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caspercryptid · 2 years

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Not specifically about the newest chapter but in general. Hammer to fall Jayce political radicalization king con

Did you just hit enter and experiance Instant Regret xD

Anyway whhhhhaaaaaaaaat. Nooooooooooo. Deeeeeefffinitely not. Who has a leftist agenda. Not me and @the-neon-pineapple , that's for sure. Not in our longfic HAMMER TO FALL with the leftist politics tag. (/s /lh)

Actually on a more serious note, I would like to talk about this. As I discuss in my meta-post about the Gioparafication of Jayce Talis, I think activist’s fatigue is a worthy reference point for his character. I don’t necessarily think he NEEDS to be radicalized. His perspective is coming from the right place. It’s just making the wrong decisions.

Alright, Discussion below the cut of chapters 1-9 of HAMMER TO FALL, through “The one with the body”, and the tws for those chapters apply. If you don’t remember which chapter i’m talking about.... it’s the one with the body. I signpost the transitions between chapters so I suppose you could check this out and stop where you last read up to? Idk why you would but if my meta is important to you, take a crack at it.

Warning my beloveds: Fucking Long. It’s all the screencaps.

Alright so. This? Is chapter 2.

Jayce Talis is effectively two people. There’s a kind of fucked up ingenuity to what Camille did to his head- If anyone doesn’t know what i’m talking about, here’s the relevant side story, though it’s referenced throughout in bits and pieces. We try to keep these things pretty quick so if you missed it: that’s fine! Jayce is repressing it. He’s Definitely Fine.

Anyway here is the binary: Jayce Talis gets to care about politics. Jayce Talis gets to build equipment to help better social conditions, gets to vote for leftist causes, gets to express his opinions on poverty and whatever else have you at home with Viktor (hell, if he didn’t, Viktor sure wouldn’t put up with him) Jayce Talis is aware of where the disability ramps are at the university so he can drop Viktor off there and that they’re stupidly far away from everything else, ADA requirements be damned. Jayce Talis talks about the news with Viktor.

Defender? Defender doesn’t. Defender’s purpose is to Catch Falling Buildings, Hit Things, and Do Rescues. Defender gets to be a hero. Defender does not. Get to have opinions about politics. He’s stupid, simple, and his purpose is to participate in the existing system while Jayce works behind the scenes to try to improve technology, to try to make better conditions possible.

Here’s chapter 5: the one with the dinner party

This is what defender is supposed to do- he is not supposed to be the one pushing social change, because that’s what Jayce Talis is for. Unlike Viktor, who gets to be himself as Herald, both of the parts of Jayce are so fragmented that neither of them are real. Here’s the binary between Defender’s exterior monologue and how Jayce actually feels.

Defender is all about avoiding Immediate Harm. His arrest record is terrible, because he is not actually all that interested in putting people in prison. He’s not interested in the fights. He’s interested in stopping the bleeding wound before he finds out what’s causing it. This is symptomatic of his canon approach to solving problems- he sees that there are problems! he has a very extreme desire to fix them! he grabs onto immediate solutions before he realizes that the problems are endemic. There is something in front of him- It’s a building about to fall, it’s civilians being threatened, it’s paper evidence of corruption, it’s people coming across a bridge to bomb the city.

You ever see those bits in cartoons where water starts leaking out a hole and someone just sticks their finger in it. And then there’s more holes. and they try to keep doing that.

Now that I have typed all this. Duct tape. The metaphor I am looking for is duct tape. You get me.

Anyway, the dinner party.

Jayce is very much AFFECTED by all of this. He cares very very deeply about these causes. He has just decided that the approach he is going to take is going to be to work to improve technology on one end and to try to reduce harm on the other. And as a superhero....

....yeah. His priority isn’t the fight, as much as he gets a rush out of fighting Herald.

And speaking of Herald!

Lets talk Chapter 6: The one with the water.

I think it’s an important touch point WHY Jayce is so attracted to his superhero nemesis. It’s because he admires Herald’s politics. He admires that Herald has the right ideas, even though he thinks that Herald is taking the wrong approach. Unlike Silco, Herald doesn’t create unnecessary collateral damage. Herald is a precision instrument. Jayce really likes the fact that Herald CARES about people, it’s the reason he spends so much time trying to talk to him instead of fighting him (which of course annoys Herald to no fucking end). To a certain degree, this speaks to a dissonance within Jayce himself. Jayce recognizes something in Herald. He wants Herald to understand because- well, have you ever talked to someone who has a really close political position to yours and they’re a sane rational person but you’re wildly divided on one particular point? doesn’t it compel you to try harder to convince them? you feel like you’re close, and Yet. And Yet.

And then, on Jayce’s usual politics, Chapter 7, the one with the filler episode.

Jayce is anti escalation every step of the way. He does not like politicians! he does not want the armor to get any worse. He knew hextech was going to get weaponized (figured that out around the same time Viktor Built A Death Ray, In Fact) with the dawning of this age of superheroes. This universe is different from the arcane canon in that people were swinging around power already. Heimerdinger, Vander, Silco, Camille- this is a very weaponized age. But here, Viktor and Jayce make the jump at about the same time. Viktor because he sees his science failing, and Jayce in part because he sees Cait going out to fight alone and doesn’t want to leave her. While Viktor falls out of hopelessness, Jayce rises out of a hope that he can help, to an unimaginable height of fame and celebrity: becoming a superhero was just about the only thing he Could do to promote himself higher. And virtually immediately he has nowhere to go but down.

The progression of understanding Jayce is complicated slightly by the chronology of HtF. A lot of the time, you’re looking backwards, and to a certain degree, up. Jayce has already begun this spiral by the time the last straw is placed on the camel’s back. So by the time he starts talking about how he feels, he’s been feeling that way a while.

Which brings us to chapter 8, the one with the battery.

Jayce is aware of his position: and because he’s aware of his position, and his privilege, he’s been very effectively silenced. By the time he started having doubts there was no reason for anyone to listen to him. The people who would were the ones who hated everything he represented too much to see the cracks in his armor, or too much for Jayce to admit what he’s doing in the first place. He is now very effectively trapped in an echo-chamber. The only thing to do is what he’s already doing, because he cannot do anything else. His politics are, by this point, inconsequential.

Defender is apolitical. He is a fire hose. Viktor does not, for a long while, realize this. And because of the inability to see the man behind the mask: jayce, HIS Jayce, he has no way of knowing that jayce ISN’T just leaving all the major issues by the wayside. Jayce is in fact within the system fighting for incremental change. He’s just not doing it very effectively, because his participation in the system is absolutely Wearing Him The Hell Down. His ability to think Big Picture is being destroyed by how absolutely fucking wrecked he’s getting. We should keep a concussion tally. Yikes. Anyway, this is all best summed up by....

Chapter 9: The one with the body.

Yeah, remember how earlier Jayce was so impressed because Herald doesn’t kill civilians?

Jayce does not consider Joyner a civilian. Despite his squeamishness, all Herald has to say is “Oh, Joyner knew a lot of people were suffering and dying and he was profiting off of it” and Jayce INSTANTLY doesn’t care one fucking bit about this dude. Not a One. He is Onboard. Would he have killed this dude himself? no. But.

There you go. Jayce is a vigilante, too. Jayce is BARELY acting within the confines of the law.

The only reason what Jayce is doing is legal is because he smiled his pretty perfect smile at enough people for things to get signed over as legal. He does not see himself as the law, is not acting within it, is not in favor of the state. He’s anti-villain, he fights because he wants to protect people, he’s a good man.

And of course, the system is going to eat him alive, because he is Still Doing The Wrong Thing.

Anyway, if you got this far, thanks for reading! Hope you like the fic, more to come!

#h&v au #H&v meta #I Am So Sorry This Was Fucking Ridiculous #i just think about jayce a lot

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duuhrayliegh · 3 years

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warnings: none? maybe a smidgen of language? fluffy bucky, bad description of dancing? idk, there really isn’t anything in this one to be warned about it just super wholesome

word count: 2437

a/n: okay so this came out longer than i meant it to, but i’m not mad at it. there’s mention of he/they pronouns and gender identity, if i didn’t do the subject justice please let me know. also tiktok mentions and all creators are tagged accordingly so please go appreciate their wonderfulness :)

p.s.: my requests and tag lists are open!!

if you want to know where these characters are coming from, check out the other parts! you don’t have to read them in any particular order!

ray’s m.list

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Being from the 1940’s, Bucky didn’t have much education in the world of smartphones and social media. When he came out of cryo in Wakanda, Shuri wasted no time showing him the ways of the iPhone. Honestly, he was stunned because there were so many things you could do with it. So much information was available at the touch of his fingers.

Shuri taught him the ins and outs of the phone. He had gotten pretty good at it, if he did say so himself. She had just begun to teach Bucky about social media when Steve pulled him back to the Big Apple. When he returned to New York, he was able to easily contact Steve, who was not as proficient as Bucky was. So when he met the fantastical group of four friends, they began to teach him. This was one of those things that they were incredibly excited to teach Bucky about.

