions one could mistake for romantic feelings. especially in a time where men and women were expected to date and not “just be friends”.

as for El, she might have romantic feelings for Mike. it’s hard to tell sometimes if she really feels the love for him she says she does, or if that’s just her going through the motions of what she has seen portrayed. because in season one, Mike is the one to kiss her, and she is understandably surprised by this (though not upset by it). but then she disappears for a year and in that time she watches movies and shows about romance. they teach her what that kiss means and how she should act with someone she likes romantically. so when they meet again in s2, she leans in as well and this time, she knows what she’s supposed to do. and I don’t doubt that she feels differently about Mike than she does about the rest of the party members. he was the one to take her in and he was kind to her and respected her before the other boys were/did. it makes sense that their relationship is set apart from the rest of the party. but that doesn’t make it inherently romantic.

their fundamental relationship problem stems from not knowing each other. they love each other so much, and they would (they have) risked their lives for each other. But! they don’t really know anything about each other and don’t necessarily share the same interests. El doesn’t know that much about Mike as a person, but she still knows a hell of a lot more about him than he does about her. she doesn’t know that much about herself.

s3 showed us just how much of her life revolves around the men in it (hop, brenner, mike). Max was integral to El’s storyline for an abundance of reasons but the s3 storyline has got to be the most important. she’s the first person to tell her that she is her own person and that she can make her own decisions about who she is. and we’ve seen her smile and laugh a couple times in the show, but that montage was the most fun we’ve seen El have ever in the show. nothing dampens the mood and she’s learning what SHE likes and who SHE is outside of the box she’s been shoved into her whole life. and it’s only for a day. then reality sets back in and she’s sudden thrust into the role of protector again. that silly, happy, pre-teen girl we just saw is gone in a flash. she’s still figuring out who she is and it’s impossible for Mike to know her if she doesn’t know herself.

in the place of knowing each other well, they put each other on this unreachable pedestal that makes them feel inferior in their own relationship. El is “Superman” to Mike. he believes that he’s “just some random nerd” and that he got lucky that he found El. he has no idea how harmful that ideology is to her and to himself. and he hasn’t even really learned his lesson. he put her on a pedestal and was upset when she fell. and yet, he puts her right back up there, expecting a different result. she doesn’t want to be some superhero, she wants to be a normal teenage girl, she wants to be someone outside of the powers she had/has. and she reminds him that she’s not a “superhero”, as least not anymore, but in the Van he expresses the same sentiment to Will because he thinks so highly of her anyway. he bases so much of his self worth on being needed and helpful that his self esteem is practically on the damn floor. it makes it impossible for him to connect with her about insecurities because he feels like his are true and hers aren’t. he IS some random nerd and she’s NOT scary or abnormal.

now El, she sees mike as this, righteous guy who is so good in his heart that he’d never do the things she’s done. she’s put him on a pedestal as well, though it’s not as dramatic as Mike’s. she wants to impress him, make him like her more because he is good. hop is gone and brenner was literally her abuser, all she has now is Mike and she wants his validation. she wants him to believe everything is going great and that she is normal and good and everything she think he is. she doesn’t want to be spiteful or angry or violent or bad. she doesn’t want to be feared. and Mike was the first person to make her feel that way. he’s one of the only people that can still make her feel that way (besides the Byers now probably). so telling him those lies made her feel like she could still be normal. as long as Mike believes it, then maybe it can be true. but eventually, he finds out the truth, and now she’s realized (she thinks) she “doesn’t belong anywhere”.

they don’t feel comfortable enough with each other to show who they really are or express their insecurities. that’s where their relationship really fissures. so unless s5 really reworks the entire foundation of their relationship I just don’t think they can come back from all that. even after Mike’s monologue! because that monologue can still be true as a completely platonic thing. he loves her, and he can’t lose her, he’s not lying! but I don’t think it’s enough to save their relationship.

especially because the things they want from each other can be fulfilled by other people.

Hop is back, all the love and validation she needs can be provided by her family. romantic love isn’t necessarily what she needs, she just needs someone to love her for who she is, and they do.

Will accepts, understands, and loves Mike for all that he is. his good parts and his bad. and Mike feels comfortable with Will too, he seeks him out to talk about his feelings and insecurities.

the things they want so badly in their relationship with each other aren’t being met, and they could get it from other sources. so in conclusion, I believe their relationship is over for good and that Mike is a complex and flawed character who is still learning how to be himself and love himself.

#this got really long and ranty.#sorry. i’m just sick in the head abt him #byler #the heart #the wise #the mage #you never say it #crazy together #elijah speaks

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assassinsdragons · 8 months

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@ununquadius

ARE YOU READY?

Here comes P1 of this year’s gift!!

“Halt! Turn around slowly, with your hands above your head.”

Draco keeps his gun trained on the culprit as they do as told. They’ve been backed into a dead end alley. They have nowhere to go, yet Draco doesn’t mean they don’t have any other tricks up their sleeve.

As is revealed when the hooded figure has finished their one-eighty turn and lifts their head, it is their identity that is the trick this time.

Draco sighs and lowers his gun.

“The report said you were armed,” Draco tells the other man. “But you never carry any weapons. Any idea where that misinformation may come from?”

A smirk. “You know me so well, officer. I guess I should be honoured. They’re taking me seriously enough to lie about how dangerous I am.”

“That’s not true, and you know it. You are dangerous. Even without weapons. And you need to be more careful, or they will catch you. They won’t care whether the report was false or not, this means they’re allowed to shoot you if they think you’ll draw against them. You know they won’t hesitate to employ that loophole. The higher-ups want you caught. Dead or alive, doesn’t matter. And if you keep going on like this, all of this will end with you… dead.”

While Draco has been talking, the other man has slowly made his way over to Draco. He’s now standing close, too close. Within Draco’s personal space. Draco doesn’t mind.

“And I know you don’t want that, love,” the man murmurs. “But you also know I have to do this. Someone has to work against all the corruption in this city.”

“Why does that someone have to be you?” Draco asks, voice quiet.

The man puts two fingers under Draco’s chin pressing up until Draco meets his green stare.

Draco sucks in a breath, loudly, as always when he sees the intensity in those eyes.

“Love, I promise, I’m careful. Iäll be home for dinner, okay?”

Helplessly, Draco nods. There’s nothing else he can do.

A quick peck on the corner of Draco’s mouth, and then the man is gone.

“Harry!” Draco calls out, but only the sound of the traffic on the main street behind him answers him.

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The afternoon proves tiresome after that. Draco returns to the precinct, reporting that he has seen the criminal, but failed to apprehend him (again). He argues that the man was unarmed since he saw both the man’s hands empty when he ran away, but the chief doesn’t think that’s enough proof. The gun could’ve been hidden in the pocket of his hoodie, the chief says.

Then he calls Draco into his office for a private meeting.

He asks Draco how it is possible that Draco always finds this specific criminal first (because Draco knows him) but never manages to catch him (because Draco loves him) when that’s not a problem with any other crooks. Does Draco know his priorities (Harry is right, someone has to fight the corruption) or does he need reminders (he reminds himself he will see Harry again at dinner, Draco just has to push through a few more hours).

The chief releases Draco after too many reassurances falling from Draco’s tongue, leaving his mouth dry from all the lies. He is ordered to do paperwork until his shift is over – the chief doesn’t trust Draco enough to let him back out on the street.

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He’s late, Draco thinks. He’s anxiously turning his head back and forth between the front door and the clock hanging on the kitchen wall.

Harry promised, Draco reminds himself. He promised he’d be here for dinner.

One minute turns into five, and then fifteen. Draco tries to ignore the heavy beating of his heart, the worried nerves tingling in his arms.

Half an hour, and he’s pacing the flat, unable to sit still any longer.

“Where are you, Harry?” he asks the empty air around him. He doesn’t recognise his own voice. “Where are you?”

