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#SIDE PROFILEEEE#ok i’ll stop now#it’s almost 1 am imma go to bed#sorry for puli spam don’t block me y’all LMAO#christian pulisic
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pretty boy pt 2
ethan landry x reader
warnings: little bit of plot, smut obv, fingering, “dry” humping, ethan lowkey sub
notes: here’s a part 2, it’s high key shit but imma post it anyways, this will prolly be a series of the reader basically hooking up with ethan since he’s all virgin and innocent etc so they’ll always be smut and sex eventually, just building up to it
as always lmk if you like it and if there’s anything else you’d like me to write abt ethan i am open to prompt suggestions
pt 1 , pt 2 , pt 3 , pt 4 , pt 5 , pt 6
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after successfully sneaking out of the room and rejoining the others you all left the party. strolling on the sidewalk alongside chad and mindy you realized that sam, tara’s sister, had joined our group during some point in the night and her and tara were screaming at each other at this moment. the argument got cut short as a group of girls walked by sam, one throwing her drink on her along with a string of rude, degrading remarks regarding her theorized part in the woodsboro murders. time to go fucking home you thought. after what felt like forever you guys arrived to the apartment where you all decided to sleep. mindy and anika were sleeping on the couch together and sam was gonna room with their roommate quinn, leaving you and tara in her bedroom and chad and ethan in sam’s. as the two of you went into the room to change into comfier clothes you filled her in our the events of your nights.
“wait you’re telling me the whole time you were gone you were hooking up with ethan,” tara asked truly shocked.
“yes i’m just as surprised as you are,” you laughed pulling on the sleeveless white crop top to go with your pink pajama shorts.
“and i also have a favor to ask t.”
“oh god what is it,” she answered curiously.
“will you share a bed with chad so i can share one with ethan please please pleaseeee,” you begged playfully on your knees, “cmon i know you’ve liked chad for a while now now’s your chance.”
“oh yea like this is about me and not your desperate desire for dick.”
“hey the heart wants what it wants,” you shrugged.
“fine. go over to sams room and send chad over and please try not to be loud,” she gave in.
“thank you thank you thank youuuuu,” you exclaimed pulling your friend into a hug.
“yea yea get outta here sex demon,” she playfully shoved you off.
you left tara’s room and crossed the hall, letting yourself into sam’s room as you flung the door open to find the two boys sitting on the bed together.
“bye chad you’re sleeping in tara’s room,” you smiled waving goodbye.
“huh” he questioned.
ethan simply looked at you dumbfounded.
“you heard me the first time now love you bye,” you chirped as you held out the door for him.
“yea fuck you,” he chirped back leaving while flicking you off.
after he left you closed the door, locked it, and jumped into bed alongside ethan who was already bright red blushing.
“hey pretty boy.”
“h-hi.”
he was still nervous around you as if you didn’t cum all over his fingers and he didn’t cum all over your stomach.
“you don’t have to be so shaky you know, i think we’re past all that after tonight,” you said, “are you like this everytime you hookup with someone?”
“I’ve never hooked up with anyone before” he whispered almost to hide the fact.
“no way, you’re ripped and hot and your fingers work pretty good for someone who doesn’t get with other girls,” you inquired.
“tonight was my first type of anything, i’ve never had a,” he says hushed, “handjob before.”
“huh no wonder you came so much,” you spoke aloud.
“shhhh they might hear you,” he pleaded.
you climbed slightly on his chest, bringing your face to his now red with shyness, “you’re cute when you’re embarrassed, of course there’s nothing to be embarrassed about. i liked tonight.”
you kissed him passionately, slow while your lips molded together and this time his tongue parted your lips to enter into your mouth. you moaned into the kiss, for someone who’s never hooked up with anyone he was good. you felt ethan’s hands travel to the curve of your ass, massaging the skin as you could feel his growing member underneath your body. you traced his abs with your hand, running through the ridges and toying with his waistband. you felt his hips buck under your touch and the size of his dick was so enticing but you didn’t want to have sex with him now you wanted to show him other things.
you broke away from the kiss, looking at his big brown eyes licking your lips, “i wanna try something with you.”
you turned over so you were facing the wall and you could practically hear ethan’s confusion, not hearing his side of the bed shift.
“ethan c’mere right up behind me i’m sure you know how to cuddle someone,” you teased.
“oh yeah yeah i knew that,” he rambled while shifting closer to you in the center of the bed.
you felt him getting closer the closer until he stopped still an inch of two away. you backed up until your back was flushed against his own. you turned back and kissed him at the slightly awkward angle. as your lips were intertwined you brought his arm over your body and into your panties. you squirmed at the feeling of his fingers near you cunt once again as he shuddered from the feeling of touching your cunt again. breaking the kiss you looked down at the two hands massaging your mound,
“look ethan,” you whispered, “you gotta look.”
he obeyed your command as you felt his head next to yours as he assumed the same view as you. you guided his hand through your pussy, gliding through the folds as you grew wetter and around your clit as it grew swollen. wanting to leave him on his own you withdrew your hand and asked him, “do you wanna play with my pussy or should we just go to sleep.”
your dirty words really took a toll on his composure. he groaned in your ear hearing you words nodding against your skin.
“you have to say it ethan,” you turned breathless as he was still massaging your clit, “can’t hear you.”
“wanna-,” he whispered, “play with your pussy.”
“good-,” you began to speak but were interrupted by a gasp as his fingers entered your cunt suddenly.
he fingered you rapidly, his knuckles hitting the base of your cunt with his fingers curling to repeatedly press on your bundle of nerves. with every pound into your cunt you felt ethan’s length pressed against your ass, moved to the same rhythm as his fingers trying to relieve some pressure.
“slo-slow down, just a minute” you cooed into his ear.
“i can feel your dick rubbing against my ass,” you teased as you grinded on his strained length.
he grunted at the pressured contact finding him continuing the movements while you grinded on him.
“there you go, now you speed up, i speed up ok, at your pace.”
you felt him nod behind you, his head against your back as you helped him relieve pressure in his cock. you felt him beginning to work his fingers inside you again, slowly building up speed, so you picked up speed grinding harder and faster onto his dick. the two of you moaned and panted as the other pleasured you, fingers ramming into your cunt and your ass working his clothed cock in his boxers. you slightly lifted your leg allowing for ethan to hit a whole nother angle, slamming into your pussy at an unfathomed speed you froze and gasped as your climax quickly approached.
“oh my- ethan fuck-,” and just as the words left your mouth your orgasm completely ripped through you, shooting your release onto his fingers and inside your panties as you clenched around his fingers inside of you. you were breathless unable to let out a string of profanities only saying ethan’s name as you came shamelessly.
you turned over quickly kissing him passionately as you climbed onto his lap sitting right in top of his length, still sensitive from your orgasm you began to move forward and backwards on his crotch. his dick sat in between your fabric covered lips but it was enough for him to shake under your touch. he moaned as you ran over the length of his cock with your cunt, squirming above him as you were reaching another high of your own. you placed his hands on your hips, using them to guide your pace,
“use me pretty boy,” you urged, removing your hands from atop his own.
you felt his grip tighten on your hips and he began using his hands on your hips, moving you forwards and backwards. he grunted and bucked his hips up as your pussy worked his cock. seeing you on top of him, moaning as you aided him in his release and got yourself off was enough to make him cum right then and there. he started to move you faster on his lap, approaching his own orgasm. you could feel his dick twitching under you, sure to spill out a load very soon,
“i’m so close,” he grunted, now moving your hips fast over his cock, “i’m gonna-“
“wait,” you interrupted, “i-i’m almost there hold it, for me please.”
“i don’t- i can’t ,” he strained, eyes screwed shut.
you leaned down and pressed a quick, lingering kiss to his lips and moaned, “cmon pretty boy, for me.”
sitting back up he viciously nodded under you, his dick straining by the second as you worked for your own release. he whimpered under you, feeling the effects of withholding his orgasm. lucky for him you finally got closer and closer as your movements sloppied and you became a moaning mess.
“i’m- oh fuck,” you told him as you felt your second orgasm hit you like a truck.
“fuck me,” ethan nearly shouted, letting out a grunt as he came hard under you.
you squirmed on his lap as he convulsed beneath you, gripping your hips and holding you in place, continuing applied pressure to his cock while he orgasmed. he shook beneath you, eyes closed, forehead sweaty. after settling down he opened his eyes finally, still panting heavily after his intense orgasm. you climbed off his lap and lay beside him watching as he calmed down.
“you’re amazing,” he told you breathlessly, “just amazing.”
“and you’re still so pretty when you cum,” you smiled.
“shhh,” he shushed.
“oh please,” you scoffed as you hit him with a throw pillow.
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Las Vegas with Eren💗(+friends)
I feel like you guys with spend most of the time walking around the strip and the bed
“Baby are you almost done getting ready?” Eren asks as he walks into the bathroom,watching you from the mirror.
“Yeah but Sasha is gonna come up to our room in a bit so we can pre game.” You say as you put on your lashes. “It’s only 8pm,Eren. We have the rest of the night.” You mumble.
“I know but i want to go to the buffet before it closes” He whine softly. “and plus i want to fuck you” He whispers in your ear,grabbing your waist.