“So you don’t have an account on anything?” Freddie held his hand out for Bucky’s phone.

“No, I have one on something. I think Instant Graham? My friend set it up for me, but she never taught me how to use it.” Freddie smiled and shook his head, dark curls bouncing back and forth.

“It’s Instagram, bubs and that’s a good jumping off point.” He opened the black iPhone and swiped through the pages on the homescreen. Coming across the sunset colored icon, he hovered his finger over it. The screen changed, opening to a white screen with the words, WELCOME to INSTAGRAM, whitewolf. Bucky smiled at the name displayed and Freddie scrunched his brows.

“What is a White Wolf?”

“I’m the White Wolf. It’s Wakandan. We can change it if we need to.” Freddie looked over at Bucky and saw the happiness on his face at the name.

“No, it’s good we can leave it.” He clicked on the profile button in the bottom right corner of the screen. “Okay, so this is your personal profile.” In the top left corner whitewolf was written with a little arrow next to it facing downward. Freddie opened the edit profile section.

“Do you have a favorite picture of yourself? You have to set a profile picture so people know that it’s you.” Bucky nodded in understanding, and then took his phone back to scroll through his pictures. He didn’t have many, just the ones that he took recently. There was hardly any of just him, but he eventually found one he deemed good enough.

“Alright, now what do you want to put in your bio?” Shrugging his shoulders, Bucky leaned back into Cassie’s plush couch.

“What does yours say?” Freddie pulled his own phone out of his pocket. The pale lilac color seemed to shine through the clear case that it wore. Opening his own Instagram, Freddie leaned the phone towards Bucky.

|| he/they || activist || va te faire voir ||

“What does ‘he slash they’ mean?”

“Oh, those are my pronouns.” Freddie received a head tilt from Bucky, so he decided to elaborate. “So, I identify as a non-binary who is comfortable with you using he/him pronouns or they/them pronouns. If you’re talking about me to someone else, you can say ‘he is at the store,’ or ‘they are at the store.’” Bucky nodded, still a bit confused on the subject.

“When do you use each one? Like is there a certain time that you say he and him and another time for they and them?” Bucky was trying to get some clarification on the topic.

“Not necessarily. Usually, when you’re first talking to someone, it’s common practice nowadays to use they/them pronouns so as to not misgender anyone. I know it probably sounds a bit excessive and a small bit over sensitive to you, but to a queer or non-binary person it makes a whole hell of a lot of difference when someone tries to be inclusive.”

“Okay, so like if I just meet someone on the street, I should use the they/them pronouns until told otherwise?”

“Yeah, absolutely. Do you want to include your pronouns in your bio?” Bucky smiled and nodded, happy with himself that he was able to understand that so well.

“So, what does it mean to be non-binary and still use the he/him pronouns? Don’t those two contradict each other?”

“Not really. Gender is a spectrum, as is sexuality, but for someone to identify as non-binary and use he/they pronouns, means that I feel that not everything about manhood accurately describes my truth. On that same hand, I still do identify as a male.”

“Right, right.” Throughout Freddie’s lesson about gender identity, he was able to finish Bucky’s profile and begin to follow the three girls. After clicking the blue follow button on all three of the girls profiles, the group chat between them started blowing up, that was a new phrase Bucky learned last week.

Evie: um, i just got the weirdest insta notif

Penny: me too???

Cassie: I did too.

Cassie: Wait, who is Bucky with right now?

Evie: DANG IT FREDERICK I WANTED TO HELP HIM SET IT UP

Bucky: My name isn’t Frederick, Evie

Incoming Call from Evie

“What do you want, spaz?” Freddie answered on speakerphone. An indignant scoff came from the other end.

“I thought we were all going to help him with that, Frederick.”

“Um, I don’t remember us talking about that.” He laughed as the door to Cassie’s apartment opened, allowing Penny to walk in and smile at the two men on the couch. “Also, when were we going to have time to do that with you being at school and all?”

“We were going to wait until the weekend!”

“Eves, you’ve been saying that for the past like three weeks.”

“Oh my gosh, fine.” Her end of the phone got real quiet, “I’ll be home in like ten minutes. I call dibs on helping him set up a TikTok.” Three beeps signalled to the room that Evie had hung up the phone. Bucky turned to Penny and began to ask about her day.

“Ya know, the usual. Rude customers, bratty co-workers, life’s a dream at the bank.” She slipped out of her nude heels and made her way to the sofa. “What have you boys been up to?”

“We have been setting Buck up with some social media and learning about gender identity and respecting pronouns.” Freddie said proudly as he handed Bucky his phone back.

“Sick! Which ones did you do?”

“All the classics, Instagram, Twitter and Facebook just for PR though because hardly anyone uses it anymore.”

“Right, and can’t do TikTok until Evie gets here. Um, did you set up a Spotify for him?” Bucky recognized the name and the memories of Shuri helping him floated in his head.

“Oh, I have one of those. That was actually the first thing that Shuri helped me set up whenever I got this thing.” He opened the app quickly to prove what he was saying. Penny smiled and gave a small thumbs up. “I do have one question.” The two of them gave Bucky their undivided attention. “What is a TikTok?”

“Right, so it’s just short videos. It’s really pretty cool and a really good way to waste time.” Freddie answered while pulling up his own page on the app.

“Yeah, and the thing that shows you videos is curated to your tastes because it’s based on your likes and people you follow.”

“I’m almost positive that Evie is going to teach you a dance and do a TikTok with you, if you agree to it.” Penny laughed at the thought of Bucky doing one of the dances that she saw on her For You page. The door to the apartment swung open a second time, revealing a winded Evie.

She dropped her school bag on the floor, hunching over while gripping the side of the granite countertop. Evie held a finger up and the group on the couch waited for her to speak.

“I ran--” deep inhale, “I ran from the subway.” Another deep breath as she lifted her upper half, stretching out her back with her hands on the back of her hips. “You haven’t done TikTok yet right?”

“No, your Highness, we haven’t done TikTok.” She smiled big and then plopped herself on Bucky’s left side. She thrust her hand toward him, wiggling her fingers. Bucky cautiously placed his phone in the center of her palm.

“This is going to be good. Okay so since your name on Instagram is whitewolf, we can’t use that for TikTok. It’s gotta be something snappy.”

“I don’t know, I think you can use the same one for both, Eve.” Penny remarked as Evie downloaded TikTok onto Bucky’s phone.

“Well, of course you can, but we’re not going to.” She giggled as the app opened. She looked over at Bucky with wrinkled brows. “Do you have any nicknames?”

“Um, Bucky is my nickname.” He said in a duh tone.

“Well, obviously, but do you have any other ones? Like, what do your friends call you?”

“Bucky or Buck, I don’t really have nicknames.” Evie groaned and threw her head back.

“Okay, well let’s think. You’re a Sergeant. Your real name is James Buchanan Barnes. Superhero name is Winter Soldier or White Wolf. You have a metal arm.”

“You’re literally just stating facts, Evie.” Freddie said from the other side of Bucky, who was nodding along in confirmation to Evie’s statements.

“I know! I’m processing. What about vibraniumjames?”

“That’s disgusting.” “Mm, yeah that’s a no from me.” Penny and Freddie talked at the same time.

“metallicsergeant? jamesbby? Any of those tickle our fancy?”

“The first one isn’t terrible, but it’s not great. Why don’t you just use whitewolf like his Instagram? Or you could do iambuckybarnes.”

“Yeah, I’m with Freddie. I like whitewolf or iambuckybarnes, it’s simple. And I am the White Wolf, so yeah.” Bucky said to a disgruntled Evie.

“Oh my gosh, fine. We can always change it later, but this is fine for now.” She set up his profile, making it match the other ones that Freddie had made. Once she was finished with her work, she turned to Bucky and smiled big again. “Now, I can teach you a dance and if you’re cool with it we can post it on your profile.” Bucky shook his head and pulled himself off of the comfy couch beneath him.

“If we’re going to do this, we need to do it right, so don’t hold back on me.” He smiled as Evie squealed in excitement.

“You know, my school friends were just dying to see the day that you got social media.” This statement confused Bucky.

“And why would that be?” Evie laughed as she scrolled through her TikTok feed, searching for the right dance to do with Bucky.

“Well, for one, they think you’re hot and they’re thirsty hoes.” She clicked on the original dance video, showing the screen to Bucky. “And, for two, they love you. Everyone does.” Bucky shook his head at that. He did too many bad things for everyone to love him.

“Hey, remember what we talked about?” Penny said from across the room. “We don’t downgrade our progress. Most of the general public is more forgiving than we give them credit for.” Bucky nodded then focused his attention on the video.

