The problem with Victor Frankenstein isn't that he's not as smart as he thinks he is. The problem with Victor Frankenstein is that he's exactly as smart as he thinks he is in one very specific area, and he just expects that to automatically translate to every other area of his life and is taken completely by surprise every single time it doesn't.

"why don't you have a job?"

i can't find one that will hire/accommodate me or that i qualify for, bc i'm disabled.

"be a cashier!"

requires long hours of standing, which i can't do, or has a physical requirement of being able to lift 40+ lbs from the floor to above shoulder level, which i also can't do. some companies go so far as to expressly state that reading body language is required for this position, which i am very bad at.

"well you could buss tables!"

long hours of standing, a lot of walking, bending, lifting, carrying, all of which i am not capable of doing for extended periods of time.

"just work from home!"

doing what? it hurts to type, i have a hell of a time trying to figure out new software, no one in any work from home job i've ever done has communicated adequately which always results in me being in trouble, sitting for too long is painful.

"walk dogs or smth!"

again: can't do long walks. also, can't be reliable bc of flare ups and such (which applies to all of these, really).

"start your own business!"

with what money? with what product? art? can't consistently do it. music? not that either. sewing crocheting scrapbooking writing? nope nope nope nope. plus, i struggle so hard w/execution dysfunction that one of three things would happen: 1) i would make and create and package and send and nothing else ever. or 2) i would do unrelated stuff that needs to be done and never create or package or ship. or finally 3) i would never do anything ever bc brain refuses to cooperate and all the tasks are overwhelming.

"idk, be a crossing gaurd or smth!"

see previous statements.

"collect shopping carts!"

see previous statements.

"post office!"

see previous statements.

"electrician, plumber, hvac!"

see previous statements.

the way I'd devour a fic of aven and ratio with your buckshot crossover, that thing has EATEN my brain

if anyone writes one 🙏🙏🙏🙏

YES!! I WAS THINKING THE SAME THING

If nobody does it I will do it myself HOWEVER that doesn't mean I wouldn't like any additions heheh

(in that case I MUST be sent a link to that fic before getting admitted to emergency care)

If anyone has the tiniest urge to write too, I implore them to join me!! Even if it's just one particular dialogue or sentiment that comes to mind, one small idea can surge much more once you end up starting it.

I really love this crossover particularly because the game's undertone themes (not saying what due to potential spoilers) deals with the exact same things Aventurine struggles with, oh, the angst potential.

Boltzmann brains and the true cosmic horror of the mists.

The fractals of the mists, for some they're an infinite loot farm, and for others they're a wheel of infinite torture. Their status as 'kinda horrifying' is pretty well known but I wanna go into the true depths of what they imply to the world of Tyria, and to do that we need to look at the Boltzmann brain.

So, the Boltzmann brain was a thought experiment that suggested that over an infinite period of time, it was far more likely for your brain to be the result of a random fluctuation of entropy hallucinating past memories. Essentially it was saying 'what's more likely, that your one of the people who lived and died on earth, or that your one of the infinite brains (again, given infinite time) that randomly spawn into existance before degrading back to nothing (I am VASTLY oversimplifying here and I'm sure anyone actually educated on the topic can point out innumerable misundersandings in this paragraph alone.).

Now this can kind of be applied to the world of Tyria and the surrounding proto-reality of the mists as well. We don't know how many fractals there are in existance, they seem to form naturally and the world of Tyria alone has spawned countless fractals as it marches through time (and this isn't even getting into the artificially created fractals that the wizards and similarly powerful entities can create). So essentially, my argument is, what's more likely, that you are a true Tyrian mortal, born and raised in prime Tyrian reality, or that you're a denizen of the infinite fractals that have echoed out from Tyria like ripples on a pond? Statistically, you're a fractal denizen, cursed to repeat the same day over and over until you fade back into the mists. And you'd never even know.

