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soursugxr · 5 months

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Your boy is no longer cooking. Your boy actually has no idea what he’s doing anymore. The kitchen is on fire and I dropped the food.

I fucked up sewing on the rainbow and striped patches so now I’m having a little bit of a crisis and more or less scrapped my original idea, so this is what we’re working with now.

I genuinely can’t wait to be done with these back patches so I can start sewing all the pop tabs to the shoulders, bc that’s gonna look so fucking cool.

Other projects:

Got a new backpack so I decided to bedazzle it with patches, pins, and gimp crafts made at a summer camp. The lil mushroom guy used to live on my flannel jacket.

And I got a really awesome pair of jeans for Christmas, but sadly they don’t fit, so I’m fixing that. It looks kinda shitty rn but that will (hopefully) change. The leather bits are from a thrifted belt that was kinda falling apart.

Speaking of my flannel.

I fixed a hole in the elbow and put a bigass patch on the back (which I accidentally sewed a little too high)

The garbage paint pants are going along great too. I definitely paid for this patch and it 100% isn’t shoplifted from Hot Topic.

I’m a little nervous about the sides of these pants though. The plaid fabric is really shitty and thin and it’s starting to rip, so I might get some thicker fabric to reinforce it.

#punk jacket #crust punk #art #unpause rottmnt #save rottmt #my art #punk fashion #diy or die #patches #sewing #diy clothing #punk patches #send help idfk what i’m doing

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vingvks · 10 months

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Mikey headcanons.

(My perspective, opinion on Mikey headcanons)

(Also any ideas for characters?)

MIGHT BE SPOILERS! ⚠️

Mix of female and male reader

(Kanto or kantou manji idfk and idfc)

Might be bad grammar because I’m naturally a fast typer.

Fluff

-I could see Mikey being clingy (Toman Mikey and maybe even Manila and Bonten Mikey but in more private places with just you and him.)

-Toman Mikey’s probably very defensive and protective of you, just like with baji. (Ifykyk)

-if your in a bad mood he might give you a couple nibbles of his dorayaki, only if your sad but he’s definitely stingy.

-messy sleeper. I feel like sleeping in the same bed with him is a mess. He definitely will have his arms and legs everywhere. I feel like he would randomly wrap legs with you.

-Your relationship would probably be private for safety reasons even though he would still let you around Toman but your his so called close “friend” similar to his relationship with Draken.

-Petty, not petty in like a bad way though. For example if you forget to get him some dorayaki when your coming to see him he’ll do something small but petty as revenge.

-only sleeps in cold beds. He likes the cold breeze in his room.

-he’s like a woman on her period when you don’t bring him the snacks when he asked you to.

Angst

-when Draken died his mental health got even worse. I believe Draken used to baby Mikey because he could never get out of bed on his own after what happened with Shinichiro so you’d have to be the one to help him with simple tasks like helping him get up and care for him because he won’t do it for himself.

-Bonten Mikey is a light sleeper so if you move a lot he’ll definitely get pissed and hurt your feelings by saying something insensitive, he will never hit you though.

-Bonten Mikey has insomnia on certain nights, he’ll lay in bed with you until you fall asleep and then get up to do something else while your sleeping.

-Manila Mikey would ruin plans with you to go out and find takemichi. (Ifykyk)

-Bonten Mikey would definitely talk shit about Bonten executives to make you hate them as much as he does.

-Once kanto manji arc started Mikey became possessive. Like you cant talk to certain people and he needs to know where you are at all times. This is because Mikey feels as if those around him that he loves are bound to die, he feels as if he’s bad luck. If you were to not tell him where you were he would send members out to find you and dark impulse might even happen, as in he might hurt or kill someone in the meanwhile.

-long hair Manila mikey will come to your house randomly to hang out meanwhile acting as if he doesn’t have his victims blood on him.

-all Mikey’s (except toman and kanto) are pretty merciless. That’s included killing a child or animal if needed.

-Ever since Kanto manji arc Mikey tends to get easily frustrated or pissed even though he keeps a blank face. His eyes say it all.

-sometimes Mikey might snap at you because of dark impulse and then realize what he did. This would result in him doing something such as starving himself, locking himself in a room somewhere or just straight up harming himself as self punishment.

(This is actually a headcanon because of black dragon arc where Mikey purposely let taiju hit him as a punishment to himself and when he let Draken beat him up because he couldn’t protect Emma. Basically letting others hurt him because he believes he deserves it.)

-Manila Mikey has manic episodes sometimes. I feel like he would be delusional at times and hallucinate.

-Bonten Mikey cannot sleep without you, he doesn’t like the thought of you being somewhere else while he’s laying down.

-Manila Mikey is manipulative time to time to get what something he really wants. When he doesn’t get it regardless he’ll loose his cool and get violent, Mainly from dark impulse.

-Keep a close eye on Bonten Mikey and Manila Mikey when you can. Atleast text Bonten Mikey four times an hour to check on him. But don’t text him on busy days. If he doesn’t answer your text call him on a busy day, call him.

-Mental disorder for sure.

-bad communication skills. Whenever you call him out he’ll say something like “You knew what you were getting into.”

-puts you and those he truly loves before himself. Selfless person but also very selfish when it comes to people he doesn’t care about.

-Bonten mikey has fantasies of having a double suicide with you. So that he’ll be free from his suffering with you still right beside him in his heart. You’d both probably end up dying with each other.

-very possessive and jealous. To the point it can be agonizing. Only if you really put him in his place (in any way..) he’ll stop for a bit.

-Manila mikey is usually smiling but as soon as he gets angry his whole persona turns upside down.

-Bonten Mikey has scars all along his body but hides it with sleeves etc.

-Long hair Manila mikey does a lot more gore killing then you’d expect.

-toxic asf

-yandere (toman mikey doesn’t kill others however other timeline Mikey’s wouldn’t hesitate for you.)

-They’d probably treat you like shit at times but go spiraling when you threaten leaving them, despite knowing that you can’t.

-I feel as if at times they’d occasionally victimize themselves, only till you hit them with a reality check.

-They are guilt tripping at times, but I feel they’d do it to get your attention, unhealthy obsession.

Smut

Dominant (mixed slight submissive in this too but yeah…)

-Long hair Manila mikey would wanna do some crazy shit sex wise, despite him never actually doing it for you sake.

-Bonten Mikey is definitely rough but quiet. In a irritated mood? That’s fine, he’ll take it out on you sexually.

-kanto manji Mikey is also pretty quiet but he starts off slow and then gets faster. He really doesn’t care, he’ll fuck you while other Kanto manji members are near.

-Manila Mikey does a lot of foreplay. Like thigh and neck kissing and slowly making his way up. If you were to do it to him he’d be ashamed of himself but then again he loves it.

-I feel as if long hair Manila Mikey and short hair Manila Mikey would do foreplay for a long time until you get desperate enough to beg him for more than just that.

-Manila Mikey groans a lot and whines occasionally. I feel like he’s slightly louder and whines often when he’s in the submissive role.

-Kanto manji Mikey doesn’t have a high-sex drive so he’ll just rail or ride you for your sake (he still loves it though) . But every other Mikey timeline do it for themselves.

-only time Kanto manji Mikey is in the mood is when he needs to relive his anger. (Either topping you or bottoming for you, whatever he wants more.)

-Every Mikey timeline is controlling in the sex department. (They can still be a controlling bottom until you put him in his place.)

-long hair Manila Mikey only fucks to get his mind off things. He’ll go all night, depending on how long you go the louder he gets.

-he’ll praise you just so your body can react.

-his hips and thrust are hard. Prepare for painful aching the next day.

-Thigh kissing kink.

-choking kink.

-lots of hickeys on collarbone and neck.

-emotional sex depending on how he’s feeling.

-passionate sex if you’ve pleased him or impressed him in anyway.

-he definitely leaves bruises on your hips, he keeps a firm tight grip.

-I feel like Manila Mikey would call you “doll”

-Manila Mikey is playful and unserious at first but when he starts to feel the pleasure he gets quiet and rough.

-this might suck a little but if you piss them off sometimes he’ll become controlling and only go for his own orgasm, leaving you half done unless you beg for it.

Submissive

-Bonten Mikey was not a big fan when he realized he was more submissive to you. As long as you take him somewhere very private he’ll be as loud as he wants. Other than that he doesn’t fuck in places where people are near.

-Kanto manji Mikey is loud. Deadass don’t know why but I feel like he’s mumbles curse words while you rail or ride him, he’s gets a satisfaction of relief. (depending on your preference and gender)

-Manila Mikey, his ego was lowkey hurt but if you go fast he’ll only care about sex in that one moment.