#drarry #unun’s annual gift

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canonicallyobserving911 · 8 months

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WIP Wednesday

Fanonwriter2023 on AO3

Where CANON and FANON collide!

FANON speculation for season 7

Buddie Multi-Chapter Fanfic - Hiatus Reading: “I’m still in love with you but... I needed to learn how to love myself too!”

Chapter 11 will be posted soon.

I’m excited to finish writing Chapter 11 because at the end of Chapter 10, both Buck and Eddie had therapy assignments to complete but instead of asking each other for help to fill in the gaps of their memories, they asked other people who were there during the shooting and the lightning strike. Eddie asked Captain Mehta but he told him that he should ask Buck for details about the shooting. Buck asked Chimney but he told him that he should talk to Eddie to get details about how he got down from the aerial and to learn what happened after they made it to the hospital.

At 10:56PM, Eddie asked Buck to join him for his session that's scheduled for Friday, September 1st and Buck asked Eddie to join him for his session which he rescheduled for the same day so they wouldn't have to do separate visits. After they ended their phone call, they were both worried they wouldn't be able to go to therapy and explain what happened to the other one without making a love confession👀.

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Here's a snippet from Chapter 11 of one of Buck's and Eddie's conversations.

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Eddie raises his eyebrows and asks, “Are you ok?”

“I’m fine.” Buck lies again.

Eddie frustratedly sighs and shakes his head because they’ve been through too much over the last few months and he doesn’t want them to go back to the way things were after they left the cemetery back in May.

“Buck, can we please not do this.”

“Do what?” He responds without looking at him.

“This!” Eddie replies while moving his hand back and forth between them. “Talking at each other again. I thought we were past this especially after everything that's happened.”

As soon as the words leave his lips, they reverberate in his mind like they’re on repeat because he remembers saying those very words back in June when Buck said maybe they needed a break. But that was before Buck’s breakdown in July, the trial in August and everything else they’ve done together. After all the therapy sessions and the late-night conversations, he feels like they shouldn’t be going backwards since they've made so much progress. For weeks, they were moving forward together and they were on the same page but now it’s like they’ve been put into a time machine since Buck’s not looking at him and he can’t figure out why he’s upset.

Buck clears his throat but he still doesn’t look at him. “I guess some things are too difficult to just suck up and keep moving forward from.”

“What the hell is that supposed to mean?!”

Immediately, a loud clap of thunder sounds followed by a bright bolt of lightning that flashes through the living room window and it lights up the whole room. There's a thunderstorm happening outside but it's no match for the storm that’s currently brewing inside of 4995 S. Bedford St. between them.

“It means… you left Eddie!”

When did Eddie leave Buck?👀

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Fic Summary: Months after Buck and Eddie were hit by the same lightning strike; they’re still struggling with the aftermath of it. But before they make their love confessions, they’ll spend time getting to know themselves as individuals first. Eddie learns to enjoy the simple things in life as he participates in activities on his own and with new friends while Buck learns the rest of the 31-year-old deep dark family secret about his conception and birth. Their journey to forever is still a work in progress but once they finally admit they’re in love with each other, everything that follows their love confessions will be cataclysmic.

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Chapter Summaries

Chapter 1 -Eddie makes a new friend while Buck receives devastating news regarding the sperm donation he made for Connor and Kameron.

Chapter 2 - Buck does a lot of research to learn more about the abnormalities found in his red blood cells and Eddie starts a new therapy journey that’s all about him and not the traumas he’s experienced.

Chapter 3 -After more than a month, Buck and Eddie finally spend time together outside of work but it doesn’t end well and they part with a lot of uncertainty regarding their places in each other’s lives.

Chapter 4 - Eddie has a few realizations about his life which causes him to consider moving back to El Paso, TX while Buck continues to be reminded of his past which causes him to take an impromptu road trip across America.

Chapter 5 - Both Buck and Eddie have difficult conversations with their parents and Buck finally learns the truth behind the reason why his mother despised him while Eddie finally tells his mother about the way she tries to control him.

Chapter 6 - More than two weeks after Buck pushed Eddie away after suggesting they needed a break; Eddie decides to try again. Eddie’s there for Buck when he’s at his worst just like Buck was there for him when he was at his worst and he won’t let Buck give up.

Chapter 7 - After Buck’s mental breakdown, Eddie has his back the same way Buck had his when he had his own breakdown more than a year ago. They share several vulnerable and emotionally intimate moments with one another and they begin to realize their small, sweet and caring gestures matter just as much if not more than any grand gesture ever could because these are part of the foundation when a couple builds a long-lasting love relationship.

Chapter 8 - Buck, Eddie and Chris all have their own therapists and during their sessions, they reflect on their pasts while they’re in the present so they can prepare for their future together as a family.

Chapter 9 - Buck and Eddie are there for each other when Buck has to testify as a witness during the trial. But by the end of it, they’ll both realize their individual and shared traumas are going to keep resurfacing until they talk about them, deal with the fact that they’re in love with one another and face the fact that they can’t live without each other.

Chapter 10 - As Buck and Eddie finally begin to confront their past traumas, they realize how much they need each other to fill in the gaps of their memories. Additionally, the universe screams at them for what appears to be the one hundredth time so Buck can realize he doesn’t have to ‘find it’ because he already ‘made it’ and Eddie’s reminded tomorrow isn’t promised and he doesn’t have to die alone if he doesn’t want to.

Chapter 11 - Will be posted soon.

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I’m enjoying writing this fic because it’s giving me the chance to unravel the mess that was the 6x18 ending for Buck, Eddie and Chris. Also, it’s taking them places the show refuses to go including Buck finally having a mental breakdown and Eddie being there for him the same way he was there for Eddie in season 5.

Buddie Multi-Chapter Fanfic - Hiatus Reading

Read chapters 1 - 10 are already available on AO3.

No pressure tagging: @spotsandsocks and @shortsighted-owl. (My apologies if you've already posted.)

#buddie #eddie diaz #evan buckley #christopher diaz #the buckley diaz family #buckley diaz family #911 on fox #911 fox #911onfox #911 on abc #911 abc #911 #Fanonwriter2023 on AO3 #911 fanfic #buddie fanfic #ao3 fanfic #Hiatus Reading #buddie wip #WIP Wednesday

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thranduel · 1 year

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the massive difference between the love triangle ships

nancy CANNOT be herself with steve. she puts on a mask and acts fake. barb even called her out for it and said “this isn’t you”. there is NO trust, honesty, communication or understanding in this relationship (although it’s slightly better now that they’re NOT dating). she was insecure about herself and steve has never really done anything to change that. in fact, she felt more insecure BECAUSE of him at one point (after they slept together, how he spray painted the sign calling her a sl*t, how he didn’t seem as bothered by what happened to barb and nancy was struggling with all the guilt, how she felt inferior because he was popular at school, how she couldn’t say “i love you” and he left her which made her feel more insecure and guilty). also, it’s important to remember that their relationship being unhealthy is NOT just steve’s fault. there were times nancy wasn’t fair to steve either. regardless, they just don’t work as a couple.

mike CANNOT be himself with el. he puts on a mask and acts fake. lucas, dustin AND will (yes, ALL of his best friends! that’s saying a lot) even called him out for it and said he’s becoming too obsessed with her because she’s the only girl that’s given him attention, it’s selfish and immature when he excludes his friends to be with her and it really hurts their feelings AND he’s ruining the party because of this relationship. there is NO trust, honesty, communication or understanding in this relationship (and it only got worse every season. their relationship was healthier when it was platonic). he’s insecure about himself and el has never really done anything to change that. in fact, he felt more insecure BECAUSE of her at one point (being lied to for months and getting no apology, being invalidated about his trauma and told he doesn’t understand what it feels like to be bullied when she literally witnessed all of these things: his bleeding chin after being physically and verbally attacked in the park, when he was verbally attacked and almost physically attacked AGAIN in the gym, when he literally jumped off a cliff. he also feels inferior because she’s a superhero, he’s never been comforted or asked if he’s okay, and he couldn’t say “i love you” and she left him which made him feel more insecure and guilty). even after being forced and pressured into his monologue and not really having a choice, el didn’t talk to mike afterwards which made him more insecure again. and yes, it’s important to remember that their relationship being unhealthy is NOT just el’s fault. there were times mike wasn’t fair to el either. this just shows they don’t work as a couple.

