#the egotism of self hatred
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doug eiffel is, in his own words, a man of many fears, but i think two of the most interesting ones are these twin fears he has about his self perception: he's afraid that no one will ever take him seriously. and he's even more afraid that they will.
i think a lot about his story in all things considered - what it betrays about eiffel's psyche that both minkowski and jacobi present versions of the narrative where they're in the right, but he has this fear. that he's screwing it up, that everything is his fault and everyone knows it, even when he's barely involved and just trying to help. that within his own narrative he is still in some way the one at fault, but also a victim of circumstance who everyone will jump to unfairly blame.
it's his attachment to this perception of himself - as the perpetual screwup, as tragically unlucky, as everyone's punching bag, as ultimately unimportant - that holds him back for so long. because the thought that he will only ever be those things, only ever his mistakes? that terrifies him. but it's safer than the alternative.
with his efforts to cast himself in that tragicomic role, taking eiffel seriously is such a central point to his character development (and specifically in what it indicates re: where he stands with the others) - everything about shut up and listen and constructive criticism, of course, but also. when hera connects with him in bach to the future by opening up about their shared insecurities, she shows him that she takes him seriously and tells him that he should take himself more seriously too. and minkowski can't fully understand eiffel or connect with him as a person until she comes to terms with his conviction and all the complexities that forces her to acknowledge in him.
it's so much scarier for doug "why the hell do you even care what i think? i'm so far beneath both of you that i shouldn't even register on your radars" eiffel to consider that maybe people can take him seriously, that maybe they already do. because if they want him around, if they value his effort, if they care about him and think about him and take the things he says to heart, then that means those things matter. and it means that he matters, which is terrifying both in what it challenges about his own self hatred and the weight it gives to his otherwise careless words and actions.
#wolf 359#w359#doug eiffel#remember that post about Jester's Privilege that was like#'the ability to mock freely without punishment for nothing he says seems to matter'#uh. yeah.#i know i talk about this kind of thing a lot but. it gets to me#the egotism of self hatred#that eiffel is so willing to punish himself but it only further hurts him and the people around him#and what that says in the specific context of eiffel as a convict#how he projects his desire for betterment onto people who feel no such desire to improve. instead of accepting responsibility for himself#and how MULTIPLE turning points in the show for eiffel are about realizing it's just him. for better or worse he has to be the one to do it#what sarah shachat said about how comedy is scary but drama makes sense
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Twisted Wonderland and Color
Recently I've been coming across the Twisted Wonderland official art for reference photos and something hit me- their colors are quite striking, no?
But what made me curious were the meanings and associations of such colors, as each color alludes to the vices and virtues each dorm leader/house warden possesses.
Let us discover them together!
Riddle Rosehearts
Most obviously his main color is red ♥️.
Red is a color of passion, power, courage, and dominance and one that commands attention.
Most warning labels and signs usually have this color because our eyes are naturally drawn to it.
However, the negative connotations of such a color come just as clear:
Aside from the obvious association, anger, it's also a color of violence, as blood comes to mind, danger, and can be associated with hatred and war.
But let's look at the other colors, shall we?
Gold- a color of generosity and wealth but also self-centeredness and lack of trust
White- purity, perfection, honesty, and cleanliness but also coldness. Another meaning that is mainly associated with Eastern interpretation of white can also mean death.
Black- similar to red, it can represent elegance and authority, but has associations in death and darkness.
Next up is...
Leona Kingscholar
His main color is yellow 🟡 with hints of brown🟤 , silver🥈, and black 🖤.
Yellow is an energetic and cheerful color. But like gold, it's also associated with luxury and warmth.
But of course, negative connotations aside from cowardice, are deceitfulness, jealousy, and egotism.
Brown- the color most associated with the earth, it can mean sustainability, health, and, like yellow, can also mean warmth, but also loneliness, isolation, sadness, and drought (the last one is my interpretation, as most dying plants tend to have this color)
Silver- similar to gold and yellow, it represents wealth as well as wisdom and spiritual purity. Dunno how that could correlate to Leona but what do you think?
And the meaning for black is described in Riddle's color meaning.
I've noticed most colors have similar associations with one another as well. Hope that doesn't take off points 😂
Azul Ashengrotto
His was the most tricky since his dorm color is somewhat similar to Pomefiore's in that they both use purple (tho Azul's uses a lighter shade) and that the "grey" used here is more bluish than a straight gray color.
Nonetheless, I shall try my best in finding meaning in it!
What I think is it could be a pale version of lavender 🪻
And lavender is associated with purity, silence, grace, elegance, calmness, and devotion but can also be linked with feelings of frustration, sadness, and evil.
Gray- it can represent neutrality, balance l, professionalism, and calmness, like lavender, but can also represent blandness, coldness, and gloom.
Again, see above for black and white.
That's it for right now! If this gets popular, I may do more in the future. If this came across as boring or redundant, pls lemme know and share me some meanings and interpretations I might have missed!
Thanks for reading
#twisted wonderland#colors#riddle rosehearts#leona kingscholar#azul ashengrotto#disney#discussion#analysis
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1/2 Vivienne I hope this question is okay. I've enjoyed all of your writing and what you've written about sex specifically. I know you said you are "into women" though you have no interest in sex. I was wondering if you could write a little more about that, specifically what you think of the concept of "internalized homophobia." This is what I hear anytime a same-sex attracted person has anything negative to say about sex in general. I think that is used as a tool of coercion so much.
Even some radfems have very coercive logic about sex. They act like only straight woman should have negative views of sex bc of misogyny, and any other reservations are invalid bc of "trauma" or "internalized homophibia." Some also go out of their way to validate pradatory behavior and male degenerecy when it's gay. When you I read how you think pride is now a psyop to push acceptance of male degenerecy, I felt relief because I've always felt that way but I'm not allowed to think that way.
Yes, I've heard people say that when anybody who's homosexual and has no interest in sex, they have "internalized homophobia." This is one of the billion ways people dismiss each other's experiences to maintain the status quo because they're within the same hivemind and have no individuality. I haven't disliked being lesbian a day in my life, so those people are projecting or have underlying prejudices because there's nothing wrong with being gay in the first place, but everything is wrong about lust.
I have the opposite of internalized homophobia: Externalized Homolove. I couldn't disrespect somebody I love dearly by even thinking about them in a lewd manner because the inevitable feelings of jealousy, possession, and paranoia will creep up. If you've heard of couples breaking up because they have to "find themselves," it is because the lust has turned them into a pervert.
Besides the diseases, emotional issues and egotism that come along with the sex-thought and act, I don't and never have seen the appeal of sex. I was one of the few people who supported (real) asexuals and thought they were a little more blessed than everybody else before I understood what I was looking at. I believe everybody wants to be free from lust and sex, but there is nothing opposing it meaningfully so they think lust is something they must engage in to experience love.
Love can only be given and recieved in a pure state of mind and a pure state of mind can only be restored and maintained in an individual who loves God. Seeking love from people who are only capable of lust is a total waste of time, but most people are doing it and blame their lack of prospects on the dating market instead of their lust-obsession.
As for the general concept of internalized homophobia, the False Self thinks there's a "right way to be," which is heterosexual. These individuals typically watch too much media and don't spend enough time with God, who will melt the ego into a puddle. People with prejudices of any sort, whether it's directed at themselves or somebody else (same thing because we're all one), should be avoided because they have a severely limited thinking capacity where they cannot empathize with anything but their own delusion.
God created each soul to represent the infinite nature of Supreme Consciousness, so every person is different, like our fingerprints. The one thing we have in common is seeking happiness, and that feeling is a cosmic call to return to God, not indulging in the fleeting feelings of the world, which cause our suffering. Those who are truly done with the pain of egotism will unceasingly return to Divinity.