“No,mi amor. I’m still tired from earlier.” You push him off gently,touching up your makeup a bit.
Before he can say anything there’s a loud knock on your door. “You guys better not be fucking!” Connie yells from outside.
Eren groans and rolls his eyes,walking out the restroom to open the door. “You cockblock” Eren smacks connie on the head as he walks in.
“Eren shut up,we weren’t even going to do anything in the first place” You scold him as you walk out the restroom.
Sasha hands you a shot as she walks in with Mikasa and Annie. You four walk over to the couches while Eren,Connie, Jean and Armin talk by the door.
“Sweet girl,are you already ready?” Eren walks over to you guys after 15 minutes. “Hmm? Where are we going to go though?” You ask
“We were thinking about going to the casinos to gamble for a bit and then going a bar” He grabs you by your waist,leaning down to kiss you.
You smile against his lips,pulling away gently. “Yeah let me just put on my shoes” You try to walk away but he pushes you onto the couch to sit.
He grabs your shoes and kneels down. He gently slides on the heel and buckles them up. He kisses your ankle before getting back up.
“That was so cute” Sasha mumbles. “I really thought he was gonna fuck her when he pushed her on the couch” Connie says with food stuffed in his mouth.
“I wouldve fucked her if you guys weren’t here” Eren mumbles to himself.
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It’s 1 am and you guys are now at the Bellagio hotel casino. Eren won the jackpot as if he needs the money when he’s filthy rich and is grabbing his cash.
“Baby i’m getting tired” You whine to hmm softly ,massaging your feet. “Want me to carry your heels and you can wear my shoes?” He says as he sits you down at one of the casino games.
“No you have big feet so imma trip myself and plus i don’t want you to get sick.” He takes off your heels and kisses your ankle,massaging your feet as well.
“I can run back to the hotel to grab your other shoes” He says softly. “No i want to go back to the hotel to rest” You mumble.
“Okay let’s go,mama” He sends a quick text to the group and picks you up bridal style. You laugh, holding onto him tightly.
“You know that i’m gonna fuck you when we get back to the hotel room,right?” You look at him quickly. “Hold on i was just overreacting,I’m not actually tired” He laughs and kisses your cheek.
“Too late,mama”
#attack on titan#attack on titan eren#eren x hispanic!reader#eren x reader#eren x y/n#fem reader#eren aot#eren fluff#eren jeager x reader#eren x fem!reader#suggestive#eren smut#y#shingeki no kyoujin eren#shingeki no kyoujin smut#las vegas
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All GF X reader part 2
part 1: all gf x reader
warnings: cussing, the working ‘fucking’ used a lot
a/n: y’all wanted poly, y’all got poly. i’m building up to the relationship. this is literally mostly ethan\charlie with reader. no worries i’m making more parts.
after you heard all of that earlier, you just wanted to shower and nap it off. the thought of ethan liking you just stuck in your mind. you don’t know why, or how, but it just stuck with you.
as you get ready for your shower, you hear your door open and close.
“hey baby.” it was charlie.
“hey!! i’m naked get out!!”, you spoke with a laugh at the end grabbing the nearest towel to cover yourself with.
“don’t act like i haven’t seen all of you already.” charlie said with a smirk. you rolled your eyes at his comment, walking to the bathroom to take a shower. he followed soon after.
“can i join? please mamas.” he came behind you and put his hands around your waist with his head on your shoulder.
“you’re so dramatic.” you told him as you rolled your eyes.
“whatever. imma go grab some clothes, wait for me.” he kissed your cheek and walked out of the bathroom.
his room was not to far from yours so you knew it would take him like 30 seconds.
about 10 seconds later you were in your robe watching tv waiting for charlie. you suddenly heard a knock on your door.
“bae you can’t just walk in?” you said towards the door.
“sorry, it’s ethan.”
“oh shit.” you thought. you were literally butt ass naked and he was at your door. what could he want? plus you just fucking said the word ‘bae’ and you hope and pray that he doesn’t question it. after what happened today day you kinda didn’t want to much interaction with him. not because he liked you, but because you were afraid of your own feelings towards him.
you got up and opened the door.
“what’s up? i’m kinda busy right now.” you were kinda annoyed at the moment since he literally came out of no where, but he probably didn’t mean no harm so you ignored it.
he looked you up and down quickly.
“sorry for interrupting but i was wondering if i could talk to you? it’s kinda important.”
“uhhh, yeah sure but make it quick cuz i have to hop in the shower.” he responded with “ok” and then you stood by the door to let him in, closing it after. you walked to the edge of your bed and sat down. while ethan just stood up straight and looked at you.
you just reminded yourself that charlie will be back any second, so you wanted to rush this even more so he doesn’t find out about you and his ‘secret’.
“you can sit down.” you almost laughed a little bit at his shyness, he was kinda cute. wait, what are you saying???
“oh sorry.” he sat down beside you.
just when he was about to say something, charlie walked in.
“ba- what’s he doin in here?” he looked at you with his clothes in his hands as ethan and you stare at him.
*charlies pov*
as i came in the room and saw ethan with y/n, the feeling happend in my stomach once again. like why is he even in there?? is she cheating on me?? i didn’t know what to think. i’d be damned if i let him steal her from me.
*your pov*
“he said he has something important to tell me. i was just wondering what it was.” you told him.
“am i interrupting something? i can go and we can talk some other time.”
charlie looked at you for a second, then looked at him.
“no, tell me what you need to so it can be over with.” you said to him, really ready for him to get out before charlie says something insane.
“i kinda want to talk in private.”
“listen ethan, we both know you like my girlfriend. and whatever the fuck you’re gonna ask her the answer is no. now get out.” he walked to the door and opened it gesturing him to leave.
you just stared at him wide eyed. holy shit…he just told him.
*ethans pov*
wait a damn minute, charlie is dating y/n?!?! i couldn’t believe it. charlie….out of all people, charlie??? he doesn’t even like me that damn much and know i know why.
for some reason, knowing he’s with y/n is boosting my confidence to ask her out, just to make him mad.
“well…y/n would you like to go out with me? forget about charlie.” i looked at her. even tho i never really dated anybody, i knew damn well i could take y/n from charlie.
*your pov*
what the fuck? there’s no way he just asked me out when charlie quite literally just told him we’re dating.
“what the fuck did you just say bro?”
charlie said, slowly walking to ethan.
“okay this is deal!” you stood up.
“both of y’all get the hell out, and we’ll finish this shit later. i still haven’t took my shower. get to stepping.”
ethan got up and left, looking dead in charlie’s eyes and hitting shoulders as he walked out.
“but baby, we was supposed to shower together.”
“i don’t care, get out. i need some me time for a few hours.” you were fed up with everything today, it was all stressing you out to much. you needed a shower, and sleep, now.
“fine, i’ll see you later.” charlie spoke to you as he left and shut the door behind him.
*time skip 30 minutes*
*charlies pov*
as i’m sitting on the couch in the living room next to mickey watching tv, ethan comes downstairs and sits on the other couch.
i just stare at him for a few seconds, waiting to see if he says something out of line.
i want to punch him so hard, break his nose even. embarrass him in front of everyone.
“why are you staring at me?” ethan said to me.
“you got me fucked up ethan. why would you still ask her out knowing damn well me and her are together.”
mickey eyed both of us.
“what’s going on with you two?”
i ignored mickeys question and continued talking to ethan.
“fucking cornball.” i added.
“don’t be mad at me because y/n doesn’t want you anymore.”
“since when did you grow some damn balls ethan? huh?” i was getting madder by the second.
“woah woah woah, you’re dating y/n? i fuckin knew it.” mickey said to me.
“yeah, they’d tried to keep it a secret until charlie fucked it up like he does everything else. i don’t even understand why she even likes him to begin with to be honest.”
i saw ethan’s face slightly get red.
“i’ve know y/n way before your sloppy ass even became ghost face, the hell you talking about? she’ll never like you. just give it up.”
“who’s give a damn how long you’ve known her? at least i know when her fucking birthday is! we had to literally take you to the store last minute might i add because your stupid ass forgot!”
“really?? you sound jealous because she loves me, not you. your a literal L bro.”
“okay guys knock it off. let’s just settle this and finish it some other time, y’all are gonna wake roman up from his nap. and you don’t wanna do that.”
mickey told us, before getting up and walking to the kitchen.
“whatever.” ethan said, getting up and leaving.
*your pov*
as you’re chilling on the bed you heard people arguing downstairs. you knew exactly who it was going back and forth.
you were just so fucking tired and stressed that you didn’t even bother getting in the middle.
why must they fight over you? when you want both of them.
a/n: i really hope you enjoyed @ellll3458 @randymeeksistheloml !!! i’m working on part 3 don’t worry!