nancy CAN be herself with jonathan. she doesn’t act fake with him. other characters have approved of this relationship and/or have mentioned how close they are. although they’ve had moments where they’ve argued or not been able to understand each other, they still work it out and consider what the other person is going through. even when they’re apart, they talk about each other with admiration and mention they still love each other even if things have changed. nancy can open up to jonathan about her struggles and be vulnerable with him. they both share similar experiences which allows them to understand each other and confide in each other. there is trust, honesty, communication and understanding, the most important things in a healthy relationship. when nancy was struggling after what happened to barb, jonathan was there for her. he helped her, allowed her to let her feelings out and comforted her when she needed it. this is something steve didn’t do. jonathan had his OWN trauma and struggles too, but he was still there for nancy because that’s how much he loves her. it just shows that trauma isn’t an excuse for ignoring or invalidating your partner who is ALSO struggling with their own trauma. obviously it’s understandable to be overwhelmed with your own problems and not be able to help others, but maybe that means you should NOT be in a relationship especially with someone who is also struggling?? it’s not fair to them at all. you can’t just invalidate your partner and then leave them drunk at a party when they don’t tell you what you want to hear (“i love you”) when they’re struggling with their own issues. and i do understand steve’s side and why he was hurt, because he felt insecure and nancy wasn’t really helping. they were both invalidating each other at one point and making each other feel like shit. that’s why people need to think about BOTH of them. they clearly just don’t work together as a couple and they’re hurting each other. anyways, jonathan stayed by nancy’s side when she needed it, and it wasn’t to get anything in return. he just wanted to be there for her because he loves her so much. at this point, he thinks nancy loves steve too which makes it even more heartbreaking, but he STILL chose to be there for her. that’s what proves this love is so strong and genuine and beautiful. jonathan has his own trauma and felt heartbroken, but he never left nancy’s side, because he’s the one that loves her more than anything.

mike CAN be himself with will. he doesn’t act fake with him. other characters have approved of this relationship and/or have mentioned how close they are. he can open up to him about his struggles and be vulnerable with him. they both share similar experiences which allows them to understand each other and confide in each other. there is trust, honesty, communication and understanding, the most important things in a healthy relationship. when mike was struggling with his insecurities after el left him, will was there for him. he helped him, allowed him to let his feelings out and comforted him when he needed it. this is something el didn’t do. will had his OWN trauma and struggles too, but he was still there for mike because that’s how much he loves him. like i mentioned above, it just shows that trauma isn’t an excuse for ignoring or invalidating your partner who is ALSO struggling with their own trauma. obviously it’s understandable to be overwhelmed with your own problems and not be able to help others, but maybe that means you shouldn’t be in a relationship with someone who’s also struggling if you’ve never been able to support them? it’s just not fair. you can’t just invalidate your partner when they bring up their own experience when they got bullied and then leave them without a proper goodbye and a harsh note (“from, el”) when they don’t tell you what you want to hear (“i love you”) when they’re struggling with their own issues. and i do understand el’s side (she also didn’t really have a choice when she left with owens, she had to help her friends) and why she was hurt, because mike wasn’t being fair in that scene either. they were both invalidating each other at one point and making each other feel like shit. they clearly just don’t work together as a couple and they’re hurting each other. anyways, will stayed by mike’s side when he needed it, and it wasn’t to get anything in return. he just wanted to be there for him because he loves him so much. at this point, he thinks mike loves el too which makes it even more heartbreaking, but he STILL chose to be there for him. that’s what proves this love is so strong and genuine and beautiful. will has his own trauma and felt heartbroken, but he never left mike’s side, because he’s the one that loves him more than anything. will is also the only person in the entire show to comfort mike, give him strength and make him feel truly loved. no one else has offered mike emotional support or allowed him to express his struggles except for will.

#byler #mike wheeler #will byers #not tagging the other ships lol #stranger things

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marauderundercover · 2 years

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Goodbye, Stars

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Marinette didn’t realize anything was wrong until the day after she first wore the ladybug Miraculous. And then she reached out for her Uncle and her cousins (well, brothers in her eyes). Something that had become second nature for her sent her into a sudden panic. Because she couldn’t feel them. Any of them. They were unreachable, untouchable and she was scared. Because the last time she couldn’t feel one of them, it was Conner. And he was gone. Immediately lunging for her phone, she called Conner, ignoring Tikki completely. The little kwami had only been with her one day, it’s not like they’d understand what she was going through.

“Hello?” Conner says after a few moments, his voice groggy. Marinette immediately sobs in relief. “Mars? Hey, kiddo, you okay?” Marinette takes a breath, ignoring the shaking in her hands as she tries to calm her breathing. Finally breathing a little easier, she frowns.

“Sorry Kon. I just- um, bad dream.” She lies, grateful that whatever it was that let her brothers and Uncle be human lie detectors didn’t work over the phone.

“Really? I thought they were better.” He says, the concern clear in his voice. Marinette gives a short, tense laugh.

“Yeah, yeah I uh, guess it was just a fluke or something. Are Jon and Uncle Clark okay?” She adds, frantically reaching out and trying to find any hint of what her family was feeling.

“They should be. But gimme a minute and I’ll check on them, okay?” He says softly. Marinette tries to say that it would be okay, especially since a glance at her clock reminds her that the Kent side of the family should definitely be asleep right now. Not awake because the strange part of Marinette was suddenly broken. But Conner was already away from the phone. After a couple of minutes of silence, Marinette hears shuffling on her older brother’s side.

“So?” She says softly.

“They’re both fine. So is Lois. Did you need to talk about it?” Conner asks. Marinette immediately shakes her head, then remembers he can’t see her.

“No, I’ll be okay.” She says.

“Are you sure, Mars?” He asks gently.

“Yeah. I’m sure. I’ll call you Thursday.” She promises.

“Fine. But if you need me sooner-”

“I’ll call you. Thanks Conner.” Marinette says, working hard to shove down the panic as she hangs up the phone.

“Marinette? What’s wrong?” Tikki asks softly. Marinette lets out a shaky breath before glancing up at the sky. The stars weren’t visible, but that had never mattered before. She could still hear them, still feel them, if they wanted her to. Staring as hard as she can at the sky, she tries to listen. To hear the stars that were her first friends, her first confidants. The first beings that told her everything, and that she talked to in return. But there was nothing.

“I can’t hear them.” She says quietly, tilting her head as she tries, even harder, to feel something. Anything. “I can’t feel them.” She breathes out, her voice breaking as the tears stream down her face. Her connection to the stars was gone.

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Marinette frowns at the kwami, trying and failing to understand everything they were saying to her.

“Okay, hold on. Hold on. Because of something that I didn’t even want, I’ve lost something that was extremely important to me?” She asks bitterly. Tikki winces.

“It could come back.” They say timidly. Marinette scowls.

“When? When I’m not doing superhero stuff anymore? What if it’s too late? I’ve already lost Conner once. What if something happens and I don’t know and I can’t help them?” Marinette rambles, trying hard to ignore the panic welling in her chest. “And the stars, they’ve always- I don’t want them to be quiet.” She says. Tikki frowns, and Marinette can feel her heart break even more.

