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adventuringblind · 9 months

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Hey, sorry to bother you, but I had a request 🥺👉🏼👈🏼 (if those are accepted rn)

Can you do a Charles x asexual!Reader (x Max) who are in a established relationship, but since everyone makes comments about how good their sexlife must be/keeps thirsting about you, y/n eventually comes out to the public.

I'd be okay with either written or one of these social media fics.

Sincerely, an asexual person, who loves y/n fanfics, but has to navigate around way too many smut fics 🙈🙈🙈

Stop Thirsting

Charles Leclerc x Reader x Max Verstappen

Genre: Fluff

Summary: pretty much what the prompt says, and I'm too lazy to come up with something else 😂

Warnings: minor toxic media, protective boyfriends

Notes: I hope I did your request justice!! I'm not asexual so I went to a few people who are, and they said things like affection are still fine, so I wrote this along those lines. I hope this gives you something comforting!

Also, the people who make the smau's have talent I do not. Idk how they do it and I don't even know where to begin.

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When you entered into a relationship with Max and Charles, you didn't realize the main question you'd be asked is about how you three navigate intimacy.

Its hard enough being called names from the public, but this just makes things worse.

especially since you opt not to join them in their bedroom activities. You can only go so far before the mere idea of getting more intimate makes you want to crawl out of your skin. Something both boys understand and have made it a point to respect your boundaries.

The media, however, has not.

You’ve not come out to the world. The questions about everything just make you uncomfortable. But now you’re not sure what’s worse, everyone thirsting over you and the media being invasive, or the questions that come about your asexuality.

You throw your phone off to the side. The boys shoot looks of concern at each other and you. You’re heavy sighs alerting them that something is wrong.

“Chéri? Something the matter?” Charles moves from his spread out place on the floor next to you. You lean into him when he sits and curl up onto yourself.

“Just tired of everyone talking about our supposed sex life.” You huff. “Can’t help but feel I’m doing something wrong sometimes.”

Max leans forward in the chair. His hands find his face as he ponders the situation. “I could make them stop if you wanted. I have that power.”

“Maybe I should just come out. But I’m admittedly scared to do so.”

“Whatever you choose to do Chéri, we’ll support you.”

An instagram post.

One from all three of you.

You posted it and haven’t looked at your phone since. Terrified about what the people would say. They already talk about your intimacy so much that this might make it worse. Your worst fears made true.

The boys spent the day making sure you were as far away from the anxiety as they could get you. Comfort food and movies have become essential.

You stayed away from the internet until the next race. Then, the media and fans became unavoidable. And you were right that they'd be all over it.

You walked into the paddock, hands intertwined as the boys tried to keep the cameras away from you.

They keep steady conversation going, attempting to distract your mind from the obvious questions the reporters are trying to ask.

It's the fans that shock you the most. Many of those there to support your boyfriends have also come supporting you.

They understand. They respect. And woth the support of Charles and Max, you feel loved.

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alarrylarrie · 1 year

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I am catching up lol I read your tags on one post-you sadi things woth harry will go south?what do you mean with that?(I know what that means but he had a lot of potential “going south”situations but its like he is bulletproof

He’s not.

And let me be PERFECTLY CLEAR I am not rooting for Harry to take a tumble? Not at all. If I could shelter him from it, if I could curl up around him and Louis and hiss any time any issue/scandal lapped at their feet… lol I would.

But I can’t. So. I can only observe and say what I think.

The rate at which he is working is untenable and absolutely cannot be sustained. And eventually, the public writ large will tire. We have the attention span of goldfish, after all.

Does this mean he’ll be cancelled and disappear forever? Nah. I have a feeling we’re gonna get the Taylor Swift model from him (don’t send me hate about this I’m not even going to read it. You don’t have to like her at all but she does exist in the world, so.) Taylor has done this thing over the last few years where she pops into culture, makes a boatload of money, and then falls off the face of the earth for anywhere from a few months to a few years. She is someone who knows A LOT about the perils of overexposure. And the game of like “now you see her, now you don’t” has actually benefited her massively.

Harry *will* hit a critical mass. He just will. There is already rumblings of it, but I promise there is a point that something gives. I can’t think of a single celeb of his status who hasn’t faced some sort of tumble. Not a career ender! After all, some people are STILL paying to see Adam Levine perform. But where he is, there’s too much pressure and there are too many ways to “fall” in this day of social media. I don’t know when or how but I really do think we’re catapulting there. And hey, if I’m wrong, then that’s a good thing! It means Harry truly is different than every other musician in the history of ever, and so, I will, I don’t know, send Jeff a fruit basket as an apology or something.

#again I just want to say #I do not want this to happen???#I just can’t think of a single celeb this hasn’t happened to #even Beyoncé has faced it #AND SHE’S BEYONCÉ #Ed Sheeran? backlash #Justin Bieber? overexposure and backlash #Taylor Selena The Weeknd Billie Eilish I can keep going if you want me to lol #but as I was saying before I hope he knows it’s not him #and he HAS TO TAKE BREAKS #when the Grammys happened I was like oh shit are we here already?#all i want is for them to be happy #so whatever they do I hope that’s the goal for them #long post #my post

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android-anathema · 20 days

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Apparently I'm in the 99.9th percentile for borderline traits and the 64th for people woth BPD. I was at once mortified and relieved to see this. It seems to fly in the face of my own experience that ive gotten much better but in another way it tracks completely. Ive been feeling terrible when nothing should be wrong and not really like being depressed. From an overwhelming sense of having no place in the world and deeply distrusting and feeling alienated from everyone around me that persists whether theres anything to provoke it. Its not a thing that feels like being unwell, it just feels true. As is typically the case with complex trauma (which is functionally the same thing as BPD in the ICD-11. im diagnosed with BPD for insurance reasons)

I score low on measures of depression and PTSD alone seems inadequate to describe how i feel and is an area that's been getting better anyway, but in many ways i feel more alienated and angry than ever. A stronger sense of helplessness and preoccupation with revenge. Which just makes sense as complex trauma symptomstend to be particularly stubborn as far as the officially recognised trauma based disorders go.

So thats comforting in a way. I dont just feel bad for no reason and the reason is something which typically resolves in your late 20's to 30's without treatment if you stay alive and arent unable to escape some major problem like homelessness or an abusive situation which would interrupt the natural mechanism for recovering from trauma. Seeing it in numbers like this... 99.9th percentile... 0.1% of the population and 36% of those with a rare and severe mental illness could understand me is what i see. So that's just it then. Ive experienced something almost no one can understand and it makes me strange. Separates me from other people and makes it impossible to ever not be alone. Or thats what it feels like. If someone said they couldnt understand what it must be like for me because theyve never been through anything similar i would balk at that. I would think to myself that this world is so willfully ignorant, complacent and accepting of violence people imagine they're just incapable of understanding anyone whose been victimised in a serious way to shirk the highly difficult and arduous process of spending 30 minutes reading about it or having a conversation with someone about what its like for them. A sentiment that might not even correlate to whatever it was they were trying to communicate. They might not mean anything at all but just having heard someone else say it feel like its something youre supposed to say in such a situation. But it doesnt matter! Consistency is irrelevant and explanations are pointless. All that exists is the unbridgeable gap between me and everyone else. There is no need to prove it, it is an axiom by which all other potential truths are measured not something to be proved itself

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ravio-rants · 5 months

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11, 12, and 14 for the OC asks!

-11. Is there a specific physical feature or item that holds special significance to your character? Why is it important to them?

For my twili group: they have a special tree! its a secluded spot where the 4 of them hang out a lot. its in the middle of a field, out of the way of major roads and towns. they found it one day while just wandering around, and decided that it was Their Tree. if one of them isnt around their usual spots, they are probably relaxing at the tree. I'll probably draw it sometime!

adding a hobic option as well because its funny, his staff is probably a very significant item for him. i think he wouldve gotten it when he became a full fledged wizard, which was also around the time he transitioned and came out as gay, meaning its the first magical item he earned, and he earned it as his true self. thats significant to him, even if most other wizards dont get it.

