And The Stars Will Guide Us Home
A Dazai x Fem!Reader Bungo Stray Dogs/Batfamily crossover
Chapter one ----> Next
Y/n swore to herself the day she got onto that plane that the only reason she’d ever return to Yokohama would be to burn the hellscape to the ground and dance in the ashes.
Yet, ten years later she stands in the heart of that very city, swirling cheap booze in an even cheaper red solo cup.
After all this time, the only thing she can conjure herself to think is;
How, in the everloving fuck did I get here?
A decade after Y/n escaped fled from Yokohama and shed herself of her past she's sent back with a new name and new goals.
-Protect Atsushi Nakajima at all costs
-Don't let your past catch up to you
But some things are easier said than done with the port mafia on her tail and when increments of her past come in the form of a shady, bandaged detective.
All Y/n knows is that Yokohama is in danger, and she'll be damned if she sits on the sidelines, doing nothing to protect the city that failed to protect her
Even if it's at the price of losing all she's worked for, and remembering all she died to forget.
DISCLAIMER: You do not need to be a Batman fan to read (but you do have to be a BSD fan, obviously lol), everything you need to know is mentioned in the fic. If I had to make a guess the fic is 80% Bungo Stray Dogs and 20% Batfamily, only appearing in the flashbacks of the first few chapters until much, much later.
Series warnings (as of now): All warnings kind of coincide with the warnings of the series, such as; violence, mentions of abusive/neglectful guardians, swearing, past character deaths, nightmares, mentions of self-harm, nightmares, Mori being kinda a creep, panic attacks etc.
Chapter warnings: Swearing, panic attack, nightmares, Dazai makes a creepy joke (Y/n tries to remove Atsushi's tie when he's passed out so he doesn't harm himself in his sleep, Dazai implies she's trying to take advantage of him; she's not.)
WC: 5104
Y/n swore to herself the day she got onto that plane that the only reason she’d ever return to Yokohama would be to burn the hellscape to the ground and dance in the ashes.
Yet, ten years later she stands in the heart of that very city, swirling cheap booze in an even cheaper red solo cup.
After all this time, the only thing she can conjure herself to think is;
How, in the everloving fuck did I get here?
“WHO WANTS TO SEE ME CHUG THIS GALLON OF CHOCOLATE MILK?!” The detective with a funky hat announced to the cheers of the younger overall clad detective, glugging it down with the vigor of an intoxicated frat boy trying to impress his brothers. Another detective, adorned with a bob and a hair clip that shimmers so slightly in the fluorescent ceiling lights of the office, drunkenly slurs something incoherent to which the scrawny kid in suspenders. Although Y/n couldn’t make out what she said, she can only assume that she was trying to convince her new coworker drink along with her, given the outstretched bottle in her shaky hand and the suddenly very flustered face of the other new hire sputtering something along the lines of ‘uh- i’m too young to drink! S-sorry!”
Y/n sighs in both wonder and defeat before taking a sip of her drink, settling into the wall she’s leaning against. This is what I'm doing now, I guess.
“Not a party person?” a smooth voice asks as he slides next to her, red solo cup also in hand.
Her eyes tilt to face him, a seemingly uninterested glace. ‘You could say that.” She nurses her drink, eyes scanning the room once more. “Although I have never been to a party where you chug chocolate milk,...” Her eyes peer to see the scrawny kid from earlier (Atsushi, if she’s correct) who fell into peer pressure, chugging a carton of chocolate milk with cheers from office staff and the younger detectives while Glasses scolds Hair Clip on appropriate workplace behavior. “..but they sure look like they are having fun. Sure looks better than jungle juice.”
“Ah yes, chocolate milk, the drink of champions and school age kids alike.” he quips. “Although I believe strawberry milk is superior.”
