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i say i like tragedies and everyone’s all like ‘why do you like sad stories? are you depressed?’ and never ‘how was the catharsis? was the catharsis fun?’
#i don’t know how to explain this to normal people 😭😭#for the record my coworkers didn’t directly question me on this#but i think i have vastly overestimated the amount of the population who is aware of like. Films.#NOT claiming that i have seen a lot - but i’ve mentioned three *REALLY* well-known films in the past four days#and got blank stares each time#the one of them was a REALLY good reference too… someday my top-notch association skills will be recognized#my first act as Mansion Acquaintance of the [redacted] Director will be to force everyone to watch a 40s romcom i didn’t even like#i’m getting off the point#the POINT is that It’s About The Catharsis
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you're in the habit of denying yourself things.
if someone asked you directly, you would say that you love a little treat. you like iced coffee and getting the cookie. you drink juice out of a fancy cup sometimes, and often do use your candles until they gutter out helplessly.
but you hesitate about buying the 20 dollar hand mixer because, like. you could just use your arms. you weren't raised rich. you don't get to just spend the 20 dollars (remember when that could cover lunch?), at least - you don't spend that without agonizing over it first, trying to figure out the cost-benefits like you are defending yourself in front of a jury. yes, this rice cooker could seriously help you. but you do know how to make stovetop rice and it really isn't that hard. how many pies or brownies would you actually make, in order to make that hand mixer worthwhile?
what's wild is that if the money was for a friend, it would already be spent. you'd fork over 40 without blinking an eye, just to make them happy. the difference is that it's for you, so you need to justify it.
and it sneaks in. you ration yourself without meaning to - you don't finish the pint of ice cream, even though you want to. the next time you go to the store, you say ah, i really shouldn't, and then you walk away. you save little bits of your precious things - just in case. sometimes you even go so far as putting that one thing in your shopping cart. and then just leaving it there, because maybe-one-day, but not right now, there's other stuff going on.
you do self-care, of course. but you don't do it more than like, 3 days in a row. after that it just feels a little bit over-the-edge. like. you can't live in decadence, the economy is so bad right now, kid.
so you don't buy the rice cooker. you can-and-will spend the time over the stove. you can withstand the little sorrows. denial and discipline are practically synonyms. and you're not spoiled.
it's just - it's not always a rice cooker. sometimes it is a person or a job or a hug. sometimes it is asking for help. sometimes it is the summer and your college degree. sometimes it is looking down at scabbed knees and feeling a strange kind of falling, like you can't even recognize the girl you used to be. sometimes it is your handprint looking unsteady.
sometimes it is tuesday, and you didn't get fired, and you want to celebrate. but what is it you like, even? you search around your little heart and come up empty. you're so used to denying that all your desires draw a blank.
oh fuck. see, this is the perfect opportunity. if you had a mixer, you'd make a cake.
#warm up#this isn't good#writeblr#this is complicated by the fact i can't stand up too long or i fuckken pass out and <3 hit my damn head <3#but i did take a deep breath and buy myself the stupid rice cooker#and!!! a very cheap sushi kit!!! i have been wanting to try making sushi for literally YEARS#the kit was only like 15 dollars!!!! and i haven't purchased it bc?!!??!?!?!?!!?#..... i didn't get the mixer tho that felt. like a lot. like too much.#on my list is a kitchenaid. one day when i get a check and i have paid off my student debt#and medical debt#i will put that first little bit of cash#into a kitchenaid 5qt stand mixer (with attachments)#i really do just go into their refurbished section and stare lustily at each option#but yeah i feel guilty about the rice cooker even tho i know for a fact this damn thing is gonna be a lifesaver#oh shit also fuck i forgot to mention . poached eggs
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you think YOU had a bad day at work?