-12. How does your character react to change or unexpected situations? Are they adaptable or resistant?

raide is probably pretty adaptable! shes a very "fuck it, we ball" type guy. whatever happens, he'll probably be fine with it, as long as nobody is hurt by it. they would probably just shrug the change off and continue on with their day.

calen on the other hand.. he would be more resistant. dont get me wrong, he's willing to accept change, eventually, but its Scary! he gets anxious about it! he wont admit that though, at least not to anyone other than raide. unexpected situations are generally Not Welcome when it comes to this boyo. he Will panic about it. (unless its one of his friends asking for help with something. he would give the world for them, even to his detriment.)

kalt.. hm. i feel like he'd be slightly anxious aboutt change and unexpected situations, but he trusts the people around them so they'd accept it. itll probably be okay, right?

vang would probably be very calm and collected about all of it. change? alright, give her a day to plan things around it and everythings fine. she can figure it out. unexpected situations? she can probably work out what to do about it, if you give her a moment. (she's most of the reason kalt is fine woth change.) shes very reliable when it comes to most things.

hobic would rather live in a house that actively hates who he is on a fundamental level than face change or unexpected situations. this is a very literal example. his house hates him, but he's lived there so long that he would rather just Not leave actually. at least the house is predictable about it, you know?

-14. What is your character's preferred method of self-expression? Do they have any artistic talents or creative outlets?

raide loves so many forms of art! if you took a peek into his house, you would find art supplies of every type all over. sewing and instrument playing and drawing and painting and crocheting and embroidery and sculpting and- (his fav is just regular old drawing though.)

calen prefers to play music or write stories! both are very calming and in the moment things, and he can just get absolutely lost in them. his preffered method of self expression is probably his music specifically. he loves how music can explain things without the need for words at all.

kalt likes painting! hes not very good at it, but they dont care. they'll paint whatever the hell they want and if someone doesnt like it? thats their problem, not his. (its usually landscapes.)

vang likes to sing, she loves all sorts of music, but if it has lyrics? you bet she's going to be humming or singing it around the castle randomly. she does write her own lyrics sometimes, and then asks calen or raide to help her add a tune to it. (or vice versa, where one of them makes a song and then asks vang for some good lyrics for it!)

do spells count as a form of art? because if so, thats hobics choice. he also writes but he really just likes casting spells. or coming up with new spells. or fucking up spells-

#ravio rants #oc tag #Hobic the Wizard #Raide Solaire #Calen Lunaile #Vang Twiliri #Kalt Twiliri #twili oc group

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wishmasters-muse · 1 year

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I have noticed something.... terrifying happening on Tiktok. (CW: Mentioned pedophilia.)

Tiktok has already been a consistent subject of controversy and mixed morals for a long time, but things have taken a horrifying turn. Omegle is becoming a trending topic.

For most people using the platform in tiktok videos it's to get peoples reactions to their music, cosplays and other creative fields, but something more suspicious has been occurring en mass.

Teenagers are OBJECTIVELY livestreaming their Omegle conversations "baiting" whoever they can to address as pedophiles. Anyone who used Omegle over the years knows the place is almost entirely anonymous if you choose it to be. These KIDS are objectively Trying to bait them in. Woth no ability to actually convict these people, nor be able to get enough information to report them, they are literally putting themselves into these situations. Attempting to "bait" adults into sexual activities, using tiktok comments as influence as to what to say.

There are more and more of these lives popping up and its getting concerning.

If you don't see what's wrong with this... I am shocked. (This livestream has stated they are 18, though of course, we can never know for sure.)

I will NEVER support pedophilia, but this method gets no pedo convicted, and worse, puts minors into more dangerous situations, guided by other random commenter on their lives.

#tiktok #danger #warning #beware

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fortunately-bi · 4 years

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Me: I got harassed by a cop over a minor traffic issue that may or may not have been an actual issue, and I felt scared and threatened and the issue might be bigger then I thought at the time cause he was out of uniform and possibly off duty and the whole situation was incredibly fucked up and sketchy :/

White liberals who just want Woke points: yes!!! Fight the system!!!! Fuck cops!!!!! Tell those pigs whose boss!!!!!!! Good for you!!!!!!!!! Protest!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Me: :/

#the point was so missed by some people #everyone is like you should have done this or that #i couldnt do anything cause my phone was on my dashboard and this cop was fucking crazy #he wasnt in uniform so there wasnt a body cam or anything #i had no idea wtf was going on cause as far as i was aware what i did was legal #and it might have been and just didnt care!#im not picking a fight with an unhinged cop #he was threatening me what was i supposed to do #and some people think i did this out of protest or something????#i didnt do anything a cop saw someone do something kinda dumb on the road and decided he wanted to be angry #like this is the sign of a major issue woth cops doing things they arent supposed to off duty out of uniform n stuff #but like people keep patting me on the back and being like yeah fuck cops :)#and no one is like dude are you ok what happened how can we handle this situation #a traumatic experience is being turned into some kind of woke story like any positive thing came of it is rubbing me the wrong way #how do i word this #my traumatic experience shouldnt be what people are applauding they should be outraged that we arent safe from the smallest of things #and they should applaud justice being served no me getting harassed #which nothing has been done cause i have no way to identify the guy #stop being happy its fucked up

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virtual-luvr · 3 years

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Hello I really like your jumin han stories, so I have a request for more. I don't have much of a plot but like male y/n is going to move in woth jumin and he has 2 male cats who are both neutered, but jumin is still complaining that the cats are gonna try and get Elizabeth the 3rd pregnant( even though it's not possible). Eventually jumin warms up to the other cats and y/n makes fun of jumin by taking pictures of jumin and the cats cuddling saying that Elizabeth is gonna be jealous. He/him for reader. Please and thank you.

Warming up

Pairing: Jumin x Reader

Pronouns: he/him

Content: you have two cats, jumin is scared-

Description: Jumin slowly starts to warm up to your two male cats

Note: ah im so glad you like my writing!! And thank you for requesting, i hope you like it !

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Jumin liked to plan everything in advance, thats how he worked best. So when he had finally visited your apartment for once and seen your two...male...cats, he was incredibly frustrated.

He wanted you to move in with him, hell, you guys were both already planning on moving in together.

It shouldn't come as a surprise that you had two male cats but you had only told Jumin you had two cats, never did you say what sex they were.

You thought it was no bug deal but at this point Jumin was almost sweating, your calm and collected boyfriend had essentially flashed out of existence.

"Jumin you dont have to worry, theyre both neutered" you say with a laugh, you couldnt deny the situation was a little funny.

Jumin still seemed panicked as he looked at both of your cats.

"I cant have them near my Elizabeth, they'll get her pregnant"

Jumin stands close to you, inching closer and closer as your two cats move towards Jumin.

At this point his arms are around your waist and hes hiding behind you, your cats still moving closer to him. Of course they got very close trying to smell him since you usually came hone smelling like him as well.

You call for them to get closer but Jumin hesitates, arms tightening around you.

"Jumin why are you even running away from them?"

"Because if they get close then when I come home Elizabeth will smell them on me and I dont want that" he says, voice monotone but his eyes stood glaring at your cats.

You turn around and look at Jumin in the eyes, giving him a playful glare and softly grabbing his face so his attention is on you instead of your cats.

"I, your amazing boyfriend who would never ever lie to you, has told you time and time again that there is no way they can get Eli pregnant"

Jumin lets out a groan, adjusting his stance and looking back at you.

Suddenly his business like demeanor came back, you hadnt seen that in a long time since you guys started dating, he was usually much more open now.

"Fine, they can come to the apartment but they are not staying in close contact to Elizabeth, atleast not yet"

You chuckle but agree, you know he just wants whats best for Elizabeth and shes very dear to him.

You brought your face sloer to his and gave him a small kiss, which still somehow suprised him.

"What was that for?"

"To seal our contract"

"Oh i see, well can I have some that arent business inquired ones?" A small smile sets on his face as he looks at you after saying that, eyes soft but filled with love.

"Of course Mr. CEO" you say while leaning in.

"Dont call me that" Jumin groans out before kissing you back.