Sex is always used as a tool of coercion by everybody who is interested in sex, including feminists. I have yet to see a single couple actually like being around each other if it weren't for the limitless sex keeping them together. Every single person who has sex has thinly veiled hatred toward their partner because of their sexual dependence on them, and when they're single, the level of self-hatred they have, even if they are the "happily celibate" types who "haven't had sex in 549 days." Everybody is counting down the days until they can have sex and simultaneously believe they're been freed from lust lol.
Heterosexuals, bisexuals and lesbians become defensive about gay male sex because they see it as an attack on their sex life because they're engaing in the same actions as gay men. I stay far away from anybody who talks about the importance of their kinks and orgasms, regardless of the sexuality they label themselves.
Lustful heterosexual and bisexual women are attracted to gay males, and enjoy seeing males get sodomized similar to how women get sodomized. It's one of the many sexual paraphilias. I noticed a lot of them are into gay cartoon sex because it cleans up their image, but anal sex is one of the most depraved actions one can engage in. It's a sign of filth and mental, emotional, and spiritual death, as it leads to bestiality and child sex abuse - the rock bottom of depravity.
Most people have noticed this and only accuse gay males of it, but every pedophile is into anal sex - not because it's gay but it's because lust makes an individual ravenous for more extreme acts. The sexuality labels are coverups for what is religiously permissable and what isn't. It doesn't matter who one has sex with, the effect on the individual and collective consciousness is the same. A heterosexual couple and homosexual female couple engaging in anal is equally as depraved and are just as likely to abuse children.
What is homophobic is assuming that all gay men have sex and there aren't wonderful gay men who silently love God. There are plenty of them who are cheering my saying anal sex is sinful because they believe it's disgusting to have blood and feces on their dicks or semen in their mouths (like any sane individual). A lot of gay men are completely opposed to putting themselves at risk for disease and are chaste but they don't mention it because everybody hates purity.
Those who advocate for how 'good' or 'healing' sex is watches porn (or reads erotica or looks at sexual manga/cartoons); the only difference between sex and porn is the camera that captures the act. The camera makes no difference - a thought and action done in private spreads just the same as a broadcast... you're either on the lust-frequency or not. (And they always "heal" in secret or using incognito browsers... if sex is that great, show it to the world).
Trying to help demons is equally exhausting and depletes your energy so I suggest not helping anybody, joining activist groups or communities; a lot of feminists end up disabled from "helping" which is a divine redirection to their focus on God and live a spiritual life. I urge everybody to not read their content on a regular basis too, do everything in your power to remain in a blissful state because that vitalizes cells and repairs neurons. Only God can help this world and this world will be helped when the majority become pure.
I knew a lesbian separatist who (proudly) had at least 5 orgasms a day and was (unknowingly) completely degenerated because of it. She had a rape kink, understood why males raped women and said that it was okay to be attracted to children because youth is sexually attractive. Her appearance was one of deterioration: receding hairline, dry pale skin and hair, lost 4 teeth, poor bone structure, accelerated aging, sanpaku eyes, poor muscle tone, along with nerve damage and emotional instability that lead to a violent nature. She was 25... the descent into hell is that subtle, not a dramatic fiery one.
This person was only able to think about sex and the end of everything she did was to obtain sensual gratification. She constantly lamented about how she was a traumatized victim of the world she loved so much, but also victimized others in thought as outlined earlier. The vitality draining effects of lust, sex and orgasms is the only occulted information, and you know this is true because you can come across hundreds of thousands of documents about something rare like aliens online, but not more than a few about the negative effects of lust, sex or orgasms which almost everybody engages in daily at least in thought.
She was on the extreme end, but knowing her for that short period of time scared me straight into the arms of God. That experience allowed me to see the effects of lust on everybody though they blame their problems on trauma, disease, aging or lack of medical care all of which lust causes in the first place.
Although I'm lesbian it's impossible for me to be platonically interested in degenerates let alone romantically. I don't care what she identifies as or how compatible we are, she becomes a man when she tells me how disgusting her mind is.
The Divine Romance of adoring God is the highest quality relationship anybody could have and it's the only one I want.
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Eucatastrophe
Eucatastrophe has to be something that not only overcomes the story-problem, but also something that overcomes the world; the real world. The reason why this has to be that way is the definition provided by Tolkien how the Eucatastrophe unfolding in the story actually is a light breaking in from outside, from reality, but this light has the power to not only rock the world of the story, but it is also a light that overcomes the life-problem, in reality.
Meaning, that which overcomes the story-problem also overcomes the world. This means that which overcomes the story-problem is based on Christian Truth. To further extrapolate this onto structure: The story-problem has to be a problem that is inherent to the world, (think fallen nature, fallen man and the consequences) and its solution has to be inherently Christian (not from this world).
Just like Christ was hated by, but overcame the world. It is this glorious victory, against all odds, accomplishing the impossible, that defines an Eucatastrophe. Sometimes this 'impossible' can be an act of forgiveness, a change of heart, mercy, recognition and acceptance, courage instead of apathetic defeatism, friendship where hatred dwelled, or heroic self-sacrifice where cowardly egotism reigned.
If we know the character of both, Effect/Solution (the Eucatastrophe) and Cause/Problem (the Story-Problem) we can infer, derive, and abduct (reverse) in order to arrive at a functional pair of problem and solution, in line with Tolkien's description of Eucatastrophe.
Someone lying, someone stealing, someone aiming to kill someone out of jealousy, blind hatred based on hurt pride; that's the fallen world. And the solution has to be something not from this world, but it overcomes this world, even though, according to the logic of this world, it shouldn't be able to do that; that's Eucatastrophe. That's the Light of Christ breaking not only into the world of the story, but by doing so also reminding us of its world-overcoming power in the real world, outside the story. This gives the moment of Eucatastrophe not only a brilliant dramatic force, but the uttermost relevance for reality.
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𓆩 ღ 𓆪 𝐂𝐎𝐃𝐀
( i think of all that might have been / waiting here, for evermore. )
chara : belial
fandom : granblue fantasy
quote cr : dan stevens
a/n : ty for the comm :^)
ACT ONE : IT IS A MYTH THAT ANGELS ARE BORN FROM PURITIES AND VIRTUES, AND IN THE TRUEST FORM OF A HIGHER BEING, AN ANGEL IS A BEAST, A BURDEN, A BRUTALITY : FRIGHTENING, MONSTROUS, AND IN DESPERATE DESIRE FOR A DAMNATION THEY WILL CALL LOVE.
belial is a curse in existence, created with intention but a failure in execution. how very fitting for him, a fallen angel that consumes every ounce of hatred and twists it into something so hideously and falsely beautiful. how his wings have darkened so, white muddled and stained with black. but that is not his true form, not the core of his existence, and should you ever ask to see it, he will laugh, and it will break your heart over and over again, just as much as it breaks his.
he is a feign divinity made of hypocrisy and deceptions ; in the knowing of you, he realizes that the ugly truth is that you are entirely the opposite of him – you are what an angel should be, yet you are human, and that is the vast difference that will tear you apart in the end.
“asking to see my truest self, are you?” his voice is low, taunting, yet there is a familiar affection laced beneath it. “haven’t you seen just enough of me?”
he’s always been one to hide his feelings, always been one to put on a facade, throwing another into confusion and chaos in order to carry out his true intentions. but you’ve never fallen for his tricks– not you, never you, he’s noticed, and you are far more stubborn and resilient than he expected. he simply smiles a teasing smile, but you almost wonder if you sense a melancholy resting on the curve of his lips.
“please,” you whisper, and surely it is the way you plead that sends a shiver down his spine, but he will lie, tell himself it’s the frigid air, “i want to see all of you.”
“oh, but don’t you understand why angels warn humans to not be afraid?” he asks, amusement clear in his voice. “what makes you think a fallen angel is any less frightening?”
your hand cups his cheek, tender, and he almost instinctively leans into your touch.
