so many people say they always knew they were trans. They ay even as a kid they knew they weren't their birth gender. It's seen as a common trans experience, to have always know. People have asked me if I always knew and...idk I feel as if I've missed some core experience of being trans because I didn't.

I didn't always feel like my gender was wrong. In fact I don't think I ever had any feelings about gender until puberty and even then it wasn't that I didn't feel like a girl it's just that I didn't want breasts or a period. I never had a perception of my own gender. I didn't feel like a girl but I didn't feel like anything in general. People said I was a girl so that's what I was. It wasn't until high school that I thought maybe I'd be more comfortable as something else.

the thing is I still struggle with "Feeling" like a gender. I don't know what that means. I know I'm not a girl because girl makes me feel miserable. Boy makes me feel happy but I don't think I'd ever say i feel like a boy, just that I am one.

idk gender is weird. being trans is confusing. my experience doesn't fit the normal trans narrative. i wish there were more people who understood.

This is my petition for people who create pins/stickers/other things with "she/they" & "he/they" to also include "she/he". I'm kind of sick of being excluded, and I'm sure there are plenty of others who feel the same.

toby fox needs to add like a bit of narration in deltarune abt kris like "they themmed they/themily down the stheirs" cus i cant go on seeing them constantly get he/himmed in yt comment sections

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been seeing a lot of these lately and decided hey. why not. i haven’t got much to lose and this probably won’t get far anyhow so!

10 notes - I’ll eat better lunches.

50 notes - I’ll start posting my art again.

100 notes - I’ll start coloring my art again (lol.)

500 notes - I’ll start posting my fanfics again

1k notes - I’ll finish the 10 assignments that are overdue

1.5k notes - I’ll post some of my original content ( characters, stories, etc.)

2k notes - um. I don’t know. Maybe I’ll start doing commissions. If that’s a thing people want?

5k+ notes - I’ll cry.

Nah, I’ll get myself more femme clothes; I’ve been putting it off because… other people scary.

‘Danmei is mlm fantasy written by and for straight women’ is a lie. It’s written for transmascs and lesbians obviously.

my girls Pandora Rosier and Dorcas Meadowes <3 not shipping!!!

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headcanon time!!

so pandoras canon death was her experiments right?? well i think she’d have tons of scars and marks from her projects and some can’t be magiced away and i kinda love that for her so i added scars to her design!!

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dorcas and pandora were like sisters and always with each other. when pandora found baby luna (another hc that she was adopted) dorcas was by her side every step of the way and became the best auntie. so did marlene they definitely  spoiled her <3

also i kinda ignore the whole everyone dies thing so let’s pretend 1981 was a good year for them. i’ve seen enough sad marauders content this month. (or maybe this was the last photograph they took together and luna finds it after her mom dies )

the spider-verse fandom has been too annoying and heterornomative. what if i wrote college AU spider-verse with butchfemme ghostflower

T4T SHADOWROT !!!!!!!!!!!!! @mcyt-yuri-week

the truth is out,,,,, i like drawing tall bishonen yaoiboys

there’s something so sacred about the relationship queer masc folks have to pleasure. i’m thinking folks on that spectrum between masc dyke/transmasc. in my experience because folks have such a nuanced relationship with their own bodies & varying levels of comfort with being touched, there is SO much emphasis on sharing pleasure, on mirroring the pleasure that they give.

it’s this incredible spin on the hetero thing of taking pleasure FROM someone, where pleasure is not a zero-sum game; their pleasure is the same as my pleasure, things that don’t feel good to me don’t feel good to them. it’s like when you put two mirrors in front of one another and they are refracted into infinity: turning me on turns you on, seeing you turned on turns me on, and it just escalates until we’re both shaking and satisfied and exhausted.

i see this so much in how ppl relate to their strap, or how they react when i’m riding and grinding on them - the times i’ve made someone come without touching them or even taken off their clothes, because seeing me and feeling my weight is enough to evoke the physical feeling of being inside me. i swear i saw God the first time i felt someone come inside me through the strap. these experiences have brought me so much closer to my own body and the pleasure i can not only experience but share. it’s so holy, and in the times when someone has wanted me to touch and pleasure them it felt so intimate and precious to be given that trust. no cis man could’ve helped me unlock this.

AND i see all of this mirrored too in the protector/carer dynamic - like i love the feeling of strong arms around me, love the emotion of someone wanting me to be theirs and wanting to keep me safe. and i love the squishy insides, love to be a source of sweetness and healing and regeneration, love to hold someone in my bare palms and be able to say this is for you, this care and pleasure i give you is yours to keep. i love how those things are seen and received rather than taken for granted the way that cis men do.

anyways when i hear people say femme/masc dynamics recreate straightness, or that thing of “well why don’t you just date a REAL man then?” i want to say that’s EXACTLY the point. queer masculinity gives me everything i cherish about men without the violence, the ownership that men are raised & trained for.

first sketches of a fae character that i made back in june >:)

People with he/they pronouns are metal

Man when 2012!Splinter said “you are who you choose to be, not what others made you” that really hit my little non-binary heart

i heard there's a new preshow at the musical master of melody

another angle on the rabbit toon that i liked

more homestuck for today