And somehow I'm both

I have so many SebxMC WIPs and drawings when it comes to the new chapters that I can't wait to post !! 😩😩

here's a lil scribble I did with Raven (personally I think #3 fits her aesthetic😍) ⭐️ part 49292 of me refusing to shove her into one "goth" category 😤

team meeting

Todays useless thought that gives me great joy is Andrew, high off his ass, pacing Wymack's living room at 3 am ranting about the new guy he has a crush on and Wymack being forced to listen to it

You know, when you think about it Apple kinda feels like a metaphor for someone who was raised very religious and was taught that anyone who didn’t follow traditions exactly was going to hell.

Because she doesn’t do the things she does for herself necessarily, (don’t get me wrong it probably helps that she benefits quite a bit from it.) she does it because she’s terrified for her friends.

This becomes even more apparent in the books when we see how the headmaster puts Apple in charge of Raven, and criticizes her for not doing enough to stop her. Similarly, a large part of a lot of religions is going to convert others, with the idea of saving them from themselves. Apple firmly believes that if she doesn’t change Ravens mind, then she is responsible for whatever happens to her.

Did anyone else make this connection? Idk maybe I’m just Rambling

give my girl just ONE peaceful day, I'm begging at this point. she's already dead, yet there's still a plethora of life-threatening situations everywhere.

also, "rarely"? so they do venture through the gates from time to time? oh, cool, I wonder what that means.

also also, the expansion of nevermore lore is actually so thrilling to me. we rarely get to know about something beyond the gates or about other entities inhabiting this place.

Tsc spoilers

Andreil wrecked me in such a beautiful manner during the course of this book; seeing everything unfold under Jean's observing eye was everything I could have asked for.

Here comes the yapping session for the following situations noticed.

Having someone watch the way Andreil look at each other and act when the other is around has such an intimate level that I understand Jean for not wanting to intervene at any point. “being in each other's gravity” was such a beautiful way of looking at it, because it didn't signal a necessity nor an obligation, like the ravens' partnerships have been

Everything about their relationship screamed choice and even Jean notices it easily; he didn't compare it to Kevin and Andrew's closeness, that had been impacted by the Nest and buddy system. They were there for each other because they wanted to be there, and I imagine that being hard to imagine for the little French man

Furthermore, Jean's perspective on the finals that Foxes vs Ravens went through was so significant. He was watching it from a bird's eye perspective, rendered useless so far away from them and condemned to only watch. He knew no one had time to get to Neil; he knew he was about to die right before his eyes and no one could have stopped Riko from outright live tv murder because even the ravens were too scared to fight him off.

Seeing Jean describe Andrew's intervention as “all hell was at his heels” did something to my heart. Andrew was willing to risk it all for the sassy stricker and nothing was about to stop him, not even the consequences of his own actions, if Ichirou decided to retaliate instead of getting rid of Riko.

If even oblivious Jean could describe it like that, how obvious is Andreil's relationship from the outside, even with them being careful about it? Does everybody see them being tender only with each other? Are they cooing like I am at them? Because we've seen the way they acted at the mountain cabin, but that was before the finals or way premature to Neil being free.

I hold these moments here <3

Some worldbuilding stuff I enjoy playing with:

The highest honor a man can have in Hyrule besides royalty or the hero is to be knighted. There are soldiers but they are simply soldiers. Knights on the other hand are blessed by the queen herself, and are knighted typically because they match the qualities of a hero: strong spirit, unwavering courage, and so on. The knights of Hyrule are the strongest fighters and defend the castle if it’s attacked.

The highest honor a woman can have in Hyrule is the status of a maiden. Maidens are blessed by the queen as well and typically match the qualities of the princess with the goddess’s bloods in her veins: wise and powerful with divine magic. Though their magic is not as strong as the princess/Queen’s, together, they are significantly powerful and can help in defense of the castle.

Combining my current obssession with my past obsession? That's a half-lie, never got over Hadestown.

A lil old wip for now because I've been busy and will be busy for the next couple of weeks... but hopefully I'll be back with an aftg piece that's in the works<33

Sebastian is the type to get random bursts of affection.

At the beginning of your relationship, he would suppress them, he'd be more reserved, scared to be too annoying, too clingy, too inadequate, too much. But eventually, he would relax — he would feel more at ease and gradually act on them more and more.

And one of his favourite activities is snuggling.

You could be sitting on the sofa, and he'd sit down too, and guide you between his legs, wrapping his arms around you from behind, and he would nuzzle your hair, your neck, your cheeks, eyes closed in bliss, and place very lazy kisses everywhere his lips can reach. Nuzzle, kiss, nuzzle, kiss, over and over again.

Or he would gently push you to lay down, and rest his head on your chest, face hidden in the crook of your neck so he can breathe in your perfume, lips brushing slightly on your skin, and he'd hug you like you're a giant pillow, and cuddle with you until he feels like he has fallen all over again. Because what's important to Sebastian is to feel you close, no matter how, no matter what.

When everything sucks but my shrine continues to grow...

the thing (one of the many) I love about Lee is how maturity is also shown on his frame. because, technically, they can't grow old just like normal humans, however his mind will and I find amazing the subtle differences between Palefire, Entropy and now Hyperreal.

As I mentioned in a previous post, Palefire is still kinda stuck in his past as an assassin, which is completely understandable, so you can see this brutal, blunt, and cold demeanor on his way of speaking, way of moving and acting. As if he is still suspicious of everyone, not wanting to let his guard down just in case his new teammates dare to betray him, as if the nice words and actions he is experiencing, are but fake.

Entropy looks a bit more mature, but still quite naive if you ask me, and back to my previous post again, just because he is still learning how to trust, how to rely on others, finding the perfect words to express what he's feeling. And that is okay to relax when he's with Gray Raven.

And then.... Hyperreal. It's so different from his other two frames (taking in consideration he made some changes himself, except the hair colour, that wasn't an option), and how mature he looks, not only physically but also emotionally. I am absolutely amazed how much he grew up in SoC, how we can see the development between his past selves and this new version of himself. More secure, more stable, more relaxed, he finally let go of any doubt and I'm sure he will cherish every single moment with his new... family. he will do whatever it takes to protect them, but he knows now he can ask for help, he knows he can rely on them, he can fully trust them because Gray Raven never abandoned him.

Obsessing over this shot from heaven sent and I haven’t seen anyone talk about it and it’s reflection of the doctors grief. In front of him is this window, this light and these flowers, all these reflections of life and beauty right in front of him. This light is shining on the doctors face yet his face is also shrouded in darkness. There’s the contrast of light and dark on his face, the beauty of the world at the palm of his fingers but it’s tainted by loss, suffering, grief. Clara’s portrait in the background, he’s unable to look at it but the darkness is on the same side. The doctor is unable to look, unable to accept her death and he’ll spend four and a half billions years suffering to save her, he’ll burn worlds and universes in his denial to accept her death. Clara’s portrait itself has light shining upon it, reflecting all the happiness and joy she brought the doctor, the optimism she represents yet the tragedy is in their separation, a dark shadow separating them. The light and joy brought by Clara inaccessible to the doctor, he can’t bear to look. One of the only times he smiles in Heaven sent is looking at her portrait, a moment of forgotten grief. In his pain and torture chamber it is the image and memory of her that brings him joy, but as the paint flakes away so will she, the memories he loved so much to be forgotten in his desperate attempts to save her. This silly little sci-fi show can really break your heart.

The homophobes/transphobes raging at the latest retcon of Nightcrawler’s origin story is so funny to me. Like- what are you even doing here? You’re complaining about an X-Men book having identity politics??? The series that has been Marvel’s go-to soapbox since the 1960’s?? The series that’s been so ridiculously queer-coded in everything from its conflicts to its character arcs to its goddamn fashion choices for decades??? I’m sorry, did you take a wrong turn and walk into the wrong fandom?

Never mind that having Mystique & Destiny being Kurt’s bio parents was always Chris Claremont’s original intent. Or that their relationship has pretty much always been canon, or that this isn’t even their first time coparenting (albeit poorly, but we love that drama).

You say it’s too convoluted? Ok, and the Azazel retcon wasn’t? Again, it’s X-Men, where convoluted origins and conspiracies reign supreme. You say it conflicts with Kurt’s identity as a man of faith? As if the whole point of his religion wasn’t always to clash with his demonic appearance in order to make the statement that true faith needs to be rooted in love and compassion and not bigotry or an outward show of righteousness? As if the comics have never had Kurt cross paths with far-right Christian nationalists who refused to see him for who he was?

I mean- who’s gonna tell these guys about this classic? Did they think Logurt was a froyo flavor?

In conclusion, I generally don’t like to gatekeep fandom, but omfg these people are such fake fans. As for me, my only issue with the retcon is the reframing of Raven as having wholly loved Kurt & wanted him but she just… misplaced her baby I guess. Like c’mon, guys, we can let Mystique be a messy lesbian AND a shitty baby-yeeting mom, give us that diversity win.