“This is Cardi B’s song Up. People on TikTok have made a challenge of doing this dance to the song. I think it originated with a girl named Mya Nicole. Anyway! We’re going to do this one, if you’re up for it.” Bucky looked at Evie with one brow quirked. There was so much shaking in this. Nonetheless, he shrugged his shoulders., it clearly was making Evie happy so he wasn’t going to take that away.

“Sickening! Okay, let’s start learning it.” It took a good hour and a half to help Bucky move his body in the way that the dance required. By the time they were ready to start filming the actual video, Cassie had walked in.

“What is happening here?” A large smile spread across her face as she watched Bucky and Evie practice one last time. A breathless Evie turned to Cassie.

“Bucky agreed to do the Cardi B Up dance with me.” She then turned to Bucky, “You ready to do this for real?” The tall man beside her shook his head while laughing.

“Yeah, let’s do it.” From the safety of the couch, Freddie, Penny and Cassie were watching the scene before them unfold. Both Bucky and Evie jumped into frame, with their legs spread wide. Throwing their fists in front of them and then behind their legs in time with the music. Bringing their hands above their head to clap and then jumping again, throwing just one hand up at a time.

Shifting to the side, the pair brought the leg closest to the camera up to their waist while hitting it back down with their fist. They both remained facing sideways as they shook the leg they just hit and ran their hands down their torso. The pair did another vertical jump, bringing their knees up to their fists. Once their feet hit the floor, they folded at the waist, slamming their palms flat on the ground.

Smiles were plastered on both their faces as they finished out the dance, knees bent, bouncing their legs back and forth while tossing their hands above their heads. Loud laughter rang out from the three friends in the living room as Bucky and Evie dropped to their butts. The video ended with Bucky and Evie yelling at the other three in the room.

“You’re definitely going to go viral with that one, Buck!”

“Like an infection?” He asked with wide eyes of concern, more peels of laughter rang out.

“No, like famous, lots of people are going to see it.” That relieved and scared Bucky at the same time. He wasn’t quite sure how he felt about it, but he knows that his friends wouldn’t steer him wrong.

“Now we can caption it something cute!” Evie breathed out as she leaned over the couch next to Cassie, who was now curled up beneath a fluffy white blanket.

“Don’t forget to tag the original creator, I hate it when people don’t do that.”

The video was posted with the caption,

iambuckybarnes: am i doing the tiktok right realpokemonevie? dance cr: theemyanicole

And it wasn’t long after posting that Bucky got a call from Steve that he needed to come into the tower.

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@mishaandthebrits

#twenty first century liabilities #bucky barnes x oc #bucky barnes fanfic #bucky barnes fanfiction #bucky fanfic #bucky fanfiction #bucky barnes #marvel imagines #marvel fanfiction #marvel fanfic #bucky barnes x reader #bucky barnes x y/n #bucky x reader #bucky x y/n

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italwayshadtobeyou · 2 years

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Hey y’all, I’m returning to Tumblr after a long time off, but completely new to Tumblr SPN fandom, and I’m looking for moots. Unfortunately, the current tagging cluster system is sabotaging my attempts to find people with similar preferences, so I’m hoping this will cross show up in some nice people’s search results if the tags fail me again. (Note: I follow from my main, @brunnismemorybank .) This account may contain NSFW text and canon-level suggestive/violent images. No DNI/DNF, but minors please don’t send DMs.

Things I like:

Dark canon-divergent AUs (Endverse, Boy King, actually-scary Deanmon, etc.) and case fic

Fic, edits, and meta for gencest, Wincest, Samruby, & Samwena

Some of the more nuanced depictions of John, Mary, & Bobby-- where they’re as screwed up as Sam and Dean, but they’re still trying to achieve something good

Sam Winchester. Sam Winchester possessed by Lucifer. Sam Winchester being a semi-accurate Biblical antichrist.. Sam Winchester mourning Jess. Sam Winchester in love with Dean. Sam Winchester needing comfort. Sam Winchester kicking ass. Just SAM WINCHESTER.

Continuity in canon. For me personally, continuity is like David’s harp... Ahhh.

Things I dislike:

Stupid retcons that assign Sam and John’s relationship to Dean, change the date at which they learned about certain monsters, or make hash of monsters’ and spirits’ established powers and weaknesses.

Stupid people who can’t tell the difference between AUs and headcanons

Misha & Cass. I try not to put too much wank on this blog, but I block Misha- & Cass-related tags, get salty about untagged content, and have no patience with minions trying to spread false rumors or organize boycotts. Same with Destiel and hellers.

RP. No shade if you like it-- I just get annoyed when it breaks up my own dash.

RPF. If there’s only an occasional post, I’ll just block your tag for it; however, like with RP, following an RPF-heavy account would waste my time.

Anti-shippers. I was raised by right-wing fundamentalists, & I’m not interested in exploring the mirror version of that experience.

Everything I know about the upcoming prequel, except for the fact that they somehow snagged the competent Robert Ulrich as their casting director.

Mpreg, A/B/O, watersports, scat, age regression, and all-human, role-reversal, or different-sex/gender AUs.

Personal info below the cut, for people who worry about weirdness cooties:

Floridian by way of Alabama, raised in the country but now in a city, white, bisexual, agnostic, female, classical liberal, pro-shipper, occasional activist for animal welfare & privacy, gender-critical feminist, homeschooled (K-12), BDS supporter, Millennial, autistic, spoonie, gardener of native plants, and... IDK what else... brunette? Public identification isn’t my strong suit. That said, I don’t consider fanblogging activism, and therefore I don’t really care which of these boxes you do or don’t tick, as long as you’re polite & don’t try to convert me.

I currently own the dreamsofghostsandstars.net website, which I plan to shutter at the end of the year. You can find my fanfiction at dreamsofghostsandstars on Ao3.

#spn #spn fandom #supernatural #supernatural fandom #samgirl #wincest #samruby #samwena #gencest #case fic #life on tumblr #i promise that i'm usually nicer than this #i just want the touchiest people to get offended and quit reading before they even get to the end #so that my tumblr experience can be less dramatic than it was last time

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crazy4myself · 3 years

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Tagged by: the one the only the beautiful @ditttiii

🖤Post your favorite and most recent photo of yourself!

Fav on the left most recent on the right. I’m back to being a brunette this is actually a cozy selfie I snagged today. And apprently rust is my color this season.

❤️Favorite personality trait of yours?

I’m very considerate of people around me or so I’m told. I’m a very empathetic person and I see that as strength not weakness.

🖤Favorite body part of yours!

This is hard... I really like my body but I think it’s just proportioned together well. Like I make it work. Okay I take it back I have pretty cute triceps I’m working on defining them more.

Oh! And I really like my eyes!

🧡Favorite aesthetic/style on yourself?

Hmm this is a hard one. Imma say I look very striking in the dark acedemia aesthetic. Mainly bc it doesn’t take complex hair or makeup just clothes. I’m not the best at using makeup creatively. I know to elevate my features one way and I stick to that.

🖤What are you most proud of?

I’m an environmental activist. And I feel I’ve done good work in that rehlm it consumes and overwhelms me a lot of days but I’m so proud of my work.

💛A trait people say they like about you?

My kindness, I’m also everyone’s personal hype man. Like if I’m close with you I’m here to remind you everyday that your feelings are valid, you deserve love, and your best is always enough. Unless you step out of line then I’m here to call you on your shit. So I guess people value my honesty as well.

🖤A personality/physical trait that you used to be ashamed of but now appreciate?

Thigh gaps used to be a thing! Idk if they are now but I used to be so small my legs only touched at my knees and balls of my ankles. When I got to college and gained some weight and muscle (bc I basically ate 6meals a day and walked 6miles a day) I lost it and was so embarrassed. Now I find my thighs very sexy.

💚Favorite color on you?

Neutrals and earth tones. But I also look shockingly good in electric/cobolt blue

🖤Favorite clothing on you?

JUMPSUITS, maxi/middie dresses with long boots underneath, oversized tees tucked into denim shorts I feel like a balloon it’s so fun, turtle necks, and I look damn good in business attire put me in slacks, blouse, and blazer and I’m runway ready.

💙An aesthetic you want to try but are too scared to?

Ugh I want to do boho, flowy clothing but I depend on a defined waistline to feel like a woman like my shirt is always tucked in,, even in athletic shorts and leggings 😅

🖤Thing you like getting compliments on the most?

My passion/drive. Second is my appearance. And tbh I’m so thankful my hard work overshadows the fact that I have a pretty face.

💜Lastly, do you love yourself?

Yes, I have bad days, but overall I’m really proud of who I am and I deserve the uptmost love and respect from myself.

Tagging: @bangtanloverboys @dawndrms @absoluteyoongit @breadoffoxy @hobiwonder @salade-tb @chelsea-chee @jtrbluv and anyone else who may want to do it. Obviously no pressure and you can skip the photo if you want!