She takes another glance at the man. Dressed in layers of stiff, restrictive clothing, and even going to the extent to hide sensitive, vulnerable areas (such as the neck and wrists) in copious amounts of bandages. His hair was long enough to cover what the bandages on his neck couldn’t and was also long enough to hide if need be. His trenchcoat, although worn open and freely, is there as a mere taunt or a front of sorts. Drawing people in while simultaneously keeping them out and away. Or that's what she would think, if she couldn’t see the frayed and worn edges around the cuffs and the discoloration at some more well loved spots. The trenchcoat is obviously sentimental in some way or another. His armor.
Everything about him suggests that he would be a loner, the quiet type, an avid avoider of all things small talk, yet his actions and body language was smooth and fluid. He was posed freely against the wall, eyes gazing upon hers as if he had nothing to hide.
Alright. She downs the rest of her drink. I’ll bite.
“Do they always throw parties for the new hires?” she asks, now giving him her full attention.
“Well, no. But we don’t often get two newbies at once. Especially when one of them’s the prez’s daughter.”
She gives a tight lipped smile. “So I was an orphan all my life and now I'm a nepo baby.” she retorted dryly. “Great.”
“Y’know, I never really thought of Fukuzawa as a dad, y’know? No, that's a lie.” he corrects himself. “He’s like the dad of the agency.”
“No shit.” she mutters. “‘Learned that from the welcome committee.”
He gives a quick chuckle. “Yeah, Ranpo’s sure is an eccentric one.”
She raises her eyebrow. “Says the man who asked me to commit a double suicide upon the first three seconds of meeting me.”
He throws his hand back to his forehead dramatically, as if he was a helpless maiden. “Oh but Belladonna, can’t you see! I’m just a lonely man, plagued by misfortune and misery,” he grasps her hands, fingers dancing around the solo cup in each of their hands. “the only way to cure my ailment is-”
“DAZAI, DID YOU ALREADY FORGET WHAT FUKUZAWA TOLD YOU, YOU OBNOXIOUS TWAT?” the scolding glasses fellow yells from across the office, gathering everyone’s attention.
“Kunikidaaaa,” Dazai whines. “Do you really have no faith in me?”
“None.” he quickly replies.
Yoru bite back a laugh with a cough.
Dazai gasps. “Rude. I was just telling her my dream of a double suicide with a beautiful woman, not inviting her to have one. There’s a difference” he informs, crossing his bandaged arms. “But ‘twat’, that’s a new one! Good for you on broadening your vocabulary!!” he cheers with a thumbs up.
Kunikida just rolls his eyes and goes on to lecturing Overalls on how ‘in no circumstances would bringing a cow into the agency be even remotely logical, yes even for chocolate milk, Ranpo.’
“I thought Fukuzawa was the dad.” Yoru comments.
Dazai laughs. “Fukuzawa is who Kunikida wishes he looked like. If we were talking about parental roles here, Fukuzawa would be the corporate 9-5 father while Kunikida would be the overworked mother that no one listens to.”
Yoru chuckles. “I don’t know… He seems like he’d be a hell of a PTA mom.
Dazai shudders. “Now that’s a terrifying thought.” He takes another sip of his drink. “So Fukuzawa definitely has dad energy, I just don’t think I can picture him with a child. The man is wayyyyyy too serious. A real ‘married to my work’ kind of guy, I don’t ever think he’s been on a date, let alone got some.”
And there it is. The actual reason for this conversation.
“I mean, all men have needs though, can’t ignore that. I bet he’s the strong silent type- oooh I bet he-”
“Dazai, right?” she interrupts
“That's me.”
“I’mma tell you something, and I don’t want you to take this the wrong way,” she starts putting a friendly hand on his shoulder. “I’m not a fan of all the ‘subtle, hinted at, implied,’ shit. If you wanna know something, just ask. It saves everyone time and energy.” she tosses her cup in the nearby trash can. “Maybe you can learn from him how to ask about someone’s parentage without talking about their father in bed, m’kay?” She smiles bitterly. “Thanks.”
Dazai’s eyes widen the slightest amount, his mouth opening slightly to speak-
“AY, YORU COME TRY THIS!” Hair Clip calls, waving a bottle, nearly hitting the copper top detective in the head.