Forgetting your cats are there, while you had that whole conversation, they got much more closer then before. Now one of them wrapping his tail around your leg and the other pawing at Jumins shoe.

Jumins breathe hitches as he sees them but tries his best not to move, knowing he shouldnt be scared of anything happens.

While in that moment he didnt pet them or anything, it was a good start.

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Its been a few weeks, you're now settled into an apartment with Jumin.

Yours cats though, werent as settled in.

You were hoping in around a week they'd be able to get closer to Elizabethn Jumin was still hesitant.

Dont get me wrong, all cats were roaming around, it wasnt like your cats were in a cage or something.

Its just they have been under heavy supervision, if Jumin was not there he had a bodyguard watch over all three.

(He didn't trust you enough with this he knew you would let your cats cuddle up to Elizabeth as soon as possible)

This evening was one where both of you were not going to be at home, so Jumin quickly called up a bodyguard.

"He won't be at home and I currently have to get going to a business meeting, get here as soon as possible. You have the keys to open the door, do not let any of those two cats get close to Elizabeth"

Jumins voice was low and demanding, a little bit intimidating in your ppinion but you didn't mind-

He swiftly hangs up and looks back at you as he puts his blazer on, adjusting his sleeves and tie.

"I have to get going my love, enjoy your evening with Jaehee ill see you later" He gives you a soft kiss on your forehead and then your lips and with that he was gone.

You ran out and as soon as you left the door, a car stood waiting for you.

Quickly giving the driver the location, you wait patiently to get there, no rush since you werent late.

You got there pretty fast, traffic wasnt bad. As you look up you see Jaehee waiting at a table, coffee in one hand and a menu in the other.

"Hi Jaehee" you say with a smile, and with that you had an evening filled of Jaehee talking about Zen and eating plenty of amazing pastries and drinks.

The 'date' went by smoothly and you left only around a few hours after, it was getting late and Jaehee had to go back home to finish some workload.

You thanked them for the nice evening you had together and then went back into the car which was waiting for you.

The ride back went just as well as the first one, you got home pretty fast but when you got there you were met with a sight that you werent expecting at all.

There sat two cats, around someone. That someone being Jumin.

He had a cup in hand and an expensive looking laptop right in front of him, both cats laying a head on each of his legs. Sleeping soundly and peacefully.

He didnt react when he heard the lock of the front door lock, or maybe he just hadnt heard you enter.

You oull out your phone as quickly as possible, not even being able to fathom what was right in front of your eyes.

Is this a dream?

No, no, this is defently not a dream.

As you take a step forward Jumin looks up.

Once he sees you, a soft of nervous smile sets on his face.

"Weren't expecting this were you?"

"No not at all, how the hell did this happen"

"I didnt notice them coming towards me and...all of a sudden they were like this. I wasnt sure what to do so i just, let them"

You'll be honest, it was honestly such a nice view to see three of the people you most love be so close. You felt happy.

You take a few more steps and one of your cat notices that you're getting closer, now meowing at you. You grab him and sit down where he was just resting and isntead put him on your lap.

Now both you and Jumin sat close, one cat on your lap and the other resting on Jumin's leg. Soon enough Elizabeth came in too for some cuddles.

All in all, you looked like a whole family, and you all sat cuddling eachother. One of Jumins arms wrapped around you and you cuddled up to him, phone in hand.

You opened the messenger and quickly sent the photo of Jumin and your cats together before he could demand you to delete it.

Messages started filtering in quickly, many of them beung from the infamous seven o seven.

"What did you send to them.."

[1341 words; feb/11/21]

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atiny-exol · 4 years

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Yandere Prince Ateez!

Warnings:yandere behavior, mentions abuse, violence, blood, humiliation, degradation, mature things, possessive behavior, stalking, forced marriage

Requested: oh hell yes

A/N: yandere prince ateez is suchhh a good idea😭I love it

You are a maid, a poor little maid trapped in the claws of the eight brothers and princes of Utopia.

Prince Hongjoong

The second oldest of the kingdom.

Usually mistaken as the oldest. Unlike his brothers he doesn't look like a disappointment to the king and queen.

Does his work like it is used to be, attends the important meetings and always does more than required

Ambitious, smart, charming, but for you he let his facade of the perfect prince down.

One of the reasons why you are the maid in the castle. Always watching you, pointing out your mistakes and everything you do wrong.

Doesn't care if you cry because if his scolding.

As his future wife you have to be perfect, flawless, just like himself

Even if he is mean you can't help but fall in love with him.

And he knows that too well.

Behind his facade he is very insecure and angry about the fact that he will never be the king of this kingdom.

Tries to hide the insecures from you and always offers you a smile. Unless you did something wrong.

Easily fell with you on love. One smile from you, one kind word and a your good manners.

And your eyes. He loves your eyes. Even if they hold tears.

Especially if they hold tears, but he has to cause them. If someone else makes you cry, he will kill.

Or let them kill.

Ruthless in this fact. Always has a plan to eliminate everyone who gets too close to you.

But always threats you with this too.

You are scared but also fascinated by him.

,,Y/N, Y/N, Y/N. How many times do I have to tell you that I don't tolerate inappropriative behavior. Especially from you I want perfect manners and a beautiful look. Change your clothes and then you do the chores again."

Prince Seonghwa

The oldest and the future King.

Unlike Hongjoong, Seonghwa isn't thag interested in attending important meetings.

He is still smart, strong and powerful. Ruthless to be honest.

When he rules the kingdom, no one will ever say something against him. His death stare is making everyone shiver, including you.

And his whole aura is scary.

Loves to see fear in your eyes. The little teary eyes, filled woth tears. He loves them way to much.

Would cut them out of your face, but he loves you. Doesn't want to ruin your pretty little face.

The first time you met, he scares you and threaten you with death. Because you spilled coffee all over him.

But then he saw that his brother found you interesting. Another reason to kill you.

Your little stuttering, the red face and yes the fear and shaking. Made him change his mind.

He loves to be powerful and feared.

And you give him the feeling.

The feeling that he can rules everything, that he is more than just a prince and future king.

No he wants to be the God. And first of all your God.

,,You dare to speak against me you annoying brat! Who do you think you are talking to. I'm your future king and God. Learn your place! 2 weeks in the catacombs will change your mind. I'm sure."

Prince Yunho

One of the oldest. Not very strong, but not weak either.

Not very smart, but not dumb either.

He was and is always just Yunho, the kindly, smiling and handsome prince.

Everyone adores him and his smile, his whole personality.

But all of this is making him sick. Sick and angry.

Why can't he be the oldest? Why can't he be as smart as Hongjoong or as strong as Seonghwa? Why? Why!

Wants to feel special. And appreciated.

And you are making him feel like that.

You give him the strength to smile more and more each day.

He follows you through the castle. Helps you and talks with you.

With you his smile is not fake, his smile is genuine and gentle.

But of course his brothers have to ruin everything.

He can't have one thing for himself.

Stalks you in the night, the times you bath and the times you aren't working.

He looks at you in every situation, because he knows that only he is doing this.

This is something his brothers won't steal from him.

They won't steal you aways from him.

He never fighted. He never talked back.

But if it is about you, he changes.

Changes into something far away from kind and sweet.

,,My poor little maid. You look so tired, but at the same time your sleeping face is the most beautiful one on this planet. Just stay like this and let me watch. So I can remember every small detail about you."

Prince San

Handsome, charming, a flirt and arrogant.

That's how most of the people would describe this prince in their private rooms. And yes, yes he is exactly that.

He is cocky, flirty and teasing around you.

He loves to humiliate you infront of the other servants.

But why does he do this? The answer is easy.

To get your attention. Your anger. Your red and humiliated face.

Because just he and his other brother Wooyoung are supposed to see your humiliated face. And both of them love that.

They often share the fun.

One of the distracts you so you make a mistake and the other one will scold you for that infront of everyone and then pull you around with cuffed hands and a string around your pretty little neck.

He wants you for himself, but sharing you makes fun too.

Hates your tears, but if they are because he humiliated you it is beautiful.

If you try to avoid him, he will get violent and break your hands. Or pushes you down the stairs.