“I don’t know how to fix this for you, Marinette. But I’m almost certain that while you have the ladybug Miraculous, you won’t be able to feel emotions. Or talk to the stars.” Tikki says, their voice soft, probably waiting for Marinette to snap at them again. But she couldn’t bring herself to. All she could focus on was the pain in her chest as she grieved. Some people may think she was silly, grieving the stars. But they’d been her friends for so long. Before she had friends at school, when she had to switch classes and had no friends in her new one, when she was scared to start collège- they’d been there through everything. And now they wouldn’t be. Not in the same way. It hurt. And there was nothing she could do to fix it. Because the only thing that could, potentially, fix it, would be to give up the Miraculous. And as much as she didn’t want to be a hero, didn’t want that pressure on her shoulders, she’d made a promise. To all of Paris. And Marinette always kept her promises.

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thisfairytalegonebad · 7 months

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"They don't care about you." - Whumptober day 2

Fandom: Final Fantasy XV Character: Prompto Argentum Rating: Teen and up Warnings: Captivity, mild psychological torture

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Prompto considers himself an optimist. He’s a glass-half-full kind of guy, he tries to see the best in everyone, and he firmly believes there’s something good to come from just about every situation.

He’s failing to find much good about his current situation.

It could be worse, he guesses. For the most part, he’s relatively uninjured. Yeah, he aches all over, and he was kind of bleeding from various injuries for a while, but even with his limited medical knowledge, he can tell none of them are fatal or likely to leave permanent damage. Most probably won’t even scar, and even if they do, well, scars are kinda hot, aren’t they?

Ardyn gives him water every now and then - Prompto has trouble telling the days apart, so he doesn’t know how frequently the water comes, he just knows that he’s usually pretty thirsty by the time he gets to drink.

He’s not been fed since Ardyn picked him out of the snow and brought him here, but he doesn’t think he could keep anything down anyway. His head hurts - a concussion, maybe - and it leaves him with persistent nausea that is just about manageable, but he’s not so sure he’d be able to stomach even Iggy’s food, right now.

So, it could be worse… but it sure could be better too.

Prompto’s always prided himself on being able to be alone. It doesn’t feel great, he’s naturally extroverted despite his anxieties and he prefers the company of people, but he’s not one of those people who can’t be alone with themselves. He can manage fine alone. He’s had enough practice, after all.

That was before, though. Before befriending Noct and gaining two big brothers as a bonus, before spending most of his free time with at least one of them at any given time, and before embarking on a road trip where they’ve been stuck in a tiny tent together more often than not.

Maybe he’s lost the ability to bear being on his own, now that he got to know something different.

Of course, he’s not truly alone - he’d be stupid to think so. Ardyn is watching him, if not in person then over some camera set up in his cell. Sometimes, he taunts him over the speakers, and in a twisted sort of way, Prompto’s almost glad for it when he does. It’s a reminder that he’s not dead yet, he’s not lost in his own mind, he’s still alive and existing in the same reality as everyone else.

That doesn’t mean he doesn’t flinch every time the speaker crackles and Ardyn’s creepy voice echoes around his cell, though.

“Do you still believe they’ll come for you?” Ardyn purrs, sounding tinny and warped through the speaker which somehow just makes it even more unsettling. “Poor boy. So caught up in your delusions.”

Prompto grits his teeth and stares at the floor - he doesn’t have the energy to lift his head enough to stare at anything else. Ardyn’s been trying to put these thoughts into his mind from the moment he brought him to his cell.

Joke’s on Ardyn, though. Prompto’s own mind has been trying to feed him lies for as long as he can remember. It’s been hard to unlearn those ideas, and he hasn’t managed to free himself from all of them quite yet, but Noct’s friendship - all of their friendship, really - gave him something to hold on to, something to combat his own feelings of inadequacy. He’s not quite there yet, but he likes to think he’s come a long way, those past few years. Like hell he’s throwing away all of that hard work because some weirdo whispers things into his ear.

“They don’t care about you,” Ardyn’s silky voice tells him, and a younger, more lost Prompto would have believed him without question. “They’ve forgotten all about you.”

You’re wrong, Prompto thinks, just you wait. They’re coming, I know they are.

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When they do come for him, Prompto is just coherent enough to tilt his head towards the camera, defiant and unwavering.

See? I told you so.

And then, he lets himself sag into Gladio’s arms, lets Ignis’ anxious hands check him over for injuries, lets Noct tell him how worried they were about him, and for the first time since he fell off that train, he feels warmth seeping back into his bones.

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Read all of my Whumptober prompt fills here.

#whumptober2023 #no.2 #they don't care about you #final fantasy xv #ffxv #fic #captivity tw #psychological torture tw #thisfairytalegonebad's writing #prompto argentum

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amberpriceenthusiast · 2 years

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The quarry group + fav video games

ACNH and Minecraft are both games that the entire group plays together, most of the group doesn’t have much of a preference but Max and Laura prefer ACNH while Dylan prefers Minecraft

This could be seen as platonic or romantic, I prefer them platonically, either way Nick and Abi spend a lot of time on both games together. On Minecraft Nick starts to build like a town square and some shops in the group server with the help of Abi. Dylan causes problems for everyone in the server, and he usually gets Nick to help him. Dylan continuously fucks with Jacob and destroys most things he builds, so they get into many petty fights. Kaitlyn is just trying to build a cool cave house with Ryan and Dylan will not stop hitting her, Ryan is surprised she hasn’t snapped yet. Emma and Max are working together to make pretty houses for themselves and their partners while Abi is out trying to tame every animal she can and Laura is just out exploring, she likes caves a lot

Outside of the group, Abi really enjoys LIS. She doesn’t have a favorite out of the games because she loves all of them so much, but she’s made the most LIS: True Colors fanart. She gets Emma into the games and Emma begins to post play throughs on her channel, she had to take a few days to recover from the first game

Both Dylan and Ryan had a FNAF phase. Ryan doesn’t talk about it, Dylan has gone on multiple rants about why it should have ended with pizza simulator (and he’s fucking right that was such a perfect ending I hate fnaf sm, can you guys tell I’m projecting). Ryan was also definitely an undertale fan at one point and would probably play strardew valley

I could definitely see Kaitlyn and Jacob playing a lot of first person shooters together, they’ve been playing them since they were kids and now it’s just kind of their thing. They’re actually both pretty good at them, but surprisingly Jacob is better if they’re playing 1v1. Kaitlyn may know how to handle a real gun, but that doesn’t mean she knows how to play videos games with guns. Jacob had an Xbox so whenever Kaitlyn comes over they almost always play call of duty zombies

I feel like Max would like games like bioshock and portal but I don’t have much reason to believe that, I just think he would. Dylan is still actively obsessed with Portal but he tries not to talk about it unless someone else mentions it first

Speaking of Bioshock, Kaitlyn would absolutely love that game. It’s a shooter with an amazing environment, she’s obsessed. Laura would like it too but she likes watching Max play more than playing herself

Emma isn’t really a gamer but she does enjoy hearing about all of her friends interest in these games, Laura’s pretty much on the same boat but she does play ACNH religiously

Abi told Emma abt Detroit: Become Human and she ends up playing it with Dylan, they both really enjoyed it, Emma’s actually pretty obsessed with it now

#this is so much #I really need to play more games #I like video games but like I for sure need to play more #the quarry #supermassive games #dylan lenivy #kaitlyn ka #emma mountebank #ryan erzahler #laura kearney #abigail blyg #abi blyg #nick furcillo #nicholas furcillo #jacob custos #max brinly #hacketteers

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momdiaries · 9 days

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04/23/2024

FYI: Scattered brain thoughts coming through on this post

This past week has been filled with all kinds of emotions. Last weekend, I felt the tension in my family grow. I don’t know what exactly happened, but I could feel the tension in the room. It seemed like it started with something so small. My parents had gone to the grocery store. Sometimes, they will buy extra snacks for my daughter. I do have to mention, I give money to chip in for groceries, but I also buy my own. This time, they had bought a bulk pack of cookies and my daughter asked who they were for. My mother said, “Oh they’re for you!” and without a pause, my dad snapped back and said, “No, its not JUST for you.” So I already knew, with something so small, we had to watch what we said. At that point, I pulled my daughter aside and told her not to worry about the cookies. If she wanted them, I would buy her some. That little incident made me think back.