Y/n breathes out a laugh, “Alright, only if someone else pours it, though, and you put it down.” she jokes, taking the bottle away from her and away from the heads of others.
You would think a guy weighing 120 pounds wet wouldn’t be so hard to carry. Y/n has had to carry many people out of burning buildings or away from hazardous areas but none of them seemed to be this heavy, and they usually work with her in some way. They weren’t a jumbled ball of intoxicated dead weight, limbs flying every which way and silver hair flying into her face.
“Come on, kid.” she grunts, throwing his arm around her neck. “Work with me here.” Fate clearly wanted to work against her since his leg nearly sent both of them into the rough sidewalk. “GOD DAMN IT.” she grunts. “How much did this kid drink?”
“He only had a sip!”
“Gah!” she nearly drops the boy.
“Oops, sorry! I didn’t mean to startle you. Here, lemme help!” he offers, taking an arm.
“No, I-” she starts before he throws the older boy over his shoulders like a sack of potatoes. “Well, alright then.”
“Dang, he is kinda wobbly.” he admits to a slight groan from the boy over his shoulders. How he did not wake after being manhandled like that, Y/n has no clue. “Sheesh, I never met anyone this much of a lightweight. He only had the tiniest amount of sake.” he shakes his head in disapproval. “Anyway, you are going to the dorms, right?”
She nods.
“Okay, right this way!” he points and continues on, like he wasn’t balancing a person nearly half a foot taller on his shoulder.
Alright, I guess.
“How are you liking the agency so far?” he asks, kicking a stray pebble.
“It’s… definitely something.” she admits, resting her hands in her jacket pocket.
He nods, hair tickling Atsushi's waist. “I’ll be honest, I really was surprised when Fukuzawa came back from his business trip with someone, let alone his own daughter! That threw us all in a loop!” he confesses.
Y/n gives an awkward half laugh. “Yeah I bet.”
“I’m sorry Ranpo was kinda rude to you, he’s just…like that.”
She chuckles. “You mean blunt?”
He nods. “Yeah, blunt. That works.”
“Yeah I'd be kinda surprised too, I don’t blame him for being shocked. I was too.”
“It must be hard packing up all your stuff and moving here! I mean waking up in a whole different continent one morning must be so weird. Must be like waking up on a whole ‘nother planet!”
She smiles. “Kinda. But it’s not nearly as strange as when I moved to the states in the first place. At least I already know all the customs here, not to mention the langauge.”
He paused. “Why’d you move in the first place?” he asks, quickly following up with “Not to sound rude or anything, just curious!”
She shakes her head, “don’t worry, you’re good.” she clarifies. “hmmmm…”She thought for a moment. “Sometimes people just need a change, y’know.” she reveals. “A fresh start.”
“How does it feel to be back?”
She takes a deep breath in, brisk night air tickling down her lungs, staring into the polluted Yokohama sky.
Suddenly, she was 14 again, staring down the very same lights she sees now, saying goodbye to a land that never felt like home.
“It….” she starts. “It almost feels like I never left.”
“Home sweet home,” Yoru mutters, unlocking the door and welcoming Kenji in.
Kenji looks around. “Where should I put him?”
“Over there is fine.'' She tilts her head to the left tatami mat, covers slightly tousled while hanging her jacket over the coat rack. “Honestly, you should just shake him awa- or that. That works.”
Kenji dusts his hands of the invisible dirt after casually tossing him onto the mat as if he was merely a jacket, leaving Atsushi in a poor tangle of limbs and guaranteeing a crick in his neck and back pain when he awakens. Then he lets out a big yawn and says his goodbyes before heading to his own dorm to retire, muttering something about ‘finding a midnight snack.’
Left alone (besides the intoxicated weretiger, who she grew more concerned about by the minute), she sighed. I guess this is my life now. She hears a subtle groan and suddenly regrets not taking Yosano up for another drink.
Flipping Atsushi into a more breathable position (i.e, in a position not akin to a marionette,) and reaches to take off his tie.
“Wow, Yoru, I never really took you for the type.”