“i won’t be afraid, belial.”
he hums, content, takes your hand and presses a kiss against your wrist. your pulse quickens, and he cannot help but smile at the realization.
foolish being, he thinks, but at the end of it all, he does not know who he refers to.
( it is a very cruel thing, this version of love he is falling into : the innocence of need, the slow decay of fantasy in this swan song between beauty and beast. )
ACT TWO : IT IS A MYTH THAT BEAUTY IS BORN FROM VANITY AND EGOTISMS, AND IN THE TRUEST FORM OF SELF, THE BEAUTY IS THE HEART, A KINDNESS, A BENEVOLENCE : SELFLESS, MERCIFUL, AND IN DESPERATE DESIRE FOR A DELICACY THEY WILL CALL LOVE.
but love is a CURSE, and it is not something that belongs in the bloodied hands of the fiend. it is something he has sought after since the beginning of genesis, and in the failed creation’s mind, love has always been a distortion : maddening, mindless, but befitting for a beast. it was all he knew, all he felt, all he thought he deserved. but what he shares with you – it is so vastly different in its purest form : an acceptance, a relentless longing, the knowing that it will end in remorse and resignation, and the knowing that goodbye will be the right choice at the end of the line.
to have something this kind, to know it in the most cherished of ways – it is slipping through his fingers, slowly slowly slowly, and he knows it, yet he does not try to save it. it is not meant for the saving, this connection between souls, because the beast is a curse, woven with thorns, and the beauty is a blessing, a rose meant to bloom, not wither.
yes, belial thinks, you are his blessing. he almost laughs at the sentiment, bittersweet, decayed. it is only then that he, an angel with a venomous tongue, is allowed to speak such a virtuous word. maybe it is because of the way you sleep soundly in his arms, trusting enough to fall into a deep slumber in the presence of the devil in disguise, or maybe it is because of the rare peace that he hardly subjects himself to– how it sinks into the crevices of a broken being, restores them with gold, granting silent and temporary permission to something never meant to be.
maybe it is because of the warmth that settles in the little distance between your bodies, the feeling of your heartbeat a fascination due to the absence of his. belial has a still heart, frozen in experimentation gone wrong, yet there is something else that flourishes inside his chest, and it is so beautiful and terrifying all the same.
it is very much love that is a mass of contradictions, and he feels it in the way you place your heart in his hands, the aching of his claws itching for release. you know of this, you do, but you know he would never destroy what remains of your humanity.
you are meant for something good, something better. he is everything you should not have, and you are everything he wants to have.
you are not meant to be. he knows this, and so he decides this fairytale must come to an end, just as all stories do. it will not have a happy ending, but none of them do, do they? he smiles, a quiet, foreign sorrow somewhere in the depths of defeat.
he moves swiftly, carefully, as to not wake you. he watches your sleeping figure, feels this strange sharpness in his heart. he is not used to this kind of pain; there is no joy or thrill to be found in it, only a lingering grief he cannot understand. he tears his gaze away, turns to leave.
it is time for the curtain call.
“you’re leaving, aren’t you?”
he should have known you were pretending.
he doesn’t move, doesn’t turn around. you don’t expect him to, and maybe it’s better that way. your voice is heavy with exhaustion, but not surprise, and maybe you both have known that this is how it would end. he doesn’t speak, but you can almost imagine that idiotic, coy smile he puts on for show.
instead, he smiles a sad smile.
“better this way, hm?” he hardly looks over his shoulder, but he can feel your gaze nonetheless. “it was fun while it lasted.”
he is going to leave you, let you go, knowing you will seek happiness elsewhere. he has always been so sickeningly selfish, but for you, he will not be.
you will not convince him to stay, not now. but this is your story, too. you will control how it ends.
perhaps in another life, he muses, should there be one after this, you will coexist in a world where you are meant to be happy together. but not in this life. not in this world.
he leaves, and somewhere, a rose petal falls, slowly slowly slowly.
( yes, this fairy tale ends in remorse and resignation.
yes, an angel reminds himself, goodbye is the right choice. )
ACT THREE : IT IS A MYTH THAT BEASTS ARE BORN FROM EVILS AND DEPRAVITIES, AND IN THE TRUEST FORM OF AN AVATAR, A BEAST IS A VULNERABILITY, A LONELINESS, AN ACHING : LOVELORN, HYPOCRITICAL, AND IN DESPERATE DESIRE FOR A DOOM THEY WILL CALL LOVE.
you occupy his thoughts more than you should, and even though you are apart, he still watches over you. from the skies, he ensures your safety, a bittersweet relief washing over him when he sees that you are healing from the hurt. he wonders if he is healing, too. he wonders if he made the right decision.
it is safer, better this way. a fallen angel has no place in the heart of a human. it doesn’t matter what he desires, what he wants.
he smiles, wonders what it would still be like, having you at his side. he does not dare admit he misses you– there’s no need to solidify the pain, acknowledge its unwanted presence.
love is a very cruel and tragic being, isn’t it?
something inside slowly unravels– it is not wrath that unleashes his true form, but perhaps it is a silent cry of mourning, this shift in appearance : the presence of thorns, so violently red, the markings that adorn his body, the black sclera. there is no need for it, but he does not choose to suppress it. he hums in forced amusement, closes his eyes. he wonders if you truly would have been fearless of him in this state. what a shame it is that he will never know.
time passes. he feels something strange in his chest– an unknown sensation, a jolt, and he wonders if that is the sensation of a beating heart. he opens his eyes to the familiar blue skies.
“you’re persistent. you’ve found me, after all.”
you stand behind him, and he can practically feel your sorrow, your frustration, that slight anger. when he turns around, he sees it all. from the moment he left, you knew you would find him, but the path to reunion has not been an easy one. you freeze, and he forces a grin.
“how is it? my truest form? does it frighten you?”
you don’t speak for a long while. it doesn’t, no. not at all. you have always found belial beautiful, and you still do. but there’s this dying grief that overwhelms you, the same grief you have carried in all the time you have been separated. it tastes bitter on your tongue, renders you speechless.
you’ve been waiting for this moment, and now that it’s here, you just–
you swallow hard. love is not meant to be cruel, nor tragic. one step forward, then another. his expression is unreadable, carefully crafted. it’s no longer that mischievous facade nor is it dejection. you’ve always been one to see through his games though, and somewhere in the deep red, there’s this excruciating loneliness that you also feel.
“you couldn’t love someone like me, right?” he laughs. “a fallen angel with the appearance of a demon.”
but you don’t falter. you don’t buy it.
“enough, belial.” your voice wavers, the words heavy on your tongue. how they almost threaten to choke you, and you wonder what will take you first : the tides of longing or the courage that dies in words unspoken. “why do you think i’ve spent all this time searching for you?”
your fingers trace over his markings, the ghost of your touch leaving a burning sensation in their wake. you’re trembling, he notices, and he feels it in the way you cup his face in your hands, gentle. you look at him, and he almost wonders if he is imagining the reverence and ardor in your gaze.
“you left because you thought it was better that way, right? because you thought i could find someone better, someone worthy.” you murmur, and now it is his hands that shake this time. “because you think you’re not worthy of anything good, because everything you know is painful, so you think you’re better off subjecting yourself to the pain because it’s all you know.” and there is this quiet smile that blossoms on your lips, and it grows the slightest bit when you see that quiet uncertainty in crimson hues. “you can love, belial. you can be loved.”
your thumb grazes over the markings once more, and he feels that frightening sensation in his heart again– a dull thud, slow– but then it picks up in its pacing, beats and beats and beats, and surely you must hear it too, the way it pounds so violently.
“there’s no one better, belial. it’s you that i want. it’s always been you.”
you take his hand, press a kiss against the inside of his wrist, and he almost laughs at the familiarity of it all. you’ve always had him wrapped around your finger.