When I was a kid, if there were snacks or any kind of food and we asked about them, the first response was always “well who bought them?” and of course my dad ALWAYS made sure we knew he bought the food so technically it belongs to him. Let me just say, if you are THAT parent, knock it off right now. Let’s think, who does it benefit when you try to make people feel so low? I’ll tell you, it sure as hell makes it look like you’re a complete dick and most likely…..you are. So Selfish, at that point, why did you become a parent if you knew you couldn’t share?

When I’m grocery shopping, I generally let my daughter pick all her snacks and now I hide them or put them somewhere where she only has access to them. I give her the choice to share when she’s happily eating them and she always shares.

So because of that incident, we went back to our rooms and just kept to ourselves most of that weekend. I think I mentioned it before, but we generally keep to ourselves anyways. All of our stuff is in our rooms, my work is in my room and my daughter likes to hang out because its one of the places she feels safe.

It’s funny because my parents hate that we keep to ourselves but when we come down to socialize, it turns into an argument somehow.

I’ll give you some examples, my dad likes to watch whatever on tv without being careful of the rating, there have been times where my daughter wanted to come downstairs but couldn’t because my dads watching two people doing something on tv. It infuriates me at how inconsiderate he is. They have a tv upstairs but would rather watch the big screen. It’s happened several times and my mom is aware and gets upset but still does nothing. So now I go downstairs first and then announce we’re coming down and my mom stops the tv. How sad is that?! If your wanting to watch something you know isn’t appropriate for the kids in the house, do that crap somewhere else.

Another example, this involves my mom, I used to bake for a side job to make extra money, I wasn’t super good and I’ll be honest I didn’t handle the business well because I didn’t think my skills were worth more, so I never really made money, I would just do it to expand my skills. Well one day my mom was having a full on fit about how dirty the house was and made me get rid of all of my things that couldn’t fit in my room. I donated everything, then literally, the moment I came back, she said sorry, but it was a baby sounded sorry, like oops, sorry for my mood swings. Well, its already too damn late, I got rid of everything…so who’s going to replace everything I donated? At that point, I’ve kept everything in my room. If it doesn’t fit, I get rid of what I don’t need to make room for the new.

So now when my parents want us to come out more…..why? why would we come out when they haven’t done much to make us feel like we can?

I know they are learning, because with all the crap they’ve done, they can’t say anything anymore. My dad tries, but he just looks like a fool. It makes no sense, especially since we haven’t done anything, literally. We keep to ourselves, keep our little area clean, and clean up after ourselves and still my dad tries to fight…WHY?! I haven’t killed anyone like one his other kid. I don’t do drugs and I don’t even drink. I’m a single parent working my ass off and trying to get as far as I can financially so I can take my daughter away from these toxic grandparents. I’m just patiently waiting for the day we can leave and never come back.

I’ve had a lot on my brain and right now this is all I could get out. I’ll probably post another scattered brain post with more. I have a lot I need to get out and I’m trying to put everything in some kind of order, but its tough to control chaos.

Anyways. I started reading more, although I can’t read actual books since I put myself to sleep, I’ve been listening to books. I hope that counts lol.

#toxic parents #spilled thoughts #vent post

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canon-fcdder · 11 months

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“…You’re still listening?”

It catches Sniper off guard, the way Pyro is looking at him, still seemingly tuned in. He’s been rambling on about Australian wildlife for long enough that something in the back of his brain decided nobody was listening anymore, he was just talking for the sake of talking. Which isn’t really something he does, unless it’s about one of a very select few topics. The incredible creatures of his home country happen to be at the top of that list.

Being quiet is easier, usually. It’s good practice in his line of work, and it allows him to listen more. He picks up on quite a bit just by paying attention and letting others talk. But today he let himself get excited about kangaroos and tarantulas and quokkas, and it seems Pyro is actually interested.

“You can have a turn. If you want. I’ll listen to you. Or we can draw, or whatever you feel like. I could… show you some newspaper clippings with photos of the bush fires in them.” His tone is stilted with the awkwardness of realising he’s probably wasted their time. They’re being so polite, and he just… well. That’s another reason he likes being quiet.

Still, even as he stiffens, he can’t help but feel a little warm. It’s nice, that Pyro didn’t tune him out entirely. It’s nice being around someone who can at least feign interest.

(From your bestest buddy Calvin)

- ✩ 「 @honeydewmuses 」 ✩

「 ☆ 」 Pyro LOVES when people talk to them.

They’ve gotten used to the quiet. There was no choice but to... But that’s alright because in the suffocating silence they learned how to do something arguably better than talking with others. Talking isn’t that hard anyway; it’s just saying things. What makes it difficult is whether people listen or not. Which is why Pyro is so grateful for the frightening isolation of their youth. What else are they supposed to be about it? Angry? Devastated? Terrified of the chance that it’ll happen all over again and they’ll find themselves tossed aside without a single soul to keep them company? No, no— gratitude is the only emotion that makes sense.

Because it made them a really good listener... For the most part.

Sometimes it’s not only difficult, but impossible to understand what is being told to them. As if the other person isn’t conversing with words, but speaking a strange static. Incapable of clicking in Pyro’s brain, no matter how hard either of them try. An unfortunate fact of the world, but unchangeable as the air they breathe or the fires that burn. At least they aren’t alone in this, their teammates sometimes having issues understanding what THEY say. Except for Sniper. He always seems to know. He didn’t use to, but now he does. So... it wasn’t an unchangeable fact for him. Pyro feels pretty confident that it is for them, though.

But that’s okay... Just like everything else.

❝ Of course I’m still listening! ❞ Chimes a chipper reply, Pyro only barely registering the others surprise. Too engrossed by tales of fantastical creatures they wish were running around in front of them RIGHT NOW, a shock of disappointment shoots through their gut at the suggestion that Sniper stop. Not that it isn’t great to talk to Sniper... but later. After Sniper has said everything he wants to say. ❝ No, no— Don’t stop! ❞ Shaking their head and waving their hands to emphasize their point, Pyro then begins to rummage around, scattering papers aside in their quest for a blank sheet. An oddity with so many artists in the same space, but not an impossibility. ❝ I like hearing you talk... and y’know what else I like? ❞

Triumphantly holding up pieces of paper in one hand and a marker in the other, Pyro beams behind their mask, ❝ Drawing the things you talk about! ❞ Slapping down the paper onto the floor, Pyro lies on their stomach, legs happily kicking in the air. Focused on Sniper as if he’s the most important interesting person in the world, they lightly tap the paper with the still-capped tip of their marker in an unnamed rhythm, ❝ Now instead of picturing it all in my head, I can picture it in actual pictures. You can even have them if you want. ❞

Sniper is probably missing his kangaroos and tarantulas and quokkas... and all the other animal friends that he isn’t near anymore. People don’t usually talk so excitedly about people and things that aren’t around unless they wish they WERE. Drawings won’t make those feelings go away entirely, but they can still help. After all, a drawn quokka is better than NO quokka. Especially if it’s drawn by someone who cares. 「 ☆ 」