Whipping her head around she sees Dazai, lounging slyly against the doorframe. When the hell did he get here? Didn’t Kenji close the door? “The type for what, exactly?” she questions. “I don’t know what the hell you are trying to imply, but i’d rather my roommate wake up with a hangover, not dead. Thank you very-”
In an instant, the weretiger shot up and shuffled away from Y/n in a panic, hands protecting his face in a desperate attempt to protect himself.
An action Yoru knew all too well.
“I’m sorry, I’m sorry! Please don’t hurt me!”
Yoru’s harsh eyes immediately softened, her stone cold, almost apathetic exterior melting away to the surprise of Dazai whose eyebrows raise, just for a moment.
She lowers her hands to her sides and sits up straight, creating some distance.“Atsushi…”
Atsushi curls himself into a ball, head dug deep into his knees with his arms blocking out any possible sources of light. Rocking slightly back and forth, he whispers i’m sorry, again and again like a mantra. Hoping, pleading for his own safety with his breath getting only heavier and quicker after each word.
“Atusuhi,” she says calmly and clearly, “You’re having a panic attack, I need you to breathe for me. Just a few deep breaths. Can you do that for me?”
Y/n wasn’t sure if he shook his head no, or if he was just shaking, but she doubts if he even heard her as he continues his ‘i’m sorry’s, voice only getting more choked after every word.
She takes a deep breath in. “You are safe, Atsushi. It was just a nightmare. Nobody is going to hurt you here, I promise you. I need you to do something for me, okay? Nothing hard. Just need you to answer an easy question, okay? It’s a little silly, but I need you to bare with me here. Can you tell me something you hear?”
No response.
“Atsushi, I need you to tell me something you can hear.”
His rambling slows down to harsh breaths. There we go.
She starts to repeat her command before she hears the boy whimper something.
“Hm? I’m sorry, I didn’t-”
“You. I can hear you.”
She smiles. “That’s right, good job Atsushi. Now can you tell me something you see?”
The sounds of labored breathing echoed in the room before he slowly peeks his head to murmur “Mats. There’s a mat.”
Y/n nods. “Yes there is a mat. You are doing great. Just one more question. I need you to tell me something you smell.”
“C-chocolate milk.” he sniffs. “I spilled some on me earlier.”
Y/n puffs out a laugh. “Yeah, you did go a little crazy with the chocolate milk.” she jokes.
Seeing the gleam in Atsushi’s eyes over his knees, she scoots a smidge closer. “You are safe here,” she repeats. “The only people here are me and,” she turns to the door to find it closed, no sight of Dazai. “Just me. I’m the only person here.” testing the waters, she scoots closer, now by his side. “I really doubt that anyone is dumb enough to break into the Armed detective agency’s dorms. Sounds kinda like a death wish to me.” she joked.
He gave a half smile, sniffed and used his wrist to rub his eye. “Yeah, yeah you are right.”
“Besides, if someone did, I'd kick their ass. I’m a lot tougher than I look. But I think you are tough enough to win by yourself, Tiger boy.” she teases with a slight playful nudge, making the boy blush a little. “Anyone in their right mind would haul ass as soon as they see a fucking tiger. Imagine you are trying to rob a joint and you break in all sneakily just to find a huge tiger staring you down!” she shakes her head. “Yeah, I'd change career paths real quick. Find god and become a priest or something, sheesh. They’d go out to their van with all their thieving pals like..” she musters up a deep voice “Dude, where’s all the goods? And why are your pants wet? And…why does it smell like pee?”
Atsushi chuckles this time, fully emerging from his bundle of limbs he was hiding in. “I- I don’t think I'm that scary.”
Y/n gives him the ‘are you kidding’ face. “Please, I've seen someone crap their pants after seeing a doberman. Someone pissing themself is not out of the question when confronted by a giant angry white tiger.” she ruffles his hair. “Don’t sell yourself short, kiddo.”
He smiles. “Thank you.”
Her eyebrows furrow. “It’s just the truth.”
