i swear my whole life i have looked like this in my own head and to this day everytime i look in the mirror and don’t see That i have a split second of being very discomforted

"He knew those wild, black curls and the obsidian star on a velvet ribbon. What he didn't know and had never seen before was the face. It was a face of rage and fury, the face of a goddess of vengeance, destruction and death."

Yennefer of Vengerberg, in black and white

your skk is so real and true to me. like its Them

this is such a great thing to hear I'm ✨🥺✨

I like to think I can mostly keep them in a permanent "status: ????". is it romantic? is it platonic? could it be both at the same time? perhaps queerplatonic would be a better term? I don't know you're the reader you tell me. The important part is that they got each other's back and can be stupid together and perhaps get their dose of cuddling while they're at it because they need it. Whether they kiss or not is so secondary to me but I NEED them to yearn for each other's company in big and small ways both.

do you ship ravage and drift? you draw them a lot and they're always so touchy lol

nah. they're really touchy amicas, tho. probably because im always touchy with my friends and it just kinda rubs off on my art. ravage is my Me character so i do end up giving him traits i have. one of those is being touchy with people he cares about 🤷‍♂️. he's especially touchy with drift as when they were grouped together in the dead end (which is where they met in my brain), ravage spent a lot of hours curled up in drift's car alt with laserbeak and buzzsaw for shelter. that touchy aspect never really left their dynamic.

and besides,

drift/deadlock's candle has always been lit for someone else.

(plus an extra doodle of them)

SPOILERS MANGA CHAPTER 3: OCTAVINELLE

OMG THIS YUU IS SO SO CUTE!!!!!!

LOOK AT HIM/THEM. ADORABLE. I WANNA HUG HIM/THEM 💖💖💖

Edit: Apparently his name is Yuuta, 16 yo. Maybe his surname is Mito, from what I heard in Reddit. I also read there that his family owns a Chinese restaurant, until you have better sources or find where it says that yourselves don't take it as official.

and you— you were happy.

“Jiang Cheng cried soundlessly, but tears had already streaked across his face. To cry in such an unsightly way in front of others was almost impossible for him in the past.”

11.5 Happy Birthday Jiang Cheng! May you get surrounded by a small army of puppies 💜

Almost all of the "criticism" (i.e., hatred, bashing) thrown at Disney Princesses comes directly from a fundamental misunderstanding, misinterpretation and misreading of the core message of their stories and their respective characters and journeys.

signature skills

also for the third year in a row now my beautiful beloved wife has called me on this day to wish me happy thanksgiving, but she does it in her best tom wambsgans impression which is uhhhh spot on lol

ok this blog has fallen out of use bc (a) im not a student at the moment [i miss it :(] (b) i have plenty of other aesthetic blogs so im not rlly posting aesthetics here anymore (c) ive begun to like. hate. things that have an Aura Of Instagram around them (its the capitalism) but the needs to do shit and fall in love with life (not to mention the obsessions with stationery and beverages) have NOT gone away so we're getting a revamp. the new goals of athene-studies.tumblr.com are, in rough order of priority:

live a life where i feel like a real person and not just a depressed pleasure machine floating from moment to bittersweet moment (all the other points are really subsets of this one)

take advantage of the parts of life that arent quite in my "comfort zone"— while i am disabled and do need the rest, I'd really like to have a LITTLE less trouble not taking the path of least resistance! another part of this is becoming okay with being weird or going against the grain around people.

take care of myself (for instance, try to go to bed at a reasonable time)

find a place where i can help— work toward a job i like. participate in community, on smaller and larger scales. is it too late to meet my neighbors?

get shit done (always the real purpose of the blog. yknow ive been tentatively diagnosed with adhd and we tried like 5 different meda and none of them helped at all with my executive functioning? fucked up)

continue to learn without the pressure of school. im talking discrete study paths with goals (independent courses, languages, learning hobbies), small lessons (reading more. oh my god), AND just sort of ambiently learning from life around me

see the beauty in the world around me (not higher on the list bc... well, for one thing, im already good at that, baby! also my main blog is already basically a hopepunk blog. ...and i have a proper hopepunk blog thats fallen out of use. um)

i will attempt to do things like share lists of goals in these categories! for now, though, its bedtime, and im gonna try to take a walk. the whole "8 degrees fahrenheit" thing might cut that short though. also hey i never posted on here abt how i did an internship at nasa during school it was awesome :D

i finally got a money order for my new passport, scheduled my appointment for tomorrow, got my auto insurance printed, and set out vinegar and dish soap gnat traps to finally kill those thangs. literally so adultcore of me. everyone clap

is there a gif set somewhere of that scene in ocn's save me where sang-hwan and dong-chul lie on the ground after beating the shit out of each other and dong-chul says "dont come looking for me again." and when sang-hwan asks why he answers "it hurts to look at u" bc !!!! i have been thinking abt this since yesterday. objectively insane scene.

what if we used to be best friends but then i refused to testify on ur behalf in court bc my dad was up for re election as governor and asked me to stay out of this bc he didnt want to get involved in any scandals so u went to prison for a thing that wasnt ur fault and ur only living relative who gave a shit abt u, ur grandma, died alone and as a direct result of my actions while u were in prison and then when u got out i avoided u everywhere bc i was ashamed but then i tried to make amends after all even though u really werent in the mood for that bc u have no reason left to trust me after i abandoned u and fucked u over out of filial piety and then u said u dont wanna see me again bc it hurts to look at me but later we find out that u actually keep a polaroid of us w our friends in ur locker at work 😳 and we were both boys 😳

Back to work

i like keeping all my wips open because otherwise they go straight into "i forgor"-ville (population? everything im not currently staring at.)

my laptop fucking HATES it though. very unsupportive of you, bestie. wdym you can't handle the weight of 12 different overly ambitious projects at once?? massive you problem, you inanimate object.

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