-Kanto manji Mikey doesn’t like fucking in open places. You have to be somewhere private and far away from gang members. As long as he isn’t limping or aching when your done he’ll pretend nothing happened and go on about his day.

-Bonten Mikey whispers. He’ll whisper if he wants it slower or faster but if you don’t slow down sometimes he’ll get loud.

-if you make Manila Mikey cry in the middle of sex he’ll get submissive and emotional. He’s a pretty crier.

-Manila mikey likes to ride. He’s louder that way.

-I feel like in response to his trauma he’d hate being degraded severely while bottoming, only occasionally, he’d probably prefer quiet sex or you praising him.

-Both Bonten and Kanto manji Mikey grip sheets tightly. They might even tear the sheets.

-best place you can get any timeline Mikey submissive is bending over a desk or table.

-Manila Mikey has a praising kink, you praise him and he’ll praise you back. He will ever admit how much it makes his heart race.

-Bonten Mikey breathing gets erratic when you praise him.

-All Mikey timelines hate the thought of getting caught being in a submissive position. I genuinely think they would kill or threaten anyone who were to see a damn thing.

-Bonten Mikey is disrespectful until you fuck him dry. He’d probably be judging and talking shit nonchalantly then get all quiet when you prove him wrong.

-Neither of the Mikey timelines talk much in the middle of sex beside Manila mikey. I believe that the rest of the Mikey timelines beside Manila mikey are pillow princesses when on a bed because they’re too embarrassed to see the look on your face while your fucking them. (Either riding or railing them)

-fucking any long hair Manila mikey or any adult Mikey with with his long hair out and free is top tier. He’s pretty with his hair out and messy.

-Punishment sex for any of them is a turn on but they’ll never admit. Nothing is more embarrassing to Mikey than you making him beg for it.

#dom male reader #toman mikey #mikey tokyo revengers #mikey smut #sano mikey manjiro #manjiro sano x reader #sano manjiro #top male reader #bonten #manila #kanto manji gang #mikey x y/n #future mikey #tr mikey #female reader

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ssho197 · 9 months

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period started, now what about bf xiao caring for you?

pls send help my stomach hurts real bad god sleeping at night is going to be hell. hoping my pad keeps my bed safe from everything

so…….. have you guys heard of a rainbow kiss before………….. yeah me neither…………….

boyfriend xiao who definitely didn’t understand periods at all and just never asked questions, until a conversation like this went down. “hey xiao i’m gonna go to the store to get some pads do you need anything?” x: “no im alright. also what are pads for?” then you had to sit down with him and have the talk. clearly zhongli didn’t educate his son on sex ed

boyfriend xiao who probably made “it’s that time of the month again” jokes until once you cried bc of how messy emotions feel before it hits (idk abt anyone else but that’s how it is for me, i feel so agitated all the time before it hits 😭)

boyfriend xiao who would lay in your lap and keep his hand on your stomach or hold a hot water bottle to your stomach while you’d watch a movie or smth together. even though you’d say, “xiao.. it doesn’t smell that good down there.. you sure you want to lay there?” he’d probs just give a nod and keep watching the show

boyfriend xiao who would take all the behavioural signs that you’re letting off so he can tell where you are in your cycle and whatever, yk oval week bleeding week and whatever else there is idfk.

boyfriend xiao who would either be super close with you or super far away from you during your period, he’d prepare hot tea and hot water bottles for you, he’d buy chocolate for you and cook whatever you’re craving (not that he can cook but you’re too tired to get up and make anything better)

boyfriend xiao who would MAKE his own chocolate for you (idk i just see xiao i’m the kitchen OMFG ITS VISIBLES CHEF XIAO SERIES AGAIN OMFG EBERYTHING HAS BECOME FULL CIRCLE)

boyfriend xiao who would not understand how oval week works and think that someone drugged you to make to behave this way in front of him, then you had to have another sit down talk with him.

boyfriend xiao who would make sure the bathroom is always stocked with pads OR TAMPONS (I TOTALLY FORGOT ABT TAMPONS) omfg wait there’s other menstrual products too 💀 forgot abt them. just imagine xiao keeps the bathroom stocked up mkay

boyfriend xiao who would still want to have happy banging time but doesn’t want to hurt you so you decide to just rub one out for him (i giggled at this 💀)

#genshin xiao #xiao headcanons #xiao x reader #genshin headcanons #xiao smut #genshin impact #genshin x reader #sho xiao dumps

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blasphemecel · 5 months

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Shidou Ryuusei — Like Teeth

PAIRING: Shidou Ryuusei/Reader WORD COUNT: 3.6k TYPE: Humor, Feelings realization, idfk what this even is but i threw in some surprise fluff at the end WARNING(S): Nsfw jokes but cmon it's shidou you gotta forgive me for finding sex funny this once, play-fighting that doesn't seem very playful, canon-typical mental illness, canon-typical unnecessary dramatics, canon-typical overly intense soccer rivalry NOTE: Reader is a part of the blue lock project but no concrete gender identity or pronouns are specified

It starts like this:

After the freaky nerd from the ceremony whose name you hadn’t bothered remembering finishes with his instructions about this game of tag you’re supposed to be playing, the biggest asshole in the room immediately targets you once he realizes you’re the one with the highest number on your jersey. You trap the ball with ease and then kick it straight into his face with as much power as you can muster, knocking him out, the force sending him reeling.

While the timer continues ticking, no one dares to make a move or even exhale too loudly in your presence, scared you might take their bodily functions as a challenge to your authority. Like every opponent before, they’ve submitted to you.

You stare at the ceiling, your lips set in a tight line, the despair settling in. Just this once, you want to meet someone who can excite you, and you’d hoped this ridiculous place could help.

___

As the top scorer of your pathetic excuse for a team — though behind your back they call you ‘the top red card holder,’ but considering how far up your own ass your head is, you’re yet to pay attention to this remark — by the second qualifying match they already know to pass the ball to you no matter what. In your defense, you’re not any more tyrannical than the average douche in this competition. It’s not your fault they’re too worthless to do what you can.

Two of the opponents are blocking your path, and you shuffle the ball between your feet trying to get the positioning right while they attempt to steal it. Everyone is making noises, but they never mean anything to you. You back up once you’ve felt that the stars have aligned and strike the ball through the tight opening between their bodies, taking the first goal of the match.

“You’re good!”

You blink, the words bringing you out of your perpetual trance to look at the guy in front of you. He starts rambling some nonsense about explosions and how he’s going to beat the ass of anyone who can’t give a good show and you think at some point he has started finding new roundabout ways of saying that he basically wants to bust a nut on the field. It is absurd. You understand it down to your bones, except maybe the last thing. For the first time, everything is coming into view. You can make out his face and you can hear his words and you see your teammates in your peripheral vision. How you didn’t notice him before, what with the hairstyle and his cartoonishly beautiful eyelashes, you’re not sure, but you’ve never been more present during a game before.

“Alright, gyaru,” you say. “Show me how you explode.”

“Gyaru?” he tilts his head, grin wide like a demon’s. “You think I’m pretty?”

Though Jinpachi Ego officially writes down what ensues as a round-robin tourney in his notes, the spectators (meaning literally anyone else who was in your physical proximity) would describe it as ‘The Longest Dick Measuring Contest They’ve Ever Seen.’

The way he moves fascinates you like nothing else. Just like you, he is a creature of instinct. You both circle around while trying to score or steal the ball, only to find that stopping the other is impossible.

After this match, two monsters glance at each other and think, ‘Maybe there is someone out here who understands me.’

___

There are still jitters in your veins. You can’t sleep. Is it ridiculous and maybe parasocial that the thought of ‘I want to see this guy again’ is keeping you up at night? Yeah, probably. You also feel like a creep lying down in the dark with your eyes wide open, yearning to bulldoze through something like you do when you want to calm down.

Frustrated, you slip out of the futon and leave the room while the rest of them are sleeping. The hallways let out ominous flickers, trailing after you while your steps echo and bounce off the walls. This building looks like a prison, you think, though you hadn’t noticed before.

You hate to think that your desperation is so strong you’ve developed the power of manifestation overnight, but when you step inside of the training room, he’s already there. He doesn’t have the decency to seem surprised at your entrance when you close in on him. His arms are crossed and he has a smug aura about him, but for the love of everything you cannot comprehend why he’s standing there doing nothing. At least you planned on being productive when you headed here with your plan to obliterate whatever you could get your hands on. Just so happens it’s him that you found.

The weird silence stretches, but it doesn’t bother either of you because as it turns out you have the same kind of social incompetence. You realize you don’t even know the guy’s name, but he declares, “You really came.”