“you’ve always been a stubborn one, haven’t you?” his lips meet yours, and he feels the way you smile into the kiss. “be careful you don’t regret this.”
you laugh, squeeze his hand.
“i won’t, belial.”
( yes, this fairy tale beloved ends with reunion and revelations.
yes, belial reminds himself, your fingers laced with his, you are his blessing, his happy ending. )
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Hmm okay love Mike and all but we do not talk enough ab the parallels between Walter betraying Jesse and him betraying Nacho… or ab what an incredibly dick move that was… like Mike was actually the og blueprint for projecting all of your shit onto someone younger than you who trusts you and then betraying the absolute fuck out of them bc you can’t let things not be ab you… not to mention how Waltercore his delusions ab his culpability are like when he said to Manuel “there will be justice” my jaw was on the floor like yes there will be bc you die!! You who set him up and beat the shit out of him and condemned another man, a better man, to lose his child knowing better than anyone how that would tear his world apart you and the Salamancas and Gus, yes, you, you have to die for any measure of justice to be served… in sentencing himself to watch Matty die over and over to be complicit in Matty’s death Mike exhibits the same degree of selfishness as Walter, because his self-hatred takes priority over anyone else’s wellbeing it’s just another form of utter selfishness just an equally harmful inversion of Walter’s egotism… he uses people like Walter does, not to prop himself up but to remind himself and remind himself that he isn’t the good man Matty thought he was, and he reminds himself by killing and betraying and half measures and never trying to change that and to hell with anyone caught in the crossfire
#i love mike i do but he’s a selfish motherfucker!!#like he’s a much more tolerable character than walter and definitely not as psychopathic#but nearly as selfish#it’s what makes his character so interesting imo#breaking bad meta#brba#mike ehrmantraut#nacho varga#jesse pinkman#anti walter white#walter white hate blog
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Only by taking into serious consideration the biblical and Greek patristic concept of the original destiny or theosis of man can we gain a deeper understanding of how badly the West's theologians have misunderstood Eastern theology's focus on man's redemption from death and corruptibility.
Having eudaemonistic conceptions of human destiny and believing death to be from God, the West is unable to grasp the moral significance of the patristic doctrine of salvation from death.
This is to be expected, however, since the West's theologians view man's inclination to self-satisfaction as natural.
And since death is the underpinning of that inclination, they do not understand how death could be a moral obstruction to man's living in accordance with the Western notion of his original destiny, that is, selfish eudaemonia.
When we take into account the fact that man was created to become perfect in freedom and love as God is perfect, that is, to love God and his neighbor in the same unselfish way that God loves the world, it becomes apparent that the death of the soul, that is, the loss of divine grace, and the corruption of the body have rendered such a life of perfection impossible.
In the first place, the deprivation of divine grace impairs the mental powers of the newborn infant; thus, the mind of man has a tendency toward evil from the beginning.
This tendency grows strong when the ruling force of corruption becomes perceptible in the body.
Through the power of death and the devil, sin that reigns in man gives rise to fear and anxiety and to the general instinct of self-preservation or survival.
Thus, Satan manipulates man's fear and his desire for self-satisfaction, raising up sin in him, in other words, transgression against the divine will regarding unselfish love, and provoking man to stray from his original destiny.
Because of death, man must first attend to the necessities of life in order to stay alive.
In this struggle, self-interests are unavoidable.
Thus, man is unable to live in accordance with his original destiny of unselfish love.
This state of subjection under the reign of death is the root of man's weaknesses in which he becomes entangled in sin at the urging of the demons and by his own consent.
Resting in the hands of the devil, the power of the fear of death is the root from which self-aggrandizement, egotism, hatred, envy, and other similar passions spring up.
In addition to the fact that man "subjects himself to anything in order to avoid dying," he constantly fears that his life is without meaning.
Thus, he is strives to demonstrate to himself and to others that it has worth.
He loves flatterers and hates his detractors.
He seeks his own and envies the success of others.
He loves those who love him and hates those who hate him.
He seeks security and happiness in wealth, glory, bodily pleasures, and he may even imagine that his destiny is a self-seeking eudaemonistic and passionless enjoyment of the presence of God regardless of whether or not he has true, active, unselfish love for others.
Fear and anxiety render man an individualist.
And when he identifies himself with a communal or social ideology it, too, is out of individualistic, self-seeking motives because he perceives his self-satisfaction and eudaemonia as his destiny.
Indeed, it is possible for him to be moved by ideological principles of vague love for mankind despite the fact that mortal hatred for his neighbor nests in his heart.
These are the works of the "flesh" under the sway of death and Satan.
Ancestral Sin
John Romanides
#romanides#theory#theology#philosophy#christianity#orthodoxy#the west#psychoanalysis#eudaemonia#liberalism#enlightenment
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Right on! I honestly do not understand why people say things like "We gotta humanize eggy by making him less evil" . Eggy is already a very human character. Selfishness and greed have been human traits ever since caveman Grog bashed his neighbour Tharg's head in with a rock and stole his wife, meat and fur.
Eggy is a great example of what happens when a human just lets their selfishness, greed and ego run wild.
Exactly, being evil is very human. The dark parts of humanity and the human mind has always fascinated me both in real life and fiction, morbid curiosity and my passion for writing characters believing in and doing things that I never would, and the challenge that comes with seeing from different perspectives that improves my skills as a writer, are all things I hold dear. It has inspired years of learning, analysis, creativity, and writing for me.
I don't want to pretend we live in a world where everyone is secretly good. There is abhorrent evil in this world and it can and should be fictionalized just as much as the good that equally exists. I also don't want to pretend that the human mind's, beliefs, feelings, and desires are always pure and well intentioned deep down in every person. The mind can be a dark place in many ways too. My mind is and I don't want to hide that in shame.
Just because my mind is one way doesn't mean my actions reflect it, just like how some people's actions won't reflect their mind either. That's also interesting to me to explore through learning about it and fictionalizing it. I like to see what dark minds like mine can create too and it's just as valuable. I wish people like us weren't shamed and told that we can't create and share our passion and our work just because it doesn't have conventional goodness.
There are many inherent human traits and feelings people in fandom (or holier than thou people in general) like to pretend don't exist, like they're above it and say it shouldn't be explored in fiction. But they're in denial that they're things we can all feel. Goodness, love, kindness, anger, envy, confidence, desire, self love, empathy, etc, exists in humans but so does evil, hatred, cruelty, anger, malice, jealousy, arrogance, greed, selfishness, apathy, etc.
Love can become dark and selfish or be replaced by hate. Kindness can be replaced with cruelty. Anger can become malice. Envy can become jealousy, confidence can become arrogance, desire can become greed, self love can become egotism, multiple of these things and more can have selfishness in them too. We're all capable of feeling these things even if we don't, and they can't seem to accept that and deny it, especially regarding characters.
It's common for people to deny these things are human, it's why they say those who do horrible evil are "inhuman/monsters/animalistic/etc". They don't want to believe and accept that they're human like us. That we could be like them. Humans can be vile and wretched and deeply evil just like they can be good. You can be one or the other or both. Many times they can overlap but at the same time, I don't agree that nobody can ever be truly fully evil.
You can absolutely still be a truly terrible person if you do "good" things and you can do "bad" things while still being a truly good person. Good intentions can show in bad ways when they become harmful and toxic and bad ones can appear good in manipulation or delusion. Acknowledging THAT is what nuance is, not pretending we're all exactly the same and must all have certain assets apply to us or were incomplete, unrealistic, or boring.
Humans can be so many different things in so many different ways but those can be very good or very evil. It's possible for only the good or bad things to apply, or a mix of both. That's why I like putting characters into good, neutral, and evil. The real world isn't only good and neutral and fiction shouldn't be either. Embracing and exploring the evil too is the true excitement and challenge of writing. You need this skill, that's what it takes to be a good writer.