#slashers x reader#slashers x y/n#slashers#ethan landry#ethan landry x reader#ghostface x reader#charlie walker#charlie walker x reader#ghostface
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some new rules i’m forcing myself to follow until my bday (end of june) because summer is almost here and i’m miserable with the way i look.
not all of these have to do with ana but i’m putting them on here anyways to keep myself accountable
only eat 500-800 calories a day, if not less. i have to log my intake somewhere. (if yall wanna see my daily food logs lmk i always feel like i’ll be annoying if i post them on here)
must fast 1-2 times a week, if not more.
one workout in the morning after i wake up, and one before i go to sleep. each have to be atleast 1 hour. (on the days i won’t be home, i have to workout once i am)
keep my room clean aka. fold my laundry and put it away once it’s done and keep my desktops organized.
make my bed every morning.
no calories after 9pm. nights out drinking don’t count, i just have to be mindful of my intake. (if i want a munchie after 9, it has to be under 150cals, and i only get one cheat day a week for this)
read atleast 10 pages of a book a day.
keep a clean and healthy diet. NO BINGING. ie. stick to water and lowcal drinks, lots of fruits and veggies, proper serving sizes or less, etc,,,
keep up with my skincare/self care routines.
take my vitamins and supplements everyday
basically the 75 hard challenge but imma have a drink if i want a drink lol
i’ll probably keep adding to this as i think of more, if anyone has some other good rules or ideas of what i should add lmkkk
#tw ed in the tags#tw ana diary#tw ed relapse#anasp0#st4rv3#thiinsp0#ana0rex1a#tw ed descussion#tw ana relapse#tw ana shit#tw disordered eating#starv1ng#starv3#th1nsp1ration#bulimima#tw ed but not sheeran#ed dairy#anarex14#anami4#4nor3xia#4n4blr#st4rv1ng#thinner is better#thin$po#thinspø#th1gh g@p#th1n$pø#th1nspi#disordered eating thoughts
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Steve Harrington x Reader Kinkmas Day 1-Marking
TW: Breeding, Marking, Hickey’s, Making out. (That should be it but let me know if I missed any! Also, this it a couple hours late but here it is! Enjoy Day 1 of Kinkmas!)
Word Count:911
Now listen here, Steve Harrington is a pretty simple guy. It doesn't take much to please him.
However, this man has a little problem when it comes to Jealousy.
Flashback
“Steve Harrington if you don’t get back here right now!” I yelled, fast walking after Steve as he walked out of the room.
“I'm going to the kitchen!” He yells back.
I roll my eyes, turning the corner and leaning against the counter.
“What are you even so mad about?” I ask, folding my arms.
He closes the fridge and sets the orange juice on the counter. Tilting his head up and letting out a sigh.
“I just, I don’t like you hanging around Tommy. And yes, I know he is my friend but he is a total asshole!” He said, turning around to face me.
“Steve….” I whisper, “What are you talking about? Why are you bringing up Tommy?” I ask, walking towards him until I am standing right in front of him.
He sighs, “after we hung out with the group yesterday. And You went to the restroom. I kinda overheard him talking about you- Don't ask what he said..I’m not gonna tell you, but it was very…filthy” He said.
I snorted, “You’re mad at me because when we ALL hung out together last night, Tommy said some things about me” I asked, raising an eyebrow.
“No I- I’m not mad at you, I'm just mad. He knows you're mine! Why would he say anything like that at all?!” He says as his voice raises a little bit.
I move my hands to his arms, rubbing them up and down until they settle on his neck, “Steve, If you think, that anyone besides you, gets to have me. Then you must be the dumbest man in the world” I said, Pulling him down for a kiss.
He kissed back, Putting more force into, slowly pushing me back into the counter.
His hands move down my hips, picking me up and setting me on the counter.
I break the kiss to pull up his shirt, throwing it on the floor. Going back in for his lips.
My hands move to his belt, unbuckling it as fast as I can.
He breaks the kiss, moving down my neck, biting and sucking, surely leaving marks that I'll have to cover later.
His hands grab the top of my tank top, pulling it down so my boobs fall out. Wearing no bra tonight seemed like a good choice.
He moves down my chest, sucking marks on my left boob then moving on to the nipple. Sucking like his life depended on it.
I leaned my head back, letting out a loud moan.
“Oh God! Steve, baby please. I need you” I said, pulling his mouth off my nipple and back onto mine.
“Steve..I need your cock....Please” I begged against his lips, rubbing my thighs together, or at least trying to with him standing in between them.
“Alright fine baby, maybe I should put a baby into you. Then no one else can say anything about you.” He said, rubbing his cock between my folds.
“God yes! Put a baby into me Steve! I want your babies.” I said, Moaning loudly as he slipped his cock in.
“Mmm, Imma fill you up all nice.” He said, thrusting slowly in me.
My hands move to his back, pulling him closer to me. I wrap my arms around his neck, pulling his lips down on mine.
I moan in his mouth as his thrusts speed up. Feeling a little flutter in my stomach.
“Oh Steve! Im gonna cum, I'm gonna cu-ahhhh” I said, cumming all over his cock.
“Almost there baby, I'm almost there” he said, pulling my head back to kiss me.
His thrust starts to get sloppy, and I know he's close.
“Come on baby, come in me. Give your babies!” I said, encouraging him.
“Ahh, oh my god.” He said cumming in me.
Taking a moment to breathe, he rests his head on mine.
“Damn babe, I know you’re possessive but just, damn” I said breathlessly.
He laughs, “You didn’t think I was done with you did you?” He asks, picking me up off the counter and heading to the bedroom.
He tosses me on the bed, crawling on top of me, “Oh baby, we’re just getting started” He said, kissing me again.
Flashback over
That leads me to right now. We have a breakfast date with the group in 20 minutes, and getting in the shower without looking in the mirror first left me this little surprise.
My neck and chest, covered in hickies that's gonna take some time to cover up.
“Damn it Harrington. You better call them and tell them some lie on why we’re gonna be late!” I told him. Looking at him through the mirror.
He leans against the door frame, smirking.
“I could tell them a lie, or we can just blow it off and I can give you more of those.” He said, walking over and putting his arms around my waist.
“Nope. No. Nuh uh.” I said moving away and back into the bathroom.
“We are not doing this!” I yelled.
He just laughed and walked out the room.
“I'll be waiting in the living room babe! Try not to take too long!” he teased.
I rolled my eyes, Ignoring him, wondering how long it's gonna take me to cover these up.
#steve harrigton#stranger things fanfiction#smut#steve harrington x fem reader#steve harrington smut#steve#harrington#steve harrington x reader#kinkmas#day 1
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i felt like doing something so imma do this for the month! i’ll put all my answers below the cut because it’ll probably get quite long lol
1. Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome (aka POTS)
2. well, it’s pretty complicated 😭 i’ve had some symptoms for probably like a year, but around late april/early may this year i couldn’t even shower or stand up too long from how bad it got. the uk healthcare system is absolute shit though, so even tho i’ve been a&e multiple times and tried to explain how much it’s all been affecting me, i still don’t get to see a cardiologist until february 2024 :( but we’ve ruled out other options of what it could be, and my mum’s cardiologist friend agreed when i said i thought i had POTS, and my GP agrees, and my potsie friends agree so i’m kinda like unofficially diagnosed as of now?
3. relating to the last point, i am not officially diagnosed yet because of the slow asf NHS so yeah :,) but i mean to figure out what i was experiencing was POTS, it did take me like 8 months? but probably around 10 for me to accept the fact that i most likely have it too 😭 an official diagnosis unless i can rack up the money to go private is probably gonna take me like another year at this rate, but hopefully it won’t be that long
4. i have to pick just one? LOL uhh probably the blood pooling! it’s so annoying because especially when im out and about, i can’t be with my legs in the air 24/7 so it’s always bound to happen. compression socks help but only to an extent, and it stops me from doing so muchhhh :( it means that queueing for things and standing for more than a couple minutes is so so much harder, and if i have too much blood pooling in one day then my can legs ache for DAYS after that. it’s so painful and annoying and just aaghhh i hate it
5. on a regular day: i wake up, chug water which i leave by my bed for the mornings, get out of bed slowly and walk downstairs to make breakfast. i chug electrolytes and go for a short dog walk, then come home to do schoolwork and my family make lunch/dinner so i don’t have to stand around too long. i’ll make sure i get any chores done that i can, and i’ll try to chill in the evening
on a bad day/flareup: i wake up a lot later, have my electrolytes with water and only get out of bed when i need to. i’ll do schoolwork from my bed (if i feel well enough to concentrate), and have salty snacks rather than proper meals, unless my family make me anything. i stretch from bed to combat deconditioning, and if i feel decent enough i can have a bath
6. i don’t have access to any specific medication unfortunately, so i currently just manage with painkillers when my chronic pain is extra bitchy + anti-nausea meds when i feel sicky
7. salt sachets (the little ones you get at like mcdonald’s and stuff) to shove in my purse/pocket in case symptoms flare while i’m out, compression garments, electrolyte tablets, and a recliner bed so i can raise my legs more when resting
8. electrolyte drinks!! not the tablets though (i hate the taste of all the tablets except like 1 lol) - my fav is making electrolyte drinks from scratch! at the moment i really love iced lemon water with honey and salt. i also saw smth about this fancy coconut water drink to make so i may try that and it may become my favourite :0
9. salty crackers, salt and vinegar/ready salted crisps, mcdonalds fries (stfu i know these aren’t healthy but they’re my favs 😭), pretzels, nuts
+ my fav foods to dump a bunch of salt on: pasta, veggies and dips (SALTED CUCUMBER IS SO GOOD), pizza, chips, soup, risotto, probs almost anything i eat tbh
10. i’ve only got one pair but i love them so shoutout to my knee-length black compression socks <3
11. i don’t have any 🥲 i really wish i could have a cane or maybe even a rollator but my family make fun of me and i can’t afford one lolsies
12. i try to do some stretching in bed so that i can safely work against deconditioning, keeping very hydrated, trying to stay upstairs as much as possible so i don’t have to suffer my staircase, asking family to make food for me so i can save energy, taking pain meds when needed, having a cold bath (if possible), trying to keep preoccupied with work if i can, but if not i’ll watch movies on my ipad and stuff
fun fact: i wrote this on a flare LOL so oddly fitting and now i’ve already made myself a plan for the next few days!