#tag games #crazy4myfriends #crazy4myselfie #get to know me #kris10/10

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navyhyuck · 4 years

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tagged by: the lovely and talented @sunhyuck

what do you prefer to be called name wise?

vee or nisha!

when is your birthday?

aug 27th!

where do you live?

three things you are doing right now?

drinking coffee

stressing about ap bio lol

sitting at my dining table

four fandoms that have piqued your interest?

pretty recently became an atiny! but there’s still a long way to go from there haha, but also harry potter! hmm shadowhunters though i’ve sorta faded out, not quite and don’t judge me but the miraculous fandom!

how has the pandemic been treating you?

i thought it wasn’t that bad but i’ve been really stressed and i’m the kind of person to eat less (or skip eating) because of stress/anxiety so i’ve lost like 5 pounds since then (making me like 94 when i was barely 99 before). i’m trying to gain it back so my health doesn’t deteriorate any further but i’m not really underweight either?? not only that but a lot of family members have been lost during this time that took a toll on me especially, as well as the pressure of studying and academics.

a song you can’t stop listening to right now?

devilish - chase atlantic; truly a masterpiece that my head cannot get over

recommend a movie.

21 Bridges. it’s a movie that stars Chadwick Boseman and i watched it recently (like a few days ago). there’s some really, really good acting though it is rated R for a lot of violence (gore) and language.

how old are you?

i’m 16!

school, university, occupation, other?

high school junior :]

do you prefer heat or cold?

born in the summer but cold, plus, i prefer winter/cold weather fashion over summer fashion.

name one fact others may not know about you?

i’m too nice sometimes, meaning i’ll tolerate someone even past my toleration point because i don’t want to come off as rude. it’s an issue, i know.

are you shy?

yes, quite. i am also just naturally quiet.

do you have preferred pronouns?

she/her

biggest pet peeve?

i have many so beware, people who lie to me blatantly, people who are performative activists (lmao about this, there’s a girl at my school who had an article written about her for starting this ‘awareness club’ but she also has internalized transphobia/homophobia and never includes asians outside of east asians (she’s chinese herself, so you can kinda get where i’m going at) in her ‘asian inclusiveness club’), people who have racial preference when coming to anything (aka people saying things like ‘i don’t like asian guys bc...’ which is just racist, idk what to tell you), people who are colorist, and most especially out of all,, people who tell me how to live my life

what is your favorite “dere” type?

don’t really have one?

rate your life from 1-10, 1 being really crappy and 10 being the best it could ever be.

like a 4, i am not happy with life and i haven’t been since i stepped foot in high school.

what’s your main blog?

@teasysan

list your sideblogs and what they’re used for.

@navyhyuck is the only side blog i have rn, used for writing :)

is there anything you think people need to know about you before becoming friends?

i really suck at answering texts on time because i’m so busy, so if you do dm me, please don’t get discouraged if i don’t respond quickly since most of the time, i just haven’t seen it yet!

tagging: @peaches-writes @feel199x @jaemallow @sunwuism + anyone else who wants to do it (bc i suck at tagging rip)

#tag game #moots 🍉#vee things #q: learning quantum physics with jeno

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notebooks-and-laptops · 4 years

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I was tagged by the wonderful @le-chardonneret

do you make your bed?

I don’t really feel in the right head space if I don’t make my bed...but that doesn’t mean I always do! My mum always used to say that making the bed could make a room look 90% tidier though and that’s a rule I live my life by.

what’s your favourite number?

64 cos of the lil rhyme me and my friends came up with to remember 8 x 8 (also a big fan of 3 and 12 and 21 but idk why)

what’s your job?

I’m a university student (I study theology)! But my last ‘proper’ job was over the summer (we’re not allowed a job during term time at my uni cos it’s...a pretentious ass uni) was as a cleaner and I started work at 5AM. It was intense, but the views that early in the morning out near the harbour were really beautiful

If you could go back to school, would you?

Y e s - I guess uni technically counts as school but like, God I just love learning

can you parallel park?

i’m gay and cannot drive

a job you had that surprised people?

people were surprised I could get up at 5AM for my cleaning job haha - but hmm, a lot of people find it really interesting that I worked as a volunteer for Whitby Abbey altho I’m not sure if they find it surprising considering how much I love theology and history

what’s your guilty pleasure?

oh definitely watching greys anatomy. it is trash and I love it.

tattoos?

Not yet but I hope to get some! I want a biblical quote, all of the major world religious symbols done small and in black in a line, and the ‘I don’t want comfort, I want God, I want poetry, I want real danger, I want freedom, I want goodness, I want sin’ line from Brave New World

favourite colour?

blue like the sea or like anything in pastel

favourite type of music?

s h o w t u n e s b a b y

things that people do that drive you crazy?

when bones click (I know people can’t help it but please I don’t want to be reminded of the skeleton that's inside us all - even my own!)

do you like doing puzzles?

I was a professor Layton kid so yep - ‘a gentleman never leaves a puzzle unsolved’

any phobias?

hmmm I don’t think so? Other than like...spiders, but that’s pretty normal.

favourite childhood sport?

mountain biking!

do you talk to yourself?

all the time

what movie do you adore?

ooooh there are a few? A toss up between Ferris Bullers Day Off, Stardust and The Best Exotic Marigold Hotel

coffee or tea?

hot chocolate why is this never an option on these?

first thing you wanted to be when you grew up?

a mermaid. In fact, one time I laid on the floor of my school playground and told them I was drying up because I didn’t have water and I was a mermaid and I needed to go to the local pool so I didn’t die (I was...a strange kid sometimes)

Okay! I tag @thegirlinthetardisat221b, @toss-a-coin-to-your-bard, @bards-rights-activist, @meliteles-tits, @jaskierlute and honestly just anyone else who wants to (yes that means YOU)

#asks #personal

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thestuckylibrary · 5 years

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Anon 1 said:

Hi! I already had searched into the resources of the library and AO3, with multiple combination of tags, and I couldn't find this fic. Modern!Steve was a sex worker that worked from his apartment and most of the fic is them in apartment, i think they text as well, towards the middle/ ending of the story bucky(winter soldier/veteran) asked steve out, and asked help from steve's friends(maybe sam) to make the date more special. i think he ended up buying himself new clothes, and flowers for steve.

Anon 2 said:

hi I'm looking for a misplaced fic about bucky relearning about sex. I remember him doing research and sending porn videos to pepper and then steve says they have to wait 3 months before they have sex. Would love it if anyone can help out!

Anon 3 said:

(i tried sending this earlier but it glitched so i’ll try again) i’m tryna find a stucky fic (obvi) where the avengers catch bucky and have him locked in tony’s vacation house. they call steve to come calm bucky down because buck won’t let bruce check his bullet wound. (steve has been going through real bad mental stuff.) the only orher part i remember is that bucky cuts out a tracker in his rib because he doesn’t want anyone to touch him, and he also sews it up by himself. it’s a cute fic, help

orchidsrule sent in There's Nothing to Save* by camwolfe (complete | 22,169 | M) *graphic violence, drug and alcohol abuse

Anon 4 said:

I was wondering if you guys knew the endgame Stucky fix it fic where Steve decided to stay behind but realizes that he’s in love with Bucky while he’s with Peggy and watches as Bucky falls in love with someone else (who dies later on) and regrets not being with him. Thank you!

Anon 5 said:

Hi! I am desperate to find a fic I originally found here and lost. I remember 2 scenes but can’t remember anything from the description. It was post TWS. Sam and Steve trying to find Bucky. At one point they caught up to him and they were surrounded by people trying to get Buck and he asked Steve to shoot him if they grabbed him and at a later scene Bucky pointed a gun at Sam so they wouldn’t take him to a hospital then turned it on himself to make Steve comply. Does that sound familiar at all?

Anon 6 said:

Hi! It’s like 2am and I’ve read this fuc twice before so I know it’s exists. It’s super short and it’s Nat’s perspective and her wanting to throw a Christmas party so they do and there’s minimal Stucky and Clintasha and they mention Thor being Santa Claus. I’ve been looking everywhere but I don’t know why I can’t find it. Thank you so much in advance.

Anon 7 said: (minor character death)

There's this story I've been looking for when Bucky was in a band with Nat, Nat's husband/boyfriend(?), and Clint. And Bucky lost his arm after dropping a speaker or something when Nat's husband has a heart attack or something and dies? I know it's a very vague description, sorry

Anon 8 said:

Hi~ I've tried all the ways I can think of to look for this fic.. As far as I remember, Steve is an omega and Bucky is an alpha (but he can't remember it bc he's brainwashed) Steve suspects someone has been rummaging on his apartment bc of misplaced papers until one day he sees Bucky in his window. Steve's like.. How are you alive are you ok?? But when he makes sudden movements he leaves. They are like that until Bucky is sitting on his couch and then his heat hits. Thank you so much beforehand

Anon 9 said:

Hello! Please help me find the fic where Steve wakes up one day looking for Bucky (Established Relationship) and all the other Avengers cant remember Bucky at all and its because someone who was wronged by the Winter Solider went back in time and killed him before Steve found him in the 21st century. Thanks so much for all you do!

therandomravenclw and amethystkrystal sent in A Memory Like a Haunting by cobaltmoony, DarkCaustic (complete | 28,698 | M)

lindsey-of-north said:

I've been looking for a shrunkyclunks fic but can't seem to find it anywhere. Buckyhas some kind of respitory issue from his military days and works restoring books and things. Antiques? Steve is Captain America, and they meet during/soon after the events of the first Avengers movie. Bucky has to wear a special mask to filter dust, and Stark eventually makes him new ones that do the same thing, but better. Any help would be appreciated!