I like how Eggman reflects the true evil in humanity that very much does exist. It's not unrealistic, it's just his out of this world crazy methods that are. But I wish people didn't forget his evil, anger, malice, cruelty, sadism, rudeness, apathy, ruthlessness, egotism, selfishness, greed, dark desires, destructive tendencies and crimes are all very human. We're all capable of that. We do feel at least some of those because it's so human.
That powerful message has existed in Eggman from the very beginning. He's not representing all humans being bad, but the very real evil and dark part of humanity that exists and shouldn't be denied or sugarcoated. Pretending that what he's doing is actually good/has to have originally good intentions behind it/have him change into a better person to "fix" him or give him nuance, takes away from that message and removes what makes it interesting and clever.
Eggman being evil, egotistical, and egotistical is what leads to his evil acts, cruelty, desire for power and control and the awful things he'll do to get it while enjoying it. That's the causation and we're told over and over by the writers, the bios, the character and stories themselves. They do not imply that it comes from a good place in the games and this isn't bad or unrealistic and certainly not "boring". It's intriguing and has tons of potential.
Humanizing Eggman is acknowledging and accepting that he's all these things while still being human, dehumanizing him is denying he is these things or saying he's inhuman for it. I'm actually humanizing him, those who act like humans must all tick the exact same boxes are dehumanizing him. It should also serve as a reminder that we could all be like him, we're all capable of that darkness and evil if we have the will and decide to act.
And I always enjoy exploring and writing characters who do, especially when seeing how far they can go because it's just fascinating. It's also fun to take on the challenge to write a character with such a different perspective and experiences than my own and it helps improve writing and characterization skills without personal feelings or bias influencing how you write that character and straying away from accuracy. That's very important in good writing.
Eggman has very human traits and feelings, they just exist in very evil ways in him, which is just as realistic and should be represented and explored too. It's also absolutely possible to develop and humanize him even more without going purification/bettering/redemption/downplaying of his actions or putting sympathetic sad reasons or good intentions behind what he does. It can be done without losing what makes him unique and himself.
Sega/Sonic Team/official writers seem to know what they're doing with Eggman in the games even in Frontiers, by him still very much not being a better/less evil person or suddenly morally gray, he's a bad person and even the "good" things are rooted in selfishness and ego. It's just that some don't understand because they think there's only one way to humanize bad guys further and deny they're human in the first place just for being evil at all.
Everything isn't just good and evil but it is still absolutely possible to just be good or evil as much as both or somewhere in between. I don't want to pretend it isn't. The approach they've had to Eggman's further humanization, though he was already very human in the first place, is good because it's more interesting and nuanced than the majority of fandom is making it out to be. I'm looking forward to them making that especially clear in the future.
And I mean in main game stuff specifically, as they've actually already been doing it in all official media since Frontiers in IDW, Murder of Sonic, even Minecraft and it's great. He's still very much evil and not a better person and I'm so happy about that. But I can't wait until it's in a main game again so misconceptions about Eggman's portrayal in Frontiers that go against the writers stated intentions will be cleared up even more blatantly.
And of course as usual I'm also just really excited to see what kind of glorious diabolical evil the handsome devil gets up to next! 🥰💜💘
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If you have not accepted Jesus Christ into your life and would like to do so, please read this salvation prayer. Before your life can truly change it is important that you freely accept him as your lord and Savior.
Salvation Prayer
Dear Lord,
I admit that I am a sinner and have done many things that do not please you. I admit that I have lived my life only for myself and I am sorry. Please forgive me. I believe that you died on the cross for me to save me and that you rose on the third day. You did what I could not do for myself. I come to you now and ask you to take complete control over my life. Every area of my life that is not pleasing to your name please change and correct. From this day forward help me to live everyday for you, and in a way that pleases you. I love you Lord and I thank you that I will spend eternity with you. Lastly I would like to ask you to send your Holy Spirit to live and reside in me and to help me along the way.
In Jesus Name.
Remember you should be repenting daily. All repenting means is to change your mind and turn, so If you find yourself acting in sin get in the habit of repenting
Self Deliverance Prayer- Excerpt from the book Armed and Dangerous by ex Satanist John Ramirez. Note you should have paper towels, or a garbage can near by. Some spirits leave the body by burping, vomiting or spitting up
As you pray this prayer you will be canceling the LEGAL rights that the enemy has against you, and all the satanic agreements that you’ve made whether consciously or unconsciously
When you sense demonic activity in your life, refer back to this prayer (this has helped me so much)
Self Deliverance Prayer
1. I renounce all agreements that I have made with Satan and his demons, in the name of Jesus
2. I renounce and reject any satantic offerings that I have ever made, in the name of Jesus
3. I renounce lust, perversion, pornography, immorality, and every unclean spirit that I have made a pact with in the name of Jesus
4. I renounce and rebuke all witchcraft, occult practices, divination, and sorcery that I have ever made in Jesus name
5. I break all ungodly soul ties in any relationship in my life in the name of Jesus
6. I renounce and uproot out of my heart hatred, anger, resentment, lack of forgiveness, bitterness and envy. Release me now in Jesus name
7. I renounce and uproot from my life every addiction, every demonic pharmakeia spirit that has me bound [this pertains to the abuse of prescription drugs or illegal drugs such as marijuana, heroice, cocaine, meth, etc Name the drug that has you bound and break it in the name of Jesus.] I destroy these attacks in the name of Jesus
8. I renounce from my life today jealousy, pride, self righteousness and egotism. Cme out of me now, in the name of Jesus
9. I renounce fear, doubt and unbelief and every tormenting spirit. Come out of me now, in the name of Jesus
10. I renounce all ungodly generational covenants that my family members on my father’s side, my mother’s side and my ancestors going back ten generations have made. Let them be broken in Jesus’ name
11. I renounce any allegiances to the kingdom of darkness and Satan in Jesus name.
12. I renounce and uproot every demonic word that I have spoken and given the devil legal rights over my life. Be broken, in Jesus name
13. I renounce any spirit husband or spirit wife or any demonic spiritual divorce papers that have come into my life in my dreams. Destroy them all in Jesus name
14. I uproot out of my life all sickness, depression, and oppression trying to operate in my life. Be destroyed, in the name of Jesus
15. I curse at the root, every fals word of prophecy spoken over my life, my family, my marriage, my children, and my ministry and business in Jesus name
16. I destroy all demonic activity and every demonic thought that has been opened in my life. I shut them down in the name of Jesus Christ
17. I break off of me, in Jesus name, any residue of any demonic kind
18. I break off any backlash, any retaliation, and transfer of spirits that is trying to come against my family, my loved ones, and my finances, in the name of Jesus
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Soul Traits vs Monster Souls
TW: Suicide mentioned. It's not in detail, and rather brief, but I still respect others enough to put this here.
Each Soul Trait have their own traits, and it would make sense that only Humans have them. So, why don't we go down and show the uniqueness of each soul, hm? Id love your own interpretations on these as well and why. Whoo, let's go!
Top Three Rarest Souls-
Determination: The most rare of souls, this soul is associated with a bright candy red color. They are far more ready to keep going, judged by how much you want something and the lengths you are willing to go to in order to make it happen. It is shown that this soul has been not only the rarest, but has evidence of doing things other souls have not. Not much is known about this soul, but has an issue with overflowing and becoming corrupt.
Excessiveness of this soul leads to Tenacity, being unwilling to give up and leading to their downfall
Corruption leads to Spite, pushing themselves over the limit and only growing bitter
Resistance against the soul's desire would lead to Irresolution
This soul trait is less likely to Fall Down but more likely to be Corrupt
Kindness: The second most rare of souls, this soul is associated with a bright lime green color. A scarcity in this realm, their soul is associated with helping others and extending empathy to others. Though often seen as a weak trait due to being easily discoloring, keeping this soul bright is challenging to many, but it ends up being rare to see it corrupted
Too much Kindness leads to Complicity, having a high risk of dying easier due to self sacrifice.