13. the thing that’s helped me most is accepting that something is wrong and remembering to listen to my body. going through life pretending that i’m perfectly abled and don’t have anything wrong causes much more harm to me than letting myself rest a few days. it definitely isn’t easy though - i still find myself getting stressed over work deadlines don’t get me wrong, but i’d like to think i’m getting better at adapting to things and noticing when a flare is coming on so i can be prepared to take the time for my body to rest.
14. chairs are your best friends now. i steal the chairs/stools from the kitchen table whenever i’m doing chores standing up for more than 30 seconds. compression socks also help! OOH and if you’re using hot water/heated stuff and struggle with temperature dysreg, i usually grab myself a cup of ice to munch on or an icepack to hold on my chest so that i don’t overheat :)
15. i’m afraid i don’t have much input for this as i left school for health reasons 😭 but i suppose keeping hydrated, getting accommodations such as not too many stairs + being allowed to take more days off to rest for flares, compression gear where possible, staying high on sodium + electrolytes, and extended deadlines would be good!
16. i’m gonna sound so silly for this but i love rewatching my comfort stuff. i’ve got my fav youtubers + fav films/series all compiled in a list, and i spin a wheel to decide which one i’m gonna watch! other activities i enjoy though are reading, playing video games, doing goofy quizzes online, chatting with friends, and going on pinterest sprees!
17. leading on from the last prompt, my fav is a marvel movie - tbh all of them bring me so much comfort but my favs are avengers, black widow, loki and any of the thor films <3
18. my main support system is my wonderful boyfriend, kurtis @agere-tomhiddleston-imagines 💚💛 he’s helped me through so much and he’s so supportive of me no matter what, and i love him dearly for that (and how awesome he is in general ofc) <3 other than that, my parents are semi-supportive! they still get things wrong sometimes but overall they’ll help if i need things and they handle all the shitty healthcare workers for me so i truly appreciate them for that 😭🙏 ooh and definitely just the general online community of chronically ill people/potsies!! i love y’all so much 🫶
19. okay i don’t know if this counts because she was an orthodontist rather than a doctor/nurse, but when discussing me getting braces she asked about my medical history and i explained it all but said i haven’t been diagnosed so i understand if she can’t accommodate me. then she said to me, “hun.. just because you don’t have a piece of paper with a few words on it, doesn’t mean you aren’t ill. if you’ve got symptoms but no confirmed cause, you’ve still got the symptoms, and i’m not gonna ignore those unless you want me to” - the validation was so relieving after years of fighting for doctors to listen to me and believe me :,) ❤️
(i’ll update this throughout the month! <3)
#vitassium challenge#potsawareness#chronically ill#dysautonomia#potsie#spoonie#chronic illness#pots syndrome#disabled
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Chapter 8
Pillowtalk
The Vibe:
Dusty Springfield - Son of a Preacher Man (Official Audio)
Oh god, why am I so hot right now? and why can't I move?
I rub and slowly open my eyes, trying to adjust to the sunlight piercing through my windows. I look around to see why I can't move. Namor was lying face down on top of me, still very much asleep. He was hugged up on me and using me as a pillow; if you listen closely you can hear him softly breathing. My heart actually flutters
He's secretly a soft boy, who would've thought...
I rub his hair and back trying to coax him awake, "Namor" I whisper, "Namor wake up."
"hmm" he grunts
I quietly chuckle, "I have to get up"
"No"
"Yes"
He tightly holds on to me and rolls us over onto his back. "I don't want to get up," he says
Raising myself up to look at him, "You don't have to; I need to get up and stretch. Someone broke my back last night and then slept on top of me afterward."
Namor laughs, "Fine," He lets go of me, "Don't be long." I kiss his forehead and get up grabbing an oversized t-shirt of mine to throw on. Grabbing my phone o realize it's almost 11; while checking my notifications I head to the sitting room. Eventually putting some music on I begin to stretch out.
I am so sore, my legs and hips are extremely tight.
He really delivered on making me sore...
After 45 min or so of stretching and some light yoga, I end on my favorite full-body stretch. Sitting on my knees I bend backward and lay on my forearms grabbing my feet; I close my eyes and breathe letting my body relax into this pose.
"This is quite the sight." Namor steps in
"You like what you see?" I ask
"Very much." He steps forward standing right in front of me "You were supposed to come back to bed, I grew impatient"
Seeing him in the light of day fully naked, gave me butterflies. I sit up and look at him.
"I'm sorry, I lost track of time. How can I get you to forgive me?" I say batting my eyelashes and letting my shirt slightly fall off my shoulder exposing the top of my breasts.
Namor holds his hand out helping me up and turns me around to rub my shoulders. "You can start by showering with me," he whispers in my ear
"Gladly" I reply
Before we can head to the bathroom I hear a knock on the door. "how about you start without me, I'll be right there."
"He roughly grabs my ass and pulls me dangerously close to him, "Be quick Ki'ichpan," He says before heading to the bathroom and closing the door behind him.
Headed to the door I speak up, "Who is it?"
"It's Peter!"
I crack open the door trying to give myself a little humility. "Good morning lightweight"
"Hey not fair, that was my first time ever drinking."
I point at him "And last time until you're 21."
"Yea, yea, yea. Anyways wanna chill before brunch?" He begins to walk in.
I quickly put my hand in front of him, "Can I just meet you there; What time is Brunch?" I suspiciously ask
"12:30 pm. What's going on?"
"No-nothings wrong" I stutter and laugh
"Oh no. Is Bucky in there?" He whispers, "Millie nooooo"
"Ew oh my god. Bucky is not the one in here." I say offended, "Remind me to fill you in on that whole situation."
"Okay so then who is in there?" he questions
"That information is on a need-to-know basis and right now you don't need to know." I quip
His face lights with realization, "you didn't!"
I forcefully cover his mouth, "Hey don't judge me. A girl has needs and he's actually quite nice."
He tries to speak under my hand, I roll my eyes and remove it from his face, "What about your London friend? I was starting to think you liked him/them."
"It's complicated; plus we had no intentions of starting anything, no strings attached you know."
"Hmmm okay. Well have fun with your new beau, imma go check out Shuri's lab. See you at brunch and practice safe sex." He says as he walks away
The Vibe:
SZA - Love Galore (Alt Version) (Audio)
"Never!" I say closing the door. I head to the bathroom and find Namor in the shower.
"You're lucky," he says
"And why's that?" I say taking off my shirt
"You had one more minute before I came and got you"
Stepping behind him in the shower I begin to lather some soap in my hand and begin to wash his back, "I'm sorry to keep you waiting. I hope you didn't miss me too much" I begin to kiss his neck and shoulders
Namor rests his head on my chest as I begin to wash his front, "I did miss your touch"
I whisper in his ear, "Well forgive me for denying you of your needs your Royal Highness."
"I prefer God but I'll settle for King."
"Forgive me, King Namor," I say extra soft in his ear. Namor then turns around and pins me to the wall, kissing me with vigorous passion.
I guess he liked the sound of that
Namor dips down and begins to suck on my nipples causing sensations to go straight to my pussy, "Fuck" I moan
"You drive me insane. Every time I'm this close to you I forget about everything else." He lightly strokes my scar causing me to look away in shame. He continues, "I think everything about you is beautiful" he grabs my chin and makes me look at him, "Everything. Your body, your power, your brain; everything."
I didn't know we were freestyling love letters
"I don't know what to say" I honestly reply
"Say nothing. I say these things without the intention of wanting anything in return. Just know this, I have lived for almost half a century, and never have I been so pulled in by someone's aura. You disarm me. If and when you decide you are ready I'd make you my queen in a heartbeat."
"You don't mean that. That's the sex brain talking"
"I'm as sure as I am standing here. My mother was the voice that brought you to me. She'd always told me to settle for an equal and nothing less. You are my equal, hell more than my equal. I don't expect you to make any decisions any time soon."
"Namor we met 3 days ago, how could you so quickly be sure about me?"
"I just do. I understand you'll need time, I can wait. Besides I'd like to properly court you and get to know your world and you get to know mine. Give us a chance Ki'ichpan."
I look at him for a while, "You know I'm broken right? I don't mean that to sound dramatic but I am. I don't even know who I am. I've got some serious baggage"
"I don't care," he says sincerely
This is wild, what do I do? This man is pouring his heart out right and I'm frozen Aunt May's voice pops into my head, "True love finds you when you are least looking for it."
"Okay," I say
"Really?" He asks
"Mhmm low stakes, most that can happen is you break my heart which is not fun, really so not fun, but temporary."
He laughs, "And what if you break mine?"