He shakes his head. “No, not for that, well I guess that too,” he corrects before shyly looking away, running his pale hand through his tousled hair. “For everything.”
She shrugs. “Don’t worry about it. It happens to the best of us.”
His eyebrows raise. “The best of us wake up to panic attacks?”
She sighs, and settles into a more comfortable position. “Well, I do.”
His heterochromatic eyes widened. “Really?”
She nods. “Yup. And I can’t quite say I'm the best, but I'm pretty damn great. In my opinion at least.”
He’s silent, for a few moments, before almost whispering, “Do they ever stop?”
She takes a deep breath in, biting her lip. “No. No, they don’t.”
He casts his eyes to his knees again, tears rimming his eyes.
“Atsushi, I'm not gonna lie to you. You deserve to know the truth. What you went through affects your brain in the way other memories don’t. This isn’t just something you can forget over time, no matter how much you want to.” Atsushi gulps and bites his lip, holding back tears. “You went through something so harmful it changed your brain and how it processes things. And no matter what you do, you can’t change that.'' She places a hand on his, drawing his attention to her words “But if I learned one thing in my 24 years of life is that nothing I can do will ever change what happened to me. But just because I suffered a great deal before, doesn’t mean i’m incapable or unworthy of living a full and happy life.” She looks at him in his glassy eyes. “Atsushi, I don’t quite know what you went through, or for just how long, but I know for a damn fact that you deserved none of it. No matter what you did, you were a child that deserved to be protected. You might not feel that way now, but you will one day. Because although we may never be free from our past, we can heal from it.”
“W-what do you mean?”
“Have you heard of the word ‘trauma' before, Atsushi?”
He nods.
“Well, just like physical trauma, there’s also mental trauma. With physical trauma you get physical scars, and with mental trauma there is…”
“Mental scars?”
She nods. “Yes, mental scars. If you ever are seriously injured in a way that leaves physical scarring, the effects of it linger for your whole life. Sometimes it's just with the physical reminder that its there, and sometimes it's pain from something that happened so long ago.”
“So, you are saying that I'm always gonna be afraid like this?” he whimpers.
She shakes her head. “That’s not what i’m saying. Atsushi, ten years ago i’d wake up almost every night crying, and that's the days that I could sleep. I could barely hold a conversation with anybody, because anyone could be a threat. I was too scared to share my name let alone talk to you about my past like this. Now? I have nightmares once every few months, most of them just leave me a lil shaken and I drink some tea before falling back to sleep. What i’m saying is that it gets better. I promise.
“A-are you sure?”
She huffs out a playful laugh. “Yes, I am 100% sure. But it takes time, Atsushi. Some days are gonna be worse than others, and sometimes things trigger bad memories. For example, someone touching around your neck while you're sleeping. I’m sorry for that, by the way. I was trying to take your tie off.” she apologizes.
“I-it’s okay!” he replies, rubbing the back of his neck. “You were just trying to help!”
“Speaking of help,” she starts, standing up and stretching her legs. “You know what I used to do with my friend after having really bad nightmares?”
“What?” he recipes as she walks over to the small dorm fridge.
“Eat ice cream and watch kids shows.” she said, picking up a pint. “Here, catch.” she said tossing it to the were-tiger who awkwardly juggled it before catching it properly.
“Um is this a common practice when it comes to nightmares and panic attacks? A-and where did you get the ice cream?” he asks as she sits down next to him, two spoons, her tablet and her own pint.
“Nope, but it always made me feel better. And Fukuzawa asked if some of the secretaries could go buy some food to make me feel more at home.” she shared, setting up her tablet. “Anyway, what's your favorite show you would watch as a kid?”
“I never really watched tv as a kid. Or ever, really.”
“WHAT?” she said a bit too loudly, making Atsushi jump in his seat. “Sorry, but how have you never watched any tv as a kid? When I was in group homes they just sat us in front of the TV all day.” she lied, partially at least. “Are orphanages really that different?” he shrugged.