You don’t really know what he means by this considering you didn’t arrange to meet here beforehand, but he’s saying it as if this was some unanimous agreement you came to earlier. “Waiting for me in the middle of the night all by yourself, handsome?”

“Every cell in my body was calling out to yours,” he says as if it explains anything. His expression is bordering on maniacal. Anyone else might’ve realized this was a bad idea, read the warning signs, but to someone like you who has lived their entire life sleepwalking, the excitement of such a strange encounter is addictive. “We’re the same… That’s why you felt it.”

“In that case, please avoid summoning me so late,” you say. “I value good sleep.”

He cannot tell if you’re just taking the piss or if you’re on the same page, but it’s rare that anyone entertains him when he says anything of that nature. To him, this is an amusing turn of events. “They say you’re some kinda unhinged delinquent. ‘s that true?”

“Sure, if that’s what you call putting a few sorry bums down in their place after they crossed me.”

“So you know how to scrap too, right?”

Right now, Shidou Ryuusei is like a kid at the candy store. You can’t discern any reason for him to swing at you, but he does, smiling all the while. After you respond to his provocation with a duck and a kick of your own — you avoid using your hands for anything if you can avoid it, finding it beneath you — you decide to consider this your friendly introduction to each other.

If he wants to coax the crazy out of you with his punches, then you’re trying to get him to settle down every time you retaliate, daring him to pipe down and turn boring just like everyone else. You’re not sure for how long you duke it out, but at some point you grow sloppy, and the last you remember of it before succumbing to your exhaustion is the last round of boneless slaps you offered each other.

___

Two of your teammates hatefully watch you and Shidou from across the cafeteria. You’re a selfish and insensitive person, of course, they know that. Before this, you’d always eat alone, but ever since the match where they were forced to watch you two flex on them, you’d hang out with him. Still, “I can’t believe [L/n] would rather have a romantic dinner with the only goddamn bastard in this goddamn building who gets better meals than share with us! I’m sick of this natto.”

“You’re telling me,” the other boy says, sadly eating a radish.

This must be an advanced form of psychological torture administered by Ego himself. Even if you don’t notice the audience, Shidou seems to be reveling in the negative attention. They can only watch and drool while you two push at each other and try to steal ingredients. At some point, you put Shidou in a suplex, making him cough out something. Then he wrestles his way out of your maneuver and shoves your head into your plate, forces you up again, and licks the food off your face while you scowl at him.

“I’d hardly call that a romantic dinner, though.”

“A guy from blondie’s team said he caught them asleep on top of each other in the training facility once.”

“Do you think they’re-?!”

“Oh my god, they’re…!”

They scream and point at each other and then hug as if traumatized. To add insult to injury, your voice rings from afar, “Are your eyes really pink? There’s no way that’s natural,” while some of the sauce still sticks to your skin.

“What? You think I’m some kinda fake?” asks Shidou, apparently offended.

“I’m gonna expose you, trust.”

How are you blowing everyone in your cell out of the water in terms of performance? You have to be the dumbest person in this entire wing.

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“I want you,” he says.

Granted, this is out of context, but you still find that the words have some effect on you. But this won’t do no matter how hard you want to give in. With the first stage of the second selection cleared, you can’t continue as you are. You’ve been complacent in your talent. To expand your abilities, you need to observe whatever other powerful players there are in here instead of still chasing after him. Even the wet wipes on your old team have started catching up.

Besides, you’d always thought your appeal to him is as an opponent, someone who he wants on the other side of the field to face off against, and now Shidou is demanding to work together with you.

“I was in a coma before I met you,” you say. He pinches his eyebrows together, which is probably the first time you’ve seen him pull such an expression. To think you have the ability to utter something so strange, it weirds out even Shidou. “You pulled me out of it, but now I need to see other things, too.”

“If you tell me you wanna go watch other guys, I might get jealous.” Despite the initial waver, he sticks his tongue out at you, trying to be playful like always.

“Don’t say things you don’t mean.”

Shidou grabs you by the collar of your jersey and pushes you against the wall. You blink at him, finding this an inappropriate time for a spar seeing as this is regular enough for him, but then he invades your personal space in a way which doesn’t feel particularly combative, your noses brushing against each other, and he blatantly glances at your lips before closing his eyes. You don’t think about it when you pull him in by the neck, your body reacting to his cues.

It’s not even that great, he’s not really being effective at what he’s doing, mashing your mouth against his almost pointlessly, teeth clashing and all before moving far too quickly onto the tonguing part of making out. Your nails are digging into his neck and his hold against your waist is tight enough to bother you. There’s a latent aggression in it like there is in any other interaction between you two.

And you don’t enjoy this for the surface-level sensations but rather for the strange tightness in your chest, the headrush, the closeness where somehow he’s enveloping you and you’re enveloping him at the same time and it feels like you’re about to fuse. You don’t want to let go yet, maybe under the assumption that if you keep kissing him, he’s going to be polite and return your breath to you.

Steps come near the entrance of the hallway and then, “Ah! Uhhh…”

You snap out of it and push Shidou off of you. He has the gall to look offended, glaring.

There’s some puny kid with a buzz cut, standing there with his confusion clear on his face. “Sorry, I didn’t mean to interrupt, uh… whatever it was you were doing!” he says in a panic, waving his hands back and forth.

Yeah, that’s a good point. What the fuck were you doing? You just jumped at each other on instinct, ruled by some bizarre, mysterious need.

It must be because the air is so charged between you. Shidou is always in overdrive and he has a penchant for pulling you into his madness. You’re always doing something when you’re together — trading blows, trying to show the other up in soccer, saying heavy-handed things for no reason — and now a moment of stagnancy happened and you both turned into even bigger morons than usual.

He didn’t think about it either, you’re sure. Besides, even if you’re a crazy bastard on the field, you’re not like him. Shidou will meet even stronger players once he advances and he’ll move onto his next obsession. This doesn’t mean anything, at least not to him, you’re convinced.

You untangle yourself from him and ram your shoulder into his as goodbye before lamely saying, “I’m going now,” and offering a nonchalant wave.

He frowns before kicking imaginary dust off the floor. “Sure, fine. Be this way!”

Igaguri isn’t super puritanical or anything. Yeah, he grew up in a temple and all, but seeing two people kiss doesn’t offend his sensibilities. What freaked him out was how you managed to make it look like a fight while you were going at it, and like, he knows the hallway was deserted before he came out of thin air, but this is still a public place. Whatever happened to shame?

And now he has to be in the same vicinity as this scary guy who’s glaring daggers at the spot you were standing in, vein bursting out of his forehead and all, as if you ruined his life by walking out of here. He looks like a manchild who’s sulking because his mom forgot to make him chicken nuggies. A bead of nervous sweat rolls down his forehead.

___

Ever since the beginning, Isagi has been honing his technique, always hungry to add another skill to his repertoire. Rin and Shidou have no synergy; fine, he thinks, it’s not like he really even wants to set up a goal using them. It’s not enough to satisfy him anymore, not after the last match. He’d much rather score himself.

But the problem with the spatial awareness he has developed is that he can’t turn it off at will, or say ‘la-la-la’ and ignore something to focus on what’s important.

Well, being on the same stage as you and Shidou has to be the worst thing of all time. He wants to smell a goal for himself, but the most likely chemical reaction he can predict is one between you two, and you’re not even on the same team. It’s like a ticking time bomb, like those explosions Shidou has been vaguely rambling about, and it permeates the air.

You’ve started adapting his bodily control and precision, almost coming close to scoring with your back on the net. And Shidou has managed to pull off one of ridiculously tight angled shots to break through a two-on-one, passing the ball to Rin. If the phenomenon Isagi observed and achieved before is ‘consumption,’ then he has a first row seat to watch you two cannibalize each other.

The most unfortunate thing is the chase. The ball will come to you, but Shidou will steal it. He’ll be in the air ready to strike, but you’ll sabotage him from below. Isagi recognizes this as an unconscious prediction — on a molecular level, you know where the other one will be, and you’ll race there. It’s like he’s watching both of you swing neon signs and desperately scream ‘Please look at me!’ and overall beg for attention while also stubbornly refusing to make eye contact in fear of rejection.

It is revolting. He wants to gag.

Sure, Ego talked about how luck is a skill and how a pro takes advantage of it, but he never mentioned what to do when someone on his team is living through a low-rated soap opera episode with an opponent. With all of the emotional constipation among the participants of this godforsaken project, he’s sure this won’t be the last time he’ll need it.

___

Sitting down in the middle of practice isn’t productive, but you’re ‘taking a break,’ by which you mean you want to snap someone’s neck. It’s been boring again, ever since Shidou started disregarding your presence. You’re even on the same team now and it’s like you’re no better than air to him.