"Impossible. I don't break hearts, I just collect them." I tease
The mood in the air was light; he was hopeful and I was hesitant but curious to see where this goes. He kisses me, once again with passion. I pull him to me wanting to be as close as possible; Namor sneaks his hand down my pussy and begins to stimulate my clit, driving me wild. Our passionate kiss turned into a hot and heavy makeout. Namor takes my legs and wraps them around him, so he could firmly pin me to the shower wall; He then takes his dick and slowly pushes himself inside me. He took his sweet time causing me to moan into his mouth.
"Hold on tight" The only warning he gave me before he starts to roughly fuck me against the wall; I grab his hair and scratch his back trying to hold on. Namor rests his head on my shoulder as he fucks me going in deeper and deeper with each thrust of his hips. I sing a melody of moans in his ear, begging him not to stop.
Namor sits his head up and rests his forehead on mine, "Say you're mine."
I try to answer but can't get any real words out.
Namor firmly grabs my hips and begins to pound into me even harder than before, "Say your mine." he growls out between gritted teeth. "Say it!" he demands.
"I'm yours!" I yell "Oh fuck I'm yours. Namor please.." I can't even finish my sentence I'm so close. He's hitting me so deep and I can't do anything but take it.
"I know baby, me too," he responds.
While kissing him I roughly pull the back of his hair, not on purpose, but just to hold on; he must have liked it because it made him moan into my mouth this time. I can feel him losing control, he's so close, and so am I. Namor begins to speak something in my ear in his native tongue, "Yaan u mierda in reina, kutaj Jach ma'alob. In yaakunech ka ma' je'el in pa'atik u meentikba utia'al Mantats' mía.In ki'ichpam, ki'ichpam reina. 'Fuck my queen, you feel so good. I love you, and cannot wait for you to be forever mine. My beautiful, beautiful queen'"
I wasn't sure what he said, as I could barely hear him outside of my own moans but it was just enough to bring me to climax. I hit my head on the back of the wall so hard I swear I saw stars, I couldn't control my movements anymore; it was like my orgasm took control.
After a few more thrusts, he pumps into me one last time holding himself there as he releases in me, making sure I take every last drop of him. Something about him holding me like this feels so intimate I swear I could have came all over again.
He smiles at me, "I could stay like this for eternity"
"If only" I laugh
He slowly pulls out of me and I wince, "I'm sorry Ki'ichpan, I should not have been as rough"
"Don't apologize, I like that you make me sore. Now every time I feel that pain, I'll think of you."
"Keep talking like that and I may have to take you again"
"Love that energy" I laugh and kiss him, "but If I don't get any food in me I might die."
"As you wish" he laughs
We finish up in the shower and get dressed. I'm wearing a teal off-the-shoulder bodysuit and a high-waisted mustard-yellow skirt. I wrap my hair back in a white head scarf to keep my braids out of my face. Namor opted to put on some of the white linen pants and top that were in my room's closet; we can't find the shorts that he tossed. He looks good though, like really good. Like good enough for me to forget about food good.
He sees me staring with lust in my eyes, "Behave yourself"
"How am supposed to when you look like that?" I laugh "ready?"
Yes, but I will meet you there. I need to check in with Namor and Attuma first.
"Okay," I say smiling "See you soon" He kisses me and we part ways
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I enter the dining area and see a large spread of breakfast food and an assortment of fruits and vegetables on the giant table. Shuri, Romanda, Okoye, Ayo, M'baku, Riri, Peter, and Bucky were all sitting around the table eating and talking.
"I hope I'm not too late," I say as I enter
"Of course not," Shuri says "Help yourself and have a seat"
I grab a plate and fill it with fruits and veggies and have a seat next to Peter.
He does nothing but looks at me funny
"Peter you wipe that smirk off your face before I kick your ass" I whisper to him
"Alright, Alright." He pauses, "Did you have fun?" he jokes
Ignoring him, I look away and pay my attention to Okoye, "We missed you last night. How was sparring with Attuma?"
She begins to shuffle in her seat a bit, "It was fine." she says, "How was everyone's night?" she asks successfully changing the subject
Weird
We all talk and laugh about last night's antics. It's been a while since Peter and I hung out with friends like this; actually, I suppose they're family now.
M'Baku speaks up, "Where's Nakia, Ross, and the Talokans?"
"Nakia and Ross left this morning," Shuri says, "I'm not sure about the others"
"Namor, Attuma, & Namora should be here soon; Namor just wanted to check in with them first."
"You saw Namor ?" Shuri asks
"Yea we ran into each other in the hallway on the way here." I try to convincingly say
"Hmm okay." Shuri
Oh god is she on to me?
I continue to eat my food and see bucky fuming in his seat.
Fuck he knows
Just when I thought the situation couldn't get worse, Namor walks in, "Hello everyone, may I join?"
"Of course. Come sit fish man." M'baku says
Namor nods and makes his way to the chair next to me and smiles making me blush a little.
"Where's my New bestie Namora?" Shuri asks
"And Attuma?" Okoye says, all of us looking at her with curiosity, "what? I'm just curious"
Oh my god they boned. NO WAY
"I sent them home to check on my people, I shall be joining soon."
My heart drops, just now realizing he has to go back home, this man has a whole kingdom to take care of. Seeing the sadness on my face Namor lays his hand on my leg and continues to speak, "Surely I shall be back soon"
"Good" Romanda speaks up, "I know our people started off on the wrong foot, and you did try to kill me.."
"And me" Riri interrupts
Romanda continues, "but we are now united, you are always welcome."
Namor bows his head, "thank you."
"Millaenyia I did the liberty of bringing you those books from our Library that we were talking about. They're there at the end of the table. The elders and I agree that you should keep them."
"Thank you, Queen Mother," I get up and make my way to the books. Some of them look like old spells books, the others diaries. When I pick one up I feel an intense energy hit me; I feel pain everywhere. My eyes roll back and I drop the book. My vision begins to disappear as I hear my friends scream for me rushing to my aid. Before I'm fully out I hear Peter calling my name on the verge of tears.
What's happening to me?
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Supernatural Season 12
only 3 more seasons after this...aw...
so mom's back grk mm the dead...okay...Mary's returned from '83 - boy is she in for a shock. her baby boy Dean is a grown man pushing 40 😱
wild how Dean recounted his parents' love story from their first meeting to their elopement! how did Dean get John to spill the beans on that I wonder...
Sam was taken by the bitch ass Men of Letters, and here lies the beginning of the misfortune that is the MoL arc, ugh! I'm going to like this as Much as I did Metatron 🙄
Sam's a fucking trooper, I know he was tortured by the devil personally but still, taking a blow torch to the foot...damn
Mary is naturally feeling out of place and Dean's just dancing around that like it's a problem to be solved on its own...oh Dean.
Castiel reunites with Dean after Mary points a gun at the handsome angelic stranger in the bunker 😆
Dean's tender smile when Cas grabbed him🥺 the way Mary cocked her head when they hugged 🤣
Mary was down to hunt - interesting considering how hard she supposedly tried to avoid it. now the show insinuates she wasn't wholly retired????
Sam & Mary hug when he returns to the bunker - is this technically their first real hug????? the last time would've been when Sam was a literal baby 🥺
But after 3 episodes, Mary just bails? really? the showrunners are giving her the Cas treatment - where she appears every so often. Why is she back then if she's not gonna stay with her sons? they're literally all she had left in the world. everyone else she would've known is long gone. they could've just brought back John (which I now they do in season 14 for 1 episode) to get John's reaction on how his sons have changed since 2006 when he died. they could've discussed Adam - that would've been fun 🤣🤣🤣
if they're gonna keep Mary around, the one whose death started the Brothers on their journey, keep her around! have the boys & their mom struggle to reconnect, get to know one another - let Mary see her sons as they are for better or worse and let them talk about it! let them talk about her and John and their parents' marriage, the good the bad and the family of if all. let them talk out their issues or try to Even if they fail! just cuz they talk doesn't mean they're able to solve and heal their trauma in 1 sitting. that shit takes time. it could take months, years. wasted opportunity.
back to Mary hunting, back in 1980 she saved a boy who grew up to be a hunter on his own, living his best life, being more Dean than Dean Winchester 🤣 until he was killed by his fellow hunter friend by accident (wow).
how dare Asa's mom bitch at Mary for Asa's grown ass man decisions? Please. nobody put a gun to his head! he made his choice and kept at it.
Dean got snippy at his mom cuz she left his ass - Dean she's been dead for 30+ years. her resurrection was your wildest dream/hope, Amara knew that, that's why she brought her back and the 1st thing she do that you don't like and you bitch at her?! ask her to stay then! beg her to stay, say anything and everything you need to so she sticks around! tell her about your drinking, about bow you're almost 40 with no kids or a domestic partner! about how little you Sleep and all the things that haunt you! Give her a reason to be needed!
when Mary says I am your mother, but I am not just your mom - that's 💯 percent facts right there, sorry folks! people are more than just 1 thing, but on the other hand, your sons need you, Mary! ironically, if she remained at her sons side, she wouldn't have suffered the way she does later this season 🤕
it's sad how east the MoL got to her, wearing her down. she's haunted and fucked up from being dead so long. this is why dialogue is important! she seemed to be opening up to Castiel since hers an angel instead of her sons - so be it, talk to the angel man, bare your soul, anything other than making shady deals and getting into bed with those British motherfuckers (see what I did there 🤣😅)
Gavin (imma call him Crowley jr.) got iced, sucks for Crowley I guess. good for Gavin though, stepping up to do the right thing for his girl, bittersweet.