Honestly I don't know how Tyrian citizens sleep soundly at night.

guys pls stop liking the gojo cum physics post. i cannot have this be my legacy. it is my 2nd most liked post rn and i’ve written + posted over 100k words of fanfiction before it🧍🏻‍♀️

Sorry guys, rant incoming. I considered deleting this but I put too much effort in.

"girlboss" "girl dinner" "girl math" "boy math" "gen z are making fun of us for wearing x" "here's how to dress like gen z:" "girlies" "girl's night" "boy's night" "me and the boys" "90s kid"

"I don't feel like an adult" "I'm 34 and I can tell you, I still don't feel like an adult either." "My parents seemed like real adults when they were my age." "I still feel like a teenager."

Maybe you'd feel more like an adult if you started calling yourself one. Maybe you'd feel more like an adult if you stopped trying to dress like a teenager. Maybe you should move your bed out from the wall and get a wallet. Maybe find a calendar app that works for you.

You are an adult. Even if you live with your parents. Even if you do part-time shift work at minimum wage. Even if you haven't graduated college. Even if you are single. These are adult things to do. Because you are doing them. And you are an adult. Start treating yourself like an adult. Fake it 'till you make it if you have to.

In other, writing-related, news:

That trend on TikTok of 20-40 something women authors (and writers yet to be published) promoting their books like,

"Omg! I can't believe I've sold X number of copies!! I never thought I would!" "Ahhhh imagine publishing your book and all your dreams come true and now you get to meet famous authors and work with big names in the industry!!" "Would you read a book where [proceeds to list a bunch of oversaturated tropes that tell me nothing about the actual plot]?"

It reeks of infantilization. If you didn't believe anyone would want to read your book, why should I? You made it on the NYT bestseller list! Stop acting like a mega-fan who got to meet a celebrity. You are their peer! "Would you read a book--" What if I wouldn't? Why does it matter to you what I think of your book? And for the love of god stop hiding behind tropes you know are already popular. "Here is my book: This is what it is about." Have some goddamn confidence.

It is fine to mention in passing "this idea was really far-fetched so I didn't know if it would appeal" or "I was struggling with self-esteem when I wrote this". It's fine to fan a little bit. It's fine to discuss the tropes in your book. But why are you building your brand as an author off of your inferiority complex? You are using your poor self-esteem as a marketing tactic to seem "humble" and "relatable" but it's coming across as unprofessional and desperate for reassurance. You are an adult. You are competent. The more you act like it the more you will believe it.

And of course, I haven't seen a man promote his book this way...

On another note, do any of the 20-40 something women writers who do "write with me" videos on TikTok actually enjoy writing or are they just doing it for the aesthetic?

They all have gorgeous minimalism writing spaces full of white and pink and a macbook beneath a window. Their makeup is done and they are conventionally pretty to start with. But their entire video is just them talking about how little progress they made, how many pages they deleted, how often they got distracted, how frustrated they are. And like, yeah. We all have those days. But what about the good lines you can't wait to share? The days when the words just flow? The cool stuff you learned while researching? Why don't you ever make videos about that?

Is this some other attempt to seem "relatable" by only talking about the "bad" side of writing? Because again, it's coming across as lacking confidence at best and, at worst, that you don't actually know how to write. And that is not the brand you want as an author.

Again, its always women. Why must women market their self-esteem issues in order to sell their art? Why must we be perpetually awestruck children (girlies, book girls) in over our heads?

Spent quantum computing lecture doodling Batman characters in pure confusion.

Behold, the fruits of my labors!

Here we have Oracle, Robin V, Red Hood, Nightwing, Robin IV, and a sleeping Robin III, accompanied by something about representing complex numbers with e, phase shifts, and single-qubit gates.

Now we’re onto two-qubit gates, something about superposition, and now we have a universal gate set (which the instructor was literally grinning and laughing about). Plus Tim waking up “early” (11:46 am) and a tiny Robin hiding in Batman’s cape.