bonus: sid shrieking "no!!!! NO!!!!!" loud enough to be heard in the stands and on camera
#this is now my FAVOURITE game i've watched in real life knocking the game misconduct one off the number one rank#he was so annoyed the entire game and so annoying about it :')#he kept shrieking away on the bench and i couldn't hear a word from where i was seated#but you could just hear this constant yipping away dhfsgfkjshgfsjf PLEASE it was so funny your 36-year-old babygirl was BARKING#drew kept sitting there like... is mom okay... i don't think mom's okay...#also extremely good for me (since he wasn't really hurt) was the whumpfest of it all oh my god what ancient gods did he anger.........#geno kept Hovering in concern#po kept giving him little shoulder pats the way a sweet brave babyboy would try his best to soothe a rabid little dog#ek of course kept trying to slide right inside him and also kept skating up to him and STARING him in the face in concern/lust/both#also guys this is my first time in canada ever!!!!!!!! i'm excited#anyway. very good game for me sorry for this post but you know i love a#long post#sidney crosby#evgeni malkin#pittsburgh penguins#also!!! to all who celebrate#ramadan kareem/eid mubarak#<333 staying with a friend here through the eid celebration and they've been cooking and everything smells so good
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So.
We went from this for Starclan Cats:
To.
This:
Biggest downgrade of my life.
#warriors#warrior cats#this is almost worse than the disney live action remakes to me#like. i used to stare and study wayne mcloughlin's art in the code of the clans book for ages before moving on to the actual story#it was so good and pretty#richardsons's...#i feel nothing except mild disappointment and concern for his well being from harpercollins#cuz uh.#what kind of time crunch does the wc team/divisionshave him /on/?????#like. the star patterns for reedwhisker are....okay and look like stars#but mistystar..... she looks like she got dunked in the lake first#or like she could be mistaken for ferncloud...cuz man....those are absolutely 100% not stars on her pelt#props to reedshisker for being the first cat in ??? book covers for having a different expression (even if it's a lil wonky) though#star's cover gets one point#a starless clan
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#random gwaine gifs because i miss him
#that first one though hello#the STARE#merlin#bbc merlin#merlin bbc#merlinedit#tvedit#perioddramaedit#gwaine#sir gwaine#userlottie#arthurpendragonns#ughmerlin#merlingifs
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look within
#my art#puella magi madoka magica#pmmm#homura akemi#man. i took these pictures of myself looking into the mirror reflecting on me a while ago with the intention of drawing one#(because i mean. its cool as hell. i used to stare at all my reflections for so long bc mirrors reflecting each other is neat)#but i never got to drawing it until now and i think it turned out well!!!#madoka magica#*itself not on me on that first speaking tag.. idk how i fucked that one up#listen its 3 am i cant type#2023
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I know I've thought of a good shitpost when the premise is only funny to me and maybe three other people
#i bet you all thought i'd do an fma crossover first huh? Foolish. kirby shitpost attack#malevolent#malevolent podcast#arthur lester#john doe#comic#my art#doodles#kirby#not shown is john describing a waddle dee to arthur in the worst way possible#'oh arthur....'#'it's a small orange creature - unlike anything from your world'#'it stands maybe one foot high and moves with an odd gait - its limbs sliding across its body as if disconnected'#'fleshy protrusions on both of its sides sway with it...almost like limbs that have been amputated - leaving just the stumps'#'oh god arthur...its face...'#'two long wet eyes sit in the center of its body - they're drawn and pulled in an uneven shape'#'it's pupils fill the bottom two thirds of each long oval'#'the rest of the face or head is featureless and smooth - it has no mouth only tan stretched skin that looks pliant to the touch'#'arthur...it's Staring Right. At. Us.'#waddle dee: wanya
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CAT Ghost INSTINCTS
Damian comes back to the manor one day with... a new school acquaintance (coughfriendcough) due to the fact they need to work on a school project together and Danny Fenton was the only one in that class that Damian would tolerate to have as a partner.
Everything about the kid seemed normal, heck very normal if a bit shy... or at least that was until the kid suddenly zero focused on a corner of the room and stared at it non blinking. Then after what felt like hours blinked once and returned to normal, chatting away like nothing happened.
....It also doesn't help that Alfred the cat... did the same thing.. at the same time as Danny.
Yeah something is... off about Damian's new friend.