I love that Cas & Dean are in regular contact with each other! too bad we don't get more scenes of their conversations!!! cmon showrunners - don't fear the emotional man on man scenes between men who aren't family, embrace the potential gayness!!! explore it!!!!
Cas & Mandy the waitress - interesting - too bad he's only interested in Dean, at least not anymore - that may be April the reaper's fault!
"devastatingly handsome" - you not low Dean!!! this is how you choose to address your angel bestie?!?! okay 🤣
later after Cas narrowly avoids death (again, thanks Crowley!) the look of relief on Dean's face
and awwww Cas said I love you! to Dean's whole family, how romantic 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 you not low Castiel!!!!
sadly now Dean truly believes that Castiel only loves him as a friend. This is why you don't call Castiel your brother Dean 🤦♀️😅🤣
The Alpha vamp died - so much for next season. considering his supposed age and power, shouldn't be impossibly fast? and Ramiel. you're telling me that he struggled fighting a couple of normal people when he pwned Crowley so easily when Crowley himself is a centuries old demon, aka king of hell, after beating Castiel an ancient celestial being?!?!??! but the very mortal Winchesters took him down...yeah sure okay 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣
HOLD UP! HOLD THE PHONE! HOLD THE UNIVERSE, TIME AND SPACE, HOLD EVERYTHING!
Dean Winchester gave Castiel a mixtape
Dean GAVE CASTIEL A MIXTAPE!!!!
a mixtape? 😱😱😱 really?!?!?! that's one of THE romantic gestures to make in the 80s and 90s (before CDs came out) to declare your feelings for someone you wanted to be with, as more than a friend. that's not to say friends and family didn't but it was fairly recognized as a something to do for romance too! also it's a labor of love since you'd have to use the radio or get more cassettes to record & compile the music you wanted AND people like to record a personal message before the music starts in the tape they male. you can see it certain TV/movies like the Goldbergs as an example - Adam made such a thing for his school crush when he wanted to declare his feelings for her.
And it's not just that Dean made a mixtape for Cas - he specifically chose Led Zeppelin songs- the love language of his parents, the very union that led to Dean being born in the first place. And the little xx's - hmm wonder what those mean...
and we just gloss over that?!?!? the showrunners - y'all are NOT slick! ya can't stop the Destiel bandwagon cuz after all this times in the year of our Lord 2023 peeps keep shipping it precisely for moments like these.
while we're on 12x19 - when Cas FINALLY returns to the bunker, Dean gives him hell like only a bitchy girlfriend can while Sam was like OMG glad you're back but Dean was PISSED cuz how DARE Cas not just show up & return his phone calls (what about prayers? 👀) Dean kept saying "we" but let's be honest he's talking about himself - u not slick Dean. And this is AFTER Cas tried returning the mixtape cuz he feels he is no longer worthy of Dean's gift given how much he pissed Dean off 🥺
When Sam suggests siphoning out the grace from the nephilim due to be born Dean runs to his precious angel only to discover Cas is gone (again!) just as soon as he appeared.
The betrayal. the deceit, the DRAMA!!! Dean, you didn't put the Colt in the safe?! Rookie mistake, bro.
He kept talking about Castiels feathered ass but then didn't actually fight him, just slams him against the wall, standing very close & maintaining intense eye contact - classic Supernatural 😉 🤣 😀
I wonder what Kelly saw that makes her believe that her child is good because suicide isn't an easy choice but Kelly went through with her attempt out of fear of what her child was capable of given how many times everyone kept saying such things to her face. But it didn't matter cuz her child brought Kelly back from the dead anyway. That's terrifying TBH.
When Cas booked the brothers 🤣🤣🤣 did they really not see that coming? cmon Dean, he did that to Bobby when you first met.
***during Lucifer's mini arc this season I'm reminded of Misha's commentary on the acting advice he got from main devil actor Mark Pelligrino on portraying the infamous figure - he either wanted to kill/fuck the one he's talking to - it definitely seemed that way this season during Mark's scenes. ironic considering his previous work on Lost - anyone remember that show?
Thankfully the MoL are FINALLY dealt with after a rousing speech from Sam fucking Winchester who leads the charge to take those British tarts down, complete with exploding their makeshift headquarters! Dean meanwhile stayed behind to help his mom who's been completely brainwashed by the MoL - which is indicative of Dean's characters as a callback to season 1 - he just wanted his family together!
What Dean told his mom in her head is what he should've said from the very beginning- sure it would've hurt her feelings, possibly cause a mild heart attack but it needed to be said so Dean & Mary could heal as a family!
Thank God Ketch is as dead as the rest of the MoL he was such a creep!
Rowena got killed offscreen? Damn, that's cold. I know she's coming back though 😊
Kelly died 🥲
Crowley died - he was THAT determined to take the devil down. in the long run its not gonna work since Luci will be back eventually but there's something to be said about Crowley's arc considering this is the last we see of the cheeky little devil. I recall prior seasons where he seemed downtrodden in certain scenes, about the futility of his plays for power, his schemes going tits up often because of someone else. I think Mark Shepard said something about taking his character as far as he could or something like that.
Castiel died (again)
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
Mary disappeared into that AU with the devil and he is Piiiiiiiiiiiissssed 😱
Given what Kelly gave birth to, all those diapers Cas got were a waste of money...
season highlights
not many TBH I didn't like this season much cuz of the wasted potential with Mary and the brothers and the lack of Castiel. and Crowley for that matter. the season had a good start and it finished in a way that was interesting BUT
12x10 - Dean and Castiel fighting was HILARIOUS. They seriously should've gotten a spinoff even if they only ever remained as innocent platonic friends. it would've been so funny.
and awww...Dean is Castiel's human weaknesss - YEAH NO SHIT HONEY!!!!!
Dean is apparently a natural at riding - mechanical bulls included - did he ride it to completion??? lemme stop 🤣 I mean for the duration of the bull ride for however long - he never fell off? if so, kudos to him and his hips 🤣🤣
#supernatural#dean winchester#castiel#deancas#destiel#sam winchester#mary winchester#crowley#fergus macleod#kelly kline#the mixtape#supernatural season 12
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Ateez would you rather. NSFW Edition
Thanks to my girls @whatudowhennooneseesyou and @creativechaoticloner for tagging me in this.
If you want to know what MY personal dynamics and kinks are, keep reading.
Would you rather...
(Highlighted bold are what I would rather)
~Make out with Yeosang or dry hump Yunho?
Yunho....Sir....I can’t he’d be so hot getting into it too 🥵
~Give Mingi a lap dance or have Wooyoung do a sexy dance for you?
Woo is baby girl and any chance he gets to do a sexy dance he does it and puts his whole damn pussy into it, he’d give a show and a half.
~Tease San under the table at dinner or Jongho tease you under the table?
San trying to keep his cool while you tease him in public....he’ll struggle. Blushing and trying to talk normally all while giving you a warning side eye that’s not so shy and flustered and more like “You’ll regret toying with me when we get home.”
~Praise Hongjoong or receive body worship from Yunho?
I’m insecure about my body all the time so to have this soft giant worship it and praise me I’d simply melt and I know for a fact every word he says he’d mean and he’d be so sweet about it.
~Blindfold Mingi or be blindfolded by San?
Blindfold me PLEASE
~Choke Yeosang or be choked by Jongho?
I’d rather be the choked than the choker sooooo imma go for Jongho on this.
~Pull Hongjoong’s hair or Yunho pull your hair?
Now hear me out....He’s hitting it from behind, bundling up your hair in a makeshift ponytail and pulling it to the point he’s almost lifting your top half off the bed.....please....I’d sell a kidney for this.
~Tie up Wooyoung or Jongho tie you up?
I’m a sub 99% of the time and the 1% dom in me is for Wooyoung only, he’d look so cute all tied up and whiny begging to be touched, his wrists and ankles getting a little red and bruised from him trying to break free....hot af.
~Beg for Seonghwa or Mingi beg for you?
On my damn knees
~Ride Jongho’s thigh or sit on San’s face?
Self explanatory..we’ve all seen how he works his tongue 👀
~Dirty talk with Seonghwa or Mingi?
This one was tough but Mingi won purely from his voice, he simply has the voice for dirty talk.
~Spank Wooyoung or Hongjoong?
I will spank that man until he’s RAW especially if he’s been extra bratty.
~Get spanked by Jongho or Yunho?
It’ll hurt but I’m okay with that I just want his massive hand printed on me for DAYS.
~Deny San his orgasm or Seonghwa deny you yours?
I’ll take one for the team here I could never deny San.
~Have Yeosang as a master or Hongjoong as a pet?
I’m down BAD for Yeosang and if he wants to be my master SIR FEEL FREE.
~Touch yourself and make Yunho watch or Mingi touch himself and make you watch?
I’d love to see how long he’d be able to hold off for and his face is enough to reduce me to a puddle.
~Call Hongjoong ‘daddy’ or Seonghwa call you ‘mommy’?