Notes about measurement collapsing the quantum state. A coin flip was mentioned, so there’s an obligatory Two-Face doodle and metaphor.

it's new year's eve, so here's an art vs artist to end the year~

i wanted to thank you all for the support and kindness you've given me this year. truly, from the bottom of my heart, thank you 🥹💛 2023 has been such an awful year for me, from losing my grandmother, to the car accident, to all the various other bullshittery that has happened... i was not doing well at all and my mental health was really at an all-time low,,

but despite me not being too active and even disappearing/being radio silent for several months during the second half of the year, you never stopped showing me love and reaching out to make sure i was okay, sending me nice and encouraging messages and for that i am so so grateful!! i go back and reread all of them now when i'm feeling down or to get a motivation boost 💛

ahhhh i wish i was more eloquent so i can really express how grateful i am but just know that you all mean so much to me!!! truly!!╰(*´︶`*)╯

i can't promise i'll be more active in the coming year but i will do my best to make art that makes us all happy!

let's all walk on the flower path together!! here's to a happy, productive and succesful 2024 ( ´ ▽ ` ).｡ｏ♡

john hamish watson says: always stretch before working out kids 💪

You're just a drop out. What makes you think you know better than the people with masters and phds in physics as well as female politicians like AOC who are taking this seriously and investigating it? Once undeniable proof is presented that aliens are real (which will happen soon) will you accept the truth or will you double down like covid deniers? Real intelligent people stay open minded and wait for evidence before dismissing an idea. You're not a scientist or smart you're just an immature girl with a minimum wage office job.

this is the funniest ask i have gotten in a long time. out of all the stuff i have said and believe, what gets the most riled up hate anon in a long time is me saying the government isn't hiding alien bodies and spaceships 🤣🤣

alright quali

COACH what to do if im disabled and can't run for exercise... what the fuck do I do

ONLY DO WHAT YOU'RE CAPABLE OF, SON. IT DEPENDS ON THE REASON FOR YOUR INABILITY TO RUN. YOU MAY CHOOSE TO DO EXERCISES THAT RELY LESS ON YOUR LOWER BODY, SUCH AS SIT-UPS (WHICH CAN ALSO BE DONE STANDING BY BENDING YOUR LEGS SLIGHTLY THEN BOWING AND STRAIGHTENING AGAIN LIKE YOU WOULD REGULAR SIT-UPS IF YOU HAVE DIFFICULTIES GETTING ON THE GROUND), CHIN-UPS, PULL-UPS, DIPS, SO ON. YOU ALSO MAY CONSIDER FREE WEIGHT EXERCISES WITH SOMETHING SMALL. 1KG DUMBBELLS CAN BE BOUGHT FOR AS LOW AS 5 REÁL; THEY'RE SMALL ENOUGH TO STORE AND CAN GO A LONG WAY (BICEP CURL, ZOTTMAN CURL, FLAT DUMBBELL FLY, ARNOLD PRESS, CROSS BODY HAMMER CURL, SPIDER CURL, SCAPTION EXCERCISES, I COULD GO ON -- THESE ALL WORK EXCLUSIVELY YOUR UPPER BODY MUSCLES). MEDICINE BALLS AND KETTLEBELLS TEND TO BE MORE EXPENSIVE BUT CAN ALSO BE AN OPTION TO LOOK AT. AND FINALLY, IF THOSE AREN'T OPTIONS, STRETCHING THREE TO FOUR TIMES A WEEK FOR AT LEAST 20 MINUTES CAN HELP ALLEVIATE MUSCLE TENSION AND REDUCE PAIN AND TENSION IN THE BODY AS WELL AS INCREASE FLEXIBILITY, BALANCE BLOOD CIRCULATION AND LUCIDITY. YOU MAY WANT TO DO STRETCHES FOR YOUR LEGS REGARDLESS TO ENSURE THEY DON'T GO UNDERUTILISED

COACH... OUT❗❗💥💪💪

im actually a huge hugger how did u know

Can we please drop the word “mental BIID”? Mental BIID is not a thing. The word you’re looking for is Munchausens, the disorder is just so stigmatized that people immediately gloss over it.