Then he blaims all on you. Because you are just a clumsy little kitten.

The first time he met you, he thought that you are perfect. Everything on you is perfect, but no one beside him can be perfect. And you also didn't give him enough attention.

That's why he started bullying you

And now he loves it

,,Look at this clumsy little pig, with the apple in its mouth. You look absolutely adorable like that piggy. Can't wait to let everyone see this shamefully look on your face, while I tell them what you did today."

Prince Mingi

There are 2 things he loves.

The feeling of the arrow hitting the target and you.

Oh and both combined is tying you to a target and trying not to hurt you with the arrow.

He losts the count of how often he already did this. But it isn't his fault.

Sometimes he is just so jealous, because he can't spent so much time with you, that he has to do the things he loves at the same time.

It scares you and you are always crying when he does that.

But he loves to show you that he would never actually hurt you. If you don't piss him off of course.

Because the first time you made him jealous, he actually made you the target.

He hurted your leg painfully and his looks was so scary that you felt like dying.

After that you always tried to make him smile and it helped.

Always smiles around you and kisses your cheek. Gets red and shy with you

If someone flirts with you, they are the next target and you watch him killing them.

He is scary and brutal, but he is still a tall puppy for you.

,,Aww n.. No don't be scared love! I won't actually hurt you. I.. Said don't be scared! I won't hurt you. Goddammit why are you crying again. Tz. If you don't stop now I change my mind! "

Prince Wooyoung

Flirty, a tease and mischievously. That's what one of the youngest prince of Utopia is.

And he doesn't even try to hide it.

Already accepted the fate. The date that he will never be as powerful as his older brothers.

But since the first time he saw you. He felt that he has power. Even if it's just power over one person.

He has the power to control you.

San and him are making sure that your life in the castle is a living hell. But unlike San he is more flirty.

And not just towards you. Tries to make you jealous and often sees thag it's working.

Then he teases you about that, and degrades you.

Tells you often that you are just his little plaything, his maid and his property.

You live to please him. If he wants you crawling on the floor you do that. He wants you to eat from the floor? You better do it or he will humiliate you just like San does it.

You are a cute little kitten till you show your claws and Wooyoung makes sure you will never show them again.

He even humiliats you infront of other princesses.

They are laughing at you, spitting at you and degrading you more and Wooyoung loves the power he has over you.

The power to control your life and how it goes.

Since he doesn't have a life where he can do what he wants too.

,,Awww are you crying now? Really? Just because they laughed at you. God pet you are so useless, can't even stand some entertaining degradation for me. If you don't stop this I will make sure that everyone sees you like this, and by everyone. I mean everyone."

Prince Yeosang

Smart, but doesn't talk that much. He isn't that social not even with his brothers and the king and the queen doesn't seem like they are proud of him.

He craves your attention, he craves the way you beg for him and cry out his name.

Oh and he craves your blood.

But first things first.

The first time he saw you, he was there to punish you.

You angered all of his brothers and even if he doesn't talk much with them, they know that he is the most sadistic one out of them.

He has his fun with you and at first he doesn't understand why his brothers like you. Why they want to break you and have you for themself.

But the time he spent alone with you, showed him why.

You have him the feeling of being needed. The feeling of being strong and having the power of living and death. Just like a God.

You are making him a God.

Carries blood from you in a small bottle around.

Once a while he has his fun with you. Torturing you, especially when seonghwa locks you away.

He doesn't show his affection with lovely words, or hugs unlike his brothers.

No he shows you his love through brutal violence

,,Cry some more for me angel. Cry more and more and I will fill this bottle with your tears. I want to carry them around just like your blood. So I have a piece of you always by my side. Yes beg me, beg me to end your suffering. "

Prince Jongho

The youngest and most loved prince from the family.

Everyone loves and adores him. He is friendly, sweet, but also strong and good in fighting with the sword.

He is the most dangerous in a fight out of all brothers. No one would dare to stand on the other side of his sword.

That's why you have to do it.

The first times he trains with you, he does it to make fun of you.

He isn't that sweet and kind to you, because he doesn't think you are worth it.

He doesn't see why his brothers like you, but one time he seriously injured you and his world crashed together.

Practice without you isn't fun and he slowly realizes how much you pulled him in love with you.

Gives you a ring and proposes to you after you are healed again.

You said no. Of course you said no.

And jongho made sure you regret that.

He does this over and over again, always smiling even if you give him a no as an answer.

But at some point you are sitting on your knees in front of him, his blade slowly lifting you head up and his eyes shooting a cold stare down at you.

You habe to say yes.

He will marry you.

And no one is going to stop him. Not even you

,,I give you a last chance. Will you marry me? I don't take a no as an answer and if you dare to say this again I will kill you. I will let your blood stain my sword. So what do you want to choose. Death or the chance of getting married to me."

#ateez #ateez san #ateez seonghwa #ateez yunho #ateez jongho #ateez mingi #ateez reactions #ateez wooyoung #ateez yeosang #ateez hyung line #ateez hongjoong #prince ateez #ateez royalty au #ateez romance #yandere ateez #ateez yandere

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fuckblizzardbearlover · 2 years

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It bugs me cus its like trump. Like u had this real asshole who only saw humans as pawns and was fascist, sexualized his daughter, tried to get the military to gun down protesters and people STILL resorted to calling him fat to insult him.

Like allegedly orion has scammed fans out of money and harrassed ppl on twitter among other things .

If u hate him (and prob should) hate him for that. Not ...fucking gaming wrong. Cus if u do u should hate travis for power gaming and ruining things cus he got bored with rp. Suddenly for no reason grog was a coward cus travis was low on hp (despite never asking keyleth or scan for healing) cus he went and reckless attacked in front of 8+ archers. He repeatedly tried to shut down rp multiple times cus he found it boring and just wanted to be a murder hobo.

Liam repeatedly tried to turn the game i to a 1 player game. Always going off on his own forcing the others to sit and do nothing while he got all the glory, meanwhile failing to remember once how both sneak attack and death attack worked(and its a LITTLE annoying how in social situations he just HAS to give the big speech and goes on "im going to leave and make the rest of the group come and find me" bouts of spotlight stealing)

And i saw someone talk about sexually harassing laura on stream so not remembering that i go try to see what i missed? Oh him making a joke about getting a woody from someone talking strategy. One of the least offensive sex jokes in the campaign. U realize the reason they had a troll dick was cus matt mercer descided that some trolls were going to rape his character, right?

But that doesnt matter because these were friends. At that point fans were just sitting in on someone elses dnd game they had with friends. Its extremely common for FRIENDS to be inappropriate with each other. Cus they are FRIENDS. Its fucked up for ppl woth a parasocial relationship with strangers to be so judgemental.

So anyways, if u want to talk about how O is an ass talk about the horrible things he did. If u want to hate his power gamey and selfish playstyle do so but remember than other cast would as well (how common was "ok im tired of talking about it my character is going to do something random and stupid cus bored) and if u want to hold the early stream accountable for unprofessionalism hold the ENTIRE table.