#(( *holds them in my HANDS* ))#canon-fcdder #⭒ ˙ ˖ ✧ — ˗ˏˋ ❝ ᴄᴀʀɪɴɢ ᴀɴᴅ ɢɪᴠɪɴɢ ᴍᴀᴋᴇ ᴍʏ ʟɪꜰᴇ ᴡᴏʀᴛʜ ʟɪᴠɪɴɢ ❞ ¦ 「 Pyro IC 」#⭒ ˙ ˖ ✧ — ˗ˏˋ ❝ ʏᴏᴜ ᴄᴀɴ’ᴛ ꜱᴇᴇᴍ ᴛᴏ ꜰɪɴᴅ ʜᴏᴡ ʏᴏᴜ ɢᴏᴛ ᴛʜᴇʀᴇ; ꜱᴏ ᴊᴜꜱᴛ ʙʟᴏᴡ ʏᴏᴜʀ ᴍɪɴᴅ ❞ ◌ ᴍᴀɪɴ ¦ 「 Pyro 」#⭒ ˙ ˖ ✧ — ˗ˏˋ ❝ ᴋɪʟʟ ᴏɴᴇ ᴍᴀɴ; ᴛᴇʀʀᴏʀɪᴢᴇ ᴀ ᴛʜᴏᴜꜱᴀɴᴅ ❞ ¦ 「 Sniper 」#honeydewmuses #♡ ˙ ˖ ✧ — ˗ˏˋ ❝ ᴀɪᴍᴇᴅ ꜰᴏʀ ᴍʏ ᴄʜᴇꜱᴛ ᴡɪᴛʜ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ɪɴ ʜɪꜱ ᴇʏᴇ ❞ ¦ 「 Pyro and Sniper 」#⭒ ˙ ˖ ✧ — ˗ˏˋ ❝ ᴇxᴏᴛɪᴄ ʙᴜᴛᴛᴇʀꜱ ❞ ¦ 「 Answer 」#⭒ ˙ ˖ ✧ — ˗ˏˋ ❝ ɪ’ᴍ ɴᴏᴛ ꜱᴛᴀɴᴅɪɴɢ ꜱᴛɪʟʟ; ɪ ᴀᴍ ʟʏɪɴɢ ɪɴ ᴡᴀɪᴛ ❞ ¦ 「 Queue 」

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Shattered Pieces

Shattered picture frames, shattered hope, shattered peace, shattered dreams & my shattered heart. My mantra these days is that loving deeply means grieving deeply and it keeps me from regretting the choice to love and give myself fully to my call and my dreams.

In a nutshell the last month-ish has been full of trauma, police reports and navigating difficult things for my home. The cliff note version is it started with breaking up a fight of about 15 people who tried to jump one of the girls outside my door. Then escalating to multiple weekends of running away, people trying to break down my door, sneaking boys in (oh the stories I could tell), violating safety house rules on multiple levels and then what I didn’t think would ever happen…the process of removal.

One thing about me is that I’m rarely afraid in any surrounding. For the first time I’m dealing with fear of my surroundings and even being in my home. As each kick on the door sounded, with the glass still shattered and strewn about on the floor (from the destruction exit) my panic became deeper. I was locked in and no more safer than from the outside. The girl I love is no longer there as the lies/destructions woo became too much for her not to succumb to their lure.

Two weeks later and I still cry randomly, bring them up in conversation like they’re still here and work to rebuild what’s left behind. I honestly didn’t think my life would ever be without K, given the option, and I’m still in shock that all that remains are pictures of our time together and the memories held in my shattered heart.

I told my therapist I hate being sad and I’m ready for next…but I’m not. I’m not ok…and I hate that. I still go to work every day, I still make food, go grocery shopping, read and I still daily check my phone to see if they’ve called. I’ve closed my home till after the holidays, as I know the wisest thing to do is to make sure I’m good again before inviting children in. It’s hard to be “selfish” and not help in fostering when I know the need is great. The opportunity to reevaluate and pivot is here and so I get to use this season to do just that. It’s not how I planned to spend the holidays, however it is what’s happening.

I said recently that something came alive in me as a foster parent that now feels aimless. Someone reminded me that it’s still alive and just has the opportunity to find a new muscle and outlet. This experience is increasing my love muscle and expanding my capacity. I’m grateful for my church and my community that literally held me when I collapsed in grief as I tried to walk into church, sat with me while I waited multiple times for the police, sent me food and reminded me that this isn’t the end and it’s ok to stand up for myself too.

So here I sit in my home…alone. The house is quiet and the streets continue their noises and I often wonder if it’s the girls. My home feels empty, but this weekend I’m starting the process to reclaim the peace and safety within it. Twice in the last month someone has tried to knock down my door to bring harm and be lying if I said I wasn’t still jumpy…but I’ll keep moving. My physical barricades are down, the space being rearranged, the glass cleaned up (as I keep finding it) and my home getting “righted” (at least in the physical portion). This weekend I reset and prepare for how I will do battle back to “even” as I dig through the grief, the fear, the panic and the uncertainty. To be clear I do not regret my decision to be a single foster mom, to take K in (and the others that came along) and love her deeply and even with this “ending” I wouldn’t trade a thing. Cause I got to see how God can love me, no matter how many times I eff up and still show grace in boundaries…cause that’s what I got to do for 11 months. So here’s to the now, the new and the next all a product of what has been. Thanks for cheering me on friends and for diving in the joyful deepend!

#mylife #tumblr #blog #joyfuldeepend #blogpost #myloves #createwhatyoucrave #dowhatisrightnotwhatiseasy #vulnerability #fostercareflow #ThisisTheNow #ShatteredPeace

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The Person On Your Mind in May 👁‍🗨 2022 - Aries

Whole of their energy towards Aries: 10 Swords

This is clearly someone you’ve had a falling out with, possibly have broken up with if this is romantic, or could be a former friend because 3 Cups shows up here. They feel you’ve stabbed them in the back, manipulated and lied to them. You may have kept this person hanging on as an option, not really giving them a clear yes or no, but avoiding any solid decisions, ducking and dodging any confrontation on the matter. You didn’t want them, but you didn’t want it to end either. Whether that’s how it is, that’s what they feel. This could also be switched.

Feelings: 4 Swords & 8 Cups rev

At the moment, they’re not speaking to you nor do they have any desire to. They’re healing from whatever this 10 Swords was, and they have no intention to return to this situation they’ve left. Clarified by Page of Wands, if you’ve sent this person messages, they’ve purposely ghosted you, because they’re taking matters into their own hands, setting rules and boundaries going forward with The Emperor, and they’re leaving this behind. Being an Aries card, this can also be you doing this, and they’re the ones feeling abandoned. Whoever is left is sad about it. Whoever is leaving feels that the other person deserves the silence.

Intentions: 3 Cups

Though they think you’re a liar and you’ve used them, and it’s over, though they’re wiped out and healing, having left this behind, they still intend on reuniting with you and overcoming this challenge. They see it as a challenge. If you’re married to this person, or were, then their intent is simply to be friendly and raise your children together as positively as possible. They intend to be friendly, not bitter or mean. Heartbreak is here, 3 Swords, and it doesn’t look like they intend to speak to you at all, or provide any clarity whatsoever except that which contains whatever business you two still have to interact over. They also feel that is Justice and well-deserved. Sounds like a mature sort of person, or that’s you.

Actions: 9 Wands

Clarified by Queen of Cups, this person has been badly wounded, if this is your story then you already know this. They’re very cautious and walled off away from you, very protective of themselves and what they will allow even interacting with you. They may still love you, with this Queen, but that may not matter. It’s more painful than nostalgic. You’ve hurt this person deeply, maybe a whole family unit, and they’re indecisive about fighting. They don’t want to fight, or defend themselves, they’re not putting up with it from you, and it’s a huge burden even having to work together in any way for them. But they’re going to...doesn’t seem like they have a choice.

Hidden Messages:

- I can see RIGHT through you 😳

- We don’t value the same things, and it bothers me.

Possible signs:

Libra 💯 Virgo, Taurus, Cancer & Sagittarius

If you’re dealing with:

The Magician shows you being a clever talker, a master of creativity and action, you know you’re able to cleverly maneuver situations to get what you want and how, it’s probably something you test yourself on doing. You could also be manifesting something brand new from the tools at your disposal, and are communicating about your newest projects.