Going against the soul's desire would lead to Apathy, a lack of compassion
Corruption leads to Animosity, strong hostility to the point of hatred
This soul is more prone to Falling Down and Resistance, but is the less likely to be Corrupt and being in Excess
Integrity: The third most rare of souls, this soul is associated with a royal blue color. Given to those who hold strong morals, they strive to hold their promise and are adamant about keeping promises. Due to the world's condition, it is rare for this soul to be found more overflowed than corrupted.
Too much Integrity leads to Righteousness, unable to stop itself from thinking that all it's doing is for the good of others
Corruption leads to Conceit, leading to bias and egotism
Going against the soul's desire would lead to Deceit
This soul is more prone to corruption, Falling Down, and Resistance
This soul rarely has Excessiveness
Most Common Souls-
Bravery: One of the most common, this soul is associated with a pumpkin orange color. Given to those who are confident and courageous, they keep going in the face of danger. They have the courage to keep going in times of hardship and are wonderful to befriend. Though the most common out of any soul, they are surprisingly hard to corrupt, but have a hard time being tamed.
Too much Bravery leads to Impulsivity, not knowing when to back down and often becoming ones own downfall as a result
Corruption leads to Stubbornness, especially if it's directed towards a bad goal and ends up hurting others
Resistance against the soul's desire would lead to Cowardice, too scared to do anything and often running away
It is harder for this soul to Corrupt and to Fall Down
This trait often has Excessiveness
Justice: One of the most common, this soul is associated with a aureolin yellow. Given to those with a strong sense of right and wrong, they are lawful and unwavering people. They cannot stand on the side when there's obviously conflict, and they are the first to step up to help. One of the least likely to overflow but often seen corrupted.
Too much Justice leads to Vengeance, an ambitious and powerful force
Corruption leads to Iniquity
Going against the soul's desire would lead to Injustice
This soul is more prone to Corruption
This soul hardly experiences overflow
This soul has lower rates of Falling Down
Patience: One of the most common, this soul is associated with a cyan blue. Given to those who can wait things out, knowing what's good for them in a quiet manner. Though more common than other souls, it's still hardly spotted nowadays. This is due to scientists classifying as such because having a healthy soul for this trait is uncommon.
Too much Patience leads to Stagnation, an idle soul
Corruption leads to Agitation, easily losing your calm and rationality
Going against the soul's desire would lead to Restlessness, unable to wait and becoming too quick to get results
This soul tends to Fall Down often
This soul is less prone to Corruption
This soul often has Resistance to its vessels
Perseverance: One of the most common, this soul is associated with a grape purple. Given to those who are persistent against all odds, they learn to overcome their challenges. The most likely Determination, they have a tendency to overflow vs having a lack of the trait.
Too much Perseverance leads to Inflexibility, adamant about not changing or compromising
Corruption leads to Blind Persistence, leading to their own self destruction
Going against the soul's desire would lead to Apathy, not caring enough to continue
This soul is less prone to Corruption
This soul is less likely to Fall Down
This soul often overflows in Excess
This soul often deals with Resistance with itself
Other: This is not quite a soul trait rather an ending result. Grey souls and Hatred are their own unique and special situations that need analyzing.
Grey Souls: This is what happens when someone completely loses their soul trait. It's hard to get it to fully turn grey, but there have been no reported incidents of what happens when fully grey. It is determined that a Human can't properly handle a soul where 25% or less of their Soul Trait is present, and usually there happens to be cases of suicide as a result. It's very challenging to change the soul to be back to a healthy percentage, but it's possible
Hate: When a soul becomes corrupted, it starts to crack and wither into a dark shade of black, becoming more and more as the underneath of the original color of the soul ends up turning here. There is little to no way of stopping this once it reaches dangerous levels, and because of it? It completely alters the Human, changing them until they are entirely consumed. No human has reached this point within recent times, but during the War between Monsters and Humans there were written scripts of Mages turning because of Corruption. But those scripts have been lost over time, so there's no real knowledge of what happens when it reaches over 80% of the Human's soul...
Now monster souls do not have soul traits. In fact, it would be impossible since they are made entirely of magic or (LOVE = LV) and do not have a body separate from their soul. However, their magic has their own unique colors and depending on the AU that simply has to do with their environment, stress, etc. Purple, red, orange, and yellow have the most stress. Blue, green, and white have the least. Of course, it can change, but if the soul is under too much stress, it can alter the color of ones magic permanently.
Monster Souls
Closing Notes:
I tried my best to get everything here, hopefully I will not need to edit and change this. I hope that this fully explains my interpretation of Souls for later posts including them :)
Thank you
#undertale au#undertale#headcanon#souls#determination#kindness#integrity#justice#bravery#patience#perseverance#gay#im just mentally ill#uber autism
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Flowers with negative connotations
Abecedary: Volatility.
Abatina: Fickleness
Achillea Millefolia: War.
Aconite (Wolfsbane): Misanthropy
Adonis, Flos: Painful recollections.
African Marigold: Vulgar minds.
Agnus Castus: Coldness. Indifference
Almond (Common) : Stupidity. Indiscretion
Almond, Laurel: Perfidy
Aloe: Grief. Religious superstition
Anemone (Zephyr Flower): Sickness. Expectation.
Anemone (Garden): Forsaken
Apple, Thorn: Deceitful charms.
Apocynum (Dog’s Vane): Deceit
Ash-leaved Trumpet Flower: Separation
Aspen Tree: Lamentation
Asphodel: My regrets follow you to the grave
Auricula, Scarlet: Avarice
Balsam, Red: Touch me not. Impatient resolves.
Balsam, Yellow: Impatience.
Barberry: Sourness of temper.
Barberry Tree: Sharpness.
Basil: Hatred.
Bay Leaf: I change but in death.
Bay (Rose) Rhododendron: Danger. Beware
Bee Ophrys: Error.
Belladonna: Silence
Belvedere: I declare against you.
Betony: Surprise
Bilberry: Treachery
Birch: Meekness.
Birdsfoot Trefoil: Revenge
Valerian: Rupture
Borage: Bluntness.
Box Tree: Stoicism.
Bramble: Lowliness. Envy
Burdock: Importunity. Touch me not.
Buttercup (Kingcup):Ingratitude. Childishness
Butterfly Weed: Let me go
Cardamine: Paternal error
Carnation, Deep Red: Alas! for my poor heart.
Carnation, Striped: Refusal.
Carnation, Yellow: Disdain
Cardinal Flower: Dittitutim.
Catchfly: Snare
Catchfly, White: Betrayed
Champignon: Suspicion.
Chequered Fritillary: Persecution
Cherry Tree, White: Deception
China or Indian Pink: Aversion
Cistus, Gum: I shall die to-morrow.
Citron: Ill-natured beauty
Clematis, Evergreen: Poverty.
Clotbur: Rudeness. Pertinacity
Colchicum, or Meadow Saffron: My best days are past.
Coltsfoot: Justice shall be done.
Columbine: Folly
Columbine, Red: Anxious and trembling
Convolvulus, Major: Extinguished hopes
Corn, Broken: Quarrel
Creeping Cereus: Horror
Crowsbill: Envy.
Crowfoot: Ingratitude
Currant: Thy frown will kill me.
Cuscuta: Meanness.
Cyclamen: Diffidence. (Modesty/shyness resulting from a lack of self confidence)
Cypress: Death. Mourning
Darnel (Ray grass): Vice
Dead Leaves: Sadness
Dogsbane: Deceit. Falsehood
Ebony Tree: Blackness.