I am NOT getting called Mommy....but if I was calling Seonghwa Mommy then it’s a different story.
~Receive aftercare from San or give aftercare to Wooyoung?
As much as I’d love to receive the aftercare I’d love to baby a cuddly fucked out Woo way more.
~Skype sex with Hongjoong or phone sex with Yeosang?
HIS VOICE....need I say more?
~One night stand with Mingi or friends with benefits with Wooyoung?
Wooyoung all day everyday, he wants me at 3am bitch I’m there at 2:50am I don’t care how many times a week he’s calling for a booty call I’m there.
~Studio sex with Hongjoong or practice room sex with Yunho?
I’m a slut for Yuyu okay.
~Receive nudes from Seonghwa or a sexy video from San?
If cyberpunk is anything to go off then I’ll be in for a treat. New live wallpaper maybe.
~Cowgirl position with Jongho or doggystyle position with Yeosang?
YEOSANG CAN HIT IT FROM THE BACK ANY DAY.
~Hot tub sex with Mingi or shower sex with Yunho?
Yuyu.....pin me to the wall.....please.
~Give oral to Yeosang or receive oral from San?
Once again....we know this man knows how to use his tongue.
~Seonghwa cum in your mouth or Wooyoung cum on your face?
Wooyoung can use me as his canvas in any way he wants.
~Jongho cum on your thighs or Hongjoong cum on your stomach?
Purely because I like my thighs WAY MORE than I like my stomach
~Car sex with San or sex under the stars with Yeosang?
Man would be so romantic about it, one minute it’s all sweet and cute then next I’m getting railed under the stars...what more could a girl ask for?
~Take Mingi’s virginity or Yunho take yours?
He’d be so gentle and would always put comfort first, he’d be the perfect person to have your first time with.
~Library sex with Wooyoung or movie theater handjob with Yeosang?
Both of us trying to keep quiet in a library? Probably not gonna happen but hey ho it’s Wooyoung, any time anywhere he can have me.
~Lazy morning sex with Yunho or late night sex with Jongho?
MORNING VOICE YUYU
~Wear a collar for Seonghwa or San wear a collar for you?
Now....I’d mostly want to wear the collar but after reading this I can’t get the image of pulling San by the loop on his collar out of my head.
~Rough sex with Hongjoong or romantic sex with Jongho?
Use me to take out your frustrations
~Receive anal from Seonghwa or give anal to Mingi?
Anal is a big no no for me so I’ll be happy to peg Mingi
~Suck on Yunho’s fingers or San suck on your fingers?
I’m weak for his hands
~Wall sex with Jongho or mirror sex with Wooyoung?
Wooyoung please, always, no matter what.
~Hongjoong finger you or give Yeosang a handjob?
I wanna see him get all flushed and sound so pretty just from me.
~Overstimulate Mingi or be overstimulated by Wooyoung?
As you’ve probably gathered I’m a whore for Wooyoung, he can do what he wants to me.
~Woosan threesome or Seongjoong threesome?
I’m happy with just Woo but if we gonna throw San in the mix too then yes please.
@hwalysm and @kpopcrossworlds I’d love to see your responses :D
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i just don’t get the shit i have the biggest heart and it’s always gettin walked on no matter how hard i try not for it to happen it does,i can’t even be happy for a while anymore i swear every other day it’s some shit i’m really starting to think my dreams are true i really do!! she says one thing and i see somethin else and it proves to me that my dreams are really true and that this point maybe i really do just need to let it that part of my life go yea we had some really good memories and i don’t wanna let her go cause i really do like her more then she knows and maybe that’s my fuckin problem i jst like her way too much if i really do feel like the feelins are mutual then why am i still there
just for once i wanna be happy with everything,be happy cause i’m in the best relationship be happy because after all this hurt i’m finally with someone who likes me for me and not using me for a good fuck..i’m so tired of crying everyday cause i’m hurting i wanna cry cause i’m happy,happy that i can finally go to bed and wake up with a smile on my face but instead i have everything runnin thru my mind i will never know what happiness feels like
all my “friends” have a girlfriend/boyfriend so it’s jst me everyday can’t go anywhere cause their too busy for me can’t talk to them cause their too busy for me can’t even really tell anyone how my day has went and how i’m feeling when i need people the most like right now i have no one i have so much stuff on my mind and i can’t tell anyone to that i trust and won’t judge me or go back and tell people so i’m on here where i know no one will see it and/judge me it’s sad that i gotta do it this way but it’s the only way it’s out of my mind
honestly i’m jst not happy anymore and still wanna know what is the purpose of me bein here im not happy, the ones i like don’t like me,can’t do anything i want,bills and bein broke is taken a toll on me,i try to make people happy but don’t get anything in return,i just really don’t get wats the purpose for me being here jst to live everyday heartbroken cause i’m already living dead so why be here i really wish i did succeed those 3 times i tried to kill myself and i been wantin to do it several times again just don’t want mama to find me right after i do it so i try to have her go out of town so i can do it to where i will be long gone when she does find my body i been feelin sad and depressed for yrs and the 1 person who i thought i could talk to(mama) told me to “stop thinking about it” i’m basically home alone everyday all day i wanna know how imma stop thinking abt it cause if i could i would i really do think it was that easy,i basically told my “best friend” that i wanted to kill myself (once again trying to talk to someone) and all she did was read my message like wow and that really showed i have no one but my damn self just really wish i didn’t feel like this but i been doin it for almost 11 yrs and the past 5 yrs really got bad..this yr i think i did the most crying i every did in the last 6 yrs..i really wish i could jst not have any feelins like they do me but im not made that way i go home everyday and cry(like right now) i shower and cry i lay in bed and cry i wake up and cry i sit outside for a bit and cry i sit in the car and cry i talk to the animals and wish i could be them and cry..people really think i got it easy cause i have no kids and i really don’t people just don’t understand i wish i had kids it would be me and my kids and i would be happy with that just let it be me and my kids and leave me alone!!!
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Now finally onto the one I actually never got to see before
Thoughts on book 3 🐙🐚
Oooooooo, so Jade's unique magic is making you tell the truth? Interesting...
My idiots....i love them but they're idiots...
Jack almost got a moral code too straight to be in this school
And now I'm homeless. You're welcome Grim
"You guys better not start renovating before I even lost the bet!" I say in an attempt to use reverse psychology. Maybe someone other than me will finally fix something in this house
What? (」ﾟﾛﾟ)｣ᴺᴼᴼᴼᴼᴼ~ I don't wanna room with LEONA. Ah. I wanna see Ruggie tho...
Jack: Im in bed by 10 — Jack is me.
wait what IM ACTUALLY ROOMING WITH LEONA!? no way. I don't wanna wait on him. Oh? Ruggies still sore from book 2?
*cleches fist* I'll do it for Ruggie. (I'll sleep with Leona for Ruggie-wait no.that sounds very wrong,.)
Ruggie: you're joining us for morning training. Me: I BEG of you not to make me do that. Trow me some morning chores! I'll do that!
Ruggie, dear, you're kinda grasping at straw if all you can say to diss the RSA kids is that their uniforms are white
These bitches really never watched a heist move. I, on the other hand, have read Six of Crows. Of COURSE i know day 1 is for gathering intel and scouting the place.
Ooooh so Floyd's unique magic is deflect spells...but he has to be "in the mood" for it to work. Interesting...
I did not see the solution to this coming even after mal-i mean- Hornton's hint and yeah i do feel a lil stupid about it
Baby jade and floyd and azul!!! (*’(OO)’*) imma go look at fanart
I wanna know what deal Leona made with Azul what he lost for it so badly
Dafuk- YOURE TELLING ME MICKEY IS BEYOND THAT MIRROR!?!??? THAT'S MORE TERRIFYING THAN ANYTHING ELSE I COULD'VE IMAGINED (has read scoob and shag)
Despite being absolute meanances to society, the octatrio are really a team, which is rare occurrence in this school, as crowley said and I am sure he'd a agree it's endearing. I guess Ruggie and Leona are kinda besties too... *sigh* why do we only ever employ teamwork when it's to do something bad?
For some reason I vividly remember that when Azul brought up that photo they cut to Jade being momentarily shocked and well, I'm no Jade expert, so i don't know if it was a "you're STILL hang up on that?" Or "you're actually asking them to do something illegal!?" Or if he was catching himself from laughing.
Jade: Those weren't dinosaurs. Those were sea dragon bones. Me: DRAGONS!? THEY HAVE DRAGONS HERE!?!? (This would be foreshadowing if i didn't already know Malleus is a dragon, but yeah, I think Dragons are the coolest because they can fly AND shot fire. Of course I do. I'm ace. Pagasus are the second coolest and Unicorns are lame cuz they can't even fly or anything it's just a horse with a horn. Anyways, I also really wanna see Mal's true form)
"Purview" is an actual word? Sounds like something a cat would say *looks at Grim*
So something's definitely weird with Scarabia but... Really, dude? Already? I barely had time to say "no one learned anything from this (again)"
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AGRHRHHAHAHAHA SUMIRE MY LOVE MY LIFE MY CUTIE PIE ARGHHHHHHHHHHHH
cw; charoc, deprezone mentioned every 2 minute bc im miserable and I cannot shut up im so sorry. Also sorry if I sound super OOC and goofy, im fucking high and hormones are acting up 🥹
Almost 2 months worth of waiting well deserved, I can feel my deprezon disappeared instantly (it does not) 😭😭😭😭🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶
Ok 1 cms finally got updated, only 2 more in line 🥲
Also since ion wanna make a seperate post and I don't think i will be finishing these anytime soon, heres my supposed to be LNY + Haitham bday + Valentine all in one celebration packet.