Aries - heartbroken by something completely out of their control, they’re going through a very hard time right now

Taurus - dissatisfied with your dreams, if you’ve told them, or they could be uninterested in healing the connection at all

Gemini - not committed, comes and goes, and kind of a dick to you too, mind games all day

Cancer - watching you but not talking, Cancer seems to just be creepy af to everyone in May, at least so far 😆👀

Leo - fantasizes about what love could be like with you, very romantic, if they’re already with you then they’re definitely smitten

Virgo - apologizing for being indecisive, could need your help with planning something

Libra - ambitious & righteous, they feel something has worked out for them fairly

Scorpio - loves you deeply, you are a dream come true to them

Sagittarius - there’s a new opportunity to build something together & you’re deciding what the next steps to take should be

Capricorn - making decisions about business & finances, could be someone you work with

Aquarius - could be this person with 10 Swords, they’re not interested in reconciling or feels you’ve betrayed them

Pisces - stuck, trapped, and blocked, no communication going on here

#aries tarot reading #person on your mind #may 2022 #aries #tarot

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the-lone-witch-and-secret-room · 3 years

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Camila Noceda and Flawed Parenting

A perspective by a flawed person with loving but extremely flawed parents

I’m genuinely baffled at some people’s hostile reaction towards Camila. Like… do any of you have flawless parents that always know the best solution instantly, make no mistakes and never get emotional?

My parents are great. They’re super supportive and I love them very, very much. Overall I think I got very lucky in the parents department.

But god, they are far from flawless. I still live at home, and despite all the good, there’s moments when I can’t take my dad anymore. He’s the kind of dad that stayed up until two am to help me with homework when I was in school, and he does so, so many things to make sure I’m happy. I know that. But despite all of this, I have told my mom in emotional moments before that I’m not sure if I can keep living with him, because for all his good sides, he has a couple of fatal flaws that sometimes make him unbearable.

My mom listens to me and is very open to being educated on certain topics, but she has her flaws, too. She hates when I fight with my dad, and gets so torn up about it that I’ve once apologized to my dad out of fear of her getting into a car crash otherwise. She’s very vocal about certain flaws of mine, and sometimes uses the things she does for me as leverage against me when she gets very emotional.

And both of my parents pay a lot more attention to my brother because he needs it more, because he’s more of a “problem child” while I “seem so capable” even when I’m not.

And guess what? I’m not a perfect child. I make mistakes sometimes, some of them pretty severe. Just like Luz, I’m the kind of person that struggles to communicate certain issues of mine to her parents. I’m stubborn, and when I get emotional, I say very hurtful things sometimes. So do they.

And this has nothing to do with my parents being horrible or abusive. They’re neither of those things.

The takeaway from this should not be that my entire family is made up of terrible people, but that we’re all flawed in our own ways, despite loving each other and trying our best. There’s things about my parents I wish I could change, and there are things about me that my parents wish they could change. And to an extent, that’s perfectly normal.

In our strengths and flaws and frustration with each other, we’re all human.

Specific, spoiler-y Camila and Luz things under the cut since this got very long.

We have no indication that Camila has a pattern of emotionally manipulating Luz. Her “emotional manipulation” as I’ve seen some people put it, is people for some reason thinking that the second you become an adult, you’re suddenly perfect and can no longer make mistakes, lest you’ll be dubbed horrible and abusive.

The whole concept is absurd to me. There is no perfect way to parent. There simply isn’t. Of course, there’s some genuinely abusive patterns that are horrible and inexcusable. But out of the parenting styles that aren’t, which one works depends on a number of factors, one of which absolutely includes that every child is different and has different needs. Camila is an amazing parent for Vee, giving the kid everything she’s ever longed for. She’s not an ideal parent for Luz. And that’s because Luz and Vee have fundamentally different needs.

Likewise, Luz is a pretty great child for Eda, but not a perfect fit for Camila. Luz relates to Eda a lot more than she relates to her mom, and that’s why the two of them have an easier time understanding each other. Both of these mother-child relationships exist, and one is not more doomed to fail than the other, but I think you’ll agree that the better you understand someone and where they’re coming from, the easier it is to communicate, pick up on certain signs, etc.

As mom and daughter, Camila and Luz are both flawed and have issues seeing the other’s perspective because of how different they are. And we should simultaneously acknowledge both of their roles in the issue and give both of them the space to learn and grow past those issues.

Luz struggles to communicate her problems. She doesn’t want to burden people in the demon realm, and it’s a given that this started out as not wanting to burden her mom. So she keeps quiet about her issues. Camila tries hard but can’t read her daughter’s mind, so there’s only so much she can do to understand and help the way Luz needs her to. Hell, Eda, who Luz is a lot more open with than her mom, struggles to help her, because Luz doesn’t tell her what’s wrong. I don’t see anyone calling Eda a terrible mom for that.

Camila tries her best, but she struggles to understand her daughter because of this, and because of how fundamentally different they are. She loves Luz’s creativity, we actively see her supporting it in the new episode—she keeps the weird stuff Luz made because she thinks Luz will regret throwing it away, and even plays along in what she assumes to be some elaborate role play because “she’s glad Luz kept her creativity even though it’s not made things easy for her at school”. But at the beginning of the show, said creativity got out of hand and people got hurt. Luz could’ve gotten hurt. So of course Camila had to interfere. I love Luz dearly, but she thought it was okay to bring snakes to school and set off fireworks inside a school building. Creativity is great. Doing reckless stuff that causes people to get hurt is not.

In sending Luz to camp, Camila tried to have someone else fix her issue because she didn’t know how to help Luz. That was a mistake, and a bad one at that, but she’s realizing that. She looks disheartened when Vee tries to throw out Luz’s stuff, because she never meant to change her daughter or take that part of her away. She just thought Luz needed a reality check—which, for the record, is something the narrative actually agrees with.

Luz spends her time in the demon realm getting reality check after reality check, realizing that even her ideal fantasy world where she has everything she always wanted doesn’t mean she’s free of consequences. She goes overboard constantly, causing:

-Eda to be forced to fly into a trap because Luz is chasing a fantasy (Witches before Wizards)

-Eda to almost be branded by her sister because Luz doesn’t think through why Eda doesn’t use magic to publicly announce her presence constantly (Once Upon a Swap)

-Eda and the twins to get kidnapped by a Slitherbeast because Luz stole Amity’s wand (Adventures in the Elements)

-Her friends to get hurt when she goes overboard trying to help Willow (Wing it like Witches)

-Eda to be captured and almost petrified because Luz thought she could just steal from the Emperor with no consequences in an attempt to help (Agony of a Witch)

I’m like 90% sure these aren’t even all. None of those make her a terrible person, for the record, but as all humans are, she is flawed and makes bad choices. She learns from these experiences and matures, just like her mom had hoped she would at camp. She’s also made friends there, which was another thing Camila wanted for her daughter.

You’ll probably realize that a lot of Luz’s behaviors I mentioned follow one of two patterns: 1. Luz’s idealized fantasy world causing problems, when she walks around with rose tinted glasses and gets people in trouble in the process because she hasn’t thought about the consequences, and 2. Luz trying to help someone she loves, but instead making things worse in the progress. The issue with this one is often that she doesn’t communicate her ideas/listen to the people she’s trying to help—like when Willow and Gus said they’ve had enough of Grudgby, or how she never actually talks to Eda about the healing hat idea before doing something reckless.

…does the latter one sound familiar to you at all? No? Because it’s the exact same thing that Camila did.

Some of the things Luz does are reckless and actively endanger others and herself, and that’s something that I think we need to acknowledge before judging Camila. As Luz’s mom, it’s Camila’s job to interfere in those situations. That she made a mistake while trying to protect Luz doesn’t make her a terrible person, especially as, again, the narrative proves her right to an extent.

I’m not saying her making Luz promise to come back and stay isn’t something that hurt Luz—it absolutely is. But it was born out of desperation. She’s emotional and in shock. She’s so full of pain and regret. She just wants her fourteen year old daughter home safe, and there’s nothing abusive or even morally ambiguous about that.