Anon sent in Patriotic Nitwits, Devious Carnies, and Other Complications of a New York Life by Pohadka (complete | 25,452 | T)

Anon 10 said:

Hi, I'm looking for this one fic that I read a long time ago, it's one where the avengers think Steve is being abused by Bucky and start acting strange around them, but Steve and Bucky think they found out their kinks or something like that. The main thing I remember from it is that there was no actual abuse in the fic, just misunderstandings

Anon sent in Just Let Us Kink In Peace by AliceAce14 (oneshot | 24,167 | E)

Anon 11 said:

Hello! I need help finding a fic that had Activist!Steve Rogers and I swear it mentions something called The Little Blue Book, which were small books on various topics published Haldeman-Julius Publishing Company until 1978. Thank you for any assistance you may offer!

princessniitza sent in All The Angels and The Saints by Speranza (complete | 48,740 | E)

Anon 12 said:

Maybe you guys could help me-- I remember a fic where Bucky was a siren and Steve was a human (later he shows up as a mermaid with no memory of Bucky) and he told Bucky that he shouldn't be ashamed of himself because "Mother Nature cares about him enough to give him the tools he needs to survive" or something like that. Thanks in advance for the help! I appreciate all the things your team does for the fandom! :)

Anon 13 said:

This is really vague but it's literally all I can remember, so if you can't find it it's totally fine. All that I can remember is that for some reason Bucky had to leave at Steve's house, (maybe he worked there? Idk) who is like super rich? Maybe he does something illegal? And like at the beginning Steve is kind of detached and cold towards Bucky so it takes a while for them to start a relationship. Natasha is there? This is the most vague shit ever, I'm sorry, but I can't get it out of my head

stevebuckythyla sent in Another Last Chance by eadunne2 (complete | 53,378 | E)

Anon 14 said:

hi! i remember reading a stucky fic (and i can’t really remember the premise, sorry :/ ) where i think bucky was like coming back to the tower? i’m pretty sure that HYDRA or some bad guys attacked and bucky wanted to protect Pepper (who still has her extremis powers) and i know he rips someone’s head off and everyone thinks it’s with the metal arm but he did it with the flesh one

rwedoneyet and whyaretheycalledpancakes sent in On My Radar* by sprinkle_of_cinnamon (oneshot | 19,564 | M) *graphic violence

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hey friend, kinda not on fandom topic but do y'all know/recommend specific black activist social media to follow? (i ask bc your banner + your posts are very informative) i feel like news of the BLM movement is kinda dying down but idk where to keep up (besides scrolling through tumblr but i think i need to expand my news intake)

hi!!! i can’t recommend much because i’m more active on here than anywhere else, but i have heard a lot good things about unicorn riot: {yt} {website}

the news is sadly dying down but what i can recommend is following more people who regularly post about the BLM movement: {x} {x} {x} {x} and following the tag #blacklivesmatter on here and on the news app. i’d try be careful to fact check somethings though, here’s a link on the hoaxes that have been spreading {X}

i hope i helped somewhat bb, take care 💖 (if anyone has anymore recommendations please feel free to add on)

#BLM #blacklivesmatter #unicorn riot

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lettuce-seize-the-day · 4 years

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as my platform here is pretty miniscule i kinda just wanted to like....say some stuff. it could possibly be offensive, in which case pls tell me so i understand and do better but there's just....something bothering me

so like this is a time when we need to be vocally anti racist. but when, and how, do we draw the line between being vocally anti-racist and being like, performative activist? like, we need to be speaking up but not speaking over black voices. we need to not be self-congratulatory, but also willing to stand behind what we say. am i a fake activist bc i didn't respond to the "don't break the chain" insta story i was tagged in?

idk I just, I'm getting the vibe that a lot of ppl (white ppl) are just shouting into this echo chamber social media, like it's enough to say "black lives matter" on ur Instagram with 200 followers and maybe sign a petition or two.

but am I exempt?? bc I am also just posting lots on my story and sharing resources and signing any petitions I can and streaming the BLM videos. but is it enough?? it doesn't feel like enough. am i sharing information or am i putting things on my story so i don't get canceled and I can be considered a good ally? my white friends who haven't said anything at all on any social media but are active on it, are they ignoring the problem or are they being activists in other ways? what else can we do right now if not share info? are we bad if we aren't sharing info?

how can i, as a non european but light skinned person, point out racism? how can i make it clear that im still learning but im doing all i can, and I don't need to be congratulated or get a pat on the back or a gold star because im truly just doing the bare minimum. am i doing the right things? i can't ask my black friends bc they have much MUCH better things to worry abt. my white friends either don't have the answers or they don't think abt it as much as i am rn.

and im reading over this and noticing how much I'm saying "I, me, my" but it's in the context of understanding I am one small part of this whole thing and I want to be doing my part. how do we do all we can, and not be a performative ally? where is that distinction??

#shut up hanna #does any of this.... make sense??#if this is insensitive or doesnt make sense pls tell me so i can do better #i think I'm struggling bc within my circle im comparatively more in tune with this stuff #so i get looked to a lot which is scary bc im !! not black!!!#but if ppl are looking to me i wanna say the right things #idk

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diningpageantry · 5 years

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tag game(s)

anï (i’m too exhausted to do three separate posts but i was tagged in three tag games over the past few days and i’d forgotten to do the last few games i was tagged in and i feel super guilty so here they are in one go)

i don’t know who to tag to do these rn because my brain is dead i am emotionally exhausted and i’m writing a fic that’s about halfway done so i’m gonna say tag anyone who wants to be tagged for any of these. i’m so sorry that i’m dead, i will be back alive again after may 10th, which is my AP exam day

six questions challenge

tagged by @simon--speaks

rules: answer the questions, then tag 9 people you want to get to know better!

Q1: Relationship status?

single bby

Q2: Favorite color?

maroon !

Q3: Top 3 ships?

snowbaz (wow) and uh. wow. idk who else. i wanna say my own ocs matchstick and summer (is that allowed? i’m making it allowed)

Q4: Lipstick or chapstick?

whenever i get to this question in any ask i freeze up because i use a tinted chapstick so i don’t look dead but like. it can also be seen as a lipstick because it has pigment. but. chapstick.

Q5: Last song I listened to?

Run by Hozier

Q6: Last movie I watched?

uhhh i watched like. 5 minutes of the emperor’s new groove a few days ago, and watched a documentary about obscure houses like 10 minutes before that. so. i’m gonna say the house documentary.

21 questions

i was tagged by @simon--speaks, @angelsfalling16, @wo2ash, @alixanderthequeer, @sharkmartini and @bazypitchandsimonsnow

rules: answer 21 questions then tag 21 people

nickname: anï, munchkin, menina, and my hebrew name is elisheva

height: the doctor says i’m 5′3.5″, but they can’t put fractions on IDs so according to the state i’m 5′4″ and i cling to that

last movie i saw: see above (so like. funky houses)

last thing i googled: (next town over) movie tavern. i’m not saying where it is exactly bc hah i don’t wanna be stalked but. i was looking at movie times because they have $5 movies every tuesday

favorite musician: frank iero. love that funky rat man and his funky music too (i’m gonna see him for the second time next month because i made the executive adult decision to say fuck it to my seizures and go see him anyway)

song stuck in my head: i don’t have one rn but usually it’s a song by the killers (when you were young is a usual one)

other blogs: none, actually! i didn’t delete my old tumblr purely bc i’m a nostalgic dumbass, but it’s a completely different login and it’s inactive so i don’t count it.

followers: 1,666 (originally i wasn’t gonna share the number but it hit this last night and i was like heh. nice)

following: 231

amount of sleep: 8ish hours! (spring break bby)

lucky numbers: 7, multiples of 3 (only in cases of knocking), and multiples of 2 (only in cases like volume)

dream job: writing and illustrating books! i have a variety of dream jobs within art, and even within the subcategory of books, but my top dream job is creating inclusive/diverse children’s books that represent a variety different ethnicities/races, religions, abilities, and identities so that children can see themselves represented in media

what i’m wearing: a black turtleneck, a bra, and marvel boxers. that’s it.

favorite food: soup in general. i make a kick ass matzo ball soup

language: english, conversational portuguese, i know a small small bit of japanese (i should know more given i was raised being taught it but i always struggled with it), and i know some spanish. i also plan on teaching myself ASL.