Of course, you’d predicted he’d find someone new to excite him. You just hadn’t anticipated it’d hurt your feelings. Why do you care, anyway? You should be used to this. The soccer you’ve played has always been selfish and lonely, and moping and jealousy are below you.

But during the match against U-20, you saw him look at Itoshi Sae the same way he first looked at you on the day you met, spouting nonsense with his unique expert-level yappery. And you don’t like that. You don’t like it at all.

He’s off doing his own thing again when you search for him with your eyes. You stand up.

And then you don’t think at all, breaking out into a sprint at full speed.

You’re behind him in the matter of a minute or so, slipping your foot between his and kicking the ball overhead so it lands behind him. He bristles, perhaps at your unwanted company, but you’ve already turned on your heel to run in the other direction.

You’re dribbling the ball when you glance over your shoulder. He’s onto you, trademark grin on his face. You’re not even sure what you’re trying to accomplish here, but all that comes to mind is, It doesn’t matter if it’s going way too fast or way too hard anymore. Just chase after me one more time.

You’re almost all the way over to the other goal, maintaining your lead, when Shidou kicks the ball after lunging around your side. It slips off half-assedly, but you don’t have much time to mock him for his technique because he grabs you by the wrists and pins you down, straddling you to the ground.

“That’s a foul,” you say, displeased.

“I don’t care.” His smile is so big you feel like he’s going to need to visit an orthodontist after you’re done here. The annoying strands of hair he keeps loose are hovering near your face, taunting you.

Your eyes dart again with your head in the fake grass and you see it straying off. “And the ball didn’t make it. To be honest, you were sloppy.”

“I don’t care.”

“You… don’t?”

There’s that sick fluttering feeling in your stomach again and your heart kicks against your chest painfully. Your cheeks are growing warm and you feel uncomfortable by the heat with Shidou so close to you. What the hell is wrong with you? Seriously, he didn’t even tell you a line or anything. He just said ‘I don’t care’ twice. That’s not game! You need to get a grip.

“Yeah, why should I? I’ve got you right where I want you now.”

You raise an unimpressed eyebrow. If making you look like an idiot is his revenge to you for making him mad, then fine, you’re going to pretend you can’t make your way out of his grip with ease.

“You can’t give me a big dopamine hit like that and pull away,” he says, leaning closer. By this point you really can’t see much apart from his big ass head right in your face. Does he even know what he’s implying to you while looking at you straight-on? Does he realize you know his weird euphemisms are all figures of speech for whatever makes him horny?

“What do you mean?”

“Tellin’ me all that romantic stuff and running away…” Shidou narrows his eyes as if the memory is enough to annoy him.

You blink. Oh. You thought he was throwing a temper tantrum because you refused to team up with him. But once again, you’re unimpressed. “So did that turn you on or what? I don’t get it.”

“Well, I’d put it in other words, like, let’s say, hypothetically, maybe you made me explode because you’re an oxidizer and I’m an organic-”

“Ok, I know, but I’m trying to figure out what’s going on here-”

He retreats and rolls away from you, allowing you to sit up again, so you cease talking without reaching the point you were trying to make. It flies out of your head anyway when he links his hand with yours, staring at you, seemingly subdued now. You’re not sure why you’re both acting like shy middle schoolers now while indulging in something so chaste considering you’ve done way more indecent things together, but you intertwine your fingers and offer him a smile. The sight catches him off-guard.

Before he can bask in another achievement (this time being the first person to make you express any kind of joy when everyone knows you’re one distant asshole), a ball hits him straight on the forehead.

Without any preamble, Rin deems it fit to announce his presence by saying, “Your lukewarm displays are appalling. You should both just die.”

You stare at him and then at each other and burst out in laughter, pointing at him. Though you finish your laughing fits at about the same time, you spur on another one by asking, “Do you think he even knows what lukewarm means?”

“No, I seriously doubt it!”

Rin thinks to ask you how come you think it’s chill when your shitty boyfriend or whatever he is says the grossest things imaginable, but suddenly it’s a problem when he wants to say his favorite word, though he doesn’t want to seem too offended or otherwise invested.

___

Im sorry if this is in any way contradictory or shitty or sucks balls I havent slept in 4 days except for a one-off 3 hour nap and wrote this while possessed. Maybe ill sleep again at some point and this will be the worst thing ive ever seen and ill have to delete it. God forbid.

#shidou x reader #shidou ryuusei x reader #bllk x reader #blue lock x reader #bllk x you

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dvrk-moon · 2 months

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REQUESTING GUIDELINES FOR MY BLOG

a post to help guide those who want to request through the process and learning the rules to make sure they do it correctly!

now that i’ve gotten a few requests, i think it’s time i finally set up a guidelines post for requesting!

what i will write (aus) :

harry potter, dystopian, royalty, idols, hanahaki, etc. if i didn’t mention something and you’d like to ask, feel free to send me something and i’ll clarify!

what i will write (tropes) :

strangers to lovers, friends to lovers, enemies/rivals to lovers, childhood friends, unrequited love, fake relationship, etc.

what i won’t write :

smut (suggestive is the limit i will write), abo, yandere, member x member, member x oc, or anything super concerning.

i do write medium and long fics (anything between 5k and 9k is a medium fic, long fics are 10k+) but do not take requests for those. they are my own ideas and i like to keep them that way. however, i will write short fics (<5k) if a request is sent in for one! those do however take more time so please be patient with me!

examples of what to do and what not to do:

what to do:

hey! i saw your requests were open and was wondering if you could write a short angsty jake fic with a dystopian au like hunger games? thank you in advance!

what not to do:

please write jungwon and heeseung x reader smut where heeseung is a yandere alpha and jungwon is the beta and y/n is the omega (idfk how abo works)

i’m so excited to officially open requests and feel free to send in anything!! just as a reminder i do have the right to decline any request if it makes me uncomfortable. i’m also a college student with a job so there’s no promising i’ll get to it right away!

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cryptiles · 2 years

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RANDOM TEXTS — PART 1 / PART 2

— details ; brothers x gn! reader ; head-cannon based ; 〘🐙〙 ; obey me m.list ; they/them/you/yours

— summary ; domestic texts between you and the brothers

— requests are open as of 7/9 , match-ups are closed.

— a/n ; since y’all liked the first part so much , i’m feeding y’all with another. this one was kinda unhinged , i kept wanting to use ‘ oh my god ‘ as a reaction but then i remembered theyre demons.

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LUCIFER

“ why does the class size have to be so big , i can’t remember everyones names. 😐 “

“ well , maybe if you stopped texting and instead focus on your work it won’t be that hard. “

“ jeez thanks for believing in me. “

“ anyways i need help , do you know this guy named Willya ? “

“ he’s supposed to hand up some overdue work today. “

“ Willya ? no , i have not. “

“ WILLYA PUT DEEZ NUTS ON YOUR CHIN BITCHHHH “

LUCIFER HAS BLOCKED YOU.

“ damn. “

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MAMMON

“ MC ARE YOU IN ONLINE CLASS ? “

“ NO LMAOO THE STUPID LINK ISNT WORKING. “

“ OI SEND ME THE LINK I LOST IT 💀 “

“ NVM I FOUND IT , I ACCIDENTALLY THREW THE PAPER AWAY. “

“ DUMBASS. “

“ BROO WHY DID DIAVOLO TRY ONLINE CLASSES ? THE TEACHERS ARE OLDER THAN MY GRANDMA , THEY LITERALLY CANT DO SHIT THIS IS SO FUNNY HELPP. “

“ MC ENOUGH. LMAAOAOAOSO “

“ RIGHT HAHAHA LOOK AT STUDENT#1 CAMERA ANGLE , THE FUCK IS THATTT 😃”

“ MAMMON STOP MAKING FUN OF THEM I CANT KEEP GOING OFF CAMERA PRETENDING TO SNEEZE SO I CAN LAUGH. FUCKING HALT. “

“ IM GOING TO YOUR ROOM THIS IS WHOLE THING WAS STUPID AS HELL , WE’RE SHARING YOUR LAPTOP SO SCOOT OVER. “

“ IM BRINGING SNACKS TOO. “

“ AND OUR SHARED BLANKET 😼 “

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LEVIATHAN

“ 😭 “

“ 😭😭 “

“ 😭😭😭 “

“ are you okay ? and why are you crying in numerical order… “

“ i’m not okay mc 😭😭😭😭 “

“ the human world had a pre-order bundle for ‘ insert long anime title ‘ and i missed it because i slept in. “