From Luz’s perspective, what she says is absolutely heartbreaking, but from Camila’s, it’s perfectly reasonable. I doubt Camila has the full picture, but even if she does, she’s had a full fifteen seconds to process that her daughter has not only been lying to her for months, but chose to leave her, and is in the demon realm of all places. Of course she’d be emotional and upset about that! Who wouldn’t? Camila isn’t a robot. If she’d been calm about this I’d be way more concerned, honestly.

My parents don’t get mad that easily, but if I would lie to them for weeks on end, they’d be pissed off too, not even taking the running away from home part into account. That’s a normal thing. People don’t like being lied to. Camila is absolutely devastated in that moment because she’s scared that Luz left because she hates her, when Luz actively states that her leaving wasn’t about her mom—which is another thing we should really be acknowledging.

Abusive parents suck and abuse should obviously never be apologized or trivialized, but saying something hurtful in the heat of the moment isn’t the same thing as being an abusive parent. My parents have done this. I’ve done this. And yes, those things can be emotionally manipulative, but there’s a huge difference in whether that’s a habit or a person speaking out of hurt and desperation in a very specific context. I doubt there’s anyone on the entire planet that hasn’t had a bad moment where they’ve said something like this because they were hurting. People lash out when they hurt, and they beg for reassurance when they’re scared. That’s something we all do.

The whole mindset of “all parents have to be perfect and can never get upset or make any mistakes” is harmful as hell, and honestly also very unrealistic. No parent is perfect, and especially people like me who have a relationship with their parents that’s very good overall should know that.

Once you have a child, parenting is a non-stop learning process, every day for the rest of your life. Taking away that room to grow and expecting perfection isn’t helping anyone, especially not struggling single parents.

And I see Camila as someone who is very willing to learn, because at the end of the day, all she wants is for Luz to be happy. Let’s give her some time to wrap her head around this whole situation. Let’s see what she says once she sees for herself how happy Luz is in that world, may it be via the videos eventually coming through or Camila visiting and meeting Luz’s found family, her friends and her girlfriend.

Ultimately, I don’t think Camila will force Luz to stay at home, but we have to give her some time. She wants what’s best for Luz, and she’s gonna need some convincing that a dangerous magical world is what’s best. I feel like that’s very normal considering the circumstances.

Her and Luz need to work on their communication on both ends, they both have things to learn, but I’m certain they’ll manage to fix their relationship in the long run.

If the bunk bed is any indication, I think Vee is gonna stay in the human realm permanently while Luz sleeps at home but keeps attending Hexside in the daytime. That feels like a solution that keeps everyone happy, and allows Luz to spend time with all the people she loves. I can’t see her being forced to choose at the end.

As a closing statement: Eda isn’t an ideal mom, Amity isn’t an ideal friend or girlfriend and neither is Luz, Lilith isn’t an ideal sister… but that’s because no one is ever an ideal anything. Being flawed is a big part of being human. Everyone has different facets to their personality. Their flaws are what makes them such great, relatable, believable characters.

And I feel the same way about Camila. She’s an extremely believable character that reminds me of my own parents, flawed but very loving nonetheless.

(Also honestly, I think it’s pretty telling that some of you guys immediately bash the black single mom that’s obviously trying her hardest while giving the benefit of the doubt to Alador, who has been portrayed as neglecting and threatened his six year old daughter on screen. This was already a thing before we knew much about either of them, and I’m disappointed but unfortunately not very surprised that it still is.)

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Star Wars AU #4: Three Skywalkers & An Absolute Metric Shit-ton of Kyber

SO I’m sitting here thinking about that one scene in Episode IV where Vader, Luke, and Leia are all in the same room together for a very brief minute - the only time in the series

You’ve probably seen the joke where Obi-wan just fucking dies rather than deal with that

You know what other powerhouse was there? Besides the son and twin grandkids of the force?

AN INSANE AMOUNT OF SEMI-SENTIENT KYBER CRYSTALS

I’m head cannoning that Kyber crystals use the Jedi as much as the other way around- but sometimes that balance is thrown off

And you better believe these crystals are pissed off about the whole death star thing

So the Kyber takes the opportunity its been given just yoinks the force through our resident overly force-sensitive suckers

And goes home to Illum, bringing a A Sith Lord, A Princess, and A Moisture Farmer along for the ride

On the surface, Fairly-Recently-Traumatized-and-Knighted Obi-Wan Kenobi is escorting a bunch of ten year olds (including young Anakin Skywalker!) on their first gathering

They are shocked when a rainfall of kyber crystals and three humanoids tumble from the sky.

26 year old Knight Kenobi is pretty sure this doesn’t usually happen, but he’s a relatively new single dad, what does he know about anything.

None of that time traveler disorientation- our future three were one with the force and the force with them- they know exactly where they are and what just happened, though they’re still processing how to deal

Vader recovers first and briefly tries to kill his child self (that’s the bastard who killed my wife!)

Young Obi-Wan steps in the way telling Anakin and the others to get back.

Vader is mostly toying with him- after all, he knows everything about how Kenobi fights, and Obi-Wan knows nothing amount him

Luke puts 1 and 1 and 1 together - Time Travel plus Jedi plus ‘Anakin’

"My name is Luke Skywalker and You’re not killing my father a second time YAAAA” comes charging in with the Skywalker lightsaber

This, naturally, distracts Vader long enough for Leia to shoot him right in the respirator

Wounded, Vader retreats to the ship. The Jedi Gathering Ship oh shit

Strands them all there and oh boy is that awkward.

They all get rescued pretty quickly- I figure some other Jedis felt whatever crazy nonsense just happened (100 credits this is somehow Skywalkers fault. Ha, no bet.)

And wow does everyone have a lot of questions and wow do Luke and Leia have the answers to pretty much none of them

Meanwhile Vader is having a fucking meltdown fixing up his cyborg body because he’s 31 years in the past

His wife is alive! but she’s also 15 years old which um…he’s a lot of things but a perv isn’t one of them

His son is alive! But he has no empire to keep him safe with and the second Palpatine finds out he’s going to try and eliminate them because the mention of ‘Emperor Palpatine’ is way too big a threat to sith plans and aw hell no that is not happening

Luke and Leia get taken back to the temple and Luke tells them the blatant lies old Ben told him which makes Obi-Wan… go lie down for a minute

Young Anakin thinks the whole thing is pretty wizard because he has a time traveling son now!

Leia tells them that Supreme Chancellor Palpatine is actually a terrifying Sith lord who wiped out the entire Jedi Order and subjugated the galaxy (because she actually had an honest education)

Which no one wants to deal with, i mean, we asked, but we do not like that answer

The high council is still debating several hours later and Luke is growing mixed feelings about the awesome Jedi thing, because on one hand, they’ve been repeating themselves for a while, and on another, *J*E*D*I T*E*M*P*L*E

Leia is working on sending an encrypted message to Senator Antilles from alderann if she can just get another minute alone

news breaks that an Asthmatic Sith Cyborg just assassinated the Chancellor in front of the Entire Senate and also the Chancellor shot lightning??out of his hands??and exploded when he died?can the Jedi plz help?!??

“Killed the Master, the Apprentice has” Yoda says and everyone nods gravely

There is a lot of chaos in the republic as some of Palpatine’s Sith Spite bombs unleash a bit of chaos, but overall, he really didn’t have that much time to abuse his poser- and his apprentice situation was at a low ebb

The council is concerned about this future Sith Lord last seen in a ship heading towards Serrano but

The force feels…lighter somehow? As though…the galaxy was filled with… A New Hope

#star wars #sw #my au #star wars au #if anyone has a link to that post where obi-wan just dies rather than deal with the three of them i will gladly link it but i cant find it #star wars au no 4 #kywalkers au

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