Course i dont think u should do that at all, cus like i said it didnt start being a show for a long time and was mostly just some nerds playing dnd with a camera and getting showered by fans who thought they were fans and gave them way to much free stuff

#critical role

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kotalefanzu · 3 years

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thinking back to Chameleon, it would be interesting if Marinette’s cute lite anxiety filled brain kicked into overdrive and sent her completely out of it when Lila was trying to get her expelled. i have experience interrupting school meetings and classes with unstable emotions and crying.

like just imagine it. Lila has Marinette already kinda nervous and antsy and then she strolls down the stairs and starts crying. Marinette is completely thrown off guard and blanks a little because what is happening she doesn’t understand what happening, why is Lila yelling, what is she doing-

and then people start flooding in and come look at the scene of the crime and she’s called into the office and as Lila is just going on and on about how Marinette pushed her Marinette is just sitting there mumbling how she didn’t do that, how she wouldn’t do that, she’d never hurt anyone like that, she’s not a bad person, someone please believe her, and she’s crying but she doesn’t notice it and she looks completely panicked and she’s frustrated and it’s not processing alright and there’s nothing but complete panic and confusion and fear in her mind at the moment. why are people not believing her. is she not trustworthy or something? what’s happening-

she is lost to reality and the adults in the room take notice of it. her parents try to calm the situation but stating that she’s clumsy, that it might have been and accident, that it must have been a misunderstanding, that marinette isn’t like that. they take a moment to stop and excuse marinette and let her calm down.

since they are waiting for Marinette to calm down and breathe, there is already sympathy on her side as well. she might be the defendant, but with the way she freaked out at the accusations of hurting people, they want to find a way to prove that she’s innocent. Lila continues talking while their out in the hall and she tells the lie about Marinette stealing the grandmother’s necklace.

they call one of her parents in to talk about it, sabine, and she hesitantly goes back to ask Marinette about it. it turns out to just trigger another wave of frantic and desperate rambling woth Marinette near yelling at this point becase she’s confused and scared and this isn’t making any sense and she knows that this is serious which is just stressing her out even more. hawkmoth steals jewelry and she’s not hawkmoth. theives are bad people okay. you don’t just take people’s stuff for your own. that’s mean. she isn’t mean is she. is she mean. but mean people like hurting others and she promises she isn’t mean. she promises that yea she might not like lila bust she would never bully her. she isn’t a bully. she’s been bullied and it hurts. she doesn’t like hirting people. and so on and so on.

at that point her parents are considering telling the principal to drop it because marinette is a blubbering mess at this point thinking over all her actions and spiraling pretty hard and they want her to calm down. tom tells the principal that he thinks its best they bring her home and they reschedule the meeting for now when they know more about the situation.

they go and get her stuff and immediately her friends are surrounding her like “yo what’s wrong” because that’s what people do when they know you and you look completely shook. when they open her locker and the necklace falls out, marinette just starts getting even more panicked and at this point they don’t care about anything except getting her out of there and they already agreed to handle any further procedures in the following days. acting now wouldn’t be a considerate move and her parent are not about to let her stay her and hyperventilate to death.

they swiftly head home and sabine stays and pushes for more concrete evidence because hell will freeze over before she believes her daughter was a bully, especially with how fragile and scared she looked at that moment. tome stays behind to be the kind caring himbo dad he is and cheer up marinette, while also getting some facts about this lila girl she seems to have issue with.

due to sabine, the security cameras point out both events are lila’s doing and she is then put into questioning.

boom. day is saved because sometimes your brain is like “STRESS TIEM BB!!! WHO NEEDS RATIONAL THOUGHT PROCESSING RN??!”

#miraculous ladybug #au marinette #marinette #tw anxiety #anxiety attack #kinda #im sleepy and writing this #this was mildly based off the panick i felt when i realized that i didn’t do my geo homework and bounced back in forth between #im totally okay #and #unmuffled screaming #i was pacing #flailing #darling i was Dying #ended up lying to my teacher twice and i still fear that she doesn’t believe me #kill me please

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zuffer-weird-girl · 4 years

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Even villains have their lowest moments... even Chisaki

Overhaul/ Chisaki Kai x reader

You got out of the shower and sighed in bliss woth the warm feeling of the vapor and the sweet scent of your shampoo and soap enveloping the environment.

New years eve and you had already passed with some friends and a little with your family, bit what you really wanted now was to have a relaxing rest of night... you weren't interested on big parties anyway so it wasn't a big deal.

Your boyfriend had invited you to pass the event on the yakusa but you explain it your situation to him and surprisingly he agreed.

"That's understandable. I'm not a fan of these huge events either."

Maybe it was passing something om TV that could maybe catch your interest? Maybe even cook something or a take out?

You said it to him you would see him just as early on the other day and that was about it. You noticed the slight hint of dissapointment in his eyes... poor man was trying to convince you to move in with him for at least one month by now...

You sighed with a smile to yourself as you wear it your night clothing and picked a towel to dry, even if just a bit, your hair.

You froozed in fear when you saw a figurine hunched up on the couch of your apartment. You did remember that you HAVEN'T invited anyone over AND that you did lock the door.

You, a yakusa's lover already on guard, slowly went to grab a weapon to defend yourself before you recognized the iconic green jacket with the purple feathers.

"Kai?" You said uncertainty before turning on the lights.

Indeed was him, slightly covered by some snowflakes which were already melting...

He didn't even look up to greet you, he just hummed and stayed with that... empty yet sad look in his usual arrogant and terrifying golden eyes of his.

"H... How did you get in? I thought I locked the door?" You looked at the direction of the entrance of your apartment to see that nothing had changed at least.

You turned back to Kai, whose lifted his gloved hand up, overhauling his own glove before returning nack as a form of response.

Ah... his quirk, you forgot for a second.

"What happened my devil? Didn't wanted to be social on that gathering?" You joked, feeling more at ease since Chisaki was here.

"... I wasn't feeling on my best." He said numbly, not even breaking his gaze with the floor as you hesitantly sitted besides him.

You hummed in understatement before you looked around in nervousness, anything that could make you break that thin yet strong barrier of your stubborn boyfriend's... emotions.

"Do you want something? Like... tea or anything at all?"

His eyebrows furrowed for a moment in thought before he sighed 'tea' tiredly as he placed his elbows on his open legs.

"Tea it is." You smiled at hik for a moment before making your way to your small kitchen.

Without you noticing, Chisaki watched you from the coner of his eyes dissapering from the room...

Dammit...

"So~ I hope you don't mind if it is chamo-" you stopped talking as soon as you noticed that Kai was still in the same place, this time without his jacket on, but rubbing his arms... stoic face always present.

"Something dirty?" You placed down the cups on the coffee table as you looked around "I swear I cleaned this thing just the day before yester-"

"Is not." He said harshly and irritatedly "Is only... cold." He scoffed when you got out of the room and soon flinched at the contact of some material being placed on his shoulders.

"Is only a blanket mister, calm down!" You giggled putting your hands up in the air in defence, receiving another scoff from his as he reached for his cup.

You soon sitted down besides him again, keeping your distance, happily picking on your own cup and savoring his sweetness and warm.

He stared at the cup and furrowed his eyebrows, like he was looking at something in pure disgust and hatred, before he took a tentative sip.

"So... something happened? You don't usually comes in here... especially when it's snowing outside."

"I already told you." He said in annoyance before taking another sip and placing down his cup.

Woah... the tea was gone.

"How..?" You said still staring at the cup in awe... that thing was hot.

"If you don't drink it while it's hot, then its not tea." He said in a manner of a fact tone of voice as he layed his back on the couch and shifeted a bit as he stared numbly at his front.

"Not just as comfortable as yours huh? I know." You said giggling, receiving a... wait, hurted look?

He looked in complete... defeat. He was not looking at your eyes bit the meaning of that sounded like a silent plea for you to help him... even despite his annoyed look.

"Kai? Seriously... I'm worried. What happened?" Hee sighed again annoyingly before looking at you with only cold eyes.

"I already said it. Want me to rub on your face or say it out loud for every neighborhood of yours hear?" He said darkly, glaring down at you.

You sighed in hopeless and layed your back on the couch as well, staring at the ceiling...

It was difficult when you wanted to help someone but that person didn't accepted any kind of it... especially when you loved this stubborn man.

"... I... I didn't wanted to be by myself." He suddenly said between teeths, catching your attention quickly.

"By yourself? Wasn't Pops and Chrono at least there?"

"I... honestly don't know what happened. They were there, yes, but... I just felt so numb and... empty. Before I knew it I lefted the house..." he said while arching his back a little to the front while he placed his forearms back to his knee's.

"I... was walking, and felt a huge... disgusting feeling on my chest... I just remembered them, out of all people... after so many years, they still somehow sticked to my head and how I end up taking one of their lifes away and a-and..." he sighed before he placed one of his gloved hands in his hair while he regained his thought.

Them... his biological parents...

You knew already about it, and just as he asked for it, never commented on the issue... for his own sake, it was a dead topic... a taboo.

"... then I thought about you... I wanted to see you, hear your voice and touch... touch angel, what the hell is wrong with me?" He burried his face on his hands while breathing in slowly.