“ how am i supposed to be okay after that ?! “

“ it had a pc and stuff in it too 😭😭😭😭😭 “

“ i see. “

“ well i’ll let you know that i bought 2 already , one for you and me. “

“ REALLY ? “

“ YOU’RE THE BEST MC THANK YOU 😭😭😭😭😭😭”

“ STOP ADDING ONE MORE CRYING EMOJI EVERYTIME YOU CRY , PLEASE. “

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SATAN

“ SATANN GUESS WHAT “

“ ?? “

“ I FOUND A CAT THAT LOOKS EXACTLY LIKE YOU ITS SO FUCKING CUTE. “

“ ‘ insert cat pic ‘ “

“ ITS JUDGING ME SO BAD ITS MAKING IT CUTER. “

“ MC WHERE ARE YOU AS OF RIGHT NOW. “

“ I HAVE TREATS , TOYS AND EVERYTHING WHERE TF ARE YOU. “

“ UHH TBH IDK I WAS JUST WANDERING AROUND AND I FOUND IT.. “

“ WHAT ?? WHERE ARE YOU ? “

“ IM FUCKING LOST SATAN. IDFK WHERE AM I. “

“ STAY WHERE EVER YOU ARE WITH THE CAT IM COMING TO FIND YOU. “

“ HURRY PLEASE THE CAT IS LOOKING AT ME WEIRD AND ITS WALKING AWAY. “

“ IM MAKING A BAD DECISION AND FOLLOWING IT. “

“ MC , AS MUCH AS I LOVE BOTH YOU AND THE CAT PLEASE DONT FOLLOW IT. “

“ MC ? “

“ FUCK. “

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ASMODEUS

“ bye 15/50 for chemistry , again. “

“ finna kms fr. “

“ mc its alright , half the class did like shit anyways. “

“ yeah but ‘ disliked persons name ‘ beat me , you know how embarrassing that is ? “

“ damn , that is embarrassing. “

“ thanks a lot for the compliment 😐 “

“ wellll at least you didn’t fail chemistry like her , i mean who ever fails that subject has to be hella stupid 🤭 “

“ … “

“ WAIT I MEANT MATH. “

“ NOT CHEMISTRY. “

“ SLIPPED MY MIND IM SORRY MC “

“ WRONG INSULT IT WAS DIRECTED FOR ‘ disliked persons name ‘ “

“ IM SORRYYYY “

“ YOU BITCHH 😾😾”

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BEELZEBUB

“ have you tried mango sago ? “

“ that shits bussinnn “

“ mango sago ?? i never heard of that before , what is it ? “

“ its a chinese dessert ! i’ll make it for you one day 😼 “

“ that’ll be nice mc thank you. “

“ also could you help me open the door ? “

“ i’m carrying food from madam screams , i’m trying not to eat your favourite dessert so please hurry 😭 “

“ i love you beel , AND IM OTW “

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BELPHAGOR

“ ‘ tiktok edit ‘ “

“ broo they’re so fineee and for what 😩🙏”

“ whats that song ? its been on loop in my mind but im too lazy to search it up. “

“ i’ve heard it everywhere but idk the name. “

“ in that case… should i gatekeep 😻 “

“ I WILL BLOCK YOU BITCH “

“ I INTRODUCED YOU TO SO MANY SONGS “

“ IM PRETTY SURE ITS THE OTHER WAY AROUND 🤨 “

“ MY MUSIC TASTE IS IMMACULATE COMPARED TO YOURS “

“ PLEASE ALL YOU LISTEN TO IS TAYLOR SWIFT AND DEPRESSING SONGS “

“ THE BASICS BITCHH 🤌 “

“ STFU THEYRE GOOD “

“ YK WHAT IM GATEKEEPING THAT SONG YOU DONT DESERVE IT “

“ i’ll kill you. “

“ again ? at least make it special “

“ mc please stop-“

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#obey me #obey me x reader #obey me fluff #obey me x you #shall we date obey me #requests are open #obey me x gender neutral reader #obey me x mc #om! lucifer #om! mammon #om! leviathan #om! satan #om! asmodeus #om! beelzebub #om! belphegor

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cartoonfuel · 1 year

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Billiard Gloves

Tomura Shigaraki x Villain!Reader

** SLIGHT NSFW ** (still earns a Teen rating tho)

Anonymous Ask: can you write a shiggy x villain!reader where the reader gives him some sort of gift and then he takes things a little too far? sfw or nsfw doesn’t matter to me... thanks!

A/N: The formatting of this was a bitch so I copied your Ask and just pasted it here, Anon (I’M SORRY, I’M STILL LEARNING HOW TUMBLR WORKS)! Thanks for sending in a request! <3

Synopsis: Your gift seemed like a great way to score brownie points with Shigaraki. Unfortunately, you end up scoring more than anticipated.

Rating: TEEN

Warnings: Shigaraki being creepy af, one-sided attraction(?), this is not smut imo but it could be in someone else’s idfk, slight dark content

Word Count: 1.4K

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“Surprise!” You beamed, handing a wrapped package to your boss, Tomura Shigaraki.

“For me?” Shigaraki retorted harshly, Kurogiri cleaning up the bar behind him.

Smile unwavering, you nodded. “For you! Open it!”

You had joined the League of Villains only a couple weeks ago. It was Himiko Toga who lured you in, gushing about her convictions and the reasoning behind being a part of the League. She then had the brilliant idea of inviting you to join, most likely because of the usefulness of your quirk. She was a close friend of yours, after all—so why not take a leap of faith and be part of a team?

This particular team wasn’t pretty, of course, with you, Toga and Twice quickly becoming an infamous trio of naughty villains. Dabi drove you mad almost daily as you had to put up with his constant teasing and eerie personality. Spinner and Mr. Compress were oftentimes barely noticeable and Kurogiri was the mom of the group. Tomura was most definitely the toughest character to impress. You wished he didn’t have to look so gloomy all the time. Logically, you concluded his cold demeanor had something to do with his destructive quirk. He sometimes drawled on and on about how annoying Decay was at times, and you couldn’t help but feel sorta bad for the guy. You’re sure it must’ve been a difficult power to grow up with.

And so, you bought him billiard gloves! These gloves only cover the thumb, index and middle finger of each hand. You were perplexed as to why he hadn’t thought of doing this before. Now, because of you, he’d be able to drink a glass of whiskey on the rocks in peace!

"What's the occasion?" Kurogiri inquired, putting one final glass away in a cupboard.

"If you must know, it's October 16...National Boss Appreciation Day! In America, that is. Y'know, cuz I'm originally from America."

Shigaraki just glared at you.

You rolled your eyes. "Oh, just open the damn box, dude."

He groaned, snatching the gift from you with raised pinkies. The villain disintegrated the wrapping paper and box altogether, two black gloves gently falling to the floor.

"Gloves?" Kurogiri commented.

"Are you dense?" Shigaraki snarled at you, getting out of his seat. He knelt down to pick up the gloves, eyes widening the moment he noticed holes for the ring and pinky fingers. "Oh."

"Ah, billiard gloves. How thoughtful of you," Kurogiri said as he made his way around the counter.

"Kurogiri, one whiskey on the rocks, please!" you requested, causing him to stop in his tracks and sigh. "For my friend, here." You stole one of the gloves from Tomura and insisted he hold his hand out. Despite feeling mildly annoyed, he complied, allowing you to slip the glove onto his hand. Kurogiri poured Shigaraki’s drink, handing it to him with grace. In turn, Shigaraki picked up the beverage and raised an eyebrow.

As expected, nothing happened, Shigaraki’s glass remaining intact.

He sipped at the drink, coughing afterward. “What the hell is this, Kurogiri?”

“Whiskey on the rocks,” Kurogiri responded. “But we are all out of bourbon.”

“How’s it feel?” you butted in, grinning at the leader of the League.

“How does what feel?”

“Holding it with all five fingers, duh.”

“Kurogiri,” Shigaraki suddenly snapped. “Will you excuse us?”

“But your glass—”

“Get out, please.”

“Certainly. Just leave your glass on the counter when you’re done.” With that, Kurogiri warped away in a cloud of obsidian fog.

Uh-oh. This was new. You’re alone with Shigaraki and he didn’t even bother to offer you a drink to make things less awkward? Asshole.

“What game are you playing?” Tomura sneered, sliding his other hand into the second billiard glove.

You scoffed. “Come again?”

“Are you secretly trying to infiltrate the League or something? What kind of manipulation is this?”

“Whoa, calm down. If you hate the gift just say it to my face, don’t act all cryptic.”

He pat the barstool next to him, and with all five fingers too. Lucky bastard hadn’t even thanked you yet. “Sit.”

Geez, that was off-putting. “No thanks, actually. Permission to escort myself to bed instead? It’s late.”