can i play an instrument: yes! i’ve been playing violin since i was 2. i wanna play guitar and i know some chords but i have small hands so it’s hard to find one that’s the right size that isn’t a shitty children’s guitar, and i sing! i’m an alto

favorite song: hnnghg please don’t make me pick................ i’d have to say choke on one another by death spells

random fact: so like. if you didn’t know already, i’m an LGBTQ+ youth activist on a national scale. i disappear on occasion because i’m doing something or another, and sometimes i post about it on my blog (speaking of i have exciting news that i heard, but at the same time, i’m pretty much booked every weekend from middle of next month until middle of july), but........ i hate networking. i loathe it. if i never had to network again, i’d be thrilled. networking is my absolute least favorite thing because i struggle at everyday conversation, much less networking with people at least 10-20 years my senior. sure it’s usually free publicity and i get great connections, but god. at what cost? and like.... it’s always after a really emotionally taxing event, so i’m already drained and then wow here’s a room full of adults who want my 18 year old input. please. just let me steal a cupcake then leave.

describe yourself in aesthetic things: dye stained fingernails and necks. cranked open windows during a spring shower. dried tears and breaking laughs. coffee stains and milky tea splashes. trembling fingers, writing instead of speaking because you’re too afraid, and finally breaking free--running through the rain. scabbing blood, fresh piercings. knowing you’re loved and not saying it because it doesn’t need to be spoken. the smell of a new canvas, paint splattered jeans, and art school sweaters. black skirts with docs, then fairy lights and soft blankets hidden behind sharp profanities and harsh disgust. the unexpected. the unknown. the ever-changing, unstoppable force of the shifting tides.

carry on questions

tagged by @goodbyedandelion, @isthisisagoodkiss @wo2ash,

1- favorite type of scone?

cranberry orange! one of the farms a county over has a market and they sell them there and they’re to die for (altho, i found a sour cherry scone recipe that i’ve perfected and my family loves them so they’re a close second now)

2- london or la?

i’ve never been to london, but i’m gonna have to go with london. i went to la last october to present in an awards show for my organization and i lowkey was underwhelmed. i’m very much a gloom and rain kinda person, and it was too dry and sunny there. although, i did think the huge succulents were sick as fuck. but yeah definitely london. i’m planning to spend a semester abroad there in a few years for an illustration program

3- kissing in a forest or holding hands under the stars?

i’m afraid of forests because we have a lot of wildlife and i don’t want to get mauled by a bear don’t mind me holding hands under the stars :)

4- jeans or suit?

suit suit suIT SUIT suit. i love wearing suits. my chest doesn’t cooperate and my hips always hate them but god i do love suits.

5- loose hair or pulled back hair?

mine looks better loose, and my sides/back are shaved but the top reaches my ears, so it gets annoying sometimes and i pull it up to keep it out of my face

6- vampires or dragons?

i wanna say both. i used to say “yknow a dragon but in human form would be hot” then i got called dragon fucker for like two years so out of pure spite i’m going with vampires.

7- what saying do you wish could be a spell?

(this one’s a very specific reference so hear me out) “i’ve got to go pee on her” used to disorient and confuse the speech of the person casted upon. it’s one of my favorite quotes from scott pilgrim vs. the world (my favorite movie ngl) when scott’s brain can’t figure out two different sentences and he just says that. it’s so good and just fuckin weird that i love it.

8- which carry on character would you go on a coffee date with if you could?

depends tbh! if we’re talking date date, then penny because i would wife penny in 0.5 seconds, but if we’re talking friends getting coffee then 10000000% baz because i’d talk activism and identities with him

9- favorite carry on quote?

“he told me we would be stars” (i don’t have my book on me so i could be getting the line wrong), but it hit so hard for me. like it’s clear how davy manipulated lucy so much that she fell into it and couldn’t crawl out. it’s such a powerful message of control from those who are charismatic enough to hold it, and how sometimes we aren’t weak enough to let go.

10- how excited are you for wayward son?

lemme paint this picture: i started hyperventilating in the hallway when i found out, and then cried an hour or two later when my friend texted me that he preordered me a signed copy. like. i’ve been pre-planning how to get home from college to come and pick it up (okok the 24th is also my dad’s birthday so i’m. um. “coming home to visit him”, of course) because i’m just SO EXCITED to read them again in a canon way :’)

#anï rambles #tag game

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scarsonthecuffsofyourjeans · 5 years

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I was tagged by @meangirlsx!! Thank you soo much. Love you

Nicknames/Petnames: Some of my friends call me Daughter/Child. Another calls me Pet which I’m a little uncomfortable with. Oh and The Gay One

Zodiac Sign: Capricorn

Height: 5’1??

Last movie I watched: Oklahoma (idk if that counts since it’s a musical, but I saw it on BroadwayHD)

Last thing I googled: “AP Art History content area 6” bc I’m a nerd and have a test tomorrow

Favorite Musicians: um I almost exclusively listen to musicals, but my favorite shows are..The Prom, Be More Chill, Waitress, N2N, etc

Song Stuck in my head: that one from waitress where that goes “I will never ever..if I’m gone I’m probably at the car”

Other blogs: I just started a writeblr @lexa-writes and I might start a studyblr

Do I get asks: Not many,, I would love to get more whether it be requests or just talking about your lives

Following: mainly musical theatre blogs

Dream Trip: probably somewhere in Europe since I’ve never been. Honestly there are so many places I want to see..

Amount of Sleep: I have a really weird sleep schedule. I can both sleep in really late and not sleep at all. But either way I’m always tired

What I’m wearing: just a flannel and ripped jeans

Dream Job: best case scenario a YA writer, activist, and a doctor working on HIV/AIDS research

Instruments: none really, I used to kinda play piano, not much of anything else tho

Languages: English is my native language. According to the Duolingo bird I should be learning Spanish

Favorite song rn: Unruly Heart from the prom

Tags: @whoseblogsthis @011inashinytardis @cleverbroadwayurl @finnofamerica @deakyfreakydeaky

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master-mercury · 5 years

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15 questions 15 mutuals

I was tagged by the lovely @imlosingmyshit thanks for tagging me bae 💓💛💓

Are you named after someone?

Yes !! My mum’s friend !

When was the last time you cried?

Today haha when I met my new baby cousin (and over revision but we’re not gonna talk about that ;)

Do you have kids?

Nope ! Maybe one day but idk

Do you use sarcasm a lot?

Not very much

What’s the first thing you notice about people?

Other than what they look like probs their attitude and behaviour

What’s your eye colour?

Like a hazely green

Scary movie of happy ending?

Deffo happy ending because I’m a big sap :))

Any special talents?

Not really ? I have a good memory ?

Where were you born?

The U.K. :)

What are your hobbies?

Shopping, watching films, reading, dancing and singing (terribly), partying, going out, listening to music idk if they count haha

Do you have any pets?

Yes !! I have two little doggies who I love with all my heart :))❤️

What sport do you/have you played?

Netball and hockey

How tall are you?

5’4

Favourite subject in school?

History

Dream job?

I honestly have no idea ! Maybe a barrister or human rights activist ?

I don’t have 15 mutuals lol soo I’m gonna tag @myfairyqueenmercury @meddrowse @thekookies @genethequeen @innueendo and anyone else who wants to join !! :)

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lovegvvd · 5 years

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❝ She always had that about her, that look of otherness, of eyes that see things much too far, and of thoughts that wander off the edge of the world. ❞ SARAH PAULSON? No, that’s actually LUNA LOVEGOOD-SCAMANDER. Only FORTY-TWO years old, this RAVENCLAW alumni works as a MAGIZOOLOGIST and is sided with THE ORDER OF THE PHOENIX. SHE/THEY identifies as AGENDER and is a HALFBLOOD who is known to be ECCENTRIC, BLUNT, and UNSELF-CRITICAL but also NONCONFORMING, INNOVATIVE, and PERCEPTIVE.

LINKS: stats, pinboard, character tag. CHARACTER PARALLELS: orla mccool (derry girls), misty day (ahs), dale cooper (twin peaks), phoebe buffay (friends) HELLO once again a note from me mar, that a lot of this is open to discussion and alteration as i’m going off the little canon that i have and because luna is a character with a few already existing ties. so yep! this is all up for discussion! yeet! also i apologise for the length of the history section akdfhsdkjf. also i always forget that luna is married to rolf so pls remind me x

history

luna’s parents were traveling when they became pregnant with her and decided that they would settle in whatever place their child would come to earth --- a game of chance, perhaps, but one of fate, too, they thought. they’d always been dreamers, romanticists, adventurers, and why not let their child decided where they’d end up, even before her birth? and so they settled near a small town in south west england, where luna was born under a full moon and thus named luna. for the moon, that had followed her traveling parents everywhere they went, for the moon, the only thing that would be able to match their child’s powerful and mysterious spirit, for the moon, which she was born under.

the house they lived in was built by her parents, and luna loved it. the house twisted and curled and offered plenty of room for her imagination, from day one. life growing up was complete, was free, it was close to perfect ---- and yet, somehow, it shattered.