You scotted closer and tapped his shoulder slightly, luckily he send you a one side look of distrust before you opened your arms slightly.

"You know... sometimes even the toughest need some comfort. Do you want a hug?"

He, by instinct, scoffed and looked at the ground again before spilling his words like acid.

"You dare to pity me? Don't you know who I am (Y/n)? I don't need a stupid form of-"

"I don't remember asking if you needed one Kai. I asked if you wanted one, but if you don't that's completely fine, not like anyone could force you onto sometjing anyway. " You said gently, lowering your arms down to your legs as you stared at those golden eyes of his.

He looked at you lifting one of his eyebrows up before sighing in defeat, hesitantly and awkwardly opening a bit his arms while muttering how ridiculous this was.

You gently embraced him and brought him close, noticing how his breath had catched and how his muscles tensed at the contact...

This warmth of yours... the scent... the cleaniest and purest person he ever met... all of this was so overwhelming and... new.

Ever since you came into his life you were like a open door for new things for him... emotions and feelings he thought he was never going to have or feel...

He was grateful to the yakusa until his death, but despite having certain adoration of Pops, the elder never gave much... this type of affection to him.

It was different, sweet but not nauseous; scary but not terrifying...

Before he knew it one or two tears had escaled from his eyes as he sniffled in disgust.

Shit.

"Kai?" You looked up at him in worry before he rather abruptly pushed you back to him as he burried his face on the crook of your neck.

You were going to find him disgusting and a waste of human being? Surely. But all he wanted now was to feel that security and warm for him to let out his frustations... even if it was for one time.

The gentle scratches of your nails in his scalp were what bromen him completly...

You shushed him and rocked a little both of you in the couch in a failed attempt to calm the poor man down.... This never ever happened before so to say you were worried as hell it was a understatement...

"Hey... it's okay." You shushed gently before carresing tje nack of his head gently "Overhaul~?" You tried using his other name that he chosed to see if it catched his main attention but you were shocked at him mumbling depressingly on your neck.

"Don't. Don't call me that." He said while sniffing a bit.

"What? Bu-"

"I don't want to be Overhaul now, hell I don't want to be nobody... I just want this stupid disgusting feeling to go away!" He wailed angrily as he agressivly wiped his tears away while his other hand still holded you close.

"You broked me dammit... y-you... please angel just fix it... fix this, please..." he cried silently on your neck while you still carresed his back and hair, up and down.

"I'm sorry my knight..." you mumbled, with your on tears on your face...

It didn't take long for him to calm down... Thankfully you had only chamomile tea... thankfully.

You slowly slide your fingers through his neck to the back of his head to take of the usual mask he always used... surprisingly not even flinched away... the maximun was him only turning his head a bit.

"I apologize... this must have been a side effect of a illn-"

"Kai... you know I love you, right?" He didn't respond... merely sighed through his nose tiredly.

You knew how this was difficult for him... so you never pried to get a response each time... it wasn't needed when he expressed in his others ways that he loved you...

"... angel I think I lost all the water in my system." You stiffed a giggle as you nuzzled your nose in his soft dark brow hair affectionately.

He rubbed his eyes withe heel of his palm before getting out of your embrace only to pick a cushion to place in your legs to lay on it right after.

"My head hurts..." he gave you a response for your silent question as you smiled down at him in oure adoration, he opened one of his eyes to look at you and acoffed slightly before closing them again.

You didn't miss that blush of his.

"Maybe if I turn off the lights will it make ot better?"

"... will you have to get up to do this?"

"Nope. I can reach it from here."

"Then do it already." He sighed in false annoyance, getting that the cushion wasn't helping before taking it off to lay directly on your legs. "Thank god you showered." He murmured with eyes closed.

"Im a clean person." You giggled before carresing his head a little, noticing the frow on his forehead forming whenever you stoped your actions.

Lights off you rook a look at the clock om your wall and noticed it only was 2 minutes left for start a new year... Remembering the fireworks, you carresed with your thumb the jaw of your boyfriend, getting him to slowly open his eyes again, already irritaded that you disturbed his peace.

"Sorry." You said after seing his annoyed look "But very soon is gling to be the new year and the fireworks will start... didn't want you to wake up from that."

He looked at the window and sighed before laying his head slightly on your tummy, enjoying the warmth.

"How many time is left?" He groggily spoked.

"Hm... now 20 seconds."

"... then lets count."

You smiled down at him in pure joy when he uncrossed one of his arms to pick one of your hands and place a gentle kiss on it.

"10, 9, 8, 7, 6..." you said already looking at your window eargly.

"5, 4, 3, 2... one." Chisaki said monotonously before the sounds of fireworks errupted and the dark sky of the nighy was enveloped by billions of colors.

Without you noticing, Chisaki looked up at your face, iluminated by the fireworks at the distance...

He smirked and closed his eyes again, not caring in the slightest about the fireworks show... he was in the arms of angel, what else could he ask for?

"Ne? Kai?" He growled in response... a rather talkative angel for his sake...

"Can I lay down too? My legs are already feeling numb, and also I can see the fireworks show without having a pain on my neck after."

"... we are on your couch." He groaned in false irritation.

"It fits!"

"...fine brat, whatever. Just shut your mouth. Is late."

You layed happily on your boyfriend's shoulder and soon got lulled to sleep from the comforting acent of his cologne.

Chisaki gave you a last look before shooking his head in disbelief, smilling, and kissing the tip of his finger to place it shortly after in the tip of your nose.

"Happy new year (Y/n)... thanks... for everthing."

#overhaul x reader #overhaul scenario #overhaul headcanons #fanfic overhaul #overhaul #chisaki kai imagine scenario #kai chisaki x reader #chisaki kai x reader #chisaki kai #kai chisaki #bnha x reader #bnha imagine #bnha characters #bnha villains #bnha #bnha fanfiction #my writing #zuffer writings

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scrapyardboyfriends · 3 years

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I'm afraid I would write out Liv, which the me of 3 years ago cannot believe I'm saying but it's just past time. She's never going to be anything but a drain on Aaron and the way they write their relationship now is creepy. It no longer matters if she's in scenes not woth Aaron, I still only the an obnoxious brat now no matter what she's doing.

I mean if they’re going to continue to write her as they have been, then I would be inclined to agree with you but I still have this foolish hope that someday they’ll do better. I don’t know why. I still see potential in her character

Don’t get me wrong, I HATE the way she’s written with respect to Aaron’s character, mostly because she’s largely used as a plot device to push him toward things and I don��t think that’s something that works. That and any time she’s yelling at him and he snaps back, she immediately gets to cry and he has to apologize even though his feelings were perfectly valid in the first place. It’s just not a relationship that I think works in its current state. The show needs to allow them to be more separate.

Which they are somewhat with this Vinny stuff except that it involves Paul, the latest abuser character she’s come into contact with and it’s just a giant mess because they continue to put her in these situations where she helps those characters and it’s bad.

But there’s those small slivers of good when they focus on her asexuality and how her relationship with Vinny is progressing and her friendship with Gabby where I see a decent character in there that I try and hold onto. I want that character, not the one she’s written as 95% of the time.

So I get you but I still foolishly hold out hope.