Eglantine (Sweetbrier): Poetry. I wound to heal
Enchanter’s Nightshade: Witchcraft. Sorcery
Fly Orchis: Error
Flytrap: Deceit
Foxglove: Insincerity
French Marigold: Jealousy
Frog Ophrys: Disgust
Garden Anemone: Forsaken
Garden Marigold: Uneasiness
Geranium, Scarlet: Contorting. Stupidity
Hand Flower Tree: Warning.
Harebell: Submission. Grief
Heath: Solitude.
Helenium: Tears
Hellebore: Scandal. Calumny
Hemlock: You will be my death
Henbane: Imperfection
Hop: Injustice
Humble Plant: Despondency
Indian Plum: Privation
Jasmine, Carolina: Separation
Judas Tree: Unbelief. Betrayal
Laburnum: Forsaken. Pensive Beauty
Larch: Audacity. Boldness
Larkspur, Pink: Fickleness.
Larkspur, Purple: Haughtiness
Laurestina: A token. I die if neglected.
Lavender: Distrust.
Leaves (dead): Melancholy
Licorice, Wild: I declare against you.
Lobelia: Malevolence
Love lies Bleeding: Hopeless, not heartless
Madder: Calumny
Manchineal Tree: Falsehood.
Mandrake: Horror.
Maple: Reserve.
Marigold: Grief.
Marigold, African: Vulgar minds.
Marigold, French: Jealousy.
Marigold, Prophetic: Prediction.
Marigold and Cypress: Despair
Meadowsweet: Uselessness
Mesembryanthemum: Idleness.
Mezereon: Desire to please.
Michaelmas Daisy: Afterthought
Mock Orange: Counterfeit
Moschatel: Weakness
Mosses: Ennui
Mourning Bride: Unfortunate attachment. I have lost all
Moving Plant: Agitation
Mulberry Tree (Black): I shall not survive you
Mushroom: Suspicion.
Musk Plant: Weakness.
Mustard Seed: Indifference
Narcissus: Egotism
Nettle, Burning: Slander
Oleander: Beware
Pasque Flower: You have no claims.
Passion Flower: Religious superstition
Pea, Sweet: Departure
Peach Blossom : I am your captive
Pennyroyal: Flee away.
Peony: Shame. Bashfulness
Persimon: Bury me amid Nature’s beauties
Pine: Pity
Pink, Variegated: Refusal
Pomegranate: Foolishness
Poppy, White: Sleep. My bane. My antidote
Prickly Pear: Satire.
Pride of China: Dissension
Ranunculus, Wild: Ingratitude.
Raspberry: Remorse.
Ray Grass: Vice
Rhododendron (Rosebay): Danger. Beware
Rose, Carolina: Love is dangerous
Rose, Deep Red: Bashful shame.
Rose, Dog: Pleasure and pain
Rose, Unique: Call me not beautiful
Rose, Yellow: Decrease of love. Jealously.
Rose, York and Lancaster: War.
Rose, Full-blown, placed over two Buds: Secrecy
Rue: Disdain
Saffron: Beware of excess
Saffron, Meadow: My happiest days are past
Sainfoin: Agitation.
Saint John’s Wort: Animosity. Superstition.
Sardony: Irony
Scabious: Unfortunate love.
Scabious, Sweet: Widowhood
Snapdragon: Presumption.
Snowball: Bound
Sorrel, Wild: Wit ill-timed
Straw, Broken: Rupture of a contract
Sweetbrier, European: I wound to heal.
Sweetbrier, Yellow: Decrease of love
Syringa, Carolina: Disappointment
Tamarisk: Crime.
Tansy (Wild): I declare war against you.
Teasel: Misanthropy
Thistle, Fuller’s: Misanthropy
Thistle, Scotch: Retaliation.
Thorn Apple: Deceitful charms
Throatwort: Neglected beauty
Trefoil: Revenge
Tuberose: Dangerous pleasures
Tulip, Yellow: Hopeless love
Tussilage (Sweet-scented): Justice shall be done you
Whin: Anger
White Rose (dried): Death preferable to loss of innocence.
Whortleberry: Treason.
Willow, Creeping Love forsaken
Willow, Weeping: Mourning
Yew: Sorrow
Zinnia: Thoughts of absent friends
Aconite: Beware
Barberry: Bad temper
Carnation (Striped): No, Refusal, Sorry I can't be with you
Carnation (Yellow): Disappointment, Rejection
Cyclamen: Resignation, Good-bye
Daffodil: Regard, Unrequited love, Respect
Everlasting: Never ceasing memory
Geranium: Stupidity, Foll
Golden-Rod: Be cautious
Hyacinth (Purple): Sorrow, Please forgive me
Hyacinth (Yellow): Jealousy
Hydrangea: Thank you for understanding, Boastfulness, Heartlessnes
Marigold: Grief, Despair, Jealousy
Marigold (Common): Pretty love, Sacred, Affection, Caress, Sorrow
Monkshood: Beware, A deadly foe is near
Petunia: Resentment, Anger, Your presence soothes me
Phlox: Our souls are united
Poppy (General): Eternal sleep, Oblivion, Imagination
Rhododendron: Danger, Beware, I am dangerous
Roses (Assorted Colours): You're everything to me
Roses (Single Full Bloom): I Love You, I still love you
Sweet William: Grant me one smile
Black dahlia: Evil, dishonesty, betrayal, doom
Butterfly weed: Leave me, You’ve been warned
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(Yeah some of these aren’t flowers. What of it?A few of them aren’t so negative- I thought about Jesse’s train of thought/outburst when picking them.)
(If you see any repeats No You Don’t.)
*buried under several flowers and at least one tree*
But ooh. ooh. ooooooooooooh these would be soooo much fun to play around with >:3
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Anti-Israel students may want to pause and wonder why it was the First Intifada (1987-1991), devoid of the sadistic and genocidal dimensions of Hamas, that fostered the most courageous rapprochement between Israelis and Palestinians, for which Israeli Prime Minister Yitzhak Rabin paid with his life; why it was Hamas, through its 1995-96 suicide attacks, that crushed the Oslo peace process and brought Benjamin Netanyahu to power; and why their most vocal bedfellows are the autocrats of Iran, Russia and Turkey.
Academia is no guarantee against the closing of the mind to facts and moral doubts. Indeed, in their facile, righteous reading of the Israeli-Palestinian conflict through apartheid and colonialism, far-left students and faculty effectively colonize their own minds.
Academia now faces its own distinct abyss. Rather than using our intellectual tools to understand and help people, we use people as tools for self-conceited campaigns. Rather than caring about people who suffer, we leverage their suffering for our aggrandized sense of righteous heroism. Rather than inspiring people for peace and progress, we sow hatred by boxing them into curated concepts that serve our professional careers. Falling into this self-trap, we not only betray our vocation, but our fellow humans.
It is unfortunate that an academy besotted with postmodernism believes more in the power of slogans and caricatures than in the complex reality of the situation these epithets reference.
The fact is that Hamas is not anticolonial, but irredentist; not progressive but reactionary; not a movement of liberation but one of oppression. So long as academia cannot see the truth through its rhetoric and egotism, it will continue to fail at having any positive effect at ending the conflict.
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Interview with the Vampire Best Religious Quotes (1976)
As someone who just started to read The Vampire Chronicles by Anne Rice, I have to say that just within the first book I was immediately hooked. The amount of religious references in this book is what made me fall in love since I am deeply fascinated by religious subjects and the question of the afterlife. So here is a list of my top favorite religious references and quotes within the first book of the series.