“Denied. Now sit down.”

You furrowed your brow in frustration. “If you insist.” You pulled the seat out and sat, immediately crossing your arms. “Happy?”

“Give me your hand.”

You cleared your throat. “Why? Do you plan on regifting my gift? I don’t really care if you do, but generally people don’t tell—”

“Shut up and do as I say,” Shigaraki barked, causing you to jump.

“Fine.” Hesitantly, you held your hand out. “Now what?”

“Don’t move, please.”

You had never felt so uncomfortable in your life. “Uh…sure?”

He took your hand in his, delicately setting each finger on your skin one by one. First his thumb, then index, middle, ring and pinky.

“Um…Shigaraki?”

“Stop talking,” Tomura said, surprisingly less aggressive than usual. Despite telling you what to do, his tone came across softer. “I’d like to test out these gloves.”

Oh.

“I guess that’s okay. We could play catch or something.”

“Or something.”

Oh.

You shuddered, his hand continuing to consume your own. “Doesn’t it sound better to test them on something living? In which the stakes are much higher? Normally I would kill you if I did this.”

And then a lightbulb went off inside your head. “Don’t forget which one of us is technically Quirkless right now, Shigaraki.”

Shigaraki didn’t say anything as his hand began to move up your arm at an agonizingly slow rate.

“It’s you,” you added. “You’re the Quirkless one.”

His other hand shot forward to cover your mouth, quickly silencing you. “I thought I told you to be quiet.” His usual voice had returned, your eye twitching as a result. He backed off, slumping in his seat. He was right, because typically anyone in this situation would already be dead. However, those handy-dandy little billiard gloves did effectively nullify Shigaraki’s Decay, making these unfolding events seem a little less daunting.

“Carry on then,” you said with reluctance, grimacing at him all the while. Finally, you decided to zip your mouth shut, hoping that doing so would somehow end up being a power move. You knew you were capable of stopping this weirdness, but the last thing you wanted was to get off on the wrong foot with Tomura Shigaraki. Besides, it was definitely interesting to see him so curious.

“Perfect,” Shigaraki replied, his fingers entwined with yours. “After all, you wouldn’t want to ruin your gift to me, would you?” His opposite hand landed on the inside of your thigh, you attempting to resist the powerful urge to brutally kick his ugly face in.

“Of course not,” you murmured, your voice trailing off to prevent getting in trouble again.

Before you knew it, the hand on your leg had glided underneath your shirt and was latched onto your stomach. You wanted to vomit. This was not in the League of Villains job description. “You’re very warm,” Shigaraki observed, stating the obvious. “If only you could understand.” His hand inched up and up. “Can…?” Wasn’t he going to finish his goddamn sentence?

You glared vicious daggers at the man, knowing exactly what he wanted. “Whatever,” you hissed. “Have at it.”

He stood up and hunched over you, both gloved hands shooting underneath your top and cautiously fondling your chest. There was no hiding this blush of yours and you refused to make a peep. Looking up at him, you stared with mixed emotion, completely shocked by the current situation and whatever it was going on inside this guy’s head.

All of a sudden, one hand moved to wrap around the back of your neck, the other staying put. “Your heart’s racing.”

“Well I’m scared and half expecting you to try and kiss me,” you blurted without thinking, eyes wide.

Tomura’s eyes met yours, and then you noticed him glance down at your lips and back up again. “Kissing has nothing to do with testing my billiard gloves.” With that, Shigaraki backed away from you. “You’re dismissed,” he snickered as he exited into the hallway. “Next time you give me a present, maybe I’ll promote you to Lieutenant.”

Feeling both relieved and defeated, you swiveled in your chair and fell face-first onto the counter. “This was a mistake.”

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A/N #2: IDK IF IMMA WRITE ANYTHING THIS SPICY AGAIN IN THE FUTURE BUT IF I DO CAN IT BE WITH SOMEONE LESS CRUSTY please and thank you

Have a lovely day, Lovelies!

#reader insert #anime #bnha #mha #my hero academia #anime x reader #boku no hero academia #female reader #kurogiri #shigaraki x reader #shigaraki tomura #tomura shigaraki #league of villains #villain!reader #Shigaraki x villain!reader #billiard gloves

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chronicbitchsyndrome · 1 year

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so i’ve spent a hot minute thinking that i couldn’t possibly have dysautonomia bc i don’t seem to have any clinically significant cardiac symptoms, and i finally went hunting down a symptom list and

ah.

things marked with question marks are things i don’t know how to tell if they’re clinically significant or not--i.e., blurred vision, i have extremely bad vision and have needed prescription glasses my whole life, but i’m not sure if they meant that or, like, intermittent episodes. (and i do have intermittent episodes where my eyes unfocus and i can’t see for a minute or two, but i don’t know if that’s what they mean or not.)

i have intermittent issues with swallowing where my throat feels too tight/thick to swallow properly, but i also have some pretty bad chronic underlying anxiety and stress, so no idea how to count that one.

i’ve had an echocardiogram that didn’t note any heart problems. i sometimes wake up with a racing heartbeat after i drink alcohol and when i exercise i often feel my heart race--those could be normal physcal reaction to those stimuli? no idea how to tell.

and yeah the exercise intolerance is the same as the last point--how do i tell what’s a normal level of heightened heart rate + dizziness + fatigue to get during/after a workout? i’m pretty sedentary as my norm, so i only work out for like 15-20 minutes a day right now. it seems like it could be entirely possible that i have these symptoms because i’m not tolerating exercise due to a sedentary lifestyle, not due to an underlying dysautonomic condition, but again, i have no idea how to make that distinction.

(other notes on things that i do experience for sure but might be wrong anyway: my temperature regulation is shit, but it’s mostly focused on my extremities. i have pretty bad dyspraxia and am autistic, so idk if my balance problems fall under this. same for noise/light sensitivity, i’m autistic. i don’t have incontinence, but i pee noticeably more than anyone else i know to the point that my partners lovingly poke fun at me for it. on a bad day it’s like once an hour. i don’t puke almost ever, but i’m pretty regularly nauseous just as a baseline and i just kind of live like this. my GI problems are more pain and diarrhea than they are constipation.)

and also:

like i said above, i wake up with a racing heartrate and have severe insomnia when i drink alcohol. i also have been complaining for years about how if i get too hot overnight, i can’t sleep and i break out in these awful cold sweats that give me chills and my nose starts running everywhere. is that. is that what that is???

for dehydration, stress, and tight clothing, i don’t fucking know how to tell. i’m always stressed. tight clothing exacerbates my GI symptoms and makes me feel generally physically uncomfy most of the time but i wear it anyway because it’s sexy so i’m incredibly used to whatever it does and idk how to tell. and i piss so much (like every couple hours, sometimes once an hour) that i’m constantly drinking water just as a habit. idfk.

anyway. any thoughts would be appreciated. g-d fucking knows my doctor isn’t gonna help me work this out. send help.

#cripplepunk #cripple punk #actually disabled #chronic illness #dysautomnia #dysautonomia #dyspunktional

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soursugxr · 7 months

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The urge to make a rottmnt au bc I love Raph so damn much and I haven’t seen like. Any comics/AUs that focus on him and I wanna fix that

#send help idfk what I’m doing #I just absolutely adore Raph he’s my lil baby man #I hate that he doesn’t get as much love from the fandom #like I love all of them #but I can only take so ych disaster twins focused stuff #before I lose my mind

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garfieldsladybird · 2 years

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hi garfield!!! i was wondering if i could get 📚 library; i’ve maxed out my book limit • so ill tell you who would be your lover, best friend, and enemy/rival!! — send in a description about yourself; personality, appearance too if you'd like, gender preference & fandom.

personality: i’m a very sarcastic person, i’m kinda mean but only if we’re friends or you’re rude to me. to strangers i’m pretty nice and stuff. i’m a very funny person even w/o meaning to and i’m very loyal. i have a lot of negative traits tho including anger issues, bottling up my feelings, and being quite judgmental even if i don’t voice my judgements.

