Love Between Fairy and Devil 苍兰诀

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GO BEANIE!!!!!

every second of all things end is a whole ass religious experience that i will not shut up about

thinking about how during phase 5 everyone (in canon and the fans) thought 2d was possessed but he was actually just experiencing the symptoms of ptsd. like truly he was exhibiting the symptoms of someone who has newfound freedom from their abuser, people thinking he should be happier but instead he's acting out and all he talks about is his abuser, so that means he wants to go back, right?

no, it just means he is suddenly processing 20 years worth of trauma for the first time and it's understandably a huge upheaval and things are gonna be hard for a while while he adjusts to having personal freedom again, and he's not going to be the same from now on, but that's a good thing

because when murdoc comes back, 2d doesn't go straight to fawning over him, he and russel and noodle All give murdoc the cold shoulder, because he still doesn't get it, until the lost chord mv. and even as of phase 7 he still doesn't reeeaaaally get it, he just knows that if he does xyz, the others will not give him leeway anymore. the main conflict of phase 7 comes from somebody outside of the band preying on 2d instead. so. that's nice character growth there

The progression:

Me starting puberty: maybe I’m just weird or a tomboy. Mama and daddy are always calling me a tomboy, maybe that’s it

Me at 14: maybe I’m just bisexual and that’s why I feel more drawn to masculine things. I’m a butch lesbian.

Me at 18: starts having questionable thoughts about my gender. Shoving it down. Sending myself into complete denial and leaning hard into all things feminine.

Me at 21: I’m with a man, I need to be girly. Oh he doesn’t mind if I dress comfortable. He likes me being happy. Cool. I can make this work.

Me at 27: I’m non-binary. I’m not a girl ever really but I can’t be a boy. Everyone will hate me. Thoughts keep occurring more often questioning my gender and feeling like everything was wrong. Shoves it down again.

Me at almost 30: I’m a man. I’m trans. I can’t shove it down anymore or I’ll literally die because of it. I’m out to almost everyone. I’m not coming out to my partner’s family. It’s for safety reasons. But I’m living my life all the time I’m not around them and I’m learning who I really am and accepting it and exploring things I refused to allow myself before. I’m happy. Stressed but happy.

I’m still finding my footing. I’m still having a hard time letting myself be myself. I’m stressed because I can surgically transition much past a breast reduction if I can get my health a little better. Past that I have no options because of health risks to my chronic medical conditions and disabilities. It’s stressful to know I’ll never really pass. I’m socially transitioning but I feel like I will never really be taken seriously or seen for who I am. It should be this way. I’m a man and that’s all that should be required to be accepted as a fucking man. I’m exhausted.

This has been the progression so far.

I'm not officially saying I'm planning/going to write anything yet but this transition is the anthem of that Nesta x Lucien fic

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The math just adds up!

there is an insane amount of antisemitism floating around right now.

i just want to say:

this blog loves and supports jewish people.

this blog does NOT conflate the israeli government, or the atrocities it commits, with jewish people.

this blog is disgusted with those who use or express antisemitism.

this blog knows that if someone needs to invoke antisemitism, they do not actually care about helping palestine or the palestinian people.

this blog will do its best to ensure that it remains a safe space for all.

patrol is fun :DD

I really don't know how to explain to people that supporting gender liberation (liberation for trans people, liberation for gnc people, liberation from all oppressive gender roles) means you have to be able to see someone you think is cis "crossdressing" and be cool about it. You have to be able to see someone presenting in a way that doesn't make sense to you and not interrogate them about their identity. You have to be able to hear someone express a gender identity you don't understand and go "Huh! Neat," and go about your business. If you truly want gender liberation for all then you have to stop trying to exert control over other people's genders, period.

can i say something. for years i thought the joke of the song short skirt/long jacket by cake was that he wanted a woman who was hung like a horse. like i thought when he says jacket it was a last-second fakeout because he very obviously meant to say cock. and the rest of the things in the song were just her personality and interests. which were secondary to her awesome penis

so many of you have never been 26 or 27. well one day you will. this is not a threat this is a promise. or maybe both. it will be fine, is what i’m saying. and then comes 28

girl what kind of deranged advice was this guy going around giving people when he wasn’t trying to kill them…. 😭😭