"You don't have to see Satan when he is exorcised. But to stand in the presence of a saint. . . To believe that the saint has seen a vision. No, it's egotism, our refusal to believe it could occur in our midst." -Anne Rice, Interview with the Vampire, Page 13
"I saw my life as if I stood apart from it, the vanity, the self-serving, the constant fleeing from one petty annoyance after another, the lip service to God and the Virgin and a host of saints whose names filled my prayer books, none of whom made the slightest difference in a narrow, materialistic, and selfish existence. I saw my real gods. . . the gods of most men." -Anne Rice, Interview with the Vampire, Page 14
"And he raised his arm, first finger pointing heavenward as if he were an angel about to give the Word of the Lord." -Anne Rice, Interview with the Vampire, Page 26
"'But aren't angels capable of love?' asked the vampire. 'Don't angels gaze upon the face of God with complete love?'" -Anne Rice, Interview with the Vampire, Page 59
"Angels feel love, and pride . . . the pride of The Fall . . . and hatred." -Anne Rice, Interview with the Vampire, Page 59
"'And where would I go, to hell, from whence I came? To the devil, from whom I came?" -Anne Rice, Interview with the Vampire, Page 68
"Because you see, though Lestat had never said anything about devils or hell to me, I believed I was damned when I went over to him, just as Judas must have believed it when he put the noose around his neck." -Anne Rice, Interview with the Vampire, Page 71
"God kills, and so shall we; indiscriminately He takes the richest and the poorest, and so shall we; for no creatures under God are as we are, none so like Him as ourselves, dark angels not confined to the stinking limits of Hell but wandering His earth and all its kingdoms." -Anne Rice, Interview with the Vampire, Page 88
"Hell is hatred, people living together in eternal hatred. We're not in hell." -Anne Rice, Interview with the Vampire, Page 131
"God did not live in this church; these statues gave an image to nothingness. I was the supernatural in this cathedral. I was the only supernatural thing that stood conscious under this roof!" -Anne Rice, Interview with the Vampire, Page 142
"Do you see what I am! Why, if God exists, does He suffer me to exist!" -Anne Rice, Interview with the Vampire, Page 145
"God? Or Satan? It struck me suddenly what consolation it would be to know Satan, to look upon his face, no matter how terrible that countenance was, to know that I belong to him totally, and thus put to rest forever the torment of this ignorance." -Anne Rice, Interview with the Vampire, Page 161
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Ok its been a few hours, ive unfollowed a LOT of people and if i unfollowed you please dont take this as me thinking youre a shitty person, if i havent blocked you, youre fine.
I havent changed my mind on leaving simply because unfollowing so many spn Blogs felt like such a relief, which means i should have done it much sooner.
The reason why this fandom has been so inhospitable and why so many people are leaving is bc so many of you are amplifying and supporting blatant shitstirrers and you refuse to acknowledge it. A little drama and a little spice is fun, but some of you LIVE for callouts, takedowns, vagues, etc. Ive said this before, ive never seen this many suicide baits and hurtful commments thrown around by people who supposedly care about the mental health of others.
All your sanctimonious 'take care of yourselves uwuwu be kind to each other' bs literally means nothing when you expose hundreds of people to harmful and triggering callouts for the sake of what? Fandom safety? Justice? Transparency? Be honest, you know its fucking not, bc i know FOR A FACT you know how harmful these callout campaigns are when you or someone you like is being targeted.
"Uwuwu that wasnt our intention, we were just trying to keep people safe, oh noes why is this gaining so much attention waaah" who the fuck is buying this. If, at this point, you say you havent realised that public callouts do more harm than good (to the person being called out AND to completely innocent victims who are getting retraumatised), then youve either been here for less than a month or youre a liar.
STOP letting shitstirrers shape everyones fandom experience jesus christ
Ive had multiple instances where i was baffled by how disproportionately 'outraged' and vicious some of yall get for no fucking reason (the con fallout? That one time yall bullied someone for saying a perfectly innocent destiel fic helped them cope with the death of their dad? The performative hatred of actors, which is bordering on being a parasocial relationship in its own right? Jesus christ, the fucking blogs where you could submit mean shit about other spn bloggers????), and ive blocked and blacklisted many people bc of that, which is why i wasnt surprised at all when some of the same ppl jumped at a new opportunity to sling some mud. For the record i dont keep track of bloggers after ive blocked them, that would be creepy. But some ppl burn themselves into my memory for being especially abrasive and over the top. Which is why i wasnt surprised, i was just annoyed and exhausted bc you keep letting ppl trick you into carrying out their bullying campaign.
"Why are people leaving??" Bc yall are exhausting.
Again: if the punishment or the public shaming of the culprit is more important to you than the feelings or the safety of the victims, you shouldnt act like youre trying to help anyone or improve things for the victims. Youre doing it out of a warped sense of self righteousness and egotism.
Ive said what i wanted to say about this particular incident and how truly bizzare i thought the process of Events was, but this is a general problem and some of the most toxic people are sadly the loudest and very hard to escape when they continue to be given a platform to do this shit, so its really not a hard decision to leave. I dont want to experience the incoming prequel discourse anyways.
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TV Show Ask: 2, 4, 9, 10, 35, 38, 39, 46, 47, and 48?
Thanks for the asks! 🥰
2. Already answered.
4. are there any shows you wish could just be cancelled already?
I'm gonna be cantankerous and say House of the Dragon. I'm just not a fan of GoT. Granted, I will probably eat my words if/when I ever get around to reading the books, but until then I find the discussion about it quite irritating, especially because of how inescapable it feels lmao
9. Already answered.
10. what’s one show you thought you’d love but turned out to really hate?
I think probably Chainsaw Man? I do like some aspects of it, and I really wanted to like it more, but it just feels almost boring how teenage angsty it is, it conforms too much to the genre to be interesting. I stopped watching after episode 8.
35. who are your top 5 TV characters right now?
1. Anthony Lockwood, Lucy Carlyle, George Karim (Lockwood & Co.) - I'm obsessed with Lockwood & Co. to the point where I'm procrastinating finishing the last book. I can't pick a favourite of the main trio, they're all so great in their own ways. I just love how truly found family they are, the actors are all spectacular, they just fill my heart with joy.
2. Scanlan Shorthalt (The Legend of Vox Machina) - It's so hard to pick a favourite in TLoVM and this is definitely subject to change, but Scanlan is my favourite at the moment. I love me a comic relief character who is much more than just comic relief and I was so impressed with his arc in the second season.
3. August of Arnäs (Young Royals) - deeply problematic/unpopular opinion, I know, but I will die on this hill. Young Royals is an incredible show with genuinely clever writing and complex characters, it's nowhere near as tropey as it appears from the outside, and while I love Wille & Simon I think the character writing really shines when it comes to August. It helps that he has Leo levels of self-hatred that manifest as egotism. They're surprisingly similar characters, actually.
4. Kendall Roy (Succession) - I think Kendall is the character I'm most interested in seeing genuinely change, either for the better (fucking over Logan) or for the worse (becoming Logan). Maybe he'll end up doing both. Either way, I'm rooting for him.
5. Geordi La Forge (Star Trek: TNG) - I've been actually watching TNG after years of catching episodes every now and then, and have come to realise that my favourite of the TNG crew is Geordi. I always thought it'd be Picard or Data, but I think Geordi is a great all-rounder, he's funny, he's kind, he's clever, he's approachable. I love him!
38. do you prefer hour long episodes, or 30 minute?
Hour long episodes are the best. Proper ones, too, without ads.
38. do you prefer 22 episode seasons, or 13?
I prefer 13 episode seasons I think. It generally makes for a better quality show. That said, there is also definitely space in my life for longer seasons when I want something less taxing.
46. do you prefer to watch TV alone or with friends?
Alone. I don't watch TV with friends that often, but even when I do more often than not I'd still rather watch it alone. I like forming my own opinions on things, I always care too much about what the person I'm watching it with is thinking.
47. are there any shows you love but your friends aren’t interested in?
Mostly the kid's/teen shows like JatP, Lockwood, Young Royals, Heartbreak High.
48. are there any shows your friends love but you aren’t interested in?
Rick & Morty & Dragonball Z are the big ones, they make references to those shows and I just don't get them. Aforementioned Game of Thrones & spin-offs, some of the anime they watch I'm not interested in either.
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