#danny phantom dc#danny phantom#danny fenton#dp x dc#batman#blue rambles#crossover#writing ideas#random idea#damian wayne#Tim was the one who saw it happened first#everyone didnt believe him due to the fact he had been awake for nearly 2 days and coffee'd uped#but then later it happens when Damain invites Danny over for dinner a few days later#in the middle of Danny explaining how he and his sister had to stop some reanimated hotdogs from teaming up with some leftover ham#Danny just stops and stares at the doorway for a full min before returning to his story#basically i want Danny to do the cat stare when they see and hear something#he does make a small rumble of 'back off' if whatever he sees is bad though#basically Danny sees Gotham ghosts that aren't strong enough to make themselves be seen#thats all i want#is this silly?#yes#there are ghosts in Wayne manor#and sometimes Lady Gotham appears too cause she loves her knights#Danny starts asking for an extra tea when hes over and leaves it in front of an empty chair#no one knows how the tea gets empty though#when they know no one has touched it#no one not even Alfred can explain how
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i so badly want one of those fic examinations of steve's relationship with joyce and hopper but solely through eddie's pov like hear me out
steve and eddie chat a lot in the upside down (and later in the hospital, when they learn hop is alive). steve has taken charge of filling eddie in on the rest of their of-age crew without the kids butting in. he never mentions his own parents, but he talks about the rest of the party's a lot, especially joyce and hopper. eddie knows what it's like to desperately want someone to be your parent and trying to hide it from his own childhood, when he would try to be cool about wayne dropping him off at his dad's house. steve obviously adores joyce and hopper, thinks the world of them and legitimately looks up to them.
eddie isn't sure what he expects from a cop who came back to life and the world's most determined housewife, but he's excited to meet them as someone steve loves.
cue eddie's horror when he realizes that neither of them really feel much for steve rather than annoyance and vague distrust. that joyce trusts will with eddie, an accused murderer, in a heartbeat and still hesitates to leave him with steve. that hopper brushes off every ounce of steve's hero worship and joy.
he tries to broach the topic with steve, gently, and is heartbroken when steve genuinely has no idea what he's talking about. and not because he's oblivious, but because steve thinks that's what he deserves. he thinks that's the parental love that someone who was an asshole in high school needs, because that's what would make him a good person. he needs people to call him out constantly, obviously, because why else would they keep doing it? why would nancy? at least they're here. at least they're not ignoring him. at least they're not forcing him into a box. they just want him to be better.
like, this is the man who thanked a girl for calling him bullshit and telling him she never loved him. he doesn't Know that's not how you're supposed to handle things. no one ever taught him that.
and now eddie's gotta figure out how he can teach steve how to be loved the right way without outing himself and his huge crush on his love-starved dork of a friend.
#shut up az#steddie#i just had the flash of eddie in a hospital bed staring up at hopper and the way he talks to steve in horror#like hopper saying something off the cuff about how he's not surprised there was so much collateral with steve in charge#and eddie thinking about steve always putting himself in harm's way#and the way steve got mauled by bats way before eddie did and then KEPT. GOING. but no one is mentioning that#no one is mentioning that steve was the first one of their group physically hurt by this.#and steve is just nodding like he agrees and eddie doesn't want to be rude bc these ppl are obviously Important to his friends#and then Mike comes in later and says something Mike-y and Eddie snaps at him#then he has to apologize because Mike is a stupid kid who loves Steve in his own way#and Eddie shouldn't blame him for the behavior of adults who should no better just because Mike is an easier target#anyway Eddie doesn't know how to have parents right either so he ropes Jeff and Lucas and Gareth and Robin into OP: Teach Steve Self-Worth
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#team fortress 2#tf2#tf2 medic#emesis blue#Or emesis red there's a lot of red in this one#I very much enjoy his constant distress frown and 2k yard stare in this movie; he's trying so hard to figure out what's happening#He's probably just trying to see without his glasses; everything is a bit more scary when you realise Doc doesn't actually see a lot after#he loses his glasses from fighting both of the Conagher brothers. He's just. Winging every near death situation half blind#Anyways I really like how he physically changes from being the most calm and seemingly sane person without any agenda into the doom slayer#First he leaves his medigun behind; he loses his glasses; he takes off his labcoat and gloves; there's blood on him; he's marked with the M#Just a really cool way of amplifying his change of personality and increasing insanity
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just found out clip studio has a fish eye lens thing
#im cackling#“how do you know whats good for me?!!!?!??!”#THATS MY OPIONNNNN#notmyart#delete later#ok the first one is starting to creep me out#stop staring
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Alex's face after Henry ignores him in the line at the wedding
Alex is so shocked at the
Audacity of this bitch
#he WILL not be ignored#very arthur pendragon upon meeting Merlin for the first time vibes#hes just staring straight ahead like hes on The Office#one of my favourite alex scenes in the trailer#alex claremont diaz#red white and royal blue#rwrb#rwrb movie#taylor zakhar perez
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HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY!!! To this elderly bapy boye!!! he...!!!