“Well today's your lucky day kiddo! I’ve got just the show for you!” she said, fiddling with her tablet. “This was my favorite show as a kid, I probably watched every episode of the original series 10 times, at least.”
He sits up, intrigued. “What's it about?”
“It's about a boy going on mighty adventures with his companions learning skills and training to be the masters of their field.”
“Oh, sounds interesting.”
“Oh it's also about monsters they use to fight that they keep locked up in containment.” she reveals, pressing play on her tablet.
“Wait WHAT.”
“I wanna be the very best, like no one ever was..” the tablet sings. Yoru smiles at Atsushi’s dumbfounded expression. “Pokemon?” he asks. She nods.
“What else?” she smiled.
“I had no idea Pikachu was such a jerk when he first met Satoshi.” Atsushi shares, taking another scoop of his ice cream, eyes transfixed on the pixilated glory that is 90’s anime.
‘Well,” she starts, taking a scoop into her mouth. “Houw wood you feeel eef shome ranoom keed wok’d ober ta ou an startet bossin ya round?” she said nearly incoherently.
He nods, completely understanding what she said. . “True. Hey, what ice cream flavor is that?”
“Curry.” she says, coherently this time. “Wanna try?” she asks, holding out her pint.
He shrugs, scooping some onto his spoon and into his mouth, before immediately coughing. “Why,” he coughs. “Why is it so spicy?”
She shrugs. “It’s curry flavored, and curry tends to be spicy.”
“It just tastes like cold curry!” he shakes his head in disapproval. “I know there's a lot of strange flavors out there, but this has to be the strangest i’ve ever tasted.” He admits, taking a scoop of his vanilla ice cream to drown out the spice.
“You don’t like it?”
He shakes his head. “Not really. It’s definitely not a flavor I think of when I'm craving ice cream, that’s for sure.”
She nods. “Yeah, me either.”
His eyebrows furrowed in confusion. ““Then why are you eating it? And why did the secretaries buy his flavor out of all of them and not a more common one like matcha?”
“Because I asked for two pints, a spicy curry one for me and any other flavor to share with you. Ice cream is better shared, y’know.”
He gives her a funny look, the adventures of Satoshi and Pikachu disregarded. “Well yeah I guess it does taste better when shared, but that doesn’t explain why you specifically asked for a flavor you don’t like?”
She sighed, taking a lick of the gooey orange substance. “It reminds me of someone i once held dear. And sometimes,” she looks into the pint, reminiscing on lives past lived, “Nostalgia is the sweetest thing of all.”
Once Yoru was sure that Atsushi was lulled to sleep by the overly animated voice of Pikachu and friends, she turned off her tablet and put away the slosh that remained in the ice cream pint. Gazing over his peaceful figure, she smiles softly, and drapes his comforter over him. Basked in the peaceful silence, she finally releases a breath she’s been holding ever since she boarded the jet to Yokohama. Grabbing her jacket and lazily sliding it on, she heads out to the terrace, the starry night sky greeting her once again
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“hey Kanako, look at that one! it’s so bright” the little girl pointed out, small scrawny hand cast to the sky in amazement. Laid besides her, her sister sighs. “Kasumi, they’re all so bright, we live in the middle of nowhere.”Kasumi responds by nudging her playfully. As Kazumi watches the stars, Kanako watches her sister, a rare smile graces her face watching her sisters unbridled joy.
“Hey Kanako,” Kazumi says, eyes still attached to the stars
“Hmm?”
“Ya wanna know why i like stars so much?” she asks, her usually happy go lucky voice hinting at something more
“Sure.”
Shes silent for a second, before she answers. “They make me feel less alone.”
Kanakos was well prepared to respond with ‘How do you ever feel alone, i’ve been by your side since we were in ma’s belly’ before she saw the look on her sisters face. Her once joyus smile has slipped into something more melancholy.