#emmerdale complaints corner

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vinylhazza · 4 years

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hii i love your concepts!!! could you write something about either y/n being deaf or about y/n and ethan or graysons child being deaf? i have this scene in my head that y/n is at a family party of theirs and someone tries talking to her or maybe the moment they get their hearing aids and hear for the first time? i think its a really cute concept; theyd deal really well with a disabled gf especially since we saw how they are with molly :)

grayson didn’t see it as something wrong with you. he didn’t see it has something that was holding you back - even your relationship back. in fact, it actually brought you closer. your strength to overcome such a big hurdle with this grace and confidence was something he couldn’t ever forget about. you had the boy hooked, absolutely infatuated almost instantly.

he had to think of all of the ways to get inside your heart with so many other acts of devotion. it pushed him to know you inside and out. his heart started fluttering not over small minuscule things but over the graceful movement of your hands when you would sign. the way you would speak every word along with the motions as if he would have trouble understanding. the way words seemed...unnecessary when you were with each other. with a look into your eyes he would understand. you were connected, and you’d never felt that with anyone since you lost your hearing. everyone always struggled...but not him. he was smitten quite quickly. but now his heart was full of fiery love. it wasn’t something he’d ever experienced before, but it drove him crazy how head over heels he was for you.

he adored that everything in the relationship was authentic. you had a different way of looking at the world and chose to share that with he and ethan daily and teach them new ways to appreciate the world around him. you opened his eyes to another side of his heart. but he wanted to give you something back...but what? in your eyes, just him giving you is undecided attention and trusting you with his heart was enough. the fact that he tried to hard to make sure you always felt normal and included was enough. the way he kissed your eyelids every night before bed was enough. the way he taught you how fucking amazing the sexual side of life could be was enough.

it was something you never opened up about because who would understand? it was embarrassing enough that you had to put forth so much effort to do every day tasks, but then he knew that no one had ever shown you what it was like to feel touched. you just wanted to hear his voice, you knew it would be just as beautiful as his body and his kind heart. just feeling the vibrations while you’re laying against his chest makes you shiver even if you can’t hear it.

you had lost your hearing at 15 and spent so long trying to adapt to your new way of life that you honestly forgot about the whole dating thing...until grayson. the sudden life change took you off the market in its entirety. but then grayson fucking dolan had to come in and make it impossible for you to not love him. he was honestly the only man that you fell hard for. i mean hard.

it was interesting that he went through so much to chase after you even when you repeatedly turned him down countless times - with your own fear that he would figure out it is actually something that will be a major factor in the relaitonship. but he was persistent. everytime he looked at you...it was like this fire erupted in you. you couldn’t take that heat one night when he leaned in just slightly, staring at your lips intently, longingly. you had been the one to smash them together, closing your eyes and letting every hightened sense take the lead in your motions. slow, fluid, passionate, unmatched. the feeling of his hands reaching up to cup your face to keep you in place as he worked at your lips almsot had you convinced you were in a dream. there is no way he’s this perfect. it had been electric, and you knew right then that...you were inevitably in fucking mushy, gag worthy, love woth grayson bailey dolan.

he made it a point everyday to try make things as easy as he could for you with his crazy lifestyle. it was actually easier than either of you thought. you clicked like puzzle pieces. you even started appearing in the videos. at first you refrained from signing in case it was annoying for the viewers because you could talk quite fine, but grayson had shut that down real quick. he assured you it was okay to be yourself, that you never have to hide your light and uniqueness from anyone.

the day he suprised you in his bedroom one evening was one day you’d never forget. he had been taking classes to practice more with signing, an online class where he could live chat with an instructor and make sure he could actually have fluid conversations. once he was fully equipped and practiced enough, he was ready to surprise her.

he had sat through many conversations and breakdown sessions about your lack of hearing. kissed your head when you expressed your longing to finally hear his voice, hear your mother’s voice, hear your favorite song again. you had a doctors appointed to check and see if you could get hearing aids to hear for the first time since you were 15. the doctor had told you that you were a perfect candidate, but unfortunately you didn’t have the money to go through with it.

grayson had walked into your room, scaring you only slightly when he grabbed the book you were invested in out of your hands and tilting your chin to look up at him.

then he started signing.

really fluid hand motions, explaining that he had been practicing to surprise you, take classes, and had a surprise for you. you are looking at him in awe, grinning dreamily up at the man that God decided to send to you for reasons unknown to you. he was mouthing along, eyes tearing up when you started to cry, gentle rocks of your shoulders letting him know that not only were you impressed and thankful, but happy that he would do that for you. that he really loved you enough to jump headfirst into the lifestyle.

but what really got you was him explaining that he had set up a doctors appointment for your hearing aids. he would pay for the entire things, down to the very dime, just to make his loves dream come true. he was going to fly your mom in to come to the appointment, so you could hear her on the same day. all of the people you loved would be there - and he would be holding your hand the whole time.

you broke down into a series of sobs, jumping from the bed to hook your legs around his waist, burying your face into his neck as he rocked you back and forth, rubbing circles into your back to sooth you through this moment...you would finally get to hear him say i love you. after all this time...you would finally hear his voice speaking to you. you would finally hear ethan, who you are sure will crack a joke about the whole situation, in a kind hearted way of course. and you will finally be able to hear your parents voice for the first time since your teen years...this is almost too good to be true.

this man has given you a gift so sacred, so cherished by you and it hasn’t even happened yet. he explains it will be next week on tuesday. the appointment will be at 1pm, just enough time to pick up your parents from the airport.

you hope all goes well, and you cry once more just thinking of finally hearing the love of your life speak to you for the very first time.

...

part 2?

#asks #gray!concepts #grayson!concepts #this probably sucks im sorry

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inessencedevided · 4 years

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The Untamed, episode 17 - watching notes

Okay ... here we go. I'm dreading this a bit

And I still miss Lan Wangji 😔

Okay wait. I know it's hard to remember because this goes on for like 20 (?) Episodes, but this is still a flashback. So technically, wwx's memory flashback is a flashback within a flashback. This show, man...

Oh no, 3 minutes into the episode and I'm emo again 😥

New preferred endgame btw: wwx brews Hefeng Liquor near a beautiful lake in the mountains. Lan Wangji lives there with him, but since cloud recess is nearby, can still go there daily to fulfil his duties. They go on night-hunts together whenever possible and are the adoptive dads of about a dozen Lan disciples. How close am I? 😁 (Rhetorical question!!! I don't want to know!)

Who gave Wei Wuxian permission to look so devastated!?! ��

Or Wen Ning to be so pure, for that matter? 💚

Thos scene, of Wei Wuxian cradling Jiang Cheng to his chest, asking helplessly and in an almost childlike way, where they can go, reminds me of something my mother recently said to me in conversation. She said that, no matter how old you are, be it 15 or 50, when your parents die, you will feel like you are now orphaned. And the part of you that could be someone's child and be loved like a child and that still craves that love, will feel utterly and hopelessly alone. I'm sure you could make arguments against this, for example in situations where parents couldn't act as parents do before they died anyway (for example, abusive parents or parents who need care themselves due to age or illness), but I think she has a point. A part of us, I think will always crave the unconditional love and trust one (should) feel in early childhood. And while parent's death at some point in one's life is to be expected, it will still leave a whole that no other form of love can ever fill. The way the three siblings are reacting to their (foster-)parents deaths really drives that feeling home, imo. Jiang Chang's blind rage, Jiand Yanli's illness that renders and shock, as well as Wwi Wuxian's frantic attempts to hold everything together. In the scene I'm watching right now, he really looks like a child, and oldest sibling (even though I know, he's not. But he is acting like one), trying to step up and fill the role of the parents, but still, being a child himself, feeling absolutely inadequate, lost and helpless. And it breaks my heart.

Sorry for the long tangent, but I've got feelings you all 🙈

I ADORE Wen Ning so much 😫

*Nelson from the Simpsons voice* Haha!!! @ Wen Chao for being outsmarted by him

Aaaaahhhh!!! Can I just say I LOVE THIS SO MUCH! The fact that Wwi Wuxian once helped Wen Ning, which Jisng Cheng criticized him for (!!!) now saves them!

I love it how the music and the way it's shit tells us to be shocked when wen chao says "[I will] kill them all" and I'm sitting here going

So wait, has Wen Qing abandoned the rest of the Wen clan?

I've catalogued two versions of scary Wwi Wuxian so far: 🔥🔥🔥 and 😢😢😢

This is sadly the latter kind

Okay no, wen Qing didn't abandon the rest of the wen clan, but she still helps the Jiang siblings

Wei Wuxian continues to break my heart 💔💔💔

He's so desperately trying to hold them all together, even though he himself is breaking apart 😔

Wen Qing is a straight up badass and I won't hear otherwise!

Nooooooo nnonononono

This can't be!!! I KNOW jiang Cheng is alive in the present timeline

Or is he alive? ... I'm not sure I understand what's going on

(Quick aside: I'm pretty sure that wei Wuxian dodnt wear purple before. Now he does. A purple belt and a white and purple inner robe ... which are the Jiang colours... JUST RIP MY HEART INTO EVEN TINIER PIECES, SURE!!! 😭😭😭)

So he is breathing... and moving ... but something is wrong, right?