I promise I did try to get out of bed instead of wasting and rotting away, I really did, but idk what happened either. I blinked and spring break is coming to an end already ueueueuru 😭🙏 (please ignore the broken perspective I'm not satisfied with the composition so I changed some parts without fixing it properly so-)
Good news is, I made it out of the confinements of my room on Haitham bday (yay!!!) (i love you Z i appreciate so much 🥹)
But rlly tysm Z you will never know how much I appreciate you, you really made my day 🙏
This girlie is being made into a mochi/stuffed doll?? idk keychain thingy. Since the seller doesnt rlly do the accessories imma do it myself when the bbg arrives home
Also 20+ merchs that I brought in like one day 🥲
Aaaand the fic that was supposed to be uploaded either on Haitham bday or on Valentine Day, but never got finished. The plot, the flow & which (and what kind of) stuff is going to be in it is all decided; I also did a smol study as well as a deep dive into Alhaitham's character (which tbh made me question even more than when I first started 🥹 I do have a draft rambling about his character & my take on his charac here but idk if I should post it, I feel like I ramble too much its annoying). But idk.
Maybe it's the hormones and periri go bvrrom bvroom thats making me more vulnerable and insecure, but I keep going back to proofread them, then rewrite a few sentences there and fix some phrasing then. Yet I keep feeling unsatisfied with the result and keep going back to beta it, and before I knew time's up 🥲
Honestly?
I hate being the object of someone else's jealousy/insecurity. I absolutely hate it. Everytime I catch the real intentions and tone behind someone's saying (which are envious directed at me), I can feel myself loathing increases a little more. It doesn't just simply feel like they are jealous of me, it feels like they hate life for being unfair and ultimately hate me too.
I have always disliked that.
Yet I keep feeling inadequate with everyone's expectations and ended up feeling insecure about everything and everyone in the process 🥲. Everytime I look at someone celebrating Haitham's bday or Feb 14th with Haitham, I cant help but feel a pang of jealousy. Is my love enough? Am I enough for him? Is it acceptable for me to do it? Am I even enough at all? Stuff like that. Then I cant bear to look at my fic, my art, or anyone else's fanwork for that matter.
I dont know anymore. I feel like this silly little fictional crush is dumb 🥲 Maybe I should just abandon everything then disappear to somewhere else to choke on mud and die
(/j ik im not mentally stable rn so im refraining from doing anything artistic at all, bc i know for a fact my perfectionist will kicks in 🥹 then I'll hate myself even more for not producing something up to my standards.)
(Psst. Beside my death cannot be that unsightly no? I'm perfect in everyone's eyes, my death should be pretti and adorned with flowers & ton of enviable accomplishments too :D)
KK.
P/s KK here LOOK AT HER LIL AHOGEEE AHHHHHHHHHHHH FUCK DEPRESSION WHOS THAT MY OC IS SO CUTE 😭😭😭💖💖💖
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hello my little starshine
are you feeling better?
I'm not sure if you're at work already and when you'll see this, but please take a break if you need to
your health is more important!
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Dude today kinda suckeddd
Last night I just kept waking up on and off
My brain absolutely hated me today and refused to think any amount of stimulus was enough so my brain just couldn’t do anything cause idk the vibes were wrong??? Gosh it was just reallyyyy annoying
And in the last 30min before we closed like 15+ people all in their own lil groups of 1-3 just all came in at like the same time and they took foreverrrr to leaveee
And on my way home some stupid black car didn’t have their headlights on and was pulling into the street and almost hit me! I only avoided getting into an accident cause I barely saw it in my own headlights light and was able to move over in time. Luckily no one else was really near at the time so I could move over fast without hitting anyone
But gahh, yeah,,, for a day where I just already didn’t feel very good just kinda sucked,,, a lot.
When I got home literally just layer down on my bed and passed out. Just woke up and am gonna go to sleep again but just thought I’d reply first. Goshh I reallyyyyy hope I don’t wake up off and on again all night I just wanna sleep and I got another earlyish 8 hour shift tomorrow T^T
Gah sorry for ranting.
I hope you had an absolutely amazing day and took care of yourself!!
And I hope you have another amazing day today as well!!!
Have a good day!! Imma sleep
Sososososososo much lots of platonic love to you sweet tea!!!<33333333
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Unorganized thoughts?
1. Felt quite on top of things during work tonight to make up for being lazy all week. Either that or hormones. Blaming period XP
2. Doodled during work felt good, too. I doodled another (human) Dratica head that made me realize that I need to practice drawing heads again. Tried to remember my proportions on the next doodle. Almost elongated the face again 😅 Lastly, doodled from a nicely rendered face of Cloud. Got the head/face shapes right, but the eyes = yikes? Could've done better on the eyes, ngl.
3. Made me feel nostalgic about how I used to draw from pictures on my PSP so often X3 (I miss it)
4. Summers this decade have been quite eventful.
2020 = COVID-19 Pandemic
2021 = Chris' gaming lovestreams + the start of my KH journey XD
2022 = online drawing sessions + shiny watercolors
2023 = successful summer plans >X) (+ Gensin)
5. The Void... what was once a dark hole where lost words go. Now, don't need it anymore :)
6. Thinking about doing the ReCoded finale b4 the semester starts on Sept 6th or closer to the date 🤔 That way, I can get Peli done in time.
7. So glad I'm not going to the beach tomorrow. It's usually an uncomfortable time bcuz of the heat, mosquitos, feeling worse about my belly in a bathing suit, the sand 🙃, ofteb awful timing bcuz of period, socializing XP, + not fond of going in the water (hydrophobic maybe?).
8. If DaArk's human name were to be Derrick, what would Dratica's human name be? 🤔 One time in Acting for Animators, one classmate thought he'd look like a "Blake." Dumbfounded, + yet, it's been lingering in my head since.
9. I wanna add some chub to some OCs so I can feel better about my belly 😖
10. Elephant :P I wanna draw an elephant?
11. I'm honestly don't like my phone's camera for taking pics of my doodles. I feel like they come out blurry no matter how many times I try to focus. That's the main reason for the lack of uploading doodles on IG X( I'll figure this out eventually XP
12. I pretend to be a viewer reading this. I ask myself, "Is this interesting?" Sometimes. Like a pen that writes, but then skips or like a light bulb burning bright but dims, flickers, or glows again.
13. I'm feeling more conscious about the top of my back + the back of my neck. Conscious of how I recline, how I lay in bed (side sleeper, i am), slouching, + bending over to doodle (to the point my whole face is up close to the paper 🙂).
14. Ew. My mind's imagining how much heavy breathing I've done while I painted. *thinks back to the last one I made* 😐 Thank goodness I did not get covid! (Maybe I did but didn't know).
15. Quite the physical toll on me this year. From January to March, I went to the gym. But wasn't feeling it + would feel quite sickly (like sneezing, constant runny nose, + got stomach flu for the 1st time?). From late March to early June, sitting on my butt for 2 months straight, doing two two-minute animations for a semester. It was such a wise decision to leave my main day job bcuz that was a lot of work for those animations. Noticed gray hairs for my bday. (I'm a 29yo lady!) Got super lazy after the semester until late June. Went back to kickboxing. July was a better productive month. Currently, August, where my period's sucking up my energy. Nah, I'm just being lazy again?
It's 11:48 pm + I can feel myself drifting off to sleep. Imma end it here. If they're going to the beach + the weather is favorable, then I can go out to the backyard to do something.
Nite yall!
(OMG, I FOUND MY FAVORITE GIF AGAIN!)
(It's the "dreamplz" gif from DeviantArt)
(I used to end my posts w/ this gif all the time + I miss this so much 😭)
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almost 5am and decided to redo my manga shelves only to not finish one of them bc I haven't put it together yet oop
anyway imma talk about nothing for a spell
the idea I had yesterday that I was so/so about. the middle shelf kinda changed up a bit and that right shelf is being replaced so that's why it's not in the 2nd image
dont make fun of my handwriting or the fact that i read 1 type of manga i dont wanna hear it <3
and now it looks like this. I am getting more storage bins so I'll have a place to store the boxes. seeing them on the shelf made me realize that the item itself would look better... also the plushes! they're not staying. gudetama's staying but not their. as well as that 3rd shelf going on there. I have a plan to add more holes to I make this into a 4 shelf bookcase and I just kinda left it like that.
the rest of the books that supposed to on the right shelf is on my bed waiting for me to put the shelf together.
kinda wanna get this shelf space here done before pulling the trigger on the desk and another shelf (i know) that's supposed to go under the window behind me. there's also more boxes, dvds, vhses, more books, and cds I kinda have a plan more on that wall shelf also behind me. but imma worry about that later when I do get the desk + shelf. rn I wanna get an a2 frame that matches the middle shelf and more plastic bins bc I can't use my room...
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