“We live in a world with billions of people, even tho’ our world only consists of each other really. Not that i mind spending every day with you! I just wanna explore the world like they do in the cartoons! Or at least like the other kids our age.” She explains, her eyes still glued to the starry night sky. “Everyone’s life is so different than ours…” She nearly whispers. “but the stars!” she suddenly brightens, as if she was a star herself. “Everybody sees the same stars. No matter how big or small you are, no matter where you live, we all see the same stars.” She turns to her sister, meeting her eyes. “Even if we ever part, we could just look to the night sky and we’d know that the other one is looking at the same stars.”
Kanako furrows her eyebrows. “Why would we ever part?”
She shrugs.
“Don’t ya ever wanna run away?”
“Huh?” Kanako shuffles to sit up. “What do ya mean?”
Kazumi pushes herself up to sit next to her sister. “Y’know, run away from home. no more mom or dad, no more stupid, podunk town.”
Of course she has thought about it. She thinks about it every time she takes her sister to hide under the table when their father gets home reeking of beer and bad decisions. She thinks about it whenever their mother finds any and all reasons to insult and berate them. She does so everythime she sees the other kids in the neighborhood with their parents, hearts full of joy and parental love and affection. Something that was so foreign to her.
But she doesn’t live in a fantasy.
She was more than capable of running away, hell she doubt her parents would notice for a few days at least. Although she is young, she’s more than capable of providing for herself, as she has been providing for herself and her sister for years.
But thats just it.
Sweet, sweet, Kazumi. She’s always been the more fragile child, trailing behind her and speaking in soft whispers to anyone but her sister. Kanako learned from a young age that she’s her sisters keeper, even before she fell ill. she’s always been sickly, from the moemnt she was born, she needed extra care and support. It was assumed she would grow out of it, that babies are just very fragile and susceptible to illnesses and complications, but alas, that was not the case. Kazumi’s life has been plagued by illness since the day her life began, there was no way she could survive the trek out of the boondocks they lived in.
Kanako would love to run away. to finally feel free and have the weight lifted off of her shoulders, but she knows she never would. Kanako was only elder by mere minutes, yet the gap between them was one of decades. Kanako has a responsibility that no child should bear; protecting one’s innocence while their own has been shattered. She knows she can never leave Kazumi, the one she promised to protect till their dying breath.
So she shrugged. “Sometimes, i guess.”
“Oh come on,” She whined playfully. “Don’t cha wanna go on adventures, like they do in Pokemon?”
“I don’t think the real world is as amazing as Palet town, Kazumi.”
“You wouldn’t know! we never leave this stupid town, anyways.” She shifts to her side to face her sister. “Don’t you wanna leave? Away from….. everything?”
“I don’t know.” she said, looking at her tiny, worn out shoes.
She didn’t didn’t have to say why, Kazumi already knew.
The crickets hummed to fill the silence, before she adds a quiet “I wouldn’t blame ya, y’know.”
“No.” Kanako quickly snaps. “I don’t know what you got in your head that makes you think i want to leave ya, but you need to get rid of it. I’m not going anywhere without cha. we’ve been together all our lives, what makes ya think that i wanna leave ya now?” She asks.
Kazumi simply shrugs in response, ashamed to look her sister in the eyes.
Kanako sighs and throws her arm around her sister. “Listen. one day when we are older, we are gonna run as far as we can away from this town, got it?” she said, pullin her closer. “and no one could tell us shit!” they both giggle at the ‘dirty word’.
“It’ll be our little adventure!” Kazumi cheers.
Kanako nods. “Yeah. our little adventure.”
You really shouldn’t be able to see the stars out here in the city, pollution from the smog of factories and the lights decorating buildings, calling people in and keeping them awake. But yet, if you know where to look, and don’t mind squinting, you can always spot them and they’ll wave to you like an old friend. Sighing, y/n pulls a cigarette out from her jacket pocket, lights it and takes a slow, long drag.
“I guess this is another adventure,” she states to no one in particular, rubbing the pendant on her neck. “Right, Kazumi?”
And that's chapter one! I hope you enjoyed it because there's a LOT more to come. If you have any questions or comments (I love comments <3 the make me more motivated to write!!!) don't hesitate to let me know!
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