[ parental death, trauma tw ] at nine years old, luna watched her mother day. it was supposed to be a day of excitement --- every time her brilliant mother invented a new charm, they would have an extravagant dinner and celebrate until way too late and laugh widely and loudly. nothing like that happened. luna watched her mother die in stead and hammered on her chest to try and get her heart to start beating again but nothing, nothing, nothing worked. the world was a mystery and death was, too, but still one thing was clear: her mother was gone, in one way or another.

luna struggled to accept this truth, as she often did with truths. her father grew fragile and obsessive and she grew nervous and quiet and good at being on her own. she started painting and tried to combat flashbacks to that day during the day, only to have nightmares at night. having a wide imagination was a gift, most of the time, but with this, it was a curse.

luna was traumatised. simple as that. her father wasn’t the best support system, but he was there in a way. the roles of father-daughter shifted, slightly, as luna took care of him, too, but he was still there. and so the last two years before hogwarts were hard. terribly, horribly hard. it was trying to learn how to live in a house where something so vital was missing. it was tryign to understand what death was, which is something that simply refuses to be understood. it was fucking hard. period. (not that luna admits that to herself, even now.) [ end of tws ]

luna arrived at hogwarts and was sorted into ravenclaw very quickly and easily. she noticed that she was odd --- or, actually, other people noticed that she was and told it to her, and she shrugged her shoulders and kept moving on. luna had grown reclusive after the death of her mother, and didn’t mind not fitting in. it was lonely, sure, but she didnt see a reason to befriend people who looked down on her beliefs. she didn’t mind being called loony, but when her belongings started to disappear, she grew angry, deep down. she let most comments and acts of cruelty slide off her back, but when a bad word was muttered about her father ( who she already worried so so much about ), she was prone to explosion.

but she was lonely, and then she was not. the details are fuzzy, but at one point she found friends at hogwarts! finally! she did it! luna learned to come out of her shell, learned how to handle compassion ( though clumsily and in her own way, of course ) and the wonderous world of having friends. she painted them on her ceiling and loved and laughed and ---- things were good. she loved. she laughed. she wasn’t alone, and while she had never considered herself alone or lonely, it wasnt until she gained friends that she realised that she had been awfully alone.

upon graduation, luna took to the world. she traveled far and wide and learned from amazing, genius people across the world. she studied magizoology and wrote her first essay on a newly discovered species a year into her travels. she returned home often enough, of course, to see how her father was doing, to see her friends. friendship had once been a scary and new thing to luna, but as she grew older, it became natural and easy and something she couldnt do without.

at some point, she and fellow magizoologist rolf scamander got it going. they married, had a pair twins and a new chapter of luna’s life opened up. once again, the complete details about her and rolf meeting are fuzzy, but i imagine it was LIT. i do think she settled more, then, especially when the twins were born. luna hadn’t really had rooted herself down after graduation ( the cottage she owned in the hills of england was a home she barely called a home, as she wasn’t there much ), but that did change.

luna is still the person she was before, she’s just more. she’s more grounded, but not any less in love with keeping her eyes wide open and her head in the skies. she’s a parent. she’s married. she’s got a successful career and a group of people surrounding her that she loves. she has grown up, but she hasn’t compromised. she’s learned how to use perspective and how to be more subtle, without shedding eccentricity or open mindedness.

the quibbler, by the way, still exists and has grown into even more of an underground, activistic magazine. luna writes for it every month.

[ grief, death tw ] so things were going well, and then everything changed. grief came into her life again. harry is dead – harry, one of her first friends, harry, who named his daughter after her, harry, who she loved. friendship is something incredibly important to luna — she painted the faces of her first ones on her bedroom wall, once — and when he died, she got scared by how grief took a hold of her. the first time she lost someone that significant to her, she was much younger, you see, and dealing with shock & trauma as well. this time, she was an adult, settled and grown up. she is more aware of her grief, and that is TERRIFYING.

she’s also less passive in her mourning. before, she was a kid. family friends visited and her father was on her side. now, she’s a parent, a friend; she visits the kids of friends in stead and sticks on ginny’s and everyone else’s side, in stead. luna might come across unfazed or disconnected from her pain, as she talks about it like she is, but she is not: she has her own way of mourning (as everyone does) and she can say some really Truthful and Raw shit at times.

she misses him so much. that’s what it boils down to. she misses him so fucking much. [ end of tws ]

of course she helps reinstate the order. there’s no question about it. luna doesn’t feel like a revolutionist or a soldier, but she does know how to fight, and she does know what is right. she’s good at strategy and defense, mostly, and at keeping spirits high and offering new perspectives.

so here we have luna: a parent, a fighter on the frontlines, a friend. she’s determined. she’s horribly saddened. she’s still herself, despite everything.

personality & tidbits

i think i already touched on this but i think it never hurts to repeat yourself so --- luna is a more grounded individual, at this point. she still has her head in the clouds, but her feet are standing solidly on the ground. she’s a dreamer, yes, but more of a realist, too. ( nothing like one of your best friends dying to make you realise how shit the world is, after all. ) luna isn’t very different from the luna we know in canon, but she’s matured. she’s more. she’s gone through a lot of positive development.

luna is constantly and always in awe of the friends and family she has, especially because she was so lonely for the biggest chunk of her youth. she’s extremely loyal and defensive of them.

luna is agender and has been aware of this for ... most of her life, really? she thinks gender is a big old construct and one she doesn’t want to apply to herself. if others do, she of course doesn’t mind or judge --- she’s veyr openminded when it comes to gender and sexuality. she prefers both she/her and they/them pronouns --- sometimes she doesn’t mind which one people use, and sometimes she will prefer one over the other.

is good at trying to keep up morale without it being an escapist ... kind of situation? offers fresh perspectives a lot, likes being a positive force and yes, sometimes it is easier to focus on the positive, and she will, then.

she really loves the stars and moon and astronomy and astrology!!! wow!!!!!!!

wears iconic outfits and we ALL know it

idk what more to write ive already written so MUCH

possible plots

first of all? i would love someone who can be kind of a mentee? because fuck yeah? i love that? any other magizoologists in this building that need some mentoring? hit me up!!!!

same goes for the quibbler, if your character somehow writes for the quibbler, hmu? i think xeno is still the editor but lbr the man is OLD

fellow trio era characters should hit me up so we can talk about the good old school days and CRIE

order members that are ?????????????????? at luna, that are a bit skeptical, etc etc?

fellow art buds

death eaters that want 2 eliminate her ig lets angst this up

idk luna is fairly easy to plot with so just hmu and we can figure something out!!!!

#iidyintro #another repost from Maaaaaaar

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don’t reblog this maybe but this intracommunity aro/aspec discourse has really highlighted how my experiences with being aroace differ from the majority of the aroace community and it makes me. uncomfy.

(I was gonna do the following section in the tags but it got too long so. enjoy the rambly post I guess.)

It’s so weird too??? In almost all ways, I’m the most stereotypical aroace to have ever aroaced; I’m sex- and romance repulsed, I do not want either sexual or romantic relationships, I want a qpr (I realize that wanting a qpr is not the norm outside of aro communities, but this assumption does kind of tend to exist within aro communities, although from what I’ve seen that has certainly died down), I found out I was ace in my late teens and figured out I was aro a year or two after that, I do not nor have I ever experienced any type of romantic or sexual attraction (aka I’m not gray-ace or gray-aro), I’m not an oriented aroace, etc.

Unlike with my trans/nb identity I tend to actually relate to the wider aroace community; it’s by far the easiest queer identity I have because I generally fall within the parameters of what’s ‘expected’ of an aroace 99% of the time. There’s really only two major exceptions:

I do not find it difficult to distinguish between my aromanticism and my asexuality. They are not the same for me. I see my asexuality and aromanticism as two separate identities that just so happen to coincide.

I consider my aromanticism to be a LOT more important than my asexuality. Really I’m more aro(ace) than aroace if you get what I mean.

And BOY are those differences highlighted by the recent discourse.

Like, I know that to aroaces who already feel alienated by the aroace community this must seem eye-roll-worthy, and I acknowledge how lucky I am that I (mostly) managed to feel safe and comfortable in the aroace community (albeit it more on the aro side of things than on the ace side), but like??? I’m really unused to feeling so alienated from the aroace community and it’s uhhhh unfun.

But honestly in this discourse? I just cannot at all relate to or get behind the aroace community’s approach to it. I don’t feel threatened by the idea that we might have a complete separation from the ace community. As a matter of fact, that’s what I want. If it were up to me and I didn’t have to take the feelings of anyone else into account, I’d want a complete separation between the ace and aro communities. I’d want to maintain strong ties between the communities, obviously, but I’m so fucking tired of being grouped together with the ace community. I want the aro community to be able to stand on its own as the ace community’s equal, not their younger sibling who still needs guidance. I want us to be our own thing without relying on the ace community at all. I want a complete separation of asexuality and aromanticism.