#cats#ghhbbb this is the first time I've genuinely considered tumblr blazing a post lol but no.. i shant.. I feel too weird putting financial#information into tumblr or whatever unless I made like a seperate bank account or something not associated with anyhting else lol#but I gave it serious contemplation which is really sayng something (the evil magical spell that all cats cast over u by their perfection)#ANYWAY.................... old man!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#it's technically like march 8th but I did his party a little early. I have other pictures to post later maybe too..hrmm#The '1' candle is actually a '4' candle with the side part cut off because they didn't have any 1s#I went all out (like under $15 still lol) and got new birthday decorations for him instead of using the same old#ones from the past like 5 birthdays that I've done for the cats lol..#His theme was rainbows mostly in as light of colors as I could find#The legal age to drive a car in the US is 16 so.... honk honk beep beep.. I shall go out and buy him the most expensive car on the market#as soon as March 8th comes. then he can run little errands (probably mostly getting kibbles or chicken somewhere)#stealing the rotisserie chickens from walmart or something lol#AND they would let him have them. He would drive up and walk inside and they'd call the manager to come over#and they would be so moved by his presence and his big goofy stare that they would just be like..... okey.. have all the chicken in the#entire store. Actually. have the store. it's yours now. And This would continue all the way up the chain until he was handed#the entire walmart company. And every other company. a boy who owns everything. probably wouldnt use it for evil. he'd just abolish#everything and then focus on eating chickens.. ........ chibken son...
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When you kept your best pal imprisoned for a whole year along with his friends while exterminating half of the earth's population in front of him and he is still looking at you like that.
#puppy eyes™️#also the fourth one when the master was literally eating people and ten was still going “🥺”#the first one where he's saying that now he has someone to care for gay people make me feel SICK /j#the “his gaze softened” meme again#it's insane how he almost never looked at the master with anger or something similar it was always this stare#(whatever the fuck it is)#tensimm#thoschei#doctor who#tenth doctor#10th doctor
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Bruce's love language is handing you his kids. Yes, even the 6'5 anti hero with anger issues. Lift with your back
Bruce: Isn't he precious
Martinez, struggling to hold this human tank: y..yeah ....
#also??? fuck out of here dick wouldn't fight for the spot#damian when he first arrived: now father. i understand my position as the new succesor of your legacy. after meeting the others god knows#im needed.#bruce: stares. picks damian up. big fat smooch on chubby cheeks#damian a touch starved little assasin: ...ah.#baba.#bruce wayne#jason todd#dc#dc comics#regarding first tag: they absolutely fight for the spot and bruce is sad LMAO#bruce: :( we can all cuddle :(#jason: id rather be 15 again#dick: yeah no id rather kiss lex luthor. kill one of us or shut up
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Majestic Oppositions: Assassin Eclipse
Sun's Version // Moon's Version
POV: Sun and Moon needed back-up. Another version with diff coloured chains under the cut!
Majestic Oppositions is an AU that I made about Assassins DCA x Royal Y/N. You can read the fic of the full series as I work on it here!
#laursdraws#majestic oppositions#dca fandom#assassin au#royalty au#assassin eclipse#fnaf eclipse#security breach eclipse#cw staring#cw blood#HUZZAH I HAVE COMPLETED THE ROBO-ASSASSINS SERIES#IT'S LIKE I MADE TRADING CARDS AHAHA#reupload lol#the first one was bugging out on my end#this better not bug out again or imma bawl
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