Okay so he isn't dead but he lost his golden core ... argh shit. And I thought that situation couldn't get worse. (In retrospect, that's probably a though I shouldn't have at all while watching this show :/)

But ... that doesn't seem right either from what I remember from the present timeline. Wasn't he cultivating again? I'm honestly not sure

And now, apparently, its Jiang Cheng's turn to crush my heart

Ok, I'm easily distracted today, bear with me: wen quing's talk about the wen clan's actions not being who they are. That they, fir generations, have only healed people, never killed really reminds me of how in Avatar: The last Airbender, the Fire Nation forgot that fire isn't only angry destruction, but also nurturing warmth, life and healing. The comparison kind of lends itself easily thanks to the Wen Clan's similar role in the story, as well as their fire and sun symbolism. Maybe Wen Qing and Wen Ning could also serve as this story's Zuko and Iro, reconciling the two interpretations and saving their clan. (This is wild speculation based on an arbitrary comparison. I'm probably wrong 😅 again, don't tell me ;))

Has Wei Wuxian slept, once, since he woke up in that field?

Oh honey ... :'(

He isn't eating either :'(

I did not expect this show to show this many varieties of grieve in such a realistic way

At least his beard is making me laugh 😂

Just the thought of Lan Wangji gives him hope!!! 😭

YOU COMPLETE IDIOT YOU ARE NOT TO BLAME

at least one person still has some sense

Finally!!!! Finally someone comforts him too! Finally he LET'S himself be comforted

Wen Quing helps him woth the research and now he brings her food. I'm soft! 😭

Oh oh ...

Is he ...?

Is he going to try and give Jiang Cheng his core?

WHAT IS IT WITH THESE SELF-DESTRUCTIVE IDIOTS????

AAAARGH!

(Lan Zhan ... where are you? 😥

@sweetlittlevampire @fandom-glazed @elenirlachlagos @allhailthedramallama @luckymoony 💚

#sophie watches the untamed #the untamed #wei wuxian #wwx #Jiang Cheng #jiang yanli #jiang siblings #wen ning #wen qing #wen chao

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haematicmagic · 4 years

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Oh no, i’m stuck at home! – a guide

So, i know that i’m probably telling this to the wrong people – most of us artists, poets and various fandom dwellers know how to keep ourselves occupied when stuck at home, but especially for workaholics, those with anxiety or those of us dependant on feeling productive to keep out depression (and for the normies), i feel like a extrended guide on how to be home properly could be useful.

By now, everyone has seen checklists on how to behave during quarantine and lockdowns enough to give us all a collective anxiety attack, but what, i feel, is neglected, is the fact that staying home spontaneously for 5 weeks, sometimes involuntarily, can be a terror in its own right.

So, from someone that has been sick for months with almost nothing to do, here are some tips and tricks to not succumb too much, if you’re the type for that

1. Stay active

Yes, i know, nobody is surprised, but its serious. Netflix and chill might keep you occupied for a few days, maybe two weeks, maybe the whole time, but if your mental state depends on feeling busy, stay active. if you have a local forest or park that you can safely visit, go, atleast every two days for atleast two hours. if you have a balcony, sit there.

2. Make your home liveable

keep your rooms ventilated, let sunlight in, take Vitamin D if you have it. Do workout at home if you can. Going stir crazy might not be an issue in your every–day life, but it gets everyone eventually. Eat your veggies before they spoil, eat regularly and with conscience. After work, if you must go, shower and desinfect your stuff, wear clean clothes even if you stay home and keep up woth your chores (if your mental state allows it, of course. There is another thing to be said about those of us that have a harder time to keep up with themselves in general, but this is mainly about not letting daily life disintegrate).

2. New content is your friend.

Podcasts, DnD online, Netflix or Prime from friends – if you’re like me, you most likely have a watchlist the size of east texas. I recently posted a Podcast Rec. List on my blog that has more than a year of pure audio content altogether, many of these are also great for falling asleep or on the go. For podcasts, i recommend Spotify if you have Premium or the Podbean app (which is free and allows you to download podcasts). The obvious big streaming sites exist and now is the time to share them with your friends, see if they have discounts or get those free trials. Also, your local news might have some free documentaries on their websites. There are most likely also books you haven’t read or reread. If you don’t know where to start, you might not like my taste but let me drop a few names:

Podcasts: Welcome to Nightvale, The Magnus Archives

Shows: Good Omens (prime), Preacher (prime), Umbrella Academy (Netflix), How To Sell Drugs Online Fast (Netflix), Obviously Supernatural and Dr Who for a rerun (on Burning Series.to)

Also, because i know Tumblr: If you are taking this opportunity to find every single slash fic on this planet and consume it, in gods name, appreciate the creators and writers that took the time to bring you content. Leave kudos, credit artists, leave nice comments, etc.

3. Do not despair.

Yes, the news are terrifying and staying updated is important, but your mental health is, too. I recommend „Squid“, an app that summarizes news around the world. They have a daily report function with which you can inform yourself quickly and hopefully without fake sensational headlines or panic. I also recommend „Good News“, a news app specifically for positive reports if you feel like giving up on humanity. I am not saying you should ignore the news or the reality of the situation, but the last days or weeks have been honestly depressing and if you already struggle with an outlook on life, dwelling in the bad will not help.

4. Socialize. No matter what.

Discord is free and they have extended some lifestreaming features to match the demand. Amino has communities for any interest with Chats, Voice chats, Community–made Quizzes and more. Mastondon is a (apparently) more secure twitter alternative if you dont wanna use twitter. Twitch has live streams to almost any topic (i reccomend the one that shows Bob Ross shows 24/7) and even a live stream can make you feel less alone. Scedule meetings with friends over there, regularly, just don’t succumb to the loneliness this situation might bring.

5. Learn

Sign up for Duolingo or take it up again and have an adorable owl threaten your family while learning some spanish. Get Mimo, an app much like Duolingo that teaches the basics of programming. Get into ASL, Write a DnD campaign, try that hobbie you haven’t had time for, write motivational messages for your friends that need to work, whatever it is. Try something new, if school or work aren’t keeping you busy enough.

Additionally, try to do physical stuff too. Get into knitting, sewing, wood carving, cooking, baking, prep meals, reorganize your room, paint your stuff, start a bullet journal, start a group, get addicted to tik tok, volunteer,

6. Sleep

Now, this is probably the most important point: Keep a scedule! Especially if school just closed for you and you aren’t already sick, just sitting at home, do not give into the temptation to live nocturnal. Yes, free time is fun, but dont cut yourself off. Get up at a reasonable time if you can, dress and shower and have a scedule. Try not to loose track of time and under/over sleep. If your body demands more sleep the first few days or weeks, that can be just stress compensation but try not to loose yourself too much.

7. Help if you can.

Still healthy and of good financial status or immune sytem? Others arent. Especially the homeless and unensured are at great risk. Find your local organization and donate your time or money if you can spare it. Try to support friends by informing them, keep unreasonable cases out of the hospitals and look after high risk people in your life (those can include but are not limited to: elderly, small kids, pregnant people, trans men/nbys that bind, those with autoimmune disorder, those with a weakened immune system, those in contact with a lot of people in their job)

Many organisations are also looking to either find shelter to animals or other people. If you can take them in, you are doing humanity a favour.

also, if you can, dont be that person to panic buy. This only forces other people into panic buying too. Buy reasonable amounts of what you need and be humble in your choices, if you can. Be mindful of other people. If you can afford/know how to cook at home, dont take the readymade meals from people that cant. In gods name, dont buy up food for people with special needs, like stockpiling gluten free flour just cause you’re on a diet and leaving nothing to those with allergies.)

8. Know your rights

Keep contact with others in your line of work and what procedures they are taking. Dont let anyone bully you into working in hostile environments, if you can. Find out how/when to take sick days for this and when/how your work or school will continue again. This is a special situation and in many cases, there are special rules implemented to help. Dont let anyone fuck you over.

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