I acknowledge, however, that this is likely not practical. There are too many aroaces tying us together, and we share too much history. It would be unfair to aroaces who cannot separate their aromanticism and asexuality and/or just don’t want to choose like that to just implement a complete schism without regard for consequences. I acknowledge that. I still want it.

It’s not that I hate the ace community. I really don’t. I honestly don’t feel as bitter towards it as a lot of the aro community seems to. I really think that the ace community is one of the most welcoming communities I’ve ever been in; they helped me understand my asexuality in a way that lifted me up and made me secure in it, and I’m really thankful to them for helping me through that vulnerable time. I think that it’s amazing what the ace community has managed to achieve in such little time; barely a decade ago, we were nothing, and now, we are steadily on our way to becoming a widely recognized sexuality, with well-organized groups and clear objectives. It’s seriously impressive.

At the same time, however, they royally screwed up my aro education, to the point where even though I was very, VERY clearly aromantic I was extremely hesitant to adopt the label, and it wasn’t until I actually managed to get involved in the aro community via a mutual that I actually started embracing it; in fact, before I talked to that mutual, I was really only peripherally aware of the existence of an aro community. I did not understand what a qpr was. I did not understand how the aromanticism was a spectrum, or know any aro identities outside of aro, gray-aro, and demiro (it was thanks to another mutual that I got off my initial high horse about greyro identities and actually started researching them with an open mind, by the way. I’m still definitely not perfect and consider them to be my largest blind spot in the aro community, but at least I’m trying to learn). I was not aware of any aspects of aro culture, or at least they didn’t register (white ring, arrows, etc. etc). And those were really just minor things.

The big kicker for me is that, honestly, my experience with the way the ace community treated aromanticism was. kinda different from what most aros seem to have experienced. Maybe it’s the people I interacted with, the blogs I followed, idk, but whatever it is, I got the impression that my aromantic traits were part of my asexuality. I never really felt like the ace community was pushing the ‘aces can love!’ message too hard; instead, I got the opposite. I got posts joking about how aces don’t get crushes. About how aces are annoyed with romantic subplots. I got essays written where the author stated that they don’t feel romantic attraction because they are asexual. I got posts about how characters who said “I don’t understand/want romance” are ace. I got ace activists who talked about being aroace without ever mentioning the ‘aro’ part, or who mentioned it in passing at best, and who often still positioned themselves as authorities on aromanticism despite that. All the time that I’ve spent in the ace community, and I consistently saw asexuality conflated with aromanticism. I still see it every time I go into the ace community. It’s why I’m not active in it anymore.

As a result, I did not understand the impact that my aromanticism had my life, or even that I was aromantic at all; I got the impression that all my aro traits could be ascribed to my asexuality. As a result, I spent a long time identifying as a non-SAM-using ace, then as an aroace who strongly favored their asexuality, and then an aroace who didn’t think their aromanticism could be separated from their asexuality. But, as I have stated earlier in this essay, I can separate them. Very easily, even. I just didn’t have the proper tools yet to identify my aromanticism. This was also the reason why I thought my asexuality was more important; I didn’t have the proper tools to recognize my aromanticism, and with that, the effect it had on my daily life.

(Disclaimer: I’m obviously not saying that all aroaces who consider their aromanticism to be part of their asexuality, or who can’t distinguish between them, or who favor their asexuality are going to have the same experience that I did. Plenty of aroaces won’t. I’m just talking about a personal experience.)

The ace community screwed up my aro education by failing to recognize that aromanticism is not a facet of asexuality. While the ace community loves to remind everyone that aces can still feel romantic attraction, they are blindsided to the fact that aros can still feel sexual attraction. That aromanticism is not inherently tied to asexuality, and that the experiences of aroaces who cannot seperate their aromanticism and their asexuality aren’t universal in the aro community by any means.

I can forgive the ace community for not educating me on things coined by or primarily used by aros, such as qpr’s, aro culture elements, and greyro identities. They are not required to keep up with every step that our community takes. I cannot forgive them for failing to provide me with basic information on aromanticism other than the acknowledgement that it existed, for consistently conflating aromanticism and asexuality, for failing to give me the proper resources to figure out my aro identity, when we are supposed to be ‘connected’ communities.

TL;DR: my aro education got severely fucked up by the assumption that all aros are asexual, and if it hadn’t been for a complete fluke of striking up a conversation with someone who happened to be involved in the aro community, I might have never been able to properly appreciate or recognize my aromanticism.

You can see how these experiences kind of overlap with those of allo aros. Obviously, they’re not the same, like at all, but the fact of the matter is that I can relate to the bitterness that allo aros feel towards the ace community. Often a lot more than I can relate to aroaces’ feelings towards the ace community, be they negative or positive.

And because of those experiences, you can see why I’m distrustful of letting the ace community stay intrinsically connected to the aro community. They are larger, and therefore have a louder voice and more reach; if we, as aros, don’t grow on our own, outside of the ace community’s shadow, I’m genuinely unsure of whether we’ll ever be able to reach our full potential. Because as it stands, the majority of aros will need to go through the ace community first, and I think they’ve sufficiently proven to be wholly inadequate in providing aros resources to figure out their aromanticism. And frankly? I don’t want the ace community to be the primary educators on aromanticism. That’s a recipe for disaster no matter what. I want the aro community to be the go-to place for information on aromanticism, and that can only happen if we are as loud, as big as the ace community.

I don’t relate to a lot of aroaces’ torn feelings between the ace community and the aro community, because in my case, that choice was made a long time ago: it’s the aro community. It will always be the aro community. While I’m thankful towards the ace community for sheltering me when I was vulnerable, and while I will always stand with them if they need to fight against assholes or need to spread awareness, and while I’ll probably never really drop the ace label and will occasionally participate in ace-centric discussions, they are not my priority, because I was never theirs. There is no love lost between me and the ace community. My aromanticism is the part of me that is most prominent in day-to-day life, and it’s what I consider to be the most important because of that; the aro community is tiny still, struggling to gain recognition and find a direction, and it needs my support more than the ace community ever did.

Furthermore, in this discussion, I strongly believe that the aro community needs to prioritize the feelings of allo aros, and other non-asexual aros and aros who do not feel comfortable in the ace community for other reasons. While we aroaces are definitely important and should obviously have a say in the way the community is heading (I mean. Duh. We’re aro), I’m uncomfortable with aroaces taking charge of community conversations because I feel like that’s just a repeat of what’s been happening in the wider aspec community for a long, long time: ace people taking charge, leaving less-recognized aros in the dust. Obviously, a large part of that is due to my own personal experiences with aces talking over aros for the majority of my aro education, and I’m (perhaps irrationally) scared that the same thing is going to happen here. But a large part of it is also due to the fact that, as is, aroaces are the largest voice in the aro community; this is an undeniable fact. It would be easy, way too easy, for us to unknowingly drown out the voices of allo aros, when we should be amplifying them and giving them a place of honor. The ace community’s problems with aromanticism affect non-asexual aros the most and in unique ways, and I feel like they should be leading the discussion surrounding it no matter what, really.

But I feel kind of like a traitor to aroace people because of this. My needs for the aro community obviously don’t align with that of other aroaces; I’d be willing to let relationships with the ace community burn entirely if it meant securing a spot for the aro community, which would obviously fuck over aroaces who DO need the ace community and want to participate in it, and aroaces who just simply aren’t capable of separating their aromanticism from their asexuality. I just fundamentally cannot relate to those needs and the feelings that come along with it. I just can’t.

As a result, aside from reblogging some posts, I’ve been mostly quiet about my personal opinions on the topic. I do not feel like I’m the right person to be involved in this discourse; as an aroace, I have too much emotional baggage surrounding the ace community to advocate for their needs and I have been absent from the ace community for too long to have a good grasp on it anyway; and as an aromantic plain and simple, I do not feel like I should be leading this charge anyway because of my asexuality. While I find it bad to split the aro community in terms like that (I don’t believe that this discourse is a simple matter of aroaces vs. allo aros; it’s much more complicated than that, and I’ve seen aroaces and allo aros supporting each other, and of course there’s also non-SAM-aros and greyros/grayaces to consider in this discourse, which I haven’t really seen come up yet aside from a handful of posts), it really does often feel like this is the split around which the discourse is centered. And it sucks to not easily be able to identify with either ‘side’, and to lose the security I thought I had in the (aro-leaning side of the) aroace community.

This is probably the last I’m going to say on this intracommunity issue on my own; I’ll be reblogging posts and watching it go down, but I don’t feel like I’m in any way equipped to really have meaningful say in this discourse. I might change my mind later on, but as of now, this is where I stand: confused, mainly.

#my posts #personal #aro stuff #ace stuff

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