looks: i’m 5’6-5’7, i currently have bleach blonde hair but i’m dying it orangey-brown soon, it’s very shaggy and dead :,). i’m kinda tan but not super. i have freckles and moles on my face and arms. i have hazel eyes and a heart shaped face :)

i’m agender and use they/he prns, my gender preference is male and if you could i’d like stranger things and hp (but if just one then stranger things please<3)

i hope all that’s enough!!! have a good day/night :)

okay sorry if I get any of the details of Stranger Things wrong because I’m not super into it yet ;) you never said if you wanted The fruity four or the party.. I gave you the party, it just felt right :))

mike wheeler; he’s kind of a dick so if you were a dick back to him maybe he would like that. by dick I mean sarcastic. but yeah. but ngl he seems like he has a lot of problems, like you said you have anger issues and I feel like he has anger issues too so i feel like you would go at each other… now I feel like you and Dustin would have a lot of fun <3 just being sarcastic the whole time ;) I feel like you both would raise dart together <3 (was that his name?) same with Will, he seems like a more comforting friend so I feel like he would help with the feelings and just talking about it instead of getting mad about it. I feel like Lucas would be mean back too but would also be playing with you yk yeha

you’re nice to strangers; when eleven came to Hawkins, you most likely welcomed her in ‘cause like she was in pouring rain in a big shirt so you now have your first girl best friend and then moving onwards when Max comes to hawkins, and her and eleven became friends, it was eleven’s mission to make you two become friends!! once she introduced you two, she put her hands on both of your shoulders like in a side hug and said, “friends!” nodding her head with her beautiful big smile while you 'nd max just said, “yeah, sure.” shrugging into the side hug, then all three of you went to the mall <3

I really don’t know about the fruity for though :) i’m kind of set on the party with you.. if you want the fruity four tell me what you doing your free time? ;) i just don’t know. like I don’t know who would you love in the party so yeha. maybe you have a little crush on Steve 😭

I don’t feel like you would have a rival… except for venca but like a person that hates you.? no one could hate you. maybe what’s up bitches name in season four release she was bullying El… idfk I don’t need to know her name.. maybe she would hate you bc you fucked her up yeah!! ;DDDD

okay now hp :)) yeahhh you didn’t choose marauders or golden era 😭 i’m sorry I should’ve stated this in the post, im choosing which one I think you would be the best in <33

I feel like you would be best friends with Lily!! oh yeahhh, but then you would grow very close with Marlene once you met her, similar personalities I feel like ;) I feel like Alice & Mary are great with like feelings and so it lily, I feel like Lily would know how to deal with your anger issues or when you get mad or something. if you were to say something maybe judgmental I feel like Lily would scold you on that and also school you school you on that, like if you’re unknowing of something maybe.. I feel like she would also help you grow from your negative traits like if you were to pointed out to her or she was just seeing that you were acting different. somehow.

Remus lupin. just yes! you give me sirius vibes ngl. I feel like you and Sirius would be best friends too, and slowly build into something more. BUT. you and Remus were also close too and yeha, you were building closer with him your friendship with Sirius was becoming something else. and then you got with Remus right.. Sirius is still very flirty to both of you and he was the biggest shipper EVER!!! and then since you and Remus were already together you guys like talked and since Sirius was into both of you you then talk to him and I don’t know if you like into poly relationships but I feel like you three together would be good!! <33

enemy um except for Voldemort I do not know…

also thank you && goodnight <33

#@ garfields 300.#garfield answers 🦖#I haven’t watch Stranger Things in a while man

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troglobite · 2 years

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and also 4 days ago i asked if a friend--who has been really great recently--if they’d be okay looking at some finishing things i’m working on for the game bc i wanted feedback

bc a friend of mine who’ll be in the game is sick and busy and wasn’t able to look at the things i sent her

and it’s been 4 days. and. they haven’t like. acknowledged it at all? they said yeah go ahead they’d get to it tomorrow.

and i said cool! i’ll send you a google doc version of it.

and. they haven’t replied. or acknowledged it. at all.

but they responded to a tweet that i sent them. :/

i’m just like.

am i being a dick? are my expectations too much? is it not fair?

like i still haven’t gotten answers from a player who said she’d get back to me within the week.

it’s been 11 days and i haven’t heard back at all

and before that she had gone quiet for weeks, and i had to nudge her and wait several days for her to even confirm she wanted to still play

i’m just.

like our session zero is in abt two weeks, and i have A LOT OF STUFF that i still have to prepare.

and no one i’ve asked is helping me w the things that remain. and idk if i’m being unreasonable or what.

like. if they just said. “i’m busy today and tomorrow, but i’ll do my best to get back to you/check in by [whatever day]” i’d be like “cool thanks!”

and then when ppl HAVE done that they. haven’t stuck to it.

but i feel. rude. nudging them or reminding them.

bc i jsut did that to the group discord in our channel abt the game and like. the response i got in my google form seemed so irritated. and. idfk.

idk what to make of any of this and i’m tired of being completely stupid and unhinged and unreasonable and feeling so wrongfooted abt everything. i’m tired of constantly misinterpreting things bc ppl just won’t talk to me.

or. idk. i’m tired of being excited abt something and no one is sharing my excitement. or if they are, it’s not. like. clear or helpful. as in, it’s not clear to me that they are excited, and if they’re enthused then they’re not engaging in any way that would make that clear to me or help me bring it to fruition.

am i just being a jackass? i genuinely can’t fucking tell and i literally just cannot ask anyone.

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intheorchards · 2 years

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Just rambling about my OC/AU/whatever because I want to and I can

Malkah/Mal She/They

kind of been calling it the courtyard au... starts before the show by ??? some amount of time, eventually joins and then diverges a little I guess

Her story really does follow that famous CDrama trope of servant getting promoted up to emperors attendant but also she has a ~mysterious past~

She was sent to the castle by a resistance group who wanted to get information from the inside. which is like whatever, needs must and all. However this group isn’t like the honourable freedom fighters like the BATS. The found some poor fucker fallen through an errant titan blood pool, injured and passed out in the boiling rains and thought “ooh good we can use this” so they cut her ears, lock away her memories and feed her lies that she’s a powerless witch and they did everything they could but she hit her head and she was just too hurt to cure the ‘amnesia’

They coach her on everything she has to say and send her up to the castle to hand herself in as a ‘wild witch’ and beg for mercy to get a place as a servant...it’s pretty weird though and the scouts are hella sus so she ends up meeting Belos and he’s just amused by it all, very cynical, goes on a long speech, and gets all up in her business proper unsettling like. That’s when he sees the scars on her ears and gets suspicious of her. She insists she’s a powerless witch, but he’s already suspecting she’s just a human like him which is why he hesitates on giving her a sigil brand... if his suspicions are wrong he can just do it later.

So yeah, she becomes a servant, sends letters back to the resistance, takes advantage of all the rules of not interacting with seniors etc. just gets on with it. Until the night when she’s told to go clean a mess in the workshop. Belos is there and so is Hunter... Hunter is like begging his uncle to call it a night like “You’re not well, you need to rest” but of course he pays no heed and suffers an outburst in front of the servant who should never know this. Mal is freaking out, Hunter is freaking out, but she pulls it together enough to push him to get some help, she insists on staying because “he shouldn’t be alone like this”

and like she’s terrified, absolutely bricking it, but takes a step forward anyway and tries to calm the beast a little. When Hunter returns with a palisman he finds her sitting on the floor whispering to the mudbeast that everything’s gonna be okay. He sends her away so he can give Belos the palisman.

When Belos regains his sense of self he’s kind of freaking out, like a servant should never see that, should never know about that and he’s like trying to find a way to get her silence without drawing unnecessary attention to the whole thing

he offers her a promotion to become his attendant where she would be under his watch all day

but she refuses

thus starting a whole little game where he tries to get her to accept and yada yada blah blah eventually feelings or some shit idfk

Oh shit... yeah, Belos figures out he has the feels when he discovers that she had been sending letters to the resistance and instead of being angry he is just so unbelievably hurt and sends her away from the castle... I guess that’s when she runs into the owl fam.

I’m thinking she discovers that she’s human during hollow mind, she falls into a memory of him writing his suspicions in a journal where he also has a sketch of her ears with the scars “They’re like mine” he writes

then when she does run into his inner self she confronts him and he brings out the “Just look what these witches have done to you” line “They cut your ears, the used you, the stole your memories and hid the truth of who you are from you” and that realisation sends her straight into his arms because as awful as a person he is, he was actually pretty good to her and all.

and I’ve not really thought much about what goes on from there but I do want the fucked up old man with his kind of fucked up little wife to have a happy ending so

There’s also a bunch of other OC’s for castle staff and such but I haven’t thought about them as much

#the owl house oc #the owl house au #it's mega cringe but I am cringe so w/e

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just felt like rambling about my school’s bullshit somewhere that isn’t *as* directly tied to me lmao

christ. i tested positive for covid (no fucking idea where i got it) and so they have to put me in the quarantine dorms, which already sucks because i have to move across campus during finals and be alone and whatever but i get it, they have to deliver us all food, it makes sense. i hate it but it makes sense!

the quarantine dorms are on the 4th floor of the freshmen dorms. which infamously have no elevator.

i email the guy handling it all to be like hey are there any lower floor options, i’m disabled and i don’t think i’ll be able to carry my belongings up Three Flights Of Stairs. he says no, but you have plenty of time to move in so it’ll be fine. (i had 3 hours to move in from the time the email was sent)

im like. ok. i’ll try. i guess. i gather my belongings and push a cart full of everything i need for 10 days— including shit like toilet paper, bedding, etc because they do not provide that in the quarantine dorms— Across Campus. i am disabled, i have covid, it’s fucking cold out, i am already tired from that. i get to the freshmen dorms. i get to the first set of stairs. i Cannot get my belongings up even One Step.

i immediately email again saying hey this isn’t gonna work i literally am unable to get up the stairs, i am disabled, can someone be sent to help me. while waiting for a reply, in the cold, i try lugging my stuff up the stairs again. can’t even get a step up. again.

after an hour. an Hour. i send a followup message. saying hey. im sorry for sending so many messages. but i am in the freezing cold, because i do not want to wait inside, because i do not want to spread covid. i CANNOT get up the stairs. Please Do Something For Me. i still do not get a reply. half an hour passes. my mom is threatening to call every official on the planet. me, being socially anxious, is like pppplease no id rather freeze.

after a while i am So cold and tired, and mind you i woke up at 7am after sleeping like shit bc covid has given me insomnia (usually im great at sleeping), so i go up to one building that has the office of res life. idfk what every office does so im like ok maybe they can help me. and i ask the front desk person if they can ask if someone can help me. they ask who ive been emailing with, i tell them, they’re like oh he’s back here, they go back and talk to him. they come back and say “im sorry we can’t help you.” this person seems genuinely sorry and like they want to help but that a higher up, mr. Ignoring My Fucking Emails, is saying they can’t. by this point i am mere seconds away from sobbing so im like :) thank you… and leave and then have a lil breakdown in the bathroom where i can’t even wipe my snot face bc i have fucking covid and i feel bad enough even using a public bathroom at all

anyway i gave my mom permission to call whoever she wanted and she called around. i was told multiple times someone would be ‘contacting me’ and nobody did. it’s another 45 minutes. she calls the health center and there’s a nurse there who is SO horrified that NO ONE IS DOING ANYTHING that she walks halfway across campus in full Plague Gear to me. and she carries my belongings. up three flights of stairs. the entire time being like “it is Ridiculous that they make students with covid do this wtf” and i thank her a hundred times and my mom sends an email being like “pls give nurse a raise. pls tell email jerk he sucks.” the nurse is my guardian angel.

30 minutes after arriving in the dorm, email jerk replies to me saying i should abandon my belongings at the bottom of the stairs (in the middle of the dorm yard) and go to the dorm and he ‘may’ have someone come by in 15 minutes to bring my things up for me. i say … no. no thanks im at the dorm.

anyway shoutout to my school i guess

#snow.txt

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sailorsirius · 2 years

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Neptune Retrograde: What the Low Tide Has Taught Me

Neptune goes direct tomorrow. I've learned... a lot. The general theme has been discernment, and becoming comfortable accepting truths I don't want to hear. It's an important lesson I'll carry with me going forward, and I've been doing my best to accept the hard parts of this transit and live my life not just waiting around for it to go direct again, but oh my fucking god this planet cannot go direct fast enough.

It wasn't until recently (like, two weeks ago) that I finally understood the way it was affecting me. I get it now, but boy was I hurting for months, wallowing in confusion and shivering in the face of cold truth. My dreaming hasn't changed very much, but it's felt different, like there's a pane of glass that separates me from what I see, and it's etched so everything's just slightly foggier than normal. But then again, some dreams have been clear as day, so idfk. Daydreaming and meditating have been difficult. I don't have a strong mind's eye when it comes to envisioning tangible things. But when I daydream--when I go to the liminal place--I can see the granite countertop of the kitchen in the house I share with Zachary, Kelley, and Aarón. I can see the dark wood cabinet faces, the fridge adjacent to the stove adjacent to the little breakfast nook where Zach told me about his father. The island in the middle where we meet in the small hours. That's all been behind that etched glass. Similarly, meditating has been frustrating because I'm so used to seeing what's there that I've had to just... trust that I am where I am.

I've felt separated from my family, too. That's not new--they don't normally stay in super-close proximity unless I'm in dire need of them. They're travelers. But like meditating, I've had to learn to trust they're there, they haven't left me and never will, and that the string that binds us is uncuttable. Cassian has sent me numbers consistently all this time. He knows. And sometimes he's funny about it. He'll go overboard and send me one after another after another, as if to suggest I'm being silly to even entertain the idea that he's not around, looking out for me. I've learned something about him too, which I think I must have already known but wasn't willing to look in the face. He's not all love and light, like Halen and Asa. There's more to him that I don't know about. I think he keeps that from me, and that's okay for now. I know, no matter what he's capable of, that he would never hurt me.

I miss Zach. So much I can't conjure up the language for it. There have been moments where I've felt him right beside me; like when I did an important meditation back in August, the one that set everything I'm doing now into motion. He joined me, my family joined me, others I haven't met yet joined me. They all formed a circle around me. Zach touched the place on my abdomen where we were shot. I felt it exactly the same as a physical sensation. I saw his shadow in my room, behind my eyelids. And there was the time he came to sit with me once when I was sad, cross-legged in front of me like a mirror.

I know, I know, I know he's still there. He reminds me often and thoroughly that it's impossible for us to lose each other, because I am him and he is me. He showed up last night to remind me that it's just a little while longer, just a little bit. He misses me too, I can feel it. Just a little bit longer until I'll feel him constantly at my side again.

Anyway, as much as I've learned during this transition, I'm left with armfuls of unanswered questions. Who is Aarón really, and what is he hiding? Why is he always in trouble, and why won't he let me help him? Who is Three Feathers? What is Cassian doing when he's not around, and to whom? Where is my family from, if not Pleiades? Where am I from?

I'm optimistic. I have a feeling the tide will come in and it will all wash over me.

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#thoughts #zachary #cosmic twins #twin flames #astrology #neptune #retrograde #cosmic family #cassian #aarón #pleiadeans #alien papers

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tendousthoughts · 2 years

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Thanking the heavens I’m only here for a few more days because not only did I find ANOTHER GODDAMN HOUSE CENTIPEDE I found a lot baby centipedes

Just a centipede update but uh sorry I haven’t checked in in a while I’ve been busy going everywhere and anywhere

As much as I love traveling sometimes I just wanna lie in my room and do nothing all day

Not only did I get my period early and that in itself is horrible, the cramps are worse than ever and more frequent than ever so pills are my lifesavers even though I usually don’t like taking them (idfk why I just don’t. Like they don’t taste like anything, they’re not hard to swallow I just don’t like them)

However I have noticed my mental health has improved significantly since I went on vacation.

I’ve had noticed before a lot symptoms of ADHD but I want to go to a therapist first to get it diagnosed or get something else diagnosed maybe. I think it’s definitely something I just don’t know what and ADHD so far fit the best so…

Enough with gloomy talk

I’ve seen one of my favorite cousins not too long ago and before that haven’t seen her IN YEARS and so was pretty exited to talk to her but turns out we don’t have that many things in common anymore and it was pretty awkward at times but we still had fun chatting and catching up. As boring of subject it seems it was actually pretty interesting to talk about the differences in our educational systems we’ve experienced. But also it’s a given that some tea was also spilled while we also overheard some at a family gathering and Let. Me. Tell. You it was JUICY

Also she has an adorable dog and I love him

Do you have any pets? I don’t know if I mentioned it before I have a horrible memory but I have a dog named Toby and he’s a fluff ball

I have a funny story related to him actually and my stupidity

I was going to walk my precious fluff ball and went outside with the leash

And forgot the fucking dog

I WENT TO WALK THE DOG WITHOUT THE DOG

The best part? It happened multiple times

So yes, I’m smart academically but not logically at all

In school I’m a straight A student but in life I can’t even walk straight without walking into a wall and claiming it’s a secret passageway because “one rock sticks out so it must be a button”

(Small anecdote from my childhood but funny nonetheless)

This ask is getting quite long so I’m gonna end it here

- 🍍 anon

HELP- 🍍 anon idk if ur gonna see this or even remember sending me this but

Centipedes <<<<< Conan Gray 😔

Im so glad that your mental health has improved, please tell me how you are doing I miss talking to u :((((

Luv hopefully you did go get diagnosed, and found out what was up fr fr <3333 best of luck tell me how that went if you see this okay?

I DO: I have a cat and two dogs they are the sweetest things ever. But yes we love straight A students who forget their doggg djkhfdfjs

#xic.answers #xic.chats #🍍 anon

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