Nature and smoking 🚬. She's enjoying the quiet 🤫

So hard to be quiet and shy and yet yearn for healthy social interaction like Do I Want To Speak To You? Yes. Do I Want To SPEAK To You? I would rather die

the vibe for going back to school

Nice lady is checking you out

Lost soul

From preschool to 2nd grade, I was well-liked and had a lot of friends. Was very comfortable, with talking with my peers. In 3rd grade I started to get bullied because of my weight. That summer I got my period and boobs. I was the very first girl to have that kind of growth spurt at 7 in a half. My mom thought I was raped or molested or something. My body started to mature then. By the time of 5th grade, my body really matured and lots of boys could see. During lunch, his boy TYRONE came up to me with a joke about my breast and everyone laughed and some people said "Why would you say that ". Ever since then, I have worn a jacket. It was a charter school as well which I'm very greatful for so I didn't have to worry about planning outfits. I wore jackets from 5th - to 9th grade because of that comment. Of course, when you get to highschool, the rise of Instagram models that had BBLs became the desired look at my public school. I had the body and many of my male friends would try to act like they liked me but they didn't just like my body. Most just wanted to lose their virginity as well. I never gave in. When 2020 came around, it was finally when I decided that I was going to talk more in class and participate. I was comfortable. Then covid happened. Came back to school for senior year and most of my friends graduated early because they did online school except my boyfriend. Almost gave my virginity up in 12th grade to him. He then betrayed me and it really hurt. I didn't forgive him until months later. after the betrayal, I lost myself. Before we started our situation, I was literally glowing. I was so happy after thinking I wouldn't make new friends but I ended up being friends with amazing people. For the rest of high school, I was just quiet all for a stupid boy. I was just so embarrassed. Got into college, I haven't made friends. I made acquaintances but high schoolgrateful who were nice but not friends. I know most friend groups break up but I haven't even gotten to know anyone really. My only friend is my friend from preschool. We've been together from preschool to middle. I'm a sophomore about to be junior, and now want to be seen. I never realized how damaging being quiet has made me. I was so confident when I was younger now I'm just anxious about talking to people, I'm starting to have a stuttering problem and keep reliving in embarrassing moments. Today was my last straw when something embarrassing happened. No more. I just want good advice on how to move forward.

how does it feel when you found out that the most quiet girl wanted to talk a lot?

like pls js shut up

You always see me as a quiet girl. Until today, you never know that there were a lot of things I really wanted to tell you because my words would instantly tangle in my head, then hang in my eyes as I looked into yours. I could even hear my heartbeat speaking louder than my own lips but it was all silent as if your ears won't let them to reach your heart. And once again, I became the quiet girl you